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ESCAPE AND OTHER ESSAYS
ESCAPE AND OTHER ESSAYS BY
ARTHUR
CH]p,ISTOPHER BENSON
I love people that leave some tracei of their journey behind them, and I have strength enough to advise you to do so while you can.—Thomas Grat.
i»»>tV**»
NEW YORK THE CENTURY 1915
CO.
I
i
XI 2o]^yright, 1915,
The damrnY
by
Co.
Published, October, 1915
TABLE OF CONTENTS PAGE
OHAPTEE I II III
ESCAPE
3
LITEEATtTRE AND LIFE
25
THE NEW POETS
47
WALT WHITMAN V CHARM
rv
.
91
SUNSET VII THE HOUSE OF PENGEESICK VIII VILLAGES VI
115 129 139
DREAMS X THE VISITANT XI THAT OTHER ONE
IX
XII XIII
153 175 187
SCHOOLDAYS AUTHORSHIP
201
229
HERB MOLY AND HEARTSEASE XV BEHOLD, THIS DREAMER COMETH
XIV
63
.
.
.
253
.
.
.
.279
NOTE I desire to record
my
obligations to the Editor
of the Ceniwry Magazine, and to the Editor of the
CornhUl Magazine, for their permission to include in this
volume certain essays which appeared
first
in their pages.
A. C. B.
INTRODUCTION
WALKED
I
Cam
is
to-day down by the riverside.
a stream
much
wild and romantic scenery
the eyes of our boys,
nearly to a canal in
is
its
slighted ;
and
that
— and
is
therefore
am
walk there, "
if
and the
sure; and
But
!
my
it is
a beauti-
ghost will certainly
our loves remain," as Browning
says, both for the sake of old memories
own sweet
love of its
peaceableness,
and for the
I passed out
of the town, out of the straggling suburbs,
from
tall,
delib-
many more famous
more adapted for the ma-
noeuvers of eight-oared boats ful place, I
merit, in
approaches more
straightness
eration of its slow lapse than floods
its chief
it
The
by the lover of
away
puffing chimneys, and under the clanking
railway bridge; and then at once the scene opens,
wide pasture-lands on either
side,
and rows of old
willows, the gnarled trunks holding
tered rods. rises the
There on the other
up
their clus-
side of the stream
charming village of Fen Ditton, perched vii
Introduction on a low ridge near the water, with church and vicarage and irregular street, and the
gabled Hall looking over
then, Ijing back,
among
old grange, called Poplar Hall,
ing trees
;
and then a
little
red-
barns and stacks.
its
More and more wiUows, and
little
an
high-stand-
weir, where the falling
water makes a pleasant sound, and a black-timbered lock, with
another old house near by, a secluded re-
Ely
treat for the bishops of
The bishop came
in medieval times.
by boat, no doubt, and
thither
abode there for a few quiet weeks, when the sun lay hot over the plain; and a
little
further
down
is
a
tiny village called Horningsea, with a battlemented
church among orchards and thatched houses, with its
own
disused wharf
the sense of a I
know.
Then
presently
stretches for miles
you can
see,
— a place which
gives
me
bygone age as much as any hamlet interminable
the
and miles
fen
in every direction;
from the high green flood-banks of
the river, the endless lines of watercourses and faroff
clumps of trees leagues away, and perhaps the
great tower of Ely, blue on the horizon, with the vast spacious sky over-arching
a beautiful place in
unbroken
silence, I
its
all.
width,
its
If that
is
not
greenness, its
do not know what beauty
is!
Introduction Nothing that historians
happened
there.
It
is
out of the old lagoon reed-beds
a hardly
No
and pasture. business,
life
and low-lying
fishes, into
an event has ever
call
a place that has just drifted of the past, the
islands, of
peaceful
less
life
of
marsh-fowl and life
of cornfield
one goes there except on country
no armies ever marshaled or fought
The sun goes down
in flame
there.
on the far horizon the ;
wild duck fly over and settle in the pools, the flowers rise to life year
slow water-courses
;
by year on the edges of
the calm mystery of
and remembered; but
seen
it
can be
can hardly be told
it
in words.
Now
side
by
side with that I will set another
picture of a different kind.
A The
week or two ago I was traveling up North. stations
we passed through were many of them
full of troops, the trains
diers,
sol-
and very healthy and happy they looked.
was struck by were
were crammed with
civil
their friendliness
;
and modest; they did not behave as
they were in possession of the
suppose they were, but as ix
if
I
and kindness they
line, as
if
actually I
they were ordinary
Introduction travelers,
an
and anxious not to incommode other peo-
saw
soldiers
old frail
woman
I
ple.
doing kind
little offices,
helping
carefully out of the train
handing out her baggage, giving chocolates to
and chil-
dren, interesting themselves in their fellow-travel-
At one
ers.
place I saw a proud and anxious
an old
father, himself
jolly
soldier, I think, seeing off
young subaltern to
pressed tears the young ;
and
delight,
the front, with hardly sup-
man was
full
of excitement
but did his best to cheer up the spirits
of " Daddy," as he fondly called him.
proud of our ness
and
a
I felt very
and kind-
soldiers, their simplicity
real goodness.
I
was
gla'd to
belong to
the nation which
had bred them, and half forgot the
grim business
on which they were bent.
stopped at a junction. a strange officer,
legs
little
evidently been
was incased
wounded ; one
in a surgical contrivance,
had a bandage round
We
I caught sight of
There was a young man, an
group.
who had
And here
his head.
He
sat
of his
and he
on a bench
between two stalwart and cheerful-looking soldiers,
who had
their
arms round him, and were each hold-
ing one of his hands. clearly at
first,
in front of
I could not see the officer
as a third soldier was standing close
him and speaking encouragingly to him,
X
Introduction him from the
while at the same time he sheltered
But he moved away, and at the same mo-
crowd.
ment the young
drawn and sunken
face,
a brow compressed with
and looked wildly and
pain,
head, displaying a
officer lifted his
in
round him, with large melancholy
a
way Then he
terrified
eyes.
began to beat his foot on the ground, and struggled to extricate himself from his companions
;
and
then he buried his head in his chest and sank down It was a sight
an attitude of angry despair.
in
that I cannot forget.
Just before the train went
my
carriage,
" That
and as we
off,
officer
said
started,
a sad business there
's
an
—
it
got into to'
me,
a young
is
—
who was taken prisoner by the Germans one of our best men he escaped, and after endur-
officer
;
ing awful hardships he got into our
lines,
was
wounded, and sent home to hospital but the shock ;
and the anxiety preyed on
his mind,
is
sanatorium, but I fear there
is
become, they fear, hopelessly insane sent to a little
chance of his recovery
head as well as the
foot.
;
girl.
,
.
."
xi
he
He
devoted to soldiering, and he
charming
and he has
— he
is
is is
wounded
being
very in the
a wealthy man,
just engaged to a
:
Introduction
Now
there
is
a hard and bitter fact of
from the story of the fenland.
different
going to argue about
it
trace the threads of
back into
it
or discuss
it,
life,
I
very
am not
because to
entangles one
life
at once helplessly in a dreadful series of problems
how
namely,
comes to pass that a calamity,
it
grievous and intolerable beyond all calamities in its
pain and sorrow and waste, a
and dreaded by
all
in every shade of
who
strife
are concerned in
abhorred
it,
fruitful
misery and wretchedness, should
yet have come about so inevitably and relentlessly.
No
one claims to have desired war
that
it is
;
all alike
plead
in self-defense that they are fighting,
and
maintain that they have labored incessantly for
Yet the great
peace.
mills of fate are turning,
and grinding out death and shame and
Every one
sickens for peace,
of peace
drowned
The
is
loss.
and yet any proposal
in cries of bitterness
and rage.
wisest spend their time in pointing out the
blessings which the conflict brings.
The mother
hears that the son she parted with in strength and
courage
is
moldering in an unknown grave, and
chokes her tears down. labor
is
The
fruit
of years of
consumed, lands are laid desolate, the xii
Introduction weak and innocent are wronged ; yet the great warengine goes thundering and smashing on, leaving
hatred and horror behind
it
;
and
the while
all
men
pray to a God of mercy and loving-kindness and entreat His blessing on the Is there then, if
work they are doing.
we are confronted with such
problems as these, anything to do except to stay
and
prostrate, like Job, in darkness
enduring the stroke of sorrow?
despair, just
Is
there
any
excuse for bringing before the world at such a time as this, the delightful reveries, the easy happiness,
the gentle schemes of serener and less troubled
days?
The book which
follows
was the work of
a time which seems divided from the present by a
dark stream of unhappiness.
the eyes of those
Is it right,
is
it
an old picture of peace before
decent, to unfold
who have had
Would
and destruction?
it
to look into chaos
not be braver to burn
the record of the former things that have passed
away?
Yes, I believe that
do
this,
it is
right and wholesome to
because the most treacherous and cowardly
thing we can do
is
to disbelieve in xiii
life.
Those old
Introduction dreams and visions were true enough, and they
They
be true again.
represent the real
We
which we must try to return. build
up
we were
only overcome
it
astray.
all
by confessing
which we must
by holding
cannot abolish
by
it
;
we can
fast to our belief in
It
is
a temptation
to philosophize too
much
the problems in their
all
I do not believe for an instant that
our vision of peace.
falsified
more than
it
resist,
enough to hold
grasp.
to
must try to
Very few minds are large enough and
about war.
has
We
ourselves worsted
labor and order and peace.
clear
dwell in
to
the conception afresh, not feebly to con-
fess that evil
will
life
ever,
we must emphasize
I regard
it.
war
of pestilence; the best
brood over
it,
We
war
must cling it,
we must
aS I regard an outbreak
way
to resist
it is
but to practise joy and health.
not to
The
ancient plagues which devastated Europe have not
been overcome by philosophy, but by the upspring-
men to live cleaner and more wholeThat instinct is not created by any
ing desire of
some
lives.
philosophy or persuasion;
and
finds its
To
way
it
just arises everywhere
to the light.
brood over the war, to spend our time in
disentangling
its
intricate causes, seems to
xiv
me a
Introduction But a
task for future historians.
lover of peace,
confronted by the hideousness of war, does best to try, if
he can, to make plain what he means by
why he
peace and
peace an indolent
mean hard and lavish console flict
daily work, help,
and
— not
desires
it.
life, lost
mean by
And
effort to
reassure and
I mean, too, a real con-
a conflict where we set the best and
bravest of each nation to spUl each other's blood
but a conflict against crime and disease and ness
and greediness and
cruelty.
fighting to be done; can
our common against
I
and mutual understanding,
and the
uplift.
I do not
in gentle reveries.
We
selfish-
is
we not combine to
foes, instead of
evU?
There
destroy
—
much fight
weakening each other in
war our
finest
parental stock, we waste our labor, we lose our
garnered store; we give every harsh passion a chance to grow.
5
And
yet there
which I do
fighting for, It
is
my
in
is
one thing in the present war
heart of hearts feel to be worth
and that
is
for the hope of liberty.
hard to say what
essence of
it is
liberty
is,
because the
the subjugation of personal inclina-
XV
Introduction
The Germans
tions.
meaning of
the
at
it
lies
by
claim that they alone
But
discipline.
in the fact that the
an example of
to set
the world to choose
not choose
they
it,
but that
;
feel that the
war
Germans are not content
if
and to
leave
the world will
it
upon them by
It is this
which makes me
will force
and the sword.
violence
war may be a vast protest of the na-
which have the
tions,
the bitterness of this
attractive virtue, it
know
and that they have arrived
liberty,
spirit of the future in their
hearts, against a theory of life that represents the spirit of the past.
And
I thus, with some seeming
inconsistency, believe that the
the hope of peace at bay. this clearly before
war may represent
If the nations can keep
them, and not be tempted either
into reprisals, or into rewarding themselves spoils of victory, if victory
Germans being
comes
;
if it
by the
ends in the
sincerely convinced that they have
been misled and poisoned by a conception of right
which
is
both uncivilized and unchristian, then I our sufferings
believe that all
may
not be too great
a price to pay for the future weU-being of the world.
That
is ;
when
all
it
seems
the largest and brightest hope I
and there are many hours and days
dare to frame
clouded and dim. xvi
Introduction
We
cannot at this time disengage our thoughts
from the war we cannot and we ought not. ;
less
can we take refuge from
it in idle
Still
dreams of
peace and security but at a time when every paper ;
and book that we
see
from
it,
batants,
and minds for a
we brood over
If
it.
especially if it is
its suf-
must be men and women who would do
ferings, there
well to turn their hearts
upon
war and
of the
is full
aU apt
it, if
we
little
away
feed our minds
we are by necessity noncomto turn to a festering horror
which makes us useless and miserable.
Whatever
happens, we must try not to be simply the worse for the war, morbid, hysterical, beggared of faith
and hope, evils
;
horrified with
and I
life.
believe that it is
That
is
the worst of
wholesome to put as
far as we can our cramped minds in easier postures,
and to
our
let
spirits
know how a dog who comes
fierce
imaginary
and
is
furious,
perpetually chained be-
and thinks of nothing but
foes, so that the
becomes an enemy.
We
have a wider range.
most peaceful passer-by
I have
felt,
began, a certain poison in the
since the
air,
war
a tendency
towards suspicion and contentiousness and vague hostility.
We
must exorcise that xvii
evil spirit if
we
Introduction can; and I believe
it is
best laid
by
minds go back to the old peace for a solving that the
coming
may
letting our
little,
new peace which we
shall be of a larger
and
re-
believe is
and nobler quality ; we
thus come to appreciate the happiness which
we enjoyed but had not earned; and lay our plans for earning a
new kind of happiness, the
essence of
which shall be a mutual trust, that desires to give
and share whatever it
and guarding
it
enjoys, instead of hoarding
it.
A wise and unselfish woman wrote to me the other day
in
words which
will
long
live in
my
mind ; she
had sent out one whom she dearly loved to the front,
and she was
as she could. give
way
fighting her fears as gallantly
"Whatever happens we must not
to dread," she wrote.
" It does not do to
dread anything for our own treasures."
That
is
the time of war,
what
What we must
the secret! is
their sacrifices
not do, in
to indicate to every one else
ought to be; we must just
make our own sacrifices and perhaps the man who loves and values peace most highly does not sacrifice the least. But even he may try to realize that ;
life it,
does not contradict itself ; but that the parts of
whether they be delightful or dreadful, do work
into each other in a marvelous way.
ESCAPE AND OTHER ESSAYS ESCAPE
ESCAPE AND OTHER ESSAYS I
ESCAPE
ALL
the best stories in the world are but one
story in reality
—
the story of an escape.
the only thing which interests us
It
is
all
times
— how
to escape.
The
all
and at
stories of Joseph,
of Odysseus, of the prodigal son, of the " Pilgrim's
Progress," of the " Ugly Duckling," of Sintram, to
name only a few out
all stories
stories.
of a great number, they are
is the same with all love" The course of true love never can run
of escapes.
It
smooth," says the old proverb, and love-stories are but tales of a
man
or a woman's escape from
the desert of lovelessness into the citadel of love.
Even
tragedies
like
those
of
" CEdipus "
and
" Hamlet " have the same thought in the background.
In the tale of CEdipus, the old blind king
3
;!
Escape and Other Essays in his tattered robe,
who had committed
in igno-
rance such nameless crimes, leaves his two daugh-
and the attendants standing between the old
ters
and the marble tomb by the sacred
pear-tree
fountain till
;
he says the last faint words of love,
the voice of the
god comes
upon the
thrilling
air:
" CEdipus,
why
delayest thou ?
Then he walks away
,
"
at once in silence, leaning
on the arm of Theseus, and when at ers dare to look, they see
last the
Theseus afar
screening his eyes with his hand, as too dreadful for mortal eyes
but CEdipus in
is
hope and wonder.
him upon
that
is
off, alone,
some sight
if
had passed before him
gone, and not with lamentation, but
the peal of ordnance late
watch-
Even when Hamlet is
shot
his escape
the same in
off, it is
dies,
and
to congratu-
from unbearable woe ; and If our eye falls on the
life.
men and women who have died by own hand, how seldom do they speak in the
sad stories of their
scrawled
messages
they
though they were going to It
is
just the other way.
them as
leave
behind
silence
and nothingness
The unhappy
mothers who, maddened by disaster,
fathers
and
kill their chil-
dren are hoping to escape with those they love best
4
Escape out of miseries they cannot bear
Lot
together, as
man who
they mean to
The man who
city of the plain.
not the
;
fly
with his daughters from the
fled
slays himself
is
hates life; he only hates the sor-
row and the shame which make unbearable that which he loves only too
life
migrate to other conditions
he cannot
live so.
It
is
He
well. ;
is
trying to
he desires to
but
live,
the imagination of
man
that makes him seek death; only the animal endures, but
man
hurries
away
in the
hope of finding
something better. It
is,
however, strange to reflect
imagination
is
when
beyond him, how
it
little
how weak man's
comes to deal with what able he
is
that he desires to do when he has escaped from
The of
life.
unsubstantial heaven of a Buddhist, with
unthinkable Nirvana, all
its
attributes
Mahometan
merely the depriving
the
duU
its
life
sensuality of the
paradise, with its ugly multiplication
of gross delights in light
;
is
is
to devise anything
;
the tedious outcries of the saints
which make the medieval scheme of heaven
into one protracted canticle
unattractive,
—
these are all deeply
and have no power at
vigorous' spirit.
Even the
all
over the
vision of Socrates, the
hope of unrestricted converse with great minds, 5
is
— Escape and Other Essays a very unsatisfying thought, because little
The
and
which makes
rest,
pain and
life interesting,
hope and satisfac-
relief,
— and
danger and security,
tion,
yields so
fact, of course, is that it is just the va-
riety of experience toil
it
material to work upon.
move the idea of
if
from
vicissitude
life,
comes an indolent and uninspiring the process of change which
is
we once
re-
all be-
it
It
affair.
is
delightful, the find-
ing out what we can do and what we cannot, going
from ignorance to knowledge, from clumsiness to even our relations with those
skill;
bound up with the
are all
whom we
discoveries
love
we make
about them and the degree in which we can help
them and
What
affect them.
tively dislikes is stationariness
in
the ;
mind
instinc-
and an existence
which there was nothing to escape from, nothing
more to hope
for, to learn, to desire,
would be
frankly unendurable.
The reason why we dread death It
memory ory
is
would be
conditions
if
it
it
all
our familiar activi-
have nothing but
to depend upon.
that
because
terrible to
seems to be a suspension of ties.
is
The only
use of
mem-
distracts us a little from present
they are duU, and
6
it is
only too true
Escape happy things
that the recollection in sorrow of
is
torture of the worst kind.
Once when Tennyson was suffering from a dangerous
his
illness,
Tennyson
friend Jowett wrote to
to suggest that the poet
fort in thinking of all the
that
might find com-
good he had done.
But
not the kind of comfort that a sufferer
is
desires
Lady
we may envy a good man
;
of activity, but
we cannot
his retrospect
really suppose that to
meditate complacently upon what one has been
enabled to do is
is
the final thought that a
to indulge.
likely
torment himself over
He all
is
far more likely to
that he might have done.
true, I think, that old
and
pass into a quiet serenity; but
It is
It
is
of the old dog if
he
is
who
good man
sleeps in the sun,
tired people
the serenity
wags
his tail
invited to bestir himself, but does not leave
his place
;
and
but a
dumb
more
is
if
one reaches that condition,
it is
gratitude at the thought that nothing
expected of the worn-out frame and fa-
tigued mind.
But no
one, I should imagine, really
hopes to step into immortality so tired and worn out that the highest hope that he can frame that he will be let alone forever.
We
is
must not
trust the drowsiness of the outworn spirit to frame
7
Escape and Other Essays the real hopes of humanity.
If
the next experience ahead of us
we
believe that
is like
that of the
mariners,
In the afternoon they came unto a land
In which
seemed always afternoon,
it
then we acquiesce in a dreamless sort of sleep as the best hope of man.
No, we must rather trust the spirit
at
these are
its all
up with
knit
as I have said.
There
move darkly
well us,
the adventure of escape,
upon the road
wood and keep pace with
in the
to be spurred on
drawn forward by
if
we must
flee,
we
will
There
is
if
is
that
we are not
We
have to
not run to the goal,
with backward glances at
something which threatens
of a
by fear
desire or hope.
keep moving, and at least
is
presences that do not wish us
;
and the only explanation we can give
we need
of the
something hostile on our
is
track: the copse that closes in thick with spears
desires
and most vigorous, and
healthiest
us.
an old and strange Eastern allegory
man wandering
in the desert; he
to a grove of trees,
aware that there
is
draws near
when he suddenly becomes
a lion on his track, hurrying
8
Escape and bounding along on the scent of
The man
flees
steps.
his
for safety into the grove
;
he sees
there a roughly built water-tank of stone, exca-
vated in the ground, and built up of masonry fringed with plants.
where he
He
sees a ledge close
on the water
does this, he sees that in the water
lies
much
down
climbs swiftly
to
as he
;
a great
liz-
ard, with open jaws, watching him with wicked
He
eyes.
himself
stops short, and he can just support
among
the stones
by holding on
to the
branches of a plant which grows from a ledge
While he thus holds on, with death
above him.
behind him and before, he
and
ering,
branches quiv-
feels the
sees above, out of reach,
two mice, one
black and one white, which are nibbling at the
He
stems he holds and wiU soon sever them.
waits
despairingly, and while he does so, he sees that there are drops of honey
holds finds
;
he puts his
them very
The mice
on the
leaves
which he
them, licks them
and
off,
sweet.
stand, no doubt, for night
and the honey
is
possible to taste fore
lips to
the sweetness of
and
relish even
and behind; and
it
is
life,
and day,
which
w^en death
it is
is
be-
true that the utter
jprecariousness of life does not, as a matter of fact,
9
;
Escape and Other Essays distract us from the pleasure of
even though
it,
the strands to which we hold are slowly parting. It
is
all,
then,
an adventure and an escape; but
may
even in the worst insecurity, we prised to find that It
it is
somehow
often be sur-
sweet.
not in the least a question of the apparent
is
and outward adventurousness of
one's
Fool-
life.
and think as though
ish people sometimes write
one could not have had adventures unless one has
hung about at bar-room doors and saloons,
in billiard-
worked one's passage before the mast
a sailing-ship,
dug
for gold
among
in
the mountains,
explored savage lands, shot strange animals, fared
among deep-drinking and loud-swearing
hardly
men.
It is possible, of course, to
of this kind, and, indeed, I
whose
life
was
have adventures
had a near
fuller of vicissitudes
I have ever known he was a :
sailor,
relative
than any a
clerk,
life
a po-
liceman, a soldier, a clergyman, a farmer, a verger.
But the mere
unsettledness of
was an easy comrade, brave,
It
suited him: he
reckless,
restless
he did not mind roughness, and the one thing he
could not do was to settle down to anything regular
and
quiet.
He
did not dislike
when he stood half-naked, 10
life
at
all,
as he once told
even
me he
Escape did,
on a board slung from the
side of a ship,
dipped up pails of water to swab freezing as he flung all this
variety of
particular from
it
life
it all;
and
it,
the water
on the timbers.
But with
he did not learn anything he was
much
the same al-
ways, good natured, talkative, childishly absorbed,
not looking backward or forward, and fondest of telling stories with sailors in
an
He
inn.
learned
be content in most companies and to fare
to
roughly
;
but he gained neither wisdom nor humor,
and he was not
home, stick-in-the-mud
But we are not
happy or independent,
either
though he despised with
all
all his
heart the stay-at-
life.
made
like this,
and
possible for a few people to live so
that most people prefer to stay at
the work of the world.
My
it is
only
by the fact
home and do
cousin was not a
worker, and, indeed, did no work except under compulsion and in order to live ; but such people seem to
belong to an older order, and are more
like children
playing about, and at leisure to play because others
work
to
feed
and clothe them.
would be a wretched and miserable place
The world if all tried
to live life on those lines. It
would be impossible to me to 11
live so,
though I
Escape and Other Essays man if I had had a more hardship of that kind; but I have
dare say I should be a better little
worked hard
in
my own
had few hairbreadth troubles
and slow
way, and though I have
escapes, yet I have
anxieties.
had sharp
I have been like the
man in the story, between the lion and the lizard for many months together and I have had more to ;
by temperament and fortune, than my
bear,
rov-
ing cousin ever had to endure; so that because a life
seems both sheltered and prosperous,
not therefore have been without escapes and
its
it,
tion,
into life
and the motives
the more does one perceive that the imagina-
concerning
with hopes of escape from
itself
any conditions which hamper and the dynamic force that
The
need
haunting fears.
The more one examines of
it
adventures and
its
child
is
it is older,
is
confine us, is
transmuting the world.
forever planning what
do when
it will
and dreams of an irresponsible choice
of food and an unrestrained use of
money
;
the girl
schemes to escape from the constraints of home by
independence or marriage; the professional
man
plans to make a fortune and retire; the mother
dreams ambitious dreams for her children; the politician craves for
power; the writer hopes to 12
;
Escape
—
gain the ear of the world
these are only a few
casual instances of the desire that
freer future out of the limited
That
ent.
always at
is
us, projecting us into a larger and
work within
is
and
restricted pres-
the real current of the world, and
though there are sedate people who are contented with
life
as they see
it,
yet in most minds there
is
a^uttering of littl e tremulous hopes forecastin g
ease a nd freedom
and
as they have
yet
and there are
dispirited people
all
who
but acquiesce in
it,
who have any part
ment are
full
also
many
tired
are not content with life its
dreariness;
in the world's develop-
of schemes for themselves and others
by which the clogging and detaining elements are somehow to be improved away. Sensitive people want to find life more harmonious and beautiful, healthy people desire a more continuous sort of holiday than they can attain, religious people long for a secret ecstasy of peace; there
constant desire at
And
work
is,
in fact, a
to realize perfection.
yet, despite it aU, there is a vast prepon-
derance of evidence which shows us that the at-
tainment of our desired,
little
and that
tented of moods.
dreams
is
not a thing to be
satisfied desire is the least con-
If
we
realize
13
our program,
if
we
Escape and Other Essays succeed,
win
marry the woman we
love,
make a
fortune,
gain power, a whole host of further
leisure,
desires instantly
come
in sight.
I once congratu-
lated a statesman on a triumphant speech.
" Yes," he
" I do not deny that
said,
it
is
a
pleasure to have had for once the exact effect that
one intended to have; but the shadow of
it is
the
fear that having once reached that standard, one
may
not be able to keep
The awful penalty dread of subsequent is
it
up."
of success is the haunting
failure,
and even sadder
stiU
the fact that in striving eagerly to attain an
end,
we are apt to
lose the sense of the
purpose
This is more drearily true of money than of anything else. I could name several friends of my own who started
which inspired
us.
the pursuit of
in business with the perfectly definite
intention of
they might
might
making a competence
live as
and avowed
in order that
they desired to live; that they
travel, read, write,
enjoy a secure
leisure.
But when they had done exactly what they meant to do, the desires were all atrophied.
not give up their work
;
they
felt it
They could
would be safer
to have a larger margin, they feared they might be
bored, they had
made
friends, 14i
and did not wish to
Escape sever the connection, they
more for
their families
:
Even
sensibly altered.
must provide a
the whole so they
to escape from something
little
program had
were
— from
still
in-
planning
some boredom
or anxiety or dread.
And to
yet
realize
it
seems very
what
is
difficult for
any person
the philosophical conclusion,
namely, that the work of each of us matters very to the world, but that it matters very
little
to ourselves that
We
we should have some work
much to do.
seem to be a very feeble-minded race in this
respect, that
we require
and tempted by force
illusions.
and vigor both
had a strong
to be constantly bribed
I have
known men of life who
youth and middle
in
sense of the value
and
significance of
their
work; as age came upon them, the value of
their
work gradually disappeared; they were de-
ferred to, consulted, outwardly reverenced,
perhaps
all the
and
more scrupulously and compassion-
ately in order that they might not guess the la-
mentable fact that their work was done and that the forces and influences were in younger hands.
But the men themselves never lost the sense of their importance. I knew an octogenarian clergyman who declared once
in
my
presence that
15
it
was
ridic-
Escape and Other Essays ulous to say that old
men
lost their faculty of deal-
"
is
ing with affairs.
" Why," he
said,
few years that I work.
It takes
do;
is
it
feel I
me
old
was only too fact,
it
used to
man
obviously did not
work consumed
know that less
correct, because it was, as a matter
for-
business.
It seems rather pitiful that able to face the truth,
we should not be
and that we cannot be con-
tent with discerning the principle of
that our
work
trinsic value,
The
is
it all,
which
given to us to do not for
but because
it is
is
its in-
good for us to do
it.
secret government of the world seems, in-
deed, to be penetrated it is
time
almost wholly performed by his colleagues,
and nothing was referred to him except purely mal
my
have really mastered
far less time than
his impression that his
of
only quite in the last
just promptly and methodically exe-
The
cuted."
it
as if the
by a good-natured irony;
Power controlling us saw
that, like
we must be tenderly wooed into doing things which we should otherwise neglect, by a sense of high importance, as a kindly father who is doing children,
accounts keeps his children quiet by letting one
hold the blotting-paper and another the ink, so
16
Escape that they believe that they are helping when they are merely being kept from hindering.
And
this strange sense of escape
and energy seems given us not that
into activity
we may
which drives us
realize
our aims, which turn out hollow and
vapid enough when they are realized, but that we
may
drink deep of experience for the sake of
upon
beneficent effect all
us.
The
its
failure of almost
Utopias and ideal states, designed and planned
by writers and
artists, lies in the absence of all
power to suggest how the happy folk who have conquered
all
the
and
ills
difficulties
of
life
are to
employ themselves reasonably and eagerly when there ris,
is
to improve. William MorNews from Nowhere," confessed mouth of one of his characters that
nothing
left
indeed, in his "
through the
there would be hardly enough pleasant work, like
hay-making and bridge-building and carpentering
and paving,
left to
go round and the picture of life ;
which he draws, with shops where you
may
want without having their
rich
its
total lack of privacy, the
ask for anything that you
to pay, the guest-houses, with
straw-colored wine in quaint carafes, the stews
served
in
gray
earthenware
dishes
streaked with blue, the dancing, the caressing, the
17
Escape and Other Essays singular absence of
all elderly
women,
strikes
on
the mind with a quite peculiar sense of boredom
and vacuity, because Morris seems to have ehminated so many sources of human interest, and to
have conformed every one to a type, which
is re-
freshing enough as a contrast, but very tiresome in It will not be enough to have got rid of
the mass.
the combative
and sordid and vulgar elements of
the world unless a very active spirit of some kind
has taken
its place.
Morris himself intended that
art should supply the missing force
a sociable thing ;
it is
;
but art
is
not
apt to be a lonely aif air, and
few artists have either leisure or inclination to
ad--
mire one another's work. Still
more dreary was the dream of the philoso-
who was asked upon one occasion what would be left for men to do when they had
pher J.
S. Mill,
been perfected on the lines which he desired. replied, after
He
a long and painful hesitation, that
they might find satisfaction in reading the poems of Wordsworth.
But Wordsworth's poems are
useful in the fact that they supply a refreshing
contrast to the normal thought of the world, and
nothing but the fact that view of
life
many
took a different
was potent enough to produce them.
18
;
Escape So, for the present at
all events,
we must be con-
tent to feel that our imagination provides us with
a motive rather than with a goal and though
it is
;
very important that we should strive with
might to eliminate the baser elements of
we must be brave and
much
all
our
life,
yet
wise enough to confess
of our best happiness
how
born of the fact
is
that we have these elements to contend with.
Edward FitzGerald
once said that a fault of
modern writing was that
many good
it
tried to compress too
things into a page, and aimed too
much
We
must
at omitting the homelier interspaces.
not try to make our at least
lives into
we must try to do
so,
a perpetual feast but
it
must be by
conquest rather than by inglorious flight face the fact that the stuff of
and indeed amiss, and happiness
life is
realize, if
we
;
we
must^
both homely
can, that our
bound up with energetically trying
is
to escape from conditions which we cannot avoid.
When we
are
young and
fiery-hearted,
that a tame counsel; but, like
dawns on us the
how
hill
slowly.
^ Not
until
all
we think
great truths,
it
we begin to ascend
do we grasp how huge, how complicated,
intricate the plain, with all its fields, woods,
hamlets, and streams is;''we are
19
happy men and
•''
"
Escape and Other Essays
/
women
if in
middle age we even faintly grasp that
the actual truth about
life
vastly larger and
is
than any impatient youthful fancies about
finer
it
good
to
have indulged our splen-
did fancies in youth,
if
only for the delight of
though
are,
learning
it is
how much more
magnificent
the real
is
design.\
In the " Pilgrim's Progress," at the very outset of the journey. Evangelist asks Christian is
standing
He
still.
why he
replies:
" Because I know not whither to go." Evangelist, with a certain grimness of humor,
thereupon hands him a parchment poses that
but
all
it will
that
it
wrath to come Well,
it
be a
map
One sup-
or a paper of directions,
has written in
it is,
" Fly from the
!
is
no longer that of which we are and brimstone, storm and tem-
afraid,
a rain of
pest!
The Power behind
gifts
roll.
than these
fire
;
but we
the world has better
still
can and as fast as we can
have to ;
fly,
where we
and when we have
traversed the dim leagues, and have seen things
wonderful at every turn, and have passed through the bitter flood,
hope
— no
we
shall find
guarded
city of
20
—
at least this
is
my
God from which we
Escape shall
go no more out, but another road passing
into wider fields
and dimmer uplands, and
to things
more and more wonderful and strange and unknown.
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LITERATURE AND LIFE
II
LITERATURE AND LIFE
THERE among
may
a tendency, not by any means
the greater writers, but
be called the epigord,
ture, the
how,
is
—
—
among what
the satellites of litera-
men who would be great
they knew
if
to speak of the business of writing as
if it
were a sacred mystery, pontifically celebrated, something
remote
and
secret,
which
must
be
guarded from the vulgar and the profane, and which requires an initiation to comprehend.
ways
feel
I al-
rather suspicious of this attitude;
it
me something of a pose, adopted in order make other people envious and respectful. It
seems to to is
the same sort of precaution as the " properties "
of the wizard, his crocodile
there
is
gown and wand,
and the skeleton
in the
the stuffed
comer; for
if
a great fuss made about locking and dou-
ble-locking a box,
it
creates
doubt as to whether there
25
is
a presumption of
anything particular
;
Escape and Other Essays in
it.
In
my
nursery days one of
was fond of locking up box, producing ing into
it
it
my
brothers
his private treasures in a
in public, unfastening
it,
glanc-
with a smUe, and then softly closing
and turning the key
in a
way
it
calculated to pro-
voke the most intense curiosity as to the contents but upon investigation
it
proved to contain noth-
ing but the wool of sheep, dried beans, and cases of
exploded cartridges. So, too, I have
known both
who made a mystery out of a holy rapture, as
if
writers
and
artists
their craft, professed
the business of imagination
and the art of setting things down were processes that could not be explained to ordinary people,
but were the property of a brotherhood.
And
thus grow
up cliques and coteries, of people who, by mutual admiration, try to console one another for the absence of the applause which the world will
not concede them, and to atone for the cold-
ness of the public
by a warmth of intimate proxim-
ity.
This does not in the least apply to groups of people art of
who any
are genuinely and keenly interested in kind,
and form a congenial
circle in
which they discuss frankly and enthusiastically
^6
Literature and Ldfe methods of work, the books, ideas, pictures, and
That
music which interest them.
is
quite a dif-
ferent thing, a real fortress of enthusiasm in the
midst of Meshech and Kedar. base and morbid
What makes
it
the desire to exclude for the
is
sake of exclusion; to indulge in solitary raptures,
hoping to be overheard to keep the ;
upon the public;
upon the
trade
of the eye
tail
to attempt to mystify;
and to
human beknow what is
inquisitive instinct of
ings, the natural desire, that
is,
to
going on within any group that seems to have exciting business of its own.
The
Preraphaelites, for instance, were a group
and not a
coterie.
and enjoying, in welcoming
kind
that
They were hood, with
mystic
They were engaged
in
working
in looking out for artistic promise,
and praising any performance of a recognized as " stunning."
Rossetti
sure of their ground. its
initials,
The
brother-
magazine, " The Germ," and
was
all
its
a gigantic game; and they
held together because they were revolutionary in this,
that they wished to slay, as one stabs a ty-
rant, the vulgarized
day.
They did not
tion, of course.
It
and sentimental art of the effect
anything
like
a revolu-
was but a ripple on the flowing
27
Escape and Other Essays stream, and they diverged soon enough, most of
them,
into
definite
tracks
of
their
The
own.
strength of the movement lay in the fact that they
hungered and thirsted after
clamoring for
art,
beauty, so Mr. Chesterton says, as an ordinary
man
clamors for beer.
But
their
aim was not to
mystify or to enlarge their own consequence, but to
convert the unbeliever, and to produce
fine
things.
