Kill Me With Love

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So many ways to die...

Poems by David Record

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Friend of my heart, sugar to my mind! 7KH GHVLUH \RX WRRN IURP PH LV VR SRWHQW it left a trail behind. :LWK H\HV OLNH Ă€UH \RXU VWDUH FDQ SXULI\ <RXU YRLFH LV OLNH ZDWHU that quenches my thirst inside, my thirst for your love. %XW , FDQ¡W EH VDWLVĂ€HG , QHHG LW WR VXUYLYH so my soul will never cry. Until I see you next, I count down the time, <RX¡UH OLNH WKH VXQ VR IDU LQ GHSWK illuminating my mind, bringing joy to my eyes, when a new day arrives, my lips are a sign, RI D NLVV LQ GLVJXLVH LI \RX ORRN SDVW P\ ZRUGV I never tell a lie, , RQO\ NQRZ KRZ WR ORYH VR OHW PH HGXFDWH \RX demonstrate a touch that would only equate you, separate you, with my deepest passions. /LNH D SHEEOH LQ WKH ODNH \RX ULSSOH ZDYHV WR WKH PDVVHV waves of energy, that vibrates within, because of the seriousness of your expressions, WR WKH VRIW UDGLDQFH RI \RXU VNLQ ,¡P VR SDWLHQW waiting to show you my love, to reciprocate enough, WR KDYH \RX DV D IULHQG ZKHQ ,¡P GRQH I wish for your trust, and just to hold you with a hug, so you can feel how much WKDW ,¡P LQ ORYH ZLWK P\ ORYH

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On this journey through your soul, I have become one with your nature. I stand off from afar, not to endanger, but to see a stranger, in all her beauty.... so intuitively, DQG , FDQ¡W KHOS WKH ORYH , IHOW VWDQGLQJ KHUH inside your atmosphere. You are everywhere. <RXU ERG\¡V VFHQHU\ LV PRUH DOOXULQJ WKDQ DQ\WKLQJ , KDYH HYHU VHHQ a landscape of eternity, hidden behind a fantasy, of paternity, ZKHQ \RX VSHDN WR PH LW¡V OLNH ELUGV LQ WKH WUHHV VLQJLQJ VR IUHHO\ LW ZHDNHQV PH In need of energy, , ORRN WR WKH IUXLWV RI \RXU OLSV VXUHO\ HYHU VR VZHHW only they are out of reach. 6R LQVWHDG ,¡P RQ P\ NQHHV ZLWK D SOHD building a strategy from necessity, until I sleep. Sleep in your lap, all night when I camp, dreaming of your treasures revealed in my map, LI \RX KDYH WR DVN ZKDW ,¡P VHDUFKLQJ IRU" much more than the act, but the passion, devotion, the warmth and enchantment, I live for that. I have never been here before, but yet I feel at home, as if it was somewhere I was always trying to go. 'RQ¡W OHW PH JR just let me roam, so we can grow. $QG RQH GD\ DURXQG WKH JOREH HYHU\RQH ZLOO NQRZ about my journey through your soul.

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-D\ZDONLQJ E\ GHVLUH through emotional sun showers, crossing stones of sapphire, I could cry in that hour, in the twilight of my thoughts, WKHUH·V DOZD\V KRSH EHIRUH GDUN VOHHS ZDONLQJ WR KHU KHDUW day dreaming from a far. Her Summer eyes, Christmas smile KHU KDLU·V OLNH VSULQJ EXW IDOOV ZLWK VW\OH QDWXUDO ZDYHV P\ KHDUW·V UHVWUDLQW ORFNLQJ GRZQ P\ ZRUGV IRU GD\V So they come, and they go, OLNH SULVRQHUV RQ KROG until released again. +HU KHDUW·V WKH VWUHHWV WKH\ ORQJ WR VWUROO Pastures meadows of my mind justify the wings of time, through peaceful thoughts OLNH ZLQG FKLPHV ZKHQ \RX EORZ DFURVV P\ VNLHV The air of you is sweet, garden scent of mint leaves deeply rooted far beneath the loins of my love for you.

