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I feel as though I attended as much as I could, with the exception of work experience, hangovers and late nights cranking out work. I’ll put my hands up and say that I am yet to properly attend a studio session, but that’s because I’m usually cracking on with my project work, I like to be independent in my time management and prioritising important tasks comes above all. And to be honest just forget that it’s on. Rest assured, I’m definitely going to pencil studio sessions into my 2018 diary, and I do want to make sure t hat I attend those throughout terms two and three. I have always seen great benefit in tutor sessions, and make sure that I allocate a good amount of time before each session to prepare things to show, present and discuss. As per my time-management this term, I feel as though I’ve distributed and prioritised my important tasks accordingly. I work comfortably to tight deadlines, and find that writing to-do lists helps to clarify the
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tasks that I need to have completed. I quite like being organised and in control, and think this definitely benefits me when under time constraints and high pressure. I think third year has been a blur so far, as it has quite quickly increased in intensity and this has been at times overwhelming to adapt to.
It’s easy to feel snowed under by work, but swimming (and not sinking) is something I feel I need to always focus on, both through the completion of third year but also in my professional ventures too. Sometimes my over-ambition and creative vision can conflict with time restraints and budgeting issues, but I don’t always see this as a negative thing.
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weeks going quicker than what used to feel like a couple of days. If I could just get out of d have about 2 hours extra per day. I’m nocturnal and quite like being awake in the early hours of the morning, but I think I’d benefit from an earlier start to my days.
Well lets face it Ant, this term has been constantly up and down, you’ve heard so much news, some shocking and some great and it’s only made you realise that you just need to accept the change and just grow with it in your everyday. Take it day by day, and let time help steer you in the right direction. This term has been interesting for me. The thought of feeling like I need to start doing things for myself had to happen. Understanding where I worked best made me learn that you produce more outcomes. During the project Relief records it pushed me to attend studio and tutor sessions because I wanted to get as much advice as possible after coming back from travelling India for 7 weeks and not being able to design. I needed a voice, a voice to guide and push my design practise further.
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Third year has been a massive step forward in comparison to second year. I found that I restricted myself in a very strange way during the live 3.2 briefing where I got in the habit of working at home because I knew that I worked better and produced more. It’s just the regular stress that people have to go through when being a graphic designer, juggling a million things at once, trying to do your daily errands at the same time but making work where comforts you. I have recognised that in this term that I still should listen to each persons opinion because it makes view my work in a different perspective, take the critic and develop.
How have you applied these experiences to your practice? My personal agenda has totally evolved since the start of term. I began the year feeling apprehensive about leaving university, and the thought of not studying anymore was daunting. As the term has gone on, I’ve perhaps realised that finishing my degree will open so many doors for me, and I suppose this prospect is the whole reason I studied my degree. I think that the concept that I am ready, prepared and knowledgeable seems…. too good to be true? But this is totally my time, and I think I know that now, and I’m ready to go out there and be an adult I suppose. Creatively, my visual intent has become far more artistic than my previous works. I have become more expressive since recently introducing illustrative elements to my works, and hope that this adds a visual cohesiveness to my body of work.Creative explorations feel much more flexible, personal and valuable this year, and I personally feel I have finally found my preferred method of documentation now. I show my journey though a visual notebook/sketchbook and a blog. I try not to dwell too much on anything ever went ‘wrong’, because I think it’s a shit thing to say and anything that’s ever gone wrong for me has taught me something valuable. In my eyes, that makes a wrong a right. I sometimes think I just ‘get lucky’ when I have a big idea moment. I said at the start of third year that I would learn the functions of a risograph printer. On our first week back, I had done my first ever risograph print and instantly became fascinated with the technique. From that, I decided to focus on my illustrative techniqueswhich just so happened to work perfectly when printed in a fluro pink risograph. Going through this process helped me to develop and evolve works true to myself and my creative intentions, and I think for the first time this was completely apparent in my workings.
