Regrets by Geralda Maureen Rahadiani

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1st edition july 2019 RM 20


Written by Maureen Photograph by Maureen Curated by Maureen Created by Maureen Invented by Maureen

1st Edition July 2019 Subang Jaya, Malaysia


Every copy completed with 1 (one) mistaken soap



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Make Mistakes No Regrets Life is a loop of trial and error. Sometimes we try but we still can’t escape the loop. “There will be no happiness if we never know pain”, they said. Here is a series of regrets

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1. Pour 35 ml lye to the 150 ml bowl of water 2. Stir until the mixture become much cooler 3. While waiting, Pour 150 ml olive oil to 75 ml coconut oil. Stir until they blend 4. After the lye mix become cooler, gently put the oil mix inside. 5. Stir until the texture is thick and with yellowish colour 6. Put the mixture into the soap mold 7. Put the customized soap topping 8. Wait for 1-2 days for the soap to be harden.

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Back when I was in high school, I was mostly occupied with academics. As I was science majored, there were never ending homeworks on math, physics, chemistry, and others. My everday routine was going to school, do homework, and that’s all. I didn’t really try to find what are my interests and learning on other stuff besides school subjects.

Ingredients - Rubber Dust -Formula papers

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Hence, when it was time to go to college, i was confused to choose a major. And it made me chose something that was not a part of my interest. So, I spend 2 years studying that course. Even though I may not like the course, but the college life was a memorable experience. Because I have met great people and do things I never did before.

Creating a mistake is like studying. You need a pencil to write, but you will need an eraser to remove some mistakes


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Ingredients: -Redberries (Strawberries and Raspberries) Redberries do not fit in warm places, but people will like them anyway

My greatest regret in life is accepting being treated like trash, because it has impacted my life, especially in school, in a negative way. Growing up, I was naive and had little confidence which caused me to think it was okay if others belittle me just because I thought I wasn't deserving of respect. However now that I've learnt many things in life, I realized that those who treat me that way aren't worth my time and I began to respect myself more by choosing who should be kept close to me wisely. Hmm well I didn't really fit in cuz I wasn't physically and mentally mature like my classmates so some of them took advantage of that. That’s because I grew up getting scolded by people so I thought it was normal for others to do treat me like that.

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I regret attached people too much bcs i once got attached to someone, I started to expect more from them. But sometimes expectations don’t go the way we think. and I feel like needing them in my daily lifes although I can do it by my own, and when they left it’s so disappointing.

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Ingredients: -Tape -Paper clip Tape and paper clip may stick firmly, but sometimes they get tired too


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I rarely shower, So I jockingly told everyone I was in a program called “Save Water for Africa� as the alibi. And I regret it.

Ingredients: -Soap powder -Shampoo -Liquid detergent

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My biggest regret is losing my virginity. Yaa... I regret it because I’ve always been telling myself that I wanna have my first time, with someone who I trully love. but then I got carried away that time and ended up doing it with someone I barely know. so yeah I really regret it. The first time is supposed to be meaningful right? And it wasn’t meaningful at all.

Plastic bag or Shopping bag have the same usage. But different value. Ingredients: - Pink Plastic Bag -Green Plastic Bag

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The next day was a Sunday, but none of my family couldn’t be there in the hospital with my popo. And I wasn’t there as well. I was at home because I couldn’t go by my own because my parents didn’t go to the hospital. Afterwards, I got a news that my popo has passed away. I didn’t cry at the funeral, but the guilty feelings crept onto me because I wasn’t there for my popo on her last breath.

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The story is actually about me and my popo. My popo was doing church service. Out of sudden, she fainted. And the next thing I knew she was admitted to the hospital and lost her conscious which made me really sad. The atmosphere was really tensed because I was her favorite granddaughter. Then, my family asked me to say my last words to my popo, I whispered to her “Popo, just go..” to make my popo not holding on her pain too long. She was unconscious and I saw her was already using the equipment to keep her here. My uncle told me several times not to cry, But I couldn’t hold my tears so I cried outside her room.

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Ingredients: -Soy Sauce -Chilly flakes My popo was a very good cook. I miss her cooking so much.


