Burning Bird and Buzzard

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Burning Bird & Buzzard: An Aviary’s Questions & Answers on Fertility by
Heather
Elizabeth
Buzzard
 ©
2012


A
Tale
in
9‐Part
Question
and
Answer
Format,
wherein
the
 questions
and
the
answers
necessarily
do
not
have
squat
to
do
 with
each
other,
and
in
which
the
questions
sensibly
speed
the
 telling
along
with
necessary
narration
of
the
two
main
characters
 and
the
answers
do
not
do
much
in
the
way
of
lending
clarity
but
 rather
bog
down
the
issues
with
poetry,
and
leave
the
questions
 to
do
the
real
answering,
as
is
generally
the
case
with
all
 questions
and
answers.


Table
of
Contents
 
 I. Q:
Are
You
My
Mothership?
 a:


Burning
Manmade
By
Hand
 II. Q:
How
Did
the
Llamas
Get
Loose?
 a:


Burning
Manta
Ray
of
Light
 III. Q:
What
Are
Some
Ways
To
Stay
Warm
Without
 Catching
Your
Neighbors
on
Fire?
 a. Burning
Manzanita
 IV. Q:
What
If
This
Is
the
Most
Beautiful
Color
Already?
 a. Burning
Manatees
and
Coffees
 V. Q:
Everything
Is
Possible,
Timing
Is
What?
 a. Burning
Manners
 VI. Q:
Why
Do
You
Make
What
is
to
Burn
Also
Beautiful?
 a. Burning
Mandalas
 VII. Q:
Where
Is
Your
Desert
Centaur?
 a. Burning
Mannequins
and
Kith
 VIII. Q:
Who
Brought
the
Temple?
 a. Burning
Mangroves
and
Orchards
 IX. Q:
Happy
Birth!?
 a. Burning
Mantis
Prays
 
 Appendix
A:
Loose
Llama
Limericks


I.
Are
You
My
Mothership?
 
 And
how
it
began,
as
usual,
with
not
one
mother
but
two
 young
girls:
A
Bird
and
a
Buzzard
sat
on
a
bed.
The
Bird
said
to
 the
Buzzard,
“What
ho,
mother!”
and
the
Buzzard
replied
 tactfully,
“You
aren’t,
then!”
They
were
not
each
other’s
mother,
 they
had
decided.
In
fact,
neither
girl
could
find
their
mother
at
 all.
They
looked
high
and
low,
under
the
bed
and
in
the
cupboard,
 in
the
jungle
and
in
the
ocean,
on
the
mountain
and
in
the
valley,
 until
the
only
places
they
hadn’t
looked
were
the
desert
and
the
 sky.
They
rested
a
while
and
painted
their
antlers
gold
and
their
 hair
pink
in
the
meantime.
Then
the
girls
set
out
with
a
funny
 idea
to
find
their
mother,
or,
in
their
case,
being
girls
with
the
 small
rudders,
shiny
paint
and
wishy‐washy
sails
of
baby
boats,
 to
find
their
motherships.
Bird
dipped
a
turkey
feather
in
a
fat
pot
 of
Italian
tomato
ink,
and
Buzzard
set
quill
to
the
inside
of
a
 papier
mache
face
mask
to
pen
their
quest
to
the
gods
in
overly
 excitable
proposition:
 
 “When
the
desert
and
the
sky
mated,
Burning
Man
was
borne,
 and
when
they
decided
to
open
up
the
family
towards
 progressive
love,
the
desert
married
the
water
and
the
 Mothership
was
begat.
The
Mothership,
as
motherships
do,
 mated
with
the
air
and
breathed
out
a
flaming
flock
of
balloon
 babies
bursting
with
not
only
hot
air,
but
also
substance
and
 seed.
With
some
heavy
breath,
foot
pumping
action,
and
a
good
 wind,
we
will
fold
up
the
world
map
so
that
the
sand
falls
into
the
 salty
sea,
the
mountains
make
out
with
the
moon,
and
our
bike
 tires
make
A‐plus
marks
on
the
gold
lined
clouds.
We
will
send
 shivers
up
the
xylophone
of
your
spine
as
we
pummel
across
the
 land
to
celebrate
the
end
of
that
world
and
the
charmed
birth
of
 the
new
one.
We
will
take
you
to
a
place
where
all
the
cannons
 are
drum
faces,
all
the
smoke
trails
lead
to
an
island
full
of


diamonds,
all
the
anchors
are
feathers
planted
in
your
feet,
and
 all
the
funerals
pyres
are
birthing
in
heat.
The
story
we
have
to
 tell
is
one
of
the
shy
earth's
consummation
with
voracious
 heaven
and
the
ensuing
birth
of
the
heartdrumbeat.
2012
is
the
 year
of
the
Granola‐pocalypse,
and
it's
crunch
time.
Uniquely
 equipped
with
both
nautical
and
aerial
transportation
methods,
 Bird
and
Buzzard
may
well
be
the
only
stragglers
left
squawking
 and
crunching
our
way
out
of
the
end
of
the
world
panic,
but,
by
 golly,
we
plan
on
taking
every
Burner
with
us
via
the
irresistible
 pull
of
percussion.
As
we
sail
smoothly
across
the
sands
with
our
 wheels
to
make
us
go
and
our
oars
to
make
us
flow,
we
will
pick
 up
not
only
speed
but
people.
The
passing
out
of
drum
sticks
as
 we
pass
through
the
space
will
create
a
dialogue
of
spatial
and
 spiritual
importance.
Akin
to
being
tarred
and
feathered,
we
will
 be
the
sticky
surface
with
which
Burners
can
attach
to
and
drum
 out
their
pleas,
passions,
fears,
sweats
and
screeches.

