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As you c a n t e l l f r o m the c o n t e n t s , t h i s is not q u i te the i s s u e we had p l a n n e d . A lth o u g h we did g e t s o m e , we d i d n 't g e t a s m a n y v i s u a l s a s we h a d h o p e d f o r , but we did g e t a w e ll w r i t t e n a r t i c l e o n the B e r d a c h e , so the f o c u s c h a n g e d . S u r p r i s e ! We s t i l l w a n t / n e e d g r a p h i c s . We know t h a t t h e r e a r e a lo t of g r e a t a r t i s t s o u t t h e r e . W o n 't you s h a r e a d r a w i n g o r p h o to w i t h u s ? We m u c h p r e f e r o r i g i n a l a r t w o r k to g r a p h i c s lif t e d f r o m old c a t a l o g s . T h e r e a r e s o m e new g u i d e l i n e s on the I n f o r m a t i o n page r e g a r d i n g the s p e c i f i c a t i o n s and needs. T he f lo a tin g f e a t u r e a r r a n g e m e n t s e e m s to be a t r o p h y i n g . T h e r e is n o th in g s c h e d u l e d f o r the W i n t e r i s s u e , and n o th in g s e t a f t e r the S p r i n g i s s u e . las t h i s c o n c e p t o u t li v e d its u s e f u l n e s s ? I would like to t h in k t h a t it h a s n ' t , but I c a n be w r o n g . Doing a f e a t u r e c a n be a w o n d e r f u l g r o u p e f f o r t a nd a c r e a tiv e p a r t i c i p a t o r y e x p e r i e n c e . It r e a l l y o n ly t a k e s a b o u t 3 o r 4 d e d i c a t e d to pull it off. W o n 't you at l e a s t c o n s i d e r it? T h e r e a r e a n u m b e r of t h e m e s we w ould like to s e e e x p l o r e d ; so if you a r e l o o k in g f o r a c o n c e p t to w o r k w i t h , w r i t e f o r a fe w s u g g e s t i o n s . The b a c k i s s u e s a l e s h a v e done q u i te w e l l . We a r e p l e a s e d w ith the r e s p o n s e and have d e c i d e d to c o n tin u e the $1 p r i c e f o r a l l the a v a i l a b l e i s s u e s o v e r a y e a r o l d . (See I n f o r m a t i o n pa g e f o r d e t a i l s ) . A l s o , we c a n f u r n i s h p h oto c o p i e s of the i s s u e s o u t o f s t o c k ( # 's l, 2, 4 , 6, & 32). T h e c o s t f o r t h e s e would be $1. 50 f o r #1; $2. 50 f o r # ' s 2, 4, & 6; a nd $3. 50 f o r # 3 2 . P l e a s e a dd $1 p o s t a g e f o r an y o r d e r f o r 1 t h r u 5 c o p i e s . A s you c a n s e e , the t y p e w r i t e r i s s u e c o n t i n u e s . We h a v e r e c e i v e d two g i f ts o f t y p e w r i t e r s now: t h i s one f r o m F a y g e l e ( w h ic h h a s a f e w m i n o r f l a w s lik e ' h ' s ' and ' o ' s ' ) . It is a big i m p r o v e m e n t o v e r the o l d o n e . T h e r e is a n o t v e r one (a a e l e c t r i c ) s e n t by R a p h a e l w h i c h w a s s l i g h t l y d a m a g e d in t r a n sit and w h ic h 1 hope to h a v e w o r k i n g f o r the n e x t i s s u e . I k n o w t h a t m a n y w ill m i s s the b e a u t i f u l t y p e s e t t i n g f r o m the l a s t i s s u e , but it w a s j u s t too e x p e n s i v e and t r o u b l e s o m e . M aybe s o m e d a y w e ' l l be a b le to do it a g a i n . S p e a k in g o f lay o u t , m u c h c r e d i t is due to L ig h t f o r h i s s i n g u l a r e f f o r t s w ith t h i s . He is p a s t i n g up t h i s i s s u e by h i m s e l f . H o w e v e r , n e i t h e r of us w o u ld o b j e c t to h a v in g o t h e r j o in us f o r t h i s e f f o r t . T h e l a y o u t t i m e s a r e the l a s t two w e e k s o f the m o n t h s p r o c e e d i n g the m o n t h s of the e q u i n o x e s a nd s o l s t i c e s . ( W i n t e r : Nov. 15-31; S p r i n g : F e b . 15-28; S u m m e r : M a y 15-31; F a l l : Aug. 15-31). W r i t e f o r d e t a i l s a b o u t how you c a n p a r t i c i p a t e in t h i s a d v e n t u r e . F o r t h o s e who m i g h t be i n t e r e s t e d in w h a t is h a p p e n i n g w ith R u n n in g W a t e r ( w hic h, a m o n g o t h e r t h i n g s , is the h o m e of R F D ), we h a d a s t o c k h o l d e r s m e e t i n g t h i s s u m m e r and e l e c t e d a new b o a r d of d i r e c t o r s . We s e e m to be m o v in g in the d i r e c t i o n of a R e t r e a t C e n t e r and a b a n d o n i n g the c o l l e c t i v e h o m e s t e a d i n g e m p h a s i s . In o r d e r to do t h i s w e l l , we n e e d to r a i s e m o r e c a p i t a l to i m p r o v e the f a c i l i t i e s . We do n o t h a v e a d e q u a t e t o i l e t , w a s h i n g , c o o k i n g , o r m e e t i n g s p a c e . We c a n s t i l l u s e m o r e i n v e s t o r s ( g u a r a n t o r s ) , d e s i g n s , w o r k p a r t i e s , and a n y o t h e r h e l p a lo n g t h e s e l i n e s . Do w r i t e if in te rested . I b e li e v e t h a t the n e x t s t e p in the d e v e l o p m e n t of the j o u r n a l w i l l be m y f i n d ing a n a s s i s t a n t to live and w o r k he r e . T h e r e a r e s e v e r a l p r o j e c t s t h a t n e e d d e v e l o p i n g an d w o r k i n g o n , and t h e s e c a n b e s t be a c c o m p l i s h e d he r e . T h e r e a r e l i m i t s a s to w h a t c a n be f a r m e d o u t . T he B BB P e n P a l P r o g r a m d e s p e r a t e l y n e e d s a t t e n t i o n . T h e r e a r e p l a n s to d e v e l o p a T r a v e l D i r e c t o r y and p o s s i b l y a f a r m a p p r e n t i c e p r o g r a m , but I w o n 't t a k e o n a n o t h e r p r o j e c t h e r e w i t h o u t a s s i s t a n c e . 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Franklin Abbott Alladres Paulus Berensohn Woody Balck Carl Branch Larry D. Burk Caleb David M. Carr Carl Cepnuneek Chrysalis Chamelion Adam Christensen Cliff Cinn J. Michael Clark Michael Colby Bob Conner Louie Crew S. Donaldson Don Engstrom FLT Fairy Steven Finch James Flolid Howard Gilligan Frank Grant Milo Guthrie Charles E. Hall Jim Hennigan Robert B. Hill David R.Johnson Randy Krahn Philip Kuepper David Kwasigroh Ron Lambe Raymond Latham Life Light Lance Livesay Jim Long Rita Mae Gene Maier Al Maupin Charles Munch Sashi Musso Danny Nicoletta Jerry Noakes Stuart Norman I. Paul N'ae Pearson Michael Petrie Tad Phillips Elliot Pillshaw Kenneth Pobo Len Richardson P Rickster Thomas Riordan Saviz Shafaie Jan Suter Howard Thornton Alan Troxler Skip Ward Mark West Barry Yeoman Irene Young

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)ear RFD I w o u l d lik e to r e s p o n d to the l e t t e r r o m B . C . of N o v a t o , C A in #39. T he i n t e r e s t s he e n u m e r a t e s w ould in dicate a w e ll- r o u n d e d , w e l l - i n t e g r a t e d p e r s o n a l i t y . How t h e n , is he t h r e a t e n e d by th e u s e o f a w o r d ? ' F a e r i e ' s e e m s to b o t h e r h i m a s w e ll a s ' p a n s y ' and ' f a g g o t ' . A p a n s y is a f l o w e r w h o s e n a m e c o m e s f r o m the F r e n c h w ord 'p e n s e e ' w hich m ea n s t h o u g h t f u l . W ho c o u ld o b j e c t to b e ing c a l l e d ' t h o u g h t f u l ' ? A f a g g o t is a b u n d l e o f s t i c k e s f o r b u r n i n g . T he w o r d p r o b a b l y c a m e to be a p p l i e d to as in th e t i m e s o f t h e i n q u i s i t i o n v h e n m a n y o f u s w e r e b u r n e d a t the s t a k e a s , o r a lo n g w i t h , w i t c h e s . S u c h s u f f e r i n g is n o t s o m e t h i n g to be a s h a m e d o f - t h a t w o u ld h a v e t a k e n a o t o f f o r t i t u d e . A f a i r i e is a m a g i a l b e i n g , d e l i c a t e y e t p o s s e s s e d of r o w e r s u n c o m m o n to m e n . I d o n ' t m :nd b e in g c a l l e d d e l i c a t e , m a g i c a l , powe r f u l .

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T R E E PLA N TIN G T h e S u p e r i o r F o r e s t r y S e r v i c e is r e c r u i t i n g f o l k s f o r the n e x t s e a s o n o f t r e e p l a n t i n g . If y o u e n j o y h a r d w o r k , c a m p i n g in the o u t d o o r s , an d m a k in g m o n ey w hile doing s o m e th in g b e n e f ic ia l, you n v g h t t r y t r e e p l a n t in g . S u p e r i o r p l a n t s t r e e s ! r o m T e x a s to the e a s t c o a s t , a ll in the S o u th e r n pine f o r e s t s . F o r m o r e in fo rm a tio n , w rite : S u p e rio r F o r e s t r y S e r v i c e , R t . 2 . L e s l i e , AR 721)45 w ith a SA SE ,

S E E D S FC R N IC A R A G U A Two o r th re e p a c k e ts of c abbage s e e d s m a y be s e n t m o n e e n v e l o p e f o r 4 Of to F a t h e r B e r n a r d S u r v i l , C a s a C u r a ! , E s q u i p u l a s , Nic a r a g u a . T h i s is s o m e t h i n g e v e r y o n e c a n d o . It is n o n - p o l i t i c a l but an a c t w h i c h e x p r e s s e s the s e n d e r s ' w i s h e s f o r r e c o n c i l i a t i o n b e t w e e n the U . S an d the N t c a r a p u a n g ove r n m e n t .

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I n t e r c h a i n is s p o n s o r i n g a M r . L e a t h e r C o n t e s t w h i c h w i l l b e n e f i t the v a r i o u s f o u n d a t i o n s w ho a r e h e l p i n g o u r b r o t h e r s who a r e s i c k w i t h AIDS T h e e v e n t w i l l be h e l d a t A l e x ' s at 30 10th A v e . , New Y o r k C i t y on O c t o b e r 27th. at 8 PM . C ne of m a n y p r i z e s w i l l be a t r i p to M u n ic h T o r the r a f f l e ) . T h e r e w i l l a l s o be d o o r p r i z e s . The w in n e r will a ls o r e c e i v e a t r i p to M u n i c h . T i c k e t s a r e $15 in a d v a n c e , $2 0 a t the d o o r . W r i t e : I n t e r c h a i n , Box 410 - 132 W. 2 4 t h S t. , New Y o r k , NY 10011.

CC M M U N I T I E S C O N T E S T W I N N E R S C o n g r a t u l a t i o n s to the w i n n e r s o f the " C o m m u n i t i e s C o n t e s t " ' R o b e r t L ynn K a z m a y e r o f B r o n x v i l l e . NY won f i r s t p r i z e . . . a w e e k e n d f o r th ree ' at th e f a b u l o u s S h o r t M o u n t a in S a n c tu a r y fo r his "T h o u g h ts on C o m m u n ity " . S eco n d prize;, a w eek fo r o n e at S h o r t M o u n t a i n , w a s w on by Ben C o ffm a n of C e n t e r P o in t, In d i a n a , f o r h i s Sc n t a l o g i e a l d r e a m tre a tise . L a w re n c e B row n of D utch F l a t , C a l i f o r n i a w on the t h i r d p r i z e of a g o a t - s c e n t e d h a n k y , fo r his c u rio u s re sp o n se .

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T H E D A I L Y T AX B I T E The a v e ra g e A m e r ic a n w o r k e r spends m o r e t i m e w o r k i n g e a c h d a y to m e e t h i s / h e r t a x o b l i g a t i o n s t h a n f o r food o r h o u s i n g . A s t u d y p r e p a r e d by the T a x F o u n d a t i o n s h o w e d th e t a x bite t a k e s tw o h o u r s an d 4 0 m i n u t e s w o r th of e a c h d a y 's s a l a r y . The fe d e ra l t a x l o a d g o b b l e s up o n e h o u r a n d 44 m in u te s w hile s ta te and lo ca l ta x e s e a t up 56 m i n u t e s w o r t h of a n e i g h t h o u r d a y ' s p a y . By c o m p a r i s o n , food a n d b e v e r a g e s t a k e o n e h o u r and s e v e n m i n u t e s of th e d a i l y p a y c h e c k .

SC D B U S T E R B I L L T h e H o u s e of R e p r e s e n t a t i v e s h a s a p p r o v e d a so il c o n s e r v a t i o n bill (HR 3457) w h i c h d e n i e s a l l f e d e r a l b e n e f i t s to p r o d u c e r s w ho g r o w an y c r o p o n h i g h ly e r o d i b l e l a n d . A S e n a t e - a p p r o v e d b i ll j u s t d e n i e s be n e f i t s f o r the s p e c i f i c c r o p s g r o w n o n the f r a g i l e a c r e a g e . A c o n s e r v a tio n r e s e r v e p r o g r a m , c o s t i n g $22 5 m illio n o v e r th re e y e a r s , w as a lso e s t a b l i s h e d by the H o u s e b i l l . In t h i s b i l l , the USDA w o u ld e n t e r into l o n g - t e r m c o n t r a c t s w ith p r o d u c e r s to idle l a n d . P r o d u c e r s w o u ld g e t c o s t- s h a r e pay m en t for co n se rv a tio n p r a c t i c e s a n d la n d r e n t a l p a y m e n t s fo r tak in g e r o d ib l e land o u t o f p r o d u ctiv ity .

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W H C L E A G A IN G U ID E S o u r c e N e t is p u b l i s h i n g T h e W h o le A g a i n R e s o u r c e G uide , ' a n e m p o w e r ing t o o l f o r p e r s o n a l g r o w t h a n d p l a n e t a r y w h o l e n e s s . . . f o r s e e k e r s an d q u e s to r s to w a rd s new w ays of b e in g .” It is a p r a c t i c a l c o m p e n d i u m o f t o o l s an d r e s o u r c e s f o r p e o p l e - s a v i n g , p la n e t-s a v in g a lt e r n a t iv e s . The to p ics e n c o m p a ss a r e a s of p h y sic al health, p e rs o n a l d e v e lo p m e n t, and s p ir itu a l g ro w th as w ell a s lis tin g s re fle c tin g s o c i e t a l c o n c e r n s f o r the p e a c e and w ell b ein g of a ll c r e a t u r e s , r a c e s an d c u l t u r e s a n d th e p r e s e r v a t i o n o f o u r p la n e t's r e s o u r c e s . The 250p a g e , 8 1/2 " x l l " p a p e r b a c k is a v a i l a b le a t $12. 95 f r o m : S o u r c e N e t , P O Box 6 7 6 7 , S a n t a B a r b a r a , C A 93160.

GAY P E R I O D I C A L S D I R E C T O R Y H, R o b e r t M a l i n o w s k y o f M a l C r u P u b l i c a t i o n s is c o m p i l i n g a c o m p r e h e n s i v e D i r e c t o r y of Gay and L e s b i a n P e r i o d i c a l s w h i c h w i l l inc lu d e m a g a z i n e s , j o u r n a l s , a n n u a l s , i r r e g u l a r r e p o r t s , n e w s p a p e r s , a nd n e w s l e t t e r s . It is i n t e n d e d to be a n u p -to -d a te , annual d ire c to ry that will include a d e ta i le d d e s c r i p t i o n of e a c h t i t l e . It is e n v i s i o n e d a s a re so u rce for lib r a r ie s , boo k sto res a nd m e m b e r s o f th e g a y c o m m u n i t y a s w e l l a s b e i n g a m a r k e t i n g tool f o r r e t a i l e r s . D e t a i l e d i n d e x e s by s u b j e c t , g e o g r a p h i c a l l o c a t i o n an d o r g a n i z a t i o n w i l l be i n c l u d e d . F o r m o re in fo rm a tio n a n d /o r a listin g , w r i t e : H. R o b e r t M a l i n o w s k y , 1151 W e s t K e t t l e A v e . , L i t t l e t o n , CC 80120.

The f ir s t n a tio n a lly d is trib u te d d o c u m e n t a r y o n g a y f a t h e r s is now in r e l e a s e . " T e l l T h e C h i l d r e n , p r o d u c e d by S a n 1 r a n c i s c o - b a s e d P a u l S e rg io s and A s so c , has b een d e s c r i b e d as "a p io n e e r in g v isu a l e x p l o r a t i o n of th e l i v e s a n d s i t u a t i o n s of f o u r h o m o s e x u a l f a t h e r s and an e x a m i n a t i o n of the d y n a m i c s of t h e i r r e l a t i o n s h i p s w ith w i v e s , l o v e r s , c h ild ren . "

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INTRO SE R V IC E NEW D R U ID J O U R N A L C a i n t e a n n a n a L u i s e , "a j o u r n a l o f d r u i d i c a r t s ” , is a q u a r t e r l y w i t h su b s c rip tio n s a re $ 9 .0 0 p e r y e a r. A l t h o u g h th e e d i t o r is g a y , the m a i n f o c u s o f th e j o u r n a l w i l l be P a g a n . W rite : C a in e an n a na L u ise , c /o 805 - 85 W e l l e s l e y E a s t , T o r o n t o , C n t . , C a n a d a M 4Y 1H8.

BOOK C A T A L O G S T he G ay M e n ' s C a t a l o g , 1982-1984 - - 16 p a g e s of b o o k s p u b l i s h e d s i n c e 1982, i n c l u d i n g f i c t i o n , n o n - f i c t i o n , a r t a n d g i f t b o o k s , t r a v e 1, g u i d e s , r e l i g i o n , p o e t r y , a n d d r a m a - - is n o w a v a i l a b l e f o r $2 f r o m G i o v a n n i ' s R o o m , M a i l O r d e r D e p t . , 345 S o u t h 12th St. , P h i l a d e l p h i a , P A 19107.

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SPIR ITU A L N E W SL ET TE R T h e b a s i c t e n e t of T r i b u t a r i e s , a n e w s l e t t e r "to e n c o u r a g e c l e a r s i g h t e d s p i r i t u a l s t u d y " , a n d i ts p u b l i s h e r , I r o q u o i s H o u s e , is t h a t a ll gen u in e s p i r i t u a l w o rk le a d s b a c k into th e s a m e S o u r c e . T h e o r i g i n a l a n d b r o a d e r i n t e n t i o n o f the p u b l i s h e r is " t o p r o v i d e a p l a c e f o r u s to t a l k a b o u t t h e u n i v e r s a l e l e m e n t s of s p i r i t u a l stu d y and p r a c tic e , r e g a r d l e s s of s e c ta r ia n v o c a b u l a r y . " S u b s c r i p t i o n s a r e $15 f o r 12 i s s u e s ($8 f o r 6) f r o m I r o q u o i s H o u s e p Box 211, M o u n t a i n P a r k , NM 8 8 3 2 5 .

C o m p u c o p ia , a nationw ide c o m p u t e r ized i n tr o d u c tio n s e r v i c e fo r gay m e n is now d i s t r i b u t i n g a m o n t h l y n e w s l e t t e r to i ts m e m b e r s . C o m p u c o p i a is b a s e d in Sa n F r a n c i s c o a n d h a s s o m e 600 m e m b e r s c u r e n t l y . T h e c o s t o f m e m b e r s h i p r a n g e s f r o m $20 to $50 d e p e n d i n g on the l e n g t h o f the m e m b e r s h i p and w h e t h e r m a il f o r w a r d i n g is r e q u e s t e d . T h e m o n t h l y n e w s l e t t e r w ill a ls o a d d r e s s i s s u e s r e l e v a n t to g a y m a l e r e l a t i o n s h i p s . W r i t e : C o m p u c o p i a , 109 M i n n a St. # 6 0 6 , S a n F r a n c i s c o , C A 94105.

GAY L A T I N O S in F r o n t e r a s , a G ay L a t i n o J o u r n a l , w i l l be d e d i c a t e d to i n - d e p t h c o v e r a g e an d a n a l y s i s o f the g a y / lesb ia n la tin o /la tin a m o v em e n t fro m C o l o r a d o to T i e r r a d e l F u e g o , f r o m N ew Y o r k to C a l i f a s . If y o u w a n t to c o n t r i b u t e in a n y w a y , w r i t e : S in F r o n t e r a s , P C Box 1551, D e n v e r , CC 8 0 2 0 5 .

