LIVING AS YOUR HERO Moving on from sexual abuse
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Published by Living As Your Hero www.livingasyourhero.com Third Edition October 2014 978-0-9571951-4-1 Š Shereen Lincoln
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FOREWORD CONTENTS Family law and the legal protection of children has come a long way since the Cleveland Inquiry of 1987. Even so, children in vulnerable Page circumstances still represent a challenge to all of us who would wish - teachers, parents, social workers, relatives, 1 to protect A them POSITIVE IMAGE OF YOU lawyers and all of those who work within the remit of the Family
5 OVERVIEW ABUSE Courts. Putting children first is a worthy aspiration, yet day after day we see cases where the system has failed to deliver on this
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CARE, PREPARE & PLAN 1 LOOKING AFTER FEELINGS
14 as yourPREPARING FOR A guide LEGAL Living Hero is one person’s to CASE helping people who suffered abuse as children without receiving any protection at the
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CARE, PREPARE & PLAN 2 PUTTING ACROSS THE BEST is a simple and loving one. Be the person you truly are and then OF YOURSELF
time, and who are now living with the consequences. The message decide whether or not to seek redress for past misdeeds.
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Shereen Lincoln writes from personal experience of the extent to
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which the legal system can help. Equally she is honest about its limits. inner self development to overcome 37 She argues V.E.P:forcibly VERYfor ENCOURAGING PEOPLE
the traumas of an abused childhood as much as for the prosecution
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AUTHOR’S JOURNEY
This is both a guide and a reflection. It will be invaluable to all those who seek a better understanding of what childhood abuse means, and how we deal with its traumatic effects. As Sub-Treasurer of an Inn of Court I know this will extend to all the Lawyers and Judges who work in this field. Patrick Maddams FRIBA Honorary Society of The Inner Temple - July 2012
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CONTENTS Page
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A POSITIVE IMAGE OF YOU
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OVERVIEW ABUSE
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CARE, PREPARE & PLAN 1 LOOKING AFTER FEELINGS
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PREPARING FOR A LEGAL CASE
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CARE, PREPARE & PLAN 2 PUTTING ACROSS THE BEST OF YOURSELF
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SOLICITORS
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LIFE AFTER COURT
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V.E.P: VERY ENCOURAGING PEOPLE
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RESOURCES
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AUTHOR’S JOURNEY
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‘‘What a Hero!’ we say when someone sees danger and successfully guides people to safety. In this booklet the same name is given to people who strive against the physical and psychological harm of childhood sexual abuse by learning to protect themselves from its effects. From my own and others experience with this far reaching crime, there is much heartache about how unfair it was for an adult to steal our childhood. Finding peace and moving on is often a much longer journey than pursuing a court case. Fortunately we do not have to wait for justice to be served by someone else before we can balance and improve our lives; each time we act responsibly, remember to uphold emotional rights and strengthen our support networks we create a more rewarding, safe and humane way to live.
Positive change can start when sexual abuse stops… reporting it gives everyone opportunities for better.
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A POSITIVE IMAGE OF YOU
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Our subconscious mind is powerful as it takes what we believe, whether positive or negative, and moves us in that direction. Make this work in your favour! Take a few moments to create a picture of yourself that is fulfilled and as you do, imprint it deeper into your mind by listening to a favourite piece of music and/ or releasing your favourite scent. Take a few deep breaths then imagine …You…living happy and content… Where is it? What is around you? Is anyone with you? What objects, colours, sounds, smells come to mind? Picture it happening now at the age you are? From time to time, review this exercise and be open to change; as your experience grows your ideas and needs can change.
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Make a start! Draw and or write your answers below titled ‘My fulfilled self!’ You can always expand to a bigger piece of paper later if you like.
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DAILY ROUTINE Abuse denied your right to choose what happened to your body and your life. Recovery reclaims it. Make it your daily business to say, hear, think, focus in ways where you invest in the best way to see yourself. This could be through your reading, therapy, spiritual practice, personal development, writing or art. There are so many admired people from around the world who turned their lives around by doing exactly that. Join them! Daily effort leads to bigger results!
PERSONAL EXPERIENCE Twice a day, morning and evening I affirm the power of my life to create anew. Each time I decide to invest in more loving, empowered attitudes about myself, the more energetic I feel - bigger and stronger than the low regard I was treated with. Sometimes the effort makes only 1% difference in that moment to outweigh my negativity or sorrow but I can see and feel how greater strength, confidence and peace have grown within me through doing so and how I don’t react to situations in the same way any more.