We
are
 experimenting
artists
wondering
how
enormous
of
a
communal
 drum
beat
is
necessary
to
scare
away
the
end
of
the
world.
It
 must
be
a
coward,
after
all,
if
it
hasn't
reared
its
funny
head
by
 now.
We
dream
of
testing
the
waters
and
the
skies
to
determine
 just
how
much
is
too
much.
In
traditional
South
African
villages,
 the
medicine
man
or
spiritual
leader
of
the
community
is
the
only
 one
permitted
to
keep
drums
in
their
home
because
of
their
 sacred
nature
and
power.
In
our
world,
everyone
is
a
shaman
and
 everyone
has
a
drumstick
of
their
own
to
beat
on
our
large‐scale
 canvas.
We
will
drum
a
progression
in
which
the
ship
carries
the
 bird,
the
bird
leads
the
boat,
the
body
leads
the
anchor,
and
the
 beat
carries
the
body.
As
this
year's
heartbeat
grows
faint
with
 the
doubt
and
disillusion
of
the
disenchanted,
we
will
drum
on
 board,
on
ship,
on
mother,
on
father,
on
side
and
inside,
until
the
 heartbeat
grows
strong
again,
until
we
pedal
fast
enough
to
lift
 off
and
fly
away
to
the
christening
of
the
sky
and
the
fire
beneath
 it.”


The
Bird
and
the
Buzzard
rolled
off
the
bed
into
the
nest
 beneath,
folded
their
wings,
and
went
to
sleep
for
a
very
long
 time,
long
enough
to
build
a
boat,
surely,
or
even
a
whole
host
of
 boats,
if
they
hadn’t
been
so
busy
being
golden
and
business
 birds
dealing
always
with
two
seasons
ahead.
In
time,
though,
the
 desert
heard
them
and
yawned,
and
they
decided
to
try
and
 sneak
into
its
gritty
cavernous
mouth
in
the
interim.
They
packed
 themselves
both
neatly
into
a
hoop
skirt
and,
with
a
push
from
a
 butterfingered
neighbor,
began
to
roll.


Burning
Manmade
by
Hand
 
 discontent
at
high
noon
when
the
brief(Neko)Case
wouldn't
stay
 shut
 
we
are
sure
to
get
arrested
by
the
lenscrafty
camera
police
for
 taking
too
much
truth
and
preserving
it
in
square
jars
with
round
 lids,
honest
 the
new
moon
likes
girls
that
like
even
numbers
because
they
are
 stable
and
nurturing,
like
us,
we
had
two
birthdays
at
once,
with
 cheesecake,
a
labradoodle
and
a
basset
hound
lolling
on
top
of
 the
cake
wishing
they
could
be
inside
where
the
nice
girls
live
 sunflowers
walk
around
the
desert
with
us,
we
could
press
them
 and
take
them
as
gifts,
but
to
flatten
such
a
thing
of
beauty
 wouldn’t
that
be
like
what
cartographers
did
to
all
the
world?
 the
cats
poo
every
morning
regular
as
alarmclockwork
and
we
 think
it's
us
but
we
don’t
smell
too
bad
yet,
even
next
to
 Methasippee
for
poor
m***heads
with
lisps
 and
yet
the
charity:
we
traded
in
our
two
gold
bikes
for
 weightlessness
and
spared
the
pregnant,
the
flightless,
from
 clawing
papooses
out
with
their
own
chicken
scented
hands
 Eutaw,
Alabama
and
Cuba,
Alabama,
names
so
deceptively
exotic
 they
make
our
hair
grow
grey
just
thinking
about
if
the
music
 counts
as
minutes,
traveling
the
humid
misspelled
Missip
with
 signposted
sunsets
and
loveboats
sinking
behind
them
 so
let's
do
shit,
like
inherit
grandmothers
with
names
to
 remember


II.
How
Did
the
Llamas
Get
Loose?
 
 Nice
girls
spit
out
their
insides
like
llamas
spit
out
their
 outside‐ins
when
someone
takes
them
for
a
ride.
Good
girls
get
 loose
like
llamas
when
the
alpha
males
are
sent
to
the
front
to
 compete
for
driving
rights
to
the
cranky
carriage
and
they
are
left
 in
the
back
to
gossip
and
sew
postcards
like
sentimental
fabric.
It
 took
the
Bird
and
the
Buzzard
‐
who
morphed
seamlessly
 between
llama
and
aviary
body
mass
‐
six
days
to
fly
across
the
 country
(wing
troubles
inclusive),
once
they
had
sorted
out
that
 rolling
in
a
singular
hoop
skirt
was
a
talent
belonging
to
olde
 southern
belles
and
them
alone.

