21 Michael’s letter a change of mind and heart

32 had been convinced of his sins and that he had need of salvation, and he had called on the Lord’s name and was saved.

The remarkable change in his letters could not be denied. A letter he wrote a year previously could not help but move any one with compassion, and a year later a complete change had come about and I was delighted.

Albert’s news was the confirmation of Michael’s salvation. Here are extracts from Michael’s previous letter followed by the letter that convinced me he was truly converted. I could believe my brother was telling the truth he had been set up for a crime he had not done. 21 Michael’s letter a change of mind and heart

Dear David, 7th May 1999

With regards to me writing my life story etc, etc, for you to include in your book! Please David forgive me but I am so screwed up, I just could not handle it right now. It takes me all my strength to just write this letter to you…

I am so very pleased that you are concerned for me and that you include me in your prayers and your fellow Christians. I do believe in God and Jesus Christ but even though I pray and ask him to please forgive me for all my sins and to help me to be a better person and to take over the rest of my life on earth and to lead me into heaven - I do not want to go to hell because I know that what I am suffering now is nothing to the perpetual hell which would await me after physical death on earth. My faith is not strong enough and I am so very, very, confused. Even if I get out of here what am I going to do with the rest of my life. I am looking very old, skinny, withdrawn. I have not smiled in almost 4 years. Where am I going to live? How can I earn a living in my condition?

Oh, David I am so very afraid of the future and it hurts me so much to even think about it. I have become old before my time and all I can see is loneliness in some dingy rented room and no chance of ever finding some one (a lady) to love and share things with. Oh, David what am I going to do?

The only thing that stops me thinking about suicide is that hell will be waiting for me and the torment there will be a million times worse.

Will I ever smile again? Will I ever love again? Will any one love me again?

Is it possible to be happy again? I do not have any reason to live and that is so very frightening.

Oh, David I know you have your problems that may be greater than mine and to be honest I do not know how you cope. How do you manage to keep working and keep your home going, the loss of you wife must be