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Table of Contents Welcome Everyone to Kayleigh's Story .............. 5 April, 21st 2008 - Baby Update ........................... 5 May 8th, 2008..................................................... 6 Letter for Second Opinion .................................. 7 May 9th, 2008..................................................... 8 May 21st, 2008 ................................................... 9 May 28th, 2008................................................. 10 June 3rd, 2008 .................................................. 11 An E-mail No One Wants to Send ..................... 12 June 19th, 2008 ................................................ 13 Some Love Emails ............................................. 15 June 20th, 2008 ................................................ 16 Some More Love Emails ................................... 17 Aimee's Message Board Post 6/21/08 .............. 18 Love Letter to Adam 6/22/08 ........................... 19 Letter to Adam's Parents 6/22/08 .................... 21 June 23rd, 2008 A Night to Remember!!!......... 22 Recent Photos of .............................................. 23 New Photos ...................................................... 24 6/24/08 11:45 AM ............................................ 25 6/24/08 - 9:30PM ............................................. 26 Two Videos of Kayleigh ..................................... 28 6/26/08 Photos................................................. 28 6/27/08 - Making Progress! .............................. 29 6/28/08 - PEACE!!!............................................ 31 6/29/08 - My Beautiful Girls! ............................ 33 6/30/08 Happy ONE WEEK Birthday!!! ............. 34 7/1/08 - Headed In The Right Direction! .......... 35 7/2/08 - The Roller Coaster Continues! ............ 36 7/3/08 - Very Quiet Day, kind of....................... 37 7/4/08 - HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!! ........................ 38 7/5/08 - A New Best Friend .............................. 40 7/6/08 - What A Beautiful Day! ........................ 41 7/7/08 - Just Laying Around.............................. 44 7/8/08 - Kangaroo Care!!! ................................ 45 7/9/08 - Home Makeover!!! ............................. 47 7/11/08 - Sorry for not posting :-o ................... 49 7/11/08 - One Step Back................................... 49 7/12/08 - In Need of Prayers! ........................... 50 7/13/08 - Our New Goals.................................. 52
7/14/08 - Happy 3 Weeks Old .......................... 54 7/15/08 - Look at my hair!!! ............................. 55 7/16/08 - Quick update .................................... 56 7/17/08 DADDY GETS KANGAROO TIME!!!! ..... 56 7/18/08 - So Peaceful and Comfy ..................... 58 7/19/08 - Back on CPAP - Woo Hoo!!! .............. 59 7/20/08 - 3 IN A ROW!!!! .................................. 61 HAPPY 4 WEEKS OLD!!!! ................................... 62 7/22/08 - Daddy's in Love ................................. 63 7/23/08 - Gett'n Blood ..................................... 65 7/24/08 - We've Banded Together ................... 66 7/25/08 - Making Progress & AWESOME IDEA!!! .......................................................................... 67 7/26/08 - Our Hands ......................................... 69 7/27/08 One Step Back ..................................... 70 7/28/08 - Just a Bump in the Road, No Problem!! .......................................................................... 71 7/29/08 - A Perfect Day, Almost. ...................... 73 Taking a night off :) ........................................... 73 7/31/08 - NICU EDUCATION ............................. 74 Kayleigh the Plumber :) .................................... 77 8/5/08 LOOK WHO'S OFF THE CPAP!!!!!........... 79 8/6/08 First Family Photo ................................. 80 8/7/08 Mommy's Turn ..................................... 82 8/8/08 - Congratulations Wade and Ferris!!! ... 84 8/9/08 - Quiet Day ............................................ 86 8/10/08 - NEED YOUR PRAYERS!!! .................... 87 8/11/08 - Change in Diet .................................. 88 8/12/08 - DAY 50!!! .......................................... 91 8/13/08 - TWO POUNDS!!! ............................... 91 A Chance To Give Hope! ................................... 93 8/15/08 - What a day!!! .................................... 94 8/16/08 - One more day! .................................. 96 8/17/08 - More Baby Drama! ........................... 98 8/18/08 - Started Feeds Again!! ..................... 100 8/19/08 - What a day :) .................................. 101 8/20/08 - Here's a couple laughs!!! ................ 104 8/21/08 - GREAT NEWS!!! .............................. 104 8/22/08 - Moving On Up!!! ............................. 106 8/23/08 - 2 MONTHS OLD!!!........................... 106
8/24/08 WHAT A CRAZY DAY!!!!..................... 107 8/25/08 - Eye Surgery Scheduled ................... 108 8/26/08 - Chance of Blindness? ...................... 110 8/27/08 - Surgery Is Complete!!! .................... 112 8/28/08 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIMEE!!! ............ 114 8/29/08 - Doing GREAT!!! ............................... 115 8/30/08 First Bottle ........................................ 117 8/31/08 - Tummy Troubles Again ................... 118 9/1/08 - Stressful Day ..................................... 118 9/2/08 - What is going on? ............................. 120 9/3/08 - AMAZING!!!! ..................................... 121 9/4/08 - ADVICE NEEDED!!!!! ......................... 124 9/5/08 - Things Are Looking Up! ..................... 125 9/6/08 - Another Pleasant Day :) .................... 127 9/7/08 - Making Some Progress ..................... 127 9/9/08 - Dance Faster!!! ................................. 128 9/9/08 - What a Beautiful Day!!! .................... 129 9/10/08 - One Step Back...Again..................... 132 9/11/08 - Breast Milk Here We Come :) ......... 133 9/12/08 - Thank you!!! ................................... 133 9/13/08 - Ooops, Guess what??? ................... 135 9/14/08 - Inspired ........................................... 137 9/16/08 - New Idea!!! ..................................... 138 A Wild 24 Hours!!! .......................................... 139 9/18/08 - Surgery Scheduled .......................... 142 9/19/08 - Post Surgery Update ....................... 143 9/20/08 - Slowly Recovering ........................... 145 9/21/08 - Today.... .......................................... 147 9/22/08 - You Like My New Mittens??? ......... 147 9/23/08 - The Wrong Direction ...................... 148 9/24/08 - The Doctor's thoughts .................... 149 9/25/08 - Making Progress ............................. 151 WHAT A DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! .................................. 151 9/27/08 - Back for More ................................. 154 9/28/08 - Keep The Good Days Coming :) ...... 156 9/29/08 - Work in Progress... ......................... 157 9/30/08 - Another Great Day!!! ...................... 158 10/1/08 - HAPPY 100TH DAY!!!! ..................... 160 10/2/08 - 1st Attempt .................................... 161 10/3/08 - Very Peaceful!!!!............................. 162
10/4/08 - Thank God for Good Days :)............ 163 10/5/08 - Grow Baby Grow!!! ......................... 164 10/6/08 - Progressive Care in Sight, Maybe!!! 164 10/7/08 - Happy Anniversary!!! ...................... 165 10/8/08 - NEW HOME!!!................................. 167 10/9/08 - The Shield Worked!!!! .................... 168 10/10/08 - It's About Time!!!! ........................ 170 10/13/08 - Brown Eyed Girl!!! ........................ 171 10/13/08 - What a Special Day!!! ................... 173 A Chance to Give Hope ................................... 174 10/15/08 - Perfect Day! .................................. 176 10/16/08 - Chubby Cheeks ............................. 178 10/18/08 - Doing Great! ................................. 179 10/18/08 - A NEARLY PERFECT DAY!!! ............ 180 10/19/08 - Just Speechless! ............................ 180 10/20/08 - Then and Now .............................. 181 10/21/08 - Surgery Postponed ....................... 185 10/22/08 - NEW CASA!!!................................. 187 10/23/08 - 4 Months Old!!! ............................ 191 10/24/08 (3:15pm) Surgery Update - Prayers Needed Badly!!! .............................................. 192 10/25/08 - Hanging In There .......................... 194 10/26/08 - Slow and Steady ........................... 196 10/27/08 - A Week To Recover....................... 198 10/28/08 - Hanging Tight! .............................. 199 10/29/08 - The Cure!!!.................................... 201 10/30/08 - Almost There!!! ............................ 202 10/31/08 HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! .................... 204 11/1/08 - Thank you! ...................................... 206 11/2/08 - Family ............................................. 207 SURGERY SCHEDULED!!! ................................. 208 Eastern Standard Time - Post #2 Today .......... 209 11/3/08 - Night Before Surgery ...................... 210 11/4/08 - 3:54am - Good Morning ................. 213 11/4/08 - 8:45am - Surgery Is Under Way!!! .. 213 11/4/08 - 11:05am - Surgery Update .............. 214 11/4/08 - 12:45pm - Surgery Update ............. 214 11/4/08 - 1:49pm Surgery Update.................. 215 11/4/08 - 3:03pm - Post Surgery Update........ 215 11/4/08 - 8:45pm - CVICU .............................. 216 11/5/08 - 10:00am - FANTASTIC!!!!!............... 218 11/5/08 - 2:11pm - Her Chest is Closed!!! ...... 218
11/5/08 - 10:54pm - Time to Work!!! ............. 220 11/6/08 - 10:56am - So Far So Good!!!........... 221 Quiet Day...shhhh ........................................... 221 11/7/08 - 2:05pm - Quick Update ................... 223 11/7/08 - 9:58 - Slow Down... ......................... 224 11/8/08 - 10:23 - New Sign + New Order + New Project ............................................................ 226 11/8/08 - 6:53 - The Vent is Gone!!!............... 227 11/9/08 - 9:00 - "GOOOODMORNING" .......... 230 At Loss For Words... ........................................ 230 11/10/08 - 10:37 - Mov'n On Up!!!................. 231 11/10/08 - Last Night in the CVICU!!! ............. 233 11/11/08 - GREAT DAY & GREAT NEWS!!! ...... 235 11/12/08 - Goodbye NICU...Hello NPCN!!!!!!! 237 11/13/08 - GRAB YOUR BUTTON!!! ................ 243 11/14/08 - Off Limits :) ................................... 245 11/15/08 - Post-poned :) ................................ 248 11/16/08 - Baby Shower ................................. 249 11/17/08 - Getting Closer!!! ........................... 251 11/19/08 - Superstition or Coincidence? ........ 253 CONT......3:30AM - PLEASE PRAY!!!!!.............. 254 11/19/08 - 6:11pm - Update........................... 254 11/20/08 - 2:02pm - Update........................... 256 11/20/08 - 5:37 - Another Episode ................. 256 11/20/08 - Problem Solved...Hopefully! ......... 257 11/21/08 9:00pm - 2 Problems - 1 Empty Seat ........................................................................ 258 11/22/08 2:38 - HAPPY 5 MONTHS OLD KAYLEIGH!!! .................................................... 259 11/23/08 - Sleepy Peanut ............................... 262 11/24/08 - Quick Update ................................ 263 11/26/08 - HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!! ............ 263 Thanks Levine Children's Hospital & WCNC!!! 264 11/28/08 - Happy POST Thanksgiving!!! ......... 265 11/29/08 - Writer's Block Cured ..................... 270 11/30/08 - Progress??? Just Maybe! .............. 271 12/1/08 - Aimee Needs Some Prayers ............ 274 12/2/08 - Game Plan! ..................................... 275 12/3/08 - Major Gains or Faulty Scale? .......... 276 12/4/08 - Grave's Disease + Another Episode = Very Rough Day .............................................. 277 12/5/08 - Answers .......................................... 278
12/8/08 - Spread the Word ............................ 281 12/9/08 - A Little Bit Of Fun!!! ........................ 284 PLEASE DONATE SOMETHING!!!!! .................. 290 ON THE AIR!!! ................................................. 291 11/13/08 - Light 102.9 Radiothon Success!!! . 291 12/15/08 - One Last Chance ........................... 295 12/16/08 - The Smallest, Biggest Miracle from God ................................................................. 296 12/18/08 - Thank you :) .................................. 297 12/18/08 - 10:53am - A Glimmer of Hope!!! .. 298 12/18/08 - 10:25pm - Answered Prayers!!! .... 299 cont...Ways to help!!! ..................................... 301 12/19/08 - WHAT A DAY!!! ............................. 301 12/20/08 - Look Who's Awake!!! .................... 302 12/21/08 - Plan of Care!!!............................... 304 12/22/08 - Quiet and Peaceful Day ................ 305 12/23/08 - Photos........................................... 306 12/24/08 - A Christmas Miracle!!! .................. 311 Cont... ............................................................. 312 12/25/08 - MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! 313 12/27/08 - Giving Back!!! ............................... 317 12/28/08 - Set in Stone!!! ............................... 318 12/29/08 - Need Prayers + Procedure Cancelled ........................................................................ 320 12/30/08 - Progress!! ..................................... 320 The Answer to my problem! ........................... 321 1/3/09 - Great Start!!! .................................... 321 1/6/09 - THANK YOU! ..................................... 328 See It To Believe It!!! ...................................... 335 One Tough Cookie!!!....................................... 337 1/15/09 - Pass Your Test ................................. 339 1/19/09 - Post Bronchoscopy Procedure ........ 342 1/21/09 - Praying for Good News!!! ............... 343 1/23/08 - LOOK WHO'S TALKING!!! ................ 346 1/24/09 - Picture Perfect ................................ 349 1/27/09 - Still Waiting..................................... 351 1/28/09 - Confirmed ....................................... 352 1/30/09 - Opening Up ..................................... 354 1/31/09 - Letters for Kayleigh and Leelou's Baby Shower ............................................................ 355 2/1/09 - Calm Before the Storm ..................... 356 2/2/09 Post Tracheostomy Surgery ................ 359
2/6/09 - What It's ALL About!! ....................... 360 LeeLou's Virtual Baby Shower ........................ 362 It Has Begun :) ................................................ 362 2/10/09 - "THOUGHTFUL THURSDAYS" .......... 362 2/11/09 - MORE EXCITING NEWS!!! ............... 364 2/13/09 - Big Girl Bed!!! ................................. 365 2/16/09 - One Blessed Dad!!! ......................... 365 2/18/09 - WXII Channel 12 News ................... 367 2/19/09 - "THOUGHTFUL THURSDAYS" .......... 367 LOOK AT ME NOW .......................................... 368 2/23/09 - Happy 8 Month Birthday Kayleigh!!! ........................................................................ 370 EXCITING NEWS!! ........................................... 371 MSNBC "LIVE" ................................................. 372 Delayed ........................................................... 373 2/26/09 "Thoughtful Thursdays" .................... 374 Kayleigh - IN THE NEWS .................................. 375 THIS IS A REMINDER ....................................... 375 Are You Sitting Down??? ................................ 375 3/2/09 - What A Blessing!! ............................. 377 3/3/09 - DONATION GIVEAWAY ..................... 381 "To Do or Not To Do"...................................... 382 3/5/09 - "Thoughtful Thursdays" .................... 384 3/8/09 - Stealing Kisses................................... 385 3/10/08 - GIVEAWAY UPDATE ........................ 387 3/12/09 - Thoughtful Thursday ...................... 388 3/13/09 - Sitting - Waiting - Praying ............... 389 3/17/09 - Clock Starts Now (Again) ................ 390 3/19/09 - Thoughtful Thursday ...................... 391 3/24/09 - Sleeping Beauty :) ........................... 395 3/26/09 - Donation Total - Need of Prayers ... 397 3/27/09 - Surgery Scheduled .......................... 398 4/1/09 - 9 Months in Review .......................... 399 4/2/09 - A Chance to Help/Thoughtful Thursday ........................................................................ 402 4/2/09 - NEW PLAN - PLEASE PRAY ................ 402 4/3/09 - Biopsy Completed ............................. 404 4/5/09 - "NEGATIVE" ...................................... 404 4/6/09 - POSTPONED ...................................... 405 4/8/09 - Quick update .................................... 405 4/9/09 - "Thoughtful Thursday" ..................... 406 4/12/09 - HAPPY EASTER!!! ............................ 407
4/14/09 - Back on Track.................................. 410 4/16/09 - "Thankful Thursday" ....................... 411 4/17/09 - Let's Try this Again .......................... 414 4/18/09 - Post-Operation Update .................. 415 4/20/09 - Where Are You Praying From???.... 416 4/21/09 - Please Lord, Help Us!!! ................... 417 4/22/09 - "Our Sweet Little Girl" .................... 419 4/25/09 - We Are Lost .................................... 420 4/25/09 - God's Hand ..................................... 421 4/27/09 - Guest Blogger - Brent Riggs ............ 423 4/28/09 - Thank You ....................................... 426 4/30/09 - Daddy's Little Girl ........................... 427 5/1/09 - "I'll Praise You In This Storm" ........... 428 5/2/09 - Thank You! ........................................ 432 5/3/09 - Peacefully Sleeping ........................... 433 5/5/09 - A Family Again .................................. 433 5/6/09 - "Your Love Is So ................................ 436 5/8/09 - Someway, Somehow, Someday ........ 437 5/9/09 - Every Step Of The Way ..................... 438 5/10/09 - Happy Mother's Day ....................... 439 5/11/09 - Goodbye Sweetheart...for now. ..... 440 Memorial Information .................................... 442 5/13/09 - Update on Memorial ...................... 442 5/16/09 - We Love You!.................................. 443 5/18/09 - BEAUTIFUL ...................................... 443 5/22/09 - Thank You Faith .............................. 450 5/28/09 - A New Journey ................................ 450 6/1/09 - Butterfly............................................ 451 6/4/09 - Family Check-Ups ............................. 452 6/21/09 - HAPPY FATHER'S DAY ..................... 454 6/23/09 - Happy Birthday Sweet Kayleigh ...... 455 7/3/09 - Flying Without Wings ....................... 456 7/14/09 - Butterfly Kisses :) ............................ 458 7/29/09 - Dinner with Family.......................... 458
Kayleigh's Story were going to bring home a very nice souvenire. Little did we know that we were about to experience the world's most scary and exciting roller coaster of our lives. From New Years when we received a positive pregnancy test to the beginning of April, everything was fantastic. We went to our normal Doctors visits and followed every single direction we were given to a "T". Everything was perfect as we imagined until Aimee went in to take an AFP exam. The AFP test tells us there is a chromosome issue, but doesn't tell us what chromosome issue it is. The AFP came back abnormal and the Ultra Sound showed our baby growing a couple weeks behind. We were devestated!!! "How could this be! We are good people, so why could this happen to us." Those were the words that we spoke for days. So, our next route was the get an amniocentesis done which is something we wish on no one. It involves a long needle and the possibility of really hurting the baby. Aimee cramped really bad afterwards and was in serious pain. The test is suppose to clarify which chromosome issue our little baby has. So from there, all there was to do was wait to hear the results and waiting was hell!
6/24/2008 3:26:00 PM
Welcome Everyone to Kayleigh's Story
6/24/2008 6:39:00 PM
April, 21st 2008 - Baby Update
Hello Everyone, Aimee and I wanted to put something together for all of those we send updates to and for those who are just joining us and want to join the journey of Kayleigh's story. Our first baby update was sent out April, 21st 2008 but it all began on December 18 at a hotel at Disney World in Orlando Florida. Aimee told me not to go in to details but a long story short, we
Hey everyone. We want to thank everyone again for all of their kind words, thoughts, & prayers. They have meant the world to us! 5
Kayleigh's Story We heard back from the doctor late this afternoon & we are once again in shock. For now at least, it is a happy shock. It appears that the initial results from the amniocentesis came back normal. That means that it is 98% accurate that the baby will not have Down's Syndrome, Trisomy 13 or 18, X or Y. The full results won't be back for 10-14 days but we are happy with what we have heard so far. Of course, there is still no explanation for why the baby is growing 2-3 weeks behind schedule or if there may be a heart or bowel defect. We are getting scheduled for a fetal echocardiogram for possibly late this week. The cardiologist will examine the baby's heart more in depth & hopefully we can get some more answers after that. We will then have our routine doctor visit & a follow up level 2 ultrasound on May 8th. We are praying that the baby will have grown a lot more by then. When we had the ultrasound last week the doctor mentioned that I had a thick placenta so I asked a few more questions about that today. It seems that the baby may not be getting the nutrients that it needs because the placenta is so thick. If that is the case the baby may come much sooner than expected if it goes into any kind of distress & will have a decent chance to live on the outside or if I start to become affected. Again, we are praying that it doesn't have to come down to that either. We are hoping that this baby will just be as stubborn as I am & will be healthy & happy! LOL We are certainly not out of the woods yet & feel that all of the prayers have brought us a miracle. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts & prayers & we will continue to update everyone as we know more.
you can see we dropped the A from Patti's name & added it to my mom's middle name. So, it has meaning with a few modifications. LOL Thank you all again for everything that you have done for us. We are so blessed to have all of you in our lives!
6/24/2008 6:40:00 PM
May 8th, 2008
Oh, one last thing. We were able to find out the sex of the baby. We were so thankful & excited by the news that we had to call the doctor back to find out what we were having. As it turns out, we will be welcoming a little girl into our family. Her name will be Kayleigh Anne Freeman. Kaye is Adam's mother's middle name, Leigh is my middle name, & Ann is my mother's middle name. As
Hello Everyone, Well, I don't know where to begin. Today was not a good day for 6
Kayleigh's Story Aimee and I. We went for our follow up appointment with the level 2 ultra sound Doctors to check the progress of little Kayleigh. It turns out that in the past three weeks, she has only grown two of those weeks. So instead of being 3 weeks behind, she is now 4 weeks behind. We are happy to see that she is still growing and her heart is beating strong. She must be a fighter like her Daddy.
far. We can only hope she continues to fight.
On a rough note, the doctor noticed that the level of amniotic fluid was very low and there isn't much room for her in the placenta. The placenta has also torn a little off the uterine wall meaning signs that the body could be rejecting the birth process because of some problem that no one can answer for us yet. So, Aimee had to draw blood once again to have a series of tests to maybe find out what the issue is that is causing little Kayleigh all these problems. We won't find out for a week the results, but from the Doctors mouth...time is drifting away in the wrong direction and they don't think she will survive this fight much longer. Aimee and I are only praying that the Doctor is wrong once again. Our Doctor was very confident before that it was a chromosome issue, heart issue and bowel issue, but the tests proved otherwise. Now she thinks the odds are not in our favor because of how far behind she is getting and the lack of amniotic fluid. Aimee and I were hoping that Kayleigh would grow big enough to live outside the womb early and get the medical treatment/nutrients she needs, but the Doctor doesn't think Kayleigh is going to make it to that point.
6/24/2008 6:41:00 PM
Thank you all so very much!
Letter for Second Opinion I sent this out to 5 perinatologist that had emails online for a second opinion. I hope that you don't mind me emailing you as I came across your email address on this website....http://www.smfm.org/index.cfm?zone=search&nav=doc tor. I would like to tell you about my situation & I am hoping that you have some advice or can see us ASAP. I am currently 21.6 weeks pregnant. I am being seen by Charlotte OB/GYN & a Maternal Fetal Medicine doctor at the Women's Institute. I went to my OB for my regular ultrasound 4 weeks ago. The tech told me that our baby was 1.5-2 weeks behind on growth but that everything looked fine otherwise. My midwife noticed our anxiety & scheduled a level 2 at the Women's Institute. We also had the AFP test done at that time. The results came back showing high risk for both Spina Bifida & Downs. We went to the level 2 appointment & our little girl was then measuring 3 weeks behind. The doctor told us that she thought there may be a bowel issue & a hole in the heart aside from the IUGR. So, we had an amnio & scheduled to see the pediatric cardiologist. Dr. Benske at Sanger
We are trying to keep a fighting spirit anyways and need your prayers more than ever before. Our next step is to go to our now "weekly" appointments to either find out if Kayleigh has made it another week closer to getting out of there or if she just wasn't strong enough to hold on. We appreciate all of your thoughts and prayers so far and we only ask that you keep them coming. I feel with the help of all your prayers so far, she made it through this so 7
Kayleigh's Story didn't see anything wrong with the heart at that time but scheduled a 6 week follow up for 6/5/8 when Kayleigh would be bigger & he could see more. The amnio results came in & showed that there were no chromosome problems. So now we are left without cause. We went in for our routine checkup with the OB on Tuesday & they couldn't find the heartbeat. We thought that we had lost our Kayleigh. However, once they grabbed the ultrasound machine we were able to find a beating heart. Her rate was only 124 but she was sleeping. Today we went in for a follow up level 2 ultrasound. Everything still looked good with the baby. No problems that they could see with her except for the IUGR. In the last 3 weeks she has only grown 2 of them. I thought from our last appointment that any growth would be positive but that is not what we were told today. In addition, my amniotic fluid has drastically decreased. I am not sure what the level is as I didn't think to ask that question. Lastly, my placenta has detached a bit & has some old blood gathered. With all of these things together we were basically told that there are VERY high odds that Kayleigh won't survive. Maybe not even past a week. We are now scheduled to go to the OB every week to check the heartbeat. We were not offered anything that could help & were told flat out that there is nothing that we can do & I am tonight finding that there are in fact options. I also asked about bed rest & was told to not put my life on hold & to do what makes me feel good. My OB suggested that I have blood drawn for a TORCH titer which I did today. I had also seen research online that said that treatments were available if there were infections but when I asked this today I was told there are no remedies. I really hate to "complain" about my treatment but I feel certain that if a doctor told any of us that we would die we would get a second opinion. Unfortunately, I do not think my baby has very much time. I am not sure if I am in denial or if it is just intuition but I just don't feel that it is Kayleigh's time to go.
Please contact me ASAP if you know of ANYTHING that we could do, any doctor that we could see, or any advice. We are grasping at anything that we can. Thank you so much for your time.
6/24/2008 6:42:00 PM
May 9th, 2008 Hello Again Everyone, After our appointment yesterday, we got a lot of words of 8
Kayleigh's Story encouragement and success stories from Aimee's message board that she is apart of. Those mothers were so wonderful with all the nice things they had to say and the positive influence they left on us. We were both on a positive high that we decided to get a second opinion with another doctor. The Doctor was wonderful and so much more trusting than the others we had met with. We actually ended up getting in this afternoon to see the Doctor and unfortunately the news was not what we were hoping to hear. They also think that Kayleigh is not going to make it much longer.
6/24/2008 6:47:00 PM
May 21st, 2008 We went to see the MFM (Maternal Fetal Medicine - Specialist) doctor today & I have some updates. I think I will start with the less than good news first. They are now seeing some fluid all around Kayleigh's heart. (Pericardial Effusion) He did not see this before so he is concerned as to why it started. It could possibly mean that we are moving closer to an outcome that is not favorable. When the tech looked at things in the beginning she saw this as well but felt good about some other things that I will mention in a second. She said that she hates to give us a hope but she was feeling more positive. She did say that if the baby makes it to viability & delivery that this can be drained after. The big question is whether we will get to that point. So, on to the better news. Are you sitting down? She grew 2 weeks out of 2 weeks! She was 6oz two weeks ago (they told us 7oz that day) & now she is 9oz. In grams she was 192 & now 269. He said that this is good growth for a 2 week period. I am so thrilled that she grew the expected amount in the expected time for once. Last time it was 2 out of 3 weeks & now 2 out of 2. Seems like things might be getting better. The fluid has stayed about the same. There may possibly be a slight bit more. She found another small pocket that she didn't measure & Kayleigh's bladder was full. Woo hoo! Maybe we are doing something right but we know that we owe a lot of it to all of your prayers. They also checked the blood flow from the placenta. There was a break in the pattern before which really hasn't changed. The good
We are going to still do everything we can to stay positive, but there is a probably less than 1% chance she will make it to a viable state. She is around 200 grams in weight and to be at a viable state, she has to be over 700 grams. A normal healthy baby will grow around 50-70 grams in a week and since Kayleigh's growth has slowed down, we may be lucky she grows 40 grams in a week. With a amniotic fluid level of 3.2 (which is considered "none" in their eyes. 9+ is average and 15+ is normal), Kayleigh is not producing enough fluid to survive an estimated 2-3 weeks, if that. With her growth state, that would mean Kayleigh would have to hang in there for 12-13 weeks before the Doctors could take her out. We can just only hope and pray that a miracle will keep her alive long enough. Right now, the only thing left to do is enjoy her while she is still alive, fight until the end and trust that God knows what he is doing. We are not quite sure what God's plan for Kayleigh is, but we hope that this experience has helped someone somewhere realize how precious life can be. No matter how horrible the odds are against you, fight hard and never give up until God says it is time. Thank you all so much for your prayers, as we need them more than ever to make this miracle happen. 9
Kayleigh's Story news is that there isn't reverse flow at this point. Which would mean that she has to come out & she isn't ready. We discussed steroids which he actually brought up before me so that made me feel good. Nobody here likes to do follow up shots so they don't want to do it until she is close to viability in weight. He said that we need to get to 500g first. He may do it a little before if we expect her to grow to 500g before delivery. He would also want to check with the neonatologist first as well. Overall he said that if it weren't for this heart issue he would be feeling a lot more positive. We discussed how often I should be seen & we agreed on every two weeks. There isn't much need to go sooner because she isn't big enough in weight to survive if we take her out. We may increase monitoring or appts. later. We do go back to the Pediatric Cardiologist on the 5th & then another level 2 ultrasound the next day so hopefully things won't get worse before then. Plus, I will also be 26 weeks that day & hopefully she will grow at least another 80g in two weeks. I am going to keep doing all that I am doing. Besides, being on milkshakes & fatty foods isn't so bad. LOL Staying positive & praying is the key! Thank you again for all of your thoughts & prayers. They are working!
had noticed some fluid around her heart that was cause for concern. After I sent the email I did some research online & started to get more & more worried. I had actually gotten more upset than previous bad news visits. Adam wasn't home so I was able to be sad without bringing him down as well. I have been so positive & he has stayed positive with me so I didn't want to let my worry bring him down. I emailed my doctor & he told me that the fluid was significant & gave me an amount of 5mm of fluid. From what I had seen online that was a pretty bad sign. They suggested that a large amount of fluid like that could mean that she is in the beginning phases of passing due to heart failure. Needless to say we began to freak out. I called my doctors the next day to rearrange some appointments. I pushed the pediatric cardiologist until today because our original appointment wasn't until next week. I figured that if the fluid wasn't there two weeks before then I wasn't going to wait two more weeks to have a specialist look at it.
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May 28th, 2008 When I wrote my update last week I was so excited that Kayleigh had grown 2 weeks out of 2 weeks & that the amniotic fluid had not decreased even though it stayed the same. However, the doctor 10
Kayleigh's Story that. She was 269g last week. He also said that a "healthy" baby should gain 20g per day at this point. If we were lucky enough then she would be 489g when we go back for another ultrasound next Tuesday. Since she has been growing small we are hoping for 1015g/day. We also discussed that since the blood flow from the placenta is not good but stable that once she is at a viable size of at least 500g that I may go on hospital bedrest to be monitored. That way if there is an unexpected change we can have an emergency csection. Adam & I are thinking that this could take place around 6/10 if she grows 10-15g each day. I am glad that I will be able to work because that will save me from boredom. Adam could go on appointments but I can maintain our client load that we have now. We also have other staff that could take over if we can't maintain the service that we give now. What does all of this mean? It means that all of your prayers & thoughts have played a major part in Kayleigh's growth & health. We believe that the fluid was probably there last week & now it is gone. She wasn't growing & now she is. The amniotic fluid was going away & now it is staying the same. The blood flow from the placenta was getting worse & it is also staying the same. We couldn't have gotten here without all of you, your prayers, & God. We still have a really tough road ahead of us so please don't stop your prayers. We are keeping our fingers crossed that next week we can break the trend & get good news two appointments in a row.
So, we went to see the pediatric cardiologist today. Are you sitting down? He didn't see the pericardial effusion (fluid around the heart) that the ultrasound tech or the doctor saw last week! He said that he heart looks fine from what he can see. The heart rate is good, the squeezing of the heart is right, & there doesn't appear to be anything wrong structurally. We are beside ourselves. We are so happy but at the same time, every good news has also brought bad news so we are just waiting to see what is next. Could it be that there is a conspiracy going on with all of our doctors. LOL Yesterday we had a visit with a neonatologist (baby specialist). They will be the ones treating Kayleigh once she is born. Gosh, it sounds so nice to start planning for a birth. He also didn't sound very positive but he also thought that there was fluid around the heart. He said that she needs to be at least 500g to have a chance because their equipment isn't small enough to handle a baby smaller than
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It is with deep sadness that I send this update today. We went to see the specialist again today for our two week ultrasound. When I last updated, Kayleigh had grown two weeks out of two weeks, the amniotic fluid stayed the same, & nothing else changed except for the fluid around her heart. We now know that the fluid isn't a big deal so we expected decent to good news today. As it turns out Ms. Kayleigh hasn't grown at all in the last two weeks. However, the amniotic fluid continues to stay the same. She is still 10oz. & she should be about 28oz. by now. Plus, it appears that the flow of blood from the placenta has now gone from absent to intermittent reverse flow. This is not a good sign. The doctor said that this is not something that usually gets better, it gets worse. If it goes to continuous reverse flow, Kayleigh will surely pass away. Nobody can say how long this will take so we are hoping & praying that she will grow enough before that happens so that we can take her out & test our chances on her survival outside the womb. I have to say that it is hard to remain positive with this devastating news. We are certainly not going to deliver her before she has a minimal chance to survive so now we are just playing the waiting game. We are going to keep doing all that we are doing & hope that God will answer our prayers. Even though I am not ready to say it out loud, I know that everything happens for a reason & God has his plan. It is just unfortunate that sometimes it hurts so much. I know that Kayleigh's story has given so many people hope & inspiration but I hope that can continue in life & not death.
An E-mail No One Wants to Send Faith, I was led to the NILMDTS website by another mother. To make a really long story short after a really bad day, I am 25.4 weeks pregnant & our baby is not expected to survive. I am attaching a link to my post on the Babycenter.com in case you want to read about our story. http://boards.babycenter.com/n/pfx/forum.aspx?tsn=1&nav=mess ages&webtag=bcus6669&tid=7540. I am pretty sure that we would be interested in your service but I have to say that I feel a little guilty even considering that the doctors might be right this time. You see, they expected Kayleigh to be gone by now but I never listened. I have been very positive until today when we found out that she hasn't grown at all in 2 weeks & she was already 4 weeks behind. The doctors expect things to get worse & not to get better at all. Our goal now is to pray that she gets big enough to have a chance to deliver her alive. She has a long way to go before we get there. Probably 3-4 weeks at minimum. In the event that doesn't happen I think that I would like to have some great photographic memories. I would not only love it if they were professional but everyone around us will be grieving with us so we don't know how or who to ask to help us capture those potentially last moments with our daughter. Can you help?
Please continue to keep us in your thoughts & prayers. It seems that we need it now more than ever. I know that we keep asking this but it is all that we can do to not feel completely helpless. Thank you all so much for your support. We often depend on it.
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Thank you so much for offering this service & taking the time to write back to me. We really appreciate it.
June 19th, 2008
From: Faith Massey [mailto:imagesbyfaith@carolina.rr.com] Sent: Wednesday, June 04, 2008 2:40 PMTo: 'Aimee Freeman'Subject: RE: Hello Faith
Hey everyone. I hope that you all aren't worrying about us too much. I know that many of you knew that we had an appointment on Tuesday & today is Thursday.
Aimee, I cannot even fathom the suffering you are going through. I have been reading your post at babycenter and I am just heartbroken for you. I do have to say though that God is in control, not the doctors. Don’t ever give up, just based on what they say. My husband and I were told we could not have children together and we have 6 now. (2 from a previous marriage and one is adopted), but he has 3 biological children against the odds so stay strong. I would be more than happy to do anything I can to help you. In the event of a miracle and she is born alive, I would be happy to come photograph her in the NICU or at the hospital as well. If tragically she does not make it and you have to be induced please just call me as soon as possible so I can arrange to be there for you. If you want to talk about it more and understand what kind of options you have please give me a call anytime. My home phone is (704) 766-0669 Many Blessings and lots of prayers coming your way!
When I woke up on Tuesday morning I had some really bad back & right side pain. I tried to wait it out thinking that Kayleigh was just sitting on a nerve or something. The pain got increasingly worse over the next few minutes so we called the doctor. I am not a medicine taker & I certainly don't like the hospital so I have to be REALLY hurting or worried to take that step. I am very familiar with how contractions feel & I didn't think that was what was going on but nothing about this pregnancy has been normal so it was a possibility. I was supposed to go in at 11:15 for the ultrasound appointment but we were told to go to my regular OB's office. We got there at 9:30am after a long drive to the hospital. It is only a 20 minute drive but it felt like hours. I was unable to sit or lay down so I was on the floor in the waiting room hunched over a chair. We were finally called back to be seen & the same thing, I couldn't even sit on the exam table. The doctor found Kayleigh's heartbeat as well as another finding. My ovaries are the size of tennis balls with many cysts on them. Ouch! He wanted to send me to labor & delivery to be monitored & to monitor Kayleigh.
Faith Massey www.imagesbyfaith.com
We got into the room & I still couldn't sit in the bed. Fortunately I only had to wait about 15 minutes before the extreme pain would be gone. I had a nice mix of Demerol & Phenergan. I have never had pain medicine through an IV so I didn't realize that it would be 13
Kayleigh's Story working within a minute. The nurse told me that I would get drowsy but geez. I couldn't see anything two minutes later LOL I stayed in that room for several hours & everything was looking good with Kayleigh. I had been monitored for probably 4 hours & they confirmed that I was not having contractions. Yeah! This was good news because we still didn't know how big Kayleigh had grown. So, why am I having this pain? I was sent to radiology for a renal ultrasound. (to check my kidneys) They thought that I might have a kidney stone. They got the results back & nothing again! Now I am thinking that I am going to be a medical mystery too.
jumped off of his chair & asked for him to repeat it. She grew 200 grams since the last ultrasound two weeks ago. She is considered viable now. My amniotic fluid also went up to 4.7 which is the highest it has been in 9 weeks. He checked for several minutes & can see no signs of reverse flow from the placenta. All of our worries are gone! As you can imagine we are overwhelmed with joy & in a state of shock. We have been told for nearly 10 weeks that we would never get to this point. To make things even better, I have been feeling Kayleigh move like crazy. It started on Sunday night after we got home from visiting with Adam's parents. I guess Kayleigh gave daddy his first Father's Day present. I felt a bunch of little movement & then both of us got to feel two huge kicks. Ever since then she has been beating me up. I love it though. I know she is okay when I feel her move.
Since we knew that nothing was going on with Kayleigh they moved me upstairs to the OB high risk unit. I would be staying the night here. I continued getting shot up with drugs every 3-4 hours so I was doing okay. Adam stayed with me the entire time. I really appreciate him being here but I hardly said 5 words to him the whole day because I was on vacation in never never land. We went to bed early that night & got up early yesterday morning. It is hard to sleep through the night with doctors & nurses coming in to take vitals & give meds. Lucky for me that the meds put me to sleep.
So, what is next? We are going to be seen twice a week for monitoring so if something goes downhill, we can take her out. We also will get an ultrasound every week instead of every two. Now the only thing left to deal with is this pain. Nobody is sure what is going on except for that I can be feeling the tenderness of the swollen ovaries. The doctor said that they looked like the ovaries of someone who had fertility treatments. He doesn't think that it is anything to worry about. Except for the pain of course. It is possible that all of her moving around is hurting them. I don't have enough amniotic fluid to protect them. Last night I thought she was treating them like a speed bag. Just punching them over & over. LOL I am hoping to get sprung today but not without a nice prescription. I have hardly handled sitting here in this bed & I know that once I go home I will find other things to do & I won't rest the same way. At least I have my computer so that I can work & touch base with everyone.
At 9am yesterday the doctor came in & told me that we would see how the day goes to determine if I will be sleeping here again. He also ordered the ultrasound & said that they should be in at any moment. I tried not to take any pain medication after that because I wanted to be alert for the ultrasound. When they still didn't show up at 3:30 I couldn't wait. I had a half dose this time which didn't even tough my pain. At 6pm they came in & gave me my full dose. I was pretty much drifting off when there was finally a knock at the door. Woo hoo the ultrasound guy is here! He was doing the scan for a few minutes checking everything out & seeing her movements when we just blurted out how big she was. Are you sitting down.............469 grams (16.5oz or 1lb) ! I can't believe it & Adam
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Kayleigh's Story grow as much as she did so this is certainly a miracle. We are not out of the woods yet but we can see the light. I just know that this time we are going to break the pattern & not get bad news. We can't wait for you all to meet Kayleigh. You may not get to hold her though because it looks like Adam & I will already be fighting over her. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts. I hope that the news continues to get better & better & that the sad stories have ended.
I can't wait to see you guys. I missed you the other day but I knew I would be coming home. Now, I could be here for 3 months. I will be spending our anniversary here, 4th of July, possibly my birthday, & the start of school. ARG! I just want to scream. Actually, I am already screaming inside. If I do it out loud they will think I am in labor. I am wondering if you should bring the camera & video camera. At this point, any minute could be the one. I love you baby!
My next goal is two pounds. This would be about 900g. This will probably take about 3-4 weeks if she grows well.
Aimee _________________________________
I hope that you all have a great day. Sorry for the long email, I got carried away. LOL
Aimee, I am sure it is nerves. Just hang in there and know that I am here for you and will help anyway I can. So don't ever feel like you are bothering me by asking me to do something. I will take very good care of you and do whatever it takes to make things easier on you.
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I know it is going to be tough to be in there, but it is going to be worth every second when we hold our little girl in our arms. Just keep thinking about that and it will make you feel better. This will be the toughest thing you will ever have to do in your life, but you are the strongest person I know and I love you more than anything in this world.
Some Love Emails Adam, I love you very much. I am not feeling well & can't eat my lunch. Maybe it is just nerves. I am trying to be a trooper but I am be wearing myself out trying so hard. I really hope that Kayleigh will be okay. I was so looking forward to this weekend, possibly going to register for the baby. Now, the next time I see our home I will have delivered. I hope that you are going to be okay without me. I also hope that I can see you every chance I get. Well, that you get. LOL I am always available.
I will start putting things together here because I am done with Craigslist. When do you want us to come up? I know the kids will get antsy there, but we can come when you think is a good time. I know we can watch Camp Rock tonight with them, but that is not until later so I would hate to keep them cooped up in the all day. It is totally up to you though. 15
Kayleigh's Story Hang in there sweety and know that you have everyone thinking and praying for us. Maybe you should write another update to help you pass the time a little.
didn't see me at all for the entire 6 weeks. She told Adam that she doesn't know how she dealt with me being gone for so long. Today I woke up with the anticipation of coming home. I got up at 8am when they brought my breakfast, gobbled it down, & went back to sleep until I heard the news that it was time. In between dreams one of my doctors came in. She is from the same practice but I have not been treated by her yet. She apparently looked over my chart before she came in. She started asking me all kinds of questions about what I understood the plan to be from here on out. I told her that I thought that I was going home & then she asked about the plan for the baby. She knows that Kayleigh is viable now so it seems that someone was finally ready to have a conversation about "the future" with me. She asked me if we would do anything that we could to keep her alive if things started to go badly. Of course, we said yes. So, she has the same thoughts that Adam & I have had for many weeks. She feels that I need to be here so that we can catch things as soon as they happen. We mentioned that to another doctor the other day & he didn't feel that it was necessary. We were shocked. I will be monitored for 30 minutes twice a day & have ultrasounds every few days to check on growth. The doctor also asked me if I had considered taking the steroid shots to speed up the growth of Kayleigh's lungs. I told her that I have been asking about them since 23-24 weeks & nobody wanted to do them that early because if I stayed pregnant longer, they didn't want to repeat them. Thank God for this new Doctor! They may be giving me the steroid later today. Five minutes later she came back in & told me that my blood pressure has also been up so they needed to draw some blood before we did the shot. Great! Maybe I could have preeclampsia too! I told her that I am determined to get us in a medical journal somewhere.
I love you tons!!!! Adam
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June 20th, 2008 Hello everyone. I bet you thought that you wouldn't hear from me for a while. You should have remembered that every time we get good news, bad news is just around the corner. Maybe not bad news but less than good news. I thought that I would possibly be going home yesterday. The only reason that I was still in the hospital was because they were making sure that my pain could be controlled. The doctor then told me that I would just come home today to be safe. I went all day without any pain meds & took a dose at bedtime because I was getting a little achy & I wanted a good night sleep. Adam & the kids came to see me last night & the kids took turns climbing in bed with me. Adam told me that Allyson made a comment in the car that touch me & has me feeling down today. She remembered that two years ago I had to go away for 6 weeks for job training in Indianapolis. They
So, my new address is room 9215 at Carolinas Medical Center. I 16
Kayleigh's Story have asked if we can re-wallpaper the room & get some new furniture but I don't think that is going to happen. I am going to have to settle for photos & my own pajamas instead of this HUGE gown. If anyone has any ideas of what I can do to stay sane for the next several to 12 weeks please let me know. I am going to see how many houses I can sell from bed. LOL
don't forget about me laying there alone. :)
Adam is such a blessing to me. He is going to have to take over my role at work & home while keeping is role too. Plus, he has to come see me every chance that he has. I already told the nurse that half the week he will be living here with me.
Aimee ________________
Thank you all again for your thoughts & prayers. You never know what my next update will be. It could be a birth announcement.
You are too sweet! Just know that there is nothing you can ask of me that I won't do. I am here for you to make things easier for you so you can rest and do nothing but take care of our little girl. I want you to be stress free as much as possible.
I have to leave you alone so you can work. I wish I could be more help to you. Let me know if you need anything! Love you!
Aimee
Aimee I love you so much and I can't wait for Kayleigh to come out too so she can grow and I can have you both home with me. You are so strong and I can't say enough wonderful things about how proud I am of you for being so amazing! I couldn't ask for a better wife and best friend than you.
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Some More Love Emails
I love you beautiful, Goodnight!
Adam
Adam _______________________
You are the best thing in the world & I am so happy & blessed that I have you. Another woman told me on the message board how lucky I am to have you. Aww. LOL I couldn't be going through this with anyone else. You are a great husband, step-dad, & a soon to be father. I can't wait to see your face when she comes out. Just
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could see it. I don't know that I have ever told you so many times in a few hours how happy I was. I am sorry that I am not like this more often. I feel it, it just doesn't come out like it did today. You are the best husband in the world Mr. FREEMAN. (get it?) I am so happy that you are going to be my husband forever & Kayleigh's dad. Not to mention an awesome & fun step-dad to Brandon & Allyson. You have brought such joy to my life. I am glad that whenever things get tough, we find our way back to each other. I really don't think that I could live without you. You are my heart.
Aimee's Message Board Post 6/21/08 Hey Ladies. Today was a good day. The kids were with their dad & Adam just left but he has been with me since 1pm today. It was the first day in a long time that I didn't worry about ANYTHING. No work, no problems, nothing. It didn't start off to well though. I couldn't sleep at all last night. I am not the kind of person to ask for things so I tossed & turned until 5:30am before I called my nurse in. She said that it was too late for sleeping meds but she gave me Vistaril. It calmed me down & finally got me to sleep around 6:30am. With that being said, I was up again an hour later for vitals & breakfast. I think I fell asleep for 30 more minutes after I ate. After reading online today I saw that the side affects of Betamethasone are sleeplessness. I wish someone had told me that! LOL I would have taken the Ambien at 12am. So, tonight that is the plan. I had my second shot today which hurt a little more than the first but that it because she went slow & left out the butt massage. My face & arms are flush but that could be the medicine as well. Tomorrow they are waking me up at 5:30-6:00 for my glucose test since everyone seemed to forget (twice) that I still needed this. They also wrote in my chart that I can go for a 30 minute walk twice a day. Can you hear me? WOO HOO! Adam doesn't want me moving out of the bed but he realizes that I need this. I took a shower today, put on some great smelling lotion, my own pjs, & we walked to the cafeteria. For now, going to the cafeteria is a hot date. LOL Just to be able to walk across the hall to the refreshment station is exciting. I have only left my room before
I can't wait until tomorrow. Sleep well & don't worry about tomorrow. You seem really positive & I know that is all that you need. I love you baby! MUAH! Aimee
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today for 10 minutes in 4 days. We ate bad food all day & watched, don't laugh....the first four episodes of Dawson's Creek. I am a Melrose Place, 90210 girl & Adam loved Dawson's Creek. Well, Katie Holmes to be exact. He has been begging me to watch this forever. Being tied down in the room gave him the opportunity to spring it on me. It actually isn't bad. We have a good two full days to go so it passes the time perfectly. I told him that I feel like we are dating again & he is hanging at my apartment & then going home at night. Tomorrow he has to go on an appt. for us & then he will be here around 5-6pm to spend the night. Yeah! I was thinking of asking my nurses if I could put a dry erase board on m door like in a college dorm & if I put a towel on the door it means stay out. LOL I mean I have to keep my humor in here at least. Thanks for all of the great ideas. I played a few games last night & today the day was so perfect that I didn't even think of other things to do. I think I told Adam 50 times how happy I was to have him here. Oh, I almost forgot the main reason that I started the post. When we were on the monitor this evening Kayleigh had 4 A cells. The nurse said that she didn't expect that for a 28 weeker. She said that it looked like the strip of a 32 weeker. Go figure. Little Kayleigh is only measuring around 22-23 weeks! These doctors better get prepared for a miracle because there is one coming! I will check in again tomorrow I am sure. I hope that everyone has a great night. Thanks for hanging out with me.
Love Letter to Adam 6/22/08 Thank you baby. I think that we bring out the best in each other. It is hard to stay mad or upset when you love someone so much. I think that this situation with Kayleigh has really made us see how silly the little things can be. We have gotten along better than ever. Sure, we have a few speed bumps get in our way every now & then but they don't usually last more than a few minutes. I have so much love for you & I want you around all of the time & sometimes that gets in the way. I know that we have our whole lives but there are certain moments like when you were here yesterday that I want to last forever. I feel like you are part of me & when you are gone or doing something else, I feel empty. Part of me thinks that is a great thing to have in a marriage but I can also see where from time to time it could cause a disagreement. I have never in my life wanted to spend every waking moment with someone. Sometimes I have to remind myself that you are not physically attached to me & that I can let you go for a few hours,etc. You say many times to me that we have our whole lives together but I also think that you take for granted that means 100 years. People say that life is too short & we all know that it can end at any second. I want to do everything imaginable with you. Every experience, every thought, everything I want to be with you. You are an amazing man & I see it more & more each day. We are starting to learn each other well. Our behaviors, our thoughts, our intentions. We know how to push & when not too. We are building one of the best families that people will ever meet. We need to remember how we feel about each other right now for the rest of our lives. Whenever one of us feels that we can't take it anymore we need to be able to re-read these
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Kayleigh's Story letters from each other & remember how strong our love is. We have something that unfortunately most couples will never have. At least that is what I think. God has his plan for me & I am so blessed that it was to meet you. I never thought that I would find my life partner so quickly but I thank God that I did. Most importantly you are my best friend. We can tell each other anything, laugh together, fart together (even though I try not to), we can get dressed up or just sit home & be buddies You are my lover & I appreciate how much you care about me & how I feel & how comfortable I am with new things. You are absolutely gorgeous which honestly in the past has made me a bit jealous. Over the years & through my growth in trust I have come to believe how much you love me & wouldn't ruin our marriage over something stupid & meaningless.You are an amazing dad & that is only going to get better. You had to find your way which is to be expected but you are getting so much better at being a dad to the kids & a friend when needed. I also think that this situation is coming at a good time for you to know them better. I have seen more & more over the last few months how much you mean to them & them to you. I feel like they are starting to treat you like their dad & not so much a step dad. Four years may seem like a long time for that to happen but they were only 2 & 4 when we met. They are learning to. My heart is so full when I think of how you are going to be with your little Kayleigh. I am actually tearing up picturing you holding her, protecting her, & loving her. I am the light of your life now but I think that our love has created some strong competition for me. LOL I know in my heart that you are never going to hurt her & that you are going to do everything in the world to show her what she means to you. You will finally understand how hard it is to punish the kids. :) I love that you have something that you love to do with fighting/grappling. I haven't seen you passionate about something like this before. The good thing is that you are pretty great at it too so it isn't a "wasted" hobby. I enjoy going to your competitions & seeing you do so well.
You can't see it & that competition because you have to stay tough but that moment when we first get in the car alone together & you jump around in the car like you are 5 means the world to me. I am so happy that I am the one that you share those moments with. I love how you take care of me even though it seems that I don't like to be taken care of. It is nice to not only have someone say that they worry about you but they step in to make sure that you don't have to do it yourself. I appreciate that when there have been things in our relationship that have gone wrong on your end, that you are honest with me even if it is painful to hear & can take a long time to get over. Of course I would rather those things not happen to begin with but we are going to make mistakes. The important thing for me is that I feel that if you do falter, you will be honest with me. I do not want a life of secrets & I think that in this life there won't be any. I am more & more proud each day of my relationship, my family, & my job even though it is going slow. As a team you & I are figuring out how to make things work even if it is making lemonade out of just lemons. Our love is conquering everything that gets in our way. Thank you so much for bringing God into my life more than he has ever been then before. Without it, I don't know that we would have found our way back to each other & I honestly don't know if it would have gotten me through this trying time with Kayleigh. Thank you for believing in my feelings that the doctors were just wrong about her. You may have thought that I was crazy 10 weeks ago but now we both believe in this miracle. Kayleigh is destined for greatness. Ok, I am going on & on forever & you aren't even going to have time to read this all if I don't stop. I am not much of a writer but I guess it is easy when you feel so much inside. You are my world. I will never love anyone the way that I love you. You are a huge piece of my heart & my soul. When I think of us I think of Noah & Ally from the Notebook. I imagine us dying 20
Kayleigh's Story together holding hands in the hospital bed & truly never being apart from each other. At least that thought makes me feel better because I think that I would just die inside if I didn't have you with me. You are an amazing man Adam Freeman & I thank you for making the choice of asking me to be your wife. I am so proud to be Mrs. Freeman & I will do my best to live up to my name for you. I love you baby!
life dreamed that I would want to spend every waking moment with one person. Sometimes the eight hours that we are apart each week seem too long. Adam has become such a large part of my heart over the past four year & so have the rest of the Freeman/Wojtowicz family. I couldn't have asked for better parents, cousins, aunts, uncles, brothers, or sisters. You have each brought something special to my life & to Brandon & Allyson's life. You have treated me like a daughter & never just like Adam's wife that you have to get along with. I feel like the kids are accepted just as Jason, Julia, & Penelope are which touches me so deeply. I know that Adam & I have had our growing pains over the years but you have both helped us get through it & we appreciate it. I have never felt closer to Adam than I do now. This situation with Kayleigh is bringing so many of us closer & it certainly has made the little things seem completely ridiculous. My heart skips a beat when I think of my life with your son. He is truly amazing in so many ways. He is an excellent husband, best friend, father, co-worker, brother, & so much more. I am so lucky & thankful that he chose me to spend the rest of his life with. I am very proud to be one of the many Mrs. Freemans. I intend to work my hardest to keep the integrity that goes along with that name.
Forever, Aimee
6/24/2008 6:58:00 PM
Letter to Adam's Parents 6/22/08 I hope that you don't mind but my heart was full of love this morning & I felt that I needed to write to your parents. Here is what I sent.....
Thank you both so much for welcoming me & the kids into your lives. Thank you for all that you have done to help both Adam & I grow in our relationship & personally. Thank you for being great parents & friends. Thank you for all of your help & support during this trying time. My heart would be a little less full without the two of you!
So I am sitting here in my hospital bed this morning, awake since 6am. Adam & I have been writing letters to each other since last night & I just finished my novel of a response to him. Near the end I realized that I needed to write to both of you too.
I love you both so much! I am so blessed to have such a wonderful man to call my husband & I know that he wouldn't be half the man that he is without the love & support that he has gotten from the both of you. I never in my
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Kayleigh's Story again for the third time. 196/111 and the nurse finally called the doctor. Unfortunately the Doctor was in a C-section, so poor Aimee had to put up with the pain a little longer even after some pain medicine was given.
6/24/2008 6:58:00 PM
June 23rd, 2008 A Night to Remember!!!
The Doctor finally came in about 45 minutes later and decided to take Aimee down to labor and delivery to monitor her and take some blood for testing. After we moved in to the suite downstairs, they put Aimee on some Magnesium to help bring her heart rate down and it helped. They hooked her up on a catheter which had to be the most uncomfortable thing I have ever seen and wires were going every which way. It just hurt my heart to see her this way, but the Doctor and nurses were unbelievable down there and they made us feel so much better. They got us to a point where we were settled it and trying to get some shut eye before the lab brings the results back from the blood work. And then our worst fears were about to come true.
Hello Everyone! What is a another night without drama in the Freeman household. Please make sure you are secure in your seat when you start to read this. If you have rollers on your chair, make sure their locked and if you are reading this from your cell phone while driving, please pull over right away or you are bound to rear end the car in front of you.
It was now 2:30 in the morning, and the Doctor woke us up which felt like two minutes after I fell asleep and said they have to take the baby by emergency C-section. Her blood came back showing a severe case of pre-eclampsia and there is no cure, but to get the baby out or this could fatally harm Aimee. Aimee was rushed in to get a spinal block and I was sent to a room to get changed in to my scrubs. I was breathing so hard that the mask kept pushing the hot air in to my glasses, fogging them up. We were a wreck because all we kept thinking was that her lungs are not developed enough. We spent the last 10 weeks hoping and praying that she would make it to a viable state. The ironic thing is the other Doctors didn't want to keep Aimee on bedrest and they didn't want to give Aimee the steroid shots yet. The one and only Doctor that happened to be on call last night read through our chart the other day and over written the other Doctors on both decisions, and it was done for this single
The whole day was going great yesterday up until 7:00. I (Adam) had an appointment with a buyer all day and afterwards, I took the dogs over to parents house because I was planning to stay a few nights in the hospital with Aimee. Not even 10 minutes after I got to the hospital, Aimee started complaining of chest pain and that her heart was beating out of her chest. Earlier that day, her blood pressure was a little elevated and soon after Aimee complained to the nurse, they took her blood pressure again. The numbers showed she was even higher than before. The nurse at that time was convinced it had to do with the medicine she started taking yesterday morning. I was not satisfied with that answer because anyone with common sense would know that medicine you took yesterday morning doesn't hit you a day and a half later. After a few hours of pain and suffering, the blood pressure was pulled 22
Kayleigh's Story reason. What else is crazy is that the steroid shot is best when used 24-48 hours before delivery. Aimee received the first steroid shot about 48 hours prior to this moment and the second, about 20 hours.
For the next couple months, she is going to be living at the NICU. The photo that is attached is when I was able to visit her at 6:30 this morning. She was on a breathing respirator, but showed signs of breathing on her own so they have taken her tube out already. Can you believe that? They say that the first couple days are great, but then things will get really bumpy along the way. All we ask is that you don't stop praying because we are a long way out of the woods. She has many hurdles to go, but we already know she is a fighter and will make it through anything.
A Nurse came in to grab me and take me in to the OR. Aimee was laying down while the Doctors were already making their incisions. It was a scene from a movie as there were 5 NICU Doctors over to the left, two anesthesiologist to my right, and three other assistances working on different things. It was a packed house!!! I won't get in to the gory details of the tugging and pulling of the CSection, but all I could do was rub Aimee's head, hold her hand and tell her I love her. She was shaking and nervous as I was too, just waiting for the moment when they would pull little Kayleigh out. All of a sudden, the Doctor reaches deep inside as the other assistance back up a little and pulls little Kayleigh in to this world. I have never seen anything more beautiful in my life and goodness gracious she is "tiny"! With a deep breath and no exhale, they rushed her over to the NICU table as several Doctors were scrambling to clear her passageways and get a tube in to her throat. All we could think about what her size and if they could fit a tube small enough in that tiny little throat of hers. I tried and tried to listen to see if I could hear anything they were saying, but they were all whispering behind their masks. Just then, the Doctor came over and told us they were able to get a tube small enough in and they have stabilized her. WHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I felt really bad that Aimee couldn't see anything at all, but as they were taking the incubator out of the room and down to the NICU level, you could see this oversized pink beanie on this cute, 1 pound - 1 ounce (470gram) little baby girl. You could see her little hands waving up in the air (which were the size of my finger nail) when she passed by, as if she was waving to Mommy.
Thank you all again for all your thoughts and prayers. Keep praying because there is no doubt that I have seen the work of God through this experience. We will update you all on the progress and more pictures soon. Love, Adam and Aimee
6/24/2008 9:05:00 PM
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Kayleigh is doing wonderful through her first full day. She is already off the breathing machine and is breathing on her own. What you see above is helping her get some oxygen in her system. She also lost an ounce, so she is weighing in at one full pound right now. She is amazing!
6/24/2008 9:09:00 PM
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6/24/2008 9:20:00 PM
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6/26/2008 1:05:00 PM
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Today was an awesome day. Aimee was able to see Kayleigh for the first time this morning and we both got to hold her for a short minute each while the RN changed her bed. It was amazing and we can't wait to do that again. Kayleigh is doing great. She is still breathing on her own and we are getting nothing but good feedback from the nurses so far. Let's keep it up!
6/25/2008 11:51:00 AM
Two Videos of Kayleigh Hello Everyone, I thought that I would take some of the video I took over the past two days and share it with you all. On the second video where Kayleigh is tanning and where I put the camera up to 28
Kayleigh's Story Hello everyone, Today is going great! I changed my first diaper today. Well, not mine but Kayleighs. OR should I say "Kayleigh's cotton swab." Aimee is about to check out so we can take her home. She is ready to sleep through the night without anyone coming in to wake her up to check her vitals. Me neither! ha-ha. Kayleigh is doing great. She has a little bit of air trapped in her tummy, so they are doing some tests to see why she is blocked up and then do what they need to do to fix it. All the nurses seem positive with her progress so far and feel like she is doing great. They are the professionals and they do this everyday, so if they feel good about it, then I feel good about it. I am just finally glad to hear positive news and if it isn't positive, there is something that can be done. Thank you all for your words of enouragement and keep the prayers coming, please!!!
6/27/2008 6:23:00 PM
6/27/08 - Making Progress!
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Today, Aimee and I went to see little Kayleigh and we received some wonderful feedback. First off which I am sure you can see, she is off the biliruben lights. They have also reduced the oxygen level even more which they push through her canula because she is beathing very well on her own. The trapped gas in her stomach has reduced a good bit, but they are still keeping a close eye on it. Aimee said she must NOT be a true Freeman if she has trouble farting. Kayleigh did lose a couple ounces, but that was expected. With the lights and the humidity she was putting up with over the past couple days caused her to lose weight. She is now weighing 13 ounces, but the nurses increased her fluid through her I.V to try and put some weight on. They say most preemies will lose around 1020% of their body weight after they are born, but her 25% loss so far is not a huge threat until they weigh her over a weeks period to compare the fluctuation. We received a wonderful email today from a Mother who works in a NICU. I am going to post her email in the comments below so everyone can read it. Emails such as this 30
Kayleigh's Story one makes Aimee and I feel so blessed by God with such a miracle like Kayleigh. Aimee and I can't even begin to describe the feelings we are going through. We are so amazed, shocked, excited, and scared all at the same time. I feel like I am in a movie that lasts a lot longer than the normal 2 hours. I also want to thank everyone so very much for all the flowers, cards and gifts. They are all so beautiful, smell very good and are greatly appreciated! Many of you have been asking us what we could use or how you could help if we needed help. Aimee and I are not the kind of people to ask for things, but we know that many of you want to do something but just don't know what that something is. Aimee and I were talking about how tough it is going to be to visit her as much as we want with the gas prices the way they are and he being about 25 minutes away. We also know she is going to be in the NICU for a long long time. So if any of you want to help with gas cards or gift cards for quick dinners, we would be so thankful. Trust me when I say I hate to ask for things, but I know a lot of you asked and we would just hate to not see her as much as we want. Thank you all for your prayers and please please please keep them going so our little blessing can win this fight of her life.
6/28/2008 9:27:00 PM
6/28/08 - PEACE!!!
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Kayleigh's Story Today was another great day with great news! First of all, Kayleigh has a wonderful personality already! Right when I was about to snap one of my first photos of her while she was getting her vitals checked, she threw up the peace sign. What a character! Actually, we really needed the laugh with all the stress going on. I guess it is God's way of telling us to relax a little. Brandon (Big Brother) and Allyson (Big Sister) came to the NICU for the first time today to see Kayleigh. Aimee and I were a little worried on how they were going to react, but they did wonderful. The only thing they both said over and over is, "Oh my gosh, she is so small." It took them by surprise at first, but they were happy to update everyone back in the waiting room. Brandon came back telling everyone Kayleigh gained a pound. Boy do I wish, but you know children when it comes to ounces, pounds, inches, feet and days or weeks. It was very cute. Kayleigh is a Freeman after all. She POOPED! Well, it wasn't a big poop, but the good news is that all her intestines work and things were able to work their way through her system. I was worried there was either a hole or blockage that was making her stomach fill up. She did go back on the biliribbom lights today, but that is not a huge problem at all. They are still working on her belly to figure out what is causing her to be so bloated. Other than that, everything else looks good. The best of all news is that she gained a few ounces back and is almost at her birth weight again. She is now at 450 grams which is right around a pound. Aimee and I were getting a little worried when she lost 4 ounces so quickly. They did say she would lose 10-20%, but 4 ounces was close to 25%. So that is GREAT news!!! Stay tuned for more updates. God Bless you all!
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Kayleigh's Story 6/29/2008 10:46:00 PM
before you know they will be dating, driving and off to college, so I should enjoy ever minutes of this while it lasts.
6/29/08 - My Beautiful Girls!
Aimee is recovering slowly, but surely. She is still in pain from the surgery and seems to wear out much quicker. From other csections we've heard about, it sounds like she is recovering well above schedule. I definately have to give her so much credit because she has been so strong through everything that is going on. If you cut my tummy open, I would be crying like a baby for months and I am suppose to be the tough one. She is my hero and Kayleigh will soon learn how blessed she is to have such a wonderful Mom. Kayleigh is doing great still and the Nurse said she had a bigger poop last night, which is awesome! It was cute tonight, I changed her diaper and she was in the middle of pooping. I don't mean to be nasty by any means, but her butthole was the size of this period (.) and her poop is the funniest looking turd I have ever seen. I guess I should enjoy that while it's small too. (ha! ha!) Her stomach looked so much better tonight, so the air is coming out thank goodness. She weighed in a 1 pound again, but anything is better than losing. They put her back on the biliribbon lights yesterday, but they then took one of the lights back off tonight to slowly wein her off.
Tonight was just amazing!!! Just look at this picture and tell me this isn't the sweetest thing you have ever seen? Oh my goodness, I about lost it when the Nurse pulled back the blanket to show how comfortable my sweet Kayleigh was pressed up against Aimee. They call this the Kangaroo care, where they allowed Aimee to hold Kayleigh against her warm chest for about 20 minutes with a warm blanket covering both of them. Kayleigh whined a couple whimpers, but was fast asleep before you knew it. I didn't think they would let us do this care so soon especially when Kayleigh is only a week old. Wow, can you believe that?? A week old already. Well, I heard
All in all, her progress seems to be going wonderful. We need to keep it this way! Thank you all so much for all the kinds words that you are posting. I love to see comments and I am sure Kayleigh will be blessed to see all the people that were pulling for her WHEN she gets older. If you want to post, click on the comments link below to leave a message. For those who have posted, please don't post annonymous because I have been wanting to respond back to you , but I have no email addresses. 33
Kayleigh's Story 6/30/2008 9:54:00 PM
you tell I am going to be a psycho Daddy already?
6/30/08 Happy ONE WEEK Birthday!!!
Also, Test results came back and her tummy was not as full with air as it was excess waste that just needs to work its way through. Since she started to poop a little, I am glad that it is heading in the right direction. She also came off the biliribbon lights again and you can really tell a difference in her skin. Aimee is having a little trouble with pumping and isn't getting anything. She spoke with her Doctor and was able to get a prescription for Reglan which is suppose to help move things along. If anyone has any insight on this, Aimee would love some feedback.
I can't believe it has been a week already. I hope that time flies by this quickly through the next several months until Kayleigh is able to come home. I heard the funniest thing today from someone who posted a message. They said that Kayleigh's home right now is a "Womb with a View." Since Aimee and I are real estate agents, I am sure we will be using this funny comment often.
We did get some bad news today, but the Nurse felt like it was nothing to worry about. They said they did a cotton swab of her nose only to find out Kayleigh has MRSA. Now as a grappler/wrestler, I know of Staphylococcus is long for Staph infection. That is not good if I were to get it because it could cause serious skin lesions that really have no cure. They said it is really common of preemies to have MRSA bacteria, but they often don't become active. If they were to come active, it would cause skin infections or pneumonia. They are going to keep an eye on the MRSA over the next couple weeks and treat it with a antibiotic that limits the number of bacteria to prevent larger chances of it harming Kayleigh. The Nurse said this is really common and we should not worry. That is impossible!
Well, I have to first apologize and tell you that Kayleigh cancelled her show tonight and I was not able to get any good photos. She felt it was more important to sleep than to pose for Daddy. I am sure it won't be the last time. Seriously, I am glad she was resting because I feel so bad when she is up and moving around. I know that growth comes with rest and we want her to be as least active as possible right now. Today was a good day in the nurse's eyes, but I felt a little off for some reason. First of all, they moved her to another station which to me felt like it was more cramped and busy. I do not like change, so it may take some time getting used to. I think the first taste of it was bad because I walked in and there were several nurses and other family members crowded in the room. How is my litte girl going to rest with all this commotion? I am sure I just need to relax. They said she will stay in this room until she leaves, so that bugs me too. I liked where she was before because there was no one next to her and the room seemed to be more open and less cluttered. Can
Other than that, they said that Kayleigh is doing great and there are no other issues to worry about. Please pray that this MRSA is nothing and will soon pass. I have been getting a lot of great emails from people and I thank you so much. We love to hear success stories, so please share more with us. God Bless!!! 34
Kayleigh's Story body weight in one day. When she gets older, she probably won't be too excited about that kind of weight gain. Other good news of the day is that she had her ECHO Cardiogram and it came back looking good with no major issues. The only portion they want to keep an eye out for is the moderate VSD, which is a hole that is in the heart that usually closes on it's own in time. Since preemies are born early, this hole is normally open but should close before their original due date. Basically, the Doctors will keep an eye on it and if it isn't closing, they could go in and close it for her. I am just glad that it is a common issue and usually takes care of itself. The great news is that there are no other issues with the heart. Also, Kayleigh had her head scanned to make sure there is no bleeding in the brain. They do this test 7 days after they are born and follow up in 30 days. The tests came back normal and their is no bleeding in the brain. WHEW!!! Well, Kayleigh would not be Kayleigh if she didn't give us trouble even with all this good news. She likes to keep us on her toes and most of you can agree with me on that after reading all the prior posts. Since Kayleigh is breathing on her own, there is a common problem amongst preemies called sleep apnia. She basically forgets to breath when she is sleeping and it causes her heartrate to drop until she is able to start breathing again and catch back up. It is a pretty scary sight because you will be looking at her monitor that consists of her heartrate, oxygen, and respiratory rhythm. You first will see her respiratory rhythm flat line and you also notice Kayleigh's chest not move at all. Then you see her heart rate and oxygen drop, sending off a noisy alarm through the NICU. Nurses will soon come to her rescue, pat her back until Kayleigh starts to breath again. Sometimes she catches it on her own, but sometimes she needs a little help. Throughout the whole day, she had a couple episodes where this happened, which is normal with a preemie that is just on a nasal cannula. Well, when Aimee and I were visiting her, she did it three or four more times within one hour. Talk about scary! They paged the Doctor and the Nurse
7/1/2008 11:24:00 PM
7/1/08 - Headed In The Right Direction!
Today was another great day with great news. First of all, Kayleigh grew from 480 grams to 550 grams. That is 2.5 ounces! Doesn't seem like a lot, but when you only weigh a pound, that is a bunch! Grandpa went up earlier today, but the Nurses would only give Aimee and I any new information. He said that it looked like she put on some weight and he was right! She added about 16% of her 35
Kayleigh's Story Practitioner to come in to check things out. They changed a couple knobs for the oxygen and the flow of the oxygen, cleaned out her mouth and nose, and she was fine for the rest of the time. She just slept quiet and was breathing fine from then on out. The Nurse Practitioner said that sometimes the nose can get stuffed up or the mouth can get full of saliva that it obstructs the breathing passageway for the baby and just needs to be clean out. Well, give me a heart attack over a big booger!!! Besides Kayleigh giving us a slight heart attack and more hair loss, she is doing just fine. We are pleased to see her progress and hope that it continues for the remainder of the time. Although I am sure Kayleigh will have some more tricks up her sleeve to drive us looney. Just as long as the Doctors can assess the problem and quickly fix it, I will be fine with that. Thank you all for the great comments and I hope you like the photo of Kayleigh tonight. I would have taken more, but they would have all looked exactly like this one. She didn't move an inch while we were there all night. Maybe one finger moved for a second, but she put it back before I could snap another picture :) Thank you to all those who have taken time out of their busy schedules to come visit our little Kayleigh. It means the world to us and Kayleigh said she enoys looking at all you huge people.
Today was a little stressful, but things are under control. Kayleigh started the day off by going back on the CPAP to help with her sleep apnea. Her oxygen was set at a normal setting as if she was breathing in air like you and I do. They only are using the CPAP to help the flow of air into her lungs which helps her not to forget to breath. It is good to see she is going to get much better rest, but no one wants to see her take steps backwards. They said there will be set backs, so I just need to get used to that. The nurse mentioned that because she was having more sleep apnea episodes, it may be caused by an infection of some sort. So they have done some blood work to get things tested for infections. That should come back in the next day or two. There was a quick test that they took to see if it was some sort of major infection, but I forgot what they called it. The good news is, that test came back clear with no issues. We are really praying that the blood tests come back normal with no infections in the blood.
7/2/2008 7:49:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story While they were running some tests, they noticed her red blood cell count was low so she had to get a series of blood transfusions. She had one transfusion this morning and they were doing another later this afternoon. The first one went really well and was done with out any issues. She has two IV's, one for nutrients and the other for blood work, so it was easy to access and get her the blood she needed. Other than that, she is doing really well. It was good to see her today resting well without any bad apnea spells. She had a couple earlier today, but that was before they put her back on the CPAP. With the CPAP, she can still override the system and breath on her own which to me that is so much better. Seeing her stop breathing and struggle to catch back up seems like it would just wear her energy out and not allow her to get the deep sleep that she needs to help her grow. Aimee is on the phone with the NICU right now to get an evening update. They do her vitals at 8 and 2 in the AM and PM, so we like to see how things are going every chance we can get a new update. She just got off the phone and I guess I spoke too soon. After we left late this afternoon, the nurse said she started to have some more bad spells with her apnea, so they put her on the ventilator which is a more assisted breathing machine. It is a even further step down from the CPAP, but whatever it takes to help my peanut. The nurse said to Aimee on the phone that it was a shock to see Kayleigh breathing on her own in the first place and that it is completely normal for a preemie of this age to be on the ventilator right away. We were told this may happen, but of course we all think she would be strong enough to not to struggle at all. The nurse mentioned that Kayleigh may have just worn her little self out this week trying to breath on her own. All we can hope and pray for is that she will not have sleep apnea episodes while on the ventilator. That will not be good. All we ask is for everyone to pray pray pray for our little girl right now. We need her lungs to mature
quick, so we can jump over this hurdle. Thank you everyone so much for being there for us. I will update you as soon as I hear something.
7/3/2008 10:13:00 PM
7/3/08 - Very Quiet Day, kind of...
Now I say it was a very quiet day for Kayleigh, because Aimee, the kids and I were running all over town like chickens with our heads cut off. We had to drive across town to one of our listings, drive to the other side of town to the hopital, drive to the grocery store and 37
Kayleigh's Story then to the library during rush hour traffic when everyone was scrammbling to get out of dodge for the 4th of July. WHEW...It doesn't seem bad, but when you add baby drama stress, crazy kids and a lot of wreckless drivers to the mix, it is pure hellacious!!! AHHHHH! WELL, now I am sure you can picture me now, how wonderful it is to sit here on this cozy couch, sinking in to the fluffy cushions, eating this delicious icecream and cuddled up to my beautiful Aimee, while watching our favorite tv shows...with the kids SLEEPING. What a great ending to a stressful day.
more good news tomorrow. Thanks to EVERYONE for ALL the prayers. Words can't be found to describe the appreciation.
7/4/2008 9:21:00 PM
7/4/08 - HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!
