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dust%zine! vol.1! ! ! september!2016! ! ! ! ! ! ! Disclaimer:+this+zine+is+a+collection+of+works+lovingly+made+by+fans+for+fans,+and+is+ non:for:profit.+
TABLE!OF!CONTENTS! ! waves&by+Amaia+Gonzaga.........................................................1& stardust&by+Amaia+Gonzaga.....................................................2& The&Night&Dust&by+Esther+M.+G.+Taylor.................................3& Dust,&gathering&by+Cristina+Aurelian....................................5& Dust&by+Feyja..................................................................................6& His&Bright&Colours&by+Freyja....................................................8& FenĂŞtre&Monde&by+Maiathoustra...........................................9& Dust&by+Maiathoustra...............................................................10& a&letter&from&lyra&to&will&by+Hodges+Adams.....................11& from&the&writings&of&marissa&coulter+by+Hodges+ +Adams............................................................................................13& from&the&writings&of&mary&malone&by+Hodges++ Adams.............................................................................................14& memories&of&Dust&by+Hodges+Adams.................................15& First&Snow&Brussels&2016&by+Zephyr.................................16& Dust&by+Maria..............................................................................17& It&was&a&dream&about&a&head&by+Ashleigh+Davis............18& Oxford&window&by+Ashleigh+Davis......................................19& Cittagazze&window&by+Ashleigh+Davis...............................20&
starspecks&in&the&rearview&mirror&by+Audrey+Jean......21& Dust&to&Dust&by+Ryuutsu..........................................................24& What&Children&Know&About&Dust&by+Chloe+Cookson...25& NOTES&ON&CONTRIBUTORS.................................................29& & & & & ! &
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" stardust" by#Amaia#Gonzaga#
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The"Night3Dust" by#Esther#M.#G.#Taylor# " " I" had" locked" up" the" shop," abandoned" it" to" the" world" and" was" walking" home" through" the" dark," past" that" junction"by"the"church"when"my"thoughts"unravelled" and" I" found" the" heart" of" the" matter," that" itch" I" had" been"working"on"all"day." " I" started" to" think" about" the" quantity" of" people" that" had" lived" on" this" earth" before" me," their" loves," their" meals," their" marrow." The" way" bodies" decompose" from" being" the" specific" to" the" everything," fading" through"used"up"skin"into"dirt,"air,"the"nourishment"of" other"lives."" And"then"I"felt"them.""" " And"I"knew"it"was"real,"I"knew"it"was"real"–"even"if"it" was" only" real" in" my" head," in" that" one" thought." The" presence"and"joy"of"what"once"was,"sharp"as"rock"on"
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that"dark"night,"I"swear"I"almost"cried"with"the"sudden" weight" of" all" that" everything," the" fact" that" I" was" breathing" what" once" slept" and" woke" and" groomed," and"the"way"they"touched"my"skin."I"was"just"walking" and" I" knew" that" I" was" ok," because" I" was" going" to" be" eternal"too."I"was"going"to"be"dust"and"ash"and"grass" and" life," stardust’s" energy" ever" changing," a" non3 negotiable"truth."" " There" didn’t" need" to" be" a" paradise" or" heaven" for" me" anymore,"because"even"if"I"had"moved"on"from"being" me," there" was" no" cease," no" stop," just" a" long" continuation" of" moss" and" nourishment," my" body" feeding"the"hungry"earth."I"was"never"going"to"die." " In" the" glow" of" the" lamp" posts" above" I" saw" moths" dancing" between" the" falling" dust." I" tasted" oblivion," and"left"the"moths"to"their"music." " " "
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" Dust,"gathering" by#Cristina#Aurelian#
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Dust" by#Freyja# " " It"is"not"the"sort"found" In"corners"of"dark"rooms" Or"on"the"top"shelf"of" An"undisturbed"bookcase." " It"is"closer"to"the"kind"found" In"sunbeams."It"dances," It"is"golden."It"shines." It"is"beautiful."It"is"deadly." " Our"existence"hinges"on"it." You"wouldn’t"have"thought" That"something"so"tiny,"so" Invisible,"seemingly"insignificant" " Could"blow"us"apart"so"easily." Separated"by"more"than"just"
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Space"and"time."Forever."We" Are"doomed"to"be"worlds"apart." " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " "
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His"Bright"Colours" by#Freyja# " " Everything"here"is"golden." The"way"the"sunlight"dances"off"her"hair," The"compass"in"her"hands," The"Dust." Everything"here"is"silver." The"glint"of"light"on"the"knife," The"shine"of"dusk"on"snow," The"glimmer"of"an"angel." Everything"here"is"colour." That"first"portal"between"worlds;" The"Northern"Lights," Where"the"witches"play." Everything"here"is"black." The"spectres,"the"night." A"world"without"her." My"hair." "
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" FenĂŞtre"Monde" by#Maiathoustra#
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a"letter"from"lyra"to"will" by#Hodges#Adams# " " if"you"could"cut"a"passage" through"the"fabric"of"the"night," would"you"find"me"in"the"moonbeams?" would"you"catch"me"in"the"light?" " if"you"tore"a"piece"of"sky3cloth" from"the"tapestry"of"space" and"pulled"back"the"starry"curtain" would"you"see"my"shining"face?" " if"the"dead"remained"forever" on"that"strange"and"misty"shore," and"the"passages"of"magic" were"not"ravaged"by"the"war," " would"you"then"set"out"to"seek"me?" would"you"be"allowed"to"try?"