THEME PROJECT - THE TEMPTRESS I didn’t write a proposition for the theme project, but instead found myself completing a week long illustration challenge, which determined the visual focus of the outcome. I wanted to focus on the word ‘siren’, which also meant ‘the temptress’.
attributes that she might have attained. By risographing on scrap paper, my visuals gained alternative narratives. This inspired the context of the publication, which took form as a diary focusing on the relationship between a dominatrix and a male client.
Through my illustrations, I found myself being able to express my own personal connotations depicting the scope of who the temptress is, and the visual
The narrative is written in first person from the male’s perspective, and the publication celebrates female power and challenges perceptions on gender roles.
Relief records promotes the ideology that it’s okay to be different, it’s okay that you just need to work in different ways that suites you. You’re a creative not an analytic; understand that! Suffering from perceptive memory loss, research shows that listening to music helps you remind yourself with different things and makes you hear other individuals story and see where we can relate to similar feelings. We find out something new about ourselves everyday, is interesting because we’re all different, we all have our own individual lifestyle and it’s a sense of relief. A relief that I had found the news, where I learnt to move forward and grow from the things that tried to knock my confidence down.
Yes, my little experiment of listening to a siren on repeat for 20 minutes did drive me crazy but made me realise that I am more aware of hearing a noise when it’s loud and repeating. During first term, I undertook a dyslexia screening test where I found out I was dyslexic. When receiving the result, music was my sense of escapism. Using music to sit down and understanding that it’s okay not to be the fastest reader/ writer/ speller.
Relief records, shows a series of three different records which each represent a different emotions of being dyslexic. The first stage of receiving the news was rage; rage that it had to be me, making me second guess my ability at designing. Balance where I transitioned into the time where I had to think and accept the fact I was dyslexic, and the final emotion Growth- representing the growth of not giving a fuck. Not caring that you have dyslexia and using your creative ability that you have to make new innovative designs.
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I’m not actually sure who my audience ever is, because I know that my work isn’t to everybody’s taste. I believe my audience was primarily female, because I feel that my works are incredibly indulgent for females who are stereotypically sexually redundant and are taught to restrain from enjoying visually alluring content.
My publication ended up being an art form, and I understand that it’s not a commercial piece. I think that the publication could be an enjoyable short-erotic read, as well as celebrating the relationship between desire and visual communication. I think that the publication was very expressive, which I feel would appeal to the right audience. I don’t think there are many erotica pieces that are paired with illustration/imagery, and think this works well and is distinct.
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How have you applied this to your practice Ant? So far in third year I have found that I need to start focusing on myself and start being more selfish in order to discover who I am. I have tried to utilise my everyday experiences and try and incorporate them into my design work. Before designing anything I always look at what is going in my life and take inspiration from my surroundings. I found myself in love coming back to designing after travelling, it motivated me and pushed me to follow the things you love. I found that receiving the news of being dyslexic only made me a more confident individual because it was news that I had to accept. During the time of finding out different things about myself, I used music and designing as a sense of escapism. I used music to try and make me think about things and different ideas and push myself to grow.
I have discovered to always design something that excites you, if you don’t enjoy the concept or idea change it and make it still relevant towards the brief. Design is design. You have the blank canvas create the beauty. Even looking towards writing my dissertation about the symbolism within the LGBT community, trying to make it personal to who you truly are as a designer only enhances the thing you are doing. I have learnt that being authentic to your self allows the audience to be more intrigued and start questioning why I have done that? Revealing the true concept behind the background of the idea. During this term I have realised that you don’t need to make the design so complex, a audience wants to understand it when they see it. I have learnt that you can still make a beautiful design with the perfect composition, simplifying things with a strong concept. Ian Swifty a designer that inspired me throughout this term where I learnt in his workshop that design doesn’t have to be just digital. Using the raw materials and different scanner/ printer techniques to manipulate and distort the image can create a different perspective to the narrative you are trying to portray. The idea of being different, accepting being different is okay. Looking at things in a different perspective allows the creativity to happen. Be bold, unique and a million times different.
