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ESCAPE AND OTHER ESSAYS



ESCAPE AND OTHER ESSAYS BY

ARTHUR

CH]p,ISTOPHER BENSON

I love people that leave some tracei of their journey behind them, and I have strength enough to advise you to do so while you can.—Thomas Grat.

i»»>tV**»

NEW YORK THE CENTURY 1915

CO.


I

i

XI 2o]^yright, 1915,

The damrnY

by

Co.

Published, October, 1915


TABLE OF CONTENTS PAGE

OHAPTEE I II III

ESCAPE

3

LITEEATtTRE AND LIFE

25

THE NEW POETS

47

WALT WHITMAN V CHARM

rv

.

91

SUNSET VII THE HOUSE OF PENGEESICK VIII VILLAGES VI

115 129 139

DREAMS X THE VISITANT XI THAT OTHER ONE

IX

XII XIII

153 175 187

SCHOOLDAYS AUTHORSHIP

201

229

HERB MOLY AND HEARTSEASE XV BEHOLD, THIS DREAMER COMETH

XIV

63

.

.

.

253

.

.

.

.279


NOTE I desire to record

my

obligations to the Editor

of the Ceniwry Magazine, and to the Editor of the

CornhUl Magazine, for their permission to include in this

volume certain essays which appeared

first

in their pages.

A. C. B.


INTRODUCTION

WALKED

I

Cam

is

to-day down by the riverside.

a stream

much

wild and romantic scenery

the eyes of our boys,

nearly to a canal in

is

its

slighted ;

and

that

— and

is

therefore

am

walk there, "

if

and the

sure; and

But

!

my

it is

a beauti-

ghost will certainly

our loves remain," as Browning

says, both for the sake of old memories

own sweet

love of its

peaceableness,

and for the

I passed out

of the town, out of the straggling suburbs,

from

tall,

delib-

many more famous

more adapted for the ma-

noeuvers of eight-oared boats ful place, I

merit, in

approaches more

straightness

eration of its slow lapse than floods

its chief

it

The

by the lover of

away

puffing chimneys, and under the clanking

railway bridge; and then at once the scene opens,

wide pasture-lands on either

side,

and rows of old

willows, the gnarled trunks holding

tered rods. rises the

There on the other

up

their clus-

side of the stream

charming village of Fen Ditton, perched vii


Introduction on a low ridge near the water, with church and vicarage and irregular street, and the

gabled Hall looking over

then, Ijing back,

among

old grange, called Poplar Hall,

ing trees

;

and then a

little

red-

barns and stacks.

its

More and more wiUows, and

little

an

high-stand-

weir, where the falling

water makes a pleasant sound, and a black-timbered lock, with

another old house near by, a secluded re-

Ely

treat for the bishops of

The bishop came

in medieval times.

by boat, no doubt, and

thither

abode there for a few quiet weeks, when the sun lay hot over the plain; and a

little

further

down

is

a

tiny village called Horningsea, with a battlemented

church among orchards and thatched houses, with its

own

disused wharf

the sense of a I

know.

Then

presently

stretches for miles

you can

see,

— a place which

gives

me

bygone age as much as any hamlet interminable

the

and miles

fen

in every direction;

from the high green flood-banks of

the river, the endless lines of watercourses and faroff

clumps of trees leagues away, and perhaps the

great tower of Ely, blue on the horizon, with the vast spacious sky over-arching

a beautiful place in

unbroken

silence, I

its

all.

width,

its

If that

is

not

greenness, its

do not know what beauty

is!


Introduction Nothing that historians

happened

there.

It

is

out of the old lagoon reed-beds

a hardly

No

and pasture. business,

life

and low-lying

fishes, into

an event has ever

call

a place that has just drifted of the past, the

islands, of

peaceful

less

life

of

marsh-fowl and life

of cornfield

one goes there except on country

no armies ever marshaled or fought

The sun goes down

in flame

there.

on the far horizon the ;

wild duck fly over and settle in the pools, the flowers rise to life year

slow water-courses

;

by year on the edges of

the calm mystery of

and remembered; but

seen

it

can be

can hardly be told

it

in words.

Now

side

by

side with that I will set another

picture of a different kind.

A The

week or two ago I was traveling up North. stations

we passed through were many of them

full of troops, the trains

diers,

sol-

and very healthy and happy they looked.

was struck by were

were crammed with

civil

their friendliness

;

and modest; they did not behave as

they were in possession of the

suppose they were, but as ix

if

I

and kindness they

line, as

if

actually I

they were ordinary


Introduction travelers,

an

and anxious not to incommode other peo-

saw

soldiers

old frail

woman

I

ple.

doing kind

little offices,

helping

carefully out of the train

handing out her baggage, giving chocolates to

and chil-

dren, interesting themselves in their fellow-travel-

At one

ers.

place I saw a proud and anxious

an old

father, himself

jolly

soldier, I think, seeing off

young subaltern to

pressed tears the young ;

and

delight,

the front, with hardly sup-

man was

full

of excitement

but did his best to cheer up the spirits

of " Daddy," as he fondly called him.

proud of our ness

and

a

I felt very

and kind-

soldiers, their simplicity

real goodness.

I

was

gla'd to

belong to

the nation which

had bred them, and half forgot the

grim business

on which they were bent.

stopped at a junction. a strange officer,

legs

little

evidently been

was incased

wounded ; one

in a surgical contrivance,

had a bandage round

We

I caught sight of

There was a young man, an

group.

who had

And here

his head.

He

sat

of his

and he

on a bench

between two stalwart and cheerful-looking soldiers,

who had

their

arms round him, and were each hold-

ing one of his hands. clearly at

first,

in front of

I could not see the officer

as a third soldier was standing close

him and speaking encouragingly to him,

X


Introduction him from the

while at the same time he sheltered

But he moved away, and at the same mo-

crowd.

ment the young

drawn and sunken

face,

a brow compressed with

and looked wildly and

pain,

head, displaying a

officer lifted his

in

round him, with large melancholy

a

way Then he

terrified

eyes.

began to beat his foot on the ground, and struggled to extricate himself from his companions

;

and

then he buried his head in his chest and sank down It was a sight

an attitude of angry despair.

in

that I cannot forget.

Just before the train went

my

carriage,

" That

and as we

off,

officer

said

started,

a sad business there

's

an

—

it

got into to'

me,

a young

is

—

who was taken prisoner by the Germans one of our best men he escaped, and after endur-

officer

;

ing awful hardships he got into our

lines,

was

wounded, and sent home to hospital but the shock ;

and the anxiety preyed on

his mind,

is

sanatorium, but I fear there

is

become, they fear, hopelessly insane sent to a little

chance of his recovery

head as well as the

foot.

;

girl.

,

.

."

xi

he

He

devoted to soldiering, and he

charming

and he has

— he

is

is is

wounded

being

very in the

a wealthy man,

just engaged to a


:

Introduction

Now

there

is

a hard and bitter fact of

from the story of the fenland.

different

going to argue about

it

trace the threads of

back into

it

or discuss

it,

life,

I

very

am not

because to

entangles one

life

at once helplessly in a dreadful series of problems

how

namely,

comes to pass that a calamity,

it

grievous and intolerable beyond all calamities in its

pain and sorrow and waste, a

and dreaded by

all

in every shade of

who

strife

are concerned in

abhorred

it,

fruitful

misery and wretchedness, should

yet have come about so inevitably and relentlessly.

No

one claims to have desired war

that

it is

;

all alike

plead

in self-defense that they are fighting,

and

maintain that they have labored incessantly for

Yet the great

peace.

mills of fate are turning,

and grinding out death and shame and

Every one

sickens for peace,

of peace

drowned

The

is

loss.

and yet any proposal

in cries of bitterness

and rage.

wisest spend their time in pointing out the

blessings which the conflict brings.

The mother

hears that the son she parted with in strength and

courage

is

moldering in an unknown grave, and

chokes her tears down. labor

is

The

fruit

of years of

consumed, lands are laid desolate, the xii


Introduction weak and innocent are wronged ; yet the great warengine goes thundering and smashing on, leaving

hatred and horror behind

it

;

and

the while

all

men

pray to a God of mercy and loving-kindness and entreat His blessing on the Is there then, if

work they are doing.

we are confronted with such

problems as these, anything to do except to stay

and

prostrate, like Job, in darkness

enduring the stroke of sorrow?

despair, just

Is

there

any

excuse for bringing before the world at such a time as this, the delightful reveries, the easy happiness,

the gentle schemes of serener and less troubled

days?

The book which

follows

was the work of

a time which seems divided from the present by a

dark stream of unhappiness.

the eyes of those

Is it right,

is

it

an old picture of peace before

decent, to unfold

who have had

Would

and destruction?

it

to look into chaos

not be braver to burn

the record of the former things that have passed

away?

Yes, I believe that

do

this,

it is

right and wholesome to

because the most treacherous and cowardly

thing we can do

is

to disbelieve in xiii

life.

Those old


Introduction dreams and visions were true enough, and they

They

be true again.

represent the real

We

which we must try to return. build

up

we were

only overcome

it

astray.

all

by confessing

which we must

by holding

cannot abolish

by

it

;

we can

fast to our belief in

It

is

a temptation

to philosophize too

much

the problems in their

all

I do not believe for an instant that

our vision of peace.

falsified

more than

it

resist,

enough to hold

grasp.

to

must try to

Very few minds are large enough and

about war.

has

We

ourselves worsted

labor and order and peace.

clear

dwell in

to

the conception afresh, not feebly to con-

fess that evil

will

life

ever,

we must emphasize

I regard

it.

war

of pestilence; the best

brood over

it,

We

war

must cling it,

we must

aS I regard an outbreak

way

to resist

it is

but to practise joy and health.

not to

The

ancient plagues which devastated Europe have not

been overcome by philosophy, but by the upspring-

men to live cleaner and more wholeThat instinct is not created by any

ing desire of

some

lives.

philosophy or persuasion;

and

finds its

To

way

it

just arises everywhere

to the light.

brood over the war, to spend our time in

disentangling

its

intricate causes, seems to

xiv

me a


Introduction But a

task for future historians.

lover of peace,

confronted by the hideousness of war, does best to try, if

he can, to make plain what he means by

why he

peace and

peace an indolent

mean hard and lavish console flict

daily work, help,

and

— not

desires

it.

life, lost

mean by

And

effort to

reassure and

I mean, too, a real con-

a conflict where we set the best and

bravest of each nation to spUl each other's blood

but a conflict against crime and disease and ness

and greediness and

cruelty.

fighting to be done; can

our common against

I

and mutual understanding,

and the

uplift.

I do not

in gentle reveries.

We

selfish-

is

we not combine to

foes, instead of

evU?

There

destroy

—

much fight

weakening each other in

war our

finest

parental stock, we waste our labor, we lose our

garnered store; we give every harsh passion a chance to grow.

5

And

yet there

which I do

fighting for, It

is

my

in

is

one thing in the present war

heart of hearts feel to be worth

and that

is

for the hope of liberty.

hard to say what

essence of

it is

liberty

is,

because the

the subjugation of personal inclina-

XV


Introduction

The Germans

tions.

meaning of

the

at

it

lies

by

claim that they alone

But

discipline.

in the fact that the

an example of

to set

the world to choose

not choose

they

it,

but that

;

feel that the

war

Germans are not content

if

and to

leave

the world will

it

upon them by

It is this

which makes me

will force

and the sword.

violence

war may be a vast protest of the na-

which have the

tions,

the bitterness of this

attractive virtue, it

know

and that they have arrived

liberty,

spirit of the future in their

hearts, against a theory of life that represents the spirit of the past.

And

I thus, with some seeming

inconsistency, believe that the

the hope of peace at bay. this clearly before

war may represent

If the nations can keep

them, and not be tempted either

into reprisals, or into rewarding themselves spoils of victory, if victory

Germans being

comes

;

if it

by the

ends in the

sincerely convinced that they have

been misled and poisoned by a conception of right

which

is

both uncivilized and unchristian, then I our sufferings

believe that all

may

not be too great

a price to pay for the future weU-being of the world.

That

is ;

when

all

it

seems

the largest and brightest hope I

and there are many hours and days

dare to frame

clouded and dim. xvi


Introduction

We

cannot at this time disengage our thoughts

from the war we cannot and we ought not. ;

less

can we take refuge from

it in idle

Still

dreams of

peace and security but at a time when every paper ;

and book that we

see

from

it,

batants,

and minds for a

we brood over

If

it.

especially if it is

its suf-

must be men and women who would do

ferings, there

well to turn their hearts

upon

war and

of the

is full

aU apt

it, if

we

little

away

feed our minds

we are by necessity noncomto turn to a festering horror

which makes us useless and miserable.

Whatever

happens, we must try not to be simply the worse for the war, morbid, hysterical, beggared of faith

and hope, evils

;

horrified with

and I

life.

believe that it is

That

is

the worst of

wholesome to put as

far as we can our cramped minds in easier postures,

and to

our

let

spirits

know how a dog who comes

fierce

imaginary

and

is

furious,

perpetually chained be-

and thinks of nothing but

foes, so that the

becomes an enemy.

We

have a wider range.

most peaceful passer-by

I have

felt,

began, a certain poison in the

since the

air,

war

a tendency

towards suspicion and contentiousness and vague hostility.

We

must exorcise that xvii

evil spirit if

we


Introduction can; and I believe

it is

best laid

by

minds go back to the old peace for a solving that the

coming

may

letting our

little,

new peace which we

shall be of a larger

and

re-

believe is

and nobler quality ; we

thus come to appreciate the happiness which

we enjoyed but had not earned; and lay our plans for earning a

new kind of happiness, the

essence of

which shall be a mutual trust, that desires to give

and share whatever it

and guarding

it

enjoys, instead of hoarding

it.

A wise and unselfish woman wrote to me the other day

in

words which

will

long

live in

my

mind ; she

had sent out one whom she dearly loved to the front,

and she was

as she could. give

way

fighting her fears as gallantly

"Whatever happens we must not

to dread," she wrote.

" It does not do to

dread anything for our own treasures."

That

is

the time of war,

what

What we must

the secret! is

their sacrifices

not do, in

to indicate to every one else

ought to be; we must just

make our own sacrifices and perhaps the man who loves and values peace most highly does not sacrifice the least. But even he may try to realize that ;

life it,

does not contradict itself ; but that the parts of

whether they be delightful or dreadful, do work

into each other in a marvelous way.


ESCAPE AND OTHER ESSAYS ESCAPE



ESCAPE AND OTHER ESSAYS I

ESCAPE

ALL

the best stories in the world are but one

story in reality

—

the story of an escape.

the only thing which interests us

It

is

all

times

— how

to escape.

The

all

and at

stories of Joseph,

of Odysseus, of the prodigal son, of the " Pilgrim's

Progress," of the " Ugly Duckling," of Sintram, to

name only a few out

all stories

stories.

of a great number, they are

is the same with all love" The course of true love never can run

of escapes.

It

smooth," says the old proverb, and love-stories are but tales of a

man

or a woman's escape from

the desert of lovelessness into the citadel of love.

Even

tragedies

like

those

of

" CEdipus "

and

" Hamlet " have the same thought in the background.

In the tale of CEdipus, the old blind king

3


;!

Escape and Other Essays in his tattered robe,

who had committed

in igno-

rance such nameless crimes, leaves his two daugh-

and the attendants standing between the old

ters

and the marble tomb by the sacred

pear-tree

fountain till

;

he says the last faint words of love,

the voice of the

god comes

upon the

thrilling

air:

" CEdipus,

why

delayest thou ?

Then he walks away

,

"

at once in silence, leaning

on the arm of Theseus, and when at ers dare to look, they see

last the

Theseus afar

screening his eyes with his hand, as too dreadful for mortal eyes

but CEdipus in

is

hope and wonder.

him upon

that

is

off, alone,

some sight

if

had passed before him

gone, and not with lamentation, but

the peal of ordnance late

watch-

Even when Hamlet is

shot

his escape

the same in

off, it is

dies,

and

to congratu-

from unbearable woe ; and If our eye falls on the

life.

men and women who have died by own hand, how seldom do they speak in the

sad stories of their

scrawled

messages

they

though they were going to It

is

just the other way.

them as

leave

behind

silence

and nothingness

The unhappy

mothers who, maddened by disaster,

fathers

and

kill their chil-

dren are hoping to escape with those they love best

4


Escape out of miseries they cannot bear

Lot

together, as

man who

they mean to

The man who

city of the plain.

not the

;

fly

with his daughters from the

fled

slays himself

is

hates life; he only hates the sor-

row and the shame which make unbearable that which he loves only too

life

migrate to other conditions

he cannot

live so.

It

is

He

well. ;

is

trying to

he desires to

but

live,

the imagination of

man

that makes him seek death; only the animal endures, but

man

hurries

away

in the

hope of finding

something better. It

is,

however, strange to reflect

imagination

is

when

beyond him, how

it

little

how weak man's

comes to deal with what able he

is

that he desires to do when he has escaped from

The of

life.

unsubstantial heaven of a Buddhist, with

unthinkable Nirvana, all

its

attributes

Mahometan

merely the depriving

the

duU

its

life

sensuality of the

paradise, with its ugly multiplication

of gross delights in light

;

is

is

to devise anything

;

the tedious outcries of the saints

which make the medieval scheme of heaven

into one protracted canticle

unattractive,

—

these are all deeply

and have no power at

vigorous' spirit.

Even the

all

over the

vision of Socrates, the

hope of unrestricted converse with great minds, 5

is


— Escape and Other Essays a very unsatisfying thought, because little

The

and

which makes

rest,

pain and

life interesting,

hope and satisfac-

relief,

— and

danger and security,

tion,

yields so

fact, of course, is that it is just the va-

riety of experience toil

it

material to work upon.

move the idea of

if

from

vicissitude

life,

comes an indolent and uninspiring the process of change which

is

we once

re-

all be-

it

It

affair.

is

delightful, the find-

ing out what we can do and what we cannot, going

from ignorance to knowledge, from clumsiness to even our relations with those

skill;

bound up with the

are all

whom we

discoveries

love

we make

about them and the degree in which we can help

them and

What

affect them.

tively dislikes is stationariness

in

the ;

mind

instinc-

and an existence

which there was nothing to escape from, nothing

more to hope

for, to learn, to desire,

would be

frankly unendurable.

The reason why we dread death It

memory ory

is

would be

conditions

if

it

it

all

our familiar activi-

have nothing but

to depend upon.

that

because

terrible to

seems to be a suspension of ties.

is

The only

use of

mem-

distracts us a little from present

they are duU, and

6

it is

only too true


Escape happy things

that the recollection in sorrow of

is

torture of the worst kind.

Once when Tennyson was suffering from a dangerous

his

illness,

Tennyson

friend Jowett wrote to

to suggest that the poet

fort in thinking of all the

that

might find com-

good he had done.

But

not the kind of comfort that a sufferer

is

desires

Lady

we may envy a good man

;

of activity, but

we cannot

his retrospect

really suppose that to

meditate complacently upon what one has been

enabled to do is

is

the final thought that a

to indulge.

likely

torment himself over

He all

is

far more likely to

that he might have done.

true, I think, that old

and

pass into a quiet serenity; but

It is

It

is

of the old dog if

he

is

who

good man

sleeps in the sun,

tired people

the serenity

wags

his tail

invited to bestir himself, but does not leave

his place

;

and

but a

dumb

more

is

if

one reaches that condition,

it is

gratitude at the thought that nothing

expected of the worn-out frame and fa-

tigued mind.

But no

one, I should imagine, really

hopes to step into immortality so tired and worn out that the highest hope that he can frame that he will be let alone forever.

We

is

must not

trust the drowsiness of the outworn spirit to frame

7


Escape and Other Essays the real hopes of humanity.

If

the next experience ahead of us

we

believe that

is like

that of the

mariners,

In the afternoon they came unto a land

In which

seemed always afternoon,

it

then we acquiesce in a dreamless sort of sleep as the best hope of man.

No, we must rather trust the spirit

at

these are

its all

up with

knit

as I have said.

There

move darkly

well us,

the adventure of escape,

upon the road

wood and keep pace with

in the

to be spurred on

drawn forward by

if

we must

flee,

we

will

There

is

if

is

that

we are not

We

have to

not run to the goal,

with backward glances at

something which threatens

of a

by fear

desire or hope.

keep moving, and at least

is

presences that do not wish us

;

and the only explanation we can give

we need

of the

something hostile on our

is

track: the copse that closes in thick with spears

desires

and most vigorous, and

healthiest

us.

an old and strange Eastern allegory

man wandering

in the desert; he

to a grove of trees,

aware that there

is

draws near

when he suddenly becomes

a lion on his track, hurrying

8


Escape and bounding along on the scent of

The man

flees

steps.

his

for safety into the grove

;

he sees

there a roughly built water-tank of stone, exca-

vated in the ground, and built up of masonry fringed with plants.

where he

He

sees a ledge close

on the water

does this, he sees that in the water

lies

much

down

climbs swiftly

to

as he

;

a great

liz-

ard, with open jaws, watching him with wicked

He

eyes.

himself

stops short, and he can just support

among

the stones

by holding on

to the

branches of a plant which grows from a ledge

While he thus holds on, with death

above him.

behind him and before, he

and

ering,

branches quiv-

feels the

sees above, out of reach,

two mice, one

black and one white, which are nibbling at the

He

stems he holds and wiU soon sever them.

waits

despairingly, and while he does so, he sees that there are drops of honey

holds finds

;

he puts his

them very

The mice

on the

leaves

which he

them, licks them

and

off,

sweet.

stand, no doubt, for night

and the honey

is

possible to taste fore

lips to

the sweetness of

and

relish even

and behind; and

it

is

life,

and day,

which

w^en death

it is

is

be-

true that the utter

jprecariousness of life does not, as a matter of fact,

9


;

Escape and Other Essays distract us from the pleasure of

even though

it,

the strands to which we hold are slowly parting. It

is

all,

then,

an adventure and an escape; but

may

even in the worst insecurity, we prised to find that It

it is

somehow

often be sur-

sweet.

not in the least a question of the apparent

is

and outward adventurousness of

one's

Fool-

life.

and think as though

ish people sometimes write

one could not have had adventures unless one has

hung about at bar-room doors and saloons,

in billiard-

worked one's passage before the mast

a sailing-ship,

dug

for gold

among

in

the mountains,

explored savage lands, shot strange animals, fared

among deep-drinking and loud-swearing

hardly

men.

It is possible, of course, to

of this kind, and, indeed, I

whose

life

was

have adventures

had a near

fuller of vicissitudes

I have ever known he was a :

sailor,

relative

than any a

clerk,

life

a po-

liceman, a soldier, a clergyman, a farmer, a verger.

But the mere

unsettledness of

was an easy comrade, brave,

It

suited him: he

reckless,

restless

he did not mind roughness, and the one thing he

could not do was to settle down to anything regular

and

quiet.

He

did not dislike

when he stood half-naked, 10

life

at

all,

as he once told

even

me he


Escape did,

on a board slung from the

side of a ship,

dipped up pails of water to swab freezing as he flung all this

variety of

particular from

it

life

it all;

and

it,

the water

on the timbers.

But with

he did not learn anything he was

much

the same al-

ways, good natured, talkative, childishly absorbed,

not looking backward or forward, and fondest of telling stories with sailors in

an

He

inn.

learned

be content in most companies and to fare

to

roughly

;

but he gained neither wisdom nor humor,

and he was not

home, stick-in-the-mud

But we are not

happy or independent,

either

though he despised with

all

all his

heart the stay-at-

life.

made

like this,

and

possible for a few people to live so

that most people prefer to stay at

the work of the world.

My

it is

only

by the fact

home and do

cousin was not a

worker, and, indeed, did no work except under compulsion and in order to live ; but such people seem to

belong to an older order, and are more

like children

playing about, and at leisure to play because others

work

to

feed

and clothe them.

would be a wretched and miserable place

The world if all tried

to live life on those lines. It

would be impossible to me to 11

live so,

though I


Escape and Other Essays man if I had had a more hardship of that kind; but I have

dare say I should be a better little

worked hard

in

my own

had few hairbreadth troubles

and slow

way, and though I have

escapes, yet I have

anxieties.

had sharp

I have been like the

man in the story, between the lion and the lizard for many months together and I have had more to ;

by temperament and fortune, than my

bear,

rov-

ing cousin ever had to endure; so that because a life

seems both sheltered and prosperous,

not therefore have been without escapes and

its

it,

tion,

into life

and the motives

the more does one perceive that the imagina-

concerning

with hopes of escape from

itself

any conditions which hamper and the dynamic force that

The

need

haunting fears.

The more one examines of

it

adventures and

its

child

is

it is older,

is

confine us, is

transmuting the world.

forever planning what

do when

it will

and dreams of an irresponsible choice

of food and an unrestrained use of

money

;

the girl

schemes to escape from the constraints of home by

independence or marriage; the professional

man

plans to make a fortune and retire; the mother

dreams ambitious dreams for her children; the politician craves for

power; the writer hopes to 12


;

Escape

—

gain the ear of the world

these are only a few

casual instances of the desire that

freer future out of the limited

That

ent.

always at

is

us, projecting us into a larger and

work within

is

and

restricted pres-

the real current of the world, and

though there are sedate people who are contented with

life

as they see

it,

yet in most minds there

is

a^uttering of littl e tremulous hopes forecastin g

ease a nd freedom

and

as they have

yet

and there are

dispirited people

all

who

but acquiesce in

it,

who have any part

ment are

full

also

many

tired

are not content with life its

dreariness;

in the world's develop-

of schemes for themselves and others

by which the clogging and detaining elements are somehow to be improved away. Sensitive people want to find life more harmonious and beautiful, healthy people desire a more continuous sort of holiday than they can attain, religious people long for a secret ecstasy of peace; there

constant desire at

And

work

is,

in fact, a

to realize perfection.

yet, despite it aU, there is a vast prepon-

derance of evidence which shows us that the at-

tainment of our desired,

little

and that

tented of moods.

dreams

is

not a thing to be

satisfied desire is the least con-

If

we

realize

13

our program,

if

we


Escape and Other Essays succeed,

win

marry the woman we

love,

make a

fortune,

gain power, a whole host of further

leisure,

desires instantly

come

in sight.

I once congratu-

lated a statesman on a triumphant speech.

" Yes," he

" I do not deny that

said,

it

is

a

pleasure to have had for once the exact effect that

one intended to have; but the shadow of

it is

the

fear that having once reached that standard, one

may

not be able to keep

The awful penalty dread of subsequent is

it

up."

of success is the haunting

failure,

and even sadder

stiU

the fact that in striving eagerly to attain an

end,

we are apt to

lose the sense of the

purpose

This is more drearily true of money than of anything else. I could name several friends of my own who started

which inspired

us.

the pursuit of

in business with the perfectly definite

intention of

they might

might

making a competence

live as

and avowed

in order that

they desired to live; that they

travel, read, write,

enjoy a secure

leisure.

But when they had done exactly what they meant to do, the desires were all atrophied.

not give up their work

;

they

felt it

They could

would be safer

to have a larger margin, they feared they might be

bored, they had

made

friends, 14i

and did not wish to


Escape sever the connection, they

more for

their families

:

Even

sensibly altered.

must provide a

the whole so they

to escape from something

little

program had

were

— from

still

in-

planning

some boredom

or anxiety or dread.

And to

yet

realize

it

seems very

what

is

difficult for

any person

the philosophical conclusion,

namely, that the work of each of us matters very to the world, but that it matters very

little

to ourselves that

We

we should have some work

much to do.

seem to be a very feeble-minded race in this

respect, that

we require

and tempted by force

illusions.

and vigor both

had a strong

to be constantly bribed

I have

known men of life who

youth and middle

in

sense of the value

and

significance of

their

work; as age came upon them, the value of

their

work gradually disappeared; they were de-

ferred to, consulted, outwardly reverenced,

perhaps

all the

and

more scrupulously and compassion-

ately in order that they might not guess the la-

mentable fact that their work was done and that the forces and influences were in younger hands.

But the men themselves never lost the sense of their importance. I knew an octogenarian clergyman who declared once

in

my

presence that

15

it

was

ridic-


Escape and Other Essays ulous to say that old

men

lost their faculty of deal-

"

is

ing with affairs.

" Why," he

said,

few years that I work.

It takes

do;

is

it

feel I

me

old

was only too fact,

it

used to

man

obviously did not

work consumed

know that less

correct, because it was, as a matter

for-

business.

It seems rather pitiful that able to face the truth,

we should not be

and that we cannot be con-

tent with discerning the principle of

that our

work

trinsic value,

The

is

it all,

which

given to us to do not for

but because

it is

is

its in-

good for us to do

it.

secret government of the world seems, in-

deed, to be penetrated it is

time

almost wholly performed by his colleagues,

and nothing was referred to him except purely mal

my

have really mastered

far less time than

his impression that his

of

only quite in the last

just promptly and methodically exe-

The

cuted."

it

as if the

by a good-natured irony;

Power controlling us saw

that, like

we must be tenderly wooed into doing things which we should otherwise neglect, by a sense of high importance, as a kindly father who is doing children,

accounts keeps his children quiet by letting one

hold the blotting-paper and another the ink, so

16


Escape that they believe that they are helping when they are merely being kept from hindering.

And

this strange sense of escape

and energy seems given us not that

into activity

we may

which drives us

realize

our aims, which turn out hollow and

vapid enough when they are realized, but that we

may

drink deep of experience for the sake of

upon

beneficent effect all

us.

The

its

failure of almost

Utopias and ideal states, designed and planned

by writers and

artists, lies in the absence of all

power to suggest how the happy folk who have conquered

all

the

and

ills

difficulties

of

life

are to

employ themselves reasonably and eagerly when there ris,

is

to improve. William MorNews from Nowhere," confessed mouth of one of his characters that

nothing

left

indeed, in his "

through the

there would be hardly enough pleasant work, like

hay-making and bridge-building and carpentering

and paving,

left to

go round and the picture of life ;

which he draws, with shops where you

may

want without having their

rich

its

total lack of privacy, the

ask for anything that you

to pay, the guest-houses, with

straw-colored wine in quaint carafes, the stews

served

in

gray

earthenware

dishes

streaked with blue, the dancing, the caressing, the

17


Escape and Other Essays singular absence of

all elderly

women,

strikes

on

the mind with a quite peculiar sense of boredom

and vacuity, because Morris seems to have ehminated so many sources of human interest, and to

have conformed every one to a type, which

is re-

freshing enough as a contrast, but very tiresome in It will not be enough to have got rid of

the mass.

the combative

and sordid and vulgar elements of

the world unless a very active spirit of some kind

has taken

its place.

Morris himself intended that

art should supply the missing force

a sociable thing ;

it is

;

but art

is

not

apt to be a lonely aif air, and

few artists have either leisure or inclination to

ad--

mire one another's work. Still

more dreary was the dream of the philoso-

who was asked upon one occasion what would be left for men to do when they had

pher J.

S. Mill,

been perfected on the lines which he desired. replied, after

He

a long and painful hesitation, that

they might find satisfaction in reading the poems of Wordsworth.

But Wordsworth's poems are

useful in the fact that they supply a refreshing

contrast to the normal thought of the world, and

nothing but the fact that view of

life

many

took a different

was potent enough to produce them.

18


;

Escape So, for the present at

all events,

we must be con-

tent to feel that our imagination provides us with

a motive rather than with a goal and though

it is

;

very important that we should strive with

might to eliminate the baser elements of

we must be brave and

much

all

our

life,

yet

wise enough to confess

of our best happiness

how

born of the fact

is

that we have these elements to contend with.

Edward FitzGerald

once said that a fault of

modern writing was that

many good

it

tried to compress too

things into a page, and aimed too

much

We

must

at omitting the homelier interspaces.

not try to make our at least

lives into

we must try to do

so,

a perpetual feast but

it

must be by

conquest rather than by inglorious flight face the fact that the stuff of

and indeed amiss, and happiness

life is

realize, if

we

;

we

must^

both homely

can, that our

bound up with energetically trying

is

to escape from conditions which we cannot avoid.

When we

are

young and

fiery-hearted,

that a tame counsel; but, like

dawns on us the

how

hill

slowly.

^ Not

until

all

we think

great truths,

it

we begin to ascend

do we grasp how huge, how complicated,

intricate the plain, with all its fields, woods,

hamlets, and streams is;''we are

19

happy men and

•''


"

Escape and Other Essays

/

women

if in

middle age we even faintly grasp that

the actual truth about

life

vastly larger and

is

than any impatient youthful fancies about

finer

it

good

to

have indulged our splen-

did fancies in youth,

if

only for the delight of

though

are,

learning

it is

how much more

magnificent

the real

is

design.\

In the " Pilgrim's Progress," at the very outset of the journey. Evangelist asks Christian is

standing

He

still.

why he

replies:

" Because I know not whither to go." Evangelist, with a certain grimness of humor,

thereupon hands him a parchment poses that

but

all

it will

that

it

wrath to come Well,

it

be a

map

One sup-

or a paper of directions,

has written in

it is,

" Fly from the

!

is

no longer that of which we are and brimstone, storm and tem-

afraid,

a rain of

pest!

The Power behind

gifts

roll.

than these

fire

;

but we

the world has better

still

can and as fast as we can

have to ;

fly,

where we

and when we have

traversed the dim leagues, and have seen things

wonderful at every turn, and have passed through the bitter flood,

hope

— no

we

shall find

guarded

city of

20

—

at least this

is

my

God from which we


Escape shall

go no more out, but another road passing

into wider fields

and dimmer uplands, and

to things

more and more wonderful and strange and unknown.

21



LITERATURE AND LIFE



II

LITERATURE AND LIFE

THERE among

may

a tendency, not by any means

the greater writers, but

be called the epigord,

ture, the

how,

is

—

—

among what

the satellites of litera-

men who would be great

they knew

if

to speak of the business of writing as

if it

were a sacred mystery, pontifically celebrated, something

remote

and

secret,

which

must

be

guarded from the vulgar and the profane, and which requires an initiation to comprehend.

ways

feel

I al-

rather suspicious of this attitude;

it

me something of a pose, adopted in order make other people envious and respectful. It

seems to to is

the same sort of precaution as the " properties "

of the wizard, his crocodile

there

is

gown and wand,

and the skeleton

in the

the stuffed

comer; for

if

a great fuss made about locking and dou-

ble-locking a box,

it

creates

doubt as to whether there

25

is

a presumption of

anything particular


;

Escape and Other Essays in

it.

In

my

nursery days one of

was fond of locking up box, producing ing into

it

it

my

brothers

his private treasures in a

in public, unfastening

it,

glanc-

with a smUe, and then softly closing

and turning the key

in a

way

it

calculated to pro-

voke the most intense curiosity as to the contents but upon investigation

it

proved to contain noth-

ing but the wool of sheep, dried beans, and cases of

exploded cartridges. So, too, I have

known both

who made a mystery out of a holy rapture, as

if

writers

and

artists

their craft, professed

the business of imagination

and the art of setting things down were processes that could not be explained to ordinary people,

but were the property of a brotherhood.

And

thus grow

up cliques and coteries, of people who, by mutual admiration, try to console one another for the absence of the applause which the world will

not concede them, and to atone for the cold-

ness of the public

by a warmth of intimate proxim-

ity.

This does not in the least apply to groups of people art of

who any

are genuinely and keenly interested in kind,

and form a congenial

circle in

which they discuss frankly and enthusiastically

^6


Literature and Ldfe methods of work, the books, ideas, pictures, and

That

music which interest them.

is

quite a dif-

ferent thing, a real fortress of enthusiasm in the

midst of Meshech and Kedar. base and morbid

What makes

it

the desire to exclude for the

is

sake of exclusion; to indulge in solitary raptures,

hoping to be overheard to keep the ;

upon the public;

upon the

trade

of the eye

tail

to attempt to mystify;

and to

human beknow what is

inquisitive instinct of

ings, the natural desire, that

is,

to

going on within any group that seems to have exciting business of its own.

The

Preraphaelites, for instance, were a group

and not a

coterie.

and enjoying, in welcoming

kind

that

They were hood, with

mystic

They were engaged

in

working

in looking out for artistic promise,

and praising any performance of a recognized as " stunning."

Rossetti

sure of their ground. its

initials,

The

brother-

magazine, " The Germ," and

was

all

its

a gigantic game; and they

held together because they were revolutionary in this,

that they wished to slay, as one stabs a ty-

rant, the vulgarized

day.

They did not

tion, of course.

It

and sentimental art of the effect

anything

like

a revolu-

was but a ripple on the flowing

27


Escape and Other Essays stream, and they diverged soon enough, most of

them,

into

definite

tracks

of

their

The

own.

strength of the movement lay in the fact that they

hungered and thirsted after

clamoring for

art,

beauty, so Mr. Chesterton says, as an ordinary

man

clamors for beer.

But

their

aim was not to

mystify or to enlarge their own consequence, but to

convert the unbeliever, and to produce

fine

things.

