Honey a zine curated + edited by caroline gavura
issue #2
october 2017
contributors:
Jada Minaya
Anthony Vega
ig: @jadaminaya twitter: @jada_papaya
Caroline Gavura ig: @carolinegavura
ig: @pyramidflowers
feat. a special guest :
Jasmine Elshamy ig: @jaselshamy twitter: @homesucks
twitter: @carolinegavura
*OCTOBER* a letter from the editor:
Dear Reader, Welcome to our special SPOOKY edition of Honey! October is my favorite month for many (corny) reasons: being able to buy giant bags of candy for personal use without shame, justification for spending $5 on coffee because it tastes like pumpkin pie, getting to subtle flex on Halloween with a pretentious costume, etc. Half of the fun of October is the aesthetic alone, so you know we had to pull out all the stops this month. Along with the usual content of the Zine (poems, artwork essays, etc.) I added a few more special spooky things for ya’ll to enjoy this month! As usual, I want to thank all of my contributors this month for having the courage to share their work and being vulnerable enough to openly express themselves. I also want to thank YOU- whoever is taking time out of their busy day to read this- for supporting me! I was astonished by how many of you liked last month’s issue and got excited to either submit or continue reading my work and I can’t begin to tell you how much that has meant to me. I started this project because I wanted to get people excited about being creative and expressing themselves through art, so to know I already inspired some of you to do so leaves me speechless. I LOVE YA.. Thank you :) Caroline
Two of cups, three of cups, ten of cups I love water in it’s many forms. Drinking it, an easy, natural endorphin release. At restaurants, the waiter fills my glass four times. Every time. The sound of rain when you're sitting on a balcony and aren’t concerned about getting wet. You can just peacefully observe; listen. Experience the rain without the nuisance of rain. When I was a child, I spent all day in the pool. I loved how my body just gracefully floated about. I could do whatever I wanted. I love going to the beach also, specifically at night and during a full moon so it reflects on the water. The ocean is lonelier at night. No one is playing except for other lonely people. I enjoy moistening things too for some reason. The idea of pasta boiling and getting softer is so satisfying. When I water my plants and the dirt goes from dry to nourished, also satisfying. When I breathe heavily in your mouth and lift my leg, also satisfying. I enjoy taking bathes and adding salt to it. My favorite part of my day is when I take a shower. I absolutely look forward to it more than anything else and I wish I could sit in there for two hours without my mom screaming at me about the bill. So instead, I’ll take two a day. I love purity, in all it’s forms and I believe water serves that purpose. Sustaining, cleansing, healing, purifying in all it’s layers, all it’s forms. I dream of tsunamis and whirlpools and swimming pools! Gleaming turquoise blue and some shades of purple too in a basement somewhere, ugh I wish you could see it! It looked like the fluorite I’m wearing. I see hurricanes on every screen my eyes exhaustingly look at. Hitting the depths of my own rock-bottom and drowning in my tears. Surrendering to my emotions like I’m in a turbulent ocean, pouring out all that was left to be stagnant and toxic. Purity. In all it’s forms. Flowing, ebbing, destroying, healing, powerful, surrendering, cleansing, and purifying. I realized that was the love I was asking for. I would look at the sky and say, “I don't know what I’m speaking to, but I’m speaking to everything,” and I would ask for a love that was fluid and sweet. A love that was powerful and moving, even a bit destructive and detoxing. Breaking down old conditioning and ideas of what love truly is. A love so deep. A love that was healing and overflowing. I wanted a watery love. A love that was nourishing to drink from. Maybe with some tea stirred in to make it extra scrumptious. An overflowing love. I wanted two cups with an infinite amount of water constantly pouring into each other and overflowing. The water will spill into other cups but just these two poured into each other. Reciprocation. I wanted water not because I was parched. Not because my cup was empty still but because the water revived me. Every bath I took, every lonely a.m. ocean visit, every tear I shed, every tsunami dream, every swimming dream, every time I was wet thinking of you, every time I drank a cup of tea, or chugged my water to try and wake myself up, I was cleansed. I was filled up and it continues to fill and overflow. I want to pour it into everything. I know I want to pour it into you because you’re wet and I want nothing more than to fill you. I want to overflow your cup. I want us to pour into each other. So drink up, drown, engulf yourself! I want you cleansed, nourished, full, revived, and healed. Even when your eyes are watery and you feel like oceans are moving you and you're trying to stay anchored, I’ll say “drink up! You’re overflowing and I want you to overflow some more! Surrender to it. I’ll drown with you.” We will submerge and float and dance around together realizing we didn't even need to breathe. We won’t even realize we’re wet. Jada Minaya
Spooky Salted Caramel Cookies Ingredients 3/4 cup salted butter, room temperature 1/2 cup brown sugar, lightly packed 1/2 cup sugar 1 egg 1 tsp vanilla extract 1 1/4 cups all purpose flour 1/2 cup cocoa (Hershey's Special Dark) 1 tsp baking soda Fun Size Simply Caramel Milky Ways Bars, cut in half
Instructions 1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees. 2. Cream butter and sugars together until light and fluy, about 3-4 minutes. 3. Mix in egg and vanilla extract. 4. Add flour, cocoa and baking soda and mix until well incorporated and thick. 5. Make balls of cook dough about 2 tbsp in size. 6. Break balls of dough in half, add candy bar to the middle, then press dough halves back together and seal edges. 7. Place cookies on a parchment or silicone baking mat lined cookie sheet and sprinkle with sea salt. 8. Bake for 8-10 minutes. Center might look a little undercooked, but edges should be done. 9. Remove cookies from oven and allow to cool for 2-3 minutes, the remove to cooling rack to cool completely.
