TFOM by Amaani Oluwa

TFOM

Amaani Oluwa -this friend of mine-

The project

ack in 2015, for my photography A-Level course, we had a project titled 'Abandonment'. Today, I revisit these files and give the project a new meaning and story creating my new project called This Friend of Mine (tfom). Originally, in the beginning of the project I was looking at abandonment and love. However further on into the project, I realised I was more interested in the idea of self-love. Especially at the young age I started the project and even today, many of us lack this. Therefore, by the end of the project I concluded that my idea of abandonment would be represented through the idea of the emotional abandonment of feelings.

ersonally, I do have days where self-love levels are super low and other days where they are super high! I just wanted to give these photographs of mine a narrative that I feel like some people would understand. Not everyone would get it, but that's what happens in art. You either get it or you don't. We can all interpret it differently.

Amaani Oluwa Art Director & Photographer

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Many thanks to the models, aka my friends and family who were able to help me complete these images: Beatrice B. , ChloĂŤ M. , Camellia Z. and Ameera H.

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I tried to ignore those things being said, but it got a hold of me , uncontrollably.

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I let you in and forgot who I was.

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TRAPPED WITHIN

Why won’t you leave me alone? I was fine with the way I was. Your opinion means nothing to me, but then again...it means everything. You’ve made me feel as if i’m trapped, within myself.

“What

that

you’re

running

away

from?“

They

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say.

I tell them that it is that friend of mine again.

The one who doesn’t leave me alone whenever I want to be by myself.

The one who won’t let me be myself anymore.

The

one

who

tells

how

ugly

am.

The same friend of mine who tells me that I look horrible in everything, that nobody will ever think that I am beautiful.

Does it make you happy to know that you can control every little thing I do? I feel nothing at insane at the same

all, yet time. It

I is

feel so possible.

GO AWAY

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she chooses the weak ones

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Not feeling comfortable in my own skin, I want to escape. Escape the dark room inside my head, my strength is becoming weaker by the thread. I’m screaming for help, but the sound is silent. So you look at me as if i’m the one losing my mind, this torture is violent. Your words, are hurting me as much as your actions. Your stares are stabbing me through the chest each time I am trying to impress, that perfect self of yours. How can I be like you? Nobody sees what i’m going through.

Pucker up your lips until you suffocate

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날 지 워 너 의 인 형 이 되 려 해

A BEAUTIFUL DOLL IN THE IMAGE YOU DREW 16

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A PERFECT ILLUSION CREATED FOR YOU

널 위해 예쁜 거짓을 빚어내

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This friend of mine is myself. I am running away from myself.

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yrics used in this zine are fully credited illustrating the pages they have appeared on, they are listed down below. The rest of the text featured in this zine are written by myself (Amaani Oluwa). PAGE 10: Sippy Cup , Melanie Martinez (Lyrics by Melanie Martinez Jeremy Dussolliet Tim Sommers) Jet Black Heart , 5 Seconds of Summer (Lyrics by Calum Hood Michael Clifford David Hodges Jon Green) PAGE 12: Sippy Cup , Melanie Martinez (Lyrics by Melanie Martinez Jeremy Dussolliet Tim Sommers) PAGE 13: Nobody's Home , Avril Lavigne (Lyrics by Avril Lavigne Ben Moody) PAGE 14: Kitchen Sink , Twenty One Pilots (Lyrics by Tyler Joseph and Zack Joseph) Car Radio , Twenty One Pilots (Lyrics by Tyler Joseph) PAGE 16/17: Fake Love , BTS (방탄소년단) (Lyrics by "hitman" bang; Pdogg; RM) & Fake Love - BTS (방탄소년단) [English Cover] , Ysabelle Cuevas (Rewritten english translation by Ysabelle) PAGE 18: Sippy Cup , Melanie Martinez (Lyrics by Melanie Martinez Jeremy Dussolliet Tim Sommers) Migraine , Twenty One Pilots (Lyrics by Tyler Joseph) PAGE 19: Stressed Out , Twenty One Pilots (Lyrics by Tyler Joseph) PAGE 21: Forest , Twenty One Pilots (Lyrics by Tyler Joseph) Mrs Potato Head , Melanie Martinez (Lyrics by Melanie Martinez Jeremy Dussolliet Tim Sommers) PAGE 22: Drown , Bring Me The Horizon (Lyrics by Oliver SykesJordan FishLee MaliaMatt KeanMatt Nicholls) 25

Today itâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s hard to feel comfortable in your own skin. We feel pressured by the world and feel as if we are never good enough. Beauty standards are completely different to everyone, so honestly you will never fit in. Be your own perfect.