There
is
something in the Anglo-Saxon tempera-
ment which
on the whole unfavorable to move-
is
ments and groups
;
the great figures of the Vic-
torian time in art and literature have been solitary
men, anarchical as regards tradition, strongly individualistic,
much regard Anglo-Saxon
working on
their
for schools is
or
own
lines
without
The
conventions.
deferential, but not imitative; he
has a fancy for doing things in his own way.
Wordsworth, Keats, Shelley, Byron ever four contemporary poets so
one another's work.? Scott
summed up
— were
there
little afi'ected
Think of the phrase
his artistic creed,
in
by
which
saying that
he had succeeded. In so far as he had succeeded, by a " hurried frankness of composition," which
was meant to please young and eager people.
28
It
— Literature and
Wordsworth had a solemn majesty
true that
is
Ufe
about his work, practised a sort of priestly function, itors
never
averse
to
ardent
entertaining
by conducting them about
vis-
grounds, and
his
showing them where certain poems had been engendered. said,
But Wordsworth,
was proud, not vain
hung cloud or the sponsibility,
as FitzGerald truly
— proud
and desired to be
like the high-
He
solitary peak. felt
felt his re-
rather than to
be applauded. If one takes the later giants,
Tennyson had a
sense of magnificence, a childlike self-absorption.
He
said once in the same breath that the desire of
the public to
know
the details of the artist's
life
was the most degrading and debasing curiosity, it
was ripping people up
like pigs,
— and
added
with a sigh that he thought that there was a congestion in the world about his
own fame
;
he had
received no complimentary letters for several days.
Browning, on the other hand, kept
and
his raptures
his processes severely to himself.
He
never
seems to have given the smallest hint as to
how he
He
was as
conceived a reticent
poem or worked
it out.
about his occupation as a well-bred stock-
broker, and did his best in society to give the im-
29
Escape and Other Essays pression of a perfectly decorous and conventional
gentleman, telling strings of not very interesting anecdotes,
nary.
and making a great point of being
ordi-
Browning
was
Indeed,
I
believe
that
haunted by the eighteenth-century idea that there
was something not quite respectable about professional literature,
and
Gray, he wished
that, like
to be considered a private gentleman
When
for his amusement.
who wrote
in later years
he took
a holiday, he went not for secret contemplation, but to recover from social fatigue. really one of the
most mysterious
ture in this respect, because his inner
was so
entirely apart
parties
and afternoon
closure, rolls;
from his outer calls.
Browning
is
figures in literalife life
of poetry
of dinner-
Inside the sacred in-
the winds of heaven blow, the thunder
he proclaims the supreme worth of human
passion, he dives into the disgraceful secrets of the soul
:
and then he comes out of
his
study a courte-
ous and very proper gentleman, looking like a
and talking
like
peared to be as good-humoredly
like
retired diplomatist,
commercial traveler
an
intelligent
— a man whose one wish apevery one else
as he conveniently could.
What,
again,
is
one to make of Dickens, with
30
Literature and lAfe his love of private theatricals, his florid waistcoats
and watch-chains,
his sentimental radicalism, his
kindly, convivial, gregarious life? his
work
in
He, again, did
a rapture of solitary creation, and
seemed to have no taste for discussing his ideas or
Then, too, Dickens's later desertion of
methods.
work in favor of public readings and moneymaking is curious to note. He was like Shak-
his
spere in this, that the passion of his later
life
seemed to be to realize an ideal of bourgeois prosDickens seems to have regarded his art
perity.
partly as a means of social reform, and partly as a
The
method of making money.
latter
aim
is
to a
great extent accounted for by the miserable and humiliating circumstances of his early bit very deep into him.
an end
made
in itself,
his
way
Yet
his art
life,
which
was hardly
but something through which he
to other aims.
Carlyle, again,
was a writer who put ideas
first,
despised his craft except as a means of prophesying, hated literary
men and
coteries, preferred aris-
tocratic society, while at the same time he loved to
say how unutterably tiresome he found
Who many
will
ever understand
why
miles to attend parties
31
it.
Carlyle trudged
and receptions
at
Escape and Other Essays Bath House, where the Ashburtons
lived,
or what
I have a belief that
stimulus he discerned in it?
Carlyle felt a quite unconscious pride in the fact that he, the son of a small Scotch farmer, had his
assured and respected place circle,
just as I have very
among a
little
semi-feudal
doubt that his mi-
gration to Craigenputtock was ultimately suggested to him by the pleasure and dignity of being
an undoubted
laird,
and
at least his wife's, lands.
living
among
In saying
his
own, or
do not
this, I
wish to belittle Carlyle, or to accuse him of what
may be called snobbishness. He had no wish to worm himself by slavish deference into the society of the great, but he liked to be able to weilk in and
say his say there, fearing no man;
huge mirror that
reflected his
own
Yet no one ever said harder or
own
his
Charles
fellow-craftsmen.
Lamb
His
!
Or take
was
like
a
independence.
fiercer things of
description
of
as " a pitiful rickety, gasping, stag-
gering, stammering tom-fool "
one
it
his
is
not an amiable
account of Wordsworth
— how
instead of a hand-shake, the poet intrusted him
with " a handful of
and how less
his speech
numb
unresponsive fingers,"
" for prolixity, thinness, end-
dilution " excelled all the other speech that
;
Ldterature and Life
He
Carlyle had ever heard from mortals.
admit-
Wordsworth was " a genuine man, but intrinsically and extrinsically a small one, let them ted that
sing or say what they will." spised his trade
:
In
fact, Carlyle de-
one of the most vivid and voluble
of writers, he derided the desire of self-expression
one of the most continuous and brilliant of talkers,
he praised and upheld the virtue of
action
condemned to twaddle
He
silence.
spoke and wrote of himself as a would-be
man
of
and Ruskin ex-
;
pressed very trenchantly what will always be the puzzle of Carlyle's
—
life
that,
as
Ruskin
said,
he groaned and gasped and lamented over the intolerable burden of his work,
you came to read salient
and
collected,
you found
is
obviously
yet,
of
much
patiently
and patently
enjoyed.
the mystery of his lectures.
seem to have been
when
it all alive, full
vivid details, not so
as
Again there
it,
and that
fiery, eloquent,
They
impressive ha-
rangues; and yet Carlyle describes himself stumbling
to
the platform,
sleepless,
agitated,
and
drugged, inclined to say that the best thing his audience could do for him would be to cover him
up with an inverted tub while as he left the platform among signs of visible emotion and torrents ;
Escape and Other Essays of applause, he thought, he said, that the idea of
being paid for such stuff made him feel like a
who had been robbing There
man
hen-roosts.
an interesting story of how Tennyson
is
once stayed with Bradley, when Bradley was head-
master of Marlborough, and said grimly one evening that he envied Bradley, with life
that
all his
heart, his
of hard, fruitful, necessary work, and owned
he sometimes
what, after
amount
to,
did
all,
about his own poetry,
felt
all this
and who was
elaborate versifying
any way the better or
in
happier for it?
The truth that this
is
is
that the
man
of letters forgets
exactly the same thought as that which
haunts the busy
man
after, let us say, a
day of
looking over examination-papers or attending com-
The busy man,
mittees.
if
he
reflects
at
all,
is
only too apt to say to himself, " Here have I been slaving
away
a stone-breaker, reading endless
like
scripts, discussing
what on earth
is
an
infinity of
the use of
fred Lyall once said that
a hand in big public ture
much
as a
if
petty details, and
it all?
a
affairs,
man who had
"
Yet Sir Al-
man had
once taken
he thought of
litera-
crossed the Atlantic
in a sailing-yacht might think of sculling a boat
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— Literature and Life
upon the Thames.
One of the things that moved
Dr. Johnson to a tempest of wrath was when on the death of
Lord
Lichfield, the
Boswell said to him that
if
Lord Chancellor,
he had taken to the law
as a profession, he might have been
and with the same
lor,
Johnson was ex-
title.
tremely angry, and said that
Lord Chancel-
it
was unfriendly to
man of such things when it was too One may conclude from such incidents and
remind a
fessions that even letters
late.
con-
some of the most eminent men of
have been haunted by the sense that in
fol-
lowing literature they have not chosen the best part, and that success in public ful
a more use-
life is
thing as well as more glorious.
But one has to ask imaginative
oneself
man means by
success,
that attracts him in the idea of the
more obvious
what exactly an
and what
it is
Putting aside
it.
and material advantages,
— a man
wealth, position, influence, reputation,
far-reaching mind and large ideas
haunted by a feeling that life,
if
may
of
well be
he had entered public
he might by example, precept, influence, legis-
lation,
have done something to turn his ideas and
schemes
into
some moral or
accomplished facts, have social reform,
have
set
effected
a mark on
Escape and Other Essays history. er's
It
fame
must be remembered that a great writoften a posthumous growth,
is
and we
must be very careful not to attribute to a famous author a consciousness in his lifetime of his subsequent, or even of his contemporary, influence. is
It
undoubtedly true that Ruskin and Carlyle af-
fected the thought of their time to an extraordinary
Ruskin summed up in
degree.
his
teaching an
artistic ideal of the pursuit
and
while Carlyle inculcated a
more combative theory
of active righteousness
But Ruskin's
influence of beauty,
and the hatred of
later years were spent in the
He
of a profound sense of failure.
cant.
shadow
thought that
the public enjoyed his pretty phrases and derided his ideas in vain,
;
while Carlyle felt that he
and that the world was
had fulminated settling down
more comfortably than ever into the pursuit of bourgeois prosperity and dishonest respectability.
And
yet
if,
on the other hand, one compares the
subsequent fame of men of action with the fame of
men
Who
of letters, the contrast
of the
Who
is
indeed bewildering.
attaches the smallest idea to the personality
Lord that
Lichfield
whom Dr. Johnson
adores the
memory
of
envied.''
Wordsworth
knows anything about Lord Goderich, a contem-
36
Literature and JUfe
The world
porary prime minister?
reads and re-
reads the memoirs of dead poets, goes on pil-
grimage to the tiny cottages where they lived
in
poverty, cherishes the smallest records and souvenirs of them.
The names
of statesmen and gen-
become dim except to professed historians,
erals
while the memories of great romancers and lyrists,
and even of
lesser writers
still,
go on being revived
What would Keats have thought,
and redecorated.
room
as he lay dying in his high, hot, noisy
Rome,
if
at
he had known that a century later every
smallest detail of his
life,
his
most
careless letters,
would be scanned by eager eyes, when few save historians would be able to
name a
single
member
of the cabinet in power at the time of his death?
There
is
a charming story told by Lord Mor-
how he once met Rossetti in the street at Chelsea when a general parliamentary election was
ley,
of
going on, and
it
transpired, after a few remarks,
that Rossetti was not even aware that this was the case.
.When he was informed, he said with some that
he
other would get
in,
hesitation
very
much
matter.
supposed that
and
that, after
Lord Morley,
dote, said that he himself
37
one side all, it
or
did not
telling the anec-
had forgotten which
;
Escape and Other Essays side did get in,
from which he concluded that
it
had
not very much mattered.
The
truth
is
that national
life
has to go on,
and that very elaborate arrangements are made by statesmen and politicians for
But
it is in reality
its
administration.
very unimportant.
statesman in the world cannot affect
it
The very
wisest
much
he can only take advantage of the trend of public If he outruns
opinion.
it,
he
is
instantly stranded
and perhaps the most he can do
is
to foresee
how
people will be thinking some six weeks ahead.
But meanwhile the and to the soul ; he lating; he
is
writer is
is
speaking from the soul
suggesting, inspiring, stimu-
presenting thoughts in so beautiful a
form that they become desirable and adorable ; and
what the average man idealist
believes to-day is
what the
He
has believed half a century before.
must take
his chance of
fame and ;
his best
hope
is
to eschew rhetoric, which implies the consciousness of opponents and auditors, and just present his
dreams and visions as serenely and beautifully as he can.
The statesman has
compromise, to convert cannot. sacrifice
It
is
if
to argue, to strive, to
he can, to coerce
if
he
a dusty encounter, and he must
grace and perhaps truth in the onset.
He
Literature and Ldfe
may
gain his point, achieve the practicable and
the second best; but he
is
schemer, and he cannot
an opportunist and a
make
life
into
what he
Of
but only into what he can manage.
wills,
way
course the writer in a
risks
more; he may
reject the homely, useful task, and yet not have
the strength to fruitlessly
and
fit
wings to his visions he ;
die unpraised, with the
may
live
thought that
he has lost two birds in the hand for one which
He may
not even in the bush.
Don
otherwise,
is
life
well
but he could not choose
and he has paid a heavier price for
his
probably a whoUy false antithesis to speak as a contrast to literature; one
draw
a distinction between eating
What
ing.
;
than many a man has paid for his success.
failure
It
turn out a mere
Quixote, helmeted with a barber's basin and
tilting against windmills
of
is
is
meant
as
a rule
is
might as
and drink-
that
if
a
man
devotes himself to imaginative creation, to the perception and expression of beauty, he must be pre-
pared to withdraw from other imagination
is
precisely the
^The
real fact
stinct
and
a function of
activities. life,
after
But all,
the
and
same holds good of stock-broking. is
that we Anglo-Saxons, by in-
inheritance, think of the acquisition of
Escape and Other Essays property as the most obvious function of
man
long as a
is
life.
As
occupied in acquiring property,
we ask no further questions; we take for granted that he
no
is
virtuously employed, as long as he breaks
social rules
his
while
:
if
he succeeds in getting into
hands an unusual share of the
we think highly of
of the world, ideals
have altered very
and we fulness
still
mark of
the hero.
an occupation
leisure as
him.
Indeed, our
since barbarous times,
are under the impression that resource-
the
is
little
and disapproved of
in
is
I imagine that
much more
distrusted
America than in England;
but even in England, where the power to be
admired and envied, a man who life as
lives as
idle is
heroic a
can be attained by playing golf and shoot-
ing pheasants rich
goods
divisible
is
man who
amusement.
more trusted and respected than a
paints or composes music for his
Field sports are intelligible enough;
the pursuit of art requires some explanation,
and
incurs a suspicion of effeminacy or eccentricity.
Only when authorship becomes a source of is it
I
thoroughly respectable.
profit
%
had a friend who died not very long ago.
He
had
in his
tive
work but he was wealthy, and at a compara-
younger days done a
;
40
little
administra-
Literature and Life tively early
He
age he abandoned himself to
much
traveled, he read, he went
into society,
When
he enjoyed the company of his friends. died he was spoken of as
make excuses
;
Even
of few people
To
his closest
necessary to explain and
it
he was shy, he stammered, he was
not suited to parliamentary
who
he
an amateur, and praised
as a cricketer of some merit. friends seemed to find
leisure.
who
did so
life;
much
but I can think
for his friends or
so radiated the simplest sort of happiness.
be welcomed by him, to be with him, put a
glow on
life,
because you
felt instinctively
little
that he
was actively enjoying every hour of your company. I thought, I remember, at his death, it
how
hopeless
was to assess a man's virtue and usefulness If he
the terms of his career.
ment, registered a social
functions,
in
had entered Parliaspent his time in
silent vote,
letter-writing,
lobby-gossip, he
would have been acclaimed as a man of weight and was, though he
had stood by
influence; but as
it
friends in trouble,
had helped lame dogs over
stiles,
had been the center of good-will and mutual understanding to a dozen groups and circles, it seemed impossible to recognize that he in his generation.
It
is
had done anything
not to be claimed that his
41
!
Escape and Other Essays was a
life
of persistent benevolence
lived selfishly
or devoted
men who had
energy; but I thought of a dozen
and comfortably, making money and
amassing fortunes, without a touch of real kind-
who would yet
ness or fine tenderness about them,
be held to have done well and to have deserved respect,
And
when compared with
then I perceived
how
this
peace-maker
intolerably false
many
of our cherished ideals are; that apart from lives of pure selfishness and annexation,
many
a pro-
merely
fessed philanthropist or active statesman
is
following a sterile sort of ambition
it is
;
that
on the whole for so-called public men to
rare
live
for
the sake of the public; while the simple, kindly, uncalculating, friendly attitude to
life is
a real
source of grace and beauty, and leaves behind
it
a fragrant memory enshrined in a hundred hearts. So, too,
when
it
comes to what we
call literature.
No
one supposes that we can do without
its
essence
vivid talk. life,
it is
It
is
and
in
fine,
but the delighted perception of
the ecstasy of taking a
tery, the
it,
but an extension of happy,
hand
in the great
mys-
joy of love and companionship, the wor-
ship of beauty and desire
and energy and memory
taking shape in the most effective form that
man
;
Literature and Ldfe can
There
devise.
is
no
real merit in the
accumu-
who do
lation of property; only the people
necessary work of the world, and the people
the
who
increase the joy of the world are worth a moment's
thought, and yet both alike are
little
regarded.
Of course where the weakness of the really lies
is
that
artistic life
often not taken
it is
up out of
mere communicativeness and happy excitement, as a child
a breathless
tells
tale,
but as a device
for attracting the notice and earning the applause
of the world ; and then self-regarding
it is
activities.
on a par with
But
if
it
is
all
other
taken up
with a desire to give rather than to receive, as an irrepressible sharing of delight, it becomes not a
solemn and dignified
affair,
but just one of the
most beautiful and uncalculating impulses
in the
world.
Then
there falls another shadow across the path
the unhappiest natures I
keen emotion and swift
know are the natures of perception who yet have
not the gift of expressing what they artistic
medium.
It
is
these,
alas!
feel in aiiy
who cumber They are
the streets and porticoes of literature.
attracted away from homely
toil
by the
perilous
sweetness of art, and when they attempt to ex-
— Escape and Other Essays press their raptures, they have no faculty or
of hand. ous
And
dreariness
these
men and women
fall
knack
with zeal-
or acrid contemptuousness, and
radiate discomfort and uneasiness about them.
/
"
A book,"
either
how
said Dr. Johnson, " should show one
to enjoy life or
was ever the function of pungently or justly?
how
to endure
it
literature expressed
Any man who
endures has a right to speak,
if
he can.
"
more
enjoys or If he can
help others to enjoy or to endure, then he need
never be in any doubt as to his part in
life
;
while
if
he cannot ecstatically enjoy, he can at least good-
humoredly endure.
U
THE NEW POETS
!
Ill
THE NEW POETS
THERE
'S a
dark window
looks out over
my
in
narrow
a gable which slip
of garden,
where the almond-trees grow, and to-day the dark window, with
its
bloom, with
lines, had become The almond was in
black casement
suddenly a Japanese panel. its delicious,
pink, geometrical flowers,
not a flower which wins one's love, somehow;
it is
But
it is
not homely or sweet enough for that.
unapproachably pure and beautiful, with a touch of
fanaticism
about
it
—
the
which
fanaticism
comes of stainless strength, as though one woke in the
dawn and found an angel
room:
in one's
he would not quite understand one's troubles
But when
I looked lower down, there
was a
sweeter message stiU, for the mezereon was awake,
with
its
tiny porcelain crimson flowers and
its
mi-
nute leaves of bright green, budding as I think
Aaron's rod must have budded, the very crust of 4.7
Escape and Other Essays the sprig bursting into
little
flames of green
and
red.
I thought at the sight of all this that some
good fortune was about
to befall
me and ;
so it did.
When I .came back there came a friend to see me whom I seldom see and much enjoy seeing. He is young, but he plays a
fine
part in the world, and
he carries about with him two very one
is
He
our writers are doing.
whom
is
the
man from
first
I hear of new and beautiful work; and he
praises it royally, he
declaims like
fine qualities;
a great and generous curiosity about what
it
in his high, thin voice,
which wavers
And what makes
all this so re-
a dry flame.
freshing
is
murmurs phrases, he even
that his other great quality
an
in-
and
in-
is
tensely critical spirit, which stares closely
tently at work, as though a crystalline lens.
After we had talked a
little,
" Come, praise me some new of the
I said to him: writers,
you herald
dawn You always do that when you come and you must do it now." He smiled !
to see me, secretly,
and drew out a slim volume from
pocket and read
drawn
me some
into saying the
"How
do you
name
find that.?
48
his
verses; I will not be
of the poet.
" he
said.
;
The New Poets " Oh," I said, " " finest gold? " Yes," he said, "
very good ; but
it is
it is
And he
that."
is it
the
then read
me some more. " Now," I
That seems but
said,
to
me very
has what
it
"I
is
to
be frank with you.
will
musical and accomplished
me
the one unpardonable
He
fault in poetry: it is literary.
has heard and
much sweet and solemn verse, mind murmurs like a harp hung among
read, that poet, so
that his
the trees that are therein; the winds blow into
But
music.
I don't want that
;
song, a spring of living water." tle
I want a fount of
He
looked a
lit-
vexed at that, and read me a few more pages.
And
then he went on to praise the work of two
or three other writers, and added that he believed there
was going to be a great outburst of poetry
after a long frost.
" Well," I there
is
that I
said,
" I am sure I hope
so.
And
one thing in the world that I desire,
may
if
it is
be able to recognize and love the new
voices."
And think.
then I told him a story of which I often
When
I was a
young man, Very much pre-
occupied with Tennyson and
4@
Omar Khayyam and
Escape and Other Essays Swinburne, I went to stay with an elderly business
man, a friend of stout, rubicund
had a voice
and
shrill
my
family.
He
was a great
man, very good-natured, and he
like the
cry of an expiring mouse,
We
were sitting after dinner in
thin.
his big dining-room, several of us, looking out into
a wide, dusty garden, when the talk turned on books, and I suppose I praised Swinburne, for he
asked
me
And
even the weariest river
Winds somewhere
He
safe to sea.
heard me attentively enough, and said
pretty good to
poem which
to say some, and I quoted the
;
but then he said that
Byron, and
in his
it
it
was
was nothing
squeaky voice he quoted a
quantity of Byron, whose poetry, I
am
sorry to
say, I regarded as I might regard withered flowers or worse.
they
fell
on to
decisively
Byron
His eyes brimmed with his shirt-front;
tears,
and
and then he said
that there had been no poetry since
— none
at
all.
Tennyson was mere word
music. Browning was unintelligible, and so forth.
And
I remember how, with the insolence of youth,
I thought
how
dreadful
it
50
was that the old man
The New Poets should have lost
sympathy and judgment;
all
be-
me
a really important
matter, full of tones and values.
I did not under-
cause poetry then seemed to
stand then, as I understand now, that
but, as the psalm says,
day
I
what happens when one
another and one night certifieth an-
telleth
other.
know now that
there can be
no
deceit
about poetry, and that no poet can make you
more than he
feels himself,
ways make another worth of
among
as I
al-
much; and that the
lonely
fields,
So I told
my
old
might think of a scarecrow
I did not say
folly.
though he cannot
and then I thought of
feels;
mind
left alone, while real
ness.
as
feel
feel
his art exists only just in so far as he can
say what he friend's
a
and symbols, and that poetry
question of signals is
all
it is
a.
thing absurd, ragged, and
men went about it,
their busi-
but I thought
my young
it
in
friend that story
;
my and
I said:
" I know that loves
and
thing and
it
does not really matter what one
moved by
is is
as long as one loves some-
moved by
its
beauty.
But,
still,
I
do not want that to happen to me; I do not want to be like a pebble on the beach,
draws past
it
to the land.
51
I
when the water
want to
feel
and
Escape and Other Essays understand the new signals. In the nursery," I said, " we used to anger our governess when she read us a piece of poetry, by saying to her,
made
up ?
it
You
'
But
she would say. '
Who
made
up.?
it
should say,
'
I feel
and
'
now
Who
'
Who
wrote
it ?
'
inclined to ask,
I feel, too, like the sign-
who saw a new sign hung up in disgust, That looks as if
painter on his rounds, at an inn,
and said
'
some one had been doing seems to
me only a very
it himself.'
gifted
Your poet
and accomplished
amateur." " Well," he said rather petulantly, " so,
it
may
be
of course; but I don't think that you can hope
you begin by being determined to
to advance, if
disapprove." " No, not that," I said.
many
cases of inferior poets,
" But one knows of
who were taken up
and trumpeted abroad by well-meaning admirers,
whom
one sees
to be so
now
many
to have
had no
significance,
but
blind alleys in the street of art;
they led nowhere; one had just to retrace one's steps, if one explored them.
Indeed," I said, " I
had rather miss a great poet than be misled by a little
one."
" Ah, no," he
said,
" I don't
62
feel that.
I
had
The
Neti)
Poets
rather be thrilled and carried away, even if I dis-
covered afterwards that
" If you
great," I said,
;
'
really great."
not be
I do not
side.
not to be reckoned
it is
What
among
I object to
great and eternal.'
is
may
this
This touches me with interest
lords of the garden.'
saying, 'This
was not
"I am on your
mind your saying, and delight but
it
admit that
will freely
is
I feel that I
should be able to respond to the great poet,
Hashed out among us especially in a time
of
very
beautiful
haps this time tiful
is
;
the
your
if
he
but he must be great, and
when there verse.
really
is
suspect
I
a quantity that
per-
one that will furnish a very beau-
There are many people
anthology.
alive
who have written perhaps half a dozen exquisite lyrics, when the spring and the soaring thought and the vision and the beautiful word conspired together.
But there
large, tender heart at work.
that ; but
is
there
any great
is
suddenly
no great, wide,
is
No, I won't even say spirit
who has
and a supreme word-power as well? there
all
all
that
I believe that
more poetry, more love of beauty, more
emotion in the world than ever
men and women can't write
it
;
and a great many
are living their poetry
or sing
it."
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who just
"
;
Escape and Other Essays "
A perverse generation seeking after a sign," he
said rather grimly, "
and
coming except the old
sign, that has been there for
centuries
!
there
is
no sign forth-
I don't care," he added, " about the
sign of the thing.
It
is
the quality that I want
new poets of whom I have been speaking have got the quality. That is all I ask for." " No," I said, " I want a great deal more than that! Browning gave us the sense of the human heart, bewildered by all the new knowledge, and yet Tennyson passionately desiring. and
these
—
" Poor old Tennyson " he said. !
" That
is
very ungracious," I
as perverse as I
it,
tears.
fine,
;
rich
it
all his faults,
homely domestic emotion of the race
and splendid, and because
old-fashioned,
are
and he put into words
poetry of labor, order, and peace.
and
You
I was going to say,
that Tennyson, with
was a great lord of music the
"
was about Byron when the old
banker quoted him with
and I wiU say
said.
you
call it
it
It
—
the
was new
seems to you
mere respectability; but
was the marching music of the world, because
he showed men that faith was enlarged and not overturned by science.
These two were great,
because they saw far and wide; they knew by in64.
The New Poets stinct just what the ordinary man was thinking, who yet wished his life to be set to music. These They have little men of yours don't see that.
their
moments of
soming orchard
ecstasy, as full of
we
all
have, in the blos-
the songs of birds.
And
that will always and forever give us the lyric,
than that
;
I,
you, thousands of people, are feeling
something that makes the brain
The
leap. it is,
mischief
is
thrill
and the heart
that we don't know what
and I want a great poet to come and
" Ah," he
if
But I want something more
the skill is there.
said, " I
am
tell
us."
afraid you want some-
thing ethical, something that
satisfies
the
man
in
Tennyson who Walked between
And now and
his
But we have done with people
wife and child
then he gravely smiled. all that.
who can express
the
What we want fine,
is
rare, unusual
thoughts of highly organized creatures, and you
want a poet
to sing of
" Why, yes," I
said,
bread and butter " " I think I agree with Fitz!
Gerald that tea and bread and butter are the only foods worth anything
not do without.
And
—
the only things one can-
it is
65
just the things that one
:
Escape and Other Essays cannot do without that I want the new great poet to sing of. is
I agree with William Morris that art
we
the one thing
want, the expression of
all
And
man's joy in his work. retires into ties,
fine
the more that art
nuances and intellectual subtle-
the more that
it
and mysterious, the
becomes something esoteric
news ?
'
she replied,
'
news and new news
'
want the poets to
'
's
only
and that
is
that
telling,
Tennyson
Christ died for all men.' '
wife,
Mr. Tennyson, there
one piece of news worth
grandly and simply,
it. When What 's the
about
less I care
Tennyson said to the farmer's
Ah, that
!
And
tell us.
that
It
said
very
old news and good
's
is
exactly what I
a common inherit-
is
ance, not a refined monopoly, that I claim."
He
laughed at
" I think that will
this, 's
and said
rather a mid-Victorian view ; I
confute you out
When Tennyson
Tennyson legend.
of the
called Swinburne's verse
'
poison-
ous honey, brought from France,' Swinburne retorted by speaking of the laureate's domestic treacle.
You
can't have both.
If
you
like treacle,
you must not clamor for honey." " Yes, I prefer honey," I said, " but you seem to
me
to be in search of
what I
called literary po-
The New Poets etry.
That
is
what I am afraid
work of a mind the more that they the
called
'
strong
generally
the
melodrama
in fact.
Realism
is
;
I hate what
that seems to
kind
coarsest
we are getting
and valuing ideas
uncommon.
are
poetry
'
of
—
now abjuring
life
itself,
and
;
a big dog, but
nose on the scent of something.
more mysterious and prodigious rearranged upon romantic
scrambles
laugh at what you
name
for one of
it
it
has got
many
its
much
than
life
means some-
splashes through
through hedges. call ethics,
a
It is
It
fail-
Life goes
affair
lines.
thing very vast indeed, though
mud and
has
it
strong, fuU-blooded,
of mistakes and blunders and
like
has
it
felicitous co-
ures and sharp disasters and fears.
shambling along
—
the best sort of realism.
the heroic theory;
incidences, life arranged on ideal lines
life, full
is
to be
romanticism
thrown over the old conventions, the
eager
me
I want to have in poetry what
in fiction
gone straight to
want
I don't
of.
fed on words,
but that
You may is
kinds of collisions.
only a It
is
the fact that we are always colliding with something, always
coming unpleasant croppers, that
the exciting thing.
I want the poet to
what the obscure winged thing ^
51
it is
tell
is
me
that we are fol-
— Escape and Other Essays lowing; and to be
made
if
he can't explain
to feel that
I don't say that all
don't think that
life is
it is;
it
to me, I
want
worth while following.
it is
I
poetical material.
but there
a thing called
is
beauty which seems to me the most maddeningly perfect thing in the world.
dawn,
in the
rolling lines of wood'
gestures
That
is
and I
of
I see
it
everywhere,
in the far-ofF landscape, with all its
people,
and
field,
their
in
in the faces
a clue, a golden thread, a
shall be
and
words and deeds.
more than content
line of scent,
if
I
am
encour-
aged to follow that." " Ah," he said, " now I partly agree with you. It is precisely that
which the new men are after;
they take the pure gold of
life
word and phrase, and
is
it
and just coin
it
into
that which I discern
in them."
" Yes," I
" but I want something a great
said,
deal bigger than that.
and in
a
in everything. little
want to
space and make
and forget what poet to
I
tell
is
me what
it silent
happening
whom
everywhere
it is
and
outside.
beautiful,
I want a
that leaps in the eyes and
beckons in the smiles of people people
see it
I don't want to have to wall
whom
I meet
often enough I could not live with,
68
—
;
The New Poets the more
's
— but
whom
the pity,
I want to be
I want the
friends with, all the same.
common
joys and hopes and visions to be put into music.
And when
I find a man, like
Walt Whitman, who
does show
me
affections
and joys of simple hearts, so that I
the beauty and wonder
am
tell
feel
desiring the same thing, though
sure that we are all
we cannot
and the strong
each other what
it is,
then I
feel
I
in the presence of a poet indeed."
My
young
up
friend shut
the
little
book which
he had been holding in his hand.
" Yes," he said, " that would be a great thing but one can't get at things in that
must
all specialize;
new aims and
and
is
called our
and you must be content path among the
artist is
case of
is.
stars.
j oys
It
is
to follow a very narrow
do not mind speaking
I
essentially a mystery,
in widest
Daddy Wordsworth ent affair ;
aside a
common humanity,
a sort of hermit in the world. '
We
I do not think you understand
quite frankly.
what art
you must put
ideals of art,
great deal of what
way now.
you want to follow the
if
said.
and the is
not a
commonalty spread,' as
That
is
quite a differ-
but art has got to withdraw
content to be misunderstood
59
It
;
itself,
to be
and I think that you
Escape and Other Essays have just as much parted company with
it
as your
old friend the banker."
" Well," I give
said,
" we shall
your new poets a careful
be glad
if
Anyhow, I will reading, and I shall
see.
I can really admire them, because, indeed,
I don't want to be stranded on a
And
so
my
lee shore,"
and I began to
friend departed;
wonder whether the art of which he spoke was not, after
all,
as real a thing as the beauty of
almond-flower and like
my
mezereons
to be able to Include
it
!
If so, I should
and understand
though I do not want to think that
60
my
it is
the end.
it,
WALT WHITMAN
IV
WALT WHITMAN 1
THERE
come days and hours
in the lives of
the busiest, most active, most eager of us,
when we suddenly der,
it
may
be, or
realize with
a shock or a shud-
perhaps with a sense of solemn
mystery, that has something vast, inspiring, hopeful
about
own
it,
identity.
the solidity and the isolation of our
Much
of our civilized
life is
an
at-
tempt, not deliberate but instinctive, to escape from this.
We
organize
parties, into sects
ourselves
and
companies, that we
;
nations
societies, into families
may
that we are not alone
into
and and
try to persuade ourselves
and we get nearest to per-
suading ourselves that we are at one, when we enter into the secrets of love or friendship,
we know as we are known. fades,
and
feel
But even that
that
vision
and we become aware, at sad moments, that
the comradeship
is
over; the soul that came so
63
Escape and Other Essays close to us, smiled in
our eyes, was clasped to our
heart, has left us, has passed into the darkness, or if it still lives
and breathes, has drawn away into
And
the crowd.
then one sees that no fusion
possible, that half the secrets of the heart
That even
remain unguessed and untold.
had
the words to do
it,
own
one
if
one could not express the
sense of our personality,
even our
is
must
much of which
escapes
conscious and critical thought.
One
has, let us say, a serious quarrel with a close friend,
and one hears him explaining and protesting, and yet he does not
know what has happened, cannot
understand, cannot even perceive where the
oflFense
may dawn on
us that
lay
;
and at such a moment
it
we too do not know what we have done
;
we have
exhibited some ugly part of ourselves, of which
are not conscious
;
we have stricken and wounded
another heart, and we cannot see
We
did not intend to do
realize that
see that
it,
we
how
cry.
it
we
ourselves have the
disconcerting effect
was done.
Or again we
we regard some one with a
and cannot give any reason for
aversion,
we
causeless it
;
or we
same freezing and
upon another; and
so after
hundreds of such experiences, we become aware at last that
no
real, free,
entire
64
communication
is
Walt Whitman that however eagerly we tell our thoughts and display our temperaments, there must always
possible
;
remain something which
wrapped
is
in darkness,
the incommunicable essence of ourself that can
blend with no other soul.
But again
it is
true that all
have an instinct for expression
—
human
musicians
— have always been trying
thing, to
make
signals, to
themselves, to "
souls
to do this one
communicate, to reveal
unpack the heart
in
words "
what has often hindered the process and
;
and
nullified
and van-
their efi'orts has been an uneasy dignity ity,
who
writers, painters,
that must try to make out a better case than
the facts justify.
For a variety of motives, and
indeed for the best of motives,
men and women
suppress, exalt, refine the presentment of themselves,
because they desire to be loved, and think
that they must therefore be careful to be admired, just as
the'
lover adorns himself
his best foot forward,
and hides
concert interest or sympathy. in life that often
when we most
all
and puts
that
So that
it
may
dis-
happens
desire to be real,
we
are most unreal.
What
differentiates
Walt Whitman from
other writers that I know,
65
is
all
that he tried to reveal
Escape and Other Essays himself,
and on the whole contrived to do
less reserve
so with
than any other human being.
" I know perfectly well my own egotism," he wrote " I know my omnivorous lines, and must not ;
write
any
He
less."
failure of art, or
was not disconcerted by any
any propriety, or any apparent
discrepancy.
Do
I contradict myself ?
Very well I
He had
then, I contradict myself.
am large,
no
I contain multitudes.
artistic conscience, as
we
say.
—I
feel
In the curious and interesting essay called
"A
" Easily written, loose-finger'd chords the thrum of your climax and close."
Backward Glance over Travel's Roads," which he wrote late in
life,
surveying his work, he admits that
he has not gained acceptance, that his book failure,
is
a
and has incurred marked anger and con-
tempt; and he good-humoredly quotes a sentence from a friend's letter, written in 1884, " I find a solid line of enemies to
you everywhere."
And
yet,
he says, for all that, and in spite of everything, he has had " his say entirely his own way, and put it unerringly on record."
and doubtless
It
is
simply " a faithful,
self-willed record,"
66
he says.
Walt Whitman That then was Walt Whitman's program, in its very scope
and range worthy of some amaze-
ment and respect! lently or with
he
calls
Because
is
not done inso-
it is
any braggadocio,
" the barbaric yawp."
anything
surely
in spite of
what
I do not think that
more notable than the good-humor and
the equanimity of
it all.
