Editor’sNote
Iwanttosayahugethankyoutoeveryonewhosubmittedtothisyear’sBFEC Zine!Ihavebeenworkingonthisprojectfor3yearsnowandIamsogratefulfor theopportunitytoseeallthetalentsofthisschool.TheworkIhavewitnessedhas trulymovednotonlymebutsomanyothers.IbeganthiszineduringourCOVID lockdown,asawaytoconnectwithothersonasubjectwecanallrelateto:nature. Whilethetimeshavechanged,thegoalremainsthesame!Thiszineisanodtoall thewonderfulthingsthisworldhastoo er.Ihopethesepiecesinspireyoutoget outsideandstartexploring!Thankyouforagreatthreeyears.
MaryShawaker
ForYou
AbbyNavin
Iwouldsowthis eldforyou.IfitmeantIcouldstayforever Byyourside,wakingtothesoundofbirdsontheporch.
Yourmemoryisfadingalongwiththeabilitytocook But,Icould Plantthesecarrotsinthebackbythebusheshegaveyou. Maybethenyoucouldmakethecarrotcakewealllove.
Idon’tholditagainstyou,butit’shardseeingyousobroken Iwanttoreachintoyourmindandupturnitssoil–tocreatenew
Life AndIwouldgrowthesecucumbersbythesideofthehouse Ifitmeantyou’dstayalittlelonger,holdingmyhandwhileI’msick
Inbed.Butit’snot2005andyou’renolongerlookingatmethesame. Still,Iwouldsowthis eldforyou IfitmeantIcouldstayforever
Here.Idon’tholditagainstyou,butit’shardseeingyousobroken Andstillverymuchthesame.Ican’t xyounomatterwhatseedsIplant inyourmind Ijustwanttoshakeyoutoremember,butI’mtoldtoletitsit
andgivewater.Butmaybeyourthoughtsaren’tfading/rathergettingtransferred Somewhereelseforsafekeeping–stashedinsidetheyouthfultomatoesinfront.
AmyMoore
HallePreneta
Between Anonymous
Tolosesomethingthatseemedimmortal
Toswaybetweentwoworlds– existingindi erentplanes
Tofeelgroundedinthefact,youarenotgrounded
Floatingbyeveryoneandeverything
Disassociatedfromthelandyoustandupon
Homeisnolongerahouseoraperson–itisa eld
(Locationnon-speci c)Aplacewhereloversofsomekind
Gotomeet,mate,marry,move.
Theyexistbeyondthespace
Associatedwithitonlyforabriefwhile
Icouldlearnfromsomethingmore eetingthanthis esh
Iwantatakeawaytopassontothenextcreation
IdesiresomethingmorepermanentthanIhavenow
SoonI’llfeelathomeinaplace
TakerootinsoilIwishtoplanttreesinto
NoraChapman
“Overwhelmed”
RobertFranco
KharaStrum
TheCornTaughtMe
ClaireBaechtel
Igrewupwatchingthecornweavetogether watchingthewindpatthemdowngently watchingitshowthemhowtomovelikeabladeofgrass.
AndwhenIsatintheweedsIwouldthinkofcornstalks whenImadebraidsandwreaths
mysisterandI
wewouldeatsweetcornandwatchtheways the nehairstangledtogether usingFibonacci’snumbertodecidetheirkernels.
IthinkIlearnedhowtoweavefromthecorn andIneverownedafarmhousebutIownedaspecializedfreedom thatIowateachesyouwhenyouwanttoleaveit
ThatNebraskashowsyouwhenyoulickthegrittyleaves andthedirttellsyouwhenyoufallasleepuntilnoon andwatermelon’scallingandthescentofyoursweat ispoolingatthenapeofyourneck
Isawthecornatnightmanytimes. Overandoveritwasasea.
Itwasanoceanmadeofswayingstalks andmyfeetbetweenthem
arustedcornrake
andthetasteofbitterdandelionleaves
Icecreaminatractorwheel
Isatwithmywindowopen andIlookedoutonthatsea.
IthinkIsawitbestwhenthestalkswhisperedagainsteachother
Themid-Junehumiditytanglingits ngersinmyhair
IthinkIsawitbestwhenthe re ies dangledcomfortablyaboveit andmymothersaid, “ThisiswhatIwastalkingabout.
