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Nayland Blake, Negative Bunny Transcript
Negative Bunny Audio Transcript
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Speaker: Oh, oh, come on. Come on, please, please. I was tested. I’m negative. Really, really. Yes, yes, yes. Just a little while ago, I went. Yes, really. Now, come on. Come on. Now, come on. Come on now. Yes, really. I was tested five times this year. Yes, I go every other month just to-- Because I think it’s important for people to know about my status. I’m negative and really negative, really, really negative. I went and I was tested.
Come on. Why not? Why not? What do you need? Come on now. Come on now. I told you. Please, please. I mean, what do you want? I told you I was negative already. I told you I got tested, I went down to the clinic, two or three days ago, two or three days. I got a special deal where they do it right away and I know right away. I’m really negative. I’ve been negative-- For as long as I can remember, I’ve been negative.
I don’t understand why you won’t let me. Now, come on. Come on just for a little while, just for a little while. It’ll be really nice. I’m really good at it. I’m really, really good. I want to show you how much I care about you. It would mean a lot to me personally. It’s been a while, but before the while, I was doing it all the time and I feel like I should. I feel like you’re really-- I think you’re really being kind of insecure about it because if you can’t with somebody who’s really negative, I mean, really negative then what’s going to
happen? I mean, what could happen? I really like you. I really care about you. Frankly, I feel like this is the sort of thing-- It’s the sort of challenge that you really need to face up to. Now, come on, come on, really. I really, really, really like you, and I really care about you. I really feel that you should let me, and I’m really negative. I’m asking. I was nice and I asked. Oh, I’m just saying please because yes, why not? Come on, come on. I told you I was just tested a little while ago, two or three hours ago. They said I was negative, and I’ve got a note somewhere. I’ve got it written down that I’m negative. I really, really feel like you should really face up to this and let me.
Why not? What the hell, it’ll be fun. It’s going to be fun because, like I told you, I’m really good at it and I’m negative. I’m really negative. I’m really, really, really negative. I really think that you should really, really, really examine your own emotional problems around this because clearly, you’ve got some issues around this, and I think it would be an important growth thing for you to really face your demons, get back on the horse, and get on with it.
I really think that you should examine your own internalized problems because really, if you can’t do it with someone who’s really negative, then what are you going to do? You might as well crawl in a hole somewhere. Now, come on. I really like you a lot. I don’t say this all the time. I just really like you and I really think you should let me. I’m really negative, really.
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Speaker: Now, come on, come on, come on. I really think you should let me. Come
on. I really think we should. We should really because I’m negative. I tested just recently, and it’s really true. I really think we should. I really do. I think it’s an important thing for us. I think it could really mean something, really. I’m really negative. The last time, you wouldn’t at all, and I really feel like it had some serious consequences for us.
I really think that it’s important for us to examine that and get past it because I know I’m negative, and now, you know, and really, I think we just should because fear eats the soul. I feel like I’ve been doing a lot of work, a lot of soul work, and being in touch with that has made me realize that fear is just anger turned inside out. I don’t want to share anger with you, I want to share my love with you. I think you know the way that we could share that love. Really, I think it’s time that we really, really got down to it. Really, I don’t understand your resistance, really, I don’t because if I was keeping something from you, then that was one thing, but I just said I’m negative. Most guys wouldn’t even tell you that, and I just thought now that you know, you should just know, so come on. Come on, really. I’m not messing around. I’m really serious about what we have together and what we could have together, and I’m really committed, and well, I think you’re avoiding your commitment by not confronting this. Well, while I’m not feeling anger exactly, I am feeling a sense of frustration because I really feel like I’ve put my cards on the table, and really, I’m negative. If you can’t trust that, then I feel like you have some serious issues about trust. I don’t know where that comes from. I don’t know what it comes from, but that’s
your trip. I feel like it’s time for you to start to examine some of that.
The best way is to just do it, is to just start in it. Really, I really think that you should just start off on it. Just give it a whirl. It’s like a firewalk, okay? Really, really just let go. Let go. Really just think about the fact that I’m negative, and that I shared that with you, and think about what you want to share with me in return. Okay?
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Speaker: I put on some music because I thought it might help you get in the mood. Now that you’re in the mood, come on. Come on, now. I really mean it. I really, really like you, and I don’t say that to everybody. I only say it to people I really like. I think since I’ve told you I really like you, and I really told you about my status, well, I think you should just let me, okay? You get relaxed and get ready, and then you can just let it flow, let it go, and just let me. I don’t understand all this resistance. Do I remind you of your father? Is that it? Is that it? Because I’m not him. I’m not, and you should just know that. I think you should just let me. Let’s just be sensible. You should just let me. I could see not letting somebody who was positive, but I’m negative, and I’ve been negative for a long time, and well, you’re like me. You’re a survivor, and it’s our job to make sure that it’s still happening, that it’s still going on, and it’s a cultural thing. We got a duty to our culture to not let our way of life vanish from the face of the earth. Come on now. Come on. Come on, really, really. I really like you. I really think that we could have something together, and well, it’s in honor of that, I think you should just let me.