He
is
not interested in
himself in a morbid or self-conscious
way; he has
not the slightest wish to make himself out to be or magnificent or superior
fine
He
other way.
down
is
—
it
merely going to try to break
He
the grasses at the feet of man.
it
quite the
the barriers between soul and soul, to
the river of self ripple and welter and
you
is
to admire
it,
does not wish
though he hopes you may love
there are to be no excuses or pretenses
;
let
wash among
;
he does
not wish to be seen at certain angles or in subdued lights.
He
and
who
lets
cause he is
is
casts himself
down
observe him
will
;
In his nakedness,
and
all this
not be-
either hero or saint; his proudest title
to be an average man, one of the crowd, with
passions, weaknesses, uglinesses, even deformities.
He
is
leave
there, he is just so, it
;
but he
is
and you may take
not ashamed or
sensitive,
it
or
nor
in
any way abashed he smiles his frank, good-natured ;
67
Escape and Other Essays and suddenly one perceives the greatness
smile;
He
of it!
neither fanatic nor buffoon; he
is
not performing like the boxer or wrestler, nor
he
and patiently for the sake of the
sitting mournfully
pence, like the fat
man
at the fair; he
trying, to say what he thinks
has any aim at
is
is
all, it is
He
abashed sincerity.
and
feels,
is
merely
and
he
if
to tempt others into uncries
to
man, " If you
would only recognize yourself as you
are, without
pretenses or excuses, the dignity which your sub-
terfuges are meant to secure would be yours with-
out question."
It
or indifferent.
Every one has a right to be where
he
is,
and there
tion too. it
may
is
That
is
not a question of good, bad,
a reason for him and a
is
the gospel of
justifica-
Walt Whitman;
be a bad gospel, or an ugly one, or an inde-
corous one; but no one can pretend that
it is
not
a big one.
One immense and
man
fruitful discovery
made, and yet one can hardly
covery;
it
is
Walt Whit-
call it a dis-
more perhaps an inspired doctrine,
unsupported by argument, wholly unphilosophical, proclaimed with a childlike loudness and confidence,
68
Walt Whitman but yet probably true the doctrine, that :
body and
indissoluble union between soluble,
one
calls it,
than the fact that
and yet nothing
it is
is
a union which
and inevitably dissolved
in
is,
of the Indis-
soul.
more patent is
invariably
death; while on the
other hand, one sees in certain physical catastrophies, such as paralysis, brain-concussion, senile
decay, insanity, the soul apparently reduced to the condition of a sleeping partner, or so far deranged as to be unable to express anything but some one
dominant emotion; sees
And
physical disorder. trine
more bewildering
or,
may
yet for aU that, the doc-
may
the vitality of the soul
be bound
itself in
up with
an existence apart from
its
individuality, as
indeed
it
electricity
life,
It
has
material manifestation,
we
see
it,
phenomenon of the passage of a visibility of
its
material terms.
be that the soul-stuff, which we caU
and that
one
by a
be essentially and substantially true;
power of expressing
may
still,
the moral sense seemingly suspended
may
be a mere
force, like the
under certain conditions;
seems more probable that matter
is
a
function of thought rather than thought a function of matter.
It
is
likely
enough that animals
have no conscious sense of any division of aims,
69
Escape and Other Essays any antagonism between physical and mental sires
;
human
but as the
race develops, the imagina-
tion, the sense of the opposition
between the rea-
son and the appetite, begins to emerge.
becomes aware that coincide
;
his will
and
his wish
Man
may not
and thus develops the medieval theory of
asceticism, the belief that the vile,
de-
and suggests base
body
is
essentially
desires to the mind, which
the mind has the power of controlling.
That con-
ception fitted closely to the feudal theory of gov-
ernment, in which the interests of the ruler and the subject did not necessarily coincide; the ruler gov-
erned with his own interests in view, and coerced his subjects if he could
;
but the new theory of gov-
ernment does not separate the ruler from the
The government tutions
is
state.
of a state with democratic insti-
the will of the people taking shape, and
the phenomena of rule are but those of the popular will
expressing
itself,
the object being that each
individual should have his due preponderance; the
ultimate end being as
much
individual liberty as
is
consistent with harmonious cooperation.
That is a rough analogy of the doctrine of Walt Whitman; namely that the individual, soul and body, is a polity; and that the true life is to be 70
Walt Whitman found in a harmonious cooperation of body and
The reason
soul.
is
not at liberty to deride or to
neglect the bodily desires, even the meanest and basest of them, because every desire, whether of soul or body, exists in the
the expression of something that
is
Take, for ex-
animating principle.
That, in
ample, the case of physical passion. ultimate analysis, life,
is
its
the instinct for propagating
the transmission and continuance of vitality.
The reason must not ignore or it into
the proper channels;
dangers that regard
it
it
incurs
;
deplore it
but direct
indicate the
but merely to thwart
with shame and horror,
internecine warfare.
may
it,
The
it,
to
to establish an
is
true function
is
rather
to ennoble the physical desire by the just con-
currence of the soul. tion
is
But the
be ready to compromise. will
essence of the situa-
cooperation and not coercion
;
and each must
If the physical nature
not compromise with the reason, the disasters
of unbridled passion follow
;
if
the reason will not
cooperate with the physical desire, the result sterile intellectualism,
experience.
It
was
Whitman's view gave
a
life
here,
is
a
of starved and timid
of course, that
Walt
he thought of
civili-
offense
;
zation as a conventional system, cultivating a false
71
Escape and Other Essays shame and an ignoble reserve about bodily processes.
But the
vital truth of his doctrine lies in
many
the fact that
of our saddest, because most
remediable, disasters are caused
by a timid
reti-
cence about the strongest force that animates the
world, the force of reproduction.
and truly
run discretion. terror of
human
all
Whitman
felt,
that reason and sentiment have out-
felt,
It
may be
asked, indeed,
how
this
outspokenness has developed in the
race, so that parents cannot bear to speak
to their children about an experience which they
be certain to make acquaintance with in some
will
far
more
violent
and base form.
Does
this shrink-
ing delicacy, this sacred reserve, mean nothing,
may
be asked?
Well,
it
may
tiveness is so valuable that
to anticipate tenderly
it
be said,
must not be required
and faithfully what
communicated in a grosser form, then justified,
and not
it
if this sensi-
otherwise.
will
be
silence is
But transfer
this
reticence about a matter of awful concern to some
other region of morals, what should we think of the parent
who
so feared to lessen the affection of
a child by rebuking it
it
for a
lie
or a theft as to
let
go out into the world ignorant that either was
reprobated.''
Whitman's argument would rather be
78
Walt Whitman that a parent should say to a child, " There force within
a
you which wiU to a large extent deter-
mine the happiness of your
and
is
controlled.
You
ignore or disregard
will
it,
life
it
;
must be guarded
probably not be able to
and you must bring
it
into
harmonious cooperation with mind and reason and
There
duty.
is
nothing that
being there; indeed, the world. lessly."
it
The shameful thing
it
to use
is
it
were unmentionable
of the child's
own
its
shame-
Yet the attitude of parents too often
to treat the subject, not as if as if
shameful about
is
the dominant force in
is
;
it
is
were sacred, but
so that the very fact
would seem to be an
origin
essentially shameful thing.
The
Greeks,
thought of the
it is
true,
had an
instinct for the
vital interdependence of
soul; but they thought too
manifestation of the health
much
body and
of the glowing
and beauty of youth,
and viewed the decay and deformity of the human frame too much as a disgrace and an abasement.
But here again comes
in the largeness of
Whit-
man's presentment, that whatever disasters befall the body, whether through drudgery or battle, disease or sin, they are
all
parts of a rich and
large experience, not necessarily interrupting the
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Escape and Other Essays cooperation of mind
and matter.
This
the
is
strongest proof of Whitman's faith in the essen-
brotherhood of man, that such horrors and
tial
wretchednesses do not seem to him to interrupt the design, or to destroy the possibility of a
human sympathy which a matter of devout
is
instinctive rather
than
Whitman is here on human spir-
effort.
the side of the very greatest and finest its, in
He
that he
is
does not call
shocked and appalled by nothing. it
the best of worlds, but
only world that he knows est,
;
it is
and the glowing
the
inter-
the passionate emotion, the vital rush and
current of
it,
prove beyond
doubt that we are
all
in touch with something very splendid nificent indeed,
forfeits
and mag-
and that no misdeed or disaster
our share in the inheritance.
He
is
ut-
terly at variance with the hideous Calvinistic the-
ory, that
God
sent some of His creatures into the
world for their pain and ruin. to your
body or your
worth your while to
Whatever happens
soul, says
live
and
Whitman,
to have lived.
adopts no facile system of compensations and sets.
He
rather protests with
all his
it is
He off-
might that,
however broken your body or fatuous your mind, it
is
a good thing for you to have taken a hand
U
Walt Whitman in the affair ;
and that the essence of the whole
uation has not been your success, your
sit-
dignity,
your comfortable obliteration of half your faculties,
or on the other hand your failure, your
ness, or
your despair, but that just at the time
and place at which the phenomenon self
vile-
called your-
took place, that intricate creature, with
bodily needs and desires,
its
its
joys of the senses,
its
outlook on the strange world, took shape and
made you exactly what you else.
As he says
logues
:
" Through birth,
" Through angers,
is
are,
of
and nothing
his
finest
apo-
death, burial, the means
life,
are provided, nothing
ennui,
one
in
scanted.
losses, ambition, ignorance,
what you are picks
its
Then too Walt Whitman
way."
claims to be the poet,
not of the past or even only of the present, but He says in " The Backthe singer of the future.
ward Glance," which
I have already quoted,
and
which must be carefully read by any one who .
wishes to understand his far as he understood
it
75
work
— at —"
himself,
least in so
Isolated ad-
Escape and Other Essays
— the
vantages in any rank or grace or fortune-
direct or indirect threads of all the poetry of the
past
— are
in
my
publican genius.
opinion distasteful to the re.
.
Established poems, I know,
.
have the very great advantage of chanting the already performed, so
full of glories, reminiscences
And he
dear to the minds of men."
says too that,
" The educated world seems to have been growing more and more ennuied for ages, leaving to our time the inheritance of says
:
"
The ranges
it all."
And
he further
of heroism and loftiness with
which Greek and feudal poets endow'd their godlike
or lordly
bom
characters, I was to
democratic averages of America.
endow the
I was to show
that we, here and to-day, are eligible to the grandest
— more
and the best
eligible
now than any
times of old were."
This
is
a lofty claim, boldly advanced and main-
tained; and here I
am on
uncertain ground, be-
cause I do not suppose that I can realize what the democratic spirit of America really
however, that
it is
a doubt as to whether at
any time
a new
start.
is.
a free and a noble it is
Granted,
spirit,
possible for
I feel
any nation,
in the world's history, really to take
The American nation 76
is
not a new
Walt Whitman nation;
in
it is
energies,
and
ventions; but
it
judge,
it is
cannot get rid of ;
its
inheritance
its
and I think that,
so far as I can
too anxious to emphasize
revolt, its consciousness of
man
for
field
has made a sweep of the old con-
it
of tempersLment
It has
a sense a very old nation.
had a perfectly new and magnificent
newness of
sense of
its
Whit-
life.
himself would not be so anxious to declare
the ennui of the old,
a
way trammeled by
is
stated
if
he did not
feel himself in
The moment that a case with any vehemence, that moment it is cerit.
tain that the speaker has antagonists in his eye.
There
is
a story of Professor Blackie at Edin-
burgh making a tirade against the
stuffiness
of the
old English universities to Jowett, the incisive
Master of BaUiol. At the end, he said generously, " I hope you people at Oxford do not think that
we are your enemies up here? " " No," said Jowett dryly, " to teU the truth, we don't think about you at all " The man who is really mak!
ing a new beginning, serenely confident in his strength, does not, as Professor Blackie did, con-
cern himself with his predecessors at
all.
Perhaps,
indeed, the democratic spirit of America quietly glorying in its strength,
77
may
be
and may be merely
Escape and Other Essays But
waiting
till
think
can be said to have found,
it
It seems to
suits it to speak.
it
me
—
I
may
well be
matters of culture, the American
I
do not
full expression.
wrong
— that in
far more seri-
is
ously bent on knowing what has been done in the
past even than the Englishman. takes the past for granted; he
The Englishman is
probably more
deeply and instinctively penetrated with
its tradi-
tions than he knows; but ever since the
Romantic
movement began
in England, about a century ago,
the general tendency
Writers
cal. lyle,
is
Ruskin, had very
They
anarchical and anticlassi-
Wordsworth, Browning, Car-
like
little
deference about them.
did not even trouble to assert their inde-
pendence; they said what they thought, and as they thought
it.
But the
spirit of
American
erature does not on the whole appear to
a democratic of Walt
spirit.
Whitman
It
me
lit-
to be
has not, except in the case
himself,
shown any strong tend-
ency to invent new forms or to ventilate new ideas. It has not broken out into crude, fresh, It has rather
experiments. did,
immature
worked as the Romans
who anxiously adopted and imitated Greek
models, admiring the form but not comprehending the spirit.
A
revolt in literary art, such as the
78
Walt Whitman Romantic movement concern
itself
Writers
like
England, has no time to
in
with the old forms and traditions.
Wordsworth, Keats,
Shelley,
Byron,
Walter Scott, had far too much to say for themselves to care
worked.
a model.
how
the old classical schools had
They used the past as a quarry, not as But the famous American writers have
not originated new forms, or invented a different use of language
;
they have widened and freshened
thrown them overboard.
traditions, they have not
Neither,
if
I
interpret
facts
rightly,
have the
Americans developed a new kind of aristocracy.
Whitman's talk of democratic averages the point.
The
is
beside
process of leveling up and leveling
down only produces low standards. What the world needs, whether in England or America, is a simple, disinterested, new sort of aristocracy
—
bold, sympathetic, enthusiastic men, of clear vision
and is
free thought.
And what
not an envious dislike of
the democracy needs all
prominence and
greatness, but an eye for all greatness, and an
admiration for
England
all
suspects,
courage and largeness of soul.
perhaps
erroneously,
that
America has founded an aristocracy of wealth and influence
and physical prowess, rather than an 79
Escape and Other Essays One
aristocracy of simplicity and fearlessness.
that the competitive, the prize-winning
believes spirit, is
even more dominant in America than in
No
England.
one doubts
tlic fierce
aplomb of America but can
it
;
energy and the
be said that ideas,
the ultimate test of na-
the existence of which
is
tional vigor, are really
more prevalent
than in England?
upon
Roman
ideal
whether one values the Greek or the
more highly, the desire to rule
tion
better
interest, that
and prosper.
but
;
if
the aim
is
Roman aim Yet
England has been more
than America, although America
more interested
But
it is
remains
a
fine
tially
is
in education
hard
is
the
in the last cen-
is
ideas
in
fruitful
incomparably
than England
to balance these things.
is.
What
Walt Whitman has drawn
the fact that
democratic
or the
life,
spiritual animation, then
the Greeks are the winners. tury,
of
is,
If the aim of civiliza-
orderliness, then the
is
America
in
It all depends, of course,
ideal.
His democrat
is
essen-
a worker, with every sort of vigorous im-
pulse, living life in
an ecstasy of health and com-
radeship,
of
position,
careless
content
to
money and live
a
simple
influence life,
and
finding
beauty, and hope, and love, and labor, enough, in
80
Walt Whitman the spirit of the great dictum of William Morris, that the reward of labor
is life
— not
power or wealth, but the sense of
success or
living fully
and
freely.
I do not claim that this spirit exists in England yet; but does
it
exist in
What,
America?
in fact,
constitutes the inspiration of the average Ameri-
can; what does he expect to find in
make of in
life?
life,
Whitman has no doubt at
what other American writer does
and to
But
aU.
this ideal find
expression?
4 It remains to say a few words about the artistic
methods of Walt Whitman. artistic
standard whatever.
He himself He says
claims
no
that
he
wishes to create an atmosphere; and that his one
aim has been suggestiveness. little, if
my
" I round and
finish
anything; and could not consistently with
The reader will always have his or much as I have had mine." He says that his purpose has been "not to scheme.
her part to do, just as
carry out in the approved style some choice plot of
fortune
or
misfortune,
or
fancy,
thoughts, or incidents or courtesies
81
—
all
or
fine
of which
;
Escape and Other Essays has been done overwhelmingly and well, probably never to be excelled
.
but to conform with and
.
.
build on the concrete realities
universe furnished
by
science,
and
theories of the
and henceforth the
only irrefragable basis for anything, verse included
—
root both influences in the emotional
to'
and imaginative action of the modern
time,
and
dominate all that precedes or opposes them." He adds, " No one will get at my verses who insists upon, viewing them as a literary performance, or attempt at such performance, or as aiming mainly
toward art or estheticism." It
is,
of course, quite true that no writer
bound by who need
traditions of art,
consider
how
and there
by
is
critics.
no one
the thing has been done
But
before, or follow a prescribed code.
that, art
is
is
for all
not a thing of rules made and enforced All that critics can do
is
to determine
what the laws of art are ; because art has laws underlying
it
which are as certain as the laws of
gravity, even
manent art
if
is,
they are not known.
the more
because the fact the
is
it
that there
human mind towards
and a
The more
per-
conforms to these laws is
a vital impulse in
the expression of beauty,
vital discrimination too as to the
82
form and
Walt Whitman method of that expression. stance,
and music, are
preferences in
human
alike
Architecture, for in-
based upon instinctive
beings, the one for geomet-
rical form, the others for the combination of yibra-
It is a law of music, for instance, that
tions.
human being prefers an octave in absolute unison, and not an octave of which one note is a semitone flat. That is not a rule invented by critics ; it is a law of human perception and prefthe
erence.
Similarly there
determines
human
is
undoubtedly a law which
preferences in poetry, though a
far more complicated law, and not yet analyzed.
The new poet is not a man who breaks the law, but who discovers a real extension of it. The question then, roughly, is this: Whitman chose to express himself in a species of poetry,
based roughly upon Hebrew poetry, such, as we
have in the Psalms and Prophets.
If this
is
expansion of the esthetic law of poetry, then success; if
it is
a true it is
a
not a true expansion, but only a
wilful variation, not consonant with the law,
it is
a
failure.
Now
there are
many
eflFects
in
Whitman which
are, I believe, inconsistent with the poetical law.
Not
to multiply instances, his grotesque word-
83
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—" Me
his use of
Greek and Latin and French terms, not
imperturbe "
" No dainty " dolce affettuoso I," the drape of the day "
correctly used
!
and not even rightly
spelt, his end-
less iterations, lists, catalogues, categories,
things
not clearly visualized or even remotely perceived,
but swept relentlessly storeroom,
in, like
the debris of some
these are ugly mannerisms which
all
simply blur and encumber the pages. tion
is
not whether they offend a
The
critical
ques-
and
cul-
tured mind, but whether they produce an inspiring
upon any kind of mind. Then too his form constantly
effect
though he had no are
fixed
many poems which
collapses,
scheme in his mind.
as
There
begin with an ample sweep,
and suddenly crumble to
pieces, as
though he were
merely tired of them.
Then again
there seem to
me
to be some simply
coarse, obscene, unpleasant passages, not of relent-
realism
less
contrast or an emphasis. piles of filth, in tion. als,
If
it is
They
but of dull inquisitiveness.
do not attract or impress
;
they do not provide a
They simply
lie,
like
rooms designed for human habita-
argued that art may use any materi-
I can only fall back
upon
84
my
belief that
such
Walt Whitman passages are as instinctively repulsive to the artistic sense as
library
strong-smelling cheeses stacked in a
There
!
such a practice
;
is
no moral or ethical law against
but the esthetic conscience of hu-
manity instinctively condemns ine the literature
it.
When
I exam-
which has inspired and attracted
the minds of humanity, whether trained or untrained, I find that they avoid this hideous intru-
sion of nastiness
writers
who
who
like
which
is
;
and I am
them, have some other impulse in view, neither the sense of beauty nor the per-
ception of art.
But
if
Whitman, or any one
can convert the world to it
inclined to infer that
introduce such episodes, and readers
call this art,
else,
and to enjoy
as art, then he will prove that he understands
the law of preference better than I do.
But when
all this
has been said and conceded,
there yet remain countless passages of true and vital beauty, exquisite phrases,
haunting pictures,
glimpses of perfect loveliness.
His poems of com-
radeship and the open life,
air, his
have often a magical
thrill
pictures of family
of passion, leaving
one rapturous and unsatisfied, believing in the crets behind the world,
se-
and hoping for a touch of
like experience.
85
Escape and Other Essays If I
that
—
is
may take one poem as typical of the best and what a splendid best! in Whitman
—
it shall
be " Out of the Cradle Endlessly Rock-
ing," from the book called " Sea-drift."
that I can never read this
emotion
;
it is
I declare
poem without profound
here that he fully justifies his claim
atmosphere and suggestiveness the nesting birds, the sea's edge, with its " liquid rims and wet sands " what a magical phrase the angry to
;
—
moan
—
!
of the breakers under the yellow, drooping
moon, the boy with
his feet in the water,
wind
this is all
in his
Demon Is
beyond
to I,
and the
criticism.
or bird! (said the boy's soul)
indeed toward your mate you sing? or
it
For
hair —
is it
mostly
me?
that was a childj
my
tongue's use sleeping,
now
I have heard you
—
Now
in a
And
already a thousand singers, a thousand songs,
moment
I
know what
clearer, louder
I
am
for,
I awake.
and more sorrowful than yours,
A thousand warbling echoes have started to life within me, never to
And
die.
then he cries to the waves to
they have been whispering
Whereto answering, the Delaying not, hurrying
all
sea.
not,
86
tell
the time.
him what
Walt Whitman me through
Whisper'd
the night and very plainly be-
fore day-break,
Lisp'd to
me
the low and delicious
word
death.
This theme, it will be remembered, is worked out more fuUy in the Lincoln poem, " When Lilacs Last in the Dooryard Bloom'd," with the " Song of Death,"
too long,
alas,
to
quote here
— — it
would be delightful even to inscribe the words which seems to
me
for splendor of language, sweet-
and
ness of rhythm,
stateliness of
say nothing of the magnificence of to be incontestably
among
cadence
—
to
the thought —
the very greatest po-
ems of the world. If Whitman could always have written so! Then he need hardly have said that the strongest and sweetest songs remained to be sung; but this, and many other gems of poetry, lie in radiant fragments among the turbid and weltering rush of his strange verse ;
indeed a law of
and thus one
sees that if there is
art, it lies close to the instinct of
One may think anymay say most things but if one means sway the human heart by that one particular
suppression and omission.
thing ; one to
gift of words, ordered
;
and melodiously intertwined,
one must heed what experience
87
tells
the aspirant
—
Escape and Other Essays that no fervor of thought, or exuberance of utter-
make up for the harmony of the firmly touched lyre, and the music of the unuttered word. ance, can
88
CHARM
CHARM
THERE
is
a
little village
here near Cambridge
the homely, summer-sounding is
Haslingfield.
It is a straggling
name
of which
hamlet of white-
waUed, straw-thatched cottages, among orchards
and old
elms, full of closes of meadow-grass,
and
farmsteads with ricks and big-timbered bams.
It
has a
solid,
upstanding Tudor church, with rather
a grand tower, and four solid corner turrets it
has, too,
its little bit
;
and
of history in the manor-
house, of which only one high-shouldered wing re-
mains, with tall brick chimneys.
It stands
up
above some mellow old walls, a big dove-cote, and
a row of ancient fish-ponds.
Here Queen
beth once spent a night upon the wing.
Eliza-
Close
behind the village, a low wold, bare and calm, with
a belt or two of trees, runs steeply up.
The
simplest
and
quietest place imaginable, with
a simple and remote
life,
91
hardly aware of
itself,
Escape and Other Essays flowing tranquilly through
by some
felicity of
it
;
yet this
little village,
grouping and gathering, has
the rare and incomparable gift of charm.
not analyze
and
it,
I cannot explain
in all lights,
whether
its
it,
yet at
I canall
orchards are
bloom and scent, and the cuckoo
flutes
times
full of
from the
down the soft breeze, or in the bare and leafwhen the pale sunset glows beyond the wold among the rifted cloud-banks, it has the won-
holt
less winter,
derful appeal of beauty, a quality which cannot be
schemed for or designed, but which a very mishandling can sweep away. has grown up out of
common
The whole
little
place
use, trees planted
for shelter, orchards set for fruit, houses built for
convenience. is
there
Only
in the
church and the manor
any care for seemliness and
stateliness.
There are a dozen villages round about
it
which
have sprung from the same needs, the same history; and yet these have missed the unconsidered
charm of
Haslingfield, which
man
did not devise,
nor does nature inevitably bring, but which
is
instantly recognizable and strangely aff'ecting.
Such charm seems to orderliness
arise partly out of
a subtle
and a simple appropriateness, and
partly from a blending of delicate and pathetic
9a
Charm elements in a certain unascertained proportion.
seems to touch unknown memories into
It
and to
life,
give a hint of the working of some half-whimsical,
half-tenderly concerned spirit, brooding over its
work, adding a touch of form here and a dash of color there,
that
it is
and pleased to
If one looks closely at
quality in humanity, in
and
pictures,
to the
when
see,
done,
all is
good.
one
life,
and yet one cannot
making of
it.
same
sees the
men and women, tell
books
in
what goes
It seems to be a thing which
no energy or design can capture, but which alights here is
and
wind at
there, blowing like the
will.
not force or originality or inventiveness
often
it is
ity at all
;
;
It
very
strangely lacking in any masterful qual-
but
it
has always just the same wistful
appeal, which makes one desire to understand to take possession of
it,
to serve
it,
it,
to win its
It is as when the child in Francis Thomppoem seems to say, " I hire you for nothing."
favor. son's
That
is
exactly
bestowed, but one serve it for love
it: is
and
there
is
nothing
ofiFered
or
at once magically bound to delight.
that one can expect to get from
very far down into the soul ;
93
There it,
it is
is
nothing
and yet
it
goes
behind the mad-
Escape and Other Essays dening desire which certain faces, hands, voices, smiles excite
—
the desire to possess, to claim, to
know even that no one them, which
lies
tragedies of
life.
Some degree, life,
else
personalities have
and
if,
can possess or claim
at the root of half the jealous
charm
in
a marvelous
as one looks into the old records of
one discovers figures that seem to have laid
an inexplicable hold on their
circles,
and to have
a tempest of applause and
passed through
life in
admiration, one
may be
sure that charm has been
the secret.
Take the case of Arthur Hallam, the " In Memoriam."
inspirer of
I remember hearing Mr. Glad-
stone say, with kindled eye and emphatic gesture,
that Arthur Hallam was the most perfect being physically, morally,
ever seen or
and
intellectually that
he had
hoped to see. He said, I remember, " The story of Milnes Gaskell's
with a smile :
friendship with Hallam was curious. You must know that people fell in love very easily in those of whom Hallam days; there was a Miss E was enamored, and Milnes Gaskell abandoned his
own
addresses to her in favor of Hallam, in order
to gain his friendship."
94
Charm Yet the portrait of Hallam which hangs provost's house at
Eton
rather heavy-featured
— Mr.
face,
in the
represents a rosy, solid,
young man, with
a'
flushed
Gladstone said that this was caused
— who
by overwork,
looks more like a
young coun-
try bumpkin on the opera-bouffe stage than an intellectual archangel.
Odder
the letters, poems, and remains of
still,
Hallam throw no
on the hypnotic
light
effect he
produced; they are turgid, elaborate, and wholly uninteresting; nor does he seem to have been en-
Lord Dudley
tirely amiable.
told Francis
Hare
Henry Hallam, the hiswho was Arthur Hallam's father, in the company of the son, in Italy, adding, " It did my
that he had dined with torian,
heart good to
sit
by and hear how the son snubbed how often the father had
the father, remembering
unmercifully snubbed me."
There
is
a hint of beauty in the dark eyes and
the down-dropped curve of the mobile lip in the portrait,
and one need not quote " In Memoriam "
to prove
how
utterly the charm of Hallam subju-
gated the Tennyson
circle.
sight, beauty, lovableness
there;
and
it
—
Wit, swiftness of all
in-
seem to have been
remains that Arthur Hallam was
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Escape and Other Essays worshiped and adored by his contemporaries with a
Nothing but the
jealousy of devotion.
fierce
presence of an overmastering charm can explain this conspiracy of praise
better proof of
it
;
and perhaps there
than that
no
is
his friends could detect
genius in letters and poems which seem alike destitute of promise
There to have
is
and performance.
another figure of earlier date who seems
had the same magnetic
preeminent degree.
There
is
gift in
an even more
a portrait by Law-
rence of Lord Melbourne that certainly gives a hint,
and more than a
hint, of the extraordinary
charm which enveloped him; the the fine nose, the
full,
attractive enough.
thick,
wavy
but firmly molded,
But
the large,
hair,
lips,
are
dark eyes under
strongly marked eyebrows, which are at once pathetic,
passionate, ironical,
a singular emotion.
Every
and mournful, evoke gift that
men hold
to
be advantageous was showered upon Melbourne.
He
was well bom, wealthy, able; he was
full
of
humor, quick to grasp a subject, an omnivorous
He won men and women. His marand brilliant Lady Caroline
reader and student, a famous sportsman. the devotion of both riage with the lovely
Ponsonby, whose heart was broken and mind shat-
Charm tered by her hopeless passion for Byron, showed
how he all
There
could win hearts.
that period of
whom
political prestige,
no figure of
one would rather possess
Yet
a personal memoir.
is
despite
aU
his
he was an unhappy,
fame and
dissatisfied
man, who tasted every experience and joy of
and found that there was nothing
The
in
life,
it.
dicta of his that are preserved vibrate be-
tween cynicism, shrewdness, wisdom, and tender" Stop a bit," he said, as the cabinet went ness. down-stairs after a dinner to discuss the
"
Is it to lower the price of
does n't
much matter
the same thing."
and
diaries of
bread or
com
is n't it ?
which, but we must
Yet, after
laws.
all, it Is
all
It
say
the letters
Queen Victoria that reveal the true
secret of Melbourne's charm. girl sovereign is one of the
in latter-day history.
His relation to
his
most beautiful things
Melbourne loved her half
paternally, half chivalrously, while
it
is
evident
that the queen's affection for her gallant and attractive premier
was of a quality which escaped
her own perception. her,
He
hiunored her, advised
watched over her; in return, she idolized him,
noted down his smallest sayings, permitted him to
behave and talk just as he would.
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She lovingly
"
"
Escape and Other Essays records his
—
fancies how he fell how he always took two apples,
ways and
little
asleep after dinner,
and hid one in his lap while he ate the " I asked him if he meant to eat it. not,
and
doing
so.'
said,
*
But I
other.
He thought
have the power of
like to
I observed, had n't he just as well the
power of doing so when the apples were on the table?
He laughed and
said,
'
in the dish
Not
the full
power.'
Melbourne was
full
of prejudices and whims and
hatreds, but his charity was boundless, and he
He
always had a good word for an enemy.
ex-
Henry VIII to the queen by those women bothered him so."
cused the career of saying, "
And
You
see,
TFhen he was superseded
the queen's dislike of her
by
Peel, he
best to put Peel in a favorable light.
made
his first
it
When
his
Peel
appearance at Windsor, shy and
awkward, and holding himself ter,
combated
new premier, and did
like
a dancing-mas-
was Melbourne who broke the awkward
pause by going up to Peel, and saying in an undertone, " For God's sake, go and talk to the queen !
When
I was privileged to work through
all
Mel-
bourne's letters to the queen, so carefully preserved
and magnificently bound, I was greatly touched by 98
Charm the sweetness and tenderness of them, the gentle ironical flavor, the delicate freedom,
and the
presents and remembrances they exchanged
little
up
to
the end.
Melbourne can hardly be man,
— he had not
called a very great
the purpose or tenacity for that,
and he thought both too contemptuously and too indulgently of
—
human nature, but I know of no who is more wholly transfused and
historical figure
Everything
penetrated by the aroma of charm.
that he did and said had some distinction and unusualness:
and, with spoiled
perceptive it all,
and engaging
is baffled,
observation,
wisdom,
ripe
the petulant attractiveness of the
because
And
child.
it is
yet even so, one
not the profundity or the
gravity of what he said that impresses
;
it is
rather
the delicate and fantastic turn he gave to a thought
or a phrase that makes his simplest deductions
from to
life, his
most
sensible bits of counsel,
appear
have something fresh and interesting about
them, though prudent before,
Not though
and said
it
men have
heavily
said
much
the same
and solemnly.
that charm need be whimsical and freakish, it is
perhaps most beautiful when there
something of the child about
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it,
is
something naive
Escape and Other Essays There are men, of whom I Newman was preeminently one,
and unconventional. think that Cardinal
who seem
to have
had the appeal of a pathetic
of beauty and even helplessness.
Newman
sort
seems
to have always been surprised to find himself so interesting to others,
and perhaps rather over-
shadowed by the responsibility of
it.
He was
romantically affectionate, and the tears came very
Such
easily at the call of emotion.
that when
Newman
incidents as
said good-by to his bare
room
at Littlemore, and kissed the doorposts and the
bed in a passion of
grief,
show what
his intensity
of feeling might be. It
is
not as a rule the calm and controlled people
who have
this attractiveness for others
who
those
fulness
unite with
it is
rather
an enchanting kind of play-
an instinct to confide
protective affection.
;
in
and
to
depend upon
Very probably there
is
some
deep-seated sexual impulse involved, however re-
motely and unconsciously, in this species of charm. It
is
the appeal of the child that exults in happi-
ness, claims it as a right, uses it with a pretty petu-
lance,
—
like the feigned
the puppy,
— and when
tearfully that
it
enmity of the kitten and
it is
clouded over, requires
shall be restored.
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That may seem
Charm an undignified comparison for a prince of the
But Newman was
church.
logian a long
artist first,
and theo-
way afterward; he needed comfort
and approval and even applause; and he evoked, together with love and admiration, the compassion
and protective chivalry of ings have
strength
little
is
his friends.
His writ-
logical or intellectual force; their
in their ineffable
and fragrant charm,
their ordered grace, their infinite pathos.
The Greek word is
X^P'^i
for this subtle kind of beauty
and the Greeks are worth hearing on the
subject, because they, of all the nations that ever
were penetrated by
lived,
for
it,
worshiped
as all large
it,
valued
The word
it.
words are apt to
it,
itself
suffer,
looked out
has suffered,
when they
are
transferred to another language, because the big, ultimate words of every tongue connote a number
of ideas which cannot be exactly rendered by a single
word
in another language.
philological for a
word
Jf^/^C in
the verb
is
moment, and
Greek
is
Let us be mildly realize that the
the substantive of which
X'^'P'^t to rejoice.
We
translate the
word X'^P"' ^J the English word " grace," which means, apart from its theological sense, a rich endowment of charm and beauty, a thing which 101
is
;
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taking thought.
and which cannot be captured by
When we
say that a thing
done with a perfect grace, we mean that entirely delightful, appropriate, seemly, tiful.
It pleases every sense
;
it
is
seems
and beau-
done just as
it is
it
should be done, easily, courteously, gently, pleasantly, with a confidence which
is
yet modest, and
with a Tightness that has nothing rigid or unamiable about it
may
it.
To
see
a thing so done, whatever
be, leaves us with
an envious
desire that
might do the thing in the same way.
we
It seems
easy and effortless, and the one thing worth doing
and
this is
where the moral appeal of beauty
in the contagious sort of
example that
it
lies,
sets.
But when we clumsily translate the word by " grace," we lose the root idea of the word, which has a certain joy fulness about
it.
A
thing done
with X'^P'^ is done as a pleasure, naturally, eagerly, out of the heart's abundance; and that is the
appeal of things so done to the ordinary mind, that they seem to well up out of a beautiful and
happy nature, sandy
as the clear spring rises from the
floor of the pool.
The
act
is
done, or the
word spoken, out of a tranquil fund of joy, not as a matter of duty, or in reluctant obedience to a
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Charm principle, but because the thing, whatever it
and beautiful thing to
the joyful
And
so the
word became the fundamental idea
of the Christian
power that
is, is
do.
life:
the grace of
God was
the
floods the whole of the earlier teaching
of the gospel, before the conflict with the ungra-
cious
and suspicious world began
uncalculating
life,
lived
—
the serene,
simply and purely, not
from any grim principle of asceticism, but because it
of
was beautiful to life,
live so.
as opposed to
ambitions;
it
its
It stood for the
cares
and
anxieties
joy
and
was beautiful to share happiness, to
give things away, to live in love, to find
joy
in the
fresh mintage of the earth, the flowers, the creatures, the children, before they were clouded
stained
world.
by
the strife and greed
The
exquisite
and
and enmity of the
quality of the
first
soft
touches of the gospel story comes from the fact that
it all
rose out of a heart of joy, an overflowing
certainty of the true values of to fight the uglier side of simplicity
life
life,
a determination
by opposing
to
it
a
and a sweetness that claimed nothing,
and exacted nothing but a right to the purest sort of happiness
—
the happiness of a loving circle
of friends, where the sacrifice of personal desires
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is
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the easiest
because such sacrifice
is
the highest delight of love.
strength
of primitive
in the world,
both the best reward and
was here that the
It
Christianity
lay,
that
it
seemed the possession of a joyful secret that
turned
common
things,
to gold.
