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MUSIC: ONE WORSHIP GATHERINGS JESUS: FEELINGS JESUS: TRISTANNE MOREY MUSIC: MARLENA COPADO FASHION: LAUREN LEBEOUF
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EDITOR LETTER A SAN DIEGO MOVEMENT
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ey San Diego. God is making you new everyday. And each day, know that you have something to offer. Something to give. Something great is going to happen this year in the city by the sea, where the weather can't be found anywhere else in the states. Be expectant. Be hopeful. Be inspired. God is moving in you. He is working in you. He is smiling on you. This New Year. 2016. Be prepared for a moving in San Diego. A movement of faith in Jesus' name. --
Jesse Anaya
WHAT IS ONE WORSHIP GATHERING? ONE Worship Gatherings are vertical worship gatherings that have been taking place all over the San Diego for the last year. Worship leaders/teams from all over San Diego sign up for time slots and contribute to 24 hours (or longer) of non-stop worship expression. These gatherings include many different streams, denominations and fellowships for the purpose of coming together as one Body to worship our amazing God. They also move around from city to city in San Diego county.
HOW DID IT GET CREATED? In 2012, after praying and asking God how I could contribute to a move of His Spirit here in San Deigo, I felt that I was to begin cultivating relationship and community between worship leaders/musicians/artists, etc all over the region. ONE is really the expression and fruit of this worship community. We had our first 24 hour gathering under the name ONE Worship Gatherings 2/28/14 at Grace Chapel of the Coast in Oceanside, CA. After that, churches all over began to ask if they could host gatherings. We did monthly gatherings throughout 2014, moving from city to city, church to church. HOW IS JESUS COMMUNICATED THROUGH YOUR MINISTRY? Matthew 22:37-40 is a key scripture within the ONE community. The gatherings are vertical, meaning that it isn’t so much worship “leading” but simply worship. Teams are invited to simply worship God from their hearts without being concerned about leading people. It’s more of a David’s Tabernacle approach. We don’t put lyrics up on a screen, the band sets up “in the round” style (band in a circle in the middle of the room facing each other). We really put an emphasis on the first part of that passage from Matthew, “love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul and all your mind.” I believe that if we make that our first priority, than the second part, “Love your neighbor as yourself.” will be the natural result. That is exactly what we have seen happen at these gatherings. Jesus is communicated powerfully by His own love that is expressed through the people in this community. Prayer, encouragement, relationships cultivated, sharing of hearts, physical healings, reconciliations, these are common things that happen at ONE gatherings.
HOW
DO YOU FEEL MUSIC AND WORSHIP INFLUENCES ONE ' S WALK WITH JESUS?
I know that it’s had an incredible impact on my own journey over the years. I do however believe it’s important that we all understand the difference between the activity of our worship and the expression of our worship. Music is not the definition of worship. The activity of our very lives, moment by moment, breath to breath is our true worship. I enjoy all the expressions of worship; music, art, dance, etc. They all minister to me, encourage me and spark my faith but they are ultimately empty if I am not living the activity of worship. Singing someone a love song has little meaning if there’s no activity of love to go with it. Expression that comes from the overflow of activity however is a powerful thing. WHAT
IS YOUR VISION FOR REACHING S AN D IEGO?
ONE WORSHIP GATHERING
My heart is really to see the Body of Christ here in San Diego come together. I believe that happens through real relationship. Jesus said that His disciples would be known by their love for one another. That’s what I want to see. ONE is just a small part of that vision. I know there is a lot more to come.
"MY HEART IS REALLY TO SEE THE BODY OF CHRIST HERE IN SAN DIEGO COME TOGETHER. I BELIEVE THAT HAPPENS THROUGH REAL RELATIONSHIP. "
SanDiego,CA Director:HenryHaney
FEELI N G S
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WHEN EMOTIONS ARE CALLING THE SHOTS , WE BEGIN TO LEAN ON OUR OWN UNDERSTANDING INSTEAD OF GOD’ S WORD.
B Y S HANNON NOVAK veryone has them and no matter where you go—they follow. Feelings—anger, contentment, gladness, and doubt—some of us can experience a whole range within a matter of moments. Though they can add variety and enthusiasm to life, emotions can also easily mislead us. In fact, one of the major problems plaguing today’s society is the disillusionment that comes with following feelings rather than seeking truth. When people feel like they’ve fallen out of love, many of them choose to divorce. When they feel like they’re another gender, they simply switch. When people feel like God is being unfair, they become bitter. The truth is when we abide in our feelings instead of abiding in God’s truth we miss out on His life-giving reality and sink into disillusionment. Most of us have experienced the all-encompassing infatuation that comes with a first love, as well as the roller coaster of emotions we ride in our teens. However, if one thing rings true both in adolescence and adulthood, it’s what my dear dad told me years ago—feelings make great passengers, but they are horrible drivers. I don't know about you, but whenever I begin to base my choices on my emotions, I find that life gets even more confusing. The truth is that when we allow emotions to take the wheel an instability takes over our lives which is characterized by rash decisions, worry, and confusion. This instability tends to impact our peace of mind, security, and our relationships greatly as well. For example, when Christian’s go through a “rough patch” in their marriage, and the feeling of excitement is no longer there, those who rely on their feelings for guidance are in danger. Divorce is such an available option within our culture that even for Christians it’s easy to let their emotions lead them to a place where they feel it’s the only option.
