Dear Babe, Here’s to another year, 3rd one that is, for being together. Through great laughs, smiles, and tears we rode a very emotional ride that had many ups and some downs. All in all we stuck out and made it this far. Never ever really committed myself to something this long other than my passion for design. Hope this shows you that you are also my passion. Love all that you do for me, no matter how many times I repeat these same things, but really is true. You are my number one supporter and my biggest fan (aside from my parents). You have accepted me for who I am, no matter how many times I get on your nerves. Isn’t that the whole point of being in a relationship? To get on each other’s nerves, but at the same time be there for each other. You deserve so much credit and respect for dealing with me and my personal issues . I am learning to be more considerate of what I do through you. I am very lucky to have a girlfriend that express so much interest in what I do and that you try doing what I love doing. Very very lucky and I admire your hard work. I apologize for all the bad things I had put you through. No reason you have to deal with it since it has happened before, but I had no intention of leaving for any reason. Just happy you tried your best to try and support me. I’m glad we passed beyond that issue. Any who, thank you for understanding that what I do takes a chunk of my time away from almost everything else and that you are being very patient. It’s something I love doing, but I can’t keep it away from the one who I am in love with. Thankful that you are the one who I am in love with. Your silliness and weirdness makes me smile. Love that you can take care of yourself and have that toughness in you to not fall for any bullshit. Glad that you know call me out on things, even though I hate it at times, because it broadens my perspective on how I see things and I need that. You seem to have the answers when I do not. You know how to care of me and teach me things. What I need to do now is do the same for you. Express more interest in what you want to do. Help you find out what it is you want to
be when you’re done with school. Overall, just be there for you just as much, if not more, than you are for me. I want to see you shine in everything and be the support that you need. I want to travel to different places with you! Want to see what else is good out in the world. Gain different experience and inspiration. No one else I would rather do it with, but with you. Anyways, I would like to apologize for this very late gift, but I surely hope you enjoy it! Don’t know what else to say but that I love you and thankful and lucky to be with someone like you. May we see better and fun days. Maybe getting a doggy is part of that, haha. Who knows? Thank you for these 3 crazy years and let us celebrate more to come with more adventures to pursue. I love you darling!
Love always,
Your one and only, Sir Jordan Cuellar (Aziz Face)
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II was stuck in a moment. Did not know what it was, a dream?, A nightmare?, A vision? It felt far more different than reality. A distance that kept me from being safe. Hallucinating I was trapped in a dark room; it made me feel depleted and defeated just like how others may feel. Although I was still only young, these thoughts still provoked darkness. Satan ripped me off my pride and confidence, so my subconscious’ wit was out of it. The little bit left in me kept hanging on. But I was still trapped losing all air. Suffocated. Like I was asthmatic. Temper storms because I couldn’t have it. Devil is playing tricks on me, with her atrocious lies stomping over my body with her high red heels. As I lay, she watches as all my hope bleeds out, suffering til decay. Laughing and harassing in this everlasting moment. Futile. Long gone. Left me with a piece of paper and a pen, so I can write my Swan Song, but... far along in this rubble the skies started to emit passed the troubles. The cold cold waters turned warm. I felt something. The warm winds, blowing in the night sky, high rise like the Northern Light, but in the city. Stars never gleamed this bright, something like in the mountain scene. As I gaze throughout, I turn my head and out glimmering is a door with a bright sign. “ENTER” it said right up above this lonely door. With mere hesitation, I approach the door and slightly open. Out comes what felt like the base of the warm winds. Bright and colorful lights welcomed me in this wonderful place. Words couldn’t explain for this euphoric land. Standing at a distance, but headed my way. Feminine figure with sure grace came and whispered in my ear “....,” and so then we flew away...