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OVERVIEW ABUSE
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WHO ARE ABUSED? 1 in 6 young adults said they had been sexually abused before they had reached 16. 33% said the crime happened more than once and 60% said it happened after violence in their family. The most common age group to experience this crime is 5 years to 14 years. WHO ARE ABUSERS? 8 out of 10 children know their abusers; e.g. family members, friends, neighbours babysitters; some hold positions of trust, many are even in relationships with another adult. They are all skilled in building then breaking trust. WHAT IS ABUSE? Child sexual abuse includes touching and non-touching behaviour. Touching abuse •
Touching a child’s private parts, or genitals
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Put things inside the mouth, anus or private parts of a child
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Forcing a child to touch someone sexually
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Forcing a child to have sex with either an adult or other children
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Non touching abuse Encouraging children to:•
watch pornography,
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look at adults' genitals,
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be photographed in sexual poses,
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be watched unnecessarily while going to the toilet
Other forms of abuse and neglect •
Somebody knows about abuse but fails to take action to stop it.
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Using tricks or threatening others to keep a secret
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Involving others to hurt someone
EFFECTS OF ABUSE Difficulty to express painful emotions and change unwanted behaviours which can lead to: •
Self harm or mutilation
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Sexual and relationship problems
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Abuse of drugs and alcohol
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Involvement in crime
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Depression
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Eating disorders
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Suicidal tendencies
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Antisocial behaviour
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Lack of anger management
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OTHER EFFECTS MAY LEAD TO: Flashbacks and nightmares You may find memories of the abuse will suddenly appear, be it during the day or in recurring nightmares Shame and guilt You may blame yourself for the events; suffer from low self-worth or feel too embarrassed to get help. Intense anger Often directed at the abuser this emotion may appear out of nowhere, especially if you haven’t seen them for a while. (You may have feelings of wishing to confront them or completely ignore and avoid them). The anger may feel more general. Difficulty with intimacy You may find that you form very intense intimate relationships or even that you avoid them altogether.
Lists of sexual offences after 1st May 2004 www.legislation.gov.uk/ ukpga/2003/42/contents or before May 2004 www.legislation.gov.uk/ukp ga/Eliz2/4-5/69/contents
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Difficulty to take care of self, even hating own body Scared of becoming an abuser; of being rejected for speaking truth or accused of lying. Alone You may feel completely alienated and isolated by the events of your past and expect them to stay that way. Feel dirty, ruined, without hope Untrusting of adults, especially if someone appears too familiar.
Healthy sexual relationships involve Consent, Respect, Consideration, Willingness to hear feelings
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CARE, PREPARE & PLAN 1 LOOKING AFTER FEELINGS
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ANGER Deep anger for the way you were treated in childhood is understandable. Finding healthy constructive ways to vent these feelings is essential for your wellbeing. Tick the actions that could help you channel anger and answer the question: Actions
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Who or what do you need to do them?
Write a diary Exercise Paint Attend a self development workshop Support a group that is making positive efforts about a world issue Talk, with a close friend or a counsellor (Sometimes strangers are easier to talk to. Look on the Resources page for contacts)
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GRIEVING It is not unusual to feel sadness and a sense of loss for your stolen childhood. You need to let the feelings out and not be afraid that once you do they won’t stop. Learn to welcome these tears; as you allow them out, you should begin to feel more in control. What makes crying more comfortable? Circle your favourites
A private place Time with friend or a Counsellor
Watching a sad movie
Wrapping up in duvet Balm tissues
Hot water bottle
Teddy Bear
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COMPLETE THESE SENTENCES Calming down is easier when: Hearing the sound of watching/looking at
. Thinking about
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. Tasting
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Personal Experience My preferences are to walk in nature, swim, relax in a hot bath with sweet smelling oils, massage and dancing. A little effort in my weekly routine keeps a balance that aids recovery.
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PREPARING FOR A LEGAL CASE
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LEGAL JUSTICE We each have a responsibility for our actions towards each other. Inflicting harmful behaviour on each other is not acceptable and the laws are created to punish those who do. Reporting childhood sexual abuse gives opportunities to create positive change and ensure the harmful behaviour stops.
