Are We Numbing Our Lives Away?

BY GREGG VANOUREK

Our numbing can entail shopping, gambling, eating, or sex—or even with excessive exercising or cleaning. Some of these, like exercise, can be healthy in moderation but become problematic when done excessively.

Increasingly, we’re seeing what I call “power-numbing” engaging in several numbing behaviours at the same time, such as drinking, texting, and scrolling while binge-watching. (My friend Renae Jacob calls it “multivicing.”)

The point isn’t that we have to stop doing all these things. Some can be done in moderation or even often. The key is choosing which behaviours serve us and not letting ourselves unconsciously numb swaths of our life away. The point isn’t to deprive ourselves of pleasures but rather to stop escaping from our lives.

A key consideration is the severity of the behaviour in question. Our numbing behaviours can range from mild or moderate to severe, and at the further end of that spectrum lies addiction.

Addiction and Numbing

In her book, The Gifts of Imperfection, researcher Brene Brown describes addiction as “chronically and compulsively numbing and taking the edge off of feelings.”

According to researchers, having an addiction disorder entails losing our ability to choose freely whether to stop or continue a behaviour. An addiction leads to adverse consequences when we engage in it, such as problems with our life or work roles, financial loss, emotional trauma, dangerous situations, or bodily injury or impairment. Meanwhile, when we stop the behaviour abruptly, it often leads to irritability, anxiety, feelings of helplessness or hopelessness, or depression.

In essence, addiction is an attempt to use shortcuts to feeling good, but it doesn’t work. Many factors can fuel addictions, including trauma, addictive medications, genetic disposition, sexual and gender stresses, and related disorders that coincide with the addiction.

Unfortunately, addictions are common, and they can lead to other addictions as well. According to the Addiction Center, nearly 21 million Americans have at least one addiction, yet only 10% of them receive treatment.

The National Center for Drug Abuse Statistics reports the following about addiction in the U.S.:

• Of the nearly 140 million people 12 and older who drink alcohol, more than 20% of them suffer from alcohol abuse or addiction

• 25.4% of all users of illicit drugs suffer from drug dependency or addiction

• Drug abuse and addiction cost more than $700 billion annually in healthcare expenses, crimerelated costs, and lost workplace productivity

• About half of individuals with a diagnosed mental illness will also struggle with substance abuse at some point in their lives, and vice versa

...statistics dictate that there are very few people who haven’t been affected by addiction. I believe we all numb our feelings. We may not do it compulsively or chronically, which is addiction, but that doesn’t mean that we don’t numb our sense of vulnerability.

- Brene Brown, Daring Greatly

The problem isn’t confined to substance abuse. Technology is also a big culprit these days, with giant tech companies creating addictive products and bigdata algorithms adept at capturing our attention and rewiring our brains. Think of how quickly we’ve handed over huge chunks of our days—and thus our lives—to devices and screens.

When it comes to smartphones, according to Zippia Research in 2022:

• The average American spends 5 hours and 24 minutes on their mobile device daily

• Americans check their phones 96 times per day, on average (once every ten minutes)

• 47% of people believe they’re addicted to their phones

• 71% of people admit to checking their phone within the first ten minutes of waking up

Imagine walking into a control room with a bunch of people hunched over a desk with little dials, and that that control room will shape the thoughts and feelings of a billion people. This might sound like science fiction, but this actually exists right now, today... Right now it’s as if all of our technology is basically only asking our lizard brain what’s the best way to impulsively get you to do the next tiniest thing with your time, instead of asking: in your life, what would be time well spent for you?

– Tristan Harris, Executive Director, Center for Humane Technology

According to recent research on binge-watching:

• 73% of Americans admit to binge-watching video content

• The average binge lasts three hours and eight minutes

• 90% of millennials and members of Generation Z binge-watch

• 70% of Americans aged between 30 and 44 often binge-watch TV shows or films

• 26% of those aged 18 to 29 binge-watch TV every day

Why We Numb

Numbing behaviours are essentially avoidance mechanisms. There are many factors behind our numbing impulses. Here are 12 common factors:

1. pain

2. anxiety

3. disconnection from others—and its related feelings of loneliness and isolation

4. feelings of unworthiness

5. discomfort with uncertainty

6. stress caused by competing demands on our time

7. feelings of emptiness

8. the hurt from feeling unseen

9. disappointment at ourselves for not being able to handle everything perfectly

10. the sense that we’re living a life in which we’re not true to ourselves

11. trauma

12. abuse

Beneath the discomfort that we’re escaping are fears— fears of failing or struggling or looking bad or feeling unworthy.

We can also have urges to numb if we have a deadening job that’s boring, monotonous, and lacking opportunities for autonomy and initiative—or if our work lacks purpose, connection, or opportunities for development and recognition.

The Problem with Numbing

Numbing is a short-term defence mechanism that can end up making things worse for us. It can lead to financial and health problems as well as fights with loved ones or broken relationships (sometimes because we lash out at others when our pain finally surfaces after being repressed).

When we numb, we may feel flat, both physically and emotionally, and become distant or detached from others, perhaps preferring isolation, which can lead to loneliness and despair. We may lose interest in activities we used to enjoy and stop being present in our own lives. Numbing can also diminish our motivation and creativity.

An unintended side effect of our numbing is that it works in both directions. Numbing difficult emotions such as pain and sorrow also numbs our experiences of happiness and joy.

We can’t selectively numb emotion. Numb the dark and you numb the light.

- Brene Brown, Daring Greatly

Also, we may need more and more of the numbing behaviour to feel good, setting us up for trouble down the road.

