DRA Through the eyes of a child
James Willis
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DRA Contents Inside Tears
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Thinking of you
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FlatLine
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A Mother’s Warmth
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Cold Nights
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Song Unwritten
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Man You Never Knew
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A rose by any other name
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If Heaven was a mile away
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Fame
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Heaven Number Line
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DRA A Mother’s Love
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Guardian Angel
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Daddy’s Forgotten Son
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America The Great
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Inspiration
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Man In the Moon
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Let Me Love You
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Through My Eyes
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Wishes
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DRA who will cry for the little boy? Lost and all alone. Who will cry for the little boy? Abandoned without his own?
Who will cry for the little boy? He cried himself to sleep. Who will cry for the little boy? He never had for keeps. Who will cry for the little boy? He walked the burning sand Who will cry for the little boy? The boy inside the man.
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Who will cry for the little boy? Who knows well hurt and pain Who will cry for the little boy? He died again and again. Who will cry for the little boy? A good boy he tried to be Who will cry for the little boy? Who cries inside of me
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As images still play in his head from his best and only friend Closed his eyes on his face and hands were blood darken color red Who will cry for the little boy?
Who experienced sex at such a young age
Only to be molested by his baby sitter when no one heard him say stop or scream
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Who will cry for the little boy who strives to be The best he can be
Who will cry for the little boy who travels the world alone
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Who struggled to get out and make it from street to street Who will cry for the little boy Who been to hell in back
Who will cry for the little boy
A good boy he tried to be Who will cry for the little boy? Who carries the world on his shoulders
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As he continues to cry for what is not seen Who will cry for the little boy? Who cries inside of me
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Thinking Of You I am always thinking of you 24/7, All day and all night. You took my pain away, And made the darkness become light. There’s no words, That can express the way i feel. Because you are so true, Which makes it feel real. When i listen to your voice on the phone, It brightens up my day. Your words so sweet, Causes all my pain to go away. Just talking to you, Calms my soul. Maybe being with you, Is one of my goals. But right now, I sit and think of you. Just sitting and wondering, About how beautiful you are too. Because beauty is beauty And beauty is true You are my heaven And that is true
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rushed into this bed whats wrong with me they r poking me with tubes someone help, i cant breathe they say get ready prep him for the o.r. call doctor so n so stat i am under Anastasia n my dream, i am fighting ail, beat him too racing at the sprint cup series in my arms i hold my daughter, we are playing in the park the wife come running to bring us lunch the sun is setting, its after dark. the moon is up, we are sitting under the stars by the sea, next thing I know three man n mask come n take them, no, no wait for me. then the next thing i remember is that im here on this table. i heard the doctor say he has multiple gun shots to the chest, all i could think no wait it cant be time I am have a wife n a daughter give me my time my heart is crashing doctors bring in the crash cart
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up to 300, clear nothing shock him again!!!! i watch my soul leave my body as i hear-ed her voice one more time, daddy i love u with a smile she said you’ll be just fine mommy waiting to can we get some ice cream please my wife says honey, i love u very much, i say to her u r my rock, my joints that keep me together my heart that beats the blood vestals that keep me warm through the stormy weather u r my counselor, my lover n my friend, u r my angel, my Adam’s rib my breath that never ends u r my better half forever n a day I am coming up with ya ll, i fought the best i could. she says i know baby u did good now grab our hand and together lets go home like we should ….he flat-line, time of death 18:23
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A Mother’s Warmth