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SA M MAIN C E L E B R A T I O N T h e r e w i l l be a c e l e b r a t i o n f o r S a m h a i n on C c t . 2 7 - 8 2 in M a d i s o n , W I. W r i t e : C i r c l e , Box 219, M t. H o r e b , WI 5 3 5 7 2 .

M O B IL IZ A T IO N FOR AN IM ALS M o b i l i z a t i o n f o r A n i m a l s is a v o l u n t e e r - b a s e d g ro u p , and is a n o n - p r o f i t , t a x - e x e m p t o r g a n i z a t i o n . It is d e d i c a t e d to d i r e c t a c t i o n to e n d a n i m a l s u f f e r i n g , a n d is c o n c e r n e d w i t h th e p r o t e c t i o n o f a l l s e n t i e n t c r e a t u r e s . T h e M o b i l i z a t i o n is c a l l i n g f o r a "W o rld W eek F o r W ild life ” fo r C c t. 2 1 - 2 7 , 1984. C o n t r i b u t i o n s a s w e l l a s 7 e o p l e a r e n e e d e d to h e l p . W r i t e : M o b i l i z a t i o n F o r A n i m a l s , P O Box 1679, C o l u m b u s , O H 43216.

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A N e w Age s u p p o r t g r o u p f o r a r t i s t s , w r i t e r s , m u s i c i a n s , and c r e a tiv e s p i r i t s is b e i n g f o r m e d in S a n F r a n c i s c o . A p o s i t i v e a t t i t u d e an d i n n e r l i g h t is ' e s s e n t i a l 1. T h e r e w i l l be w e e k l y m e e t i n g s . F o r m o r e in f o , w r i t e : J o e L e m b o , Box 9 9 4 4 4 , Sa n F r a n c i s c o , C A 94109.

NEW Y O R K F A E R Y C I R C L E If y o u a r e i n t e r e s t e d in j o i n i n g th e C i r c l e in N e w Y o r k C i t y , o r w a n t n e w s o f o t h e r e v e n t s in t h i s a r e a including N o r th e a s t G a th e r in g s , w r i t e t o : C i r c l e , P C Box 7 6 5 . M u r r a y H i l l S t a t i o n , New Y o r k , NY 10156.

T h e S h a n t i F o u n d a t i o n h a s tw o p r i n c i p l e g o a l s : to p r o v i d e d i r e c t c o m m u n ity s e r v ic e o fferin g v o lu n te e r c o u n s e llin g , c o m p a n io n s h ip and e m o t i o n a l s u p p o r t to p e r s o n s f a c i n g l i f e - t h r e a t e n i n g i l l n e s s e s , a n d to provide s y s te m a tic train in g on p s y c h o s o c i a l i s s u e s f o r th e v o l u n t e e r , f o r p r o f e s s i o n a l s w o r k i n g w i t h the dying and t h e i r loved o n e s and fo r i n t e r e s t e d la y p e o p le and g r o u p s . In M a r c h o f 1983, t h e S h a n t i F o u n d a t i o n b e g a n r e s p o n d i n g to th e n e e d s o f p e r s o n s w i t h A. I . D . S . a n d t h e i r l o v e d o n e s . S h a n t i w e l c o m e s the s u p p o rt of th o se in d iv id u a ls and o rg a n iz a tio n s th at can c o n trib u te tim e , sk ills o r r e s o u r c e s . W rite: T h e S h a n t i F o u n d a t i o n , 1752 N o r t h F u l l e r A v e ., L os A n g e le s , CA 90046.

M a n d a l a is a 2 3 5 - a c r e r u r a l r e s o u r c e c e n te r fo r gay m en and th e ir frie n d s , s i t u a t e d o n t h e h e a d w a t e r s o f th e T w e e d R i v e r o n th e N o r t h C o a s t o f N e w S o u t h W a l e s in A u s t r a l i a . T he la n d is h e l d in t r u B t a n d a d m i n i s t e r e d by a c o lle c tiv e , in v e s tig a tin g a l t e r n a t i v e s in la n d u s e , b u i l d i n g , h e a l i n g , e n e r g y and c o m m u n a l liv in g . F o r m o r e in fo , w r i t e : M A N D A LA , C h o w a n C r e e k , U k i , NSW 2 4 8 4 , A u s tra lia .

AN A F F A I R (E Y ) IN L O U I S I A N A L o u i s i a n a ' s F i r s t A f f a i r ( e y ) w i l l be h e l d N o v . 9 - 11 a t a f a r m n e a r A l e x a n d r ia , LA. The A ffair(ey ) g a th e rin g w i l l be a t i m e f o r l e a r n i n g in w o r k shops, l e c t u r e s , d is c u s s i o n s and p lay re a d in g . T h is fello w sh ip of c e l e b r a t i o n w i l l be h e l d in a n a t m o s p h e r e o f r e la x a tio n and f r e e d o m , f r e e of a lc o h a l a n d d r u g s . A $20 f e e w i l l be c h a r g e d to c o v e r t h e c o s t o f m e a l s and o th e r e x p e n s e s . A r r a n g e m e n ts c a n be m a d e f o r t h o s e u n a b l e to p a y . W r i t e : L e B e a u M o n d e , P O Box 1583, A l e x a n d r i a , L A 71310.

T h e r e w i l l b e a N e w Age A l l i a n c e G a th e rin g on Nov. 2 - 4 a t B ru n sw ic k M o t o r Inn, L a n c a s t e r , P A . It w i l l be a p a g a n - m e t a p h y s i c a l f e s t i v a l . W r i t e w i t h S A S E t o : N e w A ge A l l i a n c e , Box 103, N e w Y o r k , NY 10163.

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The O rg a n iz in g C o m m itte e for a N a t i o n a l W r i t e r s U n io n is s p o n s o r ing a c o n f e r e n c e on C e n s o r s h i p and C u l t u r e on C c t . 19-21 in N e w Y o r k C i t y . M a n y w r i t e r s w ill he in a t t e n d a n c e to s p e a k o u t a g a i n s t c e n s o r s h i p in i t s m a n y fo r m s . P . E . N. , the A m e r i c a n L i b r a r y A s s o c . , a n d T h e A m e r i c a n Rook R e v i e w w i l l s p o n s o r p a n e ls a s w e ll. T h e r e will be w o r k s h o p s f o r b u s i n e s s w r i t e r s , p o e ts , w o m e n 's m a g a z in e w r i t e r s , a c a d e m i c s , and o t h e r s p e c ia l g r o u p s a s w ell a s on su c h p r a c t i c a l a s p e c t s of o u r p r o f e s s i o n a s c o p y r i g h t s , c o m p u te rs , and g r a n ts .

The R ow e C o n f e r e n c e C e n t e r in w e s t e r n M a s s , h a s a c o n tin u in g sc h e d u le o f m a n y i n t e r e s t i n g c o n f e r e n c e s a nd w o rk sh o p s. T h e ir fe e s a re on a s l i d i n g s c a l e , a n d b u s s e r v i c e is a v ailab le f r o m B o ston (about 3 h r s . ) Among m any in te re s tin g p r o g r a m s , the f o l lo w in g m i g h t be o f s p e c i a l i n t e r e s t to R F D e r s : S e n s i t i v y f o r the E a r t h o n C c t . 5 - 8 w i t h He ie n N e a r i n g a n d G o r d o n Bok, fo lksinger.

F o o d , H e a l t h a n d th e H u m a n Body o n Nov. 2 - 4 with V i c to r a s K u lv in skas.

T h e c o n f e r e n c e h i g h l i g h t s th e r o l e t h a t the N a t i o n a l W r i t e r s U n i o n , n o w in i ts s e c o n d y e a r , p l a y s in p ro te c tin g fre e d o m of e x p r e s s io n an d th e p u b l i c ' s r i g h t to r e a d and know. F o r m o r e info, w r i t e : N a t i o n a l W r i t e r s U n i o n , 13 A s t o r P I , 7th F l o o r , N e w Y o r k , NY 10003.

R e t u r n to C r e a t i o n - A M e d i c i n e W h e e l on N ov. 30 to D e c . 2 w i t h E m m y R a in w a lk e r and M e dicine S tory. R e - O r i e n t i n g C u r M a n h o o d a n d Re O w n in g O u r P o w e r on I a n . 2 5 - 2 7 w i t h D a v i d T h o m p s o n a n d D oug W il so n .

:::::::::::::::::: ::: I N T E R N A T I O N A L M A R C H ON UN UN BIG P A R T Y T he a s s i s t a n t S e c r e t a r y - G e n e r a l of th e U n i t e d N a t i o n s , D r . R o b e r t G. M u lle r , h a s now a p p r o v e d th e c o n cept of a w e ek -lo n g w o rldw ide c e l e b r a t i o n s e t f o r O c t o b e r 24 - 30 to p r o m o t e a n e w t r e n d in w o r l d t h i n k ing. T h e p u r p o s e o f th e c e l e b r a t i o n is to h e l p p e o p l e v i s u a l i z e a w o r l d w h e r e c r e a t i n g w e a p o n s o f w a r is im p o s sib le . "The p a r ty c e le b ra te s the s t a r t o f t h i s t r a n s f o r m a t i o n " says o rg a n iz e r A rt R osenblum , d i r e c t o r o f the 1 5 - y e a r o ld A q u a r i a r R e s e a r c h F o u n d a t i o n of P h i l a d e l p h i a . The fo u n d atio n s u p p lie s a k it c o n t a i n i n g two h u n d r e d i n v i t a t i o n s , a m anual, a n e w s le tte r s u b s c rip tio n an d o t h e r i m p o r t a n t i n f o r m a t i o n f o r a d o n a t i o n o f $2 5 ( o r w h a t e v e r a p e rs o n can affo rd ). W rite : A q u a r ia n R e s e a r c h F o u n d a t i o n , 5 6 2 0 M o r t o n St. , P h i l d e i p h i a , P A 19144.

T h e I n t e r n a t i o n a l M a r c h on th e Uni t e d N a t i o n s f o r L e s b i a n a n d Gay F r e e d o m w i l l f o l l o w th e C o n f e r e n c e o n the G l o b a l M o v e m e n t f o r L e s b i a n a n d G a y L ib e r a t i o n o n S e p t . 2 9 . T h e m a r c h w i l l be o n S e p t . 30, and is d e s i g n e d to d e m o n s t r a t e to a w o r l d a u d i e n c e t h a t l e s b i a n s a n d ga y m e n a r e v i s i b l e a n d d e t e r m i n e d in t h e i r fight fo r f r e e d o m w o rld w id e . T h e m a r c h w i l l s t e p off f r o m S h e r i d a n S q u a r e in N e w Y o r k ' s G r e e n w i c h V i l l a g e a t n o o n . It w ill p r o c e e d to Dag H a m r n a r s k j o l d P l a z a f o r a r a l l v w i t h s p e a k e r s r e p r e s e n t i n g th e d i v e r s e s e g m e n t s of o u r c o m m u n i t y . T h e c o n f e r e n c e w ill be h e l d the p r o c e e d in g d a y , S e p t. 29th. T he o n e - d a y e v e n t will p r o v id e a p la c e f o r d i s c u s s i o n , e d u c a t i o n , an d n e t w o r k i n g o n the g l o b a l m o v e m e n t . It w ill a l s o a t t e m p t to la y the g r o u n d w o r k f o r a f u l l e r c o n fe re n c e at a la te r d a te . F o r m o re in f o r m a t i o n , w r i t e : L e s b i a n a n d Gay O r g a n i z i n g C o m m i t t e e f o r 1984, P O Box 1498, N e w Y o r k , NY 10009.

TOW ARD A G L O B A L SO C IET Y A FFIR M A TIO N A s v m p o s i u m o n th e I n d i v i d u a l a nd C o l l e c t i v e E f f o r t In S o c i a l T r a n s f o r m a t i o n w i l l be h e l d o n N ov. 9-11 in A s h e v i l l e . NO. T o w a r d a G l o b a l S o c i e t y is a f o r u m f o r a l l p e o p l e c o n c e r n e d with n u r t u r i n g a lo v in g , m u tau lly -em p o w erin g , tru ly s a c re d fu tu r e f o r a ll of life . T he p u r p o s e of the s y m p o s i u m is to t a k e s t o c k o f the v a r io u s p o s s ib le w a y s th a t individual and c o l l e c t i v e e f f o r t c a n t r u l y t r a n s f o r m t o d a y ' s w o r l d i n to a h a p p i e r and m o re s a c re d hom e for a ll. Speakers include D o ro th y M a c le a n , D avid S p a n g l e r , D onald K e y s, H im a y a t I n a y a ti, and m an y o t h e r s . F o r m o r e i n f o r m a tio n , w r i t e : L ig h t of the M o u n ta in s I ' o r u m , R e g i s t r a r Nov. C o n f . , R t . 2 , Box 166, L e i c e s t e r , NO 2 8 7 4 8 .

A f f i r m a t io n / G a y and L e s b ia n M o r m o n s has announced that P hoenix h as been c h o s e n a s the s i t e f o r t h i s y e a r s n a t i o n a l c o n f e r e n c e . It w ill t a k e p l a c e o n O c t . 12-14 w i t h th e t h e m e o f " T h e G o sp el, A ffirm a tio n and You". The p u r p o s e of A f f i r m a t i o n i s to b r i n g t o g e t h e r a l l G a y an d L e s b i a n M o r m o n s an d i n t e r e s t e d f r i e n d s f o r (1) s o c i a l n t e r a c t i o n , (2) e d u c a t i o n a n d d i a l o g u e , »nd (3) s p i r i t u a l d e v e l o p m e n t . T he u l t i m a t e g o a l is t o w a r d s u n d e r s t a n d ng. t o le r a n c e and e v e n tu a l a c c e p t a n c e o f G ay p e r s o n s a s f u l l , e q u a l ind w o r t h y m e m b e r s w i t h in th e C h u r c h . F o r m o r e info, w r i t e : A f f ir m a tio n , PC Box 2 5 2 2 7 , T e m p o . AZ 8 5 2 8 2 .

A b r o c h u r e is a v a i l a b l e g i v n g m u c h m o r e i n f o r m a t i o n ; -a r i t e : R ow e C o n f e r e n c e C e n t e r , K in g s Hwy R d . , R o w e , MA 01367.

T R E E R O O T S WO R K S H O P S T r e e r o o t s is a n o n p r o f i t o r g a n i z a t io n d e d i c a t e d to w o r k i n g w i t h g a y m en at re c la im in g o u r g a y -c e n te re d s p i r i t v i s i o n r e a l i z a t i o n s . It is s p o n s o r i n g two long w o r k s h o p s t h i s f a l l . G ay Soul M a k i n g : M a n d a l a s , D r e a m s a n d S h a m a n i s m w ill lx: c o n d u c t e d f r o m S e p t . 24 to D e c . 18 o n M o n d a y o_r T u e s d a y e v e n i n g s f o r t h i r t e e n w e e k s in t'>e H o l l y w o o d a r e a . T h e f e e is $10 p e r s e s s i o n . T he w o r k s h o p w i l l e m b a r k on a s h a m a n i c j o u r n e y in s e l f - r e a l i z a t i o n . T h e f i r s t s e s s i o n s w ill e x p l o r e the d e v e l o p m e n t , m e a n i n g and e x p e rie n c e of gay c o n s c io u s n e s s , a n d l a t e r m e e t i n g s w ill f o c u s on the s p i r i t w a r r i o r ' s p a t h , th e u n c o n s c i o u s , m a n d a l a s an d d r e a m w o r k , G a y I n d i v i d u a t i o n : T h e W ay to the C e n t e r w i l l be c o n d u c t e d f r o m S e p t . 16 to J a n u a r y 27 a l s o in the Hollyw ood a r e a . T h is tw e n ty w e ek w o r k s h o p will be o n S u n d a y e v e n i n g s a l s o a t $10 p e r s e s s i o n . It w ill f o c u s on e a c h p a r t i c i p a n t ' s i n d i v i d u a t i o n p ro c e s s , d is c o v e rin g , c la rify in g , c o n f i r m i n g , m a x i m i z i n g , a n d the g r o u p w ill e m p h a s i z e d e v e l o p m e n t o f sk ill a s a d r e a m w o r k e r and s tr e n g th as a shadow w a r r i o r , e x p lo rin g u n f o l d i n g m y s t e r i e s in g r o u p h e a r t fe llo w sh ip . F o r m o re in fo rm a tio n , w rite : T r e e r o o t s , PC Box 2 3 0 2 , L o s A n g e l e s , CA 0 0 0 7 8 .

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E l l i o t h a s r e c e n t l y m o v e d f r o m L o s A n g e l e s to B o s t o n , a b a s e f r o m w h i c h he h o p e s to r e c o r d h i s m u s i c , p e r f o r m a nd t o u r . H i s l a s t n a t i o n a l t o u r w a s w i t h L o r i n S k l a m b e r g w h i t h w h o m he r e c o r d e d " B e n d i n g the R u l e s " . He a n d L o r i n h a d m e t in L o s A n g e l e s w h e r e t h e y w e r e b o th c a n t o r s in th e g a y s y n a g o g u e . T h e y fo u n d a m u t u a l i n t e r e s t in I s r a e l i f o lk m u s i c a n d b e g a n to p e r f o r m e t h n i c m u s i c a s w ell a s so n g s th e y w ro te o r b o r r o w e d f r o m H o l l v N e a r , K r i s t i n L a m s a n d P a b l o N e r u d a . B e in g a J e w is c o r e to E l l i o t ' s u n d e r s t a n d i n g o f m u s i c a s a m e d i u m f o r m e s s a g e s . He a t t e n d e d th e J e w i s h T h e o l o g i c a l S e m i n a r y in C a l i f o r n i a a f t e r f e e l i n g s e p a r a t e d f r o m J e w i s h c u l t u r e in a h e t e r o g e n e o u s s t u d e n t b o d y a t O c c i d e n t a l C o l l e g e . E v e n t h e r e he w a s a c t i v e in p o l i t i c s an d d e m o n s t r a t e d a n d o r g a n i z e d in s u p p o r t of t h e S o v i e t Jew ry.

A&«CTtAf’ ■*lliot P i l s h a w is o n e of a n u m b e r of t a l e n t e d g a y m e n who a r e b e g i n n i n g to t r a v e l the A m e r i c a s s i n g i n g s o n g s of h u m a n lib e r a t i o n a n d p e a c e , T h e c o u r a g e o f t h i s c a l l i n g is o b v i o u s to m o s t o f u s who s t i l l f a c e m a n y we k n o w w i t h l e s s t h a n o u r f u ll i d e n t i t i e s . E l l i o t a d v e r t i s e s w i t h n a m e a n d f a c e a n d no a p o l o g i e s t h a t h e is a d i f f e r e n t s o r t o f t r o u b a d o u r . C f h i m , H o l l y N e a r s a y s , ''I t g i v e s m e g r e a t p l e a s u r e to s e e m e n l ik e E l l i o t p e r f o r m i n g m u s i c t h a t c h a l l e n g e s the d o m i n a n t c u l t u r e t h e y c o u l d so e a s ily d e f e r t o . "

E l l i o t c a m e to C a l i f o r n i a f r o m P r i n c e t o n , N e w J e r s e y w h e r e he g r e w up. He r e m e m b e r s a s a n a d o l e s c e n t l i s t e n i n g to a c a p p e l l a g r o u p s a t P r i n c e t o n U n i v e r s i t y and b e i n g a t t r a c t e d b o t ^ to the c l o s e n e s s o f the s i n g e r s a n d to th e s e x u a l s o u n d o f m e n ' s v o i c e s . C t h e r e a r l y m u s i c a l w e l l s p r i n g s i n c l u d e s i n g i n g in h i g h s c h o o l c h o r u s an d d e v e l o p i n g h i s t a l e n t in b l e n d i n g h i s o w n v o i c e w i t h o t h e r s He r e m e m b e r s m u s i c h i s p a r e n t s p a l y e d a t h o m e : D y l a n , P e t e S e e g e r , t h e C l a n c y ' s , a n d the m u s i c a l s in w h i c h h i s f a t h e r s a n g in C o m m u n i t y T h e a t e r .

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<0 PR ISO N P O E T R Y The G re e n fie ld R e v ie w P r e s s a n n o u n c e s the p u b l i c a t i o n o f " T h e L ig h t F r o m A n o th e r C o u n try : P o e t r y F r o m A m e r i c a n P r i s o n s " e d i t e d by Jo s e p h B ru c h ac . The p u b licatio n d a t e i s C c t o b e r 15 a n d w i l l be a v a i l a b l e f o r $9. 95, p a p e r b a c k o n l y . Sixty c o n tr i b u t o r s f r o m th ro u g h o u t the U n i t e d S t a t e s m a k e u p t h i s f i r s t tr u ly m a j o r a n thology of c o n t e m p o r a r y p o e t r y w h i c h c o m e s o u t o f the e x p e r i e n c e of i n c a r c e r a t i o n . T h e r e a r e m a n y d i f f e r e n t v o i c e s h e r e , but a l l o f t h e m h a v e one t h in g in c o m m o n - - t h e i r w ritin g viv id ly p o r t r a y s , w i t h p o w e r , a g o n y , an d s o m e t i m e s s u r p r i s i n g g r a c e , th e r e a l i t y o f the p r i s o n e x p e r i e n c e in A m e r i c a t o d a y .