KosukeKojima
“GreatHorn” EmilyHeithaus
GabbyRachman
JessicaLandon
Goldenrod Anonymous
I’llwriteafewwordsaboutgoldenrod, (Asifmerewordscouldconvey)
HowitemergesinSeptemberlikeasunnyprairieblaze
Ifyou'reinthenorthernhemisphereyoumaystumblewithdelight Intoearlyautumnglorypriortoits axen ight
ThebeautyofFallisknowntoall,butthismonthbestowsatreasure
Thegilded eldsareinterspersedwiththistlesandsweetclover Sun owersofallmannertowerintheiramberfame
AsthestatelyVirgo ower,mockingasterand eabane
Butter ieshoverandhideundercoverofbergamotandmilkweed
Butmyeyesaredrawntotheaureateones
Heraldingdreadofthedeadmonthstocome
NoraChapman
PatriciaUrban
TheFlower RosaKwon
Thefragrant owersitsbetween twoloversgracedbycupid’stwang heartsbeatingswirlserenelyintooneassweetaromaswell
Thesunsetloomsovertheyoung virgincoupleexchangingfurtiveglances,havingsharedtheirmutualdesiresinfrontofthe
Flower
Sultryarethedaysandhumid arethenights,Yetnotadaygoes bywherethetwolovers’bodies failtomeltineachother’sembrace
Late,upallnight,theytalkofdreams withoutagoal,ofregretswithoutremorse,offutureswithout apast,ofstarswithoutamoon
Beneaththiscloudofscentfulconversation,the owerswaysand humssanguinetunesanticipatingalifeofhappinessand
Love
AidanCullen
AmyMoore
JessicaLandon
Unburdensome
Emma Coffman
Oh, to float like duckweed, to be swept aside on the surface like the water itself flows; while below the slimy seaweed bows slender, sleek, and spineless, bending over river rocks with tender tendrils ever-grasping.
Oh, to be the whiskers on the puckered lips of catfish, effortless, and passive with gills to comb the undertow without so much as a gasp; always gliding, airily, across the late-night lakebed ever-breathless, ever-silent with a mouth agape and cavernous.
Oh, to be a road-killed doe, in shreds under the overpass, flesh falling away while headlight glares slide smoothly over her skull; lying ever-still, unrecognizable as the mother of many fawns, who now wander the woods motherless. And yet, in her fur grows moss and mold and on her bones crawl small societies.
How I long to become miniscule, gentle, and unwieldy, ever-giving, never greedy, to ebb and flow, like liquid, lithely; my limbs and trunk unburdensome, sustaining love, and life quietly.
AmyHenrickson
Dandelions
DelaneyMarrs
Springspentbiting ngernails, grassstainedfrommakingdaisychains, Pickingdandelionsandblowingwishestothewind, andtheshrieking,scoldingstopspreadingweedsoftheothers, seeingfaultswhenwesaw owers
Dandelionsareweedsbecausetheyspread, menacesbecausethey’reresilient.
Sodowe Soarewe
Callusweedsonagreenplanet, wishesscatteredtothewindaftertheyellowhasvanished.
Ifdandelionsareweeds,soarewe Ifdandelionsare owers,soarewe.
NoraChapman
MaryShawaker
PatriciaUrban
ATurtleAtPompeii RoyalRhodes
Vesuviushadfrozencrowdsinplace byash,alongwithcountlesslivingthings.
Nowarchaeologistsreporteachtrace
Apregnantturtle'sshell,theirdiggingbrings tolight,withexcavatingtoolsandrake, addsmysterythatdoublesdownandclings.
Itburrowednearashopanolderquake hadwrecked,andfoundalairtoitsregret, untiltheashpoureddown--eachtoxic ake.
Sowasitfromthecountryorapet?
Itsskeletonshowsdeathhadleftaspace andcrackeditspreciousegg -- lestweforget.
ThroughMarch
VictoriaKerrigan
Thewhite-graycloudsglideseamlesslyalong thecurveofthegreen-yellowhill. Yellowingnow,shadingnow One nch singsaboveonanin nitelyfracturingbranch veiningthroughthesky’slightbluebody.
Forwhatdoesitmattertoher ifitisnine-oh- veornineforty- ve,ona midMarchmorning?Sheknowsgreaterthings,secretthings.
Whatsheknowsshootsupfromtheroot tothepalmfrondproliferation ofhereveryfeather. Theboldprintonthatsteelsquare meanslittletoher.
Forhowdoes‘ ne’or‘property’a ectthe neprospect ofatastytubularsunningitsearthy ank onabedofcrinklingtanleaves?The st ofthosesteelcutmeaningshangsunpunched.
Theethertightlywovenwithdiaphanousparticles isimpossibletopuncture.Yettheydisperseforher, thelightbluebodyunbarbed.Permitted, shepermeatesprofuselythrough March.Thelightbluebodysofull, shemakesitfuller.