I am just so happy to say that Kayleigh had her a quiet day of pure sleep because I would have gone off the deep end if she added more stress (than normal) to our day. The photo of the day is Kayleigh in her new, upgraded domain while on her vent. The nurses said she was doing wonderful today while on the vent. What I found out today makes me feel so much better, but she actually is on the vent for back up support only. The nurse said that the vent is turned down low and "only" if the apnea acts up and she stops breathing, will the vent kick in for support. When we went up to see her, she wasn't moving around and just seem so pieceful. I am glad that she is getting some deep sleep to help her in every other facet. We always follow up with a phone call at night to see how the rest of her day went. I actually just got off the phone with the nurse and the only thing that is different is that she lost an ounce. So right now she is weighing 1 pound, 2.13 ounces (every little counts, haha). I guess she burned too many calories yesterday with all the sleep apnea. Hopefully tomorrow we will see some more weight gain. Well, I guess boring news is good news. Like some have said it very well...there are good days and there are bad days. I am pleased to say that today was a good day. Goodnight everyone as it is time to get back to my icecream :) and I will touch base with hopefully 38
Kayleigh's Story That is a smile and I am sticking to it!!! Happy 4th of July everyone! I hope everyone is being safe tonight and enjoying some fireworks. We all just got back from shooting off some fireworks with Aimee's family. It sounds like a war is going on right now by our house though. Our house is surrounded by three major attractions (Carowinds Amusement Park, Knights Triple A Baseball Stadium and Lake Wylie), who all set off professional grade fireworks. Today was a somewhat of a mellow day. Kayleigh is 30 weeks old today. We got the results back from the blood culture and there is no infections what so ever, so they took Kayleigh off the antibiotics. Early this morning, she was having several more bad spells with the apnea, so they switched from SIMD mode, which is when the vent takes over incase Kayleigh has a apnea spell to Pressure Mode, which forces a little air in to her so it minimizes her bad spells. They don't want the vent to take over completely because they want her to get used to trying hard and giving those lungs a good workout. Even though she struggles, it will help her in the long run. I just hope she finds a happy medium, but like they say over and over, it is an up and down battle. The scary part of the day was when Aimee went in to visit her. She was hanging out with Kayleigh and she decided to have an apnea bout. We have seen it before, but she would quickly recover by catching her breath. This time around, she didn't catch her breath so they nurse had to "bag her," meaning she had to use the manual pump to force air in to Kayleigh's lungs for her to breath again. Wow, can I say stressful? The thing that stinks is that Aimee had to see that because she is already a nervous wreck. Acutally, we both are a neervous wreck, but I would have much rather taken on the heart failure than her. After that bad spell, Kayleigh went back to normal and when I went it with Allyson, she was doing great. Other than that, she did lose a little more weight today. She is now at 489 grams which is just over 1pound 1 ounce. Her color looks great and she just seems healthier overall. Thanks for all the 39
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7/5/2008 9:03:00 PM
7/5/08 - A New Best Friend
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Kayleigh's Story together. Kayleigh had a good day today. Since being put on the vent, her apnea bouts have lessened. She only had a couple desats all day long which is greeeeaaaat! She dropped 7 grams from yesterday, but they started feeding her today to see how she does with that. They are feeding her one (cc) every six hours. She did have a moderate poop this morning, so we are hoping that will continue since they started to feed her. I would hate to see her stomach back up again. Some tests were done and they realized Kayleigh has a slight thyroid problem and they have already started her on medication. The Resident that was in the delivery room with us came in to talk with us today. She seemed really positive and felt really great with Kayleigh's stats. I can tell when talking with her that she seems very impressed with the whole scenario. That is a good feeling! Tomorrow, Aimee and I are heading to church to see Wade and Ferris Joye. They are the proud parents of Liana and Adleigh. Liana is Kayleigh's neighbor in the NICU, so we will be hanging out with the Joye's for quite some time while residing there. Their church is having a special about them and their experience through this roller coaster ride of life. We are really looking forward to it and being there for them as we know exactly what they are going through. You can read their story by clicking on their link on our main page. Thank you all for your prayers and keep praying for more days like today. The Freemans
Kayleigh's new best friend is a webkin named Brittany. A few months back, Aimee and I went to get some Webkins for Allyson and Brandon. We had planned at some point to get Kayleigh her first stuffed animal, but we didn't realize we were going to come across the perfect best friend that day. Everyone has their first stuffed animal or doll that is their best friend. Mine was Ellie, a little grey elephant that I still have to this day. Aimee had her first best friend which was a doll named Amie. For those who don't know Brittany. She was a Cocker Spaniel that my family had for more than half of my life. She was our best friend and she unfortunately passed away last year. Kayleigh will never get a chance to personally meet one of the most special friends in my life, but she will befriend a splitting image stuffed animal of her. The cute thing is that Brittany is a little bit bigger than Kayleigh is right now. We were not able to put Brittany in the isolette for safety reasons, so she is sitting right outside waiting for the day they can cuddle
7/6/2008 3:58:00 PM
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I can hear that song playing in my mind over and over after the excitement Aimee and I just had. We went up to the NICU for a couple hours and it was a blast. Normally we would be spending all our time watching Kayleigh sleep, but not today. She was wide awake and the most active we have seen her yet. As you can see in the photos, she is off the vent and back on the nasal cannula. They took her off the vent and put her on the CPAP for an hour this morning. They noticed she was doing even too well to be on the CPAP, so they moved her to the nasa cannula. So instead of one step forward, we took two steps forward. Let's hope that she can keep it up! One of my favotire moments today besides getting to hold her hand for a little bit, was when we gave her a pacifier and she was actually sucking on it as best as possible. The miniature pacifier was still a little too big for her, but she would suck on the tip of it before it just fell out of her mouth. We tried to prop her hand up there to hold it in, but most of the time we would have to 43
Kayleigh's Story 7/8/2008 11:30:00 AM
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7/8/2008 7:21:00 PM First of all, I am sorry for not posting last night. I had a really good reason for it. Aimee and I had taped and watched the finale of The Bachelorette. We were so mad that Jesse won, he is such as dork. ha-ha! Anyways, check out that first photo of Kayleigh. It looks like she is laying out at the beach. That is so darn cute! Also, the last photo really shows the hair that is coming in. Aimee and I are still back and forth as to whether it is blond or brown hair that we see. The photos looks more brown, but there is a good mixture of both in person. She had a really good day yesterday. Not a whole lot happened so that is great. She did desat a couple times, but was able to recover well on her own. She was also a little whiney, which her little cry makes you feel all sappy inside. I got to change her diaper again and take her temperature. I was supose to get to Kangaroo Care her yesterday, but Aimee and I think the nurse was too nervous to do it. When we sprung it on her, she was hesitant to
7/8/08 - Kangaroo Care!!!
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Since Aimee is having a hard time producing milk, we figured it would be the best thing for Aimee told hold Kayleigh today instead of me. I know she is working really hard pumping every 2 - 3 hours through the night and if this is one of the best things for Aimee and Kayleigh, then I am completely fine giving up my spot to help my girls out.
But, Not for me :( Overall, she had another really good day and they have increased her food intake. Aimee was a able to feed her through the tube today. She is now receiving one "cc" every 3 hours, instead of 6 hours. Since they've increased her food, we are hoping to see more poops and maybe a little bit of weight gain.
I am glad I was able to get some good video of the Kangaroo care so you can see Miss Kayleigh in action. Turn up the volume and you can hear her whimper when the nurse brings her over to Aimee and lays her down. She was just so precious lying on Aimee today and she did really well for over 30 minutes with out a desat. Although, it got to a point where she started having troubles though, so we had to put her back in. I just think she was getting tired and cranky. That pink beanie is just so adorable on her.
I got a really good idea about doing size comparisons so when she gets older, she can see how small she really was. If there are any other good ideas/tips that we should do, please let me know. Other than that, enjoy our video and keep praying for our Kayleigh :)
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7/9/2008 11:19:00 PM
7/9/08 - Home Makeover!!! Today was yet another great day for Kayleigh. We are just completely pumped up for her right now. I know they said to expect some highs and lows, but we just hope to continue to see more highs than lows. Aimee and I took the kids up to see Kayleigh again today and they seemed to be more excited this time around. I think it was because Kayleigh was up looking around with her eyes wide open. Brandon 47
Kayleigh's Story The nurses said that she had a couple desats this afternoon, but when they turned up her flow from 3 to 4, she stopped having them. The great thing about it, is that the oxygen is not the problem. I think she is close to or at 21%, which is what we breath. The problem she has is that her lungs are so small, they are not strong enough to suck in the air so it is easier for her to forget and not breath sometimes when she is sleeping. Since they turn up the flow, it practically pushes the air in to her lungs for her. They also increased her feedings and she is tolerating it very well. That means a lot to me because I want her to grow from the tiny little peanut that she is. She did increase some weight though from dropping a couple ounces over the past two days. She is currently weighing 531 grams (1.273 lbs). We are really excited about her progress so far. Aimee and I put together a sign and some photos to decorate her incubator with. In the picture above, you can see some favorite photos that we chose in the background. So when we are not there, she can still see us. I put a lot of work in to that collage with her name on it. I guess I will settle for nothing less than perfect when it comes to my precious daughter. If you can't make out the photos on the collage, Brandon and Allyson are the ones up top with Aimee and I, but down below are Georgia (Our Weiner Dog), Myrtle (Our Turtle) and Sam (Our Border Collie Mix). They all can't wait for Kayleigh to come home and play with them. Kayleigh, we all love you very much and we can't wait to bring you home. We will pray and pray and pray for God to take care of you and all the other babies. You are certainly a miracle and proof that God is in control. Thanks everyone for all your prayers! The Freemans
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On the oher hand, Mommy is not too happy either!!! She was diagnosed with slight Hyperthyroidism and was placed on a medicine to control it. When Aimee was pregnant, she lost 10 pounds, but was never sick. She then gained 5 pounds back before Kayleigh arrived. Since being on the new medicine they gave her, she has gained 7 pounds in the past two weeks. We have been going back and forth with the Doctors to see what is going on. We wanted to know if this Hyperthyroidism was only a problem when she was pregnant and the hormones have caused the inbalance. We cut back on the medicine for now and will continue to watch to see what happens. Aimee is not thrilled about the weight gain at all and we don't need her pulling out more hair because of the stress. I would still love her if she was big and bald though. :)
7/11/08 - Sorry for not posting :-o Okay, I got yelled at by Aimee and I think I scared my parents to death because I didn't post yesterday. I did however comlpete chapters 5 and 6 of the book I am writing about our experience, which will then help other familes in the same situation keep hope alive. I was up until 6 this morning working on it so I am sorry for not posting.
I will update tonight after we get back from the hospital. Please keep your prayers coming and thank you to those for sending the gifts. Thank you notes and pictures will soon be sent out. We love you all!!!
We went up to visit Kayleigh yesterday afternoon for a short amount of time. We had the kids with us and on those days, it is harder to keep them patient while we are in the NICU. Kayleigh was desatting more yesterday than she has been over the past couple days. They think it was due to the inrease in food, but aren't totally sure. They tried increasing her flow, increasing her oxygen, decreasing her food, but nothing seemed to work. She is bringing her self out of the plunges, so that means for something good.
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She slept the whole time we were there and looked so peaceful all wrapped up. Kayleigh also has a new neighbor who is practically sharing the same isolette because they are packed in that little room. They said the other baby shouldn't be there long. I am sorry if I sound like a complainer, but I guess I am already getting over protective of my little girl. ha-ha.
7/11/08 - One Step Back
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Kayleigh started her day off with many desats back to back which caused the nurse to call in some respiratory specialists to see if they could figure out what may be causing her to have so much trouble. The only suggestion they had was to change her position to see if they would help Kayleigh. It did for a little bit, but later in the afternoon she was back at it again.
The crazy thing that is shocking the Doctors is that Kayleigh is not having the normal type of desat where her oxygen slowly drops from 95-70-50, and then the heart rate drops shortly beind that. Kayleigh is dropping quickly from 95-50-10. At times her oxygen is dropping in to the single digits within a matter of seconds and then the heart starts to drop within 30 seconds after that. Sometimes the heart doesn't even drop at all, so that is what is concerning the Doctors. She is quickly bouncing back which is good, but sometimes she doesn't and needs help. They did some tests today which possibly confirms that these severe desats are caused by the VSD (hole between chambers) in Kayleigh's heart. The hole is a moderate size, which moderate can mean large for Kayleigh because her heart is so small to begin with. They are doing an Echocardiogram tomorrow to get some more answers, but they noticed that the VSD is causing the lungs to take on fluid due to the heart overworking itself. The fluid is then 51
Kayleigh's Story 7/13/2008 7:40:00 PM
causing Kayleigh to have trouble breathing and the VSD is causing an issue in transfering a sufficient amount of oxygen to the body. Basically, they both don't go hand in hand and is causing the severe desats. The good news is that the hole will not get any bigger and can close on its own. Also good news is that they can do heart surgery to close the hole if the medicine does not work. The surgery will both limit the fluid in the lungs and help the heart distribute more oxygen to the body. The bad news that if she needs the surgery to close it, she is no where near the size to have the surgery performed right now. They are needing her to be atleast 4.5 lbs. That is over three times the size she is now (She weighed in at 550 which is 1 pound, 3.4 ounces) The new medicine they started today is called Lasix. It is a diuretic that will help extract the fluid from her lungs. The other medicine that they will start Monday is called Digoxin and that is to help the heart boost its performance so she can get more oxygenated blood flow through the body. If the medicine does not work like they want it to, they may have to do surgery to insert a pulmonary band to stop the fluid from going in to the lungs. So right now we are in a game of waiting. I am anxious to hear what the Echocargiogram is going to tell us tomorrow. I will be sure to let you all know something as soon as I find out and can post. ***For those who know about this or have been through this situation, please post and let us know your experience. ***For all the others, please post (in the comment section below) a prayer for Kayleigh that this issue will be quickly resolved by the hands of God and that Kayleigh will quickly grow out of this severe desaturation phase. Thank you everyone and God Bless!!! The Freemans
7/13/08 - Our New Goals
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Here we go! The echocardiogram came back today to clarify one thing, Kayleigh will need surgery. The (VSD), hole in her heart will need to be closed because medication will not be able to get the job done. So as of right now, they have increased her feeds to deliver more nutrients (Carbs, Fats and Proteins) without increasing level of food they give her. So basically, she is going to have a high calorie diet packed in a small dose. The Lasix will be used to extract the fluid out of her lungs until she is big enough to add the pulmonary band which will take over that job. Our goal is to get to 1000 grams (2lbs 3.3oz) so the Doctors can do surgey to add the pulmonary band. Once that goal is met, our next goal is to make it to 2000 grams (4lbs 6.5oz) so they can open the same incision to repair the hold (VSD) in her heart. A nurse said that we should expect an increase of 25 grams a day. If she hits that 53
Kayleigh's Story 7/14/2008 9:25:00 PM
up from the other day, so we are moving in the right direction. 580 grams is 1 pound 4.5 ounces. Kayleigh had only three desat episode all day today and it was during her cares. I know she is on the vent and that helps keep the desats from happening quite as much, but I am so happy to hear she was able to rest her body today. Earlier today, the nurse had told us her oxygen was increased to 50% due to her blood gasses coming back irregular, but since then they have decreased it down to 38%. Hopefully that continues to decrease because her settings have normally been around room air (21%) the whole time. They also changed her vent settings from 18 to 15, which I think means it is the pressure forcing air into her lungs. All I do know is that she said it was good, so if it is good then I am happy! ha-ha. For the most part, she seems to be doing better since early this morning. That to me sounds like improvement.
7/14/08 - Happy 3 Weeks Old Okay, I am going to give you all the bad news quickly and then tell you some good news because we are going to stay positive and not let the bad news effect our attitudes. Sorry I didn't take a picture today because I wanted Kayleigh to rest and I was beyond terrified to turn on her light or use the camera flash for my pleasure. When Aimee and I arrived to the NICU today, the nurse practitioner came in to talk with us. She had went over everything we already knew (which I posted yesterday) and then a couple other pieces of information. She said that Kayleigh's heart appears to be a little more enlarged today that it did yesterday. Beyond her lungs starting to fill up with fluid, her right lung has some sacs that are not expanding, which she explained could be collapsing from working too hard when fatigued. The NP said, both the lung and heart issues could be signs of congestive heart failure. That is not good!!! Along with other bad news, they are doing blood cultures because they think she may have an infection of some sort. That means they can not feed her until that comes back clear because it could cause the infection to worsen. So no food = no growth.
On another good note, Aimee has finally covered the bottom of her container with the milk she has produced. That was a goal ever since she got her first drop to make it into the bottle. We know that Kayleigh needs mommy's milk more than anything, so we are so happy to see that she is producing enough to help. It seems like more and more is coming in each day. Bless her sore boobies though, she has been pumping every 2-3 hours on the dot all the way through the night. She is such an awesome Mommy!!! Our prayer request:
Now the good news! They have started the medicine to help with her heart, so we will know if it is working within 24-48 hours. They have also started the medicine to remove the fluid from her lungs. So lets pray that both medicines will help take care of these issues. The other day, her weight was 550 grams and it jumped to 635 grams yesterday, which seemed a little weird, but they did give her a blood transfusion. Today her weight was 580 grams which is still
I asked the NP today if this was a common situation amongst preemies and this was her answer, "Yes, it is with a (normal size) preemies, but it is even tougher on (micro) preemies like Kayleigh because they are just so small" Size is against us and if we can't feed her, she isn't going to grow. So please pray that she will not have anything come between her and her food anymore, so she can grow and grow quick. Right now, we are dealing with a balancing 54
Kayleigh's Story Today was a better today than the past couple days so I have to be excited about that. They discontinued the Dopamine that she was on because her blood pressure regulated and she peed a lot through the night. Here is the great news of today. The x-ray that they took of her showed that her heart was not as enlarged as it was yesterday and there was less fluid build up in her lungs. They have increased her IV fluids and started to feed her again. That is amazing news and I hope that it continues to progress.
act of events. Although, if she doesn't grow quick enough, we could very well lose her. We are not going to let that happen!!! We all need to pray and pray the same thing, so God will work in her life. Kayleigh is a fighter and we all know that from her past hurdles, but we need her to fight now more than ever before. Ask God to give her enough strength to make it through yet another battle.
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The rough part of today was that she was showing a lot of signs of irritability. She was on the vent and desating like crazy, but she wasn't desating like normal. She would drop down to around 50 and then it would take her forever to get back up. They had to bag her quite a few times today which means they had to pump air into her lungs manually. They just couldn't put their finger on why she was struggling. When Aimee and I were there, they decided to reposition her and remove her vent tube. The Doctor that was watching thought he would like to try and see how she did on the Bubble CPAP again. I was not happy because I knew she would definitely not get any rest then. The Doctor figured she was just trying to refuse the vent all together. So within an hour, she was put on the Bubble CPAP, then changed to the Conventional CPAP and then back to the Vent because she was not accepting any of them and really doing poor with her breathing. It was very stressful to watch, so Aimee and I left to go down to the cafeteria with Wade and Ferris to eat dinner. It is so awesome to have friends in the NICU like them to either vent to or rejoice in good news. When we returned to see her knocked out, it was an awesome feeling. Her vitals looked good and she was sound asleep. They gave her some pain medicine to help her rest and gain her energy back. Poor girl was so wiped out, that he vent was completely breathing for her when normally she over rides it.
7/15/08 - Look at my hair!!!
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Kayleigh's Story It is going to take some time to get used to this stress, but I am glad that we have all of our support. Aimee and I have been getting wonderful emails from so many people. To hear all the people who are out there following Kayleigh's story and praying for her just overwhelms me with joy. I love to check my computer to see who has posted to say hello and the miracle stories they share. We thank you so much because your emails and prayers are what gets us through the days. This is the hardest thing that Aimee and I have ever had to deal with in our lives. Thank you all for being amazing to us. You are all truly a blessing from God.
tomorrow. Even though I had a well needed break, I miss her deeply. Thank you all for your prayers and emails. I got quite a few today and enjoyed reading them tonight. It just makes me feel so awesome to see all those comments. I truly appreciate every single one of them.
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7/17/08 DADDY GETS KANGAROO TIME!!!!
7/16/2008 10:51:00 PM
7/16/08 - Quick update I just wanted to give you a quick update so no one kills me for not posting at all. Brandon, Allyson, my parents and I went to the beach in South Carolina today to meet up with some of my California relatives. It was a very needed one day getaway. Aimee had to stay behind for an appointment and was truly missed. Since we all came back looking like lobsters, I don't think she was too upset for not going. I am hurting badly as I feel the sunburn in my finger tips while I type!!! So, I am going to make this quick and let you know that today was a good day. Kayleigh had a few desats, but was able to rest peacefully all day today. Her blood gases came back good and she gained a little weight. She weighed in at 613 grams which is 1 pound 5.6 ounces. That is up from yesterday so we are very happy to see that. Other than that, she is doing well. I can't wait to go see her 56
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First of all, I am in heaven after the day I had today. I finally got to hold my daughter to my chest for the first time ever. It was by far the most wonderful feeling in the world to hold Kayleigh in my arms and feel her move around. She was so comfortable laying with me that her sats were higher than she was in the incubator. That made me feel so amazing because my worst fear was for her to start desating and me be too afraid to hold her the next go around. It went perfect, so I was completely happy and I can't wait to hold her again. I actually got in a grumpy mood when I left because I didn't want to put her back :( ha-ha. Well, I would not have gotten the chance to hold Kayleigh if she had a bad day, so I am pleased to tell you all that her day was wonderful. She had only had a few minor desats all day long. Her blood pressure was off a little, so they brought in the Dopamine to start that again. By the time they set it up and had it ready, she leveled her blood pressure back out and was fine for the rest of the 57
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day. The Dopamine was aso used to help Kayleigh pee, but she had a very wet diaper all day today. They think that the Lasix (diuretic used to extract fluid from the lungs) had something to do with that too. Out of all the times I changed her diaper, she never had a poopy diaper. But when Aimee changed her diaper today for the first time ever, Kayleigh had the biggest poop she has ever had recorded. I was shocked when I saw it because I didn't realize she could poop that much. I was curious on how the seeds got in there. (Sorry for being gross) ha-ha. Since they started her back on her feeds yesterday, if everything continues to go well, they will increase them tomorrow. At the beginning, Kayleigh was diagnosed with a thyroid issue and today they didn't feel like it was an issue anymore and took her off the medication (Synthroid). They didn't weigh her this evening because they did a blood gas at 8:00 and were moving her around more than they wanted to. They will weigh her around 2:00AM so I will know tomorrow for sure if she has grown anymore. Aimee and I think that her hands and feet seem to be growing alot because they look much bigger. Her hair is growing in more too and Aimee is convinced it is brown and not blonde. It did look darker today than yesterday, so maybe. They also measure Kayleigh every Monday. This past Monday they measured her at 12 inches long. She has grown 1.5 inches in the past 3 weeks. Now she just needs to put on some meat. Please pray for Wade and Ferris as one of their little girls (Adleigh) is going to have heart surgery tomorrow to close her PDA. Both of their girls have been through a lot and are continuing to fight through every obstacle put in front of them. God is certainly working miracles in their life and we need to continue to pray for them. God Bless The Joye Family!!! The Freemans
7/18/08 - So Peaceful and Comfy
Aimee, the kids and I went up to see Kayleigh earlier in the day today because we had an appointment on that side of town. Kayleigh was sound asleep and doing really well. Her alarm was going off, but only because her sats were high and her oxygen needed to be lowered. That is an alarm I hope to hear more often. Since she had a good evening and was doing good all day, they increased her feeds from 1ml to 2ml. There was a new nurse today and she was telling us that Kayleigh had a bad night, but we dug a little deeper to find out she only had 3 desats all night long. I don't think she knows Kayleigh all that well because that is really good for her to only have 3 desats. 58
Kayleigh's Story Kayleigh also had a chest x-ray this morning and it showed that the fluid in her lungs looked much less than usual, so take a deep breath of fresh air because that is some delightful news. Let's just hope that it stays that way so she can grow and get to the weight she needs to be to have the surgery. When Aimee went back to see her, she noticed her eyes and nose were a little black and blue. The nurse said they were going to test her hemoglobin to see if maybe she needs more blood. If that is the case, she will get her fourth blood transfusion.
the coolest thing in the world. Plus they have checked constantly every five minutes to see if they get new visitors. ha-ha.
7/19/2008 5:07:00 PM
7/19/08 - Back on CPAP Woo Hoo!!!
I just called up to get more news. She is doing really well and resting. Her weight went down a little, but the lasix medication they were giving her is going to cause her to fluctuate a little. She weighed in at 642grams which is 1pound 6.7 oz. She did have a couple poops today too so she is tolerating the increased feeds. They are going to test her blood gases soon to see if they can wein her even lower on the oxygen. Over all, she is having a really good day today. Also, take a look over to the right toolbar as today I helped Brandon and Allyson create their own blogs so they would feel a part of everything that is going on. I can't imagine how tough it is for them to see their little sister in the isolette and have to wait for a long time before they can play dress up or wrestle. (Especially the wrestling) Brandon and Allyson have been so wonderful when we go in to the NICU and they ask very good questions. It is a fear that we may not be able to give them the attention during this hard and stressful time. Today I was able to spend a lot of time giving them their "own" (.com) They were just thrilled to see they are on the internet, but now they have their own website. Please do me a huge huge favor and post a comment praising them on a how wonderful big brother/big sister they are being for Kayleigh. It would mean a lot for Aimee and I, but I am sure they will think it is 59
Kayleigh's Story Doesn't she look like a scuba diver? Well, after a good night last night, they decided to put her back on the bubble CPAP this morning. I spoke to the Doctor in depth about how they decided when it was time to switch from the vent to the CPAP to the Nasal Cannula, especially when our main goal is for her to rest and focus on growing. He said that Kayleigh will not burn enough calories to make a difference if she has the apnea episodes, even when it appears she is not getting sleep and wearing herself out. The most important thing for her to grow is the amount of feeds she will be getting as long as she can tolerate it. So the reason she wasn't growing was not because she wasn't getting enough sleep, it was because she wasn't getting enough food. The good news about her feeds is that yesterday they increased her feeds from 2 to 3ml and today, they are increasing it to 4ml. So she will get that much every 3 hours. That will help her grow. They are just going to keep an eye on Kayleigh and make sure she can tolerate that amount of increase or it could cause back up and cause infections. They don't want to give too much too soon. So with speaking to the Doctor, it cleared up my worries about whether or not her breathing assistance is going to affect her growth. Overall, her day is going great so far. She was doing well on her breathing and not having any issues with desats. Being that the bubble CPAP is almost too big for her, it kept falling out of position, so it caused Kayleigh to not get the oxygen she needed. Her sats would drop, but then her heart rate wouldn't, so we knew right then and there it was out of position. They had to wrap it around her head and even put a beenie on to strap it in place. The picture almost like she is uncomfortable, but she is doing just fine. They had to get a smaller beenie because the one you see in the photo was too big and it almost covered her eyes completely. The funny part of the day was when I changed her diaper. She had 60
Kayleigh's Story peed in her diaper, but there were only small small smears of poop. As I changed the diaper and wiped her butt with the wet cloth, I must have triggered her bowels because she had an explosive blow out. She almost squirted me in the process. It was so funny, I was almost in need of a changing too. So we threw on a new diaper quickly so she can finish her business. Aimee is also doing a great job. This morning, she had the most milk she produced so far. It covered the bottom of her little cup about a half of an inch deep. That is a major improvement. She was so blessed to have met someone on the message board who sent her some Domperidone at no charge to help out and it seems to be working. We are so greatful because to order it, it would have taken a couple weeks and we didn't have time to wait. Kayleigh needs this liquid gold as quick as possible if we need her to grow and now Aimee is producing enough to make that happen. It is amazing how God makes everything work so perfectly. We are so proud of Aimee!!! We are happy that today was another good day. I know that my posts always seem cheery, but I am really good at hiding my emotions. To be honest with you all, this is the most stressful situation I have ever been in during my entire life. It is so hard to see your child, who you can barely touch because you are afraid to disrupt her, let alone hold her in your arms like a newborn baby should be held. I am very impatient as I want her home with me NOW!!! I am so afraid to go in the NICU to find out bad news that she is not doing well or she may not even make it. The rollercoaster is the hardest part. One day she could be absolutely fine and the next day she could be fighting for her life. It is so hard playing this waiting game and balancing act of medicine. The events that have happened over the past 14 weeks with ALL the ups and downs of her "not going to survive" to "Holy crap, she made it" has really played a toll on me. You just wonder and ask God everyday, "What is the purpose of this and how is going insane going to help me help others." It has gotten to a point where I have been getting angry
over the littliest things. I am sure that there are a lot of NICU Dads out there that try to act strong for their family, but are breaking down inside. Please, either tell me to suck it up or what I can do to help make things easier on my end. I wish you all a wonderful weekend and God Bless! The Freemans
7/20/2008 3:10:00 PM
7/20/08 - 3 IN A ROW!!!! Three great days in a row is helping Mommy and Daddy's hair grow back. Sorry I didn't have any photos today. She was in the same exact position as she was yesterday, with the bubble CPAP and the beanie almost covering her eyes. The only thing noticeably different was her cleaner diaper, especially after that big poop she had yesterday. But I don't think I should take photos of that. ha-ha Kayleigh has been doing great today, only recording one desat which hung around the 60's. Normally, she goes down to the 40's or even that one day she was down in the single digits. So we are much happier to see her where she is at. They weined her oxygen down to 25%, so hopefully she can hang out there comfortably for a while at that rate and GROW!!! If she tolerates her feeds today at 4ml, they will increase it to 5ml tomorrow. They said that if she continues to do well with the food, their plan is to increase it every 24 hours. They are going to do some routine blood work later on and they'll 61
Kayleigh's Story also measure her so we can see how much longer she has gotten. Aimee and I can tell that her cheeks are starting to fill in and her hands/feet are really getting bigger. She weighed in at 654 grams last night, so her weight increased just a tiny bit. Since she has had her beanie on for three days now, Aimee thinks that a lot more hair will appear when they take it off. Just last week, she was getting more and more peach fuzz each day that went on, so we are excited to see what it looks like now. For those who are praying for Adleigh, I wanted to give you an update and let you know her surgery went great and she is recovering well. You can follow their story also as I have a link over on the right tool bar. Liana shares a room with Kayleigh and Adleigh is just over in the next room. Every now and then, Liana and Kayleigh both like to keep the nurses busy by acting up at the same time. I guess they like fighting over attention. All three of them are a true blessing from God! Thank you all and I will try to get some photos tomorrow. The Freemans
7/21/2008 8:07:00 PM
HAPPY 4 WEEKS OLD!!!! 4 WEEKS OLD!!! Where has the time gone? I just hope the rest of the time goes just as fast. Today was a boring day and we all know that boring days are awesome! Kayleigh's sats were good all day 62
Kayleigh's Story with only a few ups and downs with her breathing. They still have her on the Bubble CPAP, but they weaned her oxygen down to 26%. When Aimee and I went to visit, one second she would be satting high and then the next second, she would satting low. She was just all over the place. Aimee was able to kangaroo for just about 10 minutes before Kayleigh started fussing and we had to put her back. We were just shocked that she was able to kangaroo in the first place because she had that big head piece on. She looks so cute though, but we are ready to see that pretty face again. The nurses did increase her feeds today to 5ml, but she only weighed in at 603 grams tonight. The nurse said she weighed her without the CPAP on so that is probably why it was around 30 grams less than yesterday. I wish they would all do it the same way though or atleast weigh her both ways. We were able to sit down with the family planner today and go over some things. The cool part was, we were able to write down Kayleigh's likes, dislikes, concerns, and goals that will be placed on Kayleighs isolette for all the nurses to see. The biggest problem we are having right now, is that we are learning the nurses and we are wanting them to know Kayleigh's story. We want them to know Kayleigh and understand that this baby wasn't suppose to be here. I don't want to pull anything away from all the other babies that are in there, but I want the nurses to understand that Kayleigh is OUR miracle. We have some primaries, which is awesome but we know that our primaries are not always going to be there. Most of them do, but we want everyone to care as much as we do. :) The planner was awesome and we are so glad to have her help us. Another NICU baby we have met through this journey is Parker. Parker had an ultrasound today to check for a possible hernia. Can everyone please include Parker in your prayers tonight. Parker was born at 29 weeks and has been in the NICU for 8 weeks so far. He is
a cutie! I have included Parker's story over to the right on my tool bar.
7/22/2008 6:35:00 PM
7/22/08 - Daddy's in Love
Yes, I am so in love because I got to hold my precious little girl again today. Aimee took a great photo of her laying on my chest sound asleep. It was so amazing to feel her move her tiny little hands against my skin. She was satting good for fifteen minutes before she had a couple episodes where her heart rate and oxygen dropped, meaning we had to put her back. I could tell she really liked it when I hummed a song to her. I guess the vibration was 63
Kayleigh's Story comforting to her because she looked so relaxed laying with me. The funny part was when they put Kayleigh on my chest, she farted and you can tell something else came with it because it sounded raunchy. What is it with Kayleigh trying to poop on me? This is the second time! ha-ha
She had a really good day today. They increased her feeds to 5ml because she was tolerating the others very well. They have moved her lasix to every other day, which the lasix is helping remove the fluid in her lungs. Aimee and I noticed that her eyes and mouth seem to be much bigger. She yawned a few times today and that mouth was huge. Aimee made a joke to the nurse saying that big mouths run in the family and I would agree. Kayleigh opened her eyes today and I could tell a big difference in size. This is the first time she opened her eyes for us in the past couple days, so it seems to me that things are starting to develope quick! We still have not gotten a chance to see her hair and how much that has grown over the past couple days. I can't wait to see that. The note you see at the top is a note from Kayleigh to all the nurses who take care of her. We want to make sure they know who Kayleigh is so they have an invested interest beyond normal care. I want them to feel a part of her family and to take pride in the work 64
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they do when they are with her. Hopefully it will help. We have picked up some primaries to take care of her when they are on shift that we really like and we added another great one today. We are so pleased with the primary nurses we have so far. I am sure Kayleigh is too :) I sent this out in an email today to people we updated while we were in the hospital. I wanted to add it to here on the blog as well incase the person we are trying to track down was not on that email list. Aimee received a call while she was at the hospital from a flower delivery place asking if we were going to be in that hospital room the next day. We told them we were not going to be there and we gave them our home address to send the flowers to. We did not receive the flowers at our home address and since they called Aimee on the hospital phone, we were not able to retrieve the number to call them back. So, if you didn't get a thank you note for sending flowers, please let us know as this person is you :) Aimee and I can't thank you all enough for all the prayers, gifts and love you have given us over the past several weeks. It means more than anything for people to reach out and contribute something for Kayleigh. She is going to be thrilled when she is older and finds out how many people were pulling for her through these tough times. Whether we have known you forever, or you just posted for the first time today, we love you all like family and are so greatful to have you in our lives. You all have shown the true meaning of love. Thank you so much! The Freemans
7/23/08 - Gett'n Blood
Here is what a blood transfusion looks like for a preemie. They have a device that automatically presses a syringe full of blood through an IV into Kayleigh. This will be her fourth transfusion so far, but she is doing really well with each procedure. We just got an update and she is doing fantastic. There were a couple desats earlier today, but nothing else since then. Aimee and I brought a really dark blanket from home to cover her isolette so barely any light can get in. This will not only allow her to get better rest, but maybe it is helping with her desats. They increased her feeds to 7ml today which is more than we thought, but we are not arguing one bit! Woo hoo. EAT Kayleigh 65
Kayleigh's Story EAT!!!! She weighed in at 690 grams tonight which is 1 lb - 8.3 ounces. Woo hoo. GROW Kayleigh GROW!!!! Because they increased her feeds, her poops are increasing too. She had 3 big poops today. Woo hoo. POOP Kayleigh POOP!!!! We are certainly blessed to see 4 wonderful days in a row!!! Thanks everyone for the prayer chains, prayer circles and all the other kind of prayers. I can see them working in Kayleigh each day. You all are a blessing to our family and please keep things going. Tell your friends, co workers and churches to pray, pray, pray!!!! When we are able to bring her home, we are going to throw her a welcome home party like no other! I just wish it wouldn't take Kayleigh several years to find out how many wonderful friends that are pulling for her right now. Thank you God for blogs! The Freemans :)
7/24/2008 11:49:00 PM
7/24/08 - We've Banded Together
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Kayleigh's Story Today was an amazing day in more ways than one. First of all, our wrist bands came in today and we will be sporting them around everywhere! I certainly will not be scared to wear pink now. I have been waiting for over a week for these bands to come in and I was so excited when they got here today. Second of all, Kayleigh had another awesome day. Are you sitting down??? I don't know if this was a huge fluctuation or just a crazy chance, but Kayleigh weighed in at 762 grams tonight, which is 1 pound 10.8 ounces. That is 72 grams more than yesterday. I am really looking forward to seeing what she weighs in tomorrow night to see if that was just an error or actually true weight gain. They usually will weigh her 2-3 times over and take either the median or average number. That is unbelievable growth though. They did increase her feeds to 8ml today and are you sitting down again???? They stopped her Lasix because they said her lungs are looking much much better. They are going to do another scan tomorrow to double check the fluid. Other than that, she had a few desats today but they think it is due to her CPAP positioning more than anything else. It will be seven days since we have seen her without the CPAP tubes and beanie on. We are ready to see her pretty little face so I can take more photos for you all. She has grown 4.2 ounces since she has had the contraption on, so we know she is going to look a little different when she gets it taken off. I have been reading a wonderful book that I want to share with you all. It is called "For the Love of Rachel" by David Loewenstein. It is about his families journey through the NICU and his daughter's battle with prematurity. I highly recommend it to all of you out there. I had the pleasure to converse back and forth with David this past week because I too am in the middle of writing a book about our journey. His book has been very successful and what better person to ask advice from than someone who has been in my
shoes. I wish David and his family all the best. Thanks everyone for all your prayers and words of encouragement.
7/25/2008 6:35:00 PM
7/25/08 - Making Progress & AWESOME IDEA!!!
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Kayleigh's Story they can keep her below 30% for a couple days, they will try the nasal cannula again. There is definitely no rush though because we want to focus on her growth more than anything. They have increased her feeds to 9ml because she continues to tolerate the feeds really well. However they are going to lengthen the time to an hour that they feed her because they notice she desats more when it is given to her in a shorter time period. I guess it backs up and she gets a full tummy. She pooped a couple times today though, so that only means they will increase it again tomorrow. The more food we can give her, the quicker she will grow so we can get the surgery completed to insert the pulmonary band. The band is there to limit the amount of fluid build up in her lungs before we can do the surgery to close her VSD (Hole in lower heart chamber). We have to get to 1000 grams first for the band, but we are almost there. I just called and she weighed in at 759 grams which is 1 pound and 10.8 ounces still, like last night. The awesome news is, the respiratory nurses said her breathing is sounding great and that is why they stopped the Lasix yesterday. On top of that, the cardiologist have stopped the Digoxyn too because her heart is sounding good and she is not showing any signs of distress. Both of those medicines were used to help her apnea issues by pushing the heart a little harder to deliver oxygen throughout the body (Digoxyn), while removing the excess fluid in her lungs (Lasix). So now we will just need to pray that she continues to do well so she doesn't have to go back on those medicines. If she shows any sign of issues, they will do an x-ray and a echocardiogram to determine what to do. Aimee got to do Kangaroo care for about 20 minutes today which is more than before. We keep increasing it everytime we do it, so that is progress. We got some good photos and video, so I hope everyone enjoys it. I was able to set Brittany in the isolette next to Kayleigh to really show how tiny she still is. If you go to a store that sells Webkins, look at the Cocker Spaniel and you will get a true
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understanding of how tiny she is. ***There were several people that asked if we were selling the bracelets and at first we decided we didn't want to add another thing to our plates, but then we figured since so many people wanted one already, that we should do somewhat of a fundraiser for Kayleigh. So Aimee and I thought that we would put the money raised towards something that Kayleigh could use when she comes home from the hospital and everyone who contributed could sport a pink bracelet to pull for Kayleigh. Also, what I think would be a great idea is to have everyone who contributed in the fundraiser, email me a photo of your family along with a note to Kayleigh so we can put them all in a scrap book. I think it would be really really awesome if everyone took photos with their bracelets on so we can use those photos. That way Kayleigh will always remember the people she had pulling for her for the rest of her life. We decided each bracelet would cost $5.00 and we will be putting in an order over the next week. So if you are interested, please click on this link - "Get a Kayleigh Bracelet" at the top right on the side tool bar. Don't forget to add your address so we know where to send the bracelets. Over time, I will let everyone who bought bracelets know the deadline about when to get your photos in along with your note. I hope everyone is doing well. Thank you all for your prayers and we wish you a wonderful weekend. If you get a chance, Brandon wanted me to tell everyone to check out his blog tonight as we did some home videos that will give you quite a laugh. We had a blast putting them together, so I hope you all enjoy. (Click here to see his blog)
7/26/08 - Our Hands
Today was another great day for Kayleigh. She is just amazing us all every single day and we are so blessed for the good days. She started her day off with some desats, but when the nurse changed her diaper, she figured out why Kayleigh was so upset. She had the biggest poop she has ever had so far. It is funny how we get so excited over her accomplishments, and right now it is her poops. She had so much, she filled up the diaper that doesn't even fit her in the first place. After her diaper was changed, she straightened up and started to not desat anymore. We came up to see her this afternoon and she was getting her feeds at that time. She is now up to 10ml today. She seemed to be 69
Kayleigh's Story cranky though during her feeds. She didn't liked her arms or hands to be touched, but if you cupped your hand over her body, she was completely fine. As you see in the photo above, I was able to snap a picture while her hand was resting on mine. Her hand was more on top of mine, but by the time I grabbed the camera and took the photo, she moved it. ha-ha. I just called to get her weight and since she pooped quite a bit more than usual today, she dropped a little bit of weight. She weighed in at 692 grams, which this nurse takes off 22 grams for the CPAP hat and I am not sure if the others did that as well. Brandon was so cute today. He read Kayleigh "Goodnight Moon" which is the book that Aimee used to read to him when he was a baby. He read it out loud with all the nurses around and he didn't get shy or hesitate one bit. He is going to be such an awesome big brother. Thanks for all the prayers and wondeful words of encouragement. We just hope these good days continue so she can grow and we can tackle the surgery hurdles with flying colors. We are so glad to have everyone there for support. It means the world to us. The Freemans
they put her back on the vent. They thought her desats might have had something to do with the eye exam they performed. Good news is that her eye exam came back normal, but we are not out of the woods yet as they said she could develop problems as time goes by. She is just a little too premature to know just yet. Everything seems to be looking good with her eyes right now though. They also did some tests to make sure she did not have an infection, which could be causing the desats and apnea. On the other hand, they noticed her tummy was swelling up as if she was bloated from the feedings. Also, they noticed her hemoglobin level was low and on top of that, the nurse felt like Kayleigh's heart murmer was sounding louder than normal. So they had all these issues which one or all of these things were causing her to have a really rough day. So, they took an x-ray to look at her lungs and her belly. The lungs looked a little wet which shows signs that her heart was working harder than normal again. They gave her one dose of Lasix tonight and she is going to go on antibiotics incase there is an infection. They noticed the belly was swollen because there was too much trapped air due to the CPAP, so taking her off the CPAP and extracting the trapped gas will help with that. Plus, getting her on the vent will help with her blood gasses once they set her at the right level of oxygen. They are also giving her a blood transfusion again tonight to help increase the hemoglobin.
7/27/2008 10:36:00 PM
7/27/08 One Step Back
WOW, What a busy and exciting night for Kayleigh. If one thing isn't going great, everything isn't allowed to go great in the eyes of Kayleigh. She doesn't like to make it easy on anyone, that is for sure. So it certainly stressed us out at first, but then now that every issue is being attended to, we feel much better. I just hope they take care of the problems quickly and we can get back on track. Since her head piece was taken off, they were able to get a true
I guess when you have so many great days, your bound to have one bad one. Let's just pray that it is only a small setback and we can fix the problem and continue to move in the right direction. Throughout the whole day today, Kayleigh was having a lot of desats and apnea spells. Her blood gasses came back abnormal, so 70
Kayleigh's Story reading of her weight. She was 672 grams which is around 1 pound 7 ounces. Her length came in at 12.4 inches so she is just slightly bigger than your footlong at Subway. ha-ha! We will be up there for quite sometime tomorrow and since she has her beanie off, we will be able to take some good photos. Please pray that she gets back on track and can focus on growing again.
7/28/2008 11:57:00 PM
7/28/08 - Just a Bump in the Road, No Problem!! That is exactly what Kayleigh is saying right now! "Yesterday was just a bump in the road, No Problem" as she is just about back on track. It was great to see Kayleigh without the CPAP Beanie on so we could see her face and hair. She didn't grow much hair and it still doesn't really determine whether we are going to have a blondy or a burnette. She did take a moment to look at Daddy for the camera. Sorry it didn't come out real clear, but I didn't want to use the flash and scare her, let alone hurt her eyes. I got to hold her for a moment while the nurse changed her sheets. She is so tiny in my hands that I just still can not believe my eyes.
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Today was a very productive day. Kayleigh had a couple desats throughout the whole day, but was great for the most part. They weaned her oxygen down to room temperature with the vent, so that is crazy since yesterday she was struggling with the CPAP. I really think that Kayleigh just doesn't prefer the Bubble CPAP because they can never get it to fit her good for long periods of time and it causes her stomach to be bloated with trapped air. Speaking of her stomach, it has gone down quite a bit and that could be because of her not being on the CPAP or that massive poop she had today. The x-rays came back with no issues with her lungs and her blood gasses came back normal. They said they would put her back on the CPAP, but since they just moved her to the vent, they don't want to keep intubating and extubating her. Sometimes Kayleigh will extubate herself and they said they will leave it out if she does it. We noticed today that she just loves to pull on the tube and also 72
Kayleigh's Story She had an apnea spell, making the bells chime and then a desat right after it to make things even more exciting. She quickly recovered back to normal and if she could make a sound, I would have heard a giggle like no other. That right there goes to show she is a true Freeman as we are all practical joksters. Other than that small little spell, she was wonderful today. Tonight they will start her back on her feeds once they get her final blood culture back, but they will only be giving her 4ml. So we have to take a few steps back with the amount of food she will be getting, but hopefully we will be back up to 10ml in no time. She even gained some weight over night without getting any food yesterday. She weighed in at 737 grams which you would also have to take account for the CPAP, but her weight is right around 1 pound 10 ounces. We want to thank those who have purchased a bracelet. We will be making an order shortly and we can't wait to put together the scrapbook with all the family photos of everyone wearing their bracelets. I guess I am just so excited for the day that Kayleigh can appreciate all the people pulling for her and this will be a wonderful way to do just that. Thank you all from the bottom of our hearts.
Thank You for praying for Kayleigh. The Freemans :)
7/29/2008 8:57:00 PM
7/29/08 - A Perfect Day, Almost.
7/30/2008 8:35:00 PM
Taking a night off :) Sorry everyone, but we have had a very busy day so Aimee and I are going to sit down and watch "Big Brother" and "Never Back Down". One is a tv show that I am sure 99% of you watch and the other is one of my favorite movies that just came out on DVD.
Snug as a bug in a rug :) It was quite funny as Aimee and I were standing next to Kayleigh in her isolette. Aimee told me that I can title tonights blog as "A Perfect Day". Then...Guess who got the last word? Yes, Kayleigh. 73
Kayleigh's Story Kayleigh is doing really great today. She has only had a couple minor desats, but nothing crazy. They did realize that she has a urinary tract infection, so that could be another reason for all the desats the other day. They are giving her some medication to take care of it and it seems she is doing better now. She was sleeping very comfortably when we were there tonight, so that makes us feel great.
7/31/2008 8:41:00 PM
7/31/08 - NICU EDUCATION Hey there, I wanted to explain a little bit about the machines in the NICU, so everyone can kind of get a feel of what we see. If I were in your place and I heard you talking about desats and I saw all those wires hooked up to Kayleigh, I wouldn't know what you were talking about. So I decided to take a few photos of the machines that are hooked up to Kayleigh and educate you all a little so you understand what we are talking about.
In the first photo, you will see Kayleigh's monitor. The top green line is her heart rate and she usually varies from 115 - 180bpm, but her average is around 145bpm. Kayleigh has a shiny gold heart sticker on her chest that monitors her heart rate. The blue line is her oxygen saturation. This is not supposed to be higher than 98 or lower than 85. If the machine starts to chime, you will notice she is satting too high or too low. If it is too high, then the nurse will turn down the amount of oxygen she is getting. If it is chiming too low, that means she is having a desat. This is caused by not getting enough oxygen, either by not breathing or the nose plugs have come out. There is a strap with a bright red light that is attached to Kayleigh's foot that monitors her saturation. We call it her E.T. foot. If you look back to some other photos, you will see what I am talking about. The bottom yellow line is her respiratory status which monitors her breathing. There is a sensor on her tummy that measures movement. If this line is flat, that means she is not 74
Kayleigh's Story breathing and then you will notice her oxygen saturation (blue line) start to drop and if that drops too, her heart rate will follow causing an all our DESAT!!! As you can see, her heart rate looks good, her oxygen is good and she is breathing. That is how we want it to be always :)
This photo right here is the bubble of the bubble CPAP. I can't begin to tell you how it completely works, but I do know that it really does have a bubble. ha-ha Actually, I was told that the bubble helps keep the sacs in the lungs from closing, so we don't have respiratory failure. It is really tough to inflate a lung after it deflates, so we want to refrain from that happening. This is a photo of the amount of oxygen she is getting. If she is satting too high, they will turn this knob down and if she is satting low, they will turn it up. Right now, she is doing AWESOME and is right around 24% oxygen. The lowest setting (21%) is room air, like what you and I breath.
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8/1/2008 6:22:00 PM
Kayleigh the Plumber :)
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We are true parents capturing every "first" moment of Kayleigh. So today, we took a picture of Kayleigh's first "Plumbers Crack." But doesn't she have to have butt cheeks to have a plumbers crack? Oh well, maybe someday soon. Kayleigh is doing amazing today. She has had only a couple desats recorded only in the 70's and brought herself back up quickly. She is also on room air (21%), so WOO HOO!!!! More days like this will get her back on the nasal cannula. She went up to 7ml today and will be going to ml tomorrow. She is moving right back up to where she was before and hopefully now we can start putting some meat on her. Aimee got the opportunity to do Kangaroo Care and Kayleigh lasted an hour before we had to put her up. She would have stayed out longer, but we had to leave to get Brandon and Allyson. She actually cried when we had to put her back, so you know she was really enjoying laying on Mommy. I am so glad Aimee was able to 78
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act like a normal baby. She was awake for a good 30 minutes before all the hustle and bustle caused her to conk out. I captured some video that really shows how alert she was. Poor Kayleigh was in the middle of getting an IV removed, so she was crying a little bit. Mommy was able to put her hands in there to comfort her and Kayleigh was squeezing her hands like crazy!!! The cutest part of the whole video was catching her sneeze. I never understood the parents who would go completely nuts over a babies smallest actions until I saw Kayleigh sneeze today. It is the most adorable thing I have ever seen that I made one of those "parent" sounds: (AWWWwwwwwwaa)Look at me now!
8/5/2008 8:37:00 PM
8/5/08 LOOK WHO'S OFF THE CPAP!!!!!
There was something about today that just eased my nerves. To see her so alert and doing so well on the cannula, I just feel so much more positive than I have been feeling over the past 18 weeks. This has certainly been a really tough road to travel and when Doctors were not so positive for so long, you couldn't help to think about the negative aspect of it all. Today a big piece of it just went out the window. She just looks so much more healthier today and so active, that it blows my mind. Our nurse told us today that if Kayleigh continues to do so well with her breathing when she gets to 1000 grams, she will not have to have the heart surgery to insert the pulmonary band. We will have to still do the VSD repair on her heart at 2000 grams, but this eliminates them haing to go in twice. How awesome is that???
Since Kayleigh had quite a few good days in a row, they decided to take her off the Bubble CPAP and put her on the nasal cannula. She has been doing great on it so far. Her oxygen is set at 26 and she did not have a single desat. She is also up to 11ml on her feeds, which is the highest she has ever been. She is tolerating it very well. Today was a very exciting day. When we first came in to see Kayleigh without the CPAP, we were just blown away with excitement. It was a good sight to see Kayleigh without her face all covered up. Since they had the beanie on her for so long, it gave her a little cone head. That should fix itself now that she is off it. Not only was it so wonderful to see Kayleigh on the nasal cannula, this was the first time we have ever seen her so alert. She was moving around a lot, looking around all over the place and making tons of noise. It was a true turning point of emotions to just see her
We just need to pray that she will continue to tolerate her feeds, breath well and grow fast!!! Kayleigh is just beating all the odds and it's because of all of your prayers. I saw a road sign yesterday that hit the nail on the head. It read "PRAYER, The Best Wireless Provider Around" That is completely the truth! 79
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8/6/08 First Family Photo Mommy, Kayleigh and Me
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Today was the perfect day to take advantage of some photos and we are pleased to finally have our first family photo together. I was able to hold Kayleigh for over an hour today!! WOO HOO!!! It was amaaaaaazing! I can't begin to describe the feeling because this time I wasn't doing kangaroo care, so I was able to look at her face while she slept so comfortably wrapped up in this warm blanket. She was out like a rock when I held her and her sats were perfect the whole time. I just sat there and stared at her face and was just so amazed as I thought to myself how blessed I am to be holding her at all. There were so many people telling us we would not get to a state of viability or if she was born she wouldn't survive long, and now I am sitting here holding an unbelievable miracle. I can go on and on trying to describe how deep these feelings are, but there is just no way to even scratch the surface. I feel like I experience a glimpse of what heaven is all about when I hold her in my arms. My world completely stands still and nothing else is important or can even phase how amazing I feel. Today was extra special for another reason. Every other year my
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played it in her mind on how she would operate if she did. (THANK GOODNESS) ha-ha! We love you all Charlotte O.B.!! Kayleigh is still around room air with her oxygen. She had ony one desat today and it was in the 70's, so that is not bad at all. She is off the triple mix which is extra nutrients they are giving her through an IV. Since they took out the IV yesterday and she is up to 12ml, they decided she didn't need it anymore. She weighed in tonight at 783 grams which is 1 pound 11.5 ounces. She did have a lot of air in her belly today, so our pimary was rubing Kayleigh's belly and pushing her legs up to her chest to try and get Kayleigh to fart. It was funny to watch because Kayleigh seemed to know when it was time to push because her face turned red as an apple. They said there was no back up of food or anything to worry about, but they just needed to help her push that trapped gas through her system. All together, she is doing just great again today. Thank you all so much for your prayers! Can't you see how much they are working? God is surely listening to all of you and laying his hands on our sweet Kayleigh. Thank you so much. The Freemans :)
8/7/2008 8:17:00 PM
8/7/08 Mommy's Turn
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Today was a real fun day. Mommy got her chance today to hold Kayleigh for quite some time. Kayleigh was so cute because when we first got her out, she was fussy but quickly got situated and took to a pacifier. The funny part was when she was sound asleep and every now and then she would start sucking on the paci. If you watch the video close towards the end, you will see what I am talking about. We had a really good visit today and good visits really make the days go by much better. Aimee and I left laughing and enjoyed the rest of our day stress free. From the first time we got bad news about Kayleigh, we would leave that hospital barely talking because our minds were spacing out about the unknown. So things have really taken a turn in the right direction. I don't think Aimee and I laughed as hard as I did today in a long time. Kayleigh is up to 12 ml on her feeds, but they had to cut back the breast milk because Kayleigh's blood sugar count was low. They are 83
Kayleigh's Story giving her more formula to increase the calories and sugar. The crazy part is that Aimee has been able to stock up around a full months supply for Kayleigh if she fed on 12ml a day. Has anyone experienced this in their situation? From what I hear, breast milk is like liquid gold for Kayleigh, so is it bad to take that away from her even to give more formula? I am not sure if the weight is correct for tonight, but they said she weighed in at 782 grams which is one less than last night. We will find out later to check again, but the great news is she only had one minor desat all day long. Even when Aimee was holdng Kayleigh, she was getting upset, but never desaturated at all. That is really good, especially on the nasal cannula. Let's keep up the good work. Since they have her feeds up high, I am ready to start seeing some major growth soon. This not growing a whole lot over the last couple days isn't going to cut it. I have a good feeling that she is going to take off before you know it and just grow grow grow. Thank you all very much for your support through all this. We are just so happy to have some good days and we hope to keep it that way. God Bless, The Freemans :)
8/8/2008 7:35:00 PM
8/8/08 - Congratulations Wade and Ferris!!!
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Today was a wonderful day, not only for the Freemans but for the Joye family also. Wade and Ferris Joye's twin girls (Adleigh and Liana) both went to progressive care. Liana was Kayleigh's NICU neighbor and we have grown to know the Joye's very well. We are certainly going to miss seeing them in our room, but I am sure we will see them passing through. When Liana left today, Kayleigh got first dibs on her spot so we move her isolette over to a much better location in the room. We are in a corner and not on top of the people who use the computer or telephone. It is also much darker over there so Kayleigh will get some better rest. Since Kayleigh was having issues with her blood sugar, they decided to put her completely on formula for right now. They also decided to put her on continuous feeds, so she will get 13ml over 3 hours and then start another 13ml when that is done. That way, we can keep her blood sugars up and not give them a chance to drop. Since they have done this, her blood sugar has been looking great. This 85
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8/9/2008 6:52:00 PM
8/9/08 - Quiet Day
Today was a pretty quiet day all day long. The nurses said she was sleeping most of the day. Being that it is her first day over in the corner where it is darker and there is less commotion going on, I bet helped her get some better rest. Some wonderful news is that Kayleigh did not have a desat all day today. She has been doing so wonderful with her breathing and it that takes so much of the worry away. You know she is doing well when she is sleeping peacefully without any apnea/desaturation issues. They also desided to test her blood sugar only twice a day since she has been doing better with keeping her levels up. They still are keeping her on continuous feeds of formula though. Aimee got to hold her for an hour today and I was so worn out from a long day, that I took a nap in the cozy chair next to them. She grew some more last night and weighed in a 813 grams which is 1 pound 12.67 ounces. Other than that, Kayleigh is doing just great. There was no other exciting news, but no news is still great news. 86
Kayleigh's Story It seems that whenever a problem comes about, I ask you all to pray about it. It means the world to me that everyone is reaching out to God to help because He is certainly helping our little girl. Some of these issues could easily take Kayleigh in a serious direction, but the doctors and nurses have attended each issue and they have been resolved very quickly. I just hope this continues to go as smooth as it has for the past week. Thank you all for your help and being there for us. All your posts, whether you are commenting on Kayleigh or responding to an issue to guide us through the process, we appreciate it so much. Without all the people out there, we would be completely lost and there would be so much more stress piled on top of what is already there. I am so blessed to have all of you in our lives. We are forever greatful!! The Freemans :)
They did an x-ray and that came back showing signs of the intestines being "loopy" which is not normal and not what they want to see. She mentioned that being loopy is where Kayleigh's bowels are dilated on the x-ray. They decided to stop her feeds and put her on antibiotics incase it is an infection of some sort. Since they have to give her antibiotics, they had to put in an IV back in. The tests should come back within 48 hours, so they want to start the antibiotics to get a jump start on the problem, IF there is one. They are doing a urinary culture which has not come back yet, but the blood culture has. It shows that her hemoglobin is low so they are going to give her a blood transfusion tonight. It also shows that her white blood cell count is normal so she is not showing any signs of fighting off an infection, yet. There is more information that will come back from the CBC (blood culture), but it has not yet. Kayleigh is not desatting and is not having and Bradys, which is kind of like a desat, but her heart rate just drops instead of her oxygen. She had two of those today when the eye doctor was performing his exam, but that is nothing to be worried about. Right now, our biggest fear with the stomach is NEC, which is Necrotizing Enterocolitis. It is death of the tissue in the small intestines which is a scary scenario for a preemie. She did has a small stool tonight which means things are passing through, but we need to pray hard that it is not NEC that is occurring. The nurse practitioner said that the x-ray would show signs of air bubbles in her abdomen that has leaked out from her intestines if it were NEC, but it hasn't shown any signs of that.
8/10/2008 10:33:00 PM
8/10/08 - NEED YOUR PRAYERS!!! Everyone who has been following our story knows there are some good days and there are some bad. While this whole past week and a half have been going good, things took a really rough turn tonight. We just got off the phone with the NICU nurse and nurse practitioner, and it seems that Kayleigh's belly was getting pretty large and it is either air from the cannula or from her formula feeds. So that threw up a red flag to get some tests done quickly.
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have been anymore perfect than that. God is GREAT!!!
8/11/2008 8:06:00 PM
8/11/08 - Change in Diet
So right now we need everyone to pray that this issue will be quickly resolved and we can get back on track. Thank you everyone for your support and reaching out to God with us when our little girl is in trouble. She has fought through so much and she will fight through this too. We all just need to support her and pull for her 24/7. Thank you all very much for everything. They did measure Kayleigh and she is 33 centimeters which is right about 13 inches long now and her head measured at 25 centimeters, which is 9.8 inches around. They did not weigh her tonight, because they got side tracked with all these other issues. On a lighter note, Allyson and Brandon are back from their week long vacation where they went up to Ohio at the Pymatuning State Park for a family reunion my family does every other year. You can read about their trip on their blog by clicking on their names. They were so excited to tell everyone about how much fun they had. Last, but certainly not least! Aimee and I joined a new church not too long ago called Elevation and it is an amazing church. We heard about Elevation through Wade and Ferris Joye, our NICU buddies. Aimee and I learned that getting baptized was not only washing away your sins, but confessing to the world your profound love for the Lord. Since you all were not there to witness it, I would like to share with everyone that Aimee and I were baptized today. To top it off, Wade Joye not only had the opportunity to baptize many people for the first time, but he baptized Aimee and I. It couldn't
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After a long and stressful evening and day today, it ended on a really good note. We spoke with the doctor today and we have decided to start fortifying Aimee's breast milk instead of giving Kayleigh straight up formula. With all the tests, they don't find any other reason why she was backed up so much. When they told us last week they were taking her off the BM completely, Aimee had a funny feeling in her stomach that they shouldn't be doing this and they should be fortifying it. I guess we should listen to our funny feelings for now on and ask a bunch of questions. If anyone has any question in their mind that something should or shouldn't be done, please let me know so we can at least ask the doctor why they are doing things a certain way. That way we can all work together to make sure Kayleigh is being treated correctly or at least learn their reasoning behind what they are doing. The scary part of this whole thing is they have to tell you all the 89
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went from 23 to 21 centimeters, so it is definitely going down and her weight is at 876 grams. That is 1 pound and almost 15 ounces!! Woo hoo! She weighed in at 840 grams yesterday so she has grown a lot more than usual in the past two days. She is almost at the 2 pound mark. Now we know that the formula does help with putting on weight, but we still need to get something that digests easier for Kayleigh.
More great news is that since Kayleigh has been breathing really well, they lowered her oxygen flow to 4 liters. She was at 5, but since she has been on room air (21%) and satting high, there is no where to go but to lower her flow. That could have also been why her stomach was bloated and full of air. When air is forced in her nose, it will take the path of least resistance. Sometimes that means if the airways are not open, it will go down to the stomach. If she is not passing her stools, air will get trapped in there too causing it to back up. When I explain that, I feel like my stomach starts to hurt because we all know what trapped gas feels like.
I am so pleased to see that things are getting back to normal with her belly and it isn't as severe as they thought it was last night. WHEW!!! It is so true when they say a few steps forward and one step back. It is really a game of trial and error because every baby is different. When the nurse said that most babies don't tolerate fortified breast milk, Aimee said something in response that really goes much deeper than the surface if you really sit and think about it. She said, "Kayleigh is not like most babies, she has already proven that." That is so true with everything we have hurdled. From the negative doctors in the very beginning to Kayleigh shocking all the doctors right now, she is definitely NOT like all the other babies. I would say she is our little princess, but from the looks of it, she is going to be a tough cookie that won't take crap from anyone. haha
Even more great news is that when we start Kayleigh's feeds back tomorrow and if she tolerates them over the next few days, we are going to try to start bottle feeding her. Aimee and I were wondering when that part of the process would be, but we didn't expect them to say real soon. We are so stoked that we get to do this. Aimee got to hold Kayleigh for 3 HOURS today. That is the longest we have had her out and she didn't desat one time, even when it was time to put her back. The funny part was that she slept so sound for all three hours, but when it was time for us to go home, she woke up and was so alert. We hated to leave her when she was awake, but I was so hungry I was about to eat her left over formula. ha-ha!
Thank you for your prayers as we go through these trials in our life. I guess since Kayleigh can handle anything put in her direction, please pray that Aimee and I stay sane and we don't end up in the hospital before Kayleigh comes home from it. With much LOVE! The Freemans :)
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I wanted to let everyone know we ordered the bracelets, but we will order more if anyone wants any. Shipping said it will take 6 days to get here and then we will turn around and mail them out to you all. Thank you all so much for ordering bracelets. We will be mailing 44 bracelets as of this morning, so that is going to make for an awesome scrap book full of many wonderful photos. If you missed what we are doing, we are selling the bracelets and putting together a scrap book for Kayleigh with photos of everyone wearing their bracelets. Also, each family can write Kayleigh a letter and put it with their photos. I think that will be an awesome thing to cherish for the rest of her life, so she can remember all the people pulling for her. Thanks to everyone for contributing. It means to world to us.
8/12/08 - DAY 50!!! Wow, can you believe it has been 50 days in the NICU already. Time is flying by so quickly. It feels like yesterday when our "Angel" doctor brought our precious little Kayleigh in to this world. Soon she will have doubled her size. She did lose a little weight since yesterday, but probably because she hasn't eaten anything. She weighed in at 841 grams which is 1 pound - 13 ounces. We spoke with one of our doctors today and she said if they wanted to wait one more day before they start her on her feeds. They are going to do another x-ray in the morning to see how her belly looks and start her on her new feeds. She will be getting breast milk and SSC fortifier, which is Similac Special Care. She said that if that doesn't seem to do the job, then they have several other options to work. We are really excited to get back on track. I just hope this works so we don't keep going back and forth for too long.
8/13/2008 10:04:00 PM
8/13/08 - TWO POUNDS!!!
Good news is that Kayleigh's breathing has been wonderful. She was dropped from 5 liters to 4 liters yesterday and since she did so well with that, they dropped her to 3 liters this morning. I got to hold her for a little over an hour today and she was doing great. No desats, but her heart rate would drop just below 100 every now and then. The nurse said that it is nothing to worry about if her sats aren't affected by it. It was good to know that he was sleeping really well while I held her because the nurse said she was cranky a lot today. That is probably because she is hungry. Everyone will be really glad for her to start back feeds tomorrow. Other than that, she is doing good and her belly is looking better.
Here is Kayleigh on 6/26/08 weighing 13 ounces.
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Here is Kayleigh now weighing 2 pounds!
We are so proud that Kayleigh has hit a major milestone for us since she started off at one pound and one ounce, then quickly dropped to a frightening 13 ounces, and has now doubled her size. Way to go girl!!!! I am beyond shocked that she has actually gained any weight since they stopped her feeds for right now. They were supposed to start them back today, but they made a decision to wait a total of 7 days. Now she has already gone 3 days without food, so we only have 4 more days until they start all over. They will be giving her plain breast milk and then slowly start fortifying it so it is easy on Kayleigh's tummy. I am completely fine with their decision as I don't want them to do too much too soon. I know the tummy is a very sensitive issue with preemies, so taking it slow is fine with me. I would much rather her be in the NICU longer if she comes home healthy. 92
Kayleigh's Story Other than that, she is still on 3 liters and 21% oxygen. She has been sleeping all day long since the have put in a PCVC which is a slightly different kind of IV. If you saw the last video, they were pulling it out of her leg, but it almost looks like a string that they put all the way up her vein. I guess it is just a little more comfortable than having a needle, but I am sure it serves other important purposes. Everyone, please pray for Adleigh as she was sent back to the NICU yesterday from progressive due to similar reasons Kayleigh was dealing with, but Adleigh's apnea put her back on the vent. I have not gotten a new update from Wade or Ferris, but Adleigh has been having a rough time. Please visit their blog (Joye Twin's Blog) for their prayer requests. God Bless you guys and we are praying for you. One of the major reasons I have chosen to post every single day besides making memories of the tough journey we have had to travel, is to reach out and give some other family hope. We want to share the greatness of our God and how awesome He is. If there is a family who was told their child would not survive, I want them to look back on our story and not think for one second that they should give up. Doctors told us numerous times that Kayleigh would not make it and that termination is an option. If Aimee never posted on the Baby Center and met some of the most amazing people, we wouldn't have been given the hope or have stayed so positive through this whole journey.
8/14/2008 9:45:00 PM
A Chance To Give Hope! Brandon getting a chance to hold Kayleigh's hand.
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Kayleigh's Story photos, read the captions I left and share it with others who may be traveling down the same road as us. If I could touch just one person with our story, I would feel like I accomplished so much. Tonight, someone posted on our blog that came from that website who was just floored by our story and said that Kayleigh has given her a whole new outlook on life. It has been over a month since I posted the photos to that site and when I went back there tonight, I was unbelievably shocked to realize Kayleigh is ranked 39 out of 12,332 babies on "most viewed" category. My initial goal was working and I was able to drive people to our blog and to share Kayleigh's story and to give hope to someone in need. I nearly cried when I felt like I returned the favor from those who did it for me.
264600143&fromSearch=true Right above the photo with her hand in mine where my my ring on her wrist, you will be able to give her a rating where you see the stars. Also, click the recommend button as I guess this will only help her ratings too. I think you can only vote once, but tell your friends and family to help us all achieve this goal together. God Bless you all and Thank you! By the way, Kayleigh is doing really good today. There really wasn't anything to update on except that she is resting well and breathing good. She is also not having any issues with her belly right now. Today was a good and quiet day.:)
My initial goal has now changed and I want to do so much more. I am on fire about touching giving hope to as many people as possible. On our blog, we get well over 500 viewers who stop by daily to check up on Kayleigh. If I were to drive every single one of you to this website and get Kayleigh's ranking to #1, we might have a chance to give so many people going through similar situations the amount of hope you all have given us. How awesome would it be for ever single one of those 12,332 people to see Kayleigh's story and share it with the world, let alone getting a cover shot to where we can touch the lives of everyone who reads the American Baby, Parents and Family Circle Magazines. I want everyone to work together for a common goal and that is to save as many baby's lives as we can and to show everyone how wonderful our God is. The doctors don't have the final word, GOD DOES!!! Let's all reach out and honor God by giving hope to a family out there who doesn't need to go through this alone.
8/15/2008 9:52:00 PM
8/15/08 - What a day!!!
How to help get her to #1: This only takes 1 minute to do. The link to the site is: http://www.parents.com/app/sharemy/photoDetails.jsp?photoId= 94
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Today was an awesome day in more ways than one. First of all, thank you so much to all those who went on to the Parents.com website to help Kayleigh's ratings. She is moving up in the rankings, but not where we need her to be yet. We had around 137 people vote in the past 24 hours. That is amazing!!! If you did not read yesterdays post, please read it and then go to:http://www.parents.com/app/sharemy/photoDetails.jsp?photoI d=264600143&fromSearch=true We are so thankful to have some many wonderful people out there try and accomplish a single goal together. That goal is to touch the lives of at least one person. Well, it is my pleasure to tell you that I got two emails today. One of them was from someone who has been struggling with daily routines in life, but after finding Kayleigh's story on the Parents.com website, she has a new outlook on life and how she treats everyday struggles with her children as a blessing from God. THAT IS AWESOME!! But wait, there is more....I 95
Kayleigh's Story received another email from someone who has restored her faith through prayer because she has seen how God has answered all of our prayers and created His miracles through Kayleigh. I AM SO AMAZED!!!! You can read both of their emails on yesterday's comments page. God is great and so are all of you for helping us reach out to others. Please, everyone continue to reach out like you have reached out to us and let's continue to help those who are in need. Whether it is someone who has a preemie like us or someone who just needs a helping hand. We are all God's people and His greatest gift is love, so let's use it. Speaking of love! I love my family so much and I was so excited to see Brandon and Allyson get to hold Kayleigh for the first time today. Our wonderful wonderful nurse allowed us all to be back their together to share in this special moment. You are normally only allowed two people back at a time, but she allowed us all to come back since it wasn't busy in our nursery. Kayleigh is doing wonderful today. She did drop back down below the 2 pound mark, but that is due to not having any feeds over the past couple days. She will gain it back soon though. She is breathing great without any major desats or apnea spells, and has just been sleeping very well lately. We are so very proud of her. I was able to hang out with a good friend of mine tonight who is also my submission fighting training partner. We were talking about Kayleigh and how great of a fighter she is when dealing with many obstacles placed in her way. We joked about a guy who produces a girl has "sissy sperm," so what does that say for me when I created a 1 pound girl? Ha-ha. What I have a hard time dealing with, is that I am protector of my family and I feel completely hopeless when it comes to being able to protect Kayleigh. Jake had told me that I have actually done one of the most important things that I could have ever done to protect her, and that was being in the best shape physically that I could possibly be when she was conceived. The training and diet regimen that I have been on to stay in shape while
fighting is one of the toughest, but the reward beyond any victory on the mat was that my great health has saved my daughter's life. That goes for Aimee also because she worked hard to eat all the nutritious foods throughout the pregnancy and didn't do anything that could cause harm to Kayleigh. Every little bit helped and we can sleep better knowing we have done everything possible to give Kayleigh all the tools to fight for her life. God Bless, The Freemans :)
8/16/2008 6:45:00 PM
8/16/08 - One more day!
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8/17/2008 9:14:00 PM
8/17/08 - More Baby Drama!
One more day for Kayleigh to be off her feeds. They will be starting from scratch again on her feeds, but we are completely happy knowing they are taking it slow a day at a time. She is doing great otherwise. She didn't lose much weight from being off feeds for 7 days, so that is really good. She weighed in tonight at 880 again, which is around 1 pound 15 ounces. When they get her feeds going again, I have a really strong feeling she is going to gain some major weight and never look back. Our prayer request would be for Kayleigh to tolerate her feeds this time around and grow fast. Aimee and I were able to hold her for a good amount of time today and she was just smiling, sneezing and yawning like crazy. She was so cute!!! Her breathing was doing really well today with no major desats. It seems that everything besides her feeds are going as smooth as possible. The VSD (hole in the heart) has not gotten any worse and there is no fluid in her lungs right now, so we are extremely happy about that. We still need her to get to that 2000 98
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Here is Cynthia, one of our wonderful primary nurses.
Kayleigh on the scale, weighing 930 grams (2.o5 lbs) OH MY GOODNESS! When is the drama ever going to stop? Today, Kayleigh's belly started to get bigger and bigger as the day went on. She had an eye exam earlier so we were thinking that she was just grumpy because of that, but it turns out that she hadn't pooped in several days and the x-ray shows some trapped gas again. They decided to give her glycerin to see if they can breakdown what ever is left up in there and get rid of it. About an hour or so after that, Kayleigh finally pooped and it was some thick stuff that just had a hard time getting through her system, probably from the formula. So even though they cut of her feeds seven days ago, she had some stuff left in her that was trapping gas behind it and it slowly bloated her tummy up. Hopefully this was the issue and she will continue to get rid of what's left in there. If things continue to move in the right direction, they will still start her feeds back tomorrow. 99
Kayleigh's Story Besides all that "crap" (literally), she had her eye exam which came back that Kayleigh has a level one ROP. The doctor said that it is nothing to worry about right now as most preemies have a level one ROP and even level two ROP. The ROP is where the blood vessels in the eye do not grow and reach the point of attachment. If they don't grow, scar tissue will build up really making it hard for the blood vessels to reach their final destination in the growth pattern. This would be considered a level minor, and could possibly correct itself. If it doesn't, it is considered a level 3 major and surgery will be needed to laser the scar tissue, allowing te blood vessels to grow before it is too late and detaching from the eye causing major damage. If the surgery is a success, the eye will still not have peripheral vision. So this is not a road we hope to go down, but like I said before, most preemies have the level one and two before it corrects itself. Let's pray and hope this is the case and it quickly corrects itself. Even though there was drama today, Kayleigh was so cute when I got to hold her tonight. She seemed to be sleeping peacefully, but I quickly noticed that she was just not digging the lights that were on. It really wasn't even that bright, but when I would cover my hands over her face, she would perk up and start looking around as if she was never sleeping in the first place. So I would go back and forth, moving my hands away and she would close her eyes quickly and just lay as still as can be. Then I would cover it again and her eyes were wide open again. I was really getting a kick out of this. She is going to be so spoiled!!! I also want to draw attention to all the emails I have been getting lately stating how Kayleigh's story has changed your life. It means the world to me to hear that because it really makes all this time that I put in to posting worth every single minute. Just know that
Kayleigh may have touched your life someway and somehow, but God is the true reason for how you found your way to her story. He is Love & He is Life! Thank you all so much for everything and please keep Kayleigh's tummy and eyes in your prayers as we continue to move towards the day we can bring her home.
8/18/2008 9:14:00 PM
8/18/08 - Started Feeds Again!! We are so excited that they started Kayleigh's feeds back again. They are mixing breast milk with a fortifier, so the fortifier will take care of the blood sugar issue and the breast milk should take care of the digestion issue. (HOPEFULLY!!!) If this works well, then we should be on our way to more milestones. Please say a prayer that this combination of feeds is the perfect recipe for Kayleigh. We need to get this show on the road and cut back on the hurdles. Kayleigh weighed in tonight at 940 grams (2 pounds 1.15 ounces). Her oxygen is still at around 21-25% with 3 liters of pressure. Her belly was soft tonight and her bowel sounds were great. She was gassy today, but did not poop any. She had a couple desats today and seemed really grumpy at times, but no one could lay a finger on what her deal was. The nurse tonight might have figured it out because she turned Kayleigh on her tummy and hasn't heard any peeps from Kayleigh for the past couple hours. Maybe she was just 100
Kayleigh's Story in an uncomfortable position. Most of you may know or may not know that Aimee and I work in real estate with RE/MAX in Charlotte, NC. Our market has been one of the top markets for quite some time, but lately everything has been going down hill fast. We are down more than 50% from last year and the market couldn't have crashed at a worse time because of our situation with Kayleigh being in the hospital and gas prices being outrageous. We have been working really hard on turning things around and someone presented this opportunity to us that definitely couldn't hurt trying for. (Ha! Yes, another contest we need help voting on). This contest is through a huge radio station here in Charlotte and is called Mrs and Mrs. Real Estate. The winners (1 male and 1 female) get to come on the radio station and do an interview about their real estate business. The wonderful thing about this website is you get to vote multiple times so if everyone voted several times, we may have a shot at winning this. I feel guilty asking for all your help again, but please know that it is really appreciated.
share with the world how special Kayleigh is and how wonderful God can work in so many peoples lives.