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your an amazing mom, i bet your smile light up his moon at night and his morning sun. Your the warmth keeps him warm n the winter n hot n the spring, your laugh makes him feel joy like the joy of delicious chocolate chip cookies coming out of the oven. You are his dreams wen he sleeps, his night light when he scared, his heart that beats, the pillow that protects his head. You are an amazing mother,woman,sister,friend. He couldn’t ask for a better person for god to give him to then u. your son is lucky to be bless n wake up to see beautiful n angelic angel like u, you are the band aid wen he bleeds, the scar to heal his pan. There nothing like a mothers warmth that shine like warm wet rain. your the painting of Nigeria falls, the Mona Lisa smile, the four walls of a house, the shoes on his feet, you are a one n a million n i see the hard work u do. You are his heaven, everyday he wakes up n the clouds next to an angel who wraps her wings around him, he is lucky to have an amazing mom like u�
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cold nights n stormy days, cause for warm hearts and cuddle nights candle light and steamy showers cause long hot night and long Sexy hours. steamed windows, head up against the glass, watching your body bang up against the glass, cold days n stormy nights causes two hearts to grow into one whole one, full of love n passion cold nights are where the best love making happens cold nights and stormy day, make the worst relationships grow into stronger summer day’s
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U r the pen to a fresh sheet of blue bind-ed notebook paper, you are the blue pen that starts to write but don’t know were to start u r the thoughts on the first line, the lyrics that makes this song rhyme, u r the scratches when things don’t go right but the ambition to keep on going. u r the harmony that keeps these words stuck in someone head, the beat that matches just right that makes someone bump the head u r the hard works that pays off when you receive an award for me, u r the top downloaded single that over a million play in they poofs on repeat u r the feeling that u get when you do a platinum album the gussy feeling u get whenever u hear me and it relates to the things u r going through in life, u r the reason songs like me are rare, u r the feeling u get when the radio makes u number 1 u r that feeling someone gets when they r hugged up under the moonlight u r the “oh that’s my jam,” that makes someone groove,
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you are the wedding song, the song that makes u light up a smile wen you are in a shitty mood. u r the release date that sold-out stores, u r the reason Grammy exists for artist like u the “thank u god ” for all u do u r the reason we spend hours in the lab trying to perfect u r the song that has yet to be written titled unknown the finished copy of a true meaningful love song ”
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DRA Man You Never Knew
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I am the man that has your back I am the man who support u I am the man who pays yo dues The man u never knew… I am the man who would call you not out your name The man who would make u smile all the same I am the man who treats u like a queen The man of fairy tale dreams I am the skinny guy who cares but shows he wants to be there… I am the man u thought u never get to know, i let my actions show i am,the man who asks no question’s but gives his all to u I am the idiot who u ignore I am the man u afraid to take a chance on The one who secretly makes u smile I am the man that wants to be your Aladdin n u my Jasmine I am the man u pasted up, the guy who toes u step on 2, I am the man who good, very good to u I am the man u never knew
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DRA A rose by any other name
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A rose by any other name smell so sweet growing up I planted this seed in my mother’s garden with my mom and over the years I watched it go through hell and back Dry hot summer days and cold long stormy nights At times it felt like there would be no rain so that the water would absorb into the ground and into it’s roots Now I see how strong you’ve became and the obstacle’s you out grew You’ve out grown, poverty, hunger, and war, you’ve seen violence and still you manage to shine with a beautiful smile and so unique You stand tall and strong I hope you plant more seeds because as you sit in my window seal you stand firm and tall, your head held high ready to face any storm, you are what most are afraid to become some are stuck in the middle other’s come close and get lost on the way but you lead the way for other’s to follow without playing monkey in the middle Your pedals shine so bright when the sun shines, your rosy red color makes everyone stop and admire you
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your beauty outshines the moon glow and still at night your the only thing shinning as the stars reflect you Mom would be proud if she could see how wonderful you grew A rose by any other name has no other meaning except the word that starts with the letter= U
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Dear God I’m only 7 and I’m coming to you today my dog is sick and I need your help right away He been with me for as long as I can remember I remember when I was 5 he jumped on me and knocked me down all I can remember was someone yelling “Timber” Mommy says he has cancer Daddy sits in sadness all the time You know they say ” A dog is a man’s best friend” He used to enjoy running, chasing stray cats I remember this one time he ran away he was chasing after a squirrel and guess what the squirrel chased back. So God I am asking you to help me please I brought him to show and tell he licked and played with everyone the funny part was when he urine on Billy. He’s been with us for every Holiday Christmas was his favorite one of all
