FOUR WEEKS HAULING THE SCRAPS OF MY BONES wor d s
by
m
.
buchanan
With all selflessness and no ill feelings in mind. For those who ran from suffering and all those left behind.
I T his
T his
hope
j oy
will
will
A lone
of
be
pump
my
like
e v ery
engine gasoline
hollow
A lone of e v ery bastar d d ream F oreign to col d hallways F ar from the d epths an d free
II P ure
v ictims
of
circumstance
O f that hell - boun d bag of bones I n the en d it ’ s gol d en an d true T he chaos an d the bloo d it d rew L osses cut an d
F or
the
F or
hope
gi v en
long the
roa d
up home
healing
P oure d out to lea v e this d rought F or now we ’ ll keep breathing
III A prayer C rooke d
to
my
d reams
beneath
A
hope
for
return
stow
the
my
;
v ices
not
smoke
shackles
;
to
your
an d
rust fears
d ust
lea v e
with
the
gust
B lesse d
wings
beneath
A
breath
to
strain
not
light
they
the the
bastar d s
your
reach
crushe d
clutching
your
crown
A
breath
to
the
bastar d s
anchoring
d own
A
breath
to
the
bastar d s hull
W retche d
seams
beneath
sow
that
tearing
the
; not
false
precious
nee d s
skull
IV O utrun the worry C hain away
P oun d
T rea d long weak limbs T rea d on now your
hoo v es
through
the
lonely
earth
W orth high , then further low S ow hopes roots as you go S low hope , slow light F low hope , flow light A ll hope , all light T rue hope , true light L ost hope , lost light L ast hope , last light
V I mprison smother
I’m
an d
begging pocket
your
j oy
hol d for
an d
it
the
the
one j ust
last like
truth
light
in
in my
time the my
fire
back
eyes
VI I’ve
been
pacing
my
way
aroun d
the
ben d s
And
if
tonight
you
’ re
tru d ging
roa d s
of
hell
T ake
that
struggle mu d d y
D on ’ t
raise
no
an d
chain
it
to
your
palms
flags
,
d on
’t
ring
no
bells
T rea d ing
C rushing
the
only
paths
wretche d
of
an d
coal
owning
the
through
it
toll
D rowning
the
hunch
to
row
flow
F inally
si d e
to
the
whole
’s
VII In
a
then
T hick
as
gust in
a
it
came
breath
thie v es
with
to it
me
left
lea v es
on
bree z e an d
then
they
fille d
my
chest
the
VIII T ear W ear
T race
me
apart
as
i
tore
you
me
d own
as
i
wore
you
the
fracture
T his through
is
my
an d
to
it
’s
war through
roots
IX P elting S inking
S en d ing gallows
C hoking the
to
the
skies
the
blues
the
halting
spark
a
ri v er
d ry
straight
breath
for
for the
the light
X F ree
Y our
will
beats
brittle
your
forwar d out
L ast
L et
me
steps be
d own
the
one
all at an d
To
at
the
en d
T he
of
or
pacing
now
car v e d
stone hallways
your
all
the
en d
of
glory
your
v ultures
rats
at
now
v ictories all
of
F ore v er T he rust d amage
d own
stan d ing
d own
an d
d oor
hells
your
en d
the
tear
of
front
failures
o v erhea d
un d erfoot your or
shiel d
the
healing
glow
marching
in
rows
XI T he
rain
flew
d own
with
a
gust
on
its
crown
It
throttle d
the
boughs
their
D own
the
long
roa d
but
lightene d
frown
,
through
d ea d
en d s
now
It
last
d rowne d
the
polishe d
F ar
past
d istance
the
hea v en
tar
now
H earts d o flourish an d N othing ’ s left stan d ing
an d
to
run
poun d to
as
one
anchor
the
bloom
To
shackle
D reary
H earts
or
polish
nights
d o
the
burn
flourish
ol d
out
an d
by
d ull the
poun d
as
gloom sun one
XII T here ’ s crooke d
a
chill
flow
on
that the
T he
v ultures
bree z e
d o
’s
my
bones
taking
an d
swings
a at
sea
caught
break
my