8/19/2008 9:28:00 PM
8/19/08 - What a day :)
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Happy Kayleigh, :)
Vote as many times as you can possibly handle :) Just to let you know, Kayleigh is within the top 10 on "Most Viewed" and "Most Recommended" out of 13,659 babies. WOO HOO!!! Keep them coming so we can get that number one spot and 101
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Aimee's awesome milk supply is getting bigger. I almost forgot what a great day felt like. I mean, it has only been a little over a week that she started having rough days, but the stress level gets so high that a great day feels like a million dollars. I am certain that she is going to be spoiled because when Kayleigh is happy, everyone is happy. (And that is an understatement) ha-ha! When we arrived to the NICU today, our primary nurse was holding Kayleigh and it was just an amazing site. You would think we would get jealous that another person was cuddling with our little girl, but not at all. It just goes to show how much these nurses care about Kayleigh and the other babies. They do such an outstanding job! I just called up there to get an update and she weighs 973 grams (2
pounds - 2 ounces). She is on 4 ml of fortified breast milk and tolerating her feeds so far. She has not pooped which I am still concerned about, but they said her bowel sounds are great. She has been breathing 3 liters of flow at 21 -25% all day long and only having a couple apnea episodes. She was a little grumpy today at times, so I am not sure what may be causing that. I think it is the same thing causing her apnea spells, so hopefully we can lay a finger on it. It could very well be that she has not pooped. I am hoping the new feeds will start to push things through though. Aimee and I got to hold her for quite some time today. She was much more comfortable laying on Aimee than me, but we figured out the reason for that. Unfortunately, it is something I can't change and if I did, I would have to start wearing a bra. Sorry Kayleigh, you are just going to have to put up with being a little less comfortable with Daddy :) We got some really good photos of Kayleigh today. She decided to perk up and be very active at 6:25, and at 6:30 is when they have a shift change and close the NICU for an hour, so we had to leave. It is really tough to leave when she is up and active. Kayleigh sleeps so much that it is a rare site to see her open her eyes more than a couple minutes at a time. I talk and talk all the time about how good or bad things are going with Kayleigh that I sometimes forget to mention how awesome Aimee is. For all of you who didn't read the full story, you will know that Aimee was having a hard time getting any milk supply for Kayleigh. We tried and tried different things to make it work and it seemed to be a losing battle. Finally, we met some wonderful people who sent her some Domperidone and it works wonders!!! For those who never experienced this, Mothers who can't supply food for their children go through an emotion like no other. It is a feeling that you are failing your child when they need you the most. To see Kayleigh fighting for her life and everything needs to align perfectly for her to make it through this journey, not having the breast milk, "liquid gold", or food God intended your child to have 103
Kayleigh's Story is heartbreaking. After busting her tail to do what it takes, we have more than enough supply for Kayleigh since she doesn't need that much anyways right now. She has (81) 3 ounce bottles in the freezer. The good thing is Aimee is ahead of the game and can continue to help Kayleigh for when she comes home. I am so proud of her hard work, pumping every three hours and not missing a minute. She is truly an inspiration to this family. Thank you all for everything and let's all pray for Kayleigh to poop. Like I said before, I feel that once she starts to digest and poop what she eats, she will start to take off and never look back. God Bless, The Freemans :)
8/20/2008 7:36:00 PM
8/20/08 - Here's a couple laughs!!!
a while. That is one the "musts" to get over to progressive care. She has still not pooped yet, but is showing signs of trying. Her face will turn beat red and even pass some gas, but nothing other than that. Maybe tomorrow, we will push for a suppository to help move things along. Other than that, it was a pretty quiet day with Kayleigh. If you want to catch another great laugh, check out Brandon's blog http://www.brandonsundblade.blogspot.com/ where you will see that I got a little clipper happy. I fixed Brandon's mohawk since school is starting soon and thought that I would be a cool Step Dad and do mine too. My goal was to shave it completely, but not without a little fun. I ended up going to the hospital with Kayleigh like this and we both got many compliments. Even though it was rebellious to have my hair like that, I am pleased to say that I shaved it off a couple hours ago :) I wish everyone a wonderful day and thank you all for your support and prayers.
Have you ever seen "The Simpsons"? If so, then you must certainly know Maggie. Kayleigh gave us all a great impression of Maggie tonight while I held her. I thought she would spit out the paci if I didn't hold it in for her, but that wasn't the case and she gave us a good laugh in the mean time. The video is short, but enjoy.
8/21/2008 8:03:00 PM
Kayleigh had another great day today. There was not much difference than yesterday other than her feeds were increased to 5ml. She is continuing to breath very well and is starting to hold her temperature much better when we have her out of her isolette for
We have some great news in this wild journey of our precious Kayleigh. Well, you know we have been waiting for Kayleigh to grow to the 1000 gram mark to have the pulmonary band surgery? This morning, she had an Echocardiogram where they do an ultra sound of her heart to see how things are looking with her VSD.
8/21/08 - GREAT NEWS!!!
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Beyond our sweet Kayleigh, Aimee/My baby's Momma has put forth major effort to get rid of the weight she has gained since first going on self induced bed rest and an eat everything in sight diet. It was for a very good reason though. (Kayleigh needed as many calories as possible since their wasn't enough nutrients getting to her through the placenta) She has started the Nutrisystem product and is already on the fast track to losing weight. Since everyone but her has started their own blogs, she decided she has a perfect reason to put one together tonight. She is going to reach out to all of you who either need to just get in shape, lose some wanted/needed weight, or lose the post pregnancy pounds. Even though I was the personal training director for Bally Total Fitness for several years, I can't lay a finger on how wonderful this Nutrisystem product is set up. You basically pick your meals from a list, they send your food to you each month, you eat it and you lose weight. She has already lost 4 pounds over the past week and we are going to save so much money not going to the grocery store every week. How awesome is that??? Aimee is actually a very picky eater and she has liked almost every meal she has gotten from them. Anyways, stop in and give Aimee some words of encouragement and follow her journey through her weight loss program. Maybe some of you can join along, create your own blogs, hold each other accountable and support each other through a common goal. She will be more than happy to help you. Here is her new blog: http://www.aimeefreeman.blogspot.com/
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8/22/08 - Moving On Up!!! Kayleigh is having another great day today. She has moved on up to 7ml on her feeds today and has been tolerating them very well. I could tell she was getting hungry today while we held her because she was starting to get really cranky. Once they started her feeds through her tube, she laid in my arms and slept like a baby. ha! She was having more desats and brady's last night where they had to increase her flow back to 4l, but she's breathing room air today (21% oxygen). Kayleigh's growth is moving right along as she weighed in tonight at 983 grams (2 pounds - 2.6 ounces) Woo hoo! Our Occupational Therapist came in today and we learned some techniques on how to massage Kayleigh's belly to help move her food go through her system since she is having troubles pooping. It worked too because when I changed her diaper, she dropped a big stinky one. She also taught us how to exercise her arms and legs so it will help with her range of motion. The biggest part beyond all the massages and exercises, our main goal was to show Kayleigh that not every "touch" is a bad one. What I mean by that is most of the time the nurses have to touch Kayleigh, it is to draw blood, insert needles, stick tubes in her throat, etc... So, we don't want Kayleigh to associate that all touch is bad. One thing I have noticed is that Kayleigh sleeps so much better when she is in our arms. Everyday that we do this, she will start to bond with us and get used to the good feeling of being comforted by us. Although, I know it is going to bite us in the butt when she comes home because she will never want us to put her back in the crib. Ah, that is okay though. I can't see Aimee or I ever wanting to put her down
anyways. We are already fighting over who gets to hold her more. I already have a disadvantage of holding her because I don't have boobs to feed her :) ha-ha. I want to draw attention to some friends of ours that we met on our journey right after Kayleigh was born. Her name is Rachel and her husband is Ryan. They had a preemie named Carly who unfortunately passed away 4 months after she was born in the same NICU nursery that Kayleigh is in. Kayleigh shares some of the same nurses that Carly did. Rachel is pregnant again with a little girl named Hannah and she is currently 21 weeks now. Rachel and Ryan had their ultrasound appointment today to find out that Hannah is growing almost a week behind. Let's all pray for Rachel and Ryan that their little girl is going to get plenty of nutrients through the placenta and grow fast enough to skid past any danger if she were to come early. They have another appointment on September 21st, so they won't know how much has changed until then. Rachel's blog is: http://hannahkathleanelliotte.blogspot.com/ so please stop by and let her know that we are here for her and praying for her.
8/23/2008 10:05:00 PM
8/23/08 - 2 MONTHS OLD!!! Happy 2 Month Birthday Kayleigh!!! Woohooo :) I can't believe that it has been two months already. Time is flying by, but it still feels like we have a long way to go. They need to put us on the pay roll for as much as we are up there. Hey, I might be of good use since I have learned so much from all the nurses. They 106
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happened because no one at the front desk knew to stop them from going in. Aimee could hear Jeremiah's Mom crying, which just breaks our hearts. Please pray for the family as they are going through this tough time.
Kayleigh is having a good day today. She is up to 8ml on her feeds and they are going to start increasing her feeds every 12 hours since she started to poop again. Although, she did not poop today, but she is completely tolerating her feeds. I asked the nurse tonight on the phone what it means to completely tolerate her feeds, because if what goes in doesn't come out, then that doesn't sound like she is tolerating anything. The nurse explained that they listen to her bowel sounds, check for aspirate (regurgitation) and her overall reaction to the feedings. Pooping is not a factor in whether she is tolerating the feeds or not, but certainly an issue if it never happens.
8/24/2008 6:33:00 PM
Today, Kayleigh was beyond active in her isolette. She happened to pull her feeding tube out of her throat and wiggled her body to the end of her isolette, practically off her bed. The nurses were shocked that she had enough strength to do that, especially at her size. Before we know it, she is going to be knocking on her isolette window telling the nurses "It's time to feed me" or climbing on the walls like a jungle gym. That would be a sight to see. Since she was so active and having those three big poops yesterday, she lost 3 grams tonight. So there wasn't much change in her weight. On a very sad note, We think Kayleigh's neighbor (Jeremiah) passed away today. He was having such a tough time over the past week and when we showed up to the NICU today, they had closed our nursery. Aimee and Brandon were the ones who went in and were quickly stopped by the other nurses. I guess it must have just
8/24/08 WHAT A CRAZY DAY!!!! WOW, It is just makes me sick to my stomach how quickly things can turn around in Kayleigh's situation. She had a really good day yesterday and all of a sudden, she started having one of her worst days ever today. It was not looking good at all and then a few hours later, things started going back to normal. It was so crazy!!! When we arrived to the NICU this morning, we found out that Kayleigh had another eye exam and her ROP prognosis went from a level one to a level three in just a week. It looks like they are talking about doing the laser surgery to save Kayleigh's eye sight, but she will unfortunately lose her peripheral vision. I am not sure when they are going to do this, but it will probably be soon. On top of that, our nurse (Marsha) who takes care of Kayleigh a lot noticed that Kayleigh was not acting like herself today, as she was very irritable and lethargic. She was having a lot of brady's and desats, where her heart rate would drop rapidly and her oxygen saturation would drop. She turned her oxygen flow up to 5 liters to try and help, but it wasn't helping at all. Her belly was getting a 107
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minute, you are praying like crazy that you don't lose your little girl and the next, you are completely in shock to hear how well she is doing like nothing ever happened. I was so stressed out that I think I was having an anxiety attack in the car on our way home. I was short of breath and my stomach was turned upside down. I am so ready for this to be over and have Kayleigh home with us. This has certainly been one crazy day! Please pray that Kayleigh will be okay and she will make it through all this. With The Freemans :)
8/25/2008 10:22:00 PM
8/25/08 - Eye Surgery Scheduled
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Today was a much better day for Kayleigh. We went in this morning to visit right after we dropped Brandon and Allyson off for their first day of school. They were so excited and we heard they had a wonderful first day. Kayleigh was satting good today. She would desat or a brady every now and then, but it was nothing like yesterday. We were able to hold her for quite some time and she slept really good. It is almost as if she is cranky and irritable in the isolette, but when we hold her, she is completely fine. Shoot, I would be pissy too if I were couped up in that isolette. The eye doctor's wingman came by and did a second examination tonight to clarify and solidify Kayleigh's diagnosis as a level 3 ROP major. The operating room was booked up tomorrow, so they are going to do the surgery on Wednesday. Please pray for Kayleigh that the surgery will go smooth and Kayleigh will no longer have anymore eye issues. Her eyes will swollen and sensitive for a couple 109
Kayleigh's Story days, and she will probably have to go back on the vent for a day or so, but it is all for the good of saving her eye sight completely. Aimee and I watched a video today and poor Aimee has a huge eye phobia, so it was extra hard for her to watch this video. The video told us everything we already knew, so it wasn't a huge shocker. Kayleigh will lose her peripheral vision, but she is so young that she won't even know the difference when she grows up. Forgive me as I am trying to stay positive and keep a good attitude about this, but I was thinking of sports she wouldn't be able to play and all I could come up with was boxing. Not that she would do that anyways, but you would think someone without peripheral vision would get knocked out from a left or right hook all day long. So I guess we are safe to say that this surgery will not cause any disabilities for our sweet Kayleigh. Another great milestone was reached today for Kayleigh so let's all rejoice that Kayleigh has broke the 1000 gram mark. She weighed in at 1003 tonight (2 pound - 3 ounces). WOO HOO! From the growth she has had over the past couple weeks, I think she is growing more on the triple mix which are nutrients through an IV while she is off her feeds. I can't explain it because Kayleigh hasn't done a single thing by the book from the beginning of this pregnancy. I am just going to shake my head and throw my hands up because I don't have a single clue. According to the website, the bracelets have been shipped for over a week now but they have not reached my front door yet. I am sorry it is taking a long time, but we will get them out as soon as they come in. Thanks for your patience on this. I have to end on an awesome note. Are you ready for this??? I went ahead and posted the email in the comments section just below at the end of this post. You will read an email from someone who has
been following Kayleigh's story for the past couple months and well....I am not going to spoil it, so go read it, now!!!
8/26/2008 8:02:00 PM
8/26/08 - Chance of Blindness? Today was a very emotional day for Aimee and I. We went up to visit with Kayleigh in the early afternoon and had a wonderful visit. We were able to hold her for quite some time and she only had a few brady's or desats all day. I can tell she is so much more comfortable than the past couple days. After watching the video yesterday about the ROP surgery that is going to take place tomorrow, we felt more comfortable about what is going to take place. No one wants their child to have to go through surgery, but I felt very confident in this procedure as they have been doing it for a very long time and it is very common amongst preemies. As we were about to head out for the night, the doctor on call came in to talk with us about Kayleigh's unique case of ROP. He mentioned that it was quite weird that Kayleigh went from a stage 1 to a stage 3 in only a week. When dealing with ROP, there are 3 zones that can be effected and zone 1 is the worse sector as it can cause complete blindness or central vision blindness. He told us Kayleigh's issue was in this zone 1 and whether they do the surgery or not, she is very likely to go blind. Our hearts dropped and tears 110
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we kept on asking questions and the doctor told us she has been doing this surgery for 17 years and she has only had 5 individual eyes go blind and four of them were on two children. Besides going blind, there are possibilities of cataracts or hemorrhages in the eye, but she has only had a few cases of these too in the 17 years in the field. WHEEEEWWW! Can someone please tell me what God is trying to teach us here? It must be patience, because right now I am lacking a lot of it.
We were at a loss of words. We left the NICU tonight in such a shocked state of mind that all we could think about was how we would raise this child who would be blind. We thought of all the things you would never think about unless you were in this situation. If you really sit down and think about it, it will blow your mind on how much a person will miss out without their eye sight. We thought about how she would not ever see the ocean and fireworks, some of our favorite things to do. We would have to be with her 100% of the time and learn to trust others who will be as attentive. Aimee and I sat down for dinner and what really hit home hard was that today and tomorrow before her surgery could be the last time she would ever see us. So as the evening went on, we were suppose to get a call from the doctor who would be performing the surgery and we would be able to ask more questions. One thing we were anxious to hear was this doctors statistics. She called us around 8:30 and we spoke to her for about a half an hour. She told us all about the procedure and then we started to ask her several questions. First off, we were quickly shocked to hear that she qualified Kayleigh to be more in the Zone 2, not Zone 1 and that her Stage 3 was considered Mild, not Major. This was starting to get a little frustrating to me since we were told earlier that it was mostly in Zone 1 and a Major case. So
So tomorrow at 2:30, Kayleigh will be going through surgery. The surgery will take around 4 hours total and she will be immediately put back on the vent and she may start feeds back as soon as 6 hours later. We will not find out for 6 weeks if the surgery was successful because they need to continuously check up on the blood vessels to make sure they are growing past the scar tissued area that was broken apart by the laser. There is a 75% chance she will need glasses by age 6, but we knew she would need them anyways because Aimee and I both have them. So all in all, this professional has made us feel much more comfortable that Kayleigh will not lose her eyesight. Even though the other doctor was not correct in his diagnosis and we got the worst case scenario, I am almost thankful that it happened. I could throw a hissy fit and call him everything under the sun or confront him about it and make a scene, but I would not be honoring God for the way we should act. I am actually glad it happened because I learned how much we take the smallest things for granted, such as our eyes and what we see. I kept telling Aimee tonight that yes, Kayleigh may never see beautiful things, but she will not see ugly things either. She won't judge things on their exterior beauty or see people different and laugh because they have a disability. She won't be visually exposed to murder or pornography and all the other things that are ruining the minds of
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8/27/2008 8:04:00 PM
8/27/08 - Surgery Is Complete!!!
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I am overwhelmed by all the comments today as Kayleigh had her surgery. The photo above was when we were prepping Kayleigh for surgery and transporting her down to the operating room. They had to "Bag Her"(manually breath for her with a pump) all the way down to the O.R . and even though she was fine and satting high, that was a very nerve wrecking experience. I guess when you associate CPR on television to practically seeing the same thing being done to your child, it is not so pleasant. While we waited in the holding room, shift change was taking place so there were people flying through the halls to get to where they were going. It made us so anxious and Aimee started to break down. Our room was open for everyone to see and Kayleigh surely caught the attention of everyone passing by because she is so tiny. We didn't want to leave Kayleigh, but we were ready to get out of all that madness. They took Kayleigh back to start the anesthesia, but we had to still wait for the doctor to come meet us. The surgery started 113
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Candace's story about the footprints on the beach. It is so amazing and I about lost it while I read it to my Mom tonight. God is certainly walking with us right now as He continues to show Himself through Kayleigh. God is so wonderful and I can't say enough how important it is to have Him in your life as He will always be there for you and do great things!
After the surgery, the opthamologist came out to speak with us and was so wonderful. She said that the surgery went very well. As she took a better look before they did surgery, it was clear that the ROP was in zone 2, but right on that zone 1 line. It was too close for comfort, but as she did the procedure, there were no issue of detachment which is awesome! They had to do over 4,000 laser burns in Kayleigh's right eye and just over 3,o00 in her left. The doctor mentioned that it would take a full 6 weeks to find out how successful the surgery was, but from her experience, she felt that Kayleigh will only lose a little bit of her peripheral vision in both eyes. PRAISE GOD!!!! Let's just pray that she is right and nothing bad changes in the mean time. They are going to check up with her weekly, so we should know if things are not progressing.
I really want to thank the doctor for taking the time to talk with us last night and after her surgery. She was a ball of fire and we loved her to death. I can't say enough good things about her as she was unbelievably good at what she does. Without her expertise and steady hands, our daughter may never see and this doctor was a certainly a blessing to our family. She will have a place in our hearts forever. Please continue to pray for Kayleigh that this surgery will be a complete success. We appreciate everyone being there for us! You all are so awesome!! The Freemans :)
Once Kayleigh was back in her NICU spot, she was still knocked out by the anesthesia and pain medicine that she was on. We got to hold her little hand and wish her a good nights sleep. She is probably going to be on the vent for several days, but it was good to see that she as satting at 100% with oxygen at room air. I am sure that will not stay so good when the medicine starts to wear off and she starts to open her eyes. Her eyes have medicine all in them and she probably won't be seeing too clear when she opens them and that will irritate the mess out of her.
8/28/2008 9:53:00 PM
8/28/08 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIMEE!!!
Overall, it seems that the surgery was a success and we hope things continue to be a success as the days go on. All we can do it pray and trust in God as He already knows the outcome. If you didn't read all the comments from the last post, please go back and read
First of all, today is a very special day. Aimee is celebrating her 34th birthday today!!! Woo hoo. We are getting together with my family this Saturday to enjoy Mom's lasagna and some birthday cake.
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Thank you all so very much and God Bless! The Freemans :)
Kayleigh was very quiet today as she is still recovering from the surgery. The doctors said it takes a little longer for a preemie to come off of the anesthesia, so she was sleeping pretty much the whole time we were there. Aimee and I had our hands in the isolette from both sides. We held both of her hands and alternated stroking her little head. There was a period of five minutes where she was opening her eyes a little to see who was out there. I think she heard us talking and was very happy because she was satting in the high 90's. Whenever we would pull our hands out, she would first try to squeeze our hands as if she didn't want to let go and then her sats would go down a little. It was as if she was more secure when our hands were in there with her. We are so happy that she is doing well after such as stressful surgery.
8/29/2008 6:11:00 PM
8/29/08 - Doing GREAT!!!
Aimee just got off the phone with the NICU and I am shocked to say that she is continuing to grow better with the triple mix nutrients that they are giving to her through an IV than the breast milk fortifier. She weighed in at 1070 tonight which is (2.574 pounds). I am very happy to see an increase like that. It may not be much compared to a normal preemie, but that is a lot for Kayleigh. Although we know she doesn't do anything by the book. Great news!!! The Kayleigh bracelets came in yesterday and we mailed them out, so they should be arriving to you soon. I am dying to see all the photos and letters for Kayleigh's scrap book. We still have to get more bracelets for the last few that placed their orders, so if you are thinking of still getting one, please do. We are overwhelmed by all the people who purchased one and it is going to make an awesome scrap book. 115
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Today has been just a wonderful day. As you can see, Kayleigh is already off the vent and back on the nassal cannula. That is amazing because they said it would be up to a week before she would be off the vent. She is also going to be starting her feeds tomorrow. They will start with a small dose to see if she tolerates it and if she does, they even said we could try to introduce her to a bottle. You would think it would be too early for that because of her size, but she is on;y two weeks out from her original due date and that makes her almost full term. It is hard to imagine that when you look at her though. Everything she does is normal except for her tiny little body. I am just ready for her to get this feeding situation down. We had a great visit with Kayleigh today. We showed up about fifteen minutes after they extubated her and she was a little cranky, but calmed down once Aimee and I got our hands in there. She was so cute, as she was licking her blanket. I am guessing she really liked the the texture to it. She was satting good, her eyes were wide 116
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8/30/2008 9:47:00 PM
8/30/08 First Bottle
Today was a wonderful day as Kayleigh hit another milestone and took her very first bottle! Woo Hoo! It was the cutest thing I have ever seen as she was going to town on her paci and then we switched over to the bottle. The look on her face when something tasty came out was priceless. Her eyes widened up and she looked around as if she has hit the jackpot! The funny part of the whole video is around the 5 minute mark where we investigated the bottle to see how much she took. As we were giving the bottle back to Kayleigh, she was out like a light. I guess all the excitement and sucking, she fell right asleep. It certainly gave us a great laugh. We just checked in with the nurse and Kayleigh is doing great. She has only had one desat all night and it was in the 70's, which is great. She tolerated her feeds tonight and had no aspirate at all. We were very pleased with her recovery time and the way she has been acting the past two days. She is just full of energy as today she was practically lifting her head off the bed when she was lying on her tummy. She is getting strong! She weighed in at 1070 grams, which is 2.6 pounds. We can't wait until tomorrow to try another bottle. She should be having an eye exam soon, so I can't wait to hear how that is coming along. Thank you all so much for your prayers through our ups and downs. We are just beyond thankful for every single one of you. Your support has been such a gift as we could not do this alone. I promise that for the rest of my life, I will always look to give a helping hand just as you all have done for me. Thank you so very much! The Freemans :)
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8/31/08 - Tummy Troubles Again I don't know what is going on with this tummy issue, but no one can lay a finger on it. Late last night, Kayleigh started to have some aspirates with her feeds. They decided to cut her feeds off and get an x-ray taken of her belly. It came back that she had some trapped gas again and they wanted to see that get better before they started to feed her again. The second x-ray tonight didn't show any change and they have another x-ray schedule in the morning. If things don't turn around in the morning, they are going to do a lower GI (Gastrointestinal) dye test, where they shoot some dye in her behind and do an ultrasound to see how things are moving along her digestive tract. If they don't find anything there, they will do an upper GI. Hopefully they can find out what the issue is and get past this hurdle. Like I said before, I really feel this is the last major hurdle to get by to allow her to grow, get the VSD surgery and be on the home stretch. One way or another, I am just ready for her to start eating and growing. She was a little cranky today around her feeding time, probably because she was hungry so it hurts to see she is not getting food right now. She is almost a term baby, so I am sure she can start to associate when she is hungry or not. They did crank up the amount of nutrients they are giving her, so that does make me feel better. She lost 10 grams, falling back down to 1060 total. They did measure her tonight and she measured 35 centimeters in length and her head measured 26 centimeters in diameter.
I was able to hold her for a little bit today. My oldest brother Scott came in with me today, while Aimee waited with my parents. Scott has not been able to make it in to town to see her yet, so he was beyond stoked. I just love to see people's reactions when they see her. I think he said something like "OOOOHH MAAAAAN." It certainly made my day because I have been so excited for Scott to finally meet her. Other than that, Kayleigh has been doing good. She was a little cranky during the later part of our visit, but besides her probably being hungry, she definitely needed a diaper change. They did give her a suppository earlier today which helped push things along and I guess the rest followed the path while we were there. She has been breathing well and I don't remember her having any major desats or brady's over the past day or two. Please pray that we will get through this tummy issue and on the right track. I noticed some people have gotten their bracelets in the mail and I can't wait to see photos. Thank you all so much for all your thoughts and prayers. I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!
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After her meltdown. You don't want to see what she looked like during her meltdown. Today was a very stressful day as Kayleigh was acting up like never before. This morning, the doctors performed the Lower GI Dye test and soon after, the opthamologist came in to do an eye exam. So needless to say, Kayleigh was put through two stressful situations that caused her to be so irritated that it stressed Aimee and I out to the hilt. The Lower GI test came back normal with no obstructions, so that is great news. She had some major blowouts today and from looking at it, I am almost positive that was the reason she was having a bad day. They are going to start her feeds again tomorrow, so I am excited to see if we have progress this time around. The eye exam went great and the doctor said her eye are responding wonderfully. This is really great news except we were not able to enjoy it 119
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9/2/2008 7:32:00 PM
9/2/08 - What is going on?
Well, after a very stressful day yesterday, today was looking much better, but only from the outside in. Sure Kayleigh is going to be feeling much better after being given a time release sedative, but the truth is no one knows why she is has been so irritated. All day today, she would wake up and clench her fists, turn red and whine all while breathing very fast as if she was hyperventilating. She would desat when she was awake and she would have apnea when she slept. The doctor came in to speak with us today and said that 120
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is driving ourselves insane by asking, "Could it be this" or "Could it be that." Right now, trusting in God is all we can do and hope that what ever it is, it shows its face quickly so they can fix it. Please pray that whatever this issue is, it is resolved quickly and Kayleigh can rest peaceful again without pain medicine. I just don't want there to be any more struggles and to journey the rest of the way on an easy down hill slope right out the door. I know it is not the end result, but the journey that matters. But come on, how much more are we suppose to learn from this? (Sorry I am trying to be funny without flipping out) Thank you all for your support through these tough times. I could use a hug from you all, but Aimee would really think I lost it if she caught be embracing my computer.
9/3/2008 5:30:00 PM
9/3/08 - AMAZING!!!!
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Kayleigh's Story First off, let me tell you about Kayleigh before I go in to what was so amazing that happened today. AHHH, I can't wait to tell you!!! Okay, first off, Kayleigh had a much better day than her last few days. She was no where near as irritated as she was which only means that whatever was bothering her is slowly dissipating (HOPEFULLY). She met with the PT (Physical Therapist) today and she said Kayleigh looked great and she was not grumpy when she stretched her arms and legs out for her workout. The PT comes once a week to give Kayleigh a workout to make sure her range of motion is good and there isn't any physical complications. Kayleigh also started her feeds with the Neocate and at first she was having some aspirates, but she had none when we were there for her 3 o'clock cares. She took all 3 mls with no problem at all. Let's now hope those 3 mls find their way out of the body without any issues this time around. Being that they use the Neocate as a last case scenario because it is expensive, I don't know what else they would do if this doesn't work. Cross your fingers and say your prayers. I got to hold Kayleigh for almost two hours today and she was perfect the whole time. She got a little grumpy towards the end, but it was time to do her cares. I am guessing she is getting used to waking up every three hours for cares. We were so happy to see that she was relaxed and sleeping peacefully. We changed her diaper and she pooped a little, but almost peed all over Cynthia. Kayleigh also held her temperature very well when she was out. OKAY!!! Are you ready for some awesome news???? If you have been following our story from the beginning, you would have learned that quite a few doctors agreed that Kayleigh would not make it to term. She had too many issues that pointed to an
outcome of her not surviving much longer. This was a ten week battle to gain enough weight for viability. When we got the news from one doctor who told us not to change our normal living schedule because it is inevitable that Kayleigh would die, we decided to get a second opinion. The second doctor we spoke to hit us with the same news, but had much better bedside manner. We were still given a very very small chance, but they knew we weren't giving up without a fight. That doctor emailed Aimee and I this morning to ask how Kayleigh was doing. We were so excited that the doctor contacted us, even with his busy schedule to ask how our little girl was doing. That right there shows a lot about a person. (Here is the exciting part) As you know, Aimee and I want to share our story with anyone and everyone to give them the same hope that we were given by so many of you, well...He is speaking at a medical conference tomorrow and wants to share Kayleigh's story with many other doctors to give others hope. He wants to inspire people that no matter how bad a situation looks, it is important to have hope. HOW AWESOME IS THAT???? Below is his email that just makes all of this hard work, stress, anxiety and insanity worth while. I am so glad things are well. I hope things go well with the genetics doctor. I look forward to meeting Kayleigh and seeing the 2 of you in the near future. Tomorrow I am speaking in a Medical Ethics conference and I am hoping that you might allow me to share some of your story (without names, of course). Although it is a conference about end of life care, I get to talk about care at beginning of life! . . . and HOPE. . . especially when things look worrisome. I think your story would be inspiring and would emphasize the importance of hope. . .
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everyone's advice on.
See you in the near future,
Out of all the feeds Kayleigh has gotten from day one, the breast milk was the only thing that she digested well and made it to the maximum feed amount (15ml every 3 hours). The only reason they took her off of it was because her blood sugar level was low. So when they took her off the breast milk, they decided to put her on straight formula. Soon after her first backup, we pressed for them to fortify the breast milk. Then, we ran in to another backing up issue and that led them to just do the Neocate.
That is exactly how I want to glorify God with the situation He has given us. I want nothing more than to spread the word so others will have hope, and that is exactly what has been happening. I have had so many people share their stories on how Kayleigh has made a change in their lives and now I can reach out and touch the lives of doctors who at first hand that can give their patients hope. Beyond all of my triumphs in my life, helping other people make a change for the better in their lives has been the most gratifying of them all. I feel like God has used Kayleigh in my life to help others find hope and that is exactly what I am going to do. Thank you all for your prayers, words of encouragement and just plain being there for us. God Bless!!! The Freemans :)
9/4/2008 10:29:00 PM
9/4/08 - ADVICE NEEDED!!!!! Today they started Kayleigh on continuous feeds with the Neocate. Over the amount of feeds she has gotten, she has aspirated half. That means she is digesting half of her feeds too, so we have to try and stay positive. Aimee and I have been getting one of those conscious feelings in our stomach about her feeds that we will need
Today, Kayleigh is aspirating more than usual and after two days of her tummy looking great, it is starting to get firm again. I am afraid we are going to run in to the same issue with it backing up. We just have a bad feeling, we don't know what to do and we certainly don't want to have her go without feeds for a couple days again. Aimee and I feel more than ever that the breast milk is best, but has anyone had the experience with maybe doing plain breast milk and use a little bit TPN (Triple Mix) to help with the blood sugar??? I know that doing a lot of TPN, it is not good for their system and can cause major issues, but if we keep running in to problems with her tummy issues on other feeds, she will be on TPN more than we want anyways. I also know that breast milk may not have a lot of calories, but it won't matter if she isn't getting the feeds anyways. The TPN has calories, but we don't want to give her something that can be harmful in the long run. We are thinking of talking to doctors in to doing plain breast milk and just adding a little TPN at a time to keep her blood sugars up. For those with knowledge or experience, is that a good or bad idea???? Even though she just started the Neocate today and has been on continuous feeds, do you think it is too early to make a change or should we wait to see if she gets better? I have heard 124
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9/5/2008 10:20:00 PM
9/5/08 - Things Are Looking Up!
Please look in to this with us and give us a helping hand. I want the best for Kayleigh and when we turned to you all for help at the beginning when she was growing behind with no amniotic fluid, we listened and she beat the odds. I know she can beat this hurdle, but since Kayleigh can't tell us what she needs, we need to help. I would love to hear from anyone and everyone who has some or a lot of experience with this.
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Today was one of the better days that we have seen in a while. After every feedings, Kayleigh seems to be doing better and better. She has not pooped yet, but everyone keeps telling us that since she was cleaned out with the Lower GI test, she probably needs to fill her tanks back up. So if we don't get a poop over the next couple days, I will start to worry. A lot of people mentioned in their comments about Reglan and I forgot to mention that they started Kayleigh on that yesterday. Reglan is medication to help digestion of her feeds. Since Kayleigh started her new Neocate feeds, she has been doing better as the time goes by. I'm hoping the Reglan is helping. At first, she was aspirating most of her feeds and now she is digesting most of her feeds. Throughout the past 6 hours, she has not aspirated anything, so let's pray that she keeps that up.
Kayleigh weighed in tonight at 1159 grams which is around 2 pounds - 9 ounces. She was dropped last night from 5 liters to 4 on her flow and is doing well with the adjustment. Kayleigh has not had any major desats all day today. When we were holding her for a few hours today, she was resting well and giving off an occasional smile. Since Kayleigh has been holding her temperature much better, they have been dressing her in some tiny preemie clothes which are still way too big for her. She looked so precious in her outfit. I want to apologize to everyone for a goof-ball mistake on my part. We got the bracelets in and we sent them out the other day. Well, they started to show back up in our mail box because I put a 26 cent stamp on them. OOOPS! I will be correcting the problem and getting the "right" priced stamp put on this time. Sorry :( Thank you all so much for your advice on the post yesterday. We got some really good ideas and it opened our eyes to other possibilities. We can't live without you all so thank you all so very much for all you help. We love you all so much! God Bless, The Freemans :)
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Good news!!! Since Kayleigh is holding her temperature much better, the nurse this evening actually had to un-swaddle her because her temperature was at 100.1 degrees. If she starts to keep warm and they can wean her "heating" system down, she will be able to move in to a bassinet. That will be awesome, but then I am going to be more nervous about germs being passed easier. Can you tell how over protective or insane I am going to be. Someone please help me!!! (ha-ha)
9/6/08 - Another Pleasant Day :) Today was another good day for Kayleigh. They increased her feeds to 3 mls every hour continuously. The awesome news is she has not aspirated any of her feeds today. She has not pooped yet and is on the Reglan (helps motility), which is still a concern but her belly isn't blowing up either. Tomorrow, Kayleigh will be at 12mls every 3 hours which is tied with the highest she has ever been. Before, she was on 12 mls with breast milk, but she had been pooping several times everyday too. Please pray that she will start pooping soon.
Please do me a favor and do a "poop dance". I don't even know what a poop dance is, but if a rain dance works, then a poop dance has got to work. If you have to do it at work, then just wiggle in your chair with your hands up, but don't blame me if your coworkers look at your weird. Just tell them your doing it for Kayleigh and maybe your whole office can wiggle together. :)
She weighed in at 1143 grams tonight (around 2.8lbs), which is 16 grams less than yesterday, but the OT (Occupational Therapist) came by today to give Kayleigh another workout. She is doing really well in that department, so we are really happy to hear that. Kayleigh also only had one minor desat today and it has been several days without any bradys. I am so pleased to hear she is breathing well after being lowered to 4 liters the other day. Her oxygen is set at 30%, but they will wean her down as time goes by. I went up today by myself to have a little father-daughter time alone. I held her for an hour and a half before I had to get home. Poor Aimee had a soar throat today and wasn't dare going to go to the NICU. She was so sad because since Kayleigh has started to get dressed up, she got her a few new outfits and wanted to go up there to dress her up. Please say a prayer that she will feel better soon.
9/7/2008 8:21:00 PM
9/7/08 - Making Some Progress Today was a good day, but we still have yet to see some poop. So keep those poopy dances coming!!! The nurses did give her a glycerin suppository this afternoon which helped a little, but not a whole lot. Since she hasn't pooped and her tummy was starting to get big again, they increased her caloric intake from 20 to 22 instead of increasing the amount. She is still digesting it all because she is not having any aspirates.
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Kayleigh had another good day today. Not a whole lot has changed since yesterday. She still has no pooped and her belly is starting to get bigger again. They said it is still soft though, so that makes me feel a little better because it would not be good for it to be hard. They are giving her another glycerin suppository tonight to help move things along. Let's pray that she has a blow out and starts to poop on a regular basis. Since the last suppository worked a tiny bit, maybe you all need to do your poop dance a little faster or more intense (ha-ha).
Tomorrow, since we are able to dress Kayleigh, we are going to bring up some of her new outfits and play dress up. That is going to be a lot of fun. Kayleigh weighed in at 1154 grams which is still around the 2.9 pound mark. Her length is 35 centimeters and her head circumference is 27 centimeters. Her head is the only thing that has changed since the previous measurement. They had a Genetic Doctor come by the other day to see what could be causing some of these feeding issues or irritation problems that Kayleigh has been having. The pre-test results came back negative and we are still waiting for the final results. We knew from the amniocentesis, that she did not have certain genetic disorders, but I guess this test checks a bunch of other things. So other than that, it was a pretty quiet day. We are still praying for some poop, so hopefully that starts to happen because everything else seems like it is getting better. Thank you all so much for all your help through this and I hope your weekend was wonderful!!!
9/8/2008 11:41:00 PM
9/9/08 - Dance Faster!!!
Some great news is that she had another eye exam tonight and the doctor said her eyes look awesome and are responding well to the surgery. WOO HOO! Since Aimee's soar throat got better, her sinuses backed up and she was struggling today, so I went to visit Kayleigh this evening with my best friend Mike. He is in town for a couple days for work and will be staying with us. Mike hasn't been up to see Kayleigh since about 6 days after she was born. He was able to hold her hand and see her pretty smile tonight. Well, that smile came about 45 minutes after I started to hold her because she was so crabby at first. I am sure she was irritated from the eye exam a few hours before. Once she calmed down, I was as still as can be so I didn't wake her up again. Sorry I didn't have any photos as I planned to take some tonight, but if you were in my shoes you wouldn't want to disturb her with any light or movements either. Tomorrow, Aimee should be much better to go back up there so we can play dress up and take some photos. She was so sad today and I felt so bad that she couldn't go up to visit. If you think about it, it is hard enough not being able to bring your precious daughter home with you, let alone not being able to visit her either. We know how important it is to prevent passing any type of germs, but it is a very tough situation to be in.
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9/9/2008 7:36:00 PM
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9/9/08 - What a Beautiful Day!!!
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Cynthia, one of the best nurses around! Today was just an amazing day. Aimee and I had such a wonderful visit with Kayleigh. Since Kayleigh is now becoming a big girl, we brought some of her new outfits and played dress up. She looked so darn cute in her outfit that we just could not get enough of her. I was snapping pictures left and right as it was just a proud moment for me. Kayleigh came down on her oxygen flow again!!! Woo hoo! She is now at 2 liters of flow. She also came down on her TPN (Triple Mix) IV fluid to the lowest setting of 2. They increased her feeds to 5ml per hour which is the most she has ever had. She hasn't pooped yet, but they are giving her more and more glycerin suppositories as the days go on to help her out. She is just doing amazing in all other fields except the pooping part, but they say if her belly isn't hard, then she will just need a little help trying to pass it out of her 131
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route they go. Other than that, Kayleigh grew a bunch today. She weighed in at 1245 grams (2 pounds - 11.9 ounces). The nurse weighed her twice thinking there was an error, so hopefully tomorrow's weight proves it right. Since Kayleigh was having an issue with her belly tonight, they increased her flow back up to 3 liters and they schedule an Upper GI test for tomorrow morning. I know Kayleigh had the eye exam on the same day this past week when she had the Lower GI test done, but I just hope she doesn't flip out like last time and end up on the vent again.
9/10/2008 11:46:00 PM
9/10/08 - One Step Back...Again Well, our fears have come true with this belly issue again. Kayleigh's feeds have been stopped once again due to her belly backing up. The x-ray showed her tummy being full of mostly gas, but there was some stool still in there. Kayleigh started to get really irritated throughout the day and started to desat more often. Tonight, she hasn't desatted nearly as much, but they pulled whatever aspirates she had on her tummy and tried to get out as much air as possible. It seemed to work if she is not dessating anymore. They will keep an eye on her tummy and start her feeds back again once it goes down. I am not sure what the plan of action is with the type of food they will use. It seems to me that we may be right after all with the plain breast milk suggestion. I guess we will find out if that is the
So, today was a step back, but maybe a step closer to finding out what works and what doesn't with her feeding situation. I hope we can figure something out soon. She is doing so well in all other categories, that I would hate for this to hold her back. All the doctors and nurses have been wonderful in keeping us aware of all options and educating us on each topic. The best way to make this NICU experience much easier, is to learn as much as you can. If we don't know something, we stress out about it. So if you are stressed for us because you may not understand something, please let us know and we will do our best to explain. I have learned a lot of people just get stressed out about the wires that are attached to every sector of Kayleigh's body. The wires alone can be a scary sight, but when you get in to the deep waters of the balancing act, then fright is merely an understatement. Please pray that we can link this last piece of the puzzle, so Kayleigh can keep moving forward. Also I know today, the 11th is not a pleasant day in our history, so please pray for those unfortunate families who lost their loved ones and who are dealing with much more stress than we can fathom. I appreciate everyone so much and I wish you all the best.
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Kayleigh will keep her blood sugars up and to adjust quickly to the bottle feedings. How awesome would that be if the answer we were looking for was to just do it the way God planned for us to.
The Freemans :)
9/11/2008 9:35:00 PM
9/11/08 - Breast Milk Here We Come :) Today was a good day in many reasons. Even though Kayleigh has been cut off from feeds right now until her belly gets back to normal, it is one step closer to finding out what she will tolerate. We spoke with the doctor today and he not only feels like breast milk is the way to go, but that maybe Kayleigh needs to start feedings from a bottle. He said that feeding from a bottle will start to trigger the body's normal response to motility, which starts from the mouth. She has been sucking really good on her paci, and tomorrow she will be at full term, so maybe she will be able to get down the technique quickly and we can get started on the right foot. We are also not going to start back from square one with her feeds, so we won't be taking too much of a step back. To hear that we are going back to breast milk has made me excited, but to hear that we are trying it from the bottle just blows my mind. I am so ecstatic that I took the time to do my research on what Kayleigh tolerated in the past and had that meeting with the doctor. It seems to be paying off. All we have to do is pray that
Other than that, we had a great visit with Kayleigh today. She did not get crazy upset like last time when she had the Lower GI test done. I was worried we were going to walk in there and she'd be flipping out. Aimee and I bought Kayleigh a sound machine for her isolette. It plays a few different things for Kayleigh to listen to and it also has colored lights that will shine above her, giving her something to look at. We played it while Aimee held her today and she loved it. She was smiling when she heard the crickets and quickly fell asleep when the classic songs came on (Typical). Kayleigh's weight last night was a pretty true weight because she gained 3 more grams tonight, weighing in at 1248 grams (2 pounds - 12 ounces). Well, To hear some good news about the change in her feeds and that she was having a happy day, we are thrilled. I just hope the tummy goes back down quickly so we can start her feeds back. Thank you all for your support through this. This has been a tough road, but I feel in my stomach that things are taking a turn for the better. Pray that she will tolerate the breast milk and we can keeping progressing forward.
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Today was a standstill as we are still waiting the final results of the Upper GI test. They have done three x-rays since yesterday afternoon and since Kayleigh was so backed up, they dye has not made its way through her system. The journey that the dye has traveled so far shows no problems, so that is good news. Let's just hope the rest of the way is clear. We think more than anything that her body just has very slow motility with anything she has been given but breast milk. If that isn't a sign, then I don't know what is. Otherwise, Kayleigh was doing great today. She was a little cranky while we held her, but you can clearly see she is trying to pass all the mess in her system. We did what we could to comfort her as we all know what a painful bloated tummy feels like. This might be a little too much info, but I can certainly feel her pain. When I was probably 10 years old, I was stuck in a fetal position because I had so much trapped air. I was crying like a little baby and my parents took me to the hospital. I wish they can give Kayleigh what they 134
Kayleigh's Story gave me that night because I had a "seriously" 1 minute long gasser that made all the pain go away. I felt so embarrassed as I thought I was dying right there on the spot, but trapped gas is all it was and us Freemans normally don't have a problem in that category (haha). After Kayleigh was having an issue with getting comfortable because her tummy was hurting, Aimee found the perfect position. Aimee slouched in the chair and laid Kayleigh on her chest, face down. Kayleigh normally doesn't like to lay face down, but she was enjoying it today. She looked so comfortable and we were so sad to leave her today. I felt so much better after talking to the nurse tonight as Kayleigh wasn't uncomfortable at all since we left her. She actually came down on her oxygen a little and was relaxing very well. After an hour, I took over and she was comfortable for about 15 minutes. I guess Mommy's chest was a little more comfortable than mine. Oh well, I just wanted her to be peaceful, so it didn't matter giving her up. Aimee sure rubbed it in though, which was quite funny. We have until the 15th before the Parents.com contest is over. I am not too concerned with winning the contest because Kayleigh will not be able to go to NY for the finals anyhow, unless they come to us which I seriously doubt. I am just so glad she made it to two out of three front pages with her photos. She is ranked 4th (Most Viewed) and 9th (Most Recommended) out of 24,709 photos and we have touched so many people with her story. I put Kayleigh's photos on there for one purpose and one purpose only, and that was to touch someones life in one way or another. We have had many people respond so many positive ways, which makes it a complete success in my book. So thank you for all of those who voted and if you truly believe we can bring NY to us, continue to vote a million times. Maybe NY can come to us and we can share our story in their magazine to touch many more lives with our precious Kayleigh.
You all are awesome and for all those who say they are inspired by our little girls story, well we are inspired by all of you lending a helping hand to a family you barely know. We are a family who has so much strength because of the people who believe in us (You!). We are a family who has held it together in every aspect of our lives because of you. We are a family that has sincerely learned the value of how God wants us to treat others because of you. I would give every single jewel on my heavenly crown to all of you for being such an amazing blessing to our family. We are truly blessed to have every single one of you praying for Kayleigh, and I believe more than ever that God has listened to our prayers and it proving time and again how awesome He is. Thank you all with every ounce of our souls! Aimee and I are forever thankful. God Bless, The Freemans :)
9/13/2008 11:14:00 PM
9/13/08 - Ooops, Guess what???
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Kayleigh's Story After everything that was going on yesterday, I forgot to mention that Kayleigh is now a term baby. Woo Hoo! Aimee's due date was the 12th, but it is crazy to think that Kayleigh is almost 3 months old now. I was watching Aimee hold her today thinking about how much she has grown. At one point, Kayleigh was a scary 13 ounces and now she is weighing 2 pounds - 12 ounces which is 3 times her size. I know that her feeds have been a hard hurdle to jump, but if you look at where she was and where she is now, that is awesome! I even changed her diaper today and noticed she wasn't wearing the little tiny diapers anymore. Maybe normal children grow fast, but we all know Kayleigh is no normal baby. She does things her way, ha-ha. Overall, today was a good day. The Upper GI test results came back showing nothing out of place that would be causing her feeds to back up. They were looking for a narrowing in the intestines, which now shows that slow motility is to blame. Once her tummy goes down, they are going to start her on the breast milk and probably from a bottle since motility starts from the mouth. She was breathing great all day today and got the hiccups a couple times which was very cute. Her oxygen is still at 3 liters and 25%. We held her for a couple hours today and took some more photos of another new outfit that Aimee bought her. We were shocked that Baby's R US had some preemie clothes that would fit Kayleigh, but they did. The brown and pink outfit is Aimee's and Marsha's (One of our primary nurses) favorite one. Thank you all so much for your support and pray that her belly goes down so we can start her back on the breast milk feeds. God Bless, The Freemans :)
9/14/2008 8:40:00 PM
9/14/08 - Inspired Today was a good day. Kayleigh was weaned down on her oxygen to the lowest setting yet. She is at 2 liters of flow and taking in about 28% oxygen. When Aimee and I were there today, we peaked in and Kayleigh had her nasal cannula pulled completely off her nose so the oxygen was going nowhere. The cool news is that she was satting around 94%, which is perfect!!! Kayleigh was trying to tell everyone she was a big girl and doesn't need any help to breath. Kayleigh still has not had a good poop and the doctors are waiting for that to happen before they start her feeds back. She was really irritable today that Marsha, one of our primary nurses, took her out and put her in a swing. We never got to see her in it or I would have been snapping photos left and right, but the nurses said she looked adorable in it and was enjoying it tremendously. It helped calm her down, so that was good to hear. Talking about calming Kayleigh down, the nurses said Kayleigh just seemed to be grouchy all day long, but when Momma laid Kayleigh on her chest, she just stopped fussing. For over an hours, she laid on Aimee's chest in complete silence and seemed to be so peaceful. She fell asleep within minutes and showed no signs of irritability at all. It was all wonderful until we had to put her back in her isolette to go home. Kayleigh went right back to being upset and fussy. After five minutes, Aimee put her hands in and had a little talk with her. I don't know what she did, but she worked her magic and sweet Kayleigh was out like a light. Those two have such a special bond, it is amazing!
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9/16/2008 8:27:00 PM
9/16/08 - New Idea!!! Okay, I know that boring days are good, so I am not going to complain. But, nothing is happening yet in the poop category either and I am getting a little worried. They are doing another x-ray in the morning to determine their next move. They talked about doing a test where they (ouch) stick an instrument up Kayleigh's butt and get a piece of her skin on the lining of her poop chute. I didn't catch what all it tests for because I was too busy cringing at the sound of the procedure. When we came in today, we heard again that Kayleigh was grumpy all morning, but when we held her and comforted her, she had a perma-grin on the whole time. She was swinging in her swing when we got there and I am so glad I got to see it. I know what you are thinking...YES I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A PHOTO!!! We were running late and I decided to just leave my book bag and camera in the car. Aimee warned me with these exact words, "Watch, when we get up there she is going to be swinging in her chair and you are going to be mad that you decided not to bring the camera". Ooops!! She was right :( Kayleigh did gain some weight back. She is weighing in at 1261 grams which is (2 pounds - 12.4 ounces). She is on 2 liters of air flow still and taking in 28% oxygen. I am going to make sure I take the camera tomorrow and get some 138
Kayleigh's Story more photos for you all. I know everyone loves seeing the photos, so I will do my best to take some that don't all look alike. Can you imagine how many photos I am going to take when she comes home? I am going to have to buy a new computer just to have enough memory for all of her photos that I will take. It will be called Kayleigh's PC (Pictures Computer). I made up a "Poopy Song" since the "Poopy Dance" isn't working. Since Wade Joye is an amazing singer, maybe I will record him singing it and post it on my blog. (ha-ha JK Wade...maybe) The song goes a little something like this... You need to clamp down really hard, until your face turns bright red. Squeeze like never before, and make the nurses change your bed.
and take a big ole CRAP!!!! Kayleigh's got to poo poo, to get Mommy's moo moo! Yes I said, Kayleigh's got to poo poo, to get Mommy's moo moo! She's got to POOOEEEYY POOOO000000ooooooo.....YEAH!!!!
9/17/2008 6:38:00 PM
A Wild 24 Hours!!!
We know it hurts your belly, so push as hard as you possibly can. You have got to get it out very soon, or "your lack of" will hit the fan. Kayleigh's got to poo poo, to get Mommy's moo moo! Yes she's got to poo poo, to get Mommy's moo moo! You can move on with your life, Once you have gotten it all out. Your bloggies will be so proud, they will all certainly scream and shout. Kayleigh, You can do it!!! Mommy wants to feed you on her lap, So please do what you got to do, 139
Kayleigh's Story can't figure it out, we are more than likely going to surgery this Friday. If they open her up and find a problem, they will fix it right then and there. What he is looking for is a narrowing in the intestines that is causing the backup. If there is, he will remove that section and attach the ends again. Let's pray this is a success because if he can't attach the ends properly, she may have to have colostomy bag for a while. I should know something by tomorrow whether or not the doctor has decided to go through with the procedure.
WOW, Where do we begin? The past 24 hours have been really crazy. I will first start off and give you an update on Kayleigh. As you all know, we have been having a wild back and forth journey with the feeding issues. We have now spent three months trying several different avenues and none of them worked. I know we were hoping to go straight back to breast milk, but the dye from the Upper GI test and her remaining stools haven't been able to pass through her system, even with the help of several suppositories (Glycerin shaves).
Okay, the craziness is not nearly over. This is even more intense than the possible surgery. We got a call from our main OB-GYN doctor. (Angel Dr. is who we call her). She was the doctor who was on call the night Kayleigh was born, the one who kept Aimee in the hospital for further monitoring and the one who administered the Betamethazone (steroid) shots at the precise time to help Kayleigh's chances of survival. She said she spoke to the Maternal Fetal Medicine doctor who was actually the very first doctor we saw when Kayleigh was starting to grow behind at 18 weeks of the pregnancy. This doctor felt that Kayleigh was not going to make it to a viable state and pretty much told us we should not do anything different in our lives, as it was inevitable that she would not live. To this day, she still thought Kayleigh shouldn't have survived that pregnancy. Well, because of that, she decided to do some research to figure out how it was possible with all the signs pointing in the wrong direction and to give us an answer to everyone's questioning.
The next step is not to wait any longer for her to poop, but to take a look inside and see what the problem is. Since the Doctor/Surgeon didn't find anything suspicious on the x-ray, he is hesitant to do the surgery. He is currently doing a lot of research on Kayleigh's file and x-rays to see if he can figure it out without cutting her open. If he
Before I get started, it amazes me to know how lucky we were and it quickly teaches me a lesson in judging people too quickly. Aimee and I decided to get a better answer from another MFM doctor because this doctor was quick to tell us Kayleigh would not make it. I will be honest and say that I judged this doctor in a way that I
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the results from the placenta prove true, but we also hope this doesn't cause any issues that would cause her to die. If you look at all the signs, you will notice that Aimee had every single matching symptom. It may also explain some of the issues Kayleigh is having with her digestive problem, since the Molar Pregnancy is based around the chromosomes, but doesn't show up as a chromosome abnormality. (Which the AFP, Amnio and recent Tests showed no abnormalities)
Now let me explain why I have a much greater respect for this doctor. While I expected this doctor to just throw her hands up and say this is unexplainable, she did an awesome job to help find the reasoning behind this unexplainable outcome. She just might have figured out the reasoning behind Kayleigh's growth restrictions, Kayleigh's unexplainable Pericardial Effusion, the AFP's false positive, Aimee's spotting, Aimee's major weight loss during pregnancy, Aimee's cysts all over her ovaries, the really thick placenta, Aimee's pre-eclampsia, and all the other unexplained reason's why Kayleigh survived. She came up with a possible solution which is called a Molar Pregnancy. The link will explain more in detail as I am no doctor, but also a disease linked to Molar Pregnancy is Gestational Trophoblastic Disease.
2) Aimee now needs to be watched very carefully for the Gestational Trophoblastic Disease (GTD). We did take a pregnancy test to show that her HCG levels are low because the test came back negative. The unexplained weight gain and the spotting she's been having are signs of GTD though. If her HCG levels are not high now, we need to make sure they don't get high over the next year or so if we decide to have another child. If Aimee happens to get pregnant, the trigger of her HCG levels will cause the aggressive, possibly malignant cancer tumors to spread rapidly. The cancer can be taken care of, but we would need to catch it quickly. The even scarier part is that Kayleigh was born three months ago and we haven't had any follow up to make sure their are no cancerous cells spreading. I read a story of a young girl who died from it because it spread too much before she found out any problems. So let's hope our home test was accurate enough and we don't have to worry about it. We are going to get a test from the OB-GYN to double check and make sure the HCG levels are not high. If they are, then Aimee will need to go through some type of chemotherapy depending on the severity of the cancer cells.
Please read both before moving on as it will better explain the rest of this post. The scary and crazy thing about both are: 1) Out of all the cases of Molar Pregnancy, there have been two cases in the world where the baby was born. The rest died during the pregnancy and this is a common result of misscarriage. We could not find information about the other baby, but one of them passed after 67 days. Kayleigh would be the only case of survival if
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Kayleigh's Story I won't relax until we know for sure from further tests. Please pray for my girls. We had a major freak out last night while doing all our research and we will continue to freak out until we get some results. You can go on to google and look up both diagnosis to learn more about it. I picked one of each that explains it well, but a lot of other links tell more about it. The doctor said it could take a few weeks for the placenta results to come back telling us whether or not Kayleigh has overcome the impossible. Your support and prayers are needed more than ever before.
9/18/2008 9:46:00 PM
9/18/08 - Surgery Scheduled
Tomorrow morning (Friday) at 10:30AM, Kayleigh is scheduled for surgery. The doctors want to open Kayleigh up to see what the underlying factors that are causing her to feeds to back up. The last GI test did not determine if there was a narrowing in her intestines, but the contrast has not exited her body like it should have, so that is throwing up a big red flag. If the doctor finds something, they will fix the problem right then and there. If they don't find anything, I am afraid at what may be causing this and what would happen from here on out. The incision will be across the stomach and above her belly button, so she will have a scar. I told Aimee not to worry because she will not be taking her shirt off until she is married anyways (ha-ha). I feel that the scar will be very small by the time she grows up. I will call it her battle wound. In the long run, no one wants their child to go through surgery, but we feel it is the best option for her to get over this feeding issue. 142
Kayleigh's Story We need her to grow and grow faster! If she continues to stay on the TPN (Triple Mix Nutrients), it can cause more damage to her system than we need. So please pray for our little one as the surgery isn't suppose to last but for around an hour or so. We will certainly be on pins and needles until we get some news. I am sure you all will be too, so I will try to get back and post before too late. This journey has been a trying time for our family and as I try to make jokes and give you guys a laugh, I am really freaking out inside. I guess it is my way to cope with all the stress. Some call us strong, but the strong one is not me. Aimee is my true strength and she is the reason I have not gone off the deep end yet. Some might call me crazy because of my poopy song and dance, but you know what? Your right! This is a wild and crazy situation, but without Aimee there to love me, strengthen me and help keep my eyes on the right path, I would have done a lot more crazy things than that. She is a Godsend and I am so blessed to have such a wonderful woman in my life. With God joining us together, she is the reason I have eternal life because without her, I would have been preparing for eternity in hell. She keeps me closer to perfect than anyone ever will. I am truly in awe of how someone would ever hook me up with the most amazing person in the world. I love you sweetheart and thank you for loving me! Thank you everyone for all your thoughts and prayers as we go through a tough day tomorrow. God Bless,
9/19/2008 6:48:00 PM
9/19/08 - Post Surgery Update PRE-SURGERY
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Kayleigh's Story Sorry to keep you all in suspense all day long. The surgery went smooth, but the doctors didn't find any narrowing or blockage in her digestive tract that could be causing her motility problems. It wasn't the outcome I was hoping, but it certainly rules out several other possible problems. I was actually hoping for something to be wrong so they can fix it right then and there. I hate that she has a scar now, but she is one step closer to figuring out what the problem is. The orders are to start her feeds when she has recovered and when her stomach starts to get big, we are going to feed right through it. That means we will really have to sing the poopy song and do the dance at the same time. The doctor said from what the intestines look like, if she isn't throwing up then there is no reason to stop her feeds. We will be using breast milk this time around and we will keep an eye on her blood sugar levels. I am feeling a little guilty that we didn't try the breast milk before we did the surgery, but the surgery was a success overall. It shows that the problem more than likely is within the nervous system, which isn't pushing the stool along the digestive tract like it should. Even though Kayleigh is a term baby now, they are chalking it up to her being so small. So after a very stressful day, Aimee and I treated ourselves to Babies R US!!!! Woo Hoo. We bought several things for Kayleigh's room and then decided to register for a future baby/homecoming shower that Aimee's sister, friend and my Mom are planning. Most guys would say that the best part is getting to hold the scanner gun, but I let Aimee do it and we perked up quickly with excitement. We feel like Kayleigh is another step closer to coming home and if we aren't careful, she will be home before we know it and her room won't be finished. I am a champ with the camera, but I won't take photos of the room until we are finished. :( sorry! So overall, today was a success because Kayleigh is now recovering well and has gotten her sats up back to normal. She was struggling a little when she got back to her room, but after a few hours she
calmed down and started to relax. I thought she was supposed to be knocked out sleeping for the rest of the day, but that sure wasn't the case. She had her eyes open at one point and she was sucking on her ventilator tube. I wonder if she is hungry (Ha!). Kayleigh likes to do things her way, and that way isn't always the easiest route as we all know. I am just so glad she handled the surgery well and can soon focus on eating and growing . The eye surgery and this GI surgery is just getting her experienced for her final surgery on her heart, which is the big one. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers today. Even though nothing was found, God had his reasons for this surgery and I am putting all my trust in Him. Soon, Kayleigh will be home and we can all rejoice in God's amazing work. I am currently writing a book about our experience so I can reach out to others and give them the hope that you all gave me. I keep telling myself through all these ups and downs, that Kayleigh is the true author and she is just trying to make it exciting for everyone. God Bless,
9/20/2008 11:16:00 PM
9/20/08 - Slowly Recovering
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Kayleigh's Story Today was a good, but long day for Kayleigh. She is still on the vent and has been slowly coming down on her oxygen. This morning, she was having a hard time keeping her sats up and they had her on 74% oxygen. It has been slowly dropping all day and she is currently at 45%. At one point, she was breathing room air, but started having some desats and they had to increase her back up. They decided to give her some lasix since her urine output was low and she was wheezing some. The lasix is a diuretic that will help remove water off the lungs and help Kayleigh pee. Besides the fentanyl drip, she only got a little bit of pain medicine (morphine) today. Since late this afternoon, she has not had any desats and her pressure control on the vent is at zero. That means the vent is not helping her breath at all. So all in all, she is starting to get back to normal. I am ready for her to get off the vent and back on the cannula so we can start feeding soon. Her weight is around 2 pounds - 13 ounces now. It dropped a little, but that is expected. I was able to take a photo of her new toy today. I have been forgetting to take a pic of it. Kayleigh was having a rough morning with her desats and her oxygen way high and we noticed she was not listening to her lullabies. So we pulled the toy out of her drawer and put it in her isolette. We noticed a quick turn around in her sats. She started breathing better and her hands weren't so tightly gripped. It was almost instant relaxation for her. That made us feel so awesome to see that this toy was a great investment. I highly recommend it to anyone who has a child in the NICU. There was a study that said babies who listen to music do much better in the NICU. After reading that, we couldn't resist and made sure she had one the next day. Thank you all so much for your prayers through this surgery and please pray that she will recover quickly so we can start feeding soon. God Bless, The Freemans :) 146
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9/21/08 - Today....
all day long. The day ended so perfectly when I glanced in to say goodbye to her and she peaked her eyes open at me and gave me a smile. I was able to grab the camera in case she did it again, and she did. After all the curiosity of her being in pain from the surgery, that goes to show she is happy. ***If ANYONE has a blog or website that they have created for their preemie(s), I want to add it to our site to share your stories. Please email your child's name and website at Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com. THANK YOU!!!! I am hoping to have a lot to write about tomorrow. Let's pray that she gets her tube out and we can plan on starting her feeds soon.
9/22/2008 8:21:00 PM
9/22/08 - You Like My New Mittens??? Kayleigh slept. The End! Ha! Ha!, Actually that is about all that happened today. Besides sleeping, she came down on her oxygen a little more and they are thinking about extubating her tomorrow, maybe. It all depends on how she continues to recover from the surgery. Allyson and Brandon came in with us today to spend some time with her, so they were happy. After talking with our nurses, Kayleigh has been quiet and sleeping 147
Kayleigh's Story there. Maybe she will turn things around and get off that vent sooner than later so we can start her feeds back. She did gain some weight over the past day, which could be due to increased fluid from the surgery, but she weighed in at 1320 grams (2 lbs - 14.5 ounces). Everyone check out the Joye Family (Our NICU friends) as one of their little twin girls (Adleigh) is going home tomorrow. WOO HOO! Aimee and I are going to send them a text messages at 4 in the morning that says: (WAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!) JK GUYS! I better get all the jokes out now because our day is coming soon :) Love you guys - Praise God!
Isn't that just so adorable??? We walked in today and saw her with her mittens on and about lost it. I guess she has been pulling at all her tubes, so the answer to their problem was to make her look so darn cute. The mittens are so huge that they look like sleeves for her whole arm. Kayleigh is doing just great today. She is still on the vent, but they did extubate her this morning. I guess it was too early because she struggled a little too much. They said they would let her rest another day and try again maybe tomorrow or the next day. I don't know if it will be tomorrow though. While we hung out with Kayleigh today, her oxygen was on 31% and when she was satting great, Marsha (Our other great Primary Nurse) would lower her oxygen to 29%, but then Kayleigh's sats would drop to the 70's and Marsha would have to increase it back up again. She did that this afternoon and was still doing that this evening when I called up
Off the record, Aimee and I are highly looking forward to our date this Saturday. After our dinner, we are going to see "Nights in Rodanthe." Aimee and I read the book when we first started dating as it was a romantic love story. Yes guys, I love a good romantic story! Anyways, if you haven't read the book, read it! I am really anxious to see how the movie compares. The cast couldn't have been better for this movie. We love "The Notebook", so I am sure it will come close to being just as good, I hope :)
9/23/2008 9:00:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story Things are moving in the wrong direction today. Early this afternoon, Kayleigh started acting up and showing more signs of irritability than normal. Since being put back on the vent, her oxygen has been set around 40% and it hasn't gotten any better. When we came in late this afternoon, things got worse and she was placed on 100% oxygen. Her sats were hanging in the low 80's for a short time and quickly started dropping. I have never seen her not do well on the vent, so when you see her sats dropping in to the 60's on 100% oxygen for 30-45 minutes straight, you think there is no place else to go and things are going to get ugly before you know it. They performed a CBC (Complete Blood Count) and found out that Kayleigh has more than normal immature white blood cells, which shows signs of an infection. So now Aimee and I are freaking out. We had a surgery that we could have done without and she might be getting an infection from it. They started antibiotics and are also going to give her another blood transfusion as her hemoglobin was less than normal. Since the vent was at its highest settings and she was not oxygenating her blood well enough, they brought in a machine that hooks up to the vent that delivers nitric oxide through her system. The endothelium (inner lining) of blood vessels use nitric oxide to signal the surrounding smooth muscle to relax, thus resulting in vasodilation and increasing blood flow. (I stole that from Wikipedia) Wikipedia said it exactly right. It started to work because her sats (which were constant at 60%) started to rise and level out around 92%. That makes us feel much better, but we are still not out of the woods. They have been administering the lasiks (diuretic) to help remove the water off her lungs. She also lost 100 grams since last night which is not normal at all. Being that she had a lot of blood drawn and the lasiks made her pee a lot, they are contributing
those factors to the weight loss. Our biggest concern may be that her VSD (hole in the heart's lower chambers) is the problem, possibly causing her heart to overwork/go in to failure and she is not big enough to do the surgery to close it. If the blood transfusion, nitric oxide, antibiotics don't do the trick, they will be ordering an echocardiogram to look at her heart tomorrow. Please keep Kayleigh in your prayers and hope that she can pull through this like she has with every battle before.
9/24/2008 10:30:00 PM
9/24/08 - The Doctor's thoughts Kayleigh is hanging in there today. Her vent settings are lower than last night and she is still on the nitric oxide. Her oxygen was set around 35% and the nitric oxide is at 10. They are going to try to wean her off of both if things are looking up. She did gain some weight back (50 grams)and is now 1270 grams. The blood transfusion went really well and they have given her a couple different antibiotics to treat the possible infection. We spoke in great length with the doctor today at Kayleigh's bedside. We are so blessed to have such great doctors there who care and will spend the time needed to make sure we really understand things well. Our doctor is hoping and feels like the issue 149
Kayleigh's Story at hand is due to an infection. But on the other hand, Kayleigh's quick turnaround of events yesterday leads him to believe it may be more. They are going to keep a close eye on her situation to make sure it is not the latter of the two. The situation he spoke of is due to chronic lung disease/pulmonary hypertension. Now this is not the same pulmonary hypertension as adults have and we were told strictly not to do our own research as the hypertension in preemies is a much different story. I will try to explain this as best as I can. There is built up pressure in the heart and in the lungs to push blood along it's directed path. Since Kayleigh has a hole in her heart(VSD), the oxygenated and non-oxygenated blood will follow the path of least resistance through the holes in the ventricles. So if her lungs have more pressure because of the hypertension, the oxygenated blood on one side of the ventricle will pull non-oxygenated blood to its side (path of least resistance). So, If the non oxygenated blood is pulled to the other side of the heart and mixes with the oygenated blood and then sent out to the body, it causes Kayleigh's organs to get very little oxygen. The nitric oxide, relieves some of that pressure by relaxing the blood vessels in the lungs and helps deliver more oxygenated blood back to the heart and out to the body. That is why when they put her on the nitric oxide, she responded well to it very well and her oxygen saturation went from 60% - 90% yesterday. Things that can cause this to happen could very well be (AND HOPEFULLY) an infection which can be treated and forgotten quickly or some kind of reaction to the anesthesia or pain/pain medication. If the hypertension/chronic lung disease gets worse, the doctor said we will tackle that issue when it happens. I am and most of you can take that for what it is worth, but the doctor was honest with us and said that if there were ever a situation that is
irreversible, he will be upfront and honest about it. (Although it scares me that he would even bring that statement up as it could either mean he is preparing us for what's to come or that we shouldn't freak ourselves out because they don't have any answers yet.) He said there are other things that may be done, but we don't know what those are yet until we find out whether or not this is even an issue and how severe it is. We were told to hang tight and let's just get through this process of weaning her off the vent/nitric oxide and then we'll know what route we are going. Basically, I am "guessing" and being "hypothetical" here so don't judge my words, but if this is more than the cause of an infection, things are not looking good. I say that because, besides nitric oxide or Viagra (also used for relaxing the blood vessels in the lungs)there is nothing that can help the situation and the outcome will be negative. We can not keep her on the nitric or Viagra for ever as they will do more damage than help, and the reason we are not to do any research is because there isn't many studies done for preemies with this issue as it proves fatal for most cases. If everything on the internet is for adult pulmonary hypertension, it is because there is no good news for preemies. I guess blood vessels in the lungs are similar to how they act with ROP. They run in to trouble with growth because something grows wrong when a baby is born premature. Just my guess. Anyways, correct me if I am wrong with my guessing in the past paragraph if you know any further details about this issue or have stories of other preemies. It should give me ideas on some important questions that I can ask the doctors tomorrow. It is now a sit and wait game again and just pray and hope for the best. I know God has His reasons for everything and we are going to trust in Him through every situation.
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9/25/2008 7:40:00 PM
9/25/08 - Making Progress
Today, Kayleigh has been moving in the right direction, but we won't know fully if the pulmonary hypertension is going to be an on going issue until we are able to completely wean her off the nitric oxide. When they first started her on the nitric, her settings were at 20 and they dropped her to 10 and then to 5 this morning. Right now she is at 2 and they are going to continue to wean her every 3 hours. The good thing is, she has the Viagra to help as a back up. So, we are making progress and we pray that she continues to do well. This afternoon, she was resting well and satting high. Even though she is not completely perfect right now, it is such a relief to see her satting good and sleeping. My heart just breaks when she is irritated and she is struggling to bring her sats up. We are trying to stay strong through all of this, but it is by far the hardest thing we have ever been through in our lives. I am just so blessed to have Aimee to lean on when I am having a tough time and vice versa. I just got off the phone with the nurse and in ten minutes, they are going to wean her down to just 1 on the nitric oxide. So far so good. Let's just hope she keeps it up. Sorry as there was not much update, but not much news is very good sometimes. Thank you all so much for your prayers. We can't begin to describe how awesome the feeling is to have all of you behind us. The comments are so encouraging to us and they keep us positive through this trying time. THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!
9/26/2008 4:04:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story We are on cloud nine right now! Aimee and I both are in just disbelief and just plain going crazy with excitement because of how our day went today. Hold on tight because what you are about to hear is going to blow your socks off! When the day started (Early AM), Kayleigh was removed from her Nitric Oxide because they finally weaned her down over night. Over the next couple hours, she continued to do really well and the doctors decided to take her off the vent. Woo hoo! We were so happy to call up there to find out she was doing so well. We couldn't wait to get up there and hold her and spend some time with her. We just knew that things were starting to look up and we were right. When we got up there, they had already dropped her flow from 6 liters, to 5, to 4, and then to 3 so they could give her a bottle!!! YES A BOTTLE!!!! We got there at the right time because we were able to feed her 6mls of BREAST MILK ONLY!!!!!!!! Just like we have wanted to do for a while now. Kayleigh did an awesome job feeding and took the whole amount with no desats, bradys or aspirates. But wait...There is even more!!!! Kayleigh POOPED!!!! She had the biggest poop while feeding that I have ever thought possible. WOOOO HOOOOOO!!!!! She had tons of thick (very thick) solid poop and even the contrast from the Upper GI test was visible. Before we started her feedings, she was irritated by the slightest touch, but after her explosion, she was so calm and relaxed like everything was back to normal. All this stress and the girl just needed to poop. I mean, I don't want to be too descriptive, but I would have had a heart attack if I tried crapping out something that big with just a teeny little butthole like hers. We just called up there to find out she has tolerated two more feedings from the bottle. The feeding right after ours, the nurse used a fast flow nipple on the bottle and it worked so much better than the slow flow we used. I guess the night nurse didn't know the fast flow worked better because she didn't take all of this the third
time and had to finish giving it to her through her tube. We also got some other great news tonight. Kayleigh is 2 GRAMS SHY of the 3 pound mark. Can you believe it???? She has nearly tripled in size since she was born. She weighed in at 1359 grams (2 pounds 15.9 oz). And last but not least, through all the drama this week, I failed to mention that Kayleigh is 3 months old as of the 23rd. Oh what an unbelievable day it was. I am so amazed by the grace of God and I thank you all for your prayers. God was certainly listening and answered so many prayers because today was a turn of events in so many different areas. Please continue to pray that she will keep moving forward and that this possible pulmonary hypertension won't surface again. We are just blown away with excitement as today felt like one of the happiest days of our lives. Thank you everyone for your support. It truly is an amazing feeling to have people who care so much. We are so blessed. Off the topic, Aimee and I both have been dieting and doing really well. Aimee has lost almost 5 pounds and I have lost 7 pounds. Aimee has updated her blog, so click here to check it out. God Bless, The Freemans :)
9/28/2008 1:29:00 AM
9/27/08 - Back for More
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Today was such another awesome day that we decided to go back up there late tonight and spend some more time with Kayleigh. She has been doing great with her bottles and they are going to start increasing her feeds one ml every 9 hours. So right now she is at 7 mls. She weighed in tonight at 1374 which over the 3 pound mark. Woo hoo!! She is still on 3 liters of flow and her oxygen is around 30%. There were no major desats that were recorded and she was just as happy as can be today. We fed her a bottle this afternoon and she did great. She finished it much quicker than the first time we did it. She is getting a bottle every 3 hours right now. One nurse said she finished it in less than a minute for her. That is awesome! I realized today that I have to leave the nipple of the bottle in longer so it forces her to swallow when she squirms after getting some of the milk out. It took her around 10 minutes to get 3 mls out, but when I tried leaving it in 155
Kayleigh's Story there, she finished the rest really quick. Aimee and I went up there around 4:30 this afternoon for a couple hours and at 11:45 tonight after our date night (which was awesome!!!). We missed her so much and we wanted to help feed her again. It was the end to a perfect night! God Bless, The Freemans :)
9/28/2008 9:09:00 PM
9/28/08 - Keep The Good Days Coming :)
I am going to give you a quick update as today was another great day. Kayleigh has gone up on her feeds and she is currently at 10mls every three hours. This is the most she has had in such a short period of time. Before, she would be getting this much over an hour or three hours on continuous feeds. She is tolerating it very well and actually had a small poop this afternoon. 156
Kayleigh's Story Things are going really well. The only tough part is Kayleigh's throat is raw as can be. Having that tube from the vent in for so long has made her lose any kind of sound in her voice. So now she turns beat red and the mouth comes wide open, but no sound comes out. Not that I would rather hear her cry like crazy, but it sad to see that it is bothering her. She will be back and loud in no time. ha-ha! I took some video to share with everyone. It has been a while since I have added one to the blog, so I felt the need to do it while Aimee was feeding and burping her. Kayleigh was so cute because she was so wide eyed and active. We were able to catch her in some precious moments.
9/30/2008 12:37:00 AM
9/29/08 - Work in Progress...
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Kayleigh's Story We are growing though!!! She weighed 1412 grams tonight, which is (3 pounds - 1.8 ounces). She was a little irritated when we were up there today, but she must have been cooking up a good poop because shortly after we left, the nurse said she had a very large and stinky one. At every diaper change today but one, she has pooped. Can you believe it though, all the things they tried to feed her and she wouldn't poop. Plain breast milk by bottle is certainly doing the trick. I am glad that the cure to what has been causing Kayleigh so much trouble over the past couple months is what God had intended for Kayleigh to have in the first place. Please keep praying for Kayleigh and that she will continue to do great so we can get her home. This has been an amazing journey and I am so blessed to have you all praying for us.
Sorry for the late post, but Aimee and I were busy painting :) I know, I lied. I said I wasn't going to show photos of her room until it was done, but I was so excited about the progress we made tonight. We still have some chair rail to put up and paint white where the pink and brown colors meet. Last week, I put together the crib and Aimee decorated it beautifully. She has such good taste. She picked out all the colors and has turned this room in to something beautiful. I maybe helped a little with the shade of the colors, but I give all the credit to her. We are so ready for it to be done and for Kayleigh to come home and be in it. Speaking of Kayleigh, she is doing great. She has gone up on her feeds to 13 mls (our goal is 26mls), but she was getting worn out with every other bottle. The doctors decided that on those feeds, they will give her a break and tube feed her instead. That way she can still get a bottle every six hours, and not burn so many calories.