There

is

something in the Anglo-Saxon tempera-

ment which

on the whole unfavorable to move-

is

ments and groups

;

the great figures of the Vic-

torian time in art and literature have been solitary

men, anarchical as regards tradition, strongly individualistic,

much regard Anglo-Saxon

working on

their

for schools is

or

own

lines

without

The

conventions.

deferential, but not imitative; he

has a fancy for doing things in his own way.

Wordsworth, Keats, Shelley, Byron ever four contemporary poets so

one another's work.? Scott

summed up

— were

there

little afi'ected

Think of the phrase

his artistic creed,

in

by

which

saying that

he had succeeded. In so far as he had succeeded, by a " hurried frankness of composition," which

was meant to please young and eager people.

28

It


— Literature and

Wordsworth had a solemn majesty

true that

is

Ufe

about his work, practised a sort of priestly function, itors

never

averse

to

ardent

entertaining

by conducting them about

vis-

grounds, and

his

showing them where certain poems had been engendered. said,

But Wordsworth,

was proud, not vain

hung cloud or the sponsibility,

as FitzGerald truly

— proud

and desired to be

like the high-

He

solitary peak. felt

felt his re-

rather than to

be applauded. If one takes the later giants,

Tennyson had a

sense of magnificence, a childlike self-absorption.

He

said once in the same breath that the desire of

the public to

know

the details of the artist's

life

was the most degrading and debasing curiosity, it

was ripping people up

like pigs,

— and

added

with a sigh that he thought that there was a congestion in the world about his

own fame

;

he had

received no complimentary letters for several days.

Browning, on the other hand, kept

and

his raptures

his processes severely to himself.

He

never

seems to have given the smallest hint as to

how he

He

was as

conceived a reticent

poem or worked

it out.

about his occupation as a well-bred stock-

broker, and did his best in society to give the im-

29


Escape and Other Essays pression of a perfectly decorous and conventional

gentleman, telling strings of not very interesting anecdotes,

nary.

and making a great point of being

ordi-

Browning

was

Indeed,

I

believe

that

haunted by the eighteenth-century idea that there

was something not quite respectable about professional literature,

and

Gray, he wished

that, like

to be considered a private gentleman

When

for his amusement.

who wrote

in later years

he took

a holiday, he went not for secret contemplation, but to recover from social fatigue. really one of the

most mysterious

ture in this respect, because his inner

was so

entirely apart

parties

and afternoon

closure, rolls;

from his outer calls.

Browning

is

figures in literalife life

of poetry

of dinner-

Inside the sacred in-

the winds of heaven blow, the thunder

he proclaims the supreme worth of human

passion, he dives into the disgraceful secrets of the soul

:

and then he comes out of

his

study a courte-

ous and very proper gentleman, looking like a

and talking

like

peared to be as good-humoredly

like

retired diplomatist,

commercial traveler

an

intelligent

— a man whose one wish apevery one else

as he conveniently could.

What,

again,

is

one to make of Dickens, with

30


Literature and lAfe his love of private theatricals, his florid waistcoats

and watch-chains,

his sentimental radicalism, his

kindly, convivial, gregarious life? his

work

in

He, again, did

a rapture of solitary creation, and

seemed to have no taste for discussing his ideas or

Then, too, Dickens's later desertion of

methods.

work in favor of public readings and moneymaking is curious to note. He was like Shak-

his

spere in this, that the passion of his later

life

seemed to be to realize an ideal of bourgeois prosDickens seems to have regarded his art

perity.

partly as a means of social reform, and partly as a

The

method of making money.

latter

aim

is

to a

great extent accounted for by the miserable and humiliating circumstances of his early bit very deep into him.

an end

made

in itself,

his

way

Yet

his art

life,

which

was hardly

but something through which he

to other aims.

Carlyle, again,

was a writer who put ideas

first,

despised his craft except as a means of prophesying, hated literary

men and

coteries, preferred aris-

tocratic society, while at the same time he loved to

say how unutterably tiresome he found

Who many

will

ever understand

why

miles to attend parties

31

it.

Carlyle trudged

and receptions

at


Escape and Other Essays Bath House, where the Ashburtons

lived,

or what

I have a belief that

stimulus he discerned in it?

Carlyle felt a quite unconscious pride in the fact that he, the son of a small Scotch farmer, had his

assured and respected place circle,

just as I have very

among a

little

semi-feudal

doubt that his mi-

gration to Craigenputtock was ultimately suggested to him by the pleasure and dignity of being

an undoubted

laird,

and

at least his wife's, lands.

living

among

In saying

his

own, or

do not

this, I

wish to belittle Carlyle, or to accuse him of what

may be called snobbishness. He had no wish to worm himself by slavish deference into the society of the great, but he liked to be able to weilk in and

say his say there, fearing no man;

huge mirror that

reflected his

own

Yet no one ever said harder or

own

his

Charles

fellow-craftsmen.

Lamb

His

!

Or take

was

like

a

independence.

fiercer things of

description

of

as " a pitiful rickety, gasping, stag-

gering, stammering tom-fool "

one

it

his

is

not an amiable

account of Wordsworth

— how

instead of a hand-shake, the poet intrusted him

with " a handful of

and how less

his speech

numb

unresponsive fingers,"

" for prolixity, thinness, end-

dilution " excelled all the other speech that


;

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He

Carlyle had ever heard from mortals.

admit-

Wordsworth was " a genuine man, but intrinsically and extrinsically a small one, let them ted that

sing or say what they will." spised his trade

:

In

fact, Carlyle de-

one of the most vivid and voluble

of writers, he derided the desire of self-expression

one of the most continuous and brilliant of talkers,

he praised and upheld the virtue of

action

condemned to twaddle

He

silence.

spoke and wrote of himself as a would-be

man

of

and Ruskin ex-

;

pressed very trenchantly what will always be the puzzle of Carlyle's

—

life

that,

as

Ruskin

said,

he groaned and gasped and lamented over the intolerable burden of his work,

you came to read salient

and

collected,

you found

is

obviously

yet,

of

much

patiently

and patently

enjoyed.

the mystery of his lectures.

seem to have been

when

it all alive, full

vivid details, not so

as

Again there

it,

and that

fiery, eloquent,

They

impressive ha-

rangues; and yet Carlyle describes himself stumbling

to

the platform,

sleepless,

agitated,

and

drugged, inclined to say that the best thing his audience could do for him would be to cover him

up with an inverted tub while as he left the platform among signs of visible emotion and torrents ;


Escape and Other Essays of applause, he thought, he said, that the idea of

being paid for such stuff made him feel like a

who had been robbing There

man

hen-roosts.

an interesting story of how Tennyson

is

once stayed with Bradley, when Bradley was head-

master of Marlborough, and said grimly one evening that he envied Bradley, with life

that

all his

heart, his

of hard, fruitful, necessary work, and owned

he sometimes

what, after

amount

to,

did

all,

about his own poetry,

felt

all this

and who was

elaborate versifying

any way the better or

in

happier for it?

The truth that this

is

is

that the

man

of letters forgets

exactly the same thought as that which

haunts the busy

man

after, let us say, a

day of

looking over examination-papers or attending com-

The busy man,

mittees.

if

he

reflects

at

all,

is

only too apt to say to himself, " Here have I been slaving

away

a stone-breaker, reading endless

like

scripts, discussing

what on earth

is

an

infinity of

the use of

fred Lyall once said that

a hand in big public ture

much

as a

if

petty details, and

it all?

a

affairs,

man who had

"

Yet Sir Al-

man had

once taken

he thought of

litera-

crossed the Atlantic

in a sailing-yacht might think of sculling a boat

34


— Literature and Life

upon the Thames.

One of the things that moved

Dr. Johnson to a tempest of wrath was when on the death of

Lord

Lichfield, the

Boswell said to him that

if

Lord Chancellor,

he had taken to the law

as a profession, he might have been

and with the same

lor,

Johnson was ex-

title.

tremely angry, and said that

Lord Chancel-

it

was unfriendly to

man of such things when it was too One may conclude from such incidents and

remind a

fessions that even letters

late.

con-

some of the most eminent men of

have been haunted by the sense that in

fol-

lowing literature they have not chosen the best part, and that success in public ful

a more use-

life is

thing as well as more glorious.

But one has to ask imaginative

oneself

man means by

success,

that attracts him in the idea of the

more obvious

what exactly an

and what

it is

Putting aside

it.

and material advantages,

— a man

wealth, position, influence, reputation,

far-reaching mind and large ideas

haunted by a feeling that life,

if

may

of

well be

he had entered public

he might by example, precept, influence, legis-

lation,

have done something to turn his ideas and

schemes

into

some moral or

accomplished facts, have social reform,

have

set

effected

a mark on


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It

fame

must be remembered that a great writoften a posthumous growth,

is

and we

must be very careful not to attribute to a famous author a consciousness in his lifetime of his subsequent, or even of his contemporary, influence. is

It

undoubtedly true that Ruskin and Carlyle af-

fected the thought of their time to an extraordinary

Ruskin summed up in

degree.

his

teaching an

artistic ideal of the pursuit

and

while Carlyle inculcated a

more combative theory

of active righteousness

But Ruskin's

influence of beauty,

and the hatred of

later years were spent in the

He

of a profound sense of failure.

cant.

shadow

thought that

the public enjoyed his pretty phrases and derided his ideas in vain,

;

while Carlyle felt that he

and that the world was

had fulminated settling down

more comfortably than ever into the pursuit of bourgeois prosperity and dishonest respectability.

And

yet

if,

on the other hand, one compares the

subsequent fame of men of action with the fame of

men

Who

of letters, the contrast

of the

Who

is

indeed bewildering.

attaches the smallest idea to the personality

Lord that

Lichfield

whom Dr. Johnson

adores the

memory

of

envied.''

Wordsworth

knows anything about Lord Goderich, a contem-

36


Literature and JUfe

The world

porary prime minister?

reads and re-

reads the memoirs of dead poets, goes on pil-

grimage to the tiny cottages where they lived

in

poverty, cherishes the smallest records and souvenirs of them.

The names

of statesmen and gen-

become dim except to professed historians,

erals

while the memories of great romancers and lyrists,

and even of

lesser writers

still,

go on being revived

What would Keats have thought,

and redecorated.

room

as he lay dying in his high, hot, noisy

Rome,

if

at

he had known that a century later every

smallest detail of his

life,

his

most

careless letters,

would be scanned by eager eyes, when few save historians would be able to

name a

single

member

of the cabinet in power at the time of his death?

There

is

a charming story told by Lord Mor-

how he once met Rossetti in the street at Chelsea when a general parliamentary election was

ley,

of

going on, and

it

transpired, after a few remarks,

that Rossetti was not even aware that this was the case.

.When he was informed, he said with some that

he

other would get

in,

hesitation

very

much

matter.

supposed that

and

that, after

Lord Morley,

dote, said that he himself

37

one side all, it

or

did not

telling the anec-

had forgotten which


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from which he concluded that

it

had

not very much mattered.

The

truth

is

that national

life

has to go on,

and that very elaborate arrangements are made by statesmen and politicians for

But

it is in reality

its

administration.

very unimportant.

statesman in the world cannot affect

it

The very

wisest

much

he can only take advantage of the trend of public If he outruns

opinion.

it,

he

is

instantly stranded

and perhaps the most he can do

is

to foresee

how

people will be thinking some six weeks ahead.

But meanwhile the and to the soul ; he lating; he

is

writer is

is

speaking from the soul

suggesting, inspiring, stimu-

presenting thoughts in so beautiful a

form that they become desirable and adorable ; and

what the average man idealist

believes to-day is

what the

He

has believed half a century before.

must take

his chance of

fame and ;

his best

hope

is

to eschew rhetoric, which implies the consciousness of opponents and auditors, and just present his

dreams and visions as serenely and beautifully as he can.

The statesman has

compromise, to convert cannot. sacrifice

It

is

if

to argue, to strive, to

he can, to coerce

if

he

a dusty encounter, and he must

grace and perhaps truth in the onset.

He


Literature and Ldfe

may

gain his point, achieve the practicable and

the second best; but he

is

schemer, and he cannot

an opportunist and a

make

life

into

what he

Of

but only into what he can manage.

wills,

way

course the writer in a

risks

more; he may

reject the homely, useful task, and yet not have

the strength to fruitlessly

and

fit

wings to his visions he ;

die unpraised, with the

may

live

thought that

he has lost two birds in the hand for one which

He may

not even in the bush.

Don

otherwise,

is

life

well

but he could not choose

and he has paid a heavier price for

his

probably a whoUy false antithesis to speak as a contrast to literature; one

draw

a distinction between eating

What

ing.

;

than many a man has paid for his success.

failure

It

turn out a mere

Quixote, helmeted with a barber's basin and

tilting against windmills

of

is

is

meant

as

a rule

is

might as

and drink-

that

if

a

man

devotes himself to imaginative creation, to the perception and expression of beauty, he must be pre-

pared to withdraw from other imagination

is

precisely the

^The

real fact

stinct

and

a function of

activities. life,

after

But all,

the

and

same holds good of stock-broking. is

that we Anglo-Saxons, by in-

inheritance, think of the acquisition of


Escape and Other Essays property as the most obvious function of

man

long as a

is

life.

As

occupied in acquiring property,

we ask no further questions; we take for granted that he

no

is

virtuously employed, as long as he breaks

social rules

his

while

:

if

he succeeds in getting into

hands an unusual share of the

we think highly of

of the world, ideals

have altered very

and we fulness

still

mark of

the hero.

an occupation

leisure as

him.

Indeed, our

since barbarous times,

are under the impression that resource-

the

is

little

and disapproved of

in

is

I imagine that

much more

distrusted

America than in England;

but even in England, where the power to be

admired and envied, a man who life as

lives as

idle is

heroic a

can be attained by playing golf and shoot-

ing pheasants rich

goods

divisible

is

man who

amusement.

more trusted and respected than a

paints or composes music for his

Field sports are intelligible enough;

the pursuit of art requires some explanation,

and

incurs a suspicion of effeminacy or eccentricity.

Only when authorship becomes a source of is it

I

thoroughly respectable.

profit

%

had a friend who died not very long ago.

He

had

in his

tive

work but he was wealthy, and at a compara-

younger days done a

;

40

little

administra-


Literature and Life tively early

He

age he abandoned himself to

much

traveled, he read, he went

into society,

When

he enjoyed the company of his friends. died he was spoken of as

make excuses

;

Even

of few people

To

his closest

necessary to explain and

it

he was shy, he stammered, he was

not suited to parliamentary

who

he

an amateur, and praised

as a cricketer of some merit. friends seemed to find

leisure.

who

did so

life;

much

but I can think

for his friends or

so radiated the simplest sort of happiness.

be welcomed by him, to be with him, put a

glow on

life,

because you

felt instinctively

little

that he

was actively enjoying every hour of your company. I thought, I remember, at his death, it

how

hopeless

was to assess a man's virtue and usefulness If he

the terms of his career.

ment, registered a social

functions,

in

had entered Parliaspent his time in

silent vote,

letter-writing,

lobby-gossip, he

would have been acclaimed as a man of weight and was, though he

had stood by

influence; but as

it

friends in trouble,

had helped lame dogs over

stiles,

had been the center of good-will and mutual understanding to a dozen groups and circles, it seemed impossible to recognize that he in his generation.

It

is

had done anything

not to be claimed that his

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!

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life

of persistent benevolence

lived selfishly

or devoted

men who had

energy; but I thought of a dozen

and comfortably, making money and

amassing fortunes, without a touch of real kind-

who would yet

ness or fine tenderness about them,

be held to have done well and to have deserved respect,

And

when compared with

then I perceived

how

this

peace-maker

intolerably false

many

of our cherished ideals are; that apart from lives of pure selfishness and annexation,

many

a pro-

merely

fessed philanthropist or active statesman

is

following a sterile sort of ambition

it is

;

that

on the whole for so-called public men to

rare

live

for

the sake of the public; while the simple, kindly, uncalculating, friendly attitude to

life is

a real

source of grace and beauty, and leaves behind

it

a fragrant memory enshrined in a hundred hearts. So, too,

when

it

comes to what we

call literature.

No

one supposes that we can do without

its

essence

vivid talk. life,

it is

It

is

and

in

fine,

but the delighted perception of

the ecstasy of taking a

tery, the

it,

but an extension of happy,

hand

in the great

mys-

joy of love and companionship, the wor-

ship of beauty and desire

and energy and memory

taking shape in the most effective form that

man


;

Literature and Ldfe can

There

devise.

is

no

real merit in the

accumu-

who do

lation of property; only the people

necessary work of the world, and the people

the

who

increase the joy of the world are worth a moment's

thought, and yet both alike are

little

regarded.

Of course where the weakness of the really lies

is

that

artistic life

often not taken

it is

up out of

mere communicativeness and happy excitement, as a child

a breathless

tells

tale,

but as a device

for attracting the notice and earning the applause

of the world ; and then self-regarding

it is

activities.

on a par with

But

if

it

is

all

other

taken up

with a desire to give rather than to receive, as an irrepressible sharing of delight, it becomes not a

solemn and dignified

affair,

but just one of the

most beautiful and uncalculating impulses

in the

world.

Then

there falls another shadow across the path

the unhappiest natures I

keen emotion and swift

know are the natures of perception who yet have

not the gift of expressing what they artistic

medium.

It

is

these,

alas!

feel in aiiy

who cumber They are

the streets and porticoes of literature.

attracted away from homely

toil

by the

perilous

sweetness of art, and when they attempt to ex-


— Escape and Other Essays press their raptures, they have no faculty or

of hand. ous

And

dreariness

these

men and women

fall

knack

with zeal-

or acrid contemptuousness, and

radiate discomfort and uneasiness about them.

/

"

A book,"

either

how

said Dr. Johnson, " should show one

to enjoy life or

was ever the function of pungently or justly?

how

to endure

it

literature expressed

Any man who

endures has a right to speak,

if

he can.

"

more

enjoys or If he can

help others to enjoy or to endure, then he need

never be in any doubt as to his part in

life

;

while

if

he cannot ecstatically enjoy, he can at least good-

humoredly endure.

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THE NEW POETS



!

Ill

THE NEW POETS

THERE

'S a

dark window

looks out over

my

in

narrow

a gable which slip

of garden,

where the almond-trees grow, and to-day the dark window, with

its

bloom, with

lines, had become The almond was in

black casement

suddenly a Japanese panel. its delicious,

pink, geometrical flowers,

not a flower which wins one's love, somehow;

it is

But

it is

not homely or sweet enough for that.

unapproachably pure and beautiful, with a touch of

fanaticism

about

it

—

the

which

fanaticism

comes of stainless strength, as though one woke in the

dawn and found an angel

room:

in one's

he would not quite understand one's troubles

But when

I looked lower down, there

was a

sweeter message stiU, for the mezereon was awake,

with

its

tiny porcelain crimson flowers and

its

mi-

nute leaves of bright green, budding as I think

Aaron's rod must have budded, the very crust of 4.7


Escape and Other Essays the sprig bursting into

little

flames of green

and

red.

I thought at the sight of all this that some

good fortune was about

to befall

me and ;

so it did.

When I .came back there came a friend to see me whom I seldom see and much enjoy seeing. He is young, but he plays a

fine

part in the world, and

he carries about with him two very one

is

He

our writers are doing.

whom

is

the

man from

first

I hear of new and beautiful work; and he

praises it royally, he

declaims like

fine qualities;

a great and generous curiosity about what

it

in his high, thin voice,

which wavers

And what makes

all this so re-

a dry flame.

freshing

is

murmurs phrases, he even

that his other great quality

an

in-

and

in-

is

tensely critical spirit, which stares closely

tently at work, as though a crystalline lens.

After we had talked a

little,

" Come, praise me some new of the

I said to him: writers,

you herald

dawn You always do that when you come and you must do it now." He smiled !

to see me, secretly,

and drew out a slim volume from

pocket and read

drawn

me some

into saying the

"How

do you

name

find that.?

48

his

verses; I will not be

of the poet.

" he

said.


;

The New Poets " Oh," I said, " " finest gold? " Yes," he said, "

very good ; but

it is

it is

And he

that."

is it

the

then read

me some more. " Now," I

That seems but

said,

to

me very

has what

it

"I

is

to

be frank with you.

will

musical and accomplished

me

the one unpardonable

He

fault in poetry: it is literary.

has heard and

much sweet and solemn verse, mind murmurs like a harp hung among

read, that poet, so

that his

the trees that are therein; the winds blow into

But

music.

I don't want that

;

song, a spring of living water." tle

I want a fount of

He

looked a

lit-

vexed at that, and read me a few more pages.

And

then he went on to praise the work of two

or three other writers, and added that he believed there

was going to be a great outburst of poetry

after a long frost.

" Well," I there

is

that I

said,

" I am sure I hope

so.

And

one thing in the world that I desire,

may

if

it is

be able to recognize and love the new

voices."

And think.

then I told him a story of which I often

When

I was a

young man, Very much pre-

occupied with Tennyson and

4@

Omar Khayyam and


Escape and Other Essays Swinburne, I went to stay with an elderly business

man, a friend of stout, rubicund

had a voice

and

shrill

my

family.

He

was a great

man, very good-natured, and he

like the

cry of an expiring mouse,

We

were sitting after dinner in

thin.

his big dining-room, several of us, looking out into

a wide, dusty garden, when the talk turned on books, and I suppose I praised Swinburne, for he

asked

me

And

even the weariest river

Winds somewhere

He

safe to sea.

heard me attentively enough, and said

pretty good to

poem which

to say some, and I quoted the

;

but then he said that

Byron, and

in his

it

it

was

was nothing

squeaky voice he quoted a

quantity of Byron, whose poetry, I

am

sorry to

say, I regarded as I might regard withered flowers or worse.

they

fell

on to

decisively

Byron

His eyes brimmed with his shirt-front;

tears,

and

and then he said

that there had been no poetry since

— none

at

all.

Tennyson was mere word

music. Browning was unintelligible, and so forth.

And

I remember how, with the insolence of youth,

I thought

how

dreadful

it

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was that the old man


The New Poets should have lost

sympathy and judgment;

all

be-

me

a really important

matter, full of tones and values.

I did not under-

cause poetry then seemed to

stand then, as I understand now, that

but, as the psalm says,

day

I

what happens when one

another and one night certifieth an-

telleth

other.

know now that

there can be

no

deceit

about poetry, and that no poet can make you

more than he

feels himself,

ways make another worth of

among

as I

al-

much; and that the

lonely

fields,

So I told

my

old

might think of a scarecrow

I did not say

folly.

though he cannot

and then I thought of

feels;

mind

left alone, while real

ness.

as

feel

feel

his art exists only just in so far as he can

say what he friend's

a

and symbols, and that poetry

question of signals is

all

it is

a.

thing absurd, ragged, and

men went about it,

their busi-

but I thought

my young

it

in

friend that story

;

my and

I said:

" I know that loves

and

thing and

it

does not really matter what one

moved by

is is

as long as one loves some-

moved by

its

beauty.

But,

still,

I

do not want that to happen to me; I do not want to be like a pebble on the beach,

draws past

it

to the land.

51

I

when the water

want to

feel

and


Escape and Other Essays understand the new signals. In the nursery," I said, " we used to anger our governess when she read us a piece of poetry, by saying to her,

made

up ?

it

You

'

But

she would say. '

Who

made

up.?

it

should say,

'

I feel

and

'

now

Who

'

Who

wrote

it ?

'

inclined to ask,

I feel, too, like the sign-

who saw a new sign hung up in disgust, That looks as if

painter on his rounds, at an inn,

and said

'

some one had been doing seems to

me only a very

it himself.'

gifted

Your poet

and accomplished

amateur." " Well," he said rather petulantly, " so,

it

may

be

of course; but I don't think that you can hope

you begin by being determined to

to advance, if

disapprove." " No, not that," I said.

many

cases of inferior poets,

" But one knows of

who were taken up

and trumpeted abroad by well-meaning admirers,

whom

one sees

to be so

now

many

to have

had no

significance,

but

blind alleys in the street of art;

they led nowhere; one had just to retrace one's steps, if one explored them.

Indeed," I said, " I

had rather miss a great poet than be misled by a little

one."

" Ah, no," he

said,

" I don't

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feel that.

I

had


The

Neti)

Poets

rather be thrilled and carried away, even if I dis-

covered afterwards that

" If you

great," I said,

;

'

really great."

not be

I do not

side.

not to be reckoned

it is

What

among

I object to

great and eternal.'

is

may

this

This touches me with interest

lords of the garden.'

saying, 'This

was not

"I am on your

mind your saying, and delight but

it

admit that

will freely

is

I feel that I

should be able to respond to the great poet,

Hashed out among us especially in a time

of

very

beautiful

haps this time tiful

is

;

the

your

if

he

but he must be great, and

when there verse.

really

is

suspect

I

a quantity that

per-

one that will furnish a very beau-

There are many people

anthology.

alive

who have written perhaps half a dozen exquisite lyrics, when the spring and the soaring thought and the vision and the beautiful word conspired together.

But there

large, tender heart at work.

that ; but

is

there

any great

is

suddenly

no great, wide,

is

No, I won't even say spirit

who has

and a supreme word-power as well? there

all

all

that

I believe that

more poetry, more love of beauty, more

emotion in the world than ever

men and women can't write

it

;

and a great many

are living their poetry

or sing

it."

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who just


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A perverse generation seeking after a sign," he

said rather grimly, "

and

coming except the old

sign, that has been there for

centuries

!

there

is

no sign forth-

I don't care," he added, " about the

sign of the thing.

It

is

the quality that I want

new poets of whom I have been speaking have got the quality. That is all I ask for." " No," I said, " I want a great deal more than that! Browning gave us the sense of the human heart, bewildered by all the new knowledge, and yet Tennyson passionately desiring. and

these

—

" Poor old Tennyson " he said. !

" That

is

very ungracious," I

as perverse as I

it,

tears.

fine,

;

rich

it

all his faults,

homely domestic emotion of the race

and splendid, and because

old-fashioned,

are

and he put into words

poetry of labor, order, and peace.

and

You

I was going to say,

that Tennyson, with

was a great lord of music the

"

was about Byron when the old

banker quoted him with

and I wiU say

said.

you

call it

it

It

—

the

was new

seems to you

mere respectability; but

was the marching music of the world, because

he showed men that faith was enlarged and not overturned by science.

These two were great,

because they saw far and wide; they knew by in64.


The New Poets stinct just what the ordinary man was thinking, who yet wished his life to be set to music. These They have little men of yours don't see that.

their

moments of

soming orchard

ecstasy, as full of

we

all

have, in the blos-

the songs of birds.

And

that will always and forever give us the lyric,

than that

;

I,

you, thousands of people, are feeling

something that makes the brain

The

leap. it is,

mischief

is

thrill

and the heart

that we don't know what

and I want a great poet to come and

" Ah," he

if

But I want something more

the skill is there.

said, " I

am

tell

us."

afraid you want some-

thing ethical, something that

satisfies

the

man

in

Tennyson who Walked between

And now and

his

But we have done with people

wife and child

then he gravely smiled. all that.

who can express

the

What we want fine,

is

rare, unusual

thoughts of highly organized creatures, and you

want a poet

to sing of

" Why, yes," I

said,

bread and butter " " I think I agree with Fitz!

Gerald that tea and bread and butter are the only foods worth anything

not do without.

And

—

the only things one can-

it is

65

just the things that one


:

Escape and Other Essays cannot do without that I want the new great poet to sing of. is

I agree with William Morris that art

we

the one thing

want, the expression of

all

And

man's joy in his work. retires into ties,

fine

the more that art

nuances and intellectual subtle-

the more that

it

and mysterious, the

becomes something esoteric

news ?

'

she replied,

'

news and new news

'

want the poets to

'

's

only

and that

is

that

telling,

Tennyson

Christ died for all men.' '

wife,

Mr. Tennyson, there

one piece of news worth

grandly and simply,

it. When What 's the

about

less I care

Tennyson said to the farmer's

Ah, that

!

And

tell us.

that

It

said

very

old news and good

's

is

exactly what I

a common inherit-

is

ance, not a refined monopoly, that I claim."

He

laughed at

" I think that will

this, 's

and said

rather a mid-Victorian view ; I

confute you out

When Tennyson

Tennyson legend.

of the

called Swinburne's verse

'

poison-

ous honey, brought from France,' Swinburne retorted by speaking of the laureate's domestic treacle.

You

can't have both.

If

you

like treacle,

you must not clamor for honey." " Yes, I prefer honey," I said, " but you seem to

me

to be in search of

what I

called literary po-


The New Poets etry.

That

is

what I am afraid

work of a mind the more that they the

called

'

strong

generally

the

melodrama

in fact.

Realism

is

;

I hate what

that seems to

kind

coarsest

we are getting

and valuing ideas

uncommon.

are

poetry

'

of

—

now abjuring

life

itself,

and

;

a big dog, but

nose on the scent of something.

more mysterious and prodigious rearranged upon romantic

scrambles

laugh at what you

name

for one of

it

it

has got

many

its

much

than

life

means some-

splashes through

through hedges. call ethics,

a

It is

It

fail-

Life goes

affair

lines.

thing very vast indeed, though

mud and

has

it

strong, fuU-blooded,

of mistakes and blunders and

like

has

it

felicitous co-

ures and sharp disasters and fears.

shambling along

—

the best sort of realism.

the heroic theory;

incidences, life arranged on ideal lines

life, full

is

to be

romanticism

thrown over the old conventions, the

eager

me

I want to have in poetry what

in fiction

gone straight to

want

I don't

of.

fed on words,

but that

You may is

kinds of collisions.

only a It

is

the fact that we are always colliding with something, always

coming unpleasant croppers, that

the exciting thing.

I want the poet to

what the obscure winged thing ^

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it is

tell

is

me

that we are fol-


— Escape and Other Essays lowing; and to be

made

if

he can't explain

to feel that

I don't say that all

don't think that

life is

it is;

it

to me, I

want

worth while following.

it is

I

poetical material.

but there

a thing called

is

beauty which seems to me the most maddeningly perfect thing in the world.

dawn,

in the

rolling lines of wood'

gestures

That

is

and I

of

I see

it

everywhere,

in the far-ofF landscape, with all its

people,

and

field,

their

in

in the faces

a clue, a golden thread, a

shall be

and

words and deeds.

more than content

line of scent,

if

I

am

encour-

aged to follow that." " Ah," he said, " now I partly agree with you. It is precisely that

which the new men are after;

they take the pure gold of

life

word and phrase, and

is

it

and just coin

it

into

that which I discern

in them."

" Yes," I

" but I want something a great

said,

deal bigger than that.

and in

a

in everything. little

want to

space and make

and forget what poet to

I

tell

is

me what

it silent

happening

whom

everywhere

it is

and

outside.

beautiful,

I want a

that leaps in the eyes and

beckons in the smiles of people people

see it

I don't want to have to wall

whom

I meet

often enough I could not live with,

68

—


;

The New Poets the more

's

— but

whom

the pity,

I want to be

I want the

friends with, all the same.

common

joys and hopes and visions to be put into music.

And when

I find a man, like

Walt Whitman, who

does show

me

affections

and joys of simple hearts, so that I

the beauty and wonder

am

tell

feel

desiring the same thing, though

sure that we are all

we cannot

and the strong

each other what

it is,

then I

feel

I

in the presence of a poet indeed."

My

young

up

friend shut

the

little

book which

he had been holding in his hand.

" Yes," he said, " that would be a great thing but one can't get at things in that

must

all specialize;

new aims and

and

is

called our

and you must be content path among the

artist is

case of

is.

stars.

j oys

It

is

to follow a very narrow

do not mind speaking

I

essentially a mystery,

in widest

Daddy Wordsworth ent affair ;

aside a

common humanity,

a sort of hermit in the world. '

We

I do not think you understand

quite frankly.

what art

you must put

ideals of art,

great deal of what

way now.

you want to follow the

if

said.

and the is

not a

commonalty spread,' as

That

is

quite a differ-

but art has got to withdraw

content to be misunderstood

59

It

;

itself,

to be

and I think that you


Escape and Other Essays have just as much parted company with

it

as your

old friend the banker."

" Well," I give

said,

" we shall

your new poets a careful

be glad

if

Anyhow, I will reading, and I shall

see.

I can really admire them, because, indeed,

I don't want to be stranded on a

And

so

my

lee shore,"

and I began to

friend departed;

wonder whether the art of which he spoke was not, after

all,

as real a thing as the beauty of

almond-flower and like

my

mezereons

to be able to Include

it

!

If so, I should

and understand

though I do not want to think that

60

my

it is

the end.

it,


WALT WHITMAN



IV

WALT WHITMAN 1

THERE

come days and hours

in the lives of

the busiest, most active, most eager of us,

when we suddenly der,

it

may

be, or

realize with

a shock or a shud-

perhaps with a sense of solemn

mystery, that has something vast, inspiring, hopeful

about

own

it,

identity.

the solidity and the isolation of our

Much

of our civilized

life is

an

at-

tempt, not deliberate but instinctive, to escape from this.

We

organize

parties, into sects

ourselves

and

companies, that we

;

nations

societies, into families

may

that we are not alone

into

and and

try to persuade ourselves

and we get nearest to per-

suading ourselves that we are at one, when we enter into the secrets of love or friendship,

we know as we are known. fades,

and

feel

But even that

that

vision

and we become aware, at sad moments, that

the comradeship

is

over; the soul that came so

63


Escape and Other Essays close to us, smiled in

our eyes, was clasped to our

heart, has left us, has passed into the darkness, or if it still lives

and breathes, has drawn away into

And

the crowd.

then one sees that no fusion

possible, that half the secrets of the heart

That even

remain unguessed and untold.

had

the words to do

it,

own

one

if

one could not express the

sense of our personality,

even our

is

must

much of which

escapes

conscious and critical thought.

One

has, let us say, a serious quarrel with a close friend,

and one hears him explaining and protesting, and yet he does not

know what has happened, cannot

understand, cannot even perceive where the

oflFense

may dawn on

us that

lay

;

and at such a moment

it

we too do not know what we have done

;

we have

exhibited some ugly part of ourselves, of which

are not conscious

;

we have stricken and wounded

another heart, and we cannot see

We

did not intend to do

realize that

see that

it,

we

how

cry.

it

we

ourselves have the

disconcerting effect

was done.

Or again we

we regard some one with a

and cannot give any reason for

aversion,

we

causeless it

;

or we

same freezing and

upon another; and

so after

hundreds of such experiences, we become aware at last that

no

real, free,

entire

64

communication

is


Walt Whitman that however eagerly we tell our thoughts and display our temperaments, there must always

possible

;

remain something which

wrapped

is

in darkness,

the incommunicable essence of ourself that can

blend with no other soul.

But again

it is

true that all

have an instinct for expression

—

human

musicians

— have always been trying

thing, to

make

signals, to

themselves, to "

souls

to do this one

communicate, to reveal

unpack the heart

in

words "

what has often hindered the process and

;

and

nullified

and van-

their efi'orts has been an uneasy dignity ity,

who

writers, painters,

that must try to make out a better case than

the facts justify.

For a variety of motives, and

indeed for the best of motives,

men and women

suppress, exalt, refine the presentment of themselves,

because they desire to be loved, and think

that they must therefore be careful to be admired, just as

the'

lover adorns himself

his best foot forward,

and hides

concert interest or sympathy. in life that often

when we most

all

and puts

that

So that

it

may

dis-

happens

desire to be real,

we

are most unreal.

What

differentiates

Walt Whitman from

other writers that I know,

65

is

all

that he tried to reveal


Escape and Other Essays himself,

and on the whole contrived to do

less reserve

so with

than any other human being.

" I know perfectly well my own egotism," he wrote " I know my omnivorous lines, and must not ;

write

any

He

less."

failure of art, or

was not disconcerted by any

any propriety, or any apparent

discrepancy.

Do

I contradict myself ?

Very well I

He had

then, I contradict myself.

am large,

no

I contain multitudes.

artistic conscience, as

we

say.

—I

feel

In the curious and interesting essay called

"A

" Easily written, loose-finger'd chords the thrum of your climax and close."

Backward Glance over Travel's Roads," which he wrote late in

life,

surveying his work, he admits that

he has not gained acceptance, that his book failure,

is

a

and has incurred marked anger and con-

tempt; and he good-humoredly quotes a sentence from a friend's letter, written in 1884, " I find a solid line of enemies to

you everywhere."

And

yet,

he says, for all that, and in spite of everything, he has had " his say entirely his own way, and put it unerringly on record."

and doubtless

It

is

simply " a faithful,

self-willed record,"

66

he says.


Walt Whitman That then was Walt Whitman's program, in its very scope

and range worthy of some amaze-

ment and respect! lently or with

he

calls

Because

is

not done inso-

it is

any braggadocio,

" the barbaric yawp."

anything

surely

in spite of

what

I do not think that

more notable than the good-humor and

the equanimity of

it all.