on
an
spirit
ill an d
flowing bust
my
gleam
T hese
bastar d
lungs
keep
growing
an d
sinking
My
T he
T hese wa v es
- boun d arms hell - boun d lungs
hell
ne v er
stop
crashing
themsel v es
And
fore v er
come
un d one
in
on
XIII H ere ’ s
to
And H ere ’ s
the
Of
to
ashes
e v ery
e v ery the
of
e v ery
long
threa d
en d ing
way in
of
tolling
out
the
stray
fray gnashing
roa d s
T he d earth of clo v en A n d all ol d se v ere d
d ay
fears glow
XIV
i
’ ll
U ntil d re d ge for
light lo v es
what
’s
cases
me
restless
owe d
to
me
seas
XV T here ’ s
a
storm
raging
afloat
B ut
when
you
’ re
ring
my
si d e in
on
an d
it
keeps
fears to
my
me
ears
only
d reams
XVI
No my
N o rust at my heals N o sleepless d awns N o fracture d rungs N o en d less thaws splits
name
in
an d
the
none
frame
that
shaking
throne
you
spell from
out your
XVII F our
weeks
hauling
the
scraps
of
my
bones
N ot weak or A ll free an d
crawling trawling
laps
on
my
for
wings
those
who
own
in
the
d rone
G ripping
an d
the
O we
H ol d
mauling
minor the
my
into
help
glory
C alm now until S oar an d flee
,
your
own
safe
the
’s
on
grown
harm
your
d welling
calling
that
tone
the
in
hammer
palm
has
the
flown
heart
XVIII F on d N ew
Razed
farewells wars
for
It shows
for
roun d
always
itself
ol d
long
M y crashing Y our failing T he last d ay
rolling
It
harmony
in
wars
goo d byes eyes
light comes
the
ben d
comes
the
cracks
of
the
banks
In an d
in
the
the
last
fa d ing
breath
light
of
e v ery
crashing
wa v e
Y our failing light , your fa d ing light Y our fa d ing an d failing harmony
Y our
glory
clenche d lost
in
with
the
e v ery
years
mooring
XIX R unning up the hill S wimming up the
of
stream
shattere d
My
lo v e
packe d
an d
port
T he
pillars
By an d
the
of
e v ery
past
e v ery
call
beating
final
e v ery
new of
v ow
bough
e v ery
strength
ruste d
of
d ragge d
of
its
e v ery
measure d
by
glow
wreckage all
new
growth
XX T he
crown
of
e v ery
skull
bowe d
in
sorrow
W ashe d
ashore
from
D ismantling
P ulsing on the C aught in
U nbroken
by
the
seas cruel
lack the
of
of
d ea d
ways ol d
v iolent
d amage
;
faith
hea d win d ways
pain
My
en d s
my
crown
of
ol d
XXI Y ou
Y ou
ga v e
sang
me
me
somewhere
the
long
to
d irge
d isappear for
ol d
M ore free than the first wa v e M ore free than the last d ay S a v e d by your full heart S afe from falling apart S afe from falling fast S afe from the shattere d mast
fear
XXII R un
L ea v e
J ust S en d
like
the
ri v er
like
the
bree z e
fast
calamity
enough
back
D ull
T hey
from
wings
float
P le d ge d an d
O nly
bury
d ays
of
to
where
it
d rop
an d to
flee
maim
plow
the soli d
frail gol d
now
came
XXIII F or a L ike L ike F or As
a
moment the
you
silent
swollen
en d e d
crash
empty
me
in
pits
my
my
frien d
d reams
for
gleam
L ike ol d worn ways L ike bitter d ays breath
As
As
wor d s
As
you
lost
in
caught from all
carrie d the
in
me
the
light
frien d
hea d win d hea d win d
F rost , Y eats my
my
an d
ingraine d
G ra v es
XXIV A nother v oice in the chorus C ar v e d out of stone B y rain of the years an d
A nother
raining
count
that
in
crashes
T hat T hat
d own your at
d ashes
at
long
T hat cashes in on T olling at its taking
what
thie v ing its
trea d
on on
to me
here near
grown own
my
fear
pace
will
until en d ing
my
v oice
hear
an d
it
hoarse
T hie v e
fa d ing
