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life sucks
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and
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the secret to surviving it
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is
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knowing it
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so I give to you
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THE LITTLE BOOK OF PAIN
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to Sam, who never believed me to Jennice, who never knew me to the Dowdas, who died of sadness
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NO ONE IS HAPPY ALL THE TIME
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Always keep your secret pain LOUD
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Be pissed that you know hot to be happy but just CAN’T‌
at least , not
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Be pissed that your parents
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Be pissed that you’re alone
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ONE DAY YOU’LL WANT TO KILL
SELF
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YOUR-
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i mean REALLY, want to kill yourself you know, getg it over with ..just be done with the whole thing‌ all of them all of the CRAP DONE.
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ok.
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Don’t judge yourself
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Don’t hate yourself
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JUST HEAR YOURSELF WANTING TO DIE
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Cuz you’ll also hear a quiet voice wanting to live, and you should know both to make the fairest choice
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That person, remember that person?
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That killed her or himself?
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DON’T FEEL SORRY FOR HER OR HIM
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And don’t envy them
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They had everything you do
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Pain
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And a choice
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I’M SO SAD
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Just freaking sad
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And I can’t stop
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I miss him
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I misssssssssssssss him
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And I miss her
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With everything I am
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I may never know my life without aner
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I WILL DIE SAD
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But I will live sad too
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And no one knows
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NO ONE KNOWS
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NO ONE KNOWS
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HAPPINESS IS AN ADDICTION
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Feeling stuff ain’t for everybody
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Pain is not a badge, your identity, a reason, or a drive
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Peo
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People are too happy anyway
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‌ must be hiding something
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Terrorism is ‌Any church, school, damily,lover, boss that proclimas that all there is pain in living and that you can only be happy really happy when you’re
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SCREW THAT.
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I’m happier being sad than dead.
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I’m
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I’m okay
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I’m still here.
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‌ and that’s got to count for something.
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