POLICE POLICE Which is the best department to contact? Which is the best department to contact? Contact the local police station nearest to where the Contact the local police station nearest to where the crime occurred and officers from the specialist Child crime occurred and officers from the specialist Child Protection Unit (CPU) will speak with you about any Protection Unit (CPU) will speak with you about any past or present childhood sexual abuse. To locate your past or present childhood sexual abuse. To locate local station call 101 or click http://www.met.police. your local station call 101 or click http://www.met. uk/local/index.htm police.uk/local/index.htm Where can you speak to the police? Where can you speak to the police? In your own home or at the local police station nearest In where your own at the local police station to thehome crimeor occurred. nearest to where the crime occurred. Who can be with me?
What happens while I speak to the police? It's ok for someone you trust to stay while you speak to police; this can someone know an Itsthe ok for someone youbetrust to stayyou while youorspeak Independent Violence Advisor (ISVA), based to the police;Sexual if you don’t know someone or they are at stations, Assault Referral Centres notpolice available, thenSexual you could ask for someone from (SARCs) and Rape Crisis. Lists of ISVAs are available Victim Support or an Independent Sexual Violence through ‘rape acrisis’ ‘theassault Survivors Trust’ websites. Advisor from local and sexual centre. Victim Support can also help (see resources)
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What happens while I speak to the Questions will be asked to help you police? give the fullest description of what happened and will be recorded Questions will be asked to help you give the fullest either on paper or tape. This document will be called description of what happened and will be recorded your witness statement. You will have the chance either on paper or tape. This document will be called to check that it is accurate before signing the final your witness statement. You will have the chance printed copy. to check that it is accurate before signing the final printed copy. How long does it take to complete a statement? How long does it take to complete a statement? The police know that it is best to go at your pace and not rush process. take a couple hours, The policethe know that itItiscan best to go at yourofpace and sessions, days or evenSessions weeks can take a couple of not rush the process. hours, days or even weeks. What happens once the statement is complete? What happens once the statement is complete? The police will investigate your case. If they find The police will investigate your find enough evidence the police willcase. passIfitthey to the Crown enough evidence the (CPS) policewho will pass it to the Prosecution Service will make the final Crown Prosecution (CPS) who upholds decision whether toService press charges in court. ByThe law, Prosecutor to ensure criminal trials the everyone isCode innocent until proven guilty soare it isinup to public interest, likely to result in a conviction and prove CPS to be sure that they can prove beyond guilt beyond doubt reasonable doubt. reasonable that the law was broken.
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What’s the point of talking to the police when there What’s the point of talking to the police when there may not be enough evidence to jail them? may not be enough evidence to jail them? If the police cannot press charges for a criminal case If the police cannot press charges for a criminal case or it doesn’t result in a conviction then ALWAYS SEEK or it doesn’t result in a conviction then ALWAYS SEEK SPECIALIST LEGAL ADVICE from a specialist personal SPECIALIST LEGAL ADVICE from a specialist personinjury lawyer about the possibility of starting a civil al injury lawyer about the possibility of starting a civil case which could result in a compensation award. case which could result in a compensation award. Your courage could also help to bring others to safety; information about child abuse is taken very seriously Your courage could also help to bring others to safety; indeed; it can help to strengthen other victim’s cases, information about child abuse is taken very seriously protect other children (safety orders could be issued) indeed; it can help to strengthen other victim’s cases, or even prevent them from working with children. protect other children who be around them (safety orders could be issued) or even prevent them from working with children.
The Victims Code sets out the rights of victims, the role of the police & the CPS. www.victimsupport. org.uk/~/media/Files/ Policy%20and%20 research/victims-code-ofpractice.ashx
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CARE, PREPARE & PLAN 2 PUTTING ACROSS THE BEST OF YOURSELF
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GENTLE TIME BEFORE MEETINGS Plan relaxing activities before and after you meet with the police or solicitors; over tiredness can increase moodiness and lack of concentration. Stay away from people and places that bring conflict or stress as much as you can; giving your statement and thinking about the investigation is more than enough to deal with.
THE MAIN POINTS When preparing to speak to a solicitor, keep a note of who was involved, where and when things happened, whether any helpful documents or people are available to support your case. Do you have any questions? Make your list and let the police and / or solicitors know you would like answers
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THE PLACE If you choose to talk to police at home or even if you need to make calls to them or your solicitor think about where and when is the best time to talk to prevent disturbances from others. DURING MEETINGS Ask a person you are comfortable with to stay with you while you speak or to meet you there when you leave. Don’t forget, understanding each other can take time so its fine to say: •
‘I’m unclear what you are asking/saying - when you said (x) did you mean (y)?’ or
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‘Can you ask that question in a different way please?’ It’s also perfectly ok to say ….