GabbyRachman
ISeeWhatisActuallyThere...IThink MikaylaYurman
Hegazedoutthewindowvaguelybutnotdevoidofemotion.Theemotionwasthere,itjustsat slightlybehindhiseyes,behindaveilofstimuliashewatchedthescenerymovepastthetrainwindow. Maybenotwatched,hewaslessintentionalwithit,justabsentmindedlyregardingthepassingtreesand hillsides Theyweremovingsuspiciouslyslowly,almostasifhewasn’tsequesteredinamovingtrain car,butstrollingalongthecountryside.Maybeitwasn’tthespeedofthetraindoingthis,hethought, maybeitwasjusthismind llingintheblanks,sharpeningtheblursthatzoomedpastthewindow.He shookhisheadtogetridofthisthought,asifhewasadogriddinghimselfofexcesswater.
‘Iseewhatisactuallythere,’hemumbledtohimself,checkingthattheoldwomanoneseatoverwas stillfastasleepclutchingherpurse.Shewas.
Hereturnedhiseyestothewindow,cockinghisheadslightlyasifitchangedwhathesawoutthere Hiseyesfocusedonnothinginparticular,stillvacantlyobserving,untiltheyeventuallylandedona tree.It'snotthetallestamongthecongregationoftrees,butsomethingaboutitwasmoredigni ed thantherest;itstoodtall Nottallinthenaturalsortofwayonewouldexpectatreetobe,buttallin thesortofwaythatlooksliketheirmomjusttoldthemtostandupstraighterand xedtheircollar.He closedhiseyesandbecameawareofthesoft,almoststickysoundhiseyelidsmadewhenheblinked. Thwip.Click.Hetookapictureinhishead.Thetreewouldbeinthereforevernow.Hewondered howthetreefelt,wasithardtostandthattallallthetime?Doesitgetcoldandtiringtofeelyourleaves shakeandgetclosertofallingo witheachgustofwind?Whataboutthewoodpeckerswhotorment theouterlayerofbark,consistentlyhammeringaway,doesthathurt?Doalltheothertreestauntyouif yourbranchesweremorespindlyandscraggly?Whathappenswhenthemanwiththeaxcomes,ready tobuildhimselfanewshelformaybeacanoe?
Herealizedthetreewasnolongerstationedoutsidehiswindowand,thoughhehadgonethrough hundredsofquestionsinhishead,nomorethan30secondscouldhavepassed;thetreestillstood proudlyinthedistanceandinhisheadspace Hiseyesreturnedtothewindow, ittingbackandforth betweenthepassingtreeslikeahummingbirddartingfromfeedertofeeder.Thistimehiseyeszeroed inonthe atpeakofagreenknollnestledamongtherollinghilltops.Hiseyelidssquishedtogether again Thwip Mentalsnapshotacquired Heponderswhathappensthere Maybeinthespringa youngcouplefromanearbycabinwilltakeahikeandhaveapicnic Theysitwithabasketandperfect redcheckedclothunderneaththem,athinlayerbetweenthemandthepillowofgrass.Maybetoday theytalkabouttheirfuture,hewantschildren,shedoesnot.Adogisenoughfornow.Hewill
buyalittleout tforthedognexttimehegoestotown.Eventuallyhecallsthedogtheirbaby.She keepsquietaboutthischangeinvocabulary,keepsthepeace.
Maybeinthewinter,thesquirrelsclamberupthesnowandstoretheirnutsunderneaththesoftlayer oftopsoil,turningtheirsmallpawsintoshovels.Theyskidontheiceontheirwaydown,limbs outstretched,tinyrodent gureskaters.
No,no,nohesuddenlyturnsrestless,leftonedgebythethousandsofpossibilitiesforthiscurrently emptyhilltop.Iseewhatisactuallythere.Heturnsbacktotheoldwoman,worried he’sbeenthinkingoutloudandwillbemetwithabewildered,almostscaredlookfromher.No,she’s stillasleep Thissootheshimandheturnsbacktothewindow
Hiseyesplummetedintoavalley,rightalongthetraintracks,nearlyhiddenbythecanopyoftrees. Thwip Hownice,alittlecamou agedoasis There’salittleriverdownthere, owingslowlybutsurely Whatdoesitfeelliketowormyourwaythroughrocks,wearingthemdownintosmoothskipping stones?Onesthatwillbepickedupbychildrenandcallouslythrownbackintotheriver.Theydon’t understandtheyearsoferosion,theyearsofworkthatwentintothis.Doyoufeelhelpfulwhenthe doeleadsherfamilytodrinkatthebankoftheriver?Whataboutwhenafoxtriestoshimmyacross thatoldlogbridgingthegapbetweenthetworiverbanks,doyoufeelsorrywhentheyfallintoyour water,plungedintoitscoldness?Whentheteenagersslinkoutoftheirclothesandshriekastheypush eachotherin,doyou ghttheurgetowashtheirclothesrighto thevalleyandsendthemdownthe rivernevertobeseenagain?Orareyouhappytobepartoftheirjoy?Whataboutwhen
WOULDYOULIKECOFFEEORTEA?
