García Reyes Sebastián, My Dark Secret

MY DARK SECRET

Written By Sebastián García Reyes

Iremembered my old school was situated in North Dakota,

USA. I graduated 20 years ago and all my feelings and memories from the school are hateful. It all started when I was in 8 grade and the P.E teacher proposed that the class was going to be in the swimming pool, when he said this I got nervous because in this school the boys used to bully me a lot, so, I thought “If my classmates look my fat belly they are going to bully me as they do with others boys”, for this reason, I decided that I was not going to take off my t-Shirt but George, The P.E teacher said to me;

“Marco you can’t swim with a t-shirt you have to take it off”,

At this moment I started to shake because I was scared of my classmates but with courage, l took off my t-shirt but at this exact moment all my classmates started to laugh and they shouted things like;

“Piggy” “Peppa Pig” “ Fat” etc. l felt very bad and l ran away crying, I ran like 7 minutes with 48 second and l felt that my legs were going to fall and l sat down and cried for 3 hours until my homeroom teacher found me hiding in the bathroom after we talked l went to my home.

The next day I woke up calm wit energy to go at school, on my way to the school everything was perfect, there was a good sun and I believed that day was going to be wonderful, all was good until I arrived at the school because I remembered when I was in the lockers everyone looked at me weird and they laughed, I didn’t understand what was happening until I opened my lockers and there was a little piece of paper that said; “ You are the fattest boy in the school” when I saw this letter my world was ruined because now I was the most bullied boy in all the school and this made me fall into depression. I remember that this was the worst day of my life because in every class subject my classmates bullied me shouting to me that I was very fat. Until I arrived at my home

I talked with my mother and I said to her that I hated school and that I didn’t want to go there ever again but my mother Sandra always said this to me “ you have to be strong and you have to face your problems”.

The weeks passed and nothing changed everybody bullied me and my life was a disaster, this continued like that until a Wednesday that I decided to make some changes In my life, so I decided to start doing exercise, I did not have any idea how to do it, for this reason, I spoke with George asking him some tips to reduce my belly and became stronger also I started watching videos on Youtube about healthy tips and all this stuff of body construction. Firstly I started to jog around the soccer field every day for 20 minutes because my physical state was very bad and I had to improve it, however, I didn’t give up and with the time my performances were much better. secondly, my diet plan started to change to, now instead of eating chocolate bars, hot dogs, burgers, pizza, ice cream I began to eat salad, proteins shake, fruit and peanut because this type of ailments were the ones who were going to change my body even if the flavor was not the better one as the flavor of candies or donuts.

A few months passed, I started to notice changes In my body and this made me feel well. One day I was jogging and the bullying boys, Julian, Drake, and Mateo saw me and they began to make bad comments;

“Marco you will never be skinny” Mateo shouted. “you look much better fat because this makes us laugh” and Julian added.

“you are an ugly fat pig” Drake yelled laughingly.

Nevertheless, I covered my ears and continued running around the soccer field. When this day finished and I was lying in my bed ready to sleep I considered that signing in a gym will make me reach my results quickly, so the next day

I signed in a gym that was at the corner of the house, In my opinion, this was a very good decision because the gym was near and I could go whenever I wanted. After a very hard year I was a very different person, now, my body was “perfect” I had the biggest biceps in school, my abs looked like the abs of Cristiano Ronaldo, my legs were like Usain bolt legs. My lifestyle changed and now I hated the fattening food so I always eat healthy food. The first day of 9 grade I remember that when I arrived at school everybody was in shock because the kids saw me very different as if I was a new person, all the girls wanted to go out with me and they shouted things like; “ I love you” “ you are very sexy” “ you are hot”. This was the best day of my life and for the first time, I felt like the most popular boy in the entire school. In lunchtime, I arrived at the cafeteria and I noticed that the bullying kids were looking at me when I was making the line to buy some fruits, after 5 minutes Mateo, Julian and Drake walked to me and they said;

“Hey, Marco how are you?” And I said “What you want”

And they said “We want to be your friend, let’s go to our table and talk”

And I said “I don’t want to see you again, if you don’t go away in the next 5 second I will kick you very hard until you start to bleed”

And they said; “No Marco please, don’t do it, at least you can tell us how you reached that beautiful body?”

