Sluga Delgado Sebastián, Hazy Forthcoming

HAZY FORTHCOMING

Written By Sebastián Sluga Delgado

January 12, 2020

This last class I had was impressive. I just finished chemistry and my teacher Mr. P told me I could expect to get excellent with him if I kept my efforts in his class. Being honest, chemistry is not my thing, but getting to understand it moves me. However, now I must focus on working on this registry as my English final essay —by that I mean you— in my last days as a Senior student and future college student apart from all this mess. First, let me tell you the basis of my life as a student; I enjoy studying, I have been a great student during all high school and my grades can prove that. I also enjoy spending time with my friends or practicing soccer, although I have had to change it for the gym because of the amount of time school needs. I also participate in volunteering during Christmas or at school in social events because I enjoy the pleasure this can bring to many people less fortunate than myself. Apart from this, there is not much to tell; I watch Netflix as much as I can, I don’t party as much as most can expect from a 17-year-old, but it is because as much as I like spending time with my pals, I prefer to spend my time usefully.

Now let’s get to the bigger picture; in my English and literature classes, we have been assigned by Mr. Harry to write creatively the purpose and goals for, and on this ground, I have decided to transform it into a kind of journal so it feels more authentic, like a more formal and public diary collective writing. As you can expect, I have everything planned since my sophomore year in high school.

“Bruce, you can expect to do everything you propose, but keep your mind focused on your goal and construct a plan to achieve it, or rather than an expectation you will just be day-dreaming”. My father always told me.

Afterward, the first time he told me that, I asked; “And how do I turn daydreaming into a viable plan?”

“you just need to start from the basics, like choosing what path you may take to achieve it”. My father responded.

And I believed it, so I began searching for the necessary data for my after-school life. In the beginning, I chose my best options for my career, which were;

“Economics, international business, and pilot.”

Economics was the first option that caught my interest, as I have always been the best in mathematics, and my parents always supported this choice as it was a very viable and employable profession. My other option was business studies which started as a hobby, searching on how great companies were operating, their plans, and how they executed their businesses in the most profitable ways like Apple, for example, paying more for less. The last option was the least suitable for me because I like traveling and meeting new places, I thought that by being a pilot I would be fulfilling my lifelong traveling dream. Nevertheless; I concluded that I would rather keep my feet on the ground to work and meet new places every once in a while. So, finally, I decided that I could join the two finalists instead of purging one of them, the first goal achieved.

These were just my first steps into designing what it came to be my planned future, and all I was missing now was defining where I will study my chosen paths. My only idea was to study in the most prestigious universities, and this idea came with the great perk that it was just a few cities away, right on the northern side of the capital city.

As many of the countries located in Latin America, the best universities are in the capital or the main cities, but here in Colombia, your best shot as a student is to go straight to the capital city, as the chances of getting a better first job increase. Also, this perk is good, as it gives me not only the chance to

start my planned future but also the fresh start in my life. No more parental control over midnight parties or having to deal with the same problems I have been facing in my social and personal life, just a clean start, and even better now that I am fully capable of controlling it. As anyone at my age, we know that we have already get over our childhood and most of our teenagehood, so we do know how the real world feels, and college is our chance to prove it. So yeah, this is my plan for my immediate future that it will all come true after I pass with honors my national test in about two months from now and I get the scholarship necessary to finance my studies, until then, I will keep my registry here until I get my score.

March 30, 2020

It all unfolds as I mentioned before. I presented my test around three weeks ago and the scores finally arrived. To my surprise, I was shocked by the fact that I didn’t only get my desired score, but I also got the highest grades that allowed me to get a fully sponsored scholarship in my dream college, which will be covering my tuition fees, home expenses, and transport fee. I couldn’t be more grateful and proud of my accomplishment.

Before this result, I had also applied to one of the local universities in my hometown just to please my mother, she wanted me to have a plan B just in case things take a different turn. to which I was accepted without a problem, Anyway; this couldn’t be more perfect. My parents are very proud that I have achieved my goals and everything I am missing is graduating and leaving this little town, I have called home for all my life. As for now; I believe that achieving my life goals is no longer my concern, after all, I just need to stay focus on my plan, and it will all come together as planned.

April 5, 2020

Hey there, I just arrived from a family dinner as a reward for my good score in the test. It was a fine meal, we went to a fancy restaurant and we spent a very nice moment in the family, with my parents and my sister.

The thing is that now my mother made me realize how my life was going to be changed forever. She also mentioned that I should start looking for my new place in the capital if I want to find any decent place. This idea of moving away from home, had me in shock, not because of the unexpected, but the opposite;

“I have been waiting for this moment for so long that I had no time to think about myself doing it,” I said to myself.