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‘Feels too much to continue today’
Positive change can start when sexual abuse stops… reporting it gives everyone opportunities for better.
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AFTER MEETINGS (Remember your Care, Prepare and Plan 1!!!) •
Speak to trusted person /people and let them know how it went.
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Write down, draw, even dance out any thoughts and feelings - expressing them outside reduces the pressure inside!
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Exercise! Deeper relaxation often follows relieving tension!
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Bubble bath? Read inspiration? Watch great film?
ASK YOURSELF …. Do you need to follow up with any further questions? Did they: •
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acknowledge that it is a difficult experience to talk about?
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explain who would be part of the team working on your case?
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were you comfortable with them and their expertise?
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Personal Experience - police Most challenging moments:Approaching the police for help when my past experiences said not to trust them. Realising that moving on meant I had to describe tearful, painful memories to the police even when I was feeling unprotected and mistrusting.
Reassuring moments I felt respected, believed and supported, even when my memories were confused. I was often reminded that I was a child at the time of the crime who needed safety, care and protection; abusing adults not children are responsible for the crime. Didn’t feel so alone! Felt part of a strong protective team.
Most surprising moments Realising I had let go of so much guilt! My negative expectations of police gradually dissolved and were replaced by warmth and kindness for the detectives and support staff within the Child Protection Unit.
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SOLICITORS They can share their knowledge on the areas of law that have been broken and the types of compensation that may be available to you. Those who care about quality standards, ethical codes and keeping up to date with any relevant legal changes join professional bodies such as The Association of Child Abuse Lawyers - ACAL and Association of Personal Injury Lawyers - APIL. To find a specialist solicitor feel free to contact them for someone practising in your area. (see Resources for contact details) FIRST MEETING OR CALL The first discussion is usually free of charge. The solicitor will need an outline of what happened, who was involved, where and when. It is also your opportunity to ask questions to check who you feel most at ease with. Once you decide on the solicitor, they can also help you to explore various ways to receive funding. Remember to ‘Care, Prepare & Plan’- Put across the best of yourself on pg 18
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PAYMENT •
Legal support is a costly business. Fortunately there is help available. If you have a good case, a good lawyer will find a way of funding it for you. They may also fund the ongoing expenses incurred so there is no money to find up front.
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Legal aid – some or all the fees can be paid, depending on your income. However this is not available for all cases.
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No win, no fee [sometimes called conditional fees or contingency fees] – payment for legal fees is only taken on winning.
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Personal or employment insurance – legal fees for personal injury can be part of your policy.
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Paying for yourself – you may be able to negotiate deferred or staged payments with your solicitor.
OBSTACLES TO CLAIMING COMPENSATION FROM... A) Individuals may not have sufficient financial resources to pay so the court may reject the case, particularly if it is filed outside of the usual legal time limits. However you CAN still apply for Criminal Injuries Compensation. B) Institutions can say that •
their employee(s) were acting outside the responsibility of their work or
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professional and care standards at the time were acceptable
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there is not enough relevant document, evidence and witnesses
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C) Time limits and Court’s discretion While it is common for survivors to need twenty or thirty years before disclosing the crime, the law requires cases to be brought to the court within specific time frames. The court can make exceptions if a fair trial is still possible. Professional legal advice will definitely give you a strong chance to secure it! HOW IS PERSONAL INJURY PROVED IN A CIVIL CASE? In the main the evidence needs to show a strong likelihood that psychological harm and/or physical injury was caused to a child through unsafe standards of care and inadequate protection. A case can be brought against: an individual (eg/ family member, family friend) or an institution or a company’s employee(s) (eg/ workers in a hospital, school, church, childrens home, youth or sports club)
Daily action to respect your own life is always in
Remember, ‘Care, Prepare & Plan’ before you call to put across the best of yourself on
your control, no matter how long a case may take or what its outcome may be.
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Personal experience Pursuing a case needs an emotional health warning! It's very demanding and often uncomfortable to face challenging legal formalities while sharing past traumas. With all the lengthy letters, forms and waits between each unfamiliar legal stage my anxiety, awkwardness and fear rose, especially when expected to talk with unfamiliar staff about my case.
Finding strong evidence is a difficult task, especially many years after the crime so it’s vital to find someone who can give honest assessments in balanced, sensitive and thoughtful ways.
My first solicitors were not as helpful or as thorough in sharing information as the second and it was the emotional support from Victim Support that helped me cope at such a confusing time.