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7KH\ VD\ VKH¡V QRW UHDO EXW , VHH KHU DOO WKH WLPH VWXG\ WKH ZDVWHG OLIH RI D PDQ VWULFNHQ EOLQG IRU ORRNLQJ WR Ă€QG KHU H[LVWHQFH LQ EHDXW\ UHGHĂ€QHG , VSHDN LQ IDLWK because only one lie, desecrates this state of mind, she is more than meets the eye, yet I see her all the time , DVNHG *RG LI P\ YLVLRQV RI WKH SHUIHFW JLUO DUHQ¡W UHDO ZK\ DP , VWXFN ZLWK WKHP" He answers “all things were made perfect until man corrupted themâ€? Ahhh!! so I loved again, VKH¡V KHUH L¡P WHOOLQJ \RX VKH¡V KHUH $OO IRU WKH ORYH RI PRQH\ VKH¡V KHUH QRW EHFDXVH RI WKH PRQH\ VKH¡V KHUH but the reason a man would chase money LV EHFDXVH VKH¡V KHUH ZKDW JRRG LV VXFK D ELJ KRXVH ZLWKRXW KHU WR VKDUH" ZK\ WKH Ă€QHVW FORWKHV LI VKH GRHVQ¡W VWDUH" QRW HYHQ D JODUH" ZK\ VKRXOG D PDQ FDUH" (YHU\WKLQJ VKH¡V QRW , GRQ¡W QHHG because everything I want is she, RQH PD\ DVN VHOĂ€VKO\ ZKDW DERXW PH" EXW LW¡V EHWWHU WR VXIIHU WR SOHDVH than to suffer to be pleased. There is no me, without you, she or he, so she is me. which I swear before he, whoever he may be, +HU FRQYHUVDWLRQ LV OLNH D QDYLJDWLRQ out of tribulation, KHU JODQFH LV OLNH GDPQDWLRQ to the man perverse with hatred. Only pain could understand, why she has not yet a man, LQ DQ LPSHUIHFW ZRUOG D SHUIHFW JLUOV¡V IDU IURP WKH KDQG For this world is no more than how one perceives it, VR ZKHQ , VD\ VKH¡V WKH SHUIHFW JLUO even she!! might not believe it. Im telling you she is here, trust me! I see her all the time, always been that perfect girl, forever perfect in my mind.

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!"#$%&'($)%!"#$ for searching lovers

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/RYH NLOOV DQG ORYH FXUHV ORYH KHDOV ORYH¡V VRUHV The translation between the two is a mystical journey only blind faith guides you through. Never yield to opportunity nor set time with destiny, always push through undoubtedly and hear the calling within this remedy. Thorns may pierce the memories, and grief shadows your steps, as tears drown your faith, and anger starts to set, IRU WKH RQH GD\ \RX¡YH GUHDPW ZRXOG UHSODFH \RXU UHVHQW LQVWHDG QLJKW EHFDPH D IULHQG EHFDXVH VOHHS DZRNH regret, but without sustaining till the end. Dear friend, you will never love again. Protect this dream, for this is all you have left. Never nurture it with fruits from seeds of your frets, OLVWHQ WR \RXU ZRXQGV XQYHLO VRUURZ¡V WKUHDWV and challenge the outcome, and outcomes love dressed in its revenge, to murder agonies of past tense with its caress. Ă€QHVVH WKH KDQGOLQJ RI WKLV DUW ZLWK SDWLHQFH IRU WKLV SLFWXUH ZDV SDLQWHG E\ WKH KDQGV RI WKH DIĂ LFWHG and created through the lessons of truth, and remains as you see it, LQ LQĂ€QLWH \RXWK DQG DQFLHQW ZLVGRP UHSURYHG ORYHV Ă€QGV ORYH DOZD\V Love needs love forever, Love hears love years away, and lives solely to be acquainted with its yearning. Its burning lightens the path to its home and never leads love astray. ,W VSHDNV RI GUHDPV DQG HQFKDQWHG WKLQJV never seen through loveless eyes, for love lives to cure love so love never dies.