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would"i"feel"your"tender"heartbeat" through"that"airless"break"of"sky?" " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " "
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from"the"writings"of"marissa"coulter" by#Hodges#Adams# " " when"he"was"young–"still"handsome,"but"softer,"and" with"fewer"knives"in"his"spine–"he"said,"“i"believe"that" you"and"i"were"fated"to"be"together,"forever.”" " when"i"was"young–"still"beautiful,"but"more"trusting," and"with"fewer"sparks"in"my"teeth–"i"said,"“beautiful." let’s"go"kill"a"god.”" " " " " " " " " " "
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from"the"writings"of"mary"malone" by#Hodges#Adams# # # [‌]"if"there"is"one"thing"i"remember"most"vividly"it"is" her."bright,"complicated,"and"so"in"love."i"did"not"need" the"spyglass"to"see"a"thousand"points"of"gold," shimmering"at"the"end"of"each"strand"of"hair"[‌]" " " " " " " " " " " " " "
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memories"of"Dust" by#Hodges#Adams" " " i"will"be"a"scholar"until"the"end"of"my"days,"this"i" know."there"is"a"moment"in"the"late"afternoon"when" the"sunlight"pours"itself"through"the"windows"and" onto"my"desk,"where"i"am"working"and"tired"and" covered"in"ink."but"if"i"play"along,"if"i"bring"and"old"and" dusty"tome"into"the"light"where"a"thousand"motes"can" rise"and"catch"the"sun"and"wheel"over"me,"awestruck" gold,"then–" " then"i"remember."then"i"remember"it"all." " " " " " " "
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Dust" by#Maria# ! ! Fluffy"snow" which"cover"old"memoires" forgotten" more"and"more"that"we"start" regretting" why"we"didn’t"clean"up" Dirty"snow" remember"the"day"when" in"our"hearts" the"poor"light"of"past"days" has"been"covered" " " " " " "
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# It#was#a#dream#about#a#head# by#Ashleigh#Davis#
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# Oxford#window# by#Ashleigh#Davis#
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starspecks"in"the"rearview"mirror" by#Audrey#Jean# " " the"wind"will"carry"us" all"set"to"disappear,"dissolve"into" something"infinitesimal""
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a"speck"of"movement"in"sun"rays" " the"wind"will"carry"us" where"the"boats"go,"further"on,"almost—" towards"somewhere"we"don’t"know" so"i"wait,"sending"my"dreams"in"your"direction" "" in"time,"turning"into"particles" the"wind"will"carry"us" the"wind"will"carry"us" " floating"through"everlasting"space" the"wind"will" as"blue"as"the"sun"imprinted"in"the"back"of""
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your"eyelids" (until"the"rain"drops,"blessing"the"earth)" give"back"to"the"tide" what"is"learned"from"your—""
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we"meet"again,"until"we"share"the"space" " the"wind"will"carry"us" until"then,"i"linger"with"a"heavy"heart" stuck"inbetween""
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new"life"is"new"life"is"new"
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“another"lover"hits"the"universe”" " the"wind"will"carry"us" and"we"tell"ourselves"we’ll"be"joined"so"tight," they"will"have"to"take"every" atom"of"me"and"every"atom"of"you,"probably" " the"disclosure"time"has"come"and" there"is"no"need"to"be"afraid" the"wind"will"carry"us" the"wind"will—"
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" the"four"of"us"are"dying"tonight" " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " " "
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# Dust#to#Dust# by#Ryuutsu#
