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Chapel labyrinth offers place for solace, inner peace

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The Class of 2019 will have to ask each other two questions about where to sit at Marketplace: right or left and top or bottom. Starting this Summer, East Union—which includes Marketplace and Trinity Cafe—will undergo renovations to modernize in two phases. The construction aims to finish renovating the Marketplace servery by the start of Fall 2015 and will move Trinity Cafe downstairs during Summer 2016. This project marks the first renovations for the building since 1995. “It will allow us to serve students better,” said Rick Johnson, assistant vice president of student affairs for housing, dining and residential life. “The renovations represent Duke Dining’s desire to present a great dining program by staying up-to-date with the menu and ambience.” The Durham Market—currently stationed in the center island—will be moved into the private room seating on the left side, which closed after Spring Break. In its place, there will be a revamped salad bar complete with a carving station to top salads with fresh meat and herbs. Skylights will be opened to create more natural light and a

On Tuesday, the Duke Chapel erected its annual labyrinth, a temporary path to offer people a place for meditation and self-reflection. Hoping to attract members of the Duke, Divinity School and Durham communities, the labyrinth is a modern take on an ancient religious symbol used to help people find inner peace when confronted with struggles or difficult decisions. “Christians in ancient times saw the spiritual value in following a disciplined and deliberate path as a way to dwell in prayer and reflection,” Meghan Benson, director of worship for the Divinity School wrote in an email March 17. “I always appreciate the opportunity to reflect on life’s journey and the twist and turns a journey can take, even as I feel safe within the wider embrace of the purpose

Jack White | The Chronicle The labyrinth, a 40-foot self-guided path, opened Tuesday at the Chapel.

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Leslie Jamison will give a public reading Wednesday at 7 p.m. in Nelson Music Room on East Campus. She will also participate in a panel called “Ghost Pain: Caregiving, Documentary, and Radical Empathy” alongside scholar Jehanne Gheith and undergraduate photographer Lauren Henschel. The panel will be hosted Thursday at noon through The Forum for Scholars and Publics. Read Recess editor Katie Fernelius’ interview with Jamison on page 2.

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within the labyrinth.” Jeanette Stokes, executive director of the Resource Center for Women and Ministry in the South, noted that the origin of labyrinths as places of fascination, reflection and comfort dates back to ancient civilization. “Labyrinths go way back to ancient Egypt and Crete. Spirals and labyrinths seem to be patterns that fascinate humans,” she said. The labyrinth was built to cater to all audiences and to help any in need of solace or a space for worship, though Stokes noted it is particularly helpful for adults. “It is a great tool for meditation and it is also a container for worry, grief, hopes and dreams. Some people gain insights while walking,” she said. Although erecting the maze is a labor-intensive process, volunteers and Duke employees who contributed to the project

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Novelist explores empathy, writing and sharing stories Leslie Jamison is an American novelist and essayist known for her award-winning collection of essays, The Empathy Exams. This week, she will visit campus to give a public reading from her collection, as well as to participate in a panel discussion on how to document, inhabit and care for the pain of others. In anticipation of Jamison’s visit to campus, Recess editor Katie Fernelius interviewed Jamison. Over the course of a few days, they emailed back and forth, discussing the timeliness of conversations about empathy, the role of writers in conversations about injustice and the power of the stories shared with children.

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The Chronicle: 2014 was a year full of difficult headlines, from the shootings of Michael Brown, Eric Garner, Tamir Rice and others to the UC Santa Barbara massacre, to the Ebola outbreak in Western Africa. 2014 was also the year that your book The Empathy Exams was published. This shared timeline feels very apt (and maybe cosmically-willed) since conversations on and offline challenged so many folks to empathize (e.g. #YesAllWomen, #BlackLivesMatter, #IllRideWithYou). How did current events inform your conversations while you traveled around the country and promoted your book? How did it impact you as a writer, especially as a writer of a book that is oriented around the exploration of empathy?