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Baby, assure me the comforting warmth of your arms OLNH WKH VOHHYHV IURP D VZHDWHU branded with the melodic sounds of your name DQG NQLWWHG ZLWK WKH WKUHDGV RI \RXU ORYH The sweet scented breeze of your hair WKDW EORZV DFURVV WKH HDUWK WR ÀQG PH *LYH PH WKH VHQWLPHQWV RI \RXU KHDUW·V FDQGOH WKDW JXLGHV PH WKURXJK WKH GDUNQHVV RI P\ GHVSDLU never stop burning for me... I see you for who you are... , NQRZ \RXU SDLQ DQG WKURXJK LW DOO , ZLOO WDNH P\ WLPH WR FXUH \RX :LWK P\ GHJUHHV RI ORYH ,·YH DFTXLUHG IURP WKH VWXG\ RI \RXU ERG\·V GLYLQLW\ *LYH PH \RXU KDQG DQG ZH·OO ZDON LQWR IUHHGRP )UHH IURP WKH ERQGV DQG VKDFNOHV RI WKLV XQNLQG ZRUOG into a realm of new beginnings and never endings . :KHUH WKHUH·V QR IHDU LQ WKH ZRUGV ZH VD\ WR RQH DQRWKHU and every letter spells love, and every sentence is a question of your desires, and every minute is spent in your eyes. &DQ \RX EHOLHYH ZLWK PH " Follow my voice and rest in my faith.... EHFDXVH WKH ÀUVW OHWWHU LQ \RXU QDPH is the second in mine. 6R P\ VHFRQG QDWXUH LV WR SXW \RX ÀUVW and rehearse all the steps of this love.

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Living off her breath, gasping for strength love caressed the air I breathe. :LWKLQ D PRPHQW¡V HQG I wish we were wed. Love is a fantasy. My eyes hallucinate before the shrine of her grace, such a face could bring a man so low. :LWKLQ WKLV IRROLVK VWDWH she steals my fate, and shapes it as her own. +HU VKDFNOHV RI WHQGHUQHVV honey glaze my wrists, UHĂ€QLQJ P\ JUH\¡V WR EOXH between her warm wind my rainy days. :H FRXOG EDWKH XQGHU WKH PRRQ How sad the account of being free, GUHDP\ H\HV Ă€QG SDUDGLVH ZKHQ FRQĂ€QHG E\ IDQWDV\ 7R NLVV \RX RQFH ,¡G JLYH LW DOO and die before I leave. 0\ ORYH¡V H[WHQW surpasses death, as she remembers me.

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$OO WKDW FDPH WR SDVW WR Ă€QG \RX crossing rivers of tears, RYHU EURNHQ KHDUWHG VWHSSLQJ VWRQHV to get beside you, outliving late friends I could never touch again, just to hug you. +XJ PH OLNH LW¡V WKH ODVW \RX¡UH PRUH WKDQ WKH\ FRXOG KDYH DVNHG Decades I waited to be under your graces, forgotten faces along the way ZHUH WUDFHV RI D EOLQG GDWH¡V UHYHODWLRQ HDWLQJ RII GHVWLQ\¡V SODWH 2Q EHKDOI RI IDWH¡V UHVHUYDWLRQV made for our acquaintance. $V \RXU IDWKHU VWDUHG LQWR \RXU PRWKHU¡V H\HV procreating a plan for you and I before our time, MXVW WR Ă€QG \RX the creative minds, the construction sites, that built the store we met outside, grafted our lives within their blueprint designs, I had to cry a thousand times, to learn to console you, I could have died a thousand times but not before I found you, ZKHQ , VHDUFK LQVLGH \RXU VSDUNOLQJ H\HV P\ OLIH SOD\V EDFN D JOLPSVH VR PDQ\ WLPHV , ULVNHG P\ OLIH WR VHH P\VHOI OLNH WKLV <RXU ORYH VR NLQG \RXU ZRUGV VR IUHH DQG JHQWOH ZKHQ \RX VSHDN ,¡G KDYH WR OLYH P\ OLIH D VHFRQG WLPH WR Ă€QG D ORYH DV VZHHW I love you here, I love you now forever and for more, ,W WRRN WKH SHUIHFW WLPH WR Ă€QG \RXU ORYH No Lesser and No More.

