Prologue December 25th, 2015 Dear Friend: How’ve you been? Merry Christmas! At least for you because for me it’s one of the saddest days of my life. Sam and I… We… We broke up. I’m devastated. I don’t know what to do know. We were together for two years, and I feel like I’ve just lost a piece of myself. It’s just been hours but I feel like days have passed. Time’s passing so slowly. Just yesterday we were talking about our future and today there’s no future for us. I want to cry but my eyes are already dry. I have no tears left, because I spent all morning crying, since she sent me that message. She broke my heart. The message said this: “Hi dear Joseph. I have to tell you something…Remember that Friend of mine you don’t like… Well I have fallen in love With him… I really don’t want to hurt you, because I did Love you, despite I don´t do it anymore… But I can’t pretend Anymore I still want to be with you. I’m really sorry, but this a Goodbye… I just hope one day you will forgive me… Merry Christmas.”
She tried not to be hurtful but she couldn’t have hurt me more. Now she’s got a new guy, and I just hope that what she was looking for, is better than what she left. Even though it hurts, I know I have to move on, so as soon as I can, I will. I must say goodbye for now because I need to heal, be alone sometime. Best of the lucks for you my friend.
April 16th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you´re fine. You know, yesterday was our prom party. Wish you were there. It was amazing! Had everything a good party must have. Tons of alcohol and girls; but I wasn't happy at all. I was drunk and I thought I was having fun, but at some point, I realized I was just feeling empty. I wanted to leave, but my mother wasn't coming to pick me up till midnight, so I had to wait. God thanks I waited! I saw this girl, Cristina, beautiful brown eyes, beautiful hair, and her smile, wow her smile... She was so beautiful, so I asked her to dance and we danced, but here is where the sad part begins. Everything was going perfect, we were dancing and talking when I had to leave her for the prom photo. I told her to wait for me, but when I came back, she had already left. I got so pissed with myself because I let her go, but what else could've I done? so I just left the party sad and angry. You won't believe what I found this morning when I woke up. There was a message from her in my phone! It said: "Hi Joseph, I'm sorry I left you alone yesterday! My parents went to pick me up so I had to leave. I
really enjoyed dancing with you. We should do it some other time." I literally jumped for joy. The beautiful girl of the party wrote me! Of course I answered her and as I'm friend with one of her friends, she's already helping me. I know I'm going a little faster here, but it's just that I've been so much time alone and I really like her... I'll keep you posted about my progress with her.
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April 20th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you're fine. In my last letter I told you about the amazing girl I met. Well I'm glad to announce that I have asked her out and she said yes. She said YES! Man I'm so happy! I've gotten to know her a little better during this days and she is just amazing. She likes to read comics, superhero movies, she thinks the way I do, and she understands my sense of humor! She is just the opposite to Sam, and everything I've been looking for since Sam and I broke up. So we are going to the Comicon and I'm going to meet her friends. That has me a little scared, I mean, the
friends of the girl you like can be either powerful allies or enemies, and I really want them as allies. You know, Cristina will go as Han Solo! Imagine a girl that likes Star Wars that much, she is so perfect for me. I just hope everything will go fine because I don't want to blow up my chances with her. Wish me luck! I'll keep you posted.
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April 24th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you're fine. We hanged out today and it was amazing! I was afraid we weren´t going to have any chemistry but we did. It's like we were just meant to be together. The two of us got late to the "date". I had a birthday party and she went to the hospital to visit her grandfather. When I finally arrived to the Comicon she hadn't arrived, so I got a little nervous thinking she was going to jilt me, but she finally showed up. We say hi and we started to talk. At first it was a little difficult to find a conversation topic, but when we found one the magic happened. We spent hours and hours talking about everything, arguing about comics and superheroes; time passed so quickly. We
started to make jokes to each other, I mocked at her about her height and she mocked at me about my "angry" face. God that was so cute. After we ate she asked me to go with her to a mall near the Comicon. Of course I agreed and we went to the mall. We drank some coffee at Starbucks and we stayed there to talk. Time passed so quickly... When I looked at my watch it was already eight! Can you imagine? We'd been talking for seven hours and neither of us got bored. Clearly there was chemistry there. I have to tell you about her friends too! Amazing! It was amazing. I'm pretty sure all of them liked me. Kristal, the one I'm friend of, told me that they see us as a good couple and that they really would like to see us together in a near future. I'm so happy! Finally my luck is changing. I just hope this is not an illusion. I'll keep you posted.
