FROM MY HEART TO YOURS -I STILL LOVE YOU-
ATHI-ENKOSI MAJAVU TO
NOMFUNDO NZAMA
FOR THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.
Hey Sweetie. I hope you’ve been fine and are still happy with me. I love the idea and history of letters, they are just romantic and say so much more than can be said in person. So I thought I should write you your very own love letter to remind you of my love for you. So here goes… Well saying this is a letter is a bit of a stretch, given the length of it. But baby there are not enough words to describe my feelings for you, so a 2 page letter wasn’t going to cut it. I hope all this reading I’m making you do doesn’t get to you and irritate you. I love writing, but I love writing to you even more; and I do hope that you love reading what write. To be honest, I have no idea what I’m going to put in all these pages, and it might take a while to finish this. But I’m not rushing anywhere because you and I are forever. I love you. I’m not the most romantic or adventurous person, but with you I feel like I am the master of it all. I want to give you the most romantic memories of them all and do everything with you. You bring out the best in me.
Every beautiful thing I see reminds me of you; every great song I hear has my heart dancing with love for you; every wondrous moment has my mind feeling warm with thoughts of you. You belong with me and I am grateful you are mine. It gives me great pleasure that these are words shared by my heart to yours and they are ours to keep forever. We are still going to do great things, you and I, and it’s just a matter of time and resources. I just hope that when things get better you are still with me and I with you. I LOVE YOU. No woman, no matter how pretty she is, is worth making an emotional attachment to just for her looks. There is much more to emotional commitments than just looks and excitement; It is important that two people have more in common than just their physical attraction to each other; they should share hopes and dreams, they should share interests, and more importantly they should have love in common. In you and myself I have seen what love looks like, it’s beautiful. I made an emotional commitment to you because of the love we share.
I'm not Shakespeare or Hemingway or Jane Austen; those people had writing skill and they wrote books that touched generations, and will touch generations to come. Baby my hope is that these words will touch and remain with you forever. I'm in love with you, I have been for a while now. But that's something you know, something I try to show you every day in any way I can, something I hope you see every day. It's just been 2 months, but I feel like I've known you a lifetime, and another. You have become my happiness, my love, my Day One my every day. I have been through a lot that I never want to experience again, so have you. We are different people, but we also have a lot in common, and it works. I just hope our differences never come between us and split us up. We are different people, but you get me and I get you. Right now, we may not get to see each other as much as we want, or talk to each other that much; but I always have you in my heart and that gives me strength every day. Baby, in this world there's you and I, Love, happiness and everything else. I have said this before; I believed it then,
I believe it still. There is a lot that we let get in the way of the 3 most important things; us, love and happiness. Relationships begin with attraction, mutual love and happiness may follow, but not always. Baby I have been attracted to you, I have loved you, I have been loved by you, and together we are happy. I am secure in the hope that things continue that way into the future, the distant future. We remain together because we are strong. Our love is strong because we wake up still loving each other every day; our happiness is strong because of the memories we have created, the bond we share, and our future plans together. You and I baby, we are strong because of our love and happiness. Everything else baby, everything else will work itself out, as long as we guard the three other things; together we will make everything else happen, and work through everything else to become stronger. Let us never let everything else tear us apart. I love you.
There is still so much we can to do together. I want to take you to all the nice restaurants, the fun theme parks. Baby I want us to walk on that suspension bridge, ride a crazy rollercoaster, see the most beautiful sights, and do so much more things we'll never forget, and take pictures of everything. (Which reminds me, I should get a selfie stick for us.) But Baby the best pictures I'm looking forward to are the pictures of our families when they rejoice with us as we take our relationship a step forward. The pictures I can't wait to see are the pictures of our honeymoon, maybe somewhere in Paris or London, or California, or all those places put together. The pictures I can't wait for Baby are the pictures of our babies Baby, how beautiful they will be, just like mommy. Mncwaa. The story we are going to create in this world is far beyond anything I have read, bigger than anything you have read. But the best part is that you and I will be living it together, each and every minute. I don't want to leave you, I don't want you to leave me. You and I we can work through it all. You and I we are protected by the shield of our love that surrounds us. Me and you baby.