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What"Children"Know"About"Dust" by#Chloe#Cookson# " " Whispers" about" dust" (always" spoken" in" a" hushed" voice)" were" trapped" in" dark" corners" and" behind" cupped" hands," all" of" them" knowing" intuitively" it" was" forbidden," just" like" writing" on" the" desks" at" school" or" pulling" a" girl’s" ponytail." But" they" couldn’t" help" themselves," it" was" such" a" big" thing," a" mystery" to" be" solved" (or" never" solved," which" was" more" fun" when" you" were" that" age)," unfurling" an" endless" ribbon" of" speculations." They" said" dust" settled" on" you" the" first" time" you" walked" around" a" wall" instead" of" climbing" over"it,"they"said"dust"dulled"your"emotions,"they"said" dust" was" something" only" adults" could" see," they" said" dust"changed"you,"they"said"some"of"these"things"were" true"and"some"were"not."" " They" knew" it" was" something" even" grown3ups" didn’t" talk" about," or" if" they" did" they" would" be" sitting" close"
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together,"late"at"night,"a"time"when"children"shouldn’t" be" eavesdropping" but" always" were." If" they" had" ever" asked"an"adult"about"it"(if"they"weren’t"too"scared"to," and"most"of"them"were,"even"if"they"wouldn’t"admit"it," nurturing" adventurer’s" hearts" inside" their" not3yet" fully" grown" ribcages)," they" would" have" been" pushed" away" with" a" few" vague" words" that" meant" nothing." They" would" never" have" guessed" it" was" as" big" a" mystery"to"their"parents"as"it"was"to"them,"but"instead" of" the" excitement" fluttering" inside" the" children" when" they"thought"of"it,"there"was"fear." " One"of"them"would"catch"a"forbidden"word"or"phrase" and" they" would" whisper" it" to" another," and" another" child" would" hear" something" different" and" whisper" it" to" his" or" her" best" friend," and" so" the" threads" of" whispers"combined"to"form"a"gauzy"web"of"a"concept," all" shape" and" no" substance." What" they" didn’t" know" they" made" up," these" embellishments" caught" in" the" web"like"flies.""" "
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Dust,"to"them,"was"flecks"of"gold"that"would"settle"on" shoulders" and" scalps" like" household" dust." They" thought" of" it" when" the" afternoon" sun" shone" through" the"windows,"illuminating"the"stuff"as"it"performed"its" lazy" ballet" downwards." They" thought:" there# it# is." That’s#dust."And"then"they"would"look"down"guiltily"at" the"floor"for"even"thinking"its"name"in"their"heads."It" was" something" mythical," a" golden" truth" that" grown3 ups" had" hidden" from" them:" magic# was# real." It" was" fairy"dust"that"made"you"grow"up."" " But" despite" their" fascination" with" it," they" knew" dust" was" not" to" be" played" with." It" was" never" included" in" their" games," and" maybe" that" was" what" made" it" so" adult" —" they" only" had" conversations" about" it," like" adults" did," those" who" had" put" their" dolls" and" their" wooden"horses"and"their"tin"soldiers"in"scrap"heaps"or" in"attics"or"in"the"bottom"of"cupboards"to"be"forgotten." And" maybe" that" was" why" they" never" talked" about" it" long." Or" maybe" it" was" because," despite" their" young" naivete," despite" their" visions" of" themselves" as" brave"
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hearts,"there"was"a"spark"of"the"fear"adults"connected" with"dust"nestled"inside"them.""" " And" when" they" grow" up," when" their" curiosity" turns" cold?" When" their" daemons" finally" settle," they" no" longer"think"of"gold"flakes."Dust"molecules"floating"in" the" air" are" as" much" household" pests" as" rats" and" cockroaches," they" are" no" longer" things" to" wonder" at." Magic" becomes" a" thing" for" children," cheap" trickery" and" lies" so" falsely" glittering" that" only" those" so" young" and" wide3eyed" can" believe" in" it." Their" ignorance" of" dust"is"no"longer"exciting,"it’s"frightening."And"this"is" mostly"because,"as"they"enter"adulthood,"they"realise" grown3ups"never"knew"more"about"dust"than"they"did" when"they"were"children,"whispering"about"it"in"dark" corners"and"behind"cupped"hands."" " " " " "