If a
all
suffering,
was on
tribulation, he
It
is
his
and even sorrow and
man could rejoice in way to be invulnerable.
not a very happy business to trace the
decay of a great and noble idea but one can catch a glimpse of the perversion of " grace " in the ;
hands of our Puritan ancestors, when
it
became a
combative thing, which instead of winning the enemies of the
Lord by
its
patient sweetness, put an
edge on the sword of holiness, and enabled the stanch Christian to hew the Amalekites hip and thigh ; so that the word, which had stood for a perfectly peaceful
and attractive charm, became the
symbol of righteous persecution, and flowered in cries of
We
anguish and spilled blood.
shall take a long time before
we can crawl
out of the shadow of that dark inheritance; but there
are signs in the world of an awakening
brotherliness
;
and perhaps we may some day come
back to the old truth, so long mishandled, that the
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Charm essence of all religion
a spirit of beauty
is
and of
joy, bent on giving rather than receiving; and so
at last we
may
reach the perception that the
fruitful strength of morality lies not in its terror:, its prohibitions, its coercions,
its tolerance, its dislike
but in
its good-will,
of rebuke and censure,
rapturous acceptance of
all
its
generous and chival-
rous and noble ways of living.
And
thus, then, I
mean by charm not a mere
superficial gracefulness
which can be learned, as
good manners are learned, through a certain code of behavior, but a thing which
is
the flower and
outward sign of a beautiful attitude to eagerness to welcome everything which fresh and unstained; that turns
away
an
life;
is fine
and
the glance
from things unlovely and violent and greedy not a disapproving or a self-righteous it is
spirit,
in
because
respectable to be shocked, but in a sense of
shame and disgrace that such cruel and covetous
and unclean things should
be.
If one takes a
figure like that of St. Francis of Assisi,
who for
all
the superstition and fanaticism with which the
record
is
intermingled, showed a real reflection and
restoration of the old Christian joy of shall see
that he had
life,
firm hold of the secret.
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we St.
Escape and Other Essays Francis's love of nature, of animals, of flowers, of children, his
way
of breaking into song about the
pleasant things of earth, his praise of " our sister the Water, because she
and humble and
clean,"
overpowering joy.
is
very serviceable to us
show the outrush of an
He had the courage to do what
very few men and women ever dare to do, and that is
to
make a
plications
;
clean sweep of property and its com-
but even
so, the old
legend distorts some
of this into a priggish desire to set a good ex-
ample, to warn and rebuke and improve the occa-
But
sion.
St. Francis's asceticism is the
of asceticism that has
any charm, the
only kind
self-denial,
namely, that springs from a sense of enjoyment,
and
is
practised from a feeling of
its
beauty, and
not as a matter of timid and anxious calculation. It is true that St. Francis
was haunted by the
medieval nightmare of the essential vileness of the
body, and spurred this,
it
too hard.
But apart from
man
one recognizes in him a poet, and a
ineffable charm,
who found the company of company of
sinners
at least as attractive as the
for the simple reason that the sinner
enough well meaning and humble, and
is
of
is
saints,
often
spared at
least the ugliness of respectable self-righteousness,
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Charm which
is
of all things most destructive of the sense
of proportion, and most divorced from natural St. Francis took
joy.
and recognized that
it, is
human nature failure has a
as he found
beauty which
denied to success, for the simple reason that con-
scious
failure
makes a man both grateful and
affectionate, while success too often
makes him cold
and hard.
And
there
is
thus a wonderful fragrance about
that St. Francis did and said, though he must
all
his stupid and pompous who constantly misunderstood and mis-
have been sorely tried by followers,
represented him, and dragged into the light what
was meant to be the inner secret of
There are few
his
soul.
figures in the roll of saints so pro-
foundly beautiful and touching as that of St. Francis,
because he had in a preeminent degree that
childlike freshness
and trustfulness which
is
the
secret of all charm.
Charm
is
of course not the same thing as beauty,
but only a subdivision of
it.
There are many
things in nature and in art, from the
Matterhom
to " Samson Agonistes," that have no charm, but
that appeal to a different range of emotions, the sublime, the majestic, the awe-inspiring, things in
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;
:
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charm
is
We
are hardly at ease; but
essentially a comfortable quality, some-
thing that one gathers to one's heart, and is
a mystery about
ful things, it is
be afraid to
it,
as there
is
about
if
there
all beauti-
not a mystery of which one would
know the
Charm is
secret.
the quality
which makes one desire to linger upon one's grimage, that
be content.
It is intimate, reassuring,
pealing; and the shadow of
which
is
pil-
cries to the soul to halt, to rest, to
it is
and ap-
the gentle pathos,
in itself half a luxury of sadness, in the
thought that sweet things must have an end.
As
Herrick wrote to the daffodils Stay, stay
Until the hasting day
Has run But to the evensong; And, having prayed together, we Will go with you along.
We have short time to stay, as We have as short a spring;
you.
As quick a growth to meet decay As you, or anything. In such a
mood
as that there
is
no sense of
ter-
ror or despair at the quick-coming onset of death
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;
Charm no more dread of what may be than there the hamlet, with
its little
is
when
roofs and tall trees,
is
folded in the arms of the night, as the sunset dies
behind the
Beauty may be a
hill.
terrible thing,
in the sheeted cataract, with all its boiling
as
eddies, or in the falling of the lightning
womb
of the cloud.
that,
gigantic
charm comes will,
There
movement,
is
its inevitable
end
thing of mercy and quietness.
charm
that
is
it
force;
is lit
but
and goodwith some-
The danger
of
the mother of sentiment; and
it is
the danger of sentiment
but that
desolation behind
ruthless
like a signal of security
and even
from the
is
not that
it is
untrue,
takes from us the sense of proportion
we begin to be unable
to do without our little scenes
and sunsets; and the eye gets
so used to dwelling
upon the flower-strewn pleasaunce, with ing trees, that
it
its
screen-
cannot bear to face the far
horizon, with its menace of darkness and storm.
Yet we are very grateful to those who can teach us to turn our eyes to the charm which surrounds us,
tion
and a is
though
life
which
is
lived without such percep-
apt to be a rough and hurrying thing, even it
may
Like most of
life,
also be both high
the true success
109
and austere.
lies in
not choos-
Escape and Other Essays ing one force and neglecting another, but in an
The great
expectant kind of compromise.
and
facts of life flash
upon
us,
whether we
no; and even the man whose mind the greatest hopes
consolation
Mighty
and aims may
the lesser
in
find strength
and simpler
by the microscopic
and
delights.
and Rus-
hampered or distracted from
zest for detail,
or
bent upon
is
spirits like, let us say, Carlyle
kin, were not
further quest
affairs will
their
eye, the infinite
which characterized both.
No
one
ever spoke so finely as Carlyle of the salient features of moorland and hiU, and the silence so deep
that
it
was possible to hear the far-off sheep crop-
ping the grass; no one ever noted so instantaneously the vivid gesture or the picturesque turn of speech, or dwelt more intently
upon
the pathetic
sculpture of experience seen in the old humble
workaday
faces
of country-folk.
No
one ever
delighted more ecstatically than Ruskin in the color
of the
amber cataract, with
its soft,
rims, its flying spray, or in the
some half-faded
translucent
dim splendors of
fresco, or in the intricate fa9ade
of the crumbling, crag-like church front.
But
they did not stay there; indeed, Carlyle, in his passionate career
among verities and 110
forces, hardly
Charm took enough account of the beauty so patiently entwined with mortal things ; while Ruskin's sharpest agonies
were endured when he found, to his
dismay, that men and women could not be induced by any appeal or invective to heed the message of beauty. It
is
true that, however
sionately
and
we
linger,
however pas-
love the small, sweet, encircling joys
delights of
life,
we
will
us, whether
we
the tragic experience comes to
or no.
None
escapes.
And
thus our care must be not to turn our eyes away
from what in sterner moments we are apt to think mere shows and
vanities,
and temperately.
but to use them serenely
St. Augustine, in
a magnificent
apologue upon the glories and subtleties of light,
can only end by the prayer that
his heart
thereby be seduced from heavenly things is
the false kind of asceticism, and
more than a fear of
life, if
;
it is
may
not
but that nothing
our only concern with
and abhor the joy it would fain give But we may be sure that life has a meaning for us in its charm and loveliness not the whole it is
to shun
us.
;
meaning, but
make
life
still
an immense
significance.
To
into a continuous flight, a sad expect-
ancy, a perpetual awe,
is
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wilfully to select one
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and
We may
good-will.
its
timent
if
grow weak
wo make a tragedy out of
kindness
its
in
our sen-
life, if
we can-
not bear to have our comfortable arrangements disordered, our
through. change,
little
of pleasures broken
circle
The triumph is and to know that
to be ready for the if
the perfect
summer
day comes to an end, the power that shaped and made the heart surprises
and
charm of
the
swift to love
glories in store. life
it so,
has yet larger
it,
If we do that, then
takes its place in our spirits as
the evidence of something joyful, wistful, pleasant,
bound up with the
essence of things;
it
if
dis-
appears, like the gold or azure thread of the tapestry,
it is
only to emerge in the pattern farther
on; and the victory
is
not to attach ourselves to
the particular touches of beauty and fineness which
we
see in the familiar scene
and the well-loved
but to recognize beauty as a is
forever
making
spirit,
itself felt, forever
beckoning and
whispering to us, and which will not if
circle,
a quality which
fail
us even
for a time the urgent wind drives us far into the
night and the storm, ers,
among
the crash of the break-
and the scream of loud winds over the 112
sea.
SUNSET
VI
SUNSET
THE
liquid
kindUng of the
twilight, the west-
ern glow of clear-burning
fires,
bringing no
weariness of heat but the exquisite coolness of
darkling
airs, is
of
the ceremonial of the
all
the most solemn and sacred moment.
has
its
mists
own
splendors, but
and folded clouds
it
day
The dawn
brightens out of secret
into the
common
light of
day, when the burden must be resumed and the
common
business of the world renewed again.
But
the sunset wanes from glory and majesty into the stillness
may
of the star-hung night, when tired eyes
close in sleep,
and rehearse the mystery of
death; and so the dying
down of
suspension of daily activities, benediction.
Dawn
brings
beauty to a new episode of
remember throughout the
the
life,
with the
consecration
of
bidding the soul to
toil
the day that the beginning was
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light,
of the nature of a
is
and eagerness of
made
in the inno-
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dewy
when the evening
light; but
oomes, the deeds and words of the daylight are irrevocable facts,
and the mood
not one of for-
is
ward-looking hope and adventure, but of unalterable
memory, and of things dealt with so and not
otherwise, which nothing can henceforward change
or modify,
^f in the morning we
power over
life,
whether we have done iU or well, ourselves has been asserted,
the record .
And
feel
that we have
we know
in the evening
life's
power over
and that thus and thus
must stand, \
so the
mood
of evening
the larger and
is
the wiser mood, because
we must think
and more of God.
In the dawn
selves
that,
less of it
our-
seems to
us that we have our part to play and that nothing,
not even God, can prevent us from exercising our will
upon the
life
begin to wonder I
about us
;
how much,
but
in the
after
all,
evening we
we have the
strength to effect ; we see that even our desires and impulses have their roots far back in a past which
no restlessness of design or energy can touch ;
we end by to feel
and
till
thankfulness that we have been allowed to experience the current of life at
aUA
I sat the other day by the bedside of an old and gracious lady, the widow of a great artist, whose
116
Simset works with
all their
shapely form and dusky flashes
of rich color
hung on the
had Uved
many
for
walls of her room.
She
years in the forefront of a great
fellowship of art
and endeavor; she had seen and
known intimately
all
and
the greatest figures in the art
literature of the last generation
;
and she was
awaiting with perfect serenity and dignity the
She said to me with a deep emotion, " Ah,
close.
the only thing that I desire to feel it,
— that brings
is
that I
may
suffering in abundance with
but while we suffer we are at least
or twice in
my
life
continue
I have
felt the
alive.
Once
numbness of
anguish, when a blow had fallen, and I could not
even suffer.
— not
That
is
the only thing which I dread
death, nor silence, but only the obliteration
That was a wonderful say-
of feeling and love." ing,
fuU of
and energy.
life
recall the old days,
unsatisfied pain
;
She did not wish to
nor hanker after them with an
and I saw that an immortal
spirit
dwelt in that frail body, like a bird in an outworn cage.
/However much .
vividness of vitality
I
channels
life
one
may
— and
runs now in more
— yet
enjoy the onrush and
I for one find that, though definite
and habitual
I feel that though one has done
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le
time in undertaking doubtful entcrprisei, yet there is
a great gain in the concentration of energy, and
in the certain
knowledge of what one's
work
definite
really iw.\
/'Far from diminished,
finding the spring
I feel
and
sharper
and motion of
that the current of
clearer
learned
my
useless
enterprises.
intensity,
limitations,
runs with a
because
I
havi;
and expend no energy have
I
it
lifi;
learned
what
in
ihc
achievements arc which come joyfully bearing their sheaves with them, and what arc the trivial and
When I was younger I desired known and recognized and deferred to.
fruitless aims.
be
wanted to push
my way
panies, to produce
discreetly into
Now
and the enriched
light,
as the sunset draws nearer,
withdrawn from the
fiirtficr
horizon, begins to pulsate more intensely in it
I
many com-
an impression, to create a sensn
of admiration.
quarter whence
to
must soon altogether
tin:
fade,
I
I
begin to sec that vague and widely ranging effects
have a thinness and shallowness about them.
It
a poor thing just to see oneself transiently flected in
touch
a hundred
little rnirroro.
of reality about
tliat.
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There
Little
is
'in
re-
no
greetings,
Sunset casual flashes of courteous talk, petty compliments
—
1
these are tilings that fade as soon as they are
/rhe only thing worth doing
born,
is
a
little bit
away
of faithful and solid work, sometliing given
which costs one real pain, a few ideas and thoughts woi'ked patiently out,
and
And
inspirited.
sciousness that
no use at
nil
much
few hearts really enlivened
ii
comes the con-
too,
tlicn,
of one's cherished labor
except to oneself; that work
is
is
of
some privilege conceded to oneself, that the love it
self-regarding pleasure
less
and luxurious
pain —
is
is
tlie
lapses here, valley
suflFering
the
all,
— not
delicate
but hard and hope-
name
of love at
all.\
tlieir
way
tliat the light
to death,
and
which wanes and
drawn reluctantly away from dark
and somber woodland,
is
yet striding ahead
over dewy uplands and breaking seas, past the uplieaving shoulder of the world.
But is
.
and that
lights of sunset, the enfold-
ing gleams that are on
which yet testify
not love at
reveries,
wortli
Those are some of
.
but a momentary flash of
only love whicli means regrets
;
not a
magnificent gift presented to others, but a whole-
which brought with
;
best of all the gifts of sunset to the spirit
the knowledge that behind all
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tlie
whirling web of
'
Escape and Other Essays daylight, beyond all the noise
and laughter and
appetite and drudgery of
lies
life,
the spirit of
beauty that cannot be always revealed or traced in the louder and more urgent pageantry of the day. <
The
sunset has the power of weaving a subtle
and
remote mystery over a scene that by day has
nothing to show but a homely and obvious animation.\ I
was traveling the other day and passed,
just as the day began to decline, through the outskirts of a bustling, seaport town.
interest
and
houses, swinging
jecting
of
curiosity
up straw-packed
pent-houses;
steamers
It
had
all
the
Crowded ware-
life.
crates into pro-
with
red-stained
funnels, open-mouthed tubes, gangways, staircase-
heads, dangling boats, were moored
wharves.
One could not
by bustling
divine the use of half the
strangely shaped objects with which the scene was
what the business could be of all Deep seathe swarming and hurrying figures.
furnished, or
horns blew and whistles
hands waved. but
it
was
life
and concealing
It
was
shrilled, orders
life
at
its fullest
were given,
and
demanding and enforcing its
further purposes.
a glimpse of something
full
It
busiest,
its
claim
was just
of urgent haste, but
pleasanter to watch than to mix with; then we
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;
Swnset passed through a wilderness of after street, yard after yard.
rushing away from
it all
little
houses, street
Presently we were
past a lonely sea-creek that
ran far up into the low-lying land.
more sUent
life
of
its
own
;
That had a
old dusky hulks lay at
anchor in the channel; the tide ebbed away from mudflats and oozy inlets, the skeletons of worn-
out boats stood up out of the weltering clay. Gradually, as the sun went down stains
among orange
and twisted cloud-wreaths, the creek nar-
rowed and beyond lay a mysterious promontory with shadowy woods and low bare pasture lands
with here and there a tower standing
up
or a
solitary sea-mark, or a hamlet of clustered houses
by the water's edge, while the water between grew paler and stiUer, reflecting the sky.
It
is
wan green of
not easy to describe the effect of this
scene, thus magically transfigured,
but it is a very real its
the
and
upon
the mind
distinct emotion,
charm depends upon the fact that
though
it shifts
reality of the world to a further point,
the definite shapes and colors, the tangible and ble relations of things,
the
away from visi-
which become for an
in-
stant like a translucent curtain through which one catches a glimpse of a larger and more beautiful
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/The
reality. '
specific
hopes, fears, schemes, de-
signs, purposes of life, suddenly I
become an inter-
and not an end.*NThey do not become phan-
lude
tasmal and unreal, but they are known for a brief
moment
and larger extending
and
by
as only temporary conditions, which
and sharpness obscure a further
their hardness
and
existing before they existed,
life,
beyond
itself
their
All that one
influence.
momentary impact engaged in busily
is
saying and doing and enacting
seen in that in-
is
stant to be only as a ripple on a deep pool.
does not make the activities of avoidable
;
life
It
either futile or
only gives the mystical sense, that
it
however urgent and important they may seem, there
is
something further, larger, greater, beyond
them, of which they are a real part, but only a part.
Moreover, in cret,
whatever
and not at
all
such times that ous, difficult,
my own
it is, is
experience, the further se-
by no means wholly joyful
light-hearted. it is
and
pressing sadness
sad.
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
It seems to
But
it is
is
indeed, the thought
called sentimental
122
at
seri-.
not a heavy or deis
at once It has
hopeful and above everything beautiful.
nothing that
me
rather solemn, profound,
about
it.
It is
Sunset not
full of rest
and content and peace
strong and stem, though
it is
;
it is
gentle too
rather
but
;
it is
the kind of gentle strength which faces labor and
hardness, not troubled
by them, and indeed know-
ing that only thus can the secret be attained.
There the
is
no hiat of easy, chQdlike happiness about
mood;
there
is
a happiness in
it,
but
old and a wise happiness that has learned
wait and is
is
fully prepared for endurance.
no fretfulness in
realized,
it,
it is
an
how
to
There
no chafing over dreams un-
no impatience or disappointment.
does not speak of an untroubled bliss
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
But
'
it
rather of
/
a deep, sad and loving patience, which expects no fulfilment,
no easy
satisfaction of desire.
me that the quality which men is the power of recognizing Unknown, "^ome natures acquiesce buoyantly
It always seems to
most the
differentiates
or wretchedly in present conditions, and cannot in any circumstances look beyond them; some again
have a deep distaste for present conditions whatever they are
;
and again there are some who throw
themselves eagerly and freely into present conditions, use experience,- taste life, enj oy, grieve, dislike,
but yet preserve a consciousness of something
above and beyond. \ The idealist
123
is
one who has a
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arid
Other Essays
need in his soul to worship, to admire, to love.
The mistake made is
too often by religious idealists
to believe that this sense of worship can only be
satisfied
by
religions and, even
idealists to
and
whom
definite
more narrowly, by
But there
observance.
ecclesiastical
are
dogmas seems only a dreary sort of
metaphysic, an attempt to define what
But
definition.
many
religion with its scientific creeds
is
there are some idealists
beyond
who
find
the sense of worship and the consciousness of an
immortal power in the high passions and affections of
looks
To
human form, the spirit that out from human eyes, are the symbols of
life.
these the
their mystery.
Others find
it in
art
and music,
others again in the endless loveliness of nature,
her seas and streams, her
hills
and woods.
Others
in visions of helping
and raising man-
kind out of base conditions, or in
scientific investi-
again find
it
gation of the miraculous constitution of nature. It has a hundred forms and energies feature of
it is
;
but the one
the sense of some vast and mysteri-
ous power, which holds the world in
its
grasp
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
a power which can be dimly apprehended and even
communicated with.
Prayer
of this sense, though prayer
124
is is
one manifestation but a formulation
Simset of one's desires for oneself and for the world.
But the is
and
essential
vital
part of the mystery
not what the soul asks of
which
it
makes to the
my own
recording
cloud-ripples, the
world,
is
for
effects for
And
soul.
but the signals here I
sunset, its golden inlets
dusky
my own
me what
veil it
and
which
I believe that the mass effects
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
the unfolding in hints
and symbols of the mysteries of God.
may
but
weaves about the
spirit the solemnity
for a devoted Catholic
liever
am
experience when I say that the
and gleams of
lights
it,
An
unbe-
look on at a mass and see nothing but
the vesture and the
rite,
a drama of woven paces
and waving hands, when a
believer
may become And the
aware of the very presence of the divine. sunset has for
beauty of God; it
shows me
me it
stainless runs
and
calls
may
divine essence.
see it carelessly
difference.
life;
from end to end of the universe,
upon me to adore
its
and transfigures
visibly and sacredly that beauty pure
and
before
that same tmveiling of the
illumines
It only
perceive God.
and
it,
to prostrate myself
The
fact that another
indifferently
makes no
means that not thus does he
But, for myself, I know no experi-
ence more wholly and deeply religious than when I
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Escape and Other Essays pass in solitude among deep stream-fed valleys, or over the wide fenland or through the familiar hamlet, and see the dying day flame and smolder far
down
tranquil
in the west
spaces
of
among cloudy pavilions clear sky. Then the
or in well-
known land whose homely, day-long energies I know seems to gather itself together into a far and silent adoration, to commit itself trustfully and quietly to God, to diction,
and
nal in a soft
in that
receive
moment
harmony of
His endless bene-
to become itself eter-
voiceless praise
sionate desire.
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and pas-
THE HOUSE OF PENGERSICK
VII
THE HOUSE OF PENGEESICK
THERE
are days
— perhaps that common — when by some it
is
well
they are not more singular
harmony of body and
spirit,
every
little
sound and sight strike on the senses with a peculiar sharpness and distinctness of quality, have a keen
and racy the
and come as delightfully home to
savor,
mind as
cool
well-water
to
thirsty
lips.
Everything seems in place, in some well-designed combination or symphony of the senses
than that
— the
sets free a
;
and more
sound, the sight, whatever
it be,
whole train of far-reaching and mys-
terious thoughts, that seem to flash the secret of life
on the
spirit
— or rather
hint
it
in a tender,
smiling way, as a mother nods a delighted acqui-
escence to the eager questions of a child face to face
with some happy
surprise.
January was just such a day
to
That day of me, as we drove
along the dreary road from Marazion to Helston,
189
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Escape and Other Essays by ruined mine-towers with
their heaps of scoriae,
looking out to the sea, on the one hand, and on the other to the low, monotonous slopes of tilth and pasture, rising and falling like broad-backed waves,
with here and there a wild and broken
wood of
firs,
the forest of Broceliande, or a holt of wind-
like
brushed, fawn-colored ash trees, half empurpled
by the coming of
spring, in some rushy dingle
by
the stream side. It
was a cool gray day, with a haze over the
sea, the
gusty sky of yesterday having hardened
into delicate flakes of pearly cloud, like the sand
on some wave-beaten beach.
and refreshing to the
soft
It
was
all infinitely
eye, that outspread
pastoral landscape, seen in a low dusk, like the
dusk of a winter dawn.
was then that
It
we saw the
old
in
a
little
hoUow
House of Pengersick
grim, lean, hungry sort of name!
our
to our right
—
— what We
a
made
way down along a little road, the big worn standing up out of the gravel, by brakes of
flints
bramble, turf-walls where the ferns grew thick, by bits of wild
upland covered with gorse and rusty
bracken, and
down
four or
low white houses, in
five
at last to the tiny hamlet
130
little
—
gardens
The House
of Pengersich
where the escallonia grew thick and glossy, the purple veronica bloomed richly, and the green fleshy
mesembryanthemum tumbled and dripped over
The tower
the fences.
itself rose straight
out of
a farmyard, where calves stared through the gate, pigs and hens routed and picked in the mire.
I
have seldom seen so beautiful a bit of building:
it
was a great square battlemented tower, with a turret,
the mullioned windows stopped up with sea-
worn
ward
The whole
boulders.
stone, of a
dark gray
side to a
built of very peculiar
tinge, weathered
most delicate
ivy sprawling over
it
silvery gray, with
in places, like
from a pail over a stone
floor.
on the sea-
water shot out
There were just a
few traces of other buildings in the sheds and walls,
and
bits of carved
No
rockery.
cottages were
From filled
doubt the all built
stonework piled up in a little
itself
and the
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; has a few bare rooms farm lumber â&#x20AC;&#x201D; one can down
the tower itself
with
farm
out of the ruins. it
see
valley to the long gray line of the
and the low dusky
cliffs
of
Hove
the
Prah sands,
point, where the
waves were breaking white. I suppose
it
The make descents
needed to be a strong place.
Algiers and Sallee pirates used to
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Escape and Other Essays upon this coast till a comparatively recent date. As late as 1636 they kidnapped seven boats and forty-two fishermen off the Manacles, none of
were ever heard of again.
Looe were captured
whom
Eighty fishermen from
in one day,
and there
is
a
complaint extant from the justices of Cornwall to the lord lieutenant that in one year Cornwall lost
had
above a thousand mariners thus
But
there
the natives
was
also another side to the picture;
all
along this
were dreadful
coast
wreckers and plunderers themselves, and made
lit-
account of burning a ship and knocking the
tle
survivors on the head.
The very
parish, Germoe,
which Pengersick stands, had as bad a name as
in
any
in Cornwall:
God keep ns from rocks and shelving And save us from Breage and Germoe runs the old rime. of
how a
And
there
treasure ship, the St.
is
an
sands
men's hands^
evil old story
Andrew
of Portu-
gal, went ashore at Gunwalloe in January, 15S6.
There were thousands of cakes of copper and on
silver
board, plate, pearls, jewels, chains, brooches,
arras, satins, velvets, sets of
armor for the King
of Portugal, and a huge chest of coined gold. 132
The House
of Pengersick
The wretched crew got most land and stacked
it
on the
ton of Pengersick, with a dolphin, came
down with
took
treasure
all
the
of the treasure to
cliffs,
St.
when John MiUi-
Aubyn and a Go-
sixty
away.
armed men, and Complaints were
made, and the three gentlemen protested that they
had but ridden down them
destitute,
to save the crew,
had found
and had even given them money.
But I daresay the big guest-chamber of Pengersick was hung with Portuguese arras for many a long year afterwards.
The Millitons died out, and their land passed by purchase or marriage to the descendants of another of the three pious squires, Godolphin of
Godolphin
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; and belongs to-day
to his descendant,
Duke of Leeds. One would have thought that men could not
the
have borne to
such deadly insecurity.
live so, in
But probably they troubled the pirates, kept the
and
set
their heads little about
women and
a retainer on the
cliff in
children at home,
open weather, to
scan the offing for the light-rigged barques, while
poorer folk took their chance. different set of risks now,
We
and think
as the days pass.
133
live little
among
a
of them,
Escape and Other Essays The enough
life
of the tower was simple and hardy
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; some
much farmwork, occasional
moor
for woodcock and rabbits,
carouse
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;a
rude,
healthy
plentiful,
like to believe.
But the old tower spoke ent things, of the buried
strange drift of for their all
little
human
span of
to
me to-day
after,
why
of differ-
of the past, of the
life
souls through the world
life,
love,
so pathetically ignorant of
and follows is
and drinking, and an
solid eating
perhaps not as far removed from our own as
life,
we
and hunting, some setting
fishing
of springes on the
it so'
the final aim of the will
and sorrow, and what goes before
comes about, and what
we
Here
blindly serve.
was a house of men, I said to myself, with the same hopes and fears and fancies as myself, and yet
none of them, could I recall them, could give me
any reason for the
much of
it
of
it
life
we thus hurriedly
entirely joyful
distasteful
and
and
afilicting.
summer, with the sea a sapphire
live,
delightful, so
On
so
much
a sunny day of
blue, set with great
purple patches, the scent of the gorse in the
air,
the sound of the clear stream in one's ears, what
could be sweeter than to days,
when the wind
live.''
volleys
134
and even on dark
up from the
sea,
and
The House
of Pengersick
the rain dashes on the windows, and the gulls veer
and
sail
room with
overhead, the great guest
women working,
wreckage, the
of
its fire
the children
playing about, must have been a pleasant place enough.
But even
to the strongest
and
of the old squires the end came, as the
boldest
wagon with
the coffin jolted along the stony lane, and the bell
of Germoe came faintly over the
hill.
But I could not think of that to-day, with a secret
joy in
my
heart; I thought rather of the
splendid mystery of
life,
that seems to screen from
us something more gracious
sky
full of star-dust,
still
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; the
steep velvet
the flush of spring in sunlit
orchards, the soft, thunderous echoes of great
ocean billows, the orange glow of sunset behind
dark woods:
all
that
the background of life;
and then the converse of friend with
friend, the
intercepted glance of wondering eyes, the whis-
pered message of the heart.
All this, and a crowd
of other sweet. images and fancies came upon
a rush to-day,
like scents
as I watched the old silvery tower stand
up
and square, with the dark moorland behind the
little
me
in
from a twilight garden,
houses clustering about
135
its feet.
bluff
it,
and
VILLAGES
VIII
VILLAGES
WONDER
I
if
any human being has ever ex-
pended as much sincere and unrequited love
upon the
pastoral villages about Cambridge
little
No
as I have.
one ever seems to
smallest interest in
to take the
them or to know them apart or
remember where they
to
me
are.
It
is
true that
it
takes a very faithful lover to distinguish instantly
and impeccably between Histon, Hinxton, Hauxton, Harston, aJl
a
and Harlton; but to me they have
of them a perfectly distinct quality, and make
series of
mind.
charming
Who
little
shsiU justly
beautiful claims of Great
pastoral pictures in the
and perfectly
and
Little
assess the
Eversden?
I
doubt if any inhabitant of Cambridge but myself and one friend of mine, a good man and true, could
Yet
it is
as pleasant to have a connoisseur-
sliip in villages
as to have a connoisseurship in
do
it.
wines or cigars, though
it is
139
not so regarded.
Escape and Other Essays
What say.
It
things;
That I cannot the charm of all sweet
is
the charm of them?
is
a mystery, like
and
further,
what
is
the meaning of love
for an inanimate thing, with no individuality, no
personality, no
charm of
love
is
"I
ing signals back.
you, I
am
The
power of returning love?
that one discerns some spirit maklike
you
to be here, I trust
glad to be with you, I wish to give you
something, to increase your joy, as mine creased."
That, or something
is in-
what
like that, is
one reads in the eyes and faces and gestures of those
whom
one dares to
wise be sadly
One would
love.
and mournfully alone
if
other-
one could not
come across the traces of something, some one whose heart leaps up and whose pulse quickens at the proximity of comrade and friend and lover.
But even so there
always the thought of the
is
parting ahead, when, after the sharing of joy, each
has to go on his way alone.
Then, one
may
love animals; but that
man and
strange love, for the
understand each other.
and
m
faithful comrade,
is
a very
the animal cannot
The dog may be a
and there
really
is
true
nothing
the world more wonderful than the trustful love
q! a
dog
for a man.
One may 14.0
love a horse, I sup-
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; Villages pose, though the horse best
;
one
may
a foolish creature at
is
have a sober friendship with a cat,
though a cat does
little
more than
and a bird can be a merry
little
the terror of wild animals for rather dreadful about
many
it,
tolerate one;
playfellow: but
men has something
because
it
stands for
centuries of cruel wrong-doing.
And
may
one
a wistful sort of
love, too, with
love the works of men, pictures, music, statues;
but that, I think,
because one discerns a
is
end of a vista
figure at the
away through the
ages,
a,
whom
but
human
figure hurrying
one
feels
one could have loved had time and place only allowed.
But when
it
comes to loving trees and flowers,
streams and hiUs, buildings and
fields,
what
is it
that happens?
I have a perfectly distinct feel-
ing about these
little villages
are to
me
hereabouts.
like courteous strangers,
and
indifferent people,
folk
whom
I
am
some
like dull
like pleasant, genial
mildly pleased to see; but with
some I have a
real
and devoted
visiting them,
and
if
of them ; when I
some
Some
am
I cannot
far
comes across me, and I
away
am
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friendship. visit
I like
them, I think
the thought of
them
glad to think of them
Escape and Other Essays waiting there for me, nestling under their
hill,
the
smoke going up above the apple-orchards.
One or two of them are particularly beloved because I visited them
first
when
thirty years ago,
an undergraduate, and the thought of the
I was
up again like a sweet and far-off fragrance when I enter them. Yet I do not know any of the people who old days and the old friendships springs
live in these villages,
though by dint of going there
often there are a few people
and
nized
But will
let
saluted.
me take one
not name
it,
consist of?
whom
one loves.
It straggles along a
under a
little
long plowed up.
and I
What
rough and
does
soil
of the wold
fields
it
ill-laid
wold, once a sheep-walk,
The
that in the new-plowed like
village in particular,
because one ought not to publish
the names of those
lane,
by whom I am recog-
now
pale, so
is
there rest soft, cream-
shadows when the evening sun
falls
aslant.
There are two or three substantial farm-houses of pale brick, comfortable old places, with sheds and ricks
and cattle-byres and bams
And
I think
it
is
is
about them.
strange that the scent of a
cattle-byre, with its rich
pools,
close
manure and
its
oozing
not ungrateful to the human sense.
142
It
.
Villages ought to be, but inheritance,
Then
it is
It gives one,
not.
no doubt, a homelike
there are
many
plastered, white-waUed,
and pretty, perhaps
irregular cottages, very quaint
a couple of centuries
very
old,
ill
but enchanting to look at; there
built, is
house, very ugly at present, with
brick
and
its
by long
feeling.
no doubt,
a new schoolits
smart red
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; ugly because
stone facings
it
does
not seem to have grown up out of the place, but to
have been brought there by
rail;
and there are a
few new yellow-brick cottages, probably much pleasanter to live in than the old ones, but with no sort
The whole
of interest or charm.
rounded by
little fields,
is
sur-
orchards, closes, paddocks,
and a good many great elms stand up above the There
house-roofs.
is
one quaint old farm, with
a moat and a dove-cote and a wall
surrounded by
quaint and characteristic ancient church,
because there
is
by whom
fine,
old
meUow brick
pollarded elms, very
little
and then there
;
built
no squire
is
a
big,
one cannot divine,
in the village,
and the
farmers and laborers could no more build such a
church now than they could build a stellar observatory.
It
would cost nowadays not
thousand pounds, and there
143
is
less
than ten
no record of who
Escape and Other Essays gave the money or who the architect was. a
fine
tower and a couple of solid beUs;
It has it
has a
few bits of good brass-work, a chandelier and some candlesticks,
tomb
in
and
it
has a
eighteenth-century
fine
a corner, with a huge slab of black basalt
on the top, and a
heraldic shield
and a very obsequi-
ous inscription, which might apply to any one, and yet could be true of nobody.
Why
the particular
old gentleman should want to sleep there, or
was
much on
willing to spend so
who
his lying in state,
no one knows, and I fear that no one cares except myself.
There are a few
little bits
of old glass in the
church, in the traceries of the windows, just enough to
show that some one liked making pretty things,
and that some one them.
And
cared enough to pay for
else
then there
Is
a solid rectory by the
church, inhabited for centuries
by
fellows of
a cer-
tain Cambridge college.
I do not expect that they
very much.
Probably they rode over
lived there
on Sundays, read
two' services,
and had a cold
luncheon in between; perhaps they visited a sick parishioner, and even came over on a week-day for
a marriage or a funeral and I daresay that in the ;
summer, when the college was deserted, they came 144>
Villages
and
lived there for a few weeks, rather bored,
and
warm combination room and
the
longing for the college port
That
and the gossip and
is
really
love in all
that.''
Well,
it is
a
all,
I think.
little
stir
of the place.
And what is
there to
space of earth in which
life
has been going on for I daresay a thousand years.
The whole love
place has grown slowly up out of the
and care and work of man.
were nothing but
little
Perhaps there
huts and hovels at
first,
a tiny rubble church; then the houses grew a bigger and better.
by
Perhaps
it
with little
was emptied again
the Black Death, which took a long toll of vic-
tims
Shepherds, plowmen, hedgers,
hereabouts.
ditchers,
farmers, an ale-house-keeper, a
keeper or two, and a priest village
for a thousand years.
toilsome, unimaginative, kindly
say.
