Humans can only confess to Something rather than Somebody by Gene Chen

Humans can only confess to Something rather than Somebody

The indescribable connections between objects and people who is suffering from the indescribably painful emotions.

Interview

GC I can imagine what they will do if they were still alive, which make me really painful. // They appeared in my dream. I felt powerless and emptiness after waking up. // Feeling extremely lonely because I don’t know whom I can talk to. // I can’t talk to others but I really to express the emotion. So I keep talking to a toy. // Can’t stop crying. I cry every time when I think of them. Burst into tears. // Feeling nothingness, it seems like there is a huge // hole in my heart and trying to swallow me into it. // I don’t want to let anyone know. // Talk to myself. Or imagine talking to somebody In my brain. // Talk to the sky. // Can’t stop thinking. Keep thinking keep thinking keep thinking, but I don’t know what I am thinking about. // Insomnia // Listening to music: The songs they covered before, the songs we played together in our band before, or the video we recorded to memorize our daily life. // Immerse in the sad emotion.

Missing Bearing Pain Loneliness Nothingness Crying Weeping Forbearing Immerse in Sadness Extremely Missing

CY Exercise // Can’t stop crying // Burst into tears // See their Facebook, Instagram, Blog and the messages // Immerse in the memories // Listen to their voice // Chant Buddha’s scriptures: I believe this can make her live better in the other world.

Missing Crying Pain Loneliness Relief Helpless Impermanence Religious Belief Extremely Missing

RL Pretended to be very strong in the funeral // Hold back her tears // “He did wanted you all be positive and happy.”

Pretending Strong Forbearing

CW Swallow the pain in // Hold the pain in the stomach // The emotions exist forever // All the emotions stuck inside, but I have learnt how to coexist with them // Crying // Eating or shopping // Make myself busy.

Forbearing Constrain Swallow Tolerance Weeping Helpless Loneliness Stuck Frustrating

BW Exercise // Talk to the sky when smoking // Thinking and murmuring in the bathroom(when taking shower) // Watch video or listen to music related to him, and immerse in the memory.

Helpless Impermanence Nothingness Hiding

SC Daze, but actually keep thinking about the emotion // Can’t stop thinking // I don’t talk to anybody, and don’t talk to anything either // Keep everything in mind.

Nothingness Hiding Forbearing

JH Excise, keep walking // I can’t tell anybody // I’m afraid I can’t control my emotion and will cry my eyes out in front of others // Lie down and keep thinking, and try to do something to shift the mood, but it doesn’t help when I am too sad, I cannot do anything but suffering in the emotion // I think the emotion is always in my heart, it never disappears, but I am able to live together with it // I lost my dog before, he is my family. During that time my family and I can’t go out, even can’t move. I can’t stop crying, I cry every time when I think about him // Imagine he is still staying with me, he is still following me when I walk, cuddling me when I sit. I still talk to him and imagine he can reply me.

Forbearing Hiding Immerse Impermanence Missing Extremely Missing Loneliness

WS I don’t talk to anybody // I cannot stay in a room // I need to go out to somewhere with vast scene // Listen to music: Slowly rhythm, folk music, or some music make me feel like I’m in a really vast place // I will do anything that and make me imagine I am in anther place.

Escape Nothingness Hiding

GW Destructive releasing: damaging something, fighting, being a trouble maker, making disharmony // Feel anxious, abashed and guilty after that: Afraid of being punished or revenge // Create new emotions to replace the old emotions. But actually doesn’t solve anything // Keep thinking and try to clarify the emotions // Turn off all the light and meditate in a dark place. I need to be very concentrate // I don’t sleep during that time.

Realising Destroying Hiding Shifting Immerse Anxious Clarify Emotions

BL Put everything in mind // Sleep // Sometime cry in my dream Sometime I find I am crying when I wake up // I don’t talk to anybody Feel like it is empty in my heart // It seems like there’s a huge hole there I don’t have any way to express my emotion // Music // Just put them my mind.

