Unstable emotions

Some days I felt the weight of dull sadness creeping in. Feeling that something was not quite right. We are going back to the stricter Phase 2 of re-opening up of activities because of the uptick in community infections. Social gathering group size is going to be 5 instead of 8. We are backtracking.

I am frustrated at why it was so difficult to defeat this virus. I am annoyed at why some people caught the virus and wondered how they got them. I tried to search for answers to pin blames if they were careless with keeping to safe measures. One year on from Circuit Breaker lockdown and we have not gotten a grip on keeping the virus at bay.

At times, I felt I was too unrealistic. People do not wish to be infected with Covid-19. It just happened. They deserve the best medical care when recuperating.

Yesterday, I felt serene. There was only 1 community case that day. My hope rises again that maybe, we are going to be alright.

Then the number of daily infections reached a new record for India today. I fear that India is losing the battle.

Such is the roller coaster ride of emotions. More days bad and lesser days good. When will I see the reverse of this?