Leslie Jamison: I felt so many things simultaneously about the ways in which the release and promotion of my book––and its exploration of empathy––was intersecting with a world that seemed to need more empathy so badly: mainly I felt sadness, about each new iteration of loss and injustice. During all this, I was getting asked to talk to medical students and therapists–– people who certainly knew much more about the daily clinical practice of empathy than I did––and I was getting asked questions about Ebola and Michael Brown and beheading videos. I was speaking alongside psychologists and scientists who had been studying and publishing about empathy for years. It forced me to clarify what my book was and wasn’t (it’s a collection of investigations, not conclusions; it’s not a treatise or a set of ethical instructions)––and what I was and wasn’t; what the role of writer might be amidst the clamor of all these various kinds of voices: clinicians, activists, journalists. I tried to turn speaking gigs into an opportunity to listen to perspectives from people who had different kinds of first-hand experience than I did (doctors and therapists, for example). I’m ultimately more of a questioner than an answerer, and it was always my hope that the questions the book raises would feel useful to people as they resonated in the particular corners of their lives, or their disciplines––but part of the book is also about the limits of feeling, the limits of empathy and the danger of mistaking affect for action. So I suppose everything that kept happening in the world made me feel the importance of writing––how much

it matters to make things visible––but also the edges of my own role; how much it left undone. TC: What do you think writing leaves undone when it comes to such issues? LJ: I think writing can be part of a process (useful in raising awareness, exploring dilemmas, articulating problematic action or inaction) but it’s structurally distinct, like all kinds of impact, and has its limits: it can change how people think about Ebola in Africa, but it can’t actually treat Ebola patients in Africa. It can ask people to remember the dead or to honor the significance of their deaths, and it can inspire people to protest the abiding systemic injustice these deaths point to; but it doesn’t bring back the dead; or issue a courtroom verdict or a grand jury decision. It does a different kind of work than thousands of bodies marching on the street; it’s not a substitute for other kinds of activism, whose architecture enables collective action in large-scale forceful ways. I guess I’m interested less in comparing the relative impacts of all these kinds of work and more in thinking about how they can supplement and catalyze each other. My dad’s a global health economist––he does research on how money can be spent to make a difference in easing disease burden around the world––which means, basically, getting the most good health for your dollar. It’s a different language and a different way of talking about suffering, but what he wants to do feels fundamentally important to me, close to my own heart. Seeing work done by people I love in spheres quite removed from my own––it’s

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been expanding and inspiring to me. TC: What does writing make possible for you as a writer? What do you hope it makes possible for your readers? LJ: I think writing can bring visibility to lives or worlds that haven’t been witnessed, by telling stories that haven’t been told or telling familiar stories in a new way. Certainly the act of writing does this for me: opens me up to some unfamiliar realm or asks me to see the familiar (my own life or past, for example) in different ways. If you’re doing it right, writing challenges well-trodden mythologies of world and self. I do think writing can inspire and challenge us to empathy, though the terms of that empathy are often more complicated than we admit. Feeling empathy towards someone in a text; what does that mean? See Jamison on Page 4

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livelier atmosphere, said Director of Dining Services Robert Coffey. A new level of seating will be added above the Durham Market on the left side. Seating options on both sides will be improved by adding new furniture and more community seating. Additional menu items will become available as a result of increased space for new equipment, Johnson said. A wood fired pizza oven will be installed so that calzones and stromboli can be offered. The Pacific Rim station will also expand its offerings to include dumplings and Asian buns. “It’s a bummer that all of these amazing changes are going to happen after my freshman year,” freshman Youyou Li said. “At least I have some friends coming to Duke next year that will be able to swipe me in.” Overall, the renovations will make the food served at Marketplace fresher. “We will be able to do more restaurant-style preparation in front of students,” Coffey said. Vegan and vegetarian options will also be expanded and be cooked on separate equipment, he added. As the major dining venue on East Campus, Marketplace will remain open and operational during the summer to feed students staying on campus for summer programs. The project will be working on a tight schedule in order to complete the expansion of the servery by August, but Coffey is confident that the work can be completed in time. “We have the same contract firm that we used last year when we renovated Cafe Edens,” Coffey said. “Believe it or not, we did that renovation in three weeks.” All of the renovations on the East Union are scheduled to be completed for Fall 2016. Currently, furniture for the dining and lounge areas is being selected, so the budget has not been finalized. Coffey estimated that the renovations would total between $7 and 8 million. Coffey noted the new East Union will create similar programming space that will be present in the new West Union. Classrooms with similar designs as the study spaces in The Edge will be built, in part, for students participating in the FOCUS program. These areas will be constructed both downstairs in the mailroom and upstairs. “Students won’t have to travel around campus for their FOCUS meetings,” Coffey said. “They can just take what they want from the menu and head right to their FOCUS session.” A stage will be built underneath the servery area that will be able to host student performances. The Trinity Cafe will be moved downstairs and be transformed into a coffee bar and lounge, much like Von der Heyden Pavilion.