I remember when I first met you, I thought that I didn't want this, I didn't want us. But I was wrong, I was scared. I would be a fool if I didn't want this anymore, I would be a person without a clue. I thought that I needed time to prepare my heart to love again. But nothing could have prepared me for what we have now, it's bigger and better than everything I have ever known, everything I had dreamed of. Baby there was no way I could have resisted you. You were made to rule my heart, the Queen of my Kingdom, the only Queen. Remember I said that there is attraction, then love and happiness may follow. For some people it takes a while for that love to grow and it takes them a while to decide whether they want the happiness of choosing one person and never change that decision. But with you baby I knew almost instantly that you were the one, the only. The first real conversation we had, we just clicked on a much deeper level than I've known. I forgot all the lines I was going to use on you, I forgot my game plan and I just let you know me. That's the day I was able to separate between the fiction about me I had come to create in my
adult life. That day I knew that there was a difference between the person I wanted the world to know and the person I really am. With you all the fiction fell away and it was just me, and I have trusted you with my everything ever since. You have helped me bury some of my past, my fictional life and my meaningless dreams. You changed my life. You did. You're beautiful, and there is nothing I'd rather be doing than writing this for you to highlight the memories we've created and the lifetime of memories and happiness that await us. Three months ago I woke up next to the most beautiful lady. That's when I knew that I still have luck, and it made me profoundly happy to have you. It was a turbulent time, but I believed love would help us through it all; I still believe in love, our love, through us. I Love You Baby. I love you even on days when I hate everybody else. Three months ago I woke up next to an Angel. Mncwaa.
How lucky I am that you still choose me everyday, through all the bold and crazy marriage proposals from other guys. I will choose you everyday too. I thought I had dreams, dreams of grandeur, dreams that were far from me, dreams I had to grow up first before I
could get. But then I met you baby and you embody all my dreams, and I realize that I was wrong about my dreams. You are all my dreams in one, and all I had to do to get you was love you, I love you still, and I will love you forever. Not a couple of minutes go by without me thinking about you baby; you cross my mind when a song plays (The song that reminds me of you the most these days is Your Song by Ellie Goulding); I think about you when I look at my phone; when I see anything Pick n Pay I think about you; when I see you I'm thinking about you, but my heart jumps as if I'm surprised to see you. Baby I was thinking that I haven't said that thing to you in a while. I know you like to hear me say it, so I'm going to say ulale kakuhle neh baby. It would be so appropriate if you're reading this in bed and you're ready to sleep. November 10th 2016 (10/11). That’s a day special to you and I and only we know why. There are many other dates too: 13/07, 22/07, 28/07 and the 22 of every month.
There are many other dates as well, some have come and gone, some are still to be created. They all have one thing in common, US. I still don't know how we are going to make the move to Gauteng next year. It may not happen when we want, but that's a step I am looking forward to making with you. With you I feel complete and content. We'll find a way; there is always a way. Baby you are the best thing that's ever happened to me. You make me want to be myself everyday; quit all the faking; you make me want to share my stories with you as we write this one of our own, it's a beautiful story, something out of a Jane Austen novel. You give me strength to find a way and I will find a way. Meeting you is the highlight of my year, it is rivalled by no other. Something I’ll never forget. I knew you already the first time we met; I loved you when we first kissed; I quickly learned that every moment with you is a moment to cherish, because in each moment is a lifetime of feel
good memories. You make me happy Madlamini and I can't imagine doing anything else besides loving you. Baby I was hoping that by now I would have filled these pages. But it's taking longer than I expected, and I do want you to read this sometime. I have grown a lot since I met you. There is so much I thought I knew about loving someone, but loving you and being loved by you has taught me a lot more about loving another person. You have gone to the depths of my heart reached the core of who I am. I am glad you chose to do that; to get to know me; to let me into your world and into your heart. I'm grateful you gave me a chance to love you; I'm glad you love me too. I really wanted to get this to you at 3 months, but circumstances led to here. See I wanted to make the cover using glossy paper, but they didn't have it; by the time I got the glossy paper it was 10 November and I thought I should just wait and give this to you this month, on our anniversary. But there were further delays because I couldn’t get adhesive tape, I’m still looking for it. But I know I will find it and finish this up and deliver it
to you. But that’s all water under the bridge now. In the past few months we've made some memories, most of which I will live to cherish forever. We have come a long way to get where we are and we've got an even longer way to go.