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I am a 22 year old rock star some people would say I have it made fans, glamor, music career, and a big house where I stay but if I could trade it all in just for a day I would give it to 3rd world countries and help stop poverty maybe come up with a way to cure cancer or AID’S I would teach business’s people in other countries how to help build a better business for there towns so that they could hire more people to work and help families grow I would start up a savings account for every child and help build and feed every home I would be Santa to the kids and bring them the best of gifts they could only dream and teach them that they can believe in their dreams and goals if they push and work hard enough, I would tell them that you can believe an anything that your imagination is the greatest gift you can have, because as long as you are creative and imaginative you can be better than what you had in the past If I could trade in being a rock star for a day I would help prevent homelessness because everyone makes mistakes
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I would cure the world from the disease of selfishness and hate If i could just have one day education would be free and health care would be for everyone families would grow together and love If i could do it all today the world would be a safer and better place, so maybe I’ll start tomorrow because today I have a show to play
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Waiting in Line sucks I’ve been hear for hours please will this line hurry up A voice says Son be patient because that is the key But I have a meeting with my son He’s the captain of his college baseball team He needs me, today is an important game It’s the National Series I remember when he was young and all he wanted to do was play catch with me man was I stupid I put work before my son and my family it was no wonder the wife and I fought all the time It was because of me The voice said Don’t blame your self I said but it’s true I was a big time lawyer that night is as clear now as the sky color blue I was leaving the office when the wife called and told me to bring home some dinner I had just receive a phone call about a defendant who was wrongly placed in prison and had to be release before Friday. I was trying to do everything at once
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I had to run back to the office and grab a hold of the clients file, my son’s baseball game was at 7 pm, all the while I had to make it home before 6 so I can help put food on the table. It was 5:30pm and I wasn’t sure I would be able So I rushed to the store and grabbed a few things we needed to eat, pizza, and some ice cream, a big bag of peanut m&m’s for me and a couple other things. As I was walking to my car, a man said to me ” hey are you, so and so” I said yes He nothing, then all I hear-ed were screams, I looked down and saw I was bleeding but I couldn’t see from where. The next thing I knew i was here So you see it’s important I need to reach him let me through please Son if you hear, I love U and your sister very much, I sorry I put the job before you and I’m sorry I’m not there today. You were the greatest son any father could ever ask for. Tell your mom I love her and if I could marry her all over again I would in a heart beat. Son hit a few home run’s for your old man. I’m watching over you every step of the way. Have a good game and become National Champs I’m sorry I couldn’t make it today
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A mother’s love Is always true It’s all you need To get you through A mother’s love Can seem like hate She’s only tough To keep you safe A mother’s love Is always there In simple ways She’ll show she cares A mother’s love Can never compare With anyone else’s Anywhere A Mother’s love, is sure to find
A way to comfort, ease your mind She knows just how, to build you up When you’re so down, and can’t look up You love the way, she makes you feel Like you’re so special, her ideal
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And as it flows, like gentle rain It surely helps, when troubles pain Comes your way A mother’s love Can never break a bond But mend all troubles and make the rain at night turn into sunshine It’s a dream catcher when you sleep She’s always there to catch my dreams especially the ones that scare me. A mother is strong, even when she weak It’s something untouchable given 24/hrs., 7 days of the week. A mother’s love Beats on the daily It’s the love she gives that guide you through the rough years on a daily A mother’s love Comes from God’s heart To spread through the world and its love starts with me from the start There isn’t just one day
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If Guardian Angels were real and could fly down to earth I’d ask to fly across the world during the night i’d fly high above the moon just have you in my presence’s you are my guardian angel my strength my passion, my creativeness, my joy, the feeling you get when someone inspires you my heaven on earth in more you are my joints that make me move, the lungs that help me breath the beats in my heart u r the world at its best everyday u r what the meaning of joy is and the feeling