He

is

not interested in

himself in a morbid or self-conscious

way; he has

not the slightest wish to make himself out to be or magnificent or superior

fine

He

other way.

down

is

—

it

merely going to try to break

He

the grasses at the feet of man.

it

quite the

the barriers between soul and soul, to

the river of self ripple and welter and

you

is

to admire

it,

does not wish

though he hopes you may love

there are to be no excuses or pretenses

;

let

wash among

;

he does

not wish to be seen at certain angles or in subdued lights.

He

and

who

lets

cause he is

is

casts himself

down

observe him

will

;

In his nakedness,

and

all this

not be-

either hero or saint; his proudest title

to be an average man, one of the crowd, with

passions, weaknesses, uglinesses, even deformities.

He

is

leave

there, he is just so, it

;

but he

is

and you may take

not ashamed or

sensitive,

it

or

nor

in

any way abashed he smiles his frank, good-natured ;

67


Escape and Other Essays and suddenly one perceives the greatness

smile;

He

of it!

neither fanatic nor buffoon; he

is

not performing like the boxer or wrestler, nor

he

and patiently for the sake of the

sitting mournfully

pence, like the fat

man

at the fair; he

trying, to say what he thinks

has any aim at

is

is

all, it is

He

abashed sincerity.

and

feels,

is

merely

and

he

if

to tempt others into uncries

to

man, " If you

would only recognize yourself as you

are, without

pretenses or excuses, the dignity which your sub-

terfuges are meant to secure would be yours with-

out question."

It

or indifferent.

Every one has a right to be where

he

is,

and there

tion too. it

may

is

That

is

not a question of good, bad,

a reason for him and a

is

the gospel of

justifica-

Walt Whitman;

be a bad gospel, or an ugly one, or an inde-

corous one; but no one can pretend that

it is

not

a big one.

One immense and

man

fruitful discovery

made, and yet one can hardly

covery;

it

is

Walt Whit-

call it a dis-

more perhaps an inspired doctrine,

unsupported by argument, wholly unphilosophical, proclaimed with a childlike loudness and confidence,

68


Walt Whitman but yet probably true the doctrine, that :

body and

indissoluble union between soluble,

one

calls it,

than the fact that

and yet nothing

it is

is

a union which

and inevitably dissolved

in

is,

of the Indis-

soul.

more patent is

invariably

death; while on the

other hand, one sees in certain physical catastrophies, such as paralysis, brain-concussion, senile

decay, insanity, the soul apparently reduced to the condition of a sleeping partner, or so far deranged as to be unable to express anything but some one

dominant emotion; sees

And

physical disorder. trine

more bewildering

or,

may

yet for aU that, the doc-

may

the vitality of the soul

be bound

itself in

up with

an existence apart from

its

individuality, as

indeed

it

electricity

life,

It

has

material manifestation,

we

see

it,

phenomenon of the passage of a visibility of

its

material terms.

be that the soul-stuff, which we caU

and that

one

by a

be essentially and substantially true;

power of expressing

may

still,

the moral sense seemingly suspended

may

be a mere

force, like the

under certain conditions;

seems more probable that matter

is

a

function of thought rather than thought a function of matter.

It

is

likely

enough that animals

have no conscious sense of any division of aims,

69


Escape and Other Essays any antagonism between physical and mental sires

;

human

but as the

race develops, the imagina-

tion, the sense of the opposition

between the rea-

son and the appetite, begins to emerge.

becomes aware that coincide

;

his will

and

his wish

Man

may not

and thus develops the medieval theory of

asceticism, the belief that the vile,

de-

and suggests base

body

is

essentially

desires to the mind, which

the mind has the power of controlling.

That con-

ception fitted closely to the feudal theory of gov-

ernment, in which the interests of the ruler and the subject did not necessarily coincide; the ruler gov-

erned with his own interests in view, and coerced his subjects if he could

;

but the new theory of gov-

ernment does not separate the ruler from the

The government tutions

is

state.

of a state with democratic insti-

the will of the people taking shape, and

the phenomena of rule are but those of the popular will

expressing

itself,

the object being that each

individual should have his due preponderance; the

ultimate end being as

much

individual liberty as

is

consistent with harmonious cooperation.

That is a rough analogy of the doctrine of Walt Whitman; namely that the individual, soul and body, is a polity; and that the true life is to be 70


Walt Whitman found in a harmonious cooperation of body and

The reason

soul.

is

not at liberty to deride or to

neglect the bodily desires, even the meanest and basest of them, because every desire, whether of soul or body, exists in the

the expression of something that

is

Take, for ex-

animating principle.

That, in

ample, the case of physical passion. ultimate analysis, life,

is

its

the instinct for propagating

the transmission and continuance of vitality.

The reason must not ignore or it into

the proper channels;

dangers that regard

it

it

incurs

;

deplore it

but direct

indicate the

but merely to thwart

with shame and horror,

internecine warfare.

may

it,

The

it,

to

to establish an

is

true function

is

rather

to ennoble the physical desire by the just con-

currence of the soul. tion

is

But the

be ready to compromise. will

essence of the situa-

cooperation and not coercion

;

and each must

If the physical nature

not compromise with the reason, the disasters

of unbridled passion follow

;

if

the reason will not

cooperate with the physical desire, the result sterile intellectualism,

experience.

It

was

Whitman's view gave

a

life

here,

is

a

of starved and timid

of course, that

Walt

he thought of

civili-

offense

;

zation as a conventional system, cultivating a false

71


Escape and Other Essays shame and an ignoble reserve about bodily processes.

But the

vital truth of his doctrine lies in

many

the fact that

of our saddest, because most

remediable, disasters are caused

by a timid

reti-

cence about the strongest force that animates the

world, the force of reproduction.

and truly

run discretion. terror of

human

all

Whitman

felt,

that reason and sentiment have out-

felt,

It

may be

asked, indeed,

how

this

outspokenness has developed in the

race, so that parents cannot bear to speak

to their children about an experience which they

be certain to make acquaintance with in some

will

far

more

violent

and base form.

Does

this shrink-

ing delicacy, this sacred reserve, mean nothing,

may

be asked?

Well,

it

may

tiveness is so valuable that

to anticipate tenderly

it

be said,

must not be required

and faithfully what

communicated in a grosser form, then justified,

and not

it

if this sensi-

otherwise.

will

be

silence is

But transfer

this

reticence about a matter of awful concern to some

other region of morals, what should we think of the parent

who

so feared to lessen the affection of

a child by rebuking it

it

for a

lie

or a theft as to

let

go out into the world ignorant that either was

reprobated.''

Whitman's argument would rather be

78


Walt Whitman that a parent should say to a child, " There force within

a

you which wiU to a large extent deter-

mine the happiness of your

and

is

controlled.

You

ignore or disregard

will

it,

life

it

;

must be guarded

probably not be able to

and you must bring

it

into

harmonious cooperation with mind and reason and

There

duty.

is

nothing that

being there; indeed, the world. lessly."

it

The shameful thing

it

to use

is

it

were unmentionable

of the child's

own

its

shame-

Yet the attitude of parents too often

to treat the subject, not as if as if

shameful about

is

the dominant force in

is

;

it

is

were sacred, but

so that the very fact

would seem to be an

origin

essentially shameful thing.

The

Greeks,

thought of the

it is

true,

had an

instinct for the

vital interdependence of

soul; but they thought too

manifestation of the health

much

body and

of the glowing

and beauty of youth,

and viewed the decay and deformity of the human frame too much as a disgrace and an abasement.

But here again comes

in the largeness of

Whit-

man's presentment, that whatever disasters befall the body, whether through drudgery or battle, disease or sin, they are

all

parts of a rich and

large experience, not necessarily interrupting the

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Escape and Other Essays cooperation of mind

and matter.

This

the

is

strongest proof of Whitman's faith in the essen-

brotherhood of man, that such horrors and

tial

wretchednesses do not seem to him to interrupt the design, or to destroy the possibility of a

human sympathy which a matter of devout

is

instinctive rather

than

Whitman is here on human spir-

effort.

the side of the very greatest and finest its, in

He

that he

is

does not call

shocked and appalled by nothing. it

the best of worlds, but

only world that he knows est,

;

it is

and the glowing

the

inter-

the passionate emotion, the vital rush and

current of

it,

prove beyond

doubt that we are

all

in touch with something very splendid nificent indeed,

forfeits

and mag-

and that no misdeed or disaster

our share in the inheritance.

He

is

ut-

terly at variance with the hideous Calvinistic the-

ory, that

God

sent some of His creatures into the

world for their pain and ruin. to your

body or your

worth your while to

Whatever happens

soul, says

live

and

Whitman,

to have lived.

adopts no facile system of compensations and sets.

He

rather protests with

all his

it is

He off-

might that,

however broken your body or fatuous your mind, it

is

a good thing for you to have taken a hand

U


Walt Whitman in the affair ;

and that the essence of the whole

uation has not been your success, your

sit-

dignity,

your comfortable obliteration of half your faculties,

or on the other hand your failure, your

ness, or

your despair, but that just at the time

and place at which the phenomenon self

vile-

called your-

took place, that intricate creature, with

bodily needs and desires,

its

its

joys of the senses,

its

outlook on the strange world, took shape and

made you exactly what you else.

As he says

logues

:

" Through birth,

" Through angers,

is

are,

of

and nothing

his

finest

apo-

death, burial, the means

life,

are provided, nothing

ennui,

one

in

scanted.

losses, ambition, ignorance,

what you are picks

its

Then too Walt Whitman

way."

claims to be the poet,

not of the past or even only of the present, but He says in " The Backthe singer of the future.

ward Glance," which

I have already quoted,

and

which must be carefully read by any one who .

wishes to understand his far as he understood

it

75

work

— at —"

himself,

least in so

Isolated ad-


Escape and Other Essays

— the

vantages in any rank or grace or fortune-

direct or indirect threads of all the poetry of the

past

— are

in

my

publican genius.

opinion distasteful to the re.

.

Established poems, I know,

.

have the very great advantage of chanting the already performed, so

full of glories, reminiscences

And he

dear to the minds of men."

says too that,

" The educated world seems to have been growing more and more ennuied for ages, leaving to our time the inheritance of says

:

"

The ranges

it all."

And

he further

of heroism and loftiness with

which Greek and feudal poets endow'd their godlike

or lordly

bom

characters, I was to

democratic averages of America.

endow the

I was to show

that we, here and to-day, are eligible to the grandest

— more

and the best

eligible

now than any

times of old were."

This

is

a lofty claim, boldly advanced and main-

tained; and here I

am on

uncertain ground, be-

cause I do not suppose that I can realize what the democratic spirit of America really

however, that

it is

a doubt as to whether at

any time

a new

start.

is.

a free and a noble it is

Granted,

spirit,

possible for

I feel

any nation,

in the world's history, really to take

The American nation 76

is

not a new


Walt Whitman nation;

in

it is

energies,

and

ventions; but

it

judge,

it is

cannot get rid of ;

its

inheritance

its

and I think that,

so far as I can

too anxious to emphasize

revolt, its consciousness of

man

for

field

has made a sweep of the old con-

it

of tempersLment

It has

a sense a very old nation.

had a perfectly new and magnificent

newness of

sense of

its

Whit-

life.

himself would not be so anxious to declare

the ennui of the old,

a

way trammeled by

is

stated

if

he did not

feel himself in

The moment that a case with any vehemence, that moment it is cerit.

tain that the speaker has antagonists in his eye.

There

is

a story of Professor Blackie at Edin-

burgh making a tirade against the

stuffiness

of the

old English universities to Jowett, the incisive

Master of BaUiol. At the end, he said generously, " I hope you people at Oxford do not think that

we are your enemies up here? " " No," said Jowett dryly, " to teU the truth, we don't think about you at all " The man who is really mak!

ing a new beginning, serenely confident in his strength, does not, as Professor Blackie did, con-

cern himself with his predecessors at

all.

Perhaps,

indeed, the democratic spirit of America quietly glorying in its strength,

77

may

be

and may be merely


Escape and Other Essays But

waiting

till

think

can be said to have found,

it

It seems to

suits it to speak.

it

me

—

I

may

well be

matters of culture, the American

I

do not

full expression.

wrong

— that in

far more seri-

is

ously bent on knowing what has been done in the

past even than the Englishman. takes the past for granted; he

The Englishman is

probably more

deeply and instinctively penetrated with

its tradi-

tions than he knows; but ever since the

Romantic

movement began

in England, about a century ago,

the general tendency

Writers

cal. lyle,

is

Ruskin, had very

They

anarchical and anticlassi-

Wordsworth, Browning, Car-

like

little

deference about them.

did not even trouble to assert their inde-

pendence; they said what they thought, and as they thought

it.

But the

spirit of

American

erature does not on the whole appear to

a democratic of Walt

spirit.

Whitman

It

me

lit-

to be

has not, except in the case

himself,

shown any strong tend-

ency to invent new forms or to ventilate new ideas. It has not broken out into crude, fresh, It has rather

experiments. did,

immature

worked as the Romans

who anxiously adopted and imitated Greek

models, admiring the form but not comprehending the spirit.

A

revolt in literary art, such as the

78


Walt Whitman Romantic movement concern

itself

Writers

like

England, has no time to

in

with the old forms and traditions.

Wordsworth, Keats,

Shelley,

Byron,

Walter Scott, had far too much to say for themselves to care

worked.

a model.

how

the old classical schools had

They used the past as a quarry, not as But the famous American writers have

not originated new forms, or invented a different use of language

;

they have widened and freshened

thrown them overboard.

traditions, they have not

Neither,

if

I

interpret

facts

rightly,

have the

Americans developed a new kind of aristocracy.

Whitman's talk of democratic averages the point.

The

is

beside

process of leveling up and leveling

down only produces low standards. What the world needs, whether in England or America, is a simple, disinterested, new sort of aristocracy

—

bold, sympathetic, enthusiastic men, of clear vision

and is

free thought.

And what

not an envious dislike of

the democracy needs all

prominence and

greatness, but an eye for all greatness, and an

admiration for

England

all

suspects,

courage and largeness of soul.

perhaps

erroneously,

that

America has founded an aristocracy of wealth and influence

and physical prowess, rather than an 79


Escape and Other Essays One

aristocracy of simplicity and fearlessness.

that the competitive, the prize-winning

believes spirit, is

even more dominant in America than in

No

England.

one doubts

tlic fierce

aplomb of America but can

it

;

energy and the

be said that ideas,

the ultimate test of na-

the existence of which

is

tional vigor, are really

more prevalent

than in England?

upon

Roman

ideal

whether one values the Greek or the

more highly, the desire to rule

tion

better

interest, that

and prosper.

but

;

if

the aim

is

Roman aim Yet

England has been more

than America, although America

more interested

But

it is

remains

a

fine

tially

is

in education

hard

is

the

in the last cen-

is

ideas

in

fruitful

incomparably

than England

to balance these things.

is.

What

Walt Whitman has drawn

the fact that

democratic

or the

life,

spiritual animation, then

the Greeks are the winners. tury,

of

is,

If the aim of civiliza-

orderliness, then the

is

America

in

It all depends, of course,

ideal.

His democrat

is

essen-

a worker, with every sort of vigorous im-

pulse, living life in

an ecstasy of health and com-

radeship,

of

position,

careless

content

to

money and live

a

simple

influence life,

and

finding

beauty, and hope, and love, and labor, enough, in

80


Walt Whitman the spirit of the great dictum of William Morris, that the reward of labor

is life

— not

power or wealth, but the sense of

success or

living fully

and

freely.

I do not claim that this spirit exists in England yet; but does

it

exist in

What,

America?

in fact,

constitutes the inspiration of the average Ameri-

can; what does he expect to find in

make of in

life?

life,

Whitman has no doubt at

what other American writer does

and to

But

aU.

this ideal find

expression?

4 It remains to say a few words about the artistic

methods of Walt Whitman. artistic

standard whatever.

He himself He says

claims

no

that

he

wishes to create an atmosphere; and that his one

aim has been suggestiveness. little, if

my

" I round and

finish

anything; and could not consistently with

The reader will always have his or much as I have had mine." He says that his purpose has been "not to scheme.

her part to do, just as

carry out in the approved style some choice plot of

fortune

or

misfortune,

or

fancy,

thoughts, or incidents or courtesies

81

—

all

or

fine

of which


;

Escape and Other Essays has been done overwhelmingly and well, probably never to be excelled

.

but to conform with and

.

.

build on the concrete realities

universe furnished

by

science,

and

theories of the

and henceforth the

only irrefragable basis for anything, verse included

—

root both influences in the emotional

to'

and imaginative action of the modern

time,

and

dominate all that precedes or opposes them." He adds, " No one will get at my verses who insists upon, viewing them as a literary performance, or attempt at such performance, or as aiming mainly

toward art or estheticism." It

is,

of course, quite true that no writer

bound by who need

traditions of art,

consider

how

and there

by

is

critics.

no one

the thing has been done

But

before, or follow a prescribed code.

that, art

is

is

for all

not a thing of rules made and enforced All that critics can do

is

to determine

what the laws of art are ; because art has laws underlying

it

which are as certain as the laws of

gravity, even

manent art

if

is,

they are not known.

the more

because the fact the

is

it

that there

human mind towards

and a

The more

per-

conforms to these laws is

a vital impulse in

the expression of beauty,

vital discrimination too as to the

82

form and


Walt Whitman method of that expression. stance,

and music, are

preferences in

human

alike

Architecture, for in-

based upon instinctive

beings, the one for geomet-

rical form, the others for the combination of yibra-

It is a law of music, for instance, that

tions.

human being prefers an octave in absolute unison, and not an octave of which one note is a semitone flat. That is not a rule invented by critics ; it is a law of human perception and prefthe

erence.

Similarly there

determines

human

is

undoubtedly a law which

preferences in poetry, though a

far more complicated law, and not yet analyzed.

The new poet is not a man who breaks the law, but who discovers a real extension of it. The question then, roughly, is this: Whitman chose to express himself in a species of poetry,

based roughly upon Hebrew poetry, such, as we

have in the Psalms and Prophets.

If this

is

expansion of the esthetic law of poetry, then success; if

it is

a true it is

a

not a true expansion, but only a

wilful variation, not consonant with the law,

it is

a

failure.

Now

there are

many

eflFects

in

Whitman which

are, I believe, inconsistent with the poetical law.

Not

to multiply instances, his grotesque word-

83


— Escape and Other Essays inventions

—" Me

his use of

Greek and Latin and French terms, not

imperturbe "

" No dainty " dolce affettuoso I," the drape of the day "

correctly used

!

and not even rightly

spelt, his end-

less iterations, lists, catalogues, categories,

things

not clearly visualized or even remotely perceived,

but swept relentlessly storeroom,

in, like

the debris of some

these are ugly mannerisms which

all

simply blur and encumber the pages. tion

is

not whether they offend a

The

critical

ques-

and

cul-

tured mind, but whether they produce an inspiring

upon any kind of mind. Then too his form constantly

effect

though he had no are

fixed

many poems which

collapses,

scheme in his mind.

as

There

begin with an ample sweep,

and suddenly crumble to

pieces, as

though he were

merely tired of them.

Then again

there seem to

me

to be some simply

coarse, obscene, unpleasant passages, not of relent-

realism

less

contrast or an emphasis. piles of filth, in tion. als,

If

it is

They

but of dull inquisitiveness.

do not attract or impress

;

they do not provide a

They simply

lie,

like

rooms designed for human habita-

argued that art may use any materi-

I can only fall back

upon

84

my

belief that

such


Walt Whitman passages are as instinctively repulsive to the artistic sense as

library

strong-smelling cheeses stacked in a

There

!

such a practice

;

is

no moral or ethical law against

but the esthetic conscience of hu-

manity instinctively condemns ine the literature

it.

When

I exam-

which has inspired and attracted

the minds of humanity, whether trained or untrained, I find that they avoid this hideous intru-

sion of nastiness

writers

who

who

like

which

is

;

and I am

them, have some other impulse in view, neither the sense of beauty nor the per-

ception of art.

But

if

Whitman, or any one

can convert the world to it

inclined to infer that

introduce such episodes, and readers

call this art,

else,

and to enjoy

as art, then he will prove that he understands

the law of preference better than I do.

But when

all this

has been said and conceded,

there yet remain countless passages of true and vital beauty, exquisite phrases,

haunting pictures,

glimpses of perfect loveliness.

His poems of com-

radeship and the open life,

air, his

have often a magical

thrill

pictures of family

of passion, leaving

one rapturous and unsatisfied, believing in the crets behind the world,

se-

and hoping for a touch of

like experience.

85


Escape and Other Essays If I

that

is

may take one poem as typical of the best and what a splendid best! in Whitman

it shall

be " Out of the Cradle Endlessly Rock-

ing," from the book called " Sea-drift."

that I can never read this

emotion

;

it is

I declare

poem without profound

here that he fully justifies his claim

atmosphere and suggestiveness the nesting birds, the sea's edge, with its " liquid rims and wet sands " what a magical phrase the angry to

;

moan

!

of the breakers under the yellow, drooping

moon, the boy with

his feet in the water,

wind

this is all

in his

Demon Is

beyond

to I,

and the

criticism.

or bird! (said the boy's soul)

indeed toward your mate you sing? or

it

For

hair —

is it

mostly

me?

that was a childj

my

tongue's use sleeping,

now

I have heard you

Now

in a

And

already a thousand singers, a thousand songs,

moment

I

know what

clearer, louder

I

am

for,

I awake.

and more sorrowful than yours,

A thousand warbling echoes have started to life within me, never to

And

die.

then he cries to the waves to

they have been whispering

Whereto answering, the Delaying not, hurrying

all

sea.

not,

86

tell

the time.

him what


Walt Whitman me through

Whisper'd

the night and very plainly be-

fore day-break,

Lisp'd to

me

the low and delicious

word

death.

This theme, it will be remembered, is worked out more fuUy in the Lincoln poem, " When Lilacs Last in the Dooryard Bloom'd," with the " Song of Death,"

too long,

alas,

to

quote here

— — it

would be delightful even to inscribe the words which seems to

me

for splendor of language, sweet-

and

ness of rhythm,

stateliness of

say nothing of the magnificence of to be incontestably

among

cadence

to

the thought —

the very greatest po-

ems of the world. If Whitman could always have written so! Then he need hardly have said that the strongest and sweetest songs remained to be sung; but this, and many other gems of poetry, lie in radiant fragments among the turbid and weltering rush of his strange verse ;

indeed a law of

and thus one

sees that if there is

art, it lies close to the instinct of

One may think anymay say most things but if one means sway the human heart by that one particular

suppression and omission.

thing ; one to

gift of words, ordered

;

and melodiously intertwined,

one must heed what experience

87

tells

the aspirant


Escape and Other Essays that no fervor of thought, or exuberance of utter-

make up for the harmony of the firmly touched lyre, and the music of the unuttered word. ance, can

88


CHARM



CHARM

THERE

is

a

little village

here near Cambridge

the homely, summer-sounding is

Haslingfield.

It is a straggling

name

of which

hamlet of white-

waUed, straw-thatched cottages, among orchards

and old

elms, full of closes of meadow-grass,

and

farmsteads with ricks and big-timbered bams.

It

has a

solid,

upstanding Tudor church, with rather

a grand tower, and four solid corner turrets it

has, too,

its little bit

;

and

of history in the manor-

house, of which only one high-shouldered wing re-

mains, with tall brick chimneys.

It stands

up

above some mellow old walls, a big dove-cote, and

a row of ancient fish-ponds.

Here Queen

beth once spent a night upon the wing.

Eliza-

Close

behind the village, a low wold, bare and calm, with

a belt or two of trees, runs steeply up.

The

simplest

and

quietest place imaginable, with

a simple and remote

life,

91

hardly aware of

itself,


Escape and Other Essays flowing tranquilly through

by some

felicity of

it

;

yet this

little village,

grouping and gathering, has

the rare and incomparable gift of charm.

not analyze

and

it,

I cannot explain

in all lights,

whether

its

it,

yet at

I canall

orchards are

bloom and scent, and the cuckoo

flutes

times

full of

from the

down the soft breeze, or in the bare and leafwhen the pale sunset glows beyond the wold among the rifted cloud-banks, it has the won-

holt

less winter,

derful appeal of beauty, a quality which cannot be

schemed for or designed, but which a very mishandling can sweep away. has grown up out of

common

The whole

little

place

use, trees planted

for shelter, orchards set for fruit, houses built for

convenience. is

there

Only

in the

church and the manor

any care for seemliness and

stateliness.

There are a dozen villages round about

it

which

have sprung from the same needs, the same history; and yet these have missed the unconsidered

charm of

Haslingfield, which

man

did not devise,

nor does nature inevitably bring, but which

is

instantly recognizable and strangely aff'ecting.

Such charm seems to orderliness

arise partly out of

a subtle

and a simple appropriateness, and

partly from a blending of delicate and pathetic

9a


Charm elements in a certain unascertained proportion.

seems to touch unknown memories into

It

and to

life,

give a hint of the working of some half-whimsical,

half-tenderly concerned spirit, brooding over its

work, adding a touch of form here and a dash of color there,

that

it is

and pleased to

If one looks closely at

quality in humanity, in

and

pictures,

to the

when

see,

done,

all is

good.

one

life,

and yet one cannot

making of

it.

same

sees the

men and women, tell

books

in

what goes

It seems to be a thing which

no energy or design can capture, but which alights here is

and

wind at

there, blowing like the

will.

not force or originality or inventiveness

often

it is

ity at all

;

;

It

very

strangely lacking in any masterful qual-

but

it

has always just the same wistful

appeal, which makes one desire to understand to take possession of

it,

to serve

it,

it,

to win its

It is as when the child in Francis Thomppoem seems to say, " I hire you for nothing."

favor. son's

That

is

exactly

bestowed, but one serve it for love

it: is

and

there

is

nothing

ofiFered

or

at once magically bound to delight.

that one can expect to get from

very far down into the soul ;

93

There it,

it is

is

nothing

and yet

it

goes

behind the mad-


Escape and Other Essays dening desire which certain faces, hands, voices, smiles excite

—

the desire to possess, to claim, to

know even that no one them, which

lies

tragedies of

life.

Some degree, life,

else

personalities have

and

if,

can possess or claim

at the root of half the jealous

charm

in

a marvelous

as one looks into the old records of

one discovers figures that seem to have laid

an inexplicable hold on their

circles,

and to have

a tempest of applause and

passed through

life in

admiration, one

may be

sure that charm has been

the secret.

Take the case of Arthur Hallam, the " In Memoriam."

inspirer of

I remember hearing Mr. Glad-

stone say, with kindled eye and emphatic gesture,

that Arthur Hallam was the most perfect being physically, morally,

ever seen or

and

intellectually that

he had

hoped to see. He said, I remember, " The story of Milnes Gaskell's

with a smile :

friendship with Hallam was curious. You must know that people fell in love very easily in those of whom Hallam days; there was a Miss E was enamored, and Milnes Gaskell abandoned his

own

addresses to her in favor of Hallam, in order

to gain his friendship."

94


Charm Yet the portrait of Hallam which hangs provost's house at

Eton

rather heavy-featured

— Mr.

face,

in the

represents a rosy, solid,

young man, with

a'

flushed

Gladstone said that this was caused

— who

by overwork,

looks more like a

young coun-

try bumpkin on the opera-bouffe stage than an intellectual archangel.

Odder

the letters, poems, and remains of

still,

Hallam throw no

on the hypnotic

light

effect he

produced; they are turgid, elaborate, and wholly uninteresting; nor does he seem to have been en-

Lord Dudley

tirely amiable.

told Francis

Hare

Henry Hallam, the hiswho was Arthur Hallam's father, in the company of the son, in Italy, adding, " It did my

that he had dined with torian,

heart good to

sit

by and hear how the son snubbed how often the father had

the father, remembering

unmercifully snubbed me."

There

is

a hint of beauty in the dark eyes and

the down-dropped curve of the mobile lip in the portrait,

and one need not quote " In Memoriam "

to prove

how

utterly the charm of Hallam subju-

gated the Tennyson

circle.

sight, beauty, lovableness

there;

and

it

—

Wit, swiftness of all

in-

seem to have been

remains that Arthur Hallam was

95


Escape and Other Essays worshiped and adored by his contemporaries with a

Nothing but the

jealousy of devotion.

fierce

presence of an overmastering charm can explain this conspiracy of praise

better proof of

it

;

and perhaps there

than that

no

is

his friends could detect

genius in letters and poems which seem alike destitute of promise

There to have

is

and performance.

another figure of earlier date who seems

had the same magnetic

preeminent degree.

There

is

gift in

an even more

a portrait by Law-

rence of Lord Melbourne that certainly gives a hint,

and more than a

hint, of the extraordinary

charm which enveloped him; the the fine nose, the

full,

attractive enough.

thick,

wavy

but firmly molded,

But

the large,

hair,

lips,

are

dark eyes under

strongly marked eyebrows, which are at once pathetic,

passionate, ironical,

a singular emotion.

Every

and mournful, evoke gift that

men hold

to

be advantageous was showered upon Melbourne.

He

was well bom, wealthy, able; he was

full

of

humor, quick to grasp a subject, an omnivorous

He won men and women. His marand brilliant Lady Caroline

reader and student, a famous sportsman. the devotion of both riage with the lovely

Ponsonby, whose heart was broken and mind shat-


Charm tered by her hopeless passion for Byron, showed

how he all

There

could win hearts.

that period of

whom

political prestige,

no figure of

one would rather possess

Yet

a personal memoir.

is

despite

aU

his

he was an unhappy,

fame and

dissatisfied

man, who tasted every experience and joy of

and found that there was nothing

The

in

life,

it.

dicta of his that are preserved vibrate be-

tween cynicism, shrewdness, wisdom, and tender" Stop a bit," he said, as the cabinet went ness. down-stairs after a dinner to discuss the

"

Is it to lower the price of

does n't

much matter

the same thing."

and

diaries of

bread or

com

is n't it ?

which, but we must

Yet, after

laws.

all, it Is

all

It

say

the letters

Queen Victoria that reveal the true

secret of Melbourne's charm. girl sovereign is one of the

in latter-day history.

His relation to

his

most beautiful things

Melbourne loved her half

paternally, half chivalrously, while

it

is

evident

that the queen's affection for her gallant and attractive premier

was of a quality which escaped

her own perception. her,

He

hiunored her, advised

watched over her; in return, she idolized him,

noted down his smallest sayings, permitted him to

behave and talk just as he would.

97

She lovingly


"

"

Escape and Other Essays records his

—

fancies how he fell how he always took two apples,

ways and

little

asleep after dinner,

and hid one in his lap while he ate the " I asked him if he meant to eat it. not,

and

doing

so.'

said,

*

But I

other.

He thought

have the power of

like to

I observed, had n't he just as well the

power of doing so when the apples were on the table?

He laughed and

said,

'

in the dish

Not

the full

power.'

Melbourne was

full

of prejudices and whims and

hatreds, but his charity was boundless, and he

He

always had a good word for an enemy.

ex-

Henry VIII to the queen by those women bothered him so."

cused the career of saying, "

And

You

see,

TFhen he was superseded

the queen's dislike of her

by

Peel, he

best to put Peel in a favorable light.

made

his first

it

When

his

Peel

appearance at Windsor, shy and

awkward, and holding himself ter,

combated

new premier, and did

like

a dancing-mas-

was Melbourne who broke the awkward

pause by going up to Peel, and saying in an undertone, " For God's sake, go and talk to the queen !

When

I was privileged to work through

all

Mel-

bourne's letters to the queen, so carefully preserved

and magnificently bound, I was greatly touched by 98


Charm the sweetness and tenderness of them, the gentle ironical flavor, the delicate freedom,

and the

presents and remembrances they exchanged

little

up

to

the end.

Melbourne can hardly be man,

— he had not

called a very great

the purpose or tenacity for that,

and he thought both too contemptuously and too indulgently of

—

human nature, but I know of no who is more wholly transfused and

historical figure

Everything

penetrated by the aroma of charm.

that he did and said had some distinction and unusualness:

and, with spoiled

perceptive it all,

and engaging

is baffled,

observation,

wisdom,

ripe

the petulant attractiveness of the

because

And

child.

it is

yet even so, one

not the profundity or the

gravity of what he said that impresses

;

it is

rather

the delicate and fantastic turn he gave to a thought

or a phrase that makes his simplest deductions

from to

life, his

most

sensible bits of counsel,

appear

have something fresh and interesting about

them, though prudent before,

Not though

and said

it

men have

heavily

said

much

the same

and solemnly.

that charm need be whimsical and freakish, it is

perhaps most beautiful when there

something of the child about

99

it,

is

something naive


Escape and Other Essays There are men, of whom I Newman was preeminently one,

and unconventional. think that Cardinal

who seem

to have

had the appeal of a pathetic

of beauty and even helplessness.

Newman

sort

seems

to have always been surprised to find himself so interesting to others,

and perhaps rather over-

shadowed by the responsibility of

it.

He was

romantically affectionate, and the tears came very

Such

easily at the call of emotion.

that when

Newman

incidents as

said good-by to his bare

room

at Littlemore, and kissed the doorposts and the

bed in a passion of

grief,

show what

his intensity

of feeling might be. It

is

not as a rule the calm and controlled people

who have

this attractiveness for others

who

those

fulness

unite with

it is

rather

an enchanting kind of play-

an instinct to confide

protective affection.

;

in

and

to

depend upon

Very probably there

is

some

deep-seated sexual impulse involved, however re-

motely and unconsciously, in this species of charm. It

is

the appeal of the child that exults in happi-

ness, claims it as a right, uses it with a pretty petu-

lance,

—

like the feigned

the puppy,

— and when

tearfully that

it

enmity of the kitten and

it is

clouded over, requires

shall be restored.

100

That may seem


Charm an undignified comparison for a prince of the

But Newman was

church.

logian a long

artist first,

and theo-

way afterward; he needed comfort

and approval and even applause; and he evoked, together with love and admiration, the compassion

and protective chivalry of ings have

strength

little

is

his friends.

His writ-

logical or intellectual force; their

in their ineffable

and fragrant charm,

their ordered grace, their infinite pathos.

The Greek word is

X^P'^i

for this subtle kind of beauty

and the Greeks are worth hearing on the

subject, because they, of all the nations that ever

were penetrated by

lived,

for

it,

worshiped

as all large

it,

valued

The word

it.

words are apt to

it,

itself

suffer,

looked out

has suffered,

when they

are

transferred to another language, because the big, ultimate words of every tongue connote a number

of ideas which cannot be exactly rendered by a single

word

in another language.

philological for a

word

Jf^/^C in

the verb

is

moment, and

Greek

is

Let us be mildly realize that the

the substantive of which

X'^'P'^t to rejoice.

We

translate the

word X'^P"' ^J the English word " grace," which means, apart from its theological sense, a rich endowment of charm and beauty, a thing which 101

is


;

Escape and Other Essays essentially a gift,

taking thought.

and which cannot be captured by

When we

say that a thing

done with a perfect grace, we mean that entirely delightful, appropriate, seemly, tiful.

It pleases every sense

;

it

is

seems

and beau-

done just as

it is

it

should be done, easily, courteously, gently, pleasantly, with a confidence which

is

yet modest, and

with a Tightness that has nothing rigid or unamiable about it

may

it.

To

see

a thing so done, whatever

be, leaves us with

an envious

desire that

might do the thing in the same way.

we

It seems

easy and effortless, and the one thing worth doing

and

this is

where the moral appeal of beauty

in the contagious sort of

example that

it

lies,

sets.

But when we clumsily translate the word by " grace," we lose the root idea of the word, which has a certain joy fulness about

it.

A

thing done

with X'^P'^ is done as a pleasure, naturally, eagerly, out of the heart's abundance; and that is the

appeal of things so done to the ordinary mind, that they seem to well up out of a beautiful and

happy nature, sandy

as the clear spring rises from the

floor of the pool.

The

act

is

done, or the

word spoken, out of a tranquil fund of joy, not as a matter of duty, or in reluctant obedience to a

102


Charm principle, but because the thing, whatever it

and beautiful thing to

the joyful

And

so the

word became the fundamental idea

of the Christian

power that

is, is

do.

life:

the grace of

God was

the

floods the whole of the earlier teaching

of the gospel, before the conflict with the ungra-

cious

and suspicious world began

uncalculating

life,

lived

—

the serene,

simply and purely, not

from any grim principle of asceticism, but because it

of

was beautiful to life,

live so.

as opposed to

ambitions;

it

its

It stood for the

cares

and

anxieties

joy

and

was beautiful to share happiness, to

give things away, to live in love, to find

joy

in the

fresh mintage of the earth, the flowers, the creatures, the children, before they were clouded

stained

world.

by

the strife and greed

The

exquisite

and

and enmity of the

quality of the

first

soft

touches of the gospel story comes from the fact that

it all

rose out of a heart of joy, an overflowing

certainty of the true values of to fight the uglier side of simplicity

life

life,

a determination

by opposing

to

it

a

and a sweetness that claimed nothing,

and exacted nothing but a right to the purest sort of happiness

—

the happiness of a loving circle

of friends, where the sacrifice of personal desires

103

is


Escape and Other Essays and most natural thing

the easiest

because such sacrifice

is

the highest delight of love.

strength

of primitive

in the world,

both the best reward and

was here that the

It

Christianity

lay,

that

it

seemed the possession of a joyful secret that

turned

common

things,

to gold.