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Forbearing Crying Constrain Nothingness

Interview

KC Keep crying // Do something that need exertion (Hit a wall, hit a pillow) // The things he hit need to give me feedback: the pillow become concave ,the wall cracked, the paint peeled // These feedbacks make me believe I did release my emotion, and believe that these things has taken my emotions // Watching some love stories, TV series, or animation with similar experience with me, then immerse in the sad scenario. (Projection effects) // Dazing, don’t think about anything // I think negative has a loop, and I always let myself immerse in that loop until something surprisingly take me out of the loop.

Crying Releasing Immerse Nothingness Passive

JJ So many negative emotions came together that I fucked up: such as relationship, lost confidence, doubt about myself // I made myself very busy during that time, so I was too busy to think about the bad feeling // I don’t talk to anybody nor anything // I’m afraid of bothering others, and I don’t want to let others worry about me // I have done a similar research and found that it is impossible for somebody to talk to objects. (talk confess)

Hiding Escape Forbearing Frustrating

ZL Smoking // Find the answer in religion and books, like Buddhist scriptures, Confucianism // Secretly express the secret emotions // Record(Mark) the terrible mistakes I have done in a particularly way, remind me not to do that again // Talk to myself.

Religious Belief Clarify Emotions Release

JY Keep crying // I have a lot of dolls to accompany me // I have an old blanket and I always sleep with it, which make me trust the blanket. I hug it when I cry, and talk to it, or talk to myself.

Crying Forbearing Loneliness

TL I don’t tell anybody because I don’t think others can understand my feeling // Hug the pillow // Put the pillow on my legs, imagine my cat is still there // Pat the pillow, talk to it.

Forbearing Immerse

AG I never talk about my emotions, but I write and draw them down // Drawing is a really honest way to express emotions. I don’t need to hide or pretend when drawing // When I draw, I release my emotion and document my feeling at that time // I have a notebook for drawing when I feel bad, they are important for my creation // Writing Diary: It is really personal // Pray: Give the pain and sadness to the God. I believe the God will help me overcome these problems and feelings // I have a bracelet, which is the same one as my sister has. She has the same religion as me. So the bracelet is really meaningful to me, I bring it with me all day, it is the sign of the God and my family, which make me comfortable.

Release Loneliness Religious Belief

AB Martial Art: Being very concentrate when exercising, release the emotions through sweating.

Release Strong

WT Always hide the emotions in mind // I release my emotion when I was a child, but found I need to be responsible for what I’ve done when releasing emotions, then I decide to put everything in mind // Writing: Not write down the feeling, but do Calligraphy. Just try to concentratively do something to calm down // Do something routinely to calm down // I think the bad emotion appears when my daily balance is broken. It takes time to reach a new balance, during this time, I always feel very bad and need to find a way to adapt the new balance. For example, when you lose someone, I have to face a new balance that without that person.

Escape Forbearing Constrain

CH Religion: I will put my emotion to Higher-Dimensional ideals, like Gods or Ancestor // Sometime I talk to my grandparents in my mind, who have already passed way // I don’t talk to people // The things I talk to need to keep my secret, and understand me. (Desire to be understand and embraced, but can’t trust people. So he wants to apply AI to solve this problem. But I don’t agree with this. The problem is the nature of human being, it cannot be solved.) // Goole to see if anyone has similar experience. This can make me feel better because I’m not the only one suffering from this pain.

Religious Belief Hiding Clarifying

Interview

RF Crying // Murmuring // Keep talking to friends, but after they get annoying, I have to talk to myself // Thinking and immerse in the emotion // Draw down something, drawing is the best way for me to release emotion.