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NOTES&ON&CONTRIBUTORS& & AMAIA# GONZAGA# [waves]# [stardust]# Amaia# is# a# young# artist# from# Spain.# She# mostly# uses# watercolours# and# ink# markers# to# make# cartoonish# or# more# realistic# illustrations.# You# can# find# her# at# 'amaiasthendEart'# on#tumblr.com.# # ASHLEIGH# DAVIS#[It+was+a+dream+about+a+head]+[Oxford+ window]+[Citagazze+window]+Ashleigh#lives#in#Sydney,# Australia#where#she#spends#most#of#her#time#drawing# and#dreaming,#as#well#as#talking#to#the#occasional#bird# or# two.# She# loves# everything# to# do# with# storytelling# and# hopes# to# share# her# own# stories# one# day,# particularly#through#illustration.# # AUDREY# JEAN# [starspecks+ in+ the+ rearview+ mirror]# Audrey# is# a# writer# and# visual# artist.# She# studied# Creative# Writing# and# Film.# When# she# was# young,# she# stumbled# upon# His# Dark# Materials,# and# the# book# hasn’t# left# her# since.# She# finds# inspiration# in#
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philosophy# and# physical# cosmology.# Audrey# is# the# editor# of# this# zine.# You# can# find# her# at# outersounspace.com.# # CHLOE# COOKSON# [What+ Children+ Know+ About+ Dust]# Chloe#Cookson#is#a#19#year#old#girl#who#lives#in#British# Columbia,# Canada,# with# her# cat,# Norah.# Some# of# her# favourite#things#are#the#music#of#Elvis#Presley,#graphic# novels,#and#summer#evenings.#She#likes#to#write#about# secrets.## # CRISTINA# AURELIAN# [Dust,+ gathering]# Cristina# Aurelian# is#currently#studying#art#at#A#Level,#with#an#aspiration# to# become# an# artist# in# life.# Her# inspiration# for# this# piece# came# from# the# idea# that# dust# gathers# around# people.## # ESTHER# M.G.# TAYLOR# [The+ Night+ Dust]# Esther# is# a# twentyEthreeEyearEold# writer# and# director# from# the# UK#with#a#degree#in#Anthropology.## #
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FREYJA# [Dust]# [His+ bright+ colours]# Freyja# is# a# student# from#the#UK,#who#writes#poems,#responses#to#random# writing# prompts,# and# fanfiction# in# her# spare# time,# aiming# to# eventually# write# fullElength# novels.# She# absolutely# loved# the#His# Dark# Materialsseries# as# a# child# (and# may# have# fangirled# just# a# bit# when# she# found# out# about# the# TV# series),# and# as# an# adult# is# currently#reading#the#books#yet#again.# # HODGES# ADAMS# [a+ letter+ from+ lyra+ to+ will]# [from+ the+ writings+of+marisa+coulter]#[from+the+writings+of+mary+ malone]# [memories+ of+ Dust]# Hodges# Adams# is# a# poet# who# has# always# hoped# for# a# glimpse# into# another# world.#They#are#a#student#and#a#reader,#and#they#have# loved#His#Dark#Materials#since#they#were#a#child.# # MAIATHOUSTRA#[FenĂŞtre+Monde]#[Dust]#Maiathoustra#is# a#French#philosophy#student#who#enjoys#drawing#as#a# pastime# and# who# is# overexcited# about# Harry# Potter# and# His# Dark# Materials.# Her# work# can# be# cute# and#innocuous#or# dirty# and# dark,# it# depends# on# her#
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mood.# Her# favorite# item# ever# is# the# subtle# knife# and# she#can't#wait#for#the#BBC#series!# # MARIA# [Dust]# Maria# lives# in# Poland.# She’s# eighteen# years#old.#She#likes#writing#poetry.#The#poem#is#about# past# memories# that# we# don’t# want# to# remember,# so# we# are# forgetting# them.# But# after# some# time# we# are# regretting# our# decision# and# we# want# to# remember# everything# but# then# it# is# too# late.# Some# information# can#be#gone#forever#because#we#didn’t#‘clean’#them#in# right#time.## # RYUUTSU# [Dust+ to+ Dust]# Ryuutsu# first# started# actively# drawing#in#2008,#largely#influenced#by#anime#at#first.# Soon# after# that,# she# picked# up# digital# art# and# continued#to#create#as#a#selfEtaught#hobbyist,#evolving# from#manga#style#to#a#more#western#style#and#stylized# realism#(primarily#fantasy#and#sciEfi#themed)#that#has# been#inspiring#her#lately.## #
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ZEPHYR# [First+ Snow+ Brussels+ 2016]# Zephyr# is# a# selfE educated# artist# from# Brussels# who# makes# paintings,# drawings,# photographs# and# music.# He# is# fully# dedicated#to#arts#since#2008#an#developed#a#structure# of#collaboration#between#artists#called#Kool#Kids#Klub# with#which#he#made#fanzines#every#month#with#artists# from#
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