If a

all

suffering,

was on

tribulation, he

It

is

his

and even sorrow and

man could rejoice in way to be invulnerable.

not a very happy business to trace the

decay of a great and noble idea but one can catch a glimpse of the perversion of " grace " in the ;

hands of our Puritan ancestors, when

it

became a

combative thing, which instead of winning the enemies of the

Lord by

its

patient sweetness, put an

edge on the sword of holiness, and enabled the stanch Christian to hew the Amalekites hip and thigh ; so that the word, which had stood for a perfectly peaceful

and attractive charm, became the

symbol of righteous persecution, and flowered in cries of

We

anguish and spilled blood.

shall take a long time before

we can crawl

out of the shadow of that dark inheritance; but there

are signs in the world of an awakening

brotherliness

;

and perhaps we may some day come

back to the old truth, so long mishandled, that the

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Charm essence of all religion

a spirit of beauty

is

and of

joy, bent on giving rather than receiving; and so

at last we

may

reach the perception that the

fruitful strength of morality lies not in its terror:, its prohibitions, its coercions,

its tolerance, its dislike

but in

its good-will,

of rebuke and censure,

rapturous acceptance of

all

its

generous and chival-

rous and noble ways of living.

And

thus, then, I

mean by charm not a mere

superficial gracefulness

which can be learned, as

good manners are learned, through a certain code of behavior, but a thing which

is

the flower and

outward sign of a beautiful attitude to eagerness to welcome everything which fresh and unstained; that turns

away

an

life;

is fine

and

the glance

from things unlovely and violent and greedy not a disapproving or a self-righteous it is

spirit,

in

because

respectable to be shocked, but in a sense of

shame and disgrace that such cruel and covetous

and unclean things should

be.

If one takes a

figure like that of St. Francis of Assisi,

who for

all

the superstition and fanaticism with which the

record

is

intermingled, showed a real reflection and

restoration of the old Christian joy of shall see

that he had

life,

firm hold of the secret.

105

we St.


Escape and Other Essays Francis's love of nature, of animals, of flowers, of children, his

way

of breaking into song about the

pleasant things of earth, his praise of " our sister the Water, because she

and humble and

clean,"

overpowering joy.

is

very serviceable to us

show the outrush of an

He had the courage to do what

very few men and women ever dare to do, and that is

to

make a

plications

;

clean sweep of property and its com-

but even

so, the old

legend distorts some

of this into a priggish desire to set a good ex-

ample, to warn and rebuke and improve the occa-

But

sion.

St. Francis's asceticism is the

of asceticism that has

any charm, the

only kind

self-denial,

namely, that springs from a sense of enjoyment,

and

is

practised from a feeling of

its

beauty, and

not as a matter of timid and anxious calculation. It is true that St. Francis

was haunted by the

medieval nightmare of the essential vileness of the

body, and spurred this,

it

too hard.

But apart from

man

one recognizes in him a poet, and a

ineffable charm,

who found the company of company of

sinners

at least as attractive as the

for the simple reason that the sinner

enough well meaning and humble, and

is

of

is

saints,

often

spared at

least the ugliness of respectable self-righteousness,

106


Charm which

is

of all things most destructive of the sense

of proportion, and most divorced from natural St. Francis took

joy.

and recognized that

it, is

human nature failure has a

as he found

beauty which

denied to success, for the simple reason that con-

scious

failure

makes a man both grateful and

affectionate, while success too often

makes him cold

and hard.

And

there

is

thus a wonderful fragrance about

that St. Francis did and said, though he must

all

his stupid and pompous who constantly misunderstood and mis-

have been sorely tried by followers,

represented him, and dragged into the light what

was meant to be the inner secret of

There are few

his

soul.

figures in the roll of saints so pro-

foundly beautiful and touching as that of St. Francis,

because he had in a preeminent degree that

childlike freshness

and trustfulness which

is

the

secret of all charm.

Charm

is

of course not the same thing as beauty,

but only a subdivision of

it.

There are many

things in nature and in art, from the

Matterhom

to " Samson Agonistes," that have no charm, but

that appeal to a different range of emotions, the sublime, the majestic, the awe-inspiring, things in

107


;

:

Escape and Other Essays the presence of which

charm

is

We

are hardly at ease; but

essentially a comfortable quality, some-

thing that one gathers to one's heart, and is

a mystery about

ful things, it is

be afraid to

it,

as there

is

about

if

there

all beauti-

not a mystery of which one would

know the

Charm is

secret.

the quality

which makes one desire to linger upon one's grimage, that

be content.

It is intimate, reassuring,

pealing; and the shadow of

which

is

pil-

cries to the soul to halt, to rest, to

it is

and ap-

the gentle pathos,

in itself half a luxury of sadness, in the

thought that sweet things must have an end.

As

Herrick wrote to the daffodils Stay, stay

Until the hasting day

Has run But to the evensong; And, having prayed together, we Will go with you along.

We have short time to stay, as We have as short a spring;

you.

As quick a growth to meet decay As you, or anything. In such a

mood

as that there

is

no sense of

ter-

ror or despair at the quick-coming onset of death

108


;

Charm no more dread of what may be than there the hamlet, with

its little

is

when

roofs and tall trees,

is

folded in the arms of the night, as the sunset dies

behind the

Beauty may be a

hill.

terrible thing,

in the sheeted cataract, with all its boiling

as

eddies, or in the falling of the lightning

womb

of the cloud.

that,

gigantic

charm comes will,

There

movement,

is

its inevitable

end

thing of mercy and quietness.

charm

that

is

it

force;

is lit

but

and goodwith some-

The danger

of

the mother of sentiment; and

it is

the danger of sentiment

but that

desolation behind

ruthless

like a signal of security

and even

from the

is

not that

it is

untrue,

takes from us the sense of proportion

we begin to be unable

to do without our little scenes

and sunsets; and the eye gets

so used to dwelling

upon the flower-strewn pleasaunce, with ing trees, that

it

its

screen-

cannot bear to face the far

horizon, with its menace of darkness and storm.

Yet we are very grateful to those who can teach us to turn our eyes to the charm which surrounds us,

tion

and a is

though

life

which

is

lived without such percep-

apt to be a rough and hurrying thing, even it

may

Like most of

life,

also be both high

the true success

109

and austere.

lies in

not choos-


Escape and Other Essays ing one force and neglecting another, but in an

The great

expectant kind of compromise.

and

facts of life flash

upon

us,

whether we

no; and even the man whose mind the greatest hopes

consolation

Mighty

and aims may

the lesser

in

find strength

and simpler

by the microscopic

and

delights.

and Rus-

hampered or distracted from

zest for detail,

or

bent upon

is

spirits like, let us say, Carlyle

kin, were not

further quest

affairs will

their

eye, the infinite

which characterized both.

No

one

ever spoke so finely as Carlyle of the salient features of moorland and hiU, and the silence so deep

that

it

was possible to hear the far-off sheep crop-

ping the grass; no one ever noted so instantaneously the vivid gesture or the picturesque turn of speech, or dwelt more intently

upon

the pathetic

sculpture of experience seen in the old humble

workaday

faces

of country-folk.

No

one ever

delighted more ecstatically than Ruskin in the color

of the

amber cataract, with

its soft,

rims, its flying spray, or in the

some half-faded

translucent

dim splendors of

fresco, or in the intricate fa9ade

of the crumbling, crag-like church front.

But

they did not stay there; indeed, Carlyle, in his passionate career

among verities and 110

forces, hardly


Charm took enough account of the beauty so patiently entwined with mortal things ; while Ruskin's sharpest agonies

were endured when he found, to his

dismay, that men and women could not be induced by any appeal or invective to heed the message of beauty. It

is

true that, however

sionately

and

we

linger,

however pas-

love the small, sweet, encircling joys

delights of

life,

we

will

us, whether

we

the tragic experience comes to

or no.

None

escapes.

And

thus our care must be not to turn our eyes away

from what in sterner moments we are apt to think mere shows and

vanities,

and temperately.

but to use them serenely

St. Augustine, in

a magnificent

apologue upon the glories and subtleties of light,

can only end by the prayer that

his heart

thereby be seduced from heavenly things is

the false kind of asceticism, and

more than a fear of

life, if

;

it is

may

not

but that nothing

our only concern with

and abhor the joy it would fain give But we may be sure that life has a meaning for us in its charm and loveliness not the whole it is

to shun

us.

;

meaning, but

make

life

still

an immense

significance.

To

into a continuous flight, a sad expect-

ancy, a perpetual awe,

is

111

wilfully to select one


Escape and Other Essays range of experiences and to neglect

and

We may

good-will.

its

timent

if

grow weak

wo make a tragedy out of

kindness

its

in

our sen-

life, if

we can-

not bear to have our comfortable arrangements disordered, our

through. change,

little

of pleasures broken

circle

The triumph is and to know that

to be ready for the if

the perfect

summer

day comes to an end, the power that shaped and made the heart surprises

and

charm of

the

swift to love

glories in store. life

it so,

has yet larger

it,

If we do that, then

takes its place in our spirits as

the evidence of something joyful, wistful, pleasant,

bound up with the

essence of things;

it

if

dis-

appears, like the gold or azure thread of the tapestry,

it is

only to emerge in the pattern farther

on; and the victory

is

not to attach ourselves to

the particular touches of beauty and fineness which

we

see in the familiar scene

and the well-loved

but to recognize beauty as a is

forever

making

spirit,

itself felt, forever

beckoning and

whispering to us, and which will not if

circle,

a quality which

fail

us even

for a time the urgent wind drives us far into the

night and the storm, ers,

among

the crash of the break-

and the scream of loud winds over the 112

sea.


SUNSET



VI

SUNSET

THE

liquid

kindUng of the

twilight, the west-

ern glow of clear-burning

fires,

bringing no

weariness of heat but the exquisite coolness of

darkling

airs, is

of

the ceremonial of the

all

the most solemn and sacred moment.

has

its

mists

own

splendors, but

and folded clouds

it

day

The dawn

brightens out of secret

into the

common

light of

day, when the burden must be resumed and the

common

business of the world renewed again.

But

the sunset wanes from glory and majesty into the stillness

may

of the star-hung night, when tired eyes

close in sleep,

and rehearse the mystery of

death; and so the dying

down of

suspension of daily activities, benediction.

Dawn

brings

beauty to a new episode of

remember throughout the

the

life,

with the

consecration

of

bidding the soul to

toil

the day that the beginning was

115

light,

of the nature of a

is

and eagerness of

made

in the inno-


Escape and Other Essays cent onrush of

dewy

when the evening

light; but

oomes, the deeds and words of the daylight are irrevocable facts,

and the mood

not one of for-

is

ward-looking hope and adventure, but of unalterable

memory, and of things dealt with so and not

otherwise, which nothing can henceforward change

or modify,

^f in the morning we

power over

life,

whether we have done iU or well, ourselves has been asserted,

the record .

And

feel

that we have

we know

in the evening

life's

power over

and that thus and thus

must stand, \

so the

mood

of evening

the larger and

is

the wiser mood, because

we must think

and more of God.

In the dawn

selves

that,

less of it

our-

seems to

us that we have our part to play and that nothing,

not even God, can prevent us from exercising our will

upon the

life

begin to wonder I

about us

;

how much,

but

in the

after

all,

evening we

we have the

strength to effect ; we see that even our desires and impulses have their roots far back in a past which

no restlessness of design or energy can touch ;

we end by to feel

and

till

thankfulness that we have been allowed to experience the current of life at

aUA

I sat the other day by the bedside of an old and gracious lady, the widow of a great artist, whose

116


Simset works with

all their

shapely form and dusky flashes

of rich color

hung on the

had Uved

many

for

walls of her room.

She

years in the forefront of a great

fellowship of art

and endeavor; she had seen and

known intimately

all

and

the greatest figures in the art

literature of the last generation

;

and she was

awaiting with perfect serenity and dignity the

She said to me with a deep emotion, " Ah,

close.

the only thing that I desire to feel it,

— that brings

is

that I

may

suffering in abundance with

but while we suffer we are at least

or twice in

my

life

continue

I have

felt the

alive.

Once

numbness of

anguish, when a blow had fallen, and I could not

even suffer.

— not

That

is

the only thing which I dread

death, nor silence, but only the obliteration

That was a wonderful say-

of feeling and love." ing,

fuU of

and energy.

life

recall the old days,

unsatisfied pain

;

She did not wish to

nor hanker after them with an

and I saw that an immortal

spirit

dwelt in that frail body, like a bird in an outworn cage.

/However much .

vividness of vitality

I

channels

life

one

may

— and

runs now in more

— yet

enjoy the onrush and

I for one find that, though definite

and habitual

I feel that though one has done

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Escape and Other Essays with making experiment!, though one wastes

le

time in undertaking doubtful entcrprisei, yet there is

a great gain in the concentration of energy, and

in the certain

knowledge of what one's

work

definite

really iw.\

/'Far from diminished,

finding the spring

I feel

and

sharper

and motion of

that the current of

clearer

learned

my

useless

enterprises.

intensity,

limitations,

runs with a

because

I

havi;

and expend no energy have

I

it

lifi;

learned

what

in

ihc

achievements arc which come joyfully bearing their sheaves with them, and what arc the trivial and

When I was younger I desired known and recognized and deferred to.

fruitless aims.

be

wanted to push

my way

panies, to produce

discreetly into

Now

and the enriched

light,

as the sunset draws nearer,

withdrawn from the

fiirtficr

horizon, begins to pulsate more intensely in it

I

many com-

an impression, to create a sensn

of admiration.

quarter whence

to

must soon altogether

tin:

fade,

I

I

begin to sec that vague and widely ranging effects

have a thinness and shallowness about them.

It

a poor thing just to see oneself transiently flected in

touch

a hundred

little rnirroro.

of reality about

tliat.

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There

Little

is

'in

re-

no

greetings,


Sunset casual flashes of courteous talk, petty compliments

—

1

these are tilings that fade as soon as they are

/rhe only thing worth doing

born,

is

a

little bit

away

of faithful and solid work, sometliing given

which costs one real pain, a few ideas and thoughts woi'ked patiently out,

and

And

inspirited.

sciousness that

no use at

nil

much

few hearts really enlivened

ii

comes the con-

too,

tlicn,

of one's cherished labor

except to oneself; that work

is

is

of

some privilege conceded to oneself, that the love it

self-regarding pleasure

less

and luxurious

pain —

is

is

tlie

lapses here, valley

suflFering

the

all,

— not

delicate

but hard and hope-

name

of love at

all.\

tlieir

way

tliat the light

to death,

and

which wanes and

drawn reluctantly away from dark

and somber woodland,

is

yet striding ahead

over dewy uplands and breaking seas, past the uplieaving shoulder of the world.

But is

.

and that

lights of sunset, the enfold-

ing gleams that are on

which yet testify

not love at

reveries,

wortli

Those are some of

.

but a momentary flash of

only love whicli means regrets

;

not a

magnificent gift presented to others, but a whole-

which brought with

;

best of all the gifts of sunset to the spirit

the knowledge that behind all

119

tlie

whirling web of

'


Escape and Other Essays daylight, beyond all the noise

and laughter and

appetite and drudgery of

lies

life,

the spirit of

beauty that cannot be always revealed or traced in the louder and more urgent pageantry of the day. <

The

sunset has the power of weaving a subtle

and

remote mystery over a scene that by day has

nothing to show but a homely and obvious animation.\ I

was traveling the other day and passed,

just as the day began to decline, through the outskirts of a bustling, seaport town.

interest

and

houses, swinging

jecting

of

curiosity

up straw-packed

pent-houses;

steamers

It

had

all

the

Crowded ware-

life.

crates into pro-

with

red-stained

funnels, open-mouthed tubes, gangways, staircase-

heads, dangling boats, were moored

wharves.

One could not

by bustling

divine the use of half the

strangely shaped objects with which the scene was

what the business could be of all Deep seathe swarming and hurrying figures.

furnished, or

horns blew and whistles

hands waved. but

it

was

life

and concealing

It

was

shrilled, orders

life

at

its fullest

were given,

and

demanding and enforcing its

further purposes.

a glimpse of something

full

It

busiest,

its

claim

was just

of urgent haste, but

pleasanter to watch than to mix with; then we

120


;

Swnset passed through a wilderness of after street, yard after yard.

rushing away from

it all

little

houses, street

Presently we were

past a lonely sea-creek that

ran far up into the low-lying land.

more sUent

life

of

its

own

;

That had a

old dusky hulks lay at

anchor in the channel; the tide ebbed away from mudflats and oozy inlets, the skeletons of worn-

out boats stood up out of the weltering clay. Gradually, as the sun went down stains

among orange

and twisted cloud-wreaths, the creek nar-

rowed and beyond lay a mysterious promontory with shadowy woods and low bare pasture lands

with here and there a tower standing

up

or a

solitary sea-mark, or a hamlet of clustered houses

by the water's edge, while the water between grew paler and stiUer, reflecting the sky.

It

is

wan green of

not easy to describe the effect of this

scene, thus magically transfigured,

but it is a very real its

the

and

upon

the mind

distinct emotion,

charm depends upon the fact that

though

it shifts

reality of the world to a further point,

the definite shapes and colors, the tangible and ble relations of things,

the

away from visi-

which become for an

in-

stant like a translucent curtain through which one catches a glimpse of a larger and more beautiful

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/The

reality. '

specific

hopes, fears, schemes, de-

signs, purposes of life, suddenly I

become an inter-

and not an end.*NThey do not become phan-

lude

tasmal and unreal, but they are known for a brief

moment

and larger extending

and

by

as only temporary conditions, which

and sharpness obscure a further

their hardness

and

existing before they existed,

life,

beyond

itself

their

All that one

influence.

momentary impact engaged in busily

is

saying and doing and enacting

seen in that in-

is

stant to be only as a ripple on a deep pool.

does not make the activities of avoidable

;

life

It

either futile or

only gives the mystical sense, that

it

however urgent and important they may seem, there

is

something further, larger, greater, beyond

them, of which they are a real part, but only a part.

Moreover, in cret,

whatever

and not at

all

such times that ous, difficult,

my own

it is, is

experience, the further se-

by no means wholly joyful

light-hearted. it is

and

pressing sadness

sad.

—

It seems to

But

it is

is

indeed, the thought

called sentimental

122

at

seri-.

not a heavy or deis

at once It has

hopeful and above everything beautiful.

nothing that

me

rather solemn, profound,

about

it.

It is


Sunset not

full of rest

and content and peace

strong and stem, though

it is

;

it is

gentle too

rather

but

;

it is

the kind of gentle strength which faces labor and

hardness, not troubled

by them, and indeed know-

ing that only thus can the secret be attained.

There the

is

no hiat of easy, chQdlike happiness about

mood;

there

is

a happiness in

it,

but

old and a wise happiness that has learned

wait and is

is

fully prepared for endurance.

no fretfulness in

realized,

it,

it is

an

how

to

There

no chafing over dreams un-

no impatience or disappointment.

does not speak of an untroubled bliss

—

But

'

it

rather of

/

a deep, sad and loving patience, which expects no fulfilment,

no easy

satisfaction of desire.

me that the quality which men is the power of recognizing Unknown, "^ome natures acquiesce buoyantly

It always seems to

most the

differentiates

or wretchedly in present conditions, and cannot in any circumstances look beyond them; some again

have a deep distaste for present conditions whatever they are

;

and again there are some who throw

themselves eagerly and freely into present conditions, use experience,- taste life, enj oy, grieve, dislike,

but yet preserve a consciousness of something

above and beyond. \ The idealist

123

is

one who has a

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need in his soul to worship, to admire, to love.

The mistake made is

too often by religious idealists

to believe that this sense of worship can only be

satisfied

by

religions and, even

idealists to

and

whom

definite

more narrowly, by

But there

observance.

ecclesiastical

are

dogmas seems only a dreary sort of

metaphysic, an attempt to define what

But

definition.

many

religion with its scientific creeds

is

there are some idealists

beyond

who

find

the sense of worship and the consciousness of an

immortal power in the high passions and affections of

looks

To

human form, the spirit that out from human eyes, are the symbols of

life.

these the

their mystery.

Others find

it in

art

and music,

others again in the endless loveliness of nature,

her seas and streams, her

hills

and woods.

Others

in visions of helping

and raising man-

kind out of base conditions, or in

scientific investi-

again find

it

gation of the miraculous constitution of nature. It has a hundred forms and energies feature of

it is

;

but the one

the sense of some vast and mysteri-

ous power, which holds the world in

its

grasp

—

a power which can be dimly apprehended and even

communicated with.

Prayer

of this sense, though prayer

124

is is

one manifestation but a formulation


Simset of one's desires for oneself and for the world.

But the is

and

essential

vital

part of the mystery

not what the soul asks of

which

it

makes to the

my own

recording

cloud-ripples, the

world,

is

for

effects for

And

soul.

but the signals here I

sunset, its golden inlets

dusky

my own

me what

veil it

and

which

I believe that the mass effects

—

the unfolding in hints

and symbols of the mysteries of God.

may

but

weaves about the

spirit the solemnity

for a devoted Catholic

liever

am

experience when I say that the

and gleams of

lights

it,

An

unbe-

look on at a mass and see nothing but

the vesture and the

rite,

a drama of woven paces

and waving hands, when a

believer

may become And the

aware of the very presence of the divine. sunset has for

beauty of God; it

shows me

me it

stainless runs

and

calls

may

divine essence.

see it carelessly

difference.

life;

from end to end of the universe,

upon me to adore

its

and transfigures

visibly and sacredly that beauty pure

and

before

that same tmveiling of the

illumines

It only

perceive God.

and

it,

to prostrate myself

The

fact that another

indifferently

makes no

means that not thus does he

But, for myself, I know no experi-

ence more wholly and deeply religious than when I

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Escape and Other Essays pass in solitude among deep stream-fed valleys, or over the wide fenland or through the familiar hamlet, and see the dying day flame and smolder far

down

tranquil

in the west

spaces

of

among cloudy pavilions clear sky. Then the

or in well-

known land whose homely, day-long energies I know seems to gather itself together into a far and silent adoration, to commit itself trustfully and quietly to God, to diction,

and

nal in a soft

in that

receive

moment

harmony of

His endless bene-

to become itself eter-

voiceless praise

sionate desire.

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and pas-


THE HOUSE OF PENGERSICK



VII

THE HOUSE OF PENGEESICK

THERE

are days

— perhaps that common — when by some it

is

well

they are not more singular

harmony of body and

spirit,

every

little

sound and sight strike on the senses with a peculiar sharpness and distinctness of quality, have a keen

and racy the

and come as delightfully home to

savor,

mind as

cool

well-water

to

thirsty

lips.

Everything seems in place, in some well-designed combination or symphony of the senses

than that

— the

sets free a

;

and more

sound, the sight, whatever

it be,

whole train of far-reaching and mys-

terious thoughts, that seem to flash the secret of life

on the

spirit

— or rather

hint

it

in a tender,

smiling way, as a mother nods a delighted acqui-

escence to the eager questions of a child face to face

with some happy

surprise.

January was just such a day

to

That day of me, as we drove

along the dreary road from Marazion to Helston,

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their heaps of scoriae,

looking out to the sea, on the one hand, and on the other to the low, monotonous slopes of tilth and pasture, rising and falling like broad-backed waves,

with here and there a wild and broken

wood of

firs,

the forest of Broceliande, or a holt of wind-

like

brushed, fawn-colored ash trees, half empurpled

by the coming of

spring, in some rushy dingle

by

the stream side. It

was a cool gray day, with a haze over the

sea, the

gusty sky of yesterday having hardened

into delicate flakes of pearly cloud, like the sand

on some wave-beaten beach.

and refreshing to the

soft

It

was

all infinitely

eye, that outspread

pastoral landscape, seen in a low dusk, like the

dusk of a winter dawn.

was then that

It

we saw the

old

in

a

little

hoUow

House of Pengersick

grim, lean, hungry sort of name!

our

to our right

— what We

a

made

way down along a little road, the big worn standing up out of the gravel, by brakes of

flints

bramble, turf-walls where the ferns grew thick, by bits of wild

upland covered with gorse and rusty

bracken, and

down

four or

low white houses, in

five

at last to the tiny hamlet

130

little

gardens


The House

of Pengersich

where the escallonia grew thick and glossy, the purple veronica bloomed richly, and the green fleshy

mesembryanthemum tumbled and dripped over

The tower

the fences.

itself rose straight

out of

a farmyard, where calves stared through the gate, pigs and hens routed and picked in the mire.

I

have seldom seen so beautiful a bit of building:

it

was a great square battlemented tower, with a turret,

the mullioned windows stopped up with sea-

worn

ward

The whole

boulders.

stone, of a

dark gray

side to a

built of very peculiar

tinge, weathered

most delicate

ivy sprawling over

it

silvery gray, with

in places, like

from a pail over a stone

floor.

on the sea-

water shot out

There were just a

few traces of other buildings in the sheds and walls,

and

bits of carved

No

rockery.

cottages were

From filled

doubt the all built

stonework piled up in a little

itself

and the

— has a few bare rooms farm lumber — one can down

the tower itself

with

farm

out of the ruins. it

see

valley to the long gray line of the

and the low dusky

cliffs

of

Hove

the

Prah sands,

point, where the

waves were breaking white. I suppose

it

The make descents

needed to be a strong place.

Algiers and Sallee pirates used to

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Escape and Other Essays upon this coast till a comparatively recent date. As late as 1636 they kidnapped seven boats and forty-two fishermen off the Manacles, none of

were ever heard of again.

Looe were captured

whom

Eighty fishermen from

in one day,

and there

is

a

complaint extant from the justices of Cornwall to the lord lieutenant that in one year Cornwall lost

had

above a thousand mariners thus

But

there

the natives

was

also another side to the picture;

all

along this

were dreadful

coast

wreckers and plunderers themselves, and made

lit-

account of burning a ship and knocking the

tle

survivors on the head.

The very

parish, Germoe,

which Pengersick stands, had as bad a name as

in

any

in Cornwall:

God keep ns from rocks and shelving And save us from Breage and Germoe runs the old rime. of

how a

And

there

treasure ship, the St.

is

an

sands

men's hands^

evil old story

Andrew

of Portu-

gal, went ashore at Gunwalloe in January, 15S6.

There were thousands of cakes of copper and on

silver

board, plate, pearls, jewels, chains, brooches,

arras, satins, velvets, sets of

armor for the King

of Portugal, and a huge chest of coined gold. 132


The House

of Pengersick

The wretched crew got most land and stacked

it

on the

ton of Pengersick, with a dolphin, came

down with

took

treasure

all

the

of the treasure to

cliffs,

St.

when John MiUi-

Aubyn and a Go-

sixty

away.

armed men, and Complaints were

made, and the three gentlemen protested that they

had but ridden down them

destitute,

to save the crew,

had found

and had even given them money.

But I daresay the big guest-chamber of Pengersick was hung with Portuguese arras for many a long year afterwards.

The Millitons died out, and their land passed by purchase or marriage to the descendants of another of the three pious squires, Godolphin of

Godolphin

— and belongs to-day

to his descendant,

Duke of Leeds. One would have thought that men could not

the

have borne to

such deadly insecurity.

live so, in

But probably they troubled the pirates, kept the

and

set

their heads little about

women and

a retainer on the

cliff in

children at home,

open weather, to

scan the offing for the light-rigged barques, while

poorer folk took their chance. different set of risks now,

We

and think

as the days pass.

133

live little

among

a

of them,


Escape and Other Essays The enough

life

of the tower was simple and hardy

— some

much farmwork, occasional

moor

for woodcock and rabbits,

carouse

—a

rude,

healthy

plentiful,

like to believe.

But the old tower spoke ent things, of the buried

strange drift of for their all

little

human

span of

to

me to-day

after,

why

of differ-

of the past, of the

life

souls through the world

life,

love,

so pathetically ignorant of

and follows is

and drinking, and an

solid eating

perhaps not as far removed from our own as

life,

we

and hunting, some setting

fishing

of springes on the

it so'

the final aim of the will

and sorrow, and what goes before

comes about, and what

we

Here

blindly serve.

was a house of men, I said to myself, with the same hopes and fears and fancies as myself, and yet

none of them, could I recall them, could give me

any reason for the

much of

it

of

it

life

we thus hurriedly

entirely joyful

distasteful

and

and

afilicting.

summer, with the sea a sapphire

live,

delightful, so

On

so

much

a sunny day of

blue, set with great

purple patches, the scent of the gorse in the

air,

the sound of the clear stream in one's ears, what

could be sweeter than to days,

when the wind

live.''

volleys

134

and even on dark

up from the

sea,

and


The House

of Pengersick

the rain dashes on the windows, and the gulls veer

and

sail

room with

overhead, the great guest

women working,

wreckage, the

of

its fire

the children

playing about, must have been a pleasant place enough.

But even

to the strongest

and

of the old squires the end came, as the

boldest

wagon with

the coffin jolted along the stony lane, and the bell

of Germoe came faintly over the

hill.

But I could not think of that to-day, with a secret

joy in

my

heart; I thought rather of the

splendid mystery of

life,

that seems to screen from

us something more gracious

sky

full of star-dust,

still

— the

steep velvet

the flush of spring in sunlit

orchards, the soft, thunderous echoes of great

ocean billows, the orange glow of sunset behind

dark woods:

all

that

the background of life;

and then the converse of friend with

friend, the

intercepted glance of wondering eyes, the whis-

pered message of the heart.

All this, and a crowd

of other sweet. images and fancies came upon

a rush to-day,

like scents

as I watched the old silvery tower stand

up

and square, with the dark moorland behind the

little

me

in

from a twilight garden,

houses clustering about

135

its feet.

bluff

it,

and



VILLAGES



VIII

VILLAGES

WONDER

I

if

any human being has ever ex-

pended as much sincere and unrequited love

upon the

pastoral villages about Cambridge

little

No

as I have.

one ever seems to

smallest interest in

to take the

them or to know them apart or

remember where they

to

me

are.

It

is

true that

it

takes a very faithful lover to distinguish instantly

and impeccably between Histon, Hinxton, Hauxton, Harston, aJl

a

and Harlton; but to me they have

of them a perfectly distinct quality, and make

series of

mind.

charming

Who

little

shsiU justly

beautiful claims of Great

pastoral pictures in the

and perfectly

and

Little

assess the

Eversden?

I

doubt if any inhabitant of Cambridge but myself and one friend of mine, a good man and true, could

Yet

it is

as pleasant to have a connoisseur-

sliip in villages

as to have a connoisseurship in

do

it.

wines or cigars, though

it is

139

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Escape and Other Essays

What say.

It

things;

That I cannot the charm of all sweet

is

the charm of them?

is

a mystery, like

and

further,

what

is

the meaning of love

for an inanimate thing, with no individuality, no

personality, no

charm of

love

is

"I

ing signals back.

you, I

am

The

power of returning love?

that one discerns some spirit maklike

you

to be here, I trust

glad to be with you, I wish to give you

something, to increase your joy, as mine creased."

That, or something

is in-

what

like that, is

one reads in the eyes and faces and gestures of those

whom

one dares to

wise be sadly

One would

love.

and mournfully alone

if

other-

one could not

come across the traces of something, some one whose heart leaps up and whose pulse quickens at the proximity of comrade and friend and lover.

But even so there

always the thought of the

is

parting ahead, when, after the sharing of joy, each

has to go on his way alone.

Then, one

may

love animals; but that

man and

strange love, for the

understand each other.

and

m

faithful comrade,

is

a very

the animal cannot

The dog may be a

and there

really

is

true

nothing

the world more wonderful than the trustful love

q! a

dog

for a man.

One may 14.0

love a horse, I sup-


— Villages pose, though the horse best

;

one

may

a foolish creature at

is

have a sober friendship with a cat,

though a cat does

little

more than

and a bird can be a merry

little

the terror of wild animals for rather dreadful about

many

it,

tolerate one;

playfellow: but

men has something

because

it

stands for

centuries of cruel wrong-doing.

And

may

one

a wistful sort of

love, too, with

love the works of men, pictures, music, statues;

but that, I think,

because one discerns a

is

end of a vista

figure at the

away through the

ages,

a,

whom

but

human

figure hurrying

one

feels

one could have loved had time and place only allowed.

But when

it

comes to loving trees and flowers,

streams and hiUs, buildings and

fields,

what

is it

that happens?

I have a perfectly distinct feel-

ing about these

little villages

are to

me

hereabouts.

like courteous strangers,

and

indifferent people,

folk

whom

I

am

some

like dull

like pleasant, genial

mildly pleased to see; but with

some I have a

real

and devoted

visiting them,

and

if

of them ; when I

some

Some

am

I cannot

far

comes across me, and I

away

am

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friendship. visit

I like

them, I think

the thought of

them

glad to think of them


Escape and Other Essays waiting there for me, nestling under their

hill,

the

smoke going up above the apple-orchards.

One or two of them are particularly beloved because I visited them

first

when

thirty years ago,

an undergraduate, and the thought of the

I was

up again like a sweet and far-off fragrance when I enter them. Yet I do not know any of the people who old days and the old friendships springs

live in these villages,

though by dint of going there

often there are a few people

and

nized

But will

let

saluted.

me take one

not name

it,

consist of?

whom

one loves.

It straggles along a

under a

little

long plowed up.

and I

What

rough and

does

soil

of the wold

fields

it

ill-laid

wold, once a sheep-walk,

The

that in the new-plowed like

village in particular,

because one ought not to publish

the names of those

lane,

by whom I am recog-

now

pale, so

is

there rest soft, cream-

shadows when the evening sun

falls

aslant.

There are two or three substantial farm-houses of pale brick, comfortable old places, with sheds and ricks

and cattle-byres and bams

And

I think

it

is

is

about them.

strange that the scent of a

cattle-byre, with its rich

pools,

close

manure and

its

oozing

not ungrateful to the human sense.

142

It

.


Villages ought to be, but inheritance,

Then

it is

It gives one,

not.

no doubt, a homelike

there are

many

plastered, white-waUed,

and pretty, perhaps

irregular cottages, very quaint

a couple of centuries

very

old,

ill

but enchanting to look at; there

built, is

house, very ugly at present, with

brick

and

its

by long

feeling.

no doubt,

a new schoolits

smart red

— ugly because

stone facings

it

does

not seem to have grown up out of the place, but to

have been brought there by

rail;

and there are a

few new yellow-brick cottages, probably much pleasanter to live in than the old ones, but with no sort

The whole

of interest or charm.

rounded by

little fields,

is

sur-

orchards, closes, paddocks,

and a good many great elms stand up above the There

house-roofs.

is

one quaint old farm, with

a moat and a dove-cote and a wall

surrounded by

quaint and characteristic ancient church,

because there

is

by whom

fine,

old

meUow brick

pollarded elms, very

little

and then there

;

built

no squire

is

a

big,

one cannot divine,

in the village,

and the

farmers and laborers could no more build such a

church now than they could build a stellar observatory.

It

would cost nowadays not

thousand pounds, and there

143

is

less

than ten

no record of who


Escape and Other Essays gave the money or who the architect was. a

fine

tower and a couple of solid beUs;

It has it

has a

few bits of good brass-work, a chandelier and some candlesticks,

tomb

in

and

it

has a

eighteenth-century

fine

a corner, with a huge slab of black basalt

on the top, and a

heraldic shield

and a very obsequi-

ous inscription, which might apply to any one, and yet could be true of nobody.

Why

the particular

old gentleman should want to sleep there, or

was

much on

willing to spend so

who

his lying in state,

no one knows, and I fear that no one cares except myself.

There are a few

little bits

of old glass in the

church, in the traceries of the windows, just enough to

show that some one liked making pretty things,

and that some one them.

And

cared enough to pay for

else

then there

Is

a solid rectory by the

church, inhabited for centuries

by

fellows of

a cer-

tain Cambridge college.

I do not expect that they

very much.

Probably they rode over

lived there

on Sundays, read

two' services,

and had a cold

luncheon in between; perhaps they visited a sick parishioner, and even came over on a week-day for

a marriage or a funeral and I daresay that in the ;

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Villages

and

lived there for a few weeks, rather bored,

and

warm combination room and

the

longing for the college port

That

and the gossip and

is

really

love in all

that.''

Well,

it is

a

all,

I think.

little

stir

of the place.

And what is

there to

space of earth in which

life

has been going on for I daresay a thousand years.