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2XU ORYH·V IRUELGGHQ E\ RSSRVLQJ IDLWKV though salvation is steps away VXFK SDLQ LW WDNHV abandoning her angelic face ZKLOH PLONLQJ WKH SDUDGLVH RI KHU H\HV the honey in her smile, VKH·V OLNH WKH DPELHQFH RI KHDYHQ heaven for a while. Is God angry with me, for loving outside the category FKRVHQ IRU PH" if we are to be separated eternally, in the hereafter, ZK\ FDQ·W ZH EH IDVWHQHG WHPSRUDULO\ LQ WKLV FKDSWHU" , NQRZ KHU EHOLHIV IRUVDNH PH born equally, yet woven spiritually within hierarchy, appealing for mercy on the authority of her love I need, P\ KHDUW LV FOHDQ \HW ZHDN IURP WURXEOLQJ WKRXJKWV RI *RG·V GHSUHGDWLRQ DJDLQVW PH Yet the joy I feel in her arms could only come from a loving God, WKH JLIW RI P\ OLIH ELUWKPDUNV KHU WRQJXH ZKHQ VKH VSHDNV P\ QDPH moving mountains in my heart. :KHQ P\ IDLWK LV VWURQJ , FDQ ZDON RQ ZDWHUV RI WHPSWDWLRQ DQG QRW GURZQ KRZ PXFK PRUH GHHS WKHVH ZDWHUV RI ORYH" , DVN IDYRXU LQ WKHVH WLPHV RI EORRG Forgive our differences DQG HYHQO\ \RON WKLV ORYH

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;"207#$F#"33 for Jessica

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6KH ZDQGHUHG DORQH WKURXJK P\ PLQG RI GDUNQHVV oblivious to the devices VHW E\ WKH NLQGQHVV RI WLPH but time is no friend to a captive, her curiosity bound her victimized, to a man of impulsion, whose eyes are blind from over indulgence. , VSRNH QR ZRUGV as I disconnected her morale from her morality, and unclothed her secrecies, her eyes searched franticly for my identity, but she found none, only a cold stare of familiarity. +HU ZRUGV VRXQGHG OLNH PXIĂ HG QRWKLQJV as I slowly savored the sweet scent of her innocence and vulnerability, the beauty of her unworldly eyes pierced me, truly too good for these, for the nature of these hands, her foolish eyes too good to see a defaced man As I pleasured my mouth with her two sweet sugar mounds, the heat from my tongue swirling about formed her, DV ZLWK WKH VKDUS VWURNHV RI P\ WHHWK VKH TXLYHUHG with obedience to the lead of her bodily transgressor.

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She breathed as if running away in her mind, but could not escape, as I pulled her hair from behind, and forced her down, GRZQ LQWR DSSUHFLDWLRQ RI KHU PLVWDNHV and acceptance of never getting away. As she succumbed to my ravishing whisper, I forced open the gates to her forbidden treasure, DV P\ ÀQJHUV URDPHG XS DQG GRZQ KHU FRUULGRUV she begged for my repute, but felt dismayed she could not refrain from losing her fountain of youth. Tears of joy ran down her inner thighs, as she cried on the inside, I embellished her pain, she would never be the same, eyes opened to the cruelty of her own mind, which betrayed her and acquainted with mine, her body disowned her and chose a new foster. Deep within her, I rose to become all I am, GHHSO\ UHÀQLQJ DQG FROOLGLQJ WKLV ULYHU GDP until it gave way, and poured out the love restraint, she wept the sweet sounds of dignity, as I released all seeds of sanity, and drew her down with me into a world of sinful bliss.

