2018 Dead Leaves
Joshelim Hernandez
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Introduction………………………………………Page.2 Poem 1…………………………………………. Page.3 Short Story……………………………………Page.4 Six Word Memoir……………………………Page. 10 Poem 2…………………………………………. Page.11 Love Poem……………………………………. Page.12 Play plot and cast…………………………… Page.13 Poem to my mom……………………………Page.16 Epic Hero Text…………………………………. Page.17 Epic Hero Illustration………………………. Page.18 Travel Writing……………………………… Page.19 Conclusion…………………………………… Page. 20
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Introduction My name is Joshelim Hernández Espinoza, in the actuality I´m 16 years old and I´m from Mexico. I can tell I’m not a really talkative person, I’m serious and shy, but that doesn’t mean I’m not concerned about the ones that surround me. I’m centered and I know what I want and how I will progress, through this year I’ve learned about how important is to wait for positive results even if they come long time after, I’ve learned to walk instead of run in my life. I know that even if I run but without passion, dreams and an objective I will not do something positive or obtain the results I want in my life. We should know the importance of do things in a calm way when we don’t know what else to do with our lives, if we don’t have any dreams or passions, we can give a break to ourselves and think about us. I like taking photos even if they are not as good as I want, and the thing I like to do the most is sleep, I’m sleepy all the time, so when I finally arrived to my bed, is like a paradise for me to sleep. My favorite animal is the cat, I like them because they are really quiet animals, they sleep a lot and are kind of arrogant and peaceful animals. If I could be born as an animal in my other life, I will choose to be a cat. I hope you who are reading this magazine could enjoy it and understand or feel my feels and what I want to transmit.
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POEM 1 Will I ever care? Did I do something wrong? I don’t feel anything anymore, I think All my feelings are gone. All my dreams have disappeared I don’t have motivation anymore And my future is unclear. I know is pathetic to not have something as common as a Dream, I know… Everything is falling a part Will I ever care? I live because I can’t die. Everyone else is running, Why am I the only one here? After this, will I ever fully bloom? Nothing is more miserable that don’t have anything to do Will I ever really care? So far away are my dreams and future Everyday is terrifying when I open my eyes Everything is falling apart Will I ever care? Break me out of here, Take away all my fears.
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Short Story
“My sin was not specifically this or that, but, consisted of shaking hands with the devil. The devil helped me in his clutches, the enemy was behind me…” The seven teenagers (almost finishing this phase of the youth), were sitting around eachother thinking about what they were doing in their lives, happy, enjoying every second of their unity and brothership. A very beautiful moment in their lives. The younger of them was Jung with 17 years old. As the young of the friends, he was questioning every single thing of his own world, for example, right now he was thinking about his oldest friend, his “brother” Jin, what was going on with him? he was absent all this time, just taking photos. Nevermind, he thought, maybe he is stressed about the school. Jung lay down on the lap of this closer friend, YoonGi, also YoonGi was strange, right now he was playing with a lighter, just seeing the flame of the fire going out. Jung blow off the flame and at that moment Jin spoke. “Hey, what do you guys think about going to a mini vacation in this place?” he said as he was showing a photo of a very beautiful beach. Everyone turned their heads and nodded. The next day, the seven of them were ready to go to the beach, they started their way at the very first hours of the morning. Jin was driving, Joon was at the second place of the front. While JiMin, Tae, Joon, YoonGi and Hoseok were in the back seats playing and joking. All the trip the seven of them were laughing, singing, joking as they are, very united. When they finally arrived to the beach, everyone was jumping, all the environment was covered by happiness, joy and a strange feeling of homesickness. They enjoy with everyone, they enjoy as brothers, as if it was the last day of them together as a family. Maybe it was, nothing last forever, not even youth. Jin take photos of them enjoying the sand, the ocean, the unity and purity. And when the sun went down and the dawn was visible they take their last photo of all of them
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together, the last photo of the day or the last photo forever. They go back to their house, all of them went to sleep because of the tiring day. “After we came back from the sea, we were all alone. If I could turn back time, that day in the sea of a summer day, that place where I want to run.” Jin was thinking about everything that happen to their friends, or his past friends, he just knew some things because of Joon, everyone was in a mental breakdown because of problems. Jin thought it was all his fault, he abandoned his friends when they need him the most. 3 of them try to commit suicide (Jimin, Hoseok, and YoonGi), Jung had a car accident, Joon was continuing with his life and Tae, he unfortunately ran away and none of them know where he was, why he run away? “I wish I could turn back time and save my brothers”, “I wish I could make a treat to save them” Jin said as if someone was listening to him, but the only presence was the moon. Jin, dear Jin, what did you just wish? You don’t know sometimes the wishes come true and with consequences? think before you wish. The next day Jin was feeling weird, what was happening? everything looked different, everything was out of place. A book that he never saw before was in his bed, the book had an appearance of a very old book, as a title the of the book was with a very strange handwritten, he read the title “Butterfly effect and parallel universes”, the curiosity increased in Jin, he opened the book and started reading. “Butterfly effect A man travelled back in time to prehistoric ages and stepped on a butterfly, the universe was entirely different when he went back. The scientific theory of this effect is that a single occurrence, no matter how small, can change the course of the universe forever. Whatever the choice is, once they are chosen will affect one’s life greatly. Parallel universes Level 1: If you go far enough, you’ll get back home.
