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Article by :|: PATRICK MALBOROUGH Febuary 1st 2017
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BLAST - relaunched and re-imagined // 1915 WAR EDITION - 2017 CONFLICT EDITION \\ // Published by Middlesex University London, United Kingdom Editor \\ Laura Louise Baxter Orr Printed in MDX Repographics Copyright © :|: 2017 Article by Patrick Malborough Artwork by Shawn Coss Poets feature :|: Kash Poet Lleane Leon Lyrics :|: Masters of war // Bob Dylan
Interview :|: Sara M. Middlesex University Student
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// EDITORS INTRODUCTION In it’s centenary year our concern launch brand, fresh thinking new of creative dissent and subversive vitality BLAST will build upon it’s pioneering rationale and aims to inspire and enhance the student graphic design experience with interdisciplinary editorial assignments, and show case opportunities for both individual expression and collaborative creative enterprise across the University. Contemporary arts and subversive rigour will also inject exciting additional editorial content in line with the magazine’s overall mission to champion and celebrate the rebellious creative spirit. Underground publications/new writing blogs . BLAST 2016 will seek to exploit this opportunity amidst the seemingly endless reporting of conflict from 24 hour globalised news networks and other online sources - the 1915 WAR EDITION of BLAST feels increasingly contemporary. \\
Lyrics & Poems :|: Conflict
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Depression Steals Your Soul and Then it Takes Your Friends // Blast Centenery edition This issue of Blast has been focused on the theme of mental illness and the constan war inside a persons head \\ Includes Blast and Bless features of how i view the world.
Article by :|: PATRICK MALBOROUGH Febuary 1st 2017
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“Depression is a thief. It’ll rob you of your time, your thoughts, and your sense of self. But before all of that, it’ll take your friends.”
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depression operates ceaselessly at a low hum. A suicide is a loud clap that ripples through Tom and Marj Green Lonely Chair, Preston Castle, Ione, CA
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Subsequently, it’s hard for friends to know how to interact emotionally with depression, and especially as it spans such a longer time period.
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For me, the combination of bipolar, borderline personality disorder, and depression has manufactured a consistently brilliant cyanide capsule that I
borderline personality
clench between my teeth in any and every relationship. Sadly it’s almost a guarantee that eventually my friendships all get poisoned.
And I understand. For those around me it’s so much easier to cut off a friend who is persistently difficult, self-absorbed, nasty, unpredictable, and
decidedly other. And it’s even easier to cut off a friend if they cut themselves off first.
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I’ve run this story through my head a million times: one of my best friends—an unnaturally talented writer and a top bloke—slowly began to recede into himself. He cleared all his friends from Facebook, he stopped replying to calls and texts, and then he hauled himself up in his room like a hermit. We all knew what was happening. Friends kept messaging me: “Have you seen X? Is X okay? We should go and see X.”
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None of us ever went and saw X. That was two years ago and none of us have seen or talked to him since. He is not dead but he is gone.
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Losing a friend like this was like seeing a ghost pass through the two walls of a hallway—a kind of vanishing that leaves you feeling uncertain.
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Last year I slid back into my own d De ep pr e ss i v ve s l u m p , a n d b e g a n c o p y i n g a l l t h e s a m e b e h a v i o u r. Basically just self-isolating and burning bridges so that within s i x m o n t h s Ii ’’ d d llo osstt m mo orre e friends than someone who proudly boasts about voting for Jil Stein. || 024 ||
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You mute yourself for fear that your internal wailing will wreck the vibe for others.
Then this fear of wrecking the fun for others lays on a thick coating of guilt. Depressives—the mad in general—carry a lot of guilt. You wear a person down. Depression is a maelstrom with a sticky gravitational pull.
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You wear a person down. Depression is a maelstrom with a sticky gravitational pull. Loved ones who are all buoyancy, care, empathy, and concern,
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reciprocating, and we know this. So many times I have felt my tongue grow fat and unsteady with attempts to plop out a proper thanks.
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That thanks can be uncomfortable and embarrassing for a myriad of reasons. It is hard to tell your girlfriend that just by being there and watching cartoons with you they are keeping you alive, because that puts a certain weight on an otherwise innocuous afternoon. That also puts a burden on a person who doesn’t have—and shouldn’t have—the ability to carry you and cure the incurable.
I’ve found myself apologising to someone who loved me for being who and what I am, and there’s a steady erosion in interpersonal faith when one partner or friend is incapable of understanding the reason why the other would or could love them.
I hold a lot of fear that my gratefulness, or seeming lack thereof, would lead to an unending apology.
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I’ve told friends their company nauseates me, and told parents they’ve malformed my brain, and told the person I’ve loved that they’ve allowed me to rob a fraction of their life and that’s somehow made them guilty.
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If there’s one truth to depression it is that it is both wholly universal and fundamentally solipsistic. It refracts identity like a dark crystal, and what we are taught is a neurochemical experience felt by many, feels doggedly and unique and of your own. You can feel this so intensely that you can convince those closest to you that it’s the case. Then suddenly all parties understand you as a lost cause. Mental health campaigners consistently put forth the narrative of reaching out—for help and to help. Even though I agree that this is the best method, most people are not equipped to do this, and the guilt that springs up in the rift of that shortcoming is in itself highly destructive.
