Coffee and A Cup Of Dreams
Danica Whitlow
This book is not for the half hearted. It is for those that feel steam brush their face and know it’s really kissing them. We feel our pulse rise when the sun settles or when we think about our passions. The way our weight shifts on our arches to how coffee hits our taste buds. We feel the cosmos swirl into our cup and bring our hopes to a foam while floating in the air. We feel it all. Empaths, this is for you.
Bold Steamy Bitter Comfort
p 9 p 23 p 35 p 47
Bold
As you grabbed my arm, Pulled me to the side, And spoke... I melted like whipped cream Atop a winter cocoa, I was dreaming How could something So magical, So cinematic Happen to me?
Curled on the bathroom floor Door locked, Emotions bouncing around like atoms, Chills and tremors enveloping my body I can’t stop crying. Those words have been spoken. I’m at a loss, but I just know That I love God And I am full of hope. One day you will be happy, Today I can’t make you happy. But one day, Happy won’t be a dream. We are so close... Just one day, Just one more day, Hold out for me…
Writing about you should be wrong, Dreaming about you should be wrong, Wanting you should be wrong, Needing you should be wrong, But I love you, And that makes everything … alright.
I never thought I would be here In this moment I’m holding back tears Everything falling apart Slowly, my stomach flipping My emotions flooding, Deep breaths don't help, Gasping cannot fix the problems That keep adding up... Then, God sends me you. Your presence soothes me You remind me who I am. I can do anything. Together everything flows, The world is calm. I can feel my pulse slow, My breath ease, And my tears dry. With you by my side: I am valued I am supported I am happy I am myself I am truly loved
At this moment I wish I was free. Free to run away With no excuse, No reason, And just go. To find you, I’d search for you, In old places we would meet, In places where my memories And fantasies collide, In places I’d never thought I’d need to be... At the end of it all I would find myself In your arms Feeling at home... Because it’s where I need to be.
Fists pounding the floor, You are the thunder I am the rain. They are supposed to work together But instead, they bring Fear Panic Pain. After their destruction is settled Life grows. This is only so Because thunder And rain Causing chaos, Putting themselves In their own harm's way…
Are away...
I want a 2000s R&B song I want a love that lasts Every single time From the south side To the block Someone who will stop me And say yo, excuse me My one wish is For someone like you And they don’t care If I’m a bad girl or toxic They love my smile They see my heart They wanna hold me Show me the better side of life They just want me...
Reflection promotes Growth. It makes one Flourish,
And rise. A warrior, A bold roast That punches back, Giving you warmth, Opening your eyes Exhilarating your mind, Moving you forward, Making it impossible To stop.
God put me in a battle Against myself. He knew the only person Who could break me, Was the one I could truly see. The one I could feel, The one only I could know. He knew that if I could Defeat my insecurities If I could love myself more, That I’d be unstoppable.
As I lay my head down Before dozing off to dream I collect my thoughts My aspirations My hopes My deepest desires My biggest fears My anxiety My depression I cannot hold these up any longer So I take a deep breath And I exhale the weight of The world pressing down on me And I fall into a deep deep sleep...
Steamy
I am honey At the bottom of A medium roast Cold brew Full bodied, But oh so smooth. I am you 3 O’Clock Pick me up I beg of you Sip me down Til the last drop.
I am the post caffeine jitters You tremble, You crave me, Your head aches, In my absence All you can do Is drift through life... Mindless, Unaware, I am your addiction.
You make my cream Swirl and steam Applying heat, And pressure, Hot water, And coffee grounds, Bubbling while mixing, Pouring me into a glass, Putting me to your lips And of course , You get burnt.
Being challenged is So fucking attractive. Put me in my place. Then tell me I'm beautiful. A lion needs to be tamed. Top me with a lid And call out my name...
I need you Like caffeine in The morning, That thing that Brings a grin To my face, Speed to my pulse, A quick flutter To my heart, A sunrise In a big city, Where the Only thing I’m focused On is you.
