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2012

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UmmamaBashi r :Desi gnSt af f Mel ani eBuckwal t er :Desi gnSt af f Hai l eyCar nohan:TextEdi t or Dyl l anCeci l :Desi gnSt af f Mi st iNol en:Desi gnSt af f LoganPi er pont :Desi gnSt af f

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Scot tAl l en:Li t er ar ySt af f MeganByr d:Li t er ar ySt af f Al exi sCol l i ns:Li t er ar ySt af f AnnaMar i eCol l i ns:Li t er ar ySt af f Ashl eyLi nvi l l e:Communi cat i ons Mi st iNol en:Communi cat i ons Emi l yPhi l l i ps:Li t er ar ySt af f HannahSni der :Li t er ar ySt af f

Kel l yBi sogno-Ar t& Desi gn Al l i sonMar chet t i-Li t er at ur e Thel i t er ar yst af feval uat esandsel ect ssubmi ssi ons,wr i t esanddel i ver saccept anceandr ej ect i on l et t er s,andedi t sandpr oof r eadsaccept edsubmi ssi ons. Thedesi gnt eam col l ect sandeval uat esar t submi ssi ons,aswel laspl anst het hemeanddesi gnoft hepubl i cat i on. Al lst udent sar eencour agedt osubmi tar tandwr i t i ngt obeconsi der edf orent r yi nt oet cet er a.

Col ophon

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wer er el evant ,movi ngandt r uet ot hest udent exper i ence.

Asyoust r ol lt hr ought hegal l er i es,youwi l lencount era wi der angeofcr eat i vet hemest hati nf or m andi nspi r e ourwor k:I mmer si on,Power ,I magi nat i on,I nst ance, Per cept i onandMor t al i t y . Youmayf i ndt hatyougr avi t at et owar dscer t ai n r ooms—good,st ayt her easl ongasyoul i ke.Li nger , wander ,andr et ur nagai nt ot hepi ecest hatchal l enge you,moveyou,changeyou. Thankyouf orvi si t i ng.

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GoodMor ni ng,Mi chaelCouchman Si ze6,Ashl eyLi nvi l l e St ampedFace,Novel l aWeat her l i t Chr i st i ne’ sDr eams,HannahSni der A ThousandWor ds,J asmynDavi s Li on,Mel ani eCooper I mpul se,Lei ght onCar t er SadOnesWi t hSci ssor s,SavannahDut t on 13 MyFat heratt heTabl e,Meatt hePhone,Emi l yPhi l l i ps

Power

anar t i st i cexpl or at i onofdomi nanceandst r engt h 14 MyLover ,t heAssassi n,MeganByr d Boa1andBoa2,Cecel i aSt okes 16 St r engt h,Chr i st i naRi t t enhouse 17 TheCr ownChakr a,Mi st iNol en Yoga,Cecel i aSt okes

Imagi nat i on

f ant ast i cmusi ngsandendeavor s 18 19 20 21

Inst ance

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Vast ,BenBor r i s St ar s,Mor ganHowel l Spaghet t i ,Br i dgetWi l l i ams J el l yf i sh,Mar i aCont e

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Tur ki shLant er n,UmmamaBashi r Summeri nTwoPar t s:Par tI,Mar i aCont e Mar vel ousLi ght ,Al yssaPr i l l man Summeri nTwoPar t s:Par tI I ,Mar i aCont e i nt er t wi ned,DevonPayne Fami l y ,Br ookeHyat t TheMi nef i el dFl oor ,Al exi sCol l i ns Agat eaophobi a,Mel ani eCooper Ani sePi zzel l es,Mar i aCont e For est ,El ai neDowel l TakeMeSomewher eNi ce,Somewher e Gr een,Somewher eNi ce:A Cut UpPoem,Mi st iNol en ‘ Twast heNi ghtBef or eChr i st mas, Ti m Dal yandCl ementMoor e

Per cept i on

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Mar i l yn’ sThought s,Ashl eyLi nvi l l e l ower cased,DevonPayne Mi l k,Madel ei neMor i ar t y Af t eraTwoHourDr i ve,Dani el l ePedi ni Layer ed,Cecel i aSt okes Or gani zedConf usi on,Wi l lPor zi o TheShepher d,BenBor r i s Maki ngt heNat ur eScene,Madel ei neMor i ar t y TheWi nki ngWor l d,Sar ahMar t i n

Mor t al i t y

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Ashl eyLi nvi l l e Inevert ol danyone,butI ’ l lt el lyou,because younevert al kback.Ihugyoual lar oundt hesi des. Cl enchi ngt hesi desofyou,j ustt opr eventmysel f f r om l osi ngbal ance.Myhai ri spul l edback, soi twon’ tgeti nt heway .I ’ m dyi ng.Dyi ngt o spew al lofmysecr et soft hedayi nt oyou.Myeyes f i l l edwi t ht ear s,ever yt hi nggoesbl ur r y .Ican’ thol di ti nanymor e. Il eti tal loutonyou.Iknow t hi sr el at i onshi pi sbadf orme, butIdoi tanyways.Inevert ol danyone,butIt el lyou,becauseI onl ywantt obeasi zesi x.

Good Mor ni ng

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I mmer si on

Chr i st i ne’ sDr eams HannahSni der

I nf r act ur eddr eams, shesl eepsunder wat er l ongi ngf orsunl i ght somesor tofopeni ng somewher eshecancr awlt hr ough sl i pper y—l i keaf i sh shegr aspsherbar s, exper i ment al l y , andst ar esout wi t hcaul i f l owereyes, i nt oi ndi gooceanf l oor s i nsi deofapai ntbox. Dr i ppi ngont ot hi r st ycanvas, t heysl i pof fabat t er edbr ush. Thedr ops,l i kel i f e’ swat er , f eedonesi mpl eman, anar t i st , whodr awsnotst i l ll i f esorpor t r ai t s, butdr eams. Eveni naci t ywher et heMusesar egods, noonewant sapi ct ur eofagi r l onshow ataci r cus—under wat er

St amped Face

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Ah,spl endi dci t yoft hegi l dedst r eet s, whi chhasf or got t enmecompl et el y— I ’ m notpar tofyourgol denage. A soci et alvagabond, unshodandunshor n, ami sf i tl ar vaman,awai t i ngmychr ysal i s, Ipai ntst r angedr eamsi nal l eyways andsmi l eatpassi ngchi l dr en andf eedmysel ft hegi ddydr eam t hatI ’ l lbef r eeoft hesebar ssomeday t hesebar sofi r on t hatsepar at emef r om you, andt r adet hem i n— f orgl or i ousshackl esofgol d.