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considered it an honor to do so. “I count [setting up the labyrinth’ as a privilege. Usually the folks to set the labyrinth are a set of volunteers, often Divinity students, and a few staff people,” Benson said. That’s not to say the labyrinth was quick work. It took 80 volunteers dedicating several hours apiece to construct this labyrinth, Stokes noted. “I’m a Christian, and I find it to be a very helpful tool. For me, I’m better able to focus on prayer and thinking through things,” said Andrea Davis, collection services associate for the Divinity School. “This labyrinth has caused me to seek out

other labyrinths.” Others believed the labyrinth gave them the opportunity to consider important life decisions. “I gave myself images and questions that have to do with decisions I have to make in the next year with my work and family balance,” local resident Betty Wolfe said. “When I had some time in the middle, one thing became clearer: I need some more information in one part of my life.” The Divinity School hopes that the labyrinth will continue to prove helpful and relevant in the future, and that followers will continue to seek out the structure in times of need. “Labyrinths went out of style a couple hundred years after 1200 and were not used anymore, “ Stokes said. “Modern people have been able to reinvent and rediscover uses for them.”

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continued from page 2 What good does it do? It means something; it does something; but it doesn’t do everything. See also: what writing leaves undone. One of the perils of the empathetic “feeling” is that it can function as a conclusion rather than a beginning.

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TC: When you finish writing an essay or a book like The Gin Closet, do you ever feel like there is unfinished business? How do you decide when to step away from what you’re writing and decide it is done? LJ: Completion always feels embedded in me rather than the piece itself––less like the things itself feels “done,” and more that I’ve given it everything I can. The Gin Closet feels like the crystallization of a particular stage in my imagination, in my psyche––I gave it what I could, what I was, when I was writing it. But I’m also someone different now. So there is a sense of “unfinished business,” but more on the scale of my work unfolding across time––the other things I was going to write next––than the sense of thinking that I should have stayed longer with that particular work. It marked a moment; then I moved to the moments that followed. TC: I am an aunt to two nieces and a nephew. I find that the exploration of what and how it is to be in this world emerges in my writing a lot and I often find myself implicitly writing for them about the world they are going to inherit. You recently became a stepmother. What sort of stories do you share with your stepdaughter? Has her entrance into your life impacted your thinking or writing in expected or unexpected ways? LJ: This is a huge and wonderful question––my stepdaughter has changed my life in huge and wonderful ways. I’ll just say one very specific thing that’s on my mind right now: reading stories to my stepdaughter at night makes me think so much about what narrative does for us, how it introduces us to danger in a contained form. The nightly ritual asks me to trust that she can handle some level of danger in these stories––that we don’t need to protect children from everything; that exposure in the context of safety is part of what narrative does, part of how it enlarges us. But I’m also aware of some protection still being necessary–– how real stories can be for kids, how much power and sway they can hold––how they can become the whole world. TC: What sort of stories did your parents share with you when you were young? Which ones have stuck with you? LJ: Great question. Reading at bedtime was a huge part of my childhood: The Once and Future King, The Famous Five, The Faraway Tree, The Narnia Chronicles. That feeling of getting excited for total immersion in a world––and sharing that immersion with the people I loved most––was basically heaven; it gave me a kind of muscle memory for the magic of what stories can be. But I also grew up with lots of true stories about how to live in the world and wonder about it and question it. One example: my mom told me about traveling across Europe when she was young, picking olives in the French countryside and ultimately organizing a strike with her fellow workers there; because they were all being forced to work out in the cold for ten hour days. She wasn’t making herself out to be some kind of hero, but she was opening me up to this sense of the world as a place that could be questioned or changed, not taken at face value––where the status quo wasn’t necessarily just.

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Blue Devil bats come alive in win against Columbia Brian Pollack Beat Writer It did not take the Blue Devils long to fall behind, but they rebounded and jumped back ahead just as quickly. After falling behind 1-0 before it even came to bat, Duke answered the call and streaked past Columbia 5-2 Tuesday night at the Durham Bulls Columbia 2 Athletic Park. Senior DUKE 5 Andy Perez led off the bottom of the first with a home run on the first pitch he saw, blasting a shot over the right-field wall for his first dinger of the season—and just the second for the Blue Devils in 20 games. For a club that had been struggling offensively, getting a boost right from the start was just the medicine it needed. “It’s just good for the guys to see a ball go out of the ballpark and to see balls get in the gaps,” Duke head coach Chris Pollard told GoDuke.com. “Obviously Andy didn’t take long—he loves hitting in this park, he’s never made any bones about that.” Duke (15-5) was not done in the opening frame after Perez’s leadoff shot. Shortstop Max Miller—filling in for usual starter Kenny Koplove, who was sidelined with an illness—followed up with a single to keep the momentum going. The Blue Devils would eventually push one more run across the plate when catcher Mike Rosenfeld

