Chaos Engine

Animal brain.

Big buzzy animal brain go brr, I exist to make I vanish, Froth at the mouth like a rabid cur, Whirring, Worrying, Shiver and And emptiness twitches flashing fingers

The promise of aaaa new life

Somewhere beyond the one-way mirror:

Psychotropic ones and zeros clouds of one-dimensional rainbows

Stacked on top each other: A junkie child’s vision of true meaning

Bunched into a spear and rammed into his eyes

Feeding the lie ignoring the signs of what’s going on here:

Chaos to fear,

Fear to desire,

Desire to creation

Creation of the engine. The power, the glory, now and forever.

AaaaaeeeeeeEEE#*0f5@!!d}Vm@Si&%(8F&;Jfd]F2?nDX((+P@men.

Snapseed

you’re careless because you can be all tucked away under a mask of bemusement you take it off when we’re together and every time you leave more of yourself behind for me to melt over i make a mess not a shimmering fulmination that rests lightly on you after the dust settles and makes you shine brighter as if your categorical beauty is lost on you no, the mess i make is sticky can’t be easily cleaned up a low glow in an abandoned building unwilling to be removed from the hard surfaces where you watched me spill out if i think about it i might be messier than you are i wonder if any part of me sticks with you maybe it’s the part i want to cut out of me so we could fit perfectly together my brain seems to work fine for you i could change the other stuff but you never asked me to why didn’t you ever ask me to? i watch you clean your room i don’t know how you do it but you wash me away too out of your hair kept from your eyes barely surviving on the bridge of your nose drenching your arms and the other parts of you for a little while until i’m all down the drain the feeling of you is so consuming that it almost seems original

Painting by Annie Bergmann

i know that i make you feel seen but it doesn’t matter because you know everyone else is watching you anyway your scent lingers on me and the places that we’ve been but maybe that was your plan all along