A Thousand W ords JasmynDavi s

Now Iseet hatf our t hgr adewasapr obl emat i cyear ,notf orme,butf ormy par ent s.Mypar ent sar guedf r equent l y ,whi chwasn’ t ,andi sn' t ,somet hi ngnew. I don' tr emember what t r i gger ed t hi s par t i cul ar ar gument bet ween my par ent s—i twas pr obabl y ,l i ke i tusual l yi s,somet hi ng t hatst ar t ed outas a seemi ngl yhar ml essdi scussi on,aboutwhowasgoi ngt ot aket hedi shesoutof t he di shwasher ,and t hen became a f ul l bl own ar gument .My mot herwoul d di r ectsome sor tofper sonalj ab atmy f at her ,abouthow he nevert ook t he di shesoutoft hedi shwasherwhent heywer el i vi ngi nBost ont went yyear sago, whi cht henshi f t edt omyf at her ' sout cr yt hathewor kedt hr eej obst okeepar oof over our heads and t her ef or e di d not need t ot ake t he di shes out oft he di shwasher .Scr eami ngl oudenough f ort hesur r oundi ngnei ghbor st ohear ,my par ent swer el i vi d.TJ ,my ol dersi st erwho hasDown syndr ome,woul d st ar t sl ammi ngherdoori npr ot estoft hei rar gui ng.Outofmyt wosi st er sandme,TJ i st heonewhobecomest hemostupsetwhenmypar ent sar gue.Event ual l y ,my par ent swoul dcoolof fandmyf at herwoul dgot ohi sr oom t or esumewat chi ng hi st el evi si onshow andmymot herwoul dgoi nt ot heki t chen,wher eshewoul d mumbl e underherbr eat h unt i lshe was no l ongerangr y .My mot herwoul d occasi onal l y st or m of faf t erhavi ng an ar gumentwi t h my f at her ,butshe was usual l y back i naf ew hour s,as i fnot hi ng had happened.Thi st i me,unl i ke pr evi ous ones,my mot herl ef tt he house wi t h my ol dersi st erTJ ,and di dn' t r et ur nf ort woweeks. Myf at hergavemeandmyyoungersi st erSi dneysomewhatofaconsol i ng t al k,abouthow mymot herhad t aken myol dersi st erTJwi t h hert ost aywi t h oneofherf r i endsf orawhi l e.Thi swast heonl ysnapshotIhadofwhatl i f ewas l i kewi t hasi ngl epar ent ,j ustf ort hoset woweeks.Myf at hert r i edt opr ovet hat he coul d be t he bet t erpar ent ;he cooked hear t i ermeal sf orusand checked pai nst aki ngl yoverourhomewor k.I nsomeways,t hi ngsseemedt ogetbet t er .I di dn’ thavet oeatanymor eofmymot her ’ sr epul si vecooki ngorhearanymor e ofmy par ent s’ar gument s.Butmy f at her ’ sst i ntatbei ng Mr .Mom seemed t o comeatt hewr ongt i me:Wi nt erBr eak. Idonotcomef r om aphot ogeni cf ami l y ,sowedonothavet hegener i c f ami l yphot ost hatever yoneel seseemst ohavehangi ng i nt hei rl i vi ng r ooms. Myf at hert ookt hi soppor t uni t yasachancef orust ot akesomegener i cf ami l y phot os,whi ch woul d somehow make us mor el i ke al lt hose ot her f ami l i es. Besi dest hef actt hatSear swasgi vi ngoutahol i daydi scountonf ami l ypor t r ai t s ( myf at herl ovesagooddeal ) ,Idonotknow whymyf at herhadust akeaf ami l y phot o.Myf at hercanbehar dt or ead,sowhenIl ookbackont hi st i me,Ihave t r oubl e deci pher i ng t he under l i ni ng t r ut h behi nd my dad’ s mot i ves.I r oni c,i t seems t o me now,how my f at herwant ed t ot ake a f ami l y phot o when t wo member sofourf ami l y ,mymot herandol dersi st er ,wer enotwi t hus.Now when Iseet hatphot oofmyf at herand youngersi st erand me,Ican’ thel p butf eel l i ke we ar ei mpost er s.My f at her ,nott he bi ggestf an oft he camer a,hast he cheesi estsmi l egl ued t ohi sf ace.Bycont r ast ,myyoungersi st erSi dneyhasa gr i nt hatencompasseshal fofherf ace.

Li on

Mel ani eCooper Oi lPai nt

Onmyf ace,Ihavewhatmanymi ghtcal lagui l tsmi l e,t hesamef akesmi l et hati s seendur i ngcampai gns,ont hef acesofsomanypol i t i ci ans.ButI ,unl i ket hei ncr easi ng numberofmenandwomeni npol i t i cs,wasnotaccust omedt ot hi scr ookedexpr essi on on myf ace.I tseemed al i en t ome—ar t i f i ci aland di si ngenuous. Di dt hephot ogr apher know t hatt hi swasnott hephot oofaf ami l y?I nt hebackofmymi ndwhi l esmi l i ngf or t hephot o,Icoul donl yt hi nkf r aud,f r aud,f r aud.Thi swasnotaf ami l yphot o.Thi swas t hephot oofhal fofaf ami l y .Andeveni f ,say ,myol dersi st erandmot herwer eaddedt o t hepi ct ur e,woul di tr eal l ybet hephot oofawhol ef ami l y?

MyFat heratt heTabl e,Meatt hePhone Emi l yPhi l l i ps

Anot hercal lf r om t heWi l l i ams ( anameIhadseen on t hecal l erI D f orsever alweeks) Sheal ways askedf ormyf at her . el y Rar di dheanswer . Shewasf ami l yandt al ked i n af r i endl y, f ami l i arway butIsear chedt hr ough mi ndandmemor y andcoul dnot pl acet hi swoman.

Sad OnesW i t h Sci ssor s SavannahDut t on

“ Imustl ookont hever geofament al br eakdown.Thi swon’ tdo. ” —Kat ni ssEver deen I nci si onsar el i kepat hways t hatl eadyout or el i ef onl yt of i ndsomepr et t ymi ser abl e nat i ves. Of t enwhenyoudr i vet hi shi ghway yout hi nkt oyour sel f i si twor t hi tt oot her s? I ’ m notaf r ai dt ot el lyout hat ,yeah. I ti s. Whenyouencount erast r eam oranangr ycr i msonr i ver Ihopet hatf ear l essl y youwi l lt hi nkofme. Ihopet hosesci ssor si nyourhand ar ecar r i edon,and evenwhenpeopl esay No youwi l lal l ow your sel f anot herbodyofbl ood r el easedandf l owi ng awayf r om you.

