AWAY FROM THE NOISE
SARAH MARY CHADWICK MY ENDLESS QUEST FOR SELF life agonizing. There has been joy, and love and excitement IMPROVEMENT...
My name is Sarah Mary Chadwick and I am a musician and visual artist. I was born in New Zealand but have been based in Melbourne for about 16 years, on and off. I still have a very strong New Zealand accent. I dislike travel, so I don't go overseas much these days, although I plan to do a lot of touring in the next couple of years. I find it easy to produce a lot of work, and always have. I have problems, but making art and writing songs has never been one of them. Apart from making music and art, my endless quest for self improvement has occupied a lot of my time. Apart from all the time when I'm happy (which these days is a lot) I have found
but always under a cloud of sadness and anger that I have almost found impossible to move. This has led me to doctor, specialists, psychologists (eight total) and thankfully, eventually to psychoanalysis (one analyst for five years so far). I am an alcoholic so I have seen alcohol counsellors (two) been to AA (not much but enough to know its not for me) and tried Moderation Management. I've picked up running, endlessly walk my dogs, I have been on medication many times, I have drowned myself in literature and music, I have been close to my friends and ditched the shit ones, I have asked for help and not asked for help, I have stopped talking to my family and I have 15
worked hard at every day job I've had (well, most, some I just got drunk at). Now at 37 and after all that work, its slowly becoming easier. Sure, I have moments, I still drink way too much, I sexually act out, I have bouts of depression, one relatively recently that prompted a suicide attempt. But, overwhelmingly, it's easier. I have friends I love and a life that's pretty fucking fun with joy and romance and lots of silliness. Hang in there, hey. I've had a shocker, and look at me right now! Smiling and able to tell the tale. My ninth solo record 'Please Daddy' was out on January 24th 2020. I think it came up well. Photography by Xi Cao