The whole love

place has grown slowly up out of the

and care and work of man.

were nothing but

little

Perhaps there

huts and hovels at

first,

a tiny rubble church; then the houses grew a bigger and better.

by

Perhaps

it

with little

was emptied again

the Black Death, which took a long toll of vic-

tims

Shepherds, plowmen, hedgers,

hereabouts.

ditchers,

farmers, an ale-house-keeper, a

keeper or two, and a priest village

for a thousand years.

toilsome, unimaginative, kindly

say.

Not much

shop-

— that has been the Patient, little lives,

interested in one another,

stupid,

I dareill

edu-

cated, gossipy, brutish, superstitious, but surprised

perhaps into sudden passions of love, and surprised perhaps

motherhood

;

by the joys

with children of

still

more

of fatherhood and

all

ages growing up,

pretty and engaging and dirty and amusing and

naughty, fading one by one into dull and sober

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Escape and Other Essays age, and into decrepitude,

and the churchyard at

the end of all!

Well, I think

that pathetic and mysterious,

all

and beautiful with the beauty that want to know who looked about,

like,

reality has.

I

the folks were, what they

all

what they cared about or thought

how they made

terms with pain and death,

what they hoped, expected, feared, and what has become of them.

Every one as urgently and

vehemently and interestedly alive as I myself, and yet none of them with the slightest idea

got there

how they

or whither they were going — the

helpless, good-natured, passive

women, pouring

like

great,

army of men and

a stream through the world,

and borne away on the wings of the wind. were glad to be

alive,

on the apple-orchard, and the scent of the was

in the air,

blossoms,

They

no doubt, when the sun

fell

fruit

and the bees hummed round the

when people

smile at each other

kind and meaningless things

;

and say

they were afraid, no

doubt, as they lay in pain in the stuffy attics, with the

night wind blustering round the

stack,

and hoped to be

well again.

chimney-

Then

there

were occasions and treats, the Sunday dinner, the

wedding, the ride in the farm-cart to Cambridge,

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Villages the visit of the married sister from her

was happening

made

little

close

knew or cared what

I do not suppose they

by.

home

War

in the world.

and

politics

They knew about

difference to them.

the weather, they cared perhaps about their work,

they liked the Sunday holiday

—

all

very dim and

simple, thoughts not expressed, feelings not uttered,

experience

phrases.

Yet I

summed up

like to think that

in

little

of

bits

they were pleased

with the look of the place without knowing why. I don't deceive myself about all this or

as idyllic.

was

it

great deal of

it;

thoughts about

it,

cal words, I

hopes,

it

out

I don't exactly wish to have lived thus,

and I expect

my

make

coarse, greedy, dull, ugly, a

but though I can think

and put

my

do not honestly believe that

my

feelings difi'er

fine

thoughts into musi-

my

life,

very much from the

experience of these old people.

Of course

I have books

lectual fancies

and pictures and

and ideas but that ;

is

intel-

only an elab-

orate game that I play, the things I notice and recognize: but I expect the old hearts and minds

were at work, too, noticing and observing and recording ; and

all

my

flourish of talk

only a superficial affair. 14*7

and thought

is


Escape and Other Essays And what

consecrates and lights

place for me, touches

it

moving, touching, beautiful, that strange, unconscious the fear

up the

little

with golden hues, makes

it

is

the thought of all

life,

the love and hate,

and the content, the joy and sorrow, that

has surged to and fro among the thatched roofs

and apple-orchards so many centuries before I

came

into being,

and

when

am

will

continue

first

thirty years ago, explor-

I

trod-

den into the dust.

,When I came here

ing with a friend long dead the country-side, was, I

am

sure, the

place beautiful.

words

;

bright

I could not then put

is

a very pleasant pastime.

— — and

summer day,

clover in the air

it

into

and word-

I have learned to do that since,

painting

it

same thought that made the

It

was a

hot,

I recall the scent of the

there

came on me that

curious uplifting of the heart, that wonder as to

what

all

the

warmth and

scent, the green-piled

tree, the grazing cows, the children trotting to and

fro,

could possibly mean, or

utterly delightful.

It

why

was not a

it

was

all

so

religious feeling,

but there was a sense of a great, good-natured, beauty-loving mind behind like

it

all

—a

mind very

our own, and yet even then with a shadow

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;

Villages striking across it

and hollow

— the shadow

of pain and grief

farewells.

I was not a very contented boy in those days, in some bewilderment

having had

hard and

my

first

intricate.

of both mind and heart,

experience that

life

could be

The world was sweeter to me, it now is but I had

though not so interesting as

;

just the same deep desire as I have now, though

has not been

satisfied, to find

it

something strong and

secure and permanent, some heart to trust utterly

and

entirely,

something that could understand and

comfort and explain and reassure, a power which

one could clasp hands with, as a child lays

its deli-

cate finger in a strong, enfolding palm, and never be in

any doubt again.

It

one's weakness which

is

and yet

so tiring, so disappointing ;

I

is

do not want a

careless, indiflFerent, brutal, healthy strength at aU.

It is the strength of love

and peace that I want,

not to be afraid, not to be troubled.

It

is

all

somewhere, I do not doubt Yet, oh, the place could I but find!

I have been through

The

my

village this very day.

sun was just beginning to slope to the west;

the sun poured out his rays of gold from under-

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my

nurse used to

tell

me

—

were

sucking up water, but which I believed to be the

The

eye of God.

trees were bare, but the elm-

buds were red, and the willow-rods were crimson with spring; the the

hill

little

stream bubbled clearly oiF

and the cottage gardens were

;

full

of up-

thrusting blades; while the mezereons were

aflame with bloom.

ing past see the

!

When

I wonder.

dawn

want to

again, to loiter

down

gabled houses.

Shall I be

am

I pass the gate, if I

of that other morning, I cannot help

feeling that I shall

see

the lane

much

my

little village

among

the white-

wiser then than I

Shall I have seen or heard something

now.''

which

all

Life moving, pausing, rush-

my anxious mind at rest ? Who can And yet the old, gnarled apple-boughs,

will set

tell me.''

with the blue sky behind them, and the new-springing grass as

much

all

seem

to'

hold the secret, which I want

to interpret and

make my own

as

when I

wandered through the hamlet imder the wold more than thirty years ago.

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DREAMS



IX

DREAMS

THERE

is

a movement nowadays among the

philosophers who' study the laws of thought, to lay a strong emphasis

dreams

;

what part of us

upon the phenomena

is it

of

that enacts with such

strange zest and vividness, and yet with so mysterious a disregard of ordinary motives ventions,

the pageant of dreams?

other things which befall us in daily so familiar a fact, that

we

at the marvelousness of

and con-

Like

life,

many

dreams are

often forget to wonder

it

all.

The two

points

about dreams which seem to me entirely inexplicable are: firstly, that they are so visual impressions,

are

all self-invented

contrive to strike

When

and self-produced, they yet

upon the mind with a marvelous

freshness of emotion

these two points a

much occupied with

and secondly, that though they

and surprise.

little

more

Let us take

in detail.

one awakes from a vivid dream one gen-

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Escape and Other Essays erally has the impression of a scene of some kind,

which has been mainly received through the medium I suppose that this varies with differ-

of the eye.

ent people, but

my own

dreams are rather sharply

divided into certain classes.

I

am

oftenest a silent

spectator of landscapes of ineffable beauty, such

a great river, as blue as sapphire, rolling

as

down between vast sandstone cliffs, among wooded hiUs, piled thick with trees rich

majestically or

in blossom

or I see stately buildings crowded to-

among woodlands, with long

gether of

;

stone

and airy

towers.

carved fronts

These dreams are

peculiarly uplifting and stimulating, and I wake

from them with an extraordinary sense of beauty

and wonder; or

else I see

from some window or

balcony a great ceremony of some quite

unintelli-

gible kind proceeding, a procession with richly

dressed persons walking or riding, or a religious

pomp

taking place in a dim pillared interior.

such dreams pass by in absolute

no idea where I am, nor what

am

I curious to know.

there

is

voice

silence.

is

I have

happening, nor is

no one at hand to converse

Then again stance

No

is

All

upraised, and with.

there are dreams of which the sub-

animated and vivid conversation. 154.

I have


Dreams long and confidential talks with people

Pope or

Tsar of Russia,

the

advice, they quote to find

my

They ask my

books, and I

them so familiar and

like the

am

accessible.

surprised

Or

am

I

a strange house with an unknown party of

in

guests, and person after person comes all

up

to

tell

Or

kinds of interesting facts and details.

me

else,

as often happens to me, I meet people long since

my

dead; I dream constantly, for instance, about father.

I see

him by chance at a railway

we congratulate

upon the happy

ourselves

dent of meeting; he takes ingly and indulgently

the knowledge that he

my

is

acci-

arm, he talks smil-

and the only way

;

station,

which

in

dead affects the dream

that I feel bewildered at having seen so

little

of

is

him

of late, and even ask him where he has been for so

long that we have not met oftener.

Very occasionally well

I hear music in a dream.

remember hearing four musicians with

I

little

instruments like silver flutes play a quartet of infinite

sweetness

place either

;

but most of

among

fine

my

adventures take

landscapes or in familiar

conversation.

At one dream.

time, as a child, I

We

had an often repeated

were then living in an old house at

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the

called

Chancery.

It

was a large

rambling place, with some interesting medieval

such as a stone winding staircase, a

features,

wooden Tudor

screen,

built

into

a

.

and

wall,

formerly belonging to the chapel of the house.

There were, moreover, certain quite unaccountable spaces, where the external measurements of pass-

ages did not correspond with the measurement of

rooms within.

This fact excited our childish im-

and probably was the origin

agination,

of the

dream. It always

began

in the

same way.

I would ap-

pear to be descending a staircase which led up into a lobby, and would find that a certain step rattled as I trode

upon

proved to

be

it.

Upon

hinged,

examination the step

and on opening

it,

the

head of a staircase appeared, leading downwards.

Though,

as I say, the

dream was often repeated,

it

was always with the same shock of surprise that I

made

the discovery.

I used to squeeze in through

the opening, close the step behind me, and go the stairs

;

artificial light,

discover. visible,

down

the place was dimly lighted with some

At

the source of which I could never

the bottom a large vaulted

of great extent, fitted

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room was

with iron-barred


Dreams These

as in a stable.

stalls,

They were

all

were tenanted

stalls

by animals; there were dogs,

tigers,

and

lions.

very tame, and delighted to see me.

I used to go into the stalls one

by

one, feed

and

play with the animals, and enjoy myself very much.

There was never any custodian to be never occurred to

had got

there,

me

to wonder

how

seen,

and

nor to whom they belonged.

spending a long time with

my

it

the animals

After

menagerie, I used to

return; and the only thing that seemed of importance to

me was

the place.

that I should not be seen leaving

I used to raise the step cautiously and

was no one

listen,

so as to be sure that there

about

generally in the dream some one came

the

;

stairs

over

my

down

head; and I then waited,

crouched below, with a sense of delightful adventure, until the person

tiously

extricated

had passed by, when I cau-

myself.

dream became

This

quite familiar to me, so that I used to hope in

my

mind, on going to bed, that I might be about to see the animals; but I was often disappointed,

and

This dream visited me

dreamed of other things.

at irregular intervals for I should say about two or three years,

and then I had

the singular fact about

it

it

was that

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no more; but it

always came


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Escape and Other Essays with the same sense of wonder and delight, and while actually dreaming

had

seen

it

it,

I never realized that I

before.

The only

other tendency to a recurring dream

that I have ever noticed was in the course of the

long

illness

of which I have written elsewhere ;

my

dreams were invariably pleasant and agreeable at that time; but I constantly had the experience in the course of them of seeing something of a pro-

found blackness. cloak, sometimes

Sometimes

it

was a man

a

in

an open door with an intensely

black space within, sometimes a bird, like a raven

or a crow; oftenest of

all it

took the shape of a

small black cubical box, which lay on a table, with-

out any apparent

lid

or means of opening

This I used to take up in

my

hands, and find

it.

it

very heavy ; but the predominance of some intensely black object, which I have never experienced before

or since, was too marked to be a mere coincidence

and I have

little

doubt that

it

was some obscure

symptom of my

condition,

physical cause.

Indeed, at the same time, I was

and had some

definite

occasionally aware of the presence of something

black in waking hours, not a thing definitely seen,

but existing dimly in a visual

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cell.

After I re-


;

Dreams covered, this left me,

and I have never seen

it since.

These are the more coherent kind of dreams but ;

there ter,

is

another kind of a vaguely anxious charac-

which consist of endless attempts to catch

trains, or to fulfil social engagements,

Or one dreams

of hurry and dismay.

and are

full

that one has

been condemned to death for some unknown offense,

and the time draws near; some

little

while ago 1

spent the night under these circumstances inter-

viewing different members of the Government in a vain attempt to discover the reasons for

my

con-

demnation; they could none of them give me a account of the

specific

politely deplore that

it

affair,

and could only

was necessary to make an

" Depend upon it," said Mr. LloydGeorge to me, " substantial justice will be done " " But that is no consolation to me," I said. " No," example.

!

he replied kindly, "

it

would hardly amount to

that!"

But out of

all this

there emerges the fact that

after a vivid dream, one's

memory

is

full of pic-

tures of things seen quite as distinctly, indeed often

more

distinctly,

recollection

have of

than in real

life.

I have a clearer

of certain dream-landscapes than I

many

scenes actually beheld with the eye

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me wondering how the effect is brought and how the memory is enabled to store what

this sets

about,

appears to be a visual impression, by some reflex action of the nerves of sight.

Then

there

is

the second point, that of the lively

emotions stirred by dreams.

It

would really ap-

pear that there must be two distinct personalities at work, without

any connection between them, one

unconsciously inventing and the other consciously observing.

I

dreamed not long ago that I was

walking beside the lake at Riseholme, the former palace of the bishops of Lincoln, where I often went as a child.

sunk,

I saw that the level of the lake had

and that there was a great bank of

shingle

between the water and the shore, on which I proceeded to pace.

I was attracted by something

sticking out of the bank,

saw that pulled

it

it

it,

I

I

out and saw that I had found a great

golden chalice,

Then

and on going up to

was the base of a curious metal cup.

much dimmed with age and

weather.

I saw that further in the bank there were a

number of cups, patens,

candlesticks, flagons, of

great antiquity and beauty. that I had heard as a child

I then recollected (this

was wholly

imaginary, of course) that there had once been a

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Dreams great robbery of cathedral plate at Lincoln, and that one of the bishops had been vaguely suspected of being concerned in

it

;

and I saw at once that I

had stumbled on the hoard, stowed there no doubt

—

by guilty episcopal hands I even name of the bishop concerned.

Now

recollected the

as a matter of fact one part of

my mind

must have been ahead inventing this story, while the other part of the mind was apprehending

astonishment and excitement.

with

it

Yet the observant

part of the mind was utterly unaware of the fact that I was myself originating

it all.

And

the only

natural inference would seem to be that there real duality of

is

a

mind at work.

For when one

is

composing a story,

in ordinary

waking moments, one has the sense that one venting and controlling the Incidents.

is in-

In dreams

this sense of proprietorship is utterly lost; one

seems to have no power over the inventive part of the mind; one can only helplessly follow

and be amazed at times, in a

its

creations.

dream of tragic

And

its lead,

yet, some-

intensity, as one begins

to awake, a third person seems to intervene, and

says reassuringly that

it is

only a dream.

intervention seems to disconcert the inventor,

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who


Escape and Other Essays then promptly retires, while to the timid

it

and frightened

seem then that the rational

brings sudden nlicf It would

observer.

self reasserts itself,

and

that the two personalities one of which has been creating and the other observing, come in like dogs to heel.

Another very curious part of dreams concern themselves so very

thoughts of

little

that they

is

with the current,

My dreams are mostly composed,

life.

as I have said, of landscapes, ceremonies, conversasensational adventures, muddling! engage-

tions,

ments.

When

I

was a schoolmaster, I seldom

dreamed of school; now that I

am no

longer a

schoolmaster, I do sometimes dream of school, of

trying to keep order in immense classrooms, or

hurrying about

had

my

in search of

long and dreary

years, I invariably

I

am

I

Now

that

have dreams of causeless

and poignant melancholy.

me

When

form.

lasting for two

had happy dreams.

well again, I often

in the world for

my

illness,

It

is

the rarest thing

to be able to connect

my dreams

with anything which has recently happened

;

I can-

not say that marvelous landsc&ites, ceremonies, conversations with exalted personages, sensational incidents,

play any considerable part in

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my

life;


Dreams and yet these are the constituent elements

The

dreams.

scientific

in

my

students of psychology say

that the principal stuff of dreams seems to be fur-

nished by the early experience of

life;

and when

they are dealing with mental ailments, they say that delusions and obsessions are often explained

by the study of

the dreams of diseased brains,

which point as a

some

either to

3nile

unfulfilled

desire, or to

some severe nen^ous shock sustained

childhood.

But

cause of

my own

I cannot discern

elaborate visions

cal cause which seems to

producing dreams cold in bed.

the night

is

A

I

is if

in

any predominant ;

the only physi-

me to be am either

very active in too hot or too

sudden change of temperature in

the one thing which seems to

me

quite

certain to produce a great crop of dreams.

Another very curious fact about that I

am

my

dreams

wholly deserted by any moral sense.

is

I

have stolen interesting objects, I have even killed people in dreams, without adequate cause ; but I

am

then entirely devoid of remorse, and only anxious to escape detection.

I have never felt anything

of the nature of shame or regret in a dream.

I

find myself anxious indeed, but fertile in expedients

for escaping unscathed.

On

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Escape and Other Essays tain emotions are very active in dreams.

I some-

times appear to go with a brother or sister through

the rooms or gardens of a house, which on awaking

my

proves to be wholly imaginary, and recall with

companion

of pathetic and delightful inci-

all sorts

dents of childhood which seem to have taken place there.

Again, though much of

my

life

is

given to

writing, I hardly ever find myself composing any-

Once I wrote a poem in

thing in a dream. sleep,

a curious Elizabethan lyric, which

found

in the

Phoenix."

Oxford Book of Verse,

It

is

my

It

came to me on the

birthday, in 1891, I think, when

I was staying with a friend at the

by Hawes Water lyric

Westmorland.

in

down on awaking.

verse, thinking the it

poem

I

Dun

Bull Hotel,

I scribbled the

afterwards added a

incomplete.

I published

book of poems, and showed the proof to a

in a

who

friend,

stanza

called

:

said to me, pointing to the added

" Ah, you must omit that stanza

quite out of keeping with the rest of the

But

be " The

not the sort of thing that I have

ever written before or since.

night before

my

may

this is a quite

I once dreamed I

—

it is

poem

!

unique experience, except that

was present at a confirmation

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Dreams service, at

which a very singular hymn was sung,

which I recollected on waking, and which

is

far too

grotesque to write down, being addressed, as to the bishop

who was

was,

it

At the me both moving and

to perform the rite.

time, however, it seemed to

appropriate. It

is

either

often said that dreams only take place

when one

is

just going to sleep or beginning

But that

to awake.

not

is

my

experience.

I have

by some loud have come out of

occasionally been awakened suddenly

sound, and on those occasions I

dreams of an intensity and vividness that I have never known equaled.

Neither

experience that dreamful sleep

should say

it

and

am

unrefreshing.

generally to

is

not very well but a sleep ;

interesting dreams

feeling of freshness

is

my

true in

was rather the other way.

found and heavy sleep that I

is

is it

me a

full

of

if

sign

happy

generally succeeded

and gaiety, as

I

Pro-

by a

one had been

both rested and well entertained.

These are only a few scattered personal experiences,

suggest.

My

and I have no philosophy of dreams to It is in my case an inherited power.

father was

the

most vivid and persistent

dreamer I have ever met, and his dreams had a

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have never known the

and

like.

interest of

which I

The dream

of his,

which I have told in his biography, of the finding of the grave of the horse of Titus Gates, seems to

me one

of the most extraordinary pieces of inven-

tion I have ever heard, because of the conversation

which took place before he realized what the slab actually was.

He

dreamed that he was standing in Westminster

Abbey with Dean

Stanley, looking at

cracked slab of slate with letters on

it.

a small "

We 've

found it," said Stanley. " Yes," said my father, " and how do you account for it.? " " Why," said Stanley, " I suppose it is intended to commemorate the fact that the animal innocence was not affected

by the said

my

villainies

father,

" Of course "

of the master."

who was

still

He

the inscription referred to.

!

quite

unaware what

then saw on the

ITI CAPITANI, and knew that the stone was one that had marked the grave of Titus Gates' horse, and that the whole inscription must slab the letters

have been

EQUUS TITI CAPITANI,—" The

—

horse of Titus the Captain," ferring to the fact that

my

the " Captain " re-

father then recollected

that Titus Gates had been a Train-band Captain.

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Dreams

My

only really remarkable dream containing a

presentiment or rather a clairvoyance of a singular kind, hardly explicable as a mere coincidence, has

occurred to

On

me

since I

began

this paper.

the night of December 8, 1914, I dreamed

that I was walking along a country road, between hedges.

To

a park.

I was proposing to call there, to

the left was a

little

country house, in see, I

thought, an old friend of mine, Miss Adie Browne,

who has been dead dream

for some years, though in

my

I thought of her as alive.

I came up with four people, walking along the

road

in the

same direction as myself.

There was

an elderly man, a younger man, red-haired, walking very lightly, in knickerbockers, and two boys I took to be the sons of the younger man. nized the elder

man

and smiled I did

to me,

so, the

though I cannot

as a friend,

now remember who he appeared

to be.

He

and I joined the party.

younger man

said,

"I

nodded Just as

am going to

on a lady, an elderly cousin of mine, who here " !

He

whom

I recog-

call

lives

said this to his companions, not to

me, and I became aware that he was speaking of

Miss Adie Browne.

"You

The

older

man

said to me,

have not been introduced," and then, pre-

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Radstock " !

We

is

Lord

shook hands and I said, "

Do

you know, I am very much surprised ; I understood

Lord Radstock

to be a

I do not remember it

had been very

much

older

man

!

any more of the dream but ;

vivid,

and when I was

called, I

went over it in my mind. A few minutes later, the " Times " of December 9 was brought to my bedroom, and opening it, I saw the sudden death of Lord Radstock announced. I had not known that he was

ill,

for years

;

and indeed had never thought of him but the strange thing

is this,

that he was

a cousin of Miss Adie Browne's, and she used to tell

me

interesting stories about him,

I do not

suppose that since her death I have ever heard his

name mentioned, and I had never met him. So that, as a matter of fact, when I dreamed my dream, the old Lord Radstock was dead, and his son, who is a man of fifty-four, was the new Lord Radstock. The man I saw in my dream was not, I should say,

remember

little

more than about

forty-five;

but I

of him, except that he had red

hair.

I do not take in an evening paper, but I do not

think there was any announcement of Lord Rad-

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Dreams stock's illness,

on the previous day; in fact

his

death seems to have been quite sudden and unex-

Apart from

pected.

coincidence, the rational ex-

planation might be that

my mind

was

in

some sort

of telepathic communication with that of

and dear friend Miss Adie Browne, who

my

often in

my

is

old

indeed

mind, and one would also have to pre-

suppose that her spirit was likewise aware of her

Lord Radstock's

cousin

I do not advance

death.

this as the only explanation,

but

it

not impossible one of a mysterious

My

conclusion, such as

rational

and moral

it is,

seems to

affair.

would be that the

faculties are in

dreams, and that

it is

one's essence that

is

me a

suspense in

a wholly primitive part of

at work.

The

creative

power

seems to be very strong, and to have a vigorous faculty of combining terials of

memory but ;

and exaggerating the mait

deals mainly with rather

and

childish emotions, with shapes

impressive

colors, with

and distinguished people, with things

marvelous and sensational, with troublesome and perplexed adventures.

It does not

go far in search

of motives; in the train-catching dreams, for instance, I never

what

is

know

the object of

exactly where I

my journey 169

;

am

going, or

in the ceremonial


Escape and Other Essays dreams, I seldom have any notion of what

is

being

celebrated.

But what I cannot

in the least understand

the

is

complete withdrawal of consciousness from the inventive part of the mind, especially

servant part that

is

is

so eagerly

way

in

which dream-experiences,

so vivid at the time, melt

If one rehearses a dream in

awakes,

it

alertly aware of all

Moreover, I can never under-

happening.

stand the curious

and

away upon awakening. memory the moment one

becomes a very distinct

does not do this,

when the ob-

fades swiftly,

it

affair.

If one

and though one

has a vague sense of rich adventures, half an hour later there seems to be

no power whatever of

re-

covering them. Strangest of

the inventive power in dreams

all,

seems to have a range and an intensity which does

not exist when one est

is

power, in waking

awake. life,

I have not the slight-

of conceiving and visual-

izing the astonishing landscapes which I see in

dreams.

I can recall actual scenes with great dis-

tinctness,

but the glowing color and the prodigious

forms of

my

my

landscape visions are wholly beyond

power of thought.

Lastly, I have never

had any dream of any 170

real


Dreams or vital significance, any warning or presentiment,

anything which bore in the least degree upon the issues of

There

life.

is

a beautiful passage in the Purgatorio

of Dante about the dawn

he writes

;

In that hour

When

near the

dawn

the swallow her sad song.

Haply remembering ancient grief, renews; And when our minds, more wanderers from the

And less by thought restrained, are, Of holy divination in their dreams. I suppose that

it

different person ish,

all

;

but in

flesh

were, full

my own

case,

my

seem to belong to a whoUy

from myself, a light-hearted,

careless creature, full of

quisitiveness,

't

would be possible to interpret

one's dreams symbolically

dream experiences

as

child-

animation and in-

buoyant and thoughtless, content to

look neither forwards nor backwards, wholly with-

out responsibility or intelligence, just borne along

by the pleasure of the moment, perfectly harmless and

friendly, as a rule, a sort of cheerful butterfly.

That but that

is

not in the least

it fills it is

my

waking temperament;

me sometimes with an uneasy

more

like

myself than I know.

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suspicion



THE VISITANT



THE VISITANT

AM

I

going to try to put into words a very

sin-

gular and very elusive experience which visits

me

not infrequently.

but I

first

when

I cannot say

became aware of

it

it

began,

about four years

ago. It takes the

form of an instantaneous mental

not very distinct but stiU not to be mis-

vision,

taken for anything

and

wife,

who are

newly built house.

else,

of two people, a husband

somewhere in a large

living

The husband

suppose, about forty, the wife

and they are well-built

childless.

man

is

is

a

The husband

with light,

almost

a

man

trifle is

of, I

younger,

an

active,

golden hair,

rather coarse in texture, and with a pointed beard

of the same hue.

He

has

fine,

clean-cut, muscular

hands, and he wears, as I see him, a rough, rather

shabby is

of

suit of light,

fair

homespun

cloth.

The

wife

complexion, a beautiful woman, with

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hair,

and

dressed, I think, in a very simple

and rather peculiar

They

dress.

are people of

high principle, wealthy, and with cultivated tastes.

They

care for music and books

They

band has no profession. wooded landscape, I am sex, in a

The hus-

art.

live in

a wide, well-

inclined to think in Sus-

newly built house, as I have

and timber,

plaster

and

with

tiled,

said, of white

many

gables and

with two large, bow-windowed rooms, rather low, the big mullioned oriels of which, with leaded roofs,

are a rather conspicuous feature of the house.

The house

stands on a slightly rising ground, in

a park-like demesne of a few acres, well timbered,

and with open paddocks of grass.

The house

is

approached by a drive from the main road, with two big gateposts of brick, and a white gate be-

To

tween. is

the right of the house

the louver of a stable.

There

among is

the trees

a terrace just

in front of the house, full of flowers, with a low

brick wall in front of field.

it

separating

I see the house and

its

it

from the

surroundings more

clearly than I see the figures themselves.

I cannot see the interior of the house at all clearly,

with the exception of one room.

know where

the front door

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is,

I do not

nor have I ever seen


The

Visitant

any of the upper rooms.

The one exception

is

a

big room on the right of the house as one looks at

from the main road.

it

great distinctness.

This room I see with

It is large

and

low,

papered

with a white paper and with a parquetry floor, designed for a music room.

There

is

a grand

piano, but what I see most clearly are a good

many

books, rather inconveniently placed in low

white bookcases which run round most of the room,

under the windows, with three shelves in each. seems to

me

to be a

bad arrangement, because

It it

would be necessary to stoop down so much for the books, but I do not think that there

reading done in the room.

is

much

There are several low

armchairs draped in a highly colored chintz with a white ground; there are pictures on the walls

but I cannot see them are water colors. culiar

and bright

round the It

is

oriel,

in this

The blue.

distinctly.

I think they

curtains are of a very pe-

A

low window-seat runs

with cushions of the same blue.

room only that I

see the

two people,

always together; and I have never seen any one else in the house.

They are

seen in certain definite

positions, oftenest standing together looking out

of the window, which must face the west, because

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hand

is

The a

As a

it.

rule,

the woman's

passed through the man's arm. vision simply flashes across

picture,

am doing

whatever I

Sometimes I see

it

at the

like

time.

several times in a week, some-

times not for weeks together.

the house in a

my mind

moment

I should recognize

I saw

if

it

should recognize the people.

I do not think I

;

I cannot see the

shapes of their features or their expressions, but

I can see the bloom on the wife's cheek and

pure

its

outline.

To

my

the best of

knowledge I have never seen

either the people or the house in real life

I have strongly the sense that

and that the people are to

me

like

distinctly it

seem to

real.

it is

and too accurately for ,

which I have

and yet

a real house

It does not seem

a mere imagination, because

me

;

comes too

it

Nor

that.

does

to be a mere combination of things

seen.

The

curious part of

that

it is

some parts of the vision are absolutely clear

—

thus I can see the very texture of the smooth plaster of the house,

and the oak beams

inset

;

and

I can also see the fabric of the man's clothes and the color of his hair ; but, however

gate

my memory

or

my

much

I interro-

fancy about other

178

details,


The they are

all

Visitant

involved in a sort of mist which I can-

not pierce.

It

is

this

which convinces me of the

reahty of the house, and makes is

not imagination; because,

should have enlarged this I

cannot do.

in the music-room,

my

me

if it

believe that it

were, I think I

vision of the whole

;

but

There

is

a door, for instance,

which

is

sometimes open, but

even so I cannot see anything outside in the hall

or passage to which

Moreover, though I

it leads.

can recollect the visions with absolute distinctness, I cannot evoke them. ing,

and I suddenly

meadows; or

the

two

I

see in

am

may be

reading or writ-

my mind the house

in the music-room,

if this

book should

whom

across

and the

window.

figures are standing together in the

So strongly do I

to

I

feel the actuality of it all, fall

that

into the hands of the people

the vision refers, I will ask them to com-

municate with me.

no idea what their past

I have

has been, but I know their characters fact that they have no children

is

well.

The

a sorrow to

them, but has served to center their affections strongly on each other. tranquil

of pose about his best.

The husband

and unaffected man.

He

is

life.

He

There

is is

a very

no sort

just lives as he likes

unambitious, and he has no sense of

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But

not coupled

this is

with any sense of contempt or aloofness invariably kind and gentle.

He

is

an

man, highly trained and clear-minded. has

less

fine,

is

intellectual

The

knowledge of the technique of

things, but a very

— he

wife

artistic

She

natural, critical taste.

than

cares, however, less for the things themselves

because her husband cares for them; but I do not think that she knows

They have always

this.

en-

joyed good health, and I cannot discern that they have had troubles of any kind.

And

I have the

strongest sense of a perfectly natural high-mindedness about both, a healthy instinct for

and

They

fine.

and they are

what

is

right

are absolutely without meanness;

entirely free

from any sort of mor-

They have traveled a good now seldom leave home; they designed and built their own house. One curious

bidity or dreariness. deal, but they

thing

is

that I have never heard music in the house,

nor have I ever seen them reading, and yet I

feel

that they are much occupied with music and books.

What vision?

is

the possible explanation of this curious

I have sometimes wondered if they have

been brought into some unconscious rapport with

me through one

of

my

books.

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It seems to

me just


The

Visitant

possible that

when I have seen them standing

to-

gether there

may

my

be some phrase in one of

books which has struck them and which they are

accustomed to remember; and I think

some phrase about the sunset, because

But

set that I generally see them.

my

explain

it

it is

may

be

at sun-

this does not

vision of the house, because I have

never seen either of them outside of the house,

and I have several times seen the music-room with no one in

it;

how does

the vision of the house,

come to me? They inspire me with a great feeling of respect and friendship the vision is very beautiful, and is always attended by a great sense of pleasure. I feel that it does me good in some obscure way to

which

is

so strangely distinct,

;

be brought into touch with them. retain

my

stant;

it is

It

is

Yet I can never

hold on the scene for more than an injust there and then

it is

gone.

a very strange thing to be conscious of two

quite distinct personalities,

and yet without any

power of winding myself any further thoughts.

am

There seems to be no

admitted, as

it

into their

vital contact.

I

were, at certain times to a

sight of the place, but I

am

sure that there

sort of volition on their part about it; I

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is

no

do not


Escape and Other Essays that their thoughts are ever bent actually

feel

upon me,

upon something

as I exist, but perhaps

connected with me, I must

add

that,

though I

at night and have always at

power of mental

;

a great dreamer

all

times a strong

am

visualizations, I

tomed to be controlled by it

am

it,

not accus-

but rather to control

and I have never at any time had any sort of

similar vision, of a thing apart from

memory or

fancy. I do believe very firmly in the telepathic faculty.

fected both consciously

thoughts of others. in

much and unconsciously by

I think that our thoughts are

a spiritual medium and that there

any

definite

experiments in

frequent evidence of

by the thoughts of that this

may

it,

is

much

inter-

I have never

but I have had

my thoughts being affected my friends. It seems to me

be a case of some open channel of

communication, as

way

the

I believe thought takes place

lacing and transference of thought. tried

af-

entangled.

so obscure that

if

two wires had become in some

The whole method it is

of thought

is

hard to say under what con-

ditions this takes place.

But I allow myself the

happiness of believing that the place and the peo-

182

>


The pie of

whom

Visitant

I have been so often

and tangible

existences,

my

by me have passed

brain, so that some secret fellowship has

been established. if this

real

and that impressions of

things unseen and unrecognized into

aware are

It

would be a great joy to me

am not may by

could be definitely established ; and I

without hopes that this piece of writing

some happy chance be the bearer of

definite tidings

whom unseen I love, and whose may have been bent aimlessly perhaps and

to two people

thought

indistinctly

upon mine, but never without some

touch of kinship and good

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will.



THAT OTHER

ONEi



XI

THAT OTHER ONE

AM

going to try,

few pages, to draw

in these

—

I

water out of a deep well the well of which " William Morris wrote as the Well at the World's

End."

and

I shall try to describe a very strange

me

secret experience, which visits

rarely and at

unequal intervals ; sometimes for weeks together not at

all,

sometimes several times in a day.

happens

it is

not strange at

only wonder about

more

it is

all,

that

When

nor wonderful the

it

often, because it seems at the

;

does not happen

moment to be the

one true thing in a world of vain shadows thing else

falls

;

every-

away, becomes accidental and

mote, like the lights,

let

me

it

say, of some

re-

unknown

town, which one sees as one travels by night and as one twitches aside the curtain from the window of

a railway-carriage, in a sudden interval between

two profound slumbers.

The

train has relaxed its

speed; one looks out; the red and green signal

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Escape and Other Essays lamps hang high in the air

and one

;

glides past a

sleeping town, the lamps burning quietly in deserted streets; there are house-fronts below, in a long

thoroughfare suddenly

visible

from end to end;

above, there are indeterminate shadows, the glim-

mering faces of high towers ; mysterious there

;

;

and then the

the brain,

it is all

ghost-like

one only knows that men

and one

live

and

and work

tides of slumber flow in

upon

dives thirstily to the depths of

sleep.

Before I say more about last taste of the

mood.

I

autumn landscape; bare of a village to

my

it,

I wiU just relate

was walking alone

fields

right touched sharply with gold

tered together, and there was a tower ;

it

in the

about me; the trees

and russet red; some white-gabled cottages

trees

my

clus-

among

the

was near sunset, and the sun seemed drag-

ging behind him to the west long wisps of purple

and rusty clouds touched with left

a stream passing slowly

low-beds, all beautiful

and

had an anxious matter

in

required, so

it

I

below

;

silent

my

me

to the

rushes and wil-

and remote.

I

mind, a thing that

seemed to me, careful deliberation to

steer a right course

tingencies.

fire

among

among many

motives and con-

had gone out alone to think 188

it

over.


!

That Other One I weighed this against that, and

it

seemed to me

that I was headed off by some obstacle whichever

way

Whatever I desired

I turned.

to do appeared

to be disadvantageous and even hurtful. I said to myself, " this

is

"Yes,"

one of those cases where

whatever I do, I shall wish I had done differently I see

no way out."

still

seemed to speak in me, the voice of something

It was then that a deeper voice

strong and quiet and even indolent, which seemed

my

half-amused, half-vexed, by

"

said,

When you have

Then

ing, I will decide."

perturbation.

