sound tracks
Johannes Schmalzl
Âťunpromising perspectiveÂŤ book one: foreshadowing the past
Johannes Schmalzl
Âťunpromising perspectiveÂŤ book one: foreshadowing the past
00:00
waking »the pictures are cloudy the colours fade the sounds first loudly are dying away I know it’s a sign there’s no way to stay life is always on time with all of its grey
I open my eyes and hope I’ll be wrong but everything lies just where it belongs this day is not my first it won’t be the last but it is cursed through the weight of my past«
00:00
A
00:23
00:45
01:07
uneasy »something is wrong here though nothing has changed I feel it is near yet out of my range it waits for a chance to enter my head it’s crouching in tense right under my bed«
01:07
Verbindungen C
H2
B
B
01:27
01:47
»it comes back it floods me no way to ignore the impact has got me it bursts through the door
recall 02:07
I know how I’ve got here I know what will come I’m banned now I’ll stop here and give up to run«
02:07
Verbindungen B
D
C2
H
ZTII
I
C
02:26
02:54
03:04
»it’s all in my head my own private war in the end I’ll be dead that’s what I’m fighting for«
awareness 03:23
Verbindungen L2
C
C3
C6
C2
C2
03:23
03:40
hush 03:57
»the words I just said they bring back some light It’s all in my head it means that there might at least be a chance to end my despair now my heart extends hope still is in there«
Verbindungen C
D
03:57
04:07
04:17
04:26
04:36
relapse »how can I be sure what if it’s a trap the search for a cure is a constant thread
I can’t trust myself so whom else shall I trust this hope might as well be a fraud of my past«
04:36
Verbindungen C
H2
B
B
04:56
Âťonce more it waits for my fatal mistake again I am chased by my very own fake to stand still means doom to go on as well the doors in this room they all lead to hellÂŤ
repeat 05:16
Verbindungen C2
C4
C3
05:16
05:33
05:50
06:07
re-feel 06:34 »this yoke is too heavy to be carried alone I thought I was ready but I’m all on my own cause no one is able to picture my pain I’m really unstable worn out by the strain«
Verbindungen L2
C2
C2
06:34
06:41
re-fail »I’m losing this fight again and again I can’t name the night my struggle began caught in this war I feel out of my depth and just like before no promise was kept«
06:58
Verbindungen C3
C5
C4
06:58
07:16
breath-in 07:34
»get a grip to get up to be able to fall this is it, just don’t stop now you can end it all«
07:34
Verbindungen C2
C5
E
07:51
08:08
08:24
08:41
08:58
09:14
give-in 09:31
Âťnow take what you came for and give me my peace my body feels sore death comes as a releaseÂŤ
Verbindungen E
C4
C5
09:31
09:49
»still not ready no relief still this heavy profound grief still no comfort for I’m damned still I long for a bad end«
breath-out 10:15
Verbindungen ZT I
C2
C6
10:15
10:32
»I don’t trust these clouds they will bring the rain to ignore my doubts has caused all this pain now I will mistrust whatever I see and nothing will last cause nothing will be«
misgiving 11:07
Verbindungen C6
ZT I
11:07
11:19
11:31