The second shipment of bracelets came in today, so I will be getting them out ASAP. Sorry it took so long. If you have your bracelet already, please take a family photo with it on and write a letter to Kayleigh so Aimee can put it in the scrap book she is making. You can email me the letter with an attached photo to: Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com
9/30/2008 10:30:00 PM
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Today was another great day. Kayleigh was dropped from 3 liters of air flow to 2 liters of flow and when we called up tonight, she was satting around 92 on 23% oxygen. They also stopped her antibiotics and she had 4 good poops today. She has increased to 15 mls every three hours, so we should start to see some good weight gain. She weighed in tonight at 1446 grams (3 lbs - 3 oz.) Kayleigh is just moving along nicely. The doctors said that since Kayleigh is not showing any major issues with her VSD (Hole in her heart), they "might" not have to do surgery when she hits the 2000 grams mark (4 lbs). They said they will hold the surgery off to a later time since doing it at 2000 grams is just the minimum weight she has to be at to have the surgery. So let's pray that we can hold off as long as possible on such a major surgery. 159
Kayleigh's Story Congratulations to Bobby and Lisa, who are two really good friends of ours. They had their baby girl last night at 11:54. Her name is Isabella Grace, which is such a beautiful name. I am just so happy because Kayleigh will now have two other girls to grow up and cause trouble with that are the same age. The other cutie patootie is Sloan Piper, my fighting/training partner's daughter who was born last month. One of the Moms that follow Kayleigh's story is asking for everyone to say a pray for her little one, Taylor. Taylor is supposed to be born in a few weeks, but her Mommy's water broke early and they are hoping to prolong the birth as much as possible without any complications. God Bless, The Freemans :)
10/1/2008 9:39:00 PM
10/1/08 - HAPPY 100TH DAY!!!!
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Kayleigh's Story Today marks the 100th day Kayleigh has been in the NICU. Time sure flies by when your having fun. (well....not so much!) I am just ready for that day we can walk out of the hospital for good. We were talking today that we are not going to know what to do with all the free time when we are home for good. We have gotten so used to planning each day to drive 30 minutes to the hospital and back, while spending several hours there. When we are not at the hospital, we are at work appointments or taking care of Allyson and Brandon. I am ready to have a little more time on my hands because there is never enough of it. Kayleigh is progressing well. So well, there have been hints of the possibility of moving to progressive care. She still has to tolerate her feeds and get off the TPN (IV Nutrients) before she can go. Right now she is at 19 mls and doing good. Lately, she has been going to the bathroom when feeding, which is great but it is cutting in to the time she needs to focus on eating. All that baring down and straining is keeping her from finishing the whole bottle. Well, that is what the nurses at night say, but today she did awesome for me when I fed her. She took the bottle and finished it within 15 minutes, while blowing out her diaper. Yeah, it wasn't a pretty sight. Hey, I am just glad she is pooping, so I am not going to complain one bit. ha-ha! Other than that, we had a great visit with her today. We didn't want to leave and lately, it has been getting harder and harder to leave. She has been so active and acting like a normal baby does, it just makes us feel so awesome and excited. One of our primary nurses had her this afternoon and it has been a week since she has taken care of her. It was right when they had put her on the nitric oxide, so she was amazed to see how well she has been doing lately. I could read her actions and it makes us feel so awesome to
know how much these nurses care. You worry sometimes because some people call it a job and are just there for a paycheck, while others (Our Primary Nurses) are there for all the right reasons and we have certainly picked the right ones. They are amazing!!!
10/2/2008 8:42:00 PM
10/2/08 - 1st Attempt It was another good day for Kayleigh. Today was the first attempt for Aimee to try and breast feed. It turned out to be more of a bonding session than anything else as Kayleigh didn't latch on. We will keep trying and sooner or later, she will get it. She has been doing a decent job with her feedings though. They are still feeding her a bottle every other feed, and sometimes she is not finshing the whole bottle for the other nurses. When we feed her she does great, so we are curious if Kayleigh just wants us to feed her instead. That is possible! She took 13 out of 20 mls tonight before she fell asleep from all the hard work. So they put the rest through her tube. She is still pooping on a regular basis and the blood test showed that her blood sugar levels are normal. Woo hoo! She is still on 2 liters of flow and her oxygen is at 30%. They will try to wean her off of the oxygen slowly, but she was constantly at 25-30% all day today. Her weight has gone back up to what it was the other day. (1444 grams = 3lbs - 3oz) Other than that, it was a smooth day today which is so amazing. It is so true about the NICU being 2 steps forward and 1 step back until 161
Kayleigh's Story you are out the door. We just hope there are no more steps back. We have taken enough steps forward and backwards that I will be starting a new profession in teaching shag classes this winter. haha! Okay, that was bad! Anywho, Thank you all so much for everything! Good days are so wonderful and let's pray that they continue. God Bless, The Freemans :)
10/3/2008 7:19:00 PM
10/3/08 - Very Peaceful!!!!
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Kayleigh's Story Today was a wonderful and very peaceful day. We spent several hours with Kayleigh today and she was a pure joy. She was awake for most of the time and she fed perfect. I fed her 22 mls today within 25 minutes and she didn't have a problem at all. I don't know what it is about the NICU, whether it is the oxygen flowing through the room, but I get so darn tired. I usually can never fall asleep sitting up in a chair, but I was out cold today while Aimee spent some great quality time with Kayleigh. I don't know why, but I only get that way when I am in that NICU room. Other than feeding well and having great bonding time, she had another wonderful day. Sorry for the short post tonight, but I finished touching up Kayleigh's room and I painted the letters that will go up on the wall. So now Aimee and I are going to go hang the letters on the wall. Brandon, my Dad, and I are going to cut, hang up and paint the chair rail to finish the project tomorrow. Aimee, my Mom and Allyson are going to the fabric store to pick out some curtains for all the kid's rooms. We have to finish the letters and get a good night's sleep tonight as Aimee, my parents and I are going to walk the Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer Walk tomorrow morning. We have done it almost every year and it has been such an inspiring and emotional event. God Bless Everyone! The Freemans :)
Aimee and I can't begin to describe how awesome it feels to have good days when this is actually supposed to be the normal parenting experience. Not having anything to worry about relieves so much stress from Aimee and I that we can focus on our other things that have lacked attention, such as work and other family.
10/4/2008 10:26:00 PM
I wish you all a wonderful rest of the weekend and God Bless.
10/4/08 - Thank God for Good Days :)
The Freemans :)
We walked the Susan G Komen Breast Cancer walk this morning and put together Kayleigh's room. We had about 4-5 hours of quality time with Brandon and Allyson. Since the children are no longer able to go to the NICU due to the fear of RSV, we played video games and watched some of their favorite tv shows. It was good to just act like a kid with no worries in sight. Kayleigh is doing great today and not having any issues at all. She hasn't changed much since yesterday except that she is on full feeds right now, which is 26 mls. She was resting all day today, so we are hoping for some great growth from her. She weighed in last night at 1522 which is 3 lbs - 5.6 ounces. That was a huge jump from the night before so we are moving in the right direction. We have not found out what her weight was tonight, but I am hoping for another big increase. Little Nicholas, thank you so much for praying with your Mommy. Kayleigh has been doing so good because of your prayers. We thank you so much!
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Kayleigh's Story 10/5/2008 11:26:00 PM
10/5/08 - Grow Baby Grow!!! Yesterday and today were two really great days of growth for Kayleigh. I am just hoping this kind of growth continues. She is currently at 1587 grams which is 3 1/2 lbs. She grew over 80 grams yesterday and over 60 grams today. I am just so pumped up to see that kind of growth. Other than that, she came off her TPN (IV Nutrients), so she no longer has a PCVC (long term IV thread) in her foot. But....she had some puss come out of that IV location, so they put another IV in her other leg to administer antibiotics for safety. She is not showing any signs of infection, but they want to be cautious. She is satting good and feeding very well. If she doesn't finish her bottle, she is getting the rest through a tube and is not having any aspirates. She is breathing and swallowing much better now. Aimee has been trying to breast feed Kayleigh and has not been having a lot of luck, but today it seems Kayleigh took to her a little better than the past couple days. So, it looks like she will get better in time. We just need to keep practicing.
say that I thought yard sales are where you just buy other people's junk, but we made out big time and I am hooked! I can't wait to go again. ha! I hope everyone has a wonderful start to a new week. I am sure Kayleigh's progress will put you in a good mood being that Monday mornings are never fun.
10/6/2008 10:23:00 PM
10/6/08 - Progressive Care in Sight, Maybe!!!
Aimee and I went to a community garage sale yesterday and we got a bassinet and a swing for dirt cheap. They are so cute and barely used. I thought that we would want to spoil Kayleigh with all new things, but we couldn't pass up on these two items. Together we paid $45 when we would have paid $200 more if we got them new. Not to mention, they are in really good condition and were barely used. We couldn't have been at a better place and time. I also got a new office chair for $15, which I am so comfy in right now! I must 164
Kayleigh's Story All the stars are aligning for Kayleigh to move to progressive. She is tolerating full feeds, breathing very well and holding her temperature. The only thing holding us back right now is the Cardiologist deciding whether to put a cardiac cath, which will be to monitor the pulmonary pressures. Since she is not showing signs of distress with either pulmonary hypertension or congestive heart failure, this cath will be there to monitor every second for them to fix the issue in case something were to start moving in the wrong direction. Please pray that we continue to move in the right direction and whatever is needed to be done, will not cause any setbacks. Kayleigh was awesome today. She latched on to Aimee for at least 5-10 minutes when breast feeding. It was so awesome and the more we try, the better she is getting. If you haven't noticed yet, Aimee and I will never give up trying!!! I think that Kayleigh gets more sucking from the bottle, so when a minimal amount comes out of Aimee, Kayleigh gets frustrated. Kayleigh took 25 mls out of 30 tonight, so that is the best she has done so far with the most amount of feeds. She has grown over 200 grams this week, so she is starting to sprout!!! I hope she keeps it up and takes off. I am not sure what she weighed in tonight yet, but I will find out in the morning. Someone posted a comment tonight on why we haven't tried taking Kayleigh's story to TLC or some other company just as large. I might be looking at it wrong, but if I personally went to TLC with our story, they would probably think I was just some proud parent trying to get 15 minutes of fame and we would be perceived in the wrong way. I want nothing more than to touch as many lives as possible, so I would need to the help of others to do so. If someone out there who is following the story has or knows someone with great ideas on how we can reach as many people as possible, I would love to hear your ideas. This opportunity can help so many families and if we could save one life, it was worth all the while. We
are stronger in numbers. Please help and let's work together. God Bless, The Freemans :)
10/7/2008 7:47:00 PM
10/7/08 - Happy Anniversary!!!
Today is our second year anniversary. Woo Hoo! We decided to treat ourselves to one of our favorite restaurants, Nakatos. It is a Japanese Steak House where the chefs cook right at table side, 165
Kayleigh's Story flipping their knives with flames shooting up everywhere. It is a lot of fun and we enjoy the food so much that we hurt so bad afterwards. I think Aimee has been to the restroom four times and we have only been home for about 45 minutes. haha :) Kayleigh is doing awesome! When I told you that progressive care was in sight, I didn't think it was so close that tomorrow might be the day. YES!!! Tomorrow! We spoke with our doctor and he wants to keep Kayleigh in the NICU because just last week she was having so many issues and even though she is doing so well now, he wants to keep a close eye on her. We took a tour of the progressive unit and on our way back through the NICU, we saw the doctor and told him how awesome it is over there, and he said that maybe tomorrow we will send you over. How awesome is that!!!!! Just to give you an idea, the progressive unit is just down the hall, but it is a completely different world. I don't know if I described to you what the NICU looks like, but I will do my best. When you walk through the hard, worn out, stained carpet floors, you will make your way down a long narrow pale grey hallway to Kayleigh's nursery. The automatic doors open up with a loud rustic sound as if a garbage truck was packing it's trash to make room for more. When you enter in to the south nursery, you are surrounded by beeping and dinging from eight other preemies within visable site from each other. Making your way through the crowded 16x20 room packed with at least three nurses and four other children, Kayleigh is situated in her little corner where you can luckily fit two chairs side by side to spend some quality time with her. There is one little window that faces a cobble stone roof loaded with air conditioners that seem to never catch any sunlight no matter what time of day. With not much sunlight and enough oxygen flowing at once, you are bound to get the best sleep of your life. It is hard to stay awake and spend the time you want with your precious child. Now, when you walk in to progressive, two silent automatic doors flow open to shiny, waxed hardwood floors with windows in every
direction you turn. You are thrown instantly in to another level of luxury that you can't help but drop your jaw to the floor. We made our way in to where Kayleigh will be residing and there were comfortable leather chairs and curtains to close yourself off for privacy. It was as if Kayleigh will have her own penthouse suite compared to the dorm room she is in now. Each room has their own large window that looks out to nothing but green trees and passing traffic, which is more than enough to look at while she is passed out sleeping on my chest. When you look around, there are other rooms equipped with silent monitors, lacking the chimes because most of the babies are one step from heading out the door to their homes. The space was amazing as if our whole section was a completely separate wing in the hospital. It spoke class in there and even though Kayleigh might need monitoring, we would much rather her get better rest in a quiet and peaceful location away from all the noise in the NICU. Please pray that Kayleigh will go to progressive and she will stay there until it is time to come home. She certainly passes the requirements to be there now, so let's just keep it that way. She does have to get the cath, but the cardiologist feels that we can wait 2-3 weeks before they put it in since she is doing so well right now. They want her to grow more and be able to handle the procedure very well, so we don't run in to the risk of what happened last week. Last but certainly not least, I received an email from several people today about a petition that is going around for The March of Dimes. The petition is for prematurity awareness so the government can give more attention to research, health coverage, professional guidelines and to support maternal/infant health. I am never a demanding person, but I demand you to sign the petition. Click here to sign the petition: Petition for Preemies Thank you all so very much and God Bless, The Freemans :) 166
Kayleigh's Story 10/9/2008 12:19:00 AM
10/8/08 - NEW HOME!!! NICU HOME
At 12:30 in the afternoon, Kayleigh was transferred from the NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) to the NPCN (Neonatal Progressive Care Unit). We are just so stoked to have moved her to a newer and more private, upscale location. The photos above and my last night's post does all the talking about the difference in rooms, but it just means we are one step closer to going home.
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Kayleigh has been so wonderful lately and she is continuing to show signs of progression. There has not been a longer time over the past 3 months where she has been doing so well consecutively. It seems that we are moving in the right direction and I am glad that we will not be doing the pulmonary cath for 2-3 more weeks. That way Kayleigh can continue to grow without any disruption. I didn't post the weight last night, because I they didn't weigh her until the early morning. she weighed in at 1563 which is a little less than normal. Tonight's weight came in at 1475, but they blamed 167
Kayleigh's Story that drop on the different scales in NPCN. I don't know what it the true weight, so we will just see what tomorrow's weight is and go from there. I would hate to see that she is burning too many calories these past couple days. She did however grow 200 grams in the past week, which is unbelievable for Kayleigh's track record. Kayleigh is still working hard at latching on to Aimee's breast, but we are improving a little bit each time. We have a consult tomorrow with a lactation nurse. They were talking about having Aimee use the a guard to help Kayleigh latch on. Hopefully that is the answer. We are really wanting Kayleigh to get the hang of things for bonding purposes, even though I don't think there will be a bonding issue when she realizes how bad we spoil her. ha! Thank you all so much for your support as your prayers are certainly helping us make progress! God Bless, The Freemans :)
10/9/2008 8:02:00 PM
10/9/08 - The Shield Worked!!!!
Kayleigh is having yet another great day. She weighed in tonight at 1513 grams (3 pounds 5.6 ounces), so it is a little better than last night, but not back to where we were the other day. It is all a balancing act and we need to limit the amount of calories she is burning anyway possible. She is still on 2 liters of flow with her oxygen at 25%, and they may drop her to 1 liter soon to see how she handles that. We had a great visit today and she was not fussy at all, even when it was time to feed her. Lately, she has been fussy about 30 minutes prior to feeding and today she was sleeping when we got there and she was sleeping when we left. Okay, now for the awesome news!!! Kayleigh latched on to Aimee today while she used the nipple shield. It is unbelievable the things they have come up with to help our little girl along. I am just do blessed to be in our unbelievable hospital at this day and age. We had a lactation consultant come in today and give us some wonderful information. I am going to share some of this with you as 168
Kayleigh's Story many of your had questions, either about breastfeeding, pumping and dieting. First of all, let me tell you about this lactation consultant. She too was a preemie, but over 50 years ago. She was born weighing 1 pound - 7 ounces, and hold on to your britches when I tell you this! When she was born, they didn't know what to do, so they put her in a shoe box and in to the oven, not to turn it on, but to prevent her from catching a draft of cold air. They took her out every 3 hours and fed her. That is all they could do, or knew what to do. What do you think about that???? That is craaaaaaaaaazy! God Bless all the research and changes that have been made over the years. She told us that dieting does not effect milk production and as a lot of you were concerned with our dieting, she made some good points and brought some documentation to show us. We asked a bunch of questions just to make sure we weren't doing anything to hurt Kayleigh. The documentation states that milk production would only be affected in a state of famine lasting several weeks. She made a good comparison when she talked about the mothers in Africa/Ethiopia who don't eat the high calorie/high fat/hormone injected food that we do in the U.S. Maybe Kayleigh won't be 6 feet tall and have large boobs at age 10 like most girls these days, but she will be healthy from the 80% natural foods that we do eat. If you haven't seen the nurtisystem diet food list, it is all very small portioned that must be accompanies by a lot of fruits and vegetables to make up our daily caloric intake. All in all, it states that this is the best time to exercise and diet as your body is constantly burning calories to produce milk, so it gives you that extra calorie burning boost. This is good news so we can all pass it along to others who are questioning it in their journey. Someone asked if Kayleigh would be moving to a bassinet and we asked the doctors today when this would happen. He told us that Kayleigh is already ready to move to a bassinet. The requirements are 1500 grams and she is over that mark. The only reason they are
not moving her is because she will burn a lot of calories trying to hold her body temperature up and right now we need to focus on growing. She will have her time to graduate, but after hearing that, I am okay if she stays in that isolette until she is ready to come home because I want her to grow!!!! I have not received any photos or letters yet from anyone who purchased a bracelet. Kayleigh is going to be very sad when she sees an empty scrap book. Sorry, I had to give you a guilt trip. But, seriously! Send them in so we can put an awesome scrap book together. Someone asked me if we were ordering more and if I have to, I will. I do have a few left from last order. There were over 50 bracelets that have gone out, but no photos back yet. Please take a minute to do get that done for us. Thanks so much. Also!! Last but not least. With my journey to touch the world with our story and yours, I was thinking about ways we can reach many more people in need. Aimee and I have our own real estate website and one way to build up site popularity on google or yahoo is to link our website to others. A lot of us have Kayleigh's website linked already, so that is awesome. IF WE ARE NOT LINKED TOGETHER....please send me your website. I don't care of it is a preemie site, term baby site, work website, blog, myspace, or any other site that is out there, we need to link our sites together to create a big chain link fence that will get our stories across to those who need them the most. If you don't know what I am talking about, email me at Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com and I will help. If you have any questions about anything, we are here to help. I have been getting a lot of great questions about different things, so don't be shy if you are dying to know something. Just email me. Thank you all for everything and God Bless Kayleigh's accomplishments. She is just doing amazing and we pray she continues to move in the right direction.
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10/10/08 - It's About Time!!!!
After a long and hard fought battle through the NICU, Kayleigh has gotten to a stable place in our eyes where we will allow Kayleigh's grandparents to hold her. You are probably wondering why it has taken this long and probably saying "It's about time." Well, for most of you who have not traveled the NICU journey before, the biggest fear when it comes to other people touching Kayleigh is that if she gets sick, you don't want anyone taking blame or pointing fingers. I would be devastated if someone in my family were to hold Kayleigh and something go wrong, and them blame themselves. Whether or not they had something to do with it, we didn't want to take that chance. It might sound cruel in a way, but until you are in this situation, you might not ever understand.
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Anyways, it is long overdue and they were so excited to finally get to hold her. Kayleigh is doing great today. She is up to 32 mls on her feeds and tolerating every last bit of it. Every time I have to smell one of her "beyond stanky" diapers, I am quickly reminded of the troubles she once had with her bowels, and I proudly change with a smile on my face. Aimee got Kayleigh to latch on again with the nipple guard and Kayleigh stayed on for at least 20 minutes while they tube fed her her normal feeds. That way she got the amount she needed while working on her feeding skills. It was cute when she wore herself out and fell asleep right there with Aimee. Normally, she would struggle to fall asleep because she always seems like she is going to miss out on something. She sleeps with one eye open and at any slight movement, she perks up and looks around. Today, she was smiling for everyone and just seemed to be in an very happy mood. We are at a crossroads though. Kayleigh is not growing as much as 170
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10/13/2008 12:14:00 AM
10/13/08 - Brown Eyed Girl!!!
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Look at those big brown eyes :) Brown as they should be, but you never know because it looks like her hair is going to be blonde. She's our little brown eyed girl! I heard that if your pupils are dialated (without the help of medicine), it means that you are in love. It is good to see Kayleigh's pupils so large :) She is doing really well too! There was only one problem so far. She is not gaining the weight they hoped for when she hit full feeds. She weighed in at 1470 grams the night before last, which was down from the previous night. Last night she weighed in at 1505 (3.4lbs), but it is still not a significant amount. They started her this morning on fortifier and as we all know, this has not worked before. Today was a good day though as she pooped at all feedings, not like the
Other than that, Kayleigh is doing great. They moved us from our suite in the corner to a different room that is a little tighter. We were not too happy about that, but there weren't enough babies to be back in that corner for the amount of nurses they have to watch them. Oh well, I guess we will just have to suck it up. We were grumpy last night because we got moved, no weight gain and Kayleigh going back on fortifier. I am just glad tonight was a much better night. Kayleigh was ever so happy laying with us and we didn't want to go home tonight. The more days that go by, the more we notice she is getting so attached to us. Poor little Kayleigh, she didn't have her OG tube down all the way. She must have pulled it up and taped it back down before anyone noticed. When she was getting her feeds tonight, she seemed to be having trouble breathing and then I noticed milk coming out of her nose a little. All of a sudden, she just up chucked/threw up milk all over the place. Thank goodness Aimee figured it out and the nurse quickly fixed the problem. Kayleigh then was satting 100 the rest of the time. I am sure that was a little stressful, but it was good to know that we caught the problem fairly quickly. That had to be so uncomfortable. Poor little girl! Well, this is the end to an awesome weekend, but I wish you all a
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10/13/08 - What a Special Day!!! Today marks one of the most special days that we've had since Kayleigh has been born. Aimee and I were able to do something very special and it turned out to be one of the most amazing things. I am sitting here, hours later, still blown away with excitement that I have nearly broken down several times. Our company, Re/Max Executive Realty put on a golf tournament today at one of our prestigious golf courses here in Charlotte, NC. They had a nice dinner at the club house, an auction on great autographed sports memorabilia and a raffle for many many nice prizes. They really took the time to put this together and it turned out really well. I am not a golfer, but RE/MAX supports The Children's Miracle Network at Levine's Children's Hospital where Kayleigh is. I knew for a long time, that each house we sold, we would automatically donate money out of our commission to The Children's Miracle Network and it has certainly paid off :) We are so grateful to work for such an awesome company. Thank you Scott and Cindy for caring so much. You both are certainly a blessing to our family.
We were asked to speak about Kayleigh and to help raise money for a good cause. I put together a speech today while we visited Kayleigh and I stood up in front of a nice sized crowd, with Aimee by my side, where I just let it all go. I am not one to stand up in front of a crowd to speak, but I feel that I am really good at putting my emotions in my words on paper. It turned out that all my nervousness was worth every single knot in my stomach because when I finished and the crowd gave us a standing ovation, and we lost it. Did I mention, that I am not one to show my emotions either, but I kept tearing up for at least an hour afterwards. It really impacted us in a way that made us feel like we accomplished something great today. Hopefully we were able to raise a lot of money, but more importantly we were so pleased to have gotten the opportunity to speak to others and possibly change someone for the better. Beyond our great standing ovation from the speech, several guys came by our table and gave Aimee and I their raffle prizes ($50 Dinner Gift Certificates to two different places). That meant so much to us, that we both just lost it, Again! When grown men are so touched by Kayleigh's story, you just wish the rest of this world would learn something from that. It would certainly be a much better place to live. "Kayleigh, you are just so amazing. You have touched the lives of so many people and you don't even know it yet. I can't begin to tell you how proud I am of you. I am so proud because you never gave up on us when times were tough. You never gave up when none of the doctors believed you would survive. You are stronger than I will ever be and every time I checked to hear your heart beating before you were born, you were there to tell me you weren't going anywhere. Even though I was scared of losing you every hour of 173
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A Chance to Give Hope Aimee's Mom and Step Dad were finally able to hold Ms. Kayleigh. They were so happy to have gotten the chance and they enjoyed every minute of it. Today was another good day, except for the fact that Kayleigh has not pooped all day. They started her on the fortifier and like all the other times we have dealt with this, she might be stopping up again. They are going to give her a glycerin shave this evening (suppository) to see if that helps. There biggest concern is her lack of growth. She did grow some last night (1565 3.7lbs) which is good, but besides the calories for growth, her little body needs nutrients. While breast milk has been the best for her, it lacks the nutrients an IUGR (Internal Uterine Growth Retardation) preemie needs. If Kayleigh was a term baby and normal size, this would be a different story and I would be fighting for breast milk all the way. We will just have to try different things until one of them works or her bowels will mature enough to handle anything. Hopefully it doesn't take too long or end up in another exploratory surgery. Other than that, Kayleigh is doing good. Because she seems to be 174
Kayleigh's Story struggling to poop, she hasn't finished her bottles like normal and she didn't last long while breast feeding with Aimee tonight. Before I share some awesome news, I wanted to let everyone know that more bracelets were ordered. If you want one, click on the buy now link over to the right of the page. Several people asked if we were ordering more and we just put in a new order today. For those who don't know what we are doing, we are putting together a scrap book for Kayleigh, so your photo (while wearing your bracelets) along with a note to Kayleigh will have it's own page. That way she will remember all the wonderful people who prayed for her. Below is a photo that I just received to add to Kayleigh's scrap book. Alison, Elli and Lukas are triplets preemies who are following Kayleigh's story and have been praying for her. We are so blessed to have these three beautiful children reach out to us. Thank you so much!
yesterday we spoke on behalf of The Children's Miracle Network for our hospital at a Re/Max fundraiser event? Well, below is an email from the representative who we met out there yesterday. I will let the letter speak for itself, but it is AWESOME NEWS for all of us who want to share our stories to give people hope. Adam and Aimee, Hello! I hope you (and Kayleigh!) are having a good day. I stopped by while I was at the hospital today to say hello and thank you again for speaking at the RE/MAX tournament yesterday. Cindy and her team did a wonderful job putting that together, but you all really made it hit home as to why the CMN fundraising is so important. I wanted to touch base with you about you possibly sharing your story again. Each year, we have both a Radiothon and a 30-minute television special about Levine Children’s Hospital (LCH). Both are major fundraisers for LCH, raising hundreds of thousands of dollars, and are great avenues through which we can share special stories with the community – to let them see the miracles that are taking place right here! We would love for you all to be a part of these events and to share Kayleigh’s story. I read your blog with Kirstin who is Director of Communication here at the Foundation (also copied on this email) and we were both so moved by your photos, your videos, and your experiences. You all have certainly been through a lot and are truly inspiring.
Now for the awesome news that we got today!!! You know
Jim and Jen, the morning show team at Lite 102.9 are already scheduled to come to LCH and record interviews on October 30th. These interviews will be used to create montages for our 175
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10/15/08 - Perfect Day!
Please let me know if you are interested in helping us with these projects. Kirstin can fill you in with more details if you have any questions or concerns. Again, it was wonderful to meet you yesterday and we will continue to follow Kayleigh’s progress. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you all. Thanks, Lindsay
Without hesitation, we have agreed to do the program and we look forward to seeing it move so many people. We wish you all the best and we are so glad to have so many people pulling for Kayleigh. Your prayers have moved mountains and have certainly made a miracle out of our precious girl. I pray that you all will be blessed by God in so many ways for the love you have given our family. God Bless, The Freemans :)
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One of our new clients/new friend shared with us a children’s book that she wrote and published. It is called Ebenezer Flea and it is just an adorable book. Aimee read it to me in the car on the way up to the hospital right after we got it and it is a cute lesson in life. I highly recommend it for your children. The website of this book is http://www.ebenezerflea.com/. Every child needs a favorite bedtime story, so we plan to read this one to Kayleigh a lot when she comes home :)
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Thank you all so much for your prayers through all this. I know I thank you almost every night, but I truly can not thank you enough for the support and love you have given our family. God Bless, The Freemans J
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Kayleigh's Story Look at those chubby cheeks. Those 40 grams last night really made a difference because even Aimee and I noticed it right away even tough we see her every single day. The bottom photo was towards the end of our visit and she was getting a little cranky. She was so funny with her little attitude.
So far so good!
10/18/2008 2:30:00 AM
10/18/08 - Doing Great!
She is doing so well though. She latched on to Aimee for a good feeding session and she then took some of her bottle, but quickly fell out from all the hard work. She was finally awake for my parents, so they got to see her in action. My parents just had bad timing before because she had always been sleeping or facing the wrong way in her isolette, which hindered their chance to see her so active. She didn't gain any weight over the past night, but she pooped a few times so that may be a good reason why there was no weight gain. They did drop her flow down to .4 liters and she is satting high, which is awesome. She took all of her bottle at this night feeding and is tolerating the food really well. We have not heard of any aspirates, desats or bradys while feeding! Woohoo!
Kayleigh had a great day today. She weighed in tonight at 1625 grams which is 3 pounds - 9.3 ounces. Her flow is still on .4 liters. Kayleigh took all of her first bottle tonight and took 3/4 of her second bottle, so that is a much improvement from yesterday. She also pooped a few times tonight, so the similac special care fortifier is working this time around. I guess her bowels have matured a lot since she was not able to pass it through her system the last time. Thank GOD!!!!
Our goal right now is to continue to do well over the next couple weeks, get the cardiac pulmonary cath, recover from that and then come home. She passes all the tests to come home except her ability to finish her feeding consecutively and stool more often. They want to see her feedings improve her growth, which so far we are doing pretty in that area over the past couple days. We can take her home on oxygen, so we are actually one foot out the door now. The doctors are actually talking more and more about her going home soon. I can't believe it!! We just have to take it a day at a time and hope that she continues to do well, so we don't have any setbacks. Our prayer request is that she continues to improve her situation in all categories (feeding, growth, stools and saturation).
Besides having such a great day today, Kayleigh had a very special visitor. Keren, which is my cousin's wife, was in town this week for meetings with her company. She spent the evening with us last night and all day today. She is heading home tomorrow, but she was able to visit Kayleigh today for a good amount of time. I am so glad that Keren was able to spend some time with her because it isn't often that we get to see her. Other than that, it was a pretty mellow day. Before Aimee and Keren went back to visit Kayleigh, I got to spend about an hour with her by myself. It was awesome just having her sleep peacefully on my chest. You know she is completely content when her heart rate is around 110, her respiratory is consistent and her saturation is close to 100. That right there shows that she is so comfortable. I just sat there and spoke to her about many different things and
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hours to change her diaper and feed her if she was home. I am just happy that we may only have a couple more weeks of this. Since we have gotten to progressive care, we have been getting a little more antsy to take that trip out the front door! :)
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Thank you all for your prayers and sorry I didn't get any photos today. I promise to take a bunch tomorrow for you. I know how you all love to see her pretty little face as much as possible. Please continue to pray for more days like today, so she will be ready to come home in a couple weeks. It is getting exciting and we just can't wait! The day is going to be one of the happiest days of our lives, that is for sure.
10/18/08 - A NEARLY PERFECT DAY!!! Besides one minor issue, she was completely perfect today. She grew 10 grams from last night, which puts her at 1635 grams (3lbs 9.7oz). She pooped several times today, so her bowels are getting on a normal routine and she is no longer backing up with the extra calories they are giving her. They added an extra bottle feeding in, so now she gets 5 bottle feeds and 3 tube feeds all day long. All 5 of her bottle feeds were flawless as she took and tolerated every ml and had no aspirates on any of them. Last but not least, they dropped her oxygen flow to .2 liters and she is still satting close to 100% all the time with no desats or bradys.
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10/19/08 - Just Speechless!
Now that means there was only one thing that kept her day from being completely perfect. Besides Kayleigh doing all these perfect things, she didn't do any of it at home with all of us. We know she will soon though, so that is beyond exciting. It has just been long over due to see such a perfect day for her and can only pray that many more are to follow. Kayleigh deserves it more than anyone because we all know this has got to be so stressful on her to be a term baby couped up in an isolette for most of her day. You wouldn't just put your baby in a box and take her out every three 180
Kayleigh's Story From talking with the doctors last week, they were saying that after Kayleigh's catheter procedure, if everything looks good and she is feeding good and growing good, then she should be good to go home. Well, we don't know for sure, but since she is feeding great, she gained another 20 grams (1655 grams = 3lbs - 10.3 0z) and her procedure is this week, we may be getting ready for a homecoming before we know it. So the progression has been so amazing this past week as if she's just hit the fast forward button on the remote.
Wow, where do I begin? Today really showed us there is light at the end of the tunnel and it is creeping on us quick! The doctor called us this morning and we unfortunately missed his call and weren't able to get in touch with him since he was already walking out the door for the day. He said he would talk to us tomorrow, so I am really looking forward to that conversation. What I do know (from our nurse who heard the doctor during rounds today) is that Kayleigh's cardiac catheter procedure is being moved to Tuesday or Wednesday of this week. They also dropped her oxygen flow to .1 and are now feeding her PO (Bottle) feeds at every feeding. Through out the whole day, she killed every single bottle in about 15 minutes, so how is that for progression? WOW!!!!
So, cross your fingers and say some prayers as we are getting closer to completing this miracle journey that we've been on for the past 27 weeks. Wow! It has been 27 weeks since we found out Kayleigh was growing behind schedule and this nightmare of a journey had begun. I am speechless right now that I just can't put in to words how amazing this feels. God has certainly blessed us with something so special and all I want to do for the rest of my life is use this experience to help others. This feeling in my heart is just so unbelievably fantastic that I could scream with joy from the top of my lungs, although I may give Aimee a heart attack with out prior notice. WOW!!! Just speechless! GOD BLESS EVERYONE FOR ALL THE SUPPORT AND LET'S PRAY FOR A WONDERFUL WEEK!!!!
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as if the nurse just wanted us to try and stay positive and hope for the best. So I ask all of you for more prayers that this test results in a case where Kayleigh will not have pulmonary hypertension or high pulmonary pressures for ever. She has overcome many obstacles, but we need to overcome this one too so please find time to pray for Kayleigh again. I really don't know a whole lot else and our doctors advised us to not do a whole lot of research as each case is significantly different amongst preemies. It is also not the same as pulmonary hypertension amongst adults due to the different size of human we are dealing with. The good news is out of all of this, is if she recovers well from the cath procedure and can hold her temperature when they take her out of the isolette, she will be ready to come home. That could be as early as Monday of next week. WOO HOO! So...Beyond this final hurdle of the unknown, Kayleigh is doing great. She grew 15 more grams last night which puts her at 1670 grams = (3 pounds - 10.9 ounces). The doctors have increased her bottle feedings up to "as much as she wants". They tried to take her off her oxygen completely to see how she would do, but she started to desat. The doctor said he would try to wean her down from 100% to see how she responds to that. She has been finishing all her bottles except the one we fed her today. Aimee breast fed her for about 10-15 minutes really good before Kayleigh started to get tired so we switched to the bottle. I guess it is much harder work to feed off the breast as the milk does not flow as easily as the bottle. The video below show Kayleigh right after finishing breast feeding and finishing half of her bottle, when she was trying so hard to stay awake, but just didn't have the strength. It is so cute when she perks up enough to do a half smile and then doze right back off. Thank you all for your words of encouragement and support through this whole journey. Kayleigh is almost in the clear and
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10/21/08 - Surgery Postponed Unfortunately the surgery is postponed tomorrow morning, but it is definitely for a good reason. Another child is in dire need of the procedure, more than Kayleigh is at this point. So, we are more than happy to give up our spot to someone who needs it more. The cardiologist called me today and basically told me that he can monitor Kayleigh's heart pressure through an ultrasound and since Kayleigh's heart/lung pressures are stable right now, they don't feel it is necessary to perform the cardiac catheter at this point. Now, I am not positive if he would rather postpone the surgery or wait to see more growth from Kayleigh before they decide to do the procedure. His comment was, if the procedure showed that they could close the VSD (hole in her heart) without causing problems with the lung pressures, she still needs to be over 4lbs to do that surgery. So, waiting until that point would only give the lung pressures more of an opportunity to come down on it's own. Now, we wrestle with the idea of her coming home earlier since we don't have to do the procedure right now, but I won't know that decision until tomorrow. I do know they have to bring Kayleigh out of the isolette to see if she can hold her temperature well. Plus, we would have to learn the signs of complications in case she were to start showing pressure changes in either the lungs or the heart. We will learn more tomorrow when we speak with the doctor and find
out his orders. We are just happy that Kayleigh is stable enough to postpone the procedure for a time well suited to make a strategic decision with her current situation. Growth seems to be the only thing holding us back, but she did grow another 10 grams last night putting her at 1680 grams = (3 lbs - 11.3 oz). She is slowly getting to that 4 pound mark, but any weight gain with stable lung/heart pressure is completely fine with me. We know she will get to the desired weight for the doctors to make a perfectly planned decision. Other than that, she is doing great. She took no less than 33 mls on all of her feeds today and she is allotted up to 40mls. She threw a hissy fit when we got there this afternoon, but once I got that bottle in her mouth, she was more than satisfied. Aimee had an appointment this morning and I did as well, but we had to go in separate directions to be able to attend both appointments. We normally do everything together, well...besides going to the bathroom. But, Aimee stopped by Wal-Mart before her appointment and found out that they have a larger preemie section than you would think. She bought an awesome onesie for Kayleigh that says "My Heart Belongs to Daddy". It was perfect. Speaking of perfect, a couple of Kayleigh's friends who follow the blog have made Kayleigh some awesome outfits for her to wear. I have to show them off and I thank you all so much for making them for her. These are awesome. The two onesies are made from Bright Little Beginnings and from a Mom who is part of the Crochetville Organization. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
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10/22/08 - NEW CASA!!!
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That's right!!! Kayleigh has been moved out of her isolette and into a bassinet. She has held her temperature great so far and slept much better this afternoon. It is such a great feeling to know she is out of that cage and has the ability to look around more. They actually decided to move her to a small crib and will do so tomorrow because she has her music machine and other things that take up a lot of room. We are fine with that upgrade too because I think the bassinets aren't that spacious either. Please forgive me, but I am not one to complain on here. Although, I will say that we were both struck with our very first service disappointment today. On her blue binder that is filled out by every nurse (all day long) that Kayleigh has, is a note that says "Parents want to be present when Kayleigh is moved from the isolette to a bassinet" I mean, it is a very big step for Kayleigh and we want to be apart of that to celebrate. That note has been on Kayleigh's blue 189
Kayleigh's Story book for over a month and when we showed up today, Kayleigh had already been moved into the bassinet. I was very disappointed and hurt. Thanks to Aimee or I probably would have said something smart to the nurse. But, what can you do for something that has already been done? It won't make such a special moment as special anymore. Anyhow, Kayleigh is doing amazing today and I just had to show off a ton of photos. I actually took 132 photos and I picked the best ones out of the bunch to share with everyone. Kayleigh grew 35 grams last night. She weighs 1715 grams = (3 lbs - 12.5 oz). They also decided to wean her off her oxygen all day today and they are currently on .1 liter of flow with 65% oxygen. She has been eating fantastic and since she is starting to get really cranky about 30-60 minutes before her scheduled feeding times, they decided to change her schedule to feeding on demand. That means, she eats when she is hungry. She took to Aimee's breast very well this afternoon and must have gotten a lot because she didn't want much of the bottle afterwards. This evening, she took 50 mls, so she is tearing it up!!! We are just amazed by the progress she is having. Everyone was right when they said that out of nowhere, she will begin to take off and that is exactly what is happening right now. The update about the cardiac cath is up in the air right now. They said she will have it done before she goes home, but then we are not sure what the rush is. I brought up a good point to our doctor today and he agreed with what I said and is taking it to the cardiologist. That always makes you feel good. What I brought up was, if Kayleigh heart/lung pressures are stable, why are we rushing to get the cath procedure done right now when we still have to wait for Kayleigh to grow to get the VSD repaired? If 4 lbs is the minimum size Kayleigh has to be to have the VSD surgery performed, why are we tempting fate at the minimum size when
things are curently stable. Let's wait until she grows a lot more, so she can withstand the surgery better at a larger size, and when intervention is needed to help the pressure before something bad occurs, then they can step in and do the surgery. What is the point of doing it now, for our satisfaction to know it is done and we can move on or for Kayleigh best interests? If this surgery can be done in 2-3 months, then let's monitor her pressures and wait for her to be at a size that can tolerate anesthesia better. We all know what happened after the past surgery on the bowels when she took a turn for the worse while recovering from the evasiveness of the surgery. Anyhow, it makes sense and our doctor is going to talk to the cardiologist about all of it and let us know tomorrow. I am thinking that if we wait to do the surgery and Kayleigh is holding her temp, she could come home very soon. We would just have to be trained on what signs to look for if her heart/lung pressures change direction. Not too much to stress about, right? ha! We just want what is best for Kayleigh, not our satisfaction so if she has to wait, she has to wait. For all those who ordered bracelets recently, we just had a large shipment come in, so we will be sending those out. I hope everyone else got theirs okay. If you didn't, please email me at(Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com) so we can fix the issue. Thank you all so much for ordering them. We were amazed at all the people who bought one and cared so much to share in Kayleigh's journey like that. It is certainly a blessing to have each and every one of you in our lives. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I truly can't say it enough. God Bless, 190
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10/23/2008 7:31:00 PM
10/23/08 - 4 Months Old!!!
Happy 4 Month Birthday Kayleigh!!! Well, the cardiac catheter surgery is back on and it is at 7:00am tomorrow (10/24), and sorry for you early risers, but I have not seen 7:00am since we drove all through the night to Ohio for the family reunion trip. Aimee and I are night owls, so we never go to bed before 2:00am, but I think we might be going to force ourselves
to go to bed early tonight. We have to be at the hospital for 6:00 6:30. The reason the doctors wanted to do the catheter tomorrow is for the sole purpose of not waiting any longer incase the pressures are reactive. Meaning...If the pressures in the lungs are reactive and can be lowered by closing the VSD, then Kayleigh will soon get the pulmonary band or the complete closing of the VSD surgery done. They don't want to wait any longer incase the blood vessels in the lungs cap off which will then close the window of opportunity to bring the lung pressures down, which will then make her condition inoperable. The cardiologist said that worst case scenario is Kayleigh's lung pressures will not come down and she will have a short termed life, maybe in to her teens and possibly in to her 20's. It would be considered pulmonary hypertension, but it is a complete different situation when a preemie has it compared to a normal gestational aged baby. Since Kayleigh was forced to grow earlier than normal, blood vessels seem to struggle the most. The eye surgery was for the same reason, the blood vessels didn't grow correctly and this is the same situation with the lungs. Let's just pray that the pressures are REACTIVE, so they can do something about it and we can recover, fix the VSD, recover again, pack up and then go home! Today, Aimee and I were filmed at Kayleigh's bedside for a program that is going to air on Thanksgiving. It is a program to raise money for the Children's Miracle Network at Levine Children's Hospital . Right after the taping, one of the largest radio stations (Lite 102.9) in Charlotte came in and we recorded a program for a radiothon which happens here in Charlotte every year around December. For both programs, we were able to talk about Kayleigh and her amazing story. Out of all the hard work to share our story and touch someones life in a way that can give them hope or change their outlook on life, we have been completely blessed to do just that. My goal has been to save a life, but maybe it should be to "save one
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10/24/2008 1:38:00 PM
10/24/08 (3:15pm) Surgery Update - Prayers Needed Badly!!!
Thank you all for your support and please say a lot of prayers for us. We know they work and we need your help :) God Bless, The Freemans :) The day started off good and the photo above is us seeing Kayleigh off to surgery at around 6:30AM. The procedure took a long 3 hours and after 2 hours, we started to get really antsy. Our main Neonantologist came in to check on us and told us things went well with the surgery. Kayleigh did have one of her pressure spells when 192
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around. She was really puffy and swollen, and her body was as white as a ghost. When we were able to get back there, she was in a much better state than 30 minutes prior. She was already coming down on her vent settings and she was sleeping peacefully. This was not a scene that any parent should ever see. Since we had Allyson and Brandon with us and because of RSV season, we had to go back separately. I lost it when I got back there and Aimee is in really bad shape right now.
Well, we got the news that Kayleigh's pressures are REACTIVE and they would then do the surgery to CLOSE the hole in her heart instead of banding it because she is at a size large enough for them to close it. I guess they will go less than 2000 grams if necessary. So that is wonderful, but then we were quickly nailed with some not so great news. Her lungs have been through hell and back and she may have done a lot of irreversible damage. That means, when they do the surgery to close the hole in her heart (VSD), her lungs might not allow the pressure to come down anyways. We won't know that until the surgery happens. The interesting news is that we found out Kayleigh has another hole in her heart that will play the same role as releasing built up pressure to equal everything out, but we still won't know how well that works until we get the surgery done. After we got that news, we were told the bedside nurse would call us back shortly for us to come back. Thirty minutes quickly turned in to an hour and then to two hours. We were flipping out in a panic as we knew something was just not right. We finally got someone to spill the beans, but Kayleigh had a bad reaction coming back from the surgery. They said the Heparin used to thin Kayleigh's blood for the procedure had a negative effect on Kayleigh. The insertion point to the catheter was not closing up and was bleeding profusely, then blood started to come out of areas it should not be coming out of, such as her mouth. They gave her something to reverse the effect and thank God it helped. I do not know what happened back there, but Kayleigh looked like she went through a war zone. She had several different IV's in, a blood transfusion going on for the lost blood and she had blood on every instrument
This is where we need your prayers the most. Aimee spoke with the Cardiologist when she was back with Kayleigh. He is fearful that Kayleigh's window of opportunity is running short to fix the VSD to control these high levels of pressure in her lungs. They want to do it early next week, meaning she won't have a whole lot of time to recover from this drastic event that took place today. The problem we are having is Kayleigh's response to surgery and the doctors are most fearful of that. She did fine with the ROP surgery, but was not great with the bowel surgery, and now worse with the catheter procedure. Today's procedure was supposed to be a minor procedure, but Kayleigh must not be doing to well with the anesthesia and the effects it has on her body. Maybe she would not react that way if the hole in her heart was closed, but then there is no way of telling until then. This next surgery to close the hole in her heart is going to be intense. They will have to use a lot of anesthesia. Her heart will have be stopped and she will be placed on both a heart and lung bypass. The doctors are fearful she might not survive the surgery, but she would pass away if she doesn't have it either. This has been a really tough morning for us and we need your support and prayers more than ever. It is so hard to think that we were just days
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10/25/2008 10:33:00 PM
10/25/08 - Hanging In There
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Kayleigh's Story up our spirits. You all have helped us stay strong through this rough patch. Out of everything we have been through so far, this is by far the hardest part of the journey. The reason is because of this up and coming surgery. It is so hard to see Kayleigh being faced with so many challenges at once and have to be in the best shape to overcome them all for a chance at life. All Aimee and I can do is have faith that things will go perfectly for Kayleigh to come out of this unscaved. Tonight, Aimee told Kayleigh that we can't wait to tuck her in her own bed each night and kiss her little love scar. It has certainly been a rough two days. Kayleigh is slowly making some progress from her nightmare of a day yesterday morning. She has been heavily sedated, but every time the medicine wears off, she starts to desat to the point where they have to "bag" her to bring her sats back up. To bag her means to manually pump air/oxygen in to her lungs to bring her sats up since she can't do it herself. They had to do that at least four times today, which is not so great. Her blood pressure is also elevated and does not seem to show a lot of improvement over the whole day. They are administering medication for that and starting tonight at 8:00, they did a much larger dose to help bring the pressure down. We should and hope to see some results after a couple doses. They will be giving that to her every 6 hours. Besides that, her right leg where she had the catheter put in is a shade of purple. They call it "cath leg", and we were told it is normal. They are keeping an eye on it to make sure there is blood flow and her foot has a pulse. It was blotchy yesterday, but the whole leg is purple today. I hope to see improvement with that as well. Tonight while we were visiting, Aimee held Kayleigh for several hours and to our amazement, Kayleigh was doing pretty good. At first, Kayleigh was out cold from being sedated, but she started to move around and peak an eye out to see what was going. We knew she was coming down off the medication, so we were very worried
that she would start to drop her sats like she did all day yesterday and today. As more and more time that went by, she would move as Aimee spoke to her and her sats were looking better than normal. Kayleigh was really being comforted by Aimee's voice and it made our visit so wonderful. It gave us more hope that she is moving in the right direction. We just hope she keeps it up. We spoke with the cardiologist and they are planning on doing the open heart surgery to close the VSD once Kayleigh recovers. They are scheduled for Monday, but if we need to push it back because she is not ready, then they will be flexible enough to do so. Although, they want to do this as soon as possible so their window of opportunity doesn't run out. The resistance in her lungs are already high, so it could be any day that the pressures can change from reactive to fixed. We just hope she can recover quick enough to get this major surgery complete before our time runs out. We are racing against the clock right now. We are supposed to meet with the heart surgeon who is doing Kayleigh's surgery tomorrow to get more details and his perception on this whole situation. We are curious to hear what his take is on all this and what he thinks her percentages are. Our biggest fear right now is that Kayleigh is not strong enough to handle this kind of surgery. Being that she had such a horrible response to this minor procedure, I am afraid of how she will do with open heart surgery. I know she is a strong little girl, but the stats don't prove the odds to be our favor right now. The cardiologist said they want Kayleigh to be 100% cleared in every aspect before they do this surgery so we have the best possible chance of everything working out the right way. She will be considered in critical condition for the first week after the surgery and there is a large chance they will leave her chest open in case something goes wrong and they can get back in there. The hard part about all of this, is we have no chance or power to make any alternative decision that will help. Because of how severe Kayleigh's situation is, she will die without 195
Kayleigh's Story the surgery and there is a high chance she could die from the surgery. After talking with some of the doctors and nurses, we heard that several of the doctors have consulted with colleagues from other major hospitals around the United States about Kayleigh. They wanted to make sure there decisions were the correct decisions and if the majority agrees with what they are planning to do, they have to go with that decision. My take on it, is that with Kayleigh being smaller than the expected size to close he VSD (She was suppose to be 2000 grams) and the unique situation with her counterpart (Pulmonary Hypertension), this is no ordinary walk in the park surgery. VSD's are closed every day all over the world, but with all the challenges that are involve with hypertension and elevated pressures/resistance, this makes for a nightmare of a challenge for a surgeon. The doctor doing our surgery is a younger heart surgeon who comes from some of the elite surgeons out of Boston. Some of the best heart surgeons in the world have given high praises of this doctor, so we more than approve of him handling our little girl's heart. Please pray that God will guide this doctors hands to successfully fix our baby girl so she can come home to a family who will love and cherish every minute of every day with her. Do you think this doctor realizes how special he is in that he will be the only man in Kayleigh's life who would ever truly and literally mend her broken heart? Without a doubt, I am seriously one jealous Daddy, but a completely thankful Daddy for this surgeon's knowledge and skills that God has blessed him with. God Bless and God Please Help! The Freemans :)
10/26/2008 6:53:00 PM
10/26/08 - Slow and Steady That is the type progress Kayleigh is having right now. (Slow and Steady) She has come down from 20 to 5 on her nitric oxide and her oxygen is at 50%. Her blood pressure is still elevated, which is a major concern so they are going to keep working on bringing that number down. Her leg is looking better as it is not as dark purple as it was yesterday. Kayleigh is not as puffy/swollen as she was yesterday. They gave her some lasix and it has helped. All that is great news, but Kayleigh is still heavily sedated because every time she wakes up, she desats really bad. Tonight, Kayleigh started to rustle around a little and dropped her sats to the lowest we have ever seen them. Her heart rate was around 70 beats per minute and her oxygen saturation was at 7 before she was bagged and her sats were brought up. It took a couple minutes to get them back up to normal. For those who have not experienced it, it a few minutes of holding your breath while watching and praying that the numbers start to go up. We feel bad sometimes because all we want to do is comfort her, but any kind of stimulation will cause her to spiral out of control. Last night was different because Aimee was able to hold her, but sometimes you have good days and bad days. I am just happy to see some progress today. The surgery was scheduled for tomorrow, but it has been postponed. The surgeon came to Kayleigh's bedside to see her progress and she is in no way, shape, or form to be going into heart surgery tomorrow. They are flexible and will move her accordingly. We did speak with another doctor for a little while today and he is 196
Kayleigh's Story positive about the surgery, but knows that this will be Kayleigh's toughest challenge yet. We were told that Kayleigh could possibly be put on ECMO for a few days to give her heart a rest. An ECMO is a machine that works as the heart and lungs for Kayleigh. There will be tubes that draw blood by pumping it out of her body. The blood will divert through a machine that will clean and oxygenate the blood and then pump the blood back in to the body. Now how is that for technology!?!? This will give Kayleigh some more rest period through the first and critical week of recovery. We did not meet with the heart surgeon today, but we will be meeting him tomorrow at 9:00 in the morning. We look forward to this meeting, not because we have a lot of questions, but for the sole purpose of hearing what he has to say about all this. The conversation will definitely strike up some more questions, but we are interested in hearing what his thoughts are about doing this in depth surgery on Kayleigh. We have complete faith in him, but the unknown is what is giving us the most stress. We want to know everything that is going on so we can try to relax. It is an interesting situation and I have been pondering it ever since I learned we were setting up a meeting with the heart surgeon. This guy who is about to work on my little girl is classified as one of the elite surgeons, right up there with brain surgeons. He has one of the most respected jobs in America or the world for that matter. His educational accomplishments are one of the best in the medical field and he has the knowledge and skills that God has blessed him with to save our sweet Kayleigh. I look forward to shaking his hand, not for the work he will do on my child, but for the work he has already done. He chose to use his God given intelligence to save lives. What an honorable man!
buying bracelets to support Kayleigh and one girl said she's going to talk to her principal at school to see if they can do something nice for Kayleigh as a whole. It just blows my mind how wonderful you all have been to us. I can't thank you enough for all the wonderful things you have done. I feel like God has tested our family and we are doing everything we can to pass that test by keeping our faith in Him, but I also feel like he has tested every single one of you. And you know what??? You ALL have passed that test in my book because of the support you have given Aimee and I. God calls us to love each other and to treat others the way we want to be treated, and every single one of you have done just that. We can't thank you enough! You know, my whole purpose of blogging and sharing our story for everyone is to hopefully touch someone's life in a way that will change that person for the better. I am using my trials for the greatness of God. Some might call me a strong person, but I am not strong. I am actually at the weakest point of my life and only my faith in God is what keeps me strong. This verse explains it all too well. 2 Corinthians 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” God Bless, The Freemans :)
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10/27/08 - A Week To Recover We spoke with the heart surgeon today and he wants to push the surgery off for a week to allow Kayleigh to get as much recovery time as possible. He is thinking Monday or Tuesday of next week. He wants Kayleigh to be 100%, just as she was before the cath procedure, so she will be able to handle such a tough and demanding surgery. He also said that even though we have a limited window of opportunity before the pulmonary pressures become fixed, we should be okay waiting a week. THANK GOD!!! The doctor went over the procedure with us and it goes a little something like this. Once Kayleigh is under anesthesia, they will open her chest up and insert two tubes in her heart to hook up to the bypass machine. Once that is in place, they will stop the heart and take 45 minutes to let the body cool to freezing 16 degrees. He will then open the heart up, close the VSD hole shut, and then close the chest back. Once that is complete, he will raise the body temperature back to normal and restart the heart. If everything looks good, they will not put her on the ECMO which is a machine that works in place of the heart to give the heart a rest. She may need to go on this if her heart shows any signs of fatigue after the surgery. They also may leave her chest open in case they need to get back in there to do something. The first week, she will be considered very high risk and the sickest baby in the CVICU (Cardiovascular Intensive Care Unit). They are expecting her recovery time to be several weeks.
He told us our chances of something going wrong are 20%, which is much better than what I thought. Since Kayleigh is so small, they are not only worried about her heart and lungs, but her brain, liver and intestines since blood is the major source of keeping those things working well. If they aren't getting enough blood, then they are more than likely to fail. The Neonantologist was being blunt about Kayleigh's chances also, and he commented that if Kayleigh's lung pressure do not come down over time, her right ventricle of her heart will work extra hard to fight against the pressure and soon fail causing her to die. Only time will tell with what direction her little body is going to take us. It is going to be a rough week of recovery, but it is also going to be a rough month of making sure these pressures move in the right direction and the heart works normal again. Kayleigh is moving in the right direction though. Her blood pressure is coming down. It is still high, but no where near what it has been. They are still not sure what has caused her blood pressure to rise, but thank goodness it is coming down. They are doing a CT scan to make sure there is nothing wrong with her head, causing her blood pressure to be up. She is still desatting a few times a day, but seemed to pick herself back up quicker than normal. She is on 35% oxygen and 4ppm on Nitric. They tried to take her off of the nitric all together, but after 15 minutes her sats dropped a bunch. She weighed in tonight at 1780 which it was at 1880 the other day, but most of that was excess fluid. Kayleigh's leg is looking much better too and starting to get some color in to it. They still have her heavily sedated and is starting to look like herself again. We did find some interesting news about her situation in the cath lab the other day. When they gave her the heparin, which was used to thin her blood to prevent blood clots after the procedure, 198
Kayleigh's Story Kayleigh's VSD and Hypertension caused her to shunt blood over to the wrong side. The wrong side meant blood was being forced in to the lungs at a much higher pressure than normal causing it to overflow the lungs. She was bleeding out of her mouth and because of that, they told us she was in really bad shape. I took that as she almost died and they agreed if the excess oxygen they gave her to bring the resistance down, she would have. That little girl is a fighter and is not going to give up at any cost. Also, these doctors are unbelievably amazing and I give them so much credit for the work that they do. We are blessed to be at one of the best hospitals, (Levine Children's Hospital) in the South East.
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10/28/2008 10:07:00 PM
10/28/08 - Hanging Tight!
Gi Gi said it perfect on the comment page about the surgery being postponed, she said "I am sooooo relieved that God is giving us more time to pray." That is so awesome!! Everyone, please pray and pray and pray for Kayleigh and the medical staff who are doing everything they can to help Kayleigh pull through all of this. Tell your family, friends and churches to pray so God can hear us LOUD and CLEAR!!! I challenge every single one of you to pray one extra prayer for Kayleigh this week, so God will lay his hands on Kayleigh and show us how Powerful, Wonderful and Awesome He is. We are so incredibly thankful for those who offer to send Kayleigh a gift, but the perfect gift is prayer and that is ALL we ask for. God Bless & Thank You!!! P.S. Aimee and I (both) created a Facebook account, so go to our link below and add us as friends so we can continue to touch lives with Kayleigh's story.
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Kayleigh's Story Kayleigh is recovering from her cath episode pretty well. Her blood pressure issue has dropped to a normal level, her nitric oxide is down to 2ppm, and her cath leg is starting to look a normal shade of pink. The heart surgeon came in today and was very impressed with her stats as a whole. He understood her sats dropping, as he said it is normal when she freaks out, the hole in her heart is shunting blood to the wrong side, causing non-oxygenated blood to be pushed out to the body. Once that is fixed and she is irritated by the smallest things, that won't be happening anymore. Tomorrow they have a CT scan to make sure her head checks out with no major problems. Being that her blood pressure came down, they don't think they will find anything wrong, but they want to be positive before she goes in to surgery. Now we are not 100% sure, but the surgeon hinted that if she continues to check everything off her list this week, she may go in to surgery sooner. We are not positive, but we will be sure to let you know if that happens. We know they are really worried about this window of opportunity. If we wait too long, her lung pressure might never come down after closing the hole and she would die of heart failure. That is NOT going to happen though! So if she is good to go to surgery, then let's get this show on the road. As the days go by, we are more and more confident about the open heart surgery. Aimee and I don't know what it is, but we have a gut feeling (which has always been right) that she is going to kick butt through this, shock everyone once again and be on her quick route home. Although, they are expecting us to be in the CVICU for two weeks, NICU for a few weeks and NPCU for a few weeks. That is the goal and we are NOT going to have any more set backs after this! GOT IT?? If you've read Kayleigh's entire story, you will understand where I am coming from on this. There has just been one too many set backs. I can't believe just last week, we were one foot out the door and now we have the biggest test of all. Aimee and I are just blown away from all the responses we are
First of all, stop for a second and just look at all that mess in the second photo! If you could only hear how bad it looks. There are alarms and chimes just going off as Kayleigh dropped her sats more and more today. They have no idea why, other than the fact that she is irritated with the vent being down her throat, her never ending pricks for blood gas tests today, her swollen cath leg issues, her huge PVC line sutured in her other leg, a infected suture coming out of her gastrointestial surgery scar, a hernia they found in her pelvic area that will be needing attention later, no 50ml bottle feeds anymore, dry tongue, eye boogers galore, non stop wet diapers from IV fluids, no snuggling allowed from Mom or Dad, no peace and quiet from all the dinging machines, and the constant sedatives which scares anyone who wakes up not knowing what the hell just hit them. What do you think? Almost every single time, the nurse would have to bag (manually oxygenate) her to bring her back up. For most of you who have never been in the NICU, this is the true meaning of stress. On a good note, other than her sats dropping over and over, 200
Kayleigh's Story getting on FaceBook and people creating prayer lists. All I can say is THANK YOU! It touches me deeply that we are all in this together. Kayleigh is a fighter and she is going show everyone how strong she really is. I know deep down in my heart, that with prayer, anything can be done. Please keep praying hard and joining together for Kayleigh. We can't wait for the day that we can show her all the wonderful people who loved her so much. She is so blessed to have every single one of you in her life fighting with her ever step of the way. Whether surgery comes later this week or in to next week, my biggest prayer request continues to be that Kayleigh will recover 100% (and then some) from this previous battle before she goes in to her open heart surgery. Thank you all so very much for your support! God Bless,
is not a good sign when some of the best doctors around are just dumbfounded by her actions. But wait...I think we found the cure. Her name is Aimee, Mom, Mommy or as I call her "My Beautiful." Within minutes of Kayleigh resting in Aimee's arms, she started to get that wide eyed excited look on her face and her sats just leveled out. Over the next couple hours, Kayleigh's sats stuck around 85-95, which is exactly where we needed them. They also decided to drop her nitric from 2ppm to 1ppm (parts per million) and lowered the pressures on her vent. I 100% feel that Kayleigh needed to just be comforted a little bit from dealing with all this traumatic mess. The doctors agreed and even decided to give her 15 mls of food to see how she would tolerate that. We just called up there a few minutes ago (8:00pm) to see how she was doing after we left the hospital to get Allyson and Brandon, and she has been doing great ever since. No desats AT ALL! Can you believe that?
The Freemans :)
10/29/2008 6:44:00 PM
10/29/08 - The Cure!!! When we arrived this afternoon to the NICU, our nurse had told us that Kayleigh was still acting up through the night and all through the morning. Kayleigh was still dessating and not showing any signs of improvement. It was just flooring me because this is not how Kayleigh normally acts, so something must me wrong. The doctors and surgeons came back through and they couldn't figure it out either. They thought maybe she just isn't responding well to the sedative medication or the amount of Nitric Oxide that she is on. It
Actually, I can! I know when I am sad or upset, all I have to do is cuddle up with Aimee and she makes me feel all better. Aimee is by far the best wife and Mommy around. ("No offense Mom cause no one can cook Lasagna & Mac n' Cheese like you") Seriously though, I have learned so much and I have become such a better person in my life because of Aimee. You might think that I am a strong person because of how I am dealing with this unbelievably tough journey, but it is because I stand by such a Strong, Godly Woman! Aimee is the rock in my life and the best thing God has ever blessed me with. I know Kayleigh gets all of her strength to fight her battles from Aimee. "God, thank you so much for what you have done in my life. You have blessed me with a wonderful family and I couldn't ask for anything else to complete my life more than what I already have. 201
Kayleigh's Story Please watch over my precious little girl as she has no idea of the incredible battle she is about to face. Someone told me something hopeful today that will stick with me through this entire surgery and intense recovery. She said "God, You are not ready for this angel yet." Please give her the strength to fight through this heart surgery and recover quick, so she can come home and start her future with a family who is craving for her attention. Kayleigh has touched so many lives with her journey and she will touch so many more lives throughout the rest of her life. Please don't take her from us now, but if you do, we trust her purpose has already done amazing things because she has done them for you. In your precious name, Amen" The Freemans :) to the Nasal Cannula.
10/30/2008 5:43:00 PM
10/30/08 - Almost There!!! THE VENT...
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Wow, what progress Kayleigh has since we left last night! She is now off the Nitric Oxide and they removed the vent breathing tube and put her on the nasal cannula. She has not had any major desats since before Aimee's magic touch last night. That is awesome!!! I am just amazed at her turn around and it definitely makes me feel even that much more comfortable with her going in to heart surgery next week. They are still leaning more towards Tuesday, so that gives Kayleigh several more days to recover. Thank goodness they are not going to push to move it earlier. They decided to start feeding Kayleigh yesterday and even though she has had a few aspirates with every other feeding, they have decided to increase her ml's even more. Since her bowel sounds are good and her belly is soft, it certainly won't hurt anything. Her weight has been fluctuating because of water retention and the lasix (diuretic). Tonight, she weighed in at 1840 grams which is right at 4 pounds. Let's just hope it doesn't drop from that. 203
Kayleigh's Story Besides the great progress she is having, we really enjoyed our time with her today. It was a little rocky at first because she had not yet come off the vent and she was really showing signs of the vent tube irritating her throat. She was practically gagging the whole time I held her and I had to constantly adjust her positioning so she was more comfortable. When the respiratory nurse came in, removed her tube and put Kayleigh on the nasal cannula, it made all the difference. We were able to spend a few minutes with her before we left to go pick up Allyson and Brandon from school. Kayleigh was so excited and just seemed to act like her normal self again. We were so happy when we left the NICU, we just smiled all the way home. We are still smiling like crazy! ha-ha. Today was a great day for Kayleigh and I am just so thankful because she really went through some rough times this past week. It was as if Kayleigh was a totally different person when she was sick and to see her awake and active now just relieves so much stress. A ton of bricks have been lifted from our backs today and I just hope she continues to make progress throughout the rest of the week. It is really heartbreaking to know she fought so hard to recover from this past procedure, only to have to do it all over again soon. Although, while some may say it is horrible that she has no idea what is about to happen, others might think this traumatic situation is better left unknown. She is going to have some battle wounds, but we will call them her love scars :) Thank you all again for your support and please continue to pray for Kayleigh's upcoming surgery. God Bless, The Freemans :)
10/31/2008 9:41:00 PM
10/31/08 HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
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Kayleigh's Story Doesn't she just look adorable in her 1st halloween costume. Thanks to Jake, (my grappling/sparring partner) and Alicia Kozlowski for the outfit. They just had a baby girl named Sloan Piper, who was actually supposed to be two weeks older than Kayleigh. It is still weird that Kayleigh is 3 months older, but about 1/3 of Sloan's size now. Aimee and I had such a blast being able to put the outfit on her for some photos. I don't think we were supposed to dress her since Kayleigh has a PVC line still in her leg, but what kid doesn't get to dress up for Halloween? ha-ha! Kayleigh is continuing to make great progress. The final check off from the list for a stable prognosis was the CT scan and we are happy to say that it came back normal today. The cause of her high blood pressure was actually due to the kidney's giving off a secretion called renin due to a possible blood clot that formed somewhere in her body. Thank goodness it dissolved and the blood pressure came down to normal, but the doctor's fear was that the clot was in Kayleigh's brain. That would not have been good. It is a great relief to know it didn't cause any serious damage and it fixed itself. I told the doctor today that the heprin that almost killed Kayleigh in the cath lab was probably the same thing that saved her life with this blood clot. Kayleigh has gone up on her feeds to 30 mls and is having only a tiny bit of aspirates. She is growing!!! She weighed in tonight at 1870 grams which is 4 pounds - 1.9 ounce. Thirty grams a day is very good growth right now for her, so let's pray she keeps that up. Tonight while Aimee and I were tricker-treating with Brandon and Allyson. A friend we met has a little girl who was born 27 weeks was 2 lbs. She is now 8 years old and half the size of Allyson who is 9. All I could think about was how precious Kayleigh is going to be when she is so much smaller than everyone else. She can stay tiny for ever, which makes it that much easier to cuddle with me :) Even though Kayleigh is perfectly stable, the heart surgeon is still looking at Monday or Tuesday for the surgery. As the days go on, I 205
Kayleigh's Story am getting more and more nervous, but still confident as can be that the outcome will be an amazing success. I am so happy that Kayleigh will be going in to this procedure at 100% so she can be strong and fight hard. We were told not to wear ourselves out by staying for long hours this next week because Kayleigh needs us to be strong for her while we are there. So, I think we may beg and plead for an available sleep in room if it is not being used. We just don't want to be away from her for a second if we don't have to. She is not going to fight this recovery alone and we are going to pray and send positive thoughts every step of the way. It is going to be a very emotional week for all of us (you included), so being that I will have a lot of time to do things, I should be able to update the blog more often with any news. I will send some photos, but I don't expect them to change very often since Kayleigh will be sleeping the whole week. I will try to be creative though :) Thank you all so much for your prayers. Kayleigh has recovered 100% because everyone is reaching out to God for her. It is amazing how quickly things turned around when you all posted your thoughts and prayers. That is a true testiment of the power of prayer. If you don't believe in God's power after seeing it first hand through Kayleigh, I don't know how else to prove it to you. Keep the prayers coming and I hope everyone had a wonderful and safe halloween. God Bless, The Freemans :)
Kayleigh had another good day today. She came off her TPN (IV Nutrients) and they increased to 33 mls on her feeds, which she is tolerating very well. She did have some problems sleeping, but they said that it a normal reaction of withdrawals from the pain medication she was on. I guess being awake all through the night and all day long kept her active enough to burn extra calories. Her weight went back down to 1790 grams. Other than that, Kayleigh is doing well and her surgery is either going to be Tuesday or Wednesday. Monday, the heart surgeon had two cases book up, but that is perfect for us. We were afraid they would want to do it Monday and with us having to take Brandon and Allyson to school in the morning, we just didn't want to have any kind of conflict from the get go. So many people are helping us this week, so Aimee and I can be right by Kayleigh's side. Aimee's Mom and the kids Dad (Mike), are going to help out a bunch with Bran & Ally. My parents are going to watch our two dogs all week, so we are so thankful for their support through all of this. The only one who is going to be lonely is Myrtle. She is our turtle who is in love with me right now because I cleaned her long over due tank today. Poor turtle is such a trooper!
11/1/2008 9:53:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story I know we have a huge week ahead of us, but we have a very exciting weekend coming in two weeks that we wanted to share with everyone. As Aimee and I are trying to stay as positive as possible about our situation, we have to plan for Kayleigh's homecoming at some point in the near future. We are having a baby shower for Kayleigh on November 15th, from 2:00-4:00. We have truly appreciated everyone's support through this and we would LOVE to meet you all, but we don't have everyone's address to send them an invite. So, if you want to join us for an amazing celebration, we would be honored to have you. Please email: Aimee@TeamFreemanProperties.com, so Aimee can email you the e-vite with all the information you will need. Thank you all so much and God Bless!!! The Freemans :) I also want to thank Kylie Reese for sending me a beautiful photo of herself wearing Kayleigh's bracelet. We will be putting this photo along with your note in Kayleigh's scrap book. Kylie, Thank you so much for praying for Kayleigh. Your Mommy (Hollye) doesn't realize how big of a help she was. When Aimee had struggled for more than three weeks to make milk for Kayleigh, your Mom sent us some medicine that helped her so very much. We would have had to order it, which would have taken close to a month to come in, and we needed the milk for Kayleigh right away so we could feed her. You all are a life saver and we are so blessed to have crossed paths. Thank you all from the bottom of our hearts. Kayleigh will be so honored that you stepped up to the plate, like God wants us all to do, and help a family you barely even know. Thank you and God Bless! We will never forget you guys!
11/2/2008 6:15:00 PM
11/2/08 - Family Kayleigh is doing really well today. They brought her oxygen flow down from 6 liters to 4 and she is breathing in around 30% oxygen. When I was up there this morning, I fed her a bottle. It was her first one since before her cath procedure and she downed 35ml's in about 10 minutes. They are sill going back and forth with the breast milk and the fortifier. Kayleigh had some aspirates with her last meal, so they might have to go back to breast milk again. The doctors are wanting to pack on as much weight as possible for this heart surgery. Honestly, I don't think it is going to make that much 207
Kayleigh's Story difference, especially when she is not digesting the fortifier right now anyway. The time that I spent up there today was awesome. One of Aimee's Mom's friends made a beanie for Kayleigh and it was purple with a pink petunia on top. Aimee's Grandmother (Nana) calls Kayleigh her Little Petunia, so the hat was perfect. I should have taken photos, but I figured since I was up there alone, I wasn't going to take much while I was holding her. She was awake the whole time and I just sat there and held her pacifier in for her. She would get anal if it fell out or I moved her an inch. Spoiled already! :) When Aimee came up later in the afternoon, Kayleigh slept the whole time. Even though Kayleigh wasn't much company for Aimee, I am glad to see she got some rest. This is a very special photo to me. This is my Mom (Patti) and her Dad, my Grandfather (Papa Yash) from Conneaut, Ohio. My parents went to visit last week and they took photos for Kayleigh's scrap book. Papa Yash is the man! He is 85 years old. He grew up as a hard working man who provided for his family he loved so much. He exercises everyday and he plays golf a few times a week. He is a proud father of 9, grandfather to over 20, and a great grandfather to probably a million and counting :) He just lost over 30 pounds from a new diet he is on and looks so great. Way to go Papa! We miss and love you so much!
As we all talked about Kayleigh knowing when Aimee is around and Kayleigh being comforted by her Mommy's touch. I really understand that bond with my own Mom. Call me a Momma's boy, and your probably right. I am the youngest of three boys, so when I was ever hurt, had surgery, or my brothers would give me a severe beating, Mom was always there to comfort me. Both of my parents have always been a special part of my life and I hope that I will be half the parent that they were to me. They have taught me so much about being a good parent, not by words, but by actions. I am truly blessed by the love they give me.
11/3/2008 11:16:00 AM
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Kayleigh's Story We just got confirmation that surgery will begin at 7:30AM Tuesday (11/4). We were told it will take 6 hours, from we we leave her to the time we see her again. Please keep her in your prayers. I will have my computer with me to give updates a couple times a day as the week goes on. Also, we have had several people request that we post our address on the blog. If you would like our address, please email Aimee so we can keep track of everyone's email who plans sends something for Kayleigh. Her email is: Aimee@TeamFreemanProperties.com
11/3/2008 7:05:00 PM
Eastern Standard Time - Post #2 Today Hey everyone! I wanted to post a quick update for Adam since he won't be writing the blog for two more hours or so. I realize that it is getting late & some of you may be going to bed soon. We have received several emails throughout the day asking what time zone we are in. We are in eastern standard time. Kayleigh will be going to the OR around 6:15-6:45 with surgery starting around 7:30am. It should take 4-6 hours. We have also had several emails today asking us for our registry information. After digging a bit more I noticed that if you choose something from our registry they can ship straight to us & you do not even need to mess with our address. Of course if you are
sending something homemade or not on the registry you will just need to email me at Aimee@TeamFreemanProperties.com & I can email our address. (We don't want to just post it on the blog for the whole world to see) Our registry number at Babies R Us is: 44630706. The registry number for Target is: 011003997490747. In case you forget the numbers just look up Aimee Freeman in NC. You will find me pretty easily. Thank you so much to everyone that sent kind words today. They really warmed our hearts. We love the idea of having everyone pray at 7:30 even though we know it is early. Adam will be taking his laptop & will be updating the blog throughout the day. We also can check email from our phones so it is easy for us to see all of your thoughts & prayers. I never type the blog because Adam does such a wonderful job but I want to take a minute to say something if you all don't mind. Adam is always saying such great things about me & I never get to tell you all about him. I am so thankful that he has created & kept up with this blog for Kayleigh. I was telling him tonight that I wanted to create a blog & because I was drugged up in the hospital he beat me to it. I was almost upset with him. LOL I have to say that I don't think that I could have done the same job that he has. I am not patient enough to sometimes sit in front of the computer for hours trying to find just the right words to explain my thoughts. Or better yet when I am so tired that I can hardly keep my eyes open. No matter what he writes the blog every single night so that all of you will know exactly what has happened for the day & to document things so that Kayleigh will have such an unbelieveable record of her first days. He has been amazing throughout this journey & I don't think that I could have stayed as strong with anyone else by my side. Did I mention how darn cute he looks when he holds his little girl in this arms? He is so in love! So, thank you Adam for all of 209
Kayleigh's Story your hard work! We will have something so wonderful to look back on to remember this incredible journey & it is all because of you. Ok, so I hope that you all were okay with my gushing over my awesome husband. I figured that he deserved a few nice words & I would hate for him to write them about himself. That wouldn't be good. LOL Look out for Adam's post in an hour or two. It is going to be a good one. I think there may even be some cute photos! Ssh. Don't tell him I told you. :) Thank you all again for your amazing emails today. Please keep praying for us. Aimee Freeman Grandma stopped in for some love'n
11/3/2008 8:41:00 PM
11/3/08 - Night Before Surgery
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Kayleigh's Story Kayleigh with Brittany (Her favorite stuffed animal isn't so big anymore) First of all, if you didn't read the other posts, we posted two other times today so you can catch up on those before this one. Aimee is such a sweetheart for posting such a nice post. I had just got back from dropping our dogs off at my parents house and there was a note on my computer to check the blog. I thought maybe she was going to surprise me and tell me we won the lottery, but I quickly remembered that we don't buy tickets and anyways, seeing her post and speaking such nice things about me delivered more of a heartwarming emotion that any lottery could ever fulfill. I truly have the best wife in the world. We really enjoyed the time we spent with Kayleigh tonight, even though we were fighting back the nerves, anxiety and craziness of the surgery that is going to take place in the morning. It was so perfect because when you hold that precious little girl in your arms, a feeling of peace overcomes your body and you have no worries in the world as you soak up every second of that moment. Although, my Mom said it so perfect tonight, it is very tough to see Kayleigh so content and peaceful, just knowing she is going to be put through hell again tomorrow and for many days to come while trying to recover. It is almost cruel, but we can only trust in God that He knows exactly what He is doing with our little girl. People see us day in and day out and wonder how we can handle this situation with such strength and grace. Well, first of all we hide it very well and second of all, God is the reason. We have complete trust in Him that whatever happens, Kayleigh will be a perfect angel. An angel of ours or an angel of His. Her purpose will be so amazing, that the heavens will sing with a standing ovation whenever it is her time. We can only be selfish and pray that her 212
Kayleigh's Story purpose is not yet complete and we get to enjoy her for many many years to come. We seldom forget that our purpose, in our very short time here on earth, is to prepare for eternity in heaven. Tonight was a well needed bonding night with Kayleigh. Aimee and I were able to both feed her at two separate cares and Kayleigh was just so peaceful and relaxed the whole entire time. Almost too relaxed- HA! There is never a dull moment where a "Freeman" won't make light of a scary/crazy situation to relieve all the tension in the room. Check this out... The mood was almost perfect, like a well scripted scene from a movie. The lights were dim throughout the NICU, but a spot light seemed to shine down on Kayleigh as we had just finished giving Kayleigh her first bath. As she was laying under her warmer, Aimee was massaging Kayleigh and putting her in a deep trance of relaxation. You can see Kayleigh fighting back sleep as she didn't want to miss a second of Mommy's presence. Kayleigh would lay motionless, she would stop sucking on her paci and her eyes would slowly close. Then quickly, her eyes would open up and her paci would start bouncing back and forth again. This continued several times until all of a sudden, Kayleigh started to concentrate, as if she was trying to figure something out for the very first time. While that blank stare is frozen on her face, her paci falls out of her mouth and as Aimee went to put it back in, Kayleigh explodes!!! I am talking a raunchy, stinky blowout that everyone in the NICU could hear. And, you know what the funny part is? I caught it on film. Enjoy.... Never forget that no matter how rough or tough a situation is, a smile or a laugh can go a long way and make you feel SO much better. Thank you Kayleigh for making us laugh while we are so very scared. We hope you recover quick so you can make us laugh for a
very long time. We love you so much beautiful!