In my 3.2 briefing I have decided to create a visual journal where I can show different typefaces and learning about the grid system. Exploring the idea of cut and paste and manipulating the type to create a narrative of my own. During this term I have also learnt that doodling does the world justice, it brings out my initial thoughts on paper where I can develop the small illustration to a wider element in my work. Keeping up to date with my blog allows me to remember where I am at on each project I am undertaking. When researching different things, I find myself being more organised - looking at relevant content and making a reference to a range of books/ websites/ different exhibitions. Educate yourself with anything Antony. What went wrong? A lot of things in my personal life, but what matters is to accept your everyday obstacles and just fucking grow from them. Life is too short to worry about the problems, its the change that one door opens and the other shuts. Learning to accept who you truly are is the upmost fundament of my life and I will never think otherwise. Put yourself first kids.
Using my inspiration from Swifty where I used cut and paste to distort type to give the impression of how I visualise words being dyslexic. In the process of doing my Relief records project, I found myself always experimenting because at the time I was bombarded with all sorts of news of being dyslexic. I found myself more engaged with the personal project and started experimenting with type to get my message across. A sense of relief getting back on track, and pushing myself to break new rules through designing in a cut and paste form a long with listening to music to aid my change of finding the news out of being dyslexic.
During the process of completing Relief Records, I designed a series of three vinyl sleeves which each represent a different emotion. The three different emotions was a personal approach of receiving the news of being dyslexic. The three emotions rage, balance and growth showed a unique transition when receiving the news. Having the support from my friends showed that you can still balance things out and move forward and just keep on growing to the person you want to identify as. Making this project more of a personal approach made me accept that change was good. When undertaking a little experiment I set myself at first, listening to a video of a police siren for 20 minutes did make me feel anxious, and during the duration of this term I’ve been having
different mixed emotions. This is where music comes in and the whole concept of making a design linked into music; something I am truly passionately about! Music is scientifically proven to calm you down. Music makes you think about your own reality and try and piece up the pieces of your everyday. Relief records is targeted to music lovers/ people who some day identify something new about themselves which feel like they need a sense of escapism to calm down and evaluate the situation. The reason I wanted to make this project personal was for me to grasp on the idea of change. Change is alway’s happening during our surroundings and we just need to accept that. Learning to accept that you are the way you are is totally normal and probably for the best.
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Resolutions, oh so many resolutions. Probably for the best Antony. Dream and aspire big, because thinking big only pushes you further to achieve what you you set out to achieve. Why do I have to be concerned about others, why can’t I just disregard those certain people and focus on who I really am? Nothing’s stopping you Ant, keeping busy and making fire design with a strong concept behind will only aid you. 2018 is the year for work, for getting in this so called routine we all manage to some how slot right into. Small travels, small journeys and trying to look at life with pure happiness, and accepting that change is good. Believing in yourself, and just being the expressive flamboyant individual you are. Start listening more, start getting your thoughts out there and just gain that confidence
back. You have to understand that you’re not out there just to impress others, but trying to understand that impressing yourself only pushes you further. Put yourself first man for once. Start appreciating that you are a young curious individual and you just have to embrace it. 2018 is the year that you will be trying to get yourself out there. So for this reason, you have to go to different networking events, going to galleries, keeping updated with design and being active. I just want you to know that every opportunity comes for a reason. Don’t be afraid to accept a opportunity, because hunny you do you; ‘make it fucking work’. (Quote Tim Gunn) Let time be the thing to judge where you hold in life. You have to understand that things in life don’t come easy, so trying to be active and keeping busy
constantly only makes you grow and have different opportunities heading your way. Being determined, and knowing the vision you want to guide yourself in life is seen as the upmost motivator. Give yourself some credit also Antony you’re on the right path and stop worrying about little things. Just get shit done. The upcoming year is going to be interesting but learning more different techniques is essential for your career. Therefore, Antony I propose you have to visit different workshops such as riso/ screen printing to try aid different techniques into your design. I know that after university I will have the time to put myself at first and trying to start something new by myself. For now make sure you get .some rest and start fresh in 2018