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'RQ¡W OHW WKHP IRRO \RX 7KLV LV D ZRUOG \RX GRQ¡W NQRZ where everyone is afraid RI WKH ORYH WKH\ GRQ¡W VKRZ 6SHDNLQJ LQ FRGHV while stepping on toes, through the land of the dead where life will never grow. :KHUH IHWXV FDQ¡W VXUYLYH but there silence is alive, where a fool is considered wise IRU KLV VFKHPHV RQ RWKHU¡V OLYHV Because good deeds are the soil for bad seeds toiled, So he who has the open heart VSHDNV GHDWK RQWR KLV VRXO :KHUH Ă€UH Ă€JKWV Ă€UH within a ring of hell, but when the blind protect the blind ZKR ZLOO OLYH WR WHOO" :KHUH WUXWK LV FDJHG DQG OLHV DUH WDPHG E\ D EHQHIDFWRU¡V JUHHG where love is made from concentrate Ă DYRUHG DUWLĂ€FLDOO\ They scream long live the dead. They chant for death to set them free. The scent of blood is on their breath, WKH URWWHQ Ă HVK RI OLEHUW\

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This hate lives in my despair, LW FHOHEUDWHV P\ HYHU\ EUHDWK DQG JLYHV WKDQNV IRU WKH GD\ LW GULQNV WR P\ SDLQ LQWR[LFDWHV LWVHOI ZLWK GHDWK and goes to prepare my grave, OLNH DQ HQHP\ EHIULHQGLQJ PH DOO P\ ORQHO\ GD\V PRXUQLQJ DW P\ ZDNH HYHU\ PRUQLQJ , ZDNH ,I \RX EHOLHYH LQ JKRVWV ORRN GHHS ZLWKLQ PH and hear the silent screams of eternity, a residency occupied by vacancy, a place in me, PDGH IRU QR RQH WR FRPH EXW WDNHV HYHU\RQH DQG VWLOO IRUVDNLQJ PH My belief in a cure, is the cure in which I believe, yet this intangible grief still captures me physically within its reach, it holds me tight to this leash despite WKH Ă€JKW , JLYH WR OHDYH D FRRO EXUQLQJ XQGHUQHDWK P\ VNLQ eternally bleeding from within. This evil seed planted in my fertile memory, feeds from the minerals of my energy, LW¡V ZDWHUHG ZLWK WKH WHDUV RI P\ PLVHU\ DQG DWWUDFWV OLJKW IURP WKH Ă DPH LW LJQLWHV ZLWKLQ PH its roots are grounded permanently beneath my reach, and grows sporadically, No one can muster my pain, without, VXIIHULQJ WKHVH Ă DPHV

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.0$%&"'(.)0*1 %", !"#$%"(%2$+.0 for My Anonymous love

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Give me love or give me death, sweet sweet death, come save me from this life, DW QLJKW ,¡YH ZHSW WHDUV RI WKH GHDG FRQĂ€QHG LQ D WLPHOHVV ELQG FXUVHG E\ ORYH , FRXOG QRW Ă€QG ZKDW LV WKLV OLIH RI PLQH" I can not see, but in death maybe, P\ OLIH ZLOO UHSUHVHQW ORYH Ă€QDOO\ eventually Love in the eyes of those who hate me, DQG ZLVK WR EUHDN PH ORRN ZKDW GHDWK PDGH PH even to those more fortunate to have been granted love, appreciate me, IRU , DP WKH FRQWUDGLFWHG UHĂ HFWLRQ RI WKH ORYH WKH\ UHFHLYH VR WKDQN PH )RU ORYH , ZLOO Ă€JKW QRW WR NLOO QRU WR GLH but to capture love alive. ,QVWHDG , VXUYLYHG D ORYHOHVV Ă€JKW held captive to my pride, bound behind the gates of strife, tortured day and night. :K\" Oh generous death VR ORQJ ,¡YH GUHDPW DZDNH PH IURP WKLV OLIH spread my bed in colors of red, so we may wed tonight, FRPH WRXFK P\ Ă HVK ZLWK \RXU FDUHVV and lift my spirit high, JLYH PH \RXU OLSV DQG WDNH P\ EUHDWK I live for you tonight. My heart is hollow, it swallows me whole, sorrow corrodes my bones. ,¡YH VWDUYHG IRU ORYH DQG QRZ P\ OLIH LV DV D FDVNHW FORVHG P\ VPLOLQJ IDFH LV SLFWXUH IUDPHG IRU RQORRNHUV WR VHH already forgotten in my present state how love rejected me.