11/4/2008 2:55:00 AM
11/4/08 - 3:54am - Good Morning Good Morning. Aimee and I just got up, did our morning routine (NOS Energy Drink for me) and are packing up the rest of our things that we may need. They are intubating her around 5-5:30, so we are going to get up there to try to hold her a little before they do that. I will touch base when we get in the waiting room. Thank you all for your prayers and I will be saying a prayer with everyone at 7:30 on the dot :)
11/4/2008 7:32:00 AM
11/4/08 - 8:45am - Surgery Is Under Way!!! We just got confirmation that the surgery is under way. Aimee and I got to the hospital this morning around 4:30 and spent a good 30 minutes with Kayleigh before they intubated her. She was so alert 213
Kayleigh's Story and excited to see us. It was very pleasant until they intubated her and the mood in the room did a complete 180. Kayleigh was not liking the tube in her throat at all. Our main concern was her hypertension and we wanted to make sure she was very comfortable so she didn't have another episode like last time. Unfortunately, the medication didn't kick in good enough and she was gagging on her tube. Aimee and I were really uncomfortable and as we watched them take her down to surgery, we were a nervous wreck. We both lost it when they took her in to the OR. After we left, we met up with my Mom and ate breakfast. We are all up in the waiting room now waiting for more updates. They said they started already, so I am not sure when the next update will be. We are just trying to hold it together and be as patient as possible. Thank you all for your prayers and God Bless!!! The Freemans :)
11/4/2008 10:02:00 AM
11/4/08 - 11:05am Surgery Update A Nurse just came in and said that Kayleigh is on bypass and is doing really well. Aimee and Mom just went for another Starbucks run :) Please continue to keep the prayers coming. We are on pins and needles here trying to keep each others spirits up. We have
been reading all the emails that are coming in and it is just amazing the support we have out there. God Bless every single one of you! You are all so AWESOME!!!!
11/4/2008 11:35:00 AM
11/4/08 - 12:45pm Surgery Update We just got a call with an update. Kayleigh is off the pump, but the doctors are still working. I am not completely positive what they mean by that, but my best guess is that she is off the bypass pump. The lady with the update just relays messages, so I don't think she would know if we asked her details. If she is off the pump, then that MAY mean she is not on ECMO either. The ECMO acts as a heart/lung system, sort of like the bypass. Also, if she is off the pump, then they have already warmed the body back up to the normal temperature and started the heart back. Plus, that might mean she doesn't need a pace maker to get the heart pumping again if it can't on it's own. Please pray that is the case!!! I am not 100% positive, but hopefully we will find some more details out soon. The good news is she is doing great and we are getting closer to the end of the procedure. Please hang tight and I will try to get some more details soon. KEEP PRAYING!!!! We are getting more excited because it seems things are going 214
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11/4/2008 12:44:00 PM
11/4/08 - 1:49pm Surgery Update They're Done!!! The surgeon is going to come up to the waiting room to talk to us about everything, so I will be sure to update you as soon as he leaves. "AHHHH - We are so nervous to hear what he has to say" The Freemans :-o
11/4/2008 1:29:00 PM
11/4/08 - 3:03pm - Post Surgery Update It is with great excitement and pleasure to announce that Kayleigh's surgery went better than perfect. There is no ECMO and there is no pacemaker. Her heart started back perfectly and she is doing just fine. Her lung pressures have actually dropped a little already,
which is amazing. They did leave her chest open to allow her heart and lungs to work without any extra pressure from the swelling and constriction of her chest cavity. Her lungs are working great and she is breathing good on the vent still. They were able to control the bleeding very well, so she didn't have an issue like last time with the cath procedure (Probably because the VSD is closed now). Her urinary output is better than expected, but they said it may slow down or stop completely. They have a catheter in there in case it does and some diuretics will help also. She does have an arterial line in her leg, tubes coming out of her chest and abdomen, but she is doing great for the most part. So all in all, there is a lot of great news here and I hope I explained it well enough for right now. You will have to forgive me because it is so hard to concentrate and remember everything when all your hearing are positive information over and over again. If I missed something, I will be sure to add it later. This is to show that with prayer, ANYTHING is possible. Not to be a party pooper, but even though this surgery was a complete success, we are not out of the woods yet. This whole week, but more importantly, the next 48 hours are the most critical. Please keep praying and hope for the best with her recovery. I am just so stoked that there are no major issues, so that only means she has less on her plate to recover from. THANK YOU - THANK YOU - THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!!! We can not say it enough. With your prayers, we have been able to move mountains :) We are forever in debt to all of you for caring so much. Aimee and I are going to be able to see her soon, so I will update and educate 215
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11/4/2008 7:14:00 PM
11/4/08 - 8:45pm - CVICU
This will be our home for a little while as Kayleigh recovers. I asked the question a million times tonight and I feel like every time I asked it, I got the same truthful answer. I wanted to know if the nurses, doctors or RNs were satisfied with her prognosis right now and the answer was always yes. In fact, it was a wide eyed yes whenever I would ask. It just makes me feel comfortable to know Kayleigh is doing good, or better than expected because she looks like she got hit by a truck.
When Aimee and I walked in the room, all I could do was stay strong for her because Aimee was having a tough time. This was a really scary scene to witness. Not only was it really graphic, but it was our sweet Kayleigh. She is our precious daughter and no one should ever have to see their child so swollen and bloody with their chest cavity wide open as her heart beating a million miles an hour on the other end of a green gauze pad. Did I paint a good enough picture for you? The photos will always be a bad reminder and after long deliberation and talking with the nurses, we felt like we shouldn't post the graphic photos. Kayleigh should be remembered looking so darn cute. The ones I have added below are tough enough to look at. If you thought there were a lot of wires in the NICU, you've got another thing coming. There are three times as many monitors and three times as many bells going off. Right now since Kayleigh is doing great, we are not hearing any bells. We hope and pray to keep it that way. So far, everything I mentioned before is still the case, so I was able to relay the prognosis correctly. Aimee and I are staying really positive right now. As every hours passes, that is one less hour that she is critical. Let's continue to pray a lot that she will stay on this path to recovery and come out with flying colors. They don't expect babies to do this well, and certainly not babies Kayleigh's size. But, we are talking about Kayleigh here and she is no where near the ordinary, if you haven't learned that yet.
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Kayleigh's Story It is early, but Aimee and I are going to get some sleep. We will post as soon as we can tomorrow to let you know how her first evening was. I wish you all a wonderful day tomorrow and thank you so much for the support through such a tough day today. It gave us the strength to stay positive and God definitely heard every single one of your prayers. Thank you and God Bless!!!
they did give her a little more pain medicine in case she was in any kind of pain. The cool news is she was not desatting or having any hypertension issues when someone touches her. With the VSD being closed, it makes perfect sense that the blood flow won't shunt over to the wrong side anymore when the pressure change. The heart might work a little harder until the lung pressures comes down, but we can only pray that will happen a lot quicker than not.
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11/5/2008 9:04:00 AM
11/5/08 - 10:00am FANTASTIC!!!!! As Aimee and I were were walking in to the CVICU this morning, we walked right past the night nurse who said Kayleigh was fantastic last night!!! She was so excited to share that news with us and we quickly thanked her, but she said "NO! Thank Kayleigh." Kayleigh had an amazing evening. She has not swelled up like they thought she would and she actually looks very similar to when we left her last night. Her urinary output is still beyond perfect, so they are blown away with that. When we walked in the room, she was moving her hands around in the air and looking from side to side. I was not expecting that at all, but she seemed to be uncomfortably happy. She held our fingers and we rubbed her head. After a while,
I am actually sitting in her room right now while I type as they let us use our computers in here, which is bitter sweet! They are going to kick us out in a little while because they are planning on closing her chest back! THAT'S RIGHT!!! They feel like the swelling is not going to get any worse, so they are going to close the chest cavity breast plates and if the skin will attach also, they will close that too. If not, then that is okay and we will wait a little longer. When they close the chest, they have to monitor her for an hour to see how she reacts and if it is not good, then they will have to re-open. Anesthesia just came in so it might be happening right now. Woo hoo! Well, I better run, but I will update you all soon on some hopefully more great news.
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Pretty Pink Bow And ALL of it for that fact. As I said before, they were concerned with not being able to close the whole cavity and the skin too. But, everything went perfect and they were able to close the whole thing and she has some pretty blue sutures. They are going to monitor her progress over the next 24 hours. If things are causing a strain on her heart, they will open her back up to allow the heart to work without any type of constriction. I will try and explain to you a little bit about all the wires you see. The red wire with the heart on it goes straight in to her stomach to release any extra fluid in her tummy. Right above that, and below the main incision, there are two blue wires that go straight to the heart. Those are for the pacemaker in case that they have not had to use, but are attached in case they do. So if the heart stops 219
Kayleigh's Story beating, that will send a shock to the heart to help it beat manually. Under the white tape is a chest tube, that pulls off any extra fluid in the chest cavity around the heart. All the other wires are the normal leads that monitor heart rate and breathing compressions. She also has a IV line in her left arm, right leg and a PVC main arterial line in her thigh. Can you imagine having all that in you at once? I don't think she is going to like sewing when she grows up because she knows what a pin cushion feels like and she has been sewed back together more than enough. She is so pretty with her little pink bow on her head. I hope she doesn't mind me sharing these photos with all of you. If she beats me up for showing you all, that is okay because I don't mind taking a beating from her, just as long as she comes home :) I won't lie, there have been times where I have questioned God for putting me through this strain. But, now having gone through it and as we are "almost" done, I know that I am going to have a much better relationship with my kids and my wife because of it. We have been really close already, but we are closer now than we ever thought possible. Aimee is my everything and so are Ally and Brandon, but I am so happy that Kayleigh will get to enjoy the love they have given me. Keep the prayers coming as Kayleigh works hard to recover. So far she is doing amazing and we are so blown away by how strong she has been through all of this. I will update again later this evening.
11/5/2008 9:33:00 PM
11/5/08 - 10:54pm - Time to Work!!!
Today was the end to a great day and we are pleased to say that her first 24 hours, which are the most critical, went very smooth. Since they closed the chest earlier than expected, they are going to start making Kayleigh work for her progress now. Starting tonight, they are going to slowly wean her off of her sedation medication and allow her to start waking up. As she starts to come to, they will do a balancing act with her dial settings. They want to try to help her relax while she is coming out of sedation. The scary part is keeping her lung pressures down, which also means keeping Kayleigh calm without much stimulation. That means that Aimee and I have to keep our hands off and not talk to her as much, which is tough but we know we need to do what is best for her. If her lung pressures do rise, since she does not have the VSD (hole in her heart) anymore to level out the pressure, the heart will bare down and work extra extra hard. The hard work that is placed on the heart, if the lung pressures don't come down quick enough, can cause it to weaken and fail at a fast rate. Also, if they can't fix the pressures quick enough, they will have to open her back up :( So, it is going to be a tough day tomorrow but hopefully Kayleigh will do fine and we can get past this. We are trying to be very positive, but her lung pressures were up all day today because of her heart closing procedure, some of the medications and the fact that she was not as sedated. But, since she doesn't have any other major stimulation going on tomorrow, we hope she will do better with controlling her pressures. Please pray she will do great. All in all, today was another awesome day and she is showing signs of more improvement. I know this all sounds scary, but she is being put to the test only because she is progressing so well. We are so proud of the progress though that it just blows our mind. Several 220
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Other than that, I need some assistance from ALL of you out there. We met our two neighbors who are also in critical care right now and I would like to ask everyone to say a prayer for them. One baby is named Mattox and he has a ventricle that is not working at all. Mattox's parents have a facebook account, so go to facebook.com and search for Cary Mayes from Greenville, NC and you will see their page. Ask to be a friend and send them your thougths and prayers, please!!! You know how I want to help everyone so please do this for us. Delandis is another baby that we have met and he is having congestive heart failure. Right now he is on a pacemaker, but may be put on the list the receive a transplant if it doesn't work. I do not have a website for him, but please say a prayer. Thank you!
11/6/2008 9:55:00 AM
11/6/08 - 10:56am - So Far So Good!!! Kayleigh's progress of coming off her sedation is going very well so far. We were a little afraid this morning to find out that Kayleigh had an episode last night probably 10 minutes after we left. She had an episode with her hypertension, but now that she doesn't have that hole in her heart to control the pressures, her heart started to work three times as hard. They were able to sedate/paralyze Kayleigh to get her to relax so she can put an end to her episode. It worked!!!
Thank you all for everything and hopefully we can continue to get great news on Kayleigh's progress. I will be sure to update later as we get more news. Thank you and God Bless, The Freemans :)
After speaking with the doctor today about it, we were quite curious why this was happening and if he was concerned about it. He was NOT concerned because he thought she would be having these bouts continuously and she isn't. The doctor also mentioned that they are going to start feeding her a little through a tube and possible start taking her off some of the tubes. That is AWESOME!!! We thought we would be in the CVICU for a couple weeks and the doctors mentioned that if things continue to progress, we could be back up in the NICU in a few days. WOW!!! That would be awesome progress right there.
11/6/2008 5:09:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story weaning her off some of the medications that she is on. Her level of sedation medication is down and they are taking her off of her blood pressure medicine all together to see how she reacts to that. They dropped her nitric oxide from 15 to 5 today. They now are going to slowly drop it the rest of the way. She will go down to 1 either tonight or tomorrow, but I heard tonight might not happen because the heart surgeon is not on call if there is a bad reaction. I am not going to argue with that :) They are planning on removing a tube that is pinched off right now anyways. It is the tube that is running in to her stomach to pull off any extra fluid. We are very pleased with her progress so far and we hope she keeps it up. Thank you all so much for praying for our CVICU neighbors. If you couldn't find their link by searching, here is a direct link to their facebook page: Baby Mattox
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Kayleigh's Story This is yet another awesome photo from some very special people in our lives sporting their Kayleigh bracelets. This is (from left to right) Emily, Bob, Joyce and Bill. Bob is my Uncle and my Dad's brother, and Joyce is my Aunt. Bill and Emily are long time friends of theirs, who have always been family to us all. They are all the way over on the west coast and we miss them tons!!! Thank you so much for the love and support that you have given us through this very tough time. You are the true meaning of family :) We love you! God Bless, The Freemans :)
heard all the prayers out there and we can't thank you enough for the blessings you have given us. ***On a very sad note, one of our friends Rachel and Ryan, who we met along the way, lost their baby girl Hannah (Hannah's Story) this morning. We don't have any update on how or why, but please pray for their family. Rachel & Ryan unfortunately ALSO lost their preemie, Carly (Carly's Story) not too long ago, when she was 4 months old due to a heart defect. Carly is one of "Our Angel's" here on Kayleigh's site. She was in the same NICU as Kayleigh a few months before we arrived. God has certainly tested this family & they need a lot of support to get through this tough time. Thank you so much.
11/7/2008 11:58:00 AM
11/7/08 - 2:05pm - Quick Update Kayleigh is still doing great and has not had any setbacks. As a matter of fact, they have taken her off the epinaphrine (blood pressure medicine), weaned her off her sedation medicine almost completely, increased her feeds to 12 mls every three hours, and they are thinking about extubating her later this afternoon if the chest x-rays look good. They have some chest PT to do which is to help loosen up her lungs to prepare her for extubation. Hopefully it will all go smooth and she will continue to shock us with her unbelievably progression. We are just amazed at how well she is doing and I don't mind it one single bit :) God, You have certainly 223
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11/7/08 - 9:58 - Slow Down... I think I jinxed Kayleigh a little bit tonight. Aimee and I went down to get a bite to eat and I called my Dad to give him an update. Everything was perfect at that point and they were talking about extubating her in the morning, rather than tonight to allow her lungs to open up a little more. The sacs close over time if there is not enough pressure to keep them open, so they need a little exercise from a little device that taps her chest to loosen up those sacs. They call it chest PT.
This is Helaina. She is a special little girl who has been praying for Kayleigh to get better. She has even been praying with her 5 month old sister, which we are so happy to hear that she is setting an awesome example. Helaina is going to be a wonderful big sister. Helaina, Thank you so much for caring about our little girl so much and Sarah, your family is amazing. We thank you so much for your support through all of this and we pray that God will bless your family with much happiness and joy! God Bless, The Freemans :)
Anyhow, as soon as I get back to the room, not even five minutes before we got there, she had another pulmonary hypertension bout. Her lung pressure shoots sky high and she turns purple, then her blood pressure will shoot through the roof trying to compensate for it and if it is not taken control of, her heart will fail. Also, with her blood pressure up, it could bust through her sutures or the arterial line causing major bleeding. So, they paralyzed her, gave her some sedation to relax her whole body, and increased her nitric and oxygen to get her back to normal. It doesn't take long to correct, but they have to act fast. The doctors main goal right now is to push her to a point where Kayleighs says "Back Off and Slow Down." Being that she had her bout tonight, she was saying just that. Kayleigh will likely be extubated in the morning and they will take a step back with some 224
Kayleigh's Story of the weaning and try again soon. No matter what, they are completely satisfied that Kayleigh has only had two hypertension bouts since her surgery. They expected her to have them continuously, so I am stoked to hear that. The thumbs are still pointing up with her condition, so there is nothing at all to worry about. Way to go Kayleigh!!!
The photo above is from the Nadeau family in Louisiana, sporting their LSU pride! They have been so WONDERFUL to Aimee and I during Kayleigh's journey. Kayleigh has a beautiful and fun looking bouncy seat that we CAN'T WAIT for her to get in. Soon though, soon! We appreciate your support so much and we are so grateful that you have shared our journey with so many other people and gathered all of them to pray for us. It has helped so much! You all are forever in our hearts. God Bless!
These two amazing children are Aliyah and Owen. They are Lee and Kirsty Freeman's beautiful children. They live all the way out in Canton Michigan and have been following and praying for Kayleigh from the very beginning. It is a blessing to have such wonderful family members from all over the place who still keep in contact, no matter where they are. Lee is my cousin and one of these days, I wish to make a trip out there for a good ole fashion baseball game. His team plays ball in these early 1900 uniforms, which are unbelievably sweet looking. We love you guys! I wish you all the best and we miss you tons! God Bless, The Freemans :)
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Kayleigh's Story 11/8/2008 8:21:00 AM
11/8/08 - 10:23 - New Sign + New Order + New Project
Aimee and I were given arts and crafts to design a new sign for Kayleigh's bed. Since the other sign with all of our photos on it is at home, we figured we needed to do a whole new one for the CVICU. Aimee made this sign so perfect, by adding the heart :) The order is to extubate Kayleigh between 1-3 today. WHAT??? That is what I said when I heard it. I figured with the hypertension bout last night, they would give her another day to relax, but the doctor felt like the whole reason she is irritated and having those bouts, are because of that big breathing tube in her throat. Plus, the longer she is on the vent, the less Kayleigh can use her lungs to full potential, causing more problems down the road. Besides that, Kayleigh is doing good. She had a great night last night and has been alert this morning. We were surprised to see her sats 226
Kayleigh's Story as low and steady as they were with her being so awake. Normally she would get irritated easily and her sats would shoot through the roof. That is a good sign!!! WOWOWOW---Aimee and I are just sitting here. She is online and I am writing the blog, and our surgeon just pulled her chest tube and her pace maker wires out. Woo hoo! I didn't realize that is what they were doing. WOW, YES!!!! It was actually kind of gross and exciting at the same time. All I saw was our surgeon walking past me to the trashcan with her bloody yucky tube in his hand. Man, I am excited! We are making progress!!! OKAY - MY NEW PROJECT - You all know me well and I want nothing more than to make people feel wonderful about the things they do. Aimee and I were discussing the proper way to do this without making anyone single person feel left out. So, I wanted to write a general email to all the people who have helped Kayleigh along the way here. That means, I need to write to the: Neonantologists, Gastrointestinal Doctors, Ophthalmologists, Cardiologists, NICU Nurses, NPCN Nurses, CVICU Nurses and the OB-Gyn Doctors and Nurses.
impact. I think this will be such a great thing to do and it will show these caretakers that they have impacted so many people by doing a WONDERFUL job for Kayleigh. Please take no more than five minutes (Right Now) and write your quick letter in the comment section below. You can title it as "Dear Kayleigh's Caretaker"
11/8/2008 5:15:00 PM
11/8/08 - 6:53 - The Vent is Gone!!!
So THEN, I thought something that would be even much much better and that is to have everyone (INCLUDING YOU!!!), write something nice to all of them at once. It doesn't have to be very long at all! My vision is to copy and paste hundreds of small letters from people ALL over the place, thanking every singe one of them for their help with sweet Kayleigh. You need to add where you are from so they will see how much their help has touched so many lives around the world. PLEASE, I don't beg, but I am begging ALL of you to write something. (Even if it is a few lines). You don't have to include your name, so you can be totally anonymous if you want, but you DO have to write where you are from to really make a big 227
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Let's just hope and pray that it stays off too! Aimee and I were talking that this could very well be the last time she ever has to see the vent again. The more and more progression that she makes, the brighter the light is at the end of the tunnel. We are so blessed to have such great care here in the CVICU. They have made us feel so comfortable and whenever we have a question, they take the time to go in to details to educate us. Kayleigh has certainly enjoyed being off the vent today that her sats are looking so wonderful. Because her VSD has been repaired, it seems like her recovery time has tremendously improved. Going in to this whole open heart surgery procedure had us scared to death about how Kayleigh would be able to recover from it. She has done better with this surgery than any others she has had and I bet it is due to that hole being closed in her heart. We were told that she should take off full steam ahead now that this heart defect has 228
Kayleigh's Story been repaired. Aimee and I kind of got to hold Kayleigh today for a short period of time. I say kind of, because we basically just picked her up in her bed and held her there. She was so calm and relaxed, which was so surprising considering she would almost have one of her hypertension spells when her skin was touched. I guarantee it had something to do with the vent and not being on sedation medication anymore. The best news we heard all day is that if Kayleigh continues to show great signs, they are weaning her off several things tomorrow and she may go back up to the NICU in the next couple days. How awesome would that be??? Woo Hoo! Thank you SO MUCH everyone who sent in emails for Kayleigh's caretakers, and if you haven't yet, you better get on it :) Read the last post to see what project I am talking about. I am just in awe of all the wonderful emails/comments posted already. This is truly a blessing and I can't wait to put it all together and give it to them. Thank you all tons and tons!!!
This is cutie pie Connor, and he is only 10 weeks old. He sent me a cute email today about how he and his Mommy & Daddy (Chris & Michelle) have all been praying for Kayleigh from the beginning when we first posted on the Baby Center (September Board) asking for prayers. Well, Connor wasn't born yet, but he was in Mommy praying for Kayleigh the whole time :) He is adorable and we are blessed to share Connor, who is also a preemie, to everyone out there. God Bless you all and thank you so much for your prayers. You have definitely made a difference in our lives and we appreciate the support. Thank you Chris, Michelle and little Connor!!!God Bless, The Freemans :) 229
Kayleigh's Story 11/9/2008 7:50:00 AM
11/9/08 - 9:00 "GOOOODMORNING"
So that means they will take that out soon if it doesn't back up. I will be so happy when all of these tubes and wires are out of me. I have some really cool news. I overheard my Daddy asking the heart surgeon what the smallest baby he had ever done open heart surgery on and the surgeon said... ME!!!! Can you believe that??? I am glad Mommy and Daddy didn't know that before I had surgery or they would have really flipped a biscuit!!! Well, I better get back to sleep before the Doc yells at me. Here's Adam...Bye - Kayleigh:)" Aimee and I are about to go for a walk down to the park to enjoy the nice weather we are having. Thank you all for the wonderful emails that are coming in. I appreciate it so very much!!! If you haven't done one yet, look back at the "Sign + New Order + New Project" post. It is truly awesome to sit there and read everything everyone said. We are truly blessed to have every one of you! God Bless, The Freemans :)
11/9/2008 8:39:00 PM
At Loss For Words... "GOOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!!! I am feeling so great this morning. They took that thing off my forehead that tells everyone how much oxygen my brain is getting. They are also taking me off more of the medicine that I have been on because I don't hurt as much and my blood pressure is much better. They clamped one of my tummy (PD) drains because it is not pulling out anymore fluid.
As we heard about Rachel & Ryan, Hannah and Carly's parents, going through their tough time. I have gotten an update that I felt needed to be shared with everyone tonight. Hey guys. This is Rachel's sister in law. I just wanted to update you a bit. I'm not sure when Rachel will be able to do it. She was at our 230
Kayleigh's Story house Wed. and Thurs here in Fayetteville, and everything was fine. She had a drs appt Wed. morning, and Hannah's heartbeat was great. Thurs night, she stopped feeling Hannah move. She drank coffee and laid down, and still felt nothing, so she went to the hospital in Albemarle. They tried for 2 hours to find her heartbeat, but couldn't, and the OB later came in to do an ultrasound to confirm. Hannah was born Friday morning at 9:05, weighing in at 2lbs 15 ozs. She was beautiful with a head full of black hair. An autopsy was preformed, but we won't get the results back for a while. Rachel's having very serious complications from the c-section. She is running a high fever, and was bleeding very badly. Her iron was very low, so they started her on iron and antibiotics. The Dr came in today and told her what was going on with her. He said that the placenta was attached to the uterine scar tissue from the first c-section. That was why the cord wasn't delivering what it needed to to Hannah. He also was not able to take it all out due to some large blood veins around it. Now, she is looking at possibly having to go through a DNC (is that right?) and also possibly a full hysterectomy. I PRAY that that doesn't happen, because, obviously, that would mean no children. The OB said that he doesn't recommend any future pregnancies anyway, due to the risk involved for her and the baby. He is planning on sending her to Chapel Hill to see a specialist.
difficult time. Hannah's blog is: Hannah's Story - Please leave your condolences on her blog, so she will return to an overwhelming response of thoughts and prayers. I will touch base in the morning with our update, but please give support to Rachel and Ryan as they gave us so much support with Kayleigh.
11/10/2008 7:47:00 AM
11/10/08 - 10:37 - Mov'n On Up!!!
We need serious prayer warriors on her behalf. Hannah Kathleen's funeral is set for Thurs. It will be graveside, with immediate family only. She'll be buried with her angel sister. :) Thank you for your concern and your prayers during this extremely difficult time. The good news is, Rachel and Ryan have strong faith, and they are trusting in God for the future. keep in touch. Everyone, please pray for Rachel and Ryan as they go through this 231
Kayleigh's Story To the NICU that is. ONLY if Kayleigh's day goes as perfect as possible. They have pulled the stomach line (PD) and they plan to pull her catheter later today. We are actually about to feed her a bottle and see how she does with that. So last night and today have been going good so far. We had troubles yesterday afternoon with her belly blowing up, so they stopped her feeds completely and "thought she was hang withdrawals" from the pain medicine. Although when she was upstairs recovering from the cath, believe it or not, she was on more pain medicine and we knew just knew her belly blew up because of the amount of oxygen flow she was on. So, the Nurse Practitioner ordered for Methadone so Kayleigh could be weaned off the pain meds that she was "Having Withdrawals" from. Aimee felt deep inside there was something wrong with doing that and by now, we know when to listen to Aimee's gut feeling. In the end...The irritability that Kayleigh was having WAS from the air in the tummy, so we dropped her oxygen flow down from 8 liters to 3 liters, which corrected that problem and when our main doctor/surgeon came through late last night, he cancelled the order for Methadone because it is very harmful for little ones the size of Kayleigh. Go figure!!! So needless to say, the NP who said he has had 16 years of experience and 5 more in the CVICU and to trust his judgement on using Methadone, well his status just went in the crapper. The great news is Kayleigh wasn't harmed at all. Anyhow, everything else is moving right along and we hoped to be out by tomorrow afternoon and up to the NICU or NPCN. We are going up to speak with one of our Neonantologist today and see what his thoughts are. Another thing that has popped up is that Kayleigh was tested positive for MRSA a week after she was born and was moved to the MRSA section of the NICU. Well, the rules up there are that if you once tested positive for MRSA, she'll always stay in MRSA section. But, down here, she tested negative twice for MRSA so we are 232
Kayleigh's Story curious if she will have to go to that section when we go back up. I would hate for her to have to go back to MRSA and contract it since she doesn't have it now. All I have to say about this next photos is, ADORABLE! This is Kylie and she has made Kayleigh a sign. That is just too cute!
11/10/2008 8:15:00 PM
11/10/08 - Last Night in the CVICU!!! Kayleigh has been a big girl today as she has been on max feeds and eating very well from her bottles. She has come down to 2 liters on her oxygen flow and they will change her in the morning from a high flow cannula to the regular flow cannula. That is the one Kayleigh can come home to. She is also coming off the last of her medications, so that is a huge plus. It was cool to see more and more of those wires, tubes and IV lines disappear today. Each time I had to change her diaper (which was a lot), there were less objects that got in the way. 233
Kayleigh's Story Since Kayleigh is on full feeds, low flow, and no medication, she is in the same position she was when she was in progressive care (NPCN). So, Aimee and I are working our mojo to see if she can skip going back to the NICU and go straight over to NPCN. Wouldn't that be nice? Our take on it is if she is over there, she is closer to coming home :) We don't want to rush things, but we don't want to stick around if we don't have to either. You don't know how DONE we are with hospital life. We are ready to start taking photos of her in our house, in our car, in her crib, in her stroller, in her EVERYTHING!!! HA :) I first want to apologize before I tell you all this. A wonderful person made us a video that you can see on YouTube.com called "Meet Kayleigh" and I am so grateful for her doing that. With that being said, Aimee and I decided to make one too because you can't have too many videos of your children, right? And, we wanted to do it slightly different with a storyline of her ups and downs. So I don't want to make that person feel bad that we did one too, as we are VERY appreciative of it. I look forward to completing this one with photos of Kayleigh coming home. Grab a tissue because we ALL cried like babies when we watched it. I hope you like it too: Kayleigh's Story
I am just amazed by all the people out there who have been praying for Kayleigh. I think it is the cutest thing to get emails from people who say their children are praying for Kayleigh before they go to bed. This photo is so touching to see little George and Sidney praying for Kayleigh. (Sidney's just not crossing her hands) ha! Thank you guys so much for your prayers and from the progress that Kayleigh has been making, we ALL know that God heard those prayers.
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11/11/08 - GREAT DAY & GREAT NEWS!!!
We are just blown away from the sweet photos that we have gotten from all of Kayleigh's friends. This photo above is a 25 weeker named Story giving Kayleigh a "virtual hug". When this popped up on our computer screen, all you could hear was "Awwwwww" and we showed all the nurses and that is the same response all up and down the CVICU today. This is just too adorable! Thank you so much Story for the virtual hug sweetheart! You are awesome!!! Let's all pray that Kayleigh will make it through this next week with flying colors, so we can start to celebrate her miraculous homecoming!!! HOW AWESOME THAT IS GOING TO BE!!!!!God Bless, The Freemans :)
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Kayleigh's Story Other GREAT NEWS!!! Our biggest concerns besides Kayleigh being strong enough for her to survive the open heart surgery because it is so invasive for such a tiny little girl, was her "reactive" pressures dropping over time. I am so happy to announce that the pressures have DROPPED tremendously from where they were which will not cause the heart to over work and possibly fail due to the stress placed upon it. This will also not cause her Pulmonary Hypertension to be "Fixed" at a higher level, causing Kayleigh to go in to those hypertensive bouts like before. This is amazing news and ALL of our hopes and prayers have been answered!!! THANK YOU GOD!!!!!
and all better. Today has been such a great day!!! Kayleigh was moved back up to the NICU this morning as we thought she would, so Aimee and I had to move out of the hospital and back home. Although it is good to be home again, the only bad part is that it limits my ability to post more than once in a day. So, forgive me for cutting it back to one again. I normally post late at night so everyone will wake up to a new update. Anyhow, Kayleigh is now back in the NICU an we were actually hoping that she would be good enough to go straight to Progressive Care, but since the neonantologists have not seen Kayleigh in a week, they wanted to keep an eye on her for a day, before they make that decision. As the day progressed, they did decide that she is good enough to go over, so we should be packing our things and moving over the NPCN tomorrow. Woo Hoo!!
Beyond that, the doctor told us today that if Kayleigh's progress continues, then we would be looking at a week or two before she would be able to COME HOME. When Aimee and I heard that, we both about jumped right out of our skin. So, even though the doctor said the possibility of two weeks, we blocked that out and just heard ONE WEEK. I can't even put in to words how excited I am to hear that this long stressful journey could be over in a week or so, and we could have our sweet Kayleigh home with us for good. No Wires, no alarms, no isolette, no nurses, no doctors, no surgeries, no feeding schedules, no cramped spaces, no "only two people at a time," no more driving back and forth, no more hospital food, no more calling for check ups, no more going to bed worried sick, no more...well...much less stressful days :), no more thinking that our girl may not make it through this hurdle, etc... There is so much to look forward to and the list can go on and on if I want it to. Let's just hope and pray over this next week that Kayleigh will continue to move in the right direction so she can finally come home with us. I normally ask for prayers for her to grow, or make it
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Thank you so much Micah and Caleb for sporting your Kayleigh bracelets. I can't wait to get all the photos in so we can add them to the scrap book that Aimee is going to make. With all the people who bought bracelets, we have been able to purchase some really cool templates for each page of the scrap book. Kayleigh is going to love it!!! Thank you all for your support and let's make this a wonderful week!!! God Bless, The Freemans :)
11/12/2008 8:11:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story on .2 liters of flow and at 100% which is what she can go home on. She is also finishing all her bottles like a champ and not having and saturation issues at all. All we have to do is keep this up and she will be home in no time. But....We need to keep an eye on her weight. Right now she weighs 1570 grams which is 3 lbs - 6.6 ounces. They have started to fortify her milk again which if taken by a bottle, she has no problems digesting like she did a while back. She is also on Lasix which could be a reason she has not been growing like she should lately. She did have a very invasive surgery, so weight loss is expected as they are trying to refrain from any fluid building up. They are weaning her off the Lasix slowly, so we should start to see a turn around in her weight very soon. I don't think that would hold her up from coming home, except in case she doesn't pass the car seat test for being too small. Someone emailed me today about some car seat requirements, which we are definitely taking in to consideration. Well, as we leave the NICU and never look back, there are a lot of memories that will always remain in our lives, but NONE of them will be missed.
You see, when we make our 24 minute drive everyday, Aimee and I will always remember those days where the drive was completely silent. The days where we weren't sure if it would be our final trip to see Kayleigh alive as she battled for her life. This is the drive that we would take over 200 times in the past 5 months. There were the days where traffic couldn't move fast enough to allow us to get there quicker. We jammed to Wade Joye's/Elevation Church (We Are Alive) CD and practically memorized every song on there. Most of the time, this drive was not too bad and will always bring back memories, but it is a drive that won't be missed.
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As we show up to our parking deck, at the same spot where we would enter with hopes of good news and often leave with bad. You never knew what mood or feelings you will have when you leave, but as time went by, leaving Kayleigh would leave you feeling numb inside no matter what. Time after time we would enter this road often traveled by others, who probably felt just as numb as us and who would possibly be making their last exit, from/with the ones they love. It is a tunnel of joy or heartbreak as I call it. No matter what, this parking deck has it's stories. We loved parking in this deck as it was much more convenient than all the other parking decks, but it won't be missed.
Our favorite parking spot was the closest to the door, whether it was on level three, four or five. Most days we were lucky to get this spot, but we knew God was saving it for us as all the other spots were full. It didn't make sense, but we didn't question Him. It is amazing how the little things that would make a day better or less stressful. We love this spot, but it won't be missed.
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Without question, this was the best cross walk in the hospital because it led to the Starbucks ;) We love Starbucks and are so glad they are practically in every shopping center around, because this one won't be missed.
After a month of learning the confusing hallways through the hospital, we found the elevators that led us right outside the entrance doors to the NICU. They could tell you about the days we impatiently traveled them when we couldn't wait to see Kayleigh after passing a certain milestone. Such as the first time Kayleigh was off the CPAP in two weeks where we could see her beautiful little face without any obstructions. These elevators were for the most part quicker than other elevators and they seemed to make it to the 7th floor without stopping. Even though these elevators made another thing about our days less stressful, they too won't be missed.
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Entering the NICU for the first time to see Kayleigh will never leave our minds. With wide eyes and a fear of not knowing what we were stumbling in on, nurses would direct us where to go and what to do. Walking up to Kayleigh's isolette to see her tiny hands reaching out in space to latch on to the first thing that touched them was a moment we will never forget. Over time, this entrance would be fun as we would make faces in the camera before the front desk attendant would open the doors, laughing with others in the background about how silly we were. May we laugh a thousand times, but this front entrance to the NICU will never be missed.
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As we washed our hands before every visit, to washing them at home, or anywhere else will bring back the memories of washing them in this sink. These sinks have permanently scarred us for life. "Lather up, sing your alphabets twice or for two minutes and get some alcohol on the way out" are the words you read on a note right in front of your face. Every time I hear pipes rattle, I will think of the sink on the left. A day wouldn't go by where I would forget to tie the back of Aimee's gown, but reminded quickly with a deep clearing of her throat. These sinks will never be missed.
The hallways are filled with memories of those who resided before us. A photograph of the parents and their preemie(s). Some were in the NICU for weeks and some for months, but as I see them everyday, I am reminded of the time I told the not so positive neonantologist that Kayleigh will be on that wall someday. Even though he doubted me while saying she needed to get here first, I knew Kayleigh would leave that NICU one day and never be forgotten...No matter if she was on that wall or not. These walls will never be forgotten and they will also...never be missed. This NICU was filled with many memories from the day Kayleigh was born, where she battled all of her ups and downs, and to this day as she leaves the NICU for her final time. We would not have wanted anyone to care for Kayleigh other than the doctors and nurses within these walls, and as this place will never be forgotten, it will never, EVER be missed. God Bless, The Freemans :) 242
Kayleigh's Story 11/13/2008 10:26:00 PM
11/13/08 - GRAB YOUR BUTTON!!!
One of Kayleigh's awesome friends had a button made for our blog and for ALL of yours! So please copy the html on the toolbar (Over to the right) and add it to your site! If anyone else has a button, let me know and I will add it to our blog. THANK YOU!!!
Kayleigh is having a blast over at NPCN. Look at that new bed!!!! No more isolette or warmers!!! She is holding her temperature very well too! She and one other little girl are hanging out in their own section, so that definitely makes things a lot more quiet than what we were dealing with over in the NICU. This will give Kayleigh much better sleep throughout the day as there are less bells chiming in her ear and less commotion going on from all the scrambling nurses. They have decided to wean her Lasix down to one dose a day instead of two now. I am glad to see they are weaning off the Lasix because Kayleigh's weight has been dwindling. Although, today she has had a good increase. She weighed in tonight at 3 pounds - 8.5 ounces, so it looks like she is getting some of that lost fluid back. Since Kayleigh's blood/lung pressures were high, they administer Viagra to help her pulmonary hypertension by keeping all the blood vessels in her lungs open. So, if her blood pressure is below a mean 243
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that while Aimee and I are going through our daily routine of life, other families are praying, crying, laughing and rejoicing in Kayleigh's story. I am so blessed to hear stories of people who have been touched by Kayleigh. My whole goal of writing this blog was to be a man of God, do His will and touch the lives of as many people as possible. With all the responses and stories, I am blessed to see how many lives we've touched together.
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Kayleigh's Story 11/14/2008 10:01:00 PM
11/14/08 - Off Limits :)
Parker is a preemie & one of Kayleigh's friends that we met online way back near the beginning of our NICU days. This family has been there for us to communicate to when the days were tough and we needed someone to talk or vent to. We are so happy to see Parker made it home safe and is enjoying his family. This is such a beautiful family and we appreciate everything they have done for us. We wish you the best! Please say a prayer tonight for our friends that we met down in the CVICU (Meredith & Cary). Their son, Mattox had some major struggles and was taken off his breathing support to go home with the Lord. Meredith and Cary are two very wonderful people and we wish them the best. It is times like these that we just have to trust in God that He knows what is best and to give all of our struggles to Him as He will take care of us. We will always remember you guys and we pray that your future be filled with many blessings. God Bless, The Freemans :) 245
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Okay Kayleigh admirers!!! Kayleigh is off limits. Ha-ha :) Aimee and I received a cute email today from a Kayleigh admirer who has been checking on Kayleigh every morning after his morning breakfast. His name is Colin and he is 3 months old. This is what we learned about Colin today: "Colin enjoys long, warm baths, deep conversations with his mobiles, sitting up and taking in the world, wearing designer clothing (AKA Pampers), and eating at his mommy's restaurant." I nearly peed my pants today when Aimee read it to me and I just had to share it with you all. Below are some photos of Colin checking out his crush. Sorry Colin, you are a stud, but you are going to have to get through me first :)
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Kayleigh is having another great day over at NPCN. She hasn't been eating her bottles today like we would like to see, but she is gaining some weight back quickly. She weighed in tonight at 3 pounds - 10 ounces. She is just taking off right now and I hope that rapid growth continues. She is still a little peanut though. I don't want her to get bigger :) They have not taken her completely off the Lasix yet, but they plan to over the next couple of days. The cardiologists came in today and look at her and they are very happy with her prognosis right now. They did an echocardiogram and confirmed that the pressures have come down, but they still have a little ways to go, so they are going to keep her on Viagra for a little while. She can come home on the viagra, so that won't hold her up. Other than that, they feel she is looking great and she should be ready to go home next week. They plan to take her sutures out and her last tummy tube out next week 247
Kayleigh's Story sometime. Since Kayleigh was on her triple mix fluids (IV Nutrients) for quite sometime through this journey, it caused Kayleigh bilirubin numbers to be off (jaundice) and they are giving her some medicine (Actigall) for her liver functions. They don't see anything wrong with her liver, but they give it to most children for safety precautions. They are doing a CBC (blood culture) on Monday just to check and make sure things look good there. We asked our doctor when he thinks she could go home and he didn't want us to get upset if we get pushed back a day or two, but he is thinking at the end of next week. WOO HOO!!!! So we have scheduled to do CPR class on Monday and we will bring our seat in for the car seat test sometime next week. Aimee and I had a frightening experience. The other night, Aimee got really tired and laid on the couch and within an hour, her temperature went from 97 to almost 103. She wasn't cold, but she was shaking and her teeth were chattering. She was nauseous and she started to get a headache so that is when we decided to go to the emergency room. But, two hours later before we ever got to see someone, her temperature broke and she was normal again. We decided to just head on home and not wait a couple more hours if she was feeling fine. Aimee called her Doctor the next morning and we found out that Aimee has a case of Mastitis. Aimee knew one of her breast has been causing her major pain, but didn't put two and two together. Not to get all detailed, but one of her nipples have taken a beating from all the pumping she has been doing. We found out that this was brought on by irregular sleep, irregular diet and irregular pumping schedule. All of that was happening while we were sleeping at the hospital last week while Kayleigh was in for surgery. She is on antibiotics to help, but she has to pump through the pain right now. Can I tell you how awesome my wife is for all the hard work she is doing for Kayleigh. It took her almost of month straight of pumping
to even get milk and now that she is getting it often, she is tearing her body up to make sure our daughter gets what she needs. That is was you call a "Hero" I love you and I am so proud of you sweetheart! Tomorrow is the big day!!! We are having our baby shower and we are expecting a great turn out. I actually have to get going here in a minute and go clean some more. Can you tell that I posted a little longer tonight than usual? (jk Aimee) I already cleaned the bathrooms and that job is never fun! Was I that dirty when I was 7 and 9 years old? Anywho, we are so excited to open up all the gifts that were sent by all of Kayleigh's friends and celebrate her soon to be homecoming. Thank you all so much!!! It is going to be a little different than a normal baby shower though as we can't play all the normal baby shower games. Aimee doesn't want anyone guessing how big her tummy is. It is really cool though, we are having minieverything! All the food is going to be mini, such as meatballs, pizza rolls, etc... We are really looking forward to it and I will be sure to take a bunch of photos. I wish everyone a wonderful weekend and please keep Kayleigh in your prayers as she makes it down the home stretch. Not too much longer to go and we can all jump for joy! God Bless! The Freemans :)
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11/16/08 - Baby Shower The baby shower was a blast!!!! We had many friends and family come by to celebrate Kayleigh and we couldn't ask for a better party. All I have to say is that Kayleigh got spoiled! She got so many great gifts that we can't wait to either dress her in the clothes she got or play with her and her new toys. And...we are completely stocked up on Desitin in case Kayleigh ever gets diaper rash. HA :) Aimee and I were so overwhelmed for all of our friends and family, and for all the people who have mailed Kayleigh gifts that only know us from this blog. That is just so amazing and we are THANKFUL for everyone! God has certainly blessed Aimee and I with an amazing amount of people who care so much for our precious little girl. We are just blown away by the generosity. We completely forgot about taking tons of photos because we were so busy chatting with everyone, but here are a few that we did take:
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Okay, now for Kayleigh's update. She is doing awesome! They figured out what was going on with her feedings and why she didn't seem interested in her bottle at some of her feeds. We thought maybe she was just too tired or didn't like the taste of the foritifer, but a nurse realized she was having troubles when she is swallowing the milk. The tube from the vent must have rubbed her throat raw which was causing Kayleigh to hurt a little while swallowing. They gave her some medicine to fix that problem and she is now downing every bottle with no problem at all. 250
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11/17/08 - Getting Closer!!! With CPR complete, we are just one more step closer to coming home. We really hope we are not going to have to use CPR on Kayleigh because with her recent surgery, her breast plate/sternum has already been cracked open. I know we will do what we have to do, but there is a huge risk of breaking that breast plate/sternum when giving compressions, even if it were in perfect shape. That is a scary thing to think about. She also had her follow up eye exam today and everything looks perfect. Our next follow up is not for another 4 months, so that must mean her eyes look really good! Other than that, nothing else is new and nothing else is wrong. That is awesome news and we are moving right along!!! Aimee and I have our CPR class tomorrow, so that is going to be fun. We are looking forward to it, but we pray we won't have to use it :) Thank you again everyone for coming to the shower and for those who sent us gifts. One major thing we have learned from this experience is that being a support system for anyone, no matter if you know them personally or not, it makes that person feel so amazing. No matter what, we will continue to reach out and be a shoulder to cry on or a celebrating fan for everyone we come in to contact with that needs it. It touches our hearts so deep and we are so blessed to have every single one of you pulling for Kayleigh and
Speaking of her recent surgery, Kayleigh's sutures and her final tummy tube have been removed. There are no more lines that are inserted in Kayleigh except for her nasal cannula, which is fine by us!!! Actually, her liters of flow have been dropped to .1 and she will be going home with her oxygen on that setting. I am not sure what will need to happen for her to be taken off of the oxygen completely, but I am sure her lung pressures will have to come down to a very safe level. They have increased Kayleigh's caloric intake from 24 to 27, so they can try and put a little more weight on her before she goes home. Tonight, she actually lost a little weight which is odd. She has been gaining a lot lately, so we will see what tomorrow nights weight is before we worry too much. When we get home, we will have to supplement a couple feedings a day with fortified bottles along with Aimee breast feeding her at other times. This will not only 251
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11/19/08 - Superstition or Coincidence? Every time...Every-SINGLE-time we go to do something for Kayleigh at Babies-R-US, something bad happens and whenever something bad happens, we end up finding ourselves eating at Steak-N-Shake. When we first found out the news Kayleigh was growing behind and things weren't looking too good, we ate at Steak-N-Shake. When we found out Kayleigh had a seriously progressing retinopathy issue and she could possibly go blind, we ate at SteakN-Shake. When we first started to register at Babies-R-Us, Kayleigh's bowels weren't moving correctly and the docs made the decision to do the gastrointestinal exploratory surgery. It also happened when we completed the registry before Kayleigh had the bad reaction to the cardiac cath procedure. Well tonight, Aimee and I stopped by Babies-R-Us to get a pad for our awesome changing table (Thank you Aunt Kathy and Uncle Brian!!!) and a couple other things. We then went up to spend some time with Kayleigh only to find out that her stitches weren't taken out last night, her CVL line that is in her tummy wasn't taken out either, she didn't get the echocardiogram like she was supposed to today, her hemoglobin is somewhat low and may need another transfusion, and finally she was not interested in her bottle
much more today than normal which required them to gavage the rest through her tube. All the above are not good signs right before we are planning to come home. So needless to say, we left and went to eat at Steak-N-Shake. We spoke to the nurse practitioner, but really didn't get any answers as to what in the world is going on. All we could pan out from this whole situation is that Kayleigh's body is learning to work with her newly improved heart. I mean, you can't race a car with a brand new engine because you have to break it in first or it will cause more damage. We are just not sure why she is struggling with her feedings because she was taking more of her bottle just after surgery than she is right now. The good thing is, she is gaining some good weight, but she can't come home if she doesn't eat from a bottle (She weighed 3lb - 12 oz tonight) They could put a line in to her stomach and we could feed her through that if she doesn't bottle feed, but we don't want to have to do that at all. We would rather her stay in the hospital longer and fix the issue at hand. But, like I said, we don't have answers yet and hopefully they will figure it out soon. One thing I noticed tonight that just stuck out to me for some odd reason was her breathing. When she was at complete rest, she would breath deep and hard for a few breathes before relaxing again. This would happen ever so often, but at times she was not working hard. It may be nothing, but my gut told me something and we all have learned to listen to your gut so I made sure I spoke up to the nurse practitioner and I will do the same to the doctors tomorrow. Let's just hope and pray this is nothing big so we can fix the problem and still plan on our glorious homecoming this week. Aimee and I promise to NEVER buy anything else from Babies-R-Us 253
Kayleigh's Story until she comes home. Also, we plan to get back on our training regimen when Kayleigh comes home, so we can forget about SteakN-Shake for a while as well. Aimee wanted me to thank EVERYONE for the responses she got from last nights post. She apologizes for not being able to respond to everyone as she got well over 60+ emails, which she spent reading every single one of those all morning about tips on what to do for her situation. Aimee has spoken to a lactation consultant before and they gave her the larger flanges. She got some Lansinoh and even started to use her own breast milk as a healing agent too. Aimee also mentioned she is pumping on the lowest setting on her Medela pump, which was questioned by several people. She appreciates everyone tremendously and with all the ideas, we are sure this problem will be fixed. Hopefully it is just sooner than later because her poor boobies don't feel good at all :( Thank you all so much! Please pray that things will clear up with Kayleigh so we can continue to plan on a unbelievable homecoming very soon. Whether it be this week or next, we just want Kayleigh to get on the right track and stay healthy for many many years to come. I did have a talk with Kayleigh tonight and told her to cut this funny business out and it's time to come home. We are all tired and emotionally worn out for anymore issues to come about, so please pray that this will all be some fluke and Kayleigh was just having a bad day like all of us have every now and then. We appreciate all of your prayers as you know how true and powerful those prayers can be.
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CONT......3:30AM - PLEASE PRAY!!!!! I just finished posting the last post over an hour ago, so please read that post first. My gut was right, something was wrong with Kayleigh's breathing tonight! The doctors and nurses have moved Kayleigh back to the NICU because Kayleigh's breathing has become erratic, her temperature is dropping and she is desatting. They did a blood gas, but have not gotten those results back. They have put her on the high flow cannula and depending on the results from the blood gas, they may have to put her on the vent. The doctor's fear is that these are signs that her heart is causing these problems.
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11/19/08 - 6:11pm - Update Aimee and I just got back from the hospital and right now Kayleigh is in a somewhat stable position. She is still breathing hard, desatting and gets very irritated by any touch or movement. The doctors are not quite sure what the cause of this is yet, but they are treating her as if she has an infection of some sort. If that is ruled out, then we continue to look for problems. 254
Kayleigh's Story Her echocardiogram came back early this morning and her pressures were as high as they were before her surgery, which is not a good sign at all. Her pressures were in the high 70's during her first echo. Since then, the pressures have dropped to the low 60's, which is better. We are not quite sure what a good baseline is since her pressures have yet to come down all the way. The other day, I believe her pressures were in the low 50's or high 40's. Don't quote me on that though. The x-rays came back that Kayleigh's stomach was very distended and full of air. That could either be from the fortifier or the heavy breathing she has been doing. One thing that Aimee and I noticed is that Kayleigh was taking all of her bottles right after her heart surgery when they were feeding her plain breast milk. When they started to fortify the milk with breast milk (1/1), she started have problems finishing her bottle every other feeding. The day before yesterday, they decided to change her ratio even more, (2/1) fortifier over breast milk. Then she was really struggling even more to take all her bottles and then this problem came about. It may not relate to the issue, but it could possibly cause some kind of trickle effect. I know how important the fortifier is, but we have had issues before and it is just easy to blame everything on that. Our doctor said that no matter what, when she starts to feed again, we'll start her off with plain breast milk to see if that makes a difference. Our NICU primary nurse was taking care of Kayleigh early this morning and said she was in bad shape when she came in to the NICU. When she says things looked bad, they look bad and that is a scary feeling. Kayleigh was breathing so hard and struggling to keep her sats up. They went from .1 liters of flow to 6 liters of flow just to get her sats in a comfortable place. Our nurse suctioned Kayleigh's nose out and it helped with her sats a little, but only for a
short time. Kayleigh has been on Lasix and the x-ray showed no sign of build-up in her lungs that was causing the problem. We will just have to wait and find out what the blood culture says. We can only pray that this was something minor that can be fixed. The scary thing is no one knows what it is yet. It could be a heart problem, food problem or an infection of some sort. The first results of the blood culture comes back within 48 hours, so hopefully that will point us in the right direction. In the mean time, please keep the prayers coming!!! We know how awesome the power of prayer can be by the amazing miracles God has done so far. Aimee and I have been more scared than ever right now because this just hit us so hard, and out of the blue. I know that coming home is further from our site, but all we want is for her to get better. This stress is taking it's toll on us emotionally and physically, but the reason Kayleigh is a fighter is because we are fighters. We are going to be as strong as we possibly can be for her and that is all we can do. I pray for everyone to back us up and let's continue to fight this fight together through prayer, so we can bring our little girl home someday. Whether it is in a week or five more months from now, if God's plan is to use Kayleigh to touch that one certain person, then we will bust our tails to make that happen and spread Kayleigh's story until our job is done. So reach out to your family, friends, churches, and co-workers and let's do the will of God together so Kayleigh can come home soon.
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11/20/08 - 2:02pm - Update Throughout the day yesterday, Kayleigh's sats started to worsen. It was getting harder and harder for Kayleigh to keep her oxygen saturation above 90, so they had to keep increasing her oxygen intake. Late last night, they reached a point where nothing was helping and they had to put Kayleigh back on the Nitric system to open up the air sacs in her lungs. This helped bring Kayleigh's sats back to normal, but they had to give Kayleigh a sedative to help her rest because she was starting to get really irritated. "So far" the blood culture is showing negative for any infection and they are waiting to get the results back from the RSV test. The culture takes 48 hours for something to show up, so we still have about 12 hours left. Although, if nothing is showing right now, I doubt it will. No one is really sure why she is doing this, but they are keeping a close eye on her. If all the tests come back normal, the doctor said he would point all fingers to the fortifier. She doesn't show signs of allergies towards it, but maybe she is just intolerable to it. Aimee made a good point that she loves onions, but they tear up her stomach sometimes to a point where she is very uncomfortable. The x-ray came back much better than this morning, so her trapped air is passing through. My biggest problem with this all is why is it effecting her lung/pulmonary pressures? Is her body/heart not responding well to the surgery? Are we to expect Kayleigh's hypertension to kick in at the drop of a hat, whenever she is upset or intolerable to something? No one really knows just yet and not knowing is really getting under my skin.
Hopefully we will get all the answers soon and I will be sure to pass them on. Everyone has given us some really great ideas on what this could be and we have mentioned every single one of them to the doctors. Some were ruled out by good reasoning and they are testing for others. We will all be glad when they figure it out so we can move on and get ourselves back on track. Thank you all so much for your support and hang tight. This is not suitable for the impatient, but our hands are unfortunately tied. Good gracious, you should see me right now. I woke up with so much stress that my neck has tightened up to the point where I can no longer move it in any direction. I look like one of those women in the Kayan Tribe who have those gold rings that stretch their necks to unbelievable lengths. Pain reliever and the heating pad have not helped at all, so I am just going to have to take it easy. After 8 long weeks, the extra testing on the placenta came back and all test confirmed it to be normal. So, we have no idea why Kayleigh was growing so far behind or why there was barely any amniotic fluid throughout the pregnancy. I guess "scientifically" we are never going to know what caused all of this.
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Kayleigh's Story Wow, I don't even know what to say right now. I am just in complete and utter shock about what is going on. Kayleigh just had another pulmonary hypertension episode. She was put on the vent again and they boosted up her nitric even more. Several of the neonantologists are by her side and the cardiologist who did her heart surgery is with her as well. Since I can barely move because of my neck, I am here at home with Allyson and Brandon, but Aimee is up there with Kayleigh right now. Please pray for my little girl!
11/20/2008 9:05:00 PM
11/20/08 - Problem Solved...Hopefully! The blood culture came back and showed that Kayleigh has a urinary tract infection which has caused her to spiral out of control. Yes, my daughter seems to be showing early signs of a "Drama Queen." Actually, I am sure a UTI on a preemie is much more intense and painful than it is on an adult. Being that she was still on Lasix, peeing on a regular basis may have been very very painful for her. I am clinching my legs together right now just thinking about it. If she was going to have any kind of infection though, this is the best one to have. They have started her on antibiotics and hope to see a change in her prognosis soon. There are still a lot of questions because I just don't understand why it would cause Kayleigh's pulmonary pressures to get so high,
unless she was in a ton of pain or discomfort causing her to clamp down and hold her breath. I have seen her bear down and stop breathing because of pain before, but she wasn't doing that this time around. That still doesn't explain why her breathing was so heavy and erratic the night before last. I am still a little confused, so hopefully we will get some more answers tomorrow. My biggest fear through all of this was her heart and something was not working right in that department. The cardiologist that worked on Kayleigh came up to her bedside tonight while she was having an episode. He explained that all of her symptoms are not pointing in the direction of her heart, so that makes me breathe a sigh of relief. The scariest thing ever is when you have three neonantologist and a heart surgeon at Kayleigh's bedside and none of them can figure out what is going on. I am so glad that something came back quickly on the blood culture tests to clarify this problem. Please continue to pray that this UTI is the only thing wrong with Kayleigh and it will be cleared up quickly so we can get back on track with our progress. I hope that we can all look back on this as a distant memory someday and forget how many heart attacks we all had this year. Kayleigh is certainly trying to get the "Best Actress" award in her movie. Actually, it has crossed my mind several times that God has diverged his plan as to what was really wrong with Kayleigh because He heard all of our prayers today. What do you think??? Everything was much more serious than what it came out to be and all the doctors are completely stumped by what just happened. Thank you all so much for your prayers, please keep them coming and hopefully this UTI is the only issue here. I will update you as 257
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11/21/08 9:00pm - 2 Problems - 1 Empty Seat
Throughout the whole day today, Kayleigh was in a somewhat stable position. Her sats were hanging around the high 80's - low 90's. She had been sedated several times because of her irritation to other's touching her or the vent tube she hates, which is causing her to gag. Her oxygen was higher than we would like to see (67%)
and her nitric is at (20ppm), but it was doing it's job of keeping her oxygen saturation where it needed to be. It is the toughest thing as a parent to sit there and watch your child in so much discomfort and not being able to talk or touch her in fear of it agitating her more. Our comforting touch was not good enough right now and that breaks our hearts. The first problem that is another unknown in the doctor's eyes is Kayleigh's heart rate. All the signs of discomfort, desaturation and hypertension can be side effects from the urinary tract infection, but the problem with her heart rate is unknown. Right now, Kayleigh's heart rate is resting in the 70's and active in the high 80's. That is no where near what her norm is (rest- 115/active 140). The Echocardiogram is supposed to give some more understanding on why the heart rate is so low. It was completed this afternoon, but we have not gotten the results back like we hoped. I will update you as soon as possible. The second problem has to deal with the antibiotics they are administering to Kayleigh for her UTI. The side effects include fever, flue like symptoms, high blood pressure and a few other issues that have slipped my mind. Being that Kayleigh is not in a stable position with her pulmonary pressures, it is quite concerning to the doctors when having to deal with these side effects that could take place very soon. Kayleigh's pressures were low before she went in to a pulmonary hypertension episode due to the UTI. Right now, her pressures are high and the side effects of the antibiotics can very easily cause Kayleigh to go in to another hypertension episode. All we can hope for is that when she goes in to an episode, it is caught quick enough to stabilize with the amount of nitric, oxygen and sedation. The scary part is she is already being given nitric, oxygen and sedation right now, plus battling with a low heart rate for some unknown reason. So in other words, this situation would be like adding gas to an already open flame. 258
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Just look at this photo above. When you see a car seat, you think of new life, security and the excitement a family will cherish forever with their newborn's life. To me...This photo looks empty. Most of you out there hope and pray that Kayleigh will get passed yet another hurdle that is place in front of her, when you may not realize the small things beyond the NICU walls that are effected by our situation. The feelings and emotions deep down that no one can understand unless they have been there before. They are practically an impossible emotion to grasp when praying for a family like us who are in this position. Walking out of the NICU today was by far one of the most emotional walks we have taken from the hospital. We were supposed to bring her home today, but instead, we brought home an empty car seat. We passed many people who's faces would brighten up, look down and then realize there is no precious little baby to see. One lady in the elevator looked down at the empty car
seat and looked right at my face, not knowing I was watching her every move from my peripheral vision. I noticed the complete change in emotion on her face as she was probably thinking a million thoughts on what could possibly be going on in this family's lives to be walking out of the hospital with an empty car seat. The hardest part was putting the car seat in the seat we planned to buckle Kayleigh into for the very first time. The moment we had been dreaming about for months was the time where all of us were in the car together for the first time and all the doors had just been shut. It is the time right before the car is started and we look into each other's eyes and smile, knowing we really have beaten all the odds. This was the defining moment that was supposed to happen today, and it didn't. Aimee and I lost it in the car and cried because we could not hold back our emotions. The emotion is so overwhelming that your heart just crumbles in a million pieces. I am a man who doesn't let the tears roll so easily, but I lost it. Please pray for two things: 1) The doctors will find out what is causing the low heart rate and it will be fixed ASAP. 2) Kayleigh will not have any major side effects that will cause her to go in to another pulmonary hypertension episode. Thank you & God Bless, The Freemans :)
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HAPPY 5 MONTHS OLD!!!! Five months in the NICU is too long for anyone! If you are currently in the NICU, hang in there and know that Aimee and I will be here if you need ANYTHING!!! You can email us for questions or to vent as we know how stressful and exciting the ups and downs can be. If you want to know how we stay so strong, the answer is God and we highly recommend you getting in touch with Him to help you through this. Mathew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Aimee and I are pleased to see some progression throughout the day. It is not a whole lot, but it is better than none at all. Kayleigh's heart rate came up a little bit, so at rest it is in the 90's now and when she is active, it is in the low 100's. They are still not sure why her heart rate is so low, but everything else checked out fine on the echocardiogram which gives the doctors nothing to worry about. Kayleigh's oxygen has been dropped to around 42% to allow her 260
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and not have to risk the side effects sending her in to another plummet. She is doing really well so far and we just hope that she continues to get better. All I have to say is that all the prayers are helping Kayleigh jump over these hurdles. She is such a strong person and continues to show everyone just how amazing she is and will continue to be. We certainly have our hands full! HERE IS MY EXCITING NEW IDEA THAT INCLUDES EVERYONE!!!!!!! First of all, thank you all for voting on whether or not we should include our posts in Kayleigh's book. I have gotten some great ideas and I plan to use all of them to make my book more creative and exciting. I should finish the book shortly after Kayleigh comes home, but then the editing will take more time than it did to write it. It is going to be amazing though! Okay now for my AWESOME idea...From now until the day this book is published and put on the shelves, everyone who has and does buy a bracelet will not only send in a photo to be put in to Kayleigh's kick butt scrap book, but will be put in to Kayleigh's book itself. I plan on taking up as many pages as possible to add every single one of Kayleigh's followers/prayer warriors wearing their Kayleigh bracelets so the world can see how many lives Kayleigh has touched. Of course we will not be publishing this book for a little while, but once you get your bracelet and take your photo, I will save ALL the photos in a file and have them ready to be added to the book. It will be so touching for everyone who buys the book to see all the support we have gotten through our amazing journey. What do you think??? I feel it would be so powerful for readers to see how inspiring Kayleigh was to all of you. So if you have not gotten your bracelets yet, get them now and send in your photos ASAP!!! Thank you so much!!!!
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11/23/08 - Sleepy Peanut Sleep! That is the story of Kayleigh's life today. We will remember this day for the rest of our lives, but Kayleigh will not because all she did was sleep. She slept through her tests, diaper changes, blood gas toe pricks, and all the loud construction going on downstairs. The awesome part is her sleep was not medically induced. She was not given any pain or sedation medicine all day today. Her sats were in the low 90's and her oxygen was dropped as low as 31% today, so that is wonderful progress. There really wasn't any new news today, but it was a quiet day of recovery and progression. The progressive part of it all had to do with her feeds. Kayleigh was fed 5mls several times today and had no aspirates at all. They are starting her, and hopefully going to keep her on plain breast milk for a while. So far so good. I have been getting my days a little mixed up and Aimee is picking on me about it. The doctors gave me some Valium for my neck pain/stiffness and I keep thinking some things happened yesterday, but it was actually the day before. I just had to double check and make sure I didn't mention it yesterday, but Kayleigh weighed in at 4 lbs - 2 oz. She is doing much better and we are very happy to see that she is less agitated because that only means her UTI is not bothering her anymore.
For those who have not been able to put a face with the name. This is Rachel wearing Kayleigh's bracelet and signing/telling Kayleigh, "I Love you." Rachel and Ryan are our good friends that we met through Kayleigh's journey and I used to play baseball with Ryan a long time ago. If you remember, I had just posted about Rachel losing Hannah unexpectedly just after Kayleigh's heart surgery. Their other daughter past away just last year after 4 months of being in the same NICU as Kayleigh is in right now. Both Hannah and Carly are our special Angels who are watching over Kayleigh right now with our Lord in heaven. You can read their individual stories here: (Carly and Hannah) Rachel and Ryan both hold a special place in our hearts and we will always be there for them. We love you guys!
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11/24/08 - Quick Update It has been a long day so I apologize for a short post this evening. Kayleigh is doing really well and is making slow and steady progress. They have weaned her nitric oxide down to 10 and started her Viagra back up. She has been tolerating her feeds really well and they will increase them as time goes on. They plan to take Kayleigh off the vent tomorrow if she has a good evening. She is already on a much lower vent setting and seems to be keeping her sats in the low 90's throughout the whole day. Her echocardiogram came back showing her pressures to be in the 50's today which is good, her blood gasses all came back normal and her renal ultra sound showed no signs of problems with her kidneys. Everything seems to be checking out nicely, so we just need to continue to keep this progress moving in the right direction. The doctors are still worried and have no answers as to where Kayleigh's pulmonary/lung pressures will go in the future. As of right now, they are still reactive and when ever Kayleigh has a pulmonary hypertension episode, the nitric, oxygen and sedation medication seem to take care of the situation. The problem we will face is when her pressures become fixed (no longer reactive) and when she has an episode, it is going to be a life threatening issue if she can't calm herself down on her own. Basically, her lung pressures will be so high and her heart will just fail. The doctors say they have no answers and we will just have to cross that bridge when we get there. I completely understand they don't know what
will happen, but to me that sounds like a dodge to a detrimental answer no one wants to hear. We can only pray that Kayleigh will not be stricken with more of these life threatening hypertension episodes and she can grow out of this situation quickly. She is just so tiny right now that her little body can't handle these hypertension bouts like older children or adults can. Please pray that Kayleigh will continue to recover well and that she will not have any more sicknesses/infections or anything that will cause her body to flip out in to a hypertensive situation. We appreciate it very much!! I will take more photos tomorrow when they take the vent out :)
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11/26/08 - HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!! Kayleigh wanted me to tell all of you who are local (Charlotte, NC and surrounding counties) to check her out on television tomorrow night at 7:30 pm on NBC. There is a special on Levine Children's Hospital and Kayleigh's story will be one of the highlights of that show. I will record it, but do my best to figure out how to transfer it to my computer so everyone will get a chance to see it. Although, I don't see why I can't get the video file online from the television station. We'll see what I can do. It is going to be a really special day for our family as we will all be 263
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thankful for an amazing God whose greatest gift is love. That love has brought all of you to us who care so much for Kayleigh and our family enough to support us through this amazing journey. That love has kept Aimee and I so close to each other through one of the toughest journey's we could ever face. And that love ;-) created the most amazing miracle I have ever laid eyes on. "Kayleigh, we love you so much and we wish you could be home with us on your first thanksgiving"
Kayleigh is doing great. Since being off the vent, her right lung was collapsing a little and with some chest PT, they were able to correct the issue. She is now weaning off of her nitric, oxygen and medication again. Let's hope she can stay off of it all this time! They decided to increase her Viagra this time around to see if that will help Kayleigh not fall so quickly in to a pulmonary hypertension episode when stricken with some kind trigger effect. Kayleigh is gaining some good weight too. She is up to 4 lbs - 3.7 ounces right now. I think closing that VSD has really helped with her growth. It has been a week since I held her last, so that little bit of growth makes a huge difference.
Allyson, Brandon and Kayleigh are the light of our lives and we couldn't be more thankful to have the most incredible children anyone could ever ask for. We are looking forward to our families sitting down together and having such a beautiful day. "But if you eat all my Momma's pumpkin bread, I am gonna whoop your tails" ;-)
Kayleigh was a little irritable this morning, but I think it was because she needed some loving. Grandma and Papa "G' came up to visit and Kayleigh slept in Grandma's arms for several hours. I showed up not too long after them and held her for a while too and she was much happier. I am sure no 5 month old child wants to lay in their bed all day long. I am sure that I would get crabby too!!!
11/27/2008 4:13:00 PM
Thanks Levine Children's Hospital & WCNC!!!
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Aimee and I would like to thank the Levine Children's Hospital and News Channel 36 for sharing Kayleigh's Story. This has been one amazing and miraculous journey. Our goal from the beginning was to share Kayleigh's story to give hope to that one person out there who may be in a similar position or who just needs some inspiration in their life. We have since touched thousands of lives through our website by reaching families from all around the United States and even several Countries (Check out the map on the right tool bar). Prayers from all around the world have been the reason Kayleigh has defied the odds. Everyone who is praying, cheering and showing their support by sporting their Kayleigh bracelets are our true family and we are forever thankful to you! God has certainly heard our prayers as Kayleigh is living proof. The television program on Channel 36 that airs tonight and the Light 102.9 Radiothon coming up in December will also allow us to share Kayleigh's story to continue to reach families in need and to help raise money for The Children's Miracle Network/Levine Children's Hospital and for the March of Dimes. Since Aimee, my Father (Gary) and I make up Team Freeman for RE/MAX Executive Realty here in Charlotte, we also had the pleasure of sharing our story for The Children's Miracle Network & RE/MAX Golf Tournament last month, which was a complete success!!! If it weren't for people who gave us hope, I know Aimee and I would have not been so strong to fight for our little girl's life. We are so passionate about giving that strength to others. The more people we touch and help with our story, the more opportunities we will have to save lives and make known that through God, anything is
possible. If you are a new visitor to the site, you can follow our blog daily as we update Kayleigh's progress. If you want to follow the experience we have been through so far, scroll all the way to the bottom and begin to be amazed by one of the most exciting, but nerve wrecking stories that will definitely keep you on the edge of your seat. You can also visit all of Kayleigh's Friends and see other amazing stories that will completely blow your mind. Again, thank you all so much for your support and prayers that you have given us through this amazing 8 month journey so far. Even though Kayleigh is not home with us today on Thanksgiving, I am more thankful to know that she is alive and has helped brought families together and friends closer. But more importantly, I am so thankful that Kayleigh has brought people closer to God through prayer and to teach people that God is standing, waiting on the other side of that door to help...all you have to do is open it. God Bless & Happy Thanksgiving, The Freemans :)
11/28/2008 9:40:00 PM
11/28/08 - Happy POST Thanksgiving!!! We sure hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving, because we certainly did!!! It was a blast having family and friends over to celebrate, eat and just enjoy each other's company.
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Everyone was in tears as we watched the television program. I apologize that my technology skills weren't great with the video, but recording the TV with my video camera was the quickest way to show you all our television appearance without having to wait for a video file from the news station. The whole program was 30 minutes, but it was too large of a file to download it all on the computer, so I just showed our section of the show. WCNC and Levine Children's Hospital did a wonderful job!!! I hope you enjoy... Kayleigh is doing great!! She has still been cranky and not eating as good as we would like to see, but it could be because she is 5 months old, and not getting the attention she would get if she were at home. We could only wish that we could live up at the hospital 24/7 so she could get more attention and play time. She has not come off her nitric yet, but she is slowly weaning down and should be completely off towards the end of the weekend. Kayleigh is 269
Kayleigh's Story Aimee felt like God has called her to do something special and she decided to create a blog which she has called (Answering Christianity Questions). With this blog working at full steam, it will allow her to grow in her walk with the Lord and learn so much from so many people's questions and answers. She posted the first question from a book she just bought tonight called, "The Power of a Praying Wife." This question will break the ice and the blog will take off only with YOUR help, YOUR questions, and YOUR answers. If you have a question, big or small, that you want answered, email (PostMyQuestion@aol.com) and Aimee will post it and the people who follow the blog will answer.
---NEW BLOG UPDATE---When Aimee and I were eating dinner tonight, we were discussing the reasoning behind Kayleigh's blog, beyond telling her story and sharing her photos. Our conversation lead to the test God has given us and how we have handled it with the best of our abilities. If we could show one, two or a million people the glory of God through Kayleigh, then we know we have passed that test with flying colors. We then started asking each other those special questions that never seem to get a clear answer when talking about our faith. There are so many questions out there that people have that may be keeping them on the fence to starting their relationship with Christ, or Christians who may be too embarrassed to ask those questions (they think they should already know) or want to know to strengthen their everyday walk.
Our short term goal is to help us all learn more about the questions of Christianity and strengthen our walk together, but our long term goal is the link up with many churches for millions of people to see how Awesome our God really is. We look forward to growing together!
11/29/2008 10:51:00 PM
11/29/08 - Writer's Block Cured This was the first time in the past 5+ months that I've had problem coming up with something to write about, so I just sat here for about ten minutes just completely blank. I guess you can call it a really bad case of writer's block. The funny thing is, an email came across the bottom of the screen from someone who was asking what Kayleigh needed to accomplish before she could come home, 270
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the past several weeks since her heart surgery, her pulmonary hypertension track record is not improving yet. So please pray for those three things! Yes we would like for her to come home soon, but if it takes a long time for all of these issues to be fixed, then we would rather that happen than for her to come home unhealthy. Kayleigh had a pretty good day today. She did drop some weight, which doesn't seem right. She weighed in at 4lbs - 3oz, but we will see how tomorrow weight is to see if it was something to worry about. She was still cranky today, but not as much as the day before. I am hoping that what ever is causing her to be cranky is going away and she can get back to her normal self. She slept pretty good on my chest tonight, but would wake up every now and then as if something was nagging her and she felt uncomfortable. I had to pat her back constantly or she would wake up and start crying. She definitely looks more like herself though and she was a little more alert tonight while we were doing her cares. Her scar from her heart surgery is looking great! Thank you all so much for your support and prayers through this. Hopefully his roller coaster will come to an end one day, but let's just pray for a healthy Kayleigh. That's all!
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This photo is my cousin Matt and Rachel with their two little boys, Charlie and Joshua. Joshua is in that stage of "no pictures of me," so they had to sort 0f sneak one in with him standing in the background. They have been such a great support system to our family while we have been going through this journey. By the work of God, Kayleigh has done some amazing things as it has brought family and friends closer than they were before. I know that Aimee and I both talk with several people we either didn't talk to as much growing up or we lost touch with completely. We have started to grow those relationships back or into something nice and we are so thankful for that.
