Drudging through the damper .stages of college and life

Jennifer Dalvano staff writer

Hundreds of things to do, thousands of hopes and dreams, a million expectations and about a billion obstacles standing in my way. Where am I going? What am I becoming? Why am I doing all this? Is it for me or is it to meet those expectations that have been forced upon me by everyone else in my life?

I don't know if anyone else feels this way, but inside, I just feel lost. I feel like the decisions are never ending, that the pile of work never seems to diminish and the drama, well I swear that's just lurking around every comer here at Cabrini. I feel lost, like I have no· place~ not that I don't belong, just that I don't know where I'm going. I feel like I am being forced to conform myself to fit into this mold, to fulfill these expectations that are almost impossible to fulfill, that everything I do just isn't enough. But by doing this, by confonning, I am losing my true self. Yet then again, maybe it's now that I am actually realizing·who I am. College is a time to grow. Maybe that's what's happening; maybe. I'm just growing up. I guess I never thought that growing up would be this confusing and so intimidating. It's kind of like everyday is a test of life, except I never know if I'm passing or not. Come on, think about it. When your teacher doesn't have your