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She has therapeutic eyes, her eyes are monetized by a system, depreciating my life ZLWK WKH LQà DWLRQ RI SULFH over the time I spend within them 7KHVH H\HV DUH ZRUWK D ZKROH GD\¡V ZRUN H\HV D SRRU PDQ FDQ¡W DIIRUG even with all the riches spent your heart is still in debt. RQFH NQRFNLQJ DW KHU GRRU This game we play, is built from shame, deep sorrows of affairs, VWLOO WKH RQO\ SDLQV , NHHS LQ YDLQ are thoughts I cannot share, How could she explain P\ LQIDWXDWHG SDLQV ZLWKRXW EHLQJ FRQIXVHG" the more I search for love, within this place, WKH PRUH L¡P PLVXQGHUVWRRG For this sensuous segregation, I need a mental translation, EHWZHHQ RXU ERGLHV¡ FRQYHUVDWLRQ through internal mediation. :KDW LI P\ SUREOHP OLHV ZLWKLQ P\ VLOHQW FULHV RI SDVVLRQDWH VLJKV IRU WKHH" Your expensive eyes are therapeutic ties that bind you and me.

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Too young was my heart aggrieved, screaming my plea, gently, PRPP\ GRQ·W OHDYH mommy please, all I need is mommy. %XW PRPP\ FRXOGQ·W VDYH PH DOZD\V VD\LQJ \RX·OO FRPH EDFN WR PH DOZD\V EDFN RQ P\ NQHHV , NQRZ \RX FDQ·W VHH SDVW P\ LQIDQF\ to see my disbelief. Your smile is scary to me, as you leave, <RX·UH QHYHU WKHUH WR VHH ZKDW \RX GR WR PH , GRQ·W XQGHUVWDQG WKHVH FKLOGKRRG SDLQV RI D PDQ ,·P JURZLQJ WRR IDVW Your merciless plans to give me all I have, , ZRXOG KDYH JLYHQ EDFN IRU PRPP\ %\ WLPH \RX JRW EDFN P\ IDLWK KDG FROODSVHG my eyes hardened now passed trusting your judgment DQG VXJJHVWLRQV IRU ZKDW , ODFN