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April 30th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you're fine. You won't believe what I'm about to tell you. We were talking about Civil
War, the superheroes movie, because I went to see it yesterday, and one thing lead to another and I ended up asking her out! I asked her to go with me to watch Civil War and she said yes! We are planning it right now. I already have my own plan. I'm going to show it to you: "Plan: 1. Lunch. Some fancy place but not too expensive. 2. Coffee. As we are going to need a way to kill time before the movie, this idea came to my mind. We can sit to talk and take a coffee. There's no better way to get to know each other better. 3. Movie. This is the difficult part. I've thought about holding hands but I'm not sure yet... Maybe we just watch the movie. 4. Goodbye. This is the most important part. If I get a goodbye kiss then I'll know I did everything right. " I'll tell how did it go as soon as I can. Wish me luck!
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Dear Friend: I hope you're fine. It couldn't have been better. Everything went perfect. Lunch was amazing and funny. We really got to know each other better while we were drinking coffee, and every time I'm more convinced she is just perfect for me. She has almost the same tastes I do in almost everything. Music, sports, science, ideologies; we think so alike and we are so alike... Man I'm falling in love. It all went excellent at the movie. We didn´t hold hands or kissed, we just enjoyed it. After the movie, we went to some stores and we had a really great time doing that. When her father came to pick her up she did gave me a goodbye kiss. She also introduced me to her father! That was hard because he is everything I'll trying to reach and overcome if I become Cristina's boyfriend. The man was really nice by the way. Cristina told me that he liked me! And I kept the best for the end. When I got home, a message from her was in my phone. It said: "Hi Joseph! I had a really great time with you today. Thanks for everything. We should hang out some other time for sure ,because I really like being with you. Btw my father really liked you. You nailed it with him."
I'm so excited! And Kristal told me that she is totally into me. This relationship is really working out and I'm looking forward to know where is it heading. I'll keep you posted.
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May 10th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you’re fine. Cristina invited me to a party. It’s on Friday 13th so I´m really thinking whether I’ll or not. I’m not much of a superstitious guy but I´ve never had good luck on a Friday 13th. If I go I will have a good for sure, if I don’t go she might get angry, but it’s better than screwing everything up. I’m in that point of the way to a relationship when you have to do everything perfect and I think that’s what has me scared. Cristina is so much more than what I deserve. I feel like I’m not good enough for her. If I just were a little better, I wouldn’t be feeling this scared. It’s the fear of losing the best girl I’ve ever known what’s holding me back. I must go to the party, I know, I can let her know I’m afraid. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
May 14th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you’re fine. Everything went amazing at the party. Cristina came to the place before I did, and she was waiting for me with a surprise. You know how much I like chocolate, she does too, and she brought me a giant Hershey. It was packaged and inside it, there was a letter! The letter said: “Hey silly, I’m glad you came. I´m sure you’re wondering why I wrote you this letter, well because I needed to Show you how I feel. I really like you… I hope you like me too, otherwise things between us will be a little awkward. No I’m just kidding, I know how you feel… You’re so obvious… also Kristal told me… but my point is, I really want to have something with you if you want… So if you do, I’m right in front of you, just kiss me.” After I read the letter, I turned my eye into hers, and slowly, take her face in my hand. I started to come closer to her, centimeter by centimeter, until I touched her lips with mine. With all the love I have, I kissed her, just for a moment but it lasted a life. I hugged her and after that, I asked her: “Cristina Cooper do you want to be my girlfriend?” She immediately said yes, almost
shouting it. Then we had the best evening of our lives. I’ve never been this happy. It was like if all the color and goodness of life got inside me after I kissed her, and I really don’t know how to describe the feeling. I can just say it was the best thing I’ve ever felt. She is the one, that’s what my heart’s telling me. I hope I’m not wrong, because losing her will hurt more than anything ever has.
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May 27th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you’re fine. Today I’ll introduce Cristina to my parents. They’re going to love her. They’re going to love us. Our relationship has developed really quickly and we’re really sweet together. She understands me and I understand her. We know how the other thinks because we think alike, so we don’t have any problem. We’re in something that a friend of mine calls “The Honeymoon Phase” where everything is perfect, but I think we’ll be in this phase forever.