A pansy b an n er c re a te d by P e te r G r i t t i n s p i r e d by t h e R F D p a t c h a n d e n t e r e d in th e l o c a l C o u n t y F a i r . It m e a s u r e s 3 ' by 4 ' in s i x c o l o r s , m ade of nylon.

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I he P u b l i c H e a l t h S e r v i c e is d i s t r i b u t i n g a v a r i e t y of f r e e i n f o r m a t i o n m a t e r i a l s to e d u c a t e t he p u b l i c a b o u t a c q u i r e d i m m u n e d e f i c i e n c y s y n d r o m e ( AIDS). M a t e r i a l s a r e a v a i l a b l e in q u a n t i t y to o r g a n i z a t i o n s t h a t wi l l use t h e m ef fe c tiv e ly , and single c op ie s a r e . of c o u r s e , a v a i l a b l e to a n y r e q u e s t e r . The i te m s o f f er e d include:

Wh y do we n e e d s w e e t h a p p i n e s s ? M a n y p s y c h o l o g i s t s h ave p r o p o s e d e x p l a n a t i o n s . My o w n a n s w e r is t h a t A m e r i c a n c h i l d r e n g r o w up wi t h so m u c h f e a r o f b e i n g sl a p p e d , hit, be a t e n , s p a nke d and put -d o w n that s u g a r g i v e s t h e m a f e w m o m e n t s o f p l e a s u r e a m i d t he b u f f e t i n g o f g r o w i n g up . T h e a d u l t h a s t h e s a m e f e a r s o n a m o r e s o p h i s t i c a t e d l e v e l a n d t h e c o o k i e s a n d i ce c r e a m gi v e h i m / h e r t he s a m e p l e a s u r e t h a t h e / s h e g ot a s a c h i l d .

F a c t s A bout AIDS - - A f ac t s h e e t of c u r r e n t i n f o r m a t i o n a b o u t t he n a t u r e a n d e x t e n d of AI DS, a t - r i s k p o p u l a t i o n s , s u s p e c t e d m e t h o d s of t r a n s m i s s i o n , p r e c a u t i o n s , and P u b l i c H e a l t h S e r v i c e r e s e a r c h . W h a t Eve r yo n e S h o u l d Know Ab o u t AI DS A 16 pa ge c a r t o o n b o o k l e t d i s c u s s i n g in s i m p l e t e r m s t he s y m p t o m s o f AI DS, how il a f f e c t s t h e i m m u n e s y s t e m , AIDS p r e v e n t i o n , i n c i d e n c e , t r a n s m i s s i o n , and r e s e a r c h u n d e r w a y . A v a i l a b l e in E n g l i s h a n d S p a n i s h v e r s i o n s .

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Why ' o u S h o u l d Be I n f o r m e d Ab o u t AIDS Information f o r h e a l t h c a r e p e r s o n n e l and o t h e r . a r e p r o v i d e r ' . A 1 6 - p a g e c a r t o o n b o o k l e t e x p l a i n i n g the s y m p t o m s , e f f e c t s o n t he b o d y , a n d t r a n s m i s s i o n . D e s c r i b e s p r e c a u t i o n s f o r h e a l t h c a r e and l a b o r a t o r y p e r s o n n e l , p o s t m o r t e m c a r e p r o v i d e r s , and o t h e r p r o f e s s i o n a l s ( e m e r g e n c y m e d i c a l t e c h n i c i a n s , p o l i c e o f f i c e r s , f i r e f i g h t e r s , and p r i s o n p e r s o n n e l ) wh o m a y be < a i l e d u|>on to p r o v i d e c a r e f o r p e r s o n s who h a v e AIDS o r a r e s u s p e c t e d o f h a v i n g it.

A b o u t 1962 I s t a r t e d k e e p i n g b e e s f o r a h o b b y . S o m e t i m e in 1975 I d i s c o v e r e d t h a t I h a d s t o p p e d e a t i n g s u g a r f or t h r e e m o n t h s and w a s e a t i n g o n l y h o n e y . I w a s livi ng in C a m b r i d g e , M a s s . , a m o n g h i p p i e s a n d w a s q u i t e happy. But f o r s o m e r e a s o n I w a s u n e a s y a b o u t n o t e a t i n g s u g a r , so I wo u l d e a t a c o o k i e o r i ce c r e a m about: t wo in the a f t e r n o o n . A s t r a n g e h a b i t , b u t I di d it. T h e n a b o u t 30 m i n u t e s l a t e r I wo u l d go o n a b u m m e r : N o b o d y l i k e d m e ; I w a s n ' t getting what I wa nted; I d id n 't have a l o v er; et c e te ra , et c e te ra .

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T h e b o o k is a m u s t f o r t h o s e who a r e i n t e r e s t e d in o l d a r c h i t e c t u r a l s t y l e , old b u i l d i n g s , v a n i s h i n g a r c h i t e c t u r a l st y le , and of c o u r s e , b a r n s . The B a rn d e s c r i b e s d e ta i ls a n d h i s t o r y o f b a r n s l o c a t e d t h r o u g h o u t t he U. S. a n d C a n a d a , a n d it e v e n l i s t s w h e r e a f e w of t h e s e b a r n s c a n s t i l l be s e e n . A q u a l i t y b o o k . - R a n d y L, Sly E A R T H P O N D S : T H E C O U N T R Y P O N D M A K E R ' S GU I DE by T i m M a t s o n The C o u n try m a n P r e s s P O Box 175, W o o d s t o c k , V T 05091 $ 9 . 9 5 ( p a p e r ) 128 pp. Havi ng f a n t a s i e d f o r a few y e a r s a b o u t b ui ldi ng m y o w n p o n d , to r e c e i v e a c o p y o f t h i s b o o k w a s v e r y e x c i t i n g . My t h o u g h t w a s t h a t a t l a s t a g o o d h o w - t o b o o k o n j u s t p o n d b u i l d i n g . U n f o r t u n a t e l y , t h i s is n ot w h a t t h i s b o o k is a b o u t . T h e h o w - t o is m o s t l y h o w to f i n d t he r i g h t p o n d b u i l d e r w i t h t he r i g h t h e a v y e q u i p m e n t to c o m e in a n d b u i l d y o u r p o n d f o r y o u . T h i s b o o k is a big d i s a p p o i n t m e n t f o r a n y o n e w a n t i n g to k n o w the f a c t s o n p o n d building. T h e r e i s , h o w e v e r , s o m e v e r y u s e f u l i n f o r m a t i o n o n h ow to c a r e f o r a jxjnd o n c e it is b u i l t , w h i c h is v e r y i m p o r t a n t So 1 d o n ' t r e c o m m e n d t h i s a s a b o o k o n p o n d b u i l d i n g , b ut I w i l l r e c o m m e n d it a s a n i n f o r m a t i v e o n e o n the c a r e a n d m a i n t e n a n c e of an e a r t h pond. - J e r r y Noakes

• s p i t e t he c o m p l a c e n c y o f v i s i b l e , u p w a r d l y m o b i l e , d u s u a l l y wh i t e g a y m a l e s , m o s t g a y p e r s o n s a r e s t i l l c o m p e l l e d to l i v e a t t he m a r g i n s o f a c c e p t a b i l i t y a n d t he f i n a n c i a l / p o w e r s t r u c t u r e s . We h a v e a l s o b e e n f o r c e d to t h e m a r g i n s o f o r t h o d o x t h e o l o g y o r s p i r i t u a l i t y . C u r p r e s e n c e in C h r i s t i a n w o r s h i p is b a r e l y t o l e r a t e d a n d o u r p r e s e n c e w i t h i n t he c l e r g y v i r t u a l l y p r o h i b i t e d . T h i s is the ' g a y e x h i l e ' w h i c h J o h n F o r t u n a t o h a s so e l e g a n t l y d e s c r i b e d (1983) a n d w i t h w h i c h he e m p a t h i z e s , wh i l e u l t i m a t e l y i n s i s t i n g t h a t t h a t v e r y s t a t e o f e x i l e m u s t be e m b r a c e d and c e l e b r a t e d . E m b r a c i n g o u r exil e m u s t a l s o i n c l u d e c e l e b r a t i n g s p i r i t u a l l y t he m e a n i n g s o f g a y e x i s t e n c e . T h e t r a g i c d e a r t h of s p i r i t u a l d e p t h a n d a l t e r n a t i v e s a m o n g g a y m a l e s is i t s e l f a s h a r p d e n i a l of J o h n B o s w e l l ' s (1980) t h e s i s t h a t t h e C h u r c h h a s o n l y innocently reflected cu ltu ral attitudes o v e r tim e. Even if C h r i s t i a n i t y w a s / i s n o t d i r e c t l y r e s p o n s i b i l e f o r c r e a t i n g h o m o p h o b i a , c e r t a i n l y by gi vi ng h o m o p h o b i a its a u t h o r i t a t i v e s a n c t i o n , it h a s b e c o m e r e s p o n s i b l e f o r n u r t u ring ho m o p h o b ia o v e r t i m e . R e je c t i n g an institu tio n which has thus b lessed and e n co u rag ed our m arg in aiity s ho ul d not , h o w e v e r , c a u s e u s to a b a n d o n o u r s p i r i t u a l q u e s t s , a n e r r o r m a d e b y s o m e of B o s w e l l ' s c r i t i c s ( G A U / N Y C ) . T he c h a l l e n g e i n s t e a d is to d i s c o v e r a l t e rn a ti v e r e s o u r c e s fo r s p i r i t u a l i t y which a r e a p p r o p ri a t e to o u r e x i s t e n t i a l s t a n d p o i n t a s g a y a n d e x i l e d p e r s o n s . No t w i t h o u t a c e r t a i n i r o n y , c l u e s to o n e s u c h a l t e r n a t i v e lie in B o s w e l l ' s f o o t n o t e s - - t h e m a g i c a l / s p i r i t u a l r o l e of t h e b e r d a c h e , t he t r a n s v e s t i t e s a n d / o r h o m o s e x u a l s in ( p r i m a r i l y ) p r e - t w e n t i e t h c e n t u r y , n a t i v e A m e r i c a ( B o s w e l l 2 7 n , 3 7 n , 184). A l t h o u g h t h e t e r m ' b e r d a c h e ' w a s f i r s t p o p u l a r i z e d by F r e n c h e x p l o r e r s to d e s i g n a t e p a s s i v e m a l e h o m o s e x u a l s a m o n g n a t u r e s o c i e t i e s , t he t e r m b e c a m e a m b i g o u s a s it w a s s u b s e q u e n t l y a l s o a p p l i e d to m a l e ( r i t u a l ) p r o s t i t u t e s , physiological h e r m a p h r o d it e s , c r o s s - d r e s s e r s o r t r a n s v e s t i t i e s , a n d , s o m e w h a t l e s s f r e q u e n t l y , to t h e a c t i v e m a l e p a r t n e r s o f t he o t h e r s s o d e s i g n a t e d . S i n c e t he a c t iv e p a r t n e r w a s n o t u s u a l l y c o n s i d e r e d h o m o s e x u a l , a l l h o m o s e x u a l i t y by m o d e r n d e f i n i t i o n s di d n o t c o n s t i t u t e b e r d a c h e h o o d ; n e i t h e r did all t r a n s v e s t i s m , s u c h as w o m e n wh o c r o s s - d r e s s e d a s m e n . T h e t e r m w a s f i n a l l y c l a r i f i e d to m e a n " a n i n d i v i d u a l o f a d e f i n i t e p h y s i o l o g i c a l s e x ( m a l e o r f e m a l e ) wh o a s s u m e s t h e r o l e a n d s t a t u s of t h e o p p o s i t e s e x , and w h o i s v i e w e d by t he c o m m u n i t y a s being of one se x p h y s i o l o g ic a ll y but as ha ving a s s u m e d t h e r o l e a n d s t a t u s of t he o p p o s i t e s e x ” ( A n g e l i o n and S h e d d 121-23, 125; cf. C o u r o u v e 18-19; F o r g e y 3; Hi l l I ' 9 3 5 ! 2 7 3 ) . T h e d i s t i n g u i s h i n g f e a t u r e s o f t he b e r d a c h e , in d e s c e n d i n g o r d e r of i m p o r t a n c e , w e r e t he e x c h a n g i n g of g e n d e r r o l e a n d a c t i v i t i e s , c r o s s d r e s s i n g , a n d ( i m plicit) h o m o s e x u a l i ty . I m p o r ta n t ly , w h e t h e r h o m o s e x u a l o r / a n d t r a n s v e s t i t e , t he b e r d a c h e w a s s o c i a l l y a c c e p t e d a n d h i s / h e r r o l e c u l t u r a l l y i n s t i t u t i o n a l i z e d by n a t i v e A m e r ic a n g r o u p s . M o re o v e r, an enhanced sp irituality w a s c o n s i s t e n t l y a s s o c i a t e d wi t h s u c h p e r s o n s and c u l tures.

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t h e s e g a y w r i t e r s to r e a l i z e t h a t g a y s c a n " h e l p s o c i e t y to b r i d g e t he g a p b e t w e e n t he m a s c u l i n e a n d t h e f e m i n i n e ’ a nd to u n d e r s t a n d t h e i r o w n t a s k a s w r i t e r s to be t h a t o f " r e m i n d [ i n g l ga ys of t h e i r t r u e , s p i r i t u a l fu n c tio n" ( W r i g h t a n d I n e s s e 84-86*, cf. W a l k e r 21; B o s w e l l 164). Be r d a c h e - l i k e p h e n o m e n a h a v e b e e n h i s t o r i c a l l y a s w e l l as g e o g r a p h i c a l ly u n i v e r s a l . A r t h u r E v a n s , f o r e x a m p l e c o n t e n d s t h a t t h e c o n n e c t i o n of s h a m a n i s m wi t h t r a n s v e s t i s m a n d " r i t u a l h o m o s e x u a l i t y " ( a m o n g b o t h m e n and w o m e n ) t h r i v e d in t he w e s t in a n c i e n t G r e e c e , a n d t h a t r e m n a n t s o f t h i s w e r e s t i l l e v i d e n t in P l a t o ' s d a y : [ C e r t a i n c h a r a c t e r i s t i c s o f f ’e S o c r a t i c m e t h o d of l e a r n i n g a r e . . . t y p i c a l of s h a m a n i s m : t he s e x u a l r e l a t i o n s h i p [ p a i d e r e s t i a ] b e t w e e n t e a c h e r and pu pi l; t he e m p h a s i s o n l e a r n i n g t h r o u g h p e r s o n a l o r a l c o m m u n i c a t i o n r a t h e r than th ro ugh b o o k s [ d i a l o g u e ] ; [ an d ] t h e a u r a of a d i v i n e b e i n g . ( E v a n s 36, cf. 1 7 , 3 2 f ; c f . C a r p e n t e r [ 191°J 168. 170; W a l k e r 20) . t h o u g h n a t i v e c u l t u r e s h a v e o f t e n e a s i l y e x p l a i n e d t he y t h o lo g i ca l o r i g i n s of the b e r d a c h e , s p e c u l a t i v e a n t h r o p o l o g i s t s h a v e s t r o n g l y d i s a g r e e d r e g a r d i n g t he s o c i o l o g i c a l / h i s to r i t a l o r i g i n s of s t u b p e r s o n s . As e a r l y a s 1910, E d w a r d C a r p e n t e r t h e o r i z e d t h a t t he b e r d a c h e e m e r g e d as d ev elo pi ng s o c i e t i e s p o l a r i z e d along g e n d e r l i n e s and a s s o c i a l r o l e s m u l t i p l i e d and d i f f e r e n t i a t e d . The b e r d a c h e o r i n t e r m e d i a t e re fle t ted n a tu r e s o c i e t i e s ' b e l i e f in a p r i m o r d i a l , c o s m i c o r p s y c h i c b i s e x u a l i t y ; f o r t h i s r e a s o n , t he b e r d a c h e w a s u n d e r s t o o d t o h a v e an e n h a n c e d s p i r i t u a l i t y and a e s t h e t i c s e n s i b i l i t y ( C a r p e n t e r [1910] 307, 309-11, 315-16, [ 19191 15, 1 5 , 5 8 - 5 9 , 6 2 - 6 3 , 8 2 , 170-73) Donald F o r g e y and Ge or g e D e v e r e u x c o n c u r wi t h C a r p e n t e r ' s s p e c u l a t i o n . Wh i l e F o r g e y c o n t e n d s t h a t , a m o n g p l a i n s I n d i a n s , " t he r o l e o f lx: r d a c h e ( w a s ] a c u l t u r a l l y con st it u ted d e f e n s e " and a "s o c i a l l y a p p ro v ed o u t l e t f o r t he [ m a l e ] i n d i v i d u a l wi t h a s t r o n g a v e r s i o n to the u l t r a m a s c u l i n e , " D e v e r e u x h a s s i m i l a r l y s u g g e s t e d t h a t t he d e v e l o p m e n t of the b e r d a c h e m a y have d e p e n d e d u p o n c o n s c i o u s r e j e c t i o n o f m a c h i s m o ( F o r g e y 1, 10; Do v e r e u x 517).

J o n a t h a n Katz a lso r e p o r t s e v id e n c e of ' s p e c i a l f r i e n d s h i p s ' am o n g e a r l y native A m e r i c a n s o c i e t i e s which , a l t h o u g h n o t i n v o l v i n g c r o s s - d r e s s i n g , w e r e r o m a n t i c , and whi ch w e r e c o m p a r a b l e in i n t e n s i t y , l o y a l t y , and l o n g e v i t y to t h o s e s a m e - s e x r e l a t i o n s h i p s o f t he a n c i e n t G r e e k s . Su c h r e l a t i o n s h i p s w e r e c o n s t a n t a n d i n d i s s o l u b l e , h e r o i c a n d c o u r a g e o u s ( Ka t z 4 3 4 - 3 6 , 4 5 6 - 5 7 , 4 6 9 - 7 0 ) . S u c h h o m o p h i l i c r e l a t i o n s h i p s d i d n o t v a n i s h w i t h t he e c l i p s e o f p l a t o n i c c u l t u r e . In p r e - C h r i s t i a n E u r o p e , r i t u a l t r a n s v e s t i s m w a s r e p o r t e d a s e a r l y a s the s i xt h c e n t u r y AD a n d w a s a s s o c i a t e d w i t h p a g a n h o l i d a y s i nto the n i n e t e e n t h c e n t u r y . In E n g l a n d f o r e x a m p l e , C e l t i c holidays " w e re c e l e b r a t e d with ri tu a l p r o m i s c u i t y " (Evans 1 1 - 1 2 , 2 1 , 5 9 ) . As h e r e s y w a s l i n k e d to h o m o s e x u a l i t y by the I n q u i s i t i o n , s o w a s g a y s e x a s s o c i a t e d w i t h w i t c h c r a f t in t h e l a t e m i d d l e a g e s . " L i k e t h e p a g a n s of a n t i q u i t y , [ s o - c a l l e d w i t c h e s ] did n ot m a k e a d i s t i n c t i o n b e t w e e n s e x a n d r e l i g i o n . F o r t h e m , s e x w a s o n e m a n i f e s t a t i o n of religious p o w e r" (Evans 77). T h i s i n s e p a r a b i l i t y o f s e x u a l i t y a n d s p i r i t u a l i t y is c r u c i a l f o r u n d e r s t a n d i n g the b e r d a c h e . T he r e d u c t i o n of s e x u a l i t y s o l e l y to i t s p r o c r e a t i v e f u n c t i o n b e t r a y s t he o n e - d i m e n si ona l d e v e l o p m e n t of w e s t e r n v a l u e s . Among n a tu re s o c i e t i e s , w h e r e ri tu a l t r a n s v e s t i s m and gay se x w e r e i n s e p a r a b l y l i n k e d to t he w o r s h i p of a n d r o g y n o u s d e i t i e s , s e x w a s f o r p l e a s u r e a n d t he s p i r i t u a l l e a d e r s in s u c h c u l t u r e s i n v o k e d a n d c o m m u n e d wi t h t he n u m i n o u s t h r o u g h dan cin g and "by o b l i t e r a t i n g o p p o s i t e s t h ro u g h t r a n c e , d r u g s a n d s e x , a n d by a p p e a r i n g in b o t h s e x e s s i m u l t a n e o u s l y " ( W a l k e r 2 0 , 8 6 ; E v a n s 107, 109) . S a y s E v a n s , " T h e i r o r g i e s w e r e a c t s o f s e x u a l w o r s h i p to t h e p o w e r of s e x t h e y f e l t in t h e m s e l v e s a n d in n a t u r e a r o u n d t h e m " ( E v a n s 109). S e x u a l i t y a n d s p i r i t u a l i t y w e r e w e d d e d in c u l t u r e s w h i c h s t i l l p e r c e i v e d t h e c o s m o s a s f e c u n d and dynamic. M oreover, freedom from procreative p ressure e n a b l e d t he c r e a t i v e u r g e to d e v e l o p e m o t i o n a l ( a r t a n d ritual), m ental (intellectual), o r spiritual (theological/ c o n t e m p l a t i v e ) c r e a t i o n s ( W r i g h t a n d I n e s s e 84). T h a t the b e r d a c h e p e r m e a t e d n a t i v e A m e r i c a p r i o r to the g e n o c i d a l e x p a n s i o n i s m a n d C h r i s t i a n i z a t i o n o f t he c o n ti n e n t is, t h u s , n e i t h e r an un e x p ec te d n o r an i so la te d p h e n o m e n o n . T h e b e r d a c h e m a y in f a c t be o u r b e s t e x a m p l e o f h o m o s e x u a l p e r s o n s who w e r e a b l e , t h r o u g h i n t e r a c t i o n wi t h one a n o t h e r , t h e i r c u l t u r e s , an d t h e i r s o c i e t i e s , to s y n t h e s i z e s u c c e s s f u l l y b o t h s e x u a l i t y and s p i r i t u a l i t y , f o r bo th p e r s o n a l and s o c i a l b e n e f i t . I n s o f a r a s the i n s t i t u t i o n o r c u l t u r a l r o l e o f the b e r d a c h e l inked t r a n s v e s t i s m , h o m o s e x u a l i t y , and s p i r i t u a l i t y , that h e r i t a g e is a n i n v a l u a b l e a n d t oo l o n g o v e r l o o k e d r e s o u r c e f o r g a y s t o d a y . P e n e t r a t i n g t he o f t i m e s b i a s e d r e p o r t s of s y m p a t h e t i c a s w e l l a s h o m o p h o b i c ( w h i t e , m a l e , C h r i s t i a n ) o b s e r v e r s i s o n e m e a n s f o r d i s c o v e r i n g and e va l u a t i n g th at s p i r i t u a l r e s o u r c e a s well a s for en ha n c in g o u r u n d e r s t a n d i n g s of o u r own s p i r i t u a l n e e d s and c a p a c i t i e s a s g a y p e r s o n s . E n r o u t e , we r e d i s c o v e r b o t h the an d r o g y n o u s n u m in o u s and o u r own s a c r e d depth.