Crying Releasing Immerse

PC I canâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t talk to anyone // Watch classic movies, good movies can make me feel better // Listen to music very loudly, can help help me to shift my mood // Smoking // Drinking // Lying on the bed, feeling powerless and empty, I cannot think about anything when I am too sad // Automutilation: I hurt myself when I canâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t tolerance the pain in mind. It help me to transfer the hurt to physical body. // The feeling of powerless and emptiness: It feels like there is a hole on my body, and the wind keep blowing in the hole loudly that make my body, my brain humming. I want to fill it up but nothing happen.

Hiding Forbearing Shifting Nothingness

Missing Bearing Pain Loneliness Nothingness Crying Weeping Forbearing Immerse in Sadness Extremely Missing Relief Helpless Impermanence Religious Belief Pretending Strong Swallow Tolerance Stuck Frustrating Hiding Releasing Escape Destroying

Interview

21 Shifting Immerse Anxious Clarify Emotions Passive Strong Clarifying

Emotion Patterns

1 Negative Emotion 1 Pattern

Based on EEG Data

+ Personal Feeling

Nothingness

Missing

Extremely Missing

Immerse

Loneliness

Constrain

Try to release but fail

Terrifying

Despair

Emotion Patterns

Pain

Weeping

Impermanence

Helpless

Forbearing

Swallow

Pretending Strong

Hiding

Anxious

Emotion Patterns Objects

Brief

The Pillow and the young woman with depression

The story is about a young woman with depression. She is afraid of telling others about her situation, even to the doctors. Therefore, She alway faces the depression by herself, with the help of a few anti-depression pills(Zoloft). The girl always writes down or draws down her emotions and put them into the pillow, and then hug it hardly. This is how she release emotions: endurance and swallow all the pain. In the story, the girl always hugs the pillow. She projects herself to the pillow: She feels there’s a hole on her chest, which makes her powerless and despair. Therefore, she wants to fill the hole. To her, putting things into the pillow seems like putting things into the hole. She believes that she can fills the hole someday, once she fills it, she can survive. Since the situation becomes worse, it is hard for the girl to digest all the pain by herself. Therefore, she starts to look for help from her friends, telling them about her situation. However, their feedbacks make the girl pressure. Although they try to comfort her, they can’t empathy the girl’s feeling. Such as “Think about something happy, cheer up” or “Why don’t you choose to be happy?” makes the girl feel she is useless. And “You need to try your best to against bad emotion, or we can’t help you.” destroys all the efforts the girl has made to encounter depression. The girl becomes worse and worse, even cry when she sleep. The pillow knows the feeling of the girl and try to be warming to help her, but still not works. The girl denies the value of herself because of this despair feeling. The situation becomes very bad. The times that the girl writes down feeling become much more than before, this context she writes down become negative as well. Such as “It feels like drawn..it’s hard to breath…I’m really scared..” When the girl finally fills the pillow but finds that the hole on her chest is still existed(even become bigger), she breakdown. She hugs the pillow hysterically, try to embed it in her body. The pillow becomes warmer again and again, try to help the girl, but is too late. The girl beat down by the desperation. She downs on the bed and keep saying: “Help me… Please help me…Can someone help me…” . In the End, the girl suicides by taking a lot of pills. Sometimes there will be some black circle behind the girl to imply the hole that can never be filled. Nobody can understand the girl’s feeling, the girl can only face the terrible emotions by herself. The only thing(person) understands the girl is the pillow that stay with her everyday and listen to her pain.

Script

Scene1

Start from the pillow hugged by the girl. The girl hugs the pillow with one hand and is making a call to the mental health center. After few ring, the phone is picked up “Hello, this is mental health center” ”Hello? Hello?” The girl doesn’t reply. She hangs up the phone, puts it on the table, and hugs the pillow with both of her hands. Close-up to the screen, the address book shows that she just called The Psychiatry Centre. Shoot the bottle of Zoloft. There are 3-4 pills outside the bottle. A sound of writing something appears. Close-up to see the girl write down her emotion on small paper: “I want to be stronger…”. Zoom out to see other written papers on the table, and see an illustration about a girl with a hole on her chest hanging on the wall. Shoot from the top. The girl is going to put papers into the pillow. There’s a black halfcircle under the girl. After putting all the papers into the pillow, the girl hugs the pillow. Zoom out and see a black circle behind the girl. (Putting written papers into the pillow implies the girl swallows all the pain by herself.)