Jesús Hidalgo | The Chronicle Andy Perez opened the bottom of the first inning off with a home run to right field to start the Blue Devils’ solid outing from the plate.

scampered home on a Cris Perez fielder’s choice, giving Duke an early 2-1 edge. But Columbia (3-8) had a bit of comeback spirit in it as well. The Lions responded immediately in the top of the second, when second baseman John Kinne led off with a double and later came around to score on a two-out RBI single by Lane Robinette. With the game tied at 2-2, the Blue Devils finally took the lead for good in the

bottom half of the frame. A pair of freshmen combined to capitalize on a defensive miscue by Columbia and push Duke ahead 3-2. Evan Dougherty led off by reaching on an error by right fielder Gus Craig and scored just two batters later on classmate Jack Labosky’s opposite-field single. Labosky had recently been moved down in the batting order, but turned in a quality night out of the nine-spot with two hits and two RBIs.

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Given a one-run lead, the Blue Devil pitching staff made sure it would hold up. Junior Nick Hendrix—making the first start of his career—set the Lions down in order in the top of the third before giving way to the bullpen. The bullpen was the collective star of the day for the Blue Devils, as three hurlers came out of the pen and combined to toss six shutout innings to cement the victory. Freshman Chris McGrath (2-0) relieved Hendrix and picked up the win, dominating for three innings—which tied the longest appearance of his career—and striking out five while lowering his ERA to 1.93. The Atlanta native finished his outing with a flourish, fanning all three Columbia batters he faced in the sixth inning. “This was the best outing of Chris McGrath’s young career,” Pollard said. “He was really aggressive with everything he did, with both the fastball and the breaking ball he really attacked the zone.” Next in line was veteran Sarkis Ohanian, who continued his strong senior season with 1.2 shutout innings in which he recorded three punchouts and yielded just one hit. Freshman Mitch Stallings came in with a runner on in the eighth and closed the door, firing 1.1 scoreless frames to earn the first save of his career. The Blue Devils and the Lions will go at it again Wednesday, when they conclude the midweek two-game series with a 6 p.m. contest at the DBAP.

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Hoerger elected sports editor for Volume 111 Junior Ryan Hoerger will lead the sports section in 2015-16 Staff Reports Junior Ryan Hoerger was elected sports editor of The Chronicle’s 111th volume at a department-wide meeting. Hoerger will lead a staff of approximately 30 writers, editors and departmental staff, beginning his oneyear term in May. The Saratoga, Calif., native will replace junior Nick Martin. “I’m incredibly honored by the opportunity to lead The Chronicle’s sports department,” Hoerger said. “Next year promises to be a challenging and exciting one, and I look forward to working with our staff to continue providing in-depth coverage of Duke athletics and moving the organization one step further into the digital era.” Hoerger currently serves as the sports department’s managing editor

and a men’s basketball beat writer. He has covered the women’s soccer and volleyball teams as a beat writer and has also reported on baseball and women’s basketball since joining The Chronicle in January of his freshman year. In his speech and platform, Hoerger stressed the need to continue developing the department’s digital-first approach to reporting, including the creation of online graphics, the continued growth of The Blue Zone—The Chronicle’s sports blog and source for around-theclock sports news—and the addition of a video unit. “The great thing about working at a student newspaper is that we can experiment freely with new ways of storytelling,” said Hoerger, who also noted that the department will develop a more extensive training process for new writers. “We’re always looking for new ways to reach our audience, and a consistent video department provides us with one of those opportunities.”

A senior has not served as the sports editor of The Chronicle since the 200910 academic year. “The fact that Ryan is willing to take on this role during his senior year shows his tremendous commitment to our organization,” said Amrith Ramkumar, who was elected Editor-in-Chief of V. 111 in February. “I’ve worked closely with Ryan this year and cannot wait to see where he takes our sports department.” A graduate of Westmont High School in Campbell, Calif., Hoerger is pursuing a double-major in economics and public policy and earning the Policy Journalism and Media Studies certificate. He intends to graduate in May 2016 before potentially beginning a career in journalism. “It’s very difficult to think about Duke without thinking about its strong athletic tradition,” Hoerger said. “The student-athletes on this campus are incredibly unique, and it is our job to share their stories with our readers.”