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The color of your eyes Are the portal to my mind As I see you I see me Double entree With your distinctive nature You’ve given me The vision and depth to see The life of the trees Bringing life in me Heightened sense of what this life has to bring Finding new beginnings and losing old endings Your trust in me Uses a new fragrance Lovely smell for the old was like burnt tobacco leaves The killing in me But now killing fallacy and raising honesty Because honestly never felt the way this Love Game was being played Experienced the loss from the cheat codes Other players have used was just killing me But you come and conquer Now it is my honor To salute to you As I remove these sunglasses That have been blocking the light From your eyes
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It all comes crashing down Havoc all around The skies are gray In the world, decay Men screaming “BOMBS AWAY” The Snow just ain’t the same Smears of gray stains Leaving life breathless Fumes just won’t go away Plagues come near All is to fear Black roses blossom across the plains Skies ruled by fighter planes Purge in the streets We all soon face defeat Sun is turning low, losing sight of the lands But once I find you, it’ll all be okay We’ll run off holding hands Knowing there is nothing left to see But I know we’ll be safe from here and out No matter the urgency No matter the fate of this world We’ll be glowing in the end Passed the shadows of the land We’ll be glowing, smiling like we ... didn’t give a damn
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I never knew I could see passed the sun Never knew what it meant to be one Never knew the feeling of a win But now I know Now I know Prior to this I lost faith Never knew my religion But now I know I saw straight through the sun Walked on clouds to get to the moon Found something to believe in And it’s you,You and I You are my New Religion Real vision New Faith And it’s all good, all good My confidence was hard to reach Then you came, picked it up for me Delivered on a golden platter Feeling something so good, real good If I could see the whole wide world It’ll be through you, Passed the sun, passed the moon The Whole World resides in You Real visions of this new religion For you and I are something to believe in. True Faith, REALigion.
Pieces with me Can’t leave me piece Set me at ease when I can’t cope with anything Dollars can’t fulfill a dream, Whiskey drinks for a boost in self-esteem These pieces can’t be at peace With my eyes glued to screens Blind sided, all the trees around me keep calling for me Only ones that have helped differently, were the ones burning in me Setting fire to these and my dollars What these pieces with me only elude the peace that I’m hoping to see Flip my world, Nothing turned into something Dreams to reality Ink in my pen to let my story bleed on these blank pages Along to motivate me is an Image of Peace You at the beach, ocean waters running through me Keeping me alive As I listen to the ocean tides ripple and wave That create music of peace Washing away the courage gained from the liquor I drank to try and please my peace Now these new pieces of me set me at ease Keep me from going insane Of what those other pieces have been doing to me
Rose from the muck Glow in the night Brighter than a neon light Growth sustained, so we’ll be alright Forever in the flesh, So you grow beyond right Since ever before, overwhelmed by the dirt Hindered by all the fertilizer, But let nature play its part Hindrance sees This is what glory brings This is what nightmares will dream And so I Picked up at the right hour Withheld in my hand this wild flower Enlightened so it seems Forever living what nightmares had dreamed Found my forever, what the dark wishes to see Forever found, so let the nightmare bleed Wild flower emits a wild power Rose from the dirt Alive and well above the Earth The beauty of seeing its rise above flux Forever found my luck
Here we are, running along Through the mountains and the forest These dirt clouds we made, Brushed away our footsteps To disguise any trace of missteps We aren’t perfect, neither are they So let’s continue running along the rocky path ahead Soon to be part of our yesterday Which will no longer exist Can’t see what’s ahead So let’s just enjoy this moment Running along next to the green grass to the fertile beaches Cool winds from the blue and orange skies Feeling like warm winds on a space ride No sense, but I know we’ve done right We make sand castles in the sky So no tide can wash it away Be there forever With no more buried treasures What will be buried are these muddy shoes to the bottom of the ocean So we can run freely in the sand Stars in the afternoon skies Leave it to be, new found glory of peace
I’d trade everything for a nice view I’d rather see something unknown Than what’s on the TV screen Real HD Living outside of an idea Ideas of what may be true I’d rather be acting a fool Than dressed in a suit Let’s melt all the clocks So we can forever live in this dream Away from the nightmares Day and night Paint the skies with stars I’d rather stare at the moon & the sun Shining over the waters To hide the gloom underneath I’d rather see the rain drop down I’d rather watch the clouds move I’d rather watch candle flames groove Watch incense burn Let’s plant seeds for our future, watch the flowers bloom Foundation for our all Sacred means to living I’d rather do it all Do it all With you, for you