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COMPENSATION PATHWAYS POLICE – CPU Child Protection Unit
CPS – Crown Prosecution Service PROSECUTION?
Yes
No
CRIMINAL COURT CONVICTION? No
Yes
SEEK FREE COMPENSATION ADVICE FROM SPECIALIST CHILD ABUSE SOLICITOR Do you have a claim? CICA
Applicants are individuals or legal advisors
CIVIL CASE Yes
Legal proceedings may or may not be required. If contested, your solicitor or barrister presents case to the court
FAVOURABLE RULING? AWARD?
Court involved
No
Yes
SETTLEMENT?
Court may or may not be involved
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FACING FEELINGS The end of your legal journey can stir up a lot of feelings and it can be challenging to manage them: Relief, strength, resolved, ready to move on, proud. Robbed of childhood, betrayed, enraged, vengeful, untrusting, sad. Overwhelmed, disappointed, angry or sad, failure, emptiness. Injustice because the result, sentencing or compensation seems small compared to impact on you.
MAKING THE BEST FROM COMPENSATION Take the time to know what steps move you in the direction of your dreams. This will help you to invest your financial award in ways that have long lasting rewards for your life. Consider what areas of your life you would like to advance in, being careful to find what makes your heart skip with joy. If you are like me, I have struggled to be clear about what I really want and have needed help to be clearer. There are specialists such as life coaches and psychologists who provide support to think through and achieve goals; there are also wealth managers or financial advisers who can help with the financial planning. Give yourself time to find second opinions and to thoroughly consider any advice.
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Personal experience I experienced sexual abuse both in my home and in local authority care. I felt disturbed and angry by the council’s denial of any wrongdoing especially as my care records and teacher reports were saying something else.
Unfortunately the psychiatric reports were not so supportive, as they related my emotional conditions to other childhood issues; there was also a gap in my medical history due to lost records and an absence of witnesses.
After 4 years of investigation the legal aid was withdrawn due to weak evidence and I had to sign away the right to approach the court again about the issue. While I felt disappointed and betrayed I knew how richer life is from being more true to self.
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FOCUS YOUR ENERGY TOWARDS THE BEST FOR YOUR LIFE As childhood sexual abuse thrives on silence, secrecy and the misuse of power, there is often a stage in recovery that wants to declare the injustice, where the abuser is chastised and there are consequences for harmful actions. This is healthy and understandable. Whatever legal route you pursue, beware of solely focusing on compensation and/or jail time to help you feel better there is a lot you can do with the energy from your anger. You can also use your voice, energy and influence to: •
campaign for change in local, national and/or global services or law,
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support for survivor related services or
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self expression through drama, music, visual art.
SET GOALS A one degree of change a day will create a full circle of change within a year! Remember, zero will always be zero but one is mother of millions. There are a number of approaches to being clear about your way forward. Experiment to see what works for you
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[A] Go into your imagination to ask What is it that you really love? What reality could you create from that? What obvious actions could be made? What impact would that create for myself and others? The to do list may not be easy but it has joy!
[B] Think about your health, finances and relationships 1. Imagine everything is just the way you want it. 2. What does it feel, sound, smell, look like? 3. Rank those goals in level of importance as A - an absolute must; B - would love to do/have it; C - it's nice but I can live without it. 4. Give each goal a time frame for completion 5. What steps do you need to reach them?
[C] Make smart goals - specific, measurable, attainable, realistic, time measured SPECIFIC - describe the goal; when do you want to accomplish it by and the action(s) you will take to accomplish it e.g. I want to sell 10 of my photographs; study at university by year (), set up a successful restaurant within a year and I will find investors and reliable staff.
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MEASURABLE - how will you know when you have achieved this goal? Do you check your progress by setting a time, money or by producing something? ATTAINABLE - Have you got the resources to achieve this goal with your situation and skill level? Is achieving this goal realistic with effort and commitment? Remember to set high goals, but be realistic. REALISTIC - Why is this goal significant to your work life and/ or personal life? Do these goals help you to be more of who you really are? What really motivates you about this goal? TIME - Goals must have definite starting points and ending points and milestones along the way. We could simply be motivated to put the goal off for a later time and never get around to it. [D] Weigh up the pros and cons of your goals Completion Date Challenges + hindrances Strategy for facing challenge Pro’s from success Con’s from not attaining
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COUNT YOUR ACHIEVEMENTS! Seeing what you HAVE done more than what you haven’t gives you energy! It may feel strange to congratulate yourself for small things because it's unfamiliar but the truth is that every small step contributes towards where you want to be! At the end of each day, you could: •
write a list of what you’ve achieved today
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tick off your ‘To Do’ list
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Remember things that you are grateful for, the small and the large things and call it your list or book of treasures!