In s h a r p c o n t r a s t , h o w e v e r , J a m e s T h a y e r , R o b e r t M u n r o e a n d o t h e r s r e j e c t b o t he t h e e x p l a n a t i o n t h a t s h a r p s e x - r o l e d i s t i n c t i o n s n e c e s s i t a t e d the e m e r g e n c e of " i n t e r m e d i a t e s ' a s w e l l a s the r e d u c t i o n o f t h e b e r d a c h e to m a t t e r s o f t h e i r s e x u a l i t y , whic h r e d u c t i o n i g n o r e s o t h e r a s p e c t s o f t h e i r r o l e s and s t a t u s ( T h a y e r 288; M o n r o e e t a l . 8 8 ). M o n r o e eT a l . a r e a d a m a n t o n t h i s s c o r e : " S o c i e t i e s t h a t m a x i m i z e s e x d i s t i n c t i o n s will no t h a v e [ a n y b e r d a c h e ] ; c o n v e r s e l y , soc i e t i e s t h a t m a k e m i n i m u m o s e o f s e x a s a d i s c r i m i n a t i n g f a c t o r in p r e s c r i b i n g b e h a v i o r . . . wi l l h a v e ( b e r d a c h e ( M o n r o e e t al_. 88, my e m p h a s i s ) . T h a y e r m u s t n e v e r t h e l e s s concede t h e i n f l u e n c e o f g e n d e r s y m b o l s a n d r o l e s u|x>n t h o s e a d o l e s c e n t s who wo u l d become: tlx: n e x t g e n e r a t i o n of be r d a c h e : In t he c o m m o n f o r m o f the (sac r e d ) d r e a m t h e r e w a s a c l e a r d i c h o t o m y p r e s e n t e d b e t w e e n t he m a s c u l i n e p r i n c i ple ( r e p r e s e n t e d by i n s t r u m e n t s of w a r a n d h u n t i n g ) a n d t h e f e m i n i n e p r i n c i p l e (the m o o n ) ; in t he c o u r s e o f t h e d r e a m the y o u n g m a n c h o s e the m o o n o r f e m i n i e s y m b o l s , a n d t h u s t o o k o n the life of t h e b e r d a c h e . ( T h a y e r 2 8 9 ) T h e m y t h o l o g y i t s e l f o f m a n y n a t i v e A m e r i c a n g r o u p s is r e p l e t e w i t h b e r d a c h e l o r e . C f t e n the c r e a t i o n m y t h s e i t h e r a s s u m e o r e x p l a i n h o m o s e x u a l i t y a s a g i v e n in h u m a n - an d spi r i t u a l - - e x i s t e n c e . H o m o s e x u a l i t y and b e r d a c h e i n i t i a t i o n r i t e s a r e m e n t i o n e d , f o r e x a m p l e , in t he c r e a t i o n m y t h s o f b o t h t he M o h a v e and M a r i c o p a t r i b e s , i n d i c a t i n g t h a t h o m o s e x u a l s a n d s h a m a n s (N. B. : homosexual s h a m a n ) w e r e i n s t i t u t e d " f r o m t he b e g i n n i n g of the w o r l d " a n d w e r e ( d i v i n e l y ) i n t e n d e d to be a s t h e y a r e ( D e v e r e u x 5 0 1 , 5 0 3 , 5 0 7 , 5 2 6 ) . C f t e n t he b e r d a c h e a r e s y m b o l i z e d by a m y t h i c a l i n d i v i d u a l r a t h e r t h a n d e s c r i b e d a s a g r o u p . In W i n n e b a g o l o r e f o r e x a m p l e , t he p r a n k i s h T r i c k s t e r ( c o y o t e , o r s h a p e - s h i f t e r ) w a s a s s o c i a t e d wi t h t r a n s v e s t i s m ( Ke n n y 17).

T h e m y t h i c a l d i v i n i t y a n d h e r o i s m o f t h e b e r d a c h e is p o r t r a y e d in d e t a i l in o n e v e r s i o n of N a v a h o m y t h . T h e b e r d a c h e is n o t o n l y d e s c r i b e d

in d i s g r a c e ( L u r i e 711). H e n r y A n g e l i n o a n d C h a r l e s Sh e d d h a v e a l s o n o t e d t h e o c c a s i o n a l , p u n i t i v e ' e m a s c u l a t i o n ' of p r i s o n e r s a n d o t h e r m a l e s " b y t h e a s s i g n m e n t o f f e m i n i n e a t t i r e a n d f e m i n i n e p u r s u i t s " ( An g e l i n o a n d S h e e d 122).

T h e m y t h i c a l d i v i n i t y a n d h e r o i s m o f t h e b e r d a c h e is p o r t r a y e d i n d e t a i l in o n e v e r s i o n o f N a v a h o m y t h . T h e b e r d a c h e is n o t o n l y d e s c r i b e d a s a n a n d r o g y n o u s s a v i o r , but a l s o a s a b a l a n c e r o f s k y ( a s s u n b e a r e r ) a n d e a r t h ( i n s o f a r a s b i s e x u a l i t y w a s a s s o c i a t e d wi t h t he u n d e r w o r l d and d e a t h ; i . e . , wi th a r e t u r n to the p r i m o r d i a l , p r e c r e a t e d , p r e b ir t h state): In t h e N a v a h o m y t h s a m a l e h e r m a p h r o d i t e , T u r q u o i s e Bo y , p l a y e d a s i g n i f i c a n t r o l e in t h e C r e a t i o n . He b e c a m e m a s c u l i n e and w a s k n ow n a s the B e a r e r o f t h e S u n [ but ] w h i l e s t i l l a h e r m a p h r o d i t e , T u r q u o i s e Boy s a v e d t h e a n c i e n t N a v a h o f r o m t he a n g r y W a t e r Buf falo wh o s t oo d in t h e i r w a y b e t w e e n e v o l v i n g f r o m t he f o u r t h to t h e f i f t h a n d f i n a l w o r l d . ( Ke n n y 16) T h e i r o r i g i n [ w a s ] i n t he f o u r t h w o r l d a n d . . . t h e y w e n t w i t h t he m e n w h e n t h e s e x e s s e p a r a t e d . As the f i r s t h e r m a p h r o d i t e w a s a l s o t he f i r s t p e r s o n t o d i e a n d w a s s e e n a t t he p l a c e o f e m e r g e n c e , [he i s a l s o ] a s s o c i a t e d w i t h d e a t h . ( R e i c h a r d 140, cf. 141) S e l e c t io n for b e r d a c h e h o o d was a ls o a s s o c i a t e d with m y th i c fate o r d e s t in y . Such s e l e c t i o n wa s o ft en r e v e a l e d by d r e a m s in w h i c h t h e m o o n o r o t h e r f e m i n i n e s y m b o l s w e r e p r i m a r y (cf. T h a y e r 2 8 9 ; C a r p e n t e r [1910] 304) . A m o n g the M o h a v e f o r e x a m p l e , h o m o s e x u a l i t y w a s b e l i e v e d p r e d e t e r m i n e d i n t he w o m b a c c o r d i n g to t he m o t h e r ' s d r e a m s . H o m o s e x u a l t e n d e n c i e s a m o n g the r e s u l t a n t young w e r e e x p e c t e d to a p p e a r p r i o r to the n o r m a l p u b e r t y r i t u a l s , in w h i c h c a s e t he y o u t h w a s t a t o o e d a s a m e m b e r of t he o p p o s i t e s e x ( D e v e r e u x 5 0 1 , 5 0 3 , 5 0 7 ) . Wh i l e f a m i l i a l a n d t r i b a l r e s p o n s e s r a n g e d f r o m d i s c o u r a g e m e n t to e n c o u r a g e m e n t o f b e r d a c h e t e n d e n c i e s , these cultures consistently recognized em erging hom o s e x u a l i t y a s a s p e c i a l d e s t i n y , a c c e p t e d t he b e r d a c h e wi t h r e s i g n a t i o n , a n d i n s i s t e d t h a t if i n c l i n a t i o n t o w a r d h o m o s e x u a l i t y c o u l d not be d i s s u a d e d , t h e n a t o t a l ' c h a n g e of s e x e s ( t . e . , g e n d e r r o l e s ) was m o s t a p p r o p r i a t e . T r a n s v e s t i s m and b e r d a c h e initi ati on r i tu a l s thus " s a n c t i on( e f l ) t h e i n e v i t a b l e ; " d e m a n d e d a p p r o p r i a t e , o p e n l y g a y b e h a v i o r ( a s o p p o s e d to h y p r o c r i s y a n d s e c r e c y ) ; a n d r e i t e r a t e d t h e b e l i e f in a l u n a r g o d d e s s ' s e l e c t i o n of the b e r d a c h e a s h e r s p o k e s p e r s o n ( D e v e r e u x 5 0 3 - 5 , 5 2 0 ; C a r p e n t e r [1910] 306; W h i t e h e a d 8 6 ). H a r r ie t Whitehead has d e sc rib e d this so c io -m y th ic phen o m e n o n a s t h e p r i n c i p l e of ' e x t r a s o c i e t a l d e s t i n y , ' t h a t i n d i v i d u a l d i f f e r e n c e s a n d i d i o s y n c r a c i e s , like c a r e e r s a n d t r i b a l r o l e s , w e r e r a t i o n a l i z e d a s f a t e o r a s t he c h o i c e s of t h e s u p e r n a t u r a l , w h i c h e n a b l e d s o c i a l r e s i g n a t i o n a n d a c c e p t a n c e o f t h o s e w h o d i f f e r e d f r o m t he m a jority (Whitehead 99-102). Most im portantly for contem p o r a r y g a y s , t he s o c i a l , s p i r i t u a l , a n d r e l i g i o u s / m y t h o l o g i c a l c o n t e x t o f t h e be r d a c h e h o o d d i d n o t i n s i s t u p o n r i g o u r o u s d e n i a l a n d / o r c o n f o r m i t y , but r a t h e r p r o v i d e d a m e a n s f o r the a c c e p t a n c e , i n t e g r a t i o n , and e v e n r i t u a l c e l e b r a t i o n of a v a r i e t y o f h u m a n g e n d e r r o l e s a n d s e x u a d i f fe re n e e s . AH e x p l a n a t i o n s of b e r d a c h e o r i g i n s a r e not a s t h o r o u g h l y pos itive o r as p e r m e a t e d with m yth ology, although mythic e l e m e n t s d o r e m a i n in t h e s e ' s e c u l a r i z e d ' l e g i o n s . A m o n g t he W i n n e b a g o f o r e x a m p l e , t h e o r i g i n o f t he b e r d a c h e d e p e n d e d u p o n a c a p t u r e d S i o u x c h i e f . Up o n h i s c a p t u r e , t he o n l y a v a i l a b l e m e m b e r s o f t h e W i n n e b a g o c l a n r e s p o n s i b l e t o r p r i s o n e r s , who w e r e no t t h e m s e l v e s i n v o l v e d in b a t t l e , w e r e a boy a n d h i s g r a n d m o t h e r . S p e a k i n g f o r the m i n o r m a l e , s h e d e c r e e d t h a t the c a p t i v e c h i e f c o u l d live f r e e and u n h a r m e d he a s s u m e d f e m a l e c l o t h i n g , w o r k , and b e h a v i o r . T he c h i e f t hu s b e c a m e the f i r s t b e r d a c h e ; s u b s e q u e n t ly , o t h e r Winnebago m e n " d r e s s e d and acted l i k e w o m e n b e c a u s e t h e y h a d b e e n t o l d to do so by t h e m o o n . " T h e m y t h i c i m p l i c a t i o n is t h a t t h e f e m i n i n e m o o n w a s the d e i f i e d , o r i g i n a l g r a n d m o t h e r , now a c t i n g a s g o d d e s s ( L u r i e 710), A n o t h e r W i n n e b a g o l e g e n d d e s c r i b e s t h e a p p a r e n t l y s o l e r e t u r n i n g s u r v i v o r o f an a m b u s h wh o c l a i m e d to h a v e c o m m i t t e d h e r o i c d e e d s and was th usl y ho n o re d . When his a c tu al c o w a rd i c e was r e v e a l e d by a n o t h e r , l a t e r r e t u r n i n g , s u r v i v o r , t he f o r m e r w a s f o r c e d t o a s s u m e a f e m a l e r o l e a nd t o l ive

A d i s t in c t io n thus e m e r g e s which in d ic a te s not only a b a l a n c e o f s e x u a l f o r c e s ( a n d r o g y n y ) in t h e i n s t i t u t i o n of t h e b e r d a c h e , bu t a l s o a b a l a n c e of t h e s a c r e d ( e x a l t a t i o n of t r u e b e r d a c h e ) and t h e p r o f a n e ( d e b a s e m e n t of e m a s c u l a t e d p r i s o n e r s , e t c . ). D i v i n e s e l e c t i o n f o r a g e n d e r r o l e c h a n g e e x a l t s t he f e m i n i n e a t t r i b u t e s w h i l e t h o s e s a m e a t t r i b u t e s a r e a h u m i l i a t i o n wh e n f o r c e d upon a m a l e : "In t h e c a s e of a t r u e b e r d a c h e , t he p e r s o n h e l d a n h o n o r e d a n d r e s p e c t e d p o s i t i o n in t h e s o c i e t y , w h i l e a m a n who w a s f o r c e d to t a k e o n a f e m i n i n e r o l e w i t h o u t b e n e f i t o f a b l e s s i n g by t he m o o n w a s d i s g r a c e d a n d d i s h o n o r e d " ( L u r i e d 712). O verall, native mythologies recognized that h o m o se x u a li ty and b i s e x u a l i t y a r e c o e q u a l in t i m e w i t h h e t e r o s e x u a l i t y. Ga y m e n a n d w o m e n h a v e e x i s t e d s i n c e p r i m o r d i a l tim e. M o r e o v e r , these mythologies e spoused androgyny, b a l a n c e d t he s a c r e d a n d t he p r o f a n e , a n d e n a b l e d t h e i r s o c i e t i e s to r e c o g n i z e a n d to a c c e p t t h o s e w h o w e r e d i f f e r e n t . Not o n l y w e r e t h e b e r d a c h e a c c e p t e d , t h e i r v e r y d i f f e r e n c e e n h a n c e d t h e i r o w n s p i r i t u a l c a p a c i t i e s a n d l ed t h e i r c u l t u r e s to s e e t h e m a s m a g i c a l a n d s p i r i t u a l l e a d e r s . The da ily c h a r a c t e r i s t i c s , r o l e s , s t a t u s , and r i t u a l s o f t he b e r d a c h e w e r e t h u s a l s o a s s o c i a t e d w i t h s p i r i tuality.

fS*h<ffoik ^he e m e r g e n c e o f s e x u a l i t y a n d g e n d e r d i f f e r e n t i a t i o n d u r i n g p u b e r t y w a s the c r i t i c a l p e r i o d f o r d e t e r m i n i n g a yout h s f u t u r e b e r d a c h e s t a t u s . P s y c h o - m y t h o l o g i c a l l y , >e l e c t i o n f o r b e r d a c h e h o o d d e p e n d e d u p o n d r e a m s o r v i s i o n s w h e r e i n the f e m i n i n e m o o n d e s i g n a t e d t he m a l e c h i l d , a s a m o n g t he C m a h a , S i o u x , a n d W i n n e b a g o , o r w h e r e i n t r a n s v e s t i t e s o r h e r m a p h r o d i t i c buffalo cows sym bolically foreshadow ed a m a l e 's destiny, as among t he C g l a l a Si o u x ( F o r g e y 6 ; L u r i e 708; T h a y e r 2 8 9 ; P o w e r s 581 S e c u l a r l y , s e l e c t i o n c o u l d d e p e n d n o t u p o n t he y o u t h , but u p o n t h e d e c i s i o n of t r i b a l a d u l t s : " S o m e t r i b e s , s u c h a s t h e I l l i n o i s , a c t u a l l y t r a i n e d y o u n g m e n to b e c o m e h o m o s e x u a l s a n d c o n c u b i n e s o f m e n " ( Ke n n y 17). W h e t h e r s e l e c t e d by m v t h o l o g i c a l o r s e c u l a r m e a n s , t h e y o u n g b e r d a c h e ' s b u r g e o n i n g h o m o s e x u a l i t y w a s a c c e p t e d but d e e m p h a s i z e d . G e n d e r role was r a t h e r p r i m a r y and t e s t s c f the v a l i d i t y of v i s i o n s o r s e l e c t i o n e m p l o y e d g e n d e r s p e c i f i c i m p l e m e n t s whi ch p o s e d o c c u p a t i o n a l , r a t h e r t han se x u a l, a l t e r n a t i v e s . E v en t r a n s v e s t i s m and e f fe m in a c y w e r e s e c o n d a r y to g e n d e r o c c u p a t i o n , a l t h o u g h u l t i m a t e l y

" t h e two ' s o c i a l ' c r i t e r i a , w o r k a n d e x p o r i e n c e , w e r e m u t u a l l y r e i n f o r c i n g ' ( W h i t e h e a d 8 1 - 8 8 , 90; cf. A n g e l i n o and S h e e d 122; F o r g e y 2 - 3 ; S t e w a r t 13).

I il>35 23 5; H o e b e l 77; P o w e r s SB; T h a y e r 291). T h e y w e r e " e x c e p t i o n a l l y i n d u s t r i o u s w i v e s " and w e r e a ll o w e d p r e s t i g e t h r o u g h a c h i e v i n g e x c e l l e n c e o f s k i l l in f e m a l e t a s k s ( D e v e r e u x 513; F o r g e y 10). I n d e e d , t he b e r d a c h e ' s p h y s i o l o g i c a l m a l e n e s s - - h i s p o t e n t i a l f o r s t r e n g t h and his f r e e d o m f r o m m e n s t r u a t i o n , p r e g n a e y , and child c a r e - - c o n t r i b u t e d to h i s e x c e p t i o n a l p r o d u c t i v i t y in f e m a l e o c c u p a t i o n s ( C a l l e n d a r a n d K o s h e m s 454) . A l t h o u g h f e m a l e o c c u p a t i o n s he ld an i m p o r t a n t l e ve l of p r e s t i g e on t h e i r o w n in n a t i v e c u l t u r e s , o f t e n a p r e s t i g e c o - e q u a l wi t h t h a t o f m a l e o c c u p a t i o n s ( W i l l i a m s , p e r s o n a l c o m munication), Whitehead, and C a r p e n te r d e ca d es e a r l i e r , h a v e i n s i s t e d t h a t t he m a l e b e r d a c h e ' s m o v e m e n t i nto t he fe male s p h e r e was a v o lu n ta ry r en u n ciatio n of m a c h i s m o and m a l e s o c i a l s t a t u s , a r e u n c i a t i o n w h i c h i m p o r t a n t l y e l i c i t e d r e s p e c t f o r t he b e r d a c h e ( W h i t e h e a d 8 6 , 1 0 6 - 8 , 111; C a r p e n t e r [ 1919] 22).

