Menopause & Me

Meno-pause. A natural ending. Definition, a pause of periods. Don’t they just stop? Some get a warning, Months or years before. A chance to prepare. Not me, mine was instant. Surgery removed the equipment An empty space where the oven was. There’ll be no buns in there for me. The golden years have arrived early. Or should that be my Older years? I cry over newborn babies. My heart aches for the children I won’t have. I smile at pregnant ladies to hide my envy. I grieve for something I don’t even want. There is no logic for my emotions. I feel angry and frustrated, Yet, I don’t know why. My mouth doesn’t have a filter Verbal diarrhoea with a new found confidence. No ties or restrictions, no rules to abide by. I don’t fit in any tick boxes, Somehow, I’ll find my own way. That’s OK, because I am me.