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Henson to return for fifth season in 2015-16 Nick Martin Sports Editor Senior forward Amber Henson has undergone six knee surgeries and missed nearly two full seasons as a Blue Devil. But with two years of eligibility remaining and a promising young squad returning, the resilient forward will be in Durham for at least one more go-round. Henson announced her decision to return for a fifth year Tuesday. After undergoing six knee surgeries in her time at Duke, the Tampa, Fla., native has two seasons of eligibility remaining and will spend the 2015-16 school year attending the Fuqua School of Business. “I am really excited about the decision,” commented Henson. “It is finally good to get it out there and stop having to answer questions about it and thinking about it so much.” This season marked a career high in games and minutes played by Henson, who suffered a knee injury in high school that has created a nagging problem for the 6-foot-4 forward. Averaging 4.1 points and 3.9 rebounds—both also career highs—Henson has started 14 games this season and has finally begun to show the potential Duke head coach Joanne P. McCallie saw in her four years ago. “I am absolutely thrilled,” McCallie in the press release. “I kept thinking in my mind because she is not going to come back, graduate and go on with her career just because it wouldn’t hurt so bad when she left. The fact that she has made that decision to be at Duke and pursue her master’s degree—we are so thrilled.” In time with the Blue Devils, Henson played just eight games in her first two seasons after missing the majority of her freshman campaign and the entirety of her sophomore season. As a junior, Henson played in 27 games—starting five—and averaged 1.7 points and 1.7 rebounds.

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continued from page 8 Following the departure of Sierra Calhoun and loss of Oderah Chidom to injury, Henson’s progression on the offensive end of the floor continued to grow and has now led to her earning a slot in the starting rotation for the past five games. If Henson continues to grow as a scorer, she should be a much-welcomed post presence come the 2015-16 season, as the Blue Devils will return standout freshman forward Azura Stevens but lose senior center Elizabeth Williams. McCallie viewed this season as a time for Henson to readjust to the college game and has high expectations for the future. “What she can do for our teams is phenomenal and what she does for the student body at Duke is also phenomenal,” McCallie said. “She deserves a chance to really, really see what she can do, after a year to get her feet and balance under her a little bit.” Henson will graduate Duke with a public policy degree in May. She has already taken the GMAT and is currently undergoing the application process for the master of management studies at Fuqua—a one-year program. “When you are hit with adverse circumstances like injuries and things, you try to make the best out of it,” Henson said. “To be able to go to school...and get two degrees from a school like Duke is really an amazing opportunity I couldn’t pass up.” Although the academics were part of the decision, with an opportunity to leave Duke with two degrees, Henson also pointed toward the young core of the Blue Devils as a key factor in her decision to return. Duke has posted a 2110 record so far this season and though her focus is on the coming NCAA tournament, Henson said the opportunity to return to a talented Duke team was enticing. “A big part of my decision was the young players like Rebecca [Greenwell], Azurá [Stevens], Kendall [Cooper] and Oderah [Chidom],” she said. “They are great players. To be back with them, I know we are going to accomplish some great things in the future.”

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Greater transparency for Young Trustee Uncertainties about the selection and role of the Young Trustee will get more befuddling: The traditional three-year term—divided into one non-voting and two voting years—will be changed to alternate with a two-year term. Changed to ensure the equality of undergraduate and graduate representation on the Board of Trustees, the new structure will allot graduate and undergraduate Young Trustee alternating years of two and three-year terms. For example, while the undergraduate Young Trustee holds a three-year term, one non-voting and two voting, the graduate will hold a two-year term, one non-voting and one voting. Though the effort to promote equality of representation between undergraduate and graduate Young Trustees is commendable, the procedural change adds yet another murky layer to a position many students already find confusing. Voter turnout for Young Trustee elections has decreased in recent years, dropping precipitously this year from 53 percent participation last year to only 38 percent in the elections last month. If low voter turnout is reflective of decreased student interest, complicating the po-

sition with alternating term lengths may deter uncertain students even more. While the actual power a Young Trustee wields in the boardroom is itself at question, reducing the tenures of half the Young Trustees is incommensurate with the time and resources spent acclimating them to the board’s bureaucratic and administrative processes to begin with. Yet, if the Young Trustee position is nebulous to many students, it is mired in the broader inaccessibility and enigma of the Board of Trustees itself. Many students do not know who the board members are, what their function is or their central role in shaping the vision and trajectory of the University. Such a gaping disconnect between students and the people who govern their academic and collegiate experience is deeply problematic. Increasing the accessibility and visibility of the Board and its responsibilities to students should be a top priority. After all, if the Board is dedicated to the resilience of its students and the broader University, hearing the voices of students experiencing the programs it discusses is crucial. One simple remedy to bridge the disconnect