S e l e c t i o n f o r b e r d a c h e h o o d w a s u s u a l l y f o l l o w e d by a n i n s t i t u t i o n a l i z e d r i t u a l w h i c h c o n s e c r a t e d o r i n i t i a t e d the b e r d a c h e i nto h i s / h e r n e w s o c i o - s p i r i t u a l r o l e (cf. G u e r r a 109, 124) . D e v e r e u x d e l i n e a t e s t h r e e t r i b a l l y v a r i e d i n i t i a t i o n r i t u a l s . In t he f i r s t , t r i b a l m e n wo v e a b a r k s k i r t w h i c h w a s p a s s e d to t wo w o m e n . T h e y o u n g ( m a l e ) b e r d a c h e r e c e i v e d the s k i r t a f t e r a c e r e m o n i a l b a t hi n g . A s h a m a n i c c h a n t t h en a d d r e s s e d the t r a n s v e s t i t e , r e c a l l i n g the god who o r d a i n e d the f i r s t s u c h c e r e m o n y . In t he s e c o n d , t h e s k i r t w a s m a d e by w o m e n . T h e s h a m a n i c s i n g e r e x p l a i n e d t h e i m p o r t a n c e o f f e m a l e a t t i r e wh i l e t he y o u t h d a n c e d . F o l l o w i n g a c e r e m o n i a l b a t h i n g , t he y o u t h w a s d r e s s e d a s a w o m a n . In the t h i r d a n d m e r e e l a b o r a t e r i t u a l , t h e b e r d a c h e ' s r e l a t i v e s p r e p a r e d the f e m a l e a t t i r e in s e c r e t (to s u r p r i s e t he y o u t h a n d to t e s t h i s i n c l i n a t i o n ) a n d f o r m a l l y i n v i t e d t h e i r t r i b e s m e n a nd w o m e n to a c c u s t o m t h e m to the c h i l d ' s c h a n g e . If the y o u t h a c q u i e s c e d to t h e s u r p r i s e p r e s e n t a t i o n of t he s k i r t and j o i n e d t h e d a n c e , s u b m i s s i o n to b e r d a c h e h o o d w a s a c k n o w l e d g e d . A f t e r t h e f o u r t h r o u n d of d a n c i n g , he w a s p r o c l a i m e d a h o m o s e x u a l , b a t h e d , and d r e s s e d a s a f e m a l e . A s i m i l a r e x c h a n g e of g e n d e r d r e s s a n d a p a r a l l e l ritua l da nc e and bathing initiated gay w om e n ( D ev ere ux 506-8).

Although r e p o r t e d att itu des range f r o m n e u t r a l t o le r a n c e to g r e a t e s t e e m , c e r t a i n l y the " s t a t u s of b e r d a c h e w a s no t c o n s i d e r e d m o r a l l y d i s g u s t i n g . " R a t h e r , t h i s ( p r i m a r i l y m a l e ) i n s t i t u t i o n e n a b l e d the t r a n s v e s t i t e a n d / o r t h e h o m o s e x u a l to " a c h i e v e s o c i e t a l r e c o g n i t i o n a n d a c c e p t a n c e " wh i l e p r e v e n t i n g h i s b e i n g p e r s e c u t e d f o r b e ing d i f f e r e n t ( F o r g e y 1 , 3; D e v e r e u x 520) . T h e b e r d a c h e w a s in f a c t e x a l t e d by h i s s o c i e t y a s s i m u l t a n e o u s l y p r o f a n e ( s e x u a l l y d i f f e r e n t ) a n d s a c r e d (cf. P o w e r s 58). I n d e e d , t he m a l e b e r d a c h e s h o w e d a s m u c h a p t i t u d e fo r a h a m a n i s t i c d u t ie s as for fe m a le d u t ie s ; although ri tua l p r a c t i c e s w e r e no t s e t a s i d e f o r t h e m , t h e y d i d o f t e n e m e r g e , o r w e r e s e l e c t e d , a s s h a m a n s (Hill [ l 9 1 6 | 2 75) . W»th c e r t a i n t r i b a l v a r i a t i o n s b e r d a c h e w e r e m e d i c a l l y s k i l l e d a s d o c t o r s ; w e r e b e l i e v e d a ble to c u r e s y p h i l i s ( s i n c e t h e y w e r e s o l u c k y in a t t r a c t i n g s a m e - s e x m a t e s ) ; w e r e s o u g h t o u t f o r l ove p o t i o n s f o r t he y o u n g ; w e r e r e sp o n s ib l e for f u n e r a r y a r r a n g e m e n t s and co nducted b u r i a l r i t u a l s ; a n d . w e r e e x p e c t e d to i n t e r p r e t d r e a m s a n d to f o r e t e l l t he f u t u r e ( C a l l e n d a r a n d K o c h e m s 4 5 3 ; C a r p e n t e r | (919] 1 7 , 5 6 ; D e v e r e u x 5 1 6 , 5 2 3 , 5 2 5 ; H o e b e l 77; L u r i e 70 8 ; T h a y e r 291).

T h e r i t u a l b a t h i n g a n d d a n c e is a s p o w e r f u l a s y m l x i l a s t h a t of t he e x c h a n g e o f g e n d e r a p p a r e l . T h e y o u t h w a s r i t u a l l y b a p t i z e d and r e b o r n - - i n t o h o m o s e x u a l i t y . I he ritual ba ptism neither c rea te d nor provoked a youth's s e x u a l and s o c i a l ' c h a n g e , ' but w a s , r a t h e r , a " t e s t a n d p u b l i c a c k n o w l e d g e m e n t o f t h e s h i f t f r o m o n e s e x t o t he o t h e r . " Foll owi ng this pu b lic , r i tu a l iz e d 'c o m i n g out, no r e v e r s a l t o a n a t o m i c a l g e n d e r r o l e s w a s p o s s i b l e ; o n e was p e r m a n e n t l y e s t a b l i s h e d and a c c e p t e d as a b e r d a c h e ( D e v e r e u x 509) . W h i t e h e a d a n d o t h e r s h a v e a r g u e d , h o w e v e r, that although a male youth's passive homosexual tendencies were thus se e m in g ly made public, his h o m o s e x u a l i t y w a s i m m e d i a t e l y r e s u b m e r g e d a n d v e i l e d by the so c i al l y m a n i p u l a t e d ch ang e of g e n d e r r o l e s and a t t i r e . S e x u a l o b j e c t c h o i c e w a s a l w a y s s e c o n d a r y to g e n d e r role; a m a l e 's inclination toward female activities o r a f e m a le 's inclination toward m ale p u r s u its were d e t e r m i n a t i v e a c c o r d i n g to t h i s t h e o r y ( W n i t e h e a d 9 5 - 9 7 , 1 1 0 ) .

Not u n c o m m o n l y , t he b e r d a c h e ' s s e x u a l f r e e d o m and p r o t e c t i o n w e r e f u s e d wi t h h i s s h a m a n i s t i i s t a t u s , a f u s i o n w h i c h u n d e r l a y s a c r e d m a l e p r o s t i t u t i o n in t h o s e t r i b e s w h i c h b e l i e v e d t h a t s e x u a l i n t e r c o u r s e wi t h a b e r d a c h e w a s o n e m e a n s f o r a p p r o a c h i n g the d i v i n e n a t u r e : " M e n a n d w o m e n who imjx* r s o n a t e d s e x u a l d e i t i e s w e r e l i t e r a l l y t h o u g h t t o b e c o m e t h e m , a n d h a v i n g s e x wi t h t h e s e p e o p l e w a s v i e w e d a s t he h i g h e s t a n d m o s t t a n g i b l e f o r m o f r e l i g i o u s c o m m u n i o n w i t h t he d e i t y " ( E v a n s 105, 110). T h o s e b e r d a c h e r i t u a l s w h i c h i n c l u d e d r i t u a l h o m o s e x u a l a c t s " w e r e j o y o u s c e l e b r a t i o n t h o u g h t to m a k e b o t h t h e t r i b e a n d n a t u r e p r o s p e r . " Not " f e r t i l i t y r i t e s ” t o m a n i p u l a t e n a t u r e (a w e s t e r n , p r o d u c t i o n o r i e n t e d co n cep t), these celeb ra tio n s w ere r a th e r a c o - p a r t n e r e d s h a r i n g in c o s m i c s e x u a l i t y , in t he f e c u n d , c r e a t i v e e n e r g y w h i c h p e r m e a t e s t h e c o s m o s f E v a n s 102, 109).

Ga y s c h o l a r s a n d w r i t e r s , h o w e v e r , a r e u n w i l l i n g to a c c e p t s u c h t h e o r e t i c a l l y c o n v e n i e n t h e t e r o s e x u a l i z i n g , and h e n c e t r i v i a l i z i n g a n d d i s m i s s a l , of t he h o m o s e x u a l i t y of the b e r d a c h e o r of t h e i r p a r t n e r s . K a t z d e c r i e s the " e r r o r of p e r c e p t i o n " o n t he p a r t of h e t e r o s e x u a l a n t h r o p o l o g y w h i c h f a i l s , " i n v i r t u a l l y e v e r y r e p o r t of a b e r d a c h e , to d i s c u s s t he horru s e x u a l i t y o f the b e r d a c h e ' s n o n - c r o s s - d r e s s i n g p a r t n e r s . T rib a l attitudes toward a n d t he c h a r a c t e r of t h i s n o n - b e r d a c h e p a r t n e r a r e p a s s e d o v e r in s i l e n c e " ( Ka t z 4 2 4 ) . C ne e x c e p t i o n to t h i s h o m o p h o b i c p a t t e r n , F o r g e y h a s r e a l i z e d t h a t t he b e r d a c h e a l s o provided a culturally instituted outlet for hom osexuality g e n e r a l l y , w h e t h e r t h a t o f t h e b e r d a c h e h i m s e l f o r of h i s p a r t n e r s ( F o r g e y 10). C f t e n a v o i d i n g the s e x u a l i m p l i c a t i o n s , o t h e r r e p o r t e r s h a ve a c k n o w l e d g e d t h at the b e r d a c h e in m a n y t r i b e s w e r e e i t h e r w i v e s , ' s e c o n d w i v e s , ' c o n c u b i n e s , o r p r o s t i t u t e s f o r o t h e r m e n ( H o e b e l 77; I u r i e 708, 710; F o r g e y 4 , 1 0 ; cf. D e v e r e u x 5 0 0 - 2 , 5 1 0 - 1 3 ) . In f a c t , a y o u t h wh o b e c a m e a w a r e o f h i s h o m o s e x u a l i t y ( who m a n i f e s t e d p a s s i v i t y , e f f e m i n a n c y , o r t r a n s v e s t i s m ’ at an e a r l y a g e w o u l d b e c o m e a b e r d a c h e ; a l at e b l o o m e r , h o w e v e r , c ould m a i n t a i n hi s m a c h i s m o and ' h e t e r o s e x u a l ' m a l e s t a t u s while n e v e r t h e l e s s s a t is f y in g his h o m o s e x u a l n e e d s by t a k i n g a b e r d a c h e t o w i f e . No d o u b t p a s s i v e and a g r e s s i v e r o l e s w e r e a l t e r n a t e d in t h e p r i v a c y o f s u c h c o u p l i n g s ; the h e t e r o s e x u a l v e n e e r w a s i nd ee d thin.

T h e b e r d a c h e w e r e a l s o c o n s i d e r e d b l e s s i n g s in o t h e r a r e a s of t r i b a l l i f e . T h e M o h a v e , f o r e x a m p l e , b e l i e v e d t h e b e r d a c h e b r o u g h t g o o d f o r t u n e to g a m b l i n g ( D e v e r e u x 506,516). The Navaho s p e c if i c a l ly a s s o c i a t e d b e r d a c h e wi t h w e a l t h . A f a m i l y w i t h a c h i l d who w o u l d becom e a b e r d a c h e c oul d a n t i c i p a t e good f o r t u n e and r i c h e s ; t h e r e w e re e v e n b e r d a c h e - r e l a t e d p r a y e r s for wealth. Sym b o l i c a l l y p a r a l l e l , h e r m a p h r o d i t i c s h e e p and g o a t s w e r e s p a r e d s l a u g h t e r by t h e N a v a h o s i n c e t h e i r p r e s e n c e w o u l d , it w a s b e l i e v e d , i n c r e a s e t he f l o c k s (Hill [1935] 2 7 8 , 2 7 4 n ) . The e n h a n c e d s p i r i t u a l d e p t h , i n s i g h t , a nd f o r e s i g h t , a s we l l a s t h e a s s u m e d , m a g i c a l g o o d l uc k , o f t he b e r d a c h e a l s o m a d e t h e m v a l u a b l e to t r i b a l p l a n n i n g a n d p o l i t i c s . C a r p e n t e r r e p o r t e d t h a t , a m o n g the I l l i n o i s , " t h e y [ w e r e ) c a l l e d i nt o t he c o u n c i l s of t he I n d i a n s , a n d n o t h i n g [ c o u l d I be d e c i d e d w i t h o u t t h e i r a d v i c e ; f o r b e c a u s e o f t h e i r e x t r a o r d i n a r y m a n n e r o f l iv i n g t h e y w e r e ] looked upon a s . . . s u p e r n a t u r a l be in g s, and p e r s o n s o f c o n s e q u e n c e " ( C a r p e n t e r [ 19101 30 4 , f ' 9 ! 9 ] 2 2 , . f. 2 4 - 2 5 ) .

M a t t e r s o f s e x u a l i t y a s i d e , t he m a l e b e r d a c h e di d a s s u m e t h e s o c i a l , l e g a l , a n d p o l i t i c a l s t a t u s of w o m e n . T h e y w o r k e d in f e m a l e o c c u p a t i o n s a s c r a f t s p e r s o n s , m e d i a t o r s and g o - b e t w e e n s ( p e a c e m a k e r s and m a t c h m a k e r s ) , and t h e n a m e r s of c h i l d r e n . A m o n g t h e N a v a h o t he y w e r e e v e n b a r r e d f r o m w a r a n d h u n t i n g a s if t h e y h a d a l s o a s s u m e d t he f e m a l e m e n s t r u a l t a b o o ( D e v e r e u x 513; Hi l l

A l t h o u g h a f e w t r i b e s l ike t he N a v a h o f o r b a d e b e r d a c h e i n v o l v e m e n t in m a l e p u r s u i t s s u c h a s h u n t i n g a n d w a r b e c a u s e o f t he m e n s t r u a l / b l o o d t a b o o s a p p l i e d to t h e m a s ' w o m e n ' (Hi l l 119351 2 7 5 ) . o t h e r s s u c h a s t he D a k o t a a n d

C h e y e n n e i n c l u d e d b e r d a c h e in w a r r i o r a c t i v i t i e s . T h e D a k o t a b e l i e v e d the b e r d a c h e g a i n e d p e r s o n a l a n d p r o phetic: p o w e r a s a n e x c h a n g e f o r b e i n g d i f f e r e n t wh i l e the C h e y e n n e b e l i e v e d t h a t , i n s o f a r a s the b e r d a c h e had r e l i n q u i s h e d a c t i v e m a l e s e x u a l i t y , he h a d a s t o r e of ’p s y c h o l o g i c a l p o t e n t i a l ’ f o r u n r e l e a s e d v i r i l i t y to b r i n g into battle;; t h e i r p r e s e n c e o n w a r p a r t i e s w a s d e s i r e d f o r t h i s r e a s o n ( F o r g e y 4 - 5 ; H a e b e l 77). B e c a u s e the: w a r r i o r s t h u s b e l i e v e d the b e r d a c h e ’s p o w e r w a s r e s p o n s i b l e f o r v i c t o r y , s c a l p s w e r e p l a c e d in t h e i r c u s t o d y ( Ho e b c l 77; K e n n y 17), E A d a m s o n H o e b e l h a s r e c o r d e d t he f i ve p a r t s o f the s c a l p d a n c e , a s o c i a l d a n c e a r o u n d a b o n f i r e , d i r e c t e d by a b e r d a c h e . D u r i n g t he f i r s t s t a g e , the ’c o u r t s h i p ’ o r ’ s w e e t h e a r t d a n c e ’ , t h e b e r d a c h e d a n c e d w h i l e w a v i n g the n e w l y a c q u i r e d sc a l p s . D u r i n g the s e c o n d s t a g e o r ’m a t c h m a k i n g d a n c e ’ , t he b e r d a c h e w o u l d p a i r b o y s a n d g i r l s , m e n wi t h w o m e n , in t h e t h i r d and f o u r t h s t a g e s , the ’r o u n d d a n c e ’ a n d t he ’s l i p p e r y d a n c e ’ , m a l e s w o u l d c l a i m t h e i r f e m a l e s a n d f e m a l e s wo u l d c l a i m t h e i r m a l e s in t u r n . T h i s w a s d i r e c t e d by t h e b e r d a c h e who c a l l e d f o r the s h i f t s o r t u r n s t o o c c u r . T h e f i nal s t a g e o r ’g a l l o p i n g b u f f a l o bul l d a n c e ’ s i g n i f i e d t he " c u l m i n a t i o n o f c o u r t s h i p a n d m a t i n g " a n d u n i t e d t he wh o l e c o m m u n i t y in a n i n t e r g e n e r a t i o n a l d a n c e . W h o l l y d i r e c t e d by the b e r d a c h e , the s c a l p da n c e was both a c e l e b r a t i o n of v i c t o r y and a r itu a l f o r c o u r t s h i p , a n d e m b o d i m e n t of the b e l i e f in a r e l a t i o n of w a r to v i r i l i t y . M o r e o v e r , the r i t u a l c e l e b r a t i o n u n i t e d b e r d a c h e r o l e s o f l ove p o t i o n m e d i c i n e m a n (as m a g i c ) , c o u r t s h i p i n t e r m e d i a r y (as w o m a n ) , a n d s y m b o l i c s e x u a l p o w e r h o l d e r (as m a l e ) . T h u s , d e s p i t e t he o b v i o u s m a c h i s m o of w a r a n d s c a l p i n g , t h e r i t u a l s e t t i n g i t s e l f f o c u s e d u p o n t h e b e r d a c h e a s a b a l a n c e r ( Ho e b e l 7 7 - 7 9 ) . The b e r d a c h e was c o n s i s t e n t l y s e e n as an a n dr og y no us b a l a n c e r . Hi s e x c h a n g e of g e n d e r r o l e s a n d s e x u a l f u n c t i o n s , h i s f e m i n i n e m a t c h m a k i n g and s t o r e d v i r i l i t y , his u n i t i n g of e a r t h ( me d i c ine a n d m a g i c ) a n d s k y ( i n s i g h t and s p i r i t u a l i t y ) , of s a c r e d a n d p r o f a n e , a l l c l e a r l y p l a c e d the b e r d a c h e betw een se xua l and m o r a l p o l a r i t i e s . Whitehead e x p l a i n s , f o r e x a m p l e , t h a t " l o r e a b o u t t he b e r d a c h e ’s e x c e p t i o n a l a b i l i t i e s a s m a t c h m a k e r , love m a g i c i a n , o r c u r t ; r o f v e n e r e a l d i s e a s e s. . . e x p r e s s e s t he l o g i c t h a t the b e r d a c h e u n i t e f d j in h i m s e l f b o t h s e x e s , t h e r e f o r e he [ wa s ] in a p o s i t i o n to f a c i l i t a t e t he u n i o n o f t he s e x e s " ( W h i t e h e a d 88) . A l t e r n a t i n g b e t w e e n f e m i n i n i t y and m a s c u l i n i t y in d r e s s a n d a p p e a r a n c e a s we l l a s in t a s k s ( f r o m c r a f t s p e r s o n to s c a l p - b e a r e r ) , " t he b e r d a c h e w a s a f i g u r e who s t r a d d l e d t wo w o r l d s - - t h e w o r l d of m e n a n d t he w o r l d of women " The Cheyenne even called h im 'h alfm an-halfw o m a n ’ ( C a r p e n t e r [ l 919| 24; Hi l l [1935] 2 7 3 ; H o e b e l 77; K e n n y 17; T h a y e r 291). Bo t h T h a y e r a n d W i l l i a m s s i m i l a r ly c o n c l u d e : He d i d n o t fit i nto a n y s e x u a l c a t e g o r y - - h e w a s bot h m a le [ p h y s i o l o g i c a l l y ] a n d f e m a l e [ c u l t u r a l l y ] . . . w h i l e a t the s a m e t i m e he w a s ne i the r m a l e [ no p a t e r n i t y ] n o r f e m a l e [ no m a t e r n i t y X U~was f r o m t h i s i n t e r s t i t i a l c h a r a c t e r th at his m e d i a ti n g p o w e r s s p r u n g [ s i c ] . . . to m e d i a t e o r c r o s s s e x u a l b o u n d a r i e s a n d r o l e s a n d , s i n c e he w a s a c r e a t i o n o f a v i s i o n l i ke o t h e r s h a m a n s , he m e d i a t e d a s w e l l b e t w e e n the divine and h u m a n w o r l d s . ( T h a y e r 291-93) B e r d a c h e , e s p e c i a l l y in tlx; S o u t h w e s t a n d C a l i f o r n i a , had a g e n d e r role that was d i f f e r e n t f r o m both m en a n d wo m e n - - it w a s a t h i r d g e n d e r a l t e r n a t i v e . (W illiams, personal com m unication) t h e b e r d a c h e w a s t h u s b e l i e v e d to i n c a r n a t e a p r i m o r d i a l a n d u n i v e r s a l , p s y c h o - s p i r i t u a l a n d r o g y n y . Hi s m a g i c a n d his e x a l t e d s t a t u s w e r e bot h e v i d e n c e and r e s u l t of hi s b a l a n c i n g e a r t h a n d s k y , f e m a l e a n d m a l e . C nl y a s the J u d a e o - l h r i s t i a n h e r i t a g e f o r s o o k its a n d r o g y n o u s b e g i n n i n gs f o r an a n t i - s e x u a l p a t r i a r c h y , d i d the u n i v e r s a l i t y of a n d r o g y n o u s s p i r i t u a l i t y a n d e p i s t e m o l o g y w a n e . W i t h the C h r i s t i a n i z i n g of t h e A m e r i c a n w e s t , s o a l s o w e r e the b e r d a c h e d i s p l a c e d f r o m t h e i r t r a d i t i o n a l s t a t u s and f u n c t i o n s . As n a t i v e A m e r i c a w a s f o r c e d to r e l i n q u i s h i ts a n d r o g y n o u s s p i r i t u a l l e a d e r s , so c o n t e m p o r a r y g a y s l ost the c o n n e c t i o n to a n i m p o r t a n t f o r e p a r e n t . S e c u l a r i z a t i o n d e s t r o y e d m a g ic , s u p p l a n t i n g a n d r o g y n y wi t h w e s t e r n , C h r i s t i a n m a c h i s m o (cf. C a l l e n d a r a n d K o c h e r n s 457) . 26