 They
traveled
with
a
cougar
plus
his
two
cubs
and
a
bird
 of
paradise,
who
began
all
his
sentences
with,
“I
was
hanging
out
 with
a
black
mamba
named
TI
one
time
and…”
These
mates
made
 for
gusty
entertainment,
eccentricity,
variety
of
species
and
the
 spot‐on
directional
sense
of
the
cat
whiskered
compass.
The
four
 odd
trekkers
blew
out
every
candle
lit
between
Alabama
and
 Nevada,
poked
fun
at
the
town
of
Chunky,
MS,
picnicked
 avocados
in
a
church
parking
lot
outside
of
Gators
and
Friends
 exotic
animal
roadside
attraction
in
Shreveport,
LA,
held
George
 the
runty
alligator
by
his
duct‐taped
mouth
until
he
thrashed,
 doubled
the
population
of
Ghosttown,
New
Mexico
for
an
 afternoon
of
listening
to
the
sad
tales
of
sad
people
whilst
 waiting
for
sad
tires
to
die,
blinked
and
missed
the
Grand
Canyon
 quite
by
accident
but
became
believers
in
the
bottomlessness
of
 Lake
Mono,
climbed
the
lesser
known
Great
Canyon
which
was
a
 tad
smaller
but
certainly
easier
for
the
cougar
cubs,
witnessed
 fellow
llamas
freer
than
even
themselves
walking
down
40
West
 into
the
interminable
sunset,
played
dust
bunny
to
a
couple
of
old
 couches
in
Santa
Fe,
donated
two
gold
reindeer
to
those
who
 would
have
had
to
walk
to
the
north
pole,
called
out
a
wildfire
for
 its
ostentation,
and
damned
themselves
into
the
gamble
shack


that
is
the
La
Hacienda
Hoover
Dam,
the
poor
man's
Las
Vegas
 strip.
Llamas
do
as
llama
does;
they
spat,
stomped,
galloped,
and
 groped
their
way
across
14
states,
both
mental
and
physical.

 All
was
in
order
with
the
world,
that
late
Sunday
night
in
 Reno
when
the
water
jug's
bottom
proved
false
and
satiated
the
 thirsty
parking
lot.
The
cougar
and
his
babes
said
"Aho,
Tahoe!"
 to
California
before
the
prayer
of
the
Native
American;
they
were
 dropped
in
bear
country
in
the
middle
of
the
night
to
remind
 them
of
their
cat‐ness,
mischievous
honeymonkeys
in
a
vat
of
 angry
bees.
It
was
decided
that
Yo
Yo
Ma
only
lived
once,
and
so
 would
they,
so
“YOLO”
they
cried,
in
his
honor,
banging
away
at
 the
symphony
of
three
wheels
and
a
New
Mexican
sham
donkey.
 And
this
is
how
they
went.


Burning
Manta
Ray
of
Light
 
 pink
airs
around
the
head
of
a
three
point
buck
–
not
green
but
 sharpened
‐
is
enough
of
a
calling
card
to
play
old‐fashioned
 camouflage
games
 the
gold
dinosaurs
of
sunrise
resurrect
themselves
along
this
 road
every
morning
 the
happiest
cats
suckle
on
spilled
whiskey
pants
like
the
baby
 bottles
of
the
French
quarter,
Louisiana

 the
eyes
cannot
look
at
or
buy
hearts
of
gold
untradeable,
though
 they
may
drip
with
want
they
can
then
drink
themselves


III.
What
are
Some
Ways
to
Stay
Warm
Without
Catching
Your
 Neighbors
on
Fire?
 
 The
Bird
and
the
Buzzard
and
the
Other
One
of
Paradise
 split
like
lickety
after
fifty‐one
areas
had
been
crossed
and
fifty‐ one
territories
nicknamed
with
the
rolling
llama
tongue.
They
 crash‐landed
neatly
in
the
sand
amidst
graceful
hot
air
balloon
 sneaks
and
skydiving
magpies,
shocking
as
cold
liquor
at
the
 bottom
of
a
hot
soup,
but
both
a
tonic
for
the
heartsick.
The
first
 gift
was
a
flappy
tack
Sparklehorse
cd;
the
first
reciprocity
was
a
 quarter
handle
of
Jack
Daniels
sweat
in
the
porta‐whatsit.
The
 Bird
and
the
Buzzard
promised
to
tell
everyone
they
found
with
 their
eyes
that
they
were
beautiful;
they
promised
to
sing
with
 the
gluestrung
ukelele
each
other
of
three
beautiful
people
they
 found
each
day.

 Stick
kept
them
warm
that
first
day
by
shaping
a
 makeshift
nest
out
of
his
body
when
their
eyes
were
closing,
and
 they
dreamed
of
mud.
That
is
one
way
to
keep
warm.
Also
one
 may
engage
in
a
cheap
and
impromptu
soccer
game
with
a
roll
of
 toilet
paper
and
a
can
of
lighter
fluid.
Just
make
sure
not
to
kick
it
 into
the
bar,
or
there
may
be
other
flammable
liquids
involved
 that
you
would
rather
imbibe
than
engage
in
another
round
of
 footie.
Another
way
is
a
mother,
but
that
may
catch
your
 neighbor
on
fire
if
you’re
not
careful
about
the
hotness.