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between students and board members is for the Board to hold meetings on campus amongst students—Penn Pavilion or the Allen Boardroom, for example—rather than at isolated locales like the Washington Duke Inn. Furthermore, the Board of Trustees can offer a short public forum where students can sign up for five-minute presentations slots to raise concerns or thoughts on relevant campus issues. Such a system would provide students an avenue to voice their opinions or, in the least, serve as a symbolic gesture. Increased visibility, however, should be accompanied with greater effort to educate the student body on the Board’s role. Increased awareness of who board members are along with greater transparency as to what they do, how they can be accessed and how one might propose a petition or appeal will not only allow students more ownership over their Duke education but also provide the Board important means to shape university policies. Such a connection between students and the Board is particularly important for the Young Trustee who, three years removed from campus, can be out of touch with student life.

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hese words adorn many shirts in my closet, but I didn’t fully appreciate their meaning until I participated in the Clinton Global Initiative University (CGI U) conference over spring break. CGI U is an annual meeting that brings together students, university representatives, topic experts and celebrities to discuss and develop innovative solutions to pressing global challenges. Students apply to attend the conference from all over the world with a unique Commitment to Action, which is a plan for addressing a significant global challenge. In simpler terms, Commitments to Action are bite-sized recipes for change. Rather than trying to tackle a huge issue all at once or being so overwhelmed by the enormity of an issue

in a greater whole and is diminished when others are humiliated or diminished, when others are tortured or oppressed, or treated as if they were less than who they are.” When I joined the selective living group Ubuntu, I was aware of the origin of its name as well as the group’s commitment to civic engagement and social change, but I lacked the understanding of “Ubuntu” that I have now. I want to make a difference in the world, but for a long time I was paralyzed by having too many interests. It seemed impossible to focus my energy on a single issue—I worried that dabbling in multiple projects at a time would prevent me from having impact in any one area. What I know now is that there is no such thing as a “single issue.” Problems in public

Rachel Anderson THE GRAB BAG that no steps are taken, CGI U asks students to evaluate where they can make a tangible impact in a limited amount of time, and then go out and do it. Since 2008, students have made more than 4,800 Commitments to Action, and focus on topics as diverse as a soccer ball that generates energy to a mobile app that identifies counterfeit drugs to a low-cost wheelchair designed for the developing world. The beauty of the CGI U model is that it promotes the idea that anyone can be a change agent—or, as Bill Clinton likes to say, “A mind and heart. That’s all you need.” Students don’t need a professional degree to make a difference—our knowledge of our own communities is enough to identify problems and begin to tackle them. The concept “Ubuntu” encapsulates this same idea. In addition to being the name of an operating system, Ubuntu is a South African term that loosely translates to “I am because we are.” Archbishop Desmond Tutu spoke about the concept during the Clinton Global Initiative conference in 2006: “Ubuntu is the essence of being human… We say, ‘A person is a person through other people.’ I am human because I belong, I participate, and I share. A person with Ubuntu is open and available to others, affirming of others, does not feel threatened that others are able and good; for he or she has a proper self assurance that comes with knowing that he or she belongs

health, climate change, poverty alleviation or peace and human rights cannot be divided into separate spheres as if they are different issues. Ubuntu is the idea that we have a shared future, and that our humanity is tied up in others. As long as someone somewhere needs help, we have an obligation to help, if not because we are morally compelled then because our destinies are intertwined. I stressed over what to do, when now I realize that the important thing is not what I do, but that that I do something. Duke makes it easy to do something. Opportunities like DukeEngage and Service-Learning build the notion that small changes can be the most powerful and that even a little can yield a lot—even if you are over committed and over scheduled, a few hours a semester can be meaningful. Making a living and making a difference is not an either/or choice. Whether or not we work full-time for a social enterprise, we can always work for a cause on the side, at night, on weekends, or online. Crowd-funding sites like Crowdrise and Kickstarter mean that it no longer takes time to make a difference: users can financially back good ideas half a world away. By developing the habit now, we can practice to become private citizens committed to public good. Rachel Anderson is a Trinity junior. Her column runs every other Wednesday.