PRAISE YOUR PERSONAL STRENGTH! It takes immense honesty, courage, perseverance and great strength to name and face what happened to you! These qualities contribute to building trust in yourself and with others. Remind yourself of this! GIVE POSITIVES! You have a choice of how you speak and treat yourself, either with positive regards or negative attitude. Choosing to speak positively about yourself will help to increase self-worth so be generous and share words of acknowledgement, thoughtfulness and appreciation.
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Create poetic moments - appreciate nature when your senses are pleasantly stimulated by looking, smelling, touching, seeing, hearing the sky, sea, earth and all that moves within it. (Even the things you need to change are valuable as they give you opportunity to be constructive and creative so there is no need to allow yourself or others to put you down! Quiet the inner critic, applaud the appreciator.)
Making choices about the way you spend your time and energy is crucial for creating a happier, fulfilling life for yourself.
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VERY ENCOURAGING PEOPLE - VEP
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WHY WE NEED VEP’S? Healthy human development involves giving care and attention to children’s emotional and physical needs. Abusive behaviour ignores these needs, using secrets and trickery to cause pain and fear instead. For many, recovery will involve building the confidence to experience, identify and express feelings and learning to assert natural human need. Your very encouraging people (VEP’s) will help you achieve this without judgement.
Strive to thrive in your life! Build a network of people who you regularly have contact with who support and encourage recovery.
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WHO ARE VEP’S? Sometimes VEP’s are not who you would ordinarily expect; hearing about the abuse can confuse and distress friends and family so they behave awkwardly and unsupportively. In the future, this can change but in the meantime it is important for you to be taken seriously and feel heard by those who are able to listen. VEP’s could be someone ... •
from your non abusing family eg/ siblings, parents, aunt, uncle
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known to you like a friend or a GP
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unknown to you but a supportive experienced listener such as a helpline worker or counsellor
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Who has similar experience within a support group or forum (see helpful contacts)
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My PERSONAL RIGHTS to •
Life!
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Be me!
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Make choices
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Have likes and wants, needs and boundaries
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Choose beliefs
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Like who I am
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Live the life I want
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Be happy
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Make mistakes
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Forgive self
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Express self
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Protect body
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Have different opinions
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Acknowledge successes
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Forget all of these rights
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Need reminders
Everybody has these rights!
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RESOURCES
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USEFUL CONTACTS POLICE To locate your local station call 0300 123 1212 or click www.met.police.uk/local SOLICITORS Association of Child Abuse Lawyers - ACAL Tel. 0208 390 4701 www.childabuselawyers.com Association of Personal Injury Lawyers - APIL www.apil.com Tel: 0115 958 0585 Child Law Advice Line Legal advice and representation for children and kids. www.childrenslegalcentre.com 0808 802 0008 Family Law Bar Association - FLBA Represents over 2,500 family barristers and promotes family justice www.flba.org.uk