Not much
shop-
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; that has been the Patient, little lives,
interested in one another,
stupid,
I dareill
edu-
cated, gossipy, brutish, superstitious, but surprised
perhaps into sudden passions of love, and surprised perhaps
motherhood
;
by the joys
with children of
still
more
of fatherhood and
all
ages growing up,
pretty and engaging and dirty and amusing and
naughty, fading one by one into dull and sober
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Escape and Other Essays age, and into decrepitude,
and the churchyard at
the end of all!
Well, I think
that pathetic and mysterious,
all
and beautiful with the beauty that want to know who looked about,
like,
reality has.
I
the folks were, what they
all
what they cared about or thought
how they made
terms with pain and death,
what they hoped, expected, feared, and what has become of them.
Every one as urgently and
vehemently and interestedly alive as I myself, and yet none of them with the slightest idea
got there
how they
or whither they were going â&#x20AC;&#x201D; the
helpless, good-natured, passive
women, pouring
like
great,
army of men and
a stream through the world,
and borne away on the wings of the wind. were glad to be
alive,
on the apple-orchard, and the scent of the was
in the air,
blossoms,
They
no doubt, when the sun
fell
fruit
and the bees hummed round the
when people
smile at each other
kind and meaningless things
;
and say
they were afraid, no
doubt, as they lay in pain in the stuffy attics, with the
night wind blustering round the
stack,
and hoped to be
well again.
chimney-
Then
there
were occasions and treats, the Sunday dinner, the
wedding, the ride in the farm-cart to Cambridge,
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Villages the visit of the married sister from her
was happening
made
little
close
knew or cared what
I do not suppose they
by.
home
War
in the world.
and
politics
They knew about
difference to them.
the weather, they cared perhaps about their work,
they liked the Sunday holiday
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
all
very dim and
simple, thoughts not expressed, feelings not uttered,
experience
phrases.
Yet I
summed up
like to think that
in
little
of
bits
they were pleased
with the look of the place without knowing why. I don't deceive myself about all this or
as idyllic.
was
it
great deal of
it;
thoughts about
it,
cal words, I
hopes,
it
out
I don't exactly wish to have lived thus,
and I expect
my
make
coarse, greedy, dull, ugly, a
but though I can think
and put
my
do not honestly believe that
my
feelings difi'er
fine
thoughts into musi-
my
life,
very much from the
experience of these old people.
Of course
I have books
lectual fancies
and pictures and
and ideas but that ;
is
intel-
only an elab-
orate game that I play, the things I notice and recognize: but I expect the old hearts and minds
were at work, too, noticing and observing and recording ; and
all
my
flourish of talk
only a superficial affair. 14*7
and thought
is
Escape and Other Essays And what
consecrates and lights
place for me, touches
it
moving, touching, beautiful, that strange, unconscious the fear
up the
little
with golden hues, makes
it
is
the thought of all
life,
the love and hate,
and the content, the joy and sorrow, that
has surged to and fro among the thatched roofs
and apple-orchards so many centuries before I
came
into being,
and
when
am
will
continue
first
thirty years ago, explor-
I
trod-
den into the dust.
,When I came here
ing with a friend long dead the country-side, was, I
am
sure, the
place beautiful.
words
;
bright
I could not then put
is
a very pleasant pastime.
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; â&#x20AC;&#x201D; and
summer day,
clover in the air
it
into
and word-
I have learned to do that since,
painting
it
same thought that made the
It
was a
hot,
I recall the scent of the
there
came on me that
curious uplifting of the heart, that wonder as to
what
all
the
warmth and
scent, the green-piled
tree, the grazing cows, the children trotting to and
fro,
could possibly mean, or
utterly delightful.
It
why
was not a
it
was
all
so
religious feeling,
but there was a sense of a great, good-natured, beauty-loving mind behind like
it
all
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;a
mind very
our own, and yet even then with a shadow
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;
Villages striking across it
and hollow
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; the shadow
of pain and grief
farewells.
I was not a very contented boy in those days, in some bewilderment
having had
hard and
my
first
intricate.
of both mind and heart,
experience that
life
could be
The world was sweeter to me, it now is but I had
though not so interesting as
;
just the same deep desire as I have now, though
has not been
satisfied, to find
it
something strong and
secure and permanent, some heart to trust utterly
and
entirely,
something that could understand and
comfort and explain and reassure, a power which
one could clasp hands with, as a child lays
its deli-
cate finger in a strong, enfolding palm, and never be in
any doubt again.
It
one's weakness which
is
and yet
so tiring, so disappointing ;
I
is
do not want a
careless, indiflFerent, brutal, healthy strength at aU.
It is the strength of love
and peace that I want,
not to be afraid, not to be troubled.
It
is
all
somewhere, I do not doubt Yet, oh, the place could I but find!
I have been through
The
my
village this very day.
sun was just beginning to slope to the west;
the sun poured out his rays of gold from under-
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my
nurse used to
tell
me
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
were
sucking up water, but which I believed to be the
The
eye of God.
trees were bare, but the elm-
buds were red, and the willow-rods were crimson with spring; the the
hill
little
stream bubbled clearly oiF
and the cottage gardens were
;
full
of up-
thrusting blades; while the mezereons were
aflame with bloom.
ing past see the
!
When
I wonder.
dawn
want to
again, to loiter
down
gabled houses.
Shall I be
am
I pass the gate, if I
of that other morning, I cannot help
feeling that I shall
see
the lane
much
my
little village
among
the white-
wiser then than I
Shall I have seen or heard something
now.''
which
all
Life moving, pausing, rush-
my anxious mind at rest ? Who can And yet the old, gnarled apple-boughs,
will set
tell me.''
with the blue sky behind them, and the new-springing grass as
much
all
seem
to'
hold the secret, which I want
to interpret and
make my own
as
when I
wandered through the hamlet imder the wold more than thirty years ago.
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DREAMS
IX
DREAMS
THERE
is
a movement nowadays among the
philosophers who' study the laws of thought, to lay a strong emphasis
dreams
;
what part of us
upon the phenomena
is it
of
that enacts with such
strange zest and vividness, and yet with so mysterious a disregard of ordinary motives ventions,
the pageant of dreams?
other things which befall us in daily so familiar a fact, that
we
at the marvelousness of
and con-
Like
life,
many
dreams are
often forget to wonder
it
all.
The two
points
about dreams which seem to me entirely inexplicable are: firstly, that they are so visual impressions,
are
all self-invented
contrive to strike
When
and self-produced, they yet
upon the mind with a marvelous
freshness of emotion
these two points a
much occupied with
and secondly, that though they
and surprise.
little
more
Let us take
in detail.
one awakes from a vivid dream one gen-
15S
Escape and Other Essays erally has the impression of a scene of some kind,
which has been mainly received through the medium I suppose that this varies with differ-
of the eye.
ent people, but
my own
dreams are rather sharply
divided into certain classes.
I
am
oftenest a silent
spectator of landscapes of ineffable beauty, such
a great river, as blue as sapphire, rolling
as
down between vast sandstone cliffs, among wooded hiUs, piled thick with trees rich
majestically or
in blossom
or I see stately buildings crowded to-
among woodlands, with long
gether of
;
stone
and airy
towers.
carved fronts
These dreams are
peculiarly uplifting and stimulating, and I wake
from them with an extraordinary sense of beauty
and wonder; or
else I see
from some window or
balcony a great ceremony of some quite
unintelli-
gible kind proceeding, a procession with richly
dressed persons walking or riding, or a religious
pomp
taking place in a dim pillared interior.
such dreams pass by in absolute
no idea where I am, nor what
am
I curious to know.
there
is
voice
silence.
is
I have
happening, nor is
no one at hand to converse
Then again stance
No
is
All
upraised, and with.
there are dreams of which the sub-
animated and vivid conversation. 154.
I have
Dreams long and confidential talks with people
Pope or
Tsar of Russia,
the
advice, they quote to find
my
They ask my
books, and I
them so familiar and
like the
am
accessible.
surprised
Or
am
I
a strange house with an unknown party of
in
guests, and person after person comes all
up
to
tell
Or
kinds of interesting facts and details.
me
else,
as often happens to me, I meet people long since
my
dead; I dream constantly, for instance, about father.
I see
him by chance at a railway
we congratulate
upon the happy
ourselves
dent of meeting; he takes ingly and indulgently
the knowledge that he
my
is
acci-
arm, he talks smil-
and the only way
;
station,
which
in
dead affects the dream
that I feel bewildered at having seen so
little
of
is
him
of late, and even ask him where he has been for so
long that we have not met oftener.
Very occasionally well
I hear music in a dream.
remember hearing four musicians with
I
little
instruments like silver flutes play a quartet of infinite
sweetness
place either
;
but most of
among
fine
my
adventures take
landscapes or in familiar
conversation.
At one dream.
time, as a child, I
We
had an often repeated
were then living in an old house at
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the
called
Chancery.
It
was a large
rambling place, with some interesting medieval
such as a stone winding staircase, a
features,
wooden Tudor
screen,
built
into
a
.
and
wall,
formerly belonging to the chapel of the house.
There were, moreover, certain quite unaccountable spaces, where the external measurements of pass-
ages did not correspond with the measurement of
rooms within.
This fact excited our childish im-
and probably was the origin
agination,
of the
dream. It always
began
in the
same way.
I would ap-
pear to be descending a staircase which led up into a lobby, and would find that a certain step rattled as I trode
upon
proved to
be
it.
Upon
hinged,
examination the step
and on opening
it,
the
head of a staircase appeared, leading downwards.
Though,
as I say, the
dream was often repeated,
it
was always with the same shock of surprise that I
made
the discovery.
I used to squeeze in through
the opening, close the step behind me, and go the stairs
;
artificial light,
discover. visible,
down
the place was dimly lighted with some
At
the source of which I could never
the bottom a large vaulted
of great extent, fitted
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room was
with iron-barred
Dreams These
as in a stable.
stalls,
They were
all
were tenanted
stalls
by animals; there were dogs,
tigers,
and
lions.
very tame, and delighted to see me.
I used to go into the stalls one
by
one, feed
and
play with the animals, and enjoy myself very much.
There was never any custodian to be never occurred to
had got
there,
me
to wonder
how
seen,
and
nor to whom they belonged.
spending a long time with
my
it
the animals
After
menagerie, I used to
return; and the only thing that seemed of importance to
me was
the place.
that I should not be seen leaving
I used to raise the step cautiously and
was no one
listen,
so as to be sure that there
about
generally in the dream some one came
the
;
stairs
over
my
down
head; and I then waited,
crouched below, with a sense of delightful adventure, until the person
tiously
extricated
had passed by, when I cau-
myself.
dream became
This
quite familiar to me, so that I used to hope in
my
mind, on going to bed, that I might be about to see the animals; but I was often disappointed,
and
This dream visited me
dreamed of other things.
at irregular intervals for I should say about two or three years,
and then I had
the singular fact about
it
it
was that
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no more; but it
always came
;
Escape and Other Essays with the same sense of wonder and delight, and while actually dreaming
had
seen
it
it,
I never realized that I
before.
The only
other tendency to a recurring dream
that I have ever noticed was in the course of the
long
illness
of which I have written elsewhere ;
my
dreams were invariably pleasant and agreeable at that time; but I constantly had the experience in the course of them of seeing something of a pro-
found blackness. cloak, sometimes
Sometimes
it
was a man
a
in
an open door with an intensely
black space within, sometimes a bird, like a raven
or a crow; oftenest of
all it
took the shape of a
small black cubical box, which lay on a table, with-
out any apparent
lid
or means of opening
This I used to take up in
my
hands, and find
it.
it
very heavy ; but the predominance of some intensely black object, which I have never experienced before
or since, was too marked to be a mere coincidence
and I have
little
doubt that
it
was some obscure
symptom of my
condition,
physical cause.
Indeed, at the same time, I was
and had some
definite
occasionally aware of the presence of something
black in waking hours, not a thing definitely seen,
but existing dimly in a visual
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cell.
After I re-
;
Dreams covered, this left me,
and I have never seen
it since.
These are the more coherent kind of dreams but ;
there ter,
is
another kind of a vaguely anxious charac-
which consist of endless attempts to catch
trains, or to fulfil social engagements,
Or one dreams
of hurry and dismay.
and are
full
that one has
been condemned to death for some unknown offense,
and the time draws near; some
little
while ago 1
spent the night under these circumstances inter-
viewing different members of the Government in a vain attempt to discover the reasons for
my
con-
demnation; they could none of them give me a account of the
specific
politely deplore that
it
affair,
and could only
was necessary to make an
" Depend upon it," said Mr. LloydGeorge to me, " substantial justice will be done " " But that is no consolation to me," I said. " No," example.
!
he replied kindly, "
it
would hardly amount to
that!"
But out of
all this
there emerges the fact that
after a vivid dream, one's
memory
is
full of pic-
tures of things seen quite as distinctly, indeed often
more
distinctly,
recollection
have of
than in real
life.
I have a clearer
of certain dream-landscapes than I
many
scenes actually beheld with the eye
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me wondering how the effect is brought and how the memory is enabled to store what
this sets
about,
appears to be a visual impression, by some reflex action of the nerves of sight.
Then
there
is
the second point, that of the lively
emotions stirred by dreams.
It
would really ap-
pear that there must be two distinct personalities at work, without
any connection between them, one
unconsciously inventing and the other consciously observing.
I
dreamed not long ago that I was
walking beside the lake at Riseholme, the former palace of the bishops of Lincoln, where I often went as a child.
sunk,
I saw that the level of the lake had
and that there was a great bank of
shingle
between the water and the shore, on which I proceeded to pace.
I was attracted by something
sticking out of the bank,
saw that pulled
it
it
it,
I
I
out and saw that I had found a great
golden chalice,
Then
and on going up to
was the base of a curious metal cup.
much dimmed with age and
weather.
I saw that further in the bank there were a
number of cups, patens,
candlesticks, flagons, of
great antiquity and beauty. that I had heard as a child
I then recollected (this
was wholly
imaginary, of course) that there had once been a
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Dreams great robbery of cathedral plate at Lincoln, and that one of the bishops had been vaguely suspected of being concerned in
it
;
and I saw at once that I
had stumbled on the hoard, stowed there no doubt
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
by guilty episcopal hands I even name of the bishop concerned.
Now
recollected the
as a matter of fact one part of
my mind
must have been ahead inventing this story, while the other part of the mind was apprehending
astonishment and excitement.
with
it
Yet the observant
part of the mind was utterly unaware of the fact that I was myself originating
it all.
And
the only
natural inference would seem to be that there real duality of
is
a
mind at work.
For when one
is
composing a story,
in ordinary
waking moments, one has the sense that one venting and controlling the Incidents.
is in-
In dreams
this sense of proprietorship is utterly lost; one
seems to have no power over the inventive part of the mind; one can only helplessly follow
and be amazed at times, in a
its
creations.
dream of tragic
And
its lead,
yet, some-
intensity, as one begins
to awake, a third person seems to intervene, and
says reassuringly that
it is
only a dream.
intervention seems to disconcert the inventor,
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This
who
Escape and Other Essays then promptly retires, while to the timid
it
and frightened
seem then that the rational
brings sudden nlicf It would
observer.
self reasserts itself,
and
that the two personalities one of which has been creating and the other observing, come in like dogs to heel.
Another very curious part of dreams concern themselves so very
thoughts of
little
that they
is
with the current,
My dreams are mostly composed,
life.
as I have said, of landscapes, ceremonies, conversasensational adventures, muddling! engage-
tions,
ments.
When
I
was a schoolmaster, I seldom
dreamed of school; now that I
am no
longer a
schoolmaster, I do sometimes dream of school, of
trying to keep order in immense classrooms, or
hurrying about
had
my
in search of
long and dreary
years, I invariably
I
am
I
Now
that
have dreams of causeless
and poignant melancholy.
me
When
form.
lasting for two
had happy dreams.
well again, I often
in the world for
my
illness,
It
is
the rarest thing
to be able to connect
my dreams
with anything which has recently happened
;
I can-
not say that marvelous landsc&ites, ceremonies, conversations with exalted personages, sensational incidents,
play any considerable part in
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my
life;
Dreams and yet these are the constituent elements
The
dreams.
scientific
in
my
students of psychology say
that the principal stuff of dreams seems to be fur-
nished by the early experience of
life;
and when
they are dealing with mental ailments, they say that delusions and obsessions are often explained
by the study of
the dreams of diseased brains,
which point as a
some
either to
3nile
unfulfilled
desire, or to
some severe nen^ous shock sustained
childhood.
But
cause of
my own
I cannot discern
elaborate visions
cal cause which seems to
producing dreams cold in bed.
the night
is
A
I
is if
in
any predominant ;
the only physi-
me to be am either
very active in too hot or too
sudden change of temperature in
the one thing which seems to
me
quite
certain to produce a great crop of dreams.
Another very curious fact about that I
am
my
dreams
wholly deserted by any moral sense.
is
I
have stolen interesting objects, I have even killed people in dreams, without adequate cause ; but I
am
then entirely devoid of remorse, and only anxious to escape detection.
I have never felt anything
of the nature of shame or regret in a dream.
I
find myself anxious indeed, but fertile in expedients
for escaping unscathed.
On
163
the other hand, cer-
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Escape and Other Essays tain emotions are very active in dreams.
I some-
times appear to go with a brother or sister through
the rooms or gardens of a house, which on awaking
my
proves to be wholly imaginary, and recall with
companion
of pathetic and delightful inci-
all sorts
dents of childhood which seem to have taken place there.
Again, though much of
my
life
is
given to
writing, I hardly ever find myself composing any-
Once I wrote a poem in
thing in a dream. sleep,
a curious Elizabethan lyric, which
found
in the
Phoenix."
Oxford Book of Verse,
It
is
my
It
came to me on the
birthday, in 1891, I think, when
I was staying with a friend at the
by Hawes Water lyric
Westmorland.
in
down on awaking.
verse, thinking the it
poem
I
Dun
Bull Hotel,
I scribbled the
afterwards added a
incomplete.
I published
book of poems, and showed the proof to a
in a
who
friend,
stanza
called
:
said to me, pointing to the added
" Ah, you must omit that stanza
quite out of keeping with the rest of the
But
be " The
not the sort of thing that I have
ever written before or since.
night before
my
may
this is a quite
I once dreamed I
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
it is
poem
!
unique experience, except that
was present at a confirmation
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Dreams service, at
which a very singular hymn was sung,
which I recollected on waking, and which
is
far too
grotesque to write down, being addressed, as to the bishop
who was
was,
it
At the me both moving and
to perform the rite.
time, however, it seemed to
appropriate. It
is
either
often said that dreams only take place
when one
is
just going to sleep or beginning
But that
to awake.
not
is
my
experience.
I have
by some loud have come out of
occasionally been awakened suddenly
sound, and on those occasions I
dreams of an intensity and vividness that I have never known equaled.
Neither
experience that dreamful sleep
should say
it
and
am
unrefreshing.
generally to
is
not very well but a sleep ;
interesting dreams
feeling of freshness
is
my
true in
was rather the other way.
found and heavy sleep that I
is
is it
me a
full
of
if
sign
happy
generally succeeded
and gaiety, as
I
Pro-
by a
one had been
both rested and well entertained.
These are only a few scattered personal experiences,
suggest.
My
and I have no philosophy of dreams to It is in my case an inherited power.
father was
the
most vivid and persistent
dreamer I have ever met, and his dreams had a
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have never known the
and
like.
interest of
which I
The dream
of his,
which I have told in his biography, of the finding of the grave of the horse of Titus Gates, seems to
me one
of the most extraordinary pieces of inven-
tion I have ever heard, because of the conversation
which took place before he realized what the slab actually was.
He
dreamed that he was standing in Westminster
Abbey with Dean
Stanley, looking at
cracked slab of slate with letters on
it.
a small "
We 've
found it," said Stanley. " Yes," said my father, " and how do you account for it.? " " Why," said Stanley, " I suppose it is intended to commemorate the fact that the animal innocence was not affected
by the said
my
villainies
father,
" Of course "
of the master."
who was
still
He
the inscription referred to.
!
quite
unaware what
then saw on the
ITI CAPITANI, and knew that the stone was one that had marked the grave of Titus Gates' horse, and that the whole inscription must slab the letters
have been
EQUUS TITI CAPITANI,â&#x20AC;&#x201D;" The
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
horse of Titus the Captain," ferring to the fact that
my
the " Captain " re-
father then recollected
that Titus Gates had been a Train-band Captain.
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Dreams
My
only really remarkable dream containing a
presentiment or rather a clairvoyance of a singular kind, hardly explicable as a mere coincidence, has
occurred to
On
me
since I
began
this paper.
the night of December 8, 1914, I dreamed
that I was walking along a country road, between hedges.
To
a park.
I was proposing to call there, to
the left was a
little
country house, in see, I
thought, an old friend of mine, Miss Adie Browne,
who has been dead dream
for some years, though in
my
I thought of her as alive.
I came up with four people, walking along the
road
in the
same direction as myself.
There was
an elderly man, a younger man, red-haired, walking very lightly, in knickerbockers, and two boys I took to be the sons of the younger man. nized the elder
man
and smiled I did
to me,
so, the
though I cannot
as a friend,
now remember who he appeared
to be.
He
and I joined the party.
younger man
said,
"I
nodded Just as
am going to
on a lady, an elderly cousin of mine, who here " !
He
whom
I recog-
call
lives
said this to his companions, not to
me, and I became aware that he was speaking of
Miss Adie Browne.
"You
The
older
man
said to me,
have not been introduced," and then, pre-
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Escape and Other Essays senting the younger man, he said, " This
Radstock " !
We
is
Lord
shook hands and I said, "
Do
you know, I am very much surprised ; I understood
Lord Radstock
to be a
I do not remember it
had been very
much
older
man
!
any more of the dream but ;
vivid,
and when I was
called, I
went over it in my mind. A few minutes later, the " Times " of December 9 was brought to my bedroom, and opening it, I saw the sudden death of Lord Radstock announced. I had not known that he was
ill,
for years
;
and indeed had never thought of him but the strange thing
is this,
that he was
a cousin of Miss Adie Browne's, and she used to tell
me
interesting stories about him,
I do not
suppose that since her death I have ever heard his
name mentioned, and I had never met him. So that, as a matter of fact, when I dreamed my dream, the old Lord Radstock was dead, and his son, who is a man of fifty-four, was the new Lord Radstock. The man I saw in my dream was not, I should say,
remember
little
more than about
forty-five;
but I
of him, except that he had red
hair.
I do not take in an evening paper, but I do not
think there was any announcement of Lord Rad-
168
Dreams stock's illness,
on the previous day; in fact
his
death seems to have been quite sudden and unex-
Apart from
pected.
coincidence, the rational ex-
planation might be that
my mind
was
in
some sort
of telepathic communication with that of
and dear friend Miss Adie Browne, who
my
often in
my
is
old
indeed
mind, and one would also have to pre-
suppose that her spirit was likewise aware of her
Lord Radstock's
cousin
I do not advance
death.
this as the only explanation,
but
it
not impossible one of a mysterious
My
conclusion, such as
rational
and moral
it is,
seems to
affair.
would be that the
faculties are in
dreams, and that
it is
one's essence that
is
me a
suspense in
a wholly primitive part of
at work.
The
creative
power
seems to be very strong, and to have a vigorous faculty of combining terials of
memory but ;
and exaggerating the mait
deals mainly with rather
and
childish emotions, with shapes
impressive
colors, with
and distinguished people, with things
marvelous and sensational, with troublesome and perplexed adventures.
It does not
go far in search
of motives; in the train-catching dreams, for instance, I never
what
is
know
the object of
exactly where I
my journey 169
;
am
going, or
in the ceremonial
Escape and Other Essays dreams, I seldom have any notion of what
is
being
celebrated.
But what I cannot
in the least understand
the
is
complete withdrawal of consciousness from the inventive part of the mind, especially
servant part that
is
is
so eagerly
way
in
which dream-experiences,
so vivid at the time, melt
If one rehearses a dream in
awakes,
it
alertly aware of all
Moreover, I can never under-
happening.
stand the curious
and
away upon awakening. memory the moment one
becomes a very distinct
does not do this,
when the ob-
fades swiftly,
it
affair.
If one
and though one
has a vague sense of rich adventures, half an hour later there seems to be
no power whatever of
re-
covering them. Strangest of
the inventive power in dreams
all,
seems to have a range and an intensity which does
not exist when one est
is
power, in waking
awake. life,
I have not the slight-
of conceiving and visual-
izing the astonishing landscapes which I see in
dreams.
I can recall actual scenes with great dis-
tinctness,
but the glowing color and the prodigious
forms of
my
my
landscape visions are wholly beyond
power of thought.
Lastly, I have never
had any dream of any 170
real
Dreams or vital significance, any warning or presentiment,
anything which bore in the least degree upon the issues of
There
life.
is
a beautiful passage in the Purgatorio
of Dante about the dawn
he writes
;
In that hour
When
near the
dawn
the swallow her sad song.
Haply remembering ancient grief, renews; And when our minds, more wanderers from the
And less by thought restrained, are, Of holy divination in their dreams. I suppose that
it
different person ish,
all
;
but in
flesh
were, full
my own
case,
my
seem to belong to a whoUy
from myself, a light-hearted,
careless creature, full of
quisitiveness,
't
would be possible to interpret
one's dreams symbolically
dream experiences
as
child-
animation and in-
buoyant and thoughtless, content to
look neither forwards nor backwards, wholly with-
out responsibility or intelligence, just borne along
by the pleasure of the moment, perfectly harmless and
friendly, as a rule, a sort of cheerful butterfly.
That but that
is
not in the least
it fills it is
my
waking temperament;
me sometimes with an uneasy
more
like
myself than I know.
171
suspicion
THE VISITANT
THE VISITANT
AM
I
going to try to put into words a very
sin-
gular and very elusive experience which visits
me
not infrequently.
but I
first
when
I cannot say
became aware of
it
it
began,
about four years
ago. It takes the
form of an instantaneous mental
not very distinct but stiU not to be mis-
vision,
taken for anything
and
wife,
who are
newly built house.
else,
of two people, a husband
somewhere in a large
living
The husband
suppose, about forty, the wife
and they are well-built
childless.
man
is
is
a
The husband
with light,
almost
a
man
trifle is
of, I
younger,
an
active,
golden hair,
rather coarse in texture, and with a pointed beard
of the same hue.
He
has
fine,
clean-cut, muscular
hands, and he wears, as I see him, a rough, rather
shabby is
of
suit of light,
fair
homespun
cloth.
The
wife
complexion, a beautiful woman, with
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Escape and Other Essays brown
hair,
and
dressed, I think, in a very simple
and rather peculiar
They
dress.
are people of
high principle, wealthy, and with cultivated tastes.
They
care for music and books
They
band has no profession. wooded landscape, I am sex, in a
The hus-
art.
live in
a wide, well-
inclined to think in Sus-
newly built house, as I have
and timber,
plaster
and
with
tiled,
said, of white
many
gables and
with two large, bow-windowed rooms, rather low, the big mullioned oriels of which, with leaded roofs,
are a rather conspicuous feature of the house.
The house
stands on a slightly rising ground, in
a park-like demesne of a few acres, well timbered,
and with open paddocks of grass.
The house
is
approached by a drive from the main road, with two big gateposts of brick, and a white gate be-
To
tween. is
the right of the house
the louver of a stable.
There
among is
the trees
a terrace just
in front of the house, full of flowers, with a low
brick wall in front of field.
it
separating
I see the house and
its
it
from the
surroundings more
clearly than I see the figures themselves.
I cannot see the interior of the house at all clearly,
with the exception of one room.
know where
the front door
176
is,
I do not
nor have I ever seen
The
Visitant
any of the upper rooms.
The one exception
is
a
big room on the right of the house as one looks at
from the main road.
it
great distinctness.
This room I see with
It is large
and
low,
papered
with a white paper and with a parquetry floor, designed for a music room.
There
is
a grand
piano, but what I see most clearly are a good
many
books, rather inconveniently placed in low
white bookcases which run round most of the room,
under the windows, with three shelves in each. seems to
me
to be a
bad arrangement, because
It it
would be necessary to stoop down so much for the books, but I do not think that there
reading done in the room.
is
much
There are several low
armchairs draped in a highly colored chintz with a white ground; there are pictures on the walls
but I cannot see them are water colors. culiar
and bright
round the It
is
oriel,
in this
The blue.
distinctly.
I think they
curtains are of a very pe-
A
low window-seat runs
with cushions of the same blue.
room only that I
see the
two people,
always together; and I have never seen any one else in the house.
They are
seen in certain definite
positions, oftenest standing together looking out
of the window, which must face the west, because
177
Escape and Other Essays I see the sunset out of
hand
is
The a
As a
it.
rule,
the woman's
passed through the man's arm. vision simply flashes across
picture,
am doing
whatever I
Sometimes I see
it
at the
like
time.
several times in a week, some-
times not for weeks together.
the house in a
my mind
moment
I should recognize
I saw
if
it
should recognize the people.
I do not think I
;
I cannot see the
shapes of their features or their expressions, but
I can see the bloom on the wife's cheek and
pure
its
outline.
To
my
the best of
knowledge I have never seen
either the people or the house in real life
I have strongly the sense that
and that the people are to
me
like
distinctly it
seem to
real.
it is
and too accurately for ,
which I have
and yet
a real house
It does not seem
a mere imagination, because
me
;
comes too
it
Nor
that.
does
to be a mere combination of things
seen.
The
curious part of
that
it is
some parts of the vision are absolutely clear
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
thus I can see the very texture of the smooth plaster of the house,
and the oak beams
inset
;
and
I can also see the fabric of the man's clothes and the color of his hair ; but, however
gate
my memory
or
my
much
I interro-
fancy about other
178
details,
The they are
all
Visitant
involved in a sort of mist which I can-
not pierce.
It
is
this
which convinces me of the
reahty of the house, and makes is
not imagination; because,
should have enlarged this I
cannot do.
in the music-room,
my
me
if it
believe that it
were, I think I
vision of the whole
;
but
There
is
a door, for instance,
which
is
sometimes open, but
even so I cannot see anything outside in the hall
or passage to which
Moreover, though I
it leads.
can recollect the visions with absolute distinctness, I cannot evoke them. ing,
and I suddenly
meadows; or
the
two
I
see in
am
may be
reading or writ-
my mind the house
in the music-room,
if this
book should
whom
across
and the
window.
figures are standing together in the
So strongly do I
to
I
feel the actuality of it all, fall
that
into the hands of the people
the vision refers, I will ask them to com-
municate with me.
no idea what their past
I have
has been, but I know their characters fact that they have no children
is
well.
The
a sorrow to
them, but has served to center their affections strongly on each other. tranquil
of pose about his best.
The husband
and unaffected man.
He
is
life.
He
There
is is
a very
no sort
just lives as he likes
unambitious, and he has no sense of
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But
not coupled
this is
with any sense of contempt or aloofness invariably kind and gentle.
He
is
an
man, highly trained and clear-minded. has
less
fine,
is
intellectual
The
knowledge of the technique of
things, but a very
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; he
wife
artistic
She
natural, critical taste.
than
cares, however, less for the things themselves
because her husband cares for them; but I do not think that she knows
They have always
this.
en-
joyed good health, and I cannot discern that they have had troubles of any kind.
And
I have the
strongest sense of a perfectly natural high-mindedness about both, a healthy instinct for
and
They
fine.
and they are
what
is
right
are absolutely without meanness;
entirely free
from any sort of mor-
They have traveled a good now seldom leave home; they designed and built their own house. One curious
bidity or dreariness. deal, but they
thing
is
that I have never heard music in the house,
nor have I ever seen them reading, and yet I
feel
that they are much occupied with music and books.
What vision?
is
the possible explanation of this curious
I have sometimes wondered if they have
been brought into some unconscious rapport with
me through one
of
my
books.
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It seems to
me just
The
Visitant
possible that
when I have seen them standing
to-
gether there
may
my
be some phrase in one of
books which has struck them and which they are
accustomed to remember; and I think
some phrase about the sunset, because
But
set that I generally see them.
my
explain
it
it is
may
be
at sun-
this does not
vision of the house, because I have
never seen either of them outside of the house,
and I have several times seen the music-room with no one in
it;
how does
the vision of the house,
come to me? They inspire me with a great feeling of respect and friendship the vision is very beautiful, and is always attended by a great sense of pleasure. I feel that it does me good in some obscure way to
which
is
so strangely distinct,
;
be brought into touch with them. retain
my
stant;
it is
It
is
Yet I can never
hold on the scene for more than an injust there and then
it is
gone.
a very strange thing to be conscious of two
quite distinct personalities,
and yet without any
power of winding myself any further thoughts.
am
There seems to be no
admitted, as
it
into their
vital contact.
I
were, at certain times to a
sight of the place, but I
am
sure that there
sort of volition on their part about it; I
181
is
no
do not
Escape and Other Essays that their thoughts are ever bent actually
feel
upon me,
upon something
as I exist, but perhaps
connected with me, I must
add
that,
though I
at night and have always at
power of mental
;
a great dreamer
all
times a strong
am
visualizations, I
tomed to be controlled by it
am
it,
not accus-
but rather to control
and I have never at any time had any sort of
similar vision, of a thing apart from
memory or
fancy. I do believe very firmly in the telepathic faculty.
fected both consciously
thoughts of others. in
much and unconsciously by
I think that our thoughts are
a spiritual medium and that there
any
definite
experiments in
frequent evidence of
by the thoughts of that this
may
it,
is
much
inter-
I have never
but I have had
my thoughts being affected my friends. It seems to me
be a case of some open channel of
communication, as
way
the
I believe thought takes place
lacing and transference of thought. tried
af-
entangled.
so obscure that
if
two wires had become in some
The whole method it is
of thought
is
hard to say under what con-
ditions this takes place.
But I allow myself the
happiness of believing that the place and the peo-
182
>
The pie of
whom
Visitant
I have been so often
and tangible
existences,
my
by me have passed
brain, so that some secret fellowship has
been established. if this
real
and that impressions of
things unseen and unrecognized into
aware are
It
would be a great joy to me
am not may by
could be definitely established ; and I
without hopes that this piece of writing
some happy chance be the bearer of
definite tidings
whom unseen I love, and whose may have been bent aimlessly perhaps and
to two people
thought
indistinctly
upon mine, but never without some
touch of kinship and good
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will.
THAT OTHER
ONEi
XI
THAT OTHER ONE
AM
going to try,
few pages, to draw
in these
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
I
water out of a deep well the well of which " William Morris wrote as the Well at the World's
End."
and
I shall try to describe a very strange
me
secret experience, which visits
rarely and at
unequal intervals ; sometimes for weeks together not at
all,
sometimes several times in a day.
happens
it is
not strange at
only wonder about
more
it is
all,
that
When
nor wonderful the
it
often, because it seems at the
;
does not happen
moment to be the
one true thing in a world of vain shadows thing else
falls
;
every-
away, becomes accidental and
mote, like the lights,
let
me
it
say, of some
re-
unknown
town, which one sees as one travels by night and as one twitches aside the curtain from the window of
a railway-carriage, in a sudden interval between
two profound slumbers.
The
train has relaxed its
speed; one looks out; the red and green signal
187
Escape and Other Essays lamps hang high in the air
and one
;
glides past a
sleeping town, the lamps burning quietly in deserted streets; there are house-fronts below, in a long
thoroughfare suddenly
visible
from end to end;
above, there are indeterminate shadows, the glim-
mering faces of high towers ; mysterious there
;
;
and then the
the brain,
it is all
ghost-like
one only knows that men
and one
live
and
and work
tides of slumber flow in
upon
dives thirstily to the depths of
sleep.
Before I say more about last taste of the
mood.
I
autumn landscape; bare of a village to
my
it,
I wiU just relate
was walking alone
fields
right touched sharply with gold
tered together, and there was a tower ;
it
in the
about me; the trees
and russet red; some white-gabled cottages
trees
my
clus-
among
the
was near sunset, and the sun seemed drag-
ging behind him to the west long wisps of purple
and rusty clouds touched with left
a stream passing slowly
low-beds, all beautiful
and
had an anxious matter
in
required, so
it
I
below
;
silent
my
me
to the
rushes and wil-
and remote.
I
mind, a thing that
seemed to me, careful deliberation to
steer a right course
tingencies.
fire
among
among many
motives and con-
had gone out alone to think 188
it
over.
!
That Other One I weighed this against that, and
it
seemed to me
that I was headed off by some obstacle whichever
way
Whatever I desired
I turned.
to do appeared
to be disadvantageous and even hurtful. I said to myself, " this
is
"Yes,"
one of those cases where
whatever I do, I shall wish I had done differently I see
no way out."
still
seemed to speak in me, the voice of something
It was then that a deeper voice
strong and quiet and even indolent, which seemed
my
half-amused, half-vexed, by
"
said,
When you have
Then
ing, I will decide."
perturbation.
