Blood's Truth-Breathed Life into by Julia DarkRose by DarkRose Productions

The Blood of the Family is Sweet

Truth, Honour, Loyalty, and Love... Until the End

Blood's Truth By Julia DarkRose Lady Consoror, Charge d'Affaires for the Royal Dragon Court-America

with Ludavik Valentine The Blood Lily, A Sacred Symbol of life for Living Human Vampires

ÂŠ2016 DarkRose Productions, Julia DarkRose & Ludavik Valentine This book is the registered copyright of Julia DarkRose & Ludavik Valentine who assert their right to be recognized as the authors of this literary artistry. Original material and archival extracts pertaining hereto are retained, under seal in the vaults of the ownership of DarkRose Productions. Any similarities to persons living or dead, unless otherwise described for clarification of a factual historical time period, is a coincidence. Unless otherwise noted, all intellectual narrative within is property of Julia DarkRose and Ludavik Valentine. All Rights Reserved.

Published 2016 DarkRose Productions Pueblo, CO

Edited by Magdalena Anya Rakoczy & Julia DarkRose Layout & Design Julia DarkRose Cover By Julia DarkRose Graphics By DarkRose Productions

From my dark angel's heart, I dedicate this culmination of all that I have learned and experienced, as a Living Human Vampire, as a mother, and as a woman, to my one and only true love. My partner in the truest universal and physical love that has ever existed, my partner in this life & beyond. You are the pure & erotic fire of truth that burns bright and forever in my soul. I'll always keep you inside, you healed my heart and my life. This is for you, Ludavik Valentine, without whom, these breathing pages of honour, truth,vision, and magic, would not have been given life. I love you.

~Julia DarkRose

For my love, Julia DarkRose.

~Ludavik Valentine

A percentage of the proceeds from the sale of this book will be donated directly to the Benevolent Creatures Foundation, to be distributed to various social service charities for women and children, shelters, and anyone in need of guidance and help. 3

Acknowledgments Ludavik and I, believe that we truly must thank everyone that had anything to do with the evolution of Julia and Ludavik- Good, bad, ugly, beautiful, and/or indifferent, all have played a role in who we have become, who we are at this very moment in that constantly fluid, misunderstood reality we call time. “Thank you, honestly and humbly (for the most part) for your unknown role in bringing this tome of our harrowing, wild, dangerous, adventurous, and at times, utterly horrific and sad and unjust, but mostly beautiful and unusual chronicle, our lives, independent of one another until 2014, to fruition, in our book-Blood's Truth.”

On a more intimate note, I need to thank Avery S. Lyman. Thank you for seeing

me, so very long ago, for who and what I truly am, before I even knew the truth myself. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for recognizing the literary

artist in me and for nurturing it and being my first true friend and mentor in this world.

Many heartfelt thanks of appreciation also go to Author & Poetess, Magdalena

Anya Rakoczy, for her cherished sisterhood and constant presence of dark beauty and intellect.

A very special thank you goes to my sister and true friend, Nicole Olsen. This

last year has been a time up upheaval, destruction and creation. You have been with me every step of the way, helping me, in all ways that are within your power.

Last but never least, I am thankful for and grateful to my three children, Andre,

Ariel and Alexei.. Your mere existence and subsequent beauty as three unique

beings in this world, never ceases to amaze me and inspire me to keep becoming the best person I can possible be. Thank you.

It's Ludavik's turn now-To my Angel Momma, Greg, Uncle Jimmy and Jonathan

Christopher Martin-”Thank you!”

Blood's Truth "We gladly awaken the spirits of and share our hereditary-joy with those who would subdue us."

Ripped, literally, from the first page of one of my oldest Grimoires (Circa late 1980's)...A book that not only contained all that I had learned (up to that point) about myself and the race from whence I came, but it was also, in and of itself, a force of true Draconian magic. This Grimoire and the House Coat of Arms (House Sable Brahmin, among one of the first crop of Vampire Sub-Culture “Houses”) shown above are now lost to the winds of time, it's power soaked up and far-flung across and through the Ether of the Universal Continuum by the elements of our wondrous sphere.

“Per Aspera Ad Astra.” ~Through difficulties to the stars~

Disclaimer This tome of life experience is dedicated to plumbing the depths of knowledge, passions and truths of what it means to be a superior human (reference the Foreword for a definition of such a human), a creature of honour, loyalty, universal love and of worth, through esoteric, exoteric and alternative realities, and through the arts. These do not include any manner of violent acts, kinkiness with unwilling parties, sexual misconduct, exploitation of the young and/or innocent, or illegal activities of any kind, even if the only aggrieved party might be a right wing extremist, a left wing extremist, or a politician. The fiery artistry of this book is of an informative, educational, historical, entertaining, or satirical nature. Those who do not enjoy 'Blood's Truth' and do not wish to expand their understanding of the world in which they live, and/or broaden their horizons by exploring or reading about alternative lifestyles, factual history, and proven sciences that this book describes, should simply put it down and not read the damn thing. Knowledge of alternative lifestyles, hidden history, and a misunderstood evolution are meant only for those who desire it, and is not meant to be foisted upon any unsuspecting parties. We do not practice evil (which is subjective anyway), encourage anarchy, or think people should wear fishing hats to funerals-although we defend the rights of people to do any of these. All those people out there who have such lonely lives and so much free time on their hands that they think they should care what books other people read, what movies they watch, and which Gods (if any) they worship should just shut the hell up and try to develop some kind of life of their very own. So, there. 6

Lastly and certainly the crux of our exploratory narrative, of our 'Blood's Truth,' is this simple yet mostly over-looked verity, at least this is our, mine and Ludavik's, truth... No one is qualified, not truly and unequivocally, to tell you who and what you are., what you are suppose to believe. Most certainly not Social Media or anyone you communicate with on said media, not your parents/family, religion, not any kind of group and/or community, so on and so forth...most certainly not Ludavik Valentine or Julia DarkRose. We, as well as everyone else mentioned and then some, might, or most likely will, have our own opinion about you and what/who we think you are, which is, given human nature, quite natural. However, there are far too many people, individuals and groups, that claim “wisdom of the mighty Elders, or wisdom of that which is sacred and most high,” or whatever the case may be, (claiming that you have achieved a higher state of being, of wisdom, is in and of itself a telling sign of someone who has not applied their life knowledge gained from their experiences as wisdom, just a 411) that will tell you who and what you are, what/who they need for you to be so that their place in this world has some sort of meaning for them, some kind of order and control, so their lives will seem, for them, to be of import, to be of real substance, to have impetus, without any true understanding of how those worthwhile and all too human needs actually come into fruition. Some do it maliciously while most do it out of cultivated ignorance. Believe what feels right for you, not what you are spoon fed or that which will allow you to be in good standing with the chosen clique that will fulfill your need to be accepted. Believe that which opens your mind, all through your life, not just once, to possibilities that used to beyond your imagination. Keep your power, cultivate it, empower yourself with every breath you breathe. Try not to unknowingly give it, your power, to those who deceive others and themselves. Believe that which feels right for you and you alone, believe that which propels you forward and allows you to grow and keep becoming whatever it is that you truly desire. Try not to confuse “propelling forward and growing” with being controlled and manipulated into thinking you are moving forward in your life, that you are evolving, when in truth you're actually only serving the selfish needs of others, you're only becoming that which they desperately need for you to become, so that they can continue to live within their own delusions while you are actually stagnating. Believe that which allows you to be all that you can and to live the best and most productive life possible. A Life for yourself and for those that you

love can be full of beauty, it can be a wonderful adventure. 7

We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop. ~Mother Teresa

This is our drop...

Foreword By Julia DarkRose

Deeds Must Follow Words

We are inferior of any person whose rights we trample under foot. People

are not superior by reason of the accidents of race or color, or station in life (imagined or real). They are superior who have the best heart-the best brain, the most valiant spirit. The superior person is the providence of the inferior. We are eyes for the blind, strength for the weak, and a shield for the defenseless. We stand erect by bending above the fallen. We rise by lifting others. We are armed warriors. We're armed with our words, our hard earned wisdom, our kind and valiant heart and spirit. We are plumed knights. We throw our shining lance full and fair against the brazen forehead of every traitor of truth and decency, and every malinger of a true Dark Angel. These virtues are hard wired into our Draconian DNA. These truths course through our blood and awaken the Dragon that permeates our entire being and propels us forward into becoming the Crimson Shepherds we were created to be.

The Door is Now Open...

Table of Contents

The Introduction of Julia and Ludavik.................13

A little introspection Chapter One.................................................. 19 A Brief History on the Origins of Vampirism Chapter Two.................................................. 37 The Modern Vampire Sub-Culture Chapter Three................................................ 72 Energy 101-Its Present Reality Chapter Four................................................ . 83 Vampire or Vampyre? Who Cares! Chapter Five................................................. . 95 A Living Vampire-Religion and Spirituality Not Included Chapter Six................................................. . 111 Vampire Sex-Two Great Tastes that Taste Great Together Chapter Seven............................................. . 120 Vampires and Darkness-What's the Connection? Chapter Eight.............................................. . 126 Vampires, Faeries, Elves, Witches & Dragons -Oh My! Chapter Nine.............................................. .. 132 The Vampire-A Dark Swan Amongst the â&#x20AC;&#x153;Shining Onesâ&#x20AC;? Chapter Ten................................................. 137 Rite of the Vampire 10

Introduction

We awake to twilight seen through stained glass angels. The scent of weeping marble and long dead roses. The scratch of twigs on stone and the applause of tumbling leaves. A coffin creaks and foot falls echo. Two sharp tooth smiles and the clasp of cold hands. A squeal and scrape of rusty metal hinges. Eyes close and lungs fill with Autumn decayed air. Looks are exchanged but no words are spoken. Each knows the others mind. The city hums in the distance as lights wink on. Shapes only we can see sweep past headstones in mute greeting. A snap of velvet and sigh of satin falls on our ears. Evening falls. Our night has begun. She, my Dark Angel, my DarkRose, is standing in the moonlight, her gossamer dress exposing her shoulders. Guided by her will o' wisp skin, I approach from behind on silent footsteps. My arm, around my loves waist, moving upwards to her heaving breasts...A sigh escapes her ruddy parted lips as I grasp a hardening rosebud nipple. With my other hand I brush her midnight colored hair off her shoulder and pull it down sharply to bare her alabaster neck. My hot breath is a mist of dew in the cool Autumn air that gently dances upon her tender flesh. 11

She pushes herself back into me and runs her taloned fingers down my leg. Opening wide with gleaming canines, she licks the tips of her fangs with the razor sharp inferno of her tongue, emitting clouds of hot vapor in little bursts. I bite her just a little, as my Lady DarkRose digs her black lacquered nails deeper into my leg. "Not just yet my sweet, my Bloody Berry, I whisper into her tiny, delicate, ear, the night is young." She relaxes her insatiable grip upon my thigh. The moon shines over the tombstones. A startled rat looks up as the shadow of two bats play over his whiskered face. The night grows darker and our Vampire hearts grow more hungry with every tick tock of the proverbial clock...

â&#x20AC;&#x153;Wait...what!? Oh my, sulfur and molasses, no, no, no!â&#x20AC;? Just kidding. The time has come to sweep away the fictional past of Living Vampires or at the very least, shelve it where it belongs, with all the other wonderful or not so wonderful, works of literary vampire fiction. For those that crave the truth of their origins or are simply just curious about what all the hoopla about vampires (real or make-believe) is all about and would just like a better understanding of it all.... Welcome to the new Grail, the Bloodline of the uncharted new era of the Dragon.

The

Introduction

of Julia DarkRose & Ludavik Valentine

just want to be virtuous, and to help people, to help make this

world of ours more beautiful, to be worthy of this life that I have been given, in whatever way that I can...

My nature, that of which I was borne, the blood that flows through my veins-the DNA of my very being, does not, never has and never will be the overwhelming factor in the choices I make in this life, so that I might be, so that I keep becoming the most useful, most helpful, most beautiful spiritual and physical living creature that I give myself the power to be. I am not the sum total of my bloodline. I am not the sum total of what â&#x20AC;&#x153;theyâ&#x20AC;?(those ignorant of the truth of our origins) define as Living Vampirism. I am fluid and adaptable, like Nature Herself. I am in a constant state of evolution...just like Nature Herself. While my physical life is short in comparison to an existence beyond this one (or so I have chosen to believe), that I live upon Earth, the sum total of what constitutes my life, mirrors the Universe itself... Fluid and seemingly endless. 14

All that I have ever done, all that I do now, and all that I will ever do... Will continuously flow through the lineage of our world and into the elucidated tenebrous tissue of the Universe. The All of what I was, of what I am, and of what I choose to become, will be absorbed into the inkiness of creation. My chosen morality, my visible flora and my occult fauna, my warrior's spirit and the pure, erotic, truth of my earth-born marrow, will become a stormy wind, breathed out and back into the Cosmos by the Creator, by the All. When my physical life that was made up of the choices and actions borne from my understanding, acceptance and embrace of my inner divinity and the subsequent Butterfly Effect, that softly kisses the waves of â&#x20AC;&#x153;timeâ&#x20AC;? and all life upon our Terrestrial plane, metamorphoses...The All, the very Stardust from whence I came, will bleed my transfigured being as tears from it's aeonian eyes, like dancing glitter from the Heavens... Down, down, down, back into this World. In what form...It matters not, perhaps as a floating memory, weaving in and out of the stratosphere. I have and will forever spin the velvet words of Midnight's Gospel. I have chosen to live the actions of erotic purity.

I leave for those that come after, the inheritance of the undiluted truth that holds together the web of life, my single grateful strand forged with the fire of my own Darklight. I am not the sum total of a label, or of a birthright, or of any false verity bestowed upon me by those living in cultivated ignorance. This fleshly perfume that houses my innermost existence, upon my transformation into the next conception of being, will gracefully surrender, falling like meteors from the Stygian sky, sanguinesoaked fruit...bearing the seeds of the succeeding legacy...those beautiful â&#x20AC;&#x153;monstersâ&#x20AC;? known as...Living Human Vampyres. My own chosen label (to communicate effectively in this current society, labels are sometimes, well, most of the time, required)...I am a Darklight, a breathing instrument of change, simply because I choose to acknowledge this experienced truth about myself...And my belief in the import of my collective life moments, will, I hope, call forth that which is yet to come of our 1Scythian tale, endowed with a guardian's spirit, a humble heart, and a flaming passion for truth. Please accept, the humbleness, faithfulness, and loyalty with which it is given, this, my undulating, ardent crimson kiss, my mortal chronicle upon our empyreal reality. It is with great honour and gratitude that I present to you, my thoughts, my ideals, my experiences and my truths, both universal and personal, given life to and transcribed onto these pages... 16 1 Scythian ancestry belongs to the genetic inheritance, a distinct royal caste-as it pertains to Vampire, Fairy, Elven, Witch, and/or Dragon, in Sythian-Celtic society: that of the priest-king or priestess queens, the prince and princess Druids.

...Into this breathing tome... into the Blood's Truth. I choose mercy. I choose kindness. I choose honor. I choose my heart... Above all, I choose the truth of love. The love that is the very DNA of our universe. The love that binds us all. The love from whence we are created and destined to live, teach, and pass on to those who come after.

From the deepest, darkest, and most beautifully blazing absolute entirety of my heart and spirit... Thank you, ~Lady Consoror Julia DarkRose, Charge d'Affaires for the Royal Dragon Court-America

S pider web spun from a red glass, maybe its beautiful to look at but fragile to touch. This is how I have seen my life, carefully stepping and being conscientious of each place my foot found. I learned through the joys of my own dark experience, getting my fingers gnawed upon, I learned my lessons from this life, at times thinking I was just a mad man rambling to a God, feeling I had discovered a truth few if any had discovered. Time gave me the opportunity to see I was not alone. However, I did realize very quickly that many are called but few are chosen or in more vampiric words the true bloodline is thin with very few of us still carrying the true vampiric blood in their veins today, in this, our new millennium, the 21st Century. I am a blood drinker. ~Ludavik Valentine

Chapter One A Brief History

on the Origins of Vampirism I know, in this very moment of fluidity, of the seemingly endless cycle of time, I know what lies beyond my door. I became the darkness so I can shine. Within my liquid darkness, I am the Darklight. Most people spend their lives thinking that they are afraid to die. When, in truth, I believe that they are truly afraid to live... Over the mountains and over the waves, Under the fountains and under the graves; Under floods that are deepest, which Neptune obey, Over rocks that are steepest, Our crimson love will find out the way. With a burning sword, and a horse of wind, Through the wilds of life we weave. By a knight of wraiths and ruminations We're summoned beyond the wide worldâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s end. From the vicious hags and ravenous goblins That into bloody rags would divide and scorn us, And from the spirit that dwells within the unawakened, naked man, We rise above thee, And fight for a better day.

In the book of Moons, there you will find, Written in The Mother Queen's own blood, Our names...Her children of truth and honour.

Love not us for only comely grace, For our pleasing eye or face, Nor for any outward part. No, love us too for our valiant spirit And our constant loving dark heart.

“A Race Apart, A Species Set Aside”

ampirism,

is a hereditary trait amongst pre or non-Christian kings and queens. The cult arising from the science (?!) of Vampirism is firmly female centered and the Grail Maiden is worshiped as the sustaining Goddess. Ladies of the blood are often portrayed as having Titian red hair. Lovely females with fiery manes always remind me of lunch! Um, okay...focus...the red hair motif is derived from our First Lady, Awan Luluwa, more popularly known as Lilith II, Queen of Kish. She had striking red hair, very much like her Sumerian, 2Scythian-Aryan descendants who made up the bulk of the nobility of Transylvania (Seriously! The Nephilim originated there and moved to Sumeria in 8000bc.), Egypt, Israel and Eire. The Sumaire or Kurgan were the original Witch Lords and Vampire Queens whose firstborn language was “proto-Sumerian.” Sumaire in later Irish and Scots Gaelic was a word used for Vampire. It actually means: Vortex,Whirlpool, Dragon. As you may know (or not), there is a certain fear and taboo against red haired females in tribal cultures and this derives from the tremendous power they are born with as descendants of Lilith. As vampirism was practiced only by royalty, the red-tressed female was prized as a blood mother, a sustainer or grail maiden. To keep the quality of the blood high, they only married amongst themselves and only fed (on blood) from each other, ergo, the central European legend of the dead relative returning to feed from members of its own family. Vampire legends amid the peasantry of Europe were simply leftovers from folk memory of the activities of the Aryan King Tribes. Abbe Calmet, writing in 1690, investigated and refuted every case of peasant vampirism in his time.

21 2 -For more in depth factual history about the origins of the Vampire Race please read Nicholas de Vere's book-'The Dragon Legacy, The Secret History of Ancient Bloodline'

The Emperor of Austria had a full time team charged with dealing with cases of supposed vampirism and Father Calmet accompanied that team all over Europe. Ahead of his time, he could see that cases always had a simple explanation. Vampirism practiced by peasants was non existent. However, how many cases of (real) living vampires are beyond refute? Gille de Rais, Elizabeth Bathory, Parsival, Drakul II & III, Sigismund von Luxenbourg, Barbara Cille (aka Carmilla Karnstein) and so on. Without exception these characters were of noble or royal blood and that blood can be traced back to Cain and Lilith and to the original Dragon Court of the Nephilim in Mesopotamia (Sumeria). In Britain and Ireland the Pendragons, the Druids and the Culdee all were descended from the first Dragon Kings of Kish either via 3Jesus (who practised the vampiric 4“Rites of Solomon”) or through the Fairy Kings of the Scythian, Pictish Danaan who used a Blood Motto that is enscrolled on the Coat of Arms of The true Dragon Court. So much for 5Ginger-Knobs! In medieval Europe the concept of Courtly Love was based on this early alchemical thesis which is pragmatically rooted in biochemistry and psycho-biology, not in occult hocus pocus. Courtly Love follows the no bonking rule which was later to make it such an attractive concept for the sadistic Catholic bishops who promoted it wholesale as a way of further making peoples lives utterly miserable!

22 3 Jesus & Bacchus share the sigil of the IHS or In Hoc Signo Vinces. They are both associated with the vine, blood and wine ritual. The identification of Jesus as Lucifer replicates the role of Samael-Prometheus as the earlier benefactor-saviour of man before Christ. Jesus' clan name was ben Panther and this animal, the African version of the werewolf, was sacred to both Bacchus and Great Diana of Ephesus. IHS was attributed to Bacchus long before it was appropriated by the early Christians. Emblazoned onto Grail chalices, In Hoc Signo Vinces: “By this Sign Prevail” pertains not to wine, but blood, which was consumed as the elixir of life and the doorway to eternal wisdom. 4 The Rites of Solomon or The Song of Solomon, is a blood rite, a communion where the wine, the blood, of the virgin goddess is drunk. This rite remained in the House of David until the time of Jesus ben Panther, when he reinstated it as an exoteric ritual for his disciples. Solomon's historical harem was a blood farm and the females in it were there to feed him, to increase his wisdom and lengthen his life. 5 Ginger-Knobs-UK, slang, idiomatic, pejorative) a male redhead, a ginger-haired male.

What they neglected to mention was that it had a contact element which facilitated the process of Hierogamy (marriage or union of the “gods,”... the attaining of transcendence), a mystical male-female or female-female act that made physical orgasm seem as exciting as sneezing. This ritual, found also in the blood rites of the Indian Tantric Kaula Vama Marg, involved a process whereby the two participants “fired up the spheres” together, thus assuring parity. Having done this and ensured that the endocrine system was working full blast, the male or female would then draw either 6grafenburg fluid (“the Lily”) or menstrual blood (“The Rose”) from the virgin female host. The biochemistry is complex and I won't bore you with it. However, feel free to research it on your own. Perhaps starting with factual historic literature, like 'The Dragon Legacy,' by 7Nicholas de Vere. Basically the fluids of a virgin female (hence the legends) “of the blood,” contain massive amounts of Pineal discharge which stimulate the thyroid (in the neck). The thyroid produces a hormone that stimulates the Thalamus gland behind the Sternum and this gland produces chemicals that immediately drenches the body's cell structure and feeds the Mitochondria. The Mitochondria determine longevity. The same process facilitates trans lobal communication across the cranial hemispheres thus producing a sense of interpersonal union and enlightenment (or for the rare few, endarkment). Thus illustrating that the popular theory that vampirism is caused by Iron Deficiency Porphorya is utter crap! The idea of vampirism is to provide a food source to increase life span and intelligence. As it also made one understand that all things are One, the resulting perceptions taught innately, both wisdom and magic. Those charged with reigning over peoples and guiding them needed that extra edge to help make sense of a complex and often hostile world. Given that vampirism helped the Queens and Kings of preChristian times live longer and more wisely, the affairs of Man were often governed with greater consistency and common sense. 23 6 Grafenberg fluid-Despite earlier contrary claims, researchers have found evidence that a sensitive area (Grafenberg Spot) exists in the vaginal barrel. This area is a potential source of orgasm independent of clitoral stimulation. 7 Nicholas de Vere who is now deceased, was my mentor and friend. He was publicly known as His Excellency Nicholas de Vere KGC, Princeps Draconis, Sovereign Hereditary Grand Master Templi of Sarkany Rend 1408, Curia Regis et Ordo Draconis, Chancellor of the Imperial and Royal House of Habsburg-Lorraine of Tuscany.