Love is a strange creature that we don't really have to understand, we just have to let it take us up to the best highs of our lives, give us strength through the toughest times and keep us sane through all the times in-between. Love is different with each person you share it with. I have never before experienced the love I share with you, and it means a whole lot more to me than anything I have ever had. With you I know I don't have to wait a year or 3 years to know that I want to share my future with you; I just knew when I fell in love with you and felt your love for the first time. I knew that you can love me and my children, my family and all that I want to achieve. Since we met baby you’ve always been in my life, in my phone, in my thoughts, in my dreams. When I first got to know you I knew I was in trouble because I sensed that I was going to fall for you. That's why I tried to run, you remember. But by then I was too involved. Plus you wouldn't let me run, that helped a lot. Thank you. You were out of my league once. But that was before I spoke to you. What I mean is that when I first saw you I thought you were out of my league. But really there are no 'leagues' where mutual love is involved, there's just love.
The number of reasons I love you is infinite. My love for you is unconditional. If I said that I love you because you're beautiful, that would be the wrong kind of love, it would be based on something that's fleeting. That's not love, love is eternal and cannot be justified by early things. I love you for who you are, it just so happens that you're beautiful. In life we change as people, our goals change, and our dreams develop just a bit more as we learn new things. That has been true for me, and therefore there are a very few things I can say I've always wanted. I realize that one of those things is what I have with you baby. I know I didn't know you 10 years ago, a year ago or even three months ago; but what we have is what I've always wanted. Nothing I've had comes close to this and I hope I don't mess this one up too. You and I, we're good together. I can't wait for the next four months. Mncwaaaaaaa. Remember when I said that what we have is bigger and better than everything I have ever known. Back then I
didn’t understand fully what that statement meant, but now I do. Falling in love is unlike any other thing that we experience in life. With everything else we do in life we have to push, whether we are pushing ourselves to learn more or pushing to get something, we always push. Falling in love is different; it is being pulled forward, being drawn to another person in a deep level, deeper than our understanding. When we fall in love we experience having our hearts opened, senses are heightened and colors are brighter and music is sweeter and tastes are more intense and everything is just more. When we let love grow, each of those things becomes part of us. Remember when we used to listen to my songs and they touched us deeply; I had listened to those songs many times before, but when I heard them with you it was like the first time, and it’s been like that with every song since. Baby I have never fallen in love with anyone like I did with you. Not that I’m comparing, but all the times I thought I was in love, they get shattered by this time, they are no match. You entered my life and turned
everything upside down. That is a good thing because it allowed me to start over, with you. With you everything I do it’s like I’m experiencing it for the first time. One thing I’m doing for the first time ever though is writing this for you. Sure I always write messages for you, but I have never really done anything like this before. I guess I’m growing up, and my motivation is you. Yaz Baby I had no idea where I was going to find the words to fill these pages, but here I am at the end of this letter/book. All I had to do was think about you and the words just came. That's always the case these days; I think about you and I can see our future together so vividly, it's beautiful. I dream because you are a part of me. I have the wondrous mind of a child because of what we have. As Keri Hilson said it, “You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids.” Beautiful thoughts I wouldn’t exchange for anything. We’ll have babies, dress them up in all kinds of clothes and costumes, give them names we want, show them our favorite movies and tell them bedtime stories. But there is just one story that will touch them the most, the story of our family life together. That is the story that will form the foundation
of their futures. I believe in endless possibilities because you love me, and I love you. Mncwaa.