Thetrainattendantishere He’sworriedsheknowswhat’sinsidehishead,she’swokenuptheold womanandthey’rebothgoingtolookdownonhimnow.
Heshakeshisheadtoridhimselfofthatideabuttheattendanttakesthatasapolitedeclinationofher warmbeveragesandpusheshercartawayafterhandingtheoldwomananEnglishBreakfasttea He thinksitsmellsnice,maybehewantedteatoobutthat’sokay,theattendantsawwhatwasactually there.Theoldwomanstirsabitassheclaspsherhandsaroundthewarmtea.Shelooksathimbut reallylooks,herwiseeyesregardinghimasifshewerewaitingforhimtosaysomething
Shewasprobablythinkinghelookeddirty,hishairstringy.Sheprobablywonderedwhyhewasevenon thistrain,whowouldmeethimatthestation?Sheprobablythoughtnoonewould.Heshookhishead again No,no,no.
Heshookhisheadsohardeverythingwentblack,everythinginhisperipheralvisionreducedtoasmall pinprickoflightthateventuallywentblacktoo.
Hisbreathingpickedupandhestartedblinkingrapidly,thwip,thwip,thwip.Thesewerenotthekinds ofmentalimageshewantedtokeep Hewrestledwiththestrapsofthevirtualrealityheadsetbefore rippingito hishead.Heknewhadaringaroundhiseyeslikesomesortofraccoon.That’showhe knewhe’dbeenintheretoolong.Hegentlyranhis ngersalongthedivotscreatedinhisface, nervouslywalkinghis ngersalongtheoutlineheknewtobe ushedred Hetossedtheheadsetaside asifitwasn’tsomeextraordinarilyexpensivepieceofequipmenthisstep-dadgiftedhimforhis twenty-thirdbirthday.Aweird‘Iunderstandwhattheyoungfolksareinto’typeofpresent.Strange thatthemanwhotoldhimhewastooimaginative,someonewhospenttoomuchtimeinhishead, wouldgifthimtheprospectofanalternatereality
Heturnedthelightso andclimbedbackintobed,lettingthelightpollutionfromthecityoutsidethe windowwashoverhim.Hekepthiseyesopen,afraidoftheemptyblacknesshewouldagainbemet withiftheyclosed Ifhetriedhardenough,thenoisycarsonthestreetbelowwouldbecomethelullof thetrainslowlymovingthroughthecountryside.Theash oatingpasthiswindowfromthegirls upstairssmokingtheircigarettesonthe reescapecouldbesnow,searchingfora nalrestingplaceon thetopsofgreenhills.Thelightsintheapartmentbuildingcouldbestarsandplanetsacrossthewayin theclearruralsky ‘Iseewhatisactuallythere,’hesoftlysaysoutloud,‘Iseewhatisactuallythere’ Ifhesaiditenough,maybeitwouldcometrue.
KirstinFuller
MikaylaYurman
Construction
MaryShawaker
I’mnothappyyou’rehere
Youpervadethestillsilence
Thatoncewas
Withdestructiveclamor
Youcuttheforestdown
Theshelteredhome
Ofbirdsandsquirrels
Rabbitsandraccoons
Thatisnowabarrenland
Ofbulldozersandsteelmachines
Whoclaimtobuildnewformsoflife
Whiledestroyingwhatwasreal
Whatwasalive
Whatwassacred
Whatwasmine
Andwhatcouldhavebeenyours
Justtobereplaced
Byaconcretedream
Hopelessandforgotten.
Stone
CarolNewhart
Thesetwohandsdon’tslip
Nurturingofthecrooktheyinhabit
Bruiseinhibited
Impactuntangled Just Skin On Rock
Forwhenairhitsstone, Morethanitcanshakeo , Idon’tknow
Lessstonetofumble,moredusttobreathe
End-Note
Thankyoutoeveryonewhomadethis nalissuepossible!SpecialthankstoAidan Cullen‘26whosegorgeousphotographisthecoverthisyear!
Keepbeinginspiredbytheworldaroundyou!
WithLove, AbbyNavin‘23