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Here are some other wonderful photos of Kayleigh's friends. The friends we have met along the way have been great and we couldn't ask for some great photos for Kayleigh's scrapbook. We know for sure she is going to love every bit of this when she grows up. Aimee and I have always been one's to cherish every little photo or memory we have had when we were children. Just looking back on old photos is a blast in itself. Some of the things we wore back then and those crazy hair dues. Kayleigh will have her scrap book and this blog to share with her children one day, and her children will be amazed at how awesome she really is. Thank you & God Bless, The Freemans :)
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12/1/08 - Aimee Needs Some Prayers
Over Thanksgiving, she showed more signs of fatigue than normal. She would get tired opening a can of corn. We decided we would wait through the weekend, take it easy and if it didn't get any better, we would schedule an appointment with the doctors. Well, over the weekend, Aimee heart has been racing more than ever and she even gets worn out walking down the stairs. Her headaches are still frequent and on top of that, she started to get jaw pain, sporadic nausea and now she has upper abdominal pain. All of them are not very good signs!!!
Quick update on Kayleigh really quick and I will update you on Aimee. Kayleigh had another echocardiogram and unfortunately her pulmonary pressures are still elevated. The pressures were around 69 this past Friday and they were 67 today, so they have not come back down and that is concerning. They have taken her off the nitric, so their plan of action is to keep weaning her down on the oxygen as needed and get another Echo soon. She still have been crabby in the afternoons, but she has been a calm and peaceful as can be with us. I fed her tonight and she took around 20 mls out of 35 for me, so I was happy to see that. She is getting better with her feeds, so that is good to hear. She didn't wine or cry the whole time we were their, so I am guessing she just needs our love. Her weight stayed the same, which is not exciting, but we are still too afraid to start fortifying again. We'll see... Okay, now to Aimee. Over the past week, Aimee has started to get short of breath, tired quickly and her heart races with the smallest of activity. We didn't think too much about it and then she started getting headaches, which have started to come more frequent. Aimee never got headaches before and has been in good enough shape to not feel so gassed over little activity. We thought maybe it was some kind of side effects to the Mastitis that she was dealing with or the antibiotics that she was taking, but these issues started before she started that medication. We also got a pregnancy test to
Aimee and I are the type to research everything. We scared ourselves to death tonight looking up on Web MD to see what type of issues could be causing all these symptoms and one stood out above the rest that we are hoping is definitely not the case. All signs point towards Angina, which is caused by stress and can lead to a Heart Attack, but we hope to God that is not the case. We have an appointment to see our doctor first thing tomorrow morning and since we are going to the main hospital right afterwards to see Kayleigh, we are hoping they will get her in there to do some tests. When it comes to pain or an illness, Aimee won't complain unless there is something really bugging her and she is really worried right now. Please pray for her and ask God to heal whatever the problem is, and please pray this is no heart issues. I will post when we get some answers. Thank you and God Bless, The Freemans 274
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12/2/08 - Game Plan!
there is a complication with the thyroid that occurs with woman during and after they giving birth, even up to a year later. So, being that we are 5 months past, it is still possible that her thyroid is acting up. They said that Aimee had hyperthyroidism when she was pregnant, which she did lose unexplained weight, but didn't have the headaches or the fast heartbeat. Now she has a crap load of symptoms and we can only hope and pray they lead to this thyroid issue because it can be fixed with medication. The doctor also thought it could be anemia or a pulmonary embolism. Kayleigh is still cranky and no one can figure out why. When she sleeps, she sleeps good. But, when she is awake, it is as if something is bugging her that no one can lay a finger on. They gave her two doses of sedation medication just to calm her down today. It helped for the time being, but it certainly can not be a long term fix! Some may stress about a crying baby, but when your little girl is in the hospital and no one has any clue on why she is upset and whether or not this problem could be a big problem or small one, it is downright HEARTBREAKING! Aimee and I left feeling really crappy because you would never leave your crying baby alone at home, right? You would want to hold her and care for her until she calms down. It is not a fun situation for any parent in the NICU to have to deal with that.
Look at that scar! It is looking great :) By the way, this was last night's photo as today she was not this peaceful :) Aimee and I went to her doctors appointment this morning and they drew some blood. We should get the results tomorrow, but like most of you said, the doctor agreed. He is leaning more towards a thyroid issue than anything else, although he is not counting out anything. All symptoms lead us in that direction, as
We talked with the doctor for a good bit today about our game plan. The plan is to start fortifying the milk so we can get as many calories in Kayleigh as possible. I know you all are probably taking a deep breath right now and say "OH NO, NOT FORTIFIER AGAIN!!!" Well, that is what we said too, but we have no choice. Right now we are fighting against time again. Kayleigh needs to grow much faster than she has been and this is the only way. If it means putting a tube in her digestive track that passes the stomach so she has no choice to digest it, that is what we will do. We need her to grow 275
Kayleigh's Story because her life depends on it. If Kayleigh's pulmonary pressures become fixed soon, she is too small and her lungs are too weak to survive the episode. The good news is that the pressures are still reactive right now, but no one knows when they will change. All we can hope and pray for is that she grows quick enough to be stronger for the next hypertensive bout. We have known this all along, but today it was more of a reality. If her pressures are fixed and she has one little episode, the Nitric Oxide or Viagra will NOT be able to pull her out it and she will die. We need to pray for growth! I feel like since the beginning, it has all been about growth. She had to grow to hit a viable weigh to survive outside the womb, she had to grow to be big enough for the doctors to be able to perform her open heart surgery and now she needs to grow to survive her pulmonary pressures. One thing I do know is, she did it twice and she can do it again! Let's all pray that she will grow fast enough to be strong, and stay healthy so she doesn't get any infections before this pulmonary hypertension becomes fixed. We are not sure how long this will take for Kayleigh to grow strong enough to withstand the problem and we don't know how long it will take before the pressure become fixed. It is a waiting game full of stress and faith. I am more than certain that we have both of those.
12/3/2008 11:46:00 PM
12/3/08 - Major Gains or Faulty Scale?
We received the results back from the blood work done on Aimee and they point in the direction of hyperthyroidism and she could possibly have Grave's Disease. We have an appointment tomorrow with the Endocrinologist to do some more tests and hopefully figure out what medications they can put Aimee on to fix this issue. The problem we are facing is that every type of medication is not good for Aimee while she is breast feeding/pumping. We also found out the medication she was on while Aimee was in the hospital just before Kayleigh was born was not good for her either. We even asked the doctor several times to make sure and he said that it would not effect anything that has to do with Kayleigh or her milk. So, needless to say, we are a little anxious going in to this appointment because of the wrongful advice we were given the first time around. No offense to all professionals, but we don't have room for mistakes right now. Kayleigh is hanging in there. Her crankiness has not gone away and the doctors are doing a couple tests to see what might be the problem. They have noticed Kayleigh coughing a little more than normal lately, so they are going to possibly lower the flow of oxygen she is getting as it may be drying out her throat. There are not tell tale signs, but I made a suggestion to test for RSV to be sure there are no early signs of issues there. It seems her throat is bothering her along with her breathing, so they are keeping an eye on that closely. Since Kayleigh has been having a hard time keeping her sats up, which in return makes it hard for her to rest, the doctors have decided to increase her Nitric Oxide and bump up the amount of oxygen she is getting. Neither will hurt her, but will certainly make her relax more. She was sleeping most of the time we were there, but showed signs of irritability when she was awake. I noticed her cough and trouble breathing, but hopefully they will figure it out. 276
Kayleigh's Story They don't feel that it is reflux as she is not showing any other symptoms that point in that direction. Unfortunately, they had to resort to the sedation medication to calm her down. As for her feedings, she is tolerating the fortifier so far. She is getting 35mls and 24 calories per feeding and barely having any aspirate so far. Check this out!!!! Her weight has really jumped from last night. She is up to 4 pounds - 10.78 ounces, but who knows if that is true weight because she was 4lb - 6oz yesterday. I hope and pray that is correct and not a faulty reading from the scale because 4 ounces in one day is AMAZING!!! Keep praying hard for Kayleigh's growth and for Aimee to have some good news at the doctor tomorrow.
12/5/2008 12:28:00 AM
12/4/08 - Grave's Disease + Another Episode = Very Rough Day
Trying to calm Kayleigh down in her swing :) The results are in! Aimee has Grave's Disease and right now there is some medication she is going to take, that happens to NOT effect the breast milk that she is pumping for Kayleigh. At some point, Aimee and I will decide a time that is best for her to undergo the radiation iodine treatment, which will put Aimee out for a week of contact with any children because she will be radioactive (sounds crazy). It will also be a time to decide when it is right because we are not to get pregnant for 6 months after the treatment. The treatment is a pill and it practically shuts down/destroys the thyroid gland, which will then label Aimee as Hypothyroid and she will have to take medication for the rest of her life called Synthroid. The good news is, the eye enlargement issue should have taken place already if it were to happen. It may develop slowly over time, but since Aimee is not a smoker, it is not as common. Hopefully not because 277
Kayleigh's Story Aimee has this eye-phobia which would be just a sick joke for her to get some of the symptoms this disease can cause. So the good news is, it isn't a heart problem and we can all breath a sigh of relief. The bad news is, it is just one more thing on our plate to stress about and Aimee isn't happy about the guaranteed weight gain from the medication she will be taking.
hypertension would allow Kayleigh to survive such an infection. Please God let it not be RSV!!!! Since all the drama happened, she is currently on 6 liters still, but at 60% oxygen and it is keeping her sats in the 90's. We should get all the results back from the lab work, blood gas and RSV tests tomorrow. Please pray that this will all pass over and Kayleigh will get on the right road to recovery.
Kayleigh on the other hand had quite an interesting evening, but one that we are not happy to see. I just called up there to check on her before we go to bed (1:50am) and Kayleigh had another episode. She got really worked up and was showing increased signs of agitation, so they decided to give her some medication (Ativan) to calm her down and it normally works. But, it didn't this time around and they increased her flow to 6 liters and her oxygen to 100% and she still wasn't coming down. They decided to give her some other medication (Phenobarb) on top of that and it finally knocked her out and helped her relax again. She just gets so worked up and her pulmonary pressures cause her lungs to clamp down, which in return makes it really hard to bring her sats back to normal. That is why we are so afraid of the pressure becoming "fixed" where nothing will bring those pressure down, or her running in to an infection that is so bad, her sats won't come down whether or not her pressures are "fixed" or "reactive." It is a sticky situation to be in and all we can do is pray that she doesn't run in to either of these situations.
On a good note, the weight that was taken last night was true. Maybe it was fluid retention, but after her two large poops, she weighed in tonight at 4 pounds - 11.4 ounces. Woo hoo!!! Some good news for once!!! Let's keep it coming and hope for a better day tomorrow. Thanks, God Bless, The Freemans :)
12/6/2008 12:41:00 AM
On top of the two very large stools she had, the nurse pulled a lot of yellowish-white secretions from her throat which seemed to help calm her down too. She mentioned something to me about RSV and of course we already had them do tests for that this afternoon to see if that may be an issue. On a down note, the doctor said that if it is RSV, Kayleigh is in big trouble. He has never said "big trouble" to us before and he said it with high doubts that her pulmonary
12/5/08 - Answers
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Kayleigh's Story line in, so they didn't have to upset her with putting in a new IV. Anything could set her off and cause her to spiral out of control at this point. All we can hope for is she makes progress with this new medication. A lot of you have brought up some really great points and questions, as we have taken these questions to our doctors to get some answers. Here are some of the answered questions: 1) Next Echo? The doctors know that Kayleigh's pressures are up by the way she is acting. They don't need to get another echo at this time unless they feel her pressures may be reacting different than normal. At this time, Kayleigh's pressures are reactive and the medication they are giving her when she goes in to a hypertensive episode is working, so there is no need to measure what the pressures are doing. Here is "Nana," Aimee's Grandma, loving on Kayleigh tonight. She was saying her prayers over Kayleigh and posing for a photo. She is such a shining light to our family and we are forever grateful that she was able to make the trip down here, at 86 years of age, to see Kayleigh and spend time with the rest of the family. She is one amazing person and we love her to death! Kayleigh is hanging in there. She continues to have agitation, which is no new news. They have started her on a continuous drip of prosticyclin to see if that, on top of the increased oxygen, Viagra and Nitric Oxide, will calm her down. Some one mentioned inhaled prosticyclin before, but the doctors feel that it would work better through her Central IV Line. Her tests have all come back clear and she does not have RSV! Woo hoo!!! She is currently on 40mls and is having no aspirates. Kayleigh was slightly anemic and did get a blood transfusion tonight. Thank goodness she still has that central
2) Acid Reflux? Kayleigh is already taking a motility drug called Reglan and she is taking Prevacid for any possible cause of reflux. They have had her on this for a while, but I just found that out when you all started mentioning reflux. Thanks :) 3) Aimee's Dairy? She hates milk and many other dairy items, so that is not causing Kayleigh to have a good allergy in that department. 4) Post-Partem Thyroiditis? That was a question we had also, but the Endocrinologist and his reasoning, kept diagnosing it as Grave's Disease. They did get some blood work, so if we find anything different out, we will be sure to let everyone know. 5) Kayleigh's Thyroid Issue - She has Hypothyroidism and they currently have her onSynthroid. 6) Aimee's thyroid issue being passed on to Kayleigh and causing any harm? Research shows that having Hypothyroidism, which is 279
Kayleigh's Story what Aimee had before, brings on preeclampsia and low birth weight. If there were major problems to the brain or any other areas, it would have shown up already. Our neonantologist and the endocrinologist both mentioned that a goiter would have formed in Kayleigh's throat if anything were to be passed through the placenta during pregnancy.
Thank you so much Madi and Luke from Las Vegas for sending in your Kayleigh bracelet photos and letter. Kayleigh is going to be so excited to read all these one day! Please keep wearing them and sharing her story so she continues to touch the lives of others. Thank you!
I hope I answered all the questions, but if not, please know that we have taken in consideration everything that we read in the posts because we want to make sure our little Kayleigh is getting attention to every possible detail. Thank you very much for your questions.
Thank you June! I completely understand you having one of those days where you don't want your photo taken, but to show your support by taking one anyhow shows your true heart :) You have been nothing short of a miracle to our family. We appreciate all of your hard work and we look forward to continuing our partnership and friendship for a long time. You are one of the main reasons Team Freeman has been successful at RE/MAX. Thank you for everything!
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12/8/08 - Spread the Word
Bailey, Thank you so much for taking a photo and making a beautiful sign for Kayleigh. You fit right in there with those princess's on your seat ;) I hear that you say "awww" every time Mommy does, but we certainly said "awww" when we saw your photo. I wish you the best and please keep praying for Kayleigh. She is such a blessing because of your prayers. I apologize, but we are not posting the next two nights. I want to say it up front before I get a lot of emails or posts, wondering what is going on and where we went. If an update needs to be made, I will get it done though. We are driving "Nana" back to PA and staying for a night to bring home some of the best pizza known to man from the Pottsville Auction, one of the smallest town's, largest attractions :) God Bless, The Freemans :)
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Before I get in to updating everyone, I want to let you know that with our very challenging schedules along with the real estate market in the pits right now, any extra time is going to be on working before I don't have any Internet to post at all :) Some days will be my normal long posts, but others will be just a real short update. Aimee and I had an awesome, well deserved trip up to PA and we got our pizza's. I must say that dinner was good and breakfast, lunch and dinner will be good tomorrow too! ha! Kayleigh is dong great. She has been showing less signs of irritability lately and they have even dropped her nitric level to 15ppm. I believe the Prosticyclin is working really well. She seems to be more like herself when she is up from her naps. We have started to notice that when someone walks by, Kayleigh's eyes will glace over to see who it is and follow that persons motions. You have to 282
Kayleigh's Story remember, Kayleigh maybe 5 months old, but we have rarely seen a smile or any type of bonding communication. Besides her irritability getting a little better, has been tolerating her feeds very well. She is on 40 mls of Symilac Special Care mixed 1/1 with breast milk. She is not having any aspirates now, so she is digesting every single bit of it. That is helping her with her growth. They did not weigh her tonight, but she was around 4 pounds - 12 ounces the night before. She looks a lot bigger to me and I just went a day with out seeing her.
Here is adorable, Jonah the stud muffin, sporting Kayleigh's bracelet and drooling all over the place because it is soooo goood :) Thank you so much for everything and your bright blue eyes are gonna have the babes crawling after you in no time, literally.
Hey Talyor! I heard that you were fussy like Kayleigh was today. I don't blame you! Baby life can be so stressful and it makes you want to pull your hair out. Wait until you get to adult life, it is so much easier. Ha! Thank you so much for your photo! You are as precious as can be and we love you. 283
Kayleigh's Story English Report. I am just so amazed at how you all are using Kayleigh's story to touch other people lives as well. Keep spreading the word around and gather more prayer warriors so we can ask God to heal her and we can bring her home for good. Many others will see God's grace and realize what a miracle He has created in Kayleigh and what He can do in their lives too. Thank you, God Bless! The Freemans :)
12/9/2008 8:45:00 PM
Wow, This is a first! Here is Tayveon, from Long Island, NY, asking Kayleigh to marry him in 25 years :) Tayveon was also a preemie who almost came in to this world around 23 weeks, but was held off miraculously for another 10 weeks. That means, he is younger than Kayleigh so Kayleigh would have to be okay marrying a younger man. I can't say no to that because Aimee is older than me, so the true test would lye in your heart. If you can stay true to what you say and continue proving your love for Kayleigh for 25 years and be a well mannered young man who has all his ducks in a row, then I will consider. But, If you can truly convince Kayleigh and myself that you love her even 1% of the love that I hold in MY heart for her, then without a doubt, yes! I am so beyond blessed to have such wonderful people following our story. My goal with this has always been to touch one more life in one way or another. I heard the other day we were in a prayer chain for a whole church and a semester project on a college
12/9/08 - A Little Bit Of Fun!!! Here is how Kayleigh works lately. After being on medication to sedate her, she sleeps really well and she has no problems until it is time for her cares. Her cares simply consist of a temperature check, diaper check and some food. They don't last long, but are every three hours. Lately, this is the time Kayleigh gets really irritated. We have taken her off the Reglan since many of you mentioned that, it was worth giving it a shot. Hopefully it starts to work. Okay, back to Kayleigh. Here is the turn of events as we see it through our eyes: She is sleeping so peacefully here and isn't she as cute as a button with her feet hanging out?
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Here is a close up, I wonder what she is dreaming.
"Where'd MY PACI GO????!!!!!"
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"WAAHHHHH WAAHHHHH"
"OH HEY MOMMY, I LOVE YOU"
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#9: How about Aimee's Pigtail Holders????!!!!! And it goes on until she turns purple because she is not getting enough oxygen and they have to sedate her. She had an episode early this morning where the sedation medication didn't work again, so they had to give her more. I sure hope it is the Reglan and she will get better now that we took her off. We'll see. Okay, Now for some fun!!! I know with all the stress we are under and the everyday trips to hospital is enough to drive anyone insane. I guess it is starting to get to us because Aimee and I would like to share with you theeeeeeeee........ TOP 10 USES FOR YOUR NICU GOWN TIE #10: 80's Head Band! (Wow, do I look cool...hmmm no!) 287
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#8: UH OH, CATCH THAT DOG!!!!! #6: Unleash that Beast!!!!
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#5: Looks Like Someone's getting kidnapped! #3: Adam can "Use the Force" with His Jedi Eye Wear!!!
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#2: Whoo Hooo Gooooooo NICU STAFF!!!!
12/11/2008 3:18:00 PM
PLEASE DONATE SOMETHING!!!!! Okay Everyone! Right now is your chance to help out and do another good deed this year! In Charlotte, all the way through Sunday on Light 102.9 (6am -7pm), they started the "Our Kids Come First Radiothon" to benefit Levine Children's Hospital where Kayleigh lives right now. You can listen live by clicking here: Radiothon and once you get there, at the top of the tool bar is the "On Demand" link to listen to 290
Kayleigh's Story the radiothon live. You will hear us on every few hours telling our story about Kayleigh, but you will also hear a lot of other incredible and touching stories from other families. Grab a tissue!!!! CALL THIS NUMBER - (704) 355 - 1029 and donate something! Whether it is a lot or a little, it all adds up!!! Let them know you are one of Kayleigh's blog followers so we can ALL make a ruckus by showing everyone what awesome supporters we are!! Our money is those kid's medicine, don't forget that. We are heading up there Saturday at some point to do a live interview, so we will let you all know so you can link up to listen. Brandon and Allyson are stoked to be the radio. Check this out...WILL SMITH was there this morning, unannounced to spend some time with the children and give to the community. Some of the nurses said they saw him and he was rapping for the kids. I wish I could have seen that! He is such an awesome person for taking the time of his busy lifestyle to do that. Thank you all so much for supporting our hospital and helping raise money for these children!
12/13/2008 11:24:00 AM
ON THE AIR!!! I know this is late notice, but I wanted to share with everything that we are all doing our live interview on Light 102.9 between 2-4 today. Brandon wanted everyone to know to listen out for him because he is so excited to be on the radio :)
See the post below to listen in. Kayleigh is doing great by the way! I will update with some great new photos later tonight.
12/13/2008 4:57:00 PM
11/13/08 - Light 102.9 Radiothon Success!!! The "Our Kids Come First" radiothon with Light 102.9 has been nothing short of a miracle for Kayleigh and all the other children. What they have been doing for Levine Children's Hospital is amazing and we are truly blessed to be in such a wonderful place. Thank you so much Jen, Jim, Phil, Lindsay, Kirstin and Mark!! WE LOVE YOU ALL!!! Here are a few photos of our day. Some of you may have heard just me talking around 3:30 or so, but that was not planned. I was actually in the room taking photos, waiting for our full family air time, but Jen (from Light 102.9) wanted me to talk ASAP for a quick segment. I had no choice to get on the air and for those who know me, I get really nervous to where I shut down when I have too much time to think about speaking in front of people. I am so glad I was put right on the spot and had no chance to worry myself sick. It also made it easy for our long live session which was around 4:30. They interviewed Aimee, Brandon and I for a good 10 minutes. Allyson was too nervous to get on the air, so they gave her 291
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(L to R) Phil, Grandma, Jen, Me, Brandon, Aimee, Ally, & Papa "G" Kayleigh has been doing pretty good. She was making little baby (cooing) sounds yesterday, which was so darn cute!!! She is currently weighing (5 pounds - 3.9 ounces). That is really great progress with her weight, so we can only pray that she keeps it up. Growth is very important right now. She is on full feeds (40mls) and it tolerating it very well! On another note, The cardiologist did another echocargiodgram yesterday and it showed that Kayleigh's pressures are still high. Right now, her pressures are measuring around 68. When Kayleigh was having a hypertensive episode at it's worst and needs to be heavily sedated, her pressures are in the 80's. You and I might have 293
Kayleigh's Story pulmonary pressures somewhere in the teens, so that can give you an idea of where Kayleigh stands at this point. The scary thing is, when she had her echo over a week ago, her pressures were still around 68. That is not a good sign because the last thing we need is her pressures to become fixed in the 60's and not ever be able to drop below that. She could always be on the verge of a pulmonary hypertensive bout that could take her life. Doctors aren't 100% positive, but they feel that growth and time (w/o any infections) are the only cure for her situation. We need to pray and get those pressures down as much as possible, and hope she doesn't get any kind of infection that sends her in to a downward spiral. Lately, she has still been getting irritated and the nurses have to give her a sedative to calm her down, but some days are better than others. I am guessing the Reglan didn't make a difference afterall. Last night, she got really irritated again, but was able to be calmed down without medication. They have increased her oxygen to 6 liters at 90% and she is still on the cannula. Her NO2 is at 15ppm, her Prosticyclin is at 15 (20 is max) and she is still on Viagra, which all of those are to help keep her from spiraling out of control in to a hypertensive episode. Remember, once those pressures become "fixed," she can be in serious trouble. Please pray as hard as you can for her to get better! We want our little girl healthy and at home. Here are some photos of our sweet Kayleigh that we have taken over the past couple days :)
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Doesn't she look so awesome?!?!
12/15/2008 7:44:00 PM
12/15/08 - One Last Chance What do you do when there are no more options? What do you do when time is running out? What do you do when your daughter is dying and there is nothing you can do to help her? There is no research, there are no studies, and there is no other proven medication. The only thing left is God. Right now, Kayleigh is completely 100% in the hands of God and 5%
One big problem with this new medication is that it takes a month before it proves to work at all and I don't think we have a month to spare because of Kayleigh's troublesome prognosis starting last night. Right now, the four medications are keeping Kayleigh alive as her sats will drop quickly when any of them are taken away. There is no telling if this medication will help, but it is a last ditch effort. The doctors don't feel confident about it since the other four "top choices" haven't fixed her hypertension. Besides the medication, the doctors are fearing that Kayleigh's pressures are becoming "fixed" (stuck) or already fixed. When the pressures become fixed, they rise but don't fall. So after that urinary tract infection, her pressures rose to 68, but have not dropped below that mark in over 2 weeks. That only means, she has to outgrow this before her chances become better, which is a really long shot. We were hoping and praying that her pressures would stay reactive long enough to come down before we feared they would become fixed at such a high level, but unfortunately they didn't and her levels right now are too high for her little body. One of three things are going to happen. 1) This last chance medication is going to miraculously work. 2) She will have one final desat that she won't be able to come out of. 3) Her heart will 295
Kayleigh's Story become overwhelmed by the pressure it's not supposed to handle and give up. As I said above, this last chance medication takes up to a month to prove if it is working and I don't think we have a month according to Kayleigh's current prognosis. Last night, Kayleigh started to desat without agitation. She would turn a shade of purple and drop her oxygen saturation in to the 70's - 80s, but take a long time to pull herself out of it. The odd thing is, which she hasn't done before, is she is awake and not showing any signs of irritability. The doctor explained it as the pressures could be getting bad enough to where she doesn't have to be irritated anymore for her saturation levels to drop. She is currently on 100% oxygen at 6 liters of flow, which is the max. She may be placed on the vent, but since she is maxed out on every other medication, it won't help. My fear is the first hypertensive episode that she has or when she does get irritated, she may not be able to pull out of it. All we can do is put it is God's hands and trust that He knows what He is doing. This has truly been one of the hardest days in our lives through this journey, not to mention that today is my "not so happy" birthday. Aimee and I know that Kayleigh has beaten the odds many many times before and we are doing our best to stay as positive as possible. I feel in my gut that we are all going to need a lot more prayers for Kayleigh to make it through this hurdle, so all we can ask is that everyone pray harder than you ever have before. If God decides it is time for Kayleigh to come home, then please pray that your life can find hope through her story. God Bless and please help pray,
12/16/2008 11:51:00 PM
12/16/08 - The Smallest, Biggest Miracle from God After a long and tiring day, Aimee and I are currently in our "sleep in" room at the hospital. We must have walked by this room a thousand times in the 177 days that we have been here, but never thought the day would come where we would be in one of these rooms without preparing to take Kayleigh home. I am sitting here at the desk as Aimee is trying to get a couple hour of shut eye. It was a hard decision to make, coming back to the room to sleep, but we have to do our best to not be tired for the remaining time we have to spend with Kayleigh. We don't know if she has hours or days left in her, but what we do know is her precious little body is slowly showing it's signs of slowing down. There is no more need to go in to detail of her prognosis, and the doctors have been preparing us for what's to come. We are just sitting tight and giving her as much love as we possibly can before she takes her final breath. We know that we and everyone else in charge of her care have done everything that possibly could have been done and we are completely at peace with that. We trust that God had a plan for Kayleigh and even though her life here on earth was just a small moment, she has touched more lives than most people do in a lifetime.
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Kayleigh's Story My only request here is that EVERYONE please say a prayer for yourselves. Please pray that Kayleigh's Story will make your life better for knowing her and following her miraculous journey. Whether your religious walk with God has just started or has been renewed, your relationship with your husband or wife has been strengthened, your family has grown a tighter bond with each other or your outlook on life is much brighter than it was before, please remember Kayleigh has strengthened you and will always be an angel that will look over you in heaven. She is by far the smallest, biggest miracle God has blessed us with. Aimee and I are proud to say that Kayleigh has renewed our faith in God. She has strengthened our marriage and has taught us to love Brandon and Allyson unconditionally. This past year has been one tough ride, but what we have been through has made us much better people. A lot of you ask how we are so strong through this and I 100% give all that glory to God. He is the reason we are strong because without Him, we are lost. Our Lord is the way, the truth and the light!!!
She is our daughter who we will; never bring home to her perfectly painted pink and brown bedroom, never be woken to screaming and crying in the middle of the night, never change those stinkiest of diapers, never learn whose personality she gets, never find out whether she has brown or blond hair, never hear what her first words will be, never see her crawl, walk or ride a bike for the first time, never take her to her first kindergarten class, never show off her "battle wound" scars and tell the stories behind them, never kiss her goodnight every night or read her a story before bedtime, and I will never get to walk her down the aisle. Aimee and I will never hear her say "I love you Mommy and Daddy"
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12/18/08 - Thank you :)
One thing that Aimee mentioned tonight that reminded me of what else has gotten us through this is all of you! Everyone is going to lose someone in their life. You may lose your parents, your children, your brothers or sisters, but what you will always have with you are your friends to support you through it all. You have ALL been there through thick and thin and we are so appreciative of everything you have done. Please pray that Aimee and I continue to stay strong through these next couple days as we go through what no parent should ever have to endure. We have cried many tears today and will continue to cry many tears for a long time. Kayleigh has been nothing short of a miracle to everyone she has come in contact with and it is
going to be so hard to say goodbye when that time comes.
Thank you everyone for all the kind words. It is early AM on Thursday and Kayleigh is still fighting hard. We know God has the final word and we are still hoping and praying for a miracle, but we are comforted in knowing that Kayleigh is in no pain or discomfort right now if she may go to heaven. She is resting peacefully and looking as precious as can be. I can't begin to tell you how much your comments have helped us through this difficult time. We are so amazed at how Kayleigh has touched all of your lives in one way or another. "Kayleigh, We want you to know that you are so special and
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12/18/08 - 10:53am - A Glimmer of Hope!!! PRAY!!! Get on your knees and pray right now!!! Our doctor came to us not too long ago after having a group meeting about Kayleigh and told us that they have some small glimmer of hope. Now I said I would not go in to detail of Kayleigh's prognosis, but I want you to get the full understanding of what we are going through right now and what you all need to pray for. Right now, Kayleigh is currently on the max setting of every machine and medication there is to keep her alive. She is on the vent, 100% oxygen, 20ppm NO2, Viagra, Prosticyclin, and still her oxygen saturation is at 80-85. She is also on 3 different pain/sedation medications and a constant drip of a paralytic. The paralytic is helping right now, but she is quickly getting to the max dose on that. The slightest touch sends her sats dropping and spiraling out of control in to a hypertensive episode. She has earmuffs to block out the sound as every bit of noise will also cause
her to spiral out of control. Kayleigh's x-ray came back yesterday showing some haziness around her lungs and the x-ray that was taken early this morning proved that haziness to be pneumonia and it is getting worse, quickly. They have ordered an ultrasound to see if the fluid showing up on the x-ray is inside or outside of the lungs. The good thing is, it is treatable by antibiotics and extracting the fluid. One follower mentioned Decadron, which is a steroid that helps with inflammation. They have a steroid similar to that which will do the same exact thing, but minus the negative side effects. So thank you for mentioning/screaming it to us. We heard you ;) So, this pneumonia could be making her lungs cause problems with the pulmonary hypertension as did the urinary tract infection the other week. If we can clear up the pneumonia and the excess fluid, we may be able to get Kayleigh back to a state of stability. The only issue comes back to the pulmonary pressures and whether or not they have increased a lot due to the pneumonia and if they will be "fixed" at that level. It is like a zip tie. When something causes Kayleigh's pressures to rise/tighten, nothing will drop/loosen it up again. With Kayleigh's lungs looking the way they do right now, the doctors and nurses are shocked that Kayleigh is currently satting in the mid 80's. All I have to say is that Kayleigh is fighting hard and God is listening to our prayers. Please keep praying that the pneumonia will clear up fast, her fluids will be released from her body and her pressures will return to a better level. Since the doctors have more answers, they are finding little hope in moving to a better prognosis. But, little hope from the doctors is A LOT better than no hope from them at all. Aimee whispered to Kayleigh this morning if she got better, she would give her some bacon. I think Kayleigh heard her, 298
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12/18/08 - 10:25pm Answered Prayers!!!
Bless this mess that's keeping sweet Kayleigh alive!!! PRAISE GOD!!!! He is listening to all of our prayers. Kayleigh is still here for another day and we are all rejoicing in the little bit of progress she has made today. Aimee and I are in complete awe of how powerful all of yours and our prayers have been. It is a true miracle if she makes it through this. I can not express to you the feelings we have had over the past few days as we see our precious Kayleigh slip further and further away from us. It is a situation that I wish on no one as no medication was working to save her. I (Adam) will speak for myself on this one, but after being physically and emotionally drained, all I wanted was Kayleigh to go in peace since our options were slowly drifting away. Having talks with the 299
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Some of you asked if there are any prayers you can say for Brandon and Allyson. Yes! Please pray that they understand us through this trying time. As they seem emotional with not being able to see Kayleigh (RSV season) and not being able to see us as much during Kayleigh's hard times, they will understand the love we have for Kayleigh is the same amount of love we have for them.
Since confirming her situation has been spiraling out of control due to pneumonia, the doctors have taken action to switch her antibiotics to focus directly on the problem, add chest physical therapy and turning Kayleigh on her side to relieve pressure on her lungs, she has made some improvements. Little improvements at this time are BIG improvements in my book. The first x-ray showed her right lung was completely collapsed and her left lung was nearly in the same position. The second x-ray, five hours later and after some of the new orders were written, her lungs have opened up a good bit on the right side and even a little more on the left. Not only were her lungs making progress, her oxygen saturation has as well. She has been satting in the mid to high 90's. The doctors say that once the lungs open up, it takes pressure off the heart and the overload back-up taking place in her liver will diminish. She is still considered critical condition and at anytime, she may have a hypertensive bout that could very well take her life. The x-ray that just came in 2 seconds ago showed there were no change in the past few hours. Pray tonight that the next one in the morning will show more improvements. We are still praying for more days like today so we can have a true Christmas miracle take place as a lot of you mentioned. I want to thank you so much for your prayers, but we are not done with you yet!!! KEEP THEM COMING PLEASE!!!!! I can't begin to scratch the surface of how important your prayers have been in turning this situation completely around.
Also, please pray for Aimee and I. Since Kayleigh has been struggling for the past 6 months, Aimee and I have too. A lot of you think we are this perfect family, and we practically are with the love we have for each other, but we aren't when it comes to the market we all live in. We want you all to include Aimee and I in your prayers as this market turns around quickly. Since coming to the hospital everyday and being in the real estate business together, we have not had nearly the time it takes to survive in a dying market. Since Kayleigh is having such a difficult time and family always comes first, I would hate to find a salary position that would only take time away from the ones that need me most, not to mention that no one is hiring right now. If anyone knows a financial assistance program/company that will help us not go in to foreclosure or lose our only vehicle, we would greatly appreciate it. I know they are out there, but you all have pulled through for us before. Since there are so many of you and only two of us, we figured you all would have much better ideas to help us through this. Please email us at Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com We hate to give out our personal struggles to you all, but we have exhausted every angle and tried so much already that our options have faded away with little more time to waste. I can only trust in God that He is putting a spot light on our weaknesses only to help us find new strength.
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cont...Ways to help!!! Please read the prior post first. Many of those who commented gave us a good idea on setting up a button for those to give donations. The button is over to the right on the toolbar, just click donate. Thank you to those of you have already helped us so generously.
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12/19/08 - WHAT A DAY!!! This has got to be one of the best days in our lives!!! First of all, we want to take the time thank every single person for the support you have given our family. A weight has certainly started to lift off our shoulders and we are so blessed to have such an amazing support system help us through these difficult times. Aimee and I have already promised each other that no matter what and how, we will pass it forward for the rest of our lives. Kayleigh is just a sweet miracle from God!!! But, I am sure you all knew that already. How about this!!! She is currently on vent, but her oxygen is set at 75% and still weaning. Her blood gasses look great!!! Her urine output is great!!! She has not had a single desat all day long!!! She has tolerated her Chest PT, her suctions, and any
kind of touch and she is not nearly on the same high dose of her paralytic either!!! LAST BUT NOT LEAST!!! Kayleigh's oxygen exchange is more than above normal, even with more than 70% of her right lung being closed, more than 30% of her left lung being closed and having high lung pressures to top it off. Our doctor, the one who was giving chest compressions to Kayleigh the other morning to save her precious life and the doctor who was preparing us for one last desat that would cause Kayleigh to spiral out of control to her death, said this morning, "I'M SHOCKED." Can you believe that????? This is a true miracle and blessing from God! There is no way anyone can argue that God is in control here and He is the one who laid His hands on Kayleigh and healed her. We still need many many prayers as she is no where near being out of the woods yet, but she is in a much more stable position right now! It is a humbling experience to sit at your child's bedside and say it is okay to go to heaven, and that her life has been more than a blessing to thousands of people. But, it is also such a rejoicing moment to see it all turn around in a blink of an eye and have the greatest gift of all, your daughter's life back. God must have seen how precious Kayleigh is to so many people and decided that she could do so much more if she'd stay much longer. We agree! Please continue to pray and hope for more wonderful updates to come. Pray over all the doctors and nurses to continue doing an amazing job for Kayleigh. They may not have the right answers 100% the time, but they know a whole lot more than all of us and God has given them those precious gifts to do His work down here. Praise God and we give Him ALL the glory!!! Thank you again for all those who are helping us through 301
Kayleigh's Story donations! To those who ordered Kayleigh bracelets, please be patient because we have to order more and the company can be slow at times. For those who have your bracelets, please email me your photos so we can add them to Kayleigh's scrap book that Aimee is making. (Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com) Some people asked if we have an address and we are going to get a PO Box and post that shortly. I like the idea of everyone emailing Oprah and Ellen. How cool would that be to touch the lives of millions???? God would be so proud!!! One more thing, an awesome follower topped our night off with a well needed smile. Actually, Aimee and I nearly rolled on the floor laughing so hard we were crying when we watched this video. Please join us in our Freeman Family Christmas Disco (CLICK HERE). I hope you laugh till your cheeks hurt, because a smile is worth more than a million dollars. God Bless, The Freemans :)
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12/20/08 - Look Who's Awake!!!
Just the other day, Aimee and I thought we would never see these beautiful eyes looking back at us again. Oh what an amazing feeling this was today to see Kayleigh open her eyes for the first time in several days. Our hearts just melted, we had a smile from ear to ear and we praised God and gave Him all the glory for healing our daughter. I almost wish every single one of you could have seen how close to death Kayleigh actually was. She was looking so rough and swollen, that we chose not to take photos because that is not how we wanted to remember her if she passed away. It was by far one of the most painful and frightening situations anyone could ever be in. We have never cried so much in our whole lives than we did that whole day. Kayleigh still looks swollen, but not nearly as bad as she was. If you remember the photos from her open heart surgery, she was much worse than that. Kayleigh is amazing and she continues to make 302
Kayleigh's Story improvements. She is currently on 46% oxygen and completely off the paralytic. They still have it hooked up in case they need it for an emergency. If you see on her arms, she has a couple IV's and an arterial line in too. There is also a Broviac Line in her abdomen that is a straight shot to her heart for other medications or if she needs blood. These lines are delivering Kayleigh her triple mix nutrients, steroid medication, hypertension medication, hypothyroid medication, sedation medication and pain medications. She has great urinary output, so that will allow the swelling/edema to make its way out of the body. Her face is so puffy, they have to lubricate her eyes to they don't dry out, which makes it look likes she's crying. The tube in her nose is pulling off green gook from her stomach, which is "backup" from her digestive tract slowing down. It is green because of her stomach acids, yummy.
infections. The plan is to follow Kayleigh's lead. If Kayleigh responds well to weaning off the vent, then so be it. If she tolerates less medications, then they will reduce her medications. So far, she is progressing wonderfully and everyone is in complete amazement right now. We walk through the halls today with people smiling at us as they know Kayleigh is doing well. The other day, they would put on one of those "Bless you heart" faces, so we are glad to everyone else happy too. Aimee and I were nearly jumping out of our skin we were so happy today. People may have thought we were crazy or something.
Kayleigh's x-rays continue to show signs of improvement in her lungs. Since being put in a different position, getting chest PT and a steroid, it has allowed the mess in her lungs to break up and be suctioned out. Seeing her sat in the 90's while being awake is a great sight to see. Just the other day, she was completely sedated and paralyzed, and she was still desatting at the slightest touch or noise. Speaking of noise, the yellow thing on her ear is her ear muff. We just rolled her over, so she only had it on one side. When she has both on, she looks like an air traffic controller from the airport. They are planning on putting in a JG Tube, which will feed Kayleigh her breast milk/fortifier, but the tube will be inserted past her stomach. They have to enter outside the stomach, through the skin and right in to her intestines. The reason they are doing that is to keep Kayleigh from inhaling her reflux from micro-aspirations, which may be the reason she got pneumonia in the first place. One way or the other, she will be able to grow quicker, not have to worry about digestion problems and it reduces the risk of other
Aimee and I were able to come home and spend some time with Brandon and Allyson. We told them all about the wonderful people out there and how they are helping us out financially. They both felt like they wanted to do something similar for someone else in need, so they asked if they could have one less gift so they could donate that gift money to someone who needs it (like a lot of you are doing for us). So our family as a whole, even though we are struggling, felt it would glorify God by passing on the $20-25 per gift we have gotten so far to an organization of their choice. Allyson is not sure where she wants to donate. Brandon, heart breaker as he is, said he wants to donate it to a foster child. How sweet is he?!?!? Thank you EVERYONE for your support through this tough time. Please keep praying HARD for Kayleigh. Things are moving in the right direction and we are so blessed to have had another day with our little girl. God Bless, The Freemans :)
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That problem lies within the lungs and the lung tissue where that oxygen is transferred from those sacs and in to the blood. Two main reasons that lung tissue can become damaged is too much oxygen (high vent settings) or reflux from aspirations. So at this time, they are lowering the amount of oxygen Kayleigh has to be on so her oxygen saturation can sit in the mid 80's instead of the 90's. There will be no damage to the other organs for satting lower, even if it is for long periods of time. This will reduce the oxygen in the lungs and not cause anymore damage to the lung tissue (wall). Also, by inserting the JG tube to feed Kayleigh, that will allow Kayleigh to not have any chance to aspirate her feeds to where she inhales it in to her lungs. When that happens, the stomach acids eat away the tissue in the lungs causing them more damage. Our main goal is to prevent anything from destroying what tissue she may have left so she can grow new lung tissue.
12/21/08 - Plan of Care!!! Okay Everyone. Here we go!!! Aimee and I both sat down with our cardiologist's nurse practitioner (CNP) tonight and we may have a game plan set in place to get Kayleigh's pulmonary hypertension under control and possibly a one way ticket home. Prayers are the only way through this wild adventure we are about to take, but I am more confident than ever that Kayleigh will succeed. Each task at hand must be completed successfully before the next process can begin and this is not going to be a walk in the park. I spoke last night a little bit about the JG tube that they may be putting in Kayleigh's intestines to help with her reflux/micro-aspirates. Tonight, I felt like our CNP has unlocked the door to Kayleigh's only path home. Thank God for such intelligence. Since Kayleigh has been on two of the best medications to treat her pulmonary hypertension (O2/NO2), it is evident that it is working, but something else is keeping Kayleigh from getting those pressures down. Look at it like a wall that divides two sides...on one side is blood and the other side is lungs. For the oxygen to get in the blood, it needs to be absorbed through that wall. If that wall is damaged, then the oxygen will not get through like it is supposed to. Simple right??? Well, since we have been paying attention to one side where the O2/NO2 helps open the lung sacs to fill up with oxygen, we completely forgot about the wall where that oxygen
That sounds pretty easy to take care of except we all know that Kayleigh's condition right now may not be well enough to handle a procedure that involves anesthesia. It will be done at Kayleigh's bedside so we don't have to worry about transferring her to the operating room. Although, we all saw what happened when she had the cath procedure that nearly took her life right before her open heart surgery. On top of that, if the lung tissue is damaged, it will not work to transfer that oxygen in to the blood anymore as intended. We have to hope and pray that the tissue is still good. Once the JG-tube is done, they can enter a scope in to Kayleigh's lungs to see how damaged the tissue is and if there are any narrow linings in the lung sacs. That will determine Kayleigh's prognosis and
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The Freemans :)
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12/22/08 - Quiet and Peaceful Day Today was a very quiet day for Kayleigh. There was not a whole lot that went on and she slept for most of the day. The only thing they worked on today was lowering her settings, so the high oxygen settings do not do any more damage to the lung tissue than they already have. She is down to the low 40's on the amount of oxygen she is getting, but her other settings (pressure) are still high. If we continue to progress some each day, she will hopefully be off the vent in a week or so. We have not set a time or date as to when they will be doing the JG tube. The x-rays have shown improvement with her pneumonia day after day, so we are so happy to see that clearing up. She got another IV today to receive a blood transfusion due to low hemoglobin count. They had to put it in her head because all the other veins in her arms were taken and her legs have not been very plentiful with good sights. Other than that, it was very quiet and we LOVE quiet!!! When Kayleigh has a good day, we all have a good day. If you can see me now. My head is still shaking back and forth in amazement as our 305
Kayleigh's Story God has shown us day in and day out how powerful He is and what a miracle He has blessed us with. Kayleigh is one tough cookie!!! A lot of you were asking for an address, so Aimee and I planned on getting a PO box until the post office said it would take a couple days and it would cost an arm and a leg, so we just decided to use our home address. Please email if you would like to receive that addrress. Thank you so much for helping us make this Christmas as less stressful as possible to where we can enjoy our family time together and not have to deal with a huge weight on our shoulders. God Bless Every Single One Of You!!!! You all are amazing to us and we couldn't be more blessed. Thank you SO MUCH!!! Kayleigh is 6 months old tomorrow!!! WOO HOO!!!
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12/23/08 - Photos Well, I brought my camera to take some photos of Kayleigh tonight, but I forgot the insert card that saves all the photos on it. Oops :( And you know what??? Kayleigh's swelling has gone down a lot, so she isn't so puffy anymore. I will be sure not to forget it tomorrow. Kayleigh is doing great today for her 6th month birthday! While they are waiting for her pneumonia to go away and recover a little bit more, they decided to insert a tube directly in to Kayleigh nose and all the way in to her intestines. It passes her stomach, so this will reduce the chances of reflux/micro-aspirates as much as
possible for right now. They started her on feeds tonight (1ml/hr of plain breast milk continuously) so she can focus on growth. They don't want to risk her having a bad outcome from a small procedure(jg-tube). If you haven't noticed, Kayleigh can handle all the tough hurdles like open heart surgery, but she has so much trouble with smaller things like a urinary tract infection or the cath procedure. "Drama Queen!" Overall, today was another quiet/great day and we are praying that the next two days are just as quiet so we can all enjoy the holidays with a little less stress on our plates. I can't wait to take some photos of Kayleigh in her Christmas beanie and blanket. Because it is red and white, I actually think she will look like "Where's Waldo." Ha! Since I made a boo boo with the camera today, I didn't want those to go un-noticed for sending in their photos for Kayleigh's scrapbook. Here are some of our followers who we want to say "THANK YOU" to. We appreciate you all sending in the photos and this scrap book is going to be out of this world! We have so many people who have supported us through this, I can't wait to see Kayleigh's eyes when she really understands the impact she has made on so many people. It is a true blessing and we are so thankful to have every single one of you holding our hands through this difficult journey. If you have not sent in your photos or if I missed it, please email an attachment photo to me. (Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com) Enjoy the photos:
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12/24/08 - A Christmas Miracle!!!
This photo is just too adorable!!! Kayleigh had a rough start to her day, but she has been wonderful ever since and I think I know why. At first we thought Kayleigh was irritated from the gastrointestinal doctor coming by to get a feel for things in her tummy. She didn't like him poking around and she had one of her horrible episodes. She dropped her sats and spiraled out
of control to the point where it took quite some time to get her sats back up to normal. One of our primary nurses told Kayleigh that Santa wasn't going to come if she was a bad girl today, so she straightened up for the rest of the day. I think it had to do something with the massive poop she had when changed her diaper. I mean, Good Gracious!!! She left me a huuuuge nasty present for me and I have been "mostly" good all year. I thought I have seen big poops from her before, but this took two diapers to clean up. Whew!!! :) Needless to say, she felt so much better after I changed her and she was quickly off to sleep for the rest of the evening while we were there. We spoke to the doctor for a good bit of time tonight and he prayed over Kayleigh for us. That makes you feel so wonderful to see a doctor do that with us. It was the second time he prayed over her and the last time was right before her open heart surgery. That leads me to tell you about what happened last week when Kayleigh wasn't doing so good. Aimee and I have contemplated for a while now to get Kayleigh baptized while she was here at the hospital and since things took a turn for the worse, we questioned again whether or not to do this. Now, we know whether she gets baptized or not, she is going to heaven. We also believe that a baptism should be chosen by the one who is getting baptized as it shows they're committing themselves to Christ and not someone else choosing it for them (such as us parents). If we were to baptize her, we wanted Wade Joye to do it for us as he was the one who baptized Aimee and I at Elevation Church. It just so happened that Liana was going in to surgery the same day that Kayleigh was at her worst, which was the same day we were contemplating the most about having her baptized (ironic huh?) Wade was more than happy to come up after his daughters surgery to baptize Kayleigh for us. When Wade was praying over Kayleigh, she began to desat, which I believe deep in my heart that she was beyond excited to be getting baptized that she lost control. Not to mention, Kayleigh 311
Kayleigh's Story started to progress the next day and make some serious changes in her prognosis. Now I am not saying that Wade has the healing touch, so don't bombard him with emails :) But, I feel Wade is an amazing follower of Jesus who sets a perfect example of how God wants us to be. Getting Kayleigh baptized by Wade was a very special moment for all of us and we appreciate the Joye's so very much for the love and support they have given us over these past 6 months. Adleigh and Liana have two of the most wonderful parents that anyone could ask for. Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers! We have been getting so many wonderful emails, and we enjoy reading every single one of them. When you wake up to anxiously wait for a post, I am anxiously waiting to read emails. They really brighten up our days and make this journey so much easier. You all are amazing and we are so blessed to share Kayleigh's story and to hear how she has touched your lives. Besides keeping a great journal, that is the main reason I post every single night. I feel this has been my calling to do the will of God. Thank you for sharing in our journey with us. With everyone's love and Kayleigh's progress, this has truly been CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!!!
and watch out for everyone's safety. We would never do anything to hurt, cheat or steal from anyone as I am sure you all know that. People have sent us bad comments saying we are stealing people's hard earned money, which is downright ridiculous. I had such a hard time posting our troubles to be as real as I can be to everyone who cares with the intent of finding a direction to take my family out of financial strain, which in no way did I ask people for money as it was suggested to do a trust fund or paypal donation. People even asked if they could do something for our kids beyond what was given to us financially and all we did was accept their generosity by telling them our kids Christmas wishes. We apologize if that offends anyone. I figured if people wanted our address bad enough, they would find it. So, we didn't think it would be a big deal posting it on the site. I guess we were wrong since people are posting it to do harm to us and to be honest, Aimee and I are very frightened that someone would go to that extent. This is not the worries we need to have on Christmas and the only thing I can blame it on is the devil, but we are not going to stoop to any bad persons level and let them get the best of us. We are going to forgive them as they do not know our wonderful God and we can only pray one day they will.
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Please pray for those people who are being rude and keep track of all of those who are saying these nasty things so we can prepare ourselves if something bad were to happen.
Gabriella and everyone else, Thank you so much for making us aware there are some not so nice people out there who are bashing us and saying rude things. As God would want us to turn our cheeks, we still need to band together
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12/25/08 - MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! Merry Christmas from our family to yours. I sure hope everyone had as much fun with their family as we did. We woke up early this morning and opened up presents here at our house and shortly after that, we went to Aimee's mom's house to celebrate with the whole family. "Thank you so much Nama for doing Christmas at your house this year as it was one less thing we had to stress out about." After that was all said and done, we went to spend Christmas time with sweet Kayleigh. She didn't want to party like everyone else, instead she just slept and slept some more. She is having a much better day since yesterday morning's events. I wasn't able to get any good photos because she was face down, drooling and snotting like a champ! "That's my girl" They have had to suction her out quite a bit today, but it is good that she is getting it all out of her system. The last x-ray showed the lungs are clearing up very well. The right side has actually looking better than the left side now, which is great but we are definitely not at 100% yet. Monday is the scheduled day for the jg-tube procedure. We can cancel it up to ten minutes before the procedure, so depending on how Kayleigh is doing will depend on whether or not we go through with it. We are all for the jg-tube to be inserted, but our biggest fear is Kayleigh's prognosis at the time of the procedure and if she will be able to handle it. I know she will be heavily sedated, paralyzed and on anesthesia, but she is still very sensitive to the slightest touch and could spiral out of control at anytime.
After speaking with the doctor in length, the biggest fear is coronary pulmonale, which is right side heart failure. The basis behind that scenario is due to the right side of the heart's inability to withstand the pulmonary pressures caused by her hypertension. The jg-tube will reduce the risk of damaging the lungs anymore, food will help Kayleigh grow and hopefully we can buy us some time to grow without the heart failing on us. It seems that even if Kayleigh's pressures come down, she still needs to grow quickly so she can build new lung tissue and grow out of this problem she has. It is not going to happen over night, so we can only pray that she stay healthy and grow as quickly as possible. Regards to the nasty emails we have gotten and some of the threats out there, Aimee and I appreciate your comments today as we want to make sure we never hurt anyone's feelings. We have taken in to consideration about contacting the authorities once we lock down a message board or site that is making these threats. If anyone comes across one of these sites, please email us so we can pass it on to team of authorities who will locate these people by their IP Addresses and quickly resolve the issues. We aren't going to play any games with our children's lives and I am sure you all wouldn't either. It would be best to pray for these people and hope they find their way to salvation before it is too late. Thank you everyone for being so awesome to our family and making this Christmas such a wonderful and blessed filled day. Everyone thanks us all the time for sharing Kayleigh's story with them, but I want to thank you for listening. I have never been as passionate about writing until I started this blog. I never knew what God's plan was for me until I started writing this blog. I never thought that I would be able to save someone or bring their relationship closer to God until I started writing this blog. 313
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12/27/08 - Giving Back!!!
Kayleigh wanted me to tell everyone "Thank you." I'm serious, she turned towards me tonight and said, "Hi Daddy! Please tell all those wonderful people out there that I am so thankful to be here and it is because of their prayers that I am alive." Ya know, If Kayleigh really could talk and say what's on her mind. I think she would be saying those exact words. Maybe, she would tell us how crappy it is to have one tube in one nose, another tube in the other and an even bigger tube down her throat. Do you realize how big of a baby I would act if I had to put up with that. I complain when I have to get one IV and she has several. What do you think she would be
Sweet Kayleigh is doing good today. I feel she has not looked as good as she did today in a long time. Her color was good and she was satting great for several hours that I spent watching her sleep. She did wake up a couple times when I let go of her hand and looked around as if she was checking to see if I left. Once I placed my finger back in her hand, she squeezed it and fell quickly back to sleep. Kayleig weighed in at 6 pounds - 4 ounces. So that is a true weight after getting rid of her swelling and is off the Lasix (diuretic) medication. We are pleased to see that she really did break the 6 pound mark and is on her way to outgrow this disease that is trying to kill her. She is on continuous feeds of 2 ml's/hr, so that should help put some more weight on fairly quickly. As of right now, her jg-tube procedure is scheduled for 12:00 noon(est) on Monday. If we have any doubt that she is not the best she possibly can be for this procedure, we are going to pull out and hold off until she is. We can not risk this procedure taking her life right now. She needs this procedure to reduce the damaging of her lung tissue, but we don't need to risk her dying because she is not ready yet. It is so hard to consent to these procedures because you know she needs it, but only if Kayleigh could tell us whether or not she is well enough to handle it. Please pray that this procedure is successful and we can continue down this road to recovery. I wanted to take the time to shine the light on two wonderful people who I feel need a helping hand with the journey God has placed before them. If we ever had a question, someone out there has an answer. God has placed all of you in our life to help us and for that, I feel like I want to do the right thing and give that to someone else. The first couple that I would like to mention, are Michelle and 317
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Onesie Drive Website. Thank you Rachel and Ryan for everything you are doing and we will pray that your Onesie drive is a success. God Bless! "Thank you God for blessing us all with your love. Your word is so obvious through Kayleigh and the supporters from all over the world. I pray that you give us the strength to continue in this journey by holding you up high in front of us to lead the way. Give us wisdom and time to find ways to help those in need, even when all of our plates seem full"
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12/28/08 - Set in Stone!!!
Second, You all know Rachel & Ryan. (Carly and Hannah's Mom & Dad). Well, if you don't, you must read both blogs of their precious angels and see what this beautiful family has been through over the past two years. We are so blessed to have gotten to know Rachel and Ryan through Kayleigh's journey. Even with the troubles in their own lives, they have been able to reach out and be a shoulder for us when we needed one. Carly approached me last week with an idea to give back to the NICU and it is one amazing way to help those who are in need. She has designed a onesie drive to donate outfits to the preemie's at the hospital where Kayleigh is right now. There are over 100 preemies in there right now and if it weren't for us bringing clothes for Kayleigh, she would be naked and wrapped up in towel that has been washed million times. They usually rely on people to donate clothes and since the market has been tight for most people, the clothes there have been slowly diminishing. You can read more about what this amazing family is doing on their
Since Kayleigh weighed in at 6.4 pounds yesterday, one of Kayleigh's friends mentioned doing a comparison with her (Webkin) bestfriend, "Brittany." To learn more about who Brittany is and how she is such a special friend to Kayleigh, go back to the post on 7/5/08. As you can tell, Kayleigh is much bigger now. Hopefully it won't take her six more months to grow six more pounds. Let's pray for weight gain!!! (When are you going to pray for weight gain ever again??Ha-Ha!)
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12/29/08 - Need Prayers + Procedure Cancelled I guess Kayleigh has her own way of showing us that this procedure was not supposed to happen. Late last night, before Aimee and I went to bed, Kayleigh had an hypertensive episode. She dropped her sats fairly low, but never spiraled out of control like she normally does. Kayleigh must be getting used to some of the sedation medication because they had to bump up her dosage and switch over to Morphine to really get her to relax. She slowly recovered back to normal. Around 6:30 in the morning, we got a phone call that she had another episode, but this time she spiraled out of control and needed to be paralyzed along with more sedation medication. During this episode, she was not responding like normal and she is currently on a much higher pressure control setting at 100% oxygen. The x-ray came back showing her left lung is collapsing. They have started some treatments to fix it and hopefully Kayleigh can turn things around. We are not sure if this is pneumonia coming back or her elevated pressures causing her lungs to close up. Either or is not good.
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12/30/08 - Progress!! Kayleigh is making some progress after her recent hypertensive episode which cancelled her jg-tube procedure. She is finally coming down from high pressure settings and 100% oxygen on the vent. The x-ray showed some improvement with the left side of the lung, but it still looks nasty in there. They are going to give her a few doses of Lasix to dry and get some of that out of there. I guess this was Kayleigh's way of telling us she was not ready for the procedure, I just wish she wouldn't scare the mess out of us in the process. Please continue to pray that she will recover back to where she was before, and then some so we can move forward with this procedure (When she is ready) and start repairing the damage that has already been done to her lungs. Kayleigh continues to amaze us all and we can only hope and pray she has enough fight in her to grow out of this illness. Also, please pray for Stellan. He has come down with RSV and you can read about his battle on MckMama's site. Let her know our mighty prayer warriors are praying for her precious son as well!
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The Answer to my problem!
1/3/2009 11:02:00 PM
Since I posted this so close to the last update, please check that one in case you missed it.
1/3/09 - Great Start!!!
The answer to my problem has been found. As I have been updating this blog with cool gadgets, Twitter is the answer to my blog and Facebook updates. I can text message a quick update throughout the day to keep people up to date on what is going on with Kayleigh, so I don't have to post every single night and you don't have to wait for it to come! Also, with the limited amount of time we have in a day, I can focus that hour or so that I am posting on work or quality time with Aimee. I will continue to post updates of the most important things in case people missed it on Twitter or Facebook, as I still need these posts to be included in the book that I am writing about our journey. So, throughout the day, you can go to the side tool bar of the blog (over to the right) and follow the updates that I text from my phone. You can also, click on "follow me on Twitter" and I am guessing you will get updates on your blog or sent to you. (not quite sure yet, still learning). Thank you all so much for your prayers! 321
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These were a couple photos that I took over the last two days. Don't you just love her ear muffs?!?! First and foremost, I am loving Twitter so you all can get the updates on the blog and Facebook on a regular basis. I will still continue to update the blog every couple days, but mainly to recap and show photos. If you haven't joined up, go to the right tool bar to follow the daily updates by reading along or getting text messages to your phone This has been an awesome start to a brand new year. The year 2008 is over with and hopefully so is all the drama that came with it. Kayleigh continues to surprise us all with her strength as she tackles these issues like a champ. Just the other day, she was having another hypertensive episode that was so intense, her heart rate was dropping because it could not keep up with the massive
Thank goodness it was cancelled as she is doing better now than she was prior to her nasty episode. In fact, the doctors are thinking about not even completing the jg-tube procedure in the future after gaining pertinent information from the CT-scan that was performed yesterday. Kayleigh lungs have made significant improvement after the pneumonia and her previous x-ray that showed more left sided lung deflation. The doctors feel that if there are any signs of issues that could be caused by mircro aspirates/reflux, they may consider doing the jg-tube later. But for now, she has a tube that goes through her nose, past her stomach and in to her intestines. She is currently on 6 mls an hour, continuously and tolerating them very well. Yesterday was a very stressful day as the CT-scan procedure was pushed back twice and the fear of Kayleigh falling in to another pit of hypertension. It took 6 people to transfer her down successfully and I don't think any of them took a breath until she was back at her bedside safe and sound. She made it through the scan with flying colors and is continuing to make unbelievable progress. The scan showed a couple blemishes which were left over from the pneumonia, but nothing out of the ordinary that concerned them. Kayleigh is currently on very low vent settings and the doctors are talking about extubating her in a few days if she continues to do well. It just amazes us to see how quickly she can bounce back from facing death one week to feeling as great as she is right now. She is still irritable, but no where near where she was and each day that 323
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weekend for Aimee and I. We are so blessed to have a tight knit family who loves each other unconditionally. We love you all so much! Here are some photos of our amazing time together:
So as of right now, we have gotten all the information to send to CHOP (Children's Hospital of Philadelphia). They want all the information from her files and tests, so they can see what has been done and if there is anything they can do differently from here on out. If they feel they can offer something our children's hospital can't, then we will figure out a way to get her up there as quick as possible. Another major concern is if she will be able to handle the transfer. She will have to be heavily sedated/paralyzed for several hours as the helicopter ride can be very dangerous for her with this pulmonary hypertension. Our doctors have been consulting CHOP all along, so hopefully we can continue to stick it out here and not risk hurting Kayleigh in a transfer or uprooting our family. We do have family in Philly who have been gracious enough to open their homes to us if we go! God Bless our awesome family!!! For most of you who didn't know, I grew up of Jewish faith, but became a Christian several years back. Every year my side of the family gets together for a weekend to celebrate Hanukkah and New Years. I can't believe it has been a year already, but last year at this time Aimee and I were hoping to surprise our family with a positive pregnancy test. It came a couple days later, but it still feels like forever ago. We have had an amazing time this weekend with both of my brothers and their family coming in from out of town. It is a house full with all the kids, but it is a blessing to enjoy family time and laugh away all our stress. It was most definitely a well needed 324
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Can you believe the progress Kayleigh has made over the past couple days? She has been fighting so hard and doing so well! We are so very proud of her and we have no doubt in our mind that she is going to continue to make great progress and get herself out of that hospital. Kayleigh is currently satting in the mid 90's where she is supposed to be and she is down almost as far as you can go on the vent settings. Her oxygen is set at room air or just above and there is next to none when it comes to the amount of pressure being pumped through that vent tube and in to her lungs. Actually, she is breathing over the vent 99% of the time which is an awesome sign. The scary part is the muscle/tissue in her lungs that seems to fail her when the vent tube is removed. After doing so well on the vent, the doctors proceeded to remove the vent tube (extubate) from her throat. Once they did this, somewhere in her airways decided
All we can do is pray that she continues to keep up this great progress and grow quickly. The doctors have administered several doses of Lasix (diuretic) to remove some of the extra fluid in and around the lungs, so she has dropped some weight. She has dropped to 6 pounds from being at 6.4 pounds several days ago. It is so amazing to see the growth that she has made in the past six months. There are times that I catch myself checking out the other babies on the way out of the NICU and saying to myself "Wow, look at how small that baby is" and remembering that Kayleigh was much smaller than most of them. This has been a long hard road and the end is no where in site yet, but we are going to keep pushing, praying and fighting as hard as we possibly can. Every single one of our family, friends and followers have been so unbelievable with the support they have given. I feel like I say that every time I post, but I truly can not say it enough, so "Thank you!!!" Also, I want to tell everyone how lucky I am. I have the best wife in
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We just received the latest bracelet shipment and we will be sending those out shortly. Sorry for the delay, but they’re coming soon. If you haven’t sent in your photo wearing your Kayleigh bracelet, please do so we can put it on the site and add it to the scrapbook we are making for Kayleigh. The first set of photos are awesome! This first one is from my family in Ohio. The Christmas tree they brought home was a little too big for their angel, so they decided to link all their Kayleigh bracelets to take the angels place. That is just too amazing!!!
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The second set is from Ryan who has learned that when he gets a boo boo, to go in the freezer and get the icepack to make the boo boo all better. Well, on his own will, Ryan grabbed the icepack and put it on the computer to heal Kayleigh’s boo boo’s. How sweet is that!!!
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Here are some more recent photos that I have received from some of our followers. Thank you all so much for sharing your photos with us and we are just so thankful to have every single one of you in our lives. Keep those prayers coming.
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See It To Believe It!!!
This is from Africa!!! AWESOME!
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Sorry if the videos come across dark, but there is only so much light we like to keep on in the NICU. Kayleigh needs peace an quiet so she can sleep and grow. It is so hard to visit her though and not want to touch or kiss her as it will wake her up. It is amazing how much her heart rate changes when she is sleeping and when she is awake. That extra 20-30 beats per minute because she is excited to see us can cause her to lose weight. After the second failed attempt today to extubate her, the doctors have decided to give her some steroids (Decadron) to help reduce the inflammation in her airways. That may be the best way to get her off the vent as soon as possible. Saturday is going to be the next attempt, so pray that her airway gets the treatment or recovery time it needs to come off that vent. Besides the troubles with the vent, Kayleigh is doing fantastic. Her oxygen is around room air (21%) and her pressures settings are almost at their lowest settings. I didn't think you could go much lower than she was before, but I was wrong. Her feeds were 336
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to see what the power of prayer can really do. If you haven't grabbed on of Kayleigh's Button on the tool bar to the right, do so and add it to your blog, website or message board for others to see. Let's all do God's will and touch the lives of others in one way or another. Maybe we can change this world one person at a time because we all know that our future is in the hands of these children. If one person can hug their child closer at night and love them unconditionally, just think of the difference it can make in their child's future.
The Nitric Oxide was lowered to 10ppm today and Kayleigh is still doing amazing. That goes to show that her pressures may very well be "REACTIVE" still. How amazing would that be if they were??? It would be a true miracle that she has gone through such a rough patch and still come out on top with reactive pulmonary pressures. If we can continue to move Kayleigh in the right direction, she will beat this challenge fair and square and go home a champion! What a tough little cookie!
There is no greater feeling than to love or be loved! God Bless, The Freemans :)
Does anyone know a good hair restoration or hair coloring for men? (jk) Actually, with all this stress from this crazy roller coaster, I am shocked that I am not completely bald by now. Although my oldest brother swears that "Bald is Beautiful." Maybe on him, but I have taken a straight razor to my head for baseball before and it isn't pretty! The clippers I have cut it short enough because it's receding, but I am not going to go any further than that. I am loving this Twitter thing! It is great to update for you all through out the day so I don't have to post every single night. I know a lot of people get text messages when I update, so I don't want to flood you all with too many messages, but If anyone has any suggestions as to what else they would like to hear about, let me know. Like I say day in and day out, our goal with this blog is to touch lives. So everyone has homework tonight and that is to tell one person the glory of God through Kayleigh's Story. Pass them along
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One Tough Cookie!!! Can you tell Kayleigh doesn’t like to lay on her back anymore? Actually, she was fine for about 30 minutes, but soon wanted to be put back on her tummy. She is so picky because she used to never like being on her tummy. I guess she likes to keep us on our toes, which goes along with everything else she does or doesn’t do. Her file is going to be named the “Kayleigh’s Way” file and her WHOLE file is going to be a “case study” for other doctors to be cautious about. It will read, “Handle with care, unpredictable baby syndrome”
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Anyhow, I’m sorry to get you all as fired up as I am but there is no room for mistakes with “our” precious Kayleigh and I need to get to the bottom of that. Moving on…As of right now, Kayleigh’s Pepcin test that was sent off to the labs has come back confirming there ARE micro aspirates in her lungs, which are causing damage to the lung tissue. To fix this problem, they need to perform the Nissen surgery, where the doctors tack up Kayleigh’s stomach to eliminate the chance for aspirations. Our stomachs are horizontal at some places, causing acids to build up and when refluxed, they are aspirated in to the lungs. When the doctors tack the stomach up, it makes the whole stomach vertical which will then prove the law of gravity by allowing everything that enters the stomach to continue on its expected path. While they perform this surgery under anesthesia, they will also insert a G-tube, which is a feeding tube that feeds directly to the stomach instead of having a tube down the nose anymore. This will also allow the airways to heal quicker without having another tube in there. That leads to the next surgery which is the tracheotomy. If the time that Kayleigh is on the vent for the next week or two while they perform the Nissen/ G-tube surgery to allow time for Kayleigh’s airways to recover and she can be extubated successfully, then she will not need the tracheotomy. Let’s hope and pray that she doesn’t have to get that. I heard it isn’t too bad, but after talking with the nurse about the possibility of full time home care, that will be quite an adjustment. Either way, we would make it work though! On a really great note! Kayleigh is down to 6ppm on her Nitric 338
Kayleigh's Story Oxide, which is the lowest she has been in a long time. That goes to prove her pressures are still reactive and she could still grow out of this hypertension if she stays healthy and grow. With the doctors fearing her pressures were fixed, we were afraid she would never come off the vent and take a turn for the worse, but ALL of your prayers have worked again! Can you believe this amazing work God has done on Kayleigh? It is so evident that He is hearing all of our prayers and continuing to show us how powerful He is. Man!!! I am just so pumped up about her progress that I feel every ounce of excitement in my stomach. It feels as if I am going to burst from the inside out and I want to scream until my voice becomes horse.
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Doing God’s will together! I took the initiative to provide some website/emails of some great possibilities to spread Kayleigh’s story to reach families out there who need to hear it. Whether it is to bring them closer to God, bring their family’s closer together or just give them hope in their own journey’s. Here are a list of local news, local newspaper and some national television shows (links) that I could find for everyone to email. I have written them already, but these producers need to here it from you all. They need to know about Kayleigh and how she has touched your lives, plus it wouldn’t hurt to gain some more prayer warriors. So, if you write your quick message, copy and paste it to each link and send it, we may be able to share our story to millions and what blessing that would be. Make sure you include the blog site so they can be captivated in to learning more. Thank you all so much for your help and let’s do God’s will together. Amen!!! Oprah - https://www.oprah.com/ord/plugform.jsp?plugId=216
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Observer - http://www.charlotteobserver.com/contact/ WSOC - http://www.wsoctv.com/station/1928956/detail.html Thank you everyone for everything you have done for our family. We not only pray for Kayleigh to make it through this journey, but we pray that every single one of you find a purpose through Kayleigh's story. She is certainly one tough cookie, but beyond beating every obstacle in her way, she has taught so many people how tough God is too. God Bless, The Freemans :)
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I must say, sitting in a room with a neonatologist, cardiologist, gastroenterologist, pulmonologist, all of their nurse practitioners, a social worker, discharge nurse, and our primary nurse with all eyes on us is quite a stressful situation. There is a lot of brain power going on that you can feel the temperature in the 10x15 room just heat up every minute that passes. A fear of mine is talking in front of a group, but I guess it was worse when it was a group of VERY intelligent people. Once we got going, it wasn't too bad to speak up. Overall, the meeting went really well! It started off with our neonantologist going over all the wonderful memories that we have had in the past 206 days. Not to mention, I am still trying to forget the 3 months of hell just prior to ever meeting any of these professionals before Kayleigh was born. After we recapped all of our ups and downs, each specialist went over what they felt was best for Kayleigh's care from here on out so we can ALL be on the
same page and tackle each problem one at a time. Hopefully I am not confusing as I explain the order of events. I have mentioned them previously, but each procedure that is about to happen is going to get Kayleigh better and home as soon as possible. We are still looking at quite a few months in the hospital if everything goes as planned, but with the help from all of you out there who are going to pray over her through each hurdle is going to help make this a successful journey from here on out. First things first, we need to tackle the airway issues. On Monday, Dr. Parsons who is a renown ear nose and throat specialist is taking Kayleigh down to surgery to do a more in depth bronchoscopy (with a video recorder) to figure out what is going on with Kayleigh and why her airways are closing up after every extubation attempt. After he is through and if he finds something he can fix right then and there, he will. If not, the doctors will put their heads together and either go the route of a tracheotomy to help heal whatever this long term problem is, or find another way to fix it. We are still unknown of the problem, but the renown specialist thinks the problem may be cysts which have formed on the vocal chords, not allowing air to pass through when the vent tube is extubated. We can only pray that this is the problem because the doctor can zap those cysts and fix the problem during his procedure on Monday. After the airway issue has been taken care of, they are going to tackle the feeding issue. The reflux that is being aspirated in to the lungs are tearing up the lung tissue and for Kayleigh to have a chance to grow out of this pulmonary hypertension issue, she needs to grow back healthy lung tissue. The more aspirates she may have, the more damage those lungs take and the longer it takes to heal (if at all). Some lung tissue may not grow back and could cause long term damage or death as Kayleigh will not be able to supply her growing body with the amount of oxygen it needs when the body outgrows the lungs. So, in order to fix the aspirate issues, we need to determine if in
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direction. However, we do have awesome family and several people who offered assistance if we must go. Thank you everyone for being so awesome and making us feel comfortable if we need to head to Philly. So now this leads to our prayer requests and with all this mess, what do we pray for first??? Well, let's take one step at a time and pray that the bronchoscopy on Monday shows simple signs of a simple problem and can be simply fixed. Then we will decide where to go from there. I will be sure to update you all the rest of the week and weekend on Twitter, which sorry I didn't tweet a lot these past couple days. I promise to get better with that because I know how I would be if I was in your shoes waiting for an update. (Nerve Wrecking Huh?) Since my last mistake with the "Sir Spamalot" baby photo contest, people advised me to submit a photo to the Regis & Kelly contest going on. I sent in our main photo with the ring around Kayleigh's wrist and hopefully they will allow people to vote soon, but keep an eye out for when they open the voting. I am guessing that is how it will work, but one way or another, we shouldn't get bombarded with unwanted spam mail this time. I am glad I cancelled that quick! Also, if you missed my tweet, I finally got the bracelets boxed up and ready to send out. I will be sending them tomorrow morning after I take the kiddos to school. Thank you for your patience on that, but I am excited for everyone who gets to show them off and share Kayleigh's story with others. That leads me to end my post tonight with a piece of advice. Day in and day out, our faith is being tested and day in and day out, we pass! No matter how hard our battle is our how bad we want to blow up on the first person who aggravates us, we remember who is testing us and why He's testing us. We were not given this battle with Kayleigh because we are being punished or because we we did something bad in our past, it is because we are strong and we can handle it. It is because God 341
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1/19/09 - Post Bronchoscopy Procedure Thank you all for being patient with me while I updated my Twitter while being at the hospital, trying to not break down with all the crazy news. I went in to this procedure with full confidence that Kayleigh would not need a trach and that she would probably just come off the vent with no troubles during the procedure. Well, it didn't happen nearly the way I wanted it to. In fact, it was worse. I am going to try to explain it as best as I can from what I
know so far. As you enter the esophagus, there were two swollen bubble like processes that are called "tongues." Once the vent tube was removed, these tongues would swell up until it closed the full opening of her airway. They called this Malacia, which with a trach, medication and time, it would fix itself. Unfortunately, this was the first and smallest issue the doctor came across. After proceeding down the throat, he came to where the airways divides and leads to the right and left lung down an airway called the bronchial tubes. There was not enough air pressure from Kayleigh's breathing to open either of these bronchial tubes. The left one was shut tighter than the right. Kayleigh would be able to blow air out, but not suck air in which would cause her to suffocate. The air pressure from the vent was pushing the air through this tightened airway and then Kayleigh could breath it out with her own pressure on the exhale. So, now we have identified a problem and we know that pressure pushed in to her lungs will allow those bronchial tubes to open to allow air in (Great!). We also have learned that this problem "may" heal itself with growth and time and that amount of time could be years.(I can live with that!) But the problem now is deciding which device to use to help push that air in (Hmmm). Being that this issue is going to take years for Kayleigh to grow out of, a vent ET tube is not meant for long term use as it could cause other damage in the throat. Also, when Kayleigh starts grabbing at things and realizes what is gagging her, she will extubate herself on a regular basis. Not to mention, she will never be able to go home on the vent because it takes x-rays to make sure the vent tube is inserted properly. The second option is a trach, which I think is going to be the route 342
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amount of time. This has got to be a world record of some sort. All we can do is continue to hope and pray that we get the answers we need to prepare Kayleigh to overcome this problem. We know she is one tough cookie and she can handle anything placed in her path. God is certainly in control here and we need Him to bless our child with another miracle to show people the power of prayer and trusting in God is what will bring Kayleigh through this.