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Hollaback! at rape culture Maybe you’ve been there. Have you ever walked down the street—or past a fraternity bench—and heard unwelcome, objectifying comments about your body? Have you heard sexist, homophobic or racist slurs that make you feel unsafe on campus? Have you been touched inappropriately at Shooters or at a party, ruining what should have been a fun night out with your friends? I know I have. Maybe you felt demeaned and objectified. Maybe you felt embarrassed. Maybe you felt paralyzed and scared to respond. And, strangest of all, maybe you didn’t know why you felt that way. After all, isn’t it “just a compliment?” In recent months, increased media attention has raised awareness about the very real impact street harassment has on victims and on society. I’ve written previously about the importance of treating street harassment as the very real social ill that it is, a part of rape culture whereby seemingly “harmless” behaviors actually help prop up a larger system of gender violence.

Katie Becker THING AGAIN Street harassment, defined as sexual harassment in public spaces, is often accompanied by a dynamic of racism, transphobia, homophobia, ableism or classism. Far more than being “just a compliment,” street harassment exists as a form of violence on the same spectrum as sexual assault, rape and domestic violence. Let me be clear, when I’m talking about street harassment, I don’t mean consensual flirtatious behaviors or innocent public greetings. I’m referring to unwanted comments or behaviors that are rooted in sexual harassment, the product of a power dynamic and that cause harm—whether emotional or physical—to the victim. The definition may sound blurry at first, but trust me, it’s not difficult to tell the difference. By allowing and accepting catcalls, groping, and other harmful behaviors, we create a culture in which it is seen as acceptable to disrespect women and other marginalized groups. Armed with this understanding of how violence operates, we understand how catcalls and harmful comments normalize the degradation and objectification of women, people of color and members of the LGBTQ community. And street harassment doesn’t just happen in big cities or in certain neighborhoods. It happens on campuses around the country—on our campus. A 2006 study by the American Association of University Women found that twothirds of students had been harassed on campus. Harassment was common in residential areas (39 percent of respondents), outside on campus grounds (37 percent), in campus buildings (24 percent) and in classrooms (20 percent). While female students were more likely than their male counterparts to experience harassment outside on campus grounds, male students were more likely to experience harassment in residential spaces, bathrooms or locker rooms. At Duke, stories of harassment—whether at Shooters or in the classroom—are shockingly common. It’s fabulous that we are coming to understand street harassment as a social phenomenon that women all over the world experience every day, and that

the media and organizations are paying more attention to this issue. But it is still easy to feel alone and ashamed in the moment. It’s difficult to know how to respond—should I say something back and risk my safety, or should I keep walking and risk my pride? That’s the challenging reality of how this type of violence operates. Street harassment makes women and other victims feel so ashamed and alone that their very mobility is limited. According to the 2013 United Nations Commission on the Status of Women, street harassment is used around the world “to intimidate women and girls who are exercising any of their human rights and fundamental freedoms.” Yet the question remains, how should we respond to street harassment? The truth is that every situation and person is different. Some victims may prefer to say something. Some may prefer to ignore the harassment. Neither response makes someone weak, and neither makes someone a “bad feminist,” whatever that means.

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When you didn’t say no, but you also didn’t say yes It was the last week of school when I briefly considered flinging my body over the balcony of my third floor apartment. This wasn’t entirely unusual for me—I’ve suffered from depression since I was about twelve, and I’ve been a cutter since I was sixteen. But at Duke, I finally learned to handle my emotions in healthy ways for so long I thought of these issues in the past tense. It was something I had dealt with then moved on from. It was done. And then this happened. I remember waking up in darkness, not immediately sure of where I was. I remember mumbling something incoherently as I tried to process my surroundings. I remember feeling his body pressed up against mine as I tried to move and realized I couldn’t. I remember him kissing me, his hands running up and down my body. I remember the rough movements and sloppy undressing. I remember it hurting when he did it, a pain unlike anything I’ve ever felt before. And then everything went dark. The next morning, I told my two best friends what happened. I felt disgusted— with the experience, yes, but mostly with myself. How could I let this happen? How could I get that drunk? Didn’t I know better? It’s crazy because if it were anyone else those questions wouldn’t even cross my mind. But it wasn’t someone else’s experience—it was mine. And it’s different when it happens to you, and all you can think about is what you could—and should—have done differently. So there I was, the day after it happened, sobbing uncontrollably in my third floor apartment, clutching the sharpest object I could find, trying to talk myself out of the darkness I had long thought was gone. I didn’t know what to call