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This idea of the level 1 says that space is so big that the rules of probability imply that surely, somewhere else out there, are planets exactly like the Earth. In this level 1 parallel universe depends on two assumptions. ❖ The universe is infinite (or virtually so). ❖ Within an infinite universe, every single possible configuration of particles in a Hubble volume takes place multiple times. If you are asking if there is a way to turn back time and change the past to save someone you love. Yes, it’s possible, the butterfly effect works, just by stepping on a butterfly. But, let me remind you who is reading this: Once you choose between two options, there’s no scape, the world will change and other consequences will come to your life. Be careful.” Jin was completely shocked, first of all why this book appeared at the morning in his bed when in the night it wasn’t there? Second, this book showed an idea to travel back time to change actions, like this book was for him to know the solution to his thoughts about changing the past to save his friends and also himself. He was with a loop in his head, spinning and spinning about what he will choose, saving his friends but with other dangerous consequences? Or leaving them and things continuing with this path. The only thing to do and went back time was very easy, just stepping in a butterfly, but what if the consequences become worst? What if he makes an error and the present is even worse? Probably he will have to repeat the process, saving over and over his friends. Jin was like the father of the guys, like the older brother and he had a biggest love for his friends. He was feeling guilty, he wanted to save everyone and turn back the time to become the best man in the world. He will do it, he will save his friends no matter what consequences this could bring. “He too was a tempter. He too was a link to the second, the evil world with which I no longer wanted to have anything to do.” Jin was ready, he was ready to start a hurricane only because he wanted to save his brothers. He held a blue butterfly in his hand, with 6 white petals of a beautiful flower, that symbolize his friends. He stepped carefully in the beautiful butterfly, he closed his eyes and in the other second he was in his room, not the
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room of the house he was actually living, no, he was in the room of the flat he used to share with his friends. His heart was beating so fast, the beats increased when someone knocked the door. He opened more his eyes, and shaking. He opened the door and behind the door was Jung, with a smile in his face. “Hi Jin! Everyone is waiting for you to go to the beach, why did you sleep a lot? Common! let’s go! Oh, no, the chaos has started. Jin was worried, how will he change the actions of all of his friends? He will probably have started with Jung, saving him from the car accident, but how? Jin didn’t know where the car accident was, at what time or why does this happen. He knew it was after this day, just this. The story of the beach repeat, Jin was feeling weird for obvious reasons, he was living again this
day. The day after, Jin didn´t run away when Tae and he started fighting and hitting eachother because Tae was drunk, when he entered to the house and started searching his clothes and bags. Jin didn’t run, he just wait there, with Hoseok and Jimin, taking care of the hits. The first change, the first decision was done. The next moment was the fight between YoonGi and Jung, at this moment Jin realized why did Jung ran away and had the car accident, they were fighting for a reason Jin didn’t know, a big mistake to try to fix the car accident without knowing the reason of the fight. Jung ran away after he hit YoonGi in the lip, YoonGi was in the floor. Jin followed Jung, and here it was, he saw Jung been hited by other guys in the street, the next moment Jung ran through the street, Jin saw the car and run to push Jung. The second change, a second consequence. Jung was save. This moment was so frightening, Jung and Jin were in shocked, but Jin was happy because he save one of his friend. But, what about Tae? What about YoonGi? He didn’t fix this problem, and if there is a mistake, there is a consequence. Jin had to travel to the present again and see the consequences, and again go back time to fix every little problem. Jin was in the present, again, and the consequence was even worse, when he go to see his sister, she ran through the street to hug his brother and… she was hit by a car. Jin was shocked, he was shaking, Jung was alive, he was okay, but because of his mistakes, his sister was not.