It

done reasoning and ponderI

thought that a sort of

vague, half-spoken, half -dumb dialogue followed.

"What you to The

are

you?"

interfere ?

I said.

"What

right have

"

other voice did not trouble to answer;

it

only seemed to laugh a lazy laugh.

"I

am

trying to think this

ashamed, half-vexed. will

;

I

am

perplexed

" Oh, you

may

the other voice.

" But I wait.

am

in

"

—

all

out," I said, half-

You may

I see

think as

help

me

no way out of

much

as

you

if it

!

you "

like," said

am in no hurry, I can wait." a hurry," I said, " and I cannot "I

This has got to be settled somehow, and

without delay."

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;

Escape and Other Essays "I

shall decide

when the time comes," said the

voice to me.

" Yes, but you do not understand," I

said, feel-

ing partly irritated and partly helpless.

" There

is this

and that, there

there

is

weighed

is

so-and-so to be considered,

the eifect on these other persons to be

there

;

think of

my

is

my own

health

—

position too

—

I

must

there are a dozen things to

be taken into account." " I know," said the voice

balancing

all these

no heed of that!

things

if

;

" I do not mind your

you

I shall take

wish.

I repeat that, when you have

finished thinking it out, I shall decide."

" Then you know what you mean to do ? " said

a

little

I,

angered.

" No, I do not know just yet," said the voice

" but

I shall

know when

the time comes

;

there will

be no doubt at aU." " Then I suppose I shall have to do what you decide.'' " I said, angry but impressed. " Yes, you will do what I decide," said the voice

" you know that perfectly well." " Then what is the use of my taking trouble? " I said. " Oh, you

may

just as well look into

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it,"

all

this

said the


""

That Other One voice ; " that ant, after

and the

is

your part

You

all.

!

You

are only

details out,

and then I

What

fussing

"I

Of

is

—

all

not

is

it

your fretting and

!

am

anxious

wasted

is

serv-

shall settle.

course you must do your part wasted.

my

have got to work the figures

anxious," I said.

" I cannot help being

!

" That

you and

is it

a pity " said the voice.

" It hurts

!

hurts

me

too, in a

way.

You

disturb

me, you know ; but I cannot interfere with you

must wait." " But are you sure you

will

do right

;

I

" I said.

.-'

" I shall do what must be done," said the voice. " If you mean, shall I regret my choice, that is possible; at least

you may regret

it.

But

it will

not have been a mistake." I was puzzled at this, and for a time the voice

was

silent, soi

that I had leisure to look about me.

I had walked some way while the dialogue went on, and I was now by the stream, which ran full and

cold into a pool beside the bridge, a pool like a

clouded

j ewel.

How

beautiful

it

was

!

.

•

.

The

old thoughts began again, the old perplexities.

" If he says that," I said to myself, thinking of an 191


"

;

Escape and Other Essays opponent of perhaps

it

plan, " then I must be prepared

my

with an answer

my

a weak point in

it is

case

would be better to write one says what ;

." one thinks ; not what one means to say. . " Still at work? " said the voice. " You are hav.

ing a very uncomfortable time over there.

Yet

sorry for that!

not understand

"

What

I cannot think

I

am

why you do

!

are you? " I said impatiently.

There was no answer to that. " You seem very strong and patient " I said at !

"I

last.

think I rather like you, and I

that I trust you

not explain.

;

Cannot you help me a

seem to me to be out of sight of a wall.

am

sure

but you irritate me, and you

Cannot you break

will

You

little?

the other side

it

down or look

over ? "

"

You would

not

like that," said the voice

would be inconvenient, even painful ;

your plans very much. do you not? " " Yes," I

much it; I

said,

"I

interested in

think you

me, do I

like it?

Tell

like life

it.

me

it

least I

I do not feel sure

know that

" it

would upset

— you

— at

;

like life,

am

very

if

I like

better than I do.

Tell

»

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;

That Other One " Yes," said the voice ; " at least I do.

have guessed right for once I like than what you

like.

it

;

matters more what

You

God, for one thing." " So do I," I said eagerly. that point

I

!

am

sure

He

is

You

I believe in

see,

" I have reached It

there.

is

largely

a question of argument, and I have reaUy no doubt,

no doubt at

all.

There are

of course

difficulties

difficulties

about personality and intention; and

then there

is

much about it

.

I have thought

and I have arrived at a solution

I can explain

this.

is

ogy.

the origin of evil

that,

it

best

by an anal-

,"

.

There came a laugh from the other a scornful laugh or an

wall, not

laugh kind and compassionate,

side of the

idle laugh,

but a

a father with a child on his knee and the voice said, " I have seen like

;

Him He is

I see

yonder.

think.

.

.

.

Him He is here aU about us, and He is not coming to meet us, as you !

Dear me, how young you must be.

.

.

.

I had forgotten."

This struck me dumb for an instant then I said, " You frighten me Who are you, what are you, " where are you ? ;

!

.

.

.

And

then the voice said, in a tone of the deepest

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"My

love, as If surprised

and a

little

pained,

chnd!"

And then I heard it no more and I went back to my cares and anxieties. But it was as the voice ;

had

said,

and when the time came to

no doubt at

Now

all

I have told

all

this in the nearest

simplest words that I can find. similitudes of voices walls, because

had and

had to use

I have

and laughter and partition-

one can only use the language which

But

one knows.

decide, I

what to do.

it is all

quite true

and

more

real,

than a hundred talks which one holds with men

real

and women whose

face

and dress one

sees in

rooms

and streets, and with whom one bandies words about things for which one does not care.

indeed some one present with me,

whom

There was I

knew per-

fectly well

though I could not discern him, whom

had known

all

and shared chose. tell

my life, who had gone all my experiences, in

But before

I

about with me so far as he

I go on to speak farther, I will

one more experience, which came at a time when

I was very unhappy, longing to escape from

looking forward mournfully to death. It

had been under

similar

circumstances

dreadful argmnent proceeding in

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my mind

life,

—a

as to


"

That Other One what I could do to get back to happiness again,

whom

my how

up

to consult, where to go, whether to give

work, whether to add to

what

it,

would not

to get sleep which

visit

diet to use,

me.

" Can't you help me? " I said over and over

At

again to the other person.

last the answer

came, very faint and far away.

" I am sick," said the come forth

" and I cannot

voice,

!

That frightened me it

exceedingly, because I felt

" Is anything that I have done "

alone and weak.

So I

said,

it

my

" I have had a blow," said the other "

Is

fault.?

.''

You

dealt

it

me

— but

is

it

voice.

not your fault

—

you did not know."

"What

can I do?

"I

said.

" Ah, nothing," said the disturb me! recover.

I

am

Go on

"

voice.

with your play,

if

do not heed me." " My play " I said scornfully. know I am miserable? " !

The

voice gave a sigh.

" I am weak and

faint

brave as you can.

You must

not

trying to recover, and I shall

;

"

You

you can, and "

Do you

hurt me,"

not

it said.

but you can help me be as ;

Try not 195

to think or grieve.

I


"

Escape and Other Essays you again soon, but not "I it added.

shall be able to help

Ah, leave me to myself,"

now.

.

must

sleep, a

.

And

.

long sleep

it is

;

then I heard no more

when the voice came

to

;

me on

your turn to help till

a day long

!

after,

a bright morning by

the sea, with the clear waves breaking and hissing

on the shingle; the voice came blithe and strong, " I am well again you have done your part, dear ;

one is

me your

burden, and I will carry " your time of joy

Give

!

it

;

it

!

And then for

a long time after that I did not hear

the voice, and I was full of delight, hour by hour,

grudging even the time I must spend in cause

it

kept

me from

the

life

sleep, be-

I loved.

These then are some of the talks we have held together, that Other this,

One and

I.

But

I must say

that he will not always come for being called.

I sometimes call to him and get no answer

times he cries out beside

He

seems to have a

me suddenly

is

some-

in the air.

of his own, quite distinct

Sometimes when I

from mine. vexed, he

life

;

quietly joyful

and

am

elate,

fretted

and

and then

my

troubles die away, like the footsteps of the wind

upon water and sometimes when ;

and contented, he

is

I would be

happy

heavy and displeased, and takes

196


That Other One no heed of me and then I too ;

He

gloom. far

more

is

much

the stronger, and

me what

to

he

do not know how he

and what

think,

feels

occupied

is

it

matters

than what I

— very

strangest of

is

sorrow and

fall into

all,

feel.

I

little,

I

he changes

somewhat; very slowly and imperceptibly; but he has changed more than I have in the course of life.

I do not change at

better

what I

skilful;

am more

think, I

different in

it

accomplished and

was when I was a

some ways.

;

little,

to remember the I think that

Two

as a servant

little

many

periences to this.

is

it

feel that I

can help

his

have

master

things he has to do.

people must have similar ex-

Tennyson had, when he wrote

Voices,"

and

I have seen hints of the

same thing in a dozen books. is

unaltered

But he

I have only gone on per--

But he does not forget and here I

that

is

child.

and remembering, and sometimes forgetting.

helped him a

" The

my

I can say

I think.

but the thought and motive

from what ceiving

all,

The strange thing

does not help one more to be strong and

brave, because I

know

this, if I

know anything, me lies

that when the anxious and careful part of

down at last to rest, I shall slip past the wall which now divides us, and be clasped close in the arms of 197


Escape and Other Essays that other

One nay, ;

it will

be more than that

!

I

shall

be merged with him, as the quivering water-

drop

is

merged with the fountain; that

blessed peace;

and I

shall

will

be a

know, I think, without

any questioning or wondering, many things that are obscure to

which after

all

me now, under I love so well.

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these low-hung skies, .

.

.


SCHOOLDAYS



XII

SCHOOLDAYS

certainly seems, looking back ITyears, that I have altered very

to the early

little

at

all in

fact

!

The

little

— hardly

thing, whatever it

Is,

that

at the heart of the machine, the speck of soul-

sits

reaUy me,

stuff that is

ture, neither old

is

very much the same crea-

nor young; confident, imperturb-

able, with a strange insouciance of its

ing what

it

gathered

many

has to do.

I have

own, know-

done many things,

impressions, ransacked experience,

enjoyed, suffered; but whatever I have argued, expressed, tried to believe, aimed at, hoped, feared,

has hardly affected that central core of

And self

life

at aU.

I feel as though that strange, dumb, cheerful

it is

always cheerful, I think

— had played

the part all along of a silent and not very critical

spectator of

all I

have tried to be.

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The mind,

the


Escape and Other Essays reason, the emotion, hare each of them expanded,

acquired knowledge, learned

skill,

most

sleepless,

cell

has

lain

there,

hut that innerperceptive,

dreaming head on hand, watching, seldom making a sign of either approval or disapproval.

In childhood now, perhaps. cause, in

my

it

was more dominant than

It went its

way more

far-ofF days, strangely inactive.

was bent upon observation. writer

own

who has

experience,

securely, be-

mind was,

case at least, the

it is

in those

The whole nature

Ruskin

is

the only

described what was precisely

when he says that as a

lived almost entirely in the region of sight.

my

child he

It was

the only part of me, the eye, that was then furi-

ously and untiringly awake.

Taste, smell, touch,

had each of them at moments a sharp consciousness; but

it

was the shape, the form, the appear-

ance of things, that interested me, took up most of

my

time and energy, occupied ihe unceasingly.

Even now my memory ranges, with

lively precision,

over the home, the garden, the heathery moorland, the firwoods, the neighboring houses of the scene

where I

lived.

I can see the winding walks, the

larch shrubberies, the flower-borders, the very grain

of the brickwork ; while in the house

20a

itself,

the wall


Schooldays papers, the furniture, the patterns of carpets and

memory.

chintzes, are all absolutely clear to the

Thus

from day to day and from year to

I lived,

moment

year, in the

passed ; but I remember

as. it

no touch of speculation or curiosity as to how or

why

The

things existed as they did.

house, the ar-

rangements, the servants, the meal-times, the occu-

pations were

all

the wiU of

my

simply accepted as they were, just I never

taking shape.

.parents

thought of interrogating or altering anything. Life came to

me

emotions, no

dominant

seemed

just so.

I remember no sharp

affections.

My

me kind and powerful; but it me that, if I had died, they would

to,

occur to

I was just a part of

particular grief.

rangements

manage

parents

and

;

my

idea of

so that I should be as

as possible,

and go

my

did not feel

any

their ar-

life

was simply to

little

interfered with

way, annexing such

little

property as I could, and learning the appearance of the things that were too large to be annexed.

Then my

elder brother

went

off to school.

do not remember being sorry, or missing

pany;

in fact I rather

independence

it

I

com-

welcomed the additional

gave me.

way when he came back

his

I was glad in a mild

for the holidays ; but I do

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some

stories

all quite

it

was aU

He

like.

told us

about boys and masters; but

remote, like a fairy-tale;

it

was

and then the

time gradually drew near when I too was to go to school ; but I remember neither interest or curiosity

or excitement or anxiety.

I think I rather en-

joyed a few extra presents, and the packing of

my

school-box with a consciousness of proprietorship.

And

then the day came, and I drifted ofF like

thistledown into the big world.

My

father

and mother took us down

to school.

It was a fine place at Mortlake, called

Temple

Grove, near Richmond Park.

Mortlake was hardly

more than an old-fashioned

village then, in the

country, not joined to streets

and rows of

London

villas.

It

as

it

is

now by

was a place of big

suburban mansions, with high walls everywhere, cedars looking over, towering chestnuts, big classical gateposts.

Temple Grove, so

called

from the

statesman, the patr6n of Swift, was a large, solid,

handsome house with well timbered.

fine

rooms, and large grounds,

Schoolrooms and dormitories had 204.


Schooldays been tacked on to the house, but spacious way.

was

It

We arrived,

austere.

a

solid,

dignified, but bare and

and went

master, Mr. Waterfield, a

all built in

tall,

in to see the head-

handsome, extremely

impressive man, with curled hair and beard and

He

flashing eyes. talker,

and an

was a

fine

gentleman, a brilliant

excellent teacher,

though unneces-

had been used to

my

sarily severe.

I

who was then

himself headmaster of Wellington

see

College, treated witti obvious deference field,

who was an

but Water-

old family friend, met him with a

dignified sort of equality.

luncheon

;

father,

with the

family.

My parents went in to My brother and I

crawled off to the school dinner; he of course had

many

and

friends,

I

was plunged, shy and bewil-

dered, into the middle of them.

hundred boys alarmingly

there.

old

Some of them seemed

and strong; but

friends were kind to me,

at

first

that

of place.

went

off;

it

There were over a

my

and I remember thinking

was going to be a very pleasant

sort

Then in the early afternoon my parents we went to the station with them, and I

said good-by without any particular emotion.

seemed to

me

to

brother's

me a

nice easy kind of

life.

But as

It

my

brother and I walked away, between the high-

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Escape and Other Essays walled gardens, back to the school, the

first

shadow

He was strangely silent and dull, I thought and then he turned to me, and in an accent of fell.

tragedy which I had never heard him use before, he said, " Thirteen weeks at this beastly place !

I took

a high place for

my

and after due

age,

examination in the big schoolroom, where four masters were teaching at estrades, with

much hacked and

of lockered desks

little

rows

carved, ar-

ranged symmetrically round each, the big

fireplace

guarded with high iron bars, I was led across the room, and committed to the care of a

little,

pom-

pous, stout man, with big side-whiskers, a reddish nose,

and an

air half irritable, half good-natured,

in

a short gown, who was holding forth to a

It

was

complete

all

before

me and

shaped

itself.

;

dormitory.

:

I had

my

place and

my

class.

duty

then gradually day by day the I had a

little

There was the

life

cubicle in a high

big,

rather

frowsy

dining-room, where we took our meals; a large

comfortable library where we could

sit

and read;

outside there, were two or three cricket

graveled yard for

drill,

fields,

a

a gymnasium ; and beyond

that stretched what were called " the grounds,"

which seemed to me then and

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still

seem a really


Schooldays beautiful place.

It

had

all

been elaborately laid

out; there was a big lawn, low-lying, where there

had once been a

lake,

and winding

shrubberies

walks, a ruinous building, with a classical portico,

on the top of a wooded mound, a kitchen garden

and paddocks for cows beyond; and on each the walls

and palings of other big mansions, aU

And

rather grand and mysterious.

that

little

side

my

space

The only

sight

there within

was to be spent.

life

we ever had

of the outer world

was that we went an Sundays to an extraordinarily ugly and ices

tasteless

modem

church, where the serv-

were hideously performed; and occasionally

we were allowed to go over to Richmond with a or two of pocket-money to shop; and

shilling

sometimes there were walks, a dozen boys with a

good-natured master rambling about Richmond Park, with herds

of

forest clumps

its

deer,

all

and

its

wandering

very dim and beautiful to

me.

Very soon I

settled in

a detestable place. molested in any way. incredibly

my own

mind that

Yet I was never

The tone

it

was

bullied or

of the place was

good not one word or hint of moral evU ;

did I ever hear there during the whole two years I

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had entered

But

it

left the

school as innocent

it.

was a place of terrors and

There were

which one did not know, and

rules

might unawares break.

I did not, I believe,

a single real friend there.

make

I liked a few of the

boys, but was wholly bent on guarding life

solitude.

my

inner

The work was always easy

from every one.

me, the masters were good-natured and

to

efficient.

—

But I lived entirely in dreams of the holidays home had become a distant heavenly place; and I recollect waking early in the summer mornings, hearing the scream of peacocks in a neighboring

pleasaunce, and thinking with a sickening disgust of the strict, ordered routine of the place, no one to care about, dull

work to be done, nothing

joy or to be interested they were not them.

I

much

in.

to en-

There were games, but

organized, and I seldom played

wandered about

in

free

times

in

the

grounds, and the only times of delight that I recollect

were when one buried oneself in a book in the

library,

The

and dived into imaginations. place was well managed; we were whole-

somely fed ; but there had grown up a strange kind of taboo about

many

of the things we were sup-

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Schooldays had a healthy

posed to

eat.

tradition

was that

I

appetite, but the

the food was unutterably

all

The theory was that

bad, adulterated, hocussed.

one must just eat enough

to'

sustain

There

life.

was, for instance, an excellent tapioca pudding served on certain days eat

—

but no one was allowed to

it

it

had to be shoveled

and afterwards

into envelopes

playground. this

;

The law was that

it.

do not know

I

if

away

cast

was never adverted upon

— and I did

The consequence was

ruefully enough.

lived hungrily in the midst of plenty,

became the one prepossession of I was a delicate

boy

in those days,

It

was a

son there

whom

and food

and used often

little,

bad throats

old-fashioned

house in Mortlake, and the matron of

an old servant of our own.

it

that one

life.

to be sent off to the sanatorium with

and other ailments.

in the

the masters saw

it

had been

She was the only per-

I regarded with real affection,

to go to the sanatorium was like heaven.

and

One had

a comfortable room, and dear Louisa used to em-

me stealthily, provide me out walks. I have

brace and kiss

little treats

for me, take

spent

hours happily in the its

little

many

walled garden there, with

big box trees, or gazing from a window into the

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his

watching the grocer over the way set out

shop-window.

Oi

incidents, tragic or comic, I

remember but

I saw a stupid boy vigorously caned with

few.

a sickening extremity of horror.

I recollect a " school licking " being given to an ill-conditioned

The boys

boy for a nasty piece of bullying.

ranged themselves down the big schoolroom, and the culprit

had

to run the gauntlet.

I can see his

ugly, tear-stained face coming slowly along

a shower of blows.

among

I joined in with a will, I re-

member, though I hardly knew what he had done. I remember a few afternoons spent at the houses of friendly masters

starved sort of friendships,

;

but otherwise a

level,

life lived

it

was

by a

no adventures; I marked

before the holidays on a

little

all

rule,

a drab

with no

off the

days

calendar, simply

bent on hiding what I was or thought or

felt

from

every one, with a fortitude that was not in the least

stoical.

What

know my aim was ;

I was

afraid

of I hardly

to be absolutely inoffensive and

ordinary, to do what every one else did, to avoid

any sort of difference

care

how

notice.

and

I was a strange mixture of in-

sensitiveness.

I was regarded, I

I did not in the least

had no ambitions of any

210


;

Schooldays kind, did not

want to be

or to succeed, or to

liked,

make an impression; while I was very sensitive to the slightest comment or ridicule. It seems strange to

me now

that I should have hated the

with

life

such an intensity of repugnance, for no harm or ill-usage ever befell

I did not like

it!

wanted nor gave

me; but

if

that was

life, well,

I trusted no one; I neither

The term was

confidences.

a dreary interlude in home

life,

just

to be lived through

with such indifference as one could muster. I spent two years there

departure with

my

;

and remember

brother.

It

and thank God!

final

I never wanted to see

or hear of any one there again ants, or boys.

my

— masters,

serv-

was a case of good-by forever

And

I

remember with what

savage glee and delicious anticipation I saw the last of the high-waUed house, with its

its

roofs

and wings,

great gateposts and splendid cedars.

laugh at

its

dim terrors on regaining

my

I could

freedom

but I had not the least spark of gratitude or loyalty

;

such kindnesses as I received I had taken

dumbly, never thinking that they arose out of any affection

or interest, but treating them as the

unaccountable choice of

my

elders

;

— we stopped — had

for an instant at the little sanatorium

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that


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— and I was

tearfully

hugged to Louisa's ample bosom, Louisa alone being a

little

sorry that I should be so glad to get

away. I

do not think that the

healthy, and well-ordered as

but had

animal

little

it

spirits,

sensible,

there,

was, did

happy enough boy

I was a

good.

life

in

me much home life,

and none of the

bois-

terous, rough-and-tumble ebullience of boyhood.

I was shy and sensitive

;

but I doubt

if it

was

well

all

have

that interest, enjoyment, emotion, should been so utterly starved as they were. suspicious of like its

life,

and incurious about

loud sounds,

coarse flavors

;

it

;

made me I did not

combative merriment,

its

the real

It

life,

its

that of observation,

had been hunted

into

a comer; and the sense that one might incur

ridi-

had

filled

imagination, dreams, fancies,

cule, enmity, severity, dislike, harshness,

the air with uneasy terrors. able

ease

— —

I

came away

selfish,

had won a scholarship at Eton with

entire

innocent, childish, bewildered, wholly

unam-

I

bitious.

The world seemed

to

me a

big, noisy,

stupid place, in which there was no place for me.

The

little

inner sense of which I have spoken was

hardly awake ;

it

had had

its first

S12

sight of

human-


Schooldays and

ity,

silent, finding its

have

need

it

was

disliked it; it

it

and

solitary

still

way, and quite unaware that

own

any

with

relation

other

human

beings.

3

Then came Eton.

which big place I

Into

But

drifted again in a state of mild bewilderment.

big as Eton

is

—

was

it

when I went there

—

degree conscious of

lines far

house its

more

is like

own

like

on a thousand boys,

at no time was I in the least as an uncomfortable

its size

The truth

element.

close

that

is

Eton runs

on

itself

a university than a school each :

a college, with

authority.

There

is

its

own

very

traditions

little

and

intercourse

between the younger boys at different houses, and there

an instinctive disapproval among the boys

is

themselves

of

external

The younger

relations.

boys of a house play together, to a large extent

work together, and

live

tacitly understood that a his

own

side he

he

is

house, and

is

if

a

common

boy throws

he makes

life.

It

in his lot

many

is

with

friends out-

generally unpopular, on the ground that

thought to find

good enough for him.

his natural

companions not

Neither have boys of differ-

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divided

much by

to do with each other ; each house

is

parallel lines of cleavage, so that it is

not a weltering mass of boyhood, but a collection of very clearly defined groups and

at

circles.

my own time there was no building

Moreover, in

Eton which could hold the whole

on no occasion did I ever

school, so that

see the school assembled.

There were two chapels, the schoolrooms were considerably scattered ; even on the occasions

when the

headmaster made a speech to the school, he did not even invite the lower boys to attend, while there was

no compulsion on the upper boys to be

present, so that

one thought

it

was not necessary to go, unless

it likely

to be amusing.

I was myself on the foundation, one of the seventy king's scholars, as we were called ; we lived in the old buildings

;

we dined together

in the col-

lege hall, a stately Gothic place, over four centuries old, with

a timbered roof, open

and portraits of notable Etonians. gowns

was

all

in public,

and

fireplaces,

We wore cloth

surplices in the chapel.

It

very grand and dignified, but we were in

those days badly fed, and very

little

looked after.

There were many ancient and curious customs, which one picked up naturally, and never thought


!

Schooldays them first

For

either old or curious.

went

when I

instance,

there, the small boys, three at a time,

waited on the sixth form at their dinner, being called servitors,

handing

plates,

pouring out beer,

or holding back the long sleeves of the big boys'

gowns, as they carved for themselves at the end of

This was abolished shortly after

the table.

But

arrival as being degrading. to us that

it

my

never occurred

was anything but amusing ; we had the

it

fun of watching the great

men

at their meal, and

I remember well being kindly

hearing them gossip.

but firmly told by the present Dean of Westminster, then in sixth form, that I must make

my

appear-

ance for the future with cleaner hands and better

brushed hair

We

were kindly and paternally treated by the

older boys

;

I was assigned as

a fag to

my

had

present

publisher,

Mr. Reginald Smith.

empty

bath for him, make his tea and toast,

call

his

him

in the morning,

I

fully in his room, in the evenings,

my

fill

and run errands.

turn for which I was allowed to do

quarters were noisy, and

to

if

I

had

my work

In repeace-

when the

diflSculties

fags'

about

work, he was always ready to help me.

normal a thing was

it,

and

So

that I remember saying in-

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my !

my

when he marked a

tutor,

one of

quantity master did that " in

verses, "

my He

Why,

laughed and

sir,

that the

We

first syllable

of senator

is

my

short

tell

on the passage where the

sixth form rooms were.

It was a noisy place, with

great open fireplace and huge oak table.

the noise was excessive, the Sixth

and

I

company

filled

Form

of the present

Dean

If

intervened

remember being very gently caned,

making a small

him

!

lower boys in a big room with

lived as

cubicles, which abutted

its

fag-

" Take

said,

compliments to your fagmaster, and

false

in the

of St. Paul's, for

bonfire of old blotting-paper, which

the place with smoke.

The

liberty, after the private school,

tonishing.

We

had

was

as-

to appear in school at certain

hours, not very numerous; and some extra work

was done with the private tutor supeirvision,

;

but there was no

and we were supposed to prepare our

work and do our

exercises,

when and

as

we

could.

There were a few compulsory games, but otherwise we were allowed to do exactly as we liked.

The

side streets of

Windsor were out of bounds,

but we were allowed to go up the High Street, we

had

free access to the castle

216

and park and

all

the


Schooldays

On

surrounding country.

a week

— our names were

half liolidajs

—

three

called over: but it left

one with a three-hour space in the afternoon, when

we could go exactly where we would. The saints' days and certain anniversaries were whole holidays, and we were free from morning to night. Then there was a deli^tful room, the old school library,

now destroyed, where we could go and read; and many an hour did I spend there looking vaguely into endless books. I weU remember seeing the present Lord Curzon and one of the Wallops standing by the fireplace there, and discussing some political question, and how amazed I was at the profundity of their knowledge and the dignity of their language.

But

many ways

was a very isolated life; knew for a long time I hardly any bovs except just in

it

the dozen or so who entered the place with me. I knew no boys at other houses, except a few in my school division, and never did more than exchange

One never tiiou^t of

a few words with them.

speaking to a casual boy, unless one knew him and ;

there are

who

many men whom

I have since

known

were in the school with me, and with

never exchanged a syllable.

217

well

whom

I


Escape and Other Essays Though

there was a master in college,

who read

evening prayers, gave leaves and allowances, and

was consulted on matters of business, he had pracnothing to do with the discipline.

tically

was

all in the

put up notices, and were allowed not only

order,

No

to cane but to set lines.

appealing

tO'

overt

could not set

one ever thought of

the master against them, and their

powers were never abused. little

That

hands of the sixth form, who kept

anywhere.

discipline

inflict

But there was very

corporal punishment.

The masters They could

punishments, and for misbehavior,

tinued idleness, they

or con-

could send a boy to the

But the

headmaster to be flogged.

discipline of

the place was instinctive, and public opinion was infinitely strong.

One found out by

the light of

nature what one might do and what one might not,

and the dread of being centric

in

any way unusual or There

was very potent.

ec-

were two or three

very ill-governed houses, where things went very

wrong indeed behind the public order went,

it

was

scenes; but as far as

perfect.

aged their own games and

their

The boys manown

affairs

;

a

strong sense of subordination penetrated the whole place,

and the old Eton aphorism, that a boy

218


;

Schooldays learned to

know

his place

and to keep

held good

it,

without any sense of coercion or constraint. I do not think that the educational system was a

good

my

In

one.

besides

little

and mathematics and

classics

There was a

days there was

little

taught

divinity.

French and science and history

but the core of the whole thing was undiluted classics.

We

did a good deal of composition,

Greek and Latin, and the Latin verses were exercises

out of which I got much real enjoyment, and

But it was posmuch contraband sible to be very idle, and to get help in work from other boys. Most of the school some of the pride of authorship.

work consisted of

repetition,

and of

dully and leisurely construed.

I do not think I

work

in school;

teachers.

I needed

ever attempted to attend to the

and there were few stimulating strict

my

classical books,

and careful teaching, and got some from

private tutor ; but otherwise there was no indi-

vidual attention.

The

net result was that a few

able boys turned out very

good

scholars, saturated

with classics; but a large number of boys were really not educated at

all.

The forms were

too

large for real supervision ; and as long as one pro-

duced adequate

exercises,

219

and

sate quiet in one's


Escape and Other Essays comer, one was

left genially alone.

fashionable to " sap," as

it

was

called

It ;

was not

and though

a few ambitious boys worked hard, we most of us lived in a

happy-go-lucky way, just doing enough

to pass muster.

my work

I took not the faintest interest in

for a long time

;

but I read a great

many

English books, wrote poetry in secret, picked up a

vague acquaintance, of a very inaccurate kind, with Latin and Greek, but possessed no exact

knowledge of any

sort.

Gradually, as I rose in the school, a faint idea of social values shaped that

Let me say frankly

itself.

There were many

we were wholly democratic.

many

wealthy boys, est interest

with

was taken

to find later on in

my

titles

but not the faint-

;

in either.

I was surprised

career at school, that boys

whose names I had known by hearsay, were peers,

though at

first

I had no idea

Whatever we were

free from,

free from snobbishness.

what the peerage was.

we were at

stituted our aristocracy, pure in the eleven

place,

all

events

Athletics were what con-

and simple.

Boys

and the eight were the heroes of the

and the school club

called

Pop, to which

mainly athletes were elected, enjoyed an absolute

supremacy, and indeed ran the out-of-doors

disci-


Schooldays In

pline of the school.

fact,

on occasions

like

matches, the boys were kept back behind the

big

lines,

by members of Pop parading with canes, and slashing at the crowd if they came past the boundaries.

AH

the social standing of boys was settled

by

entirely

A

athletics.

good

agreeable, manly, a

boy might be

hounds in the holidays, but

if

he was no good at

the prescribed games, he was nobody at It

was wholesome

in

clever,

game-shot or a rider to

all

at Eton.

a sense; but a bad boy who

was a good athlete might and did wield a very

evil

Such boys were above

The

influence.

criticism.

moral tone was not low so much as strangely indifferent.

A boy's

private

life

was

his

own

affair,

and public opinion exercised no particular moral sway.

Yet vague and

guileless as I myself was,

I gratefully record that I never came in the

any

evil influence

whatever. evil

way

of

whatever at Eton, in any respect

Talk was rather

loose,

of other boys easily enough.

and one believed

To

express open

disapproval would have been held to be priggish;

and though undoubtedly the tone of

certain houses

and certain groups was far from good, there yet ran through the place a mature sense of a boy's right to be independent,

and undesirable ways of


Escape and Other Essays were more a matter of choice than of coercion.

life

more a mirror of the larger

It was, in fact, far

world than any other school I have ever heard of;

and I know of no school story which

gives

any

impression of a

it all

was.

life

so curiously free as

There was none of that the news of events

and

electrical circulation of

incident that

is

held to be

One used

to hear

characteristic of school

life.

long after, or not at

of things which had hap-

pened.

all,

There were rumors, there was gossip but ;

I cannot imagine

any place where a boy of

solitary

or retiring character might be so entirely imaware of anything that was going on. individualistic

place;

and

superficial traditions, it

was a highly

It

one conformed to

was possible to

certainly did, a very quiet life,

if

lead, as I

and secluded sort of

reading, rambling about, talking endlessly

and

eagerly to a few chosen friends, quite unconscious

that anything was being done for one, socially or educationally, entirely unmolested, as long as one

was good-natured and easy-going. It

was therefore a good school for a boy with

any toughness of mind or in

originality

;

but

it

tended

the case of normal and unreflective boys to

develop a conventional type; good-mannered, sen-


siUe, witli idcnty of set of values.

It

*mxMr fmc; bat whli a wituag

made bojs

OTierestimate athletics,

despise intdllectiul things, vorsfa^ social success. It gaTe

them the irrong sort of tokranoe, bj

I mean the tolerance

but that also

tiiinks

moral lapses,

ctmtemptnoDsly of ideas and

The

mental originalitj. good4nnnored,

tiiat exÂŤ3ises

aiiidb

modest,

iA>ls of the place

ordedj

athktes.

were Tlie

masters made irierds viQi them, becanse a good

mntoal understanding condnced to disdpIiDe^ and

thej WHe, moreoTar, pleasant and dieerfid ctMn-

Bat boys

panions.

ttf

character

and

force, onless

they were also athletic, vere apt to be OTeifooked.

The

theory of goTermnoit was not to interfore,

and diere vas an

The

spiratkm.

an^

absoifie of eathusiasm

faeadmastar

afterwards jHVTost,

a

was

Dr.

Hornby,

ooaiteoas, handstxne, digni-

fied gentleman., a fine preacher,

and one of the most

charming paUic speakers I ha^e ever heard. respected and admired his masters,

in-

Mm,

and nerer made

hot he tnew

We

little

of

his personal infinence,

whic^ might hare been great, feit amcHig the boys.

He

was a

man

of matchles modesty and refine-

ment; he never fohninated or kctared; I never heard an

irritable

void fall from Hs S2S

lips

:

bat on


Escape and Other Essays the other hand he never appealed to us, or asked

our help, or spoke eagerly or indignantly about

He

any event or tendency. his eyes to

it,

hated

evil,

and preferred to think that

There were masters who in

not there.

but closed it

was

their

own

houses and forms displayed more vivid qualities;

but the whole tone of the place was against anything emotional or passionate or uplifting; the ideal that soaked into the

mind was one of tem-

perate, orderly, well-mannered athleticism.

At

the end of

tinction.

my

time I rose to moderate dis-

I began to read the classics privately, I

reached sixth form, and even was elected into Pop.

But I was always unadventurous, and I nurtured a private

timid.

books and talk, and insensibly shifted

and through ism,

any

it

felt

life

of

in

my own

that the center of

from home to

aU, I never gained

unselfish ambition,

any

a way

school.

life

on

had

But

in

any deep patriot-

visions

which could

have inspired me to play a noble part in the world. I

am

sure that was as

temperament as of the spirit of the place

much

the result of

spirit of the place ;

my own but the

was potent, and taught me to

acquiesce in an ideal of decorum, of subordination,

of regular, courteous, unenthusiastic 224.

life.


;

Schooldays Leaving the school was a melancholy business; one's roots were entwined very deep with the soil,

the buildings, the memories, the happiness of the

place last

—

for

happy above

few weeks there were

outbursts from boys

all

things

many

it

was

—

who had seemed conventional

enough ; and there was a dreary sense that at

an end, and would have

little

ness or excitement to provide.

my

in the

strange emotional

life

was

of future brightI packed, I

farewells, I distributed presents

;

and

made

as I drove

away, the carriage, ascending the bridge by the beloved playing-fields, with

its

lawns and elms, the

up behind,

gliding river and the Castle towering

showed me

in a glance the old red-brick walls, the

and

turrets, the high chapel, with its pinnacles

great buttresses, where seven good years had been spent.

I burst, I remember, into

unashamed tears

but no sense of regret for

failure,

vacuous

all fine intention,

ease,

or absence of

or idleness, or

over me, though I had been guilty of things.

I wish that I had

felt

all

came these

But

remorse!

I

was only grateful and fond and sad at leaving so untroubled and delightful a piece of

The world ahead

did not seem to

life

me

behind me.

to hold out

anything which I burned to do or to achieve

225

;

it

was


Escape and Other Essays but the closing of a door, the end of a chapter, the sudden silencing of a music, sweet to hear, which could not come again.

That was aU that time

.