The doctor mentioned there is a stint they could put in the bronchial tubes, but the stint can not be placed in the right one because of where the airway opening is that goes to the lung. Plus, the doctor mentioned that doing this procedure has a high failure rate. That didn't give me a nice feeling in my stomach, but before I could even react to that, the "World Renown" specialist said he has never seen an issue like this before, and in such bad shape (on top of that). He wants to speak with his associate who he has worked with for many years, but the way he seemed to not give me the conclusive answers I was looking for, it almost made me feel that he was dodging my questions maybe because he was baffled with such a unique situation. As a professional in my field, I know when a situation is beyond my thought process when I have to say, "Hey, I just don't have any answers right now, but I need to think about it and consult with me team." I don't know about you, but that scares me! Although, I look at the whole picture and this must be another thing Kayleigh is going to just shock the world with. She is going to make this such a situation where no one is going to understand how she overcame yet another obstacle that was supposed to be too big for her. She has done it several times before and she is going to do it again. I am just amazed at how many things one child can deal with in a short
Thank you so much for those who sent in photos. The bracelets should be arriving soon or have already arrived, so I look forward to seeing your photos for the scrap book. Thank you everyone who has offered to help us with the blog makeover. We have picked a company who has offered to do it for free and is also going to help us do some other really cool ideas. I am looking forward to sharing our new blog look and new ideas soon. Thank you all for being there for us through the good times and the bad. We could not have made it through this without your support. You give us great questions to ask the physicians and your prayers are unbelievable. God Bless every single one of you out there and thank you for sharing in our journey with us. Sorry Kayleigh is giving you all high blood pressure too :)
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--- intermission --We just got a call back from the nurse and Kayleigh is done with the CT-Scan and had no issues at all. The procedure took less than an hour, but a few hours to prep. She has to be NPO (not fed) for a couple hours before they did the scan. She is currently back in her section and satting wonderfully as if nothing ever happened. I am much happier to see that Kayleigh is tolerating these procedures much better than in the past. Her oxygen is sitting around 35% and she is awake and not crabby at all. We are supposed to hear something, but probably not tonight. I will be sure to Twitter it (Tweet) tomorrow as soon as I hear something. I am on pins and needles for sure (I know you all are too), praying they found something minor that can be easily fixed without having to put in a trach. Please everyone say a prayer before you go to bed for our little girl and pray this hurdle will soon be jumped and we can keep moving forward to our goal of coming home and never look back. If you have not grabbed our button from the right toolbar, please do. Add it to your blog, websites, Facebook and whatever else you can add it to. Even though Kayleigh is not on her death bed like she was a couple weeks ago, we can never stop praying each day that she makes it through each battle. The more prayers the better, so the more people who see Kayleigh's button will be intrigued to know this precious little girl who has touched the hearts of so many. Copy/paste the (html) in the box below the photo and add it your site and share it with the world so we can help bring people closer to God, to their family, and to give them hope in their own journey.
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1/23/08 - LOOK WHO'S TALKING!!!
Is this not the face of Kayleigh saying "But Daddy Pleeeeaaasse?"
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"I still see you Daddy"
Kayleigh's doctors are going to meet on Monday to discuss whether or not they feel she needs to get a tracheotomy. Both bronchial tubes are collapsing, but nothing exterior is causing them to collapse. Plus, the amount of pressure being used to keep them open is next to none, so no one can really explain what is wrong. The best guess is that her bronchials are beyond weak, but what is puzzling is they were never weak before all of this. We can't turn back if we do a trach now and waiting a couple weeks for this to heal may not work, which will then cause her to need the trach then. The longer we wait also increases the risk of scarring from the vent tube, so that's not good either. I am sure what ever decision made will be the best one for Kayleigh. We just need to ALL pray that God leads the doctors to the best path for Kayleigh. I wasn't going to post tonight, but I couldn't wait to start off the new look with a brand new post. I am so happy that you all like the new look. I felt like a kid with a new toy, I was so excited that I nearly pee'd my pants (Okay, not really) - but I was so excited to finally see it!!! 347
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Leelou is almost 8 months pregnant and wants to have a party! We'll give you all the fun of going to a real baby shower, without the melted candy bars in diapers...ick!! Starting February 9th, there will be loads of contests and giveaways so make sure you click on the link button below and get one for your own blog!
One of the contests is a baby photo contest, so when you send in your baby name ideas to Leelou, you can attach your baby photos for the contest as well. (Hey, Knock out Two birds with One stone) Below...I am posting her recent post from her site so you all can take the button and share it with everyone you know. Let's make this one of the biggest virtual baby showers known to man! How fun is that going to be!?!?!?! Leelou Blog Baby Shower
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1/27/09 - Still Waiting We are still waiting to hear back the final verdict as to whether Kayleigh is going to need a trach, but all the votes are point in to the direction of "yes" and we are all prepared if that is the case. After learning more about the trach and reading up on all the great information you all have sent us, it comforts me in knowing that this is the very best thing for her. She will not only be able to breath better, but she will be able to focus on other aspects that go along with early childhood development.
There is not much else to do from there, but we said that before so pray that nothing pops out of nowhere. We will have in-home care provided for us, which will be the biggest adjustment, but we try to look at the positives and do what is best for Kayleigh. "Hey, at least I get off of night duty for a little bit longer." Kayleigh seems to amaze us everyday. When we go in to spend time with her at her bedside, we always find ourselves lost in thought. Looking at this blessing from God that has beaten so many odds is such a great feeling. It takes me back to when I would lay next to Aimee and put our little fetal dopplar on her belly so we can listen to Kayleigh's heartbeat. Every night for 10 weeks straight, we prayed to hear the pitter-patter just one more day. We would just lay there and smile at each other with such strength and hope that Kayleigh will make it through this. Look at her now! She makes my heart melt every single time I look at her. I am the proudest Daddy in the whole wide world. Thank you ALL who have supported us through this.
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PS. Don't forget to send in your photos for the baby shower contest. Only 11 days left!!! Submit them at Leeloublogs@aol.com. If you don't know what I am talking about, check out the previous post or go to LeeLou's Baby Shower to get involved.
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It has been confirmed that next week, Kayleigh will be getting a trach. The doctors do not feel at this time the Nissen/G-tube or JGtube will be needed. She will continue to have the OG-tube, which
is the one in her nose, to feed her. Their plans are to let Kayleigh recover from the trach procedure, feed her from he OG-tube for a little while and then try to bottle feed her. The ENT doctor does not feel that reflux is a major issue for Kayleigh after looking at her airways with the bronchoscopy that was performed last week. Normally there will be irritation or damage to the airways caused by the acids aspirated from Kayleigh's stomach, but that was not the case. Although, if there are signs of reflux or if Kayleigh has troubles taking a bottle, they will then decide to perform one of the procedures to help with the problem (i.e. Nissen/G-tube or JG-tube). So, that leads me to say...If Kayleigh flies through all of this like a champ, she will be that much closer to coming home. This may take a month or two, but at least there is a possible end in sight. We just need to pray that nothing goes wrong and nothing else pops up in the mean time.Do you realize how amazing that day is going to be? Man, I will be the happiest Dad in the world! She is doing great right now. She weighed in last night at 6 pounds 4 ounces, which was a major jump from the night before (6lbs even), but the protein she was on might have had something to do with that. They did however stop giving her the protein after she pooped 10 times yesterday, but if she has trouble with her weight gain from here on out, they will increase her caloric intake a little. She is also very close to coming off her pain medication too, which will stop her "eye wondering" issue and allow her to focus on certain objects. Several people were interested in seeing Kayleigh holding my ring again, but when I tried, she was wide awake and would not keep her hand still. I will have to try it another time. That was a great idea to show how much she has changed over the past 7 months. It will definitely make for a great post, so keep your eyes out for that one soon. I really do appreciate all the ideas and questions every has. If I 353
Kayleigh's Story some how miss answering one, I apologize. Just ask me again and I will either email you personally or answer it in a post. All of you, (except for a few rude anonymous posts), have treated us like family and have practically considered Kayleigh as one of your own. If there is any ideas you would like to offer or questions you would like to ask, please do. If you don't want to post your comments for everyone to see, you are more than welcome to contact me personally at Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com. Please keep those prayers coming! God Bless,
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1/30/09 - Opening Up Tonight brings a little different post. (Kayleigh is doing great by the way) I want to share with everyone how Kayleigh's story has touched me along with how you all have touched me. For those who know me, only see skin deep. For those who love me, see below the surface only to an extent. Aimee, she sees everything. I am a young man, raised by two loving parents who live their lives with their hearts on their sleeves. I have learned to love and I have learned to forgive as our God has learned to love and forgive me for the things I have done in my life. I am not perfect, but my life is driven by perfection. I, like so many of you strive to be the best person I can be for so many, but ever so often fall short.
I am a work in progress. A man who wants nothing more than to make everyone feel welcome in my heart no matter who you are or what you have done. I have never been the perfect example of the way God wants us to be, but I know that no one else in this world walks without regrets. Living a perfect Godly life is nearly impossible, but realizing your imperfections makes you perfect. I am a man who struggled with addiction. A man who has battled deep depressions. A man who has fallen off his horse and a man who has suffered many defeats. But, I am also a man who has beaten the devil. A man who has gotten back on his feet. A man who learns from his past and makes a difference in his future. Life's lessons are what shape a person to be the best they can be only if they take what they have learned and fight for what they want. I have been hurt, betrayed, lied to, cheated on, kicked down and stomped on. But, with God on my side, I have realized there is no better teammate to pick you up, dust you off, hold your hand and walk beside you with your head held high than God himself. Most of you know our troubles because a lot of you helped us get through the holidays (and you know who I am talking about). I have learned so much from every single one of you. You have blessed our family with love and support, and you don't even know us but from the words that I express from typing on a computer to share the miracle God has blessed me with. That right there is a true example of the way God wants us to be towards each other. I am forever in your debt. Praise God! Kayleigh has also taught me a lot about life. Through her toughest battles, she has never given up. She has never been defeated and she continues to beat all odds. I on the other hand have lost hope, 354
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that Kayleigh gets to stay up later. (ha-ha!) E-mail me your letters to: Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com Let it pour!
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1/31/09 - Letters for Kayleigh and Leelou's Baby Shower First of all, thank you everyone who sent in letters. I know there are more coming from some of you, but I need a lot more to completely fill up one years worth of bed time stories :) I'd hate to see Kayleigh's Caregivers get more letters than Kayleigh does herself. (Maybe a little guilt will work, ha-ha) Please email me your letter to: Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com Okay, Leelous baby shower is coming up in 7 short days, so if you haven't entered your Baby in the photo contest she is doing, please do. Submit them here: Leeloublogs@aol.com If you haven't heard about the shower, it is going to be awesome. Click on the button to the left to learn more. She is benefiting Mia and Kayleigh, and they are going to have games and give out prizes. Let's make this the biggest virtual baby shower ever! Last, but certainly not least, Kayleigh is doing great today. They had thought her central line on her chest was getting infected, but 355
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2/1/2009 8:44:00 PM
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Today was a special day as we spent one last day with Kayleigh before she goes in to surgery. I call this time period the calm before the storm. It almost feels that every time Kayleigh has recovered to the point she is acting and feeling her best, she is then put through another procedure or surgery that sets her back again. I look forward to the day that I can worry about no more procedures, no more wires, no more tubes and no more monitors. I look forward to the day that Kayleigh will be so healthy and she will smile and giggle until she wears herself out. The day where Kayleigh can run around the house chasing the dogs and pulling at their tales. This time will come for sure (I know), but it just won't come fast enough.
Surgery starts at 7:15AM and they are going to take her down at 6:30. The procedure takes about an hour, so please keep us and Kayleigh in your prayers during this time. Pray that God will guide the surgeons hands to do a perfect job. Since Kayleigh is so tiny, and there are blood vessels in the throat that are in risk of being cut, the world renown surgeon is going to cut from in the inside out. He will do a broncoscopy, which will send a microscopic camera down her throat to make the incision at the trachea from the inside. He has performed thousands of trach procedures, so I am very confident in his abilities. When he is not working, he is on missions doing wonderful things to glorify God. We know God will be there guiding him through with safety and skill as God is perfect in everything.
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2/2/09 Post Tracheostomy Surgery
The surgery went well today and Kayleigh was surprisingly wide awake shortly after she made it back to her room. The nurses had to administer some pain medication because Kayleigh was starting to get a little irritated throughout the day. The procedure took less than an hour to complete and everything went without a hitch. Kayleigh is currently coming down on her vent settings and heading back to a normal state. She is doing such a great job through this and we are so proud of her. It was quite overwhelming at first to see Kayleigh with the trach, but I think it really got to me when she was wide awake so soon. We thought she was going to be out for at least the first full day, so when we saw her wiggling around and getting irritated, of course the first thing you think of is that she is pain. But, with her blood pressure looking good and her heart rate not shooting through the roof, she was doing fine. It was good to see nothing in her mouth or the tape strip under her nose that goes 359
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2/6/2009 11:09:00 AM
2/6/09 - What It's ALL About!!
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Just look at that smile!!! I am just overwhelmed with the love we have gotten over the past two days. All the wonderful emails and comments have muffled all the bad ones out. It has lifted us up and given us new strength to just turn our backs and to never have to explain ourselves to anyone again. Thank you everyone who donated to help us out financially. I am emailing every single one of you to get your address to send you something special. GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!! We apologize for having to explain ourselves, but we felt like God wanted us to lay it all out there for everyone to know what is going on. You ALL are our family because you have cried with us when we were sad, you have cheered with us when we were happy, and you have prayed with us every step of the way. We felt our loved ones needed to know us through and through. God has blessed our family with love and that is worth more than anything in this world. We may be struggling financially, but we are rich in love. Thank
you!!!! I also want to apologize if I didn't respond to every single email that was sent. We read through every email and comment, so not a single one went un-noticed. We have taken a lot of ideas that people mentioned and we are running full steam ahead with them. We have appointments being set and we have changes being made, so thank you so very much for giving us the ideas to make a difference. We found out quickly that insurance (for our family) shouldn't be so expensive and we are shocked that no one at the hospital mentioned some of the programs to us. We are on top of it now! See, this is what everyone needs. This kind of support should be everywhere and available to anyone. That is something worth telling the world and sharing with everyone you can possibly know. It is not for self gain, it is or knowledge to make the right decisions in life. If I didn't have you all to begin with, Kayleigh probably wouldn't be here. With the knowledge you have given our family, you have saved our daughters life and that is what drives me to save other lives while sharing the greatness of our God. JUST LOOK!!! Look again at her smile!!! She is happy because we ALL did what was right. We ALL did what God wants us to do. We ALL helped each other through thick and thin and We ALL can do that for so many others who need the help too!!! No more negativity will find it's way to this site because this site belongs to God and His children. We are going to stay on track for now on. This site's main focus is to bring people closer to God, fill their hearts will love and give them hope in their own lives while Kayleigh leads the way. Nothing more than that! Praise God!!! Now I am all fired up with joy and excitement! Kayleigh is hanging in there. We are waiting on an x-ray to come back to see what is causing her belly to be loopy and full. I think they started her back on full feeds too soon, but we'll see. She is currently weighing 6 lbs - 12 ounces. She was up to 7 lbs the other day, but I don't think it 361
Kayleigh's Story was true weight as they started her back on Lasix(diuretic) after the procedure to reduce some swelling. I was nervous the other day when I was sitting with Kayleigh after her procedure and the nurse walked away. I had never put her trach back on when Kayleigh pulled it off, so I immediately started to sweat and pray that she wouldn't pull it off. Well, guess what??? She did! My heart sunk right away, but I put my big boy pants on and got the job done. Now I am a champ at it because she pulls it off every other minute. It is hard to see her struggle to breath when the trach comes off, but that is something I am going to have to get used to. Hopefully soon, she will learn that she turns purple and all the alarms start blaring when it comes off and she won't pull it anymore. Ha! Kayleigh?? Miss Attention Getter?? Yeah right!! Thank you all again SO VERY MUCH for everything! We are truly blessed to have a great group of friends and we are forever in debt to ALL of you. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
2/7/2009 1:57:00 PM
LeeLou's Virtual Baby Shower Reminder!!! Monday begins Leelou's Virtual Baby Shower. Contest, Prizes and FUN (OH MY!!!) CLICK HERE to learn more. We can't wait to see all the cutie patooties in the photo contest :)
God Bless EVERYONE,
2/9/2009 7:31:00 AM
It Has Begun :) WOW, This is way cool!!! LeeLou's Baby Photos Contest and Virtual Baby Shower has begun. Go check out all the photo finalists at: LeeLou's Blog - They are adorable! Good Luck in all the fun games and giveaways. They have some really neat prizes and we look forward seeing who wins! God Bless Everyone,
2/10/2009 12:31:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story After a few unsuccessful attempts to get a new IV in the other day, they had to take Kayleigh down to the OR to put in a main line which needed to be surgically insert in to her chest. They finally got one of the IV's in her head, but that came out shortly after as it was not cooperating the way they hoped. The reason they put in another main line is because the central line (Broviac) has some puss coming from it, so they will have to pull that if it gets infected. To me it looks like Kayleigh got the mess beat out of her, but she is doing better than she looks. Her belly is still a little on the "big" side and they are waiting for that to come down before they start to feed her again. I feel as if they started her back too quickly while she was still on her pain medication from the tracheostomy procedure. Pain medication tends to slow down the motility of a digestive tract. Also, the trach site is oozing and they are taking precautionary standards to apply some medication so no infections occur. These type of infections are normal because Kayleigh slobbers and the folds of the neck are hard to keep clean. The medication they have should clear it up in no time. On a lighter note, Kayleigh is enjoying having both hands to put in her mouth since there is no vent tube shoved down her throat. Oh, and let me tell you...Kisses are becoming plentiful!!! It is cute to see no obstructions, like the tape that was across her face. Let's just hope Kayleigh can recover fully from this procedure and start moving in the right direction. Now on to something really cool that I am planning on doing and I wanted to get everyone's advice, so all comments and ideas are welcome. As you all know, Kayleigh's blog is not only geared towards sharing her story with everyone, but helping people in so many other ways. Whether it is helping people through faith or through a battle they are facing, Kayleigh gives people that needed strength. I want to make this more about helping others in every
possible way, while we still enjoy in the journey Kayleigh takes us on. I was listening to my local radio station the other day and they are doing something really awesome for their community. It is called the "Drive Thru" experience. What people are doing is paying for the person's food behind them in the drive thru, so when that person arrives to the window, the employee tells the driver that their food was paid for by a listener of New Life 91.9 and to have a blessed day. That is so cool! But...I am not going to ask everyone to start paying for everyone's fast food. What I am going to do is similar though. If you haven't seen my blogging friend, MckMama's site yet, she does a "NOT ME Monday" which is hilarious and you must go check it out. I am planning on doing a "Kayleigh's Thoughtful Thursday" for ALL of our readers to get involved with and have a great time sharing stories. Here is what you do. You must go out in to this crazy world, away from your computers, and do something (beyond your normal self) extra extra nice for someone and come back to share your story with everyone here. And when you do this, you must tell them (after they say "OH MY THAT WAS THE NICEST THING ANYONE HAS EVER DONE FOR ME") that they have been touched by, none other than...."Kayleigh." Now, I am not talking about opening a door for someone or saying "Thank you" because you should all be doing that already. (lol) I want things out of the norm and the better they are, the more wondeful ideas you give others to do on their own. Also, I am sure when people start reading other people's ideas and the link list grows larger and larger, it will be such a blessing to see ALL the wonderful things people are doing for others in this world. Kayleigh should not only be touching your lives, but she should be touching everyone's life you touch too. Make no mistake, God has shown himself through Kayleigh and all the people in her life and we need 363
Kayleigh's Story to glorify Him for that. I am going to create a button for this "Kayleigh's Thoughtful Thursday" and you will be given detailed instructions on how to post the event on your site and set your link on ours for others to read. Since today is Tuesday and I don't have the time to get this ready for this week and you haven't the time to go out and touch someone's life and write about it, it will start next Thursday so go out and start sharing the love!!! GREAT NEWS!!! God has touched us generously as Kayleigh's story will be captured by WXII 12, NBC News Affiliate in Winston-Salem, NC. We will be able to share our story on the news and hopefully touch the lives of others. We are filming tomorrow morning and hopefully when it is all said and done, I will upload the clip for you all to see. It will be airing Monday for all of those who live in that area and catch that station. We are really excited and I am already nervous to be in front of the camera. For some odd reason, I tense up and forget everything and it must be a serious problem because how could I forget anything that I have been through in the past 10 months. LOL. Keep us in our prayers that we deliver a message that will help others. Please continue to keep Kayleigh in your prayers that she will get over this belly issue and can get back on track with her feeding. Thank you all so very much for your comments and if you haven't been to LeeLou's Baby Shower to vote for those cute babies, do so. They are giving away some cool prizes and it ends Thursday, so don't miss it! God Bless,
2/11/2009 7:02:00 AM
2/11/09 - MORE EXCITING NEWS!!! I’ve got some more exciting news to go with yesterday when I told you about the news station picking up our story. I was contacted by the Editor of Serious.Life Magazine and they want to do a story on us. He told me the current February issue has had over 530,000 page views since last Monday, so there’s a good chance you may already know about them and it would be a perfect opportunity to spread the good word. If not, check it out – http://www.seriouslifemagazine.com/ – the subscriptions are FREE. They want to do a story on us and Kayleigh, and highlight our blog. He (Brent Riggs, the Editor) asked if there was some new or current information or a story that was not yet part of our blog that we could include as original content for the March issue of Serious.Life. What do you ALL think? What about us, or Kayleigh, or our blog would you like to see them do a story on? What would you like to know about us that you have NOT seen on our blog? Any suggestions? Any ideas on an angle for the story? It’s a great opportunity for us to be seen by a huge audience. Help us make the best of it.
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2/13/2009 9:40:00 PM
2/13/09 - Big Girl Bed!!! Kayleigh is doing great! Aimee and I both were beyond excited to see Kayleigh looking more like her normal self today. She is recovering really well from the Tracheostomy procedure and her belly is starting to come down little by little. They still have her on 3 mls/hr, but she is tolerating it very well, so they may increase that a little more soon. I was shocked to walk in today with the respiratory nurses giving Kayleigh a workout with the CPAP, which is a step up from the vent. They were trying her
Overall, Kayleigh is making good progress. Depending how her belly is and her ability to tolerate her feedings, will determine whether or not they try feeding her a bottle or put in a g-tube directly in to her belly. After that, the doctors are debating whether or not to start weaning her off the Flolan for her Pulmonary Hypertension. The ECHO that was taken the other day still showed her pressure in the high 60's, but she is not having and nasty episodes so the doctors are pleased with the results. Honestly, I don't see what else needs to be done. I just hope these minor hurdles don't take forever and we can start planning on bringing her home. Let that be our prayer request for the next week or so. Pray that things will continue to progress in a direction that will FINALLY bring our little miracle home. What a glorious day that is going to be! Thank you all for your wonderful comments. They are so uplifting and they certainly keep us smiling day after day. Everyone has been so incredible and I wish we could go around and give you all a huge hug for the love you have given us. Thank you so very much! God Bless,
2/16/2009 1:48:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story First of all, I wanted to let everyone know that the NBC News Affiliate (WXII Channel 12) will be airing our story Wednesday night at 5pm est. They will be putting the feed on the website for all of those who are not local to the Winston Salem/Greensboro area. We are one of those people, so they are going to mail me a DVD of the story and I will also post it to the blog when it comes in.
kids full attention to do whatever they want. Whether it is board games, TV shows, a movie, computer games, or video games. No matter what it is, we have a blast and we make the best of our time together so they feel as they are 100% loved. When they go to bed around 10:00, Aimee and I work, blog or spend some time with each other until 3 in the morning every single night.
Kayleigh has been doing awesome over the past couple days. She has gone up on her feeds and her belly is not so bloated anymore. Yesterday, she was enjoying our company with tons and tons of kisses. It was perfect as every time we would give her some smooches, it was almost as if she was closing her mouth and puckering up for us. She is so sweet when she is not in any kind of pain or discomfort, so we are overly excited about her progress right now. The stress level is almost instantly lifted and we get to enjoy spending time with her like normal parents should. It is unfortunate that we haven't had many days like these and the ones we did, were short lived and practically forgotten.
They are handling this whole situation like champs. Honestly, their lives have not changed one single bit. The hard part is they are not able to go see Kayleigh because of RSV season and that has been going on since September. They saw her once passing in the hall as they took Kayleigh to the Cath lab, but then again, that has been a while now too. Every time they hear she is doing rough, they are sad because they see us sad. Although, they are very excited to hear when Kayleigh is close to coming home. Hopefully the next time around their hopes aren't shattered. They think it is the coolest thing when we talk about having 24 hour nursing care in the home, but they are just kids and I am jealous I don't look at the world the same way they do.
Speaking of great days and spending time with our children, a lot of you asked how Brandon and Allyson are doing through all of this. From the outside in, I can imagine thinking "How do Adam and Aimee have enough time in a day for everything that is going on in their lives, especially time for Brandon and Allyson?" Well, we don't have all the time in the world! But, with the time we do have, our major focus is to be the best parents we possibly can to each of our children on a daily basis. Our schedule goes a little something like this: We wake up around 7:00am and work until we have to take the kids to school at 9:00. We then come back and work some or go straight to the hospital until we have to pick the kids up from school at 3:45. We then work some more, do homework then dinner. After dinner, we give the
Overall, they both are doing amazing. Allyson made the A-B Honor Roll and Brandon received Wolf of the Day over 5 times, which rewarded him with his handprint on the school hallway wall. They are both two amazing children and life is such a wonderful experience, just watching them grow in to their own personalities that continue to make us die with laughter every single day. I can't say enough good things about them, but I do know for sure that I am One Blessed Dad to have a family like this. When Kayleigh decides to finally make the journey home to our house, we have an idea that I wanted to ask your opinion about. I am planning on creating a whole different blog that will allow you all to continue to follow Kayleigh's journey at home, but also follow our family as well. We will leave the hospital journey (old blog) and 366
Kayleigh's Story start the home journey (new blog) from then on. This will allow Kayleigh's story to remain just as it is on her blog for those who want to learn all about the NICU experience to educate themselves and help give them hope through their own journey's. The final post (When she comes home) will direct everyone with a link to the new site if they want to continue following in her story along with the rest of us. What are your thoughts about that? Would you care to hear about our crazy family? LOL If you think it is a good idea, we need some help!!!! We can't think of a blog title! So, I am asking for EVERYONE to pitch in their ideas for our family blog title and we will award the person with the best idea with a huge.........uummmmm..........A huge...........and I mean a huuuuuuuuuugggggeeeeeee..........................A VERY HUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEE.........Thank you :) God Bless,
make yourself at home and begin to fall in love with our sweet Kayleigh.
2/18/2009 3:34:00 PM
2/19/09 - "THOUGHTFUL THURSDAYS"
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2/18/09 - WXII Channel 12 News First of all, if you didn't see the WXII Channell 12 News Feed, CLICK HERE Okay, here is how our "Thoughtful Thursdays" works. You all are going to go out in to this crazy world and do something If you saw it live from the Winston Salem/Greensboro viewing areas EXTRA nice for someone else. You can do something nice for someone you love, someone you don't love, or someone you you and are joining us for the very first time, welcome to our journey, have never had the chance to love and come back here to share about it each and every Thursday. 367 Here is the link to the News Website who covered our Story. CLICK HERE
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For instance and to give you all an idea, here is what I did the other night on Valentine's Day. Since our funds have been limited, I still wanted to take Aimee out to dinner on the most lovable day of the year. So, I took her to Steak N Shake (our favorite fast food joint). "Yeah, I know I'm true romantic" but it was better than staying at home and if she wanted to live to see the next day, she wouldn't have wanted me to cook for her.
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After we finished eating, I noticed a lady and her husband sitting together enjoying their ice cream sundae together. I decided that I wanted to do my "Thoughtful Thursdays" idea and gave the manager $10 to cover what I could on their bill. I also attached a note that says "You have been touched by Kayleigh" and I left the website address with a "God Bless" on the end so they didn't think we were some kind of crazy people. God has shown Himself through Kayleigh and we need to glorify Him in all that we do. We need to touch other people with our kindness and spread the love of God with Kayleigh's story to everyone we possibly can. When you deliver your good deed to someone, let them know that they were touched by Kayleigh and share her website with them, so they too can join in on Kayleigh's journey and our "Thoughtful Thursdays" to glorify God. NOW...You don't have to go out and spend money on everyone, but you have got to think outside the box and come back and share it with us and the world. Be creative and make your stories stand out. You never know, you may win a creativity award and get recognized for ALL to see.
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Kayleigh's Story We go through every day with the challenges that we are faced with thinking about Kayleigh and how tough she has it. Even though we are struggling, I think about how easy we have it compared to Kayleigh and how she keeps fighting the tough battles. We get our strength from her and she is such an inspiration to our family as you all mention the same for yours. She has taught us so much in life and we are two of the luckiest parents in the world. God has blessed us with Kayleigh in so many different ways and we are so ecstatic to have such an AWESOME GOD!
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2/23/09 - Happy 8 Month Birthday Kayleigh!!!
8 Months - 240 Days - 5,760 hours - 345,600 minutes - 20,736,000 seconds TOO LONG IN THE NICU!!!! But man she is looking GREAT! We had such a wonderful visit as we changed her trach again, but it was just Aimee and I this time. I think we got the hang of it. I am going to video a trach change so you all get the real understanding of what we go through. Kayleigh hit the 7 pound mark! WOO HOO She's possibly going to get the chance to try a bottle soon, so we are really looking forward to seeing how she does. We were speaking with the nurse and if Kayleigh takes a bottle and can increase her feedings that way, there really isn't any other factors that are keeping her in the hospital. She will eventually come off the Pain Meds over the next week and all that is left is her Flolan, 370
Kayleigh's Story which she can come home on. How about that??? Let's all pray that she continues to WOW the Doctors and prove she is a big girl and can do all of this at home. When the talk of coming home becomes serious, they are going to get Kayleigh on her "Laptop" which is a small portable breathing machine instead of having that huge compartment that takes up half her space. That will be an amazing sight to see when that is gone. We both did notice that Kayleigh's hair is looking a little on the blond side. Aimee and I have been getting a lot of mixed comments, so what I would like is for everyone to vote who you think Kayleigh looks more like, Aimee or Me. The voting poll is on the right tool bar at the top, so have at it. I wish everyone a wonderful week and don't forget to do your "Thoughtful Thursdays" and come back to post about it. We can't wait to read them!!!
Aubrey and Katie are two Kayleigh blog followers who have gotten together to design a program where people can donate a small portion and their name will be entered to win awesome giveaway packages. These packages are LOADED with awesome items for everyone to take part in. They figured out that you can not purchase a raffle ticket because it is not legal and is considered gambling if the money does not go to a non-profit organization, so Aubrey and Katie set it up to where the donations would be sent to our family to help us get back on our feet. God Bless them! Even though I am in the final stages of starting my new position with an awesome Christian company, we are still unfortunately facing our financial battles in this horrible market. Our foreclosure date is set and saving the house would be a very bad move as the house has lost so much value in the past year. We could possibly not have a home for Kayleigh when she is ready to come home, which is so sad because we worked so hard on her room. Aubrey's hard work to design this donation program could be the blessing we have been praying for. Aubrey wanted to share with everyone some of the incredible details, so here is her post:
2/23/2009 5:23:00 PM
EXCITING NEWS!! WOW!!! This is all I can say right now. I am REALLY at a loss for words. I am just amazed at the generosity people have towards our family.
Hello to all of you faithful Freeman family followers, as well as those of you just hopping along for the ride. We have been very blessed by a handful of talented and generous artists and business owners, and we'd like to 'pay it forward' to the Freeman family. In ONE short week (March 3rd), we will have a special blog set up solely for donation purposes for the Freeman family. So far, there are over fifteen wonderful giveaways with one of the prize packages being a week long FREE vacation stay at an Ocean-Front 371
Kayleigh's Story Beach Condo in Garden City Beach, South Carolina - just south of Myrtle Beach (est. cost is over $1,000) Woo hoo!!! (If you want to donate an item to be raffled off, please contact Aubrey at: PrayingForKayleigh@live.com)
Thank you so much Aubrey and Katie for everything you are doing! This is amazing and going to be fun!!!
Entries for the program will be a $10 donation with the opportunity to gain extra entries by multiple donations or referring all of your wonderful friends. At the end of the program period (three weeks later), we will use a random online number generator program to pick the lucky winner for each giveaway. More details on all of that will follow shortly!
2/24/2009 4:16:00 PM
MSNBC "LIVE" Great news!!!
We'll let you all know what the blog address is on Tuesday, March 3rd so stay tuned to Kayleigh’s blog for that address. Please let's build a buzz for this program by sharing this opportunity with your friends, family, small groups, church family, co-workers, fellow prayer warriors, and any others you'd like to lead to Kayleigh...and to Christ.
MSNBC is doing a "LIVE" interview with Aimee and I on Kayleigh's story tomorrow between 11:00-12:00EST.
We're so excited for this opportunity to help the Freeman family. Thank you in advance not only to our awesome artistic and business contributors as well as YOU for deciding to help the Freemans in any small way that you can. 'Out of the most severe trial, their overflowing joy and their...poverty welled up in rich generosity. For I testify that they gave as much as they were able, and even beyond their ability. Entirely on their own, they urgently pleaded with us for the privilege of sharing in this service to the saints. And they did not do as we expected, but they gave themselves for the Lord and then to us in keeping with God's will. But just as you excel in everything-in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in your love for us-see that you also excel in this grace of giving.' 2 Corinthians 8: 2-7
So tune in, grab some popcorn (yes in the afternoon) and say a prayer that we don't freak out, Ha! Actually, I was told to imagine the crew in their undies if I get nervous, so if you see me laugh at a part that isn't really funny, you know why :) God is working in our lives right now to spread the word and we pray that we will deliver a great message tomorrow. Our main focus no matter what broadcast, newspaper, magazine or anything, is to do God's will and send our message of Faith, Hope and Love like we have from day one. Faith - God has worked in Kayleigh's life when she was not supposed to survive the pregnancy and almost died several times along the way. People have joined together and prayed, and God listened to those prayers and performed His miracles. It is so evident through Kayleigh and her journey that God is real and He is so AWESOME!
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the light. We only live on this earth to prepare ourselves for eternity. We want to help you prepare your life for our walk together, praising God and doing His will until we enter our eternity in Heaven. This is all for you because God wants us to love everyone as they are our brothers, and our sisters. God loved us so much that He sent His son to die for us. We are here to show you that same kind of love and sacrifice our time, energy and pain to share with you Kayleigh's story so you can be a better person in your own life. Fertilizing (Loving) your fruit will not only help you grow, but it will only spread and grow others around you. Aimee and I already have strong faith, much hope and never-ending love, and we are hungry to know God more because of our sweet Kayleigh and her amazing journey. We are doing God's will because we care more about you.
2/25/2009 9:05:00 AM
Delayed Hey everyone. We received a call this morning from MSNBC to tell us that they needed to delay the show until tomorrow (Thursday). Obama is giving a speech so they need to cover that instead. We are going to be doing our segment around 11:30-12:00pm (EST) but that will be confirmed in the morning. I will be updating by Tweeter as the time gets closer. Aimee is sick as can be with a stuffy head & nose so hopefully this 373
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Last week, Julie Pizzitola is in our spotlight for her "Thoughtful Thursdays" kind gesture. Read was she did here: The Pizzitola Family Okay, here is how our "Thoughtful Thursdays" works.
2/25/2009 11:06:00 AM
2/26/09 "Thoughtful Thursdays"
You all are going to go out in to this crazy world and do something EXTRA nice for someone else. You can do something nice for someone you love, someone you don't love, or someone you you have never had the chance to love and come back here to share about it each and every Thursday. God has shown Himself through Kayleigh and we need to glorify Him in all that we do. We need to touch other people with our kindness and spread the love of God with Kayleigh's story to everyone we possibly can. When you deliver your good deed to someone, let them know that they were touched by Kayleigh and share her website with them, so they too can join in on Kayleigh's journey and our "Thoughtful Thursdays" to glorify God. NOW...You you have got to think outside the box and come back and share it with us and the world. Be creative and make your stories stand out. You never know, you may win a creativity award and get recognized for ALL to see. Here is what I did:
This has been on very exciting week for the Freeman family and we are happy to share our second "Thoughtful Thursdays" event with you. We will be doing this every week and we would love for everyone to join in and do something nice for someone out there.
Aimee and I have been swamped with appointments, hospitals, kids and more appointments, so we have been on the run non stop and are sadly eating unhealthy throughout the day. Aimee had an appointment and she was beyond hungry, but didn't know when she was going to find time to eat that day. 374
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So, I dropped her off because I then had to make 500 hundred phone calls myself so I just stayed in the car. I decided that I would take five minutes and put off a couple phone calls (sorry) and drove over to the closest Starbucks and got Aimee one of her little favorite Rice Crispy Treats that she loves so much and has not been able to get in a long time. I didn't spend anything on me for breakfast as I wanted to just take care of her.
THIS IS A REMINDER For all of our faithful follower and those who are new, this is a reminder to the Donation/Giveaway program that is coming up next Tuesday, March 3rd. If you want a chance to win some AWESOME prizes like the week long FREE vacation at an Ocean Front Beach Condo , stay tuned. If you didn't read the post about the program, Thanks, Aubrey
The funny part is, I told her she had been touched by Kayleigh's Daddy when she got in the car and I gave her my website ;)
2/26/2009 5:03:00 PM
Hey everyone,
Kayleigh - IN THE NEWS Here are both clips in case you didn't catch them today. The first one was on MSNBC (National) and the second was on our Local NBC Station (WCNC). If you happened to miss the other NBC interview from last week, we put that one on her for you too.
We have a meeting with Kayleigh's doctor here in a little while to discuss her future plans, so we are really excited about what is in store. We will be sure to update you along with some awesome new photos of Kayleigh. She put on a smile yesterday, so hopefully we can catch her in action today. Thank you all so much for your support and thank you Aubrey for putting on this program for us. You are a blessing to our family.
MSNBC-This was recorded off the TV as there was not a link for the video, so forgive me as the audio is not as clear. WCNC- We recorded this right after the live MCNBS interview. WXII- Interview we did last week at the hospital with the NBC News Crew from Winston-Salem.
2/27/2009 6:50:00 PM
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Kayleigh's Story you ready....? The plan of action has been confirmed for Kayleigh to go home very soon. We are looking about a month or six weeks out, maybe even less depending on how well she does with the upcoming tasks. There is not a whole lot left to do, but she can't have anymore setbacks along the way. The next task ahead is for the doctors to insert a G-tube straight in to Kayleigh's belly. She has been trying to take a bottle and has not been too successful yet. They know it will take time, but they don't want to interrupt any developmental issues, so they are going to take out the last tube that is in her nose and put in the G-tube instead. The other tube in her nose was removed the other day for good since she no longer has any air on her belly that needs to be suctioned. The G-tube will allow Kayleigh to be on her regular feeding schedule and still be able to practice with the bottle. I can't wait to see her with no tubes on her face. This surgery will be done next week sometime and she should recover very quick. They already took her off the continuous drip of Versed (Pain Med.), so they won't have to worry about weaning her off of that again. They will use another medication for her pain that can be stopped fairly quickly. Since being off the (Versad) pain medication completely, she is able to focus more and her eyes don't wonder around that much. Seeing her try to focus and her eyes cross is the cutest thing. They are doing an eye exam before she goes home to test her muscles in her eyes to see if the doctor needs to strengthen one over the other. They are also weaning her off the Hydrocordizone that was used for reducing the inflammation on her lungs. Once they do that, they plan to remove the older central line out of her chest since the
Flolan is the last of the medications she will be given through an IV. One by one they are starting to get rid of more lines and more meds, so she can come home on minimal items. Right now, her feeds have been increased to 22ml's per hour and her caloric intake is at 25. She has blown up the last couple days. I know we just hit the 7 pound mark not too long ago, but she weighed in at 7 pounds - 6.2 ounces last night. It seems as if things have completely taken a turn for the better once she had her tracheotomy put in. Many of you said she would do that and you were right. At the meeting, they told us that soon we will be training with some of the nurses for Kayleigh's home care and what to do in many different situations. We have already worked on changing the trach, but we have to train on changing the Flolan which is the scary part. There is a 3-5 minute window with that medication. If anything is pinching the line, or it is leaking, Kayleigh could go in to a hypertensive episode that could kill her. There is no room for error when taking care of our peanut. So, needless to say, we need to be on top of our game when taking care of her at home. If our in-home nurse doesn't show up, we need to have all eyes on her 24/7 in case either the trach pops off or the Flolan is not working properly. It is enough to scare the mess out of you, but of course we will do what it takes to make sure she is home and safe. There are so many stories of how preemies just do ten times better once they're home, with growth and development. This has been one exciting day for us and we are so pleased to see Kayleigh making leaps and bounds, especially after seeing her near death just a couple months ago. This was a day I thought was never 376
Kayleigh's Story going to get here, but it looks more promising now than ever before. To end today on a great note, Kayleigh started smiling again. You can her smile as Mommy was kissing her in the first photo and they came frequently as we played with her today. It melted my heart to see her so happy and this is such a blessing for us right now. Thank you all so much for your support through this journey. Kayleigh has been an inspiration to so many and all we can ask is that you keep her in your prayers for next weeks surgery. We are not sure when it will be, but we will let you know. I wish everyone a wonderful weekend and please say a prayer for me as I have my final interview for my new job this weekend. If I get the position, I will be sure to clue you all in on the details.
3/1/2009 11:16:00 PM
3/2/09 - What A Blessing!!
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First off, Kayleigh is doing wonderful and she is making great strides in her prognosis. As you can tell from the photos, she is loving her bouncy seat. She spent a few hours playing in it and smiling as you can see her unique smile she placed upon her face. I say it is a mixture between a cute squint and a smile, but whatever it is, it is so unbelievably adorable.
Speaking of my interview and how that went, it was great! I got the job and I start training tomorrow morning. This is an awesome opportunity for us and I pray that this job will get us to a stable position in our lives where we can focus on what is most important, our family. I will be able to work hard, build the business up and share in our children's lives like a parent should. It has certainly been a blessing to all of us. As I said I would before, I am going to describe a little about what I am going to be doing. This job is with a Christian company based out of Norman, Oklahoma. The owner, Neil Boyd has been in business for over 25+ years and has created a successful business plan that offers people with great opportunities while glorifying God in the process. The business is called Alliance Maintenance and they are a commercial janitorial company.
Aimee spent a good time with her today while I was busy with my final interview. Aimee changed her trach all by herself and was successful at doing so. She took her time and made it an enjoyable experience for Kayleigh. There were no issues in the process and Kayleigh was calm as can be. Isn't Kayleigh just a peach with that little dress on. It is such a sight to see.
My position is going to be an Area Developer for the Charlotte, NC market and I will be bidding on accounts, hiring a janitorial franchisees to clean the accounts and then I manage those accounts. The great thing about this company is they offer their janitorial franchisees a higher paid salary than most companies (up to $20/hr), but they also sell these franchise accounts at no money
Today was a fantastic day for not only Kayleigh, but for our whole family.
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3/2/2009 7:11:00 PM
3/3/09 - DONATION GIVEAWAY
So needless to say, if you are/or know someone who is looking to make a decent paying position in a recession proof job, with no money down in the Charlotte area, contact me ASAP and we will get you set up. Also, if you are a business manager/owner who needs excellent customer service in your janitorial department and could very well possibly save some money, contact me ASAP and we will set up an appointment to deliver a bid. Let's all praise our Lord for the love and support you all have given our family. It is thanks to some really great people who have helped me gain this awesome opportunity to work for such an amazing company. I am truly blessed and thankful for everything that has been happening lately. Can you feel my excitement? :) Don't forget tomorrow (March 3rd) is the big day for the start of the Donation/Giveaway! This event will be going on for three full weeks. It is going to be a fun and exciting time for EVERYONE and there are TONS of GIVEAWAYS!!!
Hello Freeman followers! This is Aubrey again. I thought this day would never get here! I am so excited to be able to offer you this opportunity not only to help the Freemans but also to snag some cool loot for yourself. I wholeheartedly believe that the Freemans are Godly individuals who deserve the blessings that we can give to them. They have touched me so much that I will never forget their story or their souls. And I'm sure many of you agree. Please pray about participating in Give4Kayleigh. What better way to help them out AND get something for yourself in return? For every $10 donation, you will be able to put your name in for a giveaway package. But wait, there's more! For every person you 381
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3/4/2009 6:58:00 PM
"To Do or Not To Do"
The Give4Kayleigh event will start today, March 3rd (National "I Want You to be Happy" Day, and we want the Freemans to be happy) and run through Sunday, March 22nd. This should allow you plenty of time to donate, spread the word, donate, spread some more, and, oh, donate! :) I know the Freemans will kick me for writing that. I just hope Adam puts this in! ;) While you're on the giveaway site, please feel free to take a blog button available or visit the blogs/websites of the artists and businesses. Tell them how thankful you are that they're trying to help in the way they can. I am so thankful for all of our donators. This would not have happened without them! I hope this is successful, but we have to keep our eyes on the most important thing that we can give the Freemans and that is prayer. Little Miss Kayleigh might be coming home soon. What a glorious day that will be! Thank you from the bottom of MY heart, as well as the Freemans!
Kayleigh wanted me to share with you a photo of her smiling for the camera in her bouncy seat. She is doing fabulous right now. The doctors decided to postpone her surgery until next week while they contemplate whether or not to do the Nissen surgery along with the G-tube surgery. We are not too happy about this because they tested for reflux before and the test came back negative for aspirates. However, they feel that it would be wise to do the Nissen surgery anyways since she "may" acquire reflux in the future and since she will be under anesthesia 382
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this one bit. I guess she is giving us a break from all the crying we have done over the past 8 months.
Aimee and I are not too excited about that decision because we wouldn't want a procedure done that is not really needed and getting the Nissen done is more invasive and will only set her back further with recovery. "To do or Not to do, what is the answer?" lol
Thank you all so much for your comments. Aimee and I are beyond blessed by the support from so many. I hope I answered most of your questions, but here are a few more that have been asked. Since I got this new job, will our house be saved? Unfortunately not, there is too much to catch up on with the amount of money that will be coming in.
For those who don't know what the Nissen is, it is where the doctors perform an incision and tack up the stomach wall so their is no horizontal section left of the stomach to allow food to be refluxed/aspirated in to the lungs. It is not a high risk procedure, but the whole problem is we didn't go down this road a while back because the tests came back showing negative for aspirates. I don't understand why it is so important for them to do it now. It just doesn't make sense.
Will the bank be sympathetic now that I have a job? Nope :( They don't care because we are still too far behind
Other than that, everything else is going wonderful. She has been supplemented with a higher calorie fortifier (30 calorie Similac Special Care). She has been tolerating it well and the reason they are doing this is because they had to put her on another low volume diuretic to help remove some fluid retention and would still like to see more growth. She has grown a lot lately, so I don't understand this either, but anykind of growth is better then none at all. Something that is so amazing to both Aimee and I is how calm Kayleigh has been since she has been taken off her pain medication. Changing her trach, diapers and picking her up does not irritate her or upset her one bit. She loves it and surprisingly is relaxed more than ever before. Normally, a baby would be crying several times a day over the smallest things and Kayleigh isn't doing
What actions are we taking about the house? We are working with United Family Services to apply for a program that will either drop our interest rates dramatically, pay for us to get caught up or just prolong the foreclosure process to give us more time to make a little money to pay the upfront money/first months rent somewhere. Have you signed up for SSI and Medicaid? This is in progress and we are waiting for them to contact us with our completed file to sit down for an appointment and confirm our information. They are slow :( Is Kayleigh still on CPAP and how long will she need the trach? Yes, Kayleigh will go home on the CPAP and will have an in-home nurse for as long as she will have the trach. It could be a year, two or more. Since she is on low settings now, hopefully the bronchials will harden quicker and she can come off of it. I think that was it, but if you have anymore, just email me and I will
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3/5/09 - "Thoughtful Thursdays" This has been on very exciting week for the Freeman family and we are happy to share our second "Thoughtful Thursdays" event with you. We will be doing this every week and we would love for everyone to join in and do something nice for someone out there. Last week, The Nye 5 is in our spotlight for their "Thoughtful Thursdays" kind gesture. Read it here: The Nye 5 Okay, here is how our "Thoughtful Thursdays" works.
You all are going to go out in to this crazy world and do something EXTRA nice for someone else. You can do something nice for someone you love, someone you don't love, or someone you you have never had the chance to love and come back here to share about it each and every Thursday. God has shown Himself through Kayleigh and we need to glorify Him in all that we do. We need to touch other people with our kindness and spread the love of God with Kayleigh's story to everyone we possibly can. When you deliver your good deed to someone, let them know that they were touched by Kayleigh and share her website with them, so they too can join in on Kayleigh's journey and our "Thoughtful Thursdays" to glorify God. NOW...You you have got to think outside the box and come back and share it with us and the world. Be creative and make your stories stand out. You never know, you may win a creativity award and get recognized for ALL to see. Here is what I did: I had the opportunity to talk with a young man who was only 17 years old. He had been having a lot of problems at school and was easy to open up his feelings to me. Normally in my life growing up, I never was one to offer good advice, but since I have matured in my life and faith, I was able to direct him down the right path. He was burdened with friends who were making false statements about him and he didn't know how to act or react to the situation at hand. I was able to lead him down a path that Kayleigh's journey had led me. That was a path of forgiveness. I told him that the people who are giving him a hard time were not his true friends 384
Kayleigh's Story and the people he needed to hang out with were people who encouraged him to do the right things as Jesus had taught us. I told him that we live in this world to prepare for eternity and I explained how people have not been so nice to me on Kayleigh's blog, but I had to delete the negative comments and continue spreading the word of God and serving that purpose without the devil getting in the way. I told him to follow Kayleigh's blog and to look deep in to what she has taught us and how all the people who follow her story are the true friends he needs in his life, the one who support and love you through the good and bad parts of your life. He felt encouraged and I felt fulfilled with God's everlasting love.
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3/8/09 - Stealing Kisses Several tests have been taking place and another one is due Monday. They are getting a general idea as to whether or not Kayleigh needs this Nissen surgery. The cray part is, Kayleigh has not been refluxing at all throughout the whole 8 months until these past few days. She has thrown up once or twice a day. They did stop her Prevacid medication other day in order to do one this test coming up on Monday, so we are thinking the medication worked to prevent Kayleigh from refluxing. So now the decision comes about to keep her on medication or do the Nissen? I would love to keep her on the medication, but we'll see what this other test proves.
After losing a little bit of weight due to the diuretics, she has put more ounces back on. She is back up to 7 pounds - 5 ounces now and is looking chunkier than ever. We are so pleased with how happy she is and how comfortable she seems to be throughout the day. After spending a week in Oklahoma training for my new job, it was so awesome to get back to see the family. Aimee and I spent quite some time hanging out with Kayleigh and taking some great photos. Speaking of Oklahoma, if you haven't seen Abby's Blog (Praying for Abby), you must go check it out. I had the pleasure spending the week with the Riggs, at their house all last week. Their family was so wonderful to open their home to me and treat me as if I were part of the family. It was such a blessing to spend time with their children and learn a great deal from such an amazing Christian man such as Brent. He has gifted with such great knowledge about so many things that I learned a lot from his teachings. He actually does some of his teaching on his Twitters, so make sure you check him out there: www.Twitter.com/Brent_Riggs I had such a pleasure spending some time with Landis and Sami throughout the week, but was touched by an angel when I shared some time with Abby at the hospital. She is having such a tough time right now, but never fails to break a smile for the camera. Abby is by far one of the strongest little girls I know. She was in serious pain and discomfort, even when loaded with pain medication. She wanted to color, paint, and give lots of kisses. Aimee was jealous after she heard how many kisses Abby was stealing from me. It was so cute. We shot webs from out spiderfingers and we acted as if we were pirates. Abby is a blessing to so many and she truly touched my heart. God Bless the Riggs family and praise the Lord for newly found friendships. 385
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3/10/08 - GIVEAWAY UPDATE
After one full week of the donation/giveaway event for the Freeman family, we are sad to say that we are extremely far away from reaching our goal. We need everyone's help, so here are a few ideas on how we can get there VERY easily. 1. First, and most importantly, pray about it. What do you think you can do for the Freemans? It may not seem like much to you, but to them it may be just what they need to get them through the day. And coupled with everyone else's "not very much" it may make a phenomenal amount! 2. There are 1256 followers right now on Kayleigh's blog. If every single one of us gave $20, that would equal $25,120. All we have to do is skip an extra lunch out & we will be helping to save someone's family from financial ruin. It really is that easy. 387
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3. If every single one of us would refer just one friend that would also donate $20, we could raise an amazing $50,240. Remember, for each and every referral you will be entered into the Mark 16:15 Referral Package for FREE. You would have birthday gifts for a year to give to your friends!
3/12/09 - Thoughtful Thursday
4. If you aren't in a position to donate financially, all you have to do is refer people that can. You still get the entries into the Mark 16:15 Referral Package and you could walk away with tons of FREE stuff AND know that you still made a huge difference. You could even tell your friends that you will share the package with them. You know, a Thoughtful Thursday thing, right? 5. Don't stop there. Post the blog site www.Give4Kayleigh.blogspot.com on message boards that you belong to, on your Myspace pages, Facebook pages, Twitter, email database, etc. I think you get the drift. Let your friends know that they could snag some really cool stuff just for helping out this well deserving family. Make sure that those people know to tell us that you referred them so that you get your FREE entries into the Mark 16:15 Referral Package. The only way to win this package is to refer, refer, refer. Ask your friends to refer as well. The possibilities are endless. We only have two weeks left and so much ground to cover. Please consider making a donation. Please ask your friends and family to help as well. And, last but not least, pray about it. A little bit of all of those things from each and every person really does add up. We need all of your support.
The last two weeks, we have received 11 entries or less. I would like to double that this week. Who's in??? This has been on very exciting week for the Freeman family and we are happy to share our third "Thoughtful Thursdays" event with you. We will be doing this every week and we would love for everyone to join in and do something nice for someone out there. This week, Nutty Mom is in our spotlight for her "Thoughtful Thursdays" kind gesture. Read it here: NuttyMom Okay, here is how our "Thoughtful Thursdays" works.
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Kayleigh's Story share your story. You all are going to go out in to this crazy world and do something EXTRA nice for someone else. You can do something nice for someone you love, someone you don't love, or someone you you have never had the chance to love and come back here to share about it each and every Thursday. God has shown Himself through Kayleigh and we need to glorify Him in all that we do. We need to touch other people with our kindness and spread the love of God with Kayleigh's story to everyone we possibly can. When you deliver your good deed to someone, let them know that they were touched by Kayleigh and share her website with them, so they too can join in on Kayleigh's journey and our "Thoughtful Thursdays" to glorify God. NOW...You you have got to think outside the box and come back and share it with us and the world. Be creative and make your stories stand out. You never know, you may win a creativity award and get recognized for ALL to see. This week, I wanted to turn the tables a little and share with you all something that has been going on for the past couple months that ended in success the other day. Rachel and Ryan put together a Preemie Onesie Drive where they donated over 220 outfits, 200 hats and 100 booties to the NICU's in around Charlotte, NC. Since they could only drop off so many of the items to the NICU, Rachel has to come back every 3 months to deliver more. It was was a wonderful thing they did and we are so touched by their generosity. I had the pleasure in finally meeting face to face with Rachel and Nikki when they came to drop off the outfits. If you haven't read Rachel and Ryan's stories, click here to read about her beautiful Angels: Carly and HannahOkay, now it's YOUR turn to
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3/13/09 - Sitting - Waiting Praying Before I start, we are still gathering Kayleigh's bedtime stories from all our faithful followers. We currently have around 55 stories so far, but I was hoping to put together 365 to read to her for every single night of the year. That seems far fetched now, but we would still like to receive everyone's story to enter in to this book. Please refer to this post: Opening Up to learn more about this project we all have been working on for Kayleigh. Since she is projected to come home soon, we will need to finish things up very soon. It seems like sitting and waiting is all we have been doing this whole past week. Sorry there haven't been any great updates, but as we anxiously await these final weeks before Kayleigh can come home, we are on stand still because of all the tests they are doing. So no progress has been made this past week and we are probably still a month out before Kayleigh will FINALLY get to come home after "almost" 9 full months in the NICU. (OUCH!!!) This past week, Kayleigh has had several test performed to determine whether or not she needs to get the Nissen procedure done. We were supposed to hear something today, but that didn't 389
Kayleigh's Story happen so we hope to hear something this weekend. The MRI to give us more details on Kayleigh's eyesight was postponed for several reasons. They feel like the MRI results won't change anything at this point and the reflux issue needs to be handled first. Since Kayleigh needs to be heavily sedated for the MRI and a different trach needs to be inserted (because of metal and magnetic issues in the MRI), they will perform the MRI while Kayleigh is sedated for the G-tube/"possible" Nissen surgery. So it should be next week that we are able to get all of this completed. On another note, they did do a hearing test today and feel like Kayleigh has moderate hearing loss. However, it could be what they call "conductive", which means there is fluid build up from her lying in her bed for the past 9 months. If that is the case, it is easily fixable. If it is not conductive, then we have a bigger problem on our hand. I am not sure when the follow up exam is going to take place, but I it will more than likely happen after they perform the surgeries and MRI for her eyes next week. So, just when we thought we were out of the woods with issues, they just don't seem to go away. We really thought that nothing else could possibly happen because Kayleigh has seen it all, but I guess we were wrong. Please pray that things aren't nearly as bad as they seem right now and that we will get out of this hospital soon without any other major issues. We are beyond exhausted with all the stress going on and we could use so many prayers from you all to lift us up. This is going to be a tough week next week with all that is going on and we know that the Lord will carry us through this last leg of the race. However, we know all too well that your prayers have saved Kayleigh's life and brought her through some of her toughest
battles. Just because her issues have not been a severe lately, that doesn't mean we need to not pray as much. I am at fault for not praying as much when things are going great and I am now learning a new lesson in life. We have to continue falling to our knees until Kayleigh is home for good just as if we need to fall to our knees when we have a perfect day in our every day lives. Our Lord should be glorified no matter what and no matter when. I also ask that you pray for our dear friends, Brent and Michelle. Their Abby is in her last stretch with Chemo and she has a fever and a infection around her g-tube site into her tummy, but no white blood cells to help heal her sickness. Please pray that the Lord will work miracles and heal her frail body so she too can go home soon to her loving parents. Brent/Michelle, we are thinking about you all and we love you!
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3/17/09 - Clock Starts Now (Again) Today was a great day in the sense that it cleared up a lot of our questions. We spoke in the hall with the nurse practitioner and one of Kayleigh's neonatologist's. The ironic thing is, the doctor that is in the rotation is the same one who was in the delivery room when Kayleigh was born. She may be the same doctor who is able to send Kayleigh out of this hospital. The first topic of conversation was her stomach issues. They are still running tests to determine if this is an infection of some sort that is 390
Kayleigh's Story causing her tummy to blow up again. The good news is Kayleigh is passing things through and the repogle tube is bringing air out of the stomach. The x-ray shows improvement, but they are not going to start her feeds back until she is cleared from any infections. They are leaning towards another urinary tract infection, but we won't jump to conclusions until the tests come back. They won't do any surgery until this tummy issue is cleared up. The gastroenterologist are determining whether to do a G-tube or PEG. They are basically the same thing and serve the same purpose, but the PEG is less invasive when it comes to the procedure. The PEG is typically used when the Nissen procedure is not being done and it is surgically placed from the inside out instead of performing a larger incision with the G-tube. I have a feeling we are going to be doing the PEG, which we are 100% comfortable with. So that lead us to the most important question of when will Kayleigh be able to go home. We were given a month about a week and a half ago, but since we have been put off for a week with all these reflux tests (Impedance, Barium Swallow and one other test), we still have a month left. If things going smoothly, it could be as little as three weeks. That is if nothing else comes up in between and pushes anything back. So the one month clock starts now, again! So speaking of set backs, we all had a scare that turned out to be nothing at all. Kayleigh was in her bouncy seat today and when one of our primary nurse turned to look at her, she noticed some bright red blood in her trach tube. Kayleigh wasn't in pain, crying or showing any signs of respiratory issues, so it didn't worry anyone that Kayleigh's lungs were bleeding. She must have scratched something in her throat with the trach and it was sucked up through the tube. They are going to keep an eye on things in case
this happens again, but until it shows signs of respiratory problems, they are not concerned. So please continue to pray that things move in the right direction so Kayleigh can get out of there. I feel like the longer she stays, the more things pop up and start causing panic and stress amongst everyone. We do need her healthy, but being at home will reduce the amount of chance for infections or any other complications. We have heard a lot of stories on how children make a huge improvement once they get home, so we are praying that will be the case. Thank you to all of those who have been a part of the Donation Giveaway. Aimee and I are truly blessed by everyone's generosity. Aubrey and Katie have done a wonderful job at putting the program together and we can't say enough wonderful things about them. Thank you so much to all the businesses who donated their items to help our family with this program too. The items are so awesome and we wish you all the very best. There is one week left and we are all excited to see who wins some of these amazing packages. Thank you all tons!!!
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3/19/09 - Thoughtful Thursday 391
Kayleigh's Story This has been on very exciting week for the Freeman family and we are happy to share our fourth "Thoughtful Thursdays" event with you. We will be doing this every week and we would love for everyone to join in and do something nice for someone out there. Okay, here is how our "Thoughtful Thursdays" works. You all are going to go out in to this crazy world and do something EXTRA nice for someone else. You can do something nice for someone you love, someone you don't love, or someone you you have never had the chance to love and come back here to share about it each and every Thursday. God has shown Himself through Kayleigh and we need to glorify Him in all that we do. We need to touch other people with our kindness and spread the love of God with Kayleigh's story to everyone we possibly can. When you deliver your good deed to someone, let them know that they were touched by Kayleigh and share her website with them, so they too can join in on Kayleigh's journey and our "Thoughtful Thursdays" to glorify God. This week, I want to spotlight Mrs. Carpenters class from Illinois. They have all gotten Kayleigh bracelets, made cards for Kayleigh and took photos for Kayleigh's scrap book. Every week, they've all decided to do something for Thoughtful Thursday and share it with us all. You can view Mrs. Carpenters class by CLICKING HERE to read their Thoughtful Thursday gestures. Below are some photos of Mrs. Carpenters class. Thank you all so much and we love and appreciate you tons!
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NOW...You you have got to think outside the box and come back and share it with us and the world. Be creative and make your stories stand out. You never know, your story may be in the spolight for ALL to see. Here's how you get your link on our blog for "Thoughtful Thursdays"
3/24/2009 4:56:00 PM
3/24/09 - Sleeping Beauty :)
Over the past couple days, we have been on hold with any type of surgery for Kayleigh's feeding situation. Kayleigh's belly started to blow up last week and with the fear of an infection, many tests were being done to catch whatever was causing this to happen. They stopped her feeds and then things started to fall apart quickly. The first thing that took place was bleeding in her trach, which could have been caused by numerous reasons. They feared the trach was a size too big or they feared Kayleigh was having bleeding in her lungs that was coming up in to her tubes. They could not lay a finger on what the issue was, but chalked it up to be minor rubbing on her trach site or in her esophagus. This problem happened twice. The second issue happened the other day when Kayleigh's Flolan central line backed up and she started to desat pretty low. They 395
Kayleigh's Story figured out the problem really quick and administered her Flolan through a syringe and it stopped the desaturation from happening. This goes to show that Kayleigh needs that Flolan or she could have a hypertensive episode that could cause her to fall apart quickly. The central line showed no issues and they started her back on the Flolan at the original site. There is only a 3-5 minute window if this central line in kinked or backed, which will then cause some serious pulmonary hypertensive episodes to kick in. The third issue was when Kayleigh developed a fever that was sitting right around 100 for a full two days, but out of no where dropped back to a normal level. Her temperature has stayed in the same position all day yesterday and today, so we are happy to see whatever was causing that has gone away. It could have been from all the tests they were doing to see what was wrong with her belly issue. Too much poking and prodding can make me sick too. The last issue which has surfaced again after 5 months is Kayleigh's hernia. She actually has two of them in her bottom area that need to be addressed before going home. They have decided to pass on the MRI for Kayleigh's eyes right now and do the procedure to fix these two hernias when they do the PEG procedure. We will find out later when the MRI is to be scheduled. The PEG is what they decided to do instead of the G-tube. There is not a whole lot of difference between the two except the PEG is less invasive. So, with all the issues Kayleigh has had over the past few days, she has made another astonishing turnaround and gotten herself back on track. There is no more fever, no more desatting, no more trach bleeding and she is currently back up to full feeds. They have talked about doing the PEG procedure either at the end of this week or the beginning of next. This is such a great, quick turnaround for her and we are now breathing in a breath of fresh air. We spoke with a
doctor today about getting her on the home equipment after she recovers from the procedure and bringing her home shortly after that. How awesome is that going to be??? WOO HOO! Many of you asked about her head circumference and they did her measurements last night. Her head and belly are large, but they are proportionate for her size. If it is big, then that just means she is going to be smart or she is just bull-headed and we know for sure she is just that. She weighed in at 8lbs an 3oz and we are happy to announce that as of yesterday, Kayleigh is now 9 months old. If you haven't noticed, I have added TheBlogFrog to Kayleigh's site for all of our Kayleigh Followers to become members. I decided to take down the blog scroll and put this up in it's place. It will allow all of those who have your own blogs to become a member and every time you come to Kayleigh's blog from your own personal blog, your blog link and blog name will appear for all the others to see. So, if you have not become a member of Kayleigh's BlogFrog community, sign up where the link says "Become a Member" over on the left toolbar. It is a great way to get your blog seen and story told from all the thousands of people who visit Kayleigh's Story each week. Please continue to pray as Kayleigh is on the home stretch. Pray there are no more setbacks and all the procedures will go smooth so we can prepare to bring her home. What an amazing day that is going to be and I hope to celebrate with every single one of you through our posts and comments. You all have been such a wonderful support system for us and we can't thank you enough. We received over 65 bedtime stories and still have room for more if you want to write one. Just email me at Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com 396
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3/26/09 - Donation Total Need of Prayers Wow! I was off the other day when I put in a guestimate for how much donations came in. We are so blessed to announce that the total amount of donations that came in for the giveaway were $6,623. Thank you tons!!! We are so fortunate to have such a great support system through this trying time. I can't imagine where we would be if we didn't have you all to guide us through our hard times, help answer questions we have and contribute financially to help us get by. Every single one of you are such a true blessing. Please pray for Kayleigh, the Drs. and my sanity right now. Way back when Kayleigh had her gastrointestinal surgery to see what was wrong with her slow bowels, they said they were doing a biopsy of Kayleigh's intestines to determine whether or not the cause of the problem was Hirschsprung's Disease. The reason they were supposed to do that was because Aimee asked for it to be done and if I am not mistaken, I think one of you all mentioned it to us.
Well, it turns out there are no documentation of that being done now and they are planning to do it again while Kayleigh has her PEG procedure. Supposedly they did a biopsy for Cystic Fibrosis, but we were never told of anything about that at all. If they find out it is Hirshsprung's disease, the procedure it takes to correct that problem will be a Colostomy Surgery which will definitely set us back further in to bringing her home. Aimee and I are quite frustrated at this point because if this belly issues is a problem that we have been having for so long now, and with us mentioning this problem to the Drs. a long time ago, we are going to be so angry that this could have been taken care of a while back. Please pray that this is not the case because I don't want to be un-Christian-like to anyone :) We need to have a rally with picket signs, saying "HURRY UP YO! Kayleigh's got to go!" (sorry, that was cheesy). Anyhow, I am about done with all these setbacks and my head is about to explode here. This is why I need you all to pray for my sanity as well! Listen to me, I am starting to look a little like this guy:
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3/27/09 - Surgery Scheduled
Right now, this is how I feel after yesterdays post:
Oh what a day! Finally we have narrowed down a time for Kayleigh's upcoming surgeries. Monday starting at 12:00, the doctors are going to perform a PEG placement surgery, then a bilateral hernia repair, and then they will do a biopsy of Kayleigh's bowels to test for a motility deficiency. Their thought is Hirschsprungs disease, so we will see if that checks out. We received an email from someone who has had similar problems with their child's belly blowing up, but were never able to figure out the problem. We plan to speak more in depth with them and get an understanding of what other tests to figure out where the underlying issue is. Like some of you had said, it may not be Hirschsprungs because she has been able to stool on her own without stimulation. So, hopefully your right and that is the case, but at least the biopsy will rule that out and we can move on to other possibilities.
And this is how I am going to be once all the procedures are done and we can get to go home:
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4/1/09 - 9 Months in Review Before I take you on a journey of the past 9 months, I wanted to tell you how Kayleigh is doing today. If you didn't follow my tweets on Twitter or Facebook the other day, Kayleigh's surgery was cancelled by a last minute belly issue. Her tummy blew up and she was having some serious diarrhea. Right now, Kayleigh's belly has reduced in size and it is soft. She had a great day today. The doctors are not sure when the surgery will be rescheduled. We have to coordinate between two surgeons as they are doing both the PEG placement and the bilateral hernia repair. They will be doing a biopsy of her intestines at that point too to determine what is going on with Kayleigh's belly problem.
Weighing only 13 ounces, Kayleigh was less than a week old.
Okay, one of Kayleigh's prayer warriors posted a comment yesterday to post some photos of Kayleigh from each month over the past nine months. So, I thought it would be a good idea to do just that. I hope you enjoy :)
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An astonishing and quick recovery from heart surgery, but would soon battle a tough 6th month as she faces death, but lives.
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Kayleigh can breathe better at 8 months with her new trach If you haven't seen the video, click here "Kayleigh's Video" and you will see the full story with tons of photos. I am actually working on a new video with my photographer who shot at our wedding. It is going to be awesome and I can't wait to share it with you all in the near future. It will include photos of when Kayleigh comes home, so it will have that perfect ending this time. Thank you all for sharing in this journey with us and thank you so much for all of your prayers.
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4/2/09 - A Chance to Help/Thoughtful Thursday
You all are going to go out in to this crazy world and do something EXTRA nice for someone else. You can do something nice for someone you love, someone you don't love, or someone you you have never had the chance to love and come back here to share about it each and every Thursday. God has shown Himself through Kayleigh and we need to glorify Him in all that we do. We need to touch other people with our kindness and spread the love of God with Kayleigh's story to everyone we possibly can. When you deliver your good deed to someone, let them know that they were touched by Kayleigh and share her website with them, so they too can join in on Kayleigh's journey and our "Thoughtful Thursdays" to glorify God.
Tomorrow morning at 11:00am, I am posting an introductory post about Kayleigh on the 5 Minutes for Special Needs blog. It is a blog that consists of multiple families who act as a support system for others who have or are expecting a child with special needs. This is another chance for Aimee and I to reach out and help others through their own journey. Lord knows we have had our share of expertise with Kayleigh and all that she has been through. We look forward to being a part of a special blog and helping anyway we can. This has been on very exciting week for the Freeman family and we are happy to share our fifth "Thoughtful Thursday" event with you. We will be doing this every week and we would love for everyone to join in and do something nice for someone out there. Okay, here is how our "Thoughtful Thursday" works.
This week, I want to spotlight Jenney from TheDraysToday blog. The thoughtful gesture was not actually done by Jenney, but her sister Melissa, who really stepped up and helped her loving sister. Click Here to read the story. NOW...You you have got to think outside the box and come back and share it with us and the world. Be creative and make your stories stand out. You never know, your story may be in the spolight for ALL to see.
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4/2/09 - NEW PLAN - PLEASE PRAY 402
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that God is leading us in the right direction. Since Kayleigh is going to have the Nissen procedure done, she will get the g-tube placement instead of the PEG. The reason for this is because Kayleigh will have to have a three inch incision for the Nissen and they will just do the more invasive g-tube procedure at that point since she will be already open. It doesn't make sense to do the PEG microscopically when they will have her already opened up.
We sat down with one of our neonatologists, our cardiologist NP, our primary nurse and a couple other NP's and discussed a new medication that will take place of Kayleigh's Flolan, which treats her Pulmonary Hypertension. The name of the medication is called Remodulin. Unlike the Flolan's three to five minute window in case something goes wrong with the central line, the Remodulin has a four hour window to fix the line. This will help us stay a little more calm when she comes home and we can get to the hospital in time if there is an emergency.
Tomorrow morning, they are going to complete the biopsy to either determine or rule out Hirschsprung's disease. If we get the results back the same day, the doctors will complete the procedure on Monday. If they don't get the results back, they will be doing the procedure on Tuesday. Here is where we need your prayers the most. If Kayleigh's biopsy comes back positive for Hirschsprungs, they plan to complete a colostomy surgery and they will do this next week when they do the Nissen and G-tube procedure, pushing the bilateral hernia repair to a future time. That may mean we will have to stay in longer to recover and to wait for a future surgery to repair the hernia's.
Now here is where we need your prayers. Beyond the new medication CHOP (Children's Hospital of Philadelphia) mentioned, the main doctor there said they complete the Nissen procedure on all of their pulmonary hypertension neonates. We mentioned before that if Kayleigh does not have reflux or and aspiration problems, then we don't need to do it. But, no one mentioned that if Kayleigh develops reflux down the road that the aspirations can tear down her lung tissue, that may cause Kayleigh to need a lung transplant. We thought about these last couple weeks and how everywhere we turned, someone was talking about Kayleigh needing the Nissen procedure. Now when her belly blew up to cancel the procedure the other day and now a hypertension specialist mentions the Nissen procedure, we feel that God is telling us something. So, we feel it is in Kayleigh's best interest to go through with the Nissen procedure, risking the negative issues of the procedure that will occur upfront, just to prevent a bigger issue (lung deterioration/lung transplant) down the road. We completely trust
AHHHHH! This is enough to drive someone insane, but we are being strong and praying that everything is working the way it is supposed to. Poor Kayleigh has been through so much and just when you think she is getting close, more things seem to pop up in the way. We just need your prayers that these procedures are the last of it. I really feel we are close to getting her home and we need to all pull together and pray our hearts out. Thank you all for being there for us through thick and thin, but we need you all now more than ever before. Please pray that Kayleigh does not have Hirschsprungs or anything major that may cause her
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For those who did not see my Tweet on Twitter or Facebook yesterday, Kayleigh's biopsy came back NEGATIVE for Hirschsprung's Disease. WOO HOO! We will still have to keep our eyes out and figure out what is going on with her belly, but this is a step in the right direction. Many of you posted comments on other possibilities, so we will be bringing those up to the doctors on Monday. Thank you so much!!!
We love you all!
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4/3/09 - Biopsy Completed This is a quick post to let everyone know that Kayleigh had her biospy procedure this morning and we are waiting for the results. Please pray those results are negative for Hirschsprung's disease. We should get the results back within 24 hours, so hopefully tomorrow we will be able to post the news. Kayleigh is having another great day today and she handled the procedure like a champ. Thank you all for everything and God Bless,
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4/5/09 - "NEGATIVE"
On another great note, one of our primary nurses (possibly two now) will be part of the staff that will take care of Kayleigh when she comes home. We are so pumped and excited to hear that. It will make this transition that much easier and exciting. We love our nurses so much that we were afraid of having to get to know and love someone new, so it is a blessing that we will have couple that already know Kayleigh really well and can be a strong advocate for her. Many of you know that having a new nurse or a nurse that doesn't know your child can be the most stressful part of the NICU, especially when you have been there for quite some time. So this is by far some of most exciting news we have gotten in a while. It feels like so much weight has been lifted off our shoulders. On the other hand, many of you asked about our home and how that situation is going. We met with United Family Services and they were able to help us extend our foreclosure from March 29th to April 27th. The bank has agreed to look at our information to offer up a possible solution, but Aimee and I feel they won't make much of a change for us. But, at least we were able to stick it out for another month. The donation money was not able to help us catch back up what the bank needs, so we felt our best option was to make sure our family's insurance will not lapse and our on;y vehicle can get us around for work. If the bank doesn't come up 404
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To explain what happened, yesterday Kayleigh was doing great and then all of the sudden, she was coughing, spitting up and having mucousy drainage out of her nose and trach. Her sats dropped quickly and they had to increase her oxygen and pulmonary pressures to get her sats in the right position. After a few hours of controlling her stability, she started to struggle again with the same problems.
Please pray that things go well this week. The surgeries are going to be Tuesday or Wednesday, but I will let you all know the second I find out. Keep up with Twitter and Facebook because sometimes I will update there first. Thank you all for your resent prayers because God was certaily listening :)
The Gastroenterologist came in and felt like Kayleigh's liver and spline were enlarged, so they will be doing an ultrasound on those to determine what may be causing that. With problems rising and multiple tests being performed, hopefully the doctors find something soon.
I hope everyone is having a blessed weekend.
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4/6/09 - POSTPONED After we got all that great news yesterday, the NICU roller coaster is at it again. We have not gotten official results back from all different tests, but Kayleigh started to go downhill yesterday and quick! They have not idea why this happened and they are taking all measures to figure it out. The only test that has come back yet is he RSV and that is negative. The ECHO showed Kayleigh's pulmonay pressures were elevated and her heart's right side was not functioning as strong as it normally is. The cardiologists are getting together for their weekly meeting on Thursday to determine whether or not to do another heart cath procedure to determine what is going on with her heart. Their fears are the heart may be causing this vicious cycle.
Please stay close for updates and pray that whatever is causing this issue will be discovered and taken care of quickly. Please pray it has nothing to do with her heart and we can move on from the nightmares we had with her pulmonary pressures being high. Unfortunately, with all this going on, it does postpone the upcoming surgeries for this week. Please pray for our sweet Kayleigh and I will update as soon as I hear something.
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caused by a several allergy attack. It seems that several nurses, family members and even myself had intense diarrhea of the nose sneeze fests this past weekend. I can only pray that is what threw Kayleigh in to a tiffy.
I will be sure to update more as I get more information. Sorry this isn't much, but we haven't really gotten a whole lot of news either
Good news is the doctors felt Kayleigh was in a better position to start her feeds up, but they will be starting slow and build up from there. The news is, we will be waiting until next week to do any type of surgeries in case this cold/allergy issue surfaces again.
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The great news is she is showing quick signs of improvement and not heading in a wrong direction anymore. I am not going to jinx it anymore because it has not been working for me, so I am going to just say it this way; If Kayleigh has surgery sometime this year and can come home before I wind up where she is of old age, I will be more excited than a child on Christmas morning.