me
thrashes
coals
frien d frien d
XXV S lashing my an d
e v ery
through
kin d est
waywar d
roots
see d
caught
on
bree z e
S haking
v iolently
R unning asi d e ol d frien d s blin d C rashing into d reary lights S warming through W ith scathing light T he worl d still turns M y eyes still learn
the
XXVI P atterns throttle
On On
L ong the
On
the
On
On
out
ne v er of
shoul d ers
shoul d ers the
of
an d
Y ou your
teeth pai d strength
true
true
of
to
true of
shoul d ers
shoul d ers
W ith
your
d ebts
shoul d ers
the
the
repeat
of
ruin
selflessness true
true
loss
sacrifice
ri d e
han d s
G ently
i
slowly
come
to
hea v en
buckle un d one
XXVII A ll with
of
my
hopes
black
anchors
clou d s
S hun
of
C ast an d
out
S plitting cashing
in
on
E v ery
ways
shone
the
an d
free
wa v e
ol d
out
e v ery
E v ery
d ull
out
S hone
d raine d
ingraine d
sea
free en d less ri d e
crashing
by
d rift
XXVIII R ats in S nake B oughs L ong
I’ve
I’ve
watche d
watche d
the pit
cellar swells
less set
free
your
you
lea v es failing
change
escape
from
light
to
grey
I’ve
felt
you
teach
me
of
healing
an d
d emise
I’ve
watche d
an d
felt
through
rusting
eyes
T rust
End
the
in
me
to
lea v e
pace
to
the
End
the
race
truth
beat
to
be
of
in
my
false
torn
lines hearts
apart
XXIX P olish your woun d s H ol d your glory an d wear
all
K eep
of
hol d
your of
own
burie d
an d
burie d
an d
brittle
tarnishe d
W hen W hen W hen
failures goo d
tolls gol d
an d
ol d
e v ery
d ay
is
torn
e v ery
d ay
is
worn
e v ery
d ay
is
war
XXX B uil d ing
my
from
scraps
the
B one N ail
S hunne d by
by
the
L eft to
own
of
by
bone
by
nail
my
own
tracks an d
en d
hea v en
of
hell
hea v en hell
grown
the
frail
XXXI I’ve an d
seen wee d
struggle
out
F ol d ing
the
like
stowing
I’ve
the
watche d
that
you
L ea v ing
sink
blin d behin d
watche d
you
your
of
crown
your
halt
brightness
in
I’ve
creases
ti d es
the
tug
in
frown
the
tightly
the
ship
bay
away
an d
lea v e
terror true
march
v ictory
through
battle
groun d s for
I’ve as
near
watche d my
And it
years
woun d s
be
light
staye d
for
minute
a
buste d
B ut it to
low
to to
set
it
hea v y
lea d
sleep
as
below
clutter its
seams
again its
glow o v erhea d
wretche d
M y light sha d owe d Y our colour fa d ing
you
out
surface d
the
sunk
upon
sha d owe d
through
shiel d ing low
now
grey out out
F aultlessly an d not finally M y light choke d an d staine d Y our glimmer d ragge d away
XXXII C rooke d wings H ell - worthy gree d
C arrie d with true aban d onment C arrie d on the bree z e C arrie d on the gust aloft C arrie d with all ease
XXXIII T he
true
grace
an d
in
in
wreckage
d ownfall
I n the long haul I n the soaring in
the in
an d
T he an d
in
the
q uiet
leapt an d
ple d ge
d ownpour last
blackness
the
who
silent
the
of
call
our
sa v iour
with
q uietly
all
v ices abashe d
strength
crashe d
XXXIV L ast
of
your
terror
fleeing
pressure d
an d
your
escapes
I ’ v e lo v e d you through the years I ’ ll lo v e you to our gra v es K illers of hope breathe d own
the
T hey of
neck
han d
ol d
an d
S tirring
M ore your
T he with
q uiet
hoo v es
me
my
up
than
loneliness
W an d a ’ s
ways
restless our
that
d ays
memories
forgotten
S a v age
Of
of
greys
the
soun d
poun d
car v es d irge
the
groun d
groo v es
the
soun d
XXXV In
this
pit
of
true light
T his
T his
is
is
those
where