Emotions can make us feel that divorce is our only way when we experience a season of difficultly within marriage, but that’s not the correct antidote. God has the ability to heal, restore, and change our marriages so not only does it grow stronger and withstand difficulty, it will also better reflect His love. However, when emotions are calling the shots, we begin to lean on our own understanding instead of God’s Word, which can lead to broken homes and families. That’s the major problem with allowing emotions to govern our lives—ultimately they become our reality even if they aren’t based on truth. The truth is that God made feelings, but He also gave us the ability to choose His truth over our own heart and emotions. Though emotions aren’t necessarily bad, trusting in them as truth will have unfortunate consequences. Proverbs 3:5 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding” (NIV). The Bible instructs us to choose trusting in God over our own perceptions and emotions. That means when doubt and worry enter our minds, we must choose to cling to the hope found in God’s word. When bitterness begins to take root because someone has offended us, we must grasp onto forgiveness. When the world’s twisted view of relationships begins to ensnare us, we must choose to God’s way and His love. It’s a choice and a fight to believe the truth when our emotions often contradict it, but it’s not a battle we must fight alone. Psalm 63:8 says, “I cling to You; Your right hand upholds me” (NIV). David expresses a two way commitment in this verse—that he will cling to God, and that God will uphold Him. Even though each of us must fight to believe in God’s true reality, He does not leave us to our own strength. He upholds us, and we are able to have victory over the illusion our feelings can so easily weave.
TRISTANNEMOREY SANDIEGO
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"I HAVE DONE ALL THE THINGS IN LIFE YOU SHOULD NOT DO, AND THE WORLD IN RETURN HAS DONE TO ME THE WORST YOU CAN IMAGINE. " ith heads bowed and hands stretched out to those nearest us, my fiancé was on my left and a complete stranger was on my right. As we were being prayed over I heard clear as day, "Just trust me Tristanne. Trust what I have for you. He is not the one." My heart wrenched with fear but I knew in that instant God was as asking me to do the unthinkable while answering my prayers all at the same time. The pastor brought the prayer to a close and my heart was aching. Tears were rolling down my face as the complete stranger turned to me and simply said "Thank you, thank you for being obedient." But I was not ready to be obedient to God. How could I? How could I walk away from everything I ever dreamed of? Everything I worked so hard for that gave me value and worth? Getting married proved I was desirable and wanted, not abandoned! We were both heading into our careers, we had a house ready for us, and our wedding was all planned. Leave it all for what? To trust God when everyone I trusted had done a good job of disappointing me? Yet, Proverbs 3:6 tells us, “in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight”. I have done all the things in life you should not do, and the world in return has done to me the worst you can imagine. Still, here was God asking me to trust Him! Here He was, telling me that I was worthy of the best that He had for me, better than I ever dreamed for myself! In Romans 8:28 He promises us, “He makes all things work together for the good of those who love Him, for those who are called according to His purpose.” You and I are called to a purpose greater than ourselves, and God’s character? Trusting God will give us a foundation on which to stand.
Thankfully, despite everything within my flesh, I obeyed and I’ve never looked back! Shortly after the engagement ended I began to learn just how blessed God would make me. I learned what it means to be valued regardless my past, no matter what I had done or what had been done to me. It is so freeing. I now know what it means to be loved for who I am, not what I am capable of doing. These days I am interning at my home church, C3 Church San Diego, giving to others what I was denied and had desperately longed for: Supporting women who have been raped, helping women to see their value and walking with them in victory; making ways for people to become productive members in society after being homeless from a few bad choices. My life is now about inclusion, when all I once knew was worthlessness. The hardness in and around my heart has since been (and is still being) broken down, allowing me to thrive rather than merely survive. Through all of my own personal experiences God has shown me that He never left my side, and I no longer live in fear of abandonment. Nor do I battle for my worth and future because that battle has been won victoriously for me. It was won the day He defeated the grave. I choose to walk in truth, and shame the enemy’s lies. With each defeat of the enemy’s lies, I see growing in me a love for people who have hurt me as well as a love for the people around me. I am no longer consumed with worry or doubt in my capabilities. I have already done above and beyond anything I thought I could do. My purpose in Christ is grounded firmly within me. By God’s grace, it can't be shaken; it won't be moved. Forgiveness, obedience and grace are the shoes I choose to run in, and I wouldn't trade this marathon for the whole world.