Forbearing / Constrain / Swallow / Try to release but fail / Helpless / Terrifying / Loneliness

Scene2

(Shoot from a hole or a rolling paper, it’s black outside the hole) The girl wakes up in the midnight and is crying. She sits on the bed and hugs the pillow. She puts something into the pillow and hug it. The pillow becomes warmer to comfort the girl(with a sound of getting warmer, this sound will appear in scene3 and scene4 as well). The girl says: “You become warmer…do you want to warm me up… Thank you.” ctually the girls tried to seek help from her friends before. However, what they gave her made her feel ever worse. In the end of scene2, the black part will cover the whole frame. The girl is hugging the pillow, weeping: “I can’t do anything.” “I’m weir..right? Nobody will care about people like me.” “I don’t know what should I do… I don’t know..” “Why..Why it is happen to me..why..”

Nothingness / Helpless / Terrifying / Loneliness / Pain

Scene3

(The girl is getting worse but no one can help her. She writes down or draw down her pain, which are totally different from what she did in the beginning.) Start from 2 illustrations on the wall. There was only one illustration in the scene1. The girl drew the other one, which has a bigger hole on the chest. The camera zoom out(or cut to longer shot) and see the girl is writing down something. There are a lot of written papers on the table, and the context are really negative. Close-up to see what the girl is writing down: “It feels like drawn..it’s hard to breath…I’m really scared..” “I don’t want to be swallowed by the hole.. It’s terrified.” “I want to disappear. It’s better for me to disappear.” The girl starts to put all the papers into the pillow anxiously. She hugs the pillow after putting all the paper inside. Cut the same compositions(sitting on the chair, putting papers into the pillow and hug it) three more times. Cut a similar Composition(Sitting on the floor, putting papers into the pillow and hug it), slower than before. (Turn off the light) Cut a similar Composition(Sitting on the bed, putting papers into the pillow and hug it), slower than before. The pillow is filled up, however the girl still feels that there’s a hole on her chest. This

Helpless / Terrifying / Loneliness / Pain / despair

make the girl starts to be hysteria. She sits on the edge of the bed and hugs the pillow hardly, seems like she wants to embed the pillow in her body to fill the hole. The pillow becomes warmer to warm and comfort the girl. The sound of getting warmer appears and keeps looping. “Why..why..why…(I can’t fill it)..” “I’m so scared…I’s awful…Help me..I don’t want to be like this.. “Why….Help me. Help me. Can anyone help me. ” Shoot the girl hugging the pillow hysterically on the side. Zoom out and see the black circle on the back of the girl. The girl downs after hugging for a few times. Cut the shot to a black frame, which is covered by the same texts in scene2.(0.5s1s) Shoot from the head of the girl to see the black opening of the pillow. Zoom in to the black opening until all black. The sound is looping. The girl: “Help me …help me please…”

Scene4

(In the end the girl suicides by taking a lot of Zoloft pills in a time) Start from the pillow, it’s the first time that it shows independently(not hugged by the girl). The sound of warming is still looping, but in slower frequency. There is an illustration on the table, which is about a girl swallowed by a hole. On the screen of her phone can see the texts(including those didn’t reply her), which are the same as the texts appear in the black frame in scene2&3: ”Go to see doctors, they can help you.” “Try to be optimistic. Think about something good. Don’t let yourself immerse in the bad mood.” “Think about something happy, cheer up.” “Why don’t you choose to be happy?” “You can do it. Good luck.” “You need to try your best to against bad emotion, or we can’t help you. ” There are quite a lot of pills around the bottles of Zoloft. Shoot the hand of the girl. (The girls hugged the pillow hardly but now is motionless)