And I said “GO AWAY! OR I WILL KILL YOU ALL” I shouted angrily.

They ran away crying when they left the cafeteria all the students clapped because they were also tired of these bullies, and the people began to thank me for the lesson that I gave them.

Time passed and my new life was amazing! Now my

girlfriend was the prettiest girl of all school (Charlie) and I was the leader of sports in my school, I went to the best parties and everybody in the school respected me and nobody bullied me ever again.

I remembered that I used to hang out with Charlie every Fridays after school, we liked to go to watch a movie, eat something in the mall and drive to a lonely place to see the sunset while we kissed.

Friday the 13, the international day of the bad luck, I remembered that I went to school normally and everything was good, at 3 pm Charlie and me went to see a scary movie in my house and we stayed there a lot of hours, At 9 Pm my mother called me and she asked if I could help her in the kitchen, Charli stayed alone in my room and after 30 minutes I went back to my room to check on her but she was not there and everything was disorganized so I got nervous and I called her and she answered; “Hi”

And I asked if she was okay because she had without saying Goodbye. And Charlie replied,“ Sorry, but my dad called me and he said that it was very late”

And I said, “ Why is everything disorganized?

And Charlie said,“ Sorry, I could not find my wallet and I was desperate, sorry for the mess”

And I said “ Don’t worry baby, I’m going to sleep, let’s talk tomorrow”

And Charlie said “ Ok”

I noticed that she was a little off on the phone and that, there was something possibly wrong with charlie’s voice but I decided to go to sleep and hope that nothing had happened.

A month went by, and everything was normal but then I met another girl, a very beautiful girl, her name is Jessica. I was dating her but Charlie did not know this, we had been

together for 3 weeks and I enjoyed more being with her than with Charlie. I remembered that 2 weeks later I didn’t go to school because I was with Jessica at my house, At 5 Pm Charlie arrived at the house and she caught us off-guard having sex.

And she said “MARCO” *Jessica and I covered ourselves with the blankets* And I said “What are you doing here Charlie”

And she said “What is wrong with you, I brought you this cake because you hadn’t been to school” *Charlie threw the cake in my face* And I said “Sorry baby, this is not what it seems And she said “I hate you, Marco” *Charlie Ran away crying*

At this moment I felt like the worst person in the entire world, Jessica left when this happened and I began to call her but she rejected every call that I did, After 3 hours she wrote to me at WhatsApp; “I’m going to avenge” and then she blocked me off all her social networks. 3 days later, On a Monday 8 of February, I arrived at the school, when I entered everybody begun to look at me very weird and they talked between them, this was very uncomfortable and I didn’t understand what was happening until I saw my locker and there was a steroid syringe with a message that said; “With love from Charlie baby”, When I read this letter I felt a deep cold in my soul because now everybody knew my secret of the perfect body and everyone began to bully me with commentaries like;

“You are not natural” “Liar” “Fake”

Since this moment my life took a different turn, now nobody wants me and every girl rejects me. Charlie made

my life impossible because she was the most popular girl in the entire school, so everybody including the bullying boys (Drake, Mateo, and Julian) begun to make my life a living hell. Charlie was very angry at me for cheating with Jessica and for this reason, she was telling everybody that I consumed steroids to be in a good shape.

Nowadays I am 38 years old and this steroid affected my life in a very hard way, my health is very weak and the doctor told me that I was diagnosed with cancer in the liver because this substance destroyed my organs badly. So to conclude this story I want that the person that is reading this story to never think of using this type of anti-natural substances to have a good body because in the future this will have a lot of consequences also everybody has to accept themselves as they are, I was weak because In the past I cared a lot in the opinion of others and this affected my health deeply. so please be more intelligent than me and love yourselves very much.