Somyf at herwasatt heki t chen t abl e when anot hercal lcame. Hemadenomove t oanswer soIchecked

Impul se

“ ThessaWi l l i ams?” “ Don’ tansweri t . ” Iaskedwhy andhedi vul gedhi s shat t er edmi r r or chi l dhood.

Iknew avaguesenseofhi shal f si st er , amoneyspender andt hen abr ot her beggar Butnow Il ear nedabouthi smot her , how hewasn’ tal l owed t ovi si thi ssi bl i ngs andhow t hebr ui ses woul dkeephi mf r om wal ki ng andhow hehadnomoney andhow hewasdesper at e t oescape Fi nal l yt hepi eces camet oget heroft hatmi ddl et i me hehadal waysski ppedover — t hemi ddl e, t hehi gh schoolyear s AndIcoul df i nal l ysee t hr ough t hat br oken gl ass.

Lei ght onCar t er Pai nt i ng 12

BoaPar t sIand II MyLover ,t heAssassi n MeganByr d

Myl over ,t heassassi n,i sbeaut i f ul Iwat chhi sdel i ber at eandf l ui dmovement s Hi smuscl est enseunderhi ssweat dr enchedcl ot hes Myl over ,t heassassi n,i sbeaut i f ul Herl onghai rt umbl esdownhershoul der s Hergr eeneyespenet r at ehersur r oundi ngs Shei saki l l er ;shei sbeaut i f ul

Power

Cecel i aSt okes Phot ogr aphy

It ur nmybackt ot heman Hi sbl ackandbeadyeyesar ef or eversear chi ng Her emi ndsmeofnot hi ngsomuchasamouse Af l ashofwhi t e Themovementofherdr essi st heonl yt hi ngt hatgi vesheraway

Myl over ,t heassassi n,i sbeaut i f ul cht hebl ooddr i pdownmyf r ont Iwat Myl over ,t heassassi n,i saccur at e

TheCr own Chakr a Mi st iNol en Phot ogr aphy

St r engt h

Chr i st i naRi t t enhouse Phot ogr aphy

Yoga

Cecel i aSt okes Phot ogr aphy 16

St ar s

Mor ganHowel l Thankyouf ort hesesacr ed Candl esoft hesky , Vei l edobser ver sofdr eams, Cher i sheddaught er sofSel ene: hel umi nous,cr ypt i c Fort BeaconsofHeaven. Forf ear l essOr i on, Andst eadf astPol ar i s, Pat r oni zedbyl egends, Beckoni ngschol ar sanddr eamer sal i ke. Myeyes,myspi r i t , Makehopef ulwi shes. St ar sr ace:ashi mmerofdustf al l s, Fr om t hesesi l ent ,cel est i alangel s, I ndi f f er entt oourFat e.

Vast

BenBor r i s Oi lPai nt i ng

I magi nat i on

Jel l yf i sh

Mar i aCont e Iwant edt of l oat ,t odr i f tl i ket heydobehi nd t hei ncht hi ckgl assoft heBost onaquar i um, wher et hewat erdr i f t smi l kydust ,wovent hr ough ast r eam ofcoolt i de. Thi si sn’ tadeser t ;maybe. Somet i mest hej el l yf i sh,maybeone,because t heyof t enhi def r om t hef oggybr eat hedchi l dr en scr unchi ngt hei rnosest ot hei ncht hi ckgl ass, l i nger .Theyl i nger .Andt hewat ert akest hem. Andsomet i mest heyar edead.Andt heman wi t ht hebl uecapwi l lscoopt hem upi nat ur quoi se net ,andr esur r ectt hem f r om st al ewat er s whenal lt hecr owdsofcamer ahappyt our i st s l eave—event hought her ei sasi gnt hatsaysno f l ash.Andi fIwer eaj el l yf i sh,Ibett hatf l ash f eel sl i ker adi at i on.Ibeti twoul dst i ngmy t ent acl esandl eavemyi nsi desst unned. And maybet hat ’ swhenIwoul dl ett hewat ert ake mei ni t sar msandr ockmet hr ought hef oggy dept hs. T akeme. Andsi st erwi t hhershoel acesl i keunt i edt ent acl es scof f satme.Mot herandDadsi gh.Theyputmacar oni onmypl at e. Idr eam Iam aj el l yf i sh. It ugonsi st er ’ st ut u,hoi st edt omyhi ps.Thet ut u f ansar oundmyt hi ghsl i keagr acef ulski nofsi l kenf l esh. Ishutmyeyes. Ist andi nt hewi nd. Buti tdoesnott akeme.

Spaghet t i

Br i dgetWi l l i ams Phot ogr aphy 20

Tur ki sh Lant er n UmmamaBashi r Phot ogr aphy

Summeri n TwoPar t s:Par tI Mar i aCont e

Scavengi ngf oranci entshar dsofsi l t edpoolt i l esbyt he spl i nt er edbi ker ackwasmymor ni ngr i t ualaf t ereachswi m t eam pr act i cet hatmuggysummer . Mypl um bi cycl e,of t en car r yi ngcr ushedr obi ns’eggsandgr eased,mat t edf eat her s i ni t swar pedpl ast i chandl ebarpouch,wovemedownCol ony Tr aceandal ongLooki ngGl asst owar dst hepr omi sedl andof 9year ol df r eedom. Af t ert r eadi ngwat erf orf i vemi nut esandf l oppi ngmy st ubbyl egsi nbut t er f l ymot i onsacr osst hemar at honof25 met er s,Ihel dt hedi gni t yt oent ert hepool ’ smur kywat er s sol o. Ther ewasadust yal l ey ,st ockedwi t hbi kesandpi r at e’ s t r easur es,apool si devi ew i fyoupr essedyourf or ehead agai nstt hevi negar l andf ence. Beneat ht hecr i msoncl ayl ay br i l l i antt i l es,gr eencakedpenni es,anddul lquar t z. When yout hr ew t hatst oneont ot het ar bubbl i ngpavement ,i t woul dspl i ti nt omet amor phosedf r act i ons,r eveal i nghazy gl asscr yst al s. Mondayswer eThur sdays. 9o’ cl ockwas7o’ cl ock. I count edt heaf t er noonsawaybyt hesquealof“ adul tswi m” whi st l es. Oh,how Ihat edadul tswi ms. Iguessadul t sdon’ tcar eaboutt hei mpor t anceof shar kchasi ngmi nnows. Buti nr et ur nIgai nedpat i enceand abagofBBQ chi psf r om t hesnackbar . Neverwoul dIl eave onef i ngerunl i ckedoft hathoneybr i nesal t ,soaddi ct i ngmy mot herswor et hatmyf i nger swer est ai nedbur ntor ange. Andaf t eral lt heshar dsoft i l eandf or got t enf eat her s wer ecol l ect ed,t heymadet hei rwayi nt omyt opl ef tdr esser , smashedbet weenpastyear s’hot elcar dkeysandcr umpl ed pensket chesuponmel t edpaper . Andi twasn’ tSat ur day ,i twasTuesday . Andschool began. AndIgr ew up.