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He changed his clothes again and travel again back time, he was there, again, Tae was drunk, he was running from someone, Jin asked him why, and Tae exploded again, he start shouting. Tae run away, again, Jin couldn’t do anything. The next step was saving YoonGi and Jung, he run immediately where they were, when he entered, they were starting to shout. Jin separated them and started talking to them. The reason? YoonGi was becoming addicted to smoke, to be drunk and don’t care of his life. Jung ran away again, but at least they don’t hit eachother. Jin followed Jung and save him for the second time of the car accident. But, dear Jin, what about Joon? he didn’t appear that day. Jin, as if someone was speaking to him asking for Joon, he realize that if he wanted to fix everything he had to search for everyone. If he doesn’t do that the consequences will be worse and worse. Where was Joon? Jin was afraid, he didn’t realize that when he try to “save” Jung, Tae and YoonGi, he didn’t search for Joon or even worse. He didn’t search Jimin, Hoseok or Joon. Oh, no, Jin, the consequences will be more. Jin started the day again, he notice Joon and Tae going out of the house in the middle of the night. Where are they going? Jin get up the bed and go behind them. He saw them drinking, making graffiti in the streets and then running away from the police. Why does his friends do this? Jin go where they were running and where they hide, but he didn’t say something, he just followed them till they return home. When they return they go to sleep, but, what is the problem? The next day he realized Tae was arguing with Joon, then he ran away. There’s something Jin didn’t saw, he didn’t know that Tae go to his father house, he found his sister been hit by his own father. Tae was drunk, Tae wasn’t in his 5 senses, Tae entered to the room and hit his father, Tae stabbed his father, Tae killed his own father. He run away, he hide, crying and realizing everything he do. Tae call Joon, and Joon didn’t answer, nobody answered to his signs of help. Jin lost the path of his friend and returned to search Joon in his work, when he arrived to the gas station, he saw Joon, Joon was lost, he was drunk, running away from the reality, running away from growing. Scaping from his friends. Jin was confused, he didn’t know what to do. He returned back to home and see Hoseok in the floor, with Jimin by his side, crying. “what is happening?” Jin asked, Jimin pointed to the pills in the hand of Hoseok, Jin understand everything. Jin was in problems, he doesn’t know what to do. But, Jin, did you think about yourself? About the love to yourself and the love to others? Do you know everyone is afraid of growing? And the most important, do you know everyone is not pure when they grow up? Everyone of his friends need help, they need to realize how much is important to grow and love yourself. And Jin, you cannot fix that.
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How many times did Jin make mistakes and change clothes when he didn’t succeed? He even had a pile of clothes showing how many times he tried and tried. 30th of August. Jin was tired, he tried and tried. He fixed some of the problems, but he couldn’t fix the damage of the love that his friends didn’t know to embrace by themselves. What if the only problem was someone of them? Jin thought about that. Maybe there is someone who cannot be saved, someone who carry the devil behind like if they were his wings. That someone is Tae, he was the devil. Jin give up for now, he destroyed the butterfly effect, as if it was the solution. But, did he not read or understand about the parallel universes? Did he forget that? And that destroying this butterfly effect is a door to the parallel universes, where your doppelgangers hide, where they live. Oh, dear Jin, what did you do? “Through many seasons pass, there are places that cannot be reached, yet another storm to be faced and to be weathered head-on. Loving without fear, hesitating and parting. Merely living as the person I am.”
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Memoir
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Poem 2 Serendipity. How can I start writing about this? One day I can be grateful for my life, one day I can change what I say Today, gratefulness is what I feel For being alive another day Grateful for having my family, for them being healthy And my loved ones being alive Can everything change? Life its too short and random Tomorrow life can take a part of me I don’t know if its sea or desert If it’s hope or despair
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POEM OF LOVE The cruelty of love I bloom for you, but you make me sad, just burn me out, Keep pushing me away, I want to stop, But still the love I feel, keep attaching me to you Why am in love alone, why am I hurting alone? Because of you I’m becoming ruined You’re so beautiful, just like love in first sight, Just like a pure love.
Even if I’m drying out, I try harder to reach you Reach us, reach our love I know your love is not real, that’s not the way it feels How can I love someone else if I don’t love myself first? Maybe that’s why I’m attached to you, to feel something Even if its not love, I want to be beside you It’s the love I feel or the feeling to don’t feel alone? Maybe the habit to be with you Tell me what’s love.