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The reason RUOK is one day a year is that most people only have so much patience for mental illness, and nine out of 10 normallos (or neurotypicals) think you are watching 13 hours of Frasier a day because you are slack. The disquieting reality is that depression alone cannot make a person disappear. Friends play a part in the disappearance. And that uncomfortable truth is the reason we do not have this conversation. Also because empathy is finite.
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I think that in accepting that neither sufferer nor witness are culpable we can all find some semblance of peace. In that hard admission we can see depression as the interloping thief that it is, and stay the flow of the mad and suffering from our lives.
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U N N E C E S SA RY K I L L I N G S TERRORISM
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U N N E C E S SA R Y WA R S “If we desire a society of peace, then we cannot achieve such a society through violence. If we desire a society without discrimination, then we must not discriminate against anyone in the process of building this society. If we desire a society that is democratic, then democracy must become a means as well as an end.”
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Why did you decide to do this particular course? I was always fascinated to study human science as I really enjoyed since I started to study science back in school and by studying biomedical science, I can extend my career pathway into medicine.
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I feel that I will do quite better in exams and I will extended my knowledge further by revising topics from the modules in biomedicine. It’s tough at times with a lot of revision, however i feel i have this in the bag.
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Biomedical science Are there any major goals for the near future after you graduate?
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After completing this degree I want to apply for postgraduate medicine so that I can progress into a career in health care or research and provide medical aid in different charity projects in developing countries.
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You’ve mention that there has been a lot of exams recently. How would you feel you will do in the exams?
Do you have any doubts on reaching these goals? The main doubt is the competition in medical field but I feel that if I have a strong belief in my self I can fulfil my goals by working harder.
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What do you feel most proud of till date? At the moment I feel proud by working harder and completing my weekly goals from commuting a long journey to university by keeping myself motivated more .
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Have you experienced any kind of conflict?
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“No, I haven’t so far.”
What’s the first thing that come’s to mind when you hear the word conflict?
“It’s like a disagreement between two parties or a barrier between them.”
What keeps you grounded, when there is a lot of negativity and stress around you? “I don’t talk to anyone when there is a lot of stress because at that time I want calm my self and get ready to face any situations that comes on me.”
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#Inktober
Every year thousands of artists get involved with Inktober, where for 31 days of October, you ink a drawing for each day.
Shawn Coss Illustrated Mental Illness And Disorders For Inktober
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I decided to go off the usual prompt and focus on mental illnesses and disorders.
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“IInfuse your life with action. Don’t wait for it to happen. Make it happen. Make your own future. Make your own hope. Make your own love. And whatever your beliefs, honor your creator, not by passively waiting for grace to come down from upon high, but by doing what you can to make grace happen... yourself, right now, right down here on Earth.”
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SUFFOCATED Suffocated
My biggest fear is to be alone with my thoughts,
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Swallowed whole by my mistakes,
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Stalked by what could’ve been, what should’ve been,
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And being eaten alive by the insecurity I mask day by day,
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To be surrounded by the past,
I guess it can be said that my biggest fear is myself,
The person that hides behind the red lips, the soft brown eyes, Who smiles when internally she cries for help,
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You put a gun in my hand
And I see through your brain
You that build the big guns
And you hide from my eyes
Like I see through the water
You that build the death planes
And you turn and run farther
That runs down my drain
You that build all the bombs
When the fast bullets fly
You that hide behind walls
You fasten all the triggers
You that hide behind desks
Like Judas of old
For the others to fire
I just want you to know
You lie and deceive
Then you set back and watch
I can see through your masks
A world war can be won
When the death count gets higher
You want me to believe
You hide in your mansion’
But I see through your eyes
As young people’s blood
You that never done nothin’ But build to destroy You play with my world Like it’s your little toy
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Flows out of their bodies And is buried in the mud
//Masters of war You’ve thrown the worst fear
But there’s one thing I know
And I hope that you die
That can ever be hurled
Though I’m younger than you
And your death’ll come soon
Fear to bring children
That even Jesus would never
I will follow your casket
Into the world
Forgive what you do
In the pale afternoon
For threatening my baby
And I’ll watch while you’re lowered
Unborn and unnamed
Let me ask you one question
Down to your deathbed
You ain’t worth the blood
Is your money that good
And I’ll stand over your grave
That runs in your veins
Will it buy you forgiveness
‘Til I’m sure that you’re dead
Do you think that it could How much do I know
I think you will find
To talk out of turn
When your death takes its toll
You might say that I’m young
All the money you made
You might say I’m unlearned
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What are the characteristisc of conflict? C o n f l i c t d o e s n o t j u s t a p p e a r.
Conflict evolves.
C o n f l i c t i s l i ke a v i r u s w h e n i t a p p e a r s i t b e g i n s t o s p r e a d l i ke c r a z y.
Conflicts are bred by differing values. Conflict is energized through opposing interests. Conflict is fueled by poor communications. Conflict is festered by incompatible goals. Conflict intensifies when trust breaks down. Conflicts are encouraged by differing personalities.
Co n f l i c t s a re a re a l i t y !
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