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Dad had to work again late always at the office sometimes I wonder why he is still around I mean he is never there to watch me play he is always working sometimes I feel like i am just in the way i have to take care of the family read my sister a story at night so that she can sleep I have to comfort mom at night when she cries because she wondering if you will come home before she goes to sleep I got an A in all my classes I posted it on the fridge like old times hoping you see it and we’d hang out just the two of us and we would have fun times. So dad where are you when we need you most family comes first but I guess to you we are just Ghost
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America the great if the Statue of Liberty could speak I’m sure she would walk the world and take a look and say I thought I stood for Freedom but how could that be We are afraid of change we bully as a economic society we don’t come together as one selflessness is our main priority. The word freedom means to judge without color, gender, or sexuality, the government is so corrupt how can we create a better world without poverty when we can’t even get along in our own house or senate violence is out more in the streets then it is love in the homes, this isn’t freedom this is hell on earth continuing to go wrong, I’d traveled this world and see more money is being spent on things we don’t need instead of helping each-other to feed another and better each-other’s education, where is the root word Free What do I stand for because this isn’t freedom if you ask me How can we have a future if we are afraid to change
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What inspires me to write these poems is that I take a look at the world and see whats wrong both the good and the bad so that I can help change the world and make it a better place for our kid’s to grow for families to live to build better structured homes and help educate our kids what inspires me is everyday people who work hard to make ends meet who makes sacrifice’s for the things they want and go get what they need U inspire me to be a better writer to help change and bring to life what I see to help better America for the future and change the world You are what the definition of inspiration mean’s to someone like me
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When I was a little boy just around the age of 5 I believed in Santa, the Easter Bunny, Tooth Fairy’s, Jack Frost, the sand man you name it and I believed but no one told you about the Man In the Moon did they he watches you when you sleep he protects your home and everyone in it My mom told me about him when I was 2 years old because I was afraid of the dark and she said it’s ok the man in the moon can be your night light and help you dream He watches over the world at night and protects us from evil thing. You have to find your inner child if you want to believe In the man in the moon sometimes you wonder why the moon is so bright and only part of it when you look up in the sky you see that it is grey that is where he lives and he watching over you even on today
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Let me love love from day 2 night let me be the one 2 make u cry at night let me love u like no other can see let me love u the best way i know how,always and forever baby let me love u when your down let me show u that there’s no need for a frown let me huge u and hold u tight let me be the one u tell good night let me love u‌. like they do in the skys above let me love u with my unconditional love cause see baby im not like all these otha dudes see i wont hurt u,hit u or even call u names baby. let me be the one u think about let me be the one who u love with out a dout. let me get 2 see yo smile and beautiful face let me show u the best love in the world everyday let me love u always and forever and ever.�
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Through My Eyes if I could let me show you around the gates of hell but bear with me if your reading this it may get graphic On your right you have a woman having sexy and not giving a damn can’t blame it on the father or the mother it’s from the video that sex is the only way to get a man to your left you see a homeless man begging for something to eat oh and did you see that person drive away but a minute before he reached the light he pulled out $20’s like he was a g At the cross walk you see children with barely any flesh, a bowl made out of dirt and the only water they have to drink is the rain water Further on the tour you see a kid being bullied for his shoes his mom worked 3x as much over time just to get him and across the street you see drug deals being sold in a high school parking lot to a minor under the age of 14. Wait lets stop and watch the new since we have a little time on the tour 5 teens committed suicide, because word’s can cut worsen than you think
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Health insurance are rising, kids dropping out of school, Shall I continue the tour or have you had enough of seeing what I see the government taxes middle class so that the rich can become richer People killing people over shoes just last night a father killed his family over a situation gone bad at work. He brought his work home and killed every one he knew 8 year old girls being traded for sex on the black market banks being robbed everyday where is the love we are supposed to create please stop the hate and help love this tour has come to an end let change the future of the world and make it a safer and better place
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DRA A shooting star just passed me by or was it an airplane no it was def. a shooting star make a wish, make a wish my girl says I say did already she asked what was it I said wait and see that if you haven’t figured it out by now than your not ready.
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