Vampirism in those ancient times was accepted as an essential ritual of Kingship. “Victims” were not victims at all but were willing participants in a rite of love, even when blood was drawn from other areas. If the victim had been forced the trauma would have released Noradrenaline which, once in the system acts as a necrotiser and an oxidant which destroys the Pineal discharges in the hosts body and when ingested attacks the very Mitochondria one is trying to repair. Often stories like Carmilla portray the vampire as adoring lover of the victim and this is why. The Hunger (not the awesome movie) appears because Hierogamy virtually makes the vampire and the host into one being and energies flow that bring arrant stillness and immense power that restores both mind and body. The Hunger comes when that goes. The actual experience, I believe, rewires the neural pathways which leads to a state of being where union with another becomes subconsciously considered as the norm. The organism then becomes dependent upon that stimulus for normal functioning. Without it life becomes a unique kind of hell. The tendency towards this happening is predetermined by ancestry. The knowledge of the hunger and the dark gifts lies dormant in the genetic and cellular memory all the time the stimulus has not been experienced. Given certain circumstances and conditions it can awaken with a sudden conscious realization: The Quickening. (There can be only one! Naw, we're just yanking your sword...”Highlander,” the movie, actually borrowed this terminology from the actual Draconian Bloodline.) One might be said then to have entered the Savage Garden by the gateway smeared by virgin blood. This is the ancient Door: Daleth. The Savage Garden is also known as Elphame or the land of Faery. This is another tale altogether, for another time and perhaps another book. Fairy blood is Vampire blood. The Fairy is the Vampire and thus the Witch. Each is a function or component of the other, termed “Grail” within the Family of Dragons. Why Female Virgins? Physiologically females have larger pineal glands than males and generally produce more of the relevant hormones. Once males or females reach puberty the level of the hormones is reduced, more in males than in females, making males generally less worth feeding from. 24

Once sexual activity commences the memory of the act increases levels of Estrogen and Testosterone which further greatly reduce pineal function. Female virgins aren't absolutely necessary but the difference between them and sexually active males is like the difference between a banquet and a pretzel. In most cases, but not all- for there are, of course, always exceptions to this generalization about how we, living vampires borne from the bloodline of the original Witch Lords and Vampire Queens, feed and whymales generally aren't worth the effort for the kind of return one is likely to take delight in and savor. “Human” subjects, mundanes, non “fairy,” those not born with vampire blood, are even less worth the effort. Once you go Vamp, baby, you never want to go back. In our, mine and Ludavik's, unique experiences, we can recognize a good sanguine treat from across the room and if they make the cells buzz like an electric charge, then it is more than a likely chance that they're cousins...soups on! The Freudian theory that vampirism is linked to oral sexuality or dominance is typically spurious as mixing reproductive sexual activity or orgasmic sexual acts with acts of vampirism, seems, considering the foregoing, about as intelligent as screwing for virginity. Vampirism as sexual dominance is Victorian social inadequacy poorly defined. In other words, fucking and feeding between two (or more, depends on your individual sexual orientation) living Vampires, is beyond anything a mundane will most likely ever experience. However, Vampirism is hard wired into our DNA and whatever way we choose to experience it, to feed, to embrace our birth right and all that entails, is at its very core, an act of truth, honor and love (This is true love and not any mundane, needy, selfish, romantic expectation and/or understanding of it). Feeding, for us, is a matter of Family duty, a matter of well-being and evolution for ourselves, as well as for the greater good of those we protect...the rest of Mankind. The “Vampire” is born with a higher potential for perception, transcendence and intelligence. Vampirism is only one aspect of a separate culture that has been suppressed by the church and the Mahoum (Muslim) states for centuries. The Vampire, Dragon Lords and Queens ruled the Earth for millenia but were usurped by humanity with the gradual emergence of warrior dynasties backed by the falsehood of church dogma and terror.

Parts of the legends are true when they say that the Vampire is more than human. They were and are a distinct species cultivated and hybridized from para human bloodlines with the particular aim of breeding beings to guide and shepherd humans. I know, I can hear the snickering and see the eye rolling. All truth is, at first, ridiculed, then it is violently opposed and finally it is accepted as self-evident. Even Jesus of Nazareth suffered the same human ridicule and violent opposition before his factual historical legacy was accepted as truth. Once the human kings seized power, the crap began to hit the proverbial fan. Love for the Earth died, settled agriculture took over and tradesmanship and merchant skills began to be sought in leaders who had not been genetically bred to fulfill the role of Kings over Humans. This is why breeding and ancestry is important, not from any point of snobbery, but from an essential need to be aware of ones identity and true potential. What is the point of a human being a vampire wannabee. The genes are different, period. A Dragon being a human wannabee is equally as disastrous and can cause untold personal misery in the forms of alienation and paranoia. Trying to fit into the human mind set can be like trying to get a quart into a pint pot. There is just that bit more in a Dragon!

~Is Milse Fola Caraid~ The blood of the family is sweet.

The Dragon Sovereignty The Dragon Sovereignty and all its bolt ons is the original Vampire Order of Egypt and Aryan Persia and India. Draculea (Dracula) learnt his trade here and at the Scholoman School, the Bathory boys and girls were paid up, card carrying members and Barbara Cille, daughter of Duke Ernst the Iron, was a Co-reviver of the Medieval structure of the earlier Merovian and Plantagenet lines that descended from Ancient Egypt. Barbara came from Styria and is probably the model for Le Fanu's 'Carmilla.' She was certainly a Vampire and a Cathar. The whole organization was split into several different sections according to the knowledge of its membership.

On page 13 of 'The Imperial and Royal Dragon Court and Order,' Membership book (this is my personal copy given to me by Prince Nicholas de Vere), there are several different Oroborus' or Dragon Circlets. One can be used upside down as the symbol of Venus-Lucifer. Upright, as you probably know (or not), the symbol stands for the alchemical “primal matter,” that being blood and the “waters of life.”

The other two symbols are loosely disguised in verbiage extant at the time which was geared to allay suspicion by the Roman Catholic Church, not that the Emperor did give much of a hoot anyway. In the end he dumped on the pope from a very rare and refined altitude and took over the Church himself. The Dragon Court has been in existence for several thousand years, but in recent times, hereto it has taken the form of a closed, private family order. As a result of the present need for developed societies to acknowledge that the management of the world's resources is not being handled in the best way, the Court has decided to re-open itself as a public beneficent Order of Nobility so that it can lend its weight to a fundamental change in attitudes towards both our environment and mankind. The Imperial and Royal Dragon Court maintains its sovereign status thanks to the Warrants drawn up by the Imperial and Royal House of Habsburg-Lorraine of Tuscany. It will achieve lasting change by working within the highest echelons of existing societies without being restricted by any particular political affiliation or religious creed. Working through internationally-recognized charities, the Court rewards its members by promotion within its ranks only after they pledge dedication to its aims followed by an active charitable commitment. Members are, therefore, rewarded with positions of genuine nobility and influence thanks to their humanitarian work. Members of the Dragon Court believe that it is not too late to effect the changes that are required. The Court itself has for centuries consisted of families who have been guardians of their Principalities and everyone or thing living in them. The image of the dragon encircling the world, nurturing all life upon it, is familiar to most cultures.

The Dragon Sovereignty is an Imperial and Royal Court of Nobility and Order of Knights. Variously known through history as the Court of the Dragon, The Society of the Dragon and the Dragon Order, its Sovereign status is derived from the Imperial Warrants issued by their Imperial and Royal Highness the Archduke Franz and Archduchess Meryl von Habsburg of Tuscany. The House of Habsburg-Lorraine is one of the oldest Imperial and Royal Houses in Europe, having been recognized as such through the centuries, including its representation by Klemens, the Prince Metternich, at Congress of Vienna, 1814-1815. The Inner Dragon Court, called Sarkany Rend 1408, is restricted by charter to a maximum membership of twenty four nobles. The Exterior Court, Curia Regis et Ordo Draconis, is also open only to nobility, but may be entered via feudal court of Seigneury following four years dedicated charitable service to the needy and deserving. Centuries old, the Dragon Court and Order was reformed in 1408 by Emperor Sigismund (Zsigmond) von Luxemburg, King of Hungary, who was crowned Holy Roman Emperor in 1433. In 1408 Zsigmond and twenty one barons and nobles of his court drew up a document, or pact, that was intended to secure Zsigmond's position as King of Hungary and rewarded his nobles for their loyalty to the throne. This document, 'Sigismundus dei Gratia rex Hungariae...' lays down principles of the Court in clear terms. When Zsigmond went to Rome to receive the Imperial crown in 1433, the statutes of the Dragon Court were confirmed by the incumbent Pope Eugenius IV. From these papal letters, it is apparent that membership of the Order had been extended to include 'foreigners' of noble blood. The pope refers to 'Princes, Dukes, Marquises, Counts, Barons and Nobles' who had been received into the Order. Membership of the Dragon Court was recognized as a high privilege across Europe. Its practical power and status are indicated by Zsigmond's peaceful reign until his death in 1437.

In drawing up the pact that became the statutes of the Dragon Court, Zsigmond and his twenty one nobles were not in fact creating a new society but were rather reviving ans re-affirming the public status of a tradition that has its roots nestled in far earlier times. For Dragon Courts, of which Sarkany Rend 1408 Curia Regis et Ordo Draconis was a link in the historical chain, have existed since the earliest priest-kings and their courts worshiped the earliest cthonic gods and goddesses, the Typhonic Dragon Deities. The first known references to these Deities date back to the 7th Dynasty in Egypt in 2180 BC and the lineage of Dragon Courts continues virtually unbroken to the present day. The myths and legends surrounding the image of the Dragon are as old as time itself and may be found throughout the world. Indeed, all cultures evolved from a primeval dragon culture that still survives today. In ancient China the dragon represented both earth and water, and above all the fertilizing power of rain. It is also said to have presented the first Emperor of China with a mystic chart (inscribed on its back) from which the languages of China evolved. In Anglo-Saxon Britain, Bede chronicled several sightings of dragons and there is a beautiful shield ornament depicting a dragon that was found during the famous Sutton Hoo ship burial excavations, kept at the British Museum, which dates from 7th Century A.D. Earlier than this, the Scandinavians believed that the world was surrounded by circular oceans, an abyss in which a vast serpent lived, with its countless coils encircling the Earth and protecting everything that lived there. Indian and South American cultures refer to dragon deities, as do those from Africa and Asia. It seems as though the symbol of the dragon has been universally perceived, consciously or otherwise, as a potent force in nature since the dawn of human imagination. At present it is the general consensus of opinion amongst the officers of the Royal Dragon Court, that we (Living Human Vampires) should come out of the occult shadow and allow the Order to be seen for what it is. I feel the same way with some reservations. We have disposed of our Habsburg involvement and are amalgamating with the ECP, the old European version of the United Nations; and whilst we think it vital to attract interest anew from those who know and practise the blood traditions of the Grail, we do not wish just yet to alienate the top ranking colleagues we do have.

However, a compromise can be reached by adopting the old ways. We can open up a section to those in the know and form an esoteric basis behind the Sovereignty, for social, academic and spiritual purposes, same as it ever was. We have links with various academic Institutes, including Boston College MA., and the Warburg Institute at the University of London, England. We are at present joining forces with another, (non-Imperial or Royal) Order which is of the same Draconian line as ours and which holds similar Vampire knowledge as us. This is where, I, Julia DarkRose, come into the larger picture, where I made my debut as part of the mission set into motion decades ago, by my friend and mentor, Prince Nicholas de Vere. The following is an excerpt from one of many official letters written to me by Nicholas beginning in the 20th Century, asking for my help in achieving the worthy goal of not only finding the others of our bloodline but in educating the mundane world about the truth of our origins and to help evolve our lineage... 8

Excerpt from Prince Nicholas de Vere's letter to me, dated April 26, 1997:

“Anyone joining us will enjoy a prestigious position and access to privileged information they may as yet be totally unaware of. No one aspiring or adhering to the old blood tradition can say they truly belong until the oldest Order of Vampirism has accepted them. This is where the business proposition comes to the fore. In order to carry on our work, both public and private, we need the support of well heeled enthusiasts, either of the tradition or not, who are willing to pay the fee of allegiance to join and support the exoteric and esoteric tasks ahead. Maintaining an institution like this takes finance and the results of it's work are intended to benefit all. Following the huge success of “Interview” and “Dracula” which had phenomenal box office returns, from a business point of view alone, it cannot escape ones attention that this form of follow up “merchandising” could probably make a fortune. This is where you come in. You have media access and some experience; and represent a photogenic face of the tradition. We are offering you the opportunity to make an alliance with us which will pay a representative fee of 1000.00 pounds sterling per head, for each member vetted and passed by the officers of the inner sanctuary. Accepted members will receive genuine title which they will be expected to keep and advance by charitable works and service to the Court. 31 8 Photos of this letter-Images 1A & 1B-can be found on pages 104 & 105

These titles are approved by the President of the ECP and represent a viable and decent alternative to buying feudal title from an agent, whereby none of the money goes to charity or any other useful cause. Weirdly enough, Vampirism, as a prerequisite originally of the 'King Tribes,' is closely linked with service and responsibility. We can go into that later if you're interested. This is a serious offer from an ancient and serious Order. We hope that in due course we find some compatibility and firm basis for co-operation, all things being acceptable. Bona Fides are available upon request. Be assured of our respect and highest regards; I remain, Yours sincerely, Nick. H.H. Nicholas the Prince de Vere von Drakenberg, H.E. The Chancellor and Ambassador.â&#x20AC;?

And this brings me to our current state of affairs within the vampire sub-culture. I feel an abbreviated history and time-line regarding the creation of the modern vampire sub-culture is imperative so that those of you reading this tome of undiluted verity, might be able to gleam a balanced and more thorough understanding of what it truly is to be a Living Human Vampire in the 21st Century.

Before I continue on to the next time line, me thinks, another brief glimpse into the history of the Draconian Bloodline shall be summoned from the murky waters of the past and transcribed onto this virtual parchment.

Perhaps the most famous Dragon Court of all was that of King Arthur and his Knights of the Round Table. King Arthur certainly existed. More precisely it may be said that 'they' existed. Arthur was not a name, it was a title that was inherited by the consecutive generations of specific royal bloodlines. The Celtic pre-Christian tribes had (at least) two co- leaders; a peace king and a war king. The 'Arthur,' named after the son (Artoris) of the Celtic bear goddess, was the peace king. Arthur as Ursus is associated with the constellation Ursa Major and that of Draconis in ancient astrological folklore. The dragon connection is even more obvious in the patronym taken by Arthur: Pendragon. 'Pen' in cyrmic language means head, chief or great. King Arthur's full title, therefore, was 'The Chief Dragon King' and his Court of Knights. Seated at the round table, were knights not only of Arthur's Court but of the Court of the Dragon itself.

The story of Arthur and his grail circle is endemic across the length and breadth of Celtic and Dark Age Europe and in each case there is a profound link with the Dragon. Each story centers on the protection of a grail-maiden or dragon-maiden. The Arthurian tale depicts her as Gwynhyfar, or Guinevere, but she has many names, including Melusine, 'Lamia' and Ceridwen. She it is who bears the sacred cup, cauldron or grail of inspiration from which the waters of life and knowledge flow. Every ancient sacred bloodline had its Melusines, 'Lamias' or dragonmaidens, for it was the dragon-maiden herself who bore the holy blood of the sacred regal line. The post-Christian patriarchal interpretation of the dragon attacking the grail maiden is false. Far from being a threat, the dragon was guardian of the royal blood, protector of the maiden and by association, defender of the Earth itself.

There is a legend in which Merlin shows Vortigern a pit in which two dragons are locked in combat: one is red and one is white. The white dragon wins. On a profound level, this may be a poignant vision of the future, a warning with regard to loss of the grail. But the red dragon, although temporarily displaced, could not be destroyed. It has lain waiting for centuries and now, as we ended the second millennium, and have started anew, it is ready to unfold its wings once more.

Being a Witch, Vampire, Fairy or a Royal Dragon9 is not something that can be bestowed through rites of initiation or by adopting the pretense. Such beings are of a different race, a race into which they are born. It is not a club that people can join and there are no human equivalents or substitutes. Even though the Catholic Church (Which unfortunately, still wields considerable power) has attempted to usurp the status and power of these beings, the utter mess they (those not born of the Draconian bloodline) have made of life on Earth just goes to prove my point and the dire need for those of us born living vampires to stop pussy footin' around and do what it is in our natures to do and to be what we were created to be.

We endarken those who think they can damage us. They do not know who we truly are, they do not know what we truly think, they cannot even touch the things which are really ours and with which we live, love, and evolve.

34 9 See Chapter 8 for more information

Sons & Daughters Of The Dragon

Arise and live:

We break the frost And open thy grave. Thunder our strength, Lightning, the heart of our storm: We take you in Over wind and night, To love us, your Shepherds of truth. To save us as well, To harm nothing under our knowing sight. Sun, rain, Cloud, and snow, We rise up, And over you goTo understand our way, To champion us night and day. Time is truth Time is sand Time run true For you, our earthly children, From our own hand: For dark-love For dark-joy For dark-pain For darknessâ&#x20AC;&#x2122; own sweet deathâ&#x20AC;Ś Our blood-soaked children, Are the spire of gold, The willow green, The silver snake, The scarlet queen, The seven stars, The solid chain. 35

We are now Breath and substance Risen twice, Death and issue, Double Helix, Phoenix fire, Burning feather, Bee and blossom All together... Our dearest Sons & Daughters of the Darklight, We are the thicket secret, Airy and light, Horns of black velvet, feathers many, Green as water, Red as flameWe shed thy blood And sign our names.

Chapter Two The Modern

Vampire Sub-Culture: A Time Line Appearances can be important, for many reasons. However, it would behoove mundane and vampire alike, to remember that appearances are an illusion, and all power is built upon illusion.

Where or where do I even begin? I can, of course, only reveal through this proverbial nub to paper, to you, the reader, as historical fact, that which I experienced first hand. Which, all things being considered, is actually quite a lot of Vampire Sub-Culture history. However, it is in no way all of it, and it is, of course, unfolded to you in the most crisp way possible, through my perspective as an active creator and participant in the events that brought this culture up from below, from the safety of the underground of whence it sprang, and into the comforting but revealing rays of moonlight, for all the mundane world to see and judge.

The Viper's Tongue Oh, that viper tongue that doth tempt and soothe the brain with its lies and delusions. That diseased tongue shall rise and wind its glittering coils About your feverish fears again and again. You look into their ‘clear’ hypnotic eyes; Oh how they ‘confess’ their power firmly and without fail. How they will turn on you and tease, how they will Charm you with that false wit and wisdom, under their will To consume and dominate, to bind you with their filth. May you, my dears, stare them down and hold them still: Breathe back out their contagion, Slice off their liars tongue, Stuff it down their cancerous throat, Be fearless and bathe them in the erotic purity Of the truth: “ True knowledge I have While thou hast none, I can make songs Beyond thy tongue; All of thy offerings Are now first mine: I keep my spirit I am truth, I fly freely through the air. Pure and essential as water, Scarlet as wild flameIn the Mother's own Starfire, Shed thy blood And sign my name.”

A time line, no matter what or who is being referenced, is usually quite the undertaking. A time line that allows for everyone to have a better idea about the Vampire Sub-Culture (Vampire Community) is, without a doubt, tricky, to say the very least. I will do my best to be as concise and unbiased as I possibly can, truly. I, in no way, wholly created the Vampire Sub-Culture/Community. As well, my timely entrance into what was already in existence, above ground, in 1994, is also, in no way all inclusive. However, I will not be false to myself or to you, the reader, and convey through my words any amount of false modesty or phoney baloney humbleness as it pertains to my involvement in the innovation of what, for me and many others, started out as something idyllic and inspirational. This line of Vampire community history will be broad, true. However, it is our hope that it will give you a better and undiluted understanding of how the road had originally been paved with the jewels of dark-joy to the mostly cluster fuck of broken and shattered asphalt it has become.

This photo is of the 'Thirteen Goals of the Vampyr' as it was published in 1994, inside issue 2, of 'The DarkRose Journal.' Long before 'The Black Veil' (The Vampire Community's list of rules and edicts), I offered suggested goals that would be helpful for those struggling with the truths that are hard-wired into their DNA.

The Thirteen Goals of the Vampyr 1. Know yourself 2. Know your blood 3. Learn 4. Apply knowledge & wisdom 5. Achieve your balance 6. Keep your emotions in good order 7. Keep your words in good order 8. Celebrate all life 9. Attune with the cycles of the Earth 10. Exercise your body 11. Meditate 12. Feed your hunger nobly 13. Honor the Dark and the Light

Time line I. 1994-This is when I, Julia DarkRose, officially entered the above ground “vampire” culture, with the publication of 'The DarkRose Journal.' II. 1994 to about 1996, was a time of discovery. More and more self-published vampire fan zines (some attempted to write more serious articles about the science and/or spirituality of those people who claimed to be real living vampires. However, most were filled with typical lore and/or fictional vampires) were popping up from all over the globe. Daytime TV began to have self-proclaimed “vampires” on as guests. A few non-fiction books about “vampires” and the youth (or kids in capes) that aspired to be the incarnation of their favorite fictional vampires, were being published and causing a frenzy among the Gothic Sub-Culture and the loosely formed, new Vampire Sub-Culture. This is also the period when both sub-cultures began to cross over into one another, as well, the BDSM Sub-Culture wasn't too far behind in it's crossover and blending with the Vampire Culture. III. 1995-The book 'Something in the Blood, by Jeff Guin with Andy Grieser' ©1995 was published. This 'The Black Veil' ©Sanguinarium 1995- was, at least here in the United States, the first book 2000-was the “code of about self-proclaimed real living vampires, that was ethics” established for the unbiased (mostly) and let each “vampire” interviewed members of it's community, tell their own tale, without the author declaring that and still used today by the these individuals are deranged, dangerous, and/or evil. I Vampire Community believe that if it had been released just two or three years later it would have had better commercial success and subsequently reached more people within the sub-culture. 40

By the way, I am Chapter 13 in 'Something in the Blood.' This is also the year that the Sanguinarium was formed. Also important to note, this is the year that the Internet became available to the public and vampire (fiction and nonfiction) chat rooms started finding their way into the homes and minds of many impressionable young people, lonely people, depressed people, and just about anyone desiring to be noticed away from the herd of humanity. Having, at your fingertips, literally, all kinds of information and people not previously accessible, was, for many, an addiction, an addiction that became a disease. It was a cancer of delusion and more often than not, a cancer of lies. Lies conceived by those with just enough knowledge of vampire lore and/or the occult, and with the ability to manipulate their fictional vampire persona's down to a science, as to be charming and seem like dark vampiric gurus...Just enough computer savvy to hook all the aforementioned groups of people, especially through that new and shiny toy-the Internet-to be dangerous...spiritually, emotionally, socially, and intellectually, and on rare occasions, physically. These unsavory and dishonorable predators are the ones who planted those cancerous seeds then continued to manipulate them while they germinated into a full blown disease of deceit, abuse, and filth...better known as the current Vampire Community. To be clear, I am not speaking about the V community as a whole. There are, of course, exceptions to my rather negative view about that which I have experienced first hand (up close and very personal). There are many within the Vampire Community/Sub-Culture that are not diseased, or delusional, or abusive, and so on and so forth.

â&#x20AC;&#x153;Something in the Bloodâ&#x20AC;? ÂŠ 1995-An evolutionary book within the Vampire Sub-Culture 41

However, from where I sit (which is from a very unique position, have no doubt about that), those that are genuine and have a firm grip on reality, personal and universal truths, are the exception rather than the rule. IV. Now it's been a few decades, so my memory is not spot on about the exact time/year of every historical fact/event. I'm creating this time line mostly from memory (almost everything I've collected concerning the creation and evolution of the vampire Community, since 1994, is in storage far away from where I am presently writing this book, and am unable to access that information). However, I assure you that which I am including in this Time Line is accurate as fuck! As I previously conveyed to you, I decided to just write a very general but concise time line, focusing on the events that truly created and then shaped the community and sub-culture. About 1996 is when, according to my observations, the Vampire Sub-Culture became something more than “vampires” gathering in small, mostly, awkward clusters of the like-minded, inside Goth/Vampire venues/night clubs (although, funny enough, or not so funny, those small, awkward, clusters of vampire lifestylers are, for the most part, definitely excluding 'Endless Night' events, still the “norm”, in this 21st Century of ours, at the various clubs and venues). As well, you could also find those same said clusters playing the extremely popular vampire role-playing game-'The Masquerade.' Which brings us to, what I believe is the most important element in the creation of the Vampire community, The Sanguinarium ©1995-2000. V. A little history on The Sanguinarium, founded by Father “Sebastian” (to be clear, he's not and never was or will be, my “Father”) of Sabertooth fame as a network for the vampyre sub-culture, in 1995. The Sanguinarium created the mold and set the criterion for what currently constitutes the vampire community. “Households” were born from this precursor to what are now the modern vampire Houses,Clans, Courts, and so on, Clan Sabertooth being the first Household borne to the Sanguinarium. Very soon after Clan Sabertooth was established and recognized as the original “Household,” it entrenched within the psyche- cyberspace and corporeal- many (I'd say most) of the social traditions still incorporated today within the V Sub-Culture/Community.