YOU
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Play plot and cast
Stigma It is said the devil and the good is predestinated to hate each other and go to different paths until one of them wins the game they play. But what if the most beautiful, pure and good princess falls in love with the most horrible creature (as many people said) in the world? Will both of them learn with each other? Or only one of them will win?
Princess: Brown hair, blue eyes. Princess of the town Cheshire, London.
Kaya Scodelario. “Horrible Creature�/darkness prince: Blonde hair, blue eyes, 1.78 cm tall, lives in the darkness side of the woods in London, the darkness prince.
Kim Taehyung
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Fiance of the princess
Green eyes, Brown hair. He is the fiance of the princess since she was born.
Colton Haynes
The wise of the town Blonde Hair, brown eyes, 1.80 cm tall. He is the wise of the town, friend of the princess and the darkness prince. Nobody knows that.
Kim Namjoon
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Many creatures of the delighted wood. (some of them: Fairies.
Mermaids
Elves
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Poem for my mom
My Dear Mom When I first met you, I had cried so much I couldn’t give you anything I just accepted more Mom, when I call your name… Why does my heart start to hurt like this? You are given so much for us You can’t give much more What can I give you in return? Mom, my dear mom Why are those tears streaming down your face? You are so precious…
You are my dear mom I may not remember your face when I first met you But till my last moments, I will remember you From the bottom of my heart… I will always love you
Mom, my dear mom When I call your name Why does my heart start to hurt like this? You are given so much for us You can’t give much more What can I give you in return?
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Epic Hero
Name: Min Sunmi She believes in the power and attributes that women have, an independent woman since she was little. Not only her power of strength gives her a powerful aura and soul. Her personality gives her more power. Fearless and with the need of protecting her loved ones, she once lost her power of strength but, with the power of love of everyone who surrounds she, she recovers them. When she started becoming even more mature, Yoon Ji Min realized not only her amazing strength matters or if its more powerful than the power of her personality and love for others, and most importantly the love to herself.
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Epic Hero Illustration
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Travel Writing. A day in the beach with my family, it was supposed to be a relaxing, joyful and free of illness, I was 8 years old. I was really excited because that was my firs time meeting an actual beach in real life. I remember we woke up really early, and I started to feeling a little bad when we were still in my house in Puebla I still wanted to go to the beach, so nothing stopped me, but, I saw something weird in my hands and arms I had little but annoying welts. I started to worry and I thought it was an allergy, but then my brother saw the welts, and he told us maybe it was chickenpox they started to tell me I should stay but I didn’t want. So, I went to Costa Esmeralda anyway. Mom- you should had stayed honey, the hot will affect you more. Dad- it’s better, the chickenpox will advance faster, and it is better. Joy- It’s my first time meeting an actual beach, I want to go, pleaseee Then the next thing I remembered is traveling to Costa Esmeralda while I was feeling bad, while we were out of the hot weather I was feeling better, but finally when we arrived I started to have problems, I start to get fever and the hot wasn´t helping at all, but I was feeling happy (even if I felt I was dying) when I finally were able to saw the sea. The welts started to annoy me more, they start to inch a lot and as expected more welts appeared. I just went out that day, the first day because the next days I was covered by welts of chickenpox, with fever, with sore throat and stomachache, (because welts also appeared inside me), I just enjoy one day, so, it wasn’t joyful at all.
That was my first journey to the beach, but also the first and last time I got ill with chickenpox, I’m grateful I get Ill when I was younger. Later on, when I wasn’t sick anymore, we went again to the beach (until Tajin) so I enjoyed it better.
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This year was my first time writing literature texts, at the first sight for me it was difficult and a little boring, I repeat to myself that writing wasn’t my thing, that I wouldn’t be able to write a text, that I had not imagination and so on. But, when I started writing I felt free and with the attitude for writing, even though it was still difficult to reflect something in my texts, and also with how I should transmit what I want. As time passed while I was writing I enjoyed it more, I was able to express myself. I had problems with writing in English, but I continue trying to write what I was required to give. I learned too much in this year, and writing was helpful, I can say that with writing I saw what I want to leave behind and what I want to became, maybe I’m still far about being what I want, but I can truthfully say that I’m leaving little by little my old me. With writing I’m free to express what I feel, what I want to say but I’m not able to say in person, writing is beautiful way to express ourselves, to transmit to others and be able to help them and most importantly… help ourselves. Maybe I’m not the best writer, but I want to continue writing not only the rest of high school, but the rest of my life.