.

,

five-and-thirty years ago!

— I have

Since

seen it unmistakably, both as

a schoolmaster and as a don

—a

different spirit

has grown up, a sense of corporate and social duty, a larger idea of national service, not loudly advertised but deeply-rooted,

and far removed from

the undisciplined individualism of

my boyhood.

It

has been a secret growth, not an educational pro-

gram. ence,

The Boer War,

I think, revealed its pres-

and the war we are now waging has

to its mature strength.

ganisation, and

still

of a more generous

any case

it is

joice with all

and borne

come partly by

It has

my

or-

more through the workings

and

self-sacrificing ideal.

a great and noble harvest

fruit, in

testified

heart that

it

;

and I

In re-

has thUs ripened

courage and disinterestedness,

and high-hearted public

spirit.

nQ


AUTHORSHIP



XIII

AUTHORSHIP

THE " Herb Moly and

essay which stands next in this volume,

ject of a curious

and

seemed to me, when I

Heartsease," was the sub-

interesting experiment. first

thought of

suggestive subject, a substantial idea.

it,

It

to be a

One ought

not to write a commentary on one's own work, but the underlying theme all

my

life,

by the

this: I

is

have been haunted

at intervals, sometimes very insistently,

sense of a quest;

and I have often seemed

to myself to be searching for something which I

have somehow lost

;

to be engaged in trying to re-

discover some emotion or thought which I had once certainly possessed

ten or mislaid. as if it

At

and as certainly have forgottimes I felt on the track of

times I have felt as as

if it

it,

had passed that way not long before; at if

I were close

were only hidden from

229

upon

me by

it,

and

the thinnest


Escape and Other Essays of

I have reason to

veils.

know that other people

have the same feeling; and indeed

it is

that which

the singular and moving charm of Newman's poem, " Lead, Kindly Light " ; where all constitutes

is

summed up

in those exquisite Hnes, often so

strangely misinterpreted

and misunderstood, which

end the poem.

And

with the

Which

I

mom

those angel faces smile.

have loved long

I wish that he

since,

and

lost awhile.

had not written " those angel

faces," because it seems to limit the quest to ecclesiastical lines, as, indeed, I expect limit

Newman

did

But we must not be so blind as to be

it.

unable to see behind the texture of prepossessions that decorate, as with a tapestry, the chambers of

a man's inner thought ever that

;

and

Newman meant

I have

no doubt what-

the same thing that I

mean, though he used different symbols. Again we find the same idea in Wordsworth's " Ode on the Intimations of Immortality," the thought that life is

not circumscribed by birth and death, but

that one's experience

is

a much larger and older

thing than the experience which mere memory records.

It is that which one has lost;

230

and one of


Authorship the greatest mysteries of art

lies

in the fact that

a picture, or a sudden music, or a page in a book, will

sometimes startle one into the consciousness

of having heard, seen, known, felt the emotion before, elsewhere,

beyond the

visible horizon.

Well, I tried to put that idea into words in " Herb Moly and Heartsease " and because it was ;

a deep and dim idea, and also partly because

me

fascinated

greatly, I spent far

trouble on the

Then

little

piece than I generally spend.

occurred to me, in a whimsical moment,

it

that I would try an experiment.

I would send

any one

out the thing as a ballon d'essai, to see

if

would read

me

it

for itself, or woidd detect

neath the disguise. a friend, I had mously.

it

more time and

I

it

Through

the kind

under-

offices

of

published secretly and anony-

chose the most beautiful type and

paper I could

find; it cost

me

far more than the

sale of the whole edition could possibly recoup.

I

had

it

sent to papers for review,

had some copies

and I even

sent to literary friends of

my

own.

The result was a quite enchanting humiliation. One paper reviewed it kindly, in a little paragraph, and said

it

was useful ; another said that the writer 231


!

Escape and Other Essays used the word " one " much too frequently only one of

my

friends even acknowledged

;

it.

while It

is

pleasant to begin at the bottom again, and find that no one will listen, even to a very careful bit

who has

of writing by one deal of pi^ctice,

This set tures

;

me

at

thinking over

and I think they may be

authors or would-be authors

go a

all

little

events had a good

and who did his very best

further,

and try

;

my

literary adven-

interesting to other

and then I wish to

to say,

if

I can, what

I believe the writing of books really to be,

one

writes,

and what one

very clear idea about to state

aU,

aiming

and

it

at.

why

I have a

can do no harm

it.

I was brought

about books.

my

it

is

father,

up much among books and

talk

Indeed, I have always believed that

though he had great practical

gifts of

organization and administration, which came out in his

work as a schoolmaster and a bishop, was

very much of an artist at heart, and would have liked to be

a poet.

ship has run in

degree.

my

Indeed, the practice of author-

family to a quite extraordinary

In four generations, I believe that some


AuthorsHp

my blood-relations have written and pubfrom my cousin Adelaide Anne Procmy uncle Henry Sidgwict. When we were

twenty of

lished books,

ter to

we produced

children,

little

magazines of prose and

poetry, and read them in the family

circle.

I

wrote poetry as a boy at Eton, and at Cambridge as an undergraduate; and at the end of at

my

time

Cambridge I produced a novel, which I sent to

" MacmiUan's Magazine," of which Lord Morley

who

was then

editor,

letter to

say that

it

sent

it

back to me with a kind

was' sauce without meat, and

that I should not be proud of the book in later if it

life

were published.

Then

as an undergraduate I began an odd

little

book called " Memoirs of Arthur Hamilton," a morbid

affair,

which was published anonymously,

and, though severely handled by reviewers, had a certain measure of success.

But then I became a

busy schoolmaster, and aU I did was to write bored

little

la-

essays, which appeared in various

magazines, and were afterwards collected.

Then

I took up poetry and worked very hard at

it in-

deed for some years, producing very few people ever read.

It

five

volumes, which

was a great

delight,

writing poetry, and I have masses of unpublished


Escape and Other Essays poems.

But

I do not grudge the time spent on

because I think

it

me

taught

Then came two volumes of read to the boys in

my

It,

the use of words.

stories,

mostly told or

house, with a medieval sort

"The

of flavor—"The Hill of Trouble" and Isles of Sunset."

I also put together a

which has, I

little

book on Termyson

believe, the merit of containing

aU the

most interesting anecdotes about him, and I wrote the Rossetti in the

Men

also

of Letters Series, a

painstaking book, rather rhetorical; though the truth about Rossetti cannot be told, even

if it

could

be known. All this work was done in the middle of hard professional

many

pupils.

active

and

work,

diligent schoolmaster,

only a recreation.

a week at

a boarding-house and

with

I will dare to say that I was an

it,

and

it

and writing was

I could only get a few hours

never interfered with

my

main

work.

My

father died in 1896, and I wrote his

two big volmnes, a very it

was

solid piece of

after that, I think, that

my

life in

work; but

real writing

I believe it was in 1899 that I slowly composed " The House of Quiet," but I could not

began.

234


Authorship satisfy myself about the ending,

and

it

was laid

aside.

Then

Victoria's letters.

teresting

my

I resigned

a mixture of sorrow and

relief.

mastership with

The work was

and absorbing, but I did not

system of education, nor did I believe in I put

my

beliefs into a little

Schoolmaster," which made I left

Queen

I was offered the task of editing

my work

forty-one.

its

like

way.

when I was " The House of Quiet " appeared in as a teacher in 1903,

sell.

I lived

on at Eton with an old friend; went daily

Windsor Castle and

But

our

But

it.

book called " The

that year anonymously, and began to

pers.

in-

I

it

to

through volumes of pa-

toiled

found that

up

was not possible to work

more than a few hours a day at the task of

selec-

because one's judgment got fatigued and

tion,

blurred.

The sudden made

cessation of heavy professional

itself felt in

of spirit.

It

work

an extreme zest and lightness

was a very happy and delightful

I was living among friends, who were

all

very hard at work, and the very contrast of

my

freedom with their servitude was enlivening.

I

time.

was

able, too, to think over

235

my

schoolmastering


Escape and Other Essays experience ters,"

also

;

and the

result

was " The Upton Let-

an inconsequent but I think anonymously

published

garded by reviewers.

lively book,

and rather

disre-

But the book was talked

about and read; and for the next year or two I

worked with indefatigable zest at writing.

I

brought out monographs on Edward FitzGerald and Walter Pater; I wrote " The Thread of Gold," which also succeeded; and in the next year I settled at Cambridge, and wrote " From a College

Window "

as a serial in the " Comhill," and "

The

Gate of Death," both anonymously; and following year " Beside Still Waters " and " The

in the

AU this

Altar Fire."

time the Queen's letters were

going quietly on in the background. I have written half-a-dozen books since then.

But that

is

point which

how is

my

I began

work; and the one

worth noticing

is

that the four

books which have sold most widely, " The House of Quiet," " The Upton Letters," " The Thread of Gold," and the " College Window," were aU of them issued anonymously,

and the authorship was for a

considerable time undetected.

conclude that the public

which interest

it

and

is

So that

it is fair

to

on the lookout for books

will find

2S6

out what

it

wants;


Authorship because none of those books owed anything whatever to

my

parentage or

— or indeed

my position

to the reviewers either

;

or

my

and

me

the truth of what a publisher said to

it

friends

proves

the other

day, that neither reviews nor advertisements will really

do much for a book but that ;

if

readers be-

gin to talk about a book and to recommend is

apt to go ahead.

And,

the fact that none of

further, I conclude

my

it, it

from

subsequent books have

been as popular as these, though I have no cause to complain, that a

new

what prove attractive

new

voice

and new ideas are

— and perhaps not

so

much

ideas as familiar ideas which have not been

clearly expressed

and put into words.

There was

mystery about the writer then, and there

a

little

is

no mystery now; every one knows exactly what

to expect; voice

As lies

and a

and the new generation wants a different

way

to the motive force, whatever

behind writing, we

fresh

of putting things.

may

it

may

be, that

disengage from

it all

subsidiary motives, such as the desire for money,

philanthropy, professional occupation

main force

is,

I think, threefold.

237

;

but the

The motive

of


Escape and Other Essays art pure

and

simple, the desire for communication

with one's fellows, and the motive of ambition,

which

may

The

almost be called the desire for applause.

ultimate instinct of art

the sense of beauty.

A

the expression of

is

scene, or a character, or

an idea, or an emotion, strikes the mind as being salient, beautiful, strange, wonderful,

desires to record

emphasize the

it.

it,

The

to depict

and the mind

to isolate

it,

to

process becomes gradually, as

of the world continues,

life

it,

more and more com-

It seemed enough at first just to record;

plex.

but then there follows the desire to contrast, to heighten

effects,

to

construct

grounds ; then the process grows

and

back-

elaborate still

more

refined,

becomes essential to lay out materials

it

due proportion, and to clear away

all

that

is

in

otiose

or confusing, so that the central idea, whatever is,

shall stand out in absolute clarity

ness.

and

it

distinct-

Gradually a great deal of art becomes tra-

ditional

and conventional; certain forms stereoit becomes more and more dif-

type themselves, and ficult to

invent a

new form of any

is

very much bound by tradition,

is

called classical,

tured circle

;

and makes

and then there

is

its

kind. it

When

art

becomes what

appeal to a cul-

a revolutionary out-


is called a romuitic Ijpe, viiicii on tlie one band a 'weariness of tlie old tradiIkns and loiiging for freedwn, and tm the otiier

faozst

of 'diai

Tue^ns

hami a corrspQnding desine, on the part of an extended and less CDltmcd cdrde. for art of a more dastic kind. litemtnre has this cjdic ebb and flow : but 'vbat

is

romantic in one age tendb to be-

ccHoe dassical in the nest, as the

C(HD@ in

its

turn traditionaL

are no doubt the 1&^>. at

pr^ent

Tli^e Tariations

of d^nite, psjcJiological

reisult

little

nev departure be-

understood.

Hie

raiais-

sance of a natiai^ «be» from scmie onasca-iained

cause there is

is

^ fresh ootboist of interest in ideas,

qpnte nnaocoonted for

ieal i^^s

bj

of defviopniaiL

logical or

matbemat-

Tlie fiaicb Revolotion

and the carresposding rammiic rental in FnglaTid are instances of this. A writer like Boossean does not cvT"-,^i at.- interest in ideasg bat moiehr

social

ber of ideas Tago^y floating

A

and emotional

pi^ into attraciiTe fom a numin numberless wirnds.

writer Eke Scott indicates a s^ddfn repolaon

in iBUiT ™i»«fe; against a ds^^sicai traditian stciile.

grown

and a widesparead desire to extraxA romantic

anotioBS

bam

a far^^ttan medieval

life.

Of

ocHnse a ronaaitie writer libe Scott read into the

2S9


Escape and Other Essays Middle Ages a number af emotions which were not historically there

;

and the romantic

writer, gener-

more

ally speaking, tends to treat of life In its

sublime and glowing moments, and to amass bril-

and absorbing emotion

liant experience scientific

way.

now we

Just

in an un-

are beginning to re-

volt against this over-emotionalized treatment of

and realism

life,

life

as

it is

is

— not

a deliberate attempt to present to improve

upon

but to give an impression of

it,

The

well as of its bleakness.

or to select

it

complexity as

its

romanticist typifies

and stereotypes character, the

realist recognizes

the inconsistency and the changeableness of person-

The

ality.

moods

romanticist

presents

personified, the realist depicts the flux

and the

variableness of mood,

characters

upon each

other.

in the passion

But the motive

and inspiration of

in the facts

and actual

both cases the motive

is

and

effects exerted

timately the same, only the romanticist

more

and

qualities

is

life,

stuff of

is

by ul-

interested

the realist

life.

the same : to depict

But

in

and

to

record a personal impression of what seems wonderful

and strange.

The second motive and communicate

is

the desire to share

experience.

Every one must

in art

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Authorship know how

a perceptive person lone-

intolerable to

apt to be, and how instinctive

liness is

whom

of some companion with

the need

is

to participate in

the beauty or impressiveness or absurdity of a scene.

The enjoyment of

or even obliterated

if

experience

is

diminished

one has to taste

it

in solitude.

Of course there are people

so constituted as to be

able to enjoy, let us say, a good dinner, or a concert of music, or a play, in solitude

;

but

if

such a

person has the instinct of expression, he enjoys all

an amassing of material for

half-consciously as

artistic use

;

and

it is

artist should exist

it

almost inconceivable that an

who would be prepared

to con-

tinue writing books or painting pictures or making statues, quite content to

pleted, with

put them aside when com-

no desire to submit them to the judg-

ment of the world.

My own

experience

is

that the

thought of sharing one's enjoyment with other people

is

not a very conscious feeling whUe one

actually engaged

in writing.

thought of expression light

lies

is

At

paramount, and the de-

simply in depicting and recording.

the impulse to there, to such

hand

it

is

the moment, the

all

an extent that

on if

is

I

subconsciously

knew that what

I wrote could never pass under another

^41

Yet

human

eye,


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doubt that I should very soon desist

little

The

from writing altogether. ous instinct

aU

Tvriters

aware of

is

really very

social

and gregari-

dominant in

all

art

;

and

who have a public at all must become by the number of manuscripts

this fact,

which are submitted to them by would-be authors,

who ask

for advice and criticism

to publishers.

It

would be quite easy for me,

complied fully with

my

greater part of

all

many

It

Ruskin, I think, once said,

the world does

if its

I

time in the labor of commentis

indeed the nearest

amateurs can get to publication.

authorship that

if

such requests, to spend the

ing on these manuscripts. that

and introductions

As

a curious irony of

it is

a writer once makes a success best,

by inundating him with

every sort of request, to prevent his ever repeating it.

I suppose that painters and sculptors do not

suffer so

much

in this

way, because

to send about canvases or statues

But nothing into

is

easier than to slip

an envelope and

author.

by

to require

it is

not easy

parcels post.

a manuscript

an opinion from an

I will confess that I very seldom refuse

these requests.

At

the

moment

at which I write I

have three printed novels and a printed book of travel, a

poem, and two volumes of essays

in

manu-


"

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upon my

and I

table,

shall

make

shift to

say something in reply, though except for the

satis-

faction of the authors in question, I believe that

my

pains will be wholly thrown away, for the sim-

ple reason that

how

teach any one

a very lengthy business to

it is

and

to write,

what these authors

desire

is

also partly because

not criticism but sym-

pathy and admiration.

The of art

third motive which underlies the practice is

undoubtedly the sense of performance and

the desire for applause.

It

is

easy from a pose of

dignity and high-mindedness to undervalue and

But

overlook this.

when a man

he does not do that he

may

it

may

safely be said that

challenges the attention of the public, it

that he

may

receive praise.

give pleasure, but

As Elihu

the Buzite

book of " Job, I win speak, that I may be refreshed said with such exquisite frankness in the

!

The amateurs who send

their

work for inspection

cannot as a rule bear to face this

fact.

They

con-

stantly say that they wish to do good, or to com-

municate enjoyment and pleasure. I do not is

much

altruistic.

To

be honest,

believe that the motive of the artist

He

writes for his

perhaps, but he publishes that his

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and power


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may

be recognized and applauded.

In FitzGerald's " Letters " there story of a parrot

a delightful

is

who had one accomplishment

—

that of ruffling up his feathers and rolling his eyes so that he looked like an owl.

When

the other do-

mestic pets were doing their tricks, the owner of the parrot, to prevent its feelings being hurt, used carefully to request

the truth tle owl.

is

it

" to do

its little

owl."

And

that we most of us want to do our

lit-

Stevenson said candidly that applause •

an artist. Many, indeed, the money they make by their work delightful

was the breath of find

as

life

to

a symbol of applause in the sense of Shel" Fame is love disguised." It is

ley's fine dictum,

not a wholly mean motive, because many of us are beset is

by an idea that the shortest way to be loved

to be admired.

It is a great misapprehension,

because admiration breeds jealousy quite as often as

it

breeds affection, indeed oftener!

the child that plays

its little piece,

musician that blows a

flat

But from

or the itinerant

cornet in the street, to

the great dramatist or musician, the same desire to produce a favorable impression holds good. I once dined alone with a celebrated critic, indicated, as

we

sat

who

smoking in his study, a great 24<4


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upon

" That

his table.

the next novel of So-and-so," he said, mention-

ing a well-known novelist ; " he asks me for a candid criticism; but unfortunately the only language he

now understands is the language of adulation " That is a true if melancholy fact, plainly stated; that to many an artist to be said to have done well is almost more important than to know !

that the thing has been well done.

wholesome frame of mind, perhaps

;

It

but

is it

not a

cannot

be overlooked or gainsaid.

Even it.

the greatest of authors are susceptible to

Robert Browning, who except for an occa-

sional outburst of fury against his critics,

was far

more tolerant of and patient under misunderstanding than most poets, said in a frankness,

when he

moment

of elated

received an ovation from the

students of a university, that he had been waiting for that

aU

his life

;

Tennyson managed to combine

a hatred of publicity with a thirst for fame.

Wordsworth, as Carlyle pungently

pay an annual

visit

used to to London in later life " to

collect his little bits of tribute."

Keats could say that

his

own

said,

And

even though

criticism of his

own

works had given him far more pain than the opin-

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ions of

yet the possibility of

critics,

recognition and applause must inevitably continue to be one of the chief raisons d'etre of art.

But the main motive tive instinct,

of writing

in the crea-

pure and simple; and the success of

art must depend

all literary

lies

upon the personality

of the writer, his vitality and perception, his com-

The reason

bination of exuberance and control.

why is

there are comparatively so few great writers

that authorship, to be wholly successful, needs

so rich an outfit of gifts, creative thought, emotion, style, clearness,

and the

charm, emphasis, vocabulary, per-

Many writers have some

severance.

essential difference of

professional writing rule, little

is

of these gifts

amateur writing from

that the amateur has, as a

power of rejection and

selection, or of

producing a due proportion and an even surface

amateur poetry

is

characterized by

good

lines

strung together by weak and patchy rigmaroles like

a block of unworked ore, in which the precious

particles glitter confusedly is

—

;

while the artistic

a piece of chased jewel-work.

great swiftly

ness at

poets ;

is

poem

true that

have often written hurriedly and

but probably there

work

It

in

is

an intense

the background

all

selective-

the time, pro-


;

Aitthorship duced by instinctiTe taste as well as by careful practice.

Amateur prose again has an unevenness of texand arrangement, good ideas and salient

ture

thoughts floundering in a rapid and inferior sub-

by amateurs how much depends on craftsmanship; I hare known brilliant and accomplished confersationalists who stance ;

it is

often not appreciated

hare been persuaded, perhaps in mature attempt a more pathetic

to

definite piece

see

suggestive

life,

of writing : when

and even

to

it is

brilliant

thought hopelessly befogged by unemphatic and StiU more

disorderly statement.

make people of

difficult is it

to

emotions and swift perceptions

fine

understand that such qualities are only the basis of authorship, and that the vital necessity for selfexpression stinctive,

is

to have a knowledge, acquired or in-

of the extremely symbolical and even

traditional methods

and processes of representa-

not the same thing as vivid art

tion.

Vivid

art

a sort of recondite and narrow symbolism,

is

life is

by which the word, the

jdirase, the salient touch,

represents, suggests, hints the larger vision.

in the reducing of

broad

that the mastery of art

effects to

lies.

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It is

minute effects


Escape and Other Essays Good work has often been done for the sake of money I could name some effective living writers who never willingly put pen to paper, and would be ;

quite content to express themselves in familiar talk,

or even to

live in vivid reflection, if

compelled to earn their living.

they were not

Ambition

will

do

something to mold an artist; the philanthropic motive

may put some wind

itself it

has

self, in

so far as

little artistic it is

into his sails, but

value.

by

Speaking for my-

possible to disentangle com-

plex motives, the originating impulse has never

been with thropic,

me

pecuniary, or ambitious, or philan-

or^ even

communicative.

It

has

been

simply and solely the intense pleasure of putting as emphatically and beautifully and appropriately as

an idea of a

possible into words,

definite kiad.

The creative impulse is not like any other that I know some thought, scene, picture, darts spontaneously into the mind. The intelligence instantly ;

sets to

work arranging, subdividing,

Much

tending, amplifying.

conscious cerebration

;

is

foreseeing, ex-

done by some un-

for I have often planned the

development of a thought in a few minutes, and then dropped

it

;

yet an hour or two later the whole

thing seems ready to be written.

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Authorship Moreover, the actual start

is

a pleasure so keen

and delightful as to have an almost physical and sensuous joy about

it.

The very act

has become so mechanical that there the least fatiguing about

it,

is

of writing

nothing in

though I have heard

some writers say otherwise; while the process

is

and

actually going on, one loses all count of time

place; the clock on the mantelpiece seems to leap

miraculously forward ; while the mind knows exactly

when to

desist, so

that the leaving off

is like

the

turning of a tap, the stream being instantaneously cut

my-

I do not recollect having ever forced

off.

self to write,

do I ever

except imder the stress of

recollect its being

est pleasure

illness,

nor

anything but the pur-

from beginning to end.

In saying this I know that I am confessing myself to

be a frank vmprovisatore; and where such art

fails, as

mine often

fails, is in

a lack of the power

of concentration and revision, which greatest necessity of high art.

But

is

I

happiest and brightest experiences of

no other pleasure writing, it

is

is

said,

the last and

owe to life,

it

the

to which

even dimly comparable.

makes hard reading; but

Easy is it

true that hard writing ever makes easy reading.''

The end

of the matter would seem to be that

if


Escape and Other Essays the creative impulse

probably find

its

is

way

work destroys

it, it is

yet authorship

is

very strong in a

man

it will

If ordinary routine-

out.

probably not very robust;

not to be recommended as a pro-

fession, because the prizes are few, the

way hard,

the disappointments poignant and numerous

;

and

though there are perhaps few greater benefactors to the

human

yet there are ful

race than beautiful and noble writers,

many

who would

natures both noble and beauti-

like to

approach

life

thai way, but

who, from lack of the complete artistic equipment,

from technical

deficiencies,

from

manship, must find some other blood of the world.

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failure in crafts-

way

of enriching the


HERB MOLY AND HEARTSEASE



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XIV

HERB MOLY AND HEARTSEASE

WHEN

Odysseus was walking

swiftly,

with

rage in his heart, through the island of Circe, to find out ions, he

what had befallen

would have assuredly gone to

his

compan-

his

doom

in

the great stone house of the witch, the smoke of

which went up among the thickets,

if

Hermes had

not met him.

The God came in the likeness of a beautiful youth first down of manhood upon his lips. He

with the

chid the much-enduring one for his rash haste,

gave him what we should

call

and

not very good advice

but he also gave him something which was worth

more than any good

advice,

a charm which should

prevail against the spells of the

Nymph, which

he might carry in his bosom and be unscathed. It

was an ugly enough herb, a prickly plant

which sprawled low in the shadow of the

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trees.


;

!

Escape and Other Essaya Its root

the

was black, and

Gods

could

called

avail

to

it

it

had a milk-white flower

Moly, and no mortal strength

pull

Odysseus says, telling

from the soil; but as the story, " There is nothing it

which the Gods cannot do "

;

and

it

came up

easily

Wc

enough at the touch of the beardless youth.

know how his

the spell worked,

how Odysseus

companions, and how Circe told him the

the regions of the dead

wholly escape from her

No

enchantment

it

was the mandrake, that plant of dark-

which was thought to bear a dreadful

arms, to a tortured

moans as it

to

but even so he did not

evil

semblance, in its pale swollen stalk

on

way

one knows what the herb Moly really was;

some say ness,

;

rescued

it

re-

and outstretched

human form, and

was dragged from the

soil;

to utter

but later

was used as the name for a kind of

garlic,

employed as a flavoring for highly-spiced salads.

The Greeks were

not,

it

seems,

very

botanists, so far as nomenclature went,

scientific

and applied

any name that was handy to any plant that struck their fancy.

had

secret

They

believed, no doubt, that things

and intimate names of S,S4i

their own,

which


Herh Moly and Heartgease were known perhaps to the Gods, but that men

must just It

them what they

call

could.

would be best perhaps to leave the old allegory

to speak for

itself,

because poetical thoughts are

often mishandled, and suffer base transformation at the hands of interpreters

;

but for

and

visions, or obscurely detected

of the eye in magical places poetical things

is

;

that

all

a pretty trade to expound things seen

in

it is

dreams

out of the corner

while the best of really

that they have a hundred mysti-

cal interpretations, none of which

is

perhaps the

right one; because the poet sees things in a flash,

and

describes his visions, without

they mean, or indeed at

knowing what

they have any meaning

if

all.

A

place like a university, where one alights for

an adventure,

many ways

in the course of a

There

like the island of Circe.

great stone mansion with

guarded

long voyage,

cloisters.

It

is

its

many

to discern: there are plenty of bowls

enchant-

it is

life

256

hard

and dishes,

and water pleasantly warmed for the bath.

had a private

the

There are mysterious

people going to and fro, whose business

herself

is

shining doors and

a place of

ments and various delights.

is in

of her own, and

Circe

much


Escape and Other Essays curious information: she was not forever turning

people into pigs is

;

and indeed why she did

not easy to discover!

felt

It

amused

more secure perhaps, when her

at all

and she

visitors

were

One must not

to-

an allegory too

press

but in any place where human beings con-

closely,

sort, there is

even

it

and splashing about

safely housed, grunting gether.

her,

always some turning of ipen into pigs,

they afterwards resume their shape again,

if

and shed tears of

the change.

relief at

3

My

purpose here

is

what the herb Moly can used.

to speculate a

how

be,

it

little

can be found and

Hermes, the messenger of the Gods,

ways ready to pull requires

And

it.

Shakspere says, "

it

up

just is

for

upon

is al-

any one who really

because

" the

full of noises

isle,"

as

— sounds and

a matter of concern to know which of them " give delight and hurt not," and sweet airs,"

it

is

which of them lead only to manger and discourse

is

sty.

My

not planned in a spirit of heavy

rectitude, or

from any

vice about, as

from a pepper-pot.

that there are

many

desire to shower

good ad-

Indeed I believe

things in the correct conven-

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Herb Moly and Heartsease tional code which are very futile

and grotesque;

some which are directly hurtful; and further that there are

are both

many

things quite outside the code which

and beautiful because the danger of

fine

;

all civilized societies is

that the members of ;

think what

as the

it

means, accept

it

and walk contentedly enough, the bone, which, as

miss

its

To takes

the

take

like

we know, can

way

of

life,

the beetle in

neither turn nor

way.

fall feebly into

away

little

beaches, glades,

it

do not trouble to

the prevailing code for granted

all

the conventions of a place

the joyful spirit of adventure; but

island set in the ocean, with its loud seaits

its

upstanding promontories,

open spaces, and above

house standing among

its

lawns,

is

its

all

wooded

the great

a place of ad-

venture above everything, with unknown forces at

work, untamed emotions, swift currents of thought,

many the

choices, strange delights

shadowy sea beyond, with

lows rolling

yond the before

it

in,

;

and then there

is

all its crested bil-

and other islands looming out be-

breakers, at which the ship finds its

way

may

touch,

to the regions of death and

silence.

I myself

had

my own

time of adventure, took

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ship again,

come back again to the

little

island with all

its

thickets, I wish to retrace in thought, if I can,

some of the adventures which

me, and what

befell

they brought me, and to speak too of adventures

which I missed, either out of I

am

not at

But

may

be found.

root

it is

grown

It

is

and

its

flower as pure

still

the

;

it is

cling-

hard to come by,

to extract; but having once at-

man who

bears

it

knows that there are

certain things he cannot do again, spells

and

not a plant for trim gardens, nor to be

in rows in the furrow

it,

and how

it is

deeply planted, no doubt;

while the leaves are prickly

;

and harder tained

what he thinks

tell

as black as death,

is

as the light

ing;

it.

knew others who certainly had the herb at hearts, and as certainly others who had not

and I win try and it

of Moly,

what use I made of

it,

I

their

its

folly.

I cer-

me a plant

tainly encountered, ever gave or, if I did indeed receive

or

whom

diffidence

sure whether Hermes,

all

and

certain

which henceforth have no power over him

and though

it

he will not at swine, that

does not deliver him from all

had

all

dangers,

events be penned with the regretful

lost all

power of shedding

human

tears.

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Herb Moly and Heartsease

Now because

I shall drop all allegories for the present, it is

confusing both to writers and readers

to be always speaking of

And

each other.

two things

in terms of

I will say first that

when I was

at college myself as a

young man, I seemed

to

myself to be forever looking for something which I could not find.

It

was not always so there were ;

plenty of contented hours, when one played a game,

or sate over the

afterwards with tea and

fire

tobacco, talking about

people

—

anything

it,

or talking about other

do not often remember talking about

I

else,

except on set occasions

— or

later

in the evening some one played a piano not very

or we sang songs, not very tunefully

well,

sate

down

work I

am

with

to work,

itself,

and got

or one

interested, if not in the

at least in doing

it

well

and completely.

not going to pretend, as elderly infinite

;

men

often do

absurdity, that I did no work, and

scored off dons and proctors, and broke every rule,

and I

defied

had not

God and man, and got,

and

There are very few of things,

spent

money which

lived a generally rake-hell life.

my

friends

and they have mostly 259

who

did these

fallen in the race


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Nor do

I see

why

so glorious to pre-

it is

tend to have done such things, especially

not done them

!

if

one has

I was a sober citizen enough, with

plenty of faults and failings; and this tract to convert the wicked,

who indeed

viding plenty of materials to effect their version in

ways very various and

fortable!

I should like

all

is

not a

are pro-

own

con-

very uncom-

rather to be read

it

by

well-meaning people, who share perhaps the same experience as myself, the experience, as I have said,

of searching for something which I could not

Sometimes in those days, I fess, I

will

make bold

find.

to con-

read a book, or heard an address or sermon,

or talked to some interesting and attractive person,

and

felt

was

it

had

lost?

suddenly that I was on the track of

something I wanted, or was I could not

I could find

how

rules I

what to choose.

wanted

spare, some of

we made part of dons,

—

It

I

which was

We left

us,

it;

something I

knew that

if

any doubt again was not a

there were rules enough

them made for

for ourselves. life

But

I should never be in

it,

to act or

tell!

it

set of

and to

and many which

mapped out every unmapped by the

and we knew exactly what was correct 260


;

Herh

Molt/ and Heartsease

and what was not; and oh, how

dull

much

of

it

was!

But I wanted a motive of some wanted to know what I was out

sort,

an aim; I

for, as

I did not see what the point of

say.

my work

was, or know what

why

be; I did not see

many

my

we now much of

profession was to

I did, for social reasons, so

things which did not interest me, or

pretended to think them interesting.

why

I would

I

sit,

one of half-a-dozen men, the air dim with smoke,

A

about other people.

telling stories

had a row with

B

into training, he

had

he would not go properly

,

had lunched before a match

off a

tumbler of sherry and a cigar, he was too good to be turned out

enough, but

it

of

the

team

—

certainly was not

it

was amusing

what I was look-

ing for.

Then one made

friends

;

it

dawned upon one sud-

denly what a charming person original

and amusing,

thrilling thing to

him td week it

;

it,

tea,

so observant;

was, it

the path all,

so

became a

meet him in the court; one asked

A

one talked and told him everything.

later,

after

C

one seemed to have got to the end of

came to a stop there was not much :

and presently he was rather an

261

in

ass


Escape and Other Essays he looked gloomily at one when one met him, but one was off on another chase; this idealizing of people was rather a mistake; the pleasure was in the exploration,

plore;

it

set of

certainly not the thing one

dull

was

in

of.

What was

it

then?

shadow racing over the wing.

to ex-

no nonsense; and yet that was

That was

search

little

was better to have a comfortable

friends with too.

and there was very

The

One saw hill, like

it like

a cloud-

a bird upon the

perfect friend could not help one, for

his perfections

Yet there was

waned and faded.

certainly something there, singing like a bird in the

wood; only when one reached the was gone, and another song was seemed then at

first

sight as if one

tree, the bird

in the air.

was

It

in search of

an emotion of some kind, and not only a

solitary

emotion, like that which touched the spirit at the

sudden falling of the ripe rose-petals from their stem, or at the sight of the far-off plain, with all its

woods and waters framed between the out-

running

hills,

or at the sound of organ-music steal-

ing out of the soaring climbing woodwork with its

all

golden pipes, on setting foot in the dim and

fragrant church; they were

all

sweet enough, but


Herh Moly and Heartsease mind turned to some kindred soul at hand

the

whom

with

it

could

of some

tion

all

be shared ; and the recogni-

other presence,

visibly

beckoning

through gesture and form and smiling wide-opened eyes, that seemed the best that could be attained,

that nearness and rapture of welcome

moment

;

and then the

passed, and that too ebbed away.

was something more than that! because

It

in

bleak solitary pondering moments, there stood up, like

bom

a massive buttressed crag, a duty, not

of

whispered secrets or of relations, however delicate

and awestruck, with other hearts, but a stem uncompromising thing, that seemed a relation with something quite apart from man, a Power swift

and vehement and often an

unmistakable

Righteousness

!

terrible, to

fealty

That

in

whom

thought

set

act.

thing

old-fashioned

which the Jews, one was taught,

one owed

and

much

on

store,

which one had misconceived as something born of piety

and ceremony, and which now revealed

as a force uncompromisingly there, which

impossible to overlook or to disobey;

disobey

it,

was a

was

one did

something hurt and wounded cried out

faintly in the soul this

if

itself

it

;

and so

it

dawned upon one that

force, not only not developed out of


Escape and Other Essays piety and worship, but of which

all

piety and wor-

ship were but the frail vesture, which half veiled

and half hampered the massive It did not attract or

and frightened; but

it

woo

;

stride

it

became

and

clear

enough that

any inner peace was impossible without little

by

little

stroke.

rather demanded

it;

and

one learned to recognize that there

was no trace of

many

it in

conventional customs

and precepts; those could be slighted and garded ; but there were

still

disre-

things which the spirit

did truly recognize as vices and sins, abominable

and

defiling,

with which no trafficking was possible.

This then was clear; that peace one desired

—

it

if

was

one was to find the

that,

it

was an un-

troubled peace, a journey taken with a sense of

aim and liberty that one hoped to make these were

two certain elements

;

— then

a concurrence

with a few great and irresistible prohibitions and positive laws of conduct,

though these were far

fewer than one had supposed

;

and next to that, a

sense of brotherhood and fellowship with those

who

seemed to be making their way harmoniously and finely

towards the same goal as oneself.

stand and love these

spirits, to

To

be understood and

loved by them, that was a vital necessity.

