IMAGES IN THE CHAPTERS OF MY BOOK My professional photos depict the chapters of my life captured in a lens instead of on pages of a book. I share some of them with you in the hopes the editorials help you change your life and not make the same mistakes I have done in mine. Changing your mindset is vital to having a better quality of life for you, your family and your career. I have been married for 29 years. About 3 years into our marriage a comment was made that shook the very core of my confidence until now. I use to wear confidence like wearing my smile. I use to wear silk lace baby doll nightgowns every single night. It felt like a feather on my skin. I never used pajamas – I hated them! I never thought for a second of my weight or the size of my belly because I knew I was gorgeous! Yes I was that secure of myself, until he made a horrible and evil remark one night that mocked me and stopped me in my tracks. I never knew that could happen. I never knew a man could be so evil toward his wife. I never witnessed such hurtful behavior between a husband and wife. I got ready to go for bed as I did every night since high school, shower, Moroccan oil and a spritz of White Diamonds then walked into the bedroom wearing my red and black lace teddy when he looked at me and started laughing. I asked him, “Why are you laughing at me?” He replied, “Where the hell do you think you are going wearing that shit? I hope you don’t think you are getting any.” I was stopped in my tracks with his words that shattered my very soul, but I played it off like it didn’t hurt at all. The very next day I threw away all my drawers full of nightgowns and went shopping for men pajamas to cover my whole body. I never bought another gown until about 1 year ago when my photographers asked me to do a Boudoir photoshoot. OMG! I was terrified to even respond. I have been laughed at by those most dear to me, so your remarks well just don’t matter anymore. I am still working on getting my confidence; feeling 100% secure of myself. I am celebrating 51 years on earth. I carry scars that remind me of my difficult life, chronic health conditions, my breast are not firm, my belly carried 4 children and my legs have varicose veins. I struggle daily with my mirror and the reflection I see, but guess what although at times I can still hear his awful words and laughter, I am winning! Don’t allow anyone to shake your confidence! You are amazingly created by the fingertip of our Almighty Creator and that MUST be enough! No one has the right to destroy you! No one should have that kind of power over you EVER! I rebuke you Satan and all your minions! Many women are shamed by not only their so-called family and friends, but by their boyfriends and husbands. I have even heard it happen to men by women. When one loves truly loves – you should encourage and support them no matter how fat, different looking or old they get. You should not be scared of having them shine and get compliments – you should feel proud that YOU are the one they chose to be with and spend the rest of their lives! Put their picture in your wallet and show them off very proudly! I thank all those that mocked me through the years for making me the strongest women alive!
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