RUN: FROM THE PAIN WITHIN by

MYECHIA BARNETT VOLUME

she did not care. Sabrina was actually dating her best friend’s brother, Wayne. She crushed on him because he reminded her of Lil Wayne, another celebrity she had crushed on back then. Sabrina’s sister she never knew, came to move in. Trish and Star didn’t get along at all, but she was also young and came from her dad’s house. Sabrina and Star never really hang out much because Sabrina didn’t like Star that much then. They would fight over playing Sega. When Sabrina got mad and Trish made them fight, Sabrina wanted to kill her. Star was older, big booty, light-skinned, and had short hair. There were times, though, when Sabrina was with Star. One of these times, Star was dating someone and wanted to sneak him in while Trish wasn’t home. At first, Sabrina wanted no parts. Eventually, Sabrina secretly invited Wayne over.

Star was with her dude downstairs in one room, and Sabrina was upstairs in the living room with Wayne. Wayne sat on the couch, and Sabrina was on the floor in between his legs, back turned, where he massaged her breasts. A key turns in the doorknob. Wayne jumps up and hides in the closest fast! Trish was coming upstairs with her dude as Carlos came in. He knew we had something going on; he ended up checking the

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closest, and Wayne got caught. Star’s dude had to leave. He told Trish about it. Smh. Trish beat Sabrina and Star for that. Sabrina had the belt, and Star had a stick. Rosay didn’t like Sabrina dating Wayne; that was her brother, and they were sisters. It was just weird. Wayne and Sabrina had a great relationship and really liked each other. They were also on and off. Those two got together when they could.

Here in 7th grade, Sabrina started her first almost actual relationship with Franklin. He sat behind her in class; this was around the time the Twin Towers went down. Sabrina was a daredevil, so if she was dared something, she was going to do it. Sabrina and Franklin somehow started talking and liking each other. One day in class, they sat next to each other, and she placed her hand on his penis in class and was basically jacking him off. They weren’t intimate yet, but it wasn’t too far off. Franklin was very mean; he would call her names and just treat her terribly as her boyfriend. She just disregarded it, although it hurt her. Now mind you, Trish worked all the time. Joe, Sabrina’s dad, wasn’t around because he had another family. So Sabrina was technically on her own. Trish had a boyfriend named Carlos for about 6 yrs. He abused Trish. In this story, Carlos is the stepdad that treats Sabrina with respect. Now, Sabrina and Franklin were on and off. No one knew at home that Sabrina was in a relationship with Franklin because Sabrina would go out and meet up with Franklin outside of school. At home, Sabrina was still crushing on Mars. A weekend night at Roberta’s, Mars stayed over. Sabrina was still 12 years old in middle school. This night, Sabrina and Mars had planned for her to fall asleep on the couch. The room was dark, Mars was on the couch, and everyone else was upstairs in their room. So it’s silent; Sabrina wasn’t really asleep because she knew that she and Mars had a plan. He taps Sabrina to wake up and whispers for her to come over to the couch he’s on. Whispering, he asked, “You ever given oral pleasure before.?” She responded, “No, I’ve done nothing like that yet.” He said, “I’m gonna teach you.” “Okay,” Sabrina said. He made sure Sabrina was relaxed. He slides her panties off and gives her oral pleasure! Licking her pussy, with Sabrina silently enjoying this, her fingers here. He had nice-sized hands, so she feels everything in pleasure. Soaking his finger and lips with her wetness, he stops and tells Sabrina it is his turn. Led to his enormous penis with her mouth open, he teaches her how to give head explaining not to use teeth and hiding them with her lips, using her tongue to glide and go up and down in a way to please him at this moment. Sabrina was thinking, all in love with this man, “what in the hell am I doing? What if we get caught? This is a bad idea,” This was what she thought. He lays her down on the couch with his hands on her back. He climbs on top of her, and in between her legs, he whispers, “Are you ready?” She says, “yes.” His hands on his penis glide to find the hole between her pussy lips. Slowly, he goes in. GASP! Omg, I see why they are fighting over him. This man is packing! Slowly he penetrates and hits a spot Sabrina doesn’t even know is there as orgasms approach.

Footsteps creak in the dark, coming from upstairs. He hops up. She quickly gathers herself while Mars is in the kitchen in the dark to get back to her couch. Roberta comes downstairs, headed into the kitchen, where Mars turns the light on. “What are you doing?” she asks Mars. “Getting something to drink,” he replied. She went back upstairs. Sabrina was on the couch and wondering if Roberta knew something was going on and waited till morning to go home. Last night Sabrina will never be the same. She was excited because it was Mars, and

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she saw no wrong in this. Let’s take this in for a minute. She didn’t understand her actions then; she was just doing what she wanted when she wanted. Nobody close to her knew, and nobody cared besides her best friend and Saturn. She just kept moving on. Sabrina was comfortable feeling this way because that’s what she knew. She embraced this and made it her identity without even knowing that later in her life, it would affect her in ways she did not know it would. This was who she thought she was, so the promiscuity began.

Trish and Carlos eventually broke up, and she ended up with a new boyfriend. Mind you, Sabrina and Franklin, her middle school boyfriend, were still on and off. Robert’s new boyfriend gave off negative vibes, and no one liked him. I almost took him as a white man because his complexion was very light. He was stock-built with enormous arms, and Sabrina really stayed out of the way. On occasional nights, Robert came into Sabrina’s room at night. Sabrina slept in her bra and panties with her door closed. He would come in quietly, and Sabrina wouldn’t make any movements so that he wouldn’t think she was asleep. She didn’t know what he would do if he knew she was awake. He would fondle her body and her vagina, to the point