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Hate resides in my tongue and I smile as you did once 2XW LQ WKH ZRUOG ORRNLQJ IRU PRPP\ KRZ FDQ , PDNH KHU ORYH PH , SURPLVH ,¡OO EH JRRG ,¡YH EHHQ ZDLWLQJ OLNH \RX WROG PH and never left the stoop, RQO\ MXVW WR Ă€QG \RX DQG EULQJ \RX EDFN WR WKH URRW WR NHHS \RX DZD\ IURP HYHU\WKLQJ RXW WKHUH Your place is here, ZK\ GRQ¡W \RX ZDQW PH" , PD\ VHHP RYHU ORYLQJ ,¡P VRUU\ 3OHDVH GRQ¡W OHDYH GRQ¡W OHDYH PH OLNH mommy 6KH GRHVQ¡W NQRZ VR PXFK ZDVQ¡W WKHUH WR ZLWQHVV QRU IHHOV REOLJDWHG WR UXVK to tell me hush, in the middle of the night with no one to hug, VWLOO DIUDLG RI WKH GDUN WKH GDUNQHVV LQ P\ KHDUW P\ GDUNHVW WKRXJKWV , NQRZ VXFK ORYH ,¡YH EHHQ KHUH RQFH she appeals to my trust ..... MXVW OLNH mommy.... It feels unjust, but my hopes are up, , ZRQW FRPSODLQ ,¡OO VDFULĂ€FH WRGD\ LI WRPRUURZ \RX VWD\ EXW VKH UXQV DZD\ OLNH DOO WKH EDE\VLWWHUV SDLG to replace the love of mommy. Mommy, ZK\ GLGQ¡W \RX WHDFK PH WKDW ORYH LVQ¡W DOO KRQHVW\ but sometime scarcity, not all charity though sometime vanity, not always soldiery but casualty. ,¡P WRUQ EHWZHHQ DQ XQGHYHORSHG PDWXULW\ ODFNLQJ IDQWDV\ RI P\ RZQ IDPLO\ DQG WKH DIĂ LFWHG FKLOG LQ PH crying for his mommy, L¡P WXUQLQJ ZRPHQ DJDLQVW PH PLVOHDGLQJ DQG OHDYLQJ PH FU\LQJ OLNH WKH \RXQJ PH VWDULQJ WKURXJK P\ H\HV¡ ZLQGRZV UHPLQGLQJ PH RI WKH UDLQ\ GD\V RI \RX when my tears drew, years ago, always waiting for mommy.

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One poor boy for sale, going cheap, to the woman of greed. 0\ H\HV DUH PHHN P\ KHDUW LV XQGHU but my mind is free. , KDYH WKH Ă€QHVW HDUV WR KHDU DOO Ă DWWHULQJ ZRUGV RI GHFHLW , WDNH VHFRQGKDQG EDWWHULHV RI OXVW DQG QHYHU JLYH XS ,¡P \RXU UHFHLSW

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)LUVW FRPH Ă€UVW VHUYH WR WKH FRYHWRXV JLUO I am reusable, and negotiated under the table of trust, my conversation is rustproof and smooth as a hush, TXLFNO\ GLVSRVDEOH RQFH \RX¡YH XVHG PH XS DQG ZRQ¡W FRPH EDFN WR KDXQW \RXU PHPRULHV RI XV 3RRU ER\ IRU VDOH ,¡P \RXUV WR NHHS my price has dropped, EHFDXVH RI VKH WKDW EURNH P\ VHDP and damaged my idealistic dreams, with her temper when she smashed me, against the walls of her grief. ,¡P LQWHUQDOO\ FKLSSHG EXW VWLOO HTXLSSHG for you to purchase me. Going once to the lady of discretion, going twice to the damsel distressing, EXW JRQH WR WKH ZLWFK ORRNLQJ IRU D EOHVVLQJ to add to her potion of demolition, a potion of ruin, used against her jealous pursuant, my transaction of blood is exclusive, DQG UXQV Ă XHQW IRU KHU DPXVHPHQW Come one, come all and see, WKHUH¡V QHYHU EHHQ DQRWKHU Ă€QH DV PH selling so cheap. ,¡P SURIHVVLRQDOO\ WUDLQHG LQ EHLQJ OHG DVWUD\ My empty heart has much space to play, much recreation for your day, DIWHU RXU EUHDN I lay in wait, just in case you have free time again. Is there any advance upfront, WR WKH KLJKHVW ELGGHU RI ORYH" No hands go up for a poor boy prejudged, E\ KLV NLQG ZRUGV DV VXFK SHUFHLYHG DQRPDORXV through the eyes of unjust and un-monogamous, 2VWHQWDWLRXVO\ WKH\ ORRN GRZQ DW PH ,W VHHPV ,¡P VHOOLQJ VDQLW\ because all my love is free.

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Copyright Š David Record 2012 All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means - electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording or any information storage and retrieval system - without written permission from the publisher, except by a reviewer who wishes to quote brief passages for inclusion in a review. Cataloguing information available through Library and Archives Canada Published in 2013 by Rise Again Entertainment Inc.

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