It
done reasoning and ponderI
thought that a sort of
vague, half-spoken, half -dumb dialogue followed.
"What you to The
are
you?"
interfere ?
I said.
"What
right have
"
other voice did not trouble to answer;
it
only seemed to laugh a lazy laugh.
"I
am
trying to think this
ashamed, half-vexed. will
;
I
am
perplexed
" Oh, you
may
the other voice.
" But I wait.
am
in
"
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
all
out," I said, half-
You may
I see
think as
help
me
no way out of
much
as
you
if it
!
you "
like," said
am in no hurry, I can wait." a hurry," I said, " and I cannot "I
This has got to be settled somehow, and
without delay."
189
;
Escape and Other Essays "I
shall decide
when the time comes," said the
voice to me.
" Yes, but you do not understand," I
said, feel-
ing partly irritated and partly helpless.
" There
is this
and that, there
there
is
weighed
is
so-and-so to be considered,
the eifect on these other persons to be
there
;
think of
my
is
my own
health
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
position too
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
I
must
there are a dozen things to
be taken into account." " I know," said the voice
balancing
all these
no heed of that!
things
if
;
" I do not mind your
you
I shall take
wish.
I repeat that, when you have
finished thinking it out, I shall decide."
" Then you know what you mean to do ? " said
a
little
I,
angered.
" No, I do not know just yet," said the voice
" but
I shall
know when
the time comes
;
there will
be no doubt at aU." " Then I suppose I shall have to do what you decide.'' " I said, angry but impressed. " Yes, you will do what I decide," said the voice
" you know that perfectly well." " Then what is the use of my taking trouble? " I said. " Oh, you
may
just as well look into
190
it,"
all
this
said the
""
That Other One voice ; " that ant, after
and the
is
your part
You
all.
!
You
are only
details out,
and then I
What
fussing
"I
Of
is
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
all
not
is
it
your fretting and
!
am
anxious
wasted
is
serv-
shall settle.
course you must do your part wasted.
my
have got to work the figures
anxious," I said.
" I cannot help being
!
" That
you and
is it
a pity " said the voice.
" It hurts
!
hurts
me
too, in a
way.
You
disturb
me, you know ; but I cannot interfere with you
must wait." " But are you sure you
will
do right
;
I
" I said.
.-'
" I shall do what must be done," said the voice. " If you mean, shall I regret my choice, that is possible; at least
you may regret
it.
But
it will
not have been a mistake." I was puzzled at this, and for a time the voice
was
silent, soi
that I had leisure to look about me.
I had walked some way while the dialogue went on, and I was now by the stream, which ran full and
cold into a pool beside the bridge, a pool like a
clouded
j ewel.
How
beautiful
it
was
!
.
â&#x20AC;˘
.
The
old thoughts began again, the old perplexities.
" If he says that," I said to myself, thinking of an 191
"
;
Escape and Other Essays opponent of perhaps
it
plan, " then I must be prepared
my
—
with an answer
my
a weak point in
it is
case
would be better to write one says what ;
." one thinks ; not what one means to say. . " Still at work? " said the voice. " You are hav.
ing a very uncomfortable time over there.
Yet
sorry for that!
not understand
"
What
I cannot think
I
am
why you do
!
are you? " I said impatiently.
There was no answer to that. " You seem very strong and patient " I said at !
"I
last.
think I rather like you, and I
that I trust you
not explain.
;
Cannot you help me a
seem to me to be out of sight of a wall.
am
sure
but you irritate me, and you
Cannot you break
will
You
little?
—
the other side
it
down or look
over ? "
"
You would
not
like that," said the voice
would be inconvenient, even painful ;
your plans very much. do you not? " " Yes," I
much it; I
said,
"I
interested in
think you
me, do I
like it?
Tell
like life
it.
me
it
least I
I do not feel sure
know that
" it
would upset
— you
— at
;
like life,
am
very
if
I like
better than I do.
Tell
»
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;
That Other One " Yes," said the voice ; " at least I do.
have guessed right for once I like than what you
like.
it
;
matters more what
You
God, for one thing." " So do I," I said eagerly. that point
I
!
am
sure
He
is
You
I believe in
see,
" I have reached It
there.
is
largely
a question of argument, and I have reaUy no doubt,
no doubt at
all.
There are
of course
difficulties
—
difficulties
about personality and intention; and
then there
is
much about it
.
—
I have thought
and I have arrived at a solution
I can explain
this.
is
ogy.
the origin of evil
that,
it
best
by an anal-
,"
.
There came a laugh from the other a scornful laugh or an
wall, not
laugh kind and compassionate,
side of the
idle laugh,
but a
a father with a child on his knee and the voice said, " I have seen like
;
—
Him He is
I see
yonder.
think.
.
.
.
Him He is here aU about us, and He is not coming to meet us, as you !
Dear me, how young you must be.
.
.
.
I had forgotten."
This struck me dumb for an instant then I said, " You frighten me Who are you, what are you, " where are you ? ;
!
.
.
.
And
then the voice said, in a tone of the deepest
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"My
love, as If surprised
and a
little
pained,
chnd!"
And then I heard it no more and I went back to my cares and anxieties. But it was as the voice ;
had
said,
and when the time came to
no doubt at
Now
all
I have told
all
this in the nearest
simplest words that I can find. similitudes of voices walls, because
had and
had to use
I have
and laughter and partition-
one can only use the language which
But
one knows.
decide, I
what to do.
it is all
quite true
and
more
real,
than a hundred talks which one holds with men
real
and women whose
face
and dress one
sees in
rooms
and streets, and with whom one bandies words about things for which one does not care.
indeed some one present with me,
whom
There was I
knew per-
fectly well
though I could not discern him, whom
had known
all
and shared chose. tell
my life, who had gone all my experiences, in
But before
I
about with me so far as he
I go on to speak farther, I will
one more experience, which came at a time when
I was very unhappy, longing to escape from
looking forward mournfully to death. It
had been under
similar
circumstances
dreadful argmnent proceeding in
194
my mind
life,
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;a
as to
"
That Other One what I could do to get back to happiness again,
whom
my how
up
to consult, where to go, whether to give
work, whether to add to
what
it,
would not
to get sleep which
visit
diet to use,
me.
" Can't you help me? " I said over and over
At
again to the other person.
last the answer
came, very faint and far away.
" I am sick," said the come forth
" and I cannot
voice,
!
That frightened me it
exceedingly, because I felt
" Is anything that I have done "
alone and weak.
So I
said,
it
my
" I have had a blow," said the other "
Is
fault.?
.''
You
dealt
it
me
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; but
is
it
voice.
not your fault
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
you did not know."
"What
can I do?
"I
said.
" Ah, nothing," said the disturb me! recover.
I
am
Go on
"
voice.
with your play,
if
do not heed me." " My play " I said scornfully. know I am miserable? " !
The
voice gave a sigh.
" I am weak and
faint
brave as you can.
You must
not
trying to recover, and I shall
;
"
You
you can, and "
Do you
hurt me,"
not
it said.
but you can help me be as ;
Try not 195
to think or grieve.
I
"
Escape and Other Essays you again soon, but not "I it added.
shall be able to help
Ah, leave me to myself,"
now.
.
must
sleep, a
.
And
.
long sleep
it is
;
then I heard no more
when the voice came
to
;
me on
your turn to help till
a day long
!
after,
a bright morning by
the sea, with the clear waves breaking and hissing
on the shingle; the voice came blithe and strong, " I am well again you have done your part, dear ;
one is
me your
burden, and I will carry " your time of joy
Give
!
it
;
it
!
And then for
a long time after that I did not hear
the voice, and I was full of delight, hour by hour,
grudging even the time I must spend in cause
it
kept
me from
the
life
sleep, be-
I loved.
These then are some of the talks we have held together, that Other this,
One and
I.
But
I must say
that he will not always come for being called.
I sometimes call to him and get no answer
times he cries out beside
He
seems to have a
me suddenly
is
some-
in the air.
of his own, quite distinct
Sometimes when I
from mine. vexed, he
life
;
quietly joyful
and
am
elate,
fretted
and
and then
my
troubles die away, like the footsteps of the wind
upon water and sometimes when ;
and contented, he
is
I would be
happy
heavy and displeased, and takes
196
That Other One no heed of me and then I too ;
He
gloom. far
more
is
much
the stronger, and
me what
to
he
do not know how he
and what
think,
feels
occupied
is
it
matters
than what I
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; very
strangest of
is
sorrow and
fall into
all,
feel.
I
little,
I
he changes
somewhat; very slowly and imperceptibly; but he has changed more than I have in the course of life.
I do not change at
better
what I
skilful;
am more
think, I
different in
it
accomplished and
was when I was a
some ways.
;
little,
to remember the I think that
Two
as a servant
little
many
periences to this.
is
it
feel that I
can help
his
have
master
things he has to do.
people must have similar ex-
Tennyson had, when he wrote
Voices,"
and
I have seen hints of the
same thing in a dozen books. is
unaltered
But he
I have only gone on per--
But he does not forget and here I
that
is
child.
and remembering, and sometimes forgetting.
helped him a
" The
my
I can say
I think.
but the thought and motive
from what ceiving
all,
The strange thing
does not help one more to be strong and
brave, because I
know
this, if I
know anything, me lies
that when the anxious and careful part of
down at last to rest, I shall slip past the wall which now divides us, and be clasped close in the arms of 197
Escape and Other Essays that other
One nay, ;
it will
be more than that
!
I
shall
be merged with him, as the quivering water-
drop
is
merged with the fountain; that
blessed peace;
and I
shall
will
be a
know, I think, without
any questioning or wondering, many things that are obscure to
which after
all
me now, under I love so well.
198
these low-hung skies, .
.
.
SCHOOLDAYS
XII
SCHOOLDAYS
certainly seems, looking back ITyears, that I have altered very
to the early
little
at
all in
fact
!
The
little
— hardly
thing, whatever it
Is,
that
at the heart of the machine, the speck of soul-
sits
reaUy me,
stuff that is
ture, neither old
is
very much the same crea-
nor young; confident, imperturb-
able, with a strange insouciance of its
ing what
it
gathered
many
has to do.
I have
own, know-
done many things,
impressions, ransacked experience,
enjoyed, suffered; but whatever I have argued, expressed, tried to believe, aimed at, hoped, feared,
has hardly affected that central core of
And self
life
at aU.
I feel as though that strange, dumb, cheerful
—
it is
always cheerful, I think
— had played
the part all along of a silent and not very critical
spectator of
all I
have tried to be.
201
The mind,
the
Escape and Other Essays reason, the emotion, hare each of them expanded,
acquired knowledge, learned
skill,
most
sleepless,
cell
has
lain
there,
hut that innerperceptive,
dreaming head on hand, watching, seldom making a sign of either approval or disapproval.
In childhood now, perhaps. cause, in
my
it
was more dominant than
It went its
way more
far-ofF days, strangely inactive.
was bent upon observation. writer
own
who has
experience,
securely, be-
mind was,
case at least, the
it is
in those
The whole nature
Ruskin
is
the only
described what was precisely
when he says that as a
lived almost entirely in the region of sight.
my
child he
It was
the only part of me, the eye, that was then furi-
ously and untiringly awake.
Taste, smell, touch,
had each of them at moments a sharp consciousness; but
it
was the shape, the form, the appear-
ance of things, that interested me, took up most of
my
time and energy, occupied ihe unceasingly.
Even now my memory ranges, with
lively precision,
over the home, the garden, the heathery moorland, the firwoods, the neighboring houses of the scene
where I
lived.
I can see the winding walks, the
larch shrubberies, the flower-borders, the very grain
of the brickwork ; while in the house
20a
itself,
the wall
Schooldays papers, the furniture, the patterns of carpets and
memory.
chintzes, are all absolutely clear to the
Thus
from day to day and from year to
I lived,
moment
year, in the
passed ; but I remember
as. it
no touch of speculation or curiosity as to how or
why
The
things existed as they did.
house, the ar-
rangements, the servants, the meal-times, the occu-
pations were
all
the wiU of
my
simply accepted as they were, just I never
taking shape.
.parents
thought of interrogating or altering anything. Life came to
me
emotions, no
dominant
seemed
just so.
I remember no sharp
affections.
My
me kind and powerful; but it me that, if I had died, they would
to,
occur to
I was just a part of
particular grief.
rangements
manage
parents
and
;
my
idea of
so that I should be as
as possible,
and go
my
did not feel
any
their ar-
life
was simply to
little
interfered with
way, annexing such
little
property as I could, and learning the appearance of the things that were too large to be annexed.
Then my
elder brother
went
off to school.
do not remember being sorry, or missing
pany;
in fact I rather
independence
it
I
com-
welcomed the additional
gave me.
way when he came back
his
I was glad in a mild
for the holidays ; but I do
203
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some
stories
all quite
it
was aU
He
like.
told us
about boys and masters; but
remote, like a fairy-tale;
it
was
and then the
time gradually drew near when I too was to go to school ; but I remember neither interest or curiosity
or excitement or anxiety.
I think I rather en-
joyed a few extra presents, and the packing of
my
school-box with a consciousness of proprietorship.
And
then the day came, and I drifted ofF like
thistledown into the big world.
My
father
and mother took us down
to school.
It was a fine place at Mortlake, called
Temple
Grove, near Richmond Park.
Mortlake was hardly
more than an old-fashioned
village then, in the
country, not joined to streets
and rows of
London
villas.
It
as
it
is
now by
was a place of big
suburban mansions, with high walls everywhere, cedars looking over, towering chestnuts, big classical gateposts.
Temple Grove, so
called
from the
statesman, the patr6n of Swift, was a large, solid,
handsome house with well timbered.
fine
rooms, and large grounds,
Schoolrooms and dormitories had 204.
Schooldays been tacked on to the house, but spacious way.
was
It
We arrived,
austere.
a
solid,
dignified, but bare and
and went
master, Mr. Waterfield, a
all built in
tall,
in to see the head-
handsome, extremely
impressive man, with curled hair and beard and
He
flashing eyes. talker,
and an
was a
fine
gentleman, a brilliant
excellent teacher,
though unneces-
had been used to
my
sarily severe.
I
who was then
himself headmaster of Wellington
see
College, treated witti obvious deference field,
who was an
but Water-
old family friend, met him with a
dignified sort of equality.
luncheon
;
father,
with the
family.
My parents went in to My brother and I
crawled off to the school dinner; he of course had
many
and
friends,
I
was plunged, shy and bewil-
dered, into the middle of them.
hundred boys alarmingly
there.
old
Some of them seemed
and strong; but
friends were kind to me,
at
first
that
of place.
went
off;
it
There were over a
my
and I remember thinking
was going to be a very pleasant
sort
Then in the early afternoon my parents we went to the station with them, and I
said good-by without any particular emotion.
seemed to
me
to
brother's
me a
nice easy kind of
life.
But as
It
my
brother and I walked away, between the high-
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Escape and Other Essays walled gardens, back to the school, the
first
shadow
He was strangely silent and dull, I thought and then he turned to me, and in an accent of fell.
tragedy which I had never heard him use before, he said, " Thirteen weeks at this beastly place !
I took
a high place for
my
and after due
age,
examination in the big schoolroom, where four masters were teaching at estrades, with
much hacked and
of lockered desks
little
rows
carved, ar-
ranged symmetrically round each, the big
fireplace
guarded with high iron bars, I was led across the room, and committed to the care of a
little,
pom-
pous, stout man, with big side-whiskers, a reddish nose,
and an
air half irritable, half good-natured,
in
a short gown, who was holding forth to a
It
was
complete
all
before
me and
shaped
itself.
;
dormitory.
:
I had
my
place and
my
class.
duty
then gradually day by day the I had a
little
There was the
life
cubicle in a high
big,
rather
frowsy
dining-room, where we took our meals; a large
comfortable library where we could
sit
and read;
outside there, were two or three cricket
graveled yard for
drill,
fields,
a
a gymnasium ; and beyond
that stretched what were called " the grounds,"
which seemed to me then and
206
still
seem a really
Schooldays beautiful place.
It
had
all
been elaborately laid
out; there was a big lawn, low-lying, where there
had once been a
lake,
and winding
shrubberies
walks, a ruinous building, with a classical portico,
on the top of a wooded mound, a kitchen garden
and paddocks for cows beyond; and on each the walls
and palings of other big mansions, aU
And
rather grand and mysterious.
that
little
side
my
space
The only
sight
there within
was to be spent.
life
we ever had
of the outer world
was that we went an Sundays to an extraordinarily ugly and ices
tasteless
modem
church, where the serv-
were hideously performed; and occasionally
we were allowed to go over to Richmond with a or two of pocket-money to shop; and
shilling
sometimes there were walks, a dozen boys with a
good-natured master rambling about Richmond Park, with herds
of
forest clumps
its
deer,
all
and
its
wandering
very dim and beautiful to
me.
Very soon I
settled in
a detestable place. molested in any way. incredibly
my own
mind that
Yet I was never
The tone
it
was
bullied or
of the place was
good not one word or hint of moral evU ;
did I ever hear there during the whole two years I
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had entered
But
it
left the
school as innocent
it.
was a place of terrors and
There were
which one did not know, and
rules
might unawares break.
I did not, I believe,
a single real friend there.
make
I liked a few of the
boys, but was wholly bent on guarding life
solitude.
my
inner
The work was always easy
from every one.
me, the masters were good-natured and
to
efficient.
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
But I lived entirely in dreams of the holidays home had become a distant heavenly place; and I recollect waking early in the summer mornings, hearing the scream of peacocks in a neighboring
pleasaunce, and thinking with a sickening disgust of the strict, ordered routine of the place, no one to care about, dull
work to be done, nothing
joy or to be interested they were not them.
I
much
in.
to en-
There were games, but
organized, and I seldom played
wandered about
in
free
times
in
the
grounds, and the only times of delight that I recollect
were when one buried oneself in a book in the
library,
The
and dived into imaginations. place was well managed; we were whole-
somely fed ; but there had grown up a strange kind of taboo about
many
of the things we were sup-
208
Schooldays had a healthy
posed to
eat.
tradition
was that
I
appetite, but the
the food was unutterably
all
The theory was that
bad, adulterated, hocussed.
one must just eat enough
to'
sustain
There
life.
was, for instance, an excellent tapioca pudding served on certain days eat
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
but no one was allowed to
it
it
had to be shoveled
and afterwards
into envelopes
playground. this
;
The law was that
it.
do not know
I
if
away
cast
was never adverted upon
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; and I did
The consequence was
ruefully enough.
lived hungrily in the midst of plenty,
became the one prepossession of I was a delicate
boy
in those days,
It
was a
son there
whom
and food
and used often
little,
bad throats
old-fashioned
house in Mortlake, and the matron of
an old servant of our own.
it
that one
life.
to be sent off to the sanatorium with
and other ailments.
in the
the masters saw
it
had been
She was the only per-
I regarded with real affection,
to go to the sanatorium was like heaven.
and
One had
a comfortable room, and dear Louisa used to em-
me stealthily, provide me out walks. I have
brace and kiss
little treats
for me, take
spent
hours happily in the its
little
many
walled garden there, with
big box trees, or gazing from a window into the
209
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his
watching the grocer over the way set out
shop-window.
Oi
incidents, tragic or comic, I
remember but
I saw a stupid boy vigorously caned with
few.
a sickening extremity of horror.
I recollect a " school licking " being given to an ill-conditioned
The boys
boy for a nasty piece of bullying.
ranged themselves down the big schoolroom, and the culprit
had
to run the gauntlet.
I can see his
ugly, tear-stained face coming slowly along
a shower of blows.
among
I joined in with a will, I re-
member, though I hardly knew what he had done. I remember a few afternoons spent at the houses of friendly masters
starved sort of friendships,
;
but otherwise a
level,
life lived
it
was
by a
no adventures; I marked
before the holidays on a
little
all
rule,
a drab
with no
off the
days
calendar, simply
bent on hiding what I was or thought or
felt
from
every one, with a fortitude that was not in the least
stoical.
What
know my aim was ;
I was
afraid
of I hardly
to be absolutely inoffensive and
ordinary, to do what every one else did, to avoid
any sort of difference
care
how
notice.
and
I was a strange mixture of in-
sensitiveness.
I was regarded, I
I did not in the least
had no ambitions of any
210
;
Schooldays kind, did not
want to be
or to succeed, or to
liked,
make an impression; while I was very sensitive to the slightest comment or ridicule. It seems strange to
me now
that I should have hated the
with
life
such an intensity of repugnance, for no harm or ill-usage ever befell
I did not like
it!
wanted nor gave
me; but
if
that was
life, well,
I trusted no one; I neither
The term was
confidences.
a dreary interlude in home
life,
just
to be lived through
with such indifference as one could muster. I spent two years there
departure with
my
;
and remember
brother.
It
and thank God!
final
I never wanted to see
or hear of any one there again ants, or boys.
my
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; masters,
serv-
was a case of good-by forever
And
I
remember with what
savage glee and delicious anticipation I saw the last of the high-waUed house, with its
its
roofs
and wings,
great gateposts and splendid cedars.
laugh at
its
dim terrors on regaining
my
I could
freedom
but I had not the least spark of gratitude or loyalty
;
such kindnesses as I received I had taken
dumbly, never thinking that they arose out of any affection
or interest, but treating them as the
unaccountable choice of
my
elders
;
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; we stopped â&#x20AC;&#x201D; had
for an instant at the little sanatorium
211
that
Escape and Other Essays been a happy place at least
— and I was
tearfully
hugged to Louisa's ample bosom, Louisa alone being a
little
sorry that I should be so glad to get
away. I
do not think that the
healthy, and well-ordered as
but had
animal
little
it
spirits,
sensible,
there,
was, did
happy enough boy
I was a
good.
life
in
me much home life,
and none of the
bois-
terous, rough-and-tumble ebullience of boyhood.
I was shy and sensitive
;
but I doubt
if it
was
well
all
have
that interest, enjoyment, emotion, should been so utterly starved as they were. suspicious of like its
life,
and incurious about
loud sounds,
coarse flavors
;
it
;
made me I did not
combative merriment,
its
the real
It
life,
its
that of observation,
had been hunted
into
a comer; and the sense that one might incur
ridi-
had
filled
imagination, dreams, fancies,
cule, enmity, severity, dislike, harshness,
the air with uneasy terrors. able
ease
— —
I
came away
selfish,
had won a scholarship at Eton with
entire
innocent, childish, bewildered, wholly
unam-
I
bitious.
The world seemed
to
me a
big, noisy,
stupid place, in which there was no place for me.
The
little
inner sense of which I have spoken was
hardly awake ;
it
had had
its first
S12
sight of
human-
Schooldays and
ity,
silent, finding its
have
need
it
was
disliked it; it
it
and
solitary
still
way, and quite unaware that
own
any
with
relation
other
human
beings.
3
Then came Eton.
which big place I
Into
But
drifted again in a state of mild bewilderment.
big as Eton
is
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
was
it
when I went there
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
degree conscious of
lines far
house its
more
is like
own
like
on a thousand boys,
at no time was I in the least as an uncomfortable
its size
The truth
element.
close
that
is
Eton runs
on
itself
a university than a school each :
a college, with
authority.
There
is
its
own
very
traditions
little
and
intercourse
between the younger boys at different houses, and there
an instinctive disapproval among the boys
is
themselves
of
external
The younger
relations.
boys of a house play together, to a large extent
work together, and
live
tacitly understood that a his
own
side he
he
is
house, and
is
if
a
common
boy throws
he makes
life.
It
in his lot
many
is
with
friends out-
generally unpopular, on the ground that
thought to find
good enough for him.
his natural
companions not
Neither have boys of differ-
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divided
much by
to do with each other ; each house
is
parallel lines of cleavage, so that it is
not a weltering mass of boyhood, but a collection of very clearly defined groups and
at
circles.
my own time there was no building
Moreover, in
Eton which could hold the whole
on no occasion did I ever
school, so that
see the school assembled.
There were two chapels, the schoolrooms were considerably scattered ; even on the occasions
when the
headmaster made a speech to the school, he did not even invite the lower boys to attend, while there was
no compulsion on the upper boys to be
present, so that
one thought
it
was not necessary to go, unless
it likely
to be amusing.
I was myself on the foundation, one of the seventy king's scholars, as we were called ; we lived in the old buildings
;
we dined together
in the col-
lege hall, a stately Gothic place, over four centuries old, with
a timbered roof, open
and portraits of notable Etonians. gowns
was
all
in public,
and
fireplaces,
We wore cloth
surplices in the chapel.
It
very grand and dignified, but we were in
those days badly fed, and very
little
looked after.
There were many ancient and curious customs, which one picked up naturally, and never thought
!
Schooldays them first
For
either old or curious.
went
when I
instance,
there, the small boys, three at a time,
waited on the sixth form at their dinner, being called servitors,
handing
plates,
pouring out beer,
or holding back the long sleeves of the big boys'
gowns, as they carved for themselves at the end of
This was abolished shortly after
the table.
But
arrival as being degrading. to us that
it
my
never occurred
was anything but amusing ; we had the
it
fun of watching the great
men
at their meal, and
I remember well being kindly
hearing them gossip.
but firmly told by the present Dean of Westminster, then in sixth form, that I must make
my
appear-
ance for the future with cleaner hands and better
brushed hair
We
were kindly and paternally treated by the
older boys
;
I was assigned as
a fag to
my
had
present
publisher,
Mr. Reginald Smith.
empty
bath for him, make his tea and toast,
call
his
him
in the morning,
I
fully in his room, in the evenings,
my
fill
and run errands.
turn for which I was allowed to do
quarters were noisy, and
to
if
I
had
my work
In repeace-
when the
diflSculties
fags'
about
work, he was always ready to help me.
normal a thing was
it,
and
So
that I remember saying in-
215
"
;
Escape and Other Essays dignantly to
my !
my
when he marked a
tutor,
one of
quantity master did that " in
verses, "
my He
Why,
laughed and
sir,
that the
We
first syllable
of senator
is
my
short
tell
on the passage where the
sixth form rooms were.
It was a noisy place, with
great open fireplace and huge oak table.
the noise was excessive, the Sixth
and
I
company
filled
Form
of the present
Dean
If
intervened
remember being very gently caned,
making a small
him
!
lower boys in a big room with
lived as
cubicles, which abutted
its
fag-
" Take
said,
compliments to your fagmaster, and
false
in the
of St. Paul's, for
bonfire of old blotting-paper, which
the place with smoke.
The
liberty, after the private school,
tonishing.
We
had
was
as-
to appear in school at certain
hours, not very numerous; and some extra work
was done with the private tutor supeirvision,
;
but there was no
and we were supposed to prepare our
work and do our
exercises,
when and
as
we
could.
There were a few compulsory games, but otherwise we were allowed to do exactly as we liked.
The
side streets of
Windsor were out of bounds,
but we were allowed to go up the High Street, we
had
free access to the castle
216
and park and
all
the
Schooldays
On
surrounding country.
a week
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; our names were
half liolidajs
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
three
called over: but it left
one with a three-hour space in the afternoon, when
we could go exactly where we would. The saints' days and certain anniversaries were whole holidays, and we were free from morning to night. Then there was a deli^tful room, the old school library,
now destroyed, where we could go and read; and many an hour did I spend there looking vaguely into endless books. I weU remember seeing the present Lord Curzon and one of the Wallops standing by the fireplace there, and discussing some political question, and how amazed I was at the profundity of their knowledge and the dignity of their language.
But
many ways
was a very isolated life; knew for a long time I hardly any bovs except just in
it
the dozen or so who entered the place with me. I knew no boys at other houses, except a few in my school division, and never did more than exchange
One never tiiou^t of
a few words with them.
speaking to a casual boy, unless one knew him and ;
there are
who
many men whom
I have since
known
were in the school with me, and with
never exchanged a syllable.
217
well
whom
I
Escape and Other Essays Though
there was a master in college,
who read
evening prayers, gave leaves and allowances, and
was consulted on matters of business, he had pracnothing to do with the discipline.
tically
was
all in the
put up notices, and were allowed not only
order,
No
to cane but to set lines.
appealing
tO'
overt
could not set
one ever thought of
the master against them, and their
powers were never abused. little
That
hands of the sixth form, who kept
anywhere.
discipline
inflict
But there was very
corporal punishment.
The masters They could
punishments, and for misbehavior,
tinued idleness, they
or con-
could send a boy to the
But the
headmaster to be flogged.
discipline of
the place was instinctive, and public opinion was infinitely strong.
One found out by
the light of
nature what one might do and what one might not,
and the dread of being centric
in
any way unusual or There
was very potent.
ec-
were two or three
very ill-governed houses, where things went very
wrong indeed behind the public order went,
it
was
scenes; but as far as
perfect.
aged their own games and
their
The boys manown
affairs
;
a
strong sense of subordination penetrated the whole place,
and the old Eton aphorism, that a boy
218
;
Schooldays learned to
know
his place
and to keep
held good
it,
without any sense of coercion or constraint. I do not think that the educational system was a
good
my
In
one.
besides
little
and mathematics and
classics
There was a
days there was
little
taught
divinity.
French and science and history
but the core of the whole thing was undiluted classics.
We
did a good deal of composition,
Greek and Latin, and the Latin verses were exercises
out of which I got much real enjoyment, and
But it was posmuch contraband sible to be very idle, and to get help in work from other boys. Most of the school some of the pride of authorship.
work consisted of
repetition,
and of
dully and leisurely construed.
I do not think I
work
in school;
teachers.
I needed
ever attempted to attend to the
and there were few stimulating strict
my
classical books,
and careful teaching, and got some from
private tutor ; but otherwise there was no indi-
vidual attention.
The
net result was that a few
able boys turned out very
good
scholars, saturated
with classics; but a large number of boys were really not educated at
all.
The forms were
too
large for real supervision ; and as long as one pro-
duced adequate
exercises,
219
and
sate quiet in one's
Escape and Other Essays comer, one was
left genially alone.
fashionable to " sap," as
it
was
called
It ;
was not
and though
a few ambitious boys worked hard, we most of us lived in a
happy-go-lucky way, just doing enough
to pass muster.
my work
I took not the faintest interest in
for a long time
;
but I read a great
many
English books, wrote poetry in secret, picked up a
vague acquaintance, of a very inaccurate kind, with Latin and Greek, but possessed no exact
knowledge of any
sort.
Gradually, as I rose in the school, a faint idea of social values shaped that
Let me say frankly
itself.
There were many
we were wholly democratic.
many
wealthy boys, est interest
with
was taken
to find later on in
my
titles
but not the faint-
;
in either.
I was surprised
career at school, that boys
whose names I had known by hearsay, were peers,
though at
first
I had no idea
Whatever we were
free from,
free from snobbishness.
what the peerage was.
we were at
stituted our aristocracy, pure in the eleven
place,
all
events
Athletics were what con-
and simple.
Boys
and the eight were the heroes of the
and the school club
called
Pop, to which
mainly athletes were elected, enjoyed an absolute
supremacy, and indeed ran the out-of-doors
disci-
Schooldays In
pline of the school.
fact,
on occasions
like
matches, the boys were kept back behind the
big
lines,
by members of Pop parading with canes, and slashing at the crowd if they came past the boundaries.
AH
the social standing of boys was settled
by
entirely
A
athletics.
good
agreeable, manly, a
boy might be
hounds in the holidays, but
if
he was no good at
the prescribed games, he was nobody at It
was wholesome
in
clever,
game-shot or a rider to
all
at Eton.
a sense; but a bad boy who
was a good athlete might and did wield a very
evil
Such boys were above
The
influence.
criticism.
moral tone was not low so much as strangely indifferent.
A boy's
private
life
was
his
own
affair,
and public opinion exercised no particular moral sway.
Yet vague and
guileless as I myself was,
I gratefully record that I never came in the
any
evil influence
whatever. evil
way
of
whatever at Eton, in any respect
Talk was rather
loose,
of other boys easily enough.
and one believed
To
express open
disapproval would have been held to be priggish;
and though undoubtedly the tone of
certain houses
and certain groups was far from good, there yet ran through the place a mature sense of a boy's right to be independent,
and undesirable ways of
Escape and Other Essays were more a matter of choice than of coercion.
life
more a mirror of the larger
It was, in fact, far
world than any other school I have ever heard of;
and I know of no school story which
gives
any
impression of a
it all
was.
life
so curiously free as
There was none of that the news of events
and
electrical circulation of
incident that
is
held to be
One used
to hear
characteristic of school
life.
long after, or not at
of things which had hap-
pened.
all,
There were rumors, there was gossip but ;
I cannot imagine
any place where a boy of
solitary
or retiring character might be so entirely imaware of anything that was going on. individualistic
place;
and
superficial traditions, it
was a highly
It
one conformed to
was possible to
certainly did, a very quiet life,
if
lead, as I
and secluded sort of
reading, rambling about, talking endlessly
and
eagerly to a few chosen friends, quite unconscious
that anything was being done for one, socially or educationally, entirely unmolested, as long as one
was good-natured and easy-going. It
was therefore a good school for a boy with
any toughness of mind or in
originality
;
but
it
tended
the case of normal and unreflective boys to
develop a conventional type; good-mannered, sen-
siUe, witli idcnty of set of values.
It
*mxMr fmc; bat whli a wituag
made bojs
OTierestimate athletics,
despise intdllectiul things, vorsfa^ social success. It gaTe
them the irrong sort of tokranoe, bj
I mean the tolerance
but that also
tiiinks
moral lapses,
ctmtemptnoDsly of ideas and
The
mental originalitj. good4nnnored,
tiiat exÂŤ3ises
aiiidb
modest,
iA>ls of the place
ordedj
athktes.
were Tlie
masters made irierds viQi them, becanse a good
mntoal understanding condnced to disdpIiDe^ and
thej WHe, moreoTar, pleasant and dieerfid ctMn-
Bat boys
panions.
ttf
character
and
force, onless
they were also athletic, vere apt to be OTeifooked.
The
theory of goTermnoit was not to interfore,
and diere vas an
The
spiratkm.
an^
absoifie of eathusiasm
faeadmastar
afterwards jHVTost,
a
was
Dr.
Hornby,
ooaiteoas, handstxne, digni-
fied gentleman., a fine preacher,
and one of the most
charming paUic speakers I ha^e ever heard. respected and admired his masters,
in-
Mm,
and nerer made
hot he tnew
We
little
of
his personal infinence,
whic^ might hare been great, feit amcHig the boys.
He
was a
man
of matchles modesty and refine-
ment; he never fohninated or kctared; I never heard an
irritable
void fall from Hs S2S
lips
:
bat on
Escape and Other Essays the other hand he never appealed to us, or asked
our help, or spoke eagerly or indignantly about
He
any event or tendency. his eyes to
it,
hated
evil,
and preferred to think that
There were masters who in
not there.
but closed it
was
their
own
houses and forms displayed more vivid qualities;
but the whole tone of the place was against anything emotional or passionate or uplifting; the ideal that soaked into the
mind was one of tem-
perate, orderly, well-mannered athleticism.
At
the end of
tinction.
my
time I rose to moderate dis-
I began to read the classics privately, I
reached sixth form, and even was elected into Pop.
But I was always unadventurous, and I nurtured a private
timid.
books and talk, and insensibly shifted
and through ism,
any
it
felt
life
of
in
my own
that the center of
from home to
aU, I never gained
unselfish ambition,
any
a way
school.
life
on
had
But
in
any deep patriot-
visions
which could
have inspired me to play a noble part in the world. I
am
sure that was as
temperament as of the spirit of the place
much
the result of
spirit of the place ;
my own but the
was potent, and taught me to
acquiesce in an ideal of decorum, of subordination,
of regular, courteous, unenthusiastic 224.
life.
;
Schooldays Leaving the school was a melancholy business; one's roots were entwined very deep with the soil,
the buildings, the memories, the happiness of the
place last
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
for
happy above
few weeks there were
outbursts from boys
all
things
many
it
was
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
who had seemed conventional
enough ; and there was a dreary sense that at
an end, and would have
little
ness or excitement to provide.
my
in the
strange emotional
life
was
of future brightI packed, I
farewells, I distributed presents
;
and
made
as I drove
away, the carriage, ascending the bridge by the beloved playing-fields, with
its
lawns and elms, the
up behind,
gliding river and the Castle towering
showed me
in a glance the old red-brick walls, the
and
turrets, the high chapel, with its pinnacles
great buttresses, where seven good years had been spent.
I burst, I remember, into
unashamed tears
but no sense of regret for
failure,
vacuous
all fine intention,
ease,
or absence of
or idleness, or
over me, though I had been guilty of things.
I wish that I had
felt
all
came these
But
remorse!
I
was only grateful and fond and sad at leaving so untroubled and delightful a piece of
The world ahead
did not seem to
life
me
behind me.
to hold out
anything which I burned to do or to achieve
225
;
it
was
Escape and Other Essays but the closing of a door, the end of a chapter, the sudden silencing of a music, sweet to hear, which could not come again.
That was aU that time
.
.
,
five-and-thirty years ago!