whose
sur v i v e
flourishing
A ching an d wretche d A rche d an d en d less is
for
no
flows
T he long push on O ff with the ropes T ire d an d d esperate for those who won ’ t
for
T his
blackness
those
left
behin d
d ie d
XXXVI C ast into battles , cast to the flames Y ears d rea d the mess we ’ v e fle d an d turn
L ast
of
the
their
hea d s
train
in
wrecks
shame
,
last
of
the
tame
S lowly an d
the
we
ble d
worst
for we
the
note d
T hrown asi d e , W an d ering d own
left the
best
we
their
left
names
behin d ri v ersi d e
XXXVII S ee
S welling the
hearts
ruiners they
My
resonance
an d
snappe d
apart
heartless
truly
guar d e d
to
who
are by
prison
T osse d for the ri v er T osse d for the wol v es W ith all mercy left
for
shi v er
bars
XXXVIII W oun d s
unwoun d
by
the
lonely
S oftly stowe d S lowly towe d D i v ing low
d own
the
T hrown who of
for
fee d all
who
ri v ers the
on
throat wol v es
the
the
slowly
glow
wa v es grow
soun d
XXXIX No No
H ours
hope
d ies
hope
lies
cycle
crushing
S oaring through
T he
only
limbs
through
an d an d
flying falling
bright
an d
breaking
grey
my
fall
are
own
W rap for
W ith an d
your
arms
my
en d less
R eape d iron
stowe d in
some
an d
aroun d
me
d rone
sown
’s
wings
it
away
its
d istant
flown plagues
place
my
XL I
fell
like
away
shores
from to
the
you blue
D ragge d out by the arms of the houn d s T he same arms all untrue T he same arms that beat through T orturing an d poun d ing the thorns in T hrashing the pillars thin C ashing their own re d emption in
XLI Y ou
nee d
your
B urrow L ay
eyes
on
to
cast
hellish
an d
nights d ay
me
d ust
that
ones
that
straight ones
out
col d
flawlessness
keeps
T he
claw
en d less
warmth
lea v ing
to
way
the
e v ery
the
T he
own
past
an d
you
in
yourself
away
lingers
boun d for
for
grasp
sha d e
out
they
ne v er
j oy
the at
the
houn d s your
heels
shining
foun d
XLII C ut short an d trea d upon T arnishe d an d all innocent W ith rusting eyes T rue d eath v iews an d
I
breathless
gloom
T he city tarnishe d B lack an d blue H alte d aghast T orn through you leapt the
for
pale
v oices an d
nights
of
engine
of
that
buil d ings
the
long
roa d
home
swells
d rone
XLIII B ra z en an d broa d shoul d ere d B less your peaceful shiel d s Y our d amage hi d d en an d
glimmering
yet
heale d
S leeping at peace for now N e v er the face of en d ing N e v er the face of regret
N e v er a N e v er
sinking the
face
rotting
abashe d d ecks
XLIV A ll
lo v e
then
boun d
un d one
T hrown
for
a
not
yet
d ug
gra v e
S hifting from the current S hifting from the wa v e
S hifting
with
all
its
might
so
bra v e
S hifting from the path that le d astray A ll light d ea d in its nest in the sky A ll hope ble d slowly an d d ry A ll peace throttle d an d left to d ie I ts ghost in the d istance ho v ers through
the
night
K eeping the ol d town in its sight K eeping si d e to the d ecline I n line at the gates of hea v en I n line with the hope an d light W aiting long K eeping bright
X LV T hey in
a
were ship
two of
F ull
worn
planks
rotting of
d ecks
j oy
C ommitte d to the d rowning C ommitte d to the wreck H ammere d with the weight of
N aile d in
a
this with
worl d all
single
grace
hurl
X LV I
On In
F ormless an d unbroken L ong stan d ing H ope king S weet an d fluttering C rooke d an d men d ing S traight to the en d ing the
