University of Puerto Rico – Humacao English Department
Luis R. Torres Cotto Prof. Nilsa Lugo EDPE 4018 – 001 Weekly Reflection #2 1-5 of September, 2014 This third week was a week full of disappointments and learning. First of all, I must say that this week was short for me, but full of many events. Monday was a holiday, Wednesday my cooperating teacher was absent and so it was on Friday. This week there where two works due, the Group Profile and the first part of the Case Study. Since I started working early on them I was able to make them stress free. I learned a lot things from my students, things I will use to help on their learning. On the other hand, I need a wonderful interview in which I learned a lot. I interview Mrs. Matos and learned a lot about herself and the career as a teacher. She told me that when you feel passionate about something you can integrate anything into your classroom and help the learning process.
Although everything seemed goo this week, there were also bad things. On Wednesday, a situation occurred in which the others practice students and I were at the library because non of our cooperating teachers were present. During that time we had a talk with the director, social worker and custodians while they did their work. Then, the social worker looked at me and aid that I was going to be a bad teacher, because I seemed like the persons whom always wants to be perfect and makes sure his professional notebook more than his classes. At that moment I was putting the labels of my professional notebook because my cooperating supervisor had pointed it out I should. The social worker was innacurate n her
University of Puerto Rico – Humacao English Department assumptions, I was just doing something I was required to do. Regardless of feeling bad about the comment, I smiled and wave down my head respectfully. I know she do not believe she said it with bad intentions but it hurts even now. Later that week on Thursday I experienced the flaws the system has first hand. I saw how disorganized things can get in a school. I was helping my teacher move some things and saw the disorganization of other people. Luckily, my cooperating teacher is strong and always make sure I'm not taken for a fool. To culminate the week I was asked to not go to school if my teacher is not coming that day to prevent people from getting the better of me.
This week was of not much progress in my stock of works, I could not give my classes do to pretest, and I couldn't observe either. I feel behind in everything even though I'm not. I received some emotional lashes that may be the cause of my current stand of mind, confused. The different situations draw from me doubts and questionings. On one hand I got the good experiences which I learn from, on the other hand the bad things which I learned from too. The situations is not that I can't take criticism, it is that I believe that critics is accurate and that I should not be a teacher. On the now what and future I can't see myself teaching. I have a lot of flaws and things that I don't know yet how to teach well. What I can take from this experiences is all the knowledge out of them. I might not finish my practice or my career as a teacher but in any other things I do I will implement all this new experiences I have learned.