From this beginning also came COVICA: (which was inspired by Sanguinarius of Sanguinarius.org. I, too, was a member of COVICA) The Sanguinarium Council, acted as the board of directors for the Sanguinarium. It contained members known as “Ministers” who each had a specific function. COVICA's main goal was to produce scrolls of lore (known as The Scrolls of Elorath: Strigoi Vii) for the community, organize the Endless Night Festival, produce the Vampyre Almanac and maintain the Sanguinarium website. COVICA's purpose was to encourage cooperation, or, if possible, outright unification between the diverse aspects of the vampyre scene. The Sanguinarium, in a nutshell, was a This is a photo of my personal Elder's privately run organization, community Legacy Ankh, given to me, by Father and network that provided support and “Sebastian”, after I performed the resources for those in the Third Degree Initiation, 'Adeptus Ritual,' in 2000, which labeled me the vampyre/vampire/otherkin sub-cultures highest rank of Elder in the V (Vampyre denoting “real” vampirism and community. Not that I actually give a vampire denoting lifestylers, otherkin rat's ass about labels, being, not like “vampires” but still just throwing out definitions. kindred spirits of other beings within human bodies). Founded in 1995 as the Sanguinarian Society for members of Clan Sabertooth, the Sanguinarium evolved with thousands of individual members internationally and produced projects such as the Endless Night Festival and the Vampyre Almanac. The Sanguinarium concept was inspired by the fictional “Vampire Connection” of vampire bars and safe houses from Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicle, 'Queen of the Damned.' According to the Sanguinarium, the Vampyre Sub-Culture exists as a mix of lifestyle, fetishism, romance, spirituality, primal exploration and ancient magical traditions (I'd say that's a pretty accurate definition, except for the “ancient magical traditions,” that is, mostly, I'm afraid, a mother load of hogwash). 43

VI. Because I believe that a more panoramic view of the V Community's kick off is important for a clearer understanding of the what's and why's of it's current standing, I'm going to interrupt the flow of the Time Line, for just a page or two or three, and provide you with a tad bit more detail about the Sanguinarium and it's Genesis. A Few Sanguinarium Definitions & Explanations ~Affiliates: Affiliates were members who were just that, affiliated with the

Sanguinarium and had not formally become involved within the society.

~Legacy: the Legacy was for those more serious about the vampyre lifestyle, the Black Veil, the Vampyre Codex and Sanguinarium philosophy. It was the “inner circle,”

a large “family” like group. ~Households: a group of people who came together with common beliefs, ceremonies, traditions,

philosophy, hierarchy and goals. Households were required be founded by a triumvirate (three people). ~Courts: a court was a monthly meeting event hosted by a triumvirate of three (loremaster, magistrate and regent), in a specific geographical area for socialization, announcements of news, ceremony and induction of members. ~Guilds: they were special interest groups within the

Sanguinarium Community (fangsmithing, ceremonial magicians and so on).

~COVICA: acted as the board of

directors for the Sanguinarium.

It contained members known as “Ministers” who each had a special function.

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Image 2A

This is a photo of my personal Third Degree Initiation-the 'Adeptus Elder Ritual,' performed in New York, in 2000.

~The Sanguine Ankh: is the sigil and symbol of the Sanguinarium. The ankh is an ancient Egyptian symbol of life. Only gods and kings could carry this symbol, indicating that only they

had the power to give life or take it away. Those who bore the Sanguine Ankh were considered to abide by the 'Black Veil' and its tenets. Master metal manipulator D'Drennan designed the

Sanguine Ankh for the Sanguinarium from a model of the Sabertooth Ankh. Those more serious and involved in the Sanguinarium were often able to obtain a Sabertooth Legacy Ankh which is more ornate and involves a system of communication by stones and runes engraved on it to communicate one's status, title and affiliation.

By October 25, 2000, the following were the original sanctioned groups/Houses of the

Sanguinarium Legacy which was formed from the Households of Clan Sabertooth and the joining of House Kheperu and other Households. Members of all Courts, Guilds, and Households were expected to uphold the 'Black Veil' and to not directly communicate with the media without approval from COVICA. -COVICA -The Court of Gotham, NYC -The Court of Atlantis, Atlantic, GA -The Court of Lightning Bay, Tampa, FL -The Court of the Crimson Blade, Mississippi

-The Court of Tyr, Cleveland, Ohio

-The Court of New Jersey, North NJ

-House Sahjaza -House Orion -House Omallie -House Kheperu -House Trylesta

-House Mavenlore

-House Hidden Shadows -House Nekhbet

-The Namaj Guild

-House Black Dove

-The Chocha Hunter's Guild

-House Modibe

-The Fangsmith's Guild

-House Mystere

A Few More Sanguinarium Definitions & Explanations ~Hierarchy: Every Household had it's own membership requirements. Following the rule of

three (triumvirate), most Houses used a three circle advancement system which included the “Inner Circle and an “Outer Circle”

Vampyric Traditions....according to the Sanguinarium and still used by many individuals and Houses today within the Vampire Sub-Culture.

A tradition within the Sanguinarium was a specific belief system and philosophy adopted by a Household or individual and often helped describe the type of “awakened” being they were.

Alrighty then, here we go, hold on to your porcelain fangs, or whatever the kids are making them out of these days (side note: fangs are NOT traditionally part of most ancient vampire 1.

3. 4.

lore, and most certainly NOT a part of the true Vampire Bloodline, just saying.) Kheprian: a tradition which perceives vampyrism as a state of balance between spirit and flesh, darkness and light, creation and destruction. Kheperians harness their vampyrism in a transformative capacity to improve their lives and the lives of those around them through healing, self-discovery, and change. Much of the imagery of the Order is drawn from Egyptian and pre-Egyptian sources, and the Kheprians are the originators of the 'Vampyre Codex.' Kheperians are predominantly Pranic or energy vampyres. Sahjaza: House Sahjaza harnesses both the physical and magickal sides of the vampire for personal exploration and change. Members of this House indulge in the extremes of both flesh and spirit in order to achieve a delicate inner balance and awareness. This tradition shares a hierarchy and basic philosophy with the Kheprian Tradition and uses the Vampyre Codex as its basis of instruction. Those of House Sahjaza combine Sanguinarian ans Pranic vampyrism with a more Cabalic than Pagan focus. Stregian: mostly found in the Northwest, this tradition believes in the theft of energies and contains many parasitic vampyres. Cainus Lupus: uses many shamanistic practices and ceremonies and focuses on drawing strength from various animal totems. The most common totem, of course, is the wolf, and members of this tradition commonly organize themselves in a pack fashion. Some consider this a tradition of vampyrism which is shamanistic/tribal in nature, while others look at it as something completely different from the vampyric tradition. 46

5. Lilitu/Lilian: the children of Lilith. This is an Order or movement within the vampyre community which promotes the idea that Lilith was the spiritual forebear of vampyres.

The Lilitu cite the Hebraic tradition that depicts Lilith as Adam's first wife who was cast from the Garden for refusing to submit to Adam. According to the folklore which

surrounds her, God cursed her with a thirst for blood, and she went forth and started a line of demonic children. Lilith and her heirs were believed by the Israelites to feed

upon infants and young men, drinking their life and their blood. Lilith was probably

borrowed by the Israelites from Babylonian lore, where she appears as a wild woman who haunts waste places. She is traditionally depicted naked, with long flowing hair,

wings and the talons of a bird of prey in place of feet. As the Lady of Beasts, she is often

accompanied by wild animals, usually lions or owls. Many of the Lilians drink blood and also incorporate blood into their ritual. 6. Cainties: an order or movement within the vampyre community which suggests that

Caine was the father of vampyres. This belief may be strongly influenced by Vmapire: The Masquerade, which also depicts Caine as the father of vampyres, although devout Cainites

insist that their tradition existed first and was only borrowed from the White Wolf system. In general, the belief hinges upon the fact that

This is a photo of the Coat of Arms of my now dead Sanguinarium House, sanctioned in 2001, House Sable Brahmin. Our Motto: â&#x20AC;&#x153;Through Difficulties to the Stars.â&#x20AC;? ~Per Aspera Ad Astra~

Caine was the first murderer and that when God sent him out to wander in the world, He

cursed Caine with immortality. Most Cainites drink blood, although they also supplement this with life-energy.

7. Deala Sidhe: a vampyric tradition based on ancient Celtic faerie magicks and aesthetics.

8. Kalians: a tradition founded by the worship of the blood-thirsty goddess Kali from India who has been chosen by some to be a goddess of vampirism. Most vampyres who look to Kali as their goddess, like her, drink human blood.

9. Nephilim: a rather widespread belief within the vampyric community which asserts that vampyres are the descendants of the Nephilim. The Nephilim are demi-human

beings who are sired by angels, as related in Enoch I, a book that was omitted from the Christian Bible in the early stages of its canonization. Some Nephilists believe that the vampyric condition is genetically traceable to these otherworldly fathers. Others are content to suggest that the Nephilim simply represent a higher kind of being which

came down and intermingled with humanity. As far as the beliefs of the second order of Nephilists are concerned, vampyres experience their condition because they are more spiritual than most beings, with a higher “vibration” or “frequency” to their spirit which somehow burns their bodies out quicker and makes it necessary to “feed.” Some

Nephilists feed upon blood, while many others feed primarily upon life-energy. Most seem to incorporate blood into their magick and ritual. 10. Setian: a belief within the vampyre community that links vampyrism back to the Egyptian God Set. Egyptologists have recently suggested that Set is just the deification of an Egyptian high priest from very early times, and that the rivalry between Set and

Osiris represents a rivalry between competing temples. In the Setians' view, Set was a high priest of a temple who developed a ritual of death and rebirth that allowed the soul to achieve immortality. The Setians believe that the rites described in the 'Egyptian Book

of the Dead are only improperly recollected versions of this ritual. Set chose 72 associates to undergo this ritual with him and to travel eternity as undying spirits which were eternally renewed. The vampyric condition was a side effect of this ritual. The Setians believe then that vampyrism is a spiritual condition, and it represents immortality inasmuch as the soul is immortal and capable of recollecting itself throughout every rebirth. Setians feed primarily upon life energy and generally abstain from the physical drinking of blood.

11. Oh boy, I saved the best for last...Dracul/Dragon...I'll do my best not to correct the glaringly, mostly incorrect information, as well, I'll keep my snide remarks as to it's fictional element down to zero. Really. Dracul/Dragon: a sect of the vampyre community who espouse a belief in vampyric supremacy. The beliefs of the Order of the Dragon are complex and hard to render in a short form, but in general include ties to the bloodline of the Holy Grail, the Merovingian kings of

France, and an older tradition of spiritual supremacy which either goes back to or pre-dates ancient Egypt. The Order of the Dragon sees vampyrism as both a genetically inherited

condition as well as a condition of the soul, so that various incarnations of the soul seek out a genetically pure body for the maximum realization of the vampyric potential. It is unclear

whether the Order of the Dragon feed primarily upon blood, life energy, or both. Author's very much needed clarification: This tradition created within the Sanguinarium and now surviving within the Modern Vampire Community, is in no way sanctioned by or any part of the real/original Order of the Dragon. Now before I get back into the flow of the Time Line, I'll just add a few more definitions borne from the successful marketing strategy of the Sanguinarium. The Sides of the Strigoi Vii...

as created & defined by the Sanguinarium. The Dayside and Nightside are contrasting and balancing aspects of the vampyric condition within the Strigoi VII philosophy. Mastery over these aspects equates to the Twilight condition or mastery over the bestial primal nature and one's civilized side. Strigoi Vii is defined by it's Godhead as the members of the Sanguinarium community take this vampyrism as a spiritual path, fetish and philosophy known as Strigoi Vii or

“living vampiyrism.” Strigoi means vampyre in ancient Roman and Vii means life, thus a formal term for “living vampyrism.” Strigoi Vii is basically a realistic approach to the “vampyric condition.”

The Sides of Strigoi Vii ➢ The Dayside: The Dayside is the mundane side of their coin. Here they deal with the

concerns of everyday life such as dealing with birth families, maintaining a job and

careers, paying taxes, pursuing an education, and keeping a home. These things are all material concerns that allow vampyres to provide for themselves and their loved ones. To those who are not awakened (the Sanguinarium term for waking up and realizing

you're a gosh darn vampyre, usually after learning about the vampire sub-culture on the Internet. Again, just saying.), this is all there is to life, and there is no need to seek beyond the fulfillment offered by such material concerns. For those who are awakened spiritually, however, there is a desire for something more. ➢ The Nightside: The Nightside is their magickal, spiritual, and primal side. This aspect of their lives is concerned with expanding themselves spiritually, heightening their awareness, and achieving a deeper understanding of who they are in the “big picture.” Their Nightside is primarily manifested in ritual, feeding, during magickal acts and while participating at gathering and in havens where the sacred space puts them in contact with more than just material existence. In the Nightside of their lives, they let their vampyric natures out in force, allowing attitudes and personality traits that are dormant or hidden during the Dayside to come to the fore. ➢ The Twilight: The Twilight is the difference between Dayside and Nightside. Just as most unawakened people can never see beyond the material concerns of the Dayside, so many of the awakened get caught up in the ephemeral concerns of the Nightside. To live prosperously in the material world while still cultivating oneself spiritually is a profound feat. Few of their number are able to balance both aspects of their nature's in a productive fashion. Those that do become their Adepts, and the depth of understanding that this mastery awakens in them makes them formidable folk.

Types of Vampyres

According to the Sanguinarium and now the current Vampire Community these are the types of vampires in existence today and their corresponding definitions...The type of vampyre is based on tradition, behavior and how they feed more so than on philosophy. ➢ Sanguinarians: are blood drinkers and get their energy through consuming the blood of

a donor. This form of feeding is extremely dangerous due to the high risk of diseases such as Syphilis, HIV/AIDS, Hepatitis and the possibility of infection. Sanguinarian

feeding is usually only done between a committed couple who has been tested and made aware of their status. Many believe Sanguinarian feeding ➢ Pranic: is the most common type of

vampyric feeding and involves energy flows

through the chakhras or feeding directly from a donor's aura. Although this is more common and physically safer than

Sanguinarianism, it opens one up to an array of spiritual attacks.

➢ Succubus/Incubus: are

those who feed primarily

off the Phallus Chakhra through sexual acts. Most often a nymphomaniac, these individuals are often

This photo is from Issue 3 of 'The DarkRose Journal,' opened to pages 64 & 65 of 'The Vampyr Cafe', published in 1995.

Kitra ( companion/councilors, one of the Castes in the vampyric Caste System originally

created by the Kheperian Order. Also from the Caste System: Mradu, guardian/warriors and Ramkht, priets.) in nature and very talented at what they do. ➢ Gaja: are “aesthetic” or “fashion” vamps who have no interest in the spiritual or philosophical side of the Sanguinarium and focus solely on dressing up and socializing. ➢ Cainus Lupus: is a tradition more than a type of vampyre. 51

i. Now, let's jump right back into Vampire Community history...clearly, as previously stated, this Time Line is more of a personal time line as my life unfolded and related to the beginnings of the Vampire Community. Before 1994, there existed not only the Vampire Underground but there were individuals, few and far between, that would congregate with others that either were or truly believed they were living human vampires, above ground and formed some sort of loose network, perhaps even an early version of the community. I wish that I knew more about those respective people and could fill in those blanks. Alas, I cannot and would just like to send to you, the pioneers of those very early days, a dark kiss of gratitude for having the courage to be who you believed with all your being that you were, and in the face of disbelief and vampire over-kill, you denied the fictional hoopla and stayed true and above ground when it would have been far easier to deny and hide. You came first and laid the very first stones upon what would become a well-traveled road. “Thank you.” It is now 1997 and I have become a vampire “celebrity.” That, of course, was not my intention. I was endorsed by a famous vampirologist, Martin Riccardo, in the book Something in the Blood, in 1995. Since then, I have been sought out by every conceivable tabloid, news source, TV show, radio host, documentary film maker, writer, individual, group, cult, religion, and so and so forth, to be interviewed, have my brain picked, to be kidnapped (of which I was), abused, worshiped, and the list goes on. Because of my vampire fame in the 90's, I was found by His Excellency, Nicholas de Vere KGC, Princeps Draconis, Sovereign Hereditary Grand Master Templi of Sarkany Rend 1408, whilst in London being interviewed on the Here's Johnny late night talk show. I was asked to join the Order (which I was officially indoctrinated and given my title of Lady Conosor in 2003) and to be the American Ambassador for the Order of the Dragon...of which I still am. Due to my “celebrity” my lifestyle was brought to the attention of the State of Florida's Department of Children and Family Services, more than once. In 1998, my two children were removed from my custody and put into deplorable foster care, of which I was only allowed one hour a month supervised visits inside of a McDonald's in downtown Orlando, FL. Now, this is important to the Time Line for it was the unprecedented ruling within the Juvenile Judicial system in the State of Florida, that was a positive step forward for the V community and the like. 52

I was on â&#x20AC;&#x153;trialâ&#x20AC;? for being a well known drinker of human blood-Vampire-as well for being a Witch (not a Wiccan, but a bona-fide, old world, hard-wired into my DNA, practicing, out in the open of society, Draconian Witch). Without denying who I was or backtracking and trying to reinvent myself to appease the Court System, I decided that by staying true to who and what I am, that by standing strong and by educating the Courts, I was not only moving a step forward for myself and the Vampire Community, of which I was, at that time, an integral part of, I was also moving the world a step forward for my children and their future. Now, many close to me within the community did not see it that way. They simply labeled me a bad mother. I did get my children back, in about 6 months (the fastest my court appointed attorney had ever witnessed it accomplished). I was commended on my skills as a mother and as a thriving and productive member of society, and all these victories came on the wings of truth. Those throwing kudos my way from within the 11Judicial Court System, knew who I was, what I believed and what I practised without hiding in the shadows, and without prejudice based on cultivated ignorance (for I schooled them well), weighed and measured me and found me not lacking but instead, found me worthy and inspirational. If that's not a win for the Vampire Community then, well shit, I don't know what is.

This is the 'Order After Review' of the removal of my children from my custody-The Circuit Court for the Ninth Judicial Circuit in and for Orange County, Florida. Image 3A

53 11 Image 3A-can be found on page 107

This is the letter from my Court appointed Attorney, Wayne Starr, Esq. He did not have to write me this letter and let me know what he thought of me, but he did. Image 3B-page 108

ii. The year is 2000 and the Vampire Community is really gaining momentum and strength in numbers. All one has to do now is connect to the Internet (via dial-up, and sometimes, hour long loading of websites, Lol. We've come a long way baby) and almost every conceivable way to become a “vampire” and/or join a “vampire” House/group/clan or what have you, is available at everyone's fingertips with just the tap, tap, tap, of the a keyboard, no proof of your vampiric claims were necessary, apparently, for the most part, proof is still not a requirement...it should be. Before the officially recognized (whatever that really consisted of ) community can even become comfortable and truly knowledgeable within and about their new environment, the infighting had begun. Just like with any organized religion or system of belief, the “I'm/we're right and you're wrong” bullshit set in, rather quickly.

Before most could even remove their fangs and swallow their drool, the whole, utterly ridiculous, Psi versus Sang War began...and I'm not entirely sure if it has ended. However, in spite of these obvious and natural growing pains, the community continued to flourish and gain momentum as a serious system of people that lived their lives as they understood what defines real vampires. iii. In 2001, I packed up House Sable Brahmin(closed the doors, officially, in 2003), left my husband, Vladescu, and moved with my 2 children to Brunswick, Ohio and lived with the Kheperians of House Kheperu. The why's are not as important as the WTF moments of clarity I had while living there and still had for many years after. Good, bad, and sometimes just plain ole indifferent, my time living among the Kheperians was one of immense personal growth, for no matter what, that is what I chose to take away from it. Regardless of “bad blood” or not, I will be forever grateful for my experiences within that House as well for the lasting friendships that were borne from that whirlwind time in my life. “Thank you, truly, House Kheperu, for existing and for me, being a stepping stone of self-evolution.” iv. After the birth of my youngest son in 2003, I did several more TV Shows, documentaries, radio and the like. In 2004 The Vampyre Codex, written by Michelle Belanger, was published and became the standard of which many in the community measured their vampirism and found validation. Her book changed the current , at that time, direction of the community. v. Around 2006, I decided to take a sabbatical and just focus on raising my son. I, of course, am a living Vampire, so I never stopped living my life as such or as my bloodline's DNA needed for me to continue doing what is in my nature to do. I simply chose to stay away from the online community and no longer educated mundanes or those seeking the path of vampirism. Nor did I participate in any community events or communicate with those few people still in the community that I had come to respect and love. vi. The year is 2012 and I finally resurfaced from my half dozen years of rest and re-entered the Vampire Community. Oh boy, what a shock I received! I revamped my zine, The DarkRose Journal, and offered, for the first time, an ezine edition. The community that I had been an early trailblazer of, for me, no longer existed. In it's place was, to me, not the idyllic and inspirational community a handful or two of us set out to help develop before the onset and almost complete take over of the Internet, but something unrecognizable and full of turmoil, abuse, deceit and utter ugliness... 55

...for the most part. There were, and still are, of course, beautiful, noble and honourable Vampires (like Vanian Dark and Ethereal Dark of The 'Manchester Vampire Guild' and Author and Poetess, Magdalena Anya Rakoczy, to name but a few) here and there, doing what they could to help the community heal itself and move forward, constructively. Upon my return and admittedly, tortured essence and misplaced anger at the hideous turn of the community tide, I set out on a campaign to help heal what had been done, but my own negativity did nothing but fan the flames of ignorance and misunderstanding. For better or worse (mostly worse I think), I wrote several articles and/or declarations to the Vampire Community and posted them on my blogs, on the Official DarkRose Journal Facebook Page and on my own personal Facebook Profile Page. Understandably, these writings upset the community (a less combative letter would have been better and far more helpful, I think, yes?) and the stoning commenced. Here is but one of those letters I wrote to the community in hopes of a better understanding between what came before and what was, at that moment, the mud puddle that I felt represented the current state of the V Community.

This is the image of the House Sable Brahmin Guardian Dark Angel, Adriel.

Written sometime in 2012, Letter to the Vampire Community: For those people in the Vampire Community who believe that they have any real power, who have done nothing but lie, brainwash, delude, profit off of their deceptions...I have a short message for you: You have all the characteristics of a popular politician: a horrible voice, bad breeding, and a vulgar manner. How dare you push your bullshit down people's throats as if it is based in any sort of truth or reality! This is what extremely grieves me, that you, who has never fought, been in battle, has no war wounds, should contrive to make money off of us, to pilfer our spirits and hearts with that which you know not, with that which you have never even experienced. Never to this day had lance or sword, or blisters in your hand! How fucking dare you lie to us! How fucking dare you pretend to be something you are mot, something you have no real clue about! How dare you make up complete bullshit and try to pass it off as “ancient” teachings or a path based on true spirituality of the real darkness, when you have no fucking idea about anything, you can't even find your way through the darkness without a candle because you have no inner Darklight of your own! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU!!!!!!!!! Your false words are not only 'evil' in themselves, but they infect the spirit with 'evil' It's true, if all people were just, there would be no need for valor. You are the origin of your actions! Your actions are vile and unjust. You may not speak of being a warrior, of fighting against the daylight world, of having to battle the mundane in order for "our kind" to live freely in our nighttime world. No, you may not! Only those of us who have truly been out there fighting, only those of us who have actual battle scars and carry the sword of truth in our blistered and bleeding hands, may speak for our tribe of the moon! Your "Rule" of bullshit and deceit is fucking over!

vii. Well then, skipping forward while whistling a merry tune of “Vampires rule and mundanes drool,” I will end this very broad but informative Time Line at the year 2013. Really, everything that happened within the community after the year 2003, I believe, is information that many already have and quite frankly, most within the Vampire Community probably know far more than I do. My goal with this Time Line was to help you better understand where the current community/sub-culture was borne from, at least from my own experiences.