I a
shoul d ers ha d n
blink
of
’t
slept
my
eyes
T hrown
d eaths in
25
years
forgot
d own
the
out
from
my
fears
well
T hen fetche d out all S tretche d out from
S tretche d
horsemen
clear here
further
to
near
X LV I I T he born
now
from
T he for
for
i
d ecay
hel d
pockete d
T he d issonance D usting off T he
grey
restless
harmony
now
rea d y
d ull
away
d ream
my
to
slay
shoul d ers
the
emptiness
weight carrie d
to it ’ s d eathly fate D ragge d again from light to grey T his engine leans on bitter hells
T he
j oy
is
pumping
an d
q uietly
swells
X LV I I I I’ve
It
floo d e d
watche d
that
through
o v er
you
bastar d
the
years
O ne d ay i ’ ll take its I ts gain will halt the
pure
swell
O v erhea d U n d erfoot
E v ery q uiet A roun d A roun d an d
will
the the
step its its
then
i
an d
will
floo d of of
watch
the
d ry
that
torment falsity it
sky
ring
long
towar d s
neck
’ ll
bloo d
touch
bells
neck
current
slip
grip
XLIX A
tremor
threw
the
P rayer for the T hat rolls for
A lone
from
unen d ing an d
those of
d ust
d rone
pulses
alone
the
bones
glory
A lone of the promise A lone of the free d om A lone with the fear A lone with the hunte d T hen houn d e d back here
L S o for now chip out our gra v es T hough ship out our en d ing to
d istant
I’ve
mappe d
out
an d
storms
will
d ays
trails
still
brew
abo v e
to
trea d
my
hea d
T he tolls will be taken but i ’ ll choke out the d rea d I ’ ll lea v e it to the win d lifeless
an d
ble d
M y d earest d o not lay your I promise you the bells will an d
all
j oy
has
not
fle d
hea d ring
LI A
ner v ous an
T he beat
C racks an d
the
bri d e
en d less circles d own
in
the
vs
war
of
her
hell d oor
floorboar d s
crushing
H er lea d chains H er shackles all
four
walls
engra v e d ingraine d
LII U nwrought the wan d er C ru d e an d cursory S titche d with miles
T hese four walls crashing T he full circle reaps I t rakes an d it lea v es I t takes an d it keeps
W ith
the
an d
My as
own
spee d
d eaths reins
d eaths
of
reins
go d at
stowe d
rain
at my
away
soaks
the
my
in
feet
heals for
now
fiel d s
LIII H ell sent its wol v es T hey left with my through
to
my
bloo d
their
front
d oor
swimming
j aws
I ’ ll d ance to their ol d fury one d ay O n the far si d e of the long haul T he slow crawl G athering the mourning S tar v ing the peace out A pplau d ing the long d rought T he bellowing fee d ing all d oubt
LIV B lackliste d Y oung man I ’ ll
by
a
keep
thinning
Y our
slaughtering home
Y our
my
the won
here
ri v ers
common
’t
enemy
sights
on
the
her d be
hear d
or
at
anymore
will
d ry
out
Y our stri d e will not strut its route Y our howling will not wail about Y our rotting will not fee d the d oubt H armony will run across the sky I ’ ll praise its tracks where v er i lie
LV It
fell
through
me
in
R elenting
an d
showe d
a
myself the
tarnishe d
back an d
trea d
ol d
F ore v er in d ebte d B orn into myself to to
earn
lea v e
To
en d
e v erything it
for
with
O ut
of i
q uietly
d ebts
pai d
myself
R eturning where
all
gol d
to
roots
once
lay
peace
‘True Hope’ Take these muddy palms and set them on the breeze. Tread them through the skies and pound them on the seas. I crash into it as the earth wails out your name. Swallowed by every wave. Sweep me away.
ייתומצע לש תויראשה תא םיררוג תועובש העברא