Assignment 3: Portrait painting, Liminal …………….….…….…...0

A post-impressionist piece, LIMINAL

This is a rather personal, melancholic and abstract piece, encouraged by the introspective nature of post-impressionism.

I’m always on a perpetual cycle of mania or neuroticism represented by extra heads and the unnatural blue and red colours. I lack emotional permanence, so most of the times I feel like very different people. These 2 phases, deny each other exist, live their own lives when they come out and do whatever; be extremely anxious and neurotic or be impulsive and hyperactive. After one ends, the other will come and will be unable to deal with whatever I might have started while hyper or anxious.

It doesn’t really matter because In the end, I’m still the one who has to deal with my behaviour. To be accountable, I need to be as self-aware as possible and become a mediator to myself, between the other 2. The venus flytrap has quite a lovely flower, but down the long,long stem lies a patch of carnivorous plants. This neurodivergence makes close relationship difficult. Maybe it seems appealing, but I will most definitely sabotage it out of helplessness. At the end of the day, I’m just doing my best.

Figure 69: A screenshot of our last HTA ll class together, revision session for final exam.