How can a group of people that claim to be brothers and sisters, to be a Family, grow as individuals and as a Family, how can they evolve their physical and spiritual bodies, without at least an understanding of the origins of that which they hold so dear? To move forward, you must interpret the past, and use its inception as a foundation for self-evolution. I have chosen to reveal, to you, in conjunction with my personal history, what I can of the foundation and blossoming of the vampiric accord, through my â&#x20AC;&#x153;in the This is a photo still from the documentary I did, fleshâ&#x20AC;? Time Line. Not because I am in need of any 'Vampire Mum,' in 2013. more attention or pats on the back, but simply because I know, beyond all doubt and can provide tangible evidence, that the information I've provided is absolutely true and will give you, I hope, a far better understanding of it all, of the tangled web of chaos that constitutes the current modern-day Vampire Community. In 2013 I was asked to tell my story for a documentaryVampire Mum- series produced by Barcroft USA. I know it's still available on YouTube for viewing. This video caused quite the stir within the community. The lapidation and then subsequent unofficial banishment I received from the Vampire Community because of the This is another photo documentary, is still bewildering to me. I simply still from the showed the world who and what I am. To aptly convey documentary I did in my truth, I drank human blood from my friend Wes, 2013-'Vampire Mum.' and I drank quite a lot of it, as that is how I feed. For Me feeding from Wes. me, being borne from the Draconian Bloodline, drinking rather large amounts of blood is not a problem. My body does filter it differently than a mundane or a vampire not of the Dragon Blood, would. I do not drink human blood for the symbolism of it, I drink human blood for that is what my DNA is hard-wired to do. So, many in the community tried to viciously tear me apart. This was my wake-up call. Since 2013, I no longer consider myself to be an active member of the current online Vampire Community. Offline, well, that's a... Whole. Nother. Level. I am, by the mere fact of what I am, a member, by proxy. 58

Let Me Get This Straight… Okay, okay, I think I understand. Let me see if I can explain your “vampirism.”

Here is one more for the road... This was simply a few random thoughts that I posted on FB back in 2014. Well, it seems, many in the Vampire Community failed to comprehend and/or appreciate the humour in it and retaliated with their own scathing negative posts. Which, is, of course, understandable. In retrospect, I would not have written my thoughts quite like this...naw, who I am kidding? Of course, I would have, at that time, even with the power of hindsight, written this exactly the same way. Still, even now, 2 years later, I think it's a funny post wrapped in a bit 'o truth. Eh?

Okay, you want to use the label of Vampire. Why? Because it’s frickin’ awesome, that’s why! The mere mention of the word vampire instills fear, respect, mystery, imagined sexual power, and the ability to seem like a mere human but in reality are something more. So, of course, there is no discussion, you demand that you are a vampire. Okay, now, you even like to use the whole fictional vampire aesthetic. I mean, if you are going to use the vampire label, you sure as hell are going to dress the part. Even though originally, the true origins of the vampire mythos (not the true Draconian Vampire origins) are nothing like the version that modern day authors have given us. More accurately…revenants, or walking, bloated, repugnant, decaying corpses. Yes we are a Tribe, the children of the Moon, a Family… but we don’t actually live together (at least not most of us) and make up rules and dogma (that originated from The White Wolf Role-Playing games) of a House, Clan, Tribe or Coven. That is mostly BS. Perhaps some of us hunt together, maybe, but more likely, we congregate every once in a while for needed companionship of another who can truly understand our wants, needs, desires, frustrations, and loneliness. So, you want all that has come to encompass what a 21st century vampire is…. However, you want all this, no, you demand it because you have a computer and access to the internet, and/or you are able to confuse and amaze a bunch of people who need direction and something cool, awesome, and different to fill that big hole in their spirits. Okay, okay, I get it, you want all this, you do all this, without actually being: a vampire. Aww, that’s so cute…you do realize that you’re still on the menu of real living vampires? *You can take this little rambling of the thoughts that are rolling around in my head at face value. You can also read between the lines, if indeed there are any lines to read between. Or you can get mad and curse me to the highest heavens. Or you can just find the humour in it that is very much present in my thoughts. Or simply ignore it and move on to bigger and better things than the random ramblings from my head. Whichever you decide, I bid you goodnight. 59

Perhaps this 12email letter that I received from a dear friend and a founding member of a prominent Household within the Sanguinarium/Vampire Community, will chase away any cobwebs that linger for those readers who are still trying to make sense of the shadowy portal and the subsequent twisted pathway that has led to the current environment of the modern Vampire Community.

60 12 Images 4A & 4B of the email letter can be found on pages 112 and 113

While I was finishing packing (for my move to Colorado to start my new life with Ludavik) up the last box of my 22+ years of the Vampire Community crap that I have accumulated and deciding what can be thrown away and what I feel absolutely needs to be preserved for the sake of our real history, not merely just someone's perspective but factual hard evidence of what came before so that you are now able to have the relatively â&#x20AC;&#x153;easyâ&#x20AC;? path that is now the V community...a path paved in blood, real and metaphorical...I came across this email from 2003. This is a letter (re-typed for easier reading) from My good friend Ben. I am sharing this particular email for even though Ben is no longer a part of the V community, his insights into it were borne from his close relationships with those in a very prominent House as well, as his intimate knowledge of the beginning of the creation of the Community. His letter is about the Vampire path and his friends and loved ones that he has since parted from.

Julia, This is Ben. I haven't heard from you in a while so I thought I'd drop you a quick note. I hope things are going well for you in your day to day life, and that you're finding serenity. That's more or less why I'm writing. Among the people that walk that particular path that I have met, I respect you the most. I recognize that throughout your struggles you remain true to yourself. And it's important to me that you're happy. While I think that serenity is something that just about everyone we know in common could do a world of good for, I somehow believe that you are, in my opinion, deserving of it perhaps just a little bit more than some others. As for me, I'm doing quite well. In case you haven't noticed, I'm no longer working at that store in Brunswick, I was moved to another store, and a month later laid off. I'd be lying if I were to say that it wasn't a stressful time. Bur through perseverance, I'm quite proud to report that I was hired by another company within a week, and that the change has proven to be a significantly positive experience. It's been absolutely splendid. At the new company, people are thankfully just a little bit more bizarre. So. yeah, I'm doing well, and what seemed to be a complete disaster has actually been a significantly uplifting experience. 61

I still think about my former friends and loved ones of course. I sometimes imagine somehow being able to share what I've learned in the time that they and I have parted ways, maybe illuminate something about the possibilities that are out there and yet within regarding the changes that we can undergo and how much actual freedom that everyone possesses. But even after all this time, there's still a lot of pride, and there's still a lot of fear. I think a great deal of the suffering that's happening in that community has a lot to do with inertia. The sense that there is somehow some sort of significant journey or undertaking that is present, but yet the strong impetus doesn't seem to actually desire to GO anyplace or DO anything. Defiance against an imagined threat, loyalty in the face of an alleged betrayal, these things splinter even the strongest minds and wills. The imagination, a tool of freedom, essential for our means of visualizing and comprehending the things that cannot actually be perceived, has been harnessed for a redundant purpose. It's been used to create a rigid unchanging hierarchy of place and means and it imprisons most of the known human race. Even those who would break away from this spiritual slavery of another kind. So I worry. And sometimes I hope that time and experience continues to propel everyone forward to making new discoveries about themselves and the way they are choosing to live, both in a day to day life and there spiritual exploration of the darkness within and without., And other times I worry that those who really don't want to grow in either or both aspects of living, guard their position, knowledge, charisma, and intellect very jealously, and continue to cycle in a permanent sort of hovering, desperately preserving their "place" against all indications that sometimes one needs to move onto new things, new aspects of the self, new possibilities. Cattiness, minor betrayals, small differences of opinion inside a tightly wound insular community are ubiquitously exploded into the drama. This is nothing altogether new or even necessarily something to be all that ashamed of. It's universal to every human in any insular religious or spiritual order that has existed on this planet. In this tight proximity, our weaknesses (be they great or small, many or few) create hurricanes. Our willingness to survive these sorts of things is perhaps the greatest test that any particular spiritual community can undergo. I guess what I'm trying to do is perhaps shed some objectivity into the area of your particular struggle. Regardless of as desperate or self destructive that community that you are close to has become, I'm of the mind that you do possess the strength of character and will to abide whatever outcome is final.

Unlike most all the others, you have been proven, and while many others do not and perhaps never will appreciate the true significance of this, I haven't forgotten it, and most importantly, you never will. I'm sure that you'll be able to remain strong in the face of this, and eventually, time will tell. -ben *End Email I believe that this particular email, that was written to me, from a very honorable person who lived the very beginning of the Vampire community, is of great value (not for the sake of my ego, oh boy, I can already hear many crowing that mantra from within the Community clique) for those who care to read it, absorb it and to truly understand it's meaning, it's value and it's import. â&#x20AC;&#x153;Thank you Ben. Your words (which I know you do not mind that I have shared after all these years, with the community of people, of which you referred to) have never left me. I did not forget, nor will I ever.â&#x20AC;?

Photograph is of me performing a little Draconian Magic during a Vampire SubCulture venue in 1995, over half a decade before Ben wrote me his letter.

A Few Helpful Definitions...Hopefully As defined by The Merriam-Webster Dictionary 1) Ancient-1: having existed for many years 2: belonging to times long past; esp: belonging to the middle ages 2) Tradition-1: the handing down of beliefs or customs by word of mouth or by example without written instruction; also: a belief or custom thus handed down 2: an inherited pattern of thought or action 3) Lore- traditional knowledge or belief 4) Fiction-1: something (as a story) invented by the imagination 2: fictitious literature (as novels) 5) Energy-1: vitality of expression 2: capacity for action: vigor; also vigorous action 3: capacity for performing work, syn: strength, might 6) Subtle-1: thin, not dense 2: mentally keen 3: delicately skillful 4: crafty 5: not obvious 7) Inherit-1: to receive (property, etc.) as an heir 2: to have (certain characteristics) as by heredity And last but not least, two words not found in any recognized American Standard English Dictionary (at least not by me), but found in the oh so, not entirely reliable and/or authenticated online, free encyclopedia resourceWikipedia... 8) Pranic- 1: pranic healing, the word stems from the Sanskrit word “prana” meaning vital life force which is an ancient science and art of healing that utilizes prana or ki energy to heal the whole physical body. 9) Prana- 1: is the Sanskrit word for “life force” or vital principle 2: in Hindu philosophy, including yoga, Indian medicine and martial arts, the term refers collectively to all cosmic energy permeating the Universe on all levels 64

Endarkment People are people because they're miserable bastards. Without misery, despair, and hardship, humanity would have no point, nothing to strive for, to overcome... humanity would truly self-destruct, even faster then they are now. Just saying. On the flip sideThe nature of life is passion. Passion is the total sense of being alive in every fiber of our being. It is a heightened awareness, and the ability to feel at peace and intense at the same time. A sense of ourselves as a rhythmic flow in harmony with the flow of the universe. This is what comes from true endarkment. The endarkment (A word I created in 2000 for my now defunct House when it was a part of the Sanguinarium) consciousness means conscious growth, conscious life, means becoming wiser, more fulfilled, more powerful (power is subjective, think empowered), more intelligent, and happier as you become one with the endarkment of the divine source of the All. Endarkment is the lover, the loving and the beloved all in one-love, as in the very DNA of the Universe, and the self are one and the discovery of either is the realization of both. The universe, the divine, the self...are all encompassing of that which we call the human animal. It makes no difference what you choose to have faith in, what God, gods, goddesses, demons, angels, spirits, or lack thereof, and so forth, you believe you draw knowledge, power and strength from. The truth, as I know it, is simply that whatever higher consciousness exists, it is so far beyond our own capacity of understanding and imagination that just knowing a higher "power" exists and may or may not even know of my personal existence, matters not, to me. People can only understand what their minds allow them to imagine. To give deities, spirits, angels, gods, goddesses, demons, or whatever your choice of, focus, is all the best and worst of the human condition, is, of course, what humanity does best and then, more often than not, builds their life and their child's life and so forth and so on, around said imagination.

In the end, to me (Ludavik, as of this writing, does not entirely share the same sentiments about this that I do), I see no difference (the violence and hatred derived from organized religions and/or cults aside) in believing in what the human imagination conjures forth or accepting that the higher intelligence is far beyond our grasp of understanding and to simply choose to be a worthwhile being upon this planet of ours, without the promise of reward or the threat of punishment for doing so. This understanding, to me, is a vital part of endarkment. The body is the supreme temple of transformation, the place where all the forces of the Universe gather to be channeled and transformed into a higher integral order of nature and “spirit”…Sexuality is not what separates us from enlightenment (as most spiritual belief systems seem to love to preach). Sexuality is an inherent quality of our earth experience which merges us into enlightenment (endarkment for some)…The earth, our world, is its own magic! We are magic incarnate, we are living breathing vessels of pure, magic, truly! Ritual and altars...I don't need no stinkin' ritual or altar! I am the my own breathing ritual and altar! Why are the so called enlightened and/or awakened people, always looking for the truths of our Universe outside of their bodies? Why are they always looking everywhere except the one place where their answers lie…inside of them? The truths which they seek, the enlightenment they desire, is not outside of the physical, it is alive within the physical body….the answers are so simple….really. You cannot, I repeat, you cannot reach or perceive any other realm, you cannot reach or perceive transcendence without your physical body. You can only perceive/experience a “spiritual” realm with your mind, which is…a part of your very physical body. It’s not any kind of pseudoscience or physics or metaphysical hooey, it’s common sense. It's not enough to merely exist. It's not enough to merely be alive. It's the fire of life that burns within, and that ignites the fiery blaze of passion that changes us from an entity that is simply being, to one that is a being of abundance and meaning. We, Ludavik and I, open our arms for all creatures who wish to share in the fiery passions of the night, who, like the night-time butterfly, feel that a coterie of kindred spirits would be a welcome relief from the uncertainty and harsh unforgiving false love and lies of the mundanes day light world, as they sit back and watch it go skittering by. The flames of passion burn deeply in all of us. You just have to want to feel the heat of it's embrace. 66

Myth…The Human (Living Vampyre) Experience I feel the need to clarify some of what, might seem to many, my rather harsh, unforgiving views of humanity and other “vampires.” Human existence is so very fragile yet within the same breath, so very powerful. Myths are universal and timeless stories that reflect and shape our lives-they explore our desires, our fears, our longings, and provide narratives that remind us what it means to be human. Human beings have always been myth makers. Archaeologists have unearthed Neanderthal graves containing weapons, tools, and the bones of a sacrificed animal, all of which suggest some kind of belief in a future world that was similar to their own. From a very early date, therefore, it appears that human beings were distinguished by their ability to have ideas that went beyond their everyday experience. We are meaning-seeking creatures. Domesticated animals/pets, as far as we know, do not agonize about condition of other pets, worry about the plight of other domesticated house animals in other parts of the world, or try to see their lives from a different perspective. But human beings fall easily into despair, and from the very beginning we invented stories that enabled us to place our lives in a larger setting, that revealed an underlying pattern, and gave us a sense that, against all the depressing and chaotic evidence to the contrary, life had meaning and value. Another peculiar characteristic of the human mind is its ability to have ideas and experiences that we cannot explain rationally. We have imagination, a faculty that enables us to think of something that is not immediately present, and that, when we first conceive it, has no objective existence. The imagination is the faculty that produces religion and mythology. Mythology and science both extend the scope of human beings. Like science and technology, mythology, is not about opting out of this world, but about enabling us to live more intensely within it. There are moments when we all, in one way or another, have to go to a place that we have never seen, and do what we have never done before. Myth is about the unknown; it is about that for which initially we have no words. Myth therefore looks into the heart of a great silence. Myth is not a story for its own sake. It shows us how we should behave (according to whom, I’m not entirely sure, Lol).

All mythology speaks of another plane that exists alongside our own world, and that in some sense supports it. Belief in this invisible but more powerful reality, sometimes called the world of the gods, is a basic theme of mythology. It has been called the ‘perennial philosophy’ because it formed the mythology, ritual and social organization of all societies today. According to the perennial philosophy, everything that happens in this world, everything that we can hear and see here below has its counterpart in the divine realm, which is richer, stronger and more enduring than our own. And every earthly reality is only a pale shadow of its archetype, the original pattern, of which it is simply and imperfect copy. It is only by participating in this divine life that mortal, fragile human beings fulfill their potential. The myths gave explicit shape and form to a reality that people sensed intuitively. They told them how the gods behaved, not out of idle curiosity or because these tales were entertaining, but to enable men and women to imitate these powerful beings and experience divinity themselves. In the ancient world, the ‘gods’ were rarely regarded as supernatural beings with discrete personalities, living a totally separate metaphysical existence. Mythology was not about theology, in the modern sense, but about human experience. People thought that gods, humans, animals and nature were inextricably bound up together, subject to the same laws, and composed of the same divine substance. There was initially no ontological gulf between the world of the gods and the world of men and women. When people spoke of the divine, they were usually talking about an aspect of the mundane. The very existence of the gods was inseparable from that of a storm, a sea, a river, or from those powerful human emotions–love, rage, hate, or sexual passion–that seemed momentarily to lift men and women onto a different plane of existence so that they saw the world with new eyes.

Mythology was therefore designed to help us cope with the problematic human predicament. We all want to know where we came from, but because our earliest beginnings are lost in the mists of prehistory, we have created myths about our forefathers that are not historical but help to explain current attitudes about our environment, neighbours and customs. We also want to know where we are going, so we have devised stories that speak of a posthumous existence–though, not many myths envisage immortality for human beings. And we want to explain those sublime moments, when we seem to be transported beyond our ordinary concerns. A myth was an event which, in some sense, had happened once, but which also happened all the time. Because of our strictly chronological view of history, we have no word for such an occurrence, but mythology is an art form that points beyond history to what is timeless in human existence, helping us to get beyond the chaotic flux of random events, and glimpse the core of reality. An experience of transcendence has always been part of the human experience. We seek out moments of ecstasy, when we feel deeply touched within and lifted momentarily beyond ourselves. At such times, it seems that we are living more intensely than usual, firing on all cylinders, and inhabiting the whole of our humanity. Religion has been one of the most traditional ways of attaining ecstasy, but if people no longer find it in temples, synagogues, churches or mosques, they look for it elsewhere: in art, music, poetry, dance, drugs, sex or sports. Like poetry and music, mythology should awaken us to rapture, even in the face of death and despair we may feel at the prospect of annihilation. If a myth ceases to do that, it has died and outlived its usefulness. Mythology is not an early attempt at history, and does not claim that its tales are objective fact. Like a novel, an opera or a ballet, myth is make-believe; it is a game that transfigures our fragmented, tragic world, and helps us to glimpse new possibilities by asking ‘what if?’–a question which has also provoked some of our most important discoveries in philosophy, science and technology. There is never a single, orthodox version of a myth. As our circumstances change, we need to tell our stories differently in order to bring out their timeless truth. Human nature does not change much, many of these myths, devised in societies that could not be more different from our own, still address our most essential fears and desires.

I do not begrudge humanity their need for myth. Believe me, as I have just written, I get it. It is just that for me, and apparently a few select others, we do not require the myths, the legends, the fictional stories, and in some cases, deliberate lies, to feel our entire humanity, to connect with our divine, to be entirely self-realized. Truth, as I have experienced it, as it flows through the familial Dragon blood that courses through my veins, is, for me, far more exciting and rewarding than myth. Yes, I “said” it, “Dragon blood.” Reality is truly fantastical, if you know where to look. I, too, believe in that which I cannot see with my physical eye. However, I see much farther and far more clearly with my mind's eye...and the things I've seen and experienced are magical and earth-shattering, to put it mildly. What and who, Ludavik and I, are, is not founded in myth. What we are is very real. We are a part of nature. We are a force of nature. We are what the great Dark Mother (oh, here I am using myth) created us to be. We simply write, speak and do, what it is in our nature to do. No myths, no bullshit, just real, tangible, truth. For some, that is better than a myth. We are completely aware. We do not need myth to explain anything about our world. For those who resonate with this philosophy and live their lives the same way, you are the ones that we are always reaching out to. For everyone else, we are in no way judging, or discounting your beliefs or your need to believe in the invisible planes, religious texts, or anything that you deem your belief system. Do what you need to do. Just live your life the best way you can, live your life to the fullest that you can. It is one thing to build a community based on ancient myths. It is another thing altogether to spread deliberate lies and not help those within a community understand that their lives, their belief systems, are being built around myths, legends, stories, and not factual truth. That they are not truly experiencing real living vampirism (unless, of course, they are born from the Draconian Bloodlines), are only believing in and building their walls around myth not reality. Of course, that may be what you want. You may vehemently run from reality. That is, of course, your choice. I hope this article helps those Dark Angels, Vampires and Mundanes who are trying to understand who they truly are, as well I hope it helps many to better understand and weed through all the bullshit floating around and infiltrating our air of erotic, purity and truth…if not, I hope that it was at least a good read. Now, with all the aforementioned being “said,” have no doubt that most legends/folklore/and mythology are borne from truth, from a history that the almighty Church desires to keep hidden and/or likes to twist the facts to better suit their agenda. Learning to differentiate fact from fantasy, for most of us, is a lifetime of research, learning, and evolving. 70

Faith and belief should be whatever you need them to be. Your belief and your faith in said belief, are, we hope, that which help you

become and to keep becoming, the best human you can be. In the

bigger picture it will only help our world move forward in a positive direction. Faith and belief should never, we think, be embraced out of fear of punishment and/or expectation of reward. With that said...

May your empowerment commence!

Chapter Three Energy 101

It's Present Reality “The difference between my darkness and your darkness is that I can look at my own badness in the face and accept its existence while you are busy covering your mirror with a white linen sheet. The difference between my sins and your sins is that when I sin I know I'm sinning while you have actually fallen prey to your own fabricated illusions. I am a siren, a mermaid; I know that I am beautiful while basking on the ocean's waves and I know that I can eat flesh and bones at the bottom of the sea. You are a white witch, a wizard; your spells are manipulations and your cauldron from hell, yet you wrap yourself in white and wear a silver wig.” ~C. JoyBell C

P sychic Vampyres, Fact, fiction or deception? Well, if you don't already know, then you're probably asking yourself, “Just how does the Vampire Community define a Psychic Vampire?” I am more than happy to reveal for you that very definition.

As defined by the Vampire CommunityPsychic Vampire: an individual who, for one reason or another, must actively take in human vital energy in order to maintain their mental, physical, and spiritual well-being. A psychic vampire's need can result from a number of factors, including a heightened energetic metabolism or an inability to process other more abundant forms of energy.

In order for those individuals seeking answers to the bigger questions about who they are, what the meaning of their particular life is, they should have access to as much factual, exoteric and esoteric information as possible. So then it just might be possible for them to make an informed decision. For that reason, I am going to share with you one more definition from the Vampire Community/Sub-Culture pertaining to Psychic Vampirism. Subtle Reality: the spiritual counterpart to the physical realm, the subtle reality extends throughout and beyond what we can perceive with our five senses, layered over our physical world like a double-exposure on film. This level of reality is a realm of pure energy, containing non-corporeal entities as well as the energetic echoes of many things from physical reality. Author (Julia DarkRose) thinking out loud... “Um, just curious, not declaring a yay or nay, for something like the definition of “Subtle Reality,” can, at this moment in time, neither be proven or dis-proven...but how can anyone residing on this physical plane, within their physical body, perceive or in any way benefit from another reality that is beyond all five of their senses? Even a sixth sense requires your physical brain to be, on some level, operational for that sense to be active and to be able to perceive and experience said non-physical realm. So that would mean that you are using your physical body. At least, to my way of thinking, that is illogical and a contradiction of the definition set forth by the V Community.” There are scientifically proven energies (over thousands of years), ”vital energy,” as in a kind of non-corporeal matter, that mainly (according to many in the vampire community) only Psychic Vampyres need to feed off of and mostly are the only ones who can access it and utilize it to benefit themselves, is not recognized by science...as of yet. All people, mundane or otherwise, feed off of various energies. Even so far as that without these energies being available for “consumption,” people would suffer emotionally, spiritually, and physically. This truth is an echo of a Psychic Vampire, as defined by the community, and not unique to any one group of people or “vampires.” Again, to be as open-minded as possible, that doesn't mean that it doesn't exist, just that, as of yet, science has not been able to validate its existence. Could it be that this “Vital Energy” that many in the V Community have labeled as something separate from the Universal known energies that surround us every moment and are harnessed, on a regular basis, by all of humanity, in one form or another, are just that... 73

...The building blocks of the Universe (or whatever label you need to use that is more comfortable for you), and being aware that you are “feeding” from this universal energy (to reiterate, something that all of humanity already does) doesn't actually make you any kind of vampire, just simply a more aware mundane or non-living human vampirewho, through practise, has become adept at consuming the energy-or if you prefer, the “Vital Energy,” and harnessing it's potential for a healthier and more aware...you. Perhaps someone adept at feeding off of “vital energy” would be kind enough to give the world of science a helping hand and demonstrate this vital energy process, yes? Just a simple thought and a simple act that could possibly put this debate to bed. Maybe if those that resonate with this kind of essence of being, chose for themselves a more apt label to communicate to the world who they are, instead of the label of vampire which, quite frankly, the true origins of vampirism are very far removed from the Vampire SubCulture's definition of Psychic Vampirism (real living vampires feed from the blood and various energies contained within a human being, not because we are akin to a leech and/or cannot generate our own energy, but, in fact, quite the opposite, we feed for continued growth and evolution of our already higher than most mundanes intellect, perception and potential for higher transcendence. We do this so that we can better serve mankind, as this is our “Family business,” so to speak. We transform energy, life force, yada, yada, yada, that is beyond the understanding & realistic possibility of achieving for most mundanes and/or non-living human vampires) it would be less confusing for those searching for their own truth, and/or for society as a whole. Again, just puttin' it out there for people to mull it over. Now it is time for a little Energy 101 Energy has many different forms, all of which measure the ability of an object or system to do work on another object or system. In other words, there are different ways that an object or a system can possess energy. The energy from the burning of a car's fuel moves the car on a road. The energy in a dry-cell battery causes a flashlight to light. There are two types of energy. They are potential energy and kinetic energy. Potential Energy is stored energy. Kinetic Energy is energy in motion. A lump of coal has potential energy. The energy will be released as the coal burns. The water at the top of a dam has potential energy. The amount of potential energy in the water depends on the mass of the water and the height of the dam. As the water falls, its potential energy is changed to kinetic energy. The amount of kinetic energy in the water depends on the mass of the water and its speed at which it moves.