from Lindsay @ LifeLoveandSugar.com
HUNTER/HARVEST MOON OCT 2017 Some Native American tribes referred to October’s full moon as the Hunter’s Moon because it marked the time to go hunting in preparation for winter. This year, the October full moon is also a Harvest moon because it is closest to the autumnal equinox. This means the moonrise happens very soon after the sunset for several nights in a row- making the moon visible in the evening sky. Traditionally, this allowed farmers more time to harvest their crops. -The Old Farmer’s Almanac
In Astrology: October’s full moon falls in Aries. “The aspects of this October full moon are about making adjustments and the ability to be fluid. As soon as someone thinks they have you nailed, you need to be chameleon-like and able to change your colors. Don’t make it easy for them! There is positive self-sacrifice and negative self sacrifice. One who “willingly returns his body to the soil in order to fertilize his culture.” would be a positive way to give yourself up for the greater good. But becoming human bait for vampiric entities to manipulate their own agendas, would be a negative way.” -DarkStarAstrology
SPELLS The veil between the worlds is thinnest at Halloween. Take advantage and cast some extra powerful spells! Apple Love Spell To find out who your future partner in life is going to be try this simple divination spell. Take an apple and peel its skin o in one long piece, saying, I pare this apple round and again My sweetheart's name to flourish plain I fling the pairing o'er my head My sweetheart's letter on the ground be read The peel should then have landed in the shape of your true-love's initial.
Protection against Evil Spirits The fierce faced lanterns carved out of pumpkins and, in colder climates where pumpkins are rare, turnips, are apotropaic charms intended to ward o evil spirits and protect travelers and households from harm. Make a Jack O'Lantern to keep the demons at bay. It is said that when you see the flame flickering, a spirit is near...
- witchology.com
Ghost It has taken me nearly two years to write about you. To admit that I have a looming shadow who follows me everywhere that I go. I didn't think at the time that we broke I would ever think of you again. Quite the contrary, I felt a wave of relief, thinking you were finally gone. I was wrong, though. More than ever now, you creep into my thoughts and worm your way into my conscious. In everything and in everyone, I see you. The memory of you floats around me like the smoke from a passerby’s last drag of their cigarette. I imagine and re-imagine running into you on the street. What would I say to you, after all this time? Or, more importantly, what would you say to me? Friends are our most intimate lovers. They know our every flaw, our every triumph. We let them inside our heads as well as our hearts. We allow them to see us in a raw state that is usually concealed and protected from the outside world. Friends wind themselves around our hearts like a snake wrapping around its prey. It was you who taught me that, like most love affairs, friendship can be dangerous. I’m haunted with thoughts like: Do you think about the times we shared? Are you happy now? I know you do not deserve this of me. I tell that to myself. I know you do not think of me. I know I should not think of you. I hear from a friend of a friend of a friend that you are not doing well. I feel a surge of pleasure at this fact before being disgusted by my bitterness. When will this hold you have on me finally release? When will my demon decide I’ve been punished enough? I meditate on this. I saw you today. It was only a matter of time. We locked eyes. I still don't know if you really saw me. Recognized me. You said nothing. I said nothing. That was it. Were we doomed from the start? I don’t know. But I know that I must send you love now. It is the only thing that will break this evil curse of hate and resentment in my heart. I must wish you happiness and good fortune. To never again feel like you are not good enough. That you are not worthy of love or of friendship. To believe that everything can be as it once was. I am different now; so are you. We are older and harder and stronger. We were there for each other at a time when we really needed each other. That’s all we could have ever asked for. When you broke my heart I learned so many lessons. I write and I share them. I am grateful. I am not haunted anymore. Caroline Gavura