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MARLENA COPADO WORSHIP LEADER // CARLSBAD
"I CRIED OUT TO GOD. I SAID, “IF YOU ARE REAL OR EXISTING IN ANY WAY, YOU NEED TO STEP IN. BECAUSE I’M GOING TO DESTROY MYSELF. ”
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hen I was fifteen years old my mother had cancer, but my dad died instead. My dad was my best friend and losing him was extremely difficult. I was crushed, and with a bipolar mom, things were pretty unstable in the house. It became a pretty dangerous environment for a fifteen year old to grow up in in the music scene. I was in a band at the time and was touring when my stage manager, introduced me to cocaine. I overdosed twice on purpose. I didn’t want to be here anymore. I felt completely alone and abandoned. I was on the floor somewhere and I cried out to God. I said, “If you are real or existing in any way, then you need to step in. Because I’m going to destroy myself.” I was on the surf team at the time in high school and the big thing was FCA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes), and a friend on the team, the “Christian girl,” asked me if I wanted to come to a camp with her youth group from Daybreak Church called Forest Home. I decided to accept the invite and went. I thought, “What do I have to lose?” When I was there, I experienced people and love in a different way. For the first time since my dad had died I felt like a weight had been removed from my chest. During worship the second night everyone in the room started singing, “ Here I am to worship, here I am to bow down. Here I am to say that You’re my God.” I fell to my knees and started weeping. Tears rolled down my face and I truly felt love for the very first time the way I was meant to. I was completely done with myself and the way I had been living up to that point. I said, “God, take me.” When worship was finished, I was a wreck. I walked outside and sat on the wall adjacent to the main building we were in. My leader from camp followed me outside and sat next to me. She prayed with me and I accepted Christ into my heart and life right there. I can look back now and know that I made that decision to save my life, and to this day it was the best decision I have ever made. I remember being to afraid to go home. I didn’t know what life would be like now. I asked God what there could be back at home for me now. When I did get home, I disposed of every drug and all the alcohol. I knew I could not be the same person anymore. I had to engage in Christ and not all the other things I was going to that gave me my identity. Music was no longer my identity. What people had to say or think of me was no longer my identity. Christ was now everything that mattered in my life. My mother, who had cancer, is alive and in remission today. Our relationship has been restored in a way only Jesus could have restored. I now am blessed to do what I love and use the talents and gifts God has given me for His tangible Kingdom. I am currently the worship director at my church, Daybreak. The church I went to camp with as broken teenager. I am gearing up to do my first worship album and couldn’t’ have written a better story for my life than the one God has and is still writing for me.
LAUREN LEBOUEF SAN DIEGO // AGE: 20
"I STARTED TO MEET PHOTOGRAPHERS AND MODELS WITH THE SAME EXACT VISION THAT I HAD, WHICH WAS SPREADING GODS LIGHT IN THE INDUSTRY. "
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rowing up at a Christian school it taught me a lot about myself and how to lead by example and integrity while on the varsity cheer team. My junior year of high school I kept feeling God telling me to take “using my gifts to glorify God” a step further. I joined the worship team and it was a true blessing being able to play guitar and sing while praising God in the process. Even though I was at a Christian school for many years, that didn’t make it easy for me to trust in God, it just showed me how blessed someone can be if they truly let go of what they have and let God use it for his purpose. Fast forward to my first year out of high school, I began to become very interested in modeling and the industry itself. I began to think to myself… “what if I became a light for God in such a dark place such as the modeling industry?”… “Would it be at all possible?” “Would I get the chance to talk about my testimony or meet other Christians?” I began my modeling journey of pursuing this so called, “goal and dream” of modeling for a clothing company named “Brandy Melville” that I am still trying to do to this day. In the beginning of it all I made a promise I would reflect God and let him shine through me. I began working hard trying to connect with many photographers in the San Diego area around me and a couple months in to it, I started to meet photographers and models with the same exact vision that I had, which was spreading Gods light in the industry. I couldn't believe it. There were others out there who also wanted to bring Gods light to any darkness they came in contact from the world. I began to model for companies I had NEVER EVER dreamed of taking photos for such as American Eagle, Aeropostale, Windsor, and Tilly’s. Each time a young girl or follower on social media would ask me how I was able to model for these companies, I would make sure that they knew that I was not doing this alone and that I have God with me every step of the way. Using social media and modeling as a platform to make a difference in the world with God by my side has been such an eye opening experience and a blessing I never knew was really possible. This is exactly why I think social media has been intended for, to create a positive notion that is much MUCH bigger than we can ever imagine. I am so blessed with the people I have been able to get in touch with through social media such as, Angelic Magazine and I am so happy to be a part of their Christian atmosphere. I hope and pray that I can continue to send a positive message of encouragement and faith, while also receive positivity through others on social media.
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