Nothing happens this time because the girl is dead. ”Human are all lonely.“

Illustration by Shih-Hsien(Nick) Hsu

Brief

The Showerhead and the father who is going to lost his daughter

The story is about a father whose daughter is suffering from cancer. The man cannot show terrified and pain to others because he is a father, he needs to be reliable. Therefore, he pretends vitality and optimist in front of his wife and daughter, although he is actually anxious and afraid of losing his beloved daughter. The man can only shows his fragile in the bathroom, where he doesn’t need to pretend strong and can escape from the terrible situation permanently. He always immerses in the imaginary that his daughter is grabbing his thumb when he rubs the handle of the shower head. His daughter is in the hospital since she had cancer. He always try to bring the things she like to the hospital to accompany her, such as Teddy Bear. He always try to be energetic when taking the call from his daughter, try to bring her some smile and energy. He always try to be the superman in front of his daughter to make her relieve. On the other side, he is also pretend strong when facing his wife. They try every possible ways to save their daughter. When his wife is disappointed or tired, the man comforts her, even he is panic as well, to make she feels better. To him, no mater his daughter or his wife are both important to him. The man needs Whiskey and cigarette when he is researching in the midnight, to make him relieve. He never lets anyone know about this. However, no matter how hard he try, he cannot save his daughter. When receiving the call from the hospital about the critical condition of his daughter, the man breakdown. He tears the articles, throws away the book, sweeps everything on the table to the floor, except the photo with his daughter. He goes in the bathtub with clothes, turn on the water, let the water spills on him. He holds the shower head, rubs the handle, but he can’t escape from the reality this time. The fact that he can’t save his daughter break him down. The man cry in the bathtub, holding the shower head. He loves his daughter and he doesn’t want to lose her. However, he can’t stop cancer taking away his daughter, just like no one can stop water flowing away. The water implies the emotion of the father. It is hard to empathy the family of cancer patient, especially the role of father. A father needs to be strong in front of his family. There is no place for him to show his fragile. The father in the story always hides in the bathroom. The shower head, which has seen the true emotions of the man, understand him the most.

Script

Scene1

The man is in the bathroom, holding the shower head. His thumb(right hand) is rubbing on the handle of the shower head. Cut to scene that the man picks up the phone by his right hand. He put down a photo which he was seeing on the table by his left hand. The photo is about the man and his little daughter, who always grabs his thumb of right hand. He is talking to his daughter on the phone: “Hey darling” “Of course darling. Do you listen to the doctor today?” “Wonderful!! You are super good today! So daddy will bring your favorite Teddy bear for you today. Are you happy?” “OK Daddy will be there very soon! See you later darling” The man picks up the Teddy bear on the table and walks out of the room. (Can hear the sound of walking and close the door) Shoot the leaflet which was beside the Teddy bear, it about The Macmillan Cancer Support.

Pretending Strong / Hiding / Forbearing

Scene2

Imagine shoot from the perspective of the shower head: It’s hiding in the bathtub, behind the shower curtain and the door, eavesdropping the conversation between the man(M) and his wife(W). Pan the camera down until blocked by the bathtub. M: “Hey honey, your are tired..you should take some sleep.” W: ”I can’t. Our daughter is suffering from cancer. How can I go to sleep?” M: “I know. You tried your best. But listen honey, you are important to me too. I don’t want you to be exhausted.” W: “But I want to save her..I want to save her..I want to do something for her..What if something bad happen to her when I sleep…” M: “But you still need some rest. She needs you. I will take care of her and figure out how to help her. Don’t worry.” W: “Ok..” The shower head is in the bathtub. Switch the angle of shooting the shower head through the conversation. In order to imply the audience that the shower head is eavesdropping. After the conversation, the man walks in the bathtub, picks up the shower head and turn on the water. The water spills in the bathtub. Shoulder-shot. Shoot the shower head from the back of the man, seems like the man is talking to it. Actually the man is kind of pouring his heart out to it, because the bathroom is the only place where the man can release all of his emotions, he doesn’t need to pretend strong here. Close-up to see the man rubs the handle by his thumb.