4/9/09 - "Thoughtful Thursday" Before I kick of this weeks Thoughtful Thursday, I wanted to give you an update on sweet Kayleigh. Our visit today was extra special and Kayleigh seemed to be in high spirits. After watching her sleep the whole visit yesterday, it was great to see her awake and batting at her play toys. Yes! She was grabbing at the toys hanging from her "clothes line" that streams across her bed. She has a rattle she especially loves where she will swipe at it or grab and try to shove in her mouth. It was beyond cute to watch her interact with it and such a blessing to prove even a bigger point that she sees her toys clear enough to locate with her hands.
Thank you all for the prayers and let's keep them flowing stronger than ever.
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starts to take a bottle later down the road. The bad news of this drug is that it has potential to disrupt or even harm her liver functions. I think the older she gets, the less of a chance that will happen. I am guessing that now she is bigger, she has a better chance of it now harming her. We at least hope so or that could be another problem we don't want. Speaking of Kayleigh's weight, she is over 9 pounds now. What a chunky monkey! You can tell by one of those photos, she is putting on the pounds. It is hard to believe she is nine times her birth weight. Yowzers! She hit the 9 pound mark last week, but quickly fell below once they gave her some Lasix to remove some of the excess water retention she was holding on to while she was ill. Last but not least, Monday we will be scheduling Kayleigh's upcoming surgery for the g-tube, nissen and bilateral hernia repair. We are beyond excited to hear we are getting close once again to proceed with the surgery plans because the quicker we can do this, the quicker she can come home. It is tough to write about some fun thing when Kayleigh isn't doing well, so I am going to rehash our events when we went to Joyce and Terry's house (Aimee's Mom and Step Dad) last weekend. We all went for a hike on their nature trail down to a lake that is near their home. Besides sneezing and blowing my nose a million times due to the nasty pollen issues we are having here in Charlotte, it was a great escape from the real world. It felt awesome to finally get out of the house/work/hospital to have some wonderful family quality time. Here are some of the photos that we took from that day.
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As of right now, surgery is scheduled for Thursday morning. They wanted to do the procedures at 8:00am, but we are checking to see if a later time that morning is possible because the kids have to be taken to school. If it changes, I will let you know so everyone can be praying. Kayleigh is doing really well and she is tolerating her feeds. Her belly has blown up a little, but nothing more than her norm. It is nothing to be concerned about because she is still having stools and her bowel sounds are good. This weeks "Thoughtful Thursday" is going to be a little different than others. I am going to do a "Thankful Thursday" instead and thank someone who has impacted my life so much. If you are interested in joining in, just write a post and link it to our blog so others can see who you are thanking and why. This will allow those who are being thanked to feel blessed your life was impacted by theirs for the kindness or leadership they have given you.
I can't say enough how much I appreciate everyone's thoughts and prayers through this journey. It is a blessing to receive so many thoughtful comments on here and on Facebook. I am trying to answer more of your questions, so please let me know if you have any and even though we are so very busy, I promise to do my best to get back to you in this lifetime a timely fashion.
I am looking forward to writing my post and I can't wait for that person to read what I wrote because I don't feel like I have said thank you enough. I want the world to know how awesome this person is to me.
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Surgery @ 8:00am (EST) - Procedure consists of G-Tube, Nissen, Bilateral Hernia Repair & a new Central Line Placement. Please pray for Kayleigh and the doctors.
I wish you all a wonderful Tuesday and I will give you more updates with hopefully some new cute photos of Kayleigh soon.
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heart for a special reason and who has molded me in to the man I am today. This week, I am going to kick it off with none other than my beautiful wife, Aimee.
4/16/09 - "Thankful Thursday" Before I kick of this weeks Thoughtful Thankful Thursday, I wanted to thank you all for your prayers and please continue to pray as the surgeries will begin at Thursday, 8:00am (EST). I will be updating through Blogger/Twitter/Facebook all morning to keep everyone posted. Please say a prayer, not only for Kayleigh, but for all the doctors and staff who are involved with the procedures. Thank you so much! This week is going to be different and I would like to see if by doing things this way, we will get a lot more people involved to share their stories. . Okay, here is how our "Thoughtful Thankful Thursday" works. This week, I would love to hear about someone special in your life who you are thankful for and why. This will be a great way to let everyone know how awesome that person is in your life and I am sure it will make them feel all warm and fuzzy too. Whatever you are thankful for, I want you to spill your hearts out like never before. God has blessed us with so many people in our lives and I feel that I could never thank those people enough. So I am going to shout it from the roof top so everyone knows who has found a place in my 411
Kayleigh's Story Wow, just look at those pictures (the last is my all time favorite) Yowzers! Is she not beautiful or what??? I am glad that 95% of Kayleigh's followers are female and the 5% that are male are married, because I would have to beat them off with a stick if I wasn't careful (lol). Seriously, beyond the amazingly beautiful looks, this is the strongest person I have ever met. If you want to know where Kayleigh gets her strength from, then here she is. Aimee is such an intelligent and strong willed woman that she has left an imprint on my heart that makes me realize how lucky I am to have landed such a keeper. Aimee and I have "that kind" of relationship. We are "those" people that you see, who are head over heals 24/7 and practically do almost everything together. We are continuously showing each other affection and we just can't seem to get enough of each other. I am so glad that I have a woman in my life who shows me on a daily basis how much she loves me and makes me feel so special. Don't get me wrong, there are days full of stress that lead to arguments, but our communication allows us to work through our problems and make the changes we need to keep each other happy. Because of that, I am so proud to have my best friend as my wife. I have learned so much from Aimee over the years and she has given me the drive to be the best at anything I put my mind to. She is my rock and my shoulder to cry on. I am so blessed that God has given me Aimee to be by my side through this journey with Kayleigh. She is an awesome Mom and I am so lucky to be the man in her eyes. Thank you so much Aimee for putting up with me through thick and thin. I want you to know that I love you more than anything in this 412
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7:15am - Good morning. We are on our way to the hospital to see Kayleigh off to surgery. Thank you for all of your prayers.
12:30pm - Surgery is over and was a success! Recovery will be tough on her, but dr felt the procedure went better than expected. Whew!!!
4/16/2009 7:07:00 AM 8:05 - They are running behind and have not taken Kayleigh down to surgery yet. She is smiling more than ever and looks just precious.
11:00am - Drs are finished with the G-tube, Nissen & biopsy. They're finishing the hernias & all they will have left is the central line.
4/16/2009 12:33:00 PM 1:30pm - We should be getting a call any minute to go up to see Kayleigh. We are so anxious to see her and give her some smootches.
4/16/2009 12:42:00 PM 4/16/2009 7:57:00 AM 9:55 - They have taken Kayleigh into to surgery and will begin shortly. Updates to come as we receive them. Please pray things go smooth.
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1:41 - Just got the call. On our way up to see Kayleigh back at her bedside.. Woo Hoo!
4/16/2009 1:00:00 PM 2:00pm - Poor Kayleigh. She's not feeling too good. Her whole body has swelled up pretty bad, and her sats are struggling to stay up.
10:37am - So far so good. Moving right along. Kayleigh is doing great, but her parents are a nervous wreck :)
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4/16/2009 2:28:00 PM 3:26pm - Picking the kids up from school. Ready to play with them, so we can laugh & relieve some stress. Kayleigh is somewhat stable still.
4/16/2009 4:24:00 PM 5:22 - Aimee, the kids and I are on our way to speak at a March of Dimes event and help raise awareness for these little miracles.
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4/17/09 - Let's Try this Again Let's try this again. Now I have got the videos working and we are ready to go...
(Thursday) to share with everyone a day in the Freeman family shoes. It is not top notch quality but hey...it works. We need to learn more about editing, but that will come with time. I hope you will enjoy getting to see some behind the scenes with our family. Also, we would like to warn everyone that Kayleigh's after surgery is not intended to show Kayleigh at such a vulnerable state, but to let you realize how serious and intense this journey has been. It is to open people's eyes who need to feel the impact of such a world many of us come to unfortunately know so well. After all, our whole goal is to help make a difference in someone's life by sharing the truth of how amazing our Lord can be through His blessings. We hope you all enjoy it and please say a prayer for Kayleigh. She is still struggling to get under control with her tolerance to the pain/sedation medication. She is such a bull, that it is taking her "A LOT" of medication to control her. Pray that this will subside and she will recover quickly and feel no more discomfort. Kayleigh has had her fair share of troubles, so it is time for her to live happy and healthy. All of your thoughts and prayers were amazing today and we couldn't thank you all enough for the support. I wish there was a way we could give back to every single one of you. Thank you all from the bottom of our hearts.
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4/18/09 - Post-Operation Update Just wanted to thank you all for the great comments on the videos. It was a blessing to bring you all in a little closer to our family. If you missed the videos, check out the last post and watch how our day (yesterday) went down. Kayleigh-bug, little munchkin, petunia, little miss thang, heart attack giver is doing better and better as the hours go by. I didn't want to alarm anyone, but last night was scary as all get out. Just after I posted the "first/failed attempted" videos, we got a call from one of the nurse practitioners telling us Kayleigh's body was not accepting the crazy amount of pain medication they were pumping her with and she had a pulmonary hypertensive episode to where they could not get her sats back up without putting her on the Nitric Oxide. If you all remember how "December" went down, you will remember NO2 all too well. Basically, NO2 was a life saver. Needless to say, with her oxygen and vent settings up as high as possible, enough pain meds for 3 grown adults and the Nitric Oxide flowing through her body, Kayleigh was saved from disaster. Besides having to get two blood transfusions already, and several doses of Lasix to remove excess fluid off her body, she's recovering slowly but surely. The biggest scare was her blood pressure though. The median number was creeping in to the 30's and that is not a good sign,
especially when she has pulmonary hypertension. The normal median number for her should be in the 60's, so half of that spells bad news. On the other hand, the swelling in her abdomen is the cause for this by putting pressure on her lungs and heart. With the Lasix pulling fluid off, she has been peeing quite a bit and is probably half the size she was yesterday. Aimee and I were beyond shocked to see how blown up she was from the surgery. Kayleigh's belly can get big sometimes, but damn WOW it's HUUUGE!!! So right now, Kayleigh is not being bothered by anyone so she can rest and get herself recovered fully before another attack hits. The more she is calm and the more the swelling goes down, the better she will get. Please pray that happens quickly. Sorry, I have to interrupt to tell you something funny. The doctor just called and of course every time you see the hospital number come up, your heart drops. Anyhow, we joked about this today with her at the hospital, but she normally is the same doctor who can't catch a break and calls us every time there is bad news. Well, she just called to prove a point that she doesn't always call when it is bad news and told us that she is looking at Kayleigh right now, satting at a 100% while sleeping peacefully with a much better blood pressure number. We laughed pretty hard and it felt good to laugh. Okay, so please pray for Kayleigh to pull through this as she seems to slowly be doing. We have made it too far for something like this to get in the way and bring her down. She is a true fighter and has shown us that so many times. Can you imagine, she has been through so much more than 98% of all humans, in less than 10 months. Goodness gracious. Praise God for His amazing gifts. We are so blessed to have Kayleigh 415
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4/20/2009 1:41:00 PM 4/20 - Kayleigh is still making slow, but good progress. She is starting to wake up a little and open her eyes every now and then.
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4/20/09 - Where Are You Praying From??? Ya know, I was sitting here thinking and I thought of a great little project that I would love to put together for Kayleigh and beyond that, it would be awesome to just see a video of all the photos. I have seen comments come through from all over the world and I have looked at Kayleigh's World Map to see where everyone is located. We recognize names, but we don't have faces to go with many of those names. It would be a great opportunity for us to see who you are and where you are from. Here is how it works. Take a photo of you, your family, your child, a landmark or whatever while holding a sign that says: Praying for Kayleigh in... (and of course put your city/state or country)
4/19/2009 2:41:00 PM 4/19 - Kayleigh's making great progress. They started to wean her off the Nitric. Her swelling is way down & her blood pressure is great. We are so excited!!!
If you haven't seen my good friend, Jennifer's (McKmama) blog, and how she does it for sweet Stellan, it is similar except that we just want photos of you with your sign reading: "Praying for Kayleigh in...." Once I gather all the photos/location signs, I would like to put 416
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has caused this to happen. Our hearts are breaking right before our eyes and we are in complete shock at the moment. Please help us.
Please send your photos ASAP to: Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com
As you all know, post surgery seemed to go as expected. Normally, it gets worse before it gets any better, but Kayleigh was showing great signs of recovery. Although, after a couple days and things progressing normally, sweet Kayleigh is not waking up anymore. She is no longer on the Nitric or any pain medication. She is on very low settings beyond the expected pressure control to help her breath. Her sats are great and her heart rate/blood pressure is right where it should be. However, she is still not waking up like she should be at this point. Her sweet tiny body lays still, with very slight (unexplainable) movements at times, while her muscles are contracted beyond any measurable understanding. The thought of some kind of neurological problem quickly raised a red flag and an EEG test was conducted only to show that a big section of Kayleigh's brain (cerebral cortex) is not working at all and may never work again. In other words, the doctors stated she has a flat reading, which is another term for being brain dead.
4/21/2009 10:38:00 AM 4/21- Please pray for Stellan who went into surgery this morning. Http://www.MycharmingKids.net
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4/21/09 - Please Lord, Help Us!!! We are sitting here thinking of the right words to say, but there are never the right words to say when your life has been turned upside down in a blink of an eye. "I am praying, Lord, that you will speak through me and deliver this message to shine a light on others for them to show you how special Kayleigh is to all of us and how we are not ready to say goodbye." We need your prayers right now! Something terrible is going on with Kayleigh and no doctor or specialist can lay a finger on what
This is so hard to write and so hard to take in right now. The doctors plan to do more testing to see what could have caused this to happen and why she still makes unexplained movements. Was it the excess pain medication they gave her to calm her down? Was it a stroke that she encountered while fighting off the pain the other night? Was there not enough oxygen or blood flow to the brain? Did the Nitric cause this? Barbiturate poisoning can cause flat readings at time, so could that be the case? (She had some phenobarbital this morning) With all these questions running through our heads, we have no idea, but we pray we will get the answers as quick as possible. This has all happened so sudden and we don't know what is going 417
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times. Please pray that the Lord will fix Kayleigh's brain waves so she can continue to bless all of us with her amazing strength, love and that adorable little smile. Thank you. "Lord Almighty, You are so amazing and your love is beyond greater than any words we could ever imagine. We are not blaming you one bit or nor are we angry at you for what is going on here because we trust in you and we love you with all of our hearts. We beg of you not to take our little girl from us. Heal her troubled body and give her the strength to make it through this devastating circumstance so she can come home to our family who anxiously awaits with open arms.
With all the faith in the world, it still hurts to think that this journey may end so drastically and beyond understanding. Kayleigh is our precious gift from God and He has given us this sweet miracle for a reason. Whether she touches someones life to bring them closer to God or closer to their family, we may never know the true reason until we meet our creator face to face. We have to trust God for the things He does, but staying strong and patient for those answers are practically unbearable at times.
Our faith is so strong and we know you are so powerful to do anything your will desires. If Kayleigh is ready to go to heaven to be with you, we completely understand, but then please give us the strength to live our lives without seeing her precious smile and filling our hearts with happiness every single day. Give us direction to continue to share her precious story to help so many others come to know you Lord, love each other and find hope in their own journeys. We know that we are here to prepare our lives for eternity with you, so we trust that your decision is the right decision. We are just not ready to say "Goodbye, for now." Please Lord, Help us!!!
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temperature, she has been able to get the pain meds out of her system, her blood pressure is normal, and she is not desatting at all. She has woken up and moved around, but the blank stare in her eyes and the repetitive movement in her limbs quickly tells you there is something seriously wrong.
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She did react to our voices and seemed to kick her legs a little more, but none of her movements show any kind of purpose. Before, she would reach for her mouth and suck on her fingers, she would grab for her toys, or she would grip your finger when you held her hand. Now, there isn't anymore of that happening and it breaks our heart to see her in this condition.
After a long and emotional day, we were able to gather some information about Kayleigh's prognosis to pass along to everyone. A CT-scan was completed this afternoon to determine what may be the cause to Kayleigh's shocking lack of brain functions. It appears there was a lack of blood and/or oxygen supply to the brain during or shortly after her surgery this past week. The other option is that Kayleigh had a pre-existing condition that worsened with the surgery. However, the latter of the two can be cancelled out as there were no obvious issues that can relate to the problems she is having now.
If time is to determine what is wrong and if things don't progress, we can only hope that Kayleigh's brain will allow her to breath on her own. Starting tonight, the doctors are going to wean her pressure control to see if her body can breath without the help. If she can't breath on her own, then Kayleigh's future prognosis is not going to be good news at all.
Being that Kayleigh had two blood transfusions this past week and a very low blood pressure number tells me that the problem may be with the lack of oxygen/blood to the brain, but no one is for certain at this time. The doctors still want to see how her body reacts with time, but Aimee and I are pushing for other tests to be done in case there is a reason and it could be something that may be fixed. Time may hurt us if we just sit back and wait to see how Kayleigh reacts. Aimee and I asked for the CT-scan to be done and that is why it was performed today. Even if they may feel nothing can fix the damage that is done, we at least want some answers. If you look at the bright side of things, Kayleigh is coming down more on her settings. Her oxygen is practically at room
It was a blessing for Aimee and I to hold her for several hours and talk to her about many things, such as her big sisters birthday tonight and what bacon tastes like since that helped with her progress in December. We talked about playing at home one day and how fun it will be to have the whole family together. We talked for hours about everything so she could hear our voice and know that no matter what, she will be okay. We have not lost hope and we trust that God has a huge plan for Kayleigh. He has done many wonderful things with her so far, but we would be sad to see Kayleigh go and not be able to personally share her story for the rest of her life. Although, If God has plans for her in heaven, Aimee and I promise with all that we have, we will
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4/24/2009 11:33:00 PM
4/25/09 - We Are Lost First off, I want to apologize for not posting a newer update lately. I am sure you all have been itching for an update and quite honestly, we are having a really tough time right now dealing with this. Kayleigh had a repeated EEG this morning and the results on her brain waves have not changed. Kayleigh remains in a state of a flat reading and besides being able to breath on her own and maintain a stable position otherwise, she shows no other signs of improvement.
It breaks my heart to say that we have no idea where this recent news will lead us, but the doctors feel with the unchanged brain wave diagnosis, Kayleigh will not recover from this traumatic incident. The CT-scan showed that the lack of blood/oxygen loss happened within the last 12 days somewhere, so this happened either during or shortly after the surgery. We will continue to see if there are tests to tell us if she had a stroke or something else to give us some kind of answer and understanding. Aimee and I are in complete shock as we continue to read about others who have come back from a flat reading within a 24 hour period, but no success story goes as far as several days. We know that God can do anything He wants at anytime, but the more time goes by with no improvements, we may feel He has decided this is just the beginning of Kayleigh's triumphant journey to heaven. As Aimee and I are strong in our faith, there are still questions about our precious little girl's state right now. We question if Kayleigh is in heaven already since her mind is no longer here. Just because she has a beating heart and the ability to breath, with no brain functions, is she already playing with all the other beautiful children in heaven? We don't know and it is a very tough position to be in. We fear the doctors will soon be asking us the dreaded question to no longer give her the support she needs. We are lost and we need your help, not from an opinion point of view, but of what the Bible teaches us. Over the next week, we are going to be faced with uncertainty, so we beg of all those who are preachers to contact us to pray over us and to help us through this difficult time in helping us come to make a decision that God would want us to make. 420
Kayleigh's Story We pray that no one should have to go through this in a million years and all we ask if for your prayers of strength. We have cried many tears and are completely lost and need guidance from our Lord. We honestly don't know what our Lord would want us to do here. Our lives are shattered.
For once, I felt as if nothing was wrong and no troubles to stress. We laid comfortably together, enjoying the closeness as a Father and his little girl should feel every single night. I've never gotten the chance to be so close and I may never get that chance again until we meet again in heaven someday. She is my precious sweetheart and it will be so hard to let her go when that day soon comes."
All preachers, please email me at Adam@TeamFreemanProperties.com and leave me your contact information so we can call.
We are not sure if Kayleigh's traumatic and unforeseen circumstance is the cause to her new found issues. She is no longer tense with constricted muscles, but she seems to be breathing heavier and cries out silent cries of agitation. The doctors tell us she feels no pain as this section of the brain controls no emotions, but when she is awake, her uncomfortable condition seems to tell us otherwise. She doesn't hold our fingers anymore and retracts her hands and feet at the slightest touch.
All of your prayers have been so amazing and we are so grateful to have everyone supporting us through this unbelievably difficult time. Thank you so much and God Bless,
This is so uncomfortable to see and our emotions become at ease when our nurse gives her some sedatives to let her rest. We are all fearful of Kayleigh continuing to act this way as we were told this is how most people with this brain condition will act unless they're asleep. No parent should ever have to see their child like this and I lift my hands in prayer to those who do.
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4/25/09 - God's Hand "I sat and watched as my beautiful wife held Kayleigh in her arms. Through the tears in our eyes, we watched her sleep peacefully on her soft pink boppy pillow. There were no words spoken, but heartbreaking emotions raced through our bodies. Seeing this amazing miracle from God, loved by millions across the world, made us realize how lucky we are to have been blessed with 10 amazing months of love. I laid my head next to hers, smelling her soft fuzzy head, I closed my eyes to pray and fell sound asleep next to her.
Aimee and I have plans to bring Kayleigh home to her precious room, we so anxiously prepared her for, so she can live out the remainder days of her life. We want Allyson and Brandon to spend some time with their sister, which they were unfortunately not able to do since August of last year due to RSV season at the hospital. We are not sure when that will be due to her lack of feeding abilities, but we only pray the Lord will bless us with our wishes. Many of you asked if Kayleigh's organs can be donated and this is
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Kayleigh's Story something we wish we could do, but with the major organs having so many issues, it is not possible. There are options to donate some minor things, but that could only be done before Kayleigh passes and we would rather have her with us at home during her remaining time. I learned today that God has given us a gift of love and no matter what or when our decisions may be, it will be filled with love. We don't want to regret any decisions we have to make, so we want to be 100% sure we are doing what we feel is right on this inside. No one can tell us what is right or wrong, only God can fill our hearts, making the perfect decision for our daughter when it is purely made out of love. Kayleigh will always be remarkable, whether she is with us here on earth or not. But, we do know that heaven shares no pain and Kayleigh will be made new again. Someone very special to me told me something today that has touched my heart so deeply that I want to share with all of you. I want you to look closely at the photo above where my hand is holding Kayleigh's. Do you see God's hand holding mine? I do. I would like to praise God for my parents who walked for us this morning in the March of Dimes walk in Charlotte. We wish we could have been there with you guys, but just know we will walk every year for here on out and for those who can will be more than welcome to join us. Here are some photos of them with Kayleigh the other day and this morning, during their walk in Kayleigh's name. Thank you two and we love you so very much! Also, thanks to all of those out there who also walked in Kayleigh's name. We really appreciate it.
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Kayleigh's Story Hi friends, this is Brent Riggs, guest blogging for Adam and Aimee today. They didn’t ask me too, I begged them to let me. First, I know many of you know me and know that Adam and I are good friends, but a lot of you have no clue who I am. Because of what I’m writing today, it is prudent to give you a quick “who is this guy?” My wife and I have a blog at www.riggsfamilyblog.com. We have seven children, three are internationally adopted, two from Guatemala, one from Ethiopia. Our four year old from Guatemala, Abby, has Leukemia, and four times in the past year we spent days at a time unsure if she would survive. So we know a little bit about how Adam and Aimee are feeling, and what they are going through (actually we know a LOT about it). Adam and I have become good friends over the months. I’ve been honored and blessed to have him stay in our home, and to be able to offer spiritual encouragement and advice. You’ll find my ministry site at http://www.seriousfaith.com/ and my professional site at http://www.brentriggs.com/. We also featured Kayleigh’s story in our magazine called “Serious.Life” in a story called “One Pound Miracle” (http://www.seriouslifemagazine.com/default.asp?issue=9). That issue received over one million page views.
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4/27/09 - Guest Blogger Brent Riggs
So what? Did I get on Adam’s blog to promote myself. Nope. I just wanted to establish some credibility and background with you before I began to talk about what I really wanted to say today. One last thing, I want to make it abundantly clear that I CALLED the Freeman’s and asked to be able to speak to you on their blog. They were immediately hesitant and it took a couple of conversations for me to convince them. They are already overwhelmed and infinitely grateful for all the help and prayers that you have provided up to this point. The fact remains for them as they wake up each day, 423
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critical element in place: insurance for Kayleigh. I know from personal talks with Adam that this money is almost gone too. Adam would barely even consider letting ME write this blog post because they feel you have done so much already (I had to be very persuasive to get them to consider it). This is FAR from over for them. It was not a one time, short term situation. You can’t name a bill or expense they are not so far behind on that “action” is not being pursued. In the meantime, their precious daughter is lying in the hospital with “no hope” according to the doctors.
Let’s recap for the newer readers: You remember that little mortgage crisis last year? It was “in the news” for a while but it continues to devastate the lives of those who were unsuspectingly caught up in the disaster caused by politicians. The Freeman’s had a thriving real estate business, one that was blessing others, providing for family members and helping the community. The real estate crash disintegrated their entire business and income at the same time they began the long journey of relentless medical crisis with Kayleigh who was born three months premature and has been on a life crisis roller coaster from day one.
No hope? For those of us who believe in our Creator, we know that there IS hope. God could miraculously revive Kayleigh. THAT is hope. God could bring Kayleigh into His presence, if He hasn’t already. THAT is hope.
The bills skyrocketed, the business plummeted. So along with the emotional strain that comes with the daily battle of wondering if your child will be alive tomorrow, they have also endured the stress of mounting bills, threatened foreclosure and repossession, bill collectors, medical expenses, and all the expenses involved in the constant travel and dislocation at the hospital… this type of situation causes all expenses to rise, new expenses to occur. All the while, their income simply disappeared. We aren’t talking years, we are talking about a matter of months. People of lesser character and strength would have succumbed to despair with half this stress. During this time, I’ve watched Adam try to start a new business, work on getting the real estate moving again, and reach out to help others. We aren’t talking about some lazy “victim-minded” people… these are genuinely good, hard working folks who are walking through an EXTRAORDINARY set of trials. I know that people have already helped the Freeman’s, as have we. In particular, enough money has been given to keep the most
What we have right now is not a loss of hope, but a family enduring both the crushing stress of losing a child, and the debilitating stress of debt piling up exponentially. There is simply no reason for ME, and YOU, and the tens of thousands of other Christians who frequent this blog to not relieve the one part we CAN relieve: financial stress. We live in a land of PLENTY. Yes, times are a little harder right now, but I doubt many people reading this have anything much less than a comfortable life with plenty of material possessions, entertainment and leisure. I’m NOT about guilt trips. I only remind my Christian brethren of this because sometimes we lose sight of how good we really have it. And I ask you to consider how much YOU would hope and pray for help if you were in the same situation. The Bible teaches us that if we have two coats, why do we let our brother go cold? If we have water, why do we tell them “God be with you” and not give a cup of water? Prayer is critical and required. GIVING puts prayer into action. There is no need for this
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not let our fellow Christians suffer under so much without joining them in their trials. We all have hard times. We all experience stress, and perhaps you are feeling the financial crunch today. I understand that. We are too. But the Freemans are enduring EXTRAORDINARY circumstances, and it is simply to God’s glory that we, as a Christian family, pool our resources together and alleviate some of their burden.
Friends, as a Christian family, we get to love together, rejoice together, cry together and hang tough together. There is simply no need for the Freeman’s to have to endure the paralyzing stress of both critical illness as well as enough financial stress to cripple most people. One or the other is bad enough. Both? May it never be.
Follow me, as I follow Christ…
I’m not beating around the bush about my request. With the tens of thousands of people who are visiting this blog, we can all click the DONATE button up there on the right side, and we can almost instantly remove the financial stress so this family can spend possibly the last couple of weeks with their daughter without the overwhelming burden of losing everything they own, and the relentless inquiries from bill collectors. It would be hard for one person to give a hundred thousand, but it’s not hard for 50,000 people to give two dollars, or 10,000 people to give $10 or 1000 people to $100.
UPDATE: Based on some valid incoming comments, I want to say that this post was not meant to imply that those who don't share our Christian faith are incapable or unwilling to care and help. Of course they are. We speak in "Christian terms" because our Christianity saturates our life. We know that people who do not hold to Christianity as their faith are just as capable and willing (sometimes more willing much to our shame) to give and help and care as much as those of us who profess Christianity. Again, I write in Christian vocabulary to our Christian family because that is what we base our life on and we can no more exclude it than we can exclude breathing from our life. It is not in any way meant to make others feel excluded or unwelcome to help the Freeman family. Of course not, but evidently that needed to be clarified. ~ Brent
I’ve got a daughter with Leukemia. I have seven children. When the financial crisis hit in the Fall of last year, my income was cut IN HALF. But I see a family in greater need, and if we can sacrifice, I know you can too. Our family will lead the way by giving $250 first. It’s not much, but if the rest of you join us, it soon will be.
Brent Riggs www.seriousfaith.com www.riggsfamilyblog.com
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4/28/09 - Thank You Twenty-five minutes have gone by on the clock while I sit here and think of the best way to thank you all for your support and I still can't find the right words to say. Not to mention that I am typing with one arm because Brent twisted my other arm right off, begging to write on my blog to reach out to others to help our family. Brent you are a complete blessing and I am thankful I prayed, listened to God, and let you post. Brent, I am thankful God has blessed us with such an incredible friend such as yourself. If you missed Brent's very generous post, read it (HERE). I really did not want to let him write for us because every single one of you have helped us out so much before. Whether you prayed for us, donated your hard earned money or supported us with your love, we are forever grateful. In just one full day, you all have helped lift such a huge burden off of our backs. Dealing with Kayleigh's situation is one of the hardest thing any parent should have to go through, so thank you to every single one of you for helping take our minds off of our financial stressors so we can focus on Kayleigh who needs all of our positive thoughts. We are SO VERY THANKFUL!!! Please understand that we would love to share with everyone how much was donated, but several people made a very good point, mentioning an amount can cause possible security issues and we would rather protect our family from any possible criminal activity. Unfortunately, this has already happened in the past. That is also why we are going to post a PO Box soon for those of you who asked
for our address. Worrying about shooting an intruder family protection at this time in our lives is something we don't need right now, especially since we will be bringing our sweet Kayleigh home soon. Thank you tons for understanding. Kayleigh looked so beautiful today, but doesn't she everyday? More of her swelling from the surgery has gone down and she seems to be in a more comfortable state than she has lately. There are very few cries of pain or discomfort and her rapid breathing has ceased for the most part. She was awake today while we held her and even though her eyes are distant, they weren't being pulled in direction that seemed noticeable. She looks straight forward, which made us feel almost as if she was looking at us. To clear some confusion up, she has no cerebral cortex brain functions, but still has brain stem functions. This allows her to breath, heart to beat, to move without purpose, and unfortunately cry/feel pain. She doesn't understand anything, won't learn, talk, comprehend anything she she sees or hears, and will never have purposeful movements. We were able to speak with the doctors and share our plans with them. We plan to care for Kayleigh in the NICU until she is able to come home, just as if she was normal and had no brain injury. There were questions of whether or not we bring her home with normal nursing care of palliative care. We plan to bring her home on normal nursing care, so we take our time to live as a family before we decide to say good-bye. God is almighty and we will continue to pray He lays His hands on her to create a miracle, so no quick and rash decisions will be made. We will listen to our Lord and decide when that time is right. So we are happy to continue to share the journey of Kayleigh's triumphant road home like every single one of us planned for so long. Just because Kayleigh's brain is not working the right way, 426
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Remember our guest blogger, Brent Riggs? The guy who twisted my arm Monday and put up that wonderful post for us? He’s been working on a book on for over four years, an incredible story he told me about when I went to stay for a week at his home. The book is called “Terrorist to Evangelist: The True Story of Kenneth McClinton”. I was talking to him last night and he mentioned it will finally be available today. Here’s what Brent wrote me about the story: “Ken was a terrorist. He killed people, bombed things and lived a life of violence and hate. In solitary confinement in prison, all alone with an old Bible, God transformed Ken. It is a modern day “Damascus road” conversion that took a man from being a killer to a believer, from violence to love, from terrorism to evangelist. Ken’s life is a fascinating story and it is nothing short of miraculous that he even lived to see that day of conversion.” Brent has put up a couple of free chapters on his website for people to preview. We really hope you’ll check it out. You’ll love the book, and you’ll be helping us say a great big “THANK YOU” to Brent for what he has done for us over the months. Check it out here at: http://www.brentriggs.com/kenny_mcclinton_terrorist_to_evangel ist.asp
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4/30/09 - Daddy's Little Girl
There was not a whole lot of news today with Kayleigh. We met with the Neurologist and he really didn't have anything to offer that anyone else has talked about. No offense to any neurologist reading this post right now, but I have never seen anyone skate through their answers more than this guy today. There was never a yes and no answer and the guy just seem so nervous to talk to us.
Before I update you on Kayleigh and show you a few new pics, I wanted to let you know about something real quick.
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Kayleigh's Story According to Dr. Brain, there is no cure or procedure to help with this issue and our odds are (worse than) next to nothing. Not the cooling pads, hyper-barometric chambers, replacing stem cells, or anything else you can possibly think of for many underlying reasons. Because of Kayleigh's bad health in other, such as lungs and heart, the procedures would only be detrimental to her. As you can see, we have NOT given up hope if you can tell by the neverending questions or research we have been doing lately. We do not want Kayleigh to go, and if there is a chance, there is a will, but unfortunately, we can't find the way. We will continue to pray that God makes this decision for us. On a brighter note, Kayleigh had a wonderful day today. As I held her peacefully in my arms, she didn't cry or thrust heavy breathes the whole time we were there. She seemed to be content and just plain comfortable. Ya know, whether or not she can understand something that her brain does or does not tell her, move in a direction that is purposeful, act normal as any other child in this world shall act, she is still by far perfect in God's eyes and ours. Our goal is to bring her home as quickly as the doctors will allow us. Being that she will continue to have nursing care at home, it may take a couple weeks before she reaches the normal max feeds that it will take to make that glorious journey out of the NICU. We are so thankful for everyone who has been there for us through this trying time and we continue to ask for prayers of strength and of course, another miracle.
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5/1/09 - "I'll Praise You In This Storm" Look at your hands right before you. I am looking at mine. You see hands that are soft, gentle, caring, loving, but powerful hands that you use to hold your child tight while also using those same hands to lift up to our God in prayer. These hands of mine, they hold my family's hands every chance I get. They touch the face of my beautiful wife, right before I kiss her. They cradle my sweet Kayleigh's tiny body, while she sleeps comfortably and peacefully. These hands fit perfectly together when I kneel at my bed, praying the Lord will heal our child and fix her sick body. As you type or click at your mouse tonight, look at your precious hands. Know that your hands can do so much for others that you love. What are you going to do with your hands tonight? Are you going to walk in to your child's room and brush through their hair, feeling blessed that your child is alive and well? Are you going to sit next to your husband or wife, and hold their hand, comforting them with your love? Are you going to praise God with your hands, asking our Father to forgive you and others for their sins, and lift up someone special to you in prayer? Tonight, I am going to hold Aimee tight with both of my hands, comforting her poor soul from a tough day of bad news. I am going to have my phone in my hands, praying that it doesn't ring, praying that the doctors don't call me with more news we don't want to hear. I am also going to be praying that our Lord will comfort our 428
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What does a mother say? I have wanted to write for the blog, for my therapy, & to document my feelings lately but I can never seem to find the right words. Tonight I feel that I must discuss how I am feeling so please bear with me. By the way, it has taken me 29 minutes to come up with this paragraph.
"Lord, with these hands, I'll praise You in this storm" Kayleigh is not well right now. Her injured brain is swelling and is deteriorating by the hour. The damaged brain according to the scan today, caused by lack of oxygen and/or blood flow, is showing excess edema/swelling and deterioration of the injured section. Praise God that her fontanelle (separation in skull/softspot) separates to relieve the swelling in her brain or unfortunately her spinal cord would be crushed, causing Kayleigh to have a bradycardia (drop in heart rate) that will not be salvageable by a full resuscitation. Depending on direction of swelling, this may still happen at any minute and I am only praising God because this has not happened already. Our time with Kayleigh may be short, but we are still praying for a miracle. God is amazing and He can do anything at anytime. However, we have also been praying that God gives us a sign to direct us in a path that allows us to understand His plan. It seems that God's plan may be telling us Kayleigh is on her way home to Heaven soon. She is such a precious Angel here on Earth, so I can't imagine how beautiful she will be in the presence of our Lord. Aimee doesn't usually post much, so when she asked me to post tonight, I would more than thrilled to let her open up to all of you. She is by far the most amazing person and I am so blessed to call her my wife. Please lift her up in prayer and give her words of encouragement as a Mother's love is far beyond the reach of any words well written on a piece of paper.
The last few weeks have been the most difficult weeks of my entire life. It is hard to explain the feelings that I have been having. When we first heard the news that Kayleigh was "brain dead" I was in complete shock. I mean, if they would have said that Kayleigh had an episode or 20 other things I could have believed that I think. But, brain dead? Never. As you know, it has been a very emotional roller coaster filled with doctors giving grim outlooks. Adam & I have always stuck to our guts & we have always been right. So, what did I feel that night? I don't know. If I was forced to pick a word I would say emotionless. I couldn't even find the strength to be sad, mad, confused, etc. I was just stunned, quiet, & emotionless. I think that I cried once that night. There just weren't any tears to let out. I woke up the next day with my usual denial, determination, & strong faith that I used to have after bad news from the doctors while I was still pregnant. I thought this would carry me, but I was wrong. The first time that we saw Kayleigh with her eyes open after the news was very hard to take. I think this was the worst feeling that I have ever had involving Kayleigh. To look in my little girl's eyes & feel like there was nothing there is heart breaking. She will always be my beautiful princess but you could tell that she was no longer Kayleigh. Her eyes would roll back & lock into position. She just laid there for two hours staring at who knows what. Feeling comforted in my arms or feeling nothing at all. To feel no bond at that moment was ripping me apart. I always try to stay strong around
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about how they must feel. Losing a sister that they really only met a handful of times. They have been cheated out of a huge part of the most amazing person I may ever know. The kids have been so supportive, loving & patient this past year. I owe them so much. I hope that they will be able to see Kayleigh soon. The RSV ban should be lifted on Sunday. It will be a glorious day. I am so looking forward to our 2nd family photo. Oh Lord, how I wish for many more of those to follow. Tonight we received a phone call that I was not ready for & has devastated me. Kayleigh's brain has started to swell which is not a positive direction for things to go. It sounds more like the beginning of the end. I think they actually used the words brain deterioration & liquefy. If I try to focus on those two words for too long I can actually feel my heart tearing. The doctors don't think that she has very long left. It could really just be days. Here I was living in this little bubble of safety. I thought we would bring our princess home, play with her, have family time, & then God would let us know in this magical moment that it was time to let our baby go to Heaven. I feel like I see the light but it is just a train heading right for me. I feel like time is running out & I don't know what to do.
The thoughts of bringing Kayleigh home to spend time with us all as a family is what has kept me going. I love the staff at the hospital & I appreciate everything that they do for us. However, I just want my baby home, in my arms, in her room, undisturbed, taking naps with us, & going for a walk. I want more than 20 minutes of true family time.
My husband would describe me as strong & if he were being honest with you all he would through in control freak as well. (This is something that I am working on but that is for another day) What does a control freak do in a situation like this? I feel like my brain is in overload. I am a person who LOVES to sleep. I could stay up until 3am but then I want to sleep until 1pm. I feel like I don't want to sleep at all. My mind is always going & I can't make it stop. Even when I go to bed I feel like I am awake all night. Yet, I wake up rested.
I want Brandon & Allyson to know her, to love on her, to see how cute she is in real life & not just in photos. My heart aches thinking
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we will all meet again gives us strength. Knowing that God gave me the most amazing husband in the world to pick me up when I am down, hold me, love me, & wipe away my tears. Knowing that even though there will be many tough days for us & the kids, they will help us get through it. They actually made us laugh a few times tonight. If it weren't for them being home with us we both would have just closed up & stayed miserable & depressed. They will bring us joy & remind us everyday of the good things in life. Knowing that we have an unbelievable support system is indescribable. Thank you to all of you. Adam & I could NEVER express what you have done for us spiritually, financially, & emotionally. There are many days that we felt like we couldn't have made it without all of you.
I am sure that many people could help me with this but I feel like I have to do it. So, what happened tonight? I had a mini freak out in my head because I don't own a black dress! Who needs this? I don't even like to shop much less for this reason. Fortunately for my family who also hates to shop we were right next to a Dress Barn. I went in & found three black dresses that were decent. I tried them on & luckily one fit pretty good. I told Adam that I didn't want to look great & I didn't want to love it. I will never wear it again. I won't want to. I never thought that I would see the day that my own babies could go home before me. I never visualized buying a dress for my daughter's funeral. I never imagined that I could feel this pain inside of me. This has been the hardest year of my entire life & the hardest moments aren't even here yet. I know that my gorgeous little girl will be safe in Heaven but I just can't imagine not holding her in my arms, feeling her against my skin, making her first sounds, & taking her first steps. I can't imagine her not coming home to see her perfect room. I can't handle the thoughts of what this is doing to my amazing husband. He loves her with everything in him. We are not just dealing with this pain individually. We share in everyone's pain. Our other children, our parents, our siblings, our friends, & all of you. Our hearts break over & over. What keeps us going? Our faith. I have only been really close to God for a few years & I can't imagine how I would have handled this before then. Knowing that Kayleigh is going to a better place where
I do not know what the next few days or weeks will bring for us. I am afraid. I am nervous every time my phone rings right now. Please continue to pray for us & have your friends & family pray for us. Your prayers have worked miracles in the past & I know they can do it again. We love you all & we feel terrible that you are hurting as well. Please know that we will all take care of each other & we will all get through this together. We may not "know" each other in the normal sense of the word but we will certainly all meet again one day. When you all meet Kayleigh she will look more amazing than she ever has. She won't have any pain, will be whole, & will welcome us all with open arms. How glorious will that be? "Kayleigh, we love you with all of our hearts. You are such a blessing to us and we are so grateful to be your parents. Our faith and love is stronger because of time we shared with you. We know how powerful our Lord is and how He can do anything He wants to do. I feel in my heart that He is deciding to bring you home
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comforting me when I need to let the tears flow. I couldn't be more blessed to have such a wonderful woman in my life. You are my everything and just know that we are going to get through this together. I love you so very much!
As we all prepare for eternity here on Earth, I want you to know that you have touched thousands of lives with your strength and determination. You are the strongest person we have ever known and we are so proud of you for fighting so hard. It is evident that Jesus has laid His hands on you and created a miracle in so many ways. His love is so great! We continue to pray for one more miracle. We look in to your eyes, Kayleigh, and we cry because if you must go to heaven, we will miss you so much. We just wish you could share your story with millions, personally and help so many others with your own voice. We just wish you could stand with us in front of every single person and pour our hearts out together, holding hands, but we know you will be there looking down on us from heaven. We hope you are proud of us as we did everything we possibly could to save you when no one else believed you could be saved.
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have all been so wonderful to us and we can't thank you enough. I have read almost every email that has come in, but unfortunately will not be able to respond to everyone. Please know that your emails and comments keep us strong and help us through these difficult days.
5/3/09 - Peacefully Sleeping Kayleigh had another uneventful day filled with peaceful sleeping such as you see above. The swelling has not increased anymore over night, which is good news towards getting closer to bringing her home. They need to transfer her hypertension medication over before they can send her home, which they will begin to do on Monday. Pray she tolerates the new medication so she can come home soon.
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5/5/09 - A Family Again
Right now, she is up on her feeds and tolerating it well. She is rarely ever showing signs of irritation and her heavy breathing comes on every now and then. We are not sure what the cause of that is, but since she has never done it before, we can only relate it to her brain injury.
Aimee and I almost forgot what it felt like to have a smile on our faces until Allyson and Brandon were able to spend some time with Kayleigh today after waiting for so long. August was the last time they saw her due to RSV season(horrible lung disease) prevented children in the NICU.
Our goal right now is to pray the swelling in her brain does not take her from us before we can bring her home to her beautiful room. We have prayed many prayers for this day, and even though her situation was not what we expected, we still can't wait to walk her out of those hospital doors, out in to the sunlight and make that glorious journey to our home.
The hospital allowed Kayleigh to be moved to a sleep-in room where we could lounge around with her on a bed and allow the kids to hold her and love on her. It was a magical moment and it felt so good to be a family again. It is very sad to say, but this was only our second chance to have a family photo taken together.
Please continue to pray that our dreams come true and may her time here on earth ends with us at home and not in the hospital. May God bless us with this wish, even though His plans for Kayleigh may be different in the near future.
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10+ Blood Transfusions Skin Biopsy - Chromosomal Studies Rectal Biopsy - Hirschsprungs Disease Intestinal Biopsy - motility Heart Catherization - Pulmonary pressures (3) Central Line placements Pepcin Test - aspirations Impedence Study - reflux (2) Upper Gastrointestinal Studies - motility (2) Lower Gastrointestinal Studies - motility 15+ PCVC Line Placements - long term IV's 10+ Blood Culture Tests - for infections 200+ Blood Gas Tests - Pin pricks to her toes (and I'm probably well below my guesstimate) I am sure I am missing many other things.
I know there are a lot of questions coming in and with all the posts that have been submitted in the past 10+ months, I am sure it will be hard to go back and get an clear understanding of everything that is going on. The summary above on the title helps clear her journey up, but I would like to break it down a little more. So, for those who are just joining us or those who have gotten dizzy on our ravaging roller coaster and and need a quick refresher on what is going on with Kayleigh, here we go: Kayleigh was born 6/23/08 weighing 1 pound - 1 ounce (470 grams to be exact). She was 10.5 inches long. If you get a ruler and try to get an understanding of how small this miracle was, you will literally crap your pants be amazed!! Just to sum up Kayleigh's 10 month roller coaster ride quickly for you: Surgeries: ROP Stage 3 - Eye Surgery Gastrointestinal Surgery - Bowels VSD Repair Surgery - Open Heart Tracheostomy Surgery - Airways G-tube Surgery - Feeding Tube Nissen Surgery - Stomach Bilateral Hernia Repair Surgery - Groin
So, now that you have seen what she has been through in a short period, it kills me to say that after this final surgery, she was supposed to be coming home. Coming home perfect that is. But, something happened in this final surgery which caused Kayleigh to not get enough blood and/or oxygen to her brain causing her Cerebral Cortex to be damaged and considered flat, no waves, not working, or no activity. Kayleigh's brain stem still functions, allowing her heart to work, breath and have reactive movements (nothing purposeful). After many many hours of praying, her injured brain is now deteriorating and can not repair itself without a miracle. We went from riding up and down on this NICU roller coaster, to becoming the wheels, going round and round with our emotions in a complete whirlwind. 436
Kayleigh's Story We now have goals to bring Kayleigh home to live out her remainder time right where we prayed she would make it from the beginning. The great news is, we are close to that prayer being answered, but Kayleigh will mind be enjoying that moment in another place. The rest of her body may be working fine here, but we believe her mind is working perfectly up there in Heaven. From day one when the doctors didn't believe Kayleigh would survive the pregnancy, our prayer warriors have been behind us and miracles occurred. When Kayleigh went through every devastating and intense surgery, our prayer warriors were still behind us and Kayleigh pulled through the unthinkable. Right now, our prayer warriors are praying for another miracle from God, and we will never give up until God decides to show us His plan. If that plan brings Kayleigh home to the Lord and to a much better place, our prayer warriors will rejoice in one amazing journey for one beautiful little girl. Kayleigh is our one pound blessing from God and she is nothing short of His beauty, strength and love. We are all better people for have knowing Kayleigh and we will be sure to share her story forever so others can be touched so deeply like all of us. "God, Thank you for blessing us with Kayleigh and ALL of our old, new and future friends here through Kayleigh's journey. May we continue to find faith, hope and love through your works. We may not see your reasons sometimes, but we trust you with all of our hearts. We thank you for holding our hands through all of this and allowing us to use/sacrifice things in our lives to help others. We pray that everyone reading this will see that You (God) will not give us anything that we can't handle and no matter what other trials and tribulations people may be going through, we pray they will
trust in your reasons and find peace in knowing your love is so amazing!!!"
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5/8/09 - Someway, Somehow, Someday As of right now, they have decreased the Flolan for her hypertension over the past two days. They are dropping it 10% each time, and they suspect it will take at least 10 days for her to completely come off of it. Our estimated time for coming home is no less than three weeks, which we were not happy to hear and there unfortunately are no ways to make that happen sooner. Since our main goal is to bring Kayleigh home, we decided that increasing her feeds right now will only increase the risk of her belly blowing up more than it has and keeping her in the hospital longer. We've all decided to increase the triple mix IV fluid to give her the nutrients she needs, so she can stay healthy. Kayleigh's breathing and irritation seems to be increasing a little more today than normal and I am not sure if that is due to the weaning of the Flolan, but we will keep an eye out on that. We certainly do not want Kayleigh to be going through any pain or discomfort. Overall, she is doing well and comfortable. Many asked if Kayleigh will remain in the sleep-in room or go back 437
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unfortunately, Kayleigh was not feeling too great.
I can't wait to share some more wonderful photos tomorrow. I took over 200 photos in less than 2 hours the other day when we were in the sleep-in room with Kayleigh and the kids. Aimee and I will be there for at least 6+ hours, so I should have ample time to take some really good ones. Thank you again for everyone who donated money and prayed your hearts out to help our family through this tough time. The emotions we are dealing with change every minute that it is very hard to describe or even explain. All I know is that we are so blessed to have wonderful friends like all who have lifted us up and kept us strong through this. I only wish I can return the favor someway, somehow, someday.
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5/9/09 - Every Step Of The Way Well, today didn't go as planned. We were hoping for another glorious visit with tons of photos and a lot of great moments, but
We are not sure if Kayleigh is not feeling well because of the weaning of her Flolan or if this is neurological problems. Last night's head measurement showed Kayleigh's head has swelled even more than the previous three nights (which showed no more swelling). She has been bearing down and turning red, with the occasional fast, heavy breathing that drops her sats a little. Our fear is that Kayleigh may be experiencing some irritability and that is the last thing we want her to deal with, but if this is just caused by the weaning of her Flolan medication, then we should see some signs of improvement very soon as the doctors are currently taking action with the speed of the weaning process. If this is neurological and may cause Kayleigh to be irritable or uncomfortable, we would have no choice but to let Kayleigh go in peace as this is God telling us it is time. We want to do what is best for Kayleigh and our family, and to make our decisions based out of faith and love, so we feel at peace with making the right decision. God has proven before and can still create a miracle at anytime. Listening to Him is the most important decision right now. With hard days like these and even harder ones to come, there seems to be one or two people who brighten up our bad days with a smile. Or should I say in this case, it was a shout of laughter. Eva Fuller sent this awesome video over for Aimee and you all need to check it out: CLICK HERE Here is some exciting news!!! If you have been with us for a while, you would have seen a post that I wrote about being on a television show that was quickly taken down. Well, it was taken down for secretive reasons by the producers, but now it is free rain to talk
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Wednesday, May 13th in the afternoon, "The Doctors" will be airing a full special on our family and the journey we have endured with Kayleigh in these unfortunate times, facing this horrible market we live in. It was more than a pleasure shooting here in Charlotte for the show, meeting some famous people while making the best out of our very quick (1 day) visit to Hollywood to shoot on the set. Check your TV Guide and make sure you set your TV to record it. Click here to see the preview for our show: The Doctors
Even with the sadness amongst us, God is continuing to help us share Kayleigh's story with the world. Whether it is on this blog, on television, newspapers, or even with sharing your bracelet stories, everyone needs to be filled with the faith, hope and love that our Lord has blessed us with. Our goal from the beginning was the help others with our story. We are doing it full force and we will continue to do this for the rest of our lives. We hope you are with us every step of the way.
Extra Extra, Read all about it!!! For all of you Charlotteans, Mark Washburn is writing a column about us tomorrow (Saturday) in the Charlotte Observer.
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Many of you have been e-mailing me, asking if they can still get Kayleigh bracelets and I finally fixed the link over to the right. I apologize for not fixing it sooner, but I honestly didn't have the time to package and ship out boxes on my own with everything going on, so I just left it broken, sorry.
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HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY I hope that everyone has a special day today and just know that EVERY Mom is a miracle from God and should be lifted up for their ever lasting love. We are all so blessed to have awesome Moms in our lives. We love you ALL!
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5/11/09 - Goodbye Sweetheart...for now.
We never thought we'd finally leave the hospital one last time with an empty car seat and an empty crib to bring our precious daughter home in. The house is cold, it is dark and it is lonely. Our arms that once held this precious miracle will never hold her again anytime soon. We will lay our heads to rest tonight, we will soon wake, but we won't be returning to the hospital. We said our last goodbye only to say hello again one day in the distant future. Kayleigh rests peacefully, in no more discomfort, and in no more pain. She looked so beautiful tonight as she took her last and final breath, and her beating heart took one last and final beat. Her sparkling brown eyes are now closed and her body now remains still. She is now in the presence of our Lord, her broken body made new, surrounded in the comforting arms of those we've loved who greeted her in the glorious Heaven we know. Time now stands still for all of us who will miss her dearly, who have been touched by her miraculous journey, and who will never forget her soft sweet smell. Kayleigh will forever be our one pound miracle from God and we certainly will all look forward to seeing her again, holding her in our arms and dancing in circles until we can't dance anymore. No words can describe how amazing and beautiful Kayleigh is, but we all know too well that this is only 440
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short period of time. You've showed us what strength truly is, what determination truly is and what love truly is. There will not be a day that passes that we won't look at your photos and remember how awesome you felt in our arms. Your soft skin that brushes our lips and your tiny little hands that grip our fingers for comfort will always be missed.
May this day be remembered for the rest of our lives. May Kayleigh's story continue to teach us about faith and the miracles our Lord can create when we all pray together as a whole. May Kayleigh's story continue to give us hope in our own personal journeys and give us the strength to never give up the fight. May Kayleigh's story continue to fill our hearts with love so that we may hold each other tight and support those in need.
We will never get to tuck you in your own bed at night and we will never get to pick you up when you fall. We will never get to hold your hand while you cross the street and I will never get to walk you down the aisle, but please know that your Mommy and I are so blessed that God gifted us with your love, even if it was only for a very short period of time. You will always be in our hearts and we can't wait until we meet again. We love you endlessly and we already miss you so very much! Goodbye Sweetheart...for now."
When you tuck your children in bed or kiss your loved one goodnight, please say a prayer for our family. Please pray that we will have strength to get through this difficult time and we will grow in our faith so much more for having experienced the work of God through Kayleigh. Pray we will be there for each other and hold one another tight, as Kayleigh was and will forever hold a special place in our hearts.
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We plan to have a memorial next weekend (most likely Sunday) for our sweet Kayleigh and EVERYONE who can come, is invited. We will be posting further details shortly so everyone has time to prepare. We will cry together, laugh together and remember what a precious blessing God has given us all through Kayleigh. May we come together and praise God for the love he has bestowed in all of us.
Mommy and Daddy Our wishes were granted and Kayleigh finally felt the cool breeze on her face. Rest in peace our sweet Angel! We love you so very much!
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The memorial celebration for Kayleigh's life will be held: Sunday, May 17th @ 1:00pm located at: McEwen Funeral Service Pineville Chapel 10500 Park Road Charlotte, NC 28210 (704)544-1412 Everyone who can attend is more than invited. We would love to share in this celebration of life with all of you who supported us through this journey. Many of you asked for our address and up until May 23rd (when we move), we will still be at our home located at: 12619 Frank Wiley Lane Charlotte, NC 28278 Please don't forget to tune in tomorrow to see our story on "The Doctors." They already put up a sweet message about Kayleigh today on their website. You can check it out here: Kayleigh Also, if you missed the preview to the show, CLICK HERE Thank you all very much for your kind words of encouragement. This is so tough, but we remain strong because of our faith and
5/13/09 - Update on Memorial With Kayleigh's memorial coming up, preparations are being made and things are starting to come together. Many of you asked if there were something you could do to help and we came up with an idea. On Sunday (May 17th), at 4:00PM(EST) after the memorial, we will be letting off pink balloons in Kayleigh's name. Tied to each balloon will be a card that reads: Kayleigh Anne Freeman Our One Pound Miracle from God (6/23/08 - 5/11/09) www.KayleighAnneFreeman.blogspot.com God has used Kayleigh in many ways and just because she is in Heaven with our Lord, that doesn't mean our work is done. Let's continue to spread faith, hope and love to those who need to receive it. God will lead those balloons to the right hands. Also, many of you asked if there is an address to send flowers and what we are doing in lieu of flowers, are donations to Levine Children's Hospital NICU at Carolina's Medical Center - 1000 Blythe Blvd. Charlotte, NC 28203. In the remarks, we are all putting "From 442
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5/16/09 - We Love You! As we finished up preparations for the memorial, we wanted to make everyone aware of a couple things. First off, please take photos of you all releasing the pink balloons with Kayleigh's note(see previous post) attached on Sunday at 4:00pm (EST). I would like to do a new post next week and show all the photos. Also, a good friend, Niecey, did one incredible job of creating a video for us for the memorial. It has a lot of new photos, including the professional photos from "Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep" and 3 songs that just seemed to be perfect for Kayleigh. Of course, you know one of them ;) I really can't wait to show you the video.
Tomorrow is the big day and my goodness has this week has flown by. Even though everything we prepared is ready, we are not. We barely got a chance at all this week to just lay there, cry our eyes out and miss her. All next week, we will be packing and heading off to the new house. By the way, the bank didn't want to return phone calls to settle things up and decided to sell the property. I guess it was God's way of showing we needed to be out of the house. So once we are done moving, I am sure it is just going to hit us hard like a ton of bricks that she's gone. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers through this. I look forward to meeting a lot of you tomorrow at the memorial and for those who can't make it, we will be sure to recap it all in a post, so you feel as if you were here. Thank you so much for being awesome friends to our family. A lot of our strength comes from the Lord, but a big chunk of it comes from your support. Every single one of you are family to us and we love you!
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5/18/09 - BEAUTIFUL That is all I can really say about the memorial. It was just beautiful! We had over 200 people come to celebrate Kayleigh's life with us. We had support from as far as California and we couldn't be more thankful to all the people who were there. It was a such a blessing. 443
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helped me make in perfect time over the past week. There are three songs that we played consecutively, but were too large to put in to one file. Some of the new professional photos from Faith @ Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep are visible and are so unbelievably beautiful. You will recognize them when you see them. Grab a tissue because this is just amazing: Brian then closed in prayer and we were able to meet everyone who came from near and far to be with us during this beautiful day. We have a house of flowers that make me sneeze, but are beyond beautiful and we just love looking at them. Our whole downstairs is now a flower garden.
Wade Joye then sang one of his new songs from Elevation Church that will be released on their upcoming CD. Wade and Ferris Joye had their twin girls in the NICU with us and Liana shared a room with Kayleigh for a few months. They have been such a blessing to our family and we were so happy that Wade could sing for us at the memorial.
I have been overflowed with balloon release photos, so I am going to put a short movie together showing you all those photos soon. When we let our balloons off, it was raining and everyone was so dressed up, but they didn't care one bit because we were doing this for our sweet Kayleigh.
Brian then took over and preached his sermon. He did a fantastic job and we are very proud of him for coming all this way for our family. Brian and Aubrey are true examples of what you would call "Great Friends." After Brian spoke his sermon, my Mom (Patricia Freeman) and Aimee's mom (Joyce Rogers), read what they wrote and had everyone in tears with such beautiful things to say.
When the memorial ended, Aimee and I were scared that we would just break down and crawl in a corner, but I feel that we laughed a lot today. We had a good time teasing and flirting with each other and I pray that continues to happen. We should not be stricken with depression when there was not a single thing bad about what Kayleigh did for us in this past year. She is nothing short of a miracle. We are so blessed to be her parents and to share her story with so many people. Kayleigh has touch all of our lives and we couldn't be more happier than that.
Aimee and I then read our letters to everyone. We first started off thanking the NICU staff for all of their hard work and dedication to taking wonderful care of Kayleigh over the past 11 months. We gave them all pink and brown ribbons so others would recognize who these special people are. Aimee spoke first and did an amazing job, sharing miracle memories of Kayleigh to reading a beautiful poem. I then spoke and could barely hold it together up there. It turned out really nice. After speaking, we all watched the video that a good friend (Niecey)
Here are some of the photos of our balloon release. We had 50 balloons go to the sky and I have already received to email's from two different families who found balloons and were instantly touched by Kayleigh's story. Praise God!
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Kayleigh's Story I wanted to take a break from packing and moving to post a quick, but endless thanks to Faith Massey at "Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep" for the wonderful service she gave our family the day Kayleigh went to Heaven. Faith was very professional and heartfelt, that having her with us was like having family there when we needed her most. In a time of sadness, you never think to have someone capture your final moments with that special someone. We are so blessed that Faith was there to take photos of those beautiful moments we had with Kayleigh.
"Kayleigh, we miss you tons already and hope you are having a blast with all your new friends in Heaven. We Love You!"
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5/22/09 - Thank You Faith
Please visit Faith's blog (CLICK HERE), where she has put together a video of the beautiful photos she took May 11th and how I pray no one would ever need to contact "NILMDTS" because a loss of a loved one, it was by far the most greatest decision we have ever made. This is an organization filled with pure love and we couldn't be more blessed to have them a part of our lives. Thank you Faith!
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5/28/09 - A New Journey Does anyone know how much fun it is to move? If you could actually see my face, you would see that I was beyond sarcastic when I said that. We have practically moved everything except a couple odds and ends, which we will pick up over the next couple weeks while we travel across town to take Ally and Bran to school. 450
Kayleigh's Story Thank goodness school is only for a couple more weeks. That is a hike back and forth. A few of us guys took two full days to load and unload the 26 footer Uhaul while Aimee packed a sea of un-ending boxes. You never know how much crap you have until you move. Ya know? It is crazy the amount of junk we tossed, let alone the amount that we still held on to. Thankfully, the rain came light which cooled the air a bit. We only soaked through a couple shirts. Yummy! Brandon and Allyson seem to love the new place. We took advantage of the horrible market as the market took advantage of us. We found a nice rental home, well outside the city limits, allowing us to still maintain a normalcy we hoped for. Allyson was afraid that she was going to have to share a room with her brother, which isn't such a good thing since she is about to hit "that" stage. I guess turning this blog in to a diary of a Dad who is dealing with children facing puberty would be pretty funny, what do you think? lol Ouch, do I have to???? Quickly jumping to a new topic...THANK YOU ALL for pitching in to help us financially. It has allowed us to focus on our family and get back on our feet. Aimee and I feel as if God has given us something here that can do so much for so many, so we don't want to waste a single second. We have been praying and searching for a way to continue Kayleigh's legacy and help others out there full time. Whether we worked for March of Dimes, The Children's Miracle Network or build an organization of our own, we have no idea. Our brains are fried, but we would like to hear some of your ideas and maybe we could all build something together as a team. Either way, I want to reach out to those who have given us so much strength this past year. Every single one of you have given us ideas, thoughts, questions, concerns when it came to Kayleigh's best
interest, so I know we could all spark some great ideas here. The last thing we want to do is do the wrong thing and find ourselves in deep water. We love every single one of you for the support you have given us and I know we can continue to work together for a common good, in honor of Kayleigh. So, let's start this journey off, not as a "OH Woe Me" for having lost a beautiful child, but "Praise you Lord" for Kayleigh, now show me what we can do with what you gave us so that we can honor you.
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6/1/09 - Butterfly At Kayleigh's memorial, I painted a picture with words of how she was in Heaven, sitting on our Lords lap while captivated by a butterfly which was flying in front of her face. The image of this butterfly has brought a blessing to our family. Since we have moved, we have seen more butterflies around our house and wherever we go than we have ever seen in our lifetime. It's Kayleigh. It's her constant reminder that she is here with us. It sends warm smiles through both of our faces. There are so many great ideas sent our way and we are more than excited to sit down and think of what we want to do. One of the ideas had certainly sparked an interest and we are ironing out the details to see if this is something we can possibly do. Before we break the news to everyone of what we are going to do, we want to make sure it is definitely doable first. 451
Kayleigh's Story On the other hand, many of you mentioned that I should write a book. I have been working on a book for several months now and before my computer crashed, which set me back a bit, I will be continuing to use my time this summer to finish it. Know any literary agents and/or publishers who might be interested? I need to start the process soon of hiring an agent who can find me a publisher. Many people said to just self publish it, but I want the world to be touched by our Angel, so let's try and get it in every book store around from the get-go. For those who know me, I don't just settle and I am a perfectionist, so I want nothing but the best for Kayleigh's story. But what proud parent doesn't, right?
now for not knowing and trusting God for the decisions He makes. We have been to hell and back this year, but honestly it wasn't that bad because HE was holding our hand. What would this world have been like if Jesus hadn't come to show us what real and true love is. We would all be completely lost. We are still getting settled in to our normal routine here and it may take some time, but I promise to post more often. I still have some changes to make to the blog too. Once the children are out of school, we will have a lot of family time and many memories to capture and share about. This is going to be one wild and crazy summer as us Freeman's share with you how much fun we can be.
If we can get through this process of publishing the book and the organization, then you all can expect some children's books to follow. I may write some books to help NICU families through their journey. Anything we can do to help, we will. We want to use what God has given us to glorify Him and help others.
I can't wait to get this party started :)
Many of you write and speak of our strength and how it amazes you. Honestly, It amazes us too. Aimee and I have agreed that we actually feel guilty for not being as depressed as someone may normally be. Can you believe that? However, we are quickly reminded of God and how awesome He is and how wonderfully He used Kayleigh in her short period of time. Many people may not see the reasons and sometimes their loss could have come unsuspectingly, which I 100% agree that those two combinations can cause so much pain. God not only blessed us with a sweet little girl for a short amount of time, but He blessed us with a reason and He blessed us with some notice.
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We sometimes wonder how lost we would be without the Lord in our lives. We wonder how upside down our lives would be right
God Bless Everyone!
6/4/09 - Family Check-Ups Now when you all said that we need take it easy this summer, recover from a crazy year, focus on our family, take a vacation, or rejuvenate our souls, it didn't need to start off by going to the dentist. I think Aimee got the wrong impression of getting things back on track by scheduling doctors visit and dentist visits, especially when the dentist performed a deep cleaning on "just one" side of my mouth. Oh yeah! Just one! The other is coming next week. OUCH!!! 452
Kayleigh's Story Actually after the multiple shots of Novocaine, and the occasional stick of the nerve, it wasn't too bad. Thank goodness all I have to do is type and not speak. It would probably sound something like this: Wewl, I wawz twying tew tawk, budt my woods dit comb owt wite. Many of you asked how Brandon and Allyson are doing with Kayleigh going to Heaven. Actually, they are taking it pretty well. We have noticed that Brandon (the emotional one) is getting even more emotional over little things lately, so we think it may have something to do with that. He lost it and had a meltdown the other day when he forgot his book bag, even when we told him it would be okay and we would let the teacher know. Brandon says his prayer after mine at the table which consists of this: "God is good, God is great. Thank for this food and please watch over Kayleigh and the homeless people" Ally is doing great too. She has a nurturing soul, so I thought that she was be affected big time, but she seems to be taking it really well. She and Brandon both understand that Kayleigh is in Heaven and that Heaven is a much better place than where we are now. We have tried to teach them so much about how God already has a plan for all of us and that this was Kayleigh's plan. We make sure we tell them that we can not get mad at God for some of the things He does because everything God does is good, even if we can't find the good in His decisions. They have really accepted that and are very intelligent that they surprise us sometimes. We have all decided to get our lives back on track and focus on our health this summer. We have been eating really good lately, working out and trying to lose some of the weight we put on this past year from all the bad eating and stress. Aimee and I both have lost a little weight this week and so has Brandon. (WOO HOO!) He
put on a lot more than we hoped would ever happen, which made us feel really guilty. However, we are working with him by watching his intake, exercising with him and keeping him overall active. His face seems to be slimming down already, or maybe it is because we cut off all his hair :) I plan to get back on track with my training. My last grappling tournament was just prior to Kayleigh being born and I have started focusing on my training for that again. I am very excited and maybe in a few months, I will be able to compete again and you all can follow me on that journey as well. If you haven't seen that blog, check it out: Adam's Journey to the Cage Who do we have left? Oh....I almost forgot. Sam and Georgia. Many of you don't know these two wonderful family members, but you may have caught a glimpse of them in the background of some of our family photos. They are our sweet dogs. Samantha is a mix that Chris (Aimee's brother in-law) picked up from out in the woods, that we took in and Georgia is our hot-dog. They are awesome and they too just had their check-ups to make sure they are still healthy. After seeing what was rammed up their butt makes my teeth feel so much better. For those who purchased bracelets, I have a friend who has taken over the ordering, processing and shipping. She ran in to problems with the distributor and was given a bad shipment. That would have been funny if you all sported bracelets that said Kayleigh weighed 100lbs 1 ounce at birth. I guess that would be a hell of a miracle too. Ouch! Poor Aimee! lol. Needless to say, to receive a shipment takes 10 days, so this has put her 20 days behind. If you haven't received your bracelet, you will soon so thank you for your patience. Please don't forget to send in your photos still so I can add you in to that sweet scrap book. 453
Kayleigh's Story 6/21/2009 12:42:00 PM
6/21/09 - HAPPY FATHER'S DAY Happy Father's Day to all the Dad's out there and thank you all so much to those who wished me a Happy Father's Day too :) I apologize for not keep up with the blog and keeping you informed with how things are going. Everytime I sit down to write something, I am at a loss of words. I know this sounds crazy, but I have typers block and just can't think of what to talk about. I guess when you have so much to talk about with Kayleigh, you run out of things to say when there isn't much going on with us. That leads me to something I would like to continue and that is not "Thoughtful Thursdays" but "Thankful Thursday" to talk about those in our lives who we are so thankful for. I have a lot of people in my life who have lead the path to direct my growth as a person and I think it would be an honor to acknowledge those people to the world. I know today is Father's day Sunday and it doesn't look or sound anything like Thursday, but how can I pass up on a day to recognize one of the most important people in my life...my Dad. My Dad, Gary Freeman or better known around here as "Papa G" is everything that exemplifies what a dad should be. He is who paved the way for me to be the man that I am today. From the very beginning, I remember my dad being the hard working man who
supported our family to have a life filled with so many wonderful memories. We were a middle class family who never had the expensive things, but we had more than that. We had all the love a family could ask for. The best memories I had growing up were spent with my family and we were all very intensely in to baseball. My brothers and I played competitively, and my dad made sure we had the up to date gloves, bats and training to increase our skills. My dad was a catcher growing up and before he seriously hurt his back, he was a great ballplayer. However, a career ending injury can't take away his knowledge and he certainly passed on a great bit of help to gear us ready for each level of play. All three of us (Scott, Josh and myself) succeeded in our baseball careers and we owe it all to my dad. My dad is a leader and is very knowledgeable about everything that life's lessons bring. However, he may be too knowledgeable in the math department which scared us to death to ask for help in our math setbacks. If you look up "human calculator" in the dictionary, you will see a photo of my dad...and one of those clouds above his head with an impossible math calculation spelled out. Beyond his math intelligence, he is a big teddy bear who loves "Patti Kaye" (my mom) and holds nothing back to show it. You can see the size of his heart and the love he has for her, which shows us all how to be a knight in shining armour. The love he gives will be an impossible level to reach, but worth every ounce to try. I am the dad I was for Kayleigh because my dad lead me to love like no other. Kayleigh would have grown up with the best grandpa is the world, but she is certainly shining down from heaven just waiting for the day "Papa G" can kiss, hug and tease her (like he does to us all) in to giggles. 454
Kayleigh's Story "Dad, I love you so much and I want to thank you for being the best example of a father anyone could ask for. I am beyond blessed to call you my dad and even though I have been a pain at times, thank you for loving me unconditionally. You should be so proud of yourself for the life you have lived and the lives you have touched. I am lucky to have you and thank you for EVERYTHING"
I spent the morning thinking and ever since Kayleigh was born, I never thought that I would be spending Kayleigh's 1st birthday without Kayleigh. I wanted to see her smear pink cake all over her face while we all laughed hysterically. I wanted her to rip bows off presents, just to have them stuck all over her head. I wanted to help her blow out that single standing candle and take endless photos to share with the world. Well, we did! Even though Kayleigh wasn't physically here, she was here with us in spirit as we celebrated her first birthday. We bought balloons, our wedding cake maker made us a beautiful pink and brown cake and Debbie from New Zealand, a good blog friend had some delicious butterfly cupcakes delivered to our house this morning. We wrote a big card/letter to her on a dry erase board and we cooked a delicious dinner on the grill. We planted several flowers in our yard that were from Kayleigh's memorial and we enjoyed a wonderful day thinking of our sweet angel.
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6/23/09 - Happy Birthday Sweet Kayleigh
"Kayleigh. Happy birthday sweetheart! Mommy and I love you so very much and we had a wonderful day today celebrating your birthday. I know you were there with us and I wish so much that I could give you a big kiss. You are so special and so many people are thinking of you today. I am sure you are having a beautiful day today and I am sure you received more gifts than you can imagine up there. Just know that we miss you dearly and there is not a second that goes by that we aren't thinking of you and wishing we could squeeze you one more time. Brandon and Allyson said hello and they love you. Have the best day today and know that we love you tons!"
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Kayleigh's Story 7/3/2009 8:52:00 PM
7/3/09 - Flying Without Wings Everybody is looking for that something. One thing that makes it all complete. You find in the strangest places, places you never knew it could be.
I tell myself when I am sad and missing her that Kayleigh helped put smiles on so many faces and she made many people realize how awesome God is and how much He loves us. That makes me so proud that I feel that I am flying without wings. I look at Kayleigh's photos, I could remember that exact time when I shared that special moment with her. One of my favorites is this one below where I could tell she sees me and reaches for my pinkie as comfort covers her soul as her Daddy is there to take care of her. You can see it in my eyes, you could almost feel it in my heart, but I am flying without wings.
Some find it in the face of their children. Some find it in their lovers eyes. Who can't deny the joy it brings, when you find that special thing. Your flying without wings. I couldn't find the right words to start off tonight's post until I listened to a favorite song I have not heard in years. I have really been at a loss of words lately and it breaks my heart because I so badly want to say something positive, something emotional and something that just touches your heart beyond belief. And well, thanks to that song...I did. I realized that Kayleigh's love makes me fly without wings. I am saddened at times to wrap my arms around my chest, missing her warm body, her chubby arms and her stinky farts. I just know that she is up in Heaven, sharing her love with so many up there and it makes me feel so great to know that this precious miracle was my little girl.
When I get in the car and I listen to a song that reminds me of Kayleigh, I praise God for the time He allowed me to share with Kayleigh. I praise God for the Doctors and Nurses (below photo) who worked diligently to give us those ten and half months with 456
Kayleigh's Story Kayleigh. I praise God so much that my heart is jumping out of my chest and tears nearly roll down my face. I am flying without wings.
When I sat at the pool the other week just after my butterfly post, I had two butterflies land on each one of my big toes. I knew that Kayleigh was making friends in Heaven and she wanted to show off her Daddy. It made me feel so special as they sat there with me for over 20 minutes and if they hopped off for a second, they came right back. I could feel Kayleigh hugging me from Heaven and giving me butterfly kisses. Thinking about that moment...I am flying without wings. I know that when Aimee is holding Kayleigh, she is feeling this special moment as I do. You can see how much love is shown in this photo and I know in time, you will be seeing this special moment again in Heaven. Every now and then, you will see Aimee close her
eyes too and grab her chest. This is what she is feeling...she is flying without wings.
God's greatest gift is love and from the depths of my heart, I can still enjoy my life knowing that Kayleigh will always remain in my heart everywhere I go. No matter what I am doing, all I have to do is close my eyes and remember what her precious body felt like in my arms and I can feel the love shoot through my whole body. A sense beyond anything you can see or smell races through me, my stomach fills with butterflies and like a gravity pull, my cheeks extend outward as a warm smile blasts across my face. I am certainly flying without wings. God, Thank you for allowing me to fly without wings. 457
Kayleigh's Story Happy 4th of July everyone. Please be safe and know that we love you ALL!
how it made our weekend so beautiful. "We love you sweet Kayleigh and we miss you SO very much!"
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7/14/09 - Butterfly Kisses :)
It doesn't matter whether I find the right words to say or not, as this photo just speaks straight from the heart. Without a doubt, Kayleigh spent 30 minutes on Aimee before she made her way to me and my nose. What a blessing this was and
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7/29/09 - Dinner with Family
This past weekend, Aimee and I got to share in a special dinner at our home with the most wonderful people in this world, Kayleigh's nurses. We consider them family because they worked there tails off, day and night, 12 hour shifts, and many times more than 12 hours to take care of sweet Kayleigh and be such a strong support system for Aimee and I. 458
Kayleigh's Story We all made different foods to enjoy and sat around the table, enjoying each others company for over three hours. It was such a blessing to have the family back together again and to laugh at the topics of conversation at hand. For the nurses, it was a great escape from the hard and emotional job they perform and for us, it was pure joy to escape from reality for even a small moment in time. Every year in October, there is a butterfly release at Frazier Park in Charlotte, NC to remember all of those children who went to Heaven and these wonderful nurses have given us a beautiful gift of purchasing a brick with Kayleigh's name and "One Pound Miracle from God" engraved on it that will be placed in Frazier Park for all eyes to see forever. We are counting the days until the ceremony as we know it will be a very beautiful day. Our love goes out to these wonderful ladies and I commend them, and all of the NICU nurses across this world, for the amazing job they do. They certainly do not get enough credit for the time they spend in the tightly secured domains of the NICU, but they will be blessed and rewarded beyond all measure when they walk in the presence of our Lord. "We love you all so very much and we don't think we have ever been so sad to say goodbye that night and see you all walk out of our home. It was a memorable time that will never be forgotten and just know that every single one of you hold a special place in our hearts. We thank you so very much for the love you gave Kayleigh while she was here with us on Earth, and like I always say...this is not goodbye forever as we will all, once again, be reunited with sweet Kayleigh in Heaven." With all of my heart and soul, God Bless ALL of you and we love you so very much! 459