The Edge In A Trap

By Rafael Arias

The rain falling like tears from the child’s eyes,

Seeing the toxic world for what it is Watching the death of their grandfather seeing his lifeless eyes

Turning the child into a mess losing more than his friends.

Dreams turn to nightmares nightmares to reality

Finding love in the dark to fix a broken bond as tight as the strings around our hearts and hands only to find the dream of loss

Thought he found nirvana by the edge of a bridge by the edge of a knife

Cutting to escape the pain reality, and himself

The sound of screaming crying but still can’t get help

Then feels the warmth of a hand by the heavenly father

The light is bright beautiful getting closer

White doves appear the ones he lost come close by

Friends, family love cheering him on screaming his name

He reaches but falls back in the black dark abyss below and cries out in pain

Wakes up in a hospital found out death was close

The feeling of a thousand knives all over cannot move as if a warm but cold soft grizzly bear was on him nor can he open his eyes as if his lids was heavier than a one ton elephant

He hears voices he feels needles in his skin he feels the warmth of his father’s hand His mother’s forehead

Hearing cries from his family on earth but not being able to fix what he has done

Feeling empty feeling regret feeling sorrow for what he has done to his family now he is gone

The eyes of the family is as gloomy as the sky above so dark so cold, wailing for their lost

Wanting to go back to the old, never to let go of the past the cycle of depression continues

He wakes in a field of flowers the sky being so clear being so beautiful that it seemed too real to be true

The sun being so warm it feels like he is getting hugged by his mother’s arms it’s comforting, it feels perfect

The pain is gone just as quickly so is his perfect paradise he now is an endless void of blackness for eternity, screaming crying out to go back like depression, the darkness captured him and held him hostage.

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