I nst ance

Summeri n TwoPar t s:Par tII Mar i aCont e

Thei ni t i alsqui shyouf eelf r om squashi ngt heel ect r i cgl owi ngmagma f r om al i ght ni ngbugspel l syourj oi nt squeasyasi ft heywer er ust ed hi nges. ButGr andmaShul t zdi dt hi swhenshewas9,andIwasn’ taboutt o babyoutofki l l i ngacent i met erofani nsect . “ …andl i ket hi s, ”Mom t ookhol dofmyi ndexf i nger ,now ador nedwi t h t hebug’ si l l umi nat edsacr i f i ce,“ j ustl i kemygr andma,r ubt hel i ghtont o yourbut t ons,andnow t heygl ow! I sn’ tt hatneatMar i a?” No. Iof f er edamout hf ul lofhal f wel comedadul tt eet h. Ipr ef er r ed t hechase. Ipr ef er r edt het i ckl e—sosof tasi faki ss,t hel i vebugsof f er ed mycuppedpal ms. Whackwhackwhhhack,t hescr eendoorechoed. Oursecondpant r y , of t endecor at edwi t hunopenedWheatThi nsandyearol dKi sses, possessedasum ofgl assMasonj ar sont hebot t om shel f ;t hoseIcoul d r each. Snat chi nguponej ar ,af ol dednapki n( dampenedandspr i nkl ed wi t hsugar ) ,andat angl eofdehydr at edt wi gsf r om t hef r ontst oop,I assembl edmyl i ght ni ngbughouse. Mychl or i necor r odedf eetpr ancedamongt hesummer ’ spat chesof mat t edambergr assunt i lmycl ammypal mscoul dwi t hst andnomor e l i ght ni ngbugs. Iscr apedt hem i nt ot hej ar . Theypl oppeddownl i ket hi ckr ai n dr opl et s. “ Al ant er n! ”Dadwr appedhi st annedar msar oundme. Heal ways appr eci at edmycr eat i ons. Thegl ow ofmybut t onshadl ongf aded,yett hef ourl i ght ni ngbugs l et har gi cal l ygl owedbesi det hei rgl ucosepad. 9o’ cl ock. “ Bedt i me! ” Ipl acedmyl ant er nonmywhi t epai nt ed dr esserandshovedl astni ght ’ sundr unkwat ercupasi de. 9o’ cl ock. Sunbeamswokeme. MyMasonj arl aydor mant ;al lt hat wasl ef twasapi l eofbl ackenedbugsat opat angl eoft wi gs,sugarcaked amongt hei rdel i cat ewi ngs.

Mar vel ousLi ght Al yssaPr i l l man Phot ogr aphy

Int er t wi ned DevonPayne Oi lPai nt i ng

TheMi nef i el d Fl oor Al exi sCol l i ns

Hi shandacci dent al l ysl amsi nt o t hel ampsi t t i ngont hedesk,andt he soundst ar t l esmeoutofmy i ndi f f er ence,andt hel ampcr acks agai nstt hecor neroft hedesksot hat t heshar pchunksspr eadt hr ought he ai ri nwhatseemsl i kesl ow mot i on, shoot i ngt owar dsmei nagl eami ng f an;j aggedgl asssl i cesacr osst het op ofmyar m asIhi tt hef l oor ,wher ea mi nef i el dofpi ecesal r eadyl i es, ant i ci pat i ngt hecr i esofpai nt hatI ut t ert hr oughcl enchedt eet h,and t henhel ungesf or war d,hi st hi ckpi nk f i nger sgr abbi ngatmyshi r tcol l ar unt i lIf i ndmysel fdangl i ngabovet he f l oor ,andt hr ought her edhazeofmy bl oodt hat ’ sspr i nkl i ngt het i l el i ke f l ecksofpai nt , Iseeonl yhi sf i er ce bl ackeyes,andhescr eamsatmeasI t r yt opeelhi ssuf f ocat i ngf i nger sf r om cki ngt hepaper s myneck,myshoeski ont hedeskwi t ht hepr obl emsand

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Pi zzel l esal l aZi t a 6eggs 1½ cupssugar 1cupcanol aorveget abl eoi l 3½ cupsf l our 2t easpoonsbaki ngpowder 4t abl espoonsvani l l a orZi t a’ ssi gnat ur e. . . ¼ cupani seseeds St i rwel lunt i li ncor por at ed.Chi l ldough.Ladl esmal lspoonf ul sofdough i nt oahotpi zzel l ei r on( t hi smayneedexper i ment at i onduet ot hewi de ar r ayofpi zzel l ei r onsf l oat i ngar ound. . . .t heSkanel l i ’ si r onr equi r esaf ul l t abl espoonwhi l el i t t l eRi zzo’ si r onmakesonl ysi l verdol l arpi zzel l e cooki es. . . af t eral l ,l i f ei st r i alander r or .Cooki ngwoul dn’ tbef unwi t hout exper i ment at i on.T aker i sks,zesti nsomeor angeorMeyerl emoni fyouar e f eel i ngr at herambi t i ous. . . ) Coolpi zzel l es.Mangemange!