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In a time of autumn, things were tense as the deadline is nearing. Preparations were made from a night of the final. Everyone felt exhausted yet remain pleasant as if everyone enjoying the activities. With preparations completed, ceremony and exhibition began. It was a feeling of mixed emotion where proud and joy dominates and ended with farewell as university students despite contacts remain. The next day was a duty and late-night hangout with groups of high school friends. It was a pleasant chat as we talked about our past, present, future, mocking and teasing each other for fun. Those with no girlfriends or had failed proposals were mocked and teased sarcastically. I was one of them, and hopefully for a second chance. That minute, they eventually asked me about my second crush. My phone was dead, so I used my friend’s instead. Home at last. Felt exhausted and sleepy, yet unable to go to bed. The phone was immediately plugged for charging. With the power back on, social media was

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opened, and the latest posts were updated. The same thing I did was to check some of my friend’s latest status, but I realised something’s missing. I wanted to check my crush’s status but denied. The more I dig, the more I realised I was blocked for no specific reason. My heart started to beat faster, and parts of the bones felt like it freezes. No words were able to describe, as I laid in the bed with my heart crying and unable to sleep properly. It’s a calm morning, but the pain remains. I eventually shared this to a friend, which is a close friend of my crush. She had slight surprised reaction based on her text message. She told me to remain calm as she will help with the issue. Once she met near being close to her at that time, as we were just a friend. But one incident change everything, where I helped her when she needed help. The moment that incident passed away, my mind started to paused and blank. Unable to focus to certain stuffs and began to think again and again whether I should make such decision. The more I thought about it, the more I discovered my type of girl. Feeling towards her began to surf. The more I saw her, the shyer and quieter I was. We eventually talked when we meet in the campus.


As of now, she partially cut off some contacts which hampering me to explain the misunderstanding of such incident. At the same time, I moved on again, doing my best to contact her very rarely and hoping for a better and learnt the lesson.

Ingredients: -rope Rope can be tied and can be cut

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After graduating from high school, i had no idea what course should i choose. First thing in my mind was art /design course, however i didn’t dare to choose as i worry about my future, why? Because people around me keep saying art /design student will be hard to find a job after graduate. I graduated from high school on around October, 2015, however i start my degree life on September 2016, is quite a long time that I keep doing nothing at home. I take business management course at HELP University, During my study in that major, I felt hesitancy because I had chosen something that i don’t really like it. I start to think about changing course from semester 2, I keep thinking about it without telling it to my parent, because I have no guts to tell as this is something that I chose to study, that’s why I have no reason to regret on what I had decided.

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On semester 3, I couldn’t continue to study this course anymore! Because business course really boring, every assignment just writing or calculation. One day, I told my mother that I planning to change course, and then she asked me why? I couldn’t even look at her and answer, because I felt bad that i wasted one year and money. And then she helped me to pass the message to my father. Before that, i have done some research to the design school, I came to inti for counseling on the design course without informing my parents. Then finally my father agree that I can change the course, the time when I was filling in the registration form, my father ask me again : ”Have you thought properly? is it something that you really want to study?” As he worried I would regret again.


And yes, finally I’m here! I’m so happy that what I’m doing now is something that I really like, eventhough it’s tiring!

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You could say that this is one of my experience in life. I know that I’m not a guy that’s easy to make friends and I’m so stiff in talking. Meanwhile i really enjoyed playing games and spending the day myself, sometimes yeah I do need to go out for one bit. In 11th grade of senior high school, I changed high school. So, i tried to change myself to become extrovert and basically become friendly and that failed miserably. I overtrying myself until I didn’t want to meet people and that was horrible because for me, meeting people makes me uncomfortable. I’ve met someone that I have a crush on But I don’t confess to her since i’m self aware of myself that I’m just rock on the side of the road. I felt I miss my chances but still seeing her happy now makes me happy too.

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I can say Rubics cube depict my story the best is because people approach it in many different ways. That are people that just plays it randomly and got bored, there’s who’s lucky enough finishing it without knowing what’s they doing, and there are people who learn the algorithm and finish it quickly Also rubiks cube comes in a different type and form also It represent my expirience that i have. Each one of em is like a rubiks cube that I must solve and sometimes people also don’t understand me because they don’t want to but if they try to learn, they’ll succeed.

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life is short so does this magazine make mistakes, learn from your problems without regret mistakes? wash away with soap.




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