Burning
Manzanita
 
 Gary
Snyder
wrote
of
manzanitas
in
the
desert,
but
nothing
 grows
here

 only
dragonfly
hallucinations
out
of
desperate
creativity’s
 disapproval
with
the
surroundings
 a
fly
would
be
a
welcome
wildlife,
heralded
as
the
dove‐ish
proof
 of
life
after
the
flood
 cultivating
a
relationship
with
the
earth
without
plant
or
animal
 to
say
how
 the
twin
names
of
the
towns
in
our
stomachs,
Flora
and
Fauna,
 will
hopefully
balance
the
intestinal
cataclysmic
change
of
the
 pale
lavender
sandglobe,
adjustment
to
a
new
climb


IV.
What
If
This
Is
the
Most
Beautiful
Color
Already?
 
 “If
you
breathe
now,
you
will
probably
die,”
the
man
 wearing
the
black
grizzly
told
them
disapprovingly.
“You
will
not
 survive.
Have
you
even
been
to
where
the
desert
nips
at
the
buds
 of
your
heels?”
The
man
in
black,
a
copper
beetle,
planted
himself
 in
front
of
Bird
and
Buzzard
and
they
went
around
him
 pertinently
in
the
shape
of
the
love
from
the
Hug
Deli
cinnamon
 bun
swirl.
On
the
day
when
days
had
a
question
mark
still
and
 were
yet
unformed,
dementha
set
in
and
its
minty
influx
spited
 sweetness.
The
antlers
became
a
two‐pronged
dance
partner
and
 the
bird's
hat
two
nest
eggs
for
the
century's
second
try
at
 fecundity,
thwarted
only
by
the
blonde
locks
and
keys
to
the
 grave
at
Barbie
death
camp
where
subjects
learned
to
stand
up
 straighter
without
books
or
heads.
The
aviaries
traveled
by
 embrace
and
disgrace,
dancing
with
their
fathers
and
other
 unknown
relatives.
 Birds
generally
get
on
quite
well
on
the
rounded
rumps
of
 bikes
or
horses,
and
so
they
did,
trading
in
their
copper
steers
for
 bigger
karma,
as
if
that
were
the
most
beautiful
color
already.


Burning
Manatees
and
Coffees
 
 bring
your
tectonic
plates
to
the
table
and
feast
with
the
forks
of
 the
road,
left
and
right,
salt
and
pepper,
the
knives
of
the
round,
 brown
table

 again,
bring
your
dust
bowl
to
the
water
table
and
drink!

 the
rain
fly
flies
away
to
shelter
someone
else
with
taut
invisible
 wings
 a
box
full
of
two
dollar
cow
teeth
are
the
most
teeth
we
will
find
 in
this
cage
of
drinkers,
hiding
their
costume
jewelry
inside
the
 pearl‐painted
Navajo‐Hopi
Genuine
Indian
Treasure
Box

 sculpture
art
makes
pizza
for
free
with
the
crispy
tectonic
crusts
 of
the
earth
when
we
were
too
nice
to
ask
whether
she
was
a
girl
 or
a
boy
 but
now
look,
we
gave
all
our
good
horses
away
and
they
came
 back
to
us
a
different
color,
calling
themselves
ascension
and
 flying
with
hidden
built‐in
sails


V.
Everything
Is
Possible,
Timing
Is
What?
 
 For
many
days,
beer
fell
from
the
sky
every
afternoon
in
a
 small
white
parachute.
But
only
if
Bird
and
Buzzard
stood
around
 long
enough
without
expecting
it.
They
learned
that
if
you
fall,
it
 is
best
to
roll
and
hit
approximately
five
and
no
less
than
three
 chairs
and
take
them
down
with
you
so
they
too
may
enjoy
the
 proximity
of
sand
and
make
a
whole
big
jolly
bang
up
of
the
 whole
thing
in
hopes
that
a
Crayola
color
may
be
named
after
the
 event.
They
learned
to
crawl
under
the
stars
and
turn
the
lights
 on
for
everyone
to
enjoy
and
so
as
not
to
run
about
in
a
black
 world
bashing
into
each
other.
They
learned
that
Anubis
burns
 like
a
dog
who's
done
wrong
and
come
to
lick
it
up.


Burning
Manners
 
 how
rude
to
disentangle
the
porn
from
the
doughnuts,
let’s
clip
 them
together
and
hang
them
in
some
BDSM
tent
to
dry

 now,
for
the
homeschooler:
geography
and
pornography
and
 donut
holes
in
a
space
tent,
fingerprinting
each
other
during
 insanely
high
fives,
four
seasons
and
no
change
playing
metal
 music
in
the
tip
jar,
three
turns
at
luck
in
a
foil
lantern,
two
stars
 fighting
to
the
death,
wonderland
passes
the
cup
to
be
polite
and
 dark
at
once
 the
bare
redhead
and
the
playa‐vulture
hiked
to
the
west
coast
 for
a
free
manicure
and
a
ladybug
nail
scent
and
sand
sculptures
 in
their
nostrils
 on
national
publically‐acceptable
nose‐picking
day,
you
can
pick
 your
nose
but
not
your
clothes…what
is
that?

 you
can
big
your
poison
but
not
your
soulmate,
what
is
that?

 the
black
and
white
photoshoot
to
make
time
seem
less
for
a
 mome.
the
shamanic
birth
and
death
ritual
fractaled
vision
as
 badly
as
if
all
music
came
from
a
microphone,
as
badly
as
if
eyes
 lived
on
the
walls
of
the
lonely
Baalmart,
smoke,
dance,
and
 spirits
are
the
true
trinity,
if
anyone
comes
asking
 Targay
comes
out
from
beneath
the
closet
door
sloughed
in
 mothballs
casting
spells
to
catch
fish
with
last
year’s
hooks
 clearly
overrun
with
dirty
feet,
the
manors
of
this
land
need
 house‐sitting