Sheopenandcl osest hehotpi zzel l ei r onsof astt hatt hegr eedyhands cannotevenkeeppacewi t ht heever gr owi ngst ackofcr i spI t al i ancooki es. Fl ecksofani seseedsdabbl et hei rf ul lmoonf aces,abi t eofl i cor i ce.Each pi zzel l ebeamsaf adedt an,ahi ntofgol d,i r onki ssed.Zi t al adl est womor e unmeasur edspoonf ul soft hi nbat t eront ot hehotwaf f l ei r ongr at esonce mor e,af ew dr i psoft hevani l l ascent edsweetbubbl esf r om t hei ri r on’ s edge.A t easpoonover .Zi t ai sunr eact i ve,cont i nuest oscoopandcl ose, cookandst ack.Thespr eadofl astSunday’ spaperspr awl st heol i ve oi l hazedcount ert op,abedf ort hecool i ngpi zzel l es.Thei rmaj est i c mount ai nofhypnot i car omat i csandsnowf l akeesquewaf f l ebr ands accumul at est oal eani ngt ower .Zi t at est st hel i mi t sofgr avi t y .Theki t chen cl ock,abl ankf aceoff adedRomannumer al s,t i ckst o9,10,11p. m.She scr apesherscr at chedsi l verspoononcemor eal ongt hecr eamycer ami c mi xi ngbowl ,her di ngt hel astf r eckl esofani seseedsswi mmi ngt hr ougha f i l m ofpi zzel l ebat t er ,andopensandt hencl osest hescor chi ngi r on’ s gr at es.47seconds.Herbar ecal l usedt humbspopoutt hef i nalpi zzel l eand shesubmi t si tt ot het opt i er ,near l yt oppi nghermast er pi ececooki et ower . Theydonotf al l .Never .Tomor r ow wi l lbeChr i st masEveandt hechi l dr en wi l lhi det hemut edsweetcr umbsbet weent hesmokyr osecouchcushi ons, andt hedapperuncl eswi l ldunkt hecr i spf l eshi nt opet i t eshot sof espr esso,andt heaunt swi l lcr i t i queZi t a’ sconf i denceofvani l l ai nt het hi n waf er ,t hought heysecr et l yr ef uset osubmi tt oi t sper f ect i on,andZi t awi l l br i ngherknockoutsmi l e.Shewi l lst uf fshor tst acksofpi zzel l esswaddl ed i nnewspaperi nt ot hehands,coatpocket s,andsat chel soft hef ami l y . Whent heyawakeonChr i st masmor ni ngt heywi l ldi scoveral i cor i ce t r easur e,andl et har gi cal l yni bbl eal ongt heout si decr i spsf i r st ,wor ki ng t hei rwayt ot hesweetcent er .Andwhent hei rshor tst ackshavedi ssol ved amongt hei rwar m sal i va,Zi t awi l lr esur r ectt hei r onagai n,andbeat anot herbat choft hi npi zzel l ebat t er .Andt heOl dCount r ywon’ tseem so f arof f ,maybeavi si bl especkofl andof fi nt heocean’ sgr eyf og,af l eck, pungentl i ket heseedofani se.

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Ther oot ,i nsear chofwat er ,t axi sunder gr ound. Thebusr at t l esandshakesbeneat hme Pol i sheddi scour se,pol i shedsoci alski l l s I t ’ snott hatIwaspar t i cul ar l yagai nstt hei dea, i tj ustseemedal i t t l et oool df ashi oned. Ther ei sal sot hesheeri r onyoft het woi mages pl acedt oget her ,i nt endi ngawhol e Concer ni ngt hemsel veswi t hl anguage,i mager y , sound,r hyt hm Rhyt hm Rhyt hm Qui et edwhi sper i ng,andt hecol orofr ed.

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‘ Twast heni ghtbef or eChr i st mas,whenal lt hr ought hegym, Notacr eat ur ewasst i r r i ng,notevent her i m. Thenet swer ehungbyt hehoopwi t hcar e, I nhopest hatTi m Dal ysoonwoul dbet her e. Thef answer enest l ed,al lsnugi nt hei rseat , Whi l evi si onsofvi ct or ydanceddownt ot hei rf eet . Wi t hCoachi nhi ssui t ,andmei nmyshoes, Wewer egamer eady ,unwi l l i ngt ol ose. Whenr i ghtf r om t hej umpt her ear osesuchacl at t er , Ispr angf r om myf eett ohandl et hemat t er . Awaydownt hecour tIf l ew l i keaf l ash, Tor edownt hel aneandt hr ew opent hebash. Thegamecont i nuedon,uphi ghanddownl ow Gi vi ngnot hi ngbutt r oubl et ot hepoorl osi ngf oe. Whenwhatt omywonder i ngeyesshoul dappear , Thescor eboar dsayswe’ r el osi ng,ohdear . Wi t hal i t t l eol dpoi ntguar d,sol i vel yandqui ck, Iknew i namomenti tmustbeSt .Ni ck.

Mor er api dt haneagl eshi spassest heycame, Andhewhi st l ed,andshout ed,andcal l edpl ayer sbyname! " Now,J ason!Now,Ben!Now,Kevi nandWar d! On,Rapi ds!On,Rapi ds!Let ’ sl i ghtupt heboar d! Tot het opoft hepai nt !Tot het opoft hekey! Now dashaway!Dashaway!Passi tt ome! ! " Andt hen,i nat wi nkl i ng,Ihear df r om t hef l oor Thecheer i ngandyel l i ngoff ansgal or e. AsIdr ew i nmyhead,andwast ur ni ngar ound, Downcameapasswi t houtevenasound. Thenet —how i tt wi nkl ed!Thebackboar d—how mer r y! Mycheekswer el i ker oses,t hegameIwoul dcar r y! Mydr ol ll i t t l emout hwasdr awnupl i keabow, Wi t houtadoubt ,Iknew t heshotwoul dgo. Ispokenotawor d,butwentst r ai ghtt omywor k, Idr i bbl edt hebal l ,t hent ur nedwi t haj er k. Andl ayi ngmyf i ngerasi deoft hebal l , Not hi ngbutnet ,t her ei svi ct or yf oral l ! Thecr owdspr angt oi t sf eet ,t het eam gaveawhi st l e, Andawayt heyal lf l ew l i keat omahawkmi ssi l e. Iwasexcl ai mi ngt oal laswer anoutofsi ght : " Mer r yChr i st mast oal l ,andt oal lagoodni ght ! "

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Thi si smyf akesmi l e,dar l i ng.Iam j ustsmi l i ngpr et t yf ort he camer as.Oh,donotl ookatmewi t ht hosel ovi ngeyes!What i ft heysuspectsomet hi ng,dar l i ng? I ti sal lj ustashow,t he gl i t zandgl amour .Iam ar ef i nedwoman,Mr .Reagan.Di d your eal l yt hi nkIcoul dl oveyou?J ustsmi l ef ort hecamer as, ni ceandbi g.Al leyesar eonus,dar l i ng,t heshi ni ngst ar sof t heeveni ng.I ti st hemai nevent ,Iasknol esst han per f ect i onf r om you,dar l i ng.Donotpl aceyourhandon mi ne,t heywi l lwat chyou.Theydonotwantt oseeyou,t hey wi sht oseeme.Af t eral l ,t hati swhyt heyhaveal lcome. Theyar eher et oseemenotyou.Theywantt oknow,what Mar i l ynwi l ldonext .Iam goi ngt of al li nl ovewi t hmysel fand nooneel se,dar l i ng!