As I looked out Across the bedroom, Your eyes saw me Bare and on fire, Like embers That need to be Stoked Don't stop baby, I'm getting closer, Down me in your waters Baby... Give into me more.
Cream, It’s good For more than just coffee. It gives me Existence, Gives me purpose. I love hearing you moan Tease me because It drives me wild Please daddy Let me taste your foam...
B itter
The bitter taste Of your Expired shots, Make me Curl over and Be fucking sick, How can Someone who Loves you Be so Cruel?
When you planned your future With someone else The memory of it Is espresso Trickling down your spine Filling your lungs, Seeping through To your intestines, And just like that It’s gone...
A tall glass Grows tired of pulling their shots Time and time Again and again, Pour themselves out To fill others up, leading them to run dry. Some will take Advantage Of the refreshment This is because they are Parched And empty We must teach them To refill themselves Or we Too will shatter
Being around you hurts, Seeing you smile hurts Me telling you that I’m not in love with you Hurts. Hurting you hurts me We were supposed to be a team How did we get here? How can this be? How long can I be here? How long will this stay a we? And my tears, They start to settle And my eyes, They start to dry And my heart, It starts to thrive I am going to get through this And so are you What we had wasn’t perfect but God damn I loved being with you
I’m sorry but I just cannot do this My heart is broken My love dispensed I need to keep moving forward Keep pressing on My happiness is what I deserve And it’s just not with you It breaks my heart to say this But this is something I must do
A heavy weight Pressing on your spine, Attempting to fill a void Thats been here for years, Just wanting myself to be Happy Instead, I’m sinking slowly Like ice melting in a glass In the peak of summer With no shade in sight.
I am a bitch And they make me Hate myself I’d rather say fuck off Sometimes My inner Bitch Speaks out
But I am a person I have feelings I overthink And let things slide Then run and hide My big heart Is too loud
He sacrificed himself for you He gave you his love He led you to your heart He gave you time He filled you with grace He loves you So fucking much Give yourself to him Be vulnerable Let the lord in
Walking away from you Is quitting my strongest addiction I will shake I will tremor But I know Leaving you Will only make me stronger
Comfort
The night was fleeting Setting my sights on home, Hopeless and broken, My heart aching Spilled coffee On my white shirt God sent you To stop me And to fill me with love It was instant A love A love so pure But just as a burning match Our relationship Turned to ash.
I was frozen, Stuck in the snow. My pulse on a rise, I was glued onto you. The gleam of your Teeth, your smile, That smile, That was paired with A chuckle… It stabbed me straight in the heart It made December seem like summer And your eyes Darker than espresso I saw you And that’s when I knew That I loved you.
After a journey of confusion Your soul Brought me: Shelter Warmth And nourishment, I could never thank you enough For replanting my dug up roots For loving me For caring For wanting me Just me. To ride or die To protect me For making love to me For listening For remembering For reminding me that our love Was worth everything.
Sexuality is unique. We plunge into the Left or right When either way It’s fluid…
In my life very few things Have been consistent: Family Pain Friends Loss Caffeine Fatigue Are you ready to join Your place on the list?
I have known loss I have known heartbreak But you, You’re here to stay As you grip my hand tighter Suddenly I can run. I am not afraid anymore… Into the darkness I will plunge And being the morning star My light will shine
You are my peace You...well you are Floating around in my brain Tucked inside my heart Doing leaps inside my stomach Disrupting the butterflies That spread their wings And tickle my insides I can see you every single day With each memory Previewing in my mind A glimpse of your heart Connecting with mine It’s you, It’s always been...you.
Your name Slides Through my lips, Just like A ring of smoke, A fresh cup of coffee On a cold day, A fuzzy rug On bare feet, Comfort and simplicity.
Among the cosmos The universe continues to grow, Just as the friendships I have come to know. Blessed, Is an understatement Sanctified, Is more like it, And as sure as tomorrow is, there will be More laughs More love More memories, And although hundreds of miles apart Friendship will always carry a large part of my heart.
A crackle of the vinyl record, While you hand me My evening decaf, We sink into Each other And become One.