Pretending Strong / Hiding / Forbearing / Helpless

79 Cut to see the man rubs the photo(he and his daughter). There’s a book under the photo, which is about curing cancer. There are a piles of book on the table(about cancer), another piles of articles(about cancer as well), and a clock(4:00am) On the other side are 3 bottles of Whiskey, one is full, one is empty, and the other one is being drink by the man, the cap is on the table. There is a full-filled ashtray. The man is smoking. Close-up to see the ash falling down.

Scene3

Scene4

Black Frame, only voice message: Mr. Lee, This is London Cancer Center, please come to the hosipital as soon as possible. We need to talk.

Follow Scene3. The man is standing in the bathtub with clothes, let the water spills on him.

Emotion patterns start to appear on the black frame, become more and more complicated. Sounds of kneading, squeezing, tearing papers, and breaking glasses. The man sweeps all the things on the table to the floor, except the photo. Emotion patterns keep appearing on the black frame. (Only the sound) The man walks to the bathroom, turn on the water, water spills on the bathtub.

Cut. See the only thing( the photo) is on the table and the messy floor. Cut. The man takes the shower head down, rubbing the handle by his thumb. The man puts his left palm on the shower head too, starts to weep and kneels down. ”I want to save her….I want to save her“ A longer shot. The man is kneeling in the bathtub(echo to the shot that he stands in the bathtub). The man is crying and says: “I want to save her….“ ”I don’t want to lose her….” Close-up to the shower head. The camera pans through the tube to the drain, seeing the water flow away.

Hiding / Forbearing / Helpless / Anxious

Helpless / Anxious / Terrifying ”Human are all lonely.“ (Water sound is still existed)

Brief

The Speaker and the young man who just lost his best friend

The story is about a young man who just lost his best friend. They were in the same band together, the man was the drummer and his friend was the guitar. The man was too shock and sad that almost frozen in the room day by day. He keeps looping the first song they played together: “How to save a life”. This is how the man express his emotion, he can’t express the deeply painful emotion by words, even if he can, there is still nobody can understand his pain. People around him expect him to recover soon and go back to regular life. However, these expectations make the man pressure. The man still cannot accept the fact that his friend is dead, although he has been to his friend’s funeral. He illustrates what his friend will do if he was still alive. After dreaming of playing the band together with his friend again, the man starts to imagine his friend is still around him, exists in someplace he doesn’t know. Therefore, he starts to immerse in the imaginary that his friend is around him. Maybe it sounds crazy, yet it is the only way the man can release his pain. Unfortunately, the man can’t tell anybody about this because nobody can accept this. They will only think that the man is insane. Everyone expects the man to recover soon even they know it is impossible. The man tells one of his best friend, another member in the band, about the dream. However, his friend cannot accept this. This makes the man feel lonely. He is angry, sad, and painful. Because of these extremely painful and complicated emotions, the man tells(kind of murmurs) the speaker his true feeling: He doesn’t understand why his friend(in the same band) pretends he is fine. He doesn’t understand why can’t tell anyone about what he really think and feel deeply. He doesn’t know why we always can’t be honest when getting shot through the heart? In the end, the man posts on Facebook to tell people he is fine, pretends he recovers from the sad emotion, in order not to let others worry about him. However, He still immerses in the imaginary when playing drum to release the pain. The man is lonely when suffering from this kind of pain. He can’t tell anybody except digest by himself. The speaker may be the only thing(person) understand the man in the world. It understands the pain and loneliness of the man, it understand the man more than any other families and friends around him.