264

under-


;

Herb Moly and Heartsease But this must be added that ;

the sense of duty of

which I speak, which rose sturdily and above the shifting forms of

fiercely

a peak above

life, like

the forest, did not appear at once either desirable

or even beautiful. it

It blocked the view

and the way

forbade one to stray or loiter ; but the obedience

one reluctantly gave to

it

ization of its strength

came simply from a and of

its

real-

It

presence.

stood for an order of some kind, which interfered

many

at

points with one's hopes and desires, but

with which one was compelled to make terms, be-

cause

it

could and did strike, pitilessly and even

vindictively, if one neglected

monitions to find

;

and transgressed

and thus the quest became an attempt

what stood behind

it,

and to discover

any Personality behind

there was

it,

Was

could love and be loved ?

and

soulless,

Or was

a condition of

if

with which

one could link oneself, so as to be conscious of intentions or its goodwill.

cal

its

its

it

a Power that

it

only mechani-

life,

which one

might dread and even abhor, but which could not be trifled

with.''

Because that seemed the secret of ness of life

—

all the

happi-

the meeting, with a sense of intimate

security, something

warm and 265

breathing, that

had


Escape and Other Essays need of foster

me

and

as I of

it,

that could smile and clasp,

and adore, and

pity, admire

brace of which one could

grow and

stir

feel one's

by contact and

what one found

in the

em-

hope and joy

trust.

That was

in the hearts about one's path;

and the wonder was, did some

similar chance of

embracing,

and loving that

clasping,

trusting,

vaster power await one in the dim spaces beyond the

fields

and homes of earth?

I guessed that vision, that

it

was

many harsh

so,

but saw, as in a faint

events, sorry mischances,

blows and wounds and miseries, hated and dreaded

and endured, lay between me and that larger Heart.

But

I perceived at last, with terror and

mistrust, that the adventure did indeed

lie

there;

that I should often be disdained and repulsed, un-

tended and unheeded, bitterly disillusioned, shaken out of ease and complacency, but assuredly folded to that greater Heart at last.

And

then there followed a different phase.

Up

to the very end of the university period, the same

uneasiness continued

;

then quite suddenly the door

opened, one slipped into the world, one found one's

266


;

Herb Moly and HearUease There were instantaneoasly real things to

place.

be done, real money to earn, men and women to lire

A

with and work with, to conciliate or to

resist.

awaj from my eyes. What a fanhad been hitherto, how sheltered, how

mist rolled

tastic life it

remote from actuality

i

I seemed to hare been

up a rococo stucco habitation oat of whims and fancies, adding a room here and a row bnilding

of pinnacles there, tesque.

and gro-

all utterly bizarre

Vague dreams of poetry and

art,

nothing

penetrated or grasped, a phrase iKxe, a fancy there ; one's ideal of culture seemed like

" Hamlet," a distracted nymph stuck flowers

Ophdia

all

in

over wiUi

and anxious to explain the sentimental

Talue of each; the friendships themselres

had nothing

stable about

them

— they

either; they were

not based upon any common aim, any real mutual concern ; they were nothing more than tbe enshrining of a fugitive charm, the tracking of some

bri^t-eyed fawn or wQd-4]aired dryad to

its secret

haunt, only to find the bird flown and the nest

warm. iJiere

But now there was

little

time for fancies

was a real burden to carry, a gennine task

day slipped past,

;

day

after

farrows in a

&Id

seen from some speeding car : tbe

to perform

267

like

tbe


Escape and Other Essays contented mind, pleasantly wearied at the end of the busy day, heaved a light-hearted sigh of

and turned It

to

some recreation with zest and

relief,

delight..

was not that the quest had been successful;

seemed rather that there was no quest at that the

it

all,

it

and

was the joy of daily work that had been

missing

factor

.

.

.

the

weeks melted into

months, the months became years.

Meanwhile the earth and rades

air, as well as

the com-

and companions of the pilgrimage, were

The The hot summer days poured down upon the

touched with a different light of beauty. beauty was there and sun in the

in

fragrant garden, with

even fuller measure.

all its

bright flower-beds,

rose-laden alleys, its terraced walks,

shaded avenues

;

the

its

and the hUl climbed

green summit ; or the spring came

back after the winter of unfolding

green-

autumn mists lay blue and

faint across the far pastures,

smoothly to

its

its

life,

silence with all its

languor

while bush and covert wove their

screens of dense-tapestried foliage, to conceal

what

mysteries of love and delight the faces or gestures !

of those about one took on a

new

significance,

a

richer beauty, a larger interest, because one began to guess

how

experience molded them,

by what aims


T[erb

Moly and Heartsease

and hopes they were graven and

refined,

by what But

they were obliterated and coarsened.

failures

the diflFerence was this, that one was not

make

forever trying to

now

these charms one's own, to

establish private understandings or mutual relations.

It

was enough now to observe them as one

could, to interpret them, to enjoy them, and to

pass by.

The

acquisitive sense

was gone, and one

one admired and won-

neither claimed nor grasped

;

dered and went forwards.

And

this again

seemed

a wholesome balance of thought, for, as the desire to take diminished, the power of interpreting and

enjoying grew.

But very gradually a slow shadow began to fall, shadow of a great hill that reaches far out

like the

over the plain.

I passed one day an old church-

yard deep in the country, and saw the leaning headstones and the grassy barrows of the dead.

A

shudder passed through me, a

the thought that

it

far-oflF chill,

must come to

this after

that however rich and intricate and delightful

was

— and

it

was

all

three

—

at

aU; life

the time would come,

perhaps with pain and languid suffering, when one

must

let

all

the beautiful threads out of one's

hands, and compose oneself, with such fortitude


Escape and Other Essays

And

as one could muster, for the long sleep.

then

one called reason to one's aid, and bade her expound the mystery, and say that just as no smallest

of

particle

matter

utterly, or subtracted

and with

infinitely

be

could

disintegrated

from the sum of things,

greater

so,

certainty, could no

pulse or desire or motion of the spirit be brought

True, the soul lived

to nought.

like

a bird in a

cage, hopping from perch to perch, slumbering at times, it

moping

dolefully, or uttering its song; but

was even more essentially imperishable than the

body that obeyed and enfolded and at

last failed

So said Reason; and yet that brought no

it.

hope, so dear and familiar had

life

— the

become,

well-known house, the accustomed walks, the daily

work, the forms of friend and comrade.

It

was

just those things that one wanted; and reason

could only say that one must indeed leave them

and begone, and she could not look forwards nor forecast anything; she could but bid one note the

crag-faces and the monstrous ledges of the abyss

which the spirit was forever

into ing.

.

.

Alas, to

falling,

fall-

.

it

was there

know and

all

the time, the sleepless desire

to be assured; I

270

had found nothing,


Herb Moly and Heartsease learned nothing

;

was

it

all still to seek.

I

had but

just drugged the hunger into repose, beguiled

hidden

it

it,

habits and work and activi-

was something firmer than work, some-

It

ties.

away under

thing even more beautiful than beauty, more satisfying than love that I wanted it

was not repose.

I

and most certainly

;

had grown to loathe

the

thought of that, and to shrink back in horror from the

dumb slumber

energy, see

life,

of sense and thought.

It

was

activity, motion, that I desired; to

and touch and

taste all things, not only things

sweet and delightful, but every passionate impulse,

every fiery sorrow that thrilled and shook the spirit,

every design that claimed the loyalty of

mankind.

I grudged,

it

seemed, even the slumber

that divided day from day

;

I wanted to be

up and

doing, struggling, working, loving, hating, resisting,

protesting.

And

even

strife

and combat

seemed a waste of precious time there was so much ;

to do, to establish, to set right, to cleanse, to in-

vigorate, great designs to be planned

great glories to unfold.

condemned to drop the

and executed,

Yet sooner or tools

from

my

later I

to stand and survey the unfinished work, grieve that I might no longer take

271

was

willing hand,

my

and to

share.


Escape and Other Essays

It

was even thus that the

dream of the of the

isle

night.

I

came to me, in a

vision

had been reading the story

of Circe, and the thunderous curve of

the rolling verse

had come marching

march into the bay. and slept.

book at

last

Yes, I was in the wood

itself;

into the

I could see

save undergrowth and great tree-trunks there a glimpse of sky

The

thicket

was

among

mind

I dropped the

as the breakers

;

little

here and

the towering foliage.

less dense to the left,

I thought,

moment I came out upon an open space, and saw a young man in the garb of a shepherd, a looped blue tunic, with a hat tossed back upon the shoulders and held there by a cord. He had and

in a

leaned a metal stave against a tree, the top of

adorned by a device of crossed wings.

it

He was

stooping down and disengaging something from the earth, so that

when

up and was gazing herb

itself!

looked

curiously at

I saw the prickly

black root and the

He

I drew near, he

little stars

up at me with a

had taken

it

was the

it.

It

flat

leaves,

the

of milk-white bloom.

smile as

though he had

expected me, which showed his small white teeth


"

Herb Moly and Heartsease curl of his lips; while his dark

and the shapely

a cluster over his brow. " There " he said, " tate it It

hair

fell in

!

are in need of

" Yes," I

He

said,

looked at

what you

is

!

!

me

" I want peace, sure enough " !

and then

for a moment,

let

the

herb drop upon the ground.

" that

Ah no ;

it

!

" he said lightly, "

wiU not bring you "

it

does not give peace, the herb of patience

"Well, I

stooping down;

will take it," I said,

but he planted his foot upon it. " it has already rooted itself " !

!

" See," he

And

said,

then I saw

that the black root had pierced the ground, and that the fibers were insinuating themselves into the

I clutched at

soil.

"

You do

want

but

it,

not want

it,

it

was

firm.

after all," he said.

That

heartsease, I suppose?

—

is

it grows upon men's graves." " No," I cried out petulantly, like a

flower

do not want heartsease tired,

He

and I

am

smiled at

plant and gave

That

!

is

a

"

You

difi'erent

child.

for those

who

" I are

not tired " !

me and stooped it to

me.

again, raised the

had a

It

fresh sharp

fragrance of the woodland and blowing winds, but the thorns pricked

my

hands.

.

.

.


;!

Escape and Other Essays The dream was gone and ;

I awoke

lying there,

;

trying to recover the thing which I had seen, I

heard the

faint piping of the birds begin in

first

the ivy round

my

windows, as they woke drowsily

and contentedly to

upon me,

flashed

The truth

and work.

life

in one of those sudden lightning-

blazes that seem to obliterate even thought.

" Yes," I cried to myself, " that It

that

is

does not end;

life

what I am

the secret

is

To

goes on.

it

find

in search of, to understand, to inter-

pret, to see clearly, to

sum

it

up, that would be an

end, a soft closing of the book, the shutting of the

door

— and that

want to

live,

and

ence,

is

just what I do not want.

and endure, and

love,

I

and experi-

suffer,

and not to understand.

It

is life

continuous, unfolding, expanding, developing, with

new

new losses, need and whether we know that we need it,

delights,

that I

new sorrows, new

pains,

:

or think we need something

else, it is all

for we cannot escape from

life,

the same

however reluctant

or sick or crushed or despairing we

may

be.

It

waits for us until we have done groaning and bleeding,

Even

if

and we must

we die, even

it is useless.

if

rise

up again and

we seek death for

The eye may 274

live.

ourselves,

close, the tide

of un-


Herb Moly and Heartsease consciousness

may

flow in, the huddled limbs

tumble prone; a moment, and then

again we have but flown ;

to another. is

There

our destiny to

but we are the

live

bird from one tree

the darkness

it,

we

aU about

us,

The dark-

and wherever the light goes,

The herb Moly

to endure, whether

is

it

with struggling

with fiery spears.

it

ness cannot quench it is light.

;

like the

no end and no release;

light, enlacing it

beams, piercing

there

is

may

begins

life

is

but the patience

like it or no.

It delivers us,

not from ourselves, not from our pains or our delights, but only

from our

fears.

They

are the

only unreal things, because we are of the indomitable essence of light

and movement, and we cannot

be overcome nor extinguished

we cannot pass

die

resistless

;

— we can but

suffer,

we leap across the nether night we ;

on our way from star to star."

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BEHOLD, THIS DREAMER COMETH



XV BEHOLD, THIS DREAMER COMETH

SAW in

I

one of the daily illustrated papers the

other day a

the front

little

picture

— which

filled

was taken

in

tion.

It

man

lines.

A

— a snapshot from

me with a

curious emo-

some village behind the Ger-

handsome, upright boy of about

seventeen, holding

an accordion under

a wandering Russian minstrel, says the

— has sturm

arm comment

his

been brought before a fat, elderly, Landofficer to

be interrogated.

The

oflBcer

tow-

ers up, in a spiked helmet, holding his sword-hilt

in one

hand and

down at

the

field-glasses in the other,

boy truculently and

by

other ofiicer stands is

smiling.

looking

fiercely.

The boy

An-

himself

gazing up, nervous and frightened, staring at

his formidable captor, a peasant beside him, also

looking agitated.

There

what happened, but

The

officer

I

is

nothing to indicate

hope they

let the

boy go!

seemed to me to typify the tyranny of

279


Escape and Other Essays human aggressiveness, at its stupidest and ugliest. The boy, graceful, appealing, harmless, appeared, I thought, to stand for the

spirit

which wanders about the world,

of beauty,

lost in its

own

dreams, and liable to be called sharply to account

when

strays within the reach of

it

human aggres-

siveness occupied in the congenial task of

making

havoc of the world's peaceful labors.

The Landsturm

oflScer in

the picture had so ob-

viously the best of it; he was thoroughly enjoying his

own formidableness

;

while the boy had the

look of an innocent, bright-eyed creature caught in a trap,

and wondering miserably what harm

it

could have done.

Something of the same kind all the

and

world over; the

of

disciplined forces

is

always going on

collision of the life

loving, detached instinct of man.

with the beauty-

The

not give a reason for its existence,

by no means

sure that

it is

barbarous

latter can-

and yet I am

not going to triumph

in the end.

There last

is

every reason to believe that within the

twenty years the sowing of education broad-

cast has

had an

effect

upon the human outlook,

rather than perhaps upon the

880

human

character,


;

Behold, This Dreamer Cometh

The

which has not been adequately estimated. crop

growing up

is

know what of the

it is,

many

about us, and we hardly yet

all

am

I

going to speak of one out

results of this

upon one particular

section of the community, because I have become

personally aware of It

is

in certain very definite ways.

it

easy to generalize about tendencies, but I

am

here speaking from actual evidence of an unmis-

takable kind.

The is

community of which I speak

section of the

that which can be roughly described as the middle

class

— homes,

urgent,

daily

where there

is

that

which are removed from the

is,

pressure

homes

of wage-earning;

a certain security of outlook, of

varying wealth, with professional occupation in the

background homes

in

;

and some

by a

talk,

by

which there

possibility of stimulating, societies,

an

tough, intellectual interest,

it

to give color to

it,

some

but a

it

leisure

by reading,

interest in ideas.

definite desire to idealize life it,

is

It

is

not

ends in a very

little,

to harmonize

to speculate about

it,

to lift

out of the region of immediate, practical needs,

to try experiments, to live on definite lines, with a definite

aim in sight

to adorn, to enrich

— that aim being

life.

281

to enlarge,


Escape and Other Essays I

am

perfectly sure that this instinct

on the increase but the ;

this,

significant thing

is

greatly

about

it is

that whereas formerly religion supplied to a

great extent the poetry and inspiration of

such households, there

is

now a

for

life

desire for some-

thing as well of a more definitely artistic kind; to

put

it

simply, I believe that more people are in

search of beauty, in the largest sense. stinct does it

is

not run counter to religion at

This

in-

all,

but

an impulse not only towards a rather grim

and rigid conception of righteousness, but towards a wider appreciation of the quality of terest, its grace, its fineness,

I

am

and

life, its in-

its fullness.

always sorry when I hear people talking

about art as

if it

useful profession,

were a rather easy and not very

when as a matter of

fact art

is

one of the sharp, swordlike things, like religion and patriotism, which run through

and divide

life,

it,

and separate people, and

make men and women mis-

understand each other.

Art means a temperament,

and a method, and a point-of-view, and a way of living.

There are accomplished people who be-

lieve in art

and talk about

it

and even practise

who do not understand what it is who know nothing about what ;

people

it,

while there are is

technically


Behold, This Dreamer Cometh called art,

who are yet wholly and

in all that they

entirely artistic

Those who have not

do or think.

got the instinct of art are wholly incapable of

understanding what those who have got the instinct are about

;

while those

who

possess

very quickly others who possess incapable of explaining what

not understand I

am

it.

recognize

and are quite

to those

who do

it.

going to make an attempt in this essay to

explain what I believe to

it,

it is

it

it

to be, not because I hope

make it plain to those who do not comprehend They wiU only think this all a fanciful sort

of nonsense :

and I would say

in passing that

when-

ever in this world one comes across people

who

talk what appears to be fantastic nonsense, and

who yet obviously understand each other and sympathize with each other, one

that one mysteries, is is

is

may

take for granted

in the presence of one of the hidden

and that

if

one does not understand,

it

because one does not see or hear something which perfectly plain to those

who

describe

it.

It

is

impossible to do a more stupid thing than to ful-

minate against secrets which one does not know, and say that " it stands to reason " that they cannot be true.

The

belief that

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all

the ex-


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is

an almost certain sign

that one ranks low in the scale of humanity

But what

I do hope

is

stand

it,

and would

because art

is

like to

understand

a very big thing, and

dimly understood, happiness to

may make the matwho do partly under-

that I

ter a little plainer to people

it

life.

it

better;

even

if it is

can add much significance and

Every one must recognize the

happiness which radiates from the people who have

a

definite point-of-view

and a

They

definite aim.

do not always make other people happy, but there is

never any doubt about their

own happiness and ;

when one meets them and parts company with them, it is

impossible to think of them as lapsing into

any

dreariness or depression; they are obviously going

back to comfortable schemes and businesses of their

own and we know that whenever we meet them, we ;

shall

know

have just that half-envious feeling that they their

own mind, never want

to be interested

or amused, but are always occupied in something that continues to interest them, even

if

they are

ill

or unfortunate.

To

be happy, we

all

need a certain tenacity and

continuity of aim and view ; and I would like to per-

suade people who are only half-aware of

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it,

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Behold^ This Dreamer Cometh they have a power which they could use

they

if

would, and which they would be happier for using.

For

the best of the art of which I speak

is

that

it

does not need rare experiences of expensive materials to

apply

it,

but can be applied to common-

place and quiet ways of exciting

life

just as easily as to

and exceptional circumstances.

Let me say then that

method and a

art, as a

point-of-view, has not necessarily anything what-

ever

do with poetry or painting or music.

to

Those are regions

all

manifestations

but what

;

it

of

certain

in

it

put

consists in, to

it

as simply

and comparison of

as I can,

is

quality.

If that sounds a heavy sort of formula,

it

in the perception

because

is

all

formulas sound

faculty of which I

am

speaking

range —

like,

but

But the

that which obexists within

the sky, the earth, the trees, the

the streets, the houses, the people

further

is

happens or

closely all that

serves

dull.

;

and then

fields,

goes

it

and observes not only what people look

how they move and speak and

think

;

and

then we come down to smaller things stiU, to ani-

mals and flowers, to the color and shape of things of

common

which

is

use,

furniture and tools, everything

used in ordinary

life.

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Now

every one of these things has a certain

—

quality

of suitability or unsuitability, of pro-

portion or disproportion.

Let me take a few quite

Look

at a spade, for instance.

random

The

instances.

man

sensible

proceeds to

thinks he has done

man

is

call it

a spade, and

necessary; the wise

considers what length of experience

has gone to make

tice

that

all

purpose,

its

length and

and prac-

perfectly adapted for

it

its

the ledge for the foot

size,

to rest on, the hole for the fingers to pass through as they clasp

Or

it

;

the tools and utensils of

all

human documents

are

of

men

far-reaching interest.

take the strange shapes and colors of flowers,

the snapdragon with

with

its

round

its

blunt

flat leaves

the nasturtium

lips,

and flaming horns

— they

expressing something

are endless in variety, but

all

not only quite

but remotely inherited.

definite,

— how

Or

take houses

ful

an old homestead can

perfectly simple and gracebe,

how

frightfully pre-

tentious

and vulgar the speculative

often

how

is,

almost

all

full of

builder's

work

beauty both of form and color

the houses in certain parts of the country

are, as in the Cotswolds,

where the soft stone has

tempted builders to try experiments, and to touch

up a plain front with a

little delicate

and

well-


Beholdj This Dreamer Cometh

Or take the aspect of men, women, and children how attractive some cannot help being, whatever they do, how helplessly unat-

placed ornament.

;

tractive

and uninteresting others can

how, even

so,

a

be,

and yet

and sweet nature can make

fine

beautiful the plainest and ungainliest of faces.

And

then in a further region

there are the

still

thoughts and habits and prejudices of people,

all

wholly distinct, some beautiful and desirable and others unpleasant and even intolerable. I could multiply instances indefinitely

point

is

that art in the largest sense

is

concerned with observing and comparing separate

qualities,

wherever

they

;

but

my

or can be all these

appear.

Of

course every one's observation does not extend to everything.

There are some people who are wholly

unobservant,

let

us say, of scenery or houses, who

are yet very shrewd judges of character. It

is

observe

The

not only the beauty of things that one ;

they

may be

not by any means deThe point is whether it is

interest of quality does

pend upon

its

beauty.

strongly and markedly

itself.

What

could be more

crammed with quality than an enormous old with

may

dreary, hideous, even horrible.

its

pig,

bristles, its elephantine ears, its furtive

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What a look it has

eyes, its twitching snout?

by its own uncleanliany way out

of a fallen creature, puzzled ness and yet unable to devise All this

only to show that

is

life

lived aif ords a rich harvest for eye if

one dives but a very

face,

one

is

little

the sur-

instantly in the presence of the darkest

Who

and why?

it all?

Whose

driving at?

What

here, in our

tirely

do ? and above

idea is

set this all

What

going

is it all

the meaning of our being set

it

in it is

all

is

own particular shape,

from

distinct

what our place

with very

all,

feeling enlittle

that strange sense that we cannot

sense which remains with us, even all

idea

or what we are intended to

be compelled to do anything unless we choose

day and

it is

And

and mind.

way beneath

and deepest of mysteries.

down

wherever

—a

though day after

day long we are doing things that we

would not choose to do,

The whole thing

we could help

if

indeed

is

it.

so strange as to be

almost frightening, the moment that we dare to think at ease in

all:

it,

and yet we

and

does terrify us

What the

feel

in our place is

;

on the whole at our

and the one thing that

the prospect of leaving

it.

mean then by art in its largest sense is faculty we have of observing and comparing 288 I


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Behold, This Dreamer Cometh and wondering and the people who make the most ;

of

life

wings

;

are the people

and

who

give their imagination

then, too, comes in the further feeling,

which leads us to try and shape our own conduct on the

lines of

beautiful; the dull

choose what

life

and

what we admire and think

word duty means

that, that

we

not necessarily pleasant because for

is

some mysterious reason we

feel

happier so

;

because

however much we may pretend to think otherwise,

we are ness,

all

of us at every

which

is

moment

and sometimes quite contrary

And is

so

intent

upon happi-

a very different thing from pleasure,

we come at

to

it.

last to the art of living,

really a very delicate balancing

which

and comparing

of reasons, an attempt however blind and feeble to get at happiness

;

and the moment that

this at-

tempt ceases and becomes merely a dull desire to be as comfortable as

begins to go

down

we can, that moment the hUl,

and the value of

life is

spirit

over

we learn that we cannot afford to go and that every backward step wiU have

unless perhaps

down

hill,

to be painfully retraced, somewhere or other.

What is

then I would try to persuade any one who

listening to

me

is

that

we must use our wiUs

somehow to try experiments, to 289

observe, to dis-


Escape and Other Essa:ys tinguish, to follow It

may

and indeed It

is

what we think

be said that this

is

fine

and

exactly that at which I

it is

a religion, which

is

am

Religion

is

unhappily become specialized. liefs,

may

aiming.

within the reach of

people who cannot be touched by what cally called religion.

beautiful.

only a sort of religion,

is

many

techni-

a word that has

It stands for be-

doctrines, ceremonies, practices.

But

these

many

of us.

The

not,

worst of nite.

and indeed do

not, suit

definite religions

They try

that they are too defi-

is

to enforce

upon us a

belief in

things which we find incredible, or perhaps think to

be simply unknowable

;

or they

make out

certain

practices to be important, which we do not think

We

important.

must never do violence to our

minds and souls by professing to believe what we

do not

believe,

or to think things certain which we

honestly believe to be uncertain; but at the same time we must remember that there

is

always some-

thing of beauty inside every religion, because religion involves a deliberate choice of better motives

and better

actions,

and an attempt to exclude the

baser and viler elements of

Of course serious one

life.

the objection to all this

—

is

that people

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may

— and

say, "

it is

a

Of course


;

Behold, This Dreamer Cometh I see the truth of all that, and the advantage of

being actively and vividly interested in

life;

you

might as well preach the advantage of being happy but

my own

interest is fitful

and occasional some;

times for days together I have no sense of the interest or quality of anything.

I have no time, I have

How am

no one to enjoy these things with.

I to

It is see it would be wise to be? " as when the woman of Samaria said, " Thou hast

become what I

nothing to draw with, and the well

is

deep "

true that civilization does seem more create set

them

them. it

men and women with

it is

is

and more to

these instincts,

in circumstances where

It

!

and

to

hard to gratify

then such people are apt to say, " Is

And

after all worth while to aim at so impossible a Is it not better just to

standard.''

and make

put

it all aside,

oneself as comfortable as one

And that is many people

the practical answer which a

can.''

"

good

do make to the question; and when

such people get older, they are the most discouraging of

all advisers,

because they ridicule the whole

thing as nonsense, which young

women had as they can

men and young

better get out of their heads as soon ;

as Jowett wrote of his pupil Swin-

burne, that he was a clever fellow, and would do

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well

poetry and nonsense.

I

feel

wonder and

ideas, this kind of interest in life, in the

strangeness of

not pursue

it,

can be pursued by

It

it.

is like

all this

no doubt that these

many who do

the white deer, which in

the old stories the huntsman was forever pursuing in the forest suit of it

;

he did not ever catch

but the pur-

it,

brought him many high adventures.

Of course

it is

far easier if one has a friend

share the same tastes

;

but

if

who

one has not, there are

always books, in which the best minds can be found thinking and talking at their finest and

liveliest.

But here again a good many people are betrayed by reading books as one

may

collect

stamps, just

triumphing in the number and variety of the repertory.

I believe very

on books, as

sailors take possession of

setting the foot

little in

an unknown

One must make experiments, just

isle.

to see what

are the kind of books which nurture and sustain

one

;

and then I

books,

which

believe in arriving at a circle of

one

really

knows

through, and reads at aU time and they get soaked and enriched with

and

associations.

through all

moods,

all sorts

and till

of moods

I have a dozen such, which I

read and mark and scribble

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in,

write

when and


Behold, This Dreamer Cometh where I read them, and who were my companions. Of course the same books do not always last through

You grow

one's course.

out of clothes

and

;

find myself lost in

have cared for them little

out of books as you grow

and I sometimes look at old

favorites,

wonder as to how I can ever

like that

They seem now

!

like

antechambers and corridors, through which I

have passed to something far more noble and gracious.

But

all the

time we must be trying to

weave the books really into like

ornaments on a

kindles the

life,

It

shelf.

mind most

;

it

let

them stand

poetry that en-

to dwell in the thoughts of

which I have been speaking. read straight on

not is

But

must rather be

it

must not be

tasted,

brooded

by heart. Let me take a As a boy I had no opinion of

over, repeated, learned

personal instance.

Wordsworth, except that I admired one or two of the great poems like the " Ode on the Intimation of Immortality " and the "

Ode

to Duty," which no

one who sets out to love poetry at to ignore.

all

can afford

Then, as I grew older, I began to see

that quotations from

Wordsworth had a

sort of

grandeur in their very substance, which was unlike

any other grandeur. of the poems

away

And

then I took the whole

for a vacation

and worked at


Escape and Other Essays them; and then I found how again and again

Wordsworth touches a thought to life, which is like the little objects you pick up on the seashore, the evidence of another

at hand, in-

close

life

dubitably there, and yet unknown, which lived under the waste of waters.

is

being

When Words-

worth says such things as

And many

Am or

I

love me, but

by none

enough beloved,

when he says Some silent laws our hearts may make Which they shall long obey

—

then he seems to uncover the very secrets of the world, and to speak as when in the prophet's vision the seven thunders uttered their voices.

day I was working with a pupil

;

Only

in his essay he

to-

had

quoted Wordsworth, and we looked up the place. While I was speaking, my eye fell upon " The Poet's Epitaph "

Come

and I saw,

hither in thy hour of strength.

Come, weak as

Those two

lines

is

a breaking wave!

of unutterable magic

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;

he could not


Behold, This Dreamer Cometh understand why I stopped and faltered, nor could

But

I have explained it to him.

it

was as Cole-

ridge says,

Weave

And

a circle round him thrice,

close your eyes in holy dread.

For he on honey-dew hath

And drunk It

is

fed,

the milk of paradise.

just a mystery of beauty that has been seen,

not to be explained or understood.

Of course there are people, there will be people, who will read what I have just written in an agony But of rationality, and say that it is all rubbish. I

am

describing an experience of ecstasy which

hot very

common

I have had the

perience as eating or drinking.

experience before. nize

it

at once,

experiences.

and

I shall have it again

quite distinct

it is

One cannot

larly as one sits

is

perhaps; but just as real an ex-

down to

not a thing to be proud

sit

down

from other as regu-

it

of,

It

is

because I have had

it

Nor am

it is.

moment and

a duU frame of mind,

might not

;

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I at all

It does not trans-

figure life except for the it

I recog-

a meal, of course.

as far back as I can remember.

sure what the effect of

to

;

if

visit

I were in

me

at

all,


Escape and Other Essays though

it is

very apt to come

if

I

am

in a sad or

anxious frame of mind.

Then how do I deed; that there

Very simply

interpret it?

is

a region which I

in-

will call the

region of beauty, to which the view of

life

that I

have called art does sometimes undoubtedly admit one; though as I have also said the view of which

I speak

is

concerned with

many

perceptions which

are not beautiful, and even sometimes quite the opposite.

If I were frankly asked whether

it is

worth while

trying to think or imagine or thrust oneself into this

particular kind of rapture, I should

" Certainly not " !

It

is

very doubtful

be genuinely attained unless

it

if it

say,

could

has been already

experienced ; and I do not believe in the wholesomeness of self-suggested emotions.

But I do

believe

for any one who

most firmly that

is

it is

worth while

interested in such effects at all

to try experiments, by looking at things

critically,

hearing things, observing, listening to other people, reading books, trying in fact to practise observation

and judgment.

I was visiting some printing works the other day.

The great

cylinders

were revolving, the wheels

896


Behold, This Dreamer Cometh

A

buzzing, the levers clicking.

boy perched on a

platform by the huge machine lightly disengaged

a sheet of paper;

was drawn

it

in,

and a moment

after a thing like a gridiron flew up,

made a

sort

of bow, and deposited a printed sheet in a box, the

which kept moving, so as to pat the papers

sides of

into one solid pad.

away with

I came

him

he

is

interested the better

to feed the machine,

chanical."

of a

and

it

;

his business is just

becomes entirely me-

and

of his

own

engine, forever

so entirely

and com-

but the boy looked cheerful, well

intelligent,

little life

—

I felt a kind of shame at the thought

human being becoming

pletely a machine

and

boy knew what book he was " No," he said, " and the

He laughed.

printing. less

the master-printer, and asked

idly whether the

as

if

he had a very decisive

quite apart from the whizzing

bowing over and putting a new sheet

in the box.

But of

life

it is

just that dull and mechanical handling

which I believe we ought to avoid.

harder to avoid

and

it is

more

conditions. is

it

difficult to

But

It

is

for some people than for others,

all

escape from under certain

art and

all artistic

perception

just a sign of the irresponsible and irrepressible

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and an attempt,

life,

What

of things.

art

as I said at

first,

to

and distinguish and compare the quality

perceive

am

I

here maintaining

is

that

not necessarily the production of something

is

artistic; it rises

that

same impulse only when

the

is

in the heart of an inventive, accomplished,

deft-fingered, eager-minded craftsman.

woman

or a

If a

man

has a special gift of words, or a

mastery of form and passion for beauty

or musical phrases, the

color,

is

bound to show

itself in

the

making of beautiful things

— and

among

the happiest that a

man can

there

always the shadow of realizing the beauty

that

is is

such

lives are

live,

though

out of reach, that cannot be captured or

expressed.

And

if it

could be captured and ex-

pressed, the quest would vanish

But

there

are innumerable hearts and minds

which have the perception of quality, though not the power of expressing

whom

it

;

and these are the people

I wish to persuade of the fact that they hold

in their hands a thread, which, like the clue in the old story, can conduct a searcher safely through

the dark recesses of the great labyrinth. it,

He

tied

the dauntless youth in the tale, to the ancient

thorn-tree that grew

by

the cavern's

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mouth

;

and


;

Behold, This Dreamer Cometh then he stepped boldly

and

in,

let it

unwind within

his hand.

For many people, indeed for all people who have any part in the future of the world, the clue of life must be found

in

beauty of some kind or another

not necessarily in the outward beauties of colors, sounds, and words, but in the beauty of conduct, the kind, sweet-tempered, pure, unselfish

in

Those who choose such

qualities

life.

do so simply be-

cause they seem more beautiful than the spiteful,

apgry, greedy,

is

There

selfish life.

ugliness about that

;

is

a horror of

and thus beauty of every kind

of the nature of a signal to us from some mighty

power behind and ful,

in the world.

Evil, ugly, hate-

base things are strong indeed; but no peace,

no happiness,

lies

in that direction.

It

is

just that

power of distinguishing, of choosing, of worshiping the beautiful quality, which has done for the

world

that has ever been done to improve it;

all

and to follow whatever

it

it is

may be,

to take the side of the power,

that

is

trying to help and guide

the world out of confusion and darkness and strife into light

and peace.

It

may

mitted, of course, that religion

most

influences in this great

299

be gratefully adis

one of the fore-

movement but ;

it

also


Escape and Other Essays needs to be said that religion, by connecting so definitely as

it

does with ecclesiastical

itself

life,

and

ceremony, and theological doctrine, has become a specialized thing,

of the heart.

It

and does not meet is

not every one who finds fuU

satisfaction for all the visions of the in a

all the desires

Some

church organization.

mind and

soul

people, and those

neither wicked nor heartless nor unsympathetic, find its

a real dreariness in systematized

conventional beliefs,

its

religion, with

narrow instruction,

its

catechizings, missionary meetings, gatherings, devotions, services.

It

may

be aU true enough in a

sense, but it often leaves the sense of

interest

and emotion and poetry unfed

represent the fullness of

life.

dissatisfied with it all are often

beauty and ;

it

does not

The people who

are

dumbly ashamed of

their dissatisfaction; but yet it does not feed the

heart; the kind of heaven that they are taught awaits them

is

not a place that they recognize as

They do not want

beautiful or desirable.

wrong, or to rebel against morality at

to do

all,

but

they have impulses which do not seem to be recognized

by

technical religion, adventure, friendship,

passion, beauty, the strange and wonderful emotions of

life,

The work

of great poets and artists

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Behold, This Dreamer Cometh and musicians, the

lovely scenes of earth, these seem

to have no place inside systematic religion, to be

things rather timorously permitted, excused, and

Men

apologized for.

and

or to follow sisted

need something richer, freer,

They do not want

larger.

evil

upon by

unimportant,

;

but

many

stifled

It

God and

and confined

spoken of as true which

beliefs

seem at best uncertain.

not attribute to

things seem to be in-

religion as important which seem

many

are disloyal to

to shirk their duty

is

not that such people

to virtue, but they feel

an atmosphere which dares

in

God many

of the finest and sweet'

est things in the world.

Such a

old bottles;

it is

ideals, to find

I

much a rebellion against new wine which is too strong for the

feeling is not so

old ideas, as a

a desire to extend the range of

more things

do not believe that

divine.

this instinct is

crushed or overcome; I believe

going to be

grow and

it will

spread, and play an immense part in the civilization of the future.

open

its

I speak

I hope indeed that religion will

arms to meet is

it,

because the spirit of which

in the truest sense religious

;

since it is

concerned with purifying and enriching in living life,

not on base or mean

301

lines,

life,

and

but with


Escape and Other Essays constant reference to the message of a Power which is

forever reminding us that

life is full

music, great, free and wonderful.

meaning of ness

of

fire

That

is

and the

an increased sense of the large-

it all,

and richness of

life,

which refuses to be bound

inside a gloomy, sad, suspicious outlook.

It

an attempt to trust God more rather than to recognize the worth of

life

in wider

is all

less,

and

and wider

circles.

" Behold

this

dreamer cometh," said Joseph's

envious brethren, when they saw him afar off; " we shall see

what

will

become of

his

dreams " !

They

conspired to slay him, they sold him into slavery.

Yet the day was to come when they stood trembling before him, and when he freely forgave them and

royally entertained them.

We

can never afford to

despise or deride dreams, because they are what live

by they come ;

men

true, they bring a great deliver-

ance with them.

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