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Par tI :Aquar i us Iam f ouryear sol d.Iam i nt hecarwi t hmymot herandIj ust hadamemor yt hati soneofmyf i r st .Ri di ngbyal ar gesi gnofa nur si nghome,Iam at opmychi l di sht hr onei nt hebackseat ,amar k t hatIam soyoungIcan’ tevensi tdownbymysel f .I ti smyf our t h bi r t hdayandIam scar ed.Feari swhati si nmymi ndf orIam ponder i ngt heunknown,t heout si dewor l d.Iam baf f l edathow t her ear esomanyt hi ngsi nt hi swor l dt hatt her ei snopossi bl eway anyoneper soncoul dbef ami l i arwi t ht hem al l .Iwant edt obet hat per son—want edt oseeever yt hi ng—Ear t h.Myment alur nbegant o r eachi t sl i mi tast heseaqueoust hought sf l oodedmymi nd.Adher i ng t ot hebr i m,cr eat i ngaconvexbul get hatgr aspedt hecl ayr i m. Too manyt hought s,t oomanypossi bi l i t i es.Ipani candwonderhow I mi ghtt i t r at et hi sover f l ow,ast ogr aspeachcogni t i vepuzzl epi ece soImayl ayt hem outi nor der ,pi ecedt oget heral ongt hef l at sur f aceofr eal i t y. Ibl i nkf orasecond.WhenmyeyesopenIam wet ,mycheekssoakedwi t ht ear s.

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Par tI I :Sagi t t ar i us Iam ei ghtyear sol dandi ti sSummerVacat i on,acar boncopy oft hef i vesummer sbef or ewher eal lIdoi svi si tmyGr andpar ent si n EastHampt on,al ongCl ear wat erBeach.Eat i ngt hesamemeal sas t heyear sbef or e,pl ayi ngt hesameboar dgamest oabsor bt he st agnantmi nut est hatl ol l edsoef f or t l essl y. Ibeggedt ogot o Di sneyWor l dbutmyf at her ,expr essi nghi st r ul yst i ngycol or s, deni edmywi sh.Thesandwasneverver ycl ean,ador nedwi t hdr i ed seaweedofamahoganyhue.Igl ancedupont heboat sal ongt he har bor ,geomet r i cconst r uct i onsoft r i angl esandt r apezoi ds.The channeli nwhi cht heyt r avelwasapear l ywhi t egat e,t hei r commander sher di ngt hem t owar dt hepar adi seoft heWor l d’ s bi ggestaquar i um.Fr om wher eIst oodal ongt heedgeoft hatsame channel ,el evat edmor et hant went yyar dsabovet hewat er ’ s sur f ace,Icoul dseet hei ndi gof i l m ofj el l yf i shl i nger i ngont he sur f aceoft hewat er .Wher ewer eal loft hem goi ng?Andhow wer e t heysol ei sur el yabouti t ,l et t i ngt hewat er ’ sundul at i onsbet hei r ast r ol ogi calgui de?Wer et heynoti nar usht ogetwher et heywer e goi ng?AsIl ostmysel f ,becomi ngt r ansf i xedupont hem,anodd sensat i oncameoverme.Bef or eIcoul di dent i f yt hi sst r angef eel i ng Inot i cedsomet hi ngmuchmor eur gent .Iwasf al l i ng. Cont i nuedonnextpage. . .

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Par tI I I :Vi r go I nmyol dageIam f r i gi d,st r uckcol dbyt hesamegl aci al wi ndt hathasbeenever pr esenti nt hepr ecedi ngyear s. Cont empt .Ponder i ngupont heot her st hatIhadmetal ongt he way ,Il ongf ort hei rexci t ement ,t hei rvi t al i t y .Thesheenoft hei r soulandt hespar kl eoft hei reyesbl i ndme,f ort heyar e r ef l ect i onsoft hi ngst hatIoncehad,t hatIhadl ost ,unabl et o r eacht hepi 単at at hatwasj ustoutofr eachwi t heachl ungeI t ook.Ther er esi desavastexpansebehi ndmyhouse,al ar ge f i el dwi t hhi l l s,hi l l st hatoncer ol l edf r eet hr ought hel andscape, expel l i ngt hei rmoment um upont hebaseofdi st antmount ai ns, j usthow t heyshoul d.Butt i me,t heal mi ght yer oder ,t ooki t s cour se.I nmyol dage,t hosebul bousmoundsofear t ht hatonce t r undl edsol ei sur el y ,havedegr adedt hemsel ves,t aki ngona new f or m.Fr om myr ocki ngchai r ,myeyescr i ngeatt he devol ut i on.Whatoncel ookedl i keasof tbl anketofear t hr est i ng uponcl ouds,now r esembl edat or nf acadeofj aggedpeaks,so f arabovemyhead.If eelt hatsamef eart hathadneverl ef tme. How wi l lIeverr eacht het op?

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A st or ycant ake somanyt ur ns— t hewander er ,wast er oft i me. Gr andmot heri nher mor ni ngdr ess, pat t er i ngf l i pf l ops downt hest ai r s shuf f l i ngdr aggi ng f eet . How doesshebegi n eachday , knowi ngt i me’ st r ut h: Beaut y’ spr eser vat i onmustf ai l agai nstt hesmoot hedbl ades ofl i ght . Scr apet hesun f r om t hewal loft hesky , andwi t hi t sabundance l i vet her estofl i f e i nsummer , whi ppi ngr osest al ks, l i vi ngasl i pper ywor d. Whyel sedor oses

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Iam st andi ngwi t hmypi nkyt oes,r ubbedr aw f r om t hebi t t er f r ost ,bur i ed i nt he ear t hy soi lt hatseems t o shi f twi t ht he howl i ngwi nd,ormaybei ti smeswayi ng,Ican’ tt el l ,canonl y f eelt he numbness on t he back ofmy neck and somet hi ng deci dedl ywar mi nmyf i nger st hatcan’ tbedescr i bedasheat — Ican’ tr ememberwhatwar mt hf eel sl i ke,andIdon’ twantt o, don’ teverwantt of eelwar m agai n,don’ tevert hi nkIcan,and wi t hmydeadyet al i vef i nger sIwor kt oshedt heheavyl ayer s Iam wear i ng,andl i kescat t er edl eavesf r om an aut umn t hat hasl ong passed Iabandon t hem on t he i ce so t hatt hey f an acr oss i t , and t hey l ook so unf ami l i ar t hat I al most i mmedi at el yf or gett hatj ustmoment sagot heywer eshi el di ng mybody ,becausenow t heyar enot hi ng,t heyar egonet ome, l i ke ever yt hi ng el se—pani c—my f i nger scl aw atanyt hi ng and yt hi ng,butmyeyesar ef oggy ,ever yt hi ng shi ver i ng i na ever si l verl i ne,t r anspar ent l ygr ay ,butt her ei sonet hi ngIcansee, and i thover sor bl i ke i nt he ai rabove my head,t ant al i zi ng, and i ti sst r ange—bl oat ed yetunembar r assed byi t sf ul l ness, andi fIcoul dt hi nkst r ai ghtIwoul dl ookupt oseewhati ti s, butIcan’ tt hi nk—can’ teven r emembermy name—Iwantt o meett hatcol d,col d,col d,andIhopei twi l lconsumemeand f i l lmyboneswi t hadeepachet hatwi l lsomehow makemef eel humanagai n;Ij ump.

