Choked by Caroline King

Choked

by Caroline King How dare you? How dare you sit high on your throne and pretend like you don’t know? You think that you are so sweet and kind. If only the rest of the world could see your true colors, then they would change their minds too. They wouldn’t stand around and talk about how creative your mind is or how happy you make other people. They would grind their teeth at the thought of what your true capabilities are. They wouldn’t joke around about that one time in front of everyone where you were rude and completely out of line. Instead, they would have grabbed you up by the neck as you did to me when I asked you if our friends could come over last Friday. They would tell you to shut your mouth before they shut it for you. Much like the words you told me yesterday when I tried to suggest a cheaper shopping option. I have thought long and hard about how it was possible for one to be so cruel, heartless, and distant. But then I remember that tonight I put my fist through the drywall. I told you that if you didn’t leave me alone at that moment, you would never make it out of our house alive. I told you that I have never sat on a throne and I completely know my worth. I know what I deserve and I know how you treat me. When I realized that I had become your punching bag, I knew that you needed to step down off that throne and speak with the common people. I do not know exactly what tomorrow looks like, but it sure doesn’t look like me waking up next to you and holding my breath so that I don’t make you angry. I am tired of walking on your scattered eggshells. Tomorrow isn’t going to be an outing with our friends in which you talk down to me the whole time. Tomorrow looks bright for me. I will laugh and embellish in all the things that make the world such a beautiful place. I will be able to do this because tomorrow, I will be on my own for the first time in 11 years. Without you, I will be able to stand tall and be subtle with all my wisdom. Without you, I will be free to make my own choices. Without you, I will be able to live the life that I deserve.