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EMOTIONAL SUPPORT SURVIVORS UK Website: www.survivorsuk.org www.survivorsuk.org Email: info@survivorsuk.org Information & support to men who have sexually assaulted National helpline offering information & been support to men who at anybeen timesexually in their lives, and those for them. One-to-one have assaulted at anywho timecare in their lives, and counselling andfor support for male survivorsand in the London those who care them.groups One-to-one counselling suparea.groups Awareness and survivors training for whose group port for male in agencies the London area.client Awareincludes survivors. ness and male training for agencies whose client group includes Helpline: 0845 122 1201 male survivors. Helpline: Mon, Tues & Thurs 7-10pm RASASC -0845 Rape122 and1201 Sexual Abuse Support Centre Helpline: Website: www.rasasc.org.uk Helpline open every of the year Support taking calls nationally from RASASC - Rape and day Sexual Abuse Centre female and male survivors as well as non-abusing families, Website: www.rasasc.bizview.co.uk partners,open friends andDay other agencies. Helpline Every of the Year Taking calls nationally Helpline: 0808 9999 from female and802 male survivors as well as non-abusing families, partners, friends and other agencies. THE SURVIVORS Helpline:12 noonTRUST - 2.30pm and 7pm - 9.30pm Website: www.thesurvivorstrust.org Helpline: 0808 802 9999 A national umbrella agency for over 125 specialist voluntary sector agencies providing a range of counselling, therapeutic and support THE SURVIVORS TRUST services working with women, men and children who are victims/ Website: www.thesurvivorstrust.org survivors rape, sexual violence and125 childhood sexual abuse. A nationalofumbrella agency for over specialist voluntary Helpline: 01788 providing 550554 a range of counselling, therapeutic sector agencies and support services working with women, men and children who are victims/survivors of rape, sexual violence and childhood sexual abuse. Helpline: 01788 550554
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EXPLOITATION & THE CHILD EXPLOITATION & ONLINE ONLINE PROTECTION PROTECTION CENTRE CENTRE (CEOP) Website: www.ceop.gov.uk www.ceop.gov.uk Website: www.thinkuknow.co.uk www.thinkuknow.co.uk PartChild of theExploitation UK police force, CEOP Protection is dedicated(CEOP) to protecting The and Online Centre children is fromof sexual abuseand wherever they may be, working directly with local part UK police is dedicated to protecting children from and international forces.they Alsomay work children and parents to sexual abuse wherever bewith building intelligence deliver the unique ThinkuKnow educational programme. around the risks, tracking and bringing offenders to account Helpline - 0870 either directly or000 with3344 local and international forces Also work with children and parents to deliver the unique THE NATIONAL ASSOCIATION FOR PEOPLE ABUSED IN ThinkuKnow educational programme. CHILDHOOD (NAPAC) Helpline - 0870 000 3344 Website: www.napac.org.uk Supporting adults who have been abused as children THE NATIONAL ASSOCIATION FOR PEOPLE ABUSEDinINany way when they want to talk and receive support. CHILDHOOD (NAPAC) Helpline: 0800 085 3330 www.napac.org.uk Supporting adults who have been abused as children in any VICTIM SUPPORT way when they want to talk and receive support. Website: www.victimsupport.org.uk Helpline: 0800 085 3330 Free and confidential help to victims of crime, witnesses, their family, friends and anyone else affected throughout England and VICTIM SUPPORT Wales no matter when the crime took place. Also campaigns for Website: www.victimsupport.com change provides witness supportof service criminal courts Free andand confidential help to victims crime,inwitnesses, Victim Supportline: 0845anyone 30 30 900 their family, friends and else affected throughout England and Wales. Run the Witness Service in every crimiRIGHTS nal court.OFA WOMEN national voice for victims and witnesses and Website:www.rightsofwomen.org.uk campaign for change, independant from government or the email: info@row.org.uk police. Don’t have to report a crime to the police. Call any Training, Publications Advicelines:time afterPolicy, the crime whether and it was yesterday, last week General and Family Law 020 7251 6577 or several years ago. Criminal Law and Sexual Victim Supportline: 0845 Violence 30 30 900 Immigration and Asylum
020 7251 8887
020 7490 7689
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SOCIAL NETWORKING - Facebook Contacts Everybody is welcome to join as friends or supporters. To create a safer environment, administrator approval is required •
The Survivors Trust
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RoSA (Rape or Sexual Abuse Support Project)
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CRASAC (Coventry Rape and Sexual Assault Centre)
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RespondUK Services for adults and children with learning disabilities who are victims of sexual abuse and other trauma.
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Care Leavers UK
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Care Leavers Reunited
SOCIAL NETWORKING - Staying Safe! There are plenty of places to post information about ourselves and to communicate with others around the world facebook, forums, interest groups, blogs, chatrooms, email, and instant messaging to name just a few. While you can meet like minded people through social networking sites, you may also be exposed to those who have bad intentions, such as hackers, identity thieves, con artists, predators or even people you know who act spitefully. Protective Precautions •
Never disclose your address, phone number, date of birth, bank account, credit card numbers or any other personal information through social network sites.