I think you should learn to let
go and just let me because how are we going to get anywhere if you’re so resistant from the start, okay? I really, really like you a lot, and, well, I’m really, really, really negative. I really am, so I think you should just let me, okay? Just let me, okay? I’m begging you. I’m just begging you, so come on, and just let me. What’s it going to hurt, right? Come on, come on. Come on, please. Please. Please.
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Speaker: Well, come on. Come on now. Come on. Please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please. Come on, and please. Well, maybe I was all wrong about you. When I saw you, I thought you were a normal guy. I thought you were a normal person and the kind of person who wouldn’t just torture somebody. I’m asking you nicely, really, really nicely, and look at me. Here I am, a nice, negative person, really negative, really recently tested, really negative, and you’re not responding. Well, I feel like you’re not acknowledging me as a person. Is that what I am to you? I’m not even a person to you. Is that it? Is that what you’re trying to tell me? Because I can’t see why a person would treat another person like this. Frankly, I feel like it’s really a power trip, and I think that you should examine your motives for acting like this. When I saw you, I didn’t think you were on sociopath or something. I’m asking you nicely. Come on, I’m negative, you couldn’t be more negative than me, so I don’t understand what the problem is. I just don’t, and I’m asking you. You’re just not giving me anything. I feel like you don’t respect me, and you don’t believe I’m capable of giving. I want to give, and
you’re negating that. I just feel like you need to get your house in order because if that’s what you think about other people, then that says a lot about what you think about yourself. I don’t want to read your beads or anything, but I really just think that anyone who was just normal, who was just a normal person wouldn’t be acting so weird, wouldn’t be acting so abnormal. I just want to know what it’s all about. I want to know what your problem is because it’s not a problem for me, so it must be some kind of a big problem with you.
Let me know. Just tell me. What is it? Why not? Why not? Life is short enough, and really if you can’t just go with it then what are you on the ride for? That’s what I say. I say, “Live.“ I’m a person who loves life. I love life, and I feel like I’m in touch with a life force, but I feel like you’re like a death culture. You’re like that Death Star in Star Wars and I feel like you’re sucking the energy right out of me. That’s why I just want you to explain that. I feel like you don’t speak to my feelings. You just don’t.
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Speaker: Come on. No, I’m serious this time. Do you want to back rub maybe? Is that it? Would that make you happy? Really, I think romance is important. There’s not enough romance in our lives. I am a romantic person and I feel like you are a romantic person too. In honor of romance, I think that you should just let me, you should just let me. It’ll be like the old days, okay? It’ll be like old times. Just once for old times’ sake with a certifiably negative person, negative.
Really, my test results are back and I’m negative, so I really think that in honor of the good old days, you should just let
me because life is too short. Embrace life, and embrace me and realize that if there’s a darkness in your soul, then it destroys romance. It’s our duty not to destroy romance but to make romance blossom. What I really think is that you’re over-rationalizing all this. I think you should just let me for old times’ sake. You can’t pretend that you don’t like it. You can’t pretend that you don’t want it, so why don’t you just let me? Just let me, and it’ll be great. Besides, I’m really hot for you. I’m really burning up. I don’t normally get this excited about somebody at this stage of the game. I just don’t. It’s in honor of that and in honor of my romantic feelings for you because I don’t feel like it’s just over. I don’t feel like 20 minutes from now, it’ll just be over. I feel it’s just the beginning, so in honor of that feeling, I think that you should put aside your petty doubts. I never thought that you were such a petty person because really, you seem to have a grandeur of spirit to me. You seem to be on the great spirit voyage. You seem to have a lot of capacity for love, and hopefully, a lot of capacity to receive love because I want to give you love, but I feel like you’re afraid to take love. Really, to be afraid to take love is to have a dark place in your soul. I would never want that to happen to you. I would want you to be open to all the light in your soul, all the bliss that’s possible.
That’s why you should just believe me. When I say that I’m negative, I mean it, and you should open your soul up to bliss. You should follow your bliss, and I’m it. I’m asking you to follow me and follow my lead because it’s very important. Come on now. Come on and just let me, just let me. I’m telling you for your own good that you should
just come on and let me. Let me because I just think you should, you just should. Come on, I’m negative. I’ve tested 20 times this past year, God damn it, so just let me. Okay? I’m just going to ask you one more time. Okay? Okay, you’re going to let me? Come on. Come on.
