University of Puerto Rico – Humacao English Department
Luis R. Torres Cotto Prof. Nilsa Lugo EDPE 4018 – 001 Weekly Reflection #6 22-27 of September, 2014
This week was one of those weeks in which I felt I wasn't getting anywhere. The whole week from Monday to Friday I wasn't giving class. I spend my time helping my new cooperating teacher grading diagnostic test. This however felt like I was making progress with my grading process and organization. The end product was one I felt really proud of. During that process I saw how students in speaking and listening tend to be better than at reading and writing, to my surprise. I met new faces also. On Wednesday I was informed that to fill the gap of not having a group I would start teaching kinder. I met my new students and started preparing to give classes to them. Thursday and Friday I observed the classes to see how they are. This brought me frustration like the first time since I need to adapt yet again and it takes me time. In the end I hope thing turn out good. To be honest I feel upset because of the adaptation process, also that I feel I'm being thrown around. I need to open my shell again little by little. I at first didn't do nothing but the following visits I helped around and was friendlier towards the students. What will happen I don't know, this are really small children the classes are different and I feel I won't be able coup with my expectations for the practice. The new plans were given to us also to start doing, things seemed to get more complex with each turn. Although the pressure keeps building since I feel stuck and that I might fail, I am counting with adapting and do things better.
University of Puerto Rico – Humacao English Department
Now, I guess I need to embrace this new group and adjust. Adjusting seems like the word of the moment. I am adjusting into being a teacher, adjusting to the system, adjusting to the students, adjusting to everything. My life might seem like in a single thread at the moment but like always I need to see everything from the positive side. I have learned how new teacher feel when they are given a group midway semester. Literally my practice, although chaotic, I swear that I have been exposed to so much that if I survive the trial nothing will surprise me as a teacher. In this week only I has been exposed to so many feelings all teacher go through that I feel that I'm learning. I don't like how I'm learning and get me sad but, I'm learning.