Notes “Sierra” is after the movie Gemini. “lust fragments” is titled after the album Lust for Life by Lana del Rey. “Alameda” incorporates notifications from the astrology app Co-Star. “The Chrysanthemums” is titled after a short story by John Steinbeck. “When I first began to speak publicly about my dysfunctional family” takes its title from page 130 of All About Love by Bell Hooks. The Hotel Sorrento is a historic hotel on First Hill in Seattle. “A Concept” was written in the Pacific Ocean at (56 14 N, 155 09 W). “Tuesday” is set in the Central District of Seattle. “A Little Life” is titled after the novel by Hanya Yanagihara and the first two lines are written after a statement made by Porochista Khakpour, overheard at the Hugo House in 2016. “Georgetown” is set in Flip Flip Ding Ding, a pinball bar in Georgetown, Seattle. “Last Quarter” is set at Pier 31 in Honolulu. “Zeus” is a cento composed of lines from “Lover’s Wine” by Charles Baudelaire, “In 200 B.C.” by C.P. Cavafy, love poem LII by Emily Dickinson, and “The Displaced Person” by Flannery O’Connor. “The Desire to be God” is titled after a concept by John Paul Sartre. “False Spring” is titled after Alex Dimitrov’s poem of the same name and was written in the sculpture garden at the Honolulu Art Museum’s Spalding House. “How could I describe the ending to you?” is titled after the first line of Dimitrov’s “Nights with People, Days Without.”
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Endnotes
This QR code goes to the digital immersive experience attached to this project, including working hyperlinks of the endnotes. 1
https://www.slantmagazine.com/film/gemini/
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https://www.instagram.com/p/B4adDiyFpCF/
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https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/cui-bono/201802/the-psychology-expectations
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNuMH2i6wdI&feature=youtu.be&t=120
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https://www.instagram.com/p/BqAsoC9Fvcn/
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https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz3urgPleWT/
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https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu-PHS0lPSF/
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https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz53O8QlRue/
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https://www.instagram.com/p/BfUbpNYgvSl/
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https://www.instagram.com/p/BlS-ORDHQdh/
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eP4eqhWc7sI&feature=youtu.be&t=248
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http://floatingwolfquarterly.com/9/alex-dimitrov/
https://www.academia.edu/19844377/ Introduction_Ugly_Feelings_Harvard_University_Press_2005_ 13
https://www.stereogum.com/1952848/lana-del-rey-is-mad-about-little-fuckers-downloading-herleaked-album/news/ 14
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https://www.instagram.com/p/Btbr2aOBAGq/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link
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https://www.lambdaliterary.org/2010/10/alex-dimitrov-james-franco/
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https://chaturbate.com/p/jaynasty77/?tab=bio
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https://www.instagram.com/p/ByN5ooRFx82/
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https://magazine.art21.org/2013/02/28/queer-berlin-james-francos-gay-town/#.X5lcqpNKhQI
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https://www.moviefanatic.com/quotes/hiya-stranger-hiya-back/
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https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=902576016436825&set=a. 151219964905771&type=3&theater 22
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISjmjYU-kMI&feature=youtu.be&t=9
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https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=882533935107700&set=pb. 100000533048069.-2207520000..&type=3&theater 24
https://www.newsweek.com/history-james-francos-creepiness-nude-selfies-texting-teens-778311
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https://www.instagram.com/p/BZQit4GhAxj/
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https://www.sparknotes.com/short-stories/the-chrysanthemums/summary/
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https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/munchausen-syndrome#1
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https://www.nytimes.com/2000/01/30/books/that-4-letter-word.html
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNuMH2i6wdI&feature=youtu.be&t=46
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https://youtu.be/3-NTv0CdFCk?t=190
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https://issuu.com/joenasta/docs/napkin_poems
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http://archive.nytimes.com/www.nytimes.com/interactive/2010/12/12/magazine/14actors.html? hp#2 32
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https://youtu.be/v19W8qaQ4XI?t=627
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https://youtu.be/tBwoRviPvVw?t=21
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http://fishouse.wpengine.com/wp-content/themes/replay-new/archives/audio/7-Chambers-WolfsHeart.mp3 36
https://youtu.be/mKt_BzABN-U
https://www.dazeddigital.com/artsandculture/article/25606/1/james-franco-is-publishing-a-bookabout-lana-del-rey 37
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https://www.instagram.com/lajotanasty/
https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=AcVQJJoD45w&list=OLAK5uy_m8igIPuZDSmOHDu5REA0LW5iES2wcokuY&index=6 39
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/may/30/chris-kraus-i-love-dick-was-written-in-adelirium 40
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https://www.instagram.com/p/BtxAn3ghbwn/
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https://www.instagram.com/p/Bof2NjchOLB/
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https://www.nytimes.com/1987/10/25/magazine/about-men-an-ugly-feeling.html
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http://seeingnature.site.seattleartmuseum.org/2016/10/29/2/okeeffe-black-iris-vi-1100px/
https://www.metrowestdailynews.com/entertainmentlife/20180603/new-york-botanical-gardenpresents-exhibit-of-georgia-okeeffes-hawaiian-paintings 45
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http://floatingwolfquarterly.com/9/alex-dimitrov/11/grindr-2-ooh-youre-a-poet
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https://issuu.com/joenasta/docs/saltsong_fragments
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https://www.instagram.com/p/BtxAn3ghbwn/?igshid=l0kmvv00ug07
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