VI.
Why
Do
You
Make
What
is
to
Burn
Also
Beautiful?
 
 And
so
it
came
to
pass
that
Bird
and
the
Buzzard
spent
 time
making
each
other
beautiful,
and
by
the
time
they
had
 finished
it
had
become
dark
and
their
hair
had
become
entangled
 with
their
feet.
The
lights
of
their
Mothership,
too,
were
already
 dim
and
now
had
been
extinguished
altogether
in
the
wind.
The
 Bird
and
the
Buzzard
mourned
the
darkness
and
how
it
would
 not
highlight
the
gold
leafed
pincushions
under
their
bottom
 eyelashes,
but
once
they
had
stopped
leaking
they
arose
and
 realized
the
moon
was
full.
“And
how!”
said
Bird.
And
“Quite
 right!”
replied
Buzzard,
and
they
traversed
the
desert
now
by
 moonlight
clear
until
dawn,
when
the
gold
had
drooped
off
 anyway
to
leave
little
patterns
on
the
sand
for
the
sun
to
fidget
 with
in
the
bright
hours.


Burning
Mandalas
 
 the
oracle
sat
and
told
us
to
write
our
dreams
down,
for
they
are
 the
only
thing
that
doesn't
burn
 the
biggest
rooster
and
its
hardy
synonym,
traded
and
applied
 for
soulmates,
secret
bathhouses,
private
hair
shapings,
the
disco
 fish,
braided
air,
swinglines
to
paradise,
plastic
nests
of
zipties,
 good
spanking
spots,
90
second
weddings,
falsified
ink
feathers,
 free
boutiques
with
men
in
cut‐up
wedding
dresses,
a
freedom
 only
found
in
pina
colada,
infinitipis,
a
carton
bar
of
old
eggs
 yolking
up
a
sandstorm…
 these
all
burn,
but
we
will
work
until
the
last
minute
on
what
will
 soon
perish


VII.
Where
Is
Your
Desert
Centaur?
 
 Everybody
else
has
one,
so
Buzzard
wrote
hers
a
letter
 with
bad
tipsy
handwriting
in
the
dark
on
a
notebook
from
the
 Dalai
Lama
who
had
much
more
patience
than
she
(fortunately
 omitting
most
of
the
“I’m
missing
you”
bits,
which
generally
add
 no
value
to
a
correspondence
aside
from
the
blushing
 pleasantdom
of
the
recipient):
 
 Burning
Man

 Summertime
2012
 
Year
of
the
Gold
Antlers
 
 My
Cougar,
my
eternal
love,
my
sacred
space,
my
lover
man‐boy,
 my
nirvana,
my
moonpineapple,
the
other
half
of
my
last
name,
 the
tree
to
my
wings:

 Aho,
Tahoe!
We
have
been
here
for
24
hours
and
I
am
a
 dust
receptacle.
I
find
myself
missing
you
around
every
corner:
in
 the
tall
bikes
(many!)
that
pass
my
short
one,
in
the
swing
dance
 music,
train
boats
and
coffee
crews.
Last
night
we
went
to
a
 whiskey
tasting
that
the
unicorns
at
the
end
of
rainbow
led
us
to,
 and
rode
around
on
a
three
story
dinosaur
with
dancing
poles
 and
firing
cannons,
then
a
wire
snail
carried
us
miles
over
the
 desert
to
a
brick
facade
with
spanks
and
Starbucks
coffee.
 Everything
is
spanks
here.
Everything
is
man's
greatest
desires
 founded
in
one
large
basis
of
revelry,
every
luxury
come
true
in
a
 harsh
environment.
We
found
given
bikes
to
make
up
for
our
 ones
that
we
gave
and
biked
to
the
distant
art
formations
we
 thought
were
stars
but
turned
out
to
be
more
unicorns
(imagine!
 And
we
thought
we
were
the
last!)
at
the
end
of
the
world
after
 modeling
what
can
only
be
described
as
the
Dozen‐Layered
 Blind&DumbBohemian
look
at
the
Kostume
Kult,
where
you
 could
have
everything
you
could
walk
out
with.
Bird
was
a
gold


mummy
and
I
a
very
large
and
unfashionable
teddy.
I
miss
 you…(omitted).
It
makes
me
want
to
screw
it
all
and
dash
 headlong
towards
the
fence
to
hitchhike
to
Lake
Tahoe
where
 you
and
the
babes
are!
The
last
hours
of
my
world
have
been
so:
 four
course
Indian
dinner
post
whipping,
trampoline,
cat‐themed
 burlesque
show
with
two
bottles
of
champagne
(melon
and
 bacon),
monkey
bars,
hijacking
painted
face
masks,
a
full
moon
 ceremony,
the
lighting
of
the
24‐7
timestar
–
“everything
is
 possible,
timing
is
everything”
‐
then
we
moonbathed
on
a
 sunken
pirate
ship
to
dubstep
and
dust,
huddling
with
fresh
dark
 and
stormy
cocktails
in
an
extravagant
yurt
with
the
most
 crayola
of
crayolas
in
the
box,
finding
a
blue
cloud
and
 accompanying
Barney
with
mushrooms
and
vodka
olives
to
the
 north
star,
arriving
at
the
temple
at
sunrise
with
a
billion
other
 organisms,
naked
salutation
acro‐gum
tree
yoga
with
the
 checkerboard
juicy
brothers
who
drive
a
pink
lobster,
the
fiddler
 crab
ride
across
the
desert,
an
accidental
breaking
of
the
fast,
a
 sunbear
nap.
There
is
chanting
of
lullabies
at
the
chandelier
bar,
 a
million
furs
and
feathers
around
me,
I
am
slothed
in
garter
 sauce
and
oasis
nectar.