Right now, I am ready to accept my new path, I think so, or at least; I hope so! At this moment, I’m not sure of what to expect about my future.

“What if it was a bad idea? What if I made a bad choice of moving away? What if I don’t get to like my career, or the college or I screw my scholarship?” lots of thoughts flooded my mind.

And there, I told myself that I won’t waste my chance, I have worked so far for it and I will not reject this now.

“College, here I come.”

April 15, 2020

So, today was my mother’s 50 th anniversary and my father threw a surprise party with all my mother’s family and friends, including some of her old friends that are from her hometown that is an hour and a half away by car. We had a buffet and my mother gave a speech on how she was so grateful for having them all gathered together to celebrate her birthday and how she was so proud of me for nailing my goals and how she will miss having me around or in special events, that eventually,

I would not get to attend thanks to my very elaborated plan. This gave the chills.

“How would I bear to be so far from home and my family?”

“Yes, I do want a fresh start, but who will cheer me when I feel sad, or will join me when I feel lonely?”

I know that I shouldn’t be doubting my plans, and even more now that I came this far, but the uncertainty and the holes in my plan don’t leave my head. Also, I remember applying to my local university, just to please my mom, but it is still a viable option. Yeah, maybe it is not as privileged as other colleges across the country, and maybe my careers are not as complete as in the capital, but how would I manage to finish my studies if I feel lonely or sad in the nights by myself? Maybe I should talk with my parents about it, just maybe.

May 2, 2020

Dear Mr. Diary, I already gave you enough about my concerns and worries until last April 15, and writing about my problems doesn’t seem like a therapizing option in this situation. I sent you to Mr. Harry a week ago, he read you and now he is concerned about me. Don’t get me wrong, he liked the way you have been written with honesty, but he is also worried about my doubts regarding my plan. He sent me this email:

“Hello, Mr. Campbell,

I received your first draft of the registry and I must say; that I was moved by your writing ability, I enjoyed reading it. Nevertheless, Speaking about the contents in your writing, I can see that you have doubts about the plan you mentioned in the first parts, and I believe that you should keep writing about it in the registry until you make your final decision. I will be paying close attention to your work and if you require any help you can come and see me or write me an email.

Congratulations on your work and good luck talking to your parents about your new decision.

Regards; Harry” (This email came in the right moment as my decision just changed about a day ago) So; I responded;

“Hello teacher, thanks for the help.

I spoke yesterday with my parents about it. My father was initially pissed about my changing of plans so late but he finally respected it. My mother on the other side was very glad I wouldn’t leave home now, as she considers that I can perfectly leave to study abroad for the Ph.D. after finishing college at home if I want to, As I will be more mature and grown up with the basis of independency she says I will get in the university.

My big problem now is not getting away to study, but the basic idea of getting to college right now. I feel that during these last months any decisions I have decided until now have fallen apart, and my biggest concern currently is getting to choose the career I want to work on for my whole life. Taking this into consideration, I am planning on taking half or a whole year to think about it, maybe traveling to Europe to expand my personal experiences or volunteering in a country in need, I don’t know yet.

I will keep you informed of any news about my decision and for now, trust me, and thanks for the concern you have about my process.

See you in class, Bruce C.”

As you could very well see in the emails, many things have changed from the beginning until now. I have never thought that this could happen to me, but as you noticed, this is my current reality and for now, I just need to wait to see how everything unfolds.

May 29, 2020

This is it, today I am supposed to hand you in “completely” and I need to conclude you as you well deserve to be

concluded, with the outcomes that were unfinished before. I decided finally to quit my idea of entering college for now —maybe in a year or so— and my local university told me that my scholarship could be kept for two semesters so I have plenty of time to decide. During this time, I have decided to go to Guatemala to volunteer as a medical assistant in the second-largest city in the country, Quetzaltenango. This volunteering will take me around 6 to 10 months and during this time I will have plenty of moments to think about what I want to do after this volunteering.

I know that many people could disagree with my decision, or may think that I am wasting valuable time I could use for my studies, but how could I use my time for that if I’m not sure if the careers I chose are the ones that I truly want to do for the rest of my life? These last months left me a valuable lesson, that you can’t plan your long term future, as life change constantly and you may not appreciate some aspects before like your feelings or personal life, but there will be some occasions where these two aspects of life could play a big role in a bad decision, by making you regret or have doubt that may lead to making you feel lonely when you thought you were making the right choice.

I may not know what I want to study or what my future holds, but for now, all I know is that I want to help people and after this, I will think about what careers to study and what university to go. As they say “If you do what you love, you’ll never work a day in your life.”.

Thank you Mr. Diary. For the Good six months, we spent together; I will now leave you in the very safe hands of Mr. Harry.

Take care.