A zine by Cearah Peck
We’re talking away I don’t know what I’m to say I’ll say it anyway Today’s another day to find you Shying away I’ll be coming for your love, okay? Take on me, (take on me) Take me on, (take on me) I’ll be gone In a day or two So needless to say I’m odds and ends I’ll be stumbling away Slowly learning that life is OK Say after me It’s no better to be safe than sorry Take on me, (take on me) Take me on, (take on me) I’ll be gone In a day or two Oh the things that you say Is it live or Just to play my worries away You’re all the things I’ve got to remember You’re shying away I’ll be coming for you anyway Take on me, (take on me) Take me on, (take on me) I’ll be gone In a day I’ll be gone (take on me) In a day
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Francis Forever – Mitski So Lonely – The Police Death Row – Jimi Charles Moody Strawberries – WHY? I Admit I’m Scared – Ó
I LOVE MY CONJURES
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Someday – The Strokes Santeria – Sublime This Charming Man – The Smiths Back Pocket – Vulfpeck Patricia – Superbody Redbone – Childish Gambino I Wanna Boi – PWR BTTM
Vienna – Billy Joel Sara – Bob Dylan Fire and Rain – James Taylor After You – Diana Ross Ordinary Pain – Stevie Wonder These Days – Nico Linda Ronstadt – AJJ Cigarettes and Coffee – Otis Redding
Lithim – Nirvana Take On Me – a-ha Team – Lorde Getting Naked, Playing With Guns – AJJ Anyone Else But You – Moldy Peaches Vacation – Florist Oú va le monde – La Femme Nausea – Jeff Rosenstock Rhapsody in Blue – George Gershwin No More Shame, No More Fear, No More Dread – AJJ There She Goes – The La’s Self Control– Frank Ocean
I like cheese now, I actually had a craving for beer the other day, I’m not so scared of elevators. I can see growth happening in concrete ways for the first time in awhile, and it isn’t scaring me. It’s nice to see how I’m changing instead of suddenly having a moment of clarity and freaking out, wondering how the fuck I got to where I am now. There’s bigger stuff too, like, I feel taller in my body, and I know what kind of relationships I want to have in my life, I know I need some sort of real connection (however small) with somebody for me to want to pursue anything sexual or romantic, I’ve learned that some mistakes, especially a few that I’ve made, are irreversible. I like being alone finally, I just have had very few chances to lately. I’m more comfortable being different than other people. I don’t feel as vulnerable acting like myself, or trying new things (like poetry, which obviously I’m too good at because I haven’t practiced too much, but that’s okay). And despite all of this, I still hate white chocolate.