 Here,
we
alternate
between
falling
into
epic
slumber
right
 after
dinner,
and
then
dancing
until
sunrise
and
not
sleeping
for
 days
on
end.
I
got
two
temporary
tattoos,
though
feathers
are
 banned
out
here
and
all
I
really
want
is
a
feather,
and
one
is
a
 spiny
branched
tree
on
my
upper
left
thigh,
the
other
is
the
 Burning
Man
man
on
my
side
left
thigh.
I
was
gifted
a
tube
of
 henna,
a
wooden
necklace,
a
cinnamon
bun
hug
at
the
Hug
Deli,
 aromatherapy
perfume,
and
a
cuddle
puddle
plus
dreamcatcher,
 and
have
been
writing
limericks
for
everybody
like
mad
as
my
 gift.
We
live
in
such
a
demented
carnival
of
freaks.
Every
secret
 desire
or
instinctual
compelling
frenzy
of
humanity
could
come
 true
out
here:
your
every
wish
is
guaranteed
to
be
granted:
 techno‐laced
flying
magic
carpets,
donut
orgies,
sex
slavery,


talking
gods,
the
fountain
of
youth
in
a
shot
glass.
Every
channel
 of
power,
submission,
gluttony,
will,
imagination,
magic,
evil,
 good,
terror,
want,
shock,
and
love
craving
can
be
satisfied
here.
 Yesterday
(?)
I
hung
out
with
a
silver
haired
fox
in
an
Irish
jig
 pub
instrumental
jam
session
with
as
many
kegs
of
Killians
as
 there
were
Irishmen,
I
had
a
head
wash
and
massage
by
a
 beautiful
hairbear,
I
joined
forces
with
a
certain
fearsome
 sixsome
to
go
to
Sin
City
yoga,
a
pale
purple
lavender
thronged
 art
car
bar,
an
orgy
tent
(!),
a
jokes‐for‐shots
stage,
a
two‐seater
 mutant
bike
with
wheels
the
size
of
SUVs,
and
a
full
moon
 bacchanalia.
Today
(?)
I
woke
in
a
sandstormy
whiteout
(in
 which
you
can
see
not
a
thing
but
the
white
lights
of
the
sand
 man
god!),
witnessed
a
few
weddings
on
my
way
to
the
 spirithouse
for
a
mocha
latte
(and
spanks),
got
a
deep
foot
 treatment,
cooked
tofu
scramble
and
guacamole
and
bacon
for
80
 people,
practiced
qi
gong
at
Nectar
Village
and
a
five
rhythms
 dance
church
tribal
leaders
movement
and
synchronicity
 workshop
(and
spanks),
spooned
down
a
allegedly
medicinal
 rum
punch,
biked
to
a
pasty
making
party
in
preparation
for
 Critical
Tits
and
gave
up
power
reiki
in
favor
of
(spanks).

 Day
5
of
"I
have
never
turned
down
so
many
drinks
in
my
 life":
we
encountered
a
man
named
Friendly
today
who
slathered
 us
with
fertility
tummy
massages
with
a
blanket
in
a
blanket
 ocean
even
though
I
told
him
I
wasn’t
planning
on
being
fertile
 for
another
5‐8
years.
This
place
is
part
freak
powwow,
part
 exfiend
kinkfest,
part
drunken
brawl,
part
insanity
extractor,
part
 celebration
of
the
paradox
filth
and
beauty
of
humanity,
part
 alien
tribal
dance,
part
self‐worship,
part
masochism.
I
made
a
 waistbelt
to
attach
all
useful
things
to,
like
knives
and
caribeners
 and
seeds
and
starburst
and
corsets,
and
it
was
adorned
with
 feathers
by
a
magician.
I
wish
you
were
here…(omitted).
Today,
 in
the
middle
of
a
desert‐wide
whiteout,
we
were
biking
and
 heard,
"Grilled
cheese,
VIP
parking,
and
spanks?"
and
a
man


stepped
out
of
the
white
sand
in
a
loincloth
apron
and
discovered
 us.
He
wheeled
our
bikes
over
to
VIP
parking,
a
nondescript
bit
of
 desert
about
5
feet
away
from
where
we
stood,
and
we
were
 spanked
with
a
spatula
used
then
to
make
grilled
cheese
with
a
 fried
egg
in
the
middle.
Also,
I
learned
a
spirit
movement
method
 of
working
with
conflict
in
relationships
should
it
ever
arise,
 using
the
word,
"Jaya",
and
remind
me
to
show
you
because
it's
 dreadfully
fun.
Honey,
I
miss…(omitted)
And
then,
following
a
 worm‐green
driven
art
car
night
playa
adventure
dance,
Bird
and
 I
had
the
most
absolutely
life‐changing
yoga
from
this
mama
who
 called
us
bitches
every
twenty
seconds,
followed
by
an
accidental
 and
rather
unfortunate
workshop
we
happened
upon
on
how
to
 talk
dirty
(more
like
dirty
STALKing
for
these
folks)
to
your
 partner
(does
this
count?
“Would
you
like
to
ride
with
me
on
my
 spotted
dick?
It
does
not
come
in
a
can.”
NO).
So
we
ran
away
as
 fast
as
we
could
from
that
debacle
to
a
group
full
body
steam
 bath,
flatbread
and
peanut
butter
honey,
and
a
fermentation
 tasting.