Anthony Vega
Jada’s Playlist of the Month:
SPOOKY 1. This is Halloween - The Nightmare Before Christmas 2. Monster Mash - Bobby Pickett 3. Stranger Things Theme Song (C418 REMIX) 4. Mad Hatter - Melanie Martinez 5. I Put A Spell on You (Fifty Shades of Gray) - Annie Lennox 6. Useless - Depeche Mode 7. Brujas - Princess Nokia 8. Haunted - Beyonce’ 9. Walking with a Ghost - Tegan and Sara 10. Gangsta - Kehlani 11. Heads Will Roll (A-Trak Remix) - Yeah Yeah Yeahs 12. Monster - Lady Gaga 13. Carousel - Melanie Martinez 14. Ghost - Sky Ferreira 15. Disturbia - Rihanna 16. Watching You - Natalia Kills 17. Born to Die - Lana Del Rey 18. Decode - Paramore 19. Dollhouse - Melanie Martinez 20. Let’s Kill Tonight - Panic! at the Disco
TV Shows Everyone Should Watch Yesterday I went home last weekend and my mom got herself hooked on the iconic Will and Grace again because it’s on Hulu now. “I love this show, but TV is such a waste of time,” she lamented. I… couldn’t disagree with her more. Sure, maybe I personally abuse binge watching as a form of escapism, but you have to admit TV has never been better than it is right now. How freaking exciting is that?! So let’s get into it. This Is Us. Hulu. Wow. Y’all… you don’t even know. You didn’t even know you needed to cry and this show is just gonna bring it all out of you. Sterling K. Brown did NOT have to do it to us, but he did. And it is glorious. It really highlights the little moments and the big moments, how we’re all in a big circle and how family is complicated as fuck. Bojack Horseman. Netflix. It destroyed my soul. Gave it back to me. Destroyed it again. Rinse and repeat. Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. Hulu. So fucking smart, so funny, way too real re: mental health and relationships. Also, it’s a MUSICAL! Moral of the story is: we do not deserve Miss Rachel Bloom. Not one bit. Get lost in it. Season 1 is fantastic. Blackish. Hulu. Wholesome family content from a mainstream show that tackles racism and other social issues so smartly and thoughtfully. It is impossible not to love the Johnsons. Will & Grace. Hulu. Do it for Megan Mullally. You will not regret it. Fact: her performance as Karen gave birth to a whole generation of gays. Riverdale. Netflix. They are giving you drama. They are giving you hot people you wish you looked like hooking up with each other. They are giving you the corniest writing on primetime. They are giving you high school. Degrassi could NEVER. Big Little Lies. HBO. Queen Reese Witherspoon absolutely had no need at this point in her career to make something so astonishingly wonderful. Truly, she didn’t have to! But she did, and with it came some of the best female performances of the year. Rich people living in Monterrey, California and the demons that they battle. Equally funny, heart wrenching, and real. Chewing Gum. Netflix. Micaela Coel truly GAVE IT TO US. This show in particular is so dope because the characters are all so original and not what you expect at all. It’s about a girl who’s a virgin and trying to really figure out what she wa Jane the Virgin. Netflix. I really feel like I shouldn’t have to be saying this? But it appears some of y’all still do not know what’s good with JTV! With baby Gina Rodriguez! Come on! The way this show weaves together the telenovela genre with comedy to make one of the best-written, best-acted, best-voiceover-d shows on TV? She got accidentally artificially inseminated and is about to take you on a goddamn ride. Buckle up. The Good Place. Netflix. Hulu. So wholesome, so smart, so funny. Truly. From the guy who gave us Parks & Rec. Just watch the first episode. It’ll really brighten your day. And then you’ll keep watching. And then you won’t leave your room. Which was my whole goal with this list anyway! Jasmine Elshamy
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Halloween Cats KieraPlease Halloween Inspo How is this even real???? Homemade Dynamite Remix Candy Corn Jello Shots . . . They're actually, like, good, ok?