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Do not disclose anything about yourself, your friends, or family members that you wouldn’t want to be made public. Please remember that once information appears on a website, it can never be completely erased. Even if it’s modified or deleted, older versions may exist on others’ computers
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Learn how to restrict access to certain people with your privacy settings BEFORE you start to accept people
SUPPORT FOR YOUR GOALS GRANTS When you have some clear goals to improve your life and you are living in hardship then The Directory for Social Change publish two books that could help; The Guide to Grants for Individuals in Need and The Guide to Educational Grants. Your local reference library usually stock one or two copies for you to look at. MONEY Money advice websites: •
www.which.co.uk
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www.moneysavingexpert.com
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www.moneysupermarket.com
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www.nationaldebtline.co.uk
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COACHING CBT - Cognitive Behavioural Therapy www.babcp.com NLP - Neuro-Linguistic Programming http://www.anlp.org
BOOKS Directory And Book Services (DABS) Website: www.dabsbooks.co.uk/ The specialist book and information service for people who are overcoming childhood abuse, sexual abuse, or domestic violence. TITLES The Courage to Heal Workbook For Women and Men Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse by Laura Davis In this groundbreaking companion volume to The Courage to Heal, Laura Davis has created an inspiring, innovative, in-depth workbook for all women and men suffering from the effects of childhood sexual abuse. Surviving Childhood Sexual Abuse - Practical Self-help for Adults Who Were Sexually Abused as Children. By Carole Ainscough and Karen Toon
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I Never Told Anyone - Writings by Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse By Ellen Bass, Louise Thornton. A reissue of the now-classic anthology (with more than 60,000 copies sold) of deeply moving testimonies by survivors of child sexual abuse) The Courage to Heal A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse By Ellen Bass, Laura Davis. An updated and revised edition of the classic best-selling guide (more than 700,000 copies sold) that has inspired millions of women survivors of child sexual abuse and helped them down the road to recovery.
Be Heroic! Protect and lead away from destructive, harmful behaviour!
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BIGGEST THANKS I Never Told Anyone - Writings by Women Survivors of With generous encouragement, skill and time this booklet now Childyour Sexual Abuse exists in aBass, tangible form.Thornton. May all your dreams come to fruition too. By Ellen Louise
A reissue of the now-classic anthology (with more than
Marianne Caitane andofRosalyn for saying ‘Go ForbyIt’survivors right 60,000 copies sold) deeply Reid moving testimonies from the sexual start!, abuse) of child
Roy Lane and Emily Miles - who nurture my voice and truth, Frederica Lacey for sharing generosity and wisdom at the The Courage to-Heal crucial moment, A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse Joan Armatrading for her musicianship and poetry – a guide By Ellen Bass, Laura Davis. through dark and moods while edition I lived inofcare, An updated revised the classic best-selling
Tim Holmes for artistry andcopies perseverance, guide (more- than 700,000 sold) that has inspired milVida andsexual affirmations, lionsAdamoli’s of womeneverlasting survivors hugs of child abuse and helped Miles honesty and passion for justice, them Millward down thefor road Gez Millward for always believing and loving, to recovery.
Cecilia Joseph and DS Jason Morgan for humanising the police process, Victim Support ( Lambeth, UK ) - who helped me keep sane through the legal proceedings.
SPECIAL THANKS Dr Daisaku Ikeda, Honorary President of Soka Gakkai International, Be Heroic! Mrs Kaneko Ikeda,
Protect and lead away & Members of SGI-UK particularly in South East London Area, from destructive, who constantly inspire me through their life examples to win over harmful behaviour! adversity and support others to do the same.
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AUTHOR My ability to trust others or myself was blurred by painful childhood memories of domestic violence, sexual and physical abuse, racism, emotional breakdowns, drug use and childrens homes. At the end of my 20’s I reached a crossroads - to continue with my self destruction and hatred or choose to recover and heal. I chose to pursue renewal and discovered a daily affirming practice of chanting Nam Myo Ho Renge Kyo. I learned to take responsibility for my own happiness, by being the change I wish to see in life and by being determined to transform poisonous situations into medicine. A deeper awareness and trust of my creative potential naturally grew and from there it was easier to make the courageous steps to find professional therapy, self help groups and study. What I learned about strengthening self love, emotional rights and communication skills I share in the ‘Positive Image’, ‘Care, Prepare and Plan’ and the ’Checklist’ pages. Please do your bit to make peace and security a living reality and keep up the tradition of passing on what you find helpful as this kind of knowledge is stronger the more it is shared! Shereen Lincoln
Relating with respect to yourself and others is at the heart of justice
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Living as Your Hero is a self help guide to addressing childhood sexual abuse before, during or beyond the UK legal system. With jargon free English, lived experiences and professional guidance, readers are encouraged to seek justice by upholding emotional and physical rights as much as pursuing legal redress and are given practical steps to do both. With stronger self care and communication skills a lasting defence from the long term effects of this crime becomes possible, no matter what happens in or outside the courtroom. Being your own best friend is Living as Your Hero.
ISBN 978-0-9571951-2-7 ISBN 978-0-9571951-4-1
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