Before I Self Destruct

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E R O F BE F L E S I T C U R T S DE BY J. JOXÉ


Just because someone doesn’t have “real problems” which, in itself, is debatable, doesn’t mean they don’t have real reactions. How we react, physically and/or emotionally, makes all the difference. You’re not better than someone just because you were built to react better to certain situations. quote from: caringsuggestion.tumblr.com

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You could have told me to kill myself You already chose the right words to put me through hell Equivalent effect if you said that as well

Why are you so fake with me? If all you feel is hate for me then why did you hit me up saying you wanna hang with me Why are we talking on the phone? Why didn’t you leave me alone?


The abused can be the abuser The villain can be the victim that doesn’t mean accountability must be dismissed

Dismissed, dismissed Didn’t know it was willful ignorance I thought I had to educate I did my best Attaching words to feelings (nearly indescribable) they never could resonate with you


You were never down to get hype with me. So surreal, you’re what my life could be. A sight that left my eyes too sore to see In meeting, I regret you oh, how long it took until I left you Now, you’re what I’m running from What I hope to never become A walking hypocrisy, with days lived in monotony


He denies me agency over my mind He acts like he’s lived in my head this entire time He believes he took on my memories and my skin sometimes he tricks me into believing him He is not confined to one perspective because he has mine Somehow, he’s entered my brain without taking a single step


“Calm down." "Be grateful." "What is there to be mad about?" "What is there to be sad about?�

He claims to have stolen my eyes as he dissects my insides


I don’t debate and ask “How do you know?” I can’t argue with someone who only desires control Stuck in an alternative reality He doesn’t listen when I try to give clarity I have nothing to say I walk away I look back Only to see him stuck in disarray Cube, stay stuck in the dissonance

my soul needs the distance



I can’t search for validation in anyone beyond myself if I do I’m sacrificing my mental health.


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