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Script

Scene1

Start from the speaker. The speaker keeps looping the same song: “How to save a life” by The Fray, which is the first song played by the band. They are some RIP comments(facebook) on the screen of a laptop. The message that the man sent to his friend shows in the dialog on the bottom right: Tell me it’s not true… The man is lying on the bed. There are and iPad and a phone around him. The iPad is play the practicing videos of the band. Some black clothes(funeral) pill on the floor. On the other side are some dirty dishes and boxes of ready meals. The drum pad, drum sticks, drum sheet are on the floor as well, near the bed.

Nothingness / Missing / Pain / Weeping / Impermanence

Scene2

The man gets up in the mid night, the speaker is still looping the same song(same as the first shot of the first scene). The man picks up the phone and turn on the screen, lets the shinning screen reflect on his pupil. From his pupil can see the reflection of the messages the man sent to his friend(of course no reply). The man puts his hand down and look at the window. He draws a curtain a little bit and let a line of moon light shinning on the speaker. Shoot the man from the perspective of the speaker. Seems like the speaker is watching the man murmuring: “I dreamt of you. We play band together, laugh together…just like what we did before. It feels like you are still here….are you here?” “Are you here? Is this the reason why I dreamt of you? Is everything fine? I really miss you..very very miss you…are you here?” Take a shot on the drum sheet on the floor, and the pictures of the bands on the wall. The man is still looking at the window. After a while, The man gets down the bed, picks up the drum sticks and drum pad. He sits on the corner of the bed and installs the drum pad, then starts to play the drum with the song. In the beginning, it’s only the sound of the speaker and drum pad. After a while, the camera pans to the front of the man, the sound of real drums and guitar appear. The man is immersing in the imaginary that he is

Immerse / Extremely Missing / Loneliness

103 still playing band with his friend, which can release the pain of him. During the time immersing in the imaginary, the man devotes himself in drumming, he beats hardly on his feet, swing his body with the song. After a while, shot the drum pan from the top, and rotate it from the front side back to the right(or left) side. Cut to the perspective of the speaker. The real sounds of drums and guitars disappear. Only the sound of speaker and the drum pad left(the man is still drumming). It is dark around the man(imply the loneliness).

Scene3

The man sent messages to the other friend in the band: “I dream of him yesterday. Just felt like he is still around me. Maybe he came back for us. We play band together just like what we did before.” But the friend reply: “Hey dude, I know it’s hard but you have to pull yourself together. You are ridiculous now and people are all worry about you.” “Listen, death never comes back. Be strong and get back to your life, he would not like to see you be decadent.” The young man freezes for a while, turns off the screen, makes fists, and throws the phone away hardly. The music stops when the phone is broken. After few second, the speaker connects to the laptop by itself and keeps play the song(The screen shines and the sound appear to imply the speaker connects the laptop). The man is a little bit surprise. He pets the speaker and says: “You remember it..thank you.” The man sit down facing the speaker, starts to talk about the deepest feeling in his heart. Seems like he is pouring his heart out to the speaker: “I don’t want to let others worry about me. I don’t…but I…I can’t tell anyone how I feel, how I miss him” “I feel that he is still here, even I have already been to his funeral. I still feel that he is alive, living in someplace. But…I don’t know..I can’t tell others this kind of feeling” “I think xxx has the same feeling….He is

Missing / Pain / Constrain / Helpless / Nothingness / Loneliness

really sad in the funeral. But why…why he sent this message? Why we always can’t be honest when getting shot through the heart?” “I still miss him…”(cry) During his speaking, change to a longer shot: the man is facing the speaker and it is dark on his back. Change the camera to the perspective of the speaker, seeing the man weeping.

Scene4

In the beginning, there is only black and sound, and then a reply notice sound appears. Then close-up to the screen of laptop: there’s a post just made by the man: “Sorry to let every worry about me. I’m fine now. Don’t worry I won’t be knocked down easily.” Change to a longer shot, the man is playing drum pad, it’s dark on his back(it’s dark in the room). The music becomes louder, the real sound of drums and guitars appear.

Missing / Constrain / Loneliness ”Human are all lonely.“

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Direct and Design

Chih Yang Chen

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