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; I have
Since
seen it unmistakably, both as
a schoolmaster and as a don
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;a
different spirit
has grown up, a sense of corporate and social duty, a larger idea of national service, not loudly advertised but deeply-rooted,
and far removed from
the undisciplined individualism of
my boyhood.
It
has been a secret growth, not an educational pro-
gram. ence,
The Boer War,
I think, revealed its pres-
and the war we are now waging has
to its mature strength.
ganisation, and
still
of a more generous
any case
it is
joice with all
and borne
come partly by
It has
my
or-
more through the workings
and
self-sacrificing ideal.
a great and noble harvest
fruit, in
testified
heart that
it
;
and I
In re-
has thUs ripened
courage and disinterestedness,
and high-hearted public
spirit.
nQ
AUTHORSHIP
XIII
AUTHORSHIP
THE " Herb Moly and
essay which stands next in this volume,
ject of a curious
and
seemed to me, when I
Heartsease," was the sub-
interesting experiment. first
thought of
suggestive subject, a substantial idea.
it,
It
to be a
One ought
not to write a commentary on one's own work, but the underlying theme all
my
life,
by the
this: I
is
have been haunted
at intervals, sometimes very insistently,
sense of a quest;
and I have often seemed
to myself to be searching for something which I
have somehow lost
;
to be engaged in trying to re-
discover some emotion or thought which I had once certainly possessed
ten or mislaid. as if it
At
and as certainly have forgottimes I felt on the track of
times I have felt as as
if it
it,
had passed that way not long before; at if
I were close
were only hidden from
229
upon
me by
it,
and
the thinnest
Escape and Other Essays of
I have reason to
veils.
know that other people
have the same feeling; and indeed
it is
that which
the singular and moving charm of Newman's poem, " Lead, Kindly Light " ; where all constitutes
is
summed up
in those exquisite Hnes, often so
strangely misinterpreted
and misunderstood, which
end the poem.
And
with the
Which
I
mom
those angel faces smile.
have loved long
I wish that he
since,
and
lost awhile.
had not written " those angel
faces," because it seems to limit the quest to ecclesiastical lines, as, indeed, I expect limit
Newman
did
But we must not be so blind as to be
it.
unable to see behind the texture of prepossessions that decorate, as with a tapestry, the chambers of
a man's inner thought ever that
;
and
Newman meant
I have
no doubt what-
the same thing that I
mean, though he used different symbols. Again we find the same idea in Wordsworth's " Ode on the Intimations of Immortality," the thought that life is
not circumscribed by birth and death, but
that one's experience
is
a much larger and older
thing than the experience which mere memory records.
It is that which one has lost;
230
and one of
Authorship the greatest mysteries of art
lies
in the fact that
a picture, or a sudden music, or a page in a book, will
sometimes startle one into the consciousness
of having heard, seen, known, felt the emotion before, elsewhere,
beyond the
visible horizon.
Well, I tried to put that idea into words in " Herb Moly and Heartsease " and because it was ;
a deep and dim idea, and also partly because
me
fascinated
greatly, I spent far
trouble on the
Then
little
piece than I generally spend.
occurred to me, in a whimsical moment,
it
that I would try an experiment.
I would send
any one
out the thing as a ballon d'essai, to see
if
would read
me
it
for itself, or woidd detect
neath the disguise. a friend, I had mously.
it
more time and
I
it
Through
the kind
under-
offices
of
published secretly and anony-
chose the most beautiful type and
paper I could
find; it cost
me
far more than the
sale of the whole edition could possibly recoup.
I
had
it
sent to papers for review,
had some copies
and I even
sent to literary friends of
my
own.
The result was a quite enchanting humiliation. One paper reviewed it kindly, in a little paragraph, and said
it
was useful ; another said that the writer 231
!
Escape and Other Essays used the word " one " much too frequently only one of
my
friends even acknowledged
;
it.
while It
is
pleasant to begin at the bottom again, and find that no one will listen, even to a very careful bit
who has
of writing by one deal of pi^ctice,
This set tures
;
me
at
thinking over
and I think they may be
authors or would-be authors
go a
all
little
events had a good
and who did his very best
further,
and try
;
my
literary adven-
interesting to other
and then I wish to
to say,
if
I can, what
I believe the writing of books really to be,
one
writes,
and what one
very clear idea about to state
aU,
aiming
and
it
at.
why
I have a
can do no harm
it.
I was brought
about books.
my
it
is
father,
up much among books and
talk
Indeed, I have always believed that
though he had great practical
gifts of
organization and administration, which came out in his
work as a schoolmaster and a bishop, was
very much of an artist at heart, and would have liked to be
a poet.
ship has run in
degree.
my
Indeed, the practice of author-
family to a quite extraordinary
In four generations, I believe that some
AuthorsHp
my blood-relations have written and pubfrom my cousin Adelaide Anne Procmy uncle Henry Sidgwict. When we were
twenty of
lished books,
ter to
we produced
children,
little
magazines of prose and
poetry, and read them in the family
circle.
I
wrote poetry as a boy at Eton, and at Cambridge as an undergraduate; and at the end of at
my
time
Cambridge I produced a novel, which I sent to
" MacmiUan's Magazine," of which Lord Morley
who
was then
editor,
letter to
say that
it
sent
it
back to me with a kind
was' sauce without meat, and
that I should not be proud of the book in later if it
life
were published.
Then
as an undergraduate I began an odd
little
book called " Memoirs of Arthur Hamilton," a morbid
affair,
which was published anonymously,
and, though severely handled by reviewers, had a certain measure of success.
But then I became a
busy schoolmaster, and aU I did was to write bored
little
la-
essays, which appeared in various
magazines, and were afterwards collected.
Then
I took up poetry and worked very hard at
it in-
deed for some years, producing very few people ever read.
It
five
volumes, which
was a great
delight,
writing poetry, and I have masses of unpublished
Escape and Other Essays poems.
But
I do not grudge the time spent on
because I think
it
me
taught
Then came two volumes of read to the boys in
my
It,
the use of words.
stories,
mostly told or
house, with a medieval sort
"The
of flavorâ&#x20AC;&#x201D;"The Hill of Trouble" and Isles of Sunset."
I also put together a
which has, I
little
book on Termyson
believe, the merit of containing
aU the
most interesting anecdotes about him, and I wrote the Rossetti in the
Men
also
of Letters Series, a
painstaking book, rather rhetorical; though the truth about Rossetti cannot be told, even
if it
could
be known. All this work was done in the middle of hard professional
many
pupils.
active
and
work,
diligent schoolmaster,
only a recreation.
a week at
a boarding-house and
with
I will dare to say that I was an
it,
and
it
and writing was
I could only get a few hours
never interfered with
my
main
work.
My
father died in 1896, and I wrote his
two big volmnes, a very it
was
solid piece of
after that, I think, that
my
life in
work; but
real writing
I believe it was in 1899 that I slowly composed " The House of Quiet," but I could not
began.
234
Authorship satisfy myself about the ending,
and
it
was laid
aside.
Then
Victoria's letters.
teresting
my
I resigned
a mixture of sorrow and
relief.
mastership with
The work was
and absorbing, but I did not
system of education, nor did I believe in I put
my
beliefs into a little
Schoolmaster," which made I left
Queen
I was offered the task of editing
my work
forty-one.
its
like
way.
when I was " The House of Quiet " appeared in as a teacher in 1903,
sell.
I lived
on at Eton with an old friend; went daily
Windsor Castle and
But
our
But
it.
book called " The
that year anonymously, and began to
pers.
in-
I
it
to
through volumes of pa-
toiled
found that
up
was not possible to work
more than a few hours a day at the task of
selec-
because one's judgment got fatigued and
tion,
blurred.
The sudden made
cessation of heavy professional
itself felt in
of spirit.
It
work
an extreme zest and lightness
was a very happy and delightful
I was living among friends, who were
all
very hard at work, and the very contrast of
my
freedom with their servitude was enlivening.
I
time.
was
able, too, to think over
235
my
schoolmastering
Escape and Other Essays experience ters,"
also
;
and the
result
was " The Upton Let-
an inconsequent but I think anonymously
published
garded by reviewers.
lively book,
and rather
disre-
But the book was talked
about and read; and for the next year or two I
worked with indefatigable zest at writing.
I
brought out monographs on Edward FitzGerald and Walter Pater; I wrote " The Thread of Gold," which also succeeded; and in the next year I settled at Cambridge, and wrote " From a College
Window "
as a serial in the " Comhill," and "
The
Gate of Death," both anonymously; and following year " Beside Still Waters " and " The
in the
AU this
Altar Fire."
time the Queen's letters were
going quietly on in the background. I have written half-a-dozen books since then.
But that
is
point which
how is
my
I began
work; and the one
worth noticing
is
that the four
books which have sold most widely, " The House of Quiet," " The Upton Letters," " The Thread of Gold," and the " College Window," were aU of them issued anonymously,
and the authorship was for a
considerable time undetected.
conclude that the public
which interest
it
and
is
So that
it is fair
to
on the lookout for books
will find
2S6
out what
it
wants;
Authorship because none of those books owed anything whatever to
my
parentage or
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; or indeed
my position
to the reviewers either
;
or
my
and
me
the truth of what a publisher said to
it
friends
proves
the other
day, that neither reviews nor advertisements will really
do much for a book but that ;
if
readers be-
gin to talk about a book and to recommend is
apt to go ahead.
And,
the fact that none of
further, I conclude
my
it, it
from
subsequent books have
been as popular as these, though I have no cause to complain, that a
new
what prove attractive
new
voice
and new ideas are
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; and perhaps not
so
much
ideas as familiar ideas which have not been
clearly expressed
and put into words.
There was
mystery about the writer then, and there
a
little
is
no mystery now; every one knows exactly what
to expect; voice
As lies
and a
and the new generation wants a different
way
to the motive force, whatever
behind writing, we
fresh
of putting things.
may
it
may
be, that
disengage from
it all
subsidiary motives, such as the desire for money,
philanthropy, professional occupation
main force
is,
I think, threefold.
237
;
but the
The motive
of
Escape and Other Essays art pure
and
simple, the desire for communication
with one's fellows, and the motive of ambition,
which
may
The
almost be called the desire for applause.
ultimate instinct of art
the sense of beauty.
A
the expression of
is
scene, or a character, or
an idea, or an emotion, strikes the mind as being salient, beautiful, strange, wonderful,
desires to record
emphasize the
it.
it,
The
to depict
and the mind
to isolate
it,
to
process becomes gradually, as
of the world continues,
life
it,
more and more com-
It seemed enough at first just to record;
plex.
but then there follows the desire to contrast, to heighten
effects,
to
construct
grounds ; then the process grows
and
back-
elaborate still
more
refined,
becomes essential to lay out materials
it
due proportion, and to clear away
all
that
is
in
otiose
or confusing, so that the central idea, whatever is,
shall stand out in absolute clarity
ness.
and
it
distinct-
Gradually a great deal of art becomes tra-
ditional
and conventional; certain forms stereoit becomes more and more dif-
type themselves, and ficult to
invent a
new form of any
is
very much bound by tradition,
is
called classical,
tured circle
;
and makes
and then there
is
its
kind. it
When
art
becomes what
appeal to a cul-
a revolutionary out-
is called a romuitic Ijpe, viiicii on tlie one band a 'weariness of tlie old tradiIkns and loiiging for freedwn, and tm the otiier
faozst
of 'diai
Tue^ns
hami a corrspQnding desine, on the part of an extended and less CDltmcd cdrde. for art of a more dastic kind. litemtnre has this cjdic ebb and flow : but 'vbat
is
romantic in one age tendb to be-
ccHoe dassical in the nest, as the
C(HD@ in
its
turn traditionaL
are no doubt the 1&^>. at
pr^ent
Tli^e Tariations
of d^nite, psjcJiological
reisult
little
nev departure be-
understood.
Hie
raiais-
sance of a natiai^ «be» from scmie onasca-iained
cause there is
is
^ fresh ootboist of interest in ideas,
qpnte nnaocoonted for
ieal i^^s
bj
of defviopniaiL
logical or
matbemat-
Tlie fiaicb Revolotion
and the carresposding rammiic rental in FnglaTid are instances of this. A writer like Boossean does not cvT"-,^i at.- interest in ideasg bat moiehr
social
ber of ideas Tago^y floating
A
and emotional
pi^ into attraciiTe fom a numin numberless wirnds.
writer Eke Scott indicates a s^ddfn repolaon
in iBUiT ™i»«fe; against a ds^^sicai traditian stciile.
grown
and a widesparead desire to extraxA romantic
anotioBS
bam
a far^^ttan medieval
life.
Of
ocHnse a ronaaitie writer libe Scott read into the
2S9
Escape and Other Essays Middle Ages a number af emotions which were not historically there
;
and the romantic
writer, gener-
more
ally speaking, tends to treat of life In its
sublime and glowing moments, and to amass bril-
and absorbing emotion
liant experience scientific
way.
now we
Just
in an un-
are beginning to re-
volt against this over-emotionalized treatment of
and realism
life,
life
as
it is
is
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; not
a deliberate attempt to present to improve
upon
but to give an impression of
it,
The
well as of its bleakness.
or to select
it
complexity as
its
romanticist typifies
and stereotypes character, the
realist recognizes
the inconsistency and the changeableness of person-
The
ality.
moods
romanticist
presents
personified, the realist depicts the flux
and the
variableness of mood,
characters
upon each
other.
in the passion
But the motive
and inspiration of
in the facts
and actual
both cases the motive
is
and
effects exerted
timately the same, only the romanticist
more
and
qualities
is
life,
stuff of
is
by ul-
interested
the realist
life.
the same : to depict
But
in
and
to
record a personal impression of what seems wonderful
and strange.
The second motive and communicate
is
the desire to share
experience.
Every one must
in art
^40
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a perceptive person lone-
intolerable to
apt to be, and how instinctive
liness is
whom
of some companion with
the need
is
to participate in
the beauty or impressiveness or absurdity of a scene.
The enjoyment of
or even obliterated
if
experience
is
diminished
one has to taste
it
in solitude.
Of course there are people
so constituted as to be
able to enjoy, let us say, a good dinner, or a concert of music, or a play, in solitude
;
but
if
such a
person has the instinct of expression, he enjoys all
an amassing of material for
half-consciously as
artistic use
;
and
it is
artist should exist
it
almost inconceivable that an
who would be prepared
to con-
tinue writing books or painting pictures or making statues, quite content to
pleted, with
put them aside when com-
no desire to submit them to the judg-
ment of the world.
My own
experience
is
that the
thought of sharing one's enjoyment with other people
is
not a very conscious feeling whUe one
actually engaged
in writing.
thought of expression light
lies
is
At
paramount, and the de-
simply in depicting and recording.
the impulse to there, to such
hand
it
is
the moment, the
all
an extent that
on if
is
I
subconsciously
knew that what
I wrote could never pass under another
^41
Yet
human
eye,
Escape and Other Essays I have
doubt that I should very soon desist
little
The
from writing altogether. ous instinct
aU
Tvriters
aware of
is
really very
social
and gregari-
dominant in
all
art
;
and
who have a public at all must become by the number of manuscripts
this fact,
which are submitted to them by would-be authors,
who ask
for advice and criticism
to publishers.
It
would be quite easy for me,
complied fully with
my
greater part of
all
many
It
Ruskin, I think, once said,
the world does
if its
I
time in the labor of commentis
indeed the nearest
amateurs can get to publication.
authorship that
if
such requests, to spend the
ing on these manuscripts. that
and introductions
As
a curious irony of
it is
a writer once makes a success best,
by inundating him with
every sort of request, to prevent his ever repeating it.
I suppose that painters and sculptors do not
suffer so
much
in this
way, because
to send about canvases or statues
But nothing into
is
easier than to slip
an envelope and
author.
by
to require
it is
not easy
parcels post.
a manuscript
an opinion from an
I will confess that I very seldom refuse
these requests.
At
the
moment
at which I write I
have three printed novels and a printed book of travel, a
poem, and two volumes of essays
in
manu-
"
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upon my
and I
table,
shall
make
shift to
say something in reply, though except for the
satis-
faction of the authors in question, I believe that
my
pains will be wholly thrown away, for the sim-
ple reason that
how
teach any one
a very lengthy business to
it is
and
to write,
what these authors
desire
is
also partly because
not criticism but sym-
pathy and admiration.
The of art
third motive which underlies the practice is
undoubtedly the sense of performance and
the desire for applause.
It
is
easy from a pose of
dignity and high-mindedness to undervalue and
But
overlook this.
when a man
he does not do that he
may
it
may
safely be said that
challenges the attention of the public, it
that he
may
receive praise.
give pleasure, but
As Elihu
the Buzite
book of " Job, I win speak, that I may be refreshed said with such exquisite frankness in the
!
The amateurs who send
their
work for inspection
cannot as a rule bear to face this
fact.
They
con-
stantly say that they wish to do good, or to com-
municate enjoyment and pleasure. I do not is
much
altruistic.
To
be honest,
believe that the motive of the artist
He
writes for his
perhaps, but he publishes that his
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own enjoyment, skill
and power
Escape and Other Essays of presentment
may
be recognized and applauded.
In FitzGerald's " Letters " there story of a parrot
a delightful
is
who had one accomplishment
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
that of ruffling up his feathers and rolling his eyes so that he looked like an owl.
When
the other do-
mestic pets were doing their tricks, the owner of the parrot, to prevent its feelings being hurt, used carefully to request
the truth tle owl.
is
it
" to do
its little
owl."
And
that we most of us want to do our
lit-
Stevenson said candidly that applause â&#x20AC;˘
an artist. Many, indeed, the money they make by their work delightful
was the breath of find
as
life
to
a symbol of applause in the sense of Shel" Fame is love disguised." It is
ley's fine dictum,
not a wholly mean motive, because many of us are beset is
by an idea that the shortest way to be loved
to be admired.
It is a great misapprehension,
because admiration breeds jealousy quite as often as
it
breeds affection, indeed oftener!
the child that plays
its little piece,
musician that blows a
flat
But from
or the itinerant
cornet in the street, to
the great dramatist or musician, the same desire to produce a favorable impression holds good. I once dined alone with a celebrated critic, indicated, as
we
sat
who
smoking in his study, a great 24<4
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upon
" That
his table.
the next novel of So-and-so," he said, mention-
ing a well-known novelist ; " he asks me for a candid criticism; but unfortunately the only language he
now understands is the language of adulation " That is a true if melancholy fact, plainly stated; that to many an artist to be said to have done well is almost more important than to know !
that the thing has been well done.
wholesome frame of mind, perhaps
;
It
but
is it
not a
cannot
be overlooked or gainsaid.
Even it.
the greatest of authors are susceptible to
Robert Browning, who except for an occa-
sional outburst of fury against his critics,
was far
more tolerant of and patient under misunderstanding than most poets, said in a frankness,
when he
moment
of elated
received an ovation from the
students of a university, that he had been waiting for that
aU
his life
;
Tennyson managed to combine
a hatred of publicity with a thirst for fame.
Wordsworth, as Carlyle pungently
pay an annual
visit
used to to London in later life " to
collect his little bits of tribute."
Keats could say that
his
own
said,
And
even though
criticism of his
own
works had given him far more pain than the opin-
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Escape and Other Essays any outside
ions of
yet the possibility of
critics,
recognition and applause must inevitably continue to be one of the chief raisons d'etre of art.
But the main motive tive instinct,
of writing
in the crea-
pure and simple; and the success of
art must depend
all literary
lies
upon the personality
of the writer, his vitality and perception, his com-
The reason
bination of exuberance and control.
why is
there are comparatively so few great writers
that authorship, to be wholly successful, needs
so rich an outfit of gifts, creative thought, emotion, style, clearness,
and the
charm, emphasis, vocabulary, per-
Many writers have some
severance.
essential difference of
professional writing rule, little
is
of these gifts
amateur writing from
that the amateur has, as a
power of rejection and
selection, or of
producing a due proportion and an even surface
amateur poetry
is
characterized by
good
lines
strung together by weak and patchy rigmaroles like
a block of unworked ore, in which the precious
particles glitter confusedly is
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
;
while the artistic
a piece of chased jewel-work.
great swiftly
ness at
poets ;
is
poem
true that
have often written hurriedly and
but probably there
work
It
in
is
an intense
the background
all
selective-
the time, pro-
;
Aitthorship duced by instinctiTe taste as well as by careful practice.
Amateur prose again has an unevenness of texand arrangement, good ideas and salient
ture
thoughts floundering in a rapid and inferior sub-
by amateurs how much depends on craftsmanship; I hare known brilliant and accomplished confersationalists who stance ;
it is
often not appreciated
hare been persuaded, perhaps in mature attempt a more pathetic
to
definite piece
see
suggestive
life,
of writing : when
and even
to
it is
brilliant
thought hopelessly befogged by unemphatic and StiU more
disorderly statement.
make people of
difficult is it
to
emotions and swift perceptions
fine
understand that such qualities are only the basis of authorship, and that the vital necessity for selfexpression stinctive,
is
to have a knowledge, acquired or in-
of the extremely symbolical and even
traditional methods
and processes of representa-
not the same thing as vivid art
tion.
Vivid
art
a sort of recondite and narrow symbolism,
is
life is
by which the word, the
jdirase, the salient touch,
represents, suggests, hints the larger vision.
in the reducing of
broad
that the mastery of art
effects to
lies.
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It is
minute effects
Escape and Other Essays Good work has often been done for the sake of money I could name some effective living writers who never willingly put pen to paper, and would be ;
quite content to express themselves in familiar talk,
or even to
live in vivid reflection, if
compelled to earn their living.
they were not
Ambition
will
do
something to mold an artist; the philanthropic motive
may put some wind
itself it
has
self, in
so far as
little artistic it is
into his sails, but
value.
by
Speaking for my-
possible to disentangle com-
plex motives, the originating impulse has never
been with thropic,
me
pecuniary, or ambitious, or philan-
or^ even
communicative.
It
has
been
simply and solely the intense pleasure of putting as emphatically and beautifully and appropriately as
an idea of a
possible into words,
definite kiad.
The creative impulse is not like any other that I know some thought, scene, picture, darts spontaneously into the mind. The intelligence instantly ;
sets to
work arranging, subdividing,
Much
tending, amplifying.
conscious cerebration
;
is
foreseeing, ex-
done by some un-
for I have often planned the
development of a thought in a few minutes, and then dropped
it
;
yet an hour or two later the whole
thing seems ready to be written.
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is
a pleasure so keen
and delightful as to have an almost physical and sensuous joy about
it.
The very act
has become so mechanical that there the least fatiguing about
it,
is
of writing
nothing in
though I have heard
some writers say otherwise; while the process
is
and
actually going on, one loses all count of time
place; the clock on the mantelpiece seems to leap
miraculously forward ; while the mind knows exactly
when to
desist, so
that the leaving off
is like
the
turning of a tap, the stream being instantaneously cut
my-
I do not recollect having ever forced
off.
self to write,
do I ever
except imder the stress of
recollect its being
est pleasure
illness,
nor
anything but the pur-
from beginning to end.
In saying this I know that I am confessing myself to
be a frank vmprovisatore; and where such art
fails, as
mine often
fails, is in
a lack of the power
of concentration and revision, which greatest necessity of high art.
But
is
I
happiest and brightest experiences of
no other pleasure writing, it
is
is
said,
the last and
owe to life,
it
the
to which
even dimly comparable.
makes hard reading; but
Easy is it
true that hard writing ever makes easy reading.''
The end
of the matter would seem to be that
if
Escape and Other Essays the creative impulse
probably find
its
is
way
work destroys
it, it is
yet authorship
is
very strong in a
man
it will
If ordinary routine-
out.
probably not very robust;
not to be recommended as a pro-
fession, because the prizes are few, the
way hard,
the disappointments poignant and numerous
;
and
though there are perhaps few greater benefactors to the
human
yet there are ful
race than beautiful and noble writers,
many
who would
natures both noble and beauti-
like to
approach
life
thai way, but
who, from lack of the complete artistic equipment,
from technical
deficiencies,
from
manship, must find some other blood of the world.
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failure in crafts-
way
of enriching the
HERB MOLY AND HEARTSEASE
;
XIV
HERB MOLY AND HEARTSEASE
WHEN
Odysseus was walking
swiftly,
with
rage in his heart, through the island of Circe, to find out ions, he
what had befallen
would have assuredly gone to
his
compan-
his
doom
in
the great stone house of the witch, the smoke of
which went up among the thickets,
if
Hermes had
not met him.
The God came in the likeness of a beautiful youth first down of manhood upon his lips. He
with the
chid the much-enduring one for his rash haste,
gave him what we should
call
and
not very good advice
but he also gave him something which was worth
more than any good
advice,
a charm which should
prevail against the spells of the
Nymph, which
he might carry in his bosom and be unscathed. It
was an ugly enough herb, a prickly plant
which sprawled low in the shadow of the
253
trees.
;
!
Escape and Other Essaya Its root
the
was black, and
Gods
could
called
avail
to
it
it
had a milk-white flower
Moly, and no mortal strength
pull
Odysseus says, telling
from the soil; but as the story, " There is nothing it
which the Gods cannot do "
;
and
it
came up
easily
Wc
enough at the touch of the beardless youth.
know how his
the spell worked,
how Odysseus
companions, and how Circe told him the
the regions of the dead
wholly escape from her
No
enchantment
it
was the mandrake, that plant of dark-
which was thought to bear a dreadful
arms, to a tortured
moans as it
to
but even so he did not
evil
semblance, in its pale swollen stalk
on
way
one knows what the herb Moly really was;
some say ness,
;
rescued
it
re-
and outstretched
human form, and
was dragged from the
soil;
to utter
but later
was used as the name for a kind of
garlic,
employed as a flavoring for highly-spiced salads.
The Greeks were
not,
it
seems,
very
botanists, so far as nomenclature went,
scientific
and applied
any name that was handy to any plant that struck their fancy.
had
secret
They
believed, no doubt, that things
and intimate names of S,S4i
their own,
which
Herh Moly and Heartgease were known perhaps to the Gods, but that men
must just It
them what they
call
could.
would be best perhaps to leave the old allegory
to speak for
itself,
because poetical thoughts are
often mishandled, and suffer base transformation at the hands of interpreters
;
but for
and
visions, or obscurely detected
of the eye in magical places poetical things
is
;
that
all
a pretty trade to expound things seen
in
it is
dreams
out of the corner
while the best of really
that they have a hundred mysti-
cal interpretations, none of which
is
perhaps the
right one; because the poet sees things in a flash,
and
describes his visions, without
they mean, or indeed at
knowing what
they have any meaning
if
all.
A
place like a university, where one alights for
an adventure,
many ways
in the course of a
There
like the island of Circe.
great stone mansion with
guarded
long voyage,
cloisters.
It
is
its
many
to discern: there are plenty of bowls
enchant-
it is
life
256
hard
and dishes,
and water pleasantly warmed for the bath.
had a private
the
There are mysterious
people going to and fro, whose business
herself
is
shining doors and
a place of
ments and various delights.
is in
of her own, and
Circe
much
Escape and Other Essays curious information: she was not forever turning
people into pigs is
;
and indeed why she did
not easy to discover!
felt
It
amused
more secure perhaps, when her
at all
and she
visitors
were
One must not
to-
an allegory too
press
but in any place where human beings con-
closely,
sort, there is
even
it
and splashing about
safely housed, grunting gether.
her,
always some turning of ipen into pigs,
they afterwards resume their shape again,
if
and shed tears of
the change.
relief at
3
My
purpose here
is
what the herb Moly can used.
to speculate a
how
be,
it
little
can be found and
Hermes, the messenger of the Gods,
ways ready to pull requires
And
it.
Shakspere says, "
it
up
just is
for
upon
is al-
any one who really
because
" the
full of noises
isle,"
as
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; sounds and
a matter of concern to know which of them " give delight and hurt not," and sweet airs,"
it
is
which of them lead only to manger and discourse
is
sty.
My
not planned in a spirit of heavy
rectitude, or
from any
vice about, as
from a pepper-pot.
that there are
many
desire to shower
good ad-
Indeed I believe
things in the correct conven-
256
Herb Moly and Heartsease tional code which are very futile
and grotesque;
some which are directly hurtful; and further that there are
are both
many
things quite outside the code which
and beautiful because the danger of
fine
;
all civilized societies is
that the members of ;
think what
as the
it
means, accept
it
and walk contentedly enough, the bone, which, as
miss
its
To takes
the
take
like
we know, can
way
of
life,
the beetle in
neither turn nor
way.
fall feebly into
away
little
beaches, glades,
it
do not trouble to
the prevailing code for granted
all
the conventions of a place
the joyful spirit of adventure; but
island set in the ocean, with its loud seaits
its
upstanding promontories,
open spaces, and above
house standing among
its
lawns,
is
its
all
wooded
the great
a place of ad-
venture above everything, with unknown forces at
work, untamed emotions, swift currents of thought,
many the
choices, strange delights
shadowy sea beyond, with
lows rolling
yond the before
it
in,
;
and then there
is
all its crested bil-
and other islands looming out be-
breakers, at which the ship finds its
way
may
touch,
to the regions of death and
silence.
I myself
had
my own
time of adventure, took
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Escape and Other Essays and voyaged far; and now that I have
ship again,
come back again to the
little
island with all
its
thickets, I wish to retrace in thought, if I can,
some of the adventures which
me, and what
befell
they brought me, and to speak too of adventures
which I missed, either out of I
am
not at
But
may
be found.
root
it is
grown
It
is
and
its
flower as pure
still
the
;
it is
cling-
hard to come by,
to extract; but having once at-
man who
bears
it
knows that there are
certain things he cannot do again, spells
and
not a plant for trim gardens, nor to be
in rows in the furrow
it,
and how
it is
deeply planted, no doubt;
while the leaves are prickly
;
and harder tained
what he thinks
tell
as black as death,
is
as the light
ing;
it.
knew others who certainly had the herb at hearts, and as certainly others who had not
and I win try and it
of Moly,
what use I made of
it,
I
their
its
folly.
I cer-
me a plant
tainly encountered, ever gave or, if I did indeed receive
or
whom
diffidence
sure whether Hermes,
all
and
certain
which henceforth have no power over him
and though
it
he will not at swine, that
does not deliver him from all
had
all
dangers,
events be penned with the regretful
lost all
power of shedding
human
tears.
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attributes except the
Herb Moly and Heartsease
Now because
I shall drop all allegories for the present, it is
confusing both to writers and readers
to be always speaking of
And
each other.
two things
in terms of
I will say first that
when I was
at college myself as a
young man, I seemed
to
myself to be forever looking for something which I could not find.
It
was not always so there were ;
plenty of contented hours, when one played a game,
or sate over the
afterwards with tea and
fire
tobacco, talking about
people
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
anything
it,
or talking about other
do not often remember talking about
I
else,
except on set occasions
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; or
later
in the evening some one played a piano not very
or we sang songs, not very tunefully
well,
sate
down
work I
am
with
to work,
itself,
and got
or one
interested, if not in the
at least in doing
it
well
and completely.
not going to pretend, as elderly infinite
;
men
often do
absurdity, that I did no work, and
scored off dons and proctors, and broke every rule,
and I
defied
had not
God and man, and got,
and
There are very few of things,
spent
money which
lived a generally rake-hell life.
my
friends
and they have mostly 259
who
did these
fallen in the race
Escape and Other Essays long ago, leaving a poor and rueful memory behind them.
Nor do
I see
why
so glorious to pre-
it is
tend to have done such things, especially
not done them
!
if
one has
I was a sober citizen enough, with
plenty of faults and failings; and this tract to convert the wicked,
who indeed
viding plenty of materials to effect their version in
ways very various and
fortable!
I should like
all
is
not a
are pro-
own
con-
very uncom-
rather to be read
it
by
well-meaning people, who share perhaps the same experience as myself, the experience, as I have said,
of searching for something which I could not
Sometimes in those days, I fess, I
will
make bold
find.
to con-
read a book, or heard an address or sermon,
or talked to some interesting and attractive person,
and
felt
was
it
had
lost?
suddenly that I was on the track of
something I wanted, or was I could not
I could find
how
rules I
what to choose.
wanted
spare, some of
we made part of dons,
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
It
I
which was
We left
us,
it;
something I
knew that
if
any doubt again was not a
there were rules enough
them made for
for ourselves. life
But
I should never be in
it,
to act or
tell!
it
set of
and to
and many which
mapped out every unmapped by the
and we knew exactly what was correct 260
;
Herh
Molt/ and Heartsease
and what was not; and oh, how
dull
much
of
it
was!
But I wanted a motive of some wanted to know what I was out
sort,
an aim; I
for, as
I did not see what the point of
say.
my work
was, or know what
why
be; I did not see
many
my
we now much of
profession was to
I did, for social reasons, so
things which did not interest me, or
pretended to think them interesting.
why
I would
I
sit,
one of half-a-dozen men, the air dim with smoke,
A
about other people.
telling stories
had a row with
B
into training, he
had
he would not go properly
,
had lunched before a match
off a
tumbler of sherry and a cigar, he was too good to be turned out
enough, but
it
of
the
team
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
certainly was not
it
was amusing
what I was look-
ing for.
Then one made
friends
;
it
dawned upon one sud-
denly what a charming person original
and amusing,
thrilling thing to
him td week it
;
it,
tea,
so observant;
was, it
the path all,
so
became a
meet him in the court; one asked
A
one talked and told him everything.
later,
after
C
one seemed to have got to the end of
came to a stop there was not much :
and presently he was rather an
261
in
ass
Escape and Other Essays he looked gloomily at one when one met him, but one was off on another chase; this idealizing of people was rather a mistake; the pleasure was in the exploration,
plore;
it
set of
certainly not the thing one
dull
was
in
of.
What was
it
then?
shadow racing over the wing.
to ex-
no nonsense; and yet that was
That was
search
little
was better to have a comfortable
friends with too.
and there was very
The
One saw hill, like
it like
a cloud-
a bird upon the
perfect friend could not help one, for
his perfections
Yet there was
waned and faded.
certainly something there, singing like a bird in the
wood; only when one reached the was gone, and another song was seemed then at
first
sight as if one
tree, the bird
in the air.
was
It
in search of
an emotion of some kind, and not only a
solitary
emotion, like that which touched the spirit at the
sudden falling of the ripe rose-petals from their stem, or at the sight of the far-off plain, with all its
woods and waters framed between the out-
running
hills,
or at the sound of organ-music steal-
ing out of the soaring climbing woodwork with its
all
golden pipes, on setting foot in the dim and
fragrant church; they were
all
sweet enough, but
Herh Moly and Heartsease mind turned to some kindred soul at hand
the
whom
with
it
could
of some
tion
all
be shared ; and the recogni-
other presence,
visibly
beckoning
through gesture and form and smiling wide-opened eyes, that seemed the best that could be attained,
that nearness and rapture of welcome
moment
;
and then the
passed, and that too ebbed away.
was something more than that! because
It
in
bleak solitary pondering moments, there stood up, like
bom
a massive buttressed crag, a duty, not
of
whispered secrets or of relations, however delicate
and awestruck, with other hearts, but a stem uncompromising thing, that seemed a relation with something quite apart from man, a Power swift
and vehement and often an
unmistakable
Righteousness
!
terrible, to
fealty
That
in
whom
thought
set
act.
thing
old-fashioned
which the Jews, one was taught,
one owed
and
much
on
store,
which one had misconceived as something born of piety
and ceremony, and which now revealed
as a force uncompromisingly there, which
impossible to overlook or to disobey;
disobey
it,
was a
was
one did
something hurt and wounded cried out
faintly in the soul this
if
itself
it
;
and so
it
dawned upon one that
force, not only not developed out of
Escape and Other Essays piety and worship, but of which
all
piety and wor-
ship were but the frail vesture, which half veiled
and half hampered the massive It did not attract or
and frightened; but
it
woo
;
stride
it
became
and
clear
enough that
any inner peace was impossible without little
by
little
stroke.
rather demanded
it;
and
one learned to recognize that there
was no trace of
many
it in
conventional customs
and precepts; those could be slighted and garded ; but there were
still
disre-
things which the spirit
did truly recognize as vices and sins, abominable
and
defiling,
with which no trafficking was possible.
This then was clear; that peace one desired
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
it
if
was
one was to find the
that,
it
was an un-
troubled peace, a journey taken with a sense of
aim and liberty that one hoped to make these were
two certain elements
;
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; then
a concurrence
with a few great and irresistible prohibitions and positive laws of conduct,
though these were far
fewer than one had supposed
;
and next to that, a
sense of brotherhood and fellowship with those
who
seemed to be making their way harmoniously and finely
towards the same goal as oneself.
stand and love these
spirits, to
To
be understood and
loved by them, that was a vital necessity.
