notes app by Valentine i. i have notes app notes from high school they go way back at least five years songs and poems and apologies and fears—they go back at least five years ii. i journal my dreams in my notes app i’ve had so many wedding dreams— will i get married one day? who’s to say? i won’t have any kids to tell the stories to. sometimes i think about the kid i used to be and how i used to believe in who i could be who i thought i’d be but now that kid is gone and i’m what’s left this shit goes back at least five years iii. i used to write down my days in my notes app after therapy in high school and looking back, it all seemed so bleak i wonder if i would be proud of me if i saw my present self with the eyes of the past goddamn, do these feelings go back five years.
iv. i would write down songs and poems in my notes app i still remember how to sing them “So tell me now where has the time gone So tell me now where have you been Inside my head inside my heart inside the depths of my soul Or just not here at all” i used to feel like i was alone and i wrote it in the songs and now some of the feelings are the same that one goes back five years iv. i wrote to you in my notes app all of you, one of you, everyone, and i remember every word love letters, apologies, greetings i wrote them down in my notes app before i sent them out to you v. i wrote to me in my notes app and i remember every word i hope i remember me five years from now
