20
Pieces
Of Thanks For My Mom
Melina Nathania
20 Pieces Of Thanks For My Mom Copyright Š 2015 Melina Nathania Kurniawan All rights reserved. No part of this publicatioin may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system without express written permission from the author / publisher.
Foreword I love quotes and I prefer to write than talk to people. For me, word is the best way to express my feelings and emotions. For me, my mom is more than just a mom. She is a person whom I love truly. Studying in Singapore, it is not a piece of cake like what I imagined it to be when I left my mom in Indonesia. This book is about my personal life experiences since I started to study in Singapore. I express through words about the memories we went through in the past and my feelings in the situation here. There are 20 passages in the book because 20 is a symbol of the age I turned into this year. Basically, this book is a way of expressing my gratitude to her. I hope that this book inspires through words and remind readers of a mom’s love. Thank you.
With Love, Melina Nathania
I love mom to pieces, to her I dedicate this book.
I f ly far, yet she is still in my heart.
1
The moments, the memories. I saw us in a small frame of photograph. H e r little smile gives a mild touch. If only we could have some hours to be captured for now.
2
time , Every et la b y I smellelm likenksh e I fe in g g u was Sunhrise angd me. t,itiswarmth sunse no other; like safe and sound.
3
B E E P. . B E E P. . I was rushed by time because I overslept. Where did her annoying voice go. Was I deaf to not hear it?
4
I got a fever. I did not need doctors. Limited medicine improved me insignificantly. My body temperature knew what it needed. Being by her side restored my condition.
5
I text you messages, but it does not have enough space to express my new life that is full of adventures.
6
I am alone here Ever ything sounds like sadness. Vodka does not make me fly. I need her to give me a chill of peppermint.
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8
I remember when she fed me a lot of foods. I yelled, I was going to explode, I left the food in the fridge. All alone, I need to feed myself now.
9
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10
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11
sympathetic whispers, IShy say sorry sosweeter many times that Iit’s stop being able to use my tongue. She always says okay and that that is me. She is than any other sweets. Shy sympathetic whispers, I say sorry so many times that I stop being able to use my tongue. She always says it’s okay and that that is me. She is sweeter than any other sweets.
12
She had a bad sense of humor. She told unfunny jokes. I did not have the ability to laugh, I mocked her. Too bad, sparkle in her eyes look like ain galaxy thesky dark She had a bad sense of humor.
She told unfunny jokes. I did not
have the ability to laugh, I mocked her. Too bad, sparkle in her eyes
look like a galaxy in the dark sky.
13
She let out her warm, gentle hands and held my tiny ones firmly. Please, grip me tightly, kiss me sweetly. I was at peace.
14
t We look up to see and share he same sky. al s, Distance ways matter fo yet t he gap o ur souls b will always e thirsty.
15
I s e n s e that every second, minute, hour is crucial. Even twentyfour seven is not enough to always be with her.
16
Some days, I cannot hold on to my
dreams. Everything is floating away f r o m m e . I am s t u c k
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somewhere in the m i d d l e f the ocean. B u t there she always is; my anchor.
17
I still argue over my dreams. But I promise her that even clouds drop joyful t e a r s .
18
Ifrequently. am reckless. still get angry, but less I try to bring her more hopes dream and carry less nightmares. IIangry, amstill reckless. getI but less frequently. try to bring her more hopes and dream and carry lessI nightmares. Istill am reckless. get angry, but
less frequently. I try to bring her more hopes and dream and carry less nightmares. I am reckless. I still get angry, but less frequently. I try to bring her more hopes and dream and carry less nightmares.
19
Dazzling words are not enough
to
explain
every
thought. Convincing her with action is an obligation.
20
I d o n o t believe in f a i r y t a l e s. It is a pretty lie to believe all in happy endings. Let me create the real one.
Thanks to: God who provided me with his unending grace. Beloved parents who support me unconditionally in every aspect, especially my mom who inspires me in this piece. Ms. Winnie Tan for giving new opinions and knowledge that is imparted to me in the process of making this piece. Hanna Setiadi, Kwon Hazel, and Yu Zheng Hua who helped out and shared insights along the process of making this piece. My classmates in DM2C-GC.