264
under-
;
Herb Moly and Heartsease But this must be added that ;
the sense of duty of
which I speak, which rose sturdily and above the shifting forms of
fiercely
a peak above
life, like
the forest, did not appear at once either desirable
or even beautiful. it
It blocked the view
and the way
forbade one to stray or loiter ; but the obedience
one reluctantly gave to
it
ization of its strength
came simply from a and of
its
real-
It
presence.
stood for an order of some kind, which interfered
many
at
points with one's hopes and desires, but
with which one was compelled to make terms, be-
cause
it
could and did strike, pitilessly and even
vindictively, if one neglected
monitions to find
;
and transgressed
and thus the quest became an attempt
what stood behind
it,
and to discover
any Personality behind
there was
it,
Was
could love and be loved ?
and
soulless,
Or was
a condition of
if
with which
one could link oneself, so as to be conscious of intentions or its goodwill.
cal
its
its
it
a Power that
it
only mechani-
life,
which one
might dread and even abhor, but which could not be trifled
with.''
Because that seemed the secret of ness of life
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
all the
happi-
the meeting, with a sense of intimate
security, something
warm and 265
breathing, that
had
Escape and Other Essays need of foster
me
and
as I of
it,
that could smile and clasp,
and adore, and
pity, admire
brace of which one could
grow and
stir
feel one's
by contact and
what one found
in the
em-
hope and joy
trust.
That was
in the hearts about one's path;
and the wonder was, did some
similar chance of
embracing,
and loving that
clasping,
trusting,
vaster power await one in the dim spaces beyond the
fields
and homes of earth?
I guessed that vision, that
it
was
many harsh
so,
but saw, as in a faint
events, sorry mischances,
blows and wounds and miseries, hated and dreaded
and endured, lay between me and that larger Heart.
But
I perceived at last, with terror and
mistrust, that the adventure did indeed
lie
there;
that I should often be disdained and repulsed, un-
tended and unheeded, bitterly disillusioned, shaken out of ease and complacency, but assuredly folded to that greater Heart at last.
And
then there followed a different phase.
Up
to the very end of the university period, the same
uneasiness continued
;
then quite suddenly the door
opened, one slipped into the world, one found one's
266
;
Herb Moly and HearUease There were instantaneoasly real things to
place.
be done, real money to earn, men and women to lire
A
with and work with, to conciliate or to
resist.
awaj from my eyes. What a fanhad been hitherto, how sheltered, how
mist rolled
tastic life it
remote from actuality
i
I seemed to hare been
up a rococo stucco habitation oat of whims and fancies, adding a room here and a row bnilding
of pinnacles there, tesque.
and gro-
all utterly bizarre
Vague dreams of poetry and
art,
nothing
penetrated or grasped, a phrase iKxe, a fancy there ; one's ideal of culture seemed like
" Hamlet," a distracted nymph stuck flowers
Ophdia
all
in
over wiUi
and anxious to explain the sentimental
Talue of each; the friendships themselres
had nothing
stable about
them
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; they
either; they were
not based upon any common aim, any real mutual concern ; they were nothing more than tbe enshrining of a fugitive charm, the tracking of some
bri^t-eyed fawn or wQd-4]aired dryad to
its secret
haunt, only to find the bird flown and the nest
warm. iJiere
But now there was
little
time for fancies
was a real burden to carry, a gennine task
day slipped past,
;
day
after
farrows in a
&Id
seen from some speeding car : tbe
to perform
267
like
tbe
Escape and Other Essays contented mind, pleasantly wearied at the end of the busy day, heaved a light-hearted sigh of
and turned It
to
some recreation with zest and
relief,
delight..
was not that the quest had been successful;
seemed rather that there was no quest at that the
it
all,
it
and
was the joy of daily work that had been
missing
factor
.
.
.
the
weeks melted into
months, the months became years.
Meanwhile the earth and rades
air, as well as
the com-
and companions of the pilgrimage, were
The The hot summer days poured down upon the
touched with a different light of beauty. beauty was there and sun in the
in
fragrant garden, with
even fuller measure.
all its
bright flower-beds,
rose-laden alleys, its terraced walks,
shaded avenues
;
the
its
and the hUl climbed
green summit ; or the spring came
back after the winter of unfolding
green-
autumn mists lay blue and
faint across the far pastures,
smoothly to
its
its
life,
silence with all its
languor
while bush and covert wove their
screens of dense-tapestried foliage, to conceal
what
mysteries of love and delight the faces or gestures !
of those about one took on a
new
significance,
a
richer beauty, a larger interest, because one began to guess
how
experience molded them,
by what aims
T[erb
Moly and Heartsease
and hopes they were graven and
refined,
by what But
they were obliterated and coarsened.
failures
the diflFerence was this, that one was not
make
forever trying to
now
these charms one's own, to
establish private understandings or mutual relations.
It
was enough now to observe them as one
could, to interpret them, to enjoy them, and to
pass by.
The
acquisitive sense
was gone, and one
one admired and won-
neither claimed nor grasped
;
dered and went forwards.
And
this again
seemed
a wholesome balance of thought, for, as the desire to take diminished, the power of interpreting and
enjoying grew.
But very gradually a slow shadow began to fall, shadow of a great hill that reaches far out
like the
over the plain.
I passed one day an old church-
yard deep in the country, and saw the leaning headstones and the grassy barrows of the dead.
A
shudder passed through me, a
the thought that
it
far-oflF chill,
must come to
this after
that however rich and intricate and delightful
was
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; and
it
was
all
three
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
at
aU; life
the time would come,
perhaps with pain and languid suffering, when one
must
let
all
the beautiful threads out of one's
hands, and compose oneself, with such fortitude
Escape and Other Essays
And
as one could muster, for the long sleep.
then
one called reason to one's aid, and bade her expound the mystery, and say that just as no smallest
of
particle
matter
utterly, or subtracted
and with
infinitely
be
could
disintegrated
from the sum of things,
greater
so,
certainty, could no
pulse or desire or motion of the spirit be brought
True, the soul lived
to nought.
like
a bird in a
cage, hopping from perch to perch, slumbering at times, it
moping
dolefully, or uttering its song; but
was even more essentially imperishable than the
body that obeyed and enfolded and at
last failed
So said Reason; and yet that brought no
it.
hope, so dear and familiar had
life
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; the
become,
well-known house, the accustomed walks, the daily
work, the forms of friend and comrade.
It
was
just those things that one wanted; and reason
could only say that one must indeed leave them
and begone, and she could not look forwards nor forecast anything; she could but bid one note the
crag-faces and the monstrous ledges of the abyss
which the spirit was forever
into ing.
.
.
Alas, to
falling,
fall-
.
it
was there
know and
all
the time, the sleepless desire
to be assured; I
270
had found nothing,
Herb Moly and Heartsease learned nothing
;
was
it
all still to seek.
I
had but
just drugged the hunger into repose, beguiled
hidden
it
it,
habits and work and activi-
was something firmer than work, some-
It
ties.
away under
thing even more beautiful than beauty, more satisfying than love that I wanted it
was not repose.
I
and most certainly
;
had grown to loathe
the
thought of that, and to shrink back in horror from the
dumb slumber
energy, see
life,
of sense and thought.
It
was
activity, motion, that I desired; to
and touch and
taste all things, not only things
sweet and delightful, but every passionate impulse,
every fiery sorrow that thrilled and shook the spirit,
every design that claimed the loyalty of
mankind.
I grudged,
it
seemed, even the slumber
that divided day from day
;
I wanted to be
up and
doing, struggling, working, loving, hating, resisting,
protesting.
And
even
strife
and combat
seemed a waste of precious time there was so much ;
to do, to establish, to set right, to cleanse, to in-
vigorate, great designs to be planned
great glories to unfold.
condemned to drop the
and executed,
Yet sooner or tools
from
my
later I
to stand and survey the unfinished work, grieve that I might no longer take
271
was
willing hand,
my
and to
share.
Escape and Other Essays
It
was even thus that the
dream of the of the
isle
night.
I
came to me, in a
vision
had been reading the story
of Circe, and the thunderous curve of
the rolling verse
had come marching
march into the bay. and slept.
book at
last
Yes, I was in the wood
itself;
into the
I could see
save undergrowth and great tree-trunks there a glimpse of sky
The
thicket
was
among
mind
I dropped the
as the breakers
;
little
here and
the towering foliage.
less dense to the left,
I thought,
moment I came out upon an open space, and saw a young man in the garb of a shepherd, a looped blue tunic, with a hat tossed back upon the shoulders and held there by a cord. He had and
in a
leaned a metal stave against a tree, the top of
adorned by a device of crossed wings.
it
He was
stooping down and disengaging something from the earth, so that
when
up and was gazing herb
itself!
looked
curiously at
I saw the prickly
black root and the
He
I drew near, he
little stars
up at me with a
had taken
it
was the
it.
It
flat
leaves,
the
of milk-white bloom.
smile as
though he had
expected me, which showed his small white teeth
"
Herb Moly and Heartsease curl of his lips; while his dark
and the shapely
a cluster over his brow. " There " he said, " tate it It
hair
fell in
!
are in need of
" Yes," I
He
said,
looked at
what you
is
!
!
me
" I want peace, sure enough " !
and then
for a moment,
let
the
herb drop upon the ground.
" that
Ah no ;
it
!
" he said lightly, "
wiU not bring you "
it
does not give peace, the herb of patience
"Well, I
stooping down;
will take it," I said,
but he planted his foot upon it. " it has already rooted itself " !
!
" See," he
And
said,
then I saw
that the black root had pierced the ground, and that the fibers were insinuating themselves into the
I clutched at
soil.
"
You do
want
but
it,
not want
it,
it
was
firm.
after all," he said.
That
heartsease, I suppose?
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
is
it grows upon men's graves." " No," I cried out petulantly, like a
flower
do not want heartsease tired,
He
and I
am
smiled at
plant and gave
That
!
is
a
"
You
difi'erent
child.
for those
who
" I are
not tired " !
me and stooped it to
me.
again, raised the
had a
It
fresh sharp
fragrance of the woodland and blowing winds, but the thorns pricked
my
hands.
.
.
.
;!
Escape and Other Essays The dream was gone and ;
I awoke
lying there,
;
trying to recover the thing which I had seen, I
heard the
faint piping of the birds begin in
first
the ivy round
my
windows, as they woke drowsily
and contentedly to
upon me,
flashed
The truth
and work.
life
in one of those sudden lightning-
blazes that seem to obliterate even thought.
" Yes," I cried to myself, " that It
that
is
does not end;
life
what I am
the secret
is
To
goes on.
it
find
in search of, to understand, to inter-
pret, to see clearly, to
sum
it
up, that would be an
end, a soft closing of the book, the shutting of the
door
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; and that
want to
live,
and
ence,
is
just what I do not want.
and endure, and
love,
I
and experi-
suffer,
and not to understand.
It
is life
continuous, unfolding, expanding, developing, with
new
new losses, need and whether we know that we need it,
delights,
that I
new sorrows, new
pains,
:
or think we need something
else, it is all
for we cannot escape from
life,
the same
however reluctant
or sick or crushed or despairing we
may
be.
It
waits for us until we have done groaning and bleeding,
Even
if
and we must
we die, even
it is useless.
if
rise
up again and
we seek death for
The eye may 274
live.
ourselves,
close, the tide
of un-
Herb Moly and Heartsease consciousness
may
flow in, the huddled limbs
tumble prone; a moment, and then
again we have but flown ;
to another. is
There
our destiny to
but we are the
live
bird from one tree
the darkness
it,
we
aU about
us,
The dark-
and wherever the light goes,
The herb Moly
to endure, whether
is
it
with struggling
with fiery spears.
it
ness cannot quench it is light.
;
like the
no end and no release;
light, enlacing it
beams, piercing
there
is
may
begins
life
is
but the patience
like it or no.
It delivers us,
not from ourselves, not from our pains or our delights, but only
from our
fears.
They
are the
only unreal things, because we are of the indomitable essence of light
and movement, and we cannot
be overcome nor extinguished
we cannot pass
die
resistless
;
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; we can but
suffer,
we leap across the nether night we ;
on our way from star to star."
276
BEHOLD, THIS DREAMER COMETH
XV BEHOLD, THIS DREAMER COMETH
SAW in
I
one of the daily illustrated papers the
other day a
the front
little
picture
— which
filled
was taken
in
tion.
It
man
lines.
A
— a snapshot from
me with a
curious emo-
some village behind the Ger-
handsome, upright boy of about
seventeen, holding
an accordion under
a wandering Russian minstrel, says the
— has sturm
—
arm comment
his
been brought before a fat, elderly, Landofficer to
be interrogated.
The
oflBcer
tow-
ers up, in a spiked helmet, holding his sword-hilt
in one
hand and
down at
the
field-glasses in the other,
boy truculently and
by
other ofiicer stands is
smiling.
looking
fiercely.
The boy
An-
himself
gazing up, nervous and frightened, staring at
his formidable captor, a peasant beside him, also
looking agitated.
There
what happened, but
The
officer
I
is
nothing to indicate
hope they
let the
boy go!
seemed to me to typify the tyranny of
279
Escape and Other Essays human aggressiveness, at its stupidest and ugliest. The boy, graceful, appealing, harmless, appeared, I thought, to stand for the
spirit
which wanders about the world,
of beauty,
lost in its
own
dreams, and liable to be called sharply to account
when
strays within the reach of
it
human aggres-
siveness occupied in the congenial task of
making
havoc of the world's peaceful labors.
The Landsturm
oflScer in
the picture had so ob-
viously the best of it; he was thoroughly enjoying his
own formidableness
;
while the boy had the
look of an innocent, bright-eyed creature caught in a trap,
and wondering miserably what harm
it
could have done.
Something of the same kind all the
and
world over; the
of
disciplined forces
is
always going on
collision of the life
loving, detached instinct of man.
with the beauty-
The
not give a reason for its existence,
by no means
sure that
it is
barbarous
latter can-
and yet I am
not going to triumph
in the end.
There last
is
every reason to believe that within the
twenty years the sowing of education broad-
cast has
had an
effect
upon the human outlook,
rather than perhaps upon the
880
human
character,
;
Behold, This Dreamer Cometh
The
which has not been adequately estimated. crop
growing up
is
know what of the
it is,
many
about us, and we hardly yet
all
am
I
going to speak of one out
results of this
upon one particular
section of the community, because I have become
personally aware of It
is
in certain very definite ways.
it
easy to generalize about tendencies, but I
am
here speaking from actual evidence of an unmis-
takable kind.
The is
community of which I speak
section of the
that which can be roughly described as the middle
class
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; homes,
urgent,
daily
where there
is
that
which are removed from the
is,
pressure
homes
of wage-earning;
a certain security of outlook, of
varying wealth, with professional occupation in the
background homes
in
;
and some
by a
talk,
by
which there
possibility of stimulating, societies,
an
tough, intellectual interest,
it
to give color to
it,
some
but a
it
leisure
by reading,
interest in ideas.
definite desire to idealize life it,
is
It
is
not
ends in a very
little,
to harmonize
to speculate about
it,
to lift
out of the region of immediate, practical needs,
to try experiments, to live on definite lines, with a definite
aim in sight
to adorn, to enrich
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; that aim being
life.
281
to enlarge,
Escape and Other Essays I
am
perfectly sure that this instinct
on the increase but the ;
this,
significant thing
is
greatly
about
it is
that whereas formerly religion supplied to a
great extent the poetry and inspiration of
such households, there
is
now a
for
life
desire for some-
thing as well of a more definitely artistic kind; to
put
it
simply, I believe that more people are in
search of beauty, in the largest sense. stinct does it
is
not run counter to religion at
This
in-
all,
but
an impulse not only towards a rather grim
and rigid conception of righteousness, but towards a wider appreciation of the quality of terest, its grace, its fineness,
I
am
and
life, its in-
its fullness.
always sorry when I hear people talking
about art as
if it
useful profession,
were a rather easy and not very
when as a matter of
fact art
is
one of the sharp, swordlike things, like religion and patriotism, which run through
and divide
life,
it,
and separate people, and
make men and women mis-
understand each other.
Art means a temperament,
and a method, and a point-of-view, and a way of living.
There are accomplished people who be-
lieve in art
and talk about
it
and even practise
who do not understand what it is who know nothing about what ;
people
it,
while there are is
technically
Behold, This Dreamer Cometh called art,
who are yet wholly and
in all that they
entirely artistic
Those who have not
do or think.
got the instinct of art are wholly incapable of
understanding what those who have got the instinct are about
;
while those
who
possess
very quickly others who possess incapable of explaining what
not understand I
am
it.
recognize
and are quite
to those
who do
it.
going to make an attempt in this essay to
explain what I believe to
it,
it is
it
it
to be, not because I hope
make it plain to those who do not comprehend They wiU only think this all a fanciful sort
of nonsense :
and I would say
in passing that
when-
ever in this world one comes across people
who
talk what appears to be fantastic nonsense, and
who yet obviously understand each other and sympathize with each other, one
that one mysteries, is is
is
may
take for granted
in the presence of one of the hidden
and that
if
one does not understand,
it
because one does not see or hear something which perfectly plain to those
who
describe
it.
It
is
impossible to do a more stupid thing than to ful-
minate against secrets which one does not know, and say that " it stands to reason " that they cannot be true.
The
belief that
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one has
all
the ex-
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is
an almost certain sign
that one ranks low in the scale of humanity
But what
I do hope
is
stand
it,
and would
because art
is
like to
understand
a very big thing, and
dimly understood, happiness to
may make the matwho do partly under-
that I
ter a little plainer to people
it
life.
it
better;
even
if it is
can add much significance and
Every one must recognize the
happiness which radiates from the people who have
a
definite point-of-view
and a
They
definite aim.
do not always make other people happy, but there is
never any doubt about their
own happiness and ;
when one meets them and parts company with them, it is
impossible to think of them as lapsing into
any
dreariness or depression; they are obviously going
back to comfortable schemes and businesses of their
own and we know that whenever we meet them, we ;
shall
know
have just that half-envious feeling that they their
own mind, never want
to be interested
or amused, but are always occupied in something that continues to interest them, even
if
they are
ill
or unfortunate.
To
be happy, we
all
need a certain tenacity and
continuity of aim and view ; and I would like to per-
suade people who are only half-aware of
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it,
that
Behold^ This Dreamer Cometh they have a power which they could use
they
if
would, and which they would be happier for using.
For
the best of the art of which I speak
is
that
it
does not need rare experiences of expensive materials to
apply
it,
but can be applied to common-
place and quiet ways of exciting
life
just as easily as to
and exceptional circumstances.
Let me say then that
method and a
art, as a
point-of-view, has not necessarily anything what-
ever
do with poetry or painting or music.
to
Those are regions
all
manifestations
but what
;
it
of
certain
in
it
put
consists in, to
it
as simply
and comparison of
as I can,
is
quality.
If that sounds a heavy sort of formula,
it
in the perception
because
is
all
formulas sound
faculty of which I
am
speaking
range â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
like,
but
But the
that which obexists within
the sky, the earth, the trees, the
the streets, the houses, the people
further
is
happens or
closely all that
serves
dull.
;
and then
fields,
goes
it
and observes not only what people look
how they move and speak and
think
;
and
then we come down to smaller things stiU, to ani-
mals and flowers, to the color and shape of things of
common
which
is
use,
furniture and tools, everything
used in ordinary
life.
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Now
every one of these things has a certain
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
quality
of suitability or unsuitability, of pro-
portion or disproportion.
Let me take a few quite
Look
at a spade, for instance.
random
The
instances.
man
sensible
proceeds to
thinks he has done
man
is
call it
a spade, and
necessary; the wise
considers what length of experience
has gone to make
tice
that
all
purpose,
its
length and
and prac-
perfectly adapted for
it
its
the ledge for the foot
size,
to rest on, the hole for the fingers to pass through as they clasp
Or
it
;
the tools and utensils of
all
human documents
are
of
men
far-reaching interest.
take the strange shapes and colors of flowers,
the snapdragon with
with
its
round
its
blunt
flat leaves
the nasturtium
lips,
and flaming horns
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; they
expressing something
are endless in variety, but
all
not only quite
but remotely inherited.
definite,
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; how
Or
take houses
ful
an old homestead can
perfectly simple and gracebe,
how
frightfully pre-
tentious
and vulgar the speculative
often
how
is,
almost
all
full of
builder's
work
beauty both of form and color
the houses in certain parts of the country
are, as in the Cotswolds,
where the soft stone has
tempted builders to try experiments, and to touch
up a plain front with a
little delicate
and
well-
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Or take the aspect of men, women, and children how attractive some cannot help being, whatever they do, how helplessly unat-
placed ornament.
;
tractive
and uninteresting others can
how, even
so,
a
be,
and yet
and sweet nature can make
fine
beautiful the plainest and ungainliest of faces.
And
then in a further region
there are the
still
thoughts and habits and prejudices of people,
all
wholly distinct, some beautiful and desirable and others unpleasant and even intolerable. I could multiply instances indefinitely
point
is
that art in the largest sense
is
concerned with observing and comparing separate
qualities,
wherever
they
;
but
my
or can be all these
appear.
Of
course every one's observation does not extend to everything.
There are some people who are wholly
unobservant,
let
us say, of scenery or houses, who
are yet very shrewd judges of character. It
is
observe
The
not only the beauty of things that one ;
they
may be
not by any means deThe point is whether it is
interest of quality does
pend upon
its
beauty.
strongly and markedly
itself.
What
could be more
crammed with quality than an enormous old with
may
dreary, hideous, even horrible.
its
pig,
bristles, its elephantine ears, its furtive
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What a look it has
eyes, its twitching snout?
by its own uncleanliany way out
of a fallen creature, puzzled ness and yet unable to devise All this
only to show that
is
life
lived aif ords a rich harvest for eye if
one dives but a very
face,
one
is
little
the sur-
instantly in the presence of the darkest
Who
and why?
it all?
Whose
driving at?
What
here, in our
tirely
do ? and above
idea is
set this all
What
going
is it all
the meaning of our being set
it
in it is
all
is
own particular shape,
from
distinct
what our place
with very
all,
feeling enlittle
that strange sense that we cannot
sense which remains with us, even all
idea
or what we are intended to
be compelled to do anything unless we choose
day and
it is
And
and mind.
way beneath
and deepest of mysteries.
down
wherever
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;a
though day after
day long we are doing things that we
would not choose to do,
The whole thing
we could help
if
indeed
is
it.
so strange as to be
almost frightening, the moment that we dare to think at ease in
all:
it,
and yet we
and
does terrify us
What the
feel
in our place is
;
on the whole at our
and the one thing that
the prospect of leaving
it.
mean then by art in its largest sense is faculty we have of observing and comparing 288 I
;
Behold, This Dreamer Cometh and wondering and the people who make the most ;
of
life
wings
;
are the people
and
who
give their imagination
then, too, comes in the further feeling,
which leads us to try and shape our own conduct on the
lines of
beautiful; the dull
choose what
life
and
what we admire and think
word duty means
that, that
we
not necessarily pleasant because for
is
some mysterious reason we
feel
happier so
;
because
however much we may pretend to think otherwise,
we are ness,
all
of us at every
which
is
moment
and sometimes quite contrary
And is
so
intent
upon happi-
a very different thing from pleasure,
we come at
to
it.
last to the art of living,
really a very delicate balancing
which
and comparing
of reasons, an attempt however blind and feeble to get at happiness
;
and the moment that
this at-
tempt ceases and becomes merely a dull desire to be as comfortable as
begins to go
down
we can, that moment the hUl,
and the value of
life is
spirit
over
we learn that we cannot afford to go and that every backward step wiU have
unless perhaps
down
hill,
to be painfully retraced, somewhere or other.
What is
then I would try to persuade any one who
listening to
me
is
that
we must use our wiUs
somehow to try experiments, to 289
observe, to dis-
Escape and Other Essa:ys tinguish, to follow It
may
and indeed It
is
what we think
be said that this
is
fine
and
exactly that at which I
it is
a religion, which
is
am
Religion
is
unhappily become specialized. liefs,
may
aiming.
within the reach of
people who cannot be touched by what cally called religion.
beautiful.
only a sort of religion,
is
many
techni-
a word that has
It stands for be-
doctrines, ceremonies, practices.
But
these
many
of us.
The
not,
worst of nite.
and indeed do
not, suit
definite religions
They try
that they are too defi-
is
to enforce
upon us a
belief in
things which we find incredible, or perhaps think to
be simply unknowable
;
or they
make out
certain
practices to be important, which we do not think
We
important.
must never do violence to our
minds and souls by professing to believe what we
do not
believe,
or to think things certain which we
honestly believe to be uncertain; but at the same time we must remember that there
is
always some-
thing of beauty inside every religion, because religion involves a deliberate choice of better motives
and better
actions,
and an attempt to exclude the
baser and viler elements of
Of course serious one
life.
the objection to all this
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
is
that people
290
may
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; and
say, "
it is
a
Of course
;
Behold, This Dreamer Cometh I see the truth of all that, and the advantage of
being actively and vividly interested in
life;
you
might as well preach the advantage of being happy but
my own
interest is fitful
and occasional some;
times for days together I have no sense of the interest or quality of anything.
I have no time, I have
How am
no one to enjoy these things with.
I to
It is see it would be wise to be? " as when the woman of Samaria said, " Thou hast
become what I
nothing to draw with, and the well
is
deep "
true that civilization does seem more create set
them
them. it
men and women with
it is
is
and more to
these instincts,
in circumstances where
It
!
and
to
hard to gratify
then such people are apt to say, " Is
And
after all worth while to aim at so impossible a Is it not better just to
standard.''
and make
put
it all aside,
oneself as comfortable as one
And that is many people
the practical answer which a
can.''
"
good
do make to the question; and when
such people get older, they are the most discouraging of
all advisers,
because they ridicule the whole
thing as nonsense, which young
women had as they can
men and young
better get out of their heads as soon ;
as Jowett wrote of his pupil Swin-
burne, that he was a clever fellow, and would do
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well
poetry and nonsense.
I
feel
wonder and
ideas, this kind of interest in life, in the
strangeness of
not pursue
it,
can be pursued by
It
it.
is like
all this
no doubt that these
many who do
the white deer, which in
the old stories the huntsman was forever pursuing in the forest suit of it
;
he did not ever catch
but the pur-
it,
brought him many high adventures.
Of course
it is
far easier if one has a friend
share the same tastes
;
but
if
who
one has not, there are
always books, in which the best minds can be found thinking and talking at their finest and
liveliest.
But here again a good many people are betrayed by reading books as one
may
collect
stamps, just
triumphing in the number and variety of the repertory.
I believe very
on books, as
sailors take possession of
setting the foot
little in
an unknown
One must make experiments, just
isle.
to see what
are the kind of books which nurture and sustain
one
;
and then I
books,
which
believe in arriving at a circle of
one
really
knows
through, and reads at aU time and they get soaked and enriched with
and
associations.
through all
moods,
all sorts
and till
of moods
I have a dozen such, which I
read and mark and scribble
292
in,
write
when and
Behold, This Dreamer Cometh where I read them, and who were my companions. Of course the same books do not always last through
You grow
one's course.
out of clothes
and
;
find myself lost in
have cared for them little
out of books as you grow
and I sometimes look at old
favorites,
wonder as to how I can ever
like that
They seem now
!
like
antechambers and corridors, through which I
have passed to something far more noble and gracious.
But
all the
time we must be trying to
weave the books really into like
ornaments on a
kindles the
life,
It
shelf.
mind most
;
it
let
them stand
poetry that en-
to dwell in the thoughts of
which I have been speaking. read straight on
not is
But
must rather be
it
must not be
tasted,
brooded
by heart. Let me take a As a boy I had no opinion of
over, repeated, learned
personal instance.
Wordsworth, except that I admired one or two of the great poems like the " Ode on the Intimation of Immortality " and the "
Ode
to Duty," which no
one who sets out to love poetry at to ignore.
all
can afford
Then, as I grew older, I began to see
that quotations from
Wordsworth had a
sort of
grandeur in their very substance, which was unlike
any other grandeur. of the poems
away
And
then I took the whole
for a vacation
and worked at
Escape and Other Essays them; and then I found how again and again
Wordsworth touches a thought to life, which is like the little objects you pick up on the seashore, the evidence of another
at hand, in-
close
life
dubitably there, and yet unknown, which lived under the waste of waters.
is
being
When Words-
worth says such things as
And many
Am or
I
love me, but
by none
enough beloved,
when he says Some silent laws our hearts may make Which they shall long obey
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
then he seems to uncover the very secrets of the world, and to speak as when in the prophet's vision the seven thunders uttered their voices.
day I was working with a pupil
;
Only
in his essay he
to-
had
quoted Wordsworth, and we looked up the place. While I was speaking, my eye fell upon " The Poet's Epitaph "
Come
and I saw,
hither in thy hour of strength.
Come, weak as
Those two
lines
is
a breaking wave!
of unutterable magic
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;
he could not
Behold, This Dreamer Cometh understand why I stopped and faltered, nor could
But
I have explained it to him.
it
was as Cole-
ridge says,
Weave
And
a circle round him thrice,
close your eyes in holy dread.
For he on honey-dew hath
And drunk It
is
fed,
the milk of paradise.
just a mystery of beauty that has been seen,
not to be explained or understood.
Of course there are people, there will be people, who will read what I have just written in an agony But of rationality, and say that it is all rubbish. I
am
describing an experience of ecstasy which
hot very
common
I have had the
perience as eating or drinking.
experience before. nize
it
at once,
experiences.
and
I shall have it again
quite distinct
it is
One cannot
larly as one sits
is
perhaps; but just as real an ex-
down to
not a thing to be proud
sit
down
from other as regu-
it
of,
It
is
because I have had
it
Nor am
it is.
moment and
a duU frame of mind,
might not
;
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I at all
It does not trans-
figure life except for the it
I recog-
a meal, of course.
as far back as I can remember.
sure what the effect of
to
;
if
visit
I were in
me
at
all,
Escape and Other Essays though
it is
very apt to come
if
I
am
in a sad or
anxious frame of mind.
Then how do I deed; that there
Very simply
interpret it?
is
a region which I
in-
will call the
region of beauty, to which the view of
life
that I
have called art does sometimes undoubtedly admit one; though as I have also said the view of which
I speak
is
concerned with
many
perceptions which
are not beautiful, and even sometimes quite the opposite.
If I were frankly asked whether
it is
worth while
trying to think or imagine or thrust oneself into this
particular kind of rapture, I should
" Certainly not " !
It
is
very doubtful
be genuinely attained unless
it
if it
say,
could
has been already
experienced ; and I do not believe in the wholesomeness of self-suggested emotions.
But I do
believe
for any one who
most firmly that
is
it is
worth while
interested in such effects at all
to try experiments, by looking at things
critically,
hearing things, observing, listening to other people, reading books, trying in fact to practise observation
and judgment.
I was visiting some printing works the other day.
The great
cylinders
were revolving, the wheels
896
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A
buzzing, the levers clicking.
boy perched on a
platform by the huge machine lightly disengaged
a sheet of paper;
was drawn
it
in,
and a moment
after a thing like a gridiron flew up,
made a
sort
of bow, and deposited a printed sheet in a box, the
which kept moving, so as to pat the papers
sides of
into one solid pad.
away with
I came
him
he
is
interested the better
to feed the machine,
chanical."
of a
and
it
;
his business is just
becomes entirely me-
and
of his
own
engine, forever
so entirely
and com-
but the boy looked cheerful, well
intelligent,
little life
â&#x20AC;&#x201D;
I felt a kind of shame at the thought
human being becoming
pletely a machine
and
boy knew what book he was " No," he said, " and the
He laughed.
printing. less
the master-printer, and asked
idly whether the
as
if
he had a very decisive
quite apart from the whizzing
bowing over and putting a new sheet
in the box.
But of
life
it is
just that dull and mechanical handling
which I believe we ought to avoid.
harder to avoid
and
it is
more
conditions. is
it
difficult to
But
It
is
for some people than for others,
all
escape from under certain
art and
all artistic
perception
just a sign of the irresponsible and irrepressible
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and an attempt,
life,
What
of things.
art
as I said at
first,
to
and distinguish and compare the quality
perceive
am
I
here maintaining
is
that
not necessarily the production of something
is
artistic; it rises
that
same impulse only when
the
is
in the heart of an inventive, accomplished,
deft-fingered, eager-minded craftsman.
woman
or a
If a
man
has a special gift of words, or a
mastery of form and passion for beauty
or musical phrases, the
color,
is
bound to show
itself in
the
making of beautiful things
â&#x20AC;&#x201D; and
among
the happiest that a
man can
there
always the shadow of realizing the beauty
that
is is
such
lives are
live,
though
out of reach, that cannot be captured or
expressed.
And
if it
could be captured and ex-
pressed, the quest would vanish
But
there
are innumerable hearts and minds
which have the perception of quality, though not the power of expressing
whom
it
;
and these are the people
I wish to persuade of the fact that they hold
in their hands a thread, which, like the clue in the old story, can conduct a searcher safely through
the dark recesses of the great labyrinth. it,
He
tied
the dauntless youth in the tale, to the ancient
thorn-tree that grew
by
the cavern's
298
mouth
;
and
;
Behold, This Dreamer Cometh then he stepped boldly
and
in,
let it
unwind within
his hand.
For many people, indeed for all people who have any part in the future of the world, the clue of life must be found
in
beauty of some kind or another
not necessarily in the outward beauties of colors, sounds, and words, but in the beauty of conduct, the kind, sweet-tempered, pure, unselfish
in
Those who choose such
qualities
life.
do so simply be-
cause they seem more beautiful than the spiteful,
apgry, greedy,
is
There
selfish life.
ugliness about that
;
is
a horror of
and thus beauty of every kind
of the nature of a signal to us from some mighty
power behind and ful,
in the world.
Evil, ugly, hate-
base things are strong indeed; but no peace,
no happiness,
lies
in that direction.
It
is
just that
power of distinguishing, of choosing, of worshiping the beautiful quality, which has done for the
world
that has ever been done to improve it;
all
and to follow whatever
it
it is
may be,
to take the side of the power,
that
is
trying to help and guide
the world out of confusion and darkness and strife into light
and peace.
It
may
mitted, of course, that religion
most
influences in this great
299
be gratefully adis
one of the fore-
movement but ;
it
also
Escape and Other Essays needs to be said that religion, by connecting so definitely as
it
does with ecclesiastical
itself
life,
and
ceremony, and theological doctrine, has become a specialized thing,
of the heart.
It
and does not meet is
not every one who finds fuU
satisfaction for all the visions of the in a
all the desires
Some
church organization.
mind and
soul
people, and those
neither wicked nor heartless nor unsympathetic, find its
a real dreariness in systematized
conventional beliefs,
its
religion, with
narrow instruction,
its
catechizings, missionary meetings, gatherings, devotions, services.
It
may
be aU true enough in a
sense, but it often leaves the sense of
interest
and emotion and poetry unfed
represent the fullness of
life.
dissatisfied with it all are often
beauty and ;
it
does not
The people who
are
dumbly ashamed of
their dissatisfaction; but yet it does not feed the
heart; the kind of heaven that they are taught awaits them
is
not a place that they recognize as
They do not want
beautiful or desirable.
wrong, or to rebel against morality at
to do
all,
but
they have impulses which do not seem to be recognized
by
technical religion, adventure, friendship,
passion, beauty, the strange and wonderful emotions of
life,
The work
of great poets and artists
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lovely scenes of earth, these seem
to have no place inside systematic religion, to be
things rather timorously permitted, excused, and
Men
apologized for.
and
or to follow sisted
need something richer, freer,
They do not want
larger.
evil
upon by
unimportant,
;
but
many
stifled
It
God and
and confined
spoken of as true which
beliefs
seem at best uncertain.
not attribute to
things seem to be in-
religion as important which seem
many
are disloyal to
to shirk their duty
is
not that such people
to virtue, but they feel
an atmosphere which dares
in
God many
of the finest and sweet'
est things in the world.
Such a
old bottles;
it is
ideals, to find
I
much a rebellion against new wine which is too strong for the
feeling is not so
old ideas, as a
a desire to extend the range of
more things
do not believe that
divine.
this instinct is
crushed or overcome; I believe
going to be
grow and
it will
spread, and play an immense part in the civilization of the future.
open
its
I speak
I hope indeed that religion will
arms to meet is
it,
because the spirit of which
in the truest sense religious
;
since it is
concerned with purifying and enriching in living life,
not on base or mean
301
lines,
life,
and
but with
Escape and Other Essays constant reference to the message of a Power which is
forever reminding us that
life is full
music, great, free and wonderful.
meaning of ness
of
fire
That
is
and the
an increased sense of the large-
it all,
and richness of
life,
which refuses to be bound
inside a gloomy, sad, suspicious outlook.
It
an attempt to trust God more rather than to recognize the worth of
life
in wider
is all
less,
and
and wider
circles.
" Behold
this
dreamer cometh," said Joseph's
envious brethren, when they saw him afar off; " we shall see
what
will
become of
his
dreams " !
They
conspired to slay him, they sold him into slavery.
Yet the day was to come when they stood trembling before him, and when he freely forgave them and
royally entertained them.
We
can never afford to
despise or deride dreams, because they are what live
by they come ;
men
true, they bring a great deliver-
ance with them.
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