We may not notice that there are also indirect “opportunity costs” of our numbing behaviours—the value of what we could have been doing if we weren’t numbing. Instead of working excessively or bingewatching, what if we were connecting more with loved ones, reading a great book, learning a new language or musical instrument, getting our hands dirty with gardening, visiting new places, gazing at the stars, or reveling in the richness of being alive?

When we numb, we walk away from ourselves.

- Andrea Owen, How to Stop Feeling Like Sh*t

What to Do About It

Fortunately, there are many things we can do to reduce our numbing behaviors and mitigate their impacts. Here are many useful approaches:

Recognise that our bodies are trying to speak to us through our emotions. Our emotions can serve an important role as signals or warnings, but only if we pay attention to the. But numbing deprives us of the chance to do so.

Realise that we started numbing for a reason—and reflect to discover what that reason was. Are we feeling overwhelmed at work, or conflicted between our home and work roles, or powerless to help someone we care about?

Notice our numbing behaviours. Be curious about what thoughts and feelings lead to an urge to numb: Why? Where is it coming from? What are we trying to avoid? What lesson or insight might it hold for us?

In The Gifts of Imperfection, Brene Brown recommends asking if the numbing behavior (e.g., drinking, overworking, etc.) stops us from being emotionally honest, feeling like we’re enough, setting boundaries, and connecting with others. Consider whether we’re using it to escape from our lives.

Name the feelings that cause us to want to numb (e.g., overwhelm, shame, loneliness, despair). Sometimes getting clarity and understanding can open the door not only to relief but also to important insights and hope for improvement.

Take time to feel what we’re feeling—what author Andrea Owen calls “controlled emoting”—and accept our feelings as worthy. Learn how to feel our feelings instead of numbing or dismissing them. Accept ourselves fully without judging ourselves and thinking we’re bad when we have certain thoughts.

Sit with our pain, leaning into it. Connect with it and acknowledge it instead of fleeing it. Though many of us were taught to avoid or suppress emotional pain, that only makes things worse. Our pain is there for a reason, and we can handle it better when we allow ourselves to feel and process it and then, eventually, to let it go as it moves through us.

Talk about our feelings with a trusted friend or trained counselor or therapist. Choose one who can listen attentively and empathetically without trying to fix us. (See the end of this article for a list of support resources.)

Trust that we’ll be okay. Recall all we’ve experienced and overcome in the past.

Take a break from our go-to numbing behaviours, such as social media or streaming shows.

Leo Babauta, founder of Zen Habits, recommends setting a “practice container” to address numbing with the following steps:

1. Decide on a practice period for addressing our numbing (e.g., a weekend).

2. Define our limits, the things we’re not allowed to do during the practice period (e.g., no video games or social media).

3. Identify the triggers that cause us to start numbing.

4. Choose what we’ll allow. Create small containers for things we need to do but within prescribed limits (e.g., doing emails in batches, three times a day of twenty minutes each, only during weekdays).

5. Define our practice—the things we’ll do when we’re feeling numbing urges. For example, it can be pausing to noticing what we’re feeling, giving ourselves a minute to experience those emotions, and being open toward those feelings.

6. Commit to others. Share our practice container plan with trusted friends and ask them to help us with it and hold us accountable.

7. Report daily. Report on our activities and progress to our trusted friends, and ask them to check on us if we’ve gone radio silent.

(Source: Leo Babauta, “Refraining from Letting Ourselves Numb Out,” Zen Habits)

Choose to do something productive instead of numbing. Go for a walk to clear our head or try journaling. Choose something we enjoy and that adds value to our lives.

Recognise that the addiction wants us to isolate from others. That’s the worst thing we can do. Numbing behaviours tend to thrive in secrecy, so we must bring them to light.

Pray for help in facing and healing our pain, particularly with chronic numbing behaviours or addictions that feel overwhelming. (For those struggling with addiction, consider support groups such as Alcoholics Anonymous—and see more below— and their guiding principles such as the 12 Steps.)

Serve others, even in small ways. Contributing to others can take us out of a wallowing self-focus and give us a chance to feel good about helping people, even via small acts of support or kindness.

Conclusion

As humans, we all feel pain and discomfort, so it’s understandable that we’re tempted to escape it via numbing. We need to learn, though, that too much numbing makes things worse, not better.

Avoiding gets us nowhere.

Anesthetising is a temporary salve.

Escaping doesn’t help at all.

Better instead to turn and face the discomfort, listen to what it’s telling us, and do something about it—ideally, with help from others. Going it alone isn’t wise, so we need to get better at asking for help and letting people experience the satisfaction of helping us.

The alternative to numbing is experiencing life more fully and addressing the inevitable challenges we face head-on.

Reflection Questions

1. To what extent are you numbing with screens, work, substances, or other escapes from your thoughts and feelings?

2. What’s driving those behaviours?

3. How will you start to break the cycle?

Tools for You

• Traps Test (Common Traps of Living) to help you identify what’s getting in the way of your happiness and quality of life

• Quality of Life Assessment to help you discover your strongest areas and the areas that need work and then act accordingly

• Personal Values Exercise to help you clarify what’s most important to you

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Gregg Vanourek is an executive, changemaker, and awardwinning author who trains, teaches, and speaks on leadership, entrepreneurship, and life and work design. He runs Gregg Vanourek LLC, a training venture focused on leading self, leading others, and leading change. Gregg is co-author of three books, including Triple Crown Leadership (a winner of the International Book Awards) and LIFE Entrepreneurs (a manifesto for integrating our life and work with purpose and passion).