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Hi s mi nd had become mor et i r ed t han hi sar ms.The cl ock wasval i ant l y t i cki ngonwar d,butt ohi mi thadf r ozen, no l onger a t ool , but a pl ast i c monument t o t hi s et er nal moment . Regar dl ess of wher e hi s mi nd was, t hough,hi s hands st i l lmoved out of habi t ,outofendl ess r epet i t i on.Each i t em wasscanned,bagged,andqui ckl y pushed away ,as i ft he cont ent s coul d ki l latany moment .I mmedi at el y ,hi s f i nger sgr i ppedt henexti t em.Scanned, bagged,pushed away .Thi s wor k was maddeni ng,notr equi r i ng t hought ,but r esol ut econcent r at i on.Eachmovement wasal mosti dent i calt ot hel ast ,butnot exact l y . The cust omer s wer e apat het i c, ei t her t al ki ng on t hei r cel lphones or sayi ng not hi ng atal l ,butal ways t oo pr eoccupi edt opayhi m anymi nd;t hat i s,unl esshedi dsomet hi ngwr ong.That was unaccept abl e. Per f ect i on wasn' t expect ed,i twasr equi r ed. The count l ess hour s cont ai ned wi t hi nt he col or l ess st at i on of f er ed no r epr i eve f oran act i ve mi nd,so he was l ef tt o hi s own devi ces.When t he oppor t uni t y al l owed,hi smi nd wander ed, savi ngi t sel ff r om t hei nsani t yt hatwas sur et oconsumehi mt hr oughsuchmonot ony .Thi swasnoti dl edaydr eami ng, t hi swassel f pr eser vat i on. Of t en he i magi ned hi s day , syst emat i cal l y wor ki ng t hr ough each waki ng moment ,cr i t i qui ng hi msel fi n ever y act i on, ever y deci si on. Thi s passedt het i me,butt her ewasonl yso much t houghthe coul d gi ve.Hi smi nd cr aved mor e.He had t of i nd mor e.He f ocusedonhi spossi bi l i t i es,aboutwhat hewoul d do af t erhewasr el eased.He madepl ansi nhi shead,amendedt hem, t hr ew t hem out ent i r el y , made new ones,t r i edt of i ndt hebestone.Hi st i me needed t o be spent wi sel y . But t he f ut ur edepr essedhi m.I twasagl i mmer of hope hi dden behi nd a seemi ngl y i mpenet r abl e vei l . So much t i me r emai ned unt i l he was f r ee, i t was usel esst o dwel lon i t .These t hought s madehi m bi t t er . I twasaf t eral lt heusef ulnot i ons wer e ent er t ai ned t hat he dr i f t ed t o

f ant asy .Att i meshe woul dl ook att he cust omer s, i magi ni ng t hei rl i ves, t he exci t i ng t hi ngst heydi d,butt hi snever l ast edl ong.Thesepeopl esi ckenedhi m. I n a way ,he bl amed t hem.They kept hi m her e, t hey wer et he ones who i mpr i sonedhi m. Whatheneededwast oescape,t o i magi neawhol enew wor l d.Sohedi d. He woul d knock down t he concr et e wal l s,sendawayt hepavementandt he t hi ck ai r oft he ci t y .He si l enced t he cacophony ofsounds ar ound hi m and cr eat ed a new r eal i t y , al lt he whi l e scanni ng,baggi ng,pushi ng.Physi cal l y he wasst i l lsuf f er i ng,butment al l y he wasami l l i onmi l esaway . Today ,t hough,t odaywasdi f f er ent . Hi s mi nd ached,exhaust ed,unabl et o ext r i cat e i t sel f f r om i t s physi cal conf i nes.Spent ,i tt ookal lhi sef f or tt o sl i det hei t emsacr osst hescanner .Why t oday ofal ldays? Chr i st mas Eve was t hebusi est .I twascr uel :whenhemost neededt oescape,hecoul dn' t . Hi sonl ysol acewast hef actt hatt he st or e woul d be cl osed t omor r ow. No onewoul dbecl oggi nghi sr egi st erwi t h endl essi t ems,t her ewoul d benoneed t o escape,he woul d be f r ee.St i l l ,t he cl ockseemed f r ozen i n pl ace,damni ng hi mt ot hi smeni alser vi t ude.I t ' sf unny , t hen, t hat hi s i mmedi at e sal vat i on camet hr oughmor ewor k. A mi r r or ed dooragai nstt he wal l behi nd hi m swung open.I nst i nct i vel y , hest oodupst r ai ght er ,doi ngnot hi ngt o dr aw at t ent i ont ohi msel f .Hedar ednot l ook over hi s shoul der , but he coul d hear t he f oot st eps appr oachi ng. Hopef ul l yhewoul dn' t — “ Chr i s! ” A voi ce cal l ed. He unconsci ousl y shi ver ed, but qui ckl y t ur ned t of ace hi saccuser .Looki ng up att he l ar ge man i nf r ontofhi m,Chr i s openedhi smout ht ospeakbutwascut of fbef or et hewor dsf or med. “ Chr i s,Ineed you t or un t ot he dai r ycool eri nt heback.Theeggnogi ce cr eam has r un out and has t o be r est ocked. ” Chr i s nodded, sayi ng not hi ng. Hi smanagercont i nued,t one condescendi ng.“ Thi si st hebusi estday oft heyearandIneedt hi st ogetdone