A roller coaster changes potential energy to kinetic energy. The car of a roller coaster has the most potential energy at the high points. It has the least potential energy at the low points. The car has the most kinetic energy at the low points, where it moves the fastest. Forms Of Energy All energy can be classed as potential or kinetic. However, there are several forms of energy. I have conveniently listed them below: Chemical Energy is given off in chemical changes. This energy comes from the chemical bonds that are broken during a change. When fuels such as wood burn, bonds are broken, and energy is given off. Mechanical Energy is the energy in moving objects. The energy in a windmill is used to pump water out of the ground. The turning windmill and the running water are moving. Thus, they have mechanical energy. Electrical Energy is produced by moving charges. Lightning is a form of electrical energy found in nature. Televisions, radios, and many appliances are powered by electrical energy. Heat Energy is the energy of colliding particles. When you rub your hands together friction causes the particles in your skin to move faster. Thus they collide more often. You feel the energy of these collisions as heat. Heat energy can also be produced from electrical energy or chemical energy. Sound Energy is produced by vibrating particles. The sound energy of thunder can make a house shake. The sound energy that comes from the speakers of a rock band can make a room vibrate. Nuclear Energy is released when the force that holds together the nucleus of an atom is over-come. Nuclear reactions on the sun produce large amounts of heat and light. Many power companies use nuclear energy to produce electricity. And some submarines are driven by nuclear energy. Electrochemical Energy is both chemical and electrical energy. Consider the energy stored in a battery. The battery stores the energy in a chemical way. But electricity is also involved, so we say that the battery stored energy â&#x20AC;&#x2022;electrochemically. Electromagnetic Energy (Light): Consider the energy transmitted to the Earth from the Sun by light (or any source of light). Light, which is also called â&#x20AC;&#x2022;electromagnetic radiation. Why the fancy term? Because light really can be thought of as oscillating, coupled electric and magnetic fields that travel freely through space (without there having to be charged particles of some kind around).

It turns out that light may also be thought of as little packets of energy called photons (that is, as particles instead of waves). Energy can be changed from one form to another. For example, electrical energy is changed to the mechanical energy that moves power tools. Although energy can be changed from one form to another it can never end, only continuously transform. It does not have a starting or ending point, at least not as we understand the concept of beginning and ending. To sum all this up...and to provide a more balanced source of information so that people seeking their truth or a truth, can do so with as much available knowledge as possible, creeping first through their keyboards & fingertips and then absorbed into their brains, and applied to their life. According to many in the Vampire Sub-Culture... A psychic vampire requires more energy intake than a non-psychic vampire and/or mundanes. They must take significant amounts of it in. The drain this generates is very noticeable, as well, psychic vampires can only really take in energy, they can't really give much, if any, energy back. Psychic Vampires do not generate enough of their own energy. So, they feed off of “vital energy” in order to increase their own “vital energy,” or more simply, their own energy. The word vampyre has been adopted by a community of people because they feel there is a certain amount of resonance between what they experience and what they understand a vampire to be. In folklore and fiction, vampires feed upon life, as symbolized through the powerful image of blood. Modern-day vamps define themselves as such because they, too, have a need to take the vital life-force from others. Psychic vampires must feed on human vital energy or they will suffer mentally, physically, and spiritually, perhaps even pre-maturely expire. Energy vampires, sometimes known as pranic vampires, feed directly upon human vital energy, often pulling it to them from across a room or draining it with a casual touch. I believe that accurately describes a psychic vampire as defined by the Vampire Community. Pranic energy is not, as of yet, a proven energy that actually exists. If it does, why doesn't Science reflect this energy in its facts, studied and proven over thousands of years? If it does exist, why don't those who claim to be able to drain a human beings life-force (their prana) just simply prove it and help us to evolve in a positive way? These are just questions that need answers. I am not directly attacking Psychic Vampires. We, Ludavik and I, know from personal experiences that people can and do, often, “drain”(actually transform and transfer) other people of their “life force.” They also “drain” batteries, battery-powered clocks, and so on. This is an ability that all humans possess, some just have better and more frequent access to it than others.

That does not make them Living Human Vampires. It is also true that a person who is adept at transforming and transferring life force/vital energy may also be a Living Human Vampire, however, one does not necessarily equate the other. I'm more than positive that many reading this book have already formed questions of their own about our claims of being a Living Vampire, borne from the Draconian Bloodline. I have no doubt that many of those questions might seem condescending and/or combative. To truly seek out the truths of our amazing world, we need to be able to put down the book that we've been reading from most of our lives or the first book that was handed to us as adults, just as we set out on our chosen path, and learn to savor the possibility of expanding what we think we already know by reading from a book that we would have most likely ignored or verbally mangled with ignorant criticism based on nothing more than our fear of maybe finding out that what we think we know is either not the truth, only a partial truth, or an out right lie. I am not trying to tear apart the community's belief in Psychic Vampirism. I am merely providing a more balanced and/or different view and information for those who desire to have a better understanding of themselves and of our world. Period. Anyway, fact is fact. Truth is truth. The Law of Conservation of Energy states that energy can change form, but it cannot be created or destroyed, only changed from one form into another, transferred from one object to another....note, say a person only has 30% energy and “absorbs” 100% energy/life force from another human that would mean their energy increased to 130% which is not possible. A person can trade their energy for another but to state as definitive fact that there are Psychic Vampires that don't generate enough of their own energy so they need to feed off of humans (mostly) to increase their amount of energy, is, well, highly implausible and most likely not true, at all. Even in conjunction with their “spiritual metabolism,” as defined by the Vampire Community, that would still mean that they're using their physical human bodies to “consume” another humans “vital energy,” so, their energy intake would still have to abide by the Laws of Nature. The total amount of energy stays always the same. Energy can only be changed into the forms that are described in this article. Many of the books that now inundate the New Age shelves at the conglomerate book stores, are filled with fancy words and cleverly written sentences that actually “say” nothing, they actually reveal nothing true, nothing proven, nothing, nothing, nothing. Just poetry that fills an emptiness for many people. Which, for the most part, may not be a negative thing, initially. Still, it is our belief, that nothing heals completely or completely fills the emptiness inside like the unabashed truth. “Life is pain, princess. Anyone who says otherwise, is just trying to sell something.” ~The Dread Pirate Roberts 77

We have provided you with the most basic and simple truths about energy and how it really works in our world, in our universe, and in our bodies. We shake our heads and breathe out a heavy sigh of confusion. Factual information has been given and is readily available to those who seek it. Yet, we know, it will be ignored by most, ridiculed by some, and used as a liner for waste baskets by the rest. It's all good though, no worries. At the end of the day, the night and your life, you are the sum of your actions. More than any label that Man can create and tattoo to his forehead for all the world to see, a person's actions will always be telling of who and what they truly are. The thing is, this is not our truth. This is the truth of the universe, as we know it to be, right now, in this moment of time. When the majority of the people have clear-cut criteria to go by, criticism and self-criticism, actual learning conversations, sharing of ideas, can be conducted along proper lines, and these criteria, these proven truths, can be applied to peopleâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s words and actions to determine whether they are fragrant flowers or poisonous weeds. Let a hundred flowers bloom and let a hundred schools of thought contend. Indeed. But that doesnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t mean to live your life under the heavy chains of lies and self-delusion. Unless, of course, that is what you choose.

Stagnation Death Wherever there are beginners and experts, old and young, there is some kind of learning going on, some kind of teaching. We are all pupils and we are all teachers. Those who dare to teach, to be leaders or Elders, must never cease to learn. It is what we learn after we know it all that counts! It is important to keep learning, to keep discovering, to keep searching for answers, for new ways of thinking, on your own accord, not only through another pupils already paved path. It is important to enjoy the challenges that come with learning, and to tolerate ambiguity. In the end there are no certain answers. Acquire new knowledge whilst thinking over the old, and you may unknowingly become a teacher, leader, Elder and/or inspiration for others. The best leader, the best teacher, the best warrior for truth, is the one who suggests rather than dogmatizes, and inspires his/her listeners/readers with the wish to teach himself/herself. The mediocre leader/teacher tells. The good leader/teacher explains. The superior leader/teacher demonstrates. The great leader/teacher inspires. The individual that unbeknownst to him/her are a leader/teacher to others, simply helps people find themselves, which helps people save themselves, by simply being true to their nature and living their lives as such. True teaching and leading of others is not a profession; it is a passion. Life is amazing and beautiful and ugly and harsh and brilliant and surprising, and a gift: and as a teacher you better yourself to be a medium for such a world as the one that we inhabitâ&#x20AC;Ścultivateâ&#x20AC;Śnever believe that there is ever an end to your path and a pretty little box waiting for you once you believe you are at the end of your path, with all the answers to all of the questions. Never stop teaching. Never stop learning. Never stagnate, for that will surely be your true death.

Welcome To the Darklight Evolution!

We are the Darklight of all days that are passed, and our name is revelation. We are the Darklight of this today, and our name is renewal. We are the Darklight of all days to be, and our name is evolution.

Into the New Darklight

Ancient flesh turned to stone, Whitened dust of ancient bone, Pure as death, cold as snow, Dead thou wast, but livest now. Crystal crushed, vision broken, Spirit fettered, words unspoken, What is frozen shall be warm, What is formless shall take form, What was scattered shall be whole, Given life within this deceiver's wasteland. White of petals, white of ice, White of dust and white of stone, White of crystal, white of bone, All things keeping, all things giving, Out of nothing, all things living, Out of emptiness, all Darklight, Out of blindness, now our sight. We are now the crimson light risen out of pure darkness: From our crown springs honour and truth, and love of the ages, again and again. We are now evolved, We are now renewed, We are now thy hope, and thy covenant, and thy revelation.

We are alive; We wake from within our own dark embrace; The white owl ascends, and we rise. Out of the whitened ashes of humanity's fire, Out of the white stone and the white crystal, Out of the pure white flame; Our feathers are scarlet and they are azure, They are fiery, they are verdant, They are golden, and they are of royal purple; We are the guardians of all things living, We are the spring and the summer, We are the autumn and the winter, We are time, we are insight, We burn bright from this new dawn of evolution, Even unto the last darkness of this glorious life. We do not end, we are the DarkLight, We have just barely begun! Welcome to renewal, healing, empowerment, self-revelation, and true transformation within the beautiful, rejuvenating, scarlet Darkness. From within your very own flames of self-evolution. Stand up and rise from the ashes!

Chapter Four Vampire or Vampyre? Who Cares! The deeper we descend the greater our ability is to become remarkable. And during our journey, and certainly in the end, the one truth that rises to the top, that illuminates our world, is that our tomorrows belong only to this day. The lesson we learn is to passionately express our daily moments with living grace and gratitude.

T Matters Not,

If someone were able to prove to me that I do not reside in the realm of Darkness…of the Darklight, if someone were able to prove to me that I am not a real living Vampyre, or that I do not have the Essence of a wolf, or that I am not a genuine, Draconian Witch…I would be perfectly fine with that. For you see, for me, the labels matter not. I will still be who and what nature in all her glorious wisdom created and needs me to be. I will still do what it is in my nature to do. I will still be me, that can never change because of labels and definitions of said labels. We, Ludavik and I, have no need for outside validation…We are completely selfcontained! We are always going to be who and what we truly are and we are always going to be and do what we know so clearly was meant for us to do. Someday, we hope, those who can’t face their own truths about who and what they truly are, those who don’t know how to open their spirits and hearts to the gloriously beautiful and ugly world that we live in…we hope someday they will learn that they cannot bruise, wound or capture a nighttime butterfly when they themselves cannot even truly fly. You cannot break what cannot be broken. You cannot humiliate that which knows not shame or self-delusions about who they are.

Someday, we hope, they (those people who are so desperately trying to fill that void, that emptiness inside the marrow of their very core) will truly know what real freedom consists of, we hope one day that they will be truly free, like us and the others who accept, understand and embrace the crimson legacy of our Draconian truth. Oh my, our world is remarkable. Our world is so much more than any movie, book, video game, TV show, or Internet site, can ever begin to imagine. Our world is but an infant that is just discovering who She is and what she is capable of. Don’t you want to be a part of Her self-discovery? Surely you don’t want to merely just exist, consume and expire. Surely you don't want that, do you? It matters not what label you choose. It matters not what anyone tells you who and what you are. It matters not what “they” tell you about who they need for you to be. It only matters that you know who you truly are and what it is in your nature to do, what your potential to become is genuinely comprised of. Just be that and be the best “that” that you can be. Sometimes I feel so very worthless and foolish. There are so many cries in the dark and senseless killing and torture in the bright sun of day…and I can’t do anything to stop it! What good are my innate gifts and abilities as a borne living vampire, if I squander them away on nonsense? I am strong, I am empowered, I am passionate, I am resourceful. I should be doing so much more!!! Crap! I need a moment or two, I can’t get the screams and crying voices of the innocent and/or those simply in need of help out of my head, heart, and soul... ...Okay, I'm back...Focus Julia A Living Vampire is usually not someone who quotes/writes (bad) Gothic/Vampire poetry, listens to black metal/Gothic music, wears period clothing, fangs and/or contacts and slings their delusional crap all over the Internet, Social Media, in coffee houses and/or Vampire/Gothic venues/clubs. Certainly, a real Living Vampire could be someone that does some of or all of those things, and there isn't anything inherently wrong with it. It 's just, for most of us, it's not a part of our vampiric essence to be drawn into the mundanes world of what they believe a vampire to be, at least not on a regular basis. For most of us, our connection to our origins is innate and strong within our blood. 84

If you want to know the burdens, hardships, sacrifices and celestial beauty of a Living Vampire (or insert your own label, whatever floats your ego-need to be accepted, boat, we all ride in the boat at one time or another), then you must yourself have lived the burdens and hardships, made the sacrifices, you must possess said celestial beauty, which comes from those very same hardships, burdens, and sacrifices. If you want to help the damned, then you yourself must be damned! If this is the fire that ignites your true essence, if you were born with a Darklight, then pay attention, listen to those born, through Nature's infinite wisdom, as true living Vampire (or whatever) to find out all the ugly, vileness, wild and amazing adventures of the unknown (almost never traveled path) someone had to endure and embrace and then spit back out as unparalleled beauty to become the truest version of themselves, to be the Darklight of salvation. If you believe following and/or emulating a bunch of yahoos that couldnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t stand and fight, or endure real pain and hardship- usually experienced more intensely, honestly and purely by Living Vampire-to save their fake asses, or delight in making up bullshit or simply regurgitating same said bullshit as if they have actually lived any of what they claim, is where you will finally feel at home, where you will finally be with your family, your brothers and sisters...then the truth of the Darklight and understanding the life of Real Living Vampires and/or even yourself, is not your true desire. No need to be between the devil and the deep blue sea. Whatever it is that you truly desire...It's your eleventh hour. Kill your fatted calf! Empower yourself and move forward. A Vampire (although, we all have the freedom to make our own choices and to become either a valiant and gloriously beautiful creature or we make the choices that lead to us becoming assholes...bad, ugly, creatures), in general, fights for his family and for the rest of the worlds innocent and those in need, as much as they can. It is what we were created for, and many of us believe that the wisdom with which our species was orchestrated should not be forgotten or squandered on superfluous living. Well, this is our experience and what we know to be true for us and the rare few that we have had the privilege to know. We could, of course, be wrong (doubtful).

From the dark comes the cry of erotic pain. From the dark the precious blood begins to flow. From the dark the magic of all life is born again and again. From the dark comes my joy, never my woe. From the dark I find refuge from the torturous day. From the dark the light is not so far away. Into the dark is where all the Angels go. From the dark comes the most wondrous sight. Watch carefully now so that you may know t his truth tonight. Watch carefully now so that you may see, That it is methe Dark Angel of your dreams, Making my flightFrom the darkness into the light.

From Issue 3 of the original DarkRose Journal ©1995. Prose by me, Julia DarkRose. I often used the label of “Dark Angel” in place of Vampire, Vampyre or Vampyr. I wanted those of the blood to understand that the label “Vampire/Vampyre” was just that, a label and in no way defined who and what they are. 86

Life is a hell of a thing...I can't imagine anyone would disagree with that. Does all that you know fit in the palm of your hand? Can all that you know fit into a giant box? Do all of your thoughts and ideas belong to someone else? What do you know that truly belongs to you, that are truly your own thoughts and ideas? Even though as a society we adopt ideas from all kinds of different sources…it is still possible to have your own thoughts and ideas born from within your essence. Many are afraid to voice or write their own thoughts and ideas for fear of their peers ridicule and admonishment. We're here to tell you about something new…it’s called believing in yourself and your own thoughts and ideas! Try it, I mean really voice or write your own ideas and thoughts, believe in yourself and what you know, for you, to absolutely be true. We're here to tell ya, there’s something else. It’s called not being a sheep (most sheep don't even realize that they are sheep, not that being a sheep is necessarily a negative. There must be sheep or else there would be no need for the Shepherds). It’s called believing, I mean really trusting and having faith in yourself not giving all your glory and power away to some “leader” or “guru” and so on…you are the true divinity that permeates our universe, the All culminates within your physical vessel and your 5 or more senses do their thang and perceive the spiritual (or whatever label makes you happy)and cosmic aspects of our reality. It is time for a new reign…the reign of ignorance born from unfounded fear and cultivated ignorance is over, at least it is over for those who embrace their own truths born from within their very essence, their core, their true foundation of who and what they really are. Our reign (those who practice true freedom of thought, those who know how to think) is one of non-reign. We, Living Vampires (or whatever label you choose to identify yourselves to the rest of humanity) should be conducting ourselves as an example to the rest of our world, an example of how non-sheep, free beings, actually live and thrive in a society of enslaved sheep! No one is qualified to tell you whether you are truly free, or who you truly are, that’s true, however, most people's conduct and subsequent inability to not be an enslaved sheep, is quite telling of who and what they truly are. So, please, if you have your own thoughts and ideas, please have faith in yourself and believe in your ability to help change the world, for the better. Again, only if that is your desire. 87

To not label the ideas which we desire to convey to the world, is almost impossible to accomplish. To not label that which we believe truly defines who we are, is also a seemingly impossible task. Almost.

Ticktock... As the fiery star begins his descent I think of all the hands that are pulling down dingy shades in a thousand, unremarkable furnished rooms, bereft of any remarkable life. I am aware of the damp souls of house maidens waiting despondently at the door, smiling and welcoming comfortable companions home, while their passions flame is slowly extinguished. Upon the glazen shelves of their abode, are too many unrealized dreams, written by ardent, burning souls. Ticktock, ticktock. Those trapped by labels and said definitions of those labels, those not understanding how to surpass the need for outside validation of who they are, from those that are themselves bound and gagged by the chains of labels and ill-informed definitions, your laughter tinkles among the teacups. Your laugh is like an irresponsible adult curled up in the corner of life, like a fetus . Most people know only a heap of broken images. Their vision distorted by the sun that beats fierce and merciless upon their flesh as they seek relief from the dead tree that gives no shelter. Ticktock, ticktock. There is shade under the red stone. The undiluted truth beckons to you, “Come in under the darkness of this rock and I will show you something distinguishable from either your shadow at evening rising to meet you or your shadow at morning striding behind you; I will show you your unfeigned fear in a handful of dust.” Ticktock, ticktock. Listen carefully, hear with your heart and mind, sweet soul. Or forever be a shape without form, shade without colour. A paralyzed force, gesture without motion. Between the idea and the reality. Between the pantomime and the manifestation that falls to umbra. Ticktock, ticktock. The verity of time shall remember you as a child full of fear and imagined grace, a hollow husk, if you are remembered at all. And so, to you, in a sanguine whisper, Life utters, “Terminate your torment of love unsatisfied, of life unfulfilled.” Where shall this libber of souls be found? Where will the truth resound? Not here, not in the arms of ego and cultivated ignorance. 88

There is not enough silence. Go into the sable forest, if you can bare the reality, and live among the “beasts” and “monsters,” eat from the ruby apple, embrace your pain and tear the diseased veil of false-hoods from your rotting pulp. The footfalls of lucidity shall echo in the memory of your life, down the passage which you were always too scared to walk, towards the door you were to frightened to open, directly into the night blooming garden, the likes of which you have never seen. Ticktock, ticktock. In that moonlit garden...Garlic and sapphires in the mud, valued the same yet different. The trilling wire in the blood sings below lingering scars and reconciles your forgotten wars. At the still point of the exquisite twilight, you are neither flesh nor fleshless. Sudden in a shaft of visible Darklight even while the dust still moves, there rises the hidden laughter of children in the foliage, the children of the crimson moon. Quick now, here and always... Dance! Laugh! Sing! Be the beast! Ticktock, ticktock. In the beginning, in the dark, stretching before and after, it is the time of seasons and constellations. The time of milking and the time of harvest. The time of coupling of man and woman and of our beasts. Foundations rising and falling, eating and drinking, dung and death. Ticktock, ticktock. The sun has set. It is the time of the new light. The Darklight revolution...selfevolution. No longer obscured and far away, but descending rapidly from the heavens above, gripped to the bosom of the Angel of Reality, is Death. This creature of the All, creeps closer to you and noiselessly utters into your heart, spirit, and mind, “My sweet child, my ravings on this windy night shall never sound in your ear again, live, for I am coming.” oh and live you shall...if that is what you choose. Knowing how to live is an art, it is a gift. It is not a right. So...Vampire or Vampyre? WHO CARES!? “A rose known by any other name is still a rose” but if one is so inclined as to break a sweat over this then its your problem and it has nothing to do with being a real living human vampire. Despite what other individuals or groups believe or how they decide to choose one label or the other as their truth-its all good, so relax. 89

For this our my very hard earned wisdom: to love, to live, to embrace what life gives you, to revel in what nature hath made you, to take what the universe has to give. To have–to hold–and–in time–let go. The worries and burdens that most of humanity drags around their entire lives are less than the dust beneath thy chariots wheel, less than the rust that never stains thy sword, less than the weed

Vampire or Vampyre? Dark Angel or Blood-Drinker? Magic or Magick? Light or Dark?

that grows beside thy door. It is all up to you. It will always be your choice.