....... J V j / i s t g a y w r i t e r s a n d c h o l a r s a g r e e t h a t wh i l e t h e b e r d a c h e o c cu p ied a m o r a l l y n e u t r a l , i n s t it u tio n a liz e d , and r e s p e c t e d p o s i t i o n p r i o r t o the C h r i s t i a n i z i n g o f t he A m e r i c a n c o n t i n e n t , " t he E u r o p e a n s , in t h e i r a t t e m p t s to d e s t r o y I nd i a n c u l t u r e a n d r e p l a c e it wi t h t h e i r o w n , m a d e [ h o m o s e x u a l i t y ] b o t h c r i m e a n d s i n " ( Ge n g l e 4 0 ; K a t z 4 25) . M o r e o v e r , " t he i n s t a n c e s in the r e c o r d s o f i t s d i s a p p r o v a l c a n be s u s p e c t e d o f r e s u l t i n g f r o m i n f l u e n c e f r o m t he C h r i s t i a n c h u r c h e s ' ( S t e w a r t 14-15, m y e m p a h s i s ) . K a t z further elaborates: C ne f a c t t h a t e m e r g e s c l e a r l y h e r e is t h a t the ( h r i s t i a n i z a t i o n o f n a t i v e A m e r i c a n s a nd t he c o l o n i al a p p r o p r i a t i o n of t h e c o n t i n e n t b y W h i t e , W e s t e r n c i v i l i z a t i o n i n c l u d e d t he a t t e m p t by t he c o n q u e r o r s to e l i m i n a t e v a r i o u s t r a d i t i o n a l f o r m s of I n d i a n h o m o s e x u a l i t y - - a s p a r t of t h e i r a t t e m p t to d e s t r o y the n a ti v e c u l t u r e w h i c h m i g h t fuel r e s i s t a n c e - - a f o r m of c u l t u r a l g e n o c i d e i n v o l v i n g bo t h n a t i v e A m e r i c a n s a n d g a y p e o p l e . ( Ka t z 4 2 9 , cf. 4 3 9 f , 4 7 9 f ; c f . E v a n s 101, 103) C a r p e n t e r w a s a m o n g t he f i r s t to e x p l o r e t h e r a t i o n a l e f o r the p o g r o m s a g a i n s n a t i ve c u l t u r e s . A 3 J u d a i s m d e v e l o p e d , t h e w o r s h i p of a m a c h o , w a r - l i k e Y a h w e h i n c r e a s i n g l y opposed su rrounding 'frankly se xual' nature cults. Bl ind to t he s c a r e d , c o s m i c f e c u n d i t y c e l e b r a t e d t h e r e i n , t he J e w s d i s m i s s e d t he p r i e s t s o f B a a l a n d A s t o r e t h a s ' w i z a r d s and s o r c e r e r s , and w i e l d e r s of d e v i l i s h f a c u l ties, a n d w e r e " c o n s t r a i n e d to s e e in s e x o n l y f i l t h i n e s s , and in i t s r e l i g i o u s d e v o t e e s p e r s o n s in l e a g u e ” wi t h t he d e v i l . He c o n c l u d e d t h a t t h e " h o m o s e x u a l e l e m e n t s in t h e s e c u l t s , b e i n g t he m o s t f o r e i g n t o the n e w r e l i g i o n [ J u d a i s m , , st ood o u t a s the m o s t s o r c e r o u s [and h e n c e , d e m o n i c ] . . p a r t o f t h e m " ( C a r p e n t e r [ 1910] 3 0 8 , [1919] ~^0). T h e J u d a e o - C h r i s t i a n t r a d i t i o n i n c r e a s i n g l y o p p o s e d f e c u n d p o l y t h e i s m w i t h a n a n t i - s e x u a l m o n o t h e i s m . In f act , C h r i s t i a n i t y both i n h e r i t e d and r e i n f o r c e d the a n t i s e x u a l i s m o f J u d a i s m . As the l a t e r r e l i g i o n d e v e l o p e d , h o m o s e x u a l i t y b e c a m e e q u a t e d wi t h h e r e s y a n d p a g a n i s m , o f t e n t o t he p o i n t t h a t h e r e s y w a s d e t e r m i n e d by s e x u a l p r o c l i v i t y m o r e t h a n by t h e o l o g i c a l b e l i e f ( B o s w e l l 33, 52, 1 4 4 f , 2 7 9 f ; t . v a n s 49,111); As C h r i s t i a n i t y o b j e c t i f i e d t he c o s m o s and a l i e n a t e d the e a r t h , r e a s o n s u p p l a n t e d f e e l ings, t h e r e b y p r e c l u d i n g r e v e r e n c e for m y s t e r y , n a t u r e , o r s e x . T h a t wh i c h w a s a l i e n w a s p e r f o r c e e v i l . The s e c u l a r i z i n g f o r c e o f l a t e r P r o t e s t a n t i s m p u r s u e d the f i n a l d e a t h o f m a g i c : ' Al l t he m a j o r s e c t s o f P r o t e s t a n t i s m a g r e e d on s e v e r e l y r e p r e s s i n g s e x u a l i t y . . . and on ,£°,F,n i n § n o n - C h r i s t i a n a n d n o n - w h i t e c u l t u r e s " ( E v a n s 49, 126-28).

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A l t h o u g h b e r d a c h e h o o d w a s n ot the o n l y r o l e o r o c c u p a t i o n s o d e t e r m i n e d , t he v o c a t i o n a n d w a y of life o f t he b e r d a c h e w e r e c l e a r l y not m a t t e r s of p e r s o n a l choice but of c o s m c o r d i v i n e s e l e c t i o n . F r e q u e n t l y n a t i v e mythologies in co rp o rated a p r i m o r d i a l b erdache figure, a n d t h e n h i s t o r i c a l l y , s a c r e d d r e a m s o r v i s i o n (in w h i c h m y t h - l a d e n s y m b o l s o r u t i l i t a r i a n o b j e c t s a s s o c i a t e d wi t h o n e ' s o p p o s i t e g e n d e r p r e d o m i n a t e d ) w e r e t he d e t e r m i n i n g f a c t o r f o r s e l e c t i o n for b e r d a c h e h o o d . While c o n t e m p o r a r y

I he m o d e r n I n d i an h a s b e e n p r o g r a m m e d by whi t e s o c i e t y so th at hi s f o r m e r m o r e s and [v a lu e s] have b e e n c h a n g e d to fit h i s e v e r - a s s i m i l a t i n g e n v i r o n m e n t . W i t h t he l o s s of h i s r e l i g i o u s r i t e s [ a n d ] c u l t u r e , t h e r e is p r o b a b l y no p l a c e f o r t h e c o n t e m p o r a r y [ b e rd a c h e ] within that so cial s t r u c t u r e . ( Ke n n y 17) 27

g a y s m a y be m o r e i n c l i n e d to ( s e c u l a r i z e d ) b i o l o g i c a l / h o r m o n a l o r p s y c h o - s o c i a l t h e o r i e s , native c u l t u r e s u n d e r s t o o d the a b s c e n c e o f p e r s o n a l c h o i c e a s d e p e n d i n g u p o n d i v i n e o r ' e x t r a - s o c i e t a l ' , c o s m i c f o r c e s . It is to t h e i r c r e d i t t h a t n a t i v e c u l t u r e s a s a wh o l e t h u s u n d e r s t o o d h o m o s e x u a l i t y and t he b e r d a c h e h o o d a s e x i s t e n t i a l g i v e n s . Un l i k e c o n t e m p o r a r y g a y s , t h e r e f o r e , t h e b e r d a c h e w e r e n o t p l a c e d in a p o s i t i o n of f o r e s w e a r i n g a c c u s a t i o n r e g a r d in g t h e i r " a b e r r a n t c h o i c e " of se x u a l d i f f e r e n c e . R e s a c ra m e n ta liz in g hom osexuality as a p a rt of c osm ically d e s i g n e d p l u r a l i s m c a n e n a b l e g a y s , a s it d i d t h e i r b e r d a c h e f o r e b e a r s , to r e m i n d s e c u l a r , h o m o p h o b i c c u l t u r e s o f t he v a l u e o f a c c e p t i n g , i n t e g r a t i n g , a n d e v e n r i t u a l l y c e l e b r a t i n g h u m a n v a r i e t y . Si nc e the c r e a t i v e e n e r g i e s of t h e c o s m o s h a v e i n t e n d e d and d e l i g h t in s u c h v a r i e t y , g a y p e r s o n s n e e d no t s u c c u m b t o t he s e c u l a r i z i n g d e m a n d f o r s a m e n e s s (cf. C a r p e n t e r [1910] 30 6 ; D e v e r e u x 501-5,520,526; T h a y e r 289,292; Whitehead 86,99-102).

a n d o f t h e d e m a n d to f u l f i l l a s a c r e d d e s t i n y . T h e p a t r i a r c h a l i z a t i o n o f t he W e s t h a s , o v e r t h e c o u r s e o f two m i l e n n i a , m a r g i n a l i z e d ga y p e r s o n s by r e d u c i n g t h e m to s e x u a l l y a b e r r a n t , s o u l l e s s p e r s o n s . T h e c o m p e t i t i v e m a c h i s m o a n d t h e s e x u a l t h r u s t o f m u c h o f t he g a y m a l e s u b c u l t u r e a r e c o n c e s s i o n s to s u c h h e t e r o s e x u a l i z e d v a l u e s a n d r e i n f o r c e g a y o n e - d i m e n s i o n a l i t y . T h e Ga y L i b e r a t i o n m o v e m e n t , by c o n c e n t r a t i n g m o s t o f t e n u p o n g a i n i n g a c c e s s to t he p a t r i a r c h a l d o m a i n s of p o w e r a nd a c c e p t a b i l i t y , h a s a l s o n e g l e c t e d the i nnat e s p i r i t u a l c a p a c i t i e s a n d p o s s i b i l i t i e s o f g a y p e r s o n s . 1 As d i d the b e r d a c h e , g a y s - - b o t h in r e s a c r a m e n t a l i z i n g o r r e s p i r i t u a l i z i n g t h e i r o w n i n d i v i d u a l a n d c o m m u n a l l i v e s a n d in t h e i r i n f l u e n c e u p o n t h e l a r g e r s o c i e t y - - n e e d a l s o to s e e k a r e u n i o n of t he c o s m i c , s e x u a l , a n d m o r a l p o l a r i t i e s ; g a y s c a n a l s o e m b o d y a n d e x e m p l i f y in t h e i r s e l f - u n d e r s t a n d in g s and l i f e - s t y l e s t ha t all thing s a r e i n t e r d e p e n d e n t , p r o c e s s i v e , f e c u n d , a n d d y n a m i c (cf. E v a n s 109).

C o m m u n a l i n i t i a t i o n r i t u a l s f o r t he b e r d a c h e c e l e b r a t e d b o t h c o s m i c d e s t i n y a n d h u m a n v a r i e t y . As a m o n g the Mohave f o r e x a m p l e , s u c h s p i r i t u a l c e l e b r a t i o n s included t he r e m e m b r a n c e o f c o s m i c b i s e x u a l i t y a n d / o r a n d r o g y n y , t he t r a n s c e n d e n c e of o r c o n f u s i o n of g e n d e r d e l i m i t a t i o n s t h r o u g h t r a n s v e s t i s m , and a ' b a p t i s m ' w h i c h m a r k e d o n e ' s p a s s a g e into t he b e r d a c h e h o o d a n d / o r h o m o s e x u a l i t y ( D e v e r e u x 5 0 6 - 8 ) . In c o n t e m p o r a r y , h o m o p h o b i c c u l t u r e s , t he p r o c e s s o f ' c o m i n g o u t ' is u s u a l l y a l o n e l y and o f t e n p a i n f u l t r a n s i t i o n , in o p p o s i t i o n t o c u l t u r a l v a l u e s and w i t h o u t s o c i a l l y s t r u c t u r e d r i t e s of p a s s a g e . A r e s p i r i t u a li z e d gay c o m m u n i t y could de v e l o p r i t e s of p a s s a g e which s i m u l t a n e o u s l y e a s e d t he a n x i e t y o f s e l f - d i s c o v e r y , m a r k e d 'coming out' as a transitio n al, rebirthing stage, and c e l e b r a t e d d e s t i n y and v a r i e t y w i t h i n t he c o n t e x t o f o n e ' s ' n e w community*.

T h e h i s t o r y of the b e r d a c h e a l s o r e v e a l s the s p i r i t u a l p o w e r w h i c h r e s u l t s f r o m t h e v o l u n t a r y r e n u n c i a t i o n of m a c h i s m o , p a t r i a r c h a l v a l u e s , and t he h e t e r o s e x u a l ( wh i t e ) m a l e p r e s t i g e s y s t e m . R e l i n q u i s h i n g s u c h d i s t o r t e d v a l u e s and p r i o r i t i e s n u r t u r e s e m p o w e r m e n t for n o n - h e t e r o s e x u a l - m a l e p u r s u i t s . H e r e i n l i e s the g e n u i n e l y l i b e r a t i o n a l p o t e n t i a l o f t he b e r d a c h e h o o d f o r c o n t e m p o r a r y g a y s a n d o t h e r s (cf. C a r p e n t e r [ 1910] 3 0 5 , [1919] 2 2 , W h i t e h e a d 1 0 6 - 7 ) Re n e w e d , a n d r o g y n o u s gay sp iritu a lity can enable liaisons with o th e r m arg in alize d p e r s o n s w h i c h w i l l h e a l t he w o u n d s o f o u r e n v i r n m e n t and o u r r e l a t i o n s h i p s . P s y c h i c , s o c i a l , e c o l o g i c a l , and se x u a l w h o l e n e s s a r e p o s s i b i l i t i e s . Such a s p i r i t u a l i t y c a n thus p o t en t i al l y r e c o n c i l e p o l a r i z e d o p p o s i t e s and r e - e n g e n d e r a b a l a n c e d , c r e a t i v e t e n s i o n of t h e s e .

D i v i n e b i s e x u a l i t y o r a n d r o g y n y - - t h e u n i o n of m a l e n e s s and f e m a l e n e s s in t h e c o s m o s - - i s a n o t h e r e s s e n t i a l c o n c e p t u n d e r l y i n g the i n s t i t u t i o n and s p i r i t u a l i t y o f the b e r d a c h e . S p a r e d the b a r r e n o n e - d i m e n s i o n a l i t y o f p a t r i a r c h a l s y s t e m s , n a t u r e s o c i e t i e s e x p e r i e n c e d the c o s m o s , the d i vi ne n a t u r e , and the p s y c h e a s y i n - y a n g s of a n d r o gy ny . T he b e r d a c h e w e r e t h u s r e v e r e d in p a r t a s i n c a r nations of this p r im o rd ia l p sy c h o - sp ir itu a l androgyny (cf. C a r p e n t e r [1910] 312-16, [1919] 4 7 , 7 1 - 8 0 , 8 2 - 8 3 ) . By u n i t i n g t h e o p p o s i t e s o f m a s c u l i n i t y a n d f e m i n i n i t y , t he berdache attained completion o r w holeness, sim ultaneously a c h i e v i n g c o m m u n i o n w i t h t he a n d r o g y n o u s , s a c r e d c o s m o s and m a n i f e s t i n g s p i r i t u a l l y - r e l a t e d p o w e r. C o n s e q u e n tl y , t h e y w e r e s e e n bo th a s m e d i a t o r s b e t w e e n h u m a n i t y and the d i v i n e a n d a s h e a l e r s a n d p r o p h e t s ; t h e y a c h i e v e d w i s d o m an d in sight and i n t e r p r e t e d d r e a m s and p r o p h e c i e s ( C a l l c n d a r a n d K o c h e m s 4 5 5 , cf. 4 6 3 ; T h a y e r 2 8 7 , 2 9 0 , 2 92). T h e i n c a r n a t i o n a l a n d r o g y n y of t h e b e r d a c h e p r o v i d e d o t h e r b e ne fi ts f or native c u l t u r e s . The b e r d a c h e t r a n s c e n d e d s o c i a l g e n d e r d e l i m i t a t i o n s a n d h e a l e d t he s e p a r a t i o n of m a s u l i n i t y a n d f e m i n i n i t y ( T h a y e r 2 9 1 - 9 3 ; W a l k e r 21; W r i g h t and I n e s s e 8 4 - 8 6 ) . The b e r d a c h e and t h e i r c u l t u r e s a l s o a v o i d e d the s e v e r i n g of m i n d f r o m bo d y, c l e a n f r o m u n c l e a n , a n d s a c r e d f r o m p r o f a n e , r e s u l t i n g in a h e a l t h i n e s s o f p s y c h e and b o d y s a d l y m i s s i n g in o u r m o d e r n s o c i e t i e s ( C a r p e n t e r [1919] 170-71; Hi l l [1035] 2 7 3 - 7 4 , 2 7 8 - 7 9 ) . T h e b e r d a c h e a l s o e n c o u r a g e d a n d s h a r e d wi t h t h e i r c u l t u r e s a b a l a n c e b e t w e e n t he c o n t r o l a n d e x p l o i t a t i o n o f n a t u r e ( m a s u l i n e ) a n d t he n u r t u r a n c e a n d r e s p e c t of n a t u r e ( f e m i n i n e ) . T h e y a l s o u ni te d s k y / s u n and e a r t h / moon. Male berdache were seen a lte rn a tiv e ly as sunb e a r e r ( s ) and a s f i g u r e s a s s o c i a t e d wi t h the u n d e r w o r l d ( wi t h p r e - b i r t h a n d d e a t h [t he p r i m o r d i a l w o m b ] ) a n d w i t h ni gh t and the f e m i n i n e m o o n ; m a l e b e r d a c h e w e r e a l s o r e s p o n s i b l e f o r f u n e r a l r i t u a l s ( C a l l e n d a r and K o c h e m s 4 5 3 ; C a r p e n t e r [ 1910] 304; D e v e r e u x 527; K e n n y 16-17; R e i c h a r d 140-41; T h a y e r 2 8 9 ) . C o n s i s t e n t l y t h e n , t h e b e r d a ch e w e r e ha llowed as i n c a r n a t i o n s of c o s m i c unity as b a l a n c e r s of m a s c u l i n i t y a n d f e m i n i n i t y , e a r t h i n e s s a n d s p i r i t u a l i t y , life a n d d e a t h , t h e s a c r e d a n d t he p r o f a n e . The b e r d a c h e w e r e in the b e s t s e n s e of C a r p e n t e r ' s t e r m , i n t e r m e d i a t e s , and they w e r e s a c r e d as suc h. T h e i m p l i c a t i o n of c o s m i c / d i v i n e a n d r o g y n y f o r c o n t e m p o r a r y g a y s a r e m a n i f o l d . R e c o v e r i n g the b e r d a c h e f o r g a y h i s t o r y can r e m i n d g a ys of a f o r g o t te n , p r i m o r d i a l p a s t