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After an experience of street harassment or sexual assault, many victims crave a way to process what happened to them. They look for a network of solidarity, healing and support. They want to be believed. Enter Hollaback! Duke University. Hollaback!—yes, the exclamation point is crucial—is an international network of activists in 84 cities and 24 countries, all working to end street harassment and bring about a violence-free society. Hollaback! was the organization that brought you the viral street harassment video last year and has appeared on The Daily Show. And it’s coming to Duke University this week. What is Hollaback! Duke University, you may ask? In is simplest form, it’s an online forum and support group for Duke students and community members to share their experiences of harassment and sexual violence on campus, over the summer or while studying abroad. It is rooted in the belief that sharing stories and creating a network of supporters is critical to healing and confronting this issue head-on. But confronting street harassment takes more than just an online forum—it must be a social movement. Hollaback! Duke University aims to bring events, trainings and campaigns to campus to raise awareness about the harassment and violence that Duke students experience every day. No one should have to go through the experience of harassment or sexual violence alone, particularly on a campus that can be so isolating already. Thanks to organizations like Hollaback! and others, women across the world are creating a support network, and, in doing so, are on the front lines of a social movement. It’s okay to stand up and say that harassment isn’t normal and it isn’t “just a compliment.” We’ve got your back. Katie Becker is a Trinity sophomore. Her column runs every other Wednesday. She is the Social Media Chair for Hollaback! Duke University. You can follow Hollaback! Duke University at duke.ihollaback.org, on Facebook or on Twitter to learn about our efforts.

what had happened, I still don’t really. I know women who have been raped, drugged, had their no’s repeatedly rejected, but that wasn’t me. I never said no, not once. I’m certain if I had yelled or thrashed or just done something, he would have stopped. But I didn’t. I didn’t do anything. I just laid there—drunk, incoherent, slipping in and out of consciousness. He took my body while I let him. And I hate myself for it every single day. Two weeks after it happened, the guy I was seeing ended things. He couldn’t handle what had happened to me, so he left. And while that was devastating, getting my heart broken turned out to be the best thing to ever happen. Because it gave me time. I could be self-destructive and sad and people would write it off as me trying to get over him. But eventually, that allotted time passed, and it was expected that I would get better. I never did. I think about having sex with a guy, his body on mine, and it makes me want to vomit. How am I ever supposed to be with someone again? And more than that, why would anyone be with me? I’m damaged, and because of my cutting that damage is immediately apparent. I now have self-inflicted wounds all over my body. Perfect, strategically placed marks, constant reminders of a pain and sadness I have no idea how to control. I look disgusting, and I know that. But at least how I feel on the inside now matches my outside. That night changed me, fundamentally and completely. Because even when I don’t think about it or close my eyes and feel it happening—both of which do occur—there is a darkness that follows me wherever I am. Eating habits have changed too. I eat everything or nothing at all—but the drinking is constant. It started when I couldn’t sleep anymore. I’d lie in bed, heart pounding mind racing, as a deep panic took over. I’d get up and pace back and forth over and over, frantically trying to calm myself. It was unbearable. But I discovered that if I drank, I could sleep. But then it expanded beyond that, and pretty soon drinking wasn’t just used to socialize or fall asleep— it was used to function. I am rarely ever sober anymore, though that was never my intention. I just wanted to stop the chaos in my mind, the voice that plays like a loudspeaker on repeat, telling me I am worthless, useless, ruined, stupid, a failure and a disappointment. The voice that tells me all the terrible things I should do to myself. The voice that tells me I am nothing. I try to fight it, but it is there every day. And it terrifies me. While the drinking doesn’t make it go away, it at least blunts it. Often I wonder if I’m crazy, mostly I just wonder if I’m alone. Because at a school of so many students, amidst friends I know love me, I feel completely and absolutely alone. I cut and drink to cope, but even that isn’t always enough. When I first wake up in the morning, when I’m riding the C-2, on my walk to class—those moments when it’s just me—I feel so incredibly hopeless. I hide it well, and I know that. On the outside I’m just an average Duke student. I get lunch with friends and complain about being busy. I’m involved in my sorority and several other organizations. I hold leadership positions and do research. I made Dean’s List last semester. I have perfected the art of presenting myself as a fully functioning young adult. But I am falling, fast, and I constantly feel like I am living two lives. It’s my best-kept secret and daily nightmare. I need to make a change, but I know I won’t on my own. I’ve never been good at asking for help. I feel like a lot of people here aren’t. But after all the sugarcoating, deviating and outright lies I’ve told to convince people that I’m okay, I have to face that I’m not. I am not okay. So I’m trying to be honest about what I’m going through. I don’t know if I can get better—this has been my life for long. But for the first time, I think I want to try. The author of this column has chosen to remain anonymous. Please send an email to chronicleletters@duke.edu if you would like to contact the author.

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