Will it ever truly matter, I mean will it ever make any real difference? Who you are is who you are. You can choose to be valiant and honourable, kind and loyal, to be “good.” Or you can choose to be a scum-sucking piece of shit. Or you can choose to remain forever gray and devoid of any real growth and change, of any real life, to live in apathetic obscurity. The only validation that should have any real power and meaning is the validation that you give yourself. To be completely self-realized, to be completely selfcontained is a form of transcendence that most people, mundane or otherwise, never reach in their lifetime. Ticktock, ticktock. Whether you choose the shadows of the night blooming garden or the well-traveled path in the garden of blazing sunshine, it matters not. You will always, through your chosen actions, be who and what you actually are and not a single label, anywhere, will change your truth. We are Draconians. We are blood-drinkers. We are Vampires. Eh, so what. We are first and foremost and always, Julia DarkRose and Ludavik Valentine. 90

What is this sound and what this light, bringing an end to sleep and waking up my precious night?

Whence this music? Whose this flame? Who wakes my flesh and spirit to life again? Who is it knocks, who would come in? Oh, I know him still, I know him well. It is Darkness himself. My Lord, my desire, my blood lust, my passion, my fire. Come quench your cold white fire, in the fervid blood of my life. You who is the Watcher of the crimson siren, tower of the cosmic balefire, tree of lifeâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s pyre, crest of valiant flight, eternal blooming flower, crown of flames, bloody apex, you give the spirit of sanguine sanctity a name.

Scarlet Darkness, my swayer, my lover, darkness my father, darkness my brother, darkness my truest mother, where you shinest as a Darklight from your throne, and burn away my mortal bone. Turn my flesh to breathless air, bid me rise to meet you there: Where my spirit shares your reign, never to fall to a mundane life again.

Like the vapors freed from the hazy smoke of the Sunâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s inferno, I am drawn by the dark flame that embraces my Being.

I rise above my frail and vulnerable compounds, seeking the kingdom of your unbound garden: For am I not your heir? Am I not a most beautiful and faithful daughter, fathered upon earth by your sanguine lust? Am I not fire of your fire, kindled in the same universal Erebus? Wherefore then should I not rise in this world, with you, to stand upon your shoulders, lifting me up higher than I ever knew I could be? Where all things stand incessant, where every crimson heart and spirit burns eternal? 92

Lo, on the burning vapour of blood have I aspired toward you, on the wings of night. Whither I ascend, where shall I find my eternal midnight's grace, beyond space and time? The twilight fires of your face and your name shall be my own innovation and redemption. Sweet embers of my spirit, red elixir of my flesh and bone, fill me and preserve me while we burn as one. The craving surpasses even desires of my flesh, A moan, barely suppressed, as I rise gracefully and step away from the world of light and lies, providing my father, my DarkLight, with an unhindered view of my hunger. Dark, dark nipples pouting in sultry beckoning, urging the lord of Dark Angels, to kneel before me and take them into his mouth. To bite and suck and lick until the evidence of my sibylline arousal, flows freely from between my inner thighs, until my scent of life and blood and spirit, force my father to place his lips upon my heated lips and lap and thrust with his fiery tongue before ravishing me with his Cimmerian Phallus of raw and endarkened truth. 93

Let me prepare my body most fair, for his dark desires whose very nature is on fire. Unbolt the door for he is here: Now I lead him forth to greet his earth; my bag of bones and expectant soul. Now my Sire doth enter once again into his favorite earth’s chamber: Liquid-red flames proclaim my crimson love, like a blossoming rose, I wake beneath his fervor. Strong his sanguine light shines in amorous fever quick to win my ruby passion’s favor. Fire to fire we cleave together, kindling the darklight, conceiving the naked truth, joined forever and forever. Here at our marriage of blood and earth, drink to us both, drink to eternal health and youth. Bride of darkness and bridegroom of Blood bound together, bound to you too, to one another, ever more.

We are the darklight. We are the earth. Circles of red liquid light. The star of knowledge, the circle of spirit and of flesh. Night is our marriage, truth is our bed. So on this night of nights our marrow and heart are wed. This prose is a metaphor for the erotic (not necessarily sexual but meaning the ecstasies & passions inherent in the All & of our world) beauty that I find within the Darklight and within my life as a Vampire, a Draconian, a blood-drinker. This is my personal spirituality forged from my own life experiences. What I believe to be true for me has nothing and/or sometimes, little to do with the labels I wear and communicate to the world. If I were utterly devoid of any spirituality or religious beliefs, my nature as a real living vampire would still be the same. In the immortal words of that auspicious sailor, Popeye: “ I am what I am.”

Chapter Five A Living Vampire,

Religion and Spirituality not (necessarily)included

As I walked out one evening, I looked over Man's shoulder for vines and olive trees, for marble, well-governed cities and ships upon wine-dark seas; But there on the shining metal his hands had put instead an artificial wilderness and a sky like lead. The stars are dead. The animals will not look. The glacier knocked in my cupboard, the desert sighed in my bed, and the crack in my tea cup opened. So, I walked out onto the brightly lit lane, it led to the land of the dead. The soul shrinks from all that it is about to and should remember, from the punctual rape of every blessed day, and cries, “Oh, let there be nothing on earth but what I choose to see, nothing but rosy glasses to cover my eyes, and gloves to cover my hands in the rising steam, and guilty, blurred diversions done in the sight of heaven.” Pale souls they are, consumed by fear of the living world they haunt. Yet, they have not learned what habits lead them to hunt what they truly do not want; I don’t want to harm them, I think this very thought, right up to the moment I cut their throats with the truth. I am touched with the moon’s red silver, I am my own wolf sun, made of human moonlight.

Living Vampire,

is just that, a living vampire. And like anyone else, their decision about religion and/or spirituality, or lack thereof, is a choice. Being borne a Vampire is a matter of genetics, period. Beyond that fact, everything else an individual chooses to believe in, or not, is a matter of intellectual, physical and spiritual pursuit. This subject is not hard to understand but as with everything, it can, through cultivated ignorance and/or a simple lack of real understanding of one's self, be turned into an unnecessary complication, especially if the individual or a group are trying to put the proverbial square peg in the round hole. Of course, it simply wonâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t fit, and the subsequent discomfort, awkwardness and emptiness that follows can either be used as a catalyst for change and growth... or instead used for only frivolous, face-value, interests and/or as the mask of illusion when facing the world and then one of selfdelusion when looking into the mirror. Make no mistake, this is what beliefs followed for the wrong reasons or incorporated into a House/Group for political and/or selfish gains will undoubtedly become for the individual adopting a pattern of spiritualism, dogma, edicts, and/or magic simply because that is what they think they're suppose to do. For me, Julia DarkRose, there is neither a left-hand or a right-hand path of spirituality and belief. For me there is the path of Julia. I choose to always look left, right, up, down and most importantly, I choose to look inside myself for that which I seek. I am my own living, breathing, and practising, spiritual path. Some groups of vampires will have a magical or spiritual element and/or belief to there group. Maybe to add a flare or to jazz it up, or an honest following in said belief. Nothing wrong with this if the entire group resonate with the same system of magic/spirituality/religion (it matters not if the spiritual element was made up a year ago or it was created in the Age of the Arthurian Legends, all belief created by humanity had/has a starting point. Length of religion or spiritual beliefs are not as important as the believers and their intent). Everyone either on and/or off the same esoteric page can make or break a groups spiritual system. If it aids them in what they are trying to accomplish or maintain, this too is all well and good and possibly even quite productive for the individual as well as the entire House/Group. Wanting to enhance themselves in a magical or spiritual way or simply wanting to commune with the gods or goddess, demons, angels, or what have you, is or should be whatever that practitioner and/or believer needs for it to be. 96

However, our question for you, the reader, is this- Is it necessary to have any religion or spirituality to be a real living vampire or other? While you're pondering that straight forward query, we'll give you our answer. Hell Bells, no! Religion/spirituality is a personal use condition and should not be forced upon someone else or implemented as a curriculum of some kind for the individual vampire seeking a place among a group. A religious/ magical, and/or spiritual path is personal and need not be shared with other individuals that you feel are of the same ilk. Each group within the Vampire Sub-Culture makes there own rules and there own standards for their followers and thatâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s hunky-dory, but in reality it has nothing to do with being born a real living human vampyre. Holding to spiritualism of any kind can be (and usually is) wonderful and can maybe even aid you in your life's goals as well it might aid you in the development of certain vampiric energies/forces/vitality that living vampires have intrinsically wired into their DNA. Which is all great but it should be the individuals choice. On the other hand there is nothing wrong with seeking like- minded people, whether as individuals or a in a House/group/clan/tribe-whaterver-to congregate with for support and comfort of the same belief and spiritual growth. Still, let us not forget...you can be devoid of religion/faith or spirituality and still hold the true inner power of the living human vampire within. In truth, you may never experience that which you truly desire through spiritual/religious rituals. You might only feel your truth through the inner power we, living vampires, innately are born with. There are some vampires who have attempted to take on a more guru styled path in order to aid other vampires. Either with a preexisting religious view/practice or one they created, or a combo of several and converted it into one big gospel of vampiric â&#x20AC;&#x153;wisdom.â&#x20AC;? Eh, whatever it is that floats your life boat. It's all good as long as you use the spiritual, intellectual and physical tools provided by others and/or yourself for positive growth.

For many, you merely exist, but your world is passing you by. Perhaps with the years that perished you will finally understand what it is to live.

Oh my, see how your achievement today is only tomorrow’s confusion; See how your possession and superficial journey has cheapened the thing that was precious…The wreckage wrought from your spiritual slavery, from your indifference to your apathetic nature, is fast growing a fungus crop of empty conviction. It is, for you, children of the jaded daybreak, too late...or is it? Some people walk out in the sunlight. Some people never get wet when it rains (too bad and so very sad for them). Some people seemingly glitter like a brilliant jewel. Some people walk in front of everyone else and allow those blinded by their selfish brilliance to throw rose petals upon the ground for them to walk on, for surely the dirt of our precious Mother Earth is not good enough. Some people walk so far ahead of those they claim to care about that they are unable to see or help those that are crying out, who are unwillingly still living in the shadows. Some of us, like those borne from the Draconian Bloodline (Crimson Shepherds), spend our time picking up all the broken pieces of those poor, lied to, deceived souls, until our fleshly bodies are shredded and bleeding, and even then, we continue to pick up the pieces…no matter how much hate and revulsion is spewed upon our beautiful being. We are only alone in this life, if we choose to perceive it that way. We, living vampires, are mostly hated and reviled by most, yet we, Ludavik and I, have never felt more alive, more loved, a more truer sense of who and what we truly are. We're looking out our window into a world of betrayal, anguish, and deception, “their'”world. Even though we have to venture out into the light obscured, hypocritical, hate-filled, sphere of unimaginable wonders, we do so wrapped in our armour of beautiful, Darklight truth...with or without religion, magic, and/or spirituality. We are never truly alone, for we are borne of stardust and truth. We are the begotten children of the universe. We are all and the All resides within us. We must understand the whole of life, not just one little part of it. That is why you must read, that is why you must look at the skies and feel the earth beneath your bare feet, that is why you must sing and dance, and write poems, and suffer, and understand, for all that is life.

Freedom ( An entry from my personal journal, somewhat fictionalized for artistic license, circa 1995) The sharp iciness of Father Winterâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s breath provides my soul with an undercurrent of repose and contentment. In the dead of winter, the Great Celestial Expanse has once again opened her arms to embrace me and fill me with her Essence. With her ebon wings tightly wrapped around my very Being, there is no power in this universe that I cannot comprehend and one night be a part of. The beauty of the stark winter fills my senses with sweet rapture as does the breathtaking visions that are my Dark Angels. My precious Angels are infused with the passions and desires of the glorious night. They have become my haven in this mundane world of deceit and ignorance. As I gaze outside my bedroom window, in anticipation of the ravenous night that awaits me and my Tribe, I have discovered Snow Faeries and their cousins, the Fire Sprites-performing their erotic dance amongst the death that has now engulfed my rose garden. They are beckoning to me to come share in their beastliness. Oh! to dance naked in the moonlight, to let my primordial carnality take over completely, even for just a moment, is an invitation I will not refuse. â&#x20AC;&#x153;My fierce beauties, it is I, DarkRose. I have come to join you in your darkly Edenic dance.â&#x20AC;? The ethereal beauty of my sisters brings a tear of ruby elation to my eyes. As I draw nearer to the frenzy of the savage sexuality before me, my pure vampiric being has become a torch of bestial bliss. My nymphs have swirled around me in a whirlwind of crimson lust and immortal desires.

In an explosion of fiery passion, the faeries and sprites have torn from me the delicate crystalline nighty that had moments before gracefully clung to every feminine curve of my silky white body. As my gown lay abandoned amongst the dead roses and the meager creatures of the night, so does my last breath of human morality. For a few moments, I am totally free to be the gloriously inhuman predator that dwells inside this soft mortal flesh of arteries, bones, and precious dark wine. The pounding in my heart feels like the beating of some ancient warriors drum right before the onset of battle. My nipples are painfully erect in a joyful salute to the sexually spiritual debauchery that has engrossed my tender marrow. The fervid moistness between my thighs is perfumed with the lust and desires of the dark seraphs. As my liberated flesh trembles with heavenly sable hunger, I notice that the night and all her creatures have fallen silent. The only sound is the soft murmur of the eventide wind as He whispers my name and rejoices with me in my return to myself. For a few precious moments in this world of false light and rampant deception, the beauty and truth of my Darklight was revered and honored. The Great Genitors fell silent in our awe-inspiring dance. Then as quickly as they appeared, my decadent sisters have left our moonlit rendezvous. I know not why they came to me this night, or where they are going. I do know that they touch the part of my inky spirit where no human dares to journey. They are welcome to enter the portals of my world whenever they desire. I ardently await their return.

Freedom of self, is a hell of a thing. Only you are qualified to decide that which outwardly as well as within, conveys your truth...to yourself and if it matters, for whatever the reasons might be, to the world.

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Image 1A: Letter to me, Julia DarkRose, from Prince Nicholas De Vere.-1997. Page 1.

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Image 2A- My Third Degree Initiation Ritual, for Adeptus Elder within the Sanguinarium/Vampire Community.

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Image 3B-Letter from court appointed attorney regarding my case with Family Services in Florida.

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Image 4A-Page 1 of the email letter, to me, from my friend, Ben.

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Chapter Six Vampire Sex

Two Great Tastes that Taste Great Together! Love Me Not (Just Fuck Me, Please!) Tell me no more of ancient minds embracing minds, and hearts exchanged for hearts; Tell me no more of dark spirits meeting and becoming one dark soul. Tell me no more of our unbodied essence sharing the vampyres bloody kiss, and then like fallen angels, twist and become one in our despair, and oh, so very misunderstood, dark bliss. I was once that silly thing that wrought to practise this esoteric love; I climbâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;d from pranic sex to pranic spirit, from somber soul to thought; But thinking there to move, headlong I rolled from thought to soul, and then from soul I lighted at the bloody sex again. As some strict down-looked women pretend to fast, who yet in closets eat; So lovers who profess they spirits taste, Feed yet on grosser meat; I know they boast their souls to souls convey, however they meet, the body is the way. Come, I will undeceive thee. They that tread those vain intangible ways, are like young heirs and alchemists misled to waste their wealth and days, for searching thus to be ever rich, they only find a medicine for the itch. Keep thy delusions to yourself. Oh, lie not to me about those imaginary things which you truly cannot feel or see. My poor, poor, misled, vampyric soul, oh, love me not, just fuck meâ&#x20AC;Śplease!

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S exuality & vampire sex appeal, do not necessarily have anything to do with one another, yet, starting from the recorded histories of the Draconian families, following that trail of blood right into the 21st Century and the modern living vampire, it's clear that these two traits are not uncommon amongst us and, in fact, are quite often (not always) the first hallmarks of our presence that most people notice.

Oh yes, many mundanes and living vampires alike have heard about how incredible vamp sex is (of which it is!). Almost always associated with the vampire and his/her sex appeal are blood, lust, control, seduction, blood-lust, whipping, bondage, slave and master (which is the main reason why the BDSM sub-culture has close ties to and within the vampire sub-culture), and so o and so forth. There is too, the tremendous sex appeal that the vampire is suppose to have to the point of being able to control others with just a glance. Which are, of course, traits born from the long line of fictional vampire books and films. If you are a naturally sexual creature, vampire or non-vampire or what have you, you are just that, naturally sexual. However, some times outside forces, like rape, abuse, human trafficking and so on, can alter the natural balance of ones own sexuality, indeed, one must be mindful and careful that something innate to their truth is not replaced or mistaken for something else, either partially or entirely.

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The following is an article that I wrote and published in 1994. It was published in my, the first of its kind magazine, 'The DarkRose Journal.' The DarkRose Journal ÂŠ as a hard copy zine was originally published from 1994 to 2000. It was one of the first resources available that educated, endarkened (enlightened), entertained, and brought to "light" the world of real Living Human Vampires/Dark Angels. The Journal was revived in 2012 online as an e-zine as well as a hard copy magazine. It was and still is, a publication dedicated to those borne from the Dragon Line or anyone seeking a way to live their life being true to who and what they are and all that necessitates to lead a productive and meaningful life in our modern world.

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Page two of my original article-Sex & the Modern Vampyr-ÂŠ1994.

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SEX

and the Modern Vampyr By

Julia DarkRose

ÂŠ 1994 In today's society, having sex can be a very scary situation...even for the Vampyr. When I use the term sex I am including all sexual situations, not just intercourse. In fact, intercourse is probably last on the list for most Vampyr. If it is on the list at all. Intercourse has become very passe. Especially for a Vampyr or Vampyr-like person. We derive satisfaction from many unusual sources. We hardly need intercourse to fulfill our feeding needs. Sex is like frosting on the cake for us. Of course, I am speaking as a Vampyr. I can not speak for Vampyr-like persons. Actually, The Hunt is a huge part of the feeding. The hardest part seems to be finding the right kind of prey. At least for me that seems to be true. I don't really have a gender preference. It really depends on what catches my attention at the moment. It may be female, male, or both. However, I do insist on my prey being human. I guess I'm oldfashioned that way. For myself, the nastier and the bitchier they are the better they taste. Of course, you always run the risk of hunting an undercover police officer, serial killer, Republican (too sour), evangelist (some evangelists can be pretty darn tasty), or a diseased individual. This is why hunting has become such a large part of the feeding process. Perhaps that is why the modern Vampyr has developed interesting ways to hunt. For you my beloved dark ones I will share a small insight to the beginning of a common Hunt, for me. I hope that this may help the non-vampyr reader better understand all the precautions we Vampyr must take so we can fill our very basic and simple need to feed.

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Even though we feed off of human blood and energies-like any other living creature, we do have the right to feed. It is rare in this age of Aids and other dreadful diseases to find a willing donor. If the threat of disease alone doesn't scare them away-then once the prey finds out all that this interlude of sanguine-soaked ecstasy involves, the Hunt has ended before it really had a chance to begin. Of course, I always have the option of feeding off of another Vampyr or Vampyr wanna-be. But, for me, that just isn't as satisfying as hunting down a human (a non-living Vampyr). Or even better than a human is a self-righteous Christian. Now there's good eatin'! So, forgoing my usual stash of willing meals, I start the Hunt. I do not have a particular hunting ground. Wherever the celestial stars lead me I usually follow. I do prefer hunting in the evening-but not always. However, I do detest bars. So, I try not to frequent any if I can help it. A probable place I might turn up at would be a book store. I've never had to go up to anyone, I always seem to attract attention wherever I go-not because I dress outlandishly or anything like that-but because people can sense (and some can even smell) that there is something different about me (and I don't mind adding, not caring about the risk of reading like an egotistical maniac, the Vampyr are an extraordinary looking species. Those literary fictions/myths seem to be true). So, I attract attention, as well, because of my Vampyr beauty. Whoever I have mentally picked out for dinner ends up coming to me...usually. If I end up liking the person, I will, after several meetings be up front with them (well sort of) and tell them what I want from them. Usually, that would be a little blood (at least a shot glass full) mingled with sexual energy (a crap load) with just a tad bit of their soul for dessert. Then if they accept, I have to make sure that they are disease free. That can sometimes take awhile. So, by the time everything is kosher I end up devouring them anyway. And then, if it turns out after several meetings that I don't like that person, I will become the nastiest Vampyr I know how to become. I will not only take blood-I will take all their energy and a lot of their precious, deliciously warm, beautiful, dark purple blood. And if I'm really feeling my power I will take a huge bite out of their soul. And I will certainly leave them wanting more, but they shall never receive my gift again. Believe me, to be my meal is indeed an honor. 116

So, either way I usually end up devouring my prey. It just depends on how mercifully I feed upon these poor creatures. As to how I get them into a position where I can feed off of them, that, for now, will remain my secret. My kind do have certain advantages that others don't have. One advantage is that people always seem to form an addiction to us. I rather like being an addiction. It keeps the blood supply full. Please remember that contrary to popular belief the Vampyr is not supernatural, just super human. Although, I am rarely sick, I have not lived long enough to know what my limitations are. So for now I stress that all Vampyr and Vampyr wannabees put safety before pleasure. Until next time my beautiful dark ones...Happy Feeding!

Welcome to the Age of the Living Human Vampire... Reborn from the misunderstood shadows of the past.

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Throughout much of the easily accessible, known fictional and/or folklore and mythological history, vampires have been depicted as lonely, solitary creatures, neither seeking or accepting close ties with anyone, except, of course, to get their feeding on...either as a violent monster or as the ultimate erotic seducer incarnate. However, contrary to this widely accepted ideal of what the life of a vampiric creature must be like, the living human vampire, can and more than an untold number of humanity, does love and copulate beyond a mundanes perception of such desires. The living vampire loves with all the beauty and starry, black fire of the known Universe. Included within that “Love of the Ages” is the capacity for preternatural sexual exploration and transcendence. For some of us, those borne living vampires, we prefer to plumb those fleshly intimate depths while tapping the engorged vein of our harmonized human consort. For others borne of the Vampiric Human Species , they prefer a more antiseptic, uninspired (at least for us, Ludavik and I, it feels that way) connection to their vessel from which the very “waters of life” flow from the human life and into the thirsty vampire's being and body. Being the dynamic creatures that we are, quite often it seems like there is no equal for us. Take heart, there is. When we find another of our Family, sexuality takes on a wholly different perspective. It becomes something beyond chemical reactions and attractions and the basic animal need to procreate. Sensual arousal on the far side of what is known and experienced by the non-vampire is most certainly a part of who and what we are. However, that doesn't necessarily mean that all those borne living vampires have tremendous amounts of over flowing sex appeal and/or that everyone borne from the Draconian lineage is adept at using their innate sexual prowess. Still, that obvious “something more” than sex appeal, that “can't quite put your finger on it” carnal quality that is a telltale indication of our naturally born ability to attract and “capture” the attentions of, both physically and intellectually, those not like us, was bred into our variety of human a long, long, time ago and is still very much present in our evolved Family line. Whether or not an individual living vampire chooses to acknowledge and implement this important aspect of their unique beingness, or not, is, of course, a choice. Of course, many non-vampire individuals have great sex appeal and are quite adept themselves in reaching a kind of sexual transcendence. 118

We, Human Vampires, do not own this experience, in or out-of-the body. However, our focus and outcome are incomparable. Let's not forget this too, when we have the vampiric fauna of our dreams, our soulmate, that we are willing to pledge our love to, our love of the ages, both physical and spiritual, sexual liaisons take on an entirely new and deeper, never before experienced (most likely) perspective. While a mundanes essence does supply a modicum of that which we seek and inherently desire, nothing can compare to Family blood. Not only will another living vampire's essence provide preternatural vitality and sustain us longer and with more gusto, the spiritual, intellectual and emotional bonds that are created will be beyond any previously known or understood touchstone. As you drink in the essence of your partner and they return the favor, the life-force of two Dark Angels (living vamps) soon intertwines to become one undulating physical mass of...freakin' awesomeness! If you're living with your beloved you will be able to dine on sanguine splendor whenever needed and/or desired...just like ancient days past. As your entire beings coalesce, you'll be able to smell and feel when the other is thirsty and/or if something within them had changed, positively or negatively or indifferently.