T h e s a c r a m e n t a l q u a l i t y of n a t i v e s e x u a l i t y i s t h e t h i r d m a j o r focus of b e r d a c h e s p i r i tu a l it y . T h o s e r e s p o n s i b l e f o r s p r e a d i n g C h r i s t i a n i t y w e s t w a r d we r e m o s t d i s t u r b e d b y t he s p i r i t u a l e m p o w e r m e n t a c h i e v e d t h r o u g h n a t i v e h o m o s e x u a l i t y . Si nce t h e i r p a t r i a r c h a l v a l u e s ha d p o l a r i ze d the o p p o s i t e s , s e x ha d b e c o m e d i r t y to t h e m and h o m o s e x u a l i t y sinful. T h e s e p a t r i a r c h a l c o n q u e r o r s w e r e a l s o a s e c u l a r i z i n g f o r c e in h i s t o r y , a t o n c e d i s p e l l i n g m y t h o l o g i c a l r i c h n e s s ( ' d e m y t h o l o g i z i n g ' ), u n d e r m i n i n g s p i r i t u a l d e p th , d i s p l a c i n g a n d r o g y n y , and d e stro y in g m agic. The sa m e p r o c e s s which alienated e a r t h ( g odd es s) f r o m sky (Yahweh), body f r o m m in d , c o s m i c f ecu nd ity f r o m s p i r i t u a l a s c e t i c i s m , and p o l y theistic polygam y (sexual p l e a s u r e ) f r o m monotheistic m o n o g a m y ( p r o c r e a t i o n ) r e q u i r e d t he r a p i d d i s s o l u t i o n o f t he b e r d a c h e h o o d a n d n a t i v e c u l t u r e s j u s t a s i t l a t e r s o u g h t t he e x t e r m i n a t i o n o f g a y s u n d e r N a z i i s m ( f o r r e v i e w , s e e C r o m p t o n 6 7 - 9 1 ; cf. C l a r k , u n p u b l i s h e d l e c t u r e ) . R e l i g i o u s l y m o t i v a t e d e f f o r t s to c u r e , s a v e , a n d t r a n s f o r m h o m o s e x u a l s i nto h e t e r o s e x u a l s a s w e l l as f r e q u e n t ly vio le n t hom o p h o b ic a tt a c k s upon gays today a r e t he c o n t i n u a t i o n o f t h i s p r o c e s s t o w a r d p a t r i a r c h a l and h e t e r o s e x u a l s a m e n e s s . Within l e s s than a c en tu r y , t he s t a t u s of t he b e r d a c h e , s p e c i f i c a l l y , c h a n g e d f r o m o n e of h o n o r , t o o n e l a c k i n g e s t e e m , to o n e o f s h a m e . Na t i v e g a y s w e r e d i s c o u r a g e d a n d e x c l u d e d f r o m t h e i r f a m i l i a l and t r i b a l c o n t e x t s . Like o t h e r g a y p e r s o n s , t he b e r d a c h e (and t h e i r c u l t u r e s ) f e l l v i c t i m s to s e c u l a r i z a t i o n a n d m a r g i n a l i z a t i o n (cf. C a r p e n t e r [ 1910] 308, [1919] 50; E v a n s 4 9 , 1 2 6 - 2 8 ; G e n g l e 40 ; K a t z 4 2 5 ; L u r i e 7 0 8 - 9 , 711). T h e s e c u l a r i z a t i o n of s e x u a l i t y w a s n o t , n o r n e e d i t r e m a i n , a l w a y s t he c a s e . A l i c e K e h o e ' s s t u d y of c e r e m o n i a l J ) £ t e ^ o s e J c u a l i t Y i s c o n s i s t e n t wi t h t he a s s e r t i o n that native c u l t u r e s a ls o belie ved tha t s p i r i t u a l c o m m u n io n w i t h t he g o d ( s ) ( d e s s e s ) c o u l d be a c h i e v e d t h r o u g h h o m o s e x u a l i n t e r c o u r s e wi t h a b e r d a c h e . A m o n g the M a n d a n , H i d a ts a , A r a p a h o , Blackfoot, and Che yen ne t r i b e s , for e x a m p l e , s p i r i t u a l p o w e r wa s b e lie v ed to have be en t r a n s f e r r e d f r o m a n e l d e r m a l e to a y o u n g e r m a l e t h r o u g h s e x u a l i n t e r c o u r s e wi t h t he y o u n g e r m a n ' s w i f e . Th e c o s m i c e n e r g i e s o f Su n a n d M o o n w e r e t h u s c h a n n e l l e d f o r a y o u n g e r g e n e r a t i o n ' s p r o s p e r i t y , b e lie v ed r e a l i z e d in i n c r e a s e d b i s o n h e r d s ( Ke h o e 9 9 - 1 0 3 ) . N a t i v e c u l t u r e s t h u s c o n s i s t e n t l y c o r r e l a t e d se xua l a ctivit y with s p i r i tu a l p o w e r . Sexual i n t e r c o u r s e , e s p e c i a l l y with a s p i r i tu a l i nte r m e d i a r y l i k e a b e r d a c h e , w a s a n i m p o r t a n t m e a n s o f s p i r i t u a l c o m m u n i o n n o t o n l y b e t w e e n t wo i n d i v i d u a l s

b u t a l s o w i t h t h e d i v i n e . T h e g o d t s ( ( d e s s e s ) s h a r e d in h u m a n s e x u a l p l e a s u r e s u c h t h a t the l a t t e r b e c a m e a s a c r e d c e l e b r a t i o n . Although n o t fe rt i l it y r i t u a l s , this ' s a c r e d p r o m i s c u i t y ' wa s indeed a e o - p a r t n e r e d s h a r i n g in c o s m i c c r e a t i v i t y .

s e x u a l p a r t n e r s a n d o f the s p i r i t u a l p o w e r l a t e n t in c a r ing a c t s o f s e x u a l l o v e . T h r o u g h s u c h r e s a c r a m e n t a l l z e d s e x u a l i t y , c o u l d i n d e e d be n u r t u r e d t he c o m m u n a l e m p o w e rm en t for genuine liberation. A l t h o u g h t he s p e c i f i c c o n t e n t o f b e r d a c h e b e l i e f s o r r i t u a l s , o t h e r t ha n tho se of in itiation and the sc a l p d a n c e , m a y be " s c a t t e r e d a n d u n s y s t e m a t i z e d , " c e r t a i n g e n e r a l em phases are clear. B e r d a c h e s p i r i t u a l i t y a c c e p t e d a nd c e l e b r a t e d c o s m i c / d i v i n e s e l e c t i v i t y , h o n o r i n g the g i v e n n e s s of h o m o s e x u a l i t y in r i t e s o f p a s s a g e . T h e b e r d a c h e h ood u n i t e d t h e c o s m i c , s e x u a l , a n d m o r a l p o l a r i t i e s , t h e r e i n a c h i e v i n g s p i r i t u a l p o w e r to n u r t u r e w h o l e n e s s a n d h e a l t h i n e s s w i t h i n n a t i v e c u l t u r e s . As s a c r e d b a l a n c e r s , they a ls o s y n t h e s i z e d s p i r i tu a l e m p o w e r m e n t wi t h s e x u a l i t y , bo t h r e f l e c t i n g a n d c e l e b r a t i n g c o s m i c f e c u n d i t y . R e d i s c o v e r i n g the b e r d a c h e c a n e n a b l e g a y p e r s o n s t o w a r d a r e n e w a l o f s p i r i t u a l p o t e n t i a l i t i e s and t o w a r d t he d e v e l o p m e n t o f s u p p o r t i v e l a n g u a g e a n d r i t u a l s whi ch n u r t u r e c o m m u n i t y and h u m a n l ib e r a t i o n . The r i c h n e s s o f t h a t p a s t i s a c h a l l e n g e f o r t he r e n e w a l of

As w e r e t h e b e r d a c h e , g a y s t o d a y c o u l d be a t the f o r e f r o n t o f a p r o c e s s to r e c l a i m *:his s p i r i t u a l d i m e n s i o n f o r sexuality (Evans 77,102,105,109-10). By h e i g h t e n i n g c o n t e m p o r a r y g a y c o n s c i o u s n e s s to t h e s p i r i t u a l c a p a c i t i e s h i s t o r i c a l l y a s s o c i a t e d w i t h t he b e r d a c h e a n d a v a i l a b l e to g a y p e r s o n s t o d a y , g a y s c a n o n c e a g a i n s p i r i t u a l i z e t h e i r s e x u a l i n t e r p e r s o n a l r e l a t i o n s h i p s and bot h r e c o g n i z e a n d c e l e b r a t e , f o r e x a m p l e , t he m y t h i c a l a n d r i t u a l a s p e c t s o f n o c t u r n a l b a r w o r l d m e e t i n g p l a c e s (cf. C l a r k , m a n u s c r i p t u n d e r re vi e w ). The r e s t o r a t i o n of s p i r i t u a l i t y to g a y s e x c a n a l s o a l l e v i a t e t he f r e q u e n t l y a c c o m panying s e n s e s of u r g e n c y and e m p t i n e s s and thus h u m a n ize t h o s e s h a r i n g t i m e s wi t h a g r e a t e r d e p t h , i n t i m a c y , a n d t e n d e r n e s s . At l a s t a s e n s e o f c o m m u n i t y w h i c h t r a n s c e n d s m a r g i n a l i z e d o n e - d i m e n s i o n a l i t y m a y be

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T h i s i s no t j u s t a n o t h e r W h i t e S u p r e m a c y s t o r y o f h o w t he w e s t w a s l o s t . It is a m o v i n g , p i c t u r e s q u e , d r a m a tic m i n i - e p i c of t h r e e g e n e r a t i o n s of people d eal in g with c o n f l i c t s o v e r l an d, i n t e r r a c i a l m a r r i a g e , p o w e r , and family loyalties. The c h a r a c t e r s e x p erien c e h o r r o r : " D o n ' t be a f r a i d , l i t t l e a n g e l . . . " He p r e s s e d t h e r e v o l v e r to h e r t e m p l e . "We a r e a m o n g e n e m i e s . C l o s e y o u r e y e s . T h i s will take but a s e c o n d . " . . . E v e n at nine Cy nt hia Ann knew t h e r e w as s o m e th i n g h o r r i b l y w r o n g i n w h a t he w a s a b o u t to do . 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"I t w a s , " p r i d e r a n g i n h i s v o i c e . " S h o u l d h a v e s e e n it s i x m o n t h s a g o . We s t i l l h a v e n ' t d o n e a l l we w a n t t o , but. . . you know. T a k e s t i m e . "

E u c a l y p t u s s h a d e d a d u s t y d r i v e w a y , f i l l i n g t he a i r wi t h t h e i r s c e n t . The d o o r of the wh it e p a i n t e d h o u s e w a s f l u n g o p e n a s s h e t a p p e d t he h o r n , a f a m i l i a r f i g u r e b o u n d i n g d o w n t he s t e p s ,

"Six m o n t h s ? I've b e e n a f t e r Mi ke to f i n i s h the b a s e m e n t f o r s i x y e a r s . She d r o p p e d p u r s e a n d k e y s o n a l a d d e r b a c k c h a i r . " S o - - w h e n do I g e t to m e e t h i m ? " "U h--"

L indy--you still n e v er get anywhere on t i m e ? " The door w a s y a n k e d o p e n a n d s h e w a s h a u l e d o u t , s m o t h e r e d in a b e a r h u g . " H i , l i t t l e s i s t e r . Good t o s e e y o u . "

a flush stained h e r b r o t h e r 's cheeks.

Hi , y o u r s e l f . " She r e t u r n e d t he e m b r a c e a n d t h e n s t o o d b a c k , h e a d on one s i d e , a p p r a i s i n g . " L o o k i n g f a n t a s t i c , l o r d , I c a n ' t beli ev e that t a n - - a n d I hate you f o r i t ! "

" Y o u s t i l l do t h a t ? W e l l , m u c h a s I l o v e y o u , I d i d n ' t b r a v e t he b a c k of b e y o n d j u s t to s e e y o u . I w a n t t o s e e y o u r h o u s e - - a n d m e e t y o u r P a u l . " And s e e f o r m y s e l f why you cut y o u r s e l f off f r o m e v e r y o n e and e v e r y t h i n g back h o m e . E v en G r a n d m a d o e s n ' t talk about you any m o r e . "W here a re you hidding h i m ? ”

R icha rd laughed, a deep, happy sound. "Well, don't s t a n d o u t h e r e in t he s u n - - c o m e o n i n. "

" O u t b a c k , " he g e s t u r e d t o w a r d a h a l f d o o r . w o r k i n g on the p a t i o . "

" T h e r e ' s a c o u p l e of b o x e s in b a c k . "

" R i c k ? " Standing on t ip t oe , she s u r p r i s e d h i m with a q u i c k k i s s . " I ' m g o i n g t o l i k e h i m , y o u k n o w . I ' d l i ke a n y o n e who c o u l d m a k e y o u l o o k t he w a y y o u do r i g h t now. Okay? "

I ' l l g e t t h e m . " He r e a c h e d in t h r o u g h t he t a i l g a t e , d r a g g e d o u t t he c o n t a i n e r s , " W h a t the h e l l h a v e y o u g o t in he r e - - r o c k s ? "

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" F u n n y . " B a l a n c i n g h i s l o a d , h e l ed the w a y to t h e h o u s e . " W h e r e ' s Mi ke a n d t he b o y s ? " U n i v e r s a l S t u d i o s . " W h e r e t h e y c a n ' t be c o r r u p t e d by t he b l a c k s h e e p o f t he W a r r e n f a m i l y . Sh e s m i l e d b r i g h t ly- T h e y s e n d t h e i r l ove to Un c l e R i c k , b u t y o u k n o w

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" T h e p o t s t o o ? " She p o i n t e d to a d e e p , r o u n d e d c o n t a i n e r wi t h i vy s p i l l i n g f r o m t he m a n y o p e n i n g s . He n o d de d . "Wow! 1 t ho u gh t R i ck s a i d you w e r e a h y d r o l o gist? " T h e t wo m e n e x c h a n g e d l o o k s . shrugged.

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" F a n c y na m e fo r fixing s p r i n k l e r s , " P a u l sa id . "T hi s is j u s t a h o b b y . S o m e of t h e p o t s c a m e o u t g o o d . T h e o t h e r s - - w e l l , y o u r b r o t h e r c a n be p r e t t y c l u m s y . " "Accidents. " "S u r e, " P a u l j e e r e d . "Sit down, Lindy. b r i n g s o m e t h i n g c o l d to d r i n k . "

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" H a h ! G. ve h i m a n o p e n i n g a n d r e f o r m e d c i t y b a y h e r e ' l l gi ve y o u t h e w h o l e s p i e l a b o u t o r g a n i c v e g e t a b l e s a n d a l l t he p r e t t y l i t t l e a n i m a l s . " R i c h a r d ' s e y e s s p a r k l e d . " An d h e ' l l t e l l y o u how t h e y ' r e p e s t s a n d h o w e v e r y t h i n g s h o u l d be s p r a y e d wi t h p o i s o n . " S o u n d s l i ke a n o n - g o i n g f i g h t , " s h e l i n k e d h e r a r m wi t h R i c h a r d ' s . " L e a d o n . " C u r i o s i t y p i q u e d , she e x p l o r e d the h o u s e . T h e r e w a s a w a r m t h h e r e , a s e n s e of p e a c e a n d c o m f o r t s h e h a d n e v e r r e a l l y a s s o c i a t e d wi t h h e r b r i l l i a n t , h i g h - s t r u n g o l d e r b r o t h e r . As if r e a d i n g t he d i r e c t i o n of h e r t h o u g h t s , he smiled. "We w o r k e d h a r d , " he s a i d a n d f l ung o p e n a d o o r . " T h i s wi l l g i v e y o u s o m e i d e a of w h a t it w a s l i k e .

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"Not m i ch - - but s h e di d s e n d y o u s o m e t h i n g . A h o u s e w a r m i n g gift. And R i c h a r d w o u l d n e v e r k n o w h ow long and d e s p e r a t e l y s h e had p l e a d e d h i s c a u s e . " R e a l l y . ' ’ " Hope b l a z e d in h i s e y e s . P a u l ? Is s h e c o m i n g r o u n d ? " Lindy picked her words carefully.

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F o r e v e r a n d a flay, m y pig h e a d e d b r o t h e r . No wa y is Dad g o i ng to f o r g i v e the w a y y o u w a l k e d out o n h i s lx? l o v ed c o m p a n y . M a y b e y o u ' d h a v e had a n a l l y if y o u ' d Ix-.en m o r e t a c t f u l wi t h M >m. but t h a t ' s not y o u r s t y l e . T h e o n l y s o n this g e n e r a t i o n . No g r a n d k i d s to c a r r y o n the W a r r e n name. "I d o n ' t k n o w how l o n g , " s h e l i e d g e n t l y a n d k n e w t hat R i c k s a w t h r o u g h h e r d e c e p t i o n . " W h a t w a s t h a t you s a i d a b o u t a d r i n k ? S o m e t h i n g long a n d c o l d wi t h p l e n t y o f i a ; cube; s . . . " T h e a f t e r n o o n s p e d by f a r t o o f a s t , s h a d o w s le tight he n i ng . S e l l i n g h e r c o f f e e c u p d o w n , s h e p l a n t e d r e g r e t f u l l y at h e r watch. 'I h a t e t o e a t a n d r un . but I s h o u l d get b a c k to t o wn . A r e y o u g o i n g to o p e n G r a n d m a ' s p r e s e n t b e f o r e I leave?" Present ’ "

P a u l ' s h e a d c a m e up wi t h a r u s h .

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"I t a n i m a g i n e , " L i n d y n o d d e d at t he t wo l a r g e c o n t a i n e r s , " T h o s e h a v e s o m e o f t he s t u f f y o u s a i d y o u w a n t e d f r o m h o m e , b o o k s anti s u c h The s m a l l e r o n e ' s f r o m G r a n d m a. "

" G o d ! " A p p a l l e d , s h e p e e r e d a t t he c r u m b l i n g c e i l i n g , w a l l p a p e r c u r l i n g in f o r l o r n s t r i p s f r o m s t a i n e d w a l l s . But e v e n h e r e t he m e s s h a d b e e n n e a t l y s w e p t , a t a r p s p r e a d on the h a r d w o o d f l o o r .

K n e e l i n g , R it h a r d f u m b l e d w i t h the k n o t s .

' Now y o u k n o w why we g o t it s o c h e a p . "

" C a n ' t s t a n d t he s u s p e n s e , " P a u l s a i d c h e e r f u l l y , t a k i n g a s h a r p k ni f e f r o m t he t a b l e a n d s l a s h i n g t h r o u g h the t w i n e . " T a k e s h i m t w e n t y m i n u t e s to o p e n a l e t t e r .

"1 t h o u g h t i ‘ w a s b e c a u s e y o u ' r e t h e b a n k m a n a g e r a n d they c o ul d n' t t ur n down you r m o r t g a g e . "

P a r t i n g t he t i s s u e p a p e r , R i c h a r d g a s p e d , t h e n t h r e w b a c k h i s h e a d and l a u g h e d . " Wh o p i c k e d t h i s ' ’ "

" N o t t he m a n a g e r . . . y e t . " R i c h a r d c h u c k l e d . "We s p e n t t he f i r s t m o n t h d r i v i n g b a c k a n d f o r t h to t he f l u mp . Now c o mt and l o o k at one o f the s u c c e s s e s . "

"She d i d . I ike i t 0 " L i n d y a s k e d a s he d r a g g e d the q u i l t o u t , s t o o d t o s h a k e out the c r e a s e s . T h e w h i t e b a c k g r o u n d w a s i v o r y wi t h a g e , but t he i n t e r l o c k i n g c i r c l e s still glowed with c o l o r . " R e m e m b e r this p a r t ? "

T h e b e d r o o m w a s t h e s a m e s i z e a s t he long l iv i n g r o o m d o w n s t a i r s . L i g h t s t r e a m e d in f r o m a d o r m e r at the f r o n t of t he h o u s e a n d t he wi d e p a n e s that, l o o k e d ou t o v e r r o l l i n g g o l d e n - b r o w n h i l l s . D u s t m o t e s t a u g h t in a s h a f t of s u n s h i n e , t w i s t i n g a n d d a n c i n g l a z i l y .

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" D o n ' t you d a r e ! " R i c h a r d ' s a r m c i r c l e d h i s l o v e r ' s s h o u l d e r s . " H e ' d b l a c k m a i l m e f r o m o n e e n d of t he c o u n t y t o t he o t h e r . "

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L a u g h t e r f o l l o w e d h e r to t he d o o r . "I g u e s s I' d b e t t e r go s e e if t he s h a r k di d i t s t hi n g to M i k e y ' s s a t i s f a c t i o n . " She s t o o d o n t i p t o e , t e a r s p r i c k l i n g b e h i n d l i d s . " Y o u t a k e c a r e , y o u h e a r ? And w r i t e m e . "

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"I w i l l . " T u r n i n g to P a u l , s h e d r e w t he d a r k h e a d d o wn and p l a n t e d a f i r m k i s s on hi s c h e e k . " Y ou look a f t e r t h i s b r o t h e r of m i n e . H e ' s t he o n l y o n e I ' v e g ot . "

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Y e a h . " T h e s u n s t i l l had t he h e a t o f a b l a s t f u r n a c e , t h e s t e e r i n g w h e e l a l m o s t t o o hot to h o l d . Sh e r o l l e d do wn the wi n do w, s q u i n t e d t h r o u g h the g l a r e . " R i c k ? " s h e c a l l e d , " t e l l h i m t h e n a m e of t h e p a t t e r n . "

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T h e s o u n d of t he c a r d i e d in t he d i s t a n c e , d u s t s e t t l i n g . R i c h a r d g a t h e r e d the q u i l t in h i s a r m s , h e a d e d u p s t a i r s . " L e t ' s s e e h o w t h i s l o o k s o n t he b e d . " " G o d , i m a g i n e t he w o r k t h a t w e n t i n t o m a k i n g i t, " P a u l

DOWN ON THE FARM ______by Steven Finch

QUEM QUAERITIS

We all call the new hired hand “ Ready Rob’’,. In the fields he plain pigs our shuckless cobs.1

by Louie Crew_____ It’s the 1980’s, America. Still 10 percent of your children dart their eyes past evening lovers in the daylight halls, lest others know for sure w e’re queer. It’s the 1980’s, America. Still you intimidate bachelor sons and unwed daughters, even into their fifties, with pleas for more and more grandchildren. Still you train your offspring to be fruitful and multiply with a vengeance. It’s the 1980’s, and still you feel damned if just the body plumbing is matched differently when your children finally learn to love and profanely you keep turning on the light. When will you grow old gracefully, Uncle Sam and Aunt Jemima? When will you free your gay children from your unlove? THE COMMUTER When will you stop exploiting their style, their grace, by Philip Watson Kuepper and their art, While consigning to a Cinderella attic Out of the veiling fog odd things come, all who do not kiss the hetero frog? Alexander the Third’s messenger in anticipation *J ) ’ M ", ' ‘

Your fairies are growing wings, America, quite beyond your expectations. Your fairies’ wands are empowered and by their magic your dullness stands exposed, your catholicity nothing but a bingo club, vour politics only a stormtrooper’s boot camp

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You’re dull, hetero America. You need a bath and a dab of cologne, a mystery cruise down your alleys, wearing our disguise of sequined drag, s no rt i ng a q ue an's giggle as you try to discover where your soul has gone. ' N'-.ihC

Of India wrapping him like a mantle, He in restless ride, Ever doomed, To roam reality in search of legend. John-a-ka, John-a-ka, John-a-ka, The hoofbeats seem to repeat. And Nestor at every stage Ever at the ready to advise Men to their failings, failings, failings. Whose dreams are they which spew forth these things That humans should rely so on humans, When flesh is but a cliche That bone, muscle and name take Far, far too seriously.