 I
will
not
be
going
to
a
Burning
Man
in
the
future
without
 you.
So
far
the
Rainbows
and
the
Burners
are
the
closest
I
have
 known
to
kinship,
womb
boat
buddies.
Come
with
me,
my
love,
 and
dip
yourself
in
the
slimy
marinade
of
the
revolution!
It
turns
 out
that
you,
my
dear,
were
my
lost
and
found
desert
centaur
all
 along!
There
are
two
telephone
booths
out
here
on
the
playa:
one
 allows
me
to
call
you,
and
one
allows
me
to
call
God,
each
for
 three
minutes.
I’d
rather
be
talking
to
you
than
god,
but
there’s
a
 shorter
line
for
him,
so
gotta
go.
As
Bird
says
in
naughty
words
 workshops,
“My
grandfather
has
a
barn,
wanna
do
it
the
hay?”
All
 my
love,
 
 Buzzard


Burning
Mannequins
and
Kith
 
 kindly
allow
me
to
safety
pin
in
my
pens
before
we
begin
to
pour
 the
champagne
into
the
melon
rinds
for
the
burlesque
show
of
 champion
kitties
 earlier,
we
were
kidnapped
and
told
to
paint
face
masks
when
we
 wanted
to
be
naked
and
skinned,
we
jumped
into
each
other's
 messy
minds
on
the
campoline
and
there
are
only
two
allowed
at
 a
time
because
humans
are
notorious
for
messy
minds,
girls
in
 particular
 earlier
still,
we
drank
of
"joy"
"vitality"
and
"forgiveness"
without
 knowing
their
power,
finding
protection
from
the
sun
by
way
of
 free
abandoned
sunscreen
in
the
mud.
swinging
couches
to'd
and
 fro'd
with
us
before
the
alice
tea
party
with
black
smoke
hookah
 mushrooms
 there
is
air
in
the
light,
we
got
patches
at
the
gift
store,
alligator
 heads
around
our
heavy
necks
 there
is
always
somebody
sleeping,
dreaming
for
us
when
we
 cannot
possibly,
the
monkey
swings
from
bar
to
bar
sneaking
 shots
when
the
tenders
aren't
keeping
up


VIII.
Who
Brought
the
Temple?
 
 Every
party
of
people
must
necessarily
bring
something
to
 contribute
to
the
party
at
large.
But
in
the
instance
of
a
grand
 party,
and
everyone
who
knows
much
knows
that
the
act
of
 finding
one’s
Mothership
involves
a
very
large
party
indeed,
who
 is
to
bring
the
all‐important
temple?
The
punch
was
brought
by
 the
spikedrivers,
the
lamps
by
the
lamplighters,
the
tunes
by
the
 beatweavers,
the
ships
by
the
pirates,
the
green
worm
by
the
 mole
tunnelers,
the
cornucopias
by
the
unicorns,
the
favors
by
 the
ravers,
but
who
on
god’s
desert
earth
was
to
bring
the
 temple?
It
was
perhaps
the
most
important
thing
of
all,
and
 certainly
the
thing
that
everyone
kept
most
quiet
about.
Or
else
 parties
may
leave
with
a
taste
of,
“I
went
to
Burning
Man
and
all
I
 saw
was
this
lousy
mirage,”
from
the
disenchanted
desert
 wanderer
who
spilt
her
water
on
the
way
in,
and
nobody
wants
 that
kind
of
mess
to
clean
up.


Burning
Mangroves
and
Orchards
 
 little
triangles
all
over
our
hands
invited
by
the
dust,
marking
one
 being
from
the
other
as
the
little
boxes
on
the
horizon
mark
our
 homes
 the
girl
wearing
a
"24
hours
of
silence"
sign
and
a
notepad
and
 sharpie
around
her
neck
is
offered
hot
fruit
tea
and
a
bow
and
 arrow
 this
is
what
not
talking
does
to
people
 that
day
we
henna'd
each
other
false
compasses,
stretching
north
 to
the
south,
reversing
east
and
west
to
make
worlds
of
our
own
 liking
at
Foxglove
at
4:15.
 and
the
cantankerous
goose
duck
dressed
in
gossamer
and
flew
 into
our
new
direction
without
warning