“Stin igieia sou kai kali orexi.” ~To your health and good appetite.~

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living vampire, besides always having a vein to tap, is vampire sex! Two great tastes that taste great together. I hate to have to add this next little tid bit but I know, even in this modern age of easily accessible information, that it still has to be mentioned. Please, take heed...Although vampires in film and literature are usually portrayed as hunting their “victims” and taking what they want without regard to anyone or anything but themselves, we strongly advise against it. Please don't imitate fictional behaviour. Not only is it dangerous and absolutely unnecessary and actually won't provide the real living vampire with anything but that which would be mostly unusable when acquired in that circumstance, it is also illegal. Blood drinking/feeding should only be practised between consenting adults. Oh yeah, one more thing, that which should be the most obvious...If you choose to mix it up with blood and sexual activity...Yummy, yummy, yummy....Safe sex, safe sex, safe sex! 119

Chapter Seven Vampires and Darkness

What's the connection? While the silly lily swayed coquettishly, the rose, whom the sweet night had left drunk with dew, was fired with desire, and the passion for life burned deep from within. The rose, so ripe, so melting, dripping with glittering wetness, lies dreamfully in the midnight winds caress-she lay veiled in her loose velvety tresses... She loves the wind because the wind loves her love...She slid her hand between her thighs and touched her shadow where the sunshine dare not tread. She turned her face away, falling into the adagio of a sigh, she then held her body still in the warm, sultry wind; The comforting tempest and her shadow met, and slowly twined. In that last moment, in eternity's confine, she played in desire's flame. She came to love, She came into her own.

t was dark...

So very, very, dark: An envelope of darkness. And it was warm...So very, very, warm: An envelope of warmth. And the only sound was the distant, comforting murmur of the Great Being. It was, in other words, a perfect place. This is the opening of a short story13 that describes the prenatal comfort and security of the womb. This is how I feel about the Dark: warm, secure, comforting. I reflect in the irony that so many people are afraid of the dark-the literal as well as the abstract-when it was the dark in which we all lived so peacefully for those nine or so months. It was the glare and the harshness that caused us to first wish we had never been born; to wish we could retreat to whence we came; to go back into the Dark.

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So we see that the body and the spirit have a natural affinity for the darkness. It is only through learned responses and the anti-dark prattle of others that we become fearful of the dark. We are told that the dark provides safe harbor for the evil and nefarious, that the dark obscures the truth, and that the dark is the last refuge of the weak of spirit. Nothing could be further from the truth. We must start our understanding of the Dark by shattering the biggest misconception there is-that of the dark as a place of Evil. If being of the Light is necessarily good, so goes the argument, then being of the Dark is necessarily bad. Neither of these positions is accurate-at least not for everybody. This idea stems from the human need to put things in two categories. Yes and No. Wrong and Right. Good and Bad. Black and White. Light and Dark. The problem is that there is not a person known who is totally good, or totally evil (which are subjective anyway). We’re told that even Hitler loved children (Well, at least some of the children, obviously) and animals; that even Jesus Christ lost his temper and promoted alcoholic beverages; and that even the Prince of Darkness can be a perfect gentleman. Yet we seek a balance. An eye for an eye. A yin to a yang. A tit for a tat. Quid pro quo. And a Dark for a Light. Since most people see themselves as creatures of the light, and they further perceive themselves as good and worthy, which leaves the balance to fall to the dark, and thus is created a world of evil. You stub your toe in the dark, the cat springs at your feet in the dark, you lose your way in the dark. That’s where the bogeyman lives, in the dark-and it must be true, because our parents said so. You shouldn’t wander the streets at night. Why? Because it’s late? No, because it’s dark. Light a candle, flip a switch, turn something on-dispel the dark! In medieval times a solar eclipse was a portend of impending doom. Even a dark cloud passing in front of the sun at the wrong moment could brand someone a witch. In the darkness there is the Unknown, and the human animal is by nature terrified of the unknown. Beyond these seas there be dragons, the cartographers warned. Beyond the dragons, there be the edge of the world. And once you fall off the edge of the world, there be eternal darkness. Magellan finally put a stop to that, but his crew kept a wary eye out for dragons anyway!

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The Unknown. The Dark is the perfect metaphoric hiding place for all that we do not understand. Our fears. Our biases. Our hatreds. And most of all, that part of ourselves that we do not wish to examine in the bright light. Because in the light we think our true selves will be revealed to the world. Oh, how very far from the truth that is. Yes, my dear friends, the Dark is the ultimate scapegoat; the repository of our sins, real and imagined. But just as one can clean out the cobwebs of a spooky old attic and then enjoy the treasures that are revealed, so can we all learn to if not love, then at least appreciate the dark. But is it true? Is there evil there? Some. There are deceitful spirits and lost souls and a certain amount of emotional dredge. But there is much more of that in the Light. The contemptible con man that cleans out his victim’s bank account does so with a pressed suit and an engaging smile, not with a black hood and mask. The church goer sings long and loudly in the pew as sunlight streams through the stained glass window, then rushes out to bed his neighbor’s wife. The perfect housewife dumps out a half gallon of milk exactly on the due date, then snorts in derision as she passes a homeless family on the street. And most of the time it’s all done by the good and pure people of the Light. Jeffrey Dahmer was the boy next door. Ted Bundy wad the Boy Scout next door. John Wayne Gacy was the clown next door. Tit for tat. Quid pro quo. So instead of being turned away by the perceived evil of the dark, let’s look to see what else there might be in there. We’ve admitted that it’s hard to see in there, so let’s step in long enough to let our eyes grow accustomed. As the pupils dilate, so let the mind open and expand. Let the senses be aware. Let the soul be eager. Let’s imagine a scenario. It is somewhere around the year 1200. We’re in England-a scary place at that time, until you realize the rest of the world is even scarier. Power and position come much more swiftly at the point of a sword than the nub of a pen. The local sheriff is subservient to the Earl, and enforces the law as it is convenient and handy. To get from one town to another, one must walk-only the rich have horses. And to walk on these roads is to take your life in your hands. Bands of outlaws have free reign outside the gates of the city, and are eager to relieve a passerby of their purse and their life. The outlaws live in the thick forest; since by their outlaw status, they are denied citizenship. Thus the forest is a place of the Unknown. Evil lurks there. The forest is the Dark. Beyond these woods there be dragons. Beyond these dragons there be death. 122

Everyone has his or her place in the pecking order. Peasants serve craftsman, serfs serve knights who serve nobility who serve the king. Everything in the system works until someone decides that they don’t wish to be a part of the accepted system. Maybe they feel they should be able to own land without having the royal blessing; maybe they feel they should be able to have authority without having a noble lineage; maybe they feel they should be able to worship according to their own belief system rather than that of the powerful Church. Whatever the reasons, these people feel slightly apart from the norm. They are independent. They are the exception, rather than the rule. They cluster in small groups of like-minded souls, finding solace in the very few who also wish to chart their own course. They realize they can’t continue living in the city, because the city is very intolerant of those who are intolerant of the city. People hang for things like that. They want to go live in the forest, because there the city will leave them alone. But the forest is Dark, and in the Dark, there is evil. This small band of society’s displaced ventures tentatively into the woods, keeping their eyes and ears open for the dangers that dwell there. They find a cave. It is dry and warm, but it is also dark. Their desperation finally overcomes their fear, and they move into the cave. It’s not bad. As a matter of fact, they become quite comfortable there. Other people hear about this new little sub-society in the forest, and the braver of them venture past their apprehensions and find the cave. They, too, find support there. All of these formerly displaced people are now placed. They have found a home in the Dark. And they are making discoveries-the differences between their home in the Dark and their old residence in the Light. Now please don’t misunderstand me when I say that these people lived in the Dark. That doesn’t necessarily mean that they lived in actual darkness, that there was no light, and that they had to stumble around in an unseen void until their senses developed bat like sonar. They used candles. They used lanterns. They built fires. They were artists and writers and mathematicians and scientists and scholars and parents and clerics and sellers and buyers and all the kinds of things that people of the Light are-and for these activities they had to dispel the physical darkness. They had to venture out of the cave to interact and commune with the world outside. They were bi-functional. They moved at ease in both worlds, when necessary. It’s just that for their personal growth and nourishment they preferred the Dark.

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Why? Because the Dark is an incredibly sensual place. Their sense of being has become focused. Their senses of being have become sharpened. When they seek pleasures, they are rewarded with ecstasy. Intense touches, intense aromas, intense sights and sounds. They have never known an odor so fragrant and full-bodied, or a taste so fulfilling, or a sight so beautiful. They have never known an orgasm so full of love and so full of life. They have discovered that the Dark, rather than serving to mask and deceive, does instead act as a filter. It forbids the invasion of the cluttered and confused. It intimidates the cowardly and shortsighted. It makes a barrier that the hypocrite and self-deceiver find hard to penetrate. The kindred spirits of Thoreau, Epicurus, and Dionysus make it past. Diogenes shines his lantern approvingly here. The cave-dwellers, those disciples of the Dark, live in one with their surroundings. They love nature, for it is nature that has given them their safe haven. They do not wish to exploit their fellow denizen, because that is their family. They do not want to shut out that which is mysterious and incomprehensible, for it is there that new knowledge and discovery dwell. They sincerely wish to find their inner spirit, for that is their essence. They sincerely wish to find their other kindred, for with them is their past and their future. They learn to look at everything that comes their way with an appreciative and curious eye. in the Dark, things reveal themselves slowly, but once they are revealed, they are true and pure. It is usually only in the Light that there is a need for pretense and masquerade, for it is only in the Light that judgments are handed down based on surface rather than substance. These cave-dweller citizens of the Dark were my ancestors. They were my family. I, was one of them. I watched from the safety of my cave as the outside world slowly turned increasingly to turmoil and destruction. I ventured out as necessary, for my life in the Dark better equipped me to deal with life in the Light. I was on to them, yet they were helpless and blind in my Dark. 124

I was then, I am now, and I will always be, a daughter of the Dark. Night 14 is my Mother. And, I, her faithful child continue to find solace within her dark embrace. My lover, my teacher, my immortal Mother opens her veins to me, and I drink. From her flows the blood of life. The blood of life washes my soul clean. I bathe in its sensuality and truth. I celebrate its wisdom and beauty. It is time for all of Nightâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s children to come home. Our great Mother longs to embrace her lost children with her black wings of endarkment. She longs to fill your mundane life with dark pleasure and love. She longs to teach your spirit the wisdom of the Dark. She patiently awaits for the return of her beloved and beautiful children. Although my recollection of what came before is sometimes dim, my spirit most assuredly remembers the dark from whence it came. It recalls fondly the security and comfort that was found there, and it rejoices that I have found my way back. I look out from the Dark with bright eyes, and my senses revel in its erotic purity. The Dark is home, and the home is Dark. Welcome to my home, to my Darklight. This is, of course, mine and Ludavik's perception of how we, as living human vampires, relate to and incorporate the dark, metaphorically and literally, into our lives. It is not the same for everyone. However, â&#x20AC;&#x153;everyoneâ&#x20AC;? is not writing this book, we are and this is our Darkness. Our Darklight shines brightly within the universe. We also know that this perspective resonates with many other people, vampire or not. The Dark and it's incessant core of pure, Light, shines for all. Come on in and sit for a spell and perhaps discover...all that life can be. 125

14-Night, also known as Lilith, the Sumerian goddess of beauty, sexuality, and truth; in Judaism, the mother of darkness and demons.

Chapter Eight

Vampires, Faeries, Elves Witches, & Dragons Oh my!

Happy our early days, when we shined in our dark angel-infancy, before we understood the momentum of Man's world. Oh, my darling night! Precious Mother of Starfire, there is in your children, a deep and dazzling darklight! Through all our spiritual delights and fleshly birthright, glittering streams of truth, honour, and everlastingness reach the world's spirit, their eyes enthrall at it, as at eternity. We see every night, our crimson moon, every dark-tide we glimpse forever, we see it like a great ring of a pure and endlessly radiant soul. In our darkness, all is chaotically calm, as it is midnight bright; And round beneath it, time in hours, days, and years, driven by the universal spheres, like a vast shadow moved; The world and all her beauty is hurled into our Draconian hearts. My beloved angels of the Dragon, I cannot send you alone into a world of false light, whilst I sit here basking in the brilliant night, without placing a bloody kiss upon your dewy smooth cheek, and a sword bathed in the blood of false angels, into your fearless hands.

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Go now, my family, the royal tribe of Anu, and do what we do bestâ&#x20AC;Ś Teach, bring change, shepherd, evolve, give without ego, and love with the fierce, unquenchable, dark fire of our dragon's realm, of the universe.

Here we are, Babes of the Starlit Heavens, borne now for all of you. We are the faerie children, we are brother and son, we are sister and daughter, we are mother and father. We are the water, we are the air, we are the fire,w e are the earth, We are the very breath of humanity. Our names are manifold, our name is Life.

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here is true substance behind the tarradiddle of Dragons, Faeries, Witches, Elves, and, of course, Vampires. All of which are connected, and/or, more accurately, different yet, equally important components of the whole.

A Dragon, from centuries past, was one who saw clearly, and clarity of vision bred, was always definitively associated with wisdom, which itself created noesis, power and the vivid perception of that power. The modern-day understanding of this is-”knowledge is power.” Truly though, it is, in that regard-wisdom (the ability to prognosticate or compass and combine knowledge) that is the catalyst for such power. That particular wisdom being a prerequisite of Druidic or Faerie neuro-physiology, that in reality renders the most superior power of all. The Witch, Seer and the Magus, all a class of Druid, just like the famous or depending on your perspective, the infamous Merlin, a name which, like Dragon, literally means “seer.” and who furthermore, were a class of Druid priests or philosophus or magi, as they were also known in those ancient times. From the time and land that history books like to forget, the foregoing regional epithets were all ascribed to one royal, priestly tribe originally known in Indio-European as the Arya: the “race of the wise ones”. The word king is a derivative from the related Gothic word kuningzam, meaning both “knowing one” and “scion of the noble (meaning wise) race”. As well, we have the connected word siddhis, meaning “the powers” and from this word or contrariwise, was derived the tribal name the Scyrhians, the Arya-Sidhe or Sidheans. The Siddhi were a range of psychic or paranormal phenomena which patented themselves as the constructs of those Tantric (the attainment of ecstasy in all it's forms) priests in Eurasia who had attained samadhi or “enlightenment”. The fabled yet actual people, the Tuadha d'Anu, were also known as the Aryans or Scythians. The tribe of Anu, was also known as “people of the stars,” or “People of power,” in the Gaelic countries. Using modern terms, the Elven and Faerie Tribes, were the “wise ones.” So, there you have it, history fans, by the blood descent from the race of the wise ones, a Dragon (the Draconian Bloodline from whence modern living human vampires were borne) was originally an overlord, an Archdruid or bruidhina, Magus and a Seer, an Elven goddess-queen of god-king.

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Make no mistake, lest misunderstanding takes hold, these tribes are not to be confused with the warrior kings or 15tinker dynasties installed by the Roman Church over the last 1500 years, nor with any modern royal family. “The Druidhe were kings above kings” The Dragon or Faerie cistron (gene sequence) was very rare and true Archdruidic, royal Dragon families were even more rare. Abuses excepted, if this were not the case anyway, then perhaps many faery narratives of the popular genre which developed from outside the Dragon culture would never have seized the imagination of those not borne from the tribe of Anu. The realism of the tales would have been everywhere in everyday life. Imagine what our world could conceivably be like if the truth had taken hold instead of the twisted black veil of mythology given to us by the Church...oh my, indeed, what a world we would have. The Faerie is the Dragon and this means that they were able to see “more clearly”, they saw more delicate emanations than man could or still, especially even now, in the 21st Century, can. To be able to achieve this the Faeries would have their awareness, both corporeal and incorporeal, tuned to a higher frequency of cognition and organic and inorganic processes in general. Using the science of information terms (cybernetics), any system that is faster and consequently higher than a given base is called a navigator. In cybernetics these systems are set over and in control of the slower functional operations within any given mechanical or an animate structure. If we transpose this theory onto human society we get leaders and followers. The leaders are supposed to be able to function at a faster rate than the followers, and thereby foreknow any given direction the system might go in and design sensible plans of action that the system might adopt for its prosperity. The term “Fairy”, as we have come to believe from our educators and/or beguilers, implies one of a potpourri of mythic and/or imaginary beings whose shape, size, environment and customs differ according to geography and ethnic or aboriginal folk tradition. . 129 15 -According to my friend and mentor, Nicholas de Vere, from his book 'The Dragon Legacy' paraphrased: for centuries western state authorities and their churches have enjoyed continued power over a subordinate majority, by presenting a facade of sacrosanct jurisdiction which has seemed inextricably linked to some form of royalty, nobility, or government by divine sanction. By virtue of this, it is not surprising that so many people now consider royalty, nobility, and western religion to be archaic components of a system of class and privilege which has no place in the modern age, In practice, there is nothing noble about these tinker kings, since the word “noble” relates to gnosis or wisdom.

The entire moral basis of our society is founded upon a monumental historical falsehood which has contorted the minds of generations of individuals until they have become frightened of the natural drives of their own bodies and souls. The subsequent taboos that have been created have been used to dissever the minds of the people and make them dependent, likened to a drug-addiction, on the Church-State for solutions to the problems of eluding Satan and resisting temptation and sin when these artificial ideas never existed in the first place. As a consequence, western Christian society was turned into an out-of-doors institution for the insane, jam-packed of lost souls who weren't lost at all and had no need of a cure for diseases of the soul that they weren't actually suffering from in the first place. The Church brought about the confusion and the division and then volunteered the solution. Deathly afraid, people, just about everyone, endowed their trust in the treacherous Church and in return for their trust the Church turned the population into slaves and an entire civilization into a manufacturing plant to service their own greed for lavishness and power. For just about a thousand years, give or take, the Faeries have remained silent about their identities-formerly for fear of their lives-latterly for fear of becoming social outcasts and objects of ridicule and disrespect. However, a shadow of danger still lingers about and encompasses the ancient families. Greed (Man's favorite master) will go to any measure to ensure the lastingness of its gratification and the same motivations that prompted the Church to murder and lie in the past, still, to this day, prompt their merchant-class puppets to kill and deceive. Since people understand the Faerie to be either a gossamer winged sprite/spiritual being or an effeminate male, both are considered harmless jokes. Such a modern-day opinion flies in the face of the facts where the Faery of history is involved. Quite simply and factual in every historical sense of the word, the nature and identity of the Dragon Queens and Kings are as Witch Lords, Vampires, Elven Queens and Kings, Faeries and Seers. I mean, really, those mundanes borne from the ancient human lines just weren't that creative on their own. Their fantastical tales, which, as the centuries rolled by, became even more fantastical, came not from their raw untapped imaginations but instead from the origins of truth, honour, and the love of ages. It is curiously interesting to observe that despite the fact that the Church has condemned outright the Dragon blood and its culture, it still recognized that only through that blood and culture could kingship be retained. 130

Such a recognition is borne out by their fraudulent 16Donation of Constantine. The Church claimed that Emperor Constantine had given it the right to crown kings and institute governments across Eurasia. Constantine was a direct descendant of the British PenDragon Kings, themselves of Danaan Origin from the Scythian Dragon King Tribe. Their choice of fallacious donor clearly indicates that the Church itself actually admitted that only descendants of the Dragon culture were rightfully permitted to exert such powers and bestow such dignities. In summation, myself, Ludavik Valentine and several others, those of the Dragon blood, believe, through historical fact, personal life experiences and good ole innate understanding, that Faeries, Elves, Witches, Dragon's and Vampires, all different but equally important components of the whole, are the rightful shepherds of the current human cluster of, mostly, madness, fear, and self-destruction. The Faerie are tuned into a higher frequency of perception and activity in general. In the past, therefore, since the Faeries were, for millennia, physiologically engendered and thoroughly trained to operate at a higher level than men, humans often invited them to become social navigators...A Dragon was...still is...one who saw clearly, and the lucidity of vision created was always definitively associated with wisdom, which in and of itself produces power. So, let's set aside, for a moment or two, the modern myths regarding Faeries, Vampires, Dragon's, Elves and Witches, promoted by the “New Age” racketeers-who simply rehash earlier popular trends (especially Victorian & Edwardian) of cultural expression instead of presenting readers with earnest historical research (beyond the Internet and most popular reference material readily available) and a steadfast understanding of the diachronic truths-and ruminate on this rich, dark history, which, for many of you, have never heard of or even considered that the species, a race set apart, of the Dragon, was rendered by the Roman Church as “evil” and then eventually as mythical creations for their own nefarious agenda, are in fact, that which were created to help mankind. More accurately, to teach, look out for-to shepherd, not for themselves but for the betterment of the whole, of our entire world. We are the Crimson Shepherds. 131 16 -Donation of Constantine is a complete fraud and the Church was never given any worldly powers at all, let alone the right to found dynasties, crown kings or institute governments. The whole document was a lie from beginning to end.

Chapter Nine The Vampire...

A Dark Swan Amongst the “Shining Ones”

Midnight Strands of Silk Who shall understand the Vampire's hair! So subtly caught, and coiled, and garlandedThat maze, that glittering net, that shining snare. Men of true love, and alike untrue, trapped in that cunning waylay upon her head, are captive there‘Tis but a little for such midnight strands of silk to do. Thy darkness of beauty and love, is just a miracle, an innocent gift that the celestial sphere gave to thee; But ah! The uses thou hast put it to, are downright sorcery. Thy lips breathe out such healing that the time of ancient men is come back, and dead men rise. So long thy locks, so strong, thy lovers climb, holding thereby, safe into paradise. On thy dark eyes a hundred blessings rain! Though at each look indeed a lover dies, touching thy lips he comes to life again.

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h those beautifully sexy beasts...Vampire, the fairest of them all, a symmetry of stunning grace and otherworldly aesthetic.