now.Canyoudot hatf orme?”Anot her nod. Bef or ehecoul dsayanyt hi ngel se, adi sgr unt l edcust omeratr egi st ert hr ee caughthi s at t ent i on.He was gone as qui ckl yashehadar r i ved. Chr i s swi t ched t he l i ght of f hi s r egi st erand f l ed t ot he back,avoi di ng t hescor esofquest i onst hatwoul dhave been f i el ded hi swayhad he made eye cont actwi t hanyoft hepat r onsr oami ng t he st or e. He st ar ed at hi s f eet , count i ng t he scuf f ed up t i l es t hat passed underhi m.Somewher e above hi m,he hear dt he t i nny voi ce ofsome namel ess empl oyee announci ng t hat t he st or e woul d be cl osi ng i n an hour . Het r i ednott ot hi nkaboutt heseconds. Pushi ng open t he heavy r ubber y pl ast i c door s,Chr i s emer ged i nt ot he di ml yl i tbowel soft he st or e.The shr i l l beeps oft he r egi st er s di d not r each her e,t heonl ysoundbei ngt heconst ant t hr um oft hewal l s.Gonewer et heshi ny di spl ays and or der ed shel ves. Pi pi ng cr eptal ong cei l i ng,cover i ng i t sl engt h. Lar ge i ndust r i al machi nes f l anked ei t hersi deoft hehal l way ,t hei rpur pose ent i r el yf or ei gn t o Chr i s.Though t he r estoft he st or e wasbuzzi ng wi t hl i f e, t he back was devoi d ofi t .Nota soul st i r r ed. Chr i scont i nueddownt hehal l way , passi ng sever all ar ge met aldoor sunt i l her eached t heonehewasl ooki ng f or , t he one t ot he dai r y cool er .Gr abbi ng t he massi ve handl e,i tt ook al lofhi s wei ght t o swi ng t he door open. He shi ver edasawal lofcol dai rst r uckhi m. He i gnor ed i t and wal ked i n, t emper at ur e dr oppi ng wi t h each st ep. Hi scr yst al l i zedbr eat hhungt hi cki nt he ai r as he t ook i n hi s sur r oundi ngs. Pal l et sl i nedt heper i met eroft her oom, st ackedhi ghwi t hcasesoff r ozeni t ems. Chr i sscanned each one unt i lhe f ound t he one he was l ooki ng f or . He appr oached t he pal l etand scr aped t he f r ostof ft het opoft hebox.Thesewer e t heones.Her eacheddownt opi ckupa cr at ewhenal oudcl unksoundedbehi nd hi m.Whi r l i ng ar ound,Chr i ssaw t o hi s di st r esst hatt hedoorhadcl osedbehi nd hi m. He gr abbed t he st ai nl ess st eel cont i nuedonnextpage

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handl e and pul l ed.Not hi ng.Heputhi s wei ghti nt ot hehandl eandpul l ed,ashe haddonebef or e,buti thel df ast . Br eat h becomi ng l abor ed, he st r uggl ed t o pr yt he dooropen a t hi r d t i me,butnot hi ng wor ked.He ki cked i t and punched i t ,sl ammi ng i nt oi tover and over agai n. Event ual l y he j ust r esor t ed t o bangi ng on i t ,hopi ng t hat someonewoul d hearhi m.Chr i s'hands soon became numb f r om t he col d and t hebangi ngandhewasf or cedt ost op. He backed agai nstt he wal land sl i dt o t he f l oor ,t he met alwal l s chi l l i ng hi m sever el y . He began t o shake uncont r ol l abl y . Chr i s was sur e t hat someonewoul dnot i cehewasgone,or at l east not i ce t hat t he eggnog i ce cr eam hadn' t been r est ocked.I t was j usta mat t erofwai t i ng bef or e he was di scover ed. Sohesat ,wai t i ngf orwhatseemed l i kehour sbutwaspr obabl yonl yhal fof one. The col d was becomi ng unbear abl e. Chr i s coul d see hi s ski n t ur ni ngbl ue.Thest or ewoul dbecl osi ng any mi nut e;he coul dn' taf f or dt o wai t any l onger .St r uggl i ng t o hi sf eet ,he sear ched t he r oom,behi nd t he st acks off oodandal ongt hewal l .Ther e.Chr i s pushed a st ack of cr at es over uncer emoni ousl y .Agai nstt he wal lsat an ai rvent .I twasscr ewed i nt o pl ace buta f ew good ki cks bentt he cheap met al sl at si nwar d. He ki cked once mor e and was r ewar ded wi t h a cl ang. The gr at e gave way ,r eveal i ng a smal l hol e. Chr i sbentwhatwasl ef toft he vent out war ds and peer ed i nsi de. I t was,notsur pr i si ngl y ,t oo dar kt o see. Composi ng hi msel f ,Chr i s squeezed i n and began sl owl y i nchi ng hi s way t hr ough. He pushed asi de t he cl aust r ophobi ct hought st hatcl ut t er ed hi s mi nd and f ocused onl y on f eel i ng t he way ahead. Thankf ul l y ,t he vent wi denedsl i ght l yaf t eraf ew met er sand t heext r aspaceal l owedChr i st heabi l i t y t o shi mmy .Hecr awl ed al ong t hevent , awkwar dl y pul l i ng hi msel f ar ound cor ner sandbends.

The t emper at ur e had r i sen si gni f i cant l y and Chr i s had st opped shi ver i ng.Though he st i l lcoul dn' tf eel hi sf i nger sand t oes,he di df eelsome sense of hope. Chr i s knew he was headi ng i nt he r i ght di r ect i on as t he col dbegant or el easei t sgr i p. Her oundedaf i nalcor nerandsaw aspeckofl i ghtatwhathef i gur edwas t he end oft he vent .Chr i shad no i dea wher ei nt hest or ehewoul d comeout , but anywher e was bet t er t han t he f r eezer . Wi t h a newf ound sense of f r eedom, Chr i s haul ed hi msel fnoi si l y al ongt hevent ,ar m overar m,ar m over ar m.Themovement sbecamemi ndl ess, anendl essr epet i t i on. Regar dl essoft hepai norexhaust i on hi s body f el t ,hi s mi nd was obl i vi ous, f ocusi ng sol el y on t he appr oachi ng l i ght .Hi seyessqui nt ed,havi ngbecome accust omed t ot he dar k. Each l unge br ought hi m near er â&#x20AC;&#x201D;he coul d al most hear t he sounds oft he cash dr awer s sl i di ng open,t her ecei ptpaperpr i nt i ng out .Ar m overar m.Hest r uggl edt ogr i p t hesmoot hmet albeneat hhi m,butst i l l hecont i nued.I nch byi nch.Al most .He was so cl ose.A war m br eeze t ouched hi sf ace.Hewassocl ose. I twast hemor ni ngshi f tt hatf ound hi m.The doort ot he dai r y cool erwas opened and t her e he sat ,l eani ng up agai nstt hewal l .Fr ozenst i f f .Anequal l y f r ozen doorhandl e wasdeemed t o be t hecauseoft heacci dent ,t r appi ng t he poorki di nsi de.Whatawayt ogo,t hey sai d.AndonChr i st masEve,ofal ldays. The oddest t hi ng t hough was t he expr essi ononhi sf ace.Youwoul dt hi nk t hat dyi ng i naf r eezer woul d be a hor r i bl ewayt ogo,butnotaf t erl ooki ng att hi s ki d.He had t he bi ggestsmi l e f r ozenont ohi sf ace.Li kehewasi nhi s own l i t t l e wor l d.Li ke he wasl osti na daydr eam.

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