18 april 2021
What is the psychology behind ladies around my age dating older men? My friend (Pelumi) told me in the summer to not date older men anymore. I dont get that message. As she clearly dont understand that I cant have good chats convos with men around my age. I was 16 when I had a crush on Ole a history teacher. And so it begun.I find having a good convo very attractive and talking on a certain level a very turn on. Especially of when you can look deeply in my eyes in a certain way. Being mysterious. I barely see older men talking much and behaving so "weirdo". I am weird myself. But prefer serious people around me who I can be serious with. Men from my age still mostly arent interested in what i find interesting. And museums hell no. It just doesnt work. Maybe short time dating. Thats it. My exes were more than 15 years older than me at least. And i was never ashamed of it. My first ex barely had money but he reminded me of Van Gogh. Everyone found him ugly but I found him attractive. We met on the trainstation while i was doing streetphotography. His name is Niels
brocken. And I will never forget how he was not so easy but his good moments counted to me. He learned me a lot. And yes there are borders. So we broke up. But age doesnt matter to me as i am younger and these men older. Well, i wont date someone around 60. But who knows. You could be young at heart? There should be a connection. On soul level. A spirit. I always look for it. But i barely see people anymore. I like dominant men. Weird isnt. You would not expect that from me. But also shy men. Quite men. Mysterious that way. People who do good. I want to learn more in life from the love of my life too later on one day. I can still learn more about love and passion. Im just 25.
Nadiya.