Beauty is a status born from the circumstance of the psyche. For most of humanity, those that have undergone suffering beyond the “norm” and chose to live their lives in utter bitterness and regret, it's not at all startling that they, in general, age more quickly and/or even appear “unlovlier,” and are simply more mean of spirit than those, mundane or vampire alike, that have lived a life bursting to the seams with truth and grace. You are not only “what you eat” but alas, you are also that which you think. All that you do, whether external or internal, eventually can and most likely will, be seen by the rest of the world, on the outside, upon your fleshly vessel. I know and have come to understand, for myself, that not only is it my hard-core Draconian genetics and my more immediate robust biological DNA, it is this evolutionary biology coupled with my innate perception of my own truth and cognition of this world and all it is as well as all the potential it possess, that communicates to my brain the intellect, grace, kindness, forgiveness, mercy, honour, truth and love, that allow my mind to transcend to a level that worries not about aging, or the superficial beauty of the flesh. While I do still experience a certain level of vanity, it is lived, by me, with gratitude, graciousness and the knowledge of the gift that I have been given and the desire for it to never be wasted on frivolous pursuits that only pay homage to the visual aspect of what most of humanity chooses to recognize first and usually foremost. Those borne of the Scythian Royal House were remembered and envied, perhaps even hated, for their extraordinary beauty. Vampires, from the beginning, practiced discriminating procreation in that only the fairest and purest would be selected as queens and kings. Typically, more often than not, those produced from this process were tall in stature with the palest of complexions and the reddest of red gold hair, supporting the structure of their faces in which were set eyes of emerald green. These original progenitors of the Dragon Family were, without a doubt, otherworldly to look upon and of a brilliant beauty. As I mentioned above, recognizing the beauty of the outward body as the genuine or only source of an individuals ravishing aesthetic, is only true for those near-sighted, befooled muggins. 133

The natural arresting isotropy of Living Vampires, from antiquity and all the way into our modern-day evolved race of Draconian splendor, is a symmetry not only of the body but also, and even more so, of the spirit. We simply reflect on the outside that which is inherent and alive inside. In those centuries past, I mean, way past, the Dragon queens and kings were insulated from the trivial inflictions and anxieties with minds which were blooded for deeper affairs. Bestow, then, an intrinsic province of existence whose beneficence and equipoise is reminiscent of the unique grace of the sailing swan, a physical pattern of beauty acquired through centuries of selective breeding, and you metamorphose into a being that whose elegance and temperament is beyond the ordinary and nothing less than transcendental. So, it is of no wonder that the Swan in Faerie Society not only represents an organic structure and physiological development within the Faery brain (which is the Vampire brain, then and now), it also symbolizes that very tranquility of beingness which neurophysiology impresses within the mind of the Faery. Accordingly, it is realized in the countenance and behaviour of that species queens and princesses and kings and princes, the Swan Maidens and Swan Knights of historic legend. 134

It is a bit of a befuddlement to us as to the Vampire Community's adoption and newly defined significance of the term “Swan,” within the last decade or so. The Vampire SubCulture/Community defines a “Swan” simply as: Black Swan, a non-vampyric associate, lover and friend who is loyal and open to the lifestyle (this is the definition created for public consumption). However, unofficially, the term is used amongst members of Houses/Clans/Guilds/Courts and so on and so forth, to describe a willing mundane that is used for “food.” For all the Community's claims of ancient this and ancient that, it seems, at least to us, Ludavik and I, that a better understanding and perhaps some factual knowledge of our historically correct past, would have been of some benefit to those within the Vampire culture claiming “Ancient Knowledge,” upon and for the creations of their “lore,” “customs,” and “vampriric truths,” of this and of that. Just saying. Indeed, folklore's proffering of such beauty comes down to us in tales of Elf Maidens who, in reflective poise and beguiling attractiveness as could only be unmistakeable in enlightened living creatures, are depicted as Swans on the even-tide waters of lakes visibly wrapped in the glow of the moon, who enrapture the witness and enamour his soul forevermore. Like the legends of the enthralling temptation of Faery Gold and the mysterious powers of the vampire, Faery and vampire captivation is a universal motif. In this respect it intimates an innate ability to hypnotize and/or enchant people, though this is not completely accurate or the entire story. There is a certain quality of transcendence about their narrative that goes beyond most non-vampires understanding and current acceptance of what has been spoon fed to humanity from film, novels, and misguided attempts at the true history of these translucently captivating beings. The element of translucence and light that is ascribed to Faeries and Vampires can also be found in the stories pertaining to the shamans (don't conjure images of “New Age” shamans, you'll miss the mark) and kings of Eldorado in South America, where these beings are also acknowledged as the “Shining Ones.” This is a popular epithet, as most are already aware, for the Elves of Eurasia. Jesus, as it has been aforementioned in reliable historical documents, had manifested this ability in the presence of the patriarchs and such a capability is closely connected to the Qabalah in its numerous expressions and modifications. Both Jesus' mother Mary and his wife Mary Magdalene were called the “crystal wombs from whence shined forth the light of god,” a description that strongly implies the Tantric and Qabalistic construct of Starfire....that from whence is the celestial point of the Draconian existence. 135

The Orobourus, the reptilian symbol of wholeness is the Sumaire , the serpent that environs and coils to create an inhaling vortex, a black hole that draws all energy and life into it. Sumaire, Pronouned Shimmarie, the word Sumaire indicates a kinship with that word, which means to luminously radiate as with light and that perhaps had the noesis to bewitch. It is therefore, relevant reflection when one remembers that from the day-break of time the Elven Gods were called the Shining Ones. Here and there is also a relationship with the words Shaman and Shamanism, a practice rooted in Northern Asia, the homeland of the utterers of â&#x20AC;&#x153;Ar Sidhe Cantu,â&#x20AC;? being the fragmented Elven Tribe who went East. To bring this chapter to a close and to sum it up as concisely as I can...beauty is something that is inherent in the Draconian Tribe. Of course, Vampires born in more recent times will more than likely have a greater number of physical attributes in common with their immediate biological inheritance, say, within the last hundred years or so, give and take, than with their Draconian lineage from a millenia ago. However, those of us that are a part of the Dragon bloodline, while we our housed in human flesh, our DNA is from an evolved lineage and while we are not the sum total of our ancestry, we are bound to the truths that are borne from our "A Race Apart, A Species Set Aside" DNA, period. Our true characters are bound within our past and our forefathers. We are a species bound to the love of truth and honour. Our psyches are where our true beauty lives and from within our minds the resplendent cognizant aesthetic radiates and bathes the rest of our entire being-blood, marrow, and soma- in the pure, erotic, truth and exquisite visual aspect of that which is the culmination of being a living human Vampire. With the aforementioned being conveyed, otherworldly beauty is not owned exclusively by the Dragon Bloodline. Beauty, in all it's incarnations, is something that is a unique manifestation of the gift of life to all races and species alike. 136

Chapter Ten Rite of the Vampire

& The Harmony of the Natural Order of Life Itself How do you fill the silences between the ticks of time? Whither fled your strength and your ascending spirit? Whither fled your laughter and your superior condescension? Where now stands your scaffoldingâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s of knowledge, Those limbs of light and truth whereon you climbed, Wherein you played? All are now pulled down by the truth. The lean possessions of your soul shrunk to fill a little box: And all your senses, your delights, turned pale and leached of taste, paled to a scentless draught that rusts your heart to a mere foolish ticking clock. Oh, how your brain must break, your bone must crack, Your blood must clot, your heart must stop, your flesh must rot, your spirit must wither. You are the stricken, dying the true death, shrouded in your long black veil of lies, wrapped in your loss: Silent you wait, clouded by the tears of your true spirit torn by the wind, ragged with soiled mist: where you are wounded there is no healing. Where you decay nothing is sound. ravaged by the false dark, abandoned by your own self. Silent you wait in shadows of gray: Old in your broken houses of flesh and spirit, Old among ruined pillars of stars, old as the halls to which you descend, Old as your deception that finds not an end. Elixirs fade and potions fail, the gold is rusted from your grail. The wine is changed to water thin, the blood is wasted from the skin, And all that from the glass is drunk may leave you only smaller shrunk. Shall there be no alternative? Neither recourse nor choice? The choice is to fall into the sleep of living death and madness Or follow that which is truly within... The truth of the universe, your primaeval energy, Your Natural Order of Life awaits. Open the door to your mind... Come on in.

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T he Rite of the Vampire is neither predatory or sexual. It is neither a form of Freudian psychosis or an expression of true love as it interrelates to any mundane understanding and/or expectation of romantic love. It seems, to us, through personal experience as well from the tangled narratives found within the mists of history, that human love materializes itself as something largely demanding and selfish, ascending as a consequence due to a myriad of chemical and emotional inadequacy (something I'm pretty sure we've all experienced). Having to make a generalization about romantic relationships-as pertaining to humanity-upon a life of observation, it seems that rather than transmute and evolve out of mere reactions to the swirling chemical process in their brain, most couples simply fortify an antiquated maze all in the expectancy of accomplishing conceptualized beliefs. The illuminated hermetic, Royal Rite of the Vampire is an expression of True Love-The Love of Ages, the Love that binds our universe, the Love from whence all came, it is, for Living Human Vampires, the objective element of why our lineage exists in the first place. Starfire-the Quickening (an accelerated biological process experienced by living vampires)cannot be attained by persons questing for some kind of socially elite abstract unity through another individual. The kingdom of which is the Living Vampire's Starfire and its variable natural processes should only be embarked upon without prejudices and without any cerebral insufficiency. It, the Quickening, our Starfire, is a pure Love which is not found in the Nature Man has built around himself, but by which Nature is Consecrated. This sanctified “Love of Ages”, once soaked up and into the very marrow of our Dragon's being, often materializes in its most superlative magnitude when an individual was looking down instead of up, or walking down a different hallway, focusing on the door marked with the flashing neon “vampire” sign and whilst fumbling for the correct key to open that door...and then just like a bolt from the clear blue sky, you've been hit! The Quickening is upon you, in you, and transforming your pure vampiric being. 138

As I briefly explained in Chapter One, the endocrine system is fabulously complex and functions on a responsive closed circuit of perpetually dynamical levels of hormones, interacting and modifying each other in order to maintain a subtle chemical equilibrium. The glands and organs directly related with the living human vampire endocrine system are primarily a greater number of melatonin-sensitive synaptic receptors on both sides of the brain than ordinary human beings...mundanes. As well, we possess a greater number of axons uniting the right and left lobes of the brain via the corpus callosum. This permits for enhanced trans-lobal communication more often than not. Both male and female living human vampires have larger pineal glands than other people (which explains soooooo freaking much, it truly does). Get out your spoons and bibs my darlings because the proof is in the blood pudding. All the aforementioned excites the creation of the hormones most closely identified with Starfire, the Holy Grail of Vampire â&#x20AC;&#x153;communion.â&#x20AC;? Now, remove the rosecolored glassed from your mind, focus and understand clearly that the honourable goals of undertaking the Rite of the Vmapire are to enhance intelligence and to promote longevity...all for the purpose of better serving mankind. The imprisoned focus of energies used by non-vampire beings to prolong defensive performances and configurations of self-delusion are, for us,the Living Vampire, freed from the shackles of spiritual and intellectual slavery and can be used to heighten vigilance and cognition. Within this concentrated attention, there is the revelation of truth and this is the superior materialization of empowered free-thinking...intelligence.

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We, the Draconian Living Vampire, do not As an outcome of the Rite of the Vampire, own the rights to being a Benevolent we are, even now in our modern world, the Creature, yet, it is most assuredly borne germinated seeds of the love of truth and within us just as certain as blood courses honour. The concordance we experience through our veins. (and share wit humanity) from within as an effect of our personal honesty affects our kinship with the natural world of which we hold so very dear to our Draconian hearts. We live more harmoniously and in a mutual dependance with the natural universe... for it is Nature that nourishes and protects us...nourishes and protects all of us, every species existing within our awesome universal continuum. For us, Living Human Vampires, to live any other way, is self-deception and the greatest of insults to Creation. It is a perversion of all that we were borne to be and do, it is a perversion of our Harmony of the Natural Order of Life itself. No Living Human Vampire need wait for their Kingdom Come...thy Kingdom is borne within you. You are the breathing instrument of change. You are the Kingdom incarnate upon this Earth. You are Thy Kingdom Come.

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A Few Helpful Questions For Those on a Quest of True Self... We Hope.

1) For you, what value (besides keeping your body physically functioning) and/or desire do you place upon human blood? 2) What is your perception from days of antiquity and well into the 21sr Century of Mankind and His society?

3) How do you interact within societal constructs? 4) How do you perceive yourself within your current chosen insular community? 5) How do you perceive yourself within the broader aspect of Man's values and â&#x20AC;&#x153;morals?â&#x20AC;? 6) Do you feel like you belong in the ongoing momentum of the majority of humanity's focus for the future, or contrastingly, their lack of focus and continuous wasteland of germinating apathy? 7) How is your over all health? 8) What are your dominating physical attributes, and how accepting of them are you? 9) If you have imbibed human blood, what does the blood do for you. How does it interact with you physically and then, how does it interact with you emotionally? 10) Have you ever or do you now, feel like you are evolved beyond our human societies expectations, biases, and intellectual slavery?

Enjoy. Learn. Grow. Share. Teach. Love. Live.

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moment in your unique tempo of time when one of the early gifts of life given to you was

lost, that gift being innocence (make sure you read the word as “iiiinnnnooooCence,” using the voice & inflection of 'Darkness' from the epic movie “Legend”), maybe you'll learn to view the world in a new light, perhaps even a Darklight, if that is what you choose to see and understand. However, the loss of it is also a gift, losing your innocence is necessary to be able to evolve and move forward (at least I see the loss of it as yet another gift). Perhaps, at least for me this is true...perhaps, when you've decided to accept truths about yourself and the world, when you've decided to look, I mean really look, deep into your own abyss and find your courage, your true voice, and choose to stop shutting out all the chaos of emotions, of human life, of the tragedies that are borne from either the cause and effect of Nature or from Man's own ignorance, and decide that you want to feel again and unlock the cage you've put your heart in...then, perhaps, just then you can reclaim a tiny piece of your innocence-just a sliver of the truth of this world. Perhaps, just perhaps, you will embrace the way that your innocent vision, heart, and spirit, perceived it...just a tiny bit, just a sliver, just enough for your world to work again. Even though we think (are told) that we leave behind who we were in that moment of our lost innocence, our lost freshness, our lost in-corruption, our lost stainlessness; chastity, purity, immaculateness, our blamelessness...In truth, at least for me, who I was, “good” or “bad,” is a vital part of who I've chosen to become, who I am at this very moment. And who I am at this very moment will become a vital part of who I am yet to become. I know, that for me, I absolutely own all that I have ever been, all that I have ever done or will be or do. I do not wish to escape my truth-good or bad. So, for me, the world is not a mess. 142

It, the world, is not heartless-for I am neither of those things-I am not a mess or heartless, and I am a spirited force of this world, of the very same vital import as the air, the water, the earth, the fire and the very DNA of the universe...fundamental, paramount, essential, a vibrant part of the All. I choose the world in which I live. Even though I cannot control the actions of others (good, bad, or indifferent), I absolutely have the power to control my choices, my actions. I absolutely own all that I have ever done, all that I am now, and all that I will become and do. Absolutely. I have chosen my heart. The darker (metaphorical & corporeal) it becomes the more you will be able to see. If the simple touch of a feather upon your skin causes you pain, if all the heavenly stars, are for you, now lying deep in the dirt, if your North Star is now South...stop fighting, stop denying, stop hiding behind everything and everyone...just stop and reclaim a sliver of that lost tempo of your human time...spit out the dead, bitter blood and bullets of your despair, regret, sadness, anger, confusion, and utter hopelessness. No matter what some may preach, hope is not a waste of time. It does not denote weakness or a lack of courage, or inaction. Hope for a better world, a world that makes sense, a world that is not heartless, these are all worthwhile goals, wants and needs, no...hope is very much a part of that lost innocence. Hope helps to move us forward. Hope helps us to create, to love, to make right our wrongs, to forgive and to be forgiven. Hope provides a foundation for our courage, for our thoughts of a better world, for our thoughts of how we can become a better people, a better person. Hope is a â&#x20AC;&#x153;magicâ&#x20AC;? all its own. Hope is what allows us to evolve into better beings and leave behind a legacy of truth, love, and beauty, for the generations to come. Heartless...never, not me, or my children or their children and so on and so forth. What about you? Do you believe that you are not heartless? Do you believe that it's okay to only think about yourself and what you can get from this life, from our Earth and the other sentient beings that inhabit Her with you?

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All manner of creatures communicate with me, always have and always will. Can you guess why that is? So very simple. No matter what horrors I've seen or have unwillingly experienced, I never let go of my early gift of innocence. Many call me na誰ve, or clueless, or even stupid and worthless, simply because I hold tight to that gift, to that little girl, to that creature of purity. Now I am a woman and a mother and a helper of mankind. I see so much more now than most of those who have let completely go of their early gift, of their purity (Purity does not necessarily mean to never have experienced anything in life or to have never experienced anything bad. Purity is truly about how you think and the actions you take upon this earth, in this precious life and how those actions affect others. That is purity of heart and spirit. That is the purity that matters in the bigger picture). The reason I can see so much more than most, is precisely because I have experienced such unspeakable horror, yet I refused to ever let go of that early innocence that was and is unique to my life. It is never too late, if you so desire, for you to do the same. Your age matters not...when all is said and done in your day and you close your eyes to slumber, not truly knowing if you'll even open your eyes to breath and live another day...are you able to see your true character and know that you have lived/are living the best life you can? When all is said and done...are you proud of the life you lived/are living? Now is not the time to tell yourself pretty little lies. Little lies that turn into huge, devastating, lies that dishonor those that love and trust in you, but most importantly, dishonor the gift of life that you have been given. Or, maybe, you truly don't care and just want to consume, shit, create nothing (or worse, create lies & utter bullshit), and wallow in your own ignorant filth and then expire, leaving this incredible miracle, we call life, untouched, or even uglier for you having been in it...that, too, is a choice.

Choose, wisely, for you have the power...the true power, the power that really matters.

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Ill-will defeats itself. Honesty is the true strength. Greed and Manipulation are fading ghosts. Love prevails. Welcome to the uncharted new era of the Draconian Bloodline. Welcome to positive evolution.

We are Living Human Vampires. A race apart, a species set aside... Human yes, but oh, so much more.

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A person is the origin of their actions. Words are important, and can cause change, incite beauty, and teach. We, the inheritors of the Dragon Legacy-Vampires-have made this our priority. However, our actions speak just as loud and clear... you cannot have a proud and chivalrous spirit if your conduct is mean, deceitful, deceptive, and paltry; for whatever a personâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s actions are, such must be their true spirit. Never has a person who has bent themselves been able to help others find their truest selves and their truest path. We, decline to buy our honor, our chivalrous and valiant spirit, with false words and actions. We choose to courageously live wild and free and true, to fight always against those who would oppress others with their lies and deceitfulness. We share these truths with you, not to sing our own praises (as many might have you think) but to encourage you to break free from your chains and live your life in true freedom, if you so desire. What do you choose? We have opened the door, we have wiped away the cobwebs, we have lifted the veil, to show you within our ebon pages of crimson delights, all that we have been, what we have become and what we have the potential to become. It is up to you now. We will always keep reaching far beyond who we are today, at this moment, to become that which we have not even imagined yet. You will want to keep coming back and walking with us on this fabulous journey called the life of a Living Human Vampire. This we promise without any doubt in our eternal Dark Angel hearts.

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Love of the Ages What good are we if we choose to ignore the truth about ourselves and about the amazing gift we call life? Choose...now not later, what you do upon this caustic earth of ours...choose. We choose to love and to share our boundless capacity for love with this world. We choose to embrace this bitter earth and to love Her and appreciate all that the Creator (whatever that means for you) has graciously brought forth for us and within us. We choose love, beauty, honor, integrity, and truth... for ourselves and this bitterly beautiful Earth. What do you choose? We call "it" love. For we have no other reference but our own emotions borne from our own human spirits. We call it love, yet this love that we cling to, fight for, and die for, is beyond us, beyond our universe. This holy grail of life...love...is, to us, what the Creator of the All (whatever that means to you, for creation of all is so far beyond our limited capabilities of understanding...for now) is comprised of. Love is what the Creator of the All has made our universe from, what the Creator has strung all our lives together with. Love is what binds everything together. Real Universal love is far more than a chemical reaction, it is far more than just the need to not be alone, it is far more than just a human emotion...Love is what the Creator in all its glory and wisdom (that is far beyond anything we know) has given us. Love is pure energy that can not die, for energy can only be transformed. What do you choose to do with the most precious of gifts? What do you choose to do with the love that binds our lives, our world, our universe and even beyond, together? Even though our understanding is limited and we are only able to see and feel a sliver of the whole, what do you choose to do with that sliver of the whole that is yours? Love is the Holy Grail, period. We must start making the changes necessary for our world to heal and to thrive...for us to continue to evolve as the Creator needs us to...by choosing to let go of all that truly doesn't matter and living our lives as a tribute to all that does truly matter.

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Together we are an unstoppable force of, beauty, love and truth upon our precious world...separate, we are a plague of falsehoods, greed, and ugliness. Make what you do matter...then pass it on. Make what we do as a unified people matter...and then pass it on to whomever or whatever comes after us. Love is the very stardust from whence we came, the stardust from whence the Creator breathed its breath of life into and gave humanity its soul...one soul divided into our individual bodies...our star body within our fleshly body. "Love" is so much more than most can even conceive.

Love, on a more intimate note... I know that I usually label things, light and dark. I know that I most especially differentiate between dark love and mundane (light) love. I do that metaphorically as well as poetically. The truth about love, real love, as I know it to be, is quite simply this: Love is love. It has no color, no station in life, no country, no religion, no gender, no ideals, no philosophy, and certainly, does not belong to any realm, be it dark or light. Love just is. If your "love" consists of any of these elements, what you have is not pure, unconditional love. You've got something, that's for sure. You have what the majority people settle for, and then you also have all the ugliness, betrayal, dishonesty, manipulation, cruelty, lies & delusions that come along with it. Make no mistake, real love can and usually is full of heartbreak, sacrifice, sadness, loss, and many other powerful passions borne of the human spirit. The difference is that real love is not ugly, dishonest, cruel, manipulative, full of falsehoods, delusions, or any of the other negative qualities that are also borne from our human spirits. There is truly nothing more powerful. The power of true love can not ever be harnessed and used for ill-gotten gain, abuse, manipulations, or anything other than the betterment of that person which you truly love. To even try to harness the power of true love over another, is in and of itself an oxy moron.

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This little reminder is just me, Julia DarkRose, a woman who against all the odds (truly) has found an uncommon thing in this world of increasingly common things, in the most unusual of circumstances...true, pure, unconditional love of the universe, reminding you that no matter what your situation, that which you desire most

can happen to you. Don't confuse common place lust, infatuation, your loneliness, your desire to just be with someone and your desperation, with the real thing...with the holy grail of what our existence is truly about.

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Speak, move, act, in beauty, truth, and compassion, as if you are the very wind that blows through humanityâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s soul. In truth, you are.

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A Little Introspection

Ponder for just a moment, a

topsy-turvy world where in the 21st Century the entire population of our world are Vampires, except for those rare few that are born human. Yet, another plausible scenario,perhaps you go to bed one night, being who you are in this life, but, upon the sun rising the next morning, all that you know about the world had changed. You are now living in an unrecognizable world. Who you were and what you did no longer matter. Are you still that which you were or do you evolve into someone else, become that which is recognized by the new world as someone extraordinary, apart from the new herd? Would you still desire to label yourself a Vampire or would you prefer to wear the label of Human and/or other? Introspection Is a wonderful tool for selfevolution and an awesome way to live happier, healthier, more passionately and probably quite a bit longer...

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...For us, Ludavik and I, life and how we choose to live it and how we choose to express ourselves to each other, those that we love and even to the rest of this world, is naturally simplistic. We merely embrace

Philotimo...

...The Greek art of living, loving, laughing (a lot!), and... eating well (no matter what is on the menu).

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If you are constantly judging the people in your life, when will you have time to just simply love them?

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What do you choose to do with the most precious of gifts? What do you choose to do with the love that binds our lives, our world, our universe and even beyond, together? Even though our understanding is limited and we are only able to see and feel a sliver of the whole, what do you choose to do with that sliver of the whole that is yours? Love and the â&#x20AC;&#x153;waters of lifeâ&#x20AC;? borne from the 'Love of Ages,' is the Holy Grail, period. We must start making the changes necessary for our world to heal and to thrive...for us to continue to evolve as the Creator (whatever that means for you) needs us to...by choosing to let go of all that truly doesn't matter and living our lives as a tribute to all that does truly matter. Together we are an unstoppable force of beauty, love and truth, upon our precious world...separate, we are a plague of falsehoods, greed, and ugliness. Make what you do matter...then pass it on. Make what we do as a unified people matter...and then pass it on to whomever or whatever comes after us. Love is the very stardust from which we came, the stardust from whence the Universal All breathed its breath of life into and gave humanity its soul...one soul divided into our individual bodies...our star body within our fleshly body. "Love" is so much more than most can even conceive.

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Us: Thank the sweet darkness, everything in our life is finally falling into place. We are completely and utterly happy!

Life: LMFAO, one minute, let me see what I can do about thatâ&#x20AC;Ś

What is there to do but simply, when the pain comes, feel it completely and wear it like it really hurts, then start laughing out loud at the thought of being alive.

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The Womb & Urethra

The Pineal Gland

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The Holy Grail

Our entire existence, that of the Living Human Vampire, has always been, still is and probably always will be, one of magic-the magic that permeates from the core of our universe. We are born with the truth of magic and the love of truth and all that encompasses the spirit of creation within our evolved biology.

Honour, loyalty, love and truth until the end.

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Photographer Credits

1) Book cover- Julia DarkRose 2) Page 5- Julia DarkRose 3) Page 6- Jonathan Christopher Martin 4) Page 7- Curt Russel, (model: Oona DeSade) 5) Page 8- Raven Graves 6) Page 11- Jonathan Christopher Martin

Ludavik and I, would like to thank all the awesome photographers who graciously allowed us to use their works of art to enhance our literary artistry.

â&#x20AC;&#x153;Thank you, thank you, thank you! You guys rock...hard!â&#x20AC;?

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References I. First and foremost, I, Julia DarkRose, referenced the memories of my past experiences as well, I harvested my inner Draconian knowledge that I was born with, just like I have done my entire life upon this Earth. II. Ludavik Valentine simply wrote from his heart, mind, and spirit that which he, too, experienced, thus far, over the course of his life. III. Personal Correspondence from Nicholas de Vere, starting in 1997 through 2005, both written to me in the capacity as official Order of the Dragon business, as well as personal letters between Nick and I, regarding our friendship.

Photographer-Jonathan Christopher Martin

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Now we creep into our sanguine beds, We creep and let no more be said.

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