We complement each other, we really do, so that’s a big point for us. We’ll have dinner at my house. I’m going to cook Cristina’s favorite, lasagna. She’ll talk to my parents, everything will go find and there’s going to be one thing less for me to worry about. Now there’s just left for me to meet her mother… I’m a little scared about it because Kristal told me that her mother is a little angry. Wish me luck, wherever you are…
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June 20th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you’re fine. I finally met Cristina’s mother. I came to her house yesterday. We had lunch with her mother, who turns out to be a really nice person. I really liked her and I think she liked me too. I’m really good pretending to be a super nice guy when I want to, you know it, and so that’s what I did. I pretended to be the best guy of the world, I hide everything wrong inside me, and I just showed Mrs. Cooper what she wanted to see. I showed her the guy who’s incapable of hurting her daughter, not that I want to do it, but I know
sooner or later I will end up hurting her. I always hurt the ones I love... I really don’t deserve her. I know that I’m the same guy I thought I had buried. I have the same demons I used to have, and I’m not sure if Cristina will accept me if she figures out all the wrong things inside me. One day, soon, I’ll tell her everything about me and I hope she’ll understand that I’ve been through a lot and that’s why I’m a little crazy. But the most important think she needs to know is about you my friend, about how much I miss you. If she understands everything wrong inside me, then I’ll be sure she is the one for me.
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July 1st, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you’re fine. I’m sorry about my last letter. I wasn’t ok. I went to the shrink, and he told me that maybe I think I don’t deserve to be happy. Maybe he was right. It’s just that since you passed away I’ve missed you so much, and I feel like I don’t deserve to be happy if I can’t share that happiness with you.
I’m really trying to get over this “depression”. Cristina is helping me a lot with this. She really makes me happy and that’s so good for me. Day by day, the pain I’ve been feeling is disappearing. She is the place where I find the strength to move on with my life. I’m starting to think that maybe, I love her...
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July 25th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you’re fine. Sorry I haven’t talked to you lately, I haven’t had much time. I’ve been so happy that I’ve forgotten a little about you, sorry about that. Cristina and I, well we’ve been so happy. We had our first fight like a week ago, and we solved it in a pretty amazing way. I don’t remember why we were fighting in the first place but at the end, we just hugged and kissed and apologized. It was like the perfect ending for a fight. I think we’re growing really quickly as a couple, and I think that’s good. We are thinking about going on a trip to a natural place. Maybe a forest near here. Bring a camping
tent, sleep there, and cook using a wood fire. That would be pretty amazing but we still have to ask our parents. Wish me luck with my parents, you know how they are.
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September 15th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you’re fine. We finally went on the trip. It was amazing! It was raining a lot so we spent most of the time inside the camping tent. We had so much time to talk so we started to tell each other our "adventures of our childhood". She was a really funny sweet little girl. I would've loved to meet her as a kid. When the night came, it was really cold and we were really close to each other. We started playing, just bothering the other, but one thing lead to another and I won't describe what happened next, but I'm sure you can imagine. At the next day everything had changed. We became even closer to each other and it was like being in heaven. I love her! I love her! I love her! But I'm afraid of telling her...
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September 30th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you're fine because I'm not. Cristina and I, we had a big fight... I said something really stupid, and she asked to be a little more serious and I don't know why but I jelled at her. I got like a crazy. I said horrible things to her... And I can't figure out why I did such horrible things. I'm so sad. Everything was going so perfect. I told her that I love her, and she told me she felt the same way. I might have a gift to screw my life up when it's going well. I finally found the perfect girl for me, but now I'm not sure if she's ever going to forgive me... I must fight the darkness inside me. I hurt everyone I love. I hurt you, I killed you... I wasn't for you when you needed me the most, and you took that horrible decision. You killed yourself because I wasn't there to save you... I'm so sorry my friend. Please forgive me...
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October 16th, 2016 Dear Friend: I hope you're fine. It finally happened. I tried so badly to win her pardon, but I couldn't. When I told her everything about me, she got scared, and I totally understand her, I'm not ok. She told me she had understood everything perfectly, that she had already forgiven me, but that didn't want to be with me anymore. She told me, she didn't want a guy who's always going to hurt her, because she wants to feel safe and loved. I love her, but I would've never been able to make her feel safe. I'm not a good guy, and sooner or later, I would've hurt her again. She did the right thing with me. I can't hide I'm broken. I had THE GIRL, and I pushed her away from me. I miss her so much, but there's nothing left to do. I just hope that she'll find a guy that really deserves all her goodness.
Epilogue December 25th, 2016 Dear Friend: How’ve you been? Merry Christmas! Sorry I haven’t talked to you. It took me a while to move on with my life but finally I did. I have to thank you because you’ve been there for me through all this year. You were there for me when nobody else was and I’m really grateful. Sadly I have to say goodbye now, it's the best for me and I’ve found myself real friends in the real world. I will never forget you, you’re always going to be my special friend, my best friend. I just hope wherever you are now, you finally are happy and you have forgiven me. I miss you but I have to let you go. By the way, I met a new girl, her name is Elizabeth. She is an amazing girl and she’s coming home for dinner. Wish me luck! Goodbye my friend.