IX.
Happy
Birth!?
 
 The
Bird
and
the
Buzzard
attended
the
birthday
party
for
 movement
in
its
natal
innocuousness.
43‐year‐old
Sharie
leapt
 out
of
the
icing
on
the
cake:
“There
are
three
kinds
of
shit:
your
 shit,
my
shit,
and
god’s
shit!
Don’t
mess
with
anyone’s
shit
but
 yours
and
for
god’s
sake,
MOVE
everyday!”
she
exploded.
“I
was
 in
open
warrior
II
for
three
months
in
training
in
India
until
I
 cursed
my
instructor’s
name
and
forgave
him
in
between
the
 mountains
and
he
forgave
me
for
not
moving
and
that’s
what
I
 mean,
bitches!”
she
flailed
her
arms
like
a
sundial
in
a
solar
 eclipse
and
spun
circles
in
the
pink
rosettes..
“Now,
bitches,
I
 want
you
to
look
in
the
mirror
like
it’s
your
partner
in
open
circle
 and
love
yourself
to
TEARS!”
and
she
fell
back
into
the
cake
and
 there
was
movement
as
the
desert
had
never
seen,
every
 creature
grabbing
big
thick
slices
of
vanilla
and
brown
bending
 backwards
over
their
neighbor
if
necessary
and
everyone
eating
 it
and
moving,
too.
“Don’t
reach
for
what
you
don’t
need!
Have
 your
own
sacred
space
and
don’t
let
NOBODY
take
that
away
 from
you!
Live
with
an
open
heart,
goddamit!
Be
good
to
 yourself!
Kneel
to
Gaia
everyday,
kiss
your
mother,
kiss
the
earth,
 you
are
only
ever
fighting
with
yourself!”
she
hollered
through
 layer
sheets
of
black
and
pink
tears
and
knelt
back
into
the
cake
 which
was
busy
remaking
itself
and
relit
its
candles
for
the
spirit
 of
movement,
always
in
motion,
backwards
or
fore.
And
the
 crowd
jeered
and
danced
and
ate
and
exploded
and
knelt
into
the
 earth
in
the
greatest
dance
church
that
had
ever
moved,
and
Bird
 and
the
Buzzard
looked
at
each
other
with
cake
on
their
faces
 and
vanilla
frosting
sunscreen.
“What
ho!”
said
Bird
to
Buzzard.
 And,
“She
is,
then!”
Buzzard
replied.
And
they
knelt
before
their
 newly
known
mother,
knees
imprinted
with
sand
patterns
and
 eyes
in
the
mountains.


That
night
Bird
and
Buzzard
lined
upstream
with
the
 smoking
salmon
in
line
for
the
hot
steam
springs,
howling
naked
 with
the
choir
in
the
glittering
bath,
to
be
cleaned
of
cake
and
 sand
and
pink
hair
and
everything
all
at
once.


Burning
Mantis
Prays

 
 the
headless
mantis
was
doomed
to
be
so
since
its
inception,
by
 virtue
of
its
strange
love,
and
now
we
sing
its
song
to
 commemorate
the
decapitation
of
the
mantis,
the
burning
of
the
 man:
 everything
looks
like
a
rattlesnake.
 give
me
a
birthday,
I'll
give
you
a
cake,

 out
in
the
desert
of
the
desert
Dessert.

 I
lived
in
a
llama
and
rode
on
a
yurt


Appendix
A:
Loose
Llama
Limericks
 
 To
the
volunteer
hairdresser
who
washed
my
brittle
white
hair
 when
it
had
enough
sand
in
it
to
regroute
the
Sahara
and
had
me
 considering
a
clean
shaved
start:
 Oh,
thank
you
for
washing
our
hair
 It's
full
of
dust
we're
well
aware
 So
lovely
the
washing
 We're
feeling
pishposhing!

 Don't
need
on
our
heads
now
to
Nair!
 
 To
our
poledancing
comrade
and
protector
on
the
playa:
 There
once
was
a
fellow
called
Drew
 He's
a
purple
a
hula‐baloo
 Adept
on
the
pole
 He's
young
and
not
old
 And
his
compass
is
beaut'fully
askew!
 
 To
Dallas
of
the
Timestar
who
is
exceptionally
talented
at
setting
 stars
on
fire
on
time:
 There
once
was
a
fellow
named
Dallas
 He
was
part
of
the
Wonderland
Alice
 To
him:
happy
birth!
 We
shall
blow
out
the
earth!
 And
wish
him
all
love
never
malice!
 
 To
Fish
of
the
Spirit
House,
who
saved
us
from
the
nasty
 pathogen
(borne
of
only
water
even
in
the
desert,
nonetheless!)
 known
as
caffeine
withdrawal:
 There
once
was
a
fellow
named
Fish
 Who
serves
such
a
wonderful
dish
 His
beard
made
of
cheer
 Makes
coffee
o'er
beer!


His
beans
grant
our
every
wish!
 
 To
the
Keeper
of
the
Timestar,
Sir
Smith
of
the
Charlie
variety:
 There
once
was
a
camp
full
of
ASS
 Burning
stars
full
of
sparks
full
of
sass
 Long
live
Charlie
Smith
 Our
kin
and
our
kith
 We
thank
him
for
welcome
en
masse!
 
 To
the
Silver
Gypsy
Goddess
herself,
shrouded
in
word
and
wile:
 The
queen
of
the
desert
is
Lori
 We
found
her
in
the
ASS
camp
of
glory
 To
us
she
is
dear
 She's
an
oracle
seer
 And
for
everyone
she
has
a
story!
 
 To
he
who
met
us
on
the
playa
at
sunrise
on
the
third
or
fifth
day,
 and
invited
us
to
ride
in
his
fiddler
crab
with
him:
 There
once
was
a
fellow
named
Juicy
 Who
met
us
at
sunrise
so
loosey
 He
sat
on
a
cloud
 In
the
playa
dust
shroud
 As
we
watched
the
morn
so
Doc
Seussy
 
 To
the
Watts
family
c/o
San
Francisco,
who
let
us
decompress
 from
the
desert
in
their
home,
and
their
factory‐noodly
 neighbors:
 There
once
was
a
warehouse
of
Watts
 Full
of
all
sorts
of
wonderful
pots
 We've
brought
in
some
cats
 To
clear
out
the
rats
 From
the
noodles
of
which
there
are
lots!


And
to
the
young
Master
of
the
house,
on
his
13th
birthday:
 Thirteen
is
the
best
of
all
years
 Bringing
black
caps
and
skulls
and
no
fears
 To
you,
happy
birth!
 You'll
traipse
long
on
the
earth
 And
just
eight
years
until
you'll
drink
beers!


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