TWO OF A KIND by Paul They Stare as we walk hand in hand or when my arms drape around my friends Two of a kind they say Our Love is nothing they’ll define They call us sick, sick at heart, sick in mind Two of a kind, they say They call us names that often sting They close their minds to reasoning Two of a kind they say Yes, that we are, my friend and I Two of a kind, in love, They do not know Can’t understand, what secret pleasure’s both share Two of a kind in love

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An e x c e l l e n t b o o k c o m c r n i n g v e g e t a r i a n i s m is T h e V e g e t a r i a n A lte r n a t i v e , a g u i de to a h e a l t h f u l and h u m a n e d i e t by Vi c J n i s s m a n . W e b s te r 's third international dictionary defines 'v e g e t a r i a n ' a s " v e g e t a b l e 4 a r i a n . F u r t h e r , the t h e o r y o r p r a c t i c e of l iv i n g s o l e l y u p o n v e g e t a b l e s , f r u i t s , g r a i n s , nut s. " ( ' a r i a n ' m e a n i n g b e l i e v e r o r a d vo cat e) . The above m eanings a re wrong. ' V e g e t a r i a n * is a w o r d p u r p o s e l y c r e a t e d by a g r o u p of p e o p l e who t r i e d to c o r r e c t w h a t t h e y s a w a s a d e f i c i e n c y in t h e l a n g u a g e . G e o f f r e y I . R u d d , f o r m e r s e c r e t a r y o f t he B r i t i s h V e g e t a r i a n S o c i e t y , e x p l a i n s : " E n g l i s h v e g e t a r i a n s , f i n d i n g the t e r m s ' v e g e t a b l e d i e t ' a n d ' n o n m e a t e a t i n g ' bo t h i n a d e q u a t e a n d m i s l e a d i n g " . . f i r s t c o i n e d the w o r d ' v e g e t a r i a n ' in 1842. 'Vegetarian' wasn't created f r o m ' v e g e t a b l e ' , though both w o r d s s h a r e a c o m m o n e t y m o l o g i c a l h i s t o r y . ' V e g e ta b le ' c o m e s f r o m Middle E n gl is h via M e di eva l Latin: "v e g e t a b il i s , m e a n i n g having t he p o w e r to g r o w ( as w i t h p l a n t s ) ; a n d v e g e t a r e , m e a n ing t o g r o w . " ' V e g e t a r i a n ' h o w e v e r , w a s d e r i v e d f r o m t he L a t i n w o r d ' v e g e t u s ' m e a n i n g " w h o l e , s o u n d , f r e s h , o r l i v e l y " , a s in the a n c i e n t L a t i n t e r m ' h o m o v e g e t u s ' a m e n t a l l y a n d p h y s i c a l l y v i g o r o u s p e r s o n . T h u s , the E n g l i s h v e g e t a r i a n s w e r e t r y i n g to m a k e a p o i n t a b o u t t he p h i l i s o p h i c a l a n d m o r a l t o n e of t he l i v e s t h e y s o u g h t to l e a d . T h e y w e r e not s i m p l y p r o m o t i n g t he u s e o f v e g e t a b l e s in t he d i e t .

As y o u c a n s e e , t he w o r d is o p e n to m a n y m e a n i n g s . T h i s is a l l g o o d b a c k g r o u n d f o r c o n s i d e r a t i o n o f t h r e e new books re ce iv e d for c o n s id er a tio n . M o s t u s e f u l f o r R F D r e a d e r s is T o t a l V e g e t a r i a n C o o k i n g by N a t h a n i e l A l t m a n ( ( N e w C a n a a n , K e a t s P u b . Co . , 1981. P a p e r $2.95). Mr. Altman gives som e basic background o n v e g e t a r i a n i s m , a g o o d b r i e f r e v i e w of c u r r e n t n u t r i tion s t u d i e s , d i e t s f o r keeping fit, for p r e g n a n t w o m e n , a n d f o r a t h l e t e s . He i n c l u d e s i n f o r m a t i o n f o r b o t h l a c t o o v o v e g e t a r i a n s a n d f o r v e g a n s . T h e r e a r e a b o u t 90 r e c i p e s , m o s t o f w h i c h c a n be p r e p a r e d f r o m o r d i n a r y i n g r e d i e n t s , a n d w h i c h d o n ' t c a l l f o r a v i s i t to a n e x p e n s i v e h e a l t h food s t o r e . T h e r e is a l s o a n e x c e l l e n t b i b l i og r a p h y . A n o t h e r b o o k t h a t c a n be r e c o m m e n d e d to o u r r e a d e r s is H e a l t h S e c r e t s of M e d i c i n a l H e r b s by M i c h e l l e M a i r e s s e ( New Y o r k , A r c o , 1981. P a p e r , $ 4 . 9 5 ) . V i r t u a l l y a m i n i - e n c y c l o p e d i a of h e r b s and t h e i r u s e s , t h i s a t t r a c t iv e v o l u m e g i v e s i n s t r u c t i o n s f o r m a k i n g i n f u s i o n s , d e c o c t i o n s , e y e w a s h e s , e n e m a s , s a l v e s , e t c . It a l s o w a r n s a g a i n s t s e l f t r e a t m e n t wi t hout the a d v i c e of a p h y s i c i a n . M a n y p l a n t s t h a t y o u r e d i t o r d i d n ' t t hi n k o f a s h e r b s , such as c u c u m b e r s , rh ubard. o r r a s p b e r r i e s a re includ e d . E a c h p l a n t is d e s c r i b e d : t he p o r t i o n o f t he p l a n t to be u s e d is s p e e m e d ; a n d , t he m e t h o d o f u s e is d e s i g n a t e d . R e p r o d u c t i o n s o f w o o d c u t s o r d r a w i n g s o f m a n y of t h e p l a n t s a r e s h o w n . T h e r e is a l s o a f i ne b i b l i o g r a p h y .

Al l o f t he a b o v e i n f o r m a t i o n is f r o m t he S u s s m a n b o o k .

T h i s m e s s a g e s e n t y o u r k i t c h e n q u e e n s c u r r y i n g to the O x f o r d E n g l i s h D i c t i o n a r y w h i c h t e l l s u s t h a t " t he g e n e r a l u s e o f t he w o r d a p p e a r s to h a v e b e e n l a r g e l y d u e t o t he f o r m a t i o n o f the V e g e t a r i a n S o c i e t y a t R a m s g a t e in 1847 In p r i n t t he w o r d f i r s t a p p e a r e d in t he A p r i l 1842 i s s u e of the H e a l t h i a n , w h e r e it a p p e a r e d a s a noun r e f e r r i n g to h u m a n ? ! It. a p p e a r e d in 1854 in t h e P o u l t r y C h r o n i c l e a s f o l l o w s : " f o r t h o u g h o u r s a r e not v e g e t a r i a n s , e v e r y c h i c k e n we h a v e is a s t a u n c h t e e t o t a l e r ! " ' V e g e t a r i a n ' a s a n a d j e c t i v e f i r s t a p p e a r e d in 1849 in t he V e g e t a r i a n Me ws e nge r . A c q u a r i a n N a t u r a l i s t , p. 34 2 , " M r . D a r w i n g i v e s an i n t e r e s t i n g a c c o u n t o f a c r a b w h i c h l i v e s o n c o coanuts. . . This v e g e ta ria n crab . .

A b o o k to s t a y a w a y f r o m is J o h n H e i n e r m a n ' s C o m p l e t e E3ook of S p i c e s : T h e i r M e d i c a l , N u t r i t i o n a l a n d C o o k i n g i l s e s ( Ne w C a n a a n , K e a t s P u b . Co . , i 9 8 3 . P a p e r , $ 12795) . F r o m t he c o o k ' s p o i n t o f v i e w’, t h e r e a r e s e v e r a l u se f ul , s t a n d a r d books on h e r b s and s p i c e s . M / f a v o r i t e is W a v e r l y R o o t ' s H e r b s & S p i c e s , p u b l i s h e d by M c G r a w - H i l l . H e i n e r m a n ' s b o o k is s o p o o r l y o r g a n i z e d t h a t t he s o u p wi l l h a v e b o i l e d , t he s a l a d w i l t e d , a n d t he c u s t a r d c u r d l e d b e f o r e t he a p p r o p r i a t e f l a v o r i n g c a n be f o u n d . T h e s e c t i o n o n a l c o h o l i c b e v e r a g e s is q u i t e e r r o n e o u s - s p i c e s a r e n o t a l l o w e d in w i n e s , a n d M r . H e i n e r m a n s ho ul d r e a d A m e r i n e ' s t e x t s o n wi ne p r o d u c t i o n in C a l i f o r n i a to s e e w h a t t he c o n s t i t u e n t p a r t s o f wi ne a r e . F o r a n y o n e w i t h t h e t e c h n i c a l n e e d to k n o w , t h e r e is a d e t a i l e d s e c t i o n on c h e m i c a l c o n s t i t u e n t s and one on n u t r i t i o n a l c on te nt of h e r b s and s p i c e s . A f t e r a l l t h i s , t he k i t c h e n q u e e n ' s f a v o r i t e v e g e t a r i a n c o o k b o o k i s s t i l l L a u r e l ' s K i t c h e n (NY, B a n t o m , p a p e r , $3.95).

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J7r\ U**i<r In a g r e e i n g to be P r o f i l e s e d i t o r f o r t h i s p u b l i c a t i o n one y e a r a g o t h i s m o n t h , I s e t o u t to f u l f i l l t h r e e g o a l s . N u m b e r o n e : I w a n t e d to do a p r o f i l e of J e r r y S t a m p s bee a u s e o f h i s h e l p f u l n e s s to t h e h e a l t h o f a l a r g e c o m m u n i t y in t he m i d d l e o f t he c o u n t r y a s w e l l a s t o a g r o w ing c o m m u n i t y a c r o s s t he n a t i o n . S e c o n d , I w a n t e d to i n t e r v i e w Mi l o G u t h r i e b e c a u s e of t he t r e m e n d o u s a n d o f t e n u n n o t i c e d w o r k he d o e s in t h e a r e a s of h u m a n r i g h t s a n d t h e g a y - f e m i n i s t a n d w i m m i n ' s m o v e m e n t . And t h i r d , I w a n t e d t h e o p p o r t u n i t y t o p r o f i l e R o n L a m b e , a n d f i nd a w a y o f a c q u a i n t i n g m o r e o f y o u , t h e r e a d e r s , w i t h t he m a n who is a l m o s t s i n g l e - h a n d e d l y w o r k i n g d a y in an ! d a y o u t to b r i n g y o u t h i s m a g a z i n e . W i t h t h i s i s s u e I h a v e a c c o m p l i s h e d m y g o a l s a n d it is t i m e to s e t n e w o n e s , o r f o r a n e w e d i t o r to c o m e f o r w a r d . T h e r e is l i t t l e f e e d b a c k o r s u p p o r t f o r t h i s p a r t o f t he m a g a z i n e . I h e a r a l m o s t nothing f r o m you r e a d e r s . H o w e v e r , I im a gi ne t h a t m o s t o f t h e o t h e r e d i t o r s f e e l t he s a m e . T h a t is n o t a p r o b l e m f o r m e , b ut I w o u l d u r g e y o u t o be s u p p o r t i v e , c o m m u n i c a t e w i t h p e o p l e who a r e i n v o l v e d wi t h R F D . It i s g e n u i n e l y YOUR m a g a z i n e . . . a r e a d e r ' s j o u r n a l , a n d it w i l l c o n t i n u e to r e f l e c t w h a t y o u p u t i n t o it.

R o n L a m b e i s M O T H E R R F D ; it is b e i n g h e l d t o g e t h e r by one v e r y d e d i c a t e d m a n who h a s m a d e putting out R F D a f u l l - t i m e j o b , a n d he h a s t a k e n it o n a t t he e x p e n s e of m a k i n g a l i v i n g f o r h i m s e l f , at t h e e x p e n s e o f b u i l d i n g h i m s e l f a p e r s o n a l dwelling , o r r a is in g a g a r d e n , tending t he b e e s , o r a t h o u s a n d o t h e r t h i n g s t h a t t he r e s t of u s do w i t h o u t t he c o n t i n u o u s w o r k of p u t t i n g o u t R F D . We a r e a l l v e r y g r a t e f u l to t h i s w o n d e r f u l m a n f o r t h e w o r k he is p u t t i n g i n t o jos , t he r e a d e r s . I h a v e e v e r y c o n f i d e n c e t h a t t h e r e a r e m e n o u t t h e r e wh o c a n a n d wi l l c h e c k ou t t he g a t h e r i n g s a t R u n n i n g W a t e r , o f f e r h e l p a n d a s s i s t a n c e to t h i s w o n d e r f u l m a n , a n d a l l o f us m a k e h i s l if e a l i t t l e e a s i e r w h e r e p o s s i b l e . U n d e r s t a n d d e a r r e a d e r , t h i s is m y o p i n i o n ; t h e r e a r e NO c o m p l a i n t s f r o m R o n , b u t w h e n y o u l a y t h e c a r d s o n t h e t a b l e it s t i l l c o m e s up t h a t he is w o r k i n g d a r n e d h a r d f or all of us ! I hope you c an c o m e to k n o w t h i s j e w e l of a m a n t h r o u g h t h i s s h o r t p r o f i l e .

A f r i e n d o f m i n e i n t r o d u c e d t h e j o u r n a l to m e w h e n I w a s l i v i n g i n S a n F r a n c i s c o in 1978, a n d m y f i r s t s u b s c r i b e d i s s u e w a s #17. It w a s t h r o u g h R F D t h a t I h e a r d a b o u t t he R u n n i n g W a t e r G a t h e r i n g s ( f r o m s o m e o n e t h e n i n S F wh o h a d b e e n to o n e o f t he 1978 G a t h e r i n g s ) . W h e n I l e f t S a n F r a n c i s c o in 1979, o n e o f t he f i r s t i t e m s o n m y l i s t o f t h i n g s t h a t I w a n t e d to do w a s to go to a G a t h e r i n g a t R u n n i n g W a t e r . I d i d ( S u m m e r 1979) a n d t h e n l e a r n e d t h a t M i k e l w a n t e d to s e l l t he p l a c e , s o t h a t r a n g a b e l l . W h e n I r e t u r n e d in J u l y to c h e c k t he p l a c e o u t , I m e t J o h n , P e t e r a n d R o c k y wh o w e r e a l s o l o o k i n g t o b u y t he p l a c e . We t a l k e d a n d e v e n t u a l l y d e c i d e d t o go in t o g e t h e r a n d f o r m a c o l l e c t i v e to b u y t he p l a c e t o g e t h e r . T h e n e x t y e a r (1980) we t o o k o n R F D a s a h o m e b u s i n e s s . YOU A R E O R W E R E A M I N I S T E R / P R I E S T . HOW DI D T H A T S P I R I T U A L I N T E R E S T GROW I NT O F A I R Y P A G A N NEW A G E S P I R I T U A L I S M ? IS T H E R E A C O N F L I C T W I T H T H E T WO P A T H S ( F C R YOU O R I N YOUR O P I N I O N ) ? WAS T H E R E A LOGICAL PROGRESSION O F GROWTH THAT YOU H A V E T A K E N AND O T H E R S M I G H T F O L L O W ( NO T NECESSARILY IMITATE)? I h a v e a l w a y s b e e n d r a w n to t h e C h u r c h - f o r t h e a e s t h e t i c s if n o t h i n g e l s e . I h a v e a r a t h e r v a r i e d b a c k g r o u n d h a v i n g b e en b o r n a Q u a k e r and r a i s e d an E p i s c o p a l i a n . I r e m a i n e d a r a t h e r d e v o u t ' E p i s c o p a l i a n u n t i l a f t e r t he A r m y e x p e r i e n c e a s a C h a p l a i n ' s A s s i s t a n t w h e n I w e n t to c o l l e g e . It w a s in C o l l e g e t h a t I r e a l l y b e g a n m y c o m i n g o u t e x p e r i e n c e , and I had d ifficu lty r e c o n c i l i n g m y s e x u a l ne ed s w i t h t h e c h u r c h . So I s t o p p e d g o i n g . I m u s t h a v e m a i n t a i n e d a s u b l i m i n a l i n t e r e s t in E c c l e s i a d u r i n g m y S a n F r a n c i s c o wi l d d a y s b e c a u s e in t he e a r l y 7 0 ' s I m e t s o m e 'gay C a t h o l i c s ' . I thought that quite in trig uin g and wanted to k n o w m o r e a b o u t t h a t a p p a r a n t d i c o t o m y ( f o r m e ) . T h i s w a s n o t D i g n i t y b u t s o m e Ol d C a t h o l i c s w i t h a s p e c i a l i n t e r e s t in t h e C h a l d e a n C h u r c h ( s i n c e t h e y h a d t h a t a s p a r t of t h e i r A pos tolic lin es) . This wa s also a m o s t in t e r e s t i n g r i t e and c h u r c h h i s t o r y f o r m e , and the m o r e we l e a r n e d a b o u t t h i s a n c i e n t C h u r c h t h e m o r e I l i k e d it. At t h e s a m e t i m e , we w e r e w o r k i n g o n r e c o n c i l i n g o u r s e x u a l i t y w i t h t h e t r a d i t i o n a l ' c a t h o l i c ' t h e o l o g y ( wi t h only m o d es t su c c e s s ) . I believe o u r best su p p o rt cam e f r o m o u r being t o g e t h e r and ope n a bou t o u r s e x u a li t y . S o m e of t he o r i g i n a l g r o u p w e n t o n t o f o r m a r e l i g i o u s s o c i e t y ( S o c i e t y of St . T h o m a s ) , a n d we t r i e d to j o i n t he N e s t o r i a n C h u r c h . T h e l o g i s t i c e s w e r e p r e t t y d i f f i c u l t , so we p u t o u r s e l v e s u n d e r t he p r o t e c t i o n o f t h e l o c a l Ol d C a t h o l i c A r c h b i s h o D . a n d r e e v e n t u a l l y o r d a i n e d us f o r bot h the Cl d C a t h o l i c and ' C h a l d e a n ' r i t e s . T he m a j o r i t y of m y e x p e r i e n c e w i t h t h e S o c i e t y w a s l e a r n i n g a n d o r g a n i z i n g . I s p e c i a l i z e d in d e v e l o p i n g t h e l i b r a r y a n d s t u d y i n g Sy ria c. When my a s s o c i a t e , F r . C h a r le s died, I packed up e v e r y t h i n g ( whi ch I s t i l l ha ve s t o r e d a w ay ) . In t h e l a t e s i x t i e s , I b e c a m e i n t e r e s t e d in t h e E d g a r C a y c e m a t e r i a l and j o in e d the A . R . E . T h is wa s quite a r a d i c a l d e p a r t u r e f r o m ' t r a d i t i o n a l ' C h r i s t i a n i t y , but ope ned all

T h e s e c o n d w i n t e r 1 w e n t to C h a r l o t t e to w o r k ( f o r a b o u t t h r e e m o n t h s ) . Tin: t h i r d a n d f o u r t h w i n t e r s w e r e s p e n t h e r e wi t h o n e o r t wo o t h e r s in c o m m u n i t y . O t h e r t h a n b e in g r a t h e r cold and s o m e w h a t h o u s e b o u n d , t h o s e w e nt f i n e . T h i s h o u s e is n o t i n s u l a t e d , a n d t h e r e is o n l y so m u c h o n e c a n do to m a k e it r e a s o n a b l y c o m f o r t a b l e w i t h out c o m p l e t e l y reb ui ld in g . The last w i n t e r I sp e n t alone . T h e r e w e r e t i m e s o f l o n e l i n e s s , but o v e r a l l , I f o u n d it to bo a p r e t t y g o o d e x p e r i e n c e . A f t e r h a v i n g t he c o l l e c t i v e e x p e r i e n c e f o r f o u r y e a r s , it w a s q u i t e l u x u r i o u s to h a v e s o m e t i m e / s p a c e t o m y s e l f . It w a s r e f r e s h i n g to h a v e s o m e q u i e t a n d not h a v e to ' p r o c e s s ' so m u c h . I v a l u e e l e m e n t s o f b o t h k i n d s o f e x p e r i e n c e s a n d h o p e to d e v e l o p s o m e pe r s o n a l s p a c e in a f u t u r e c o m m u n i t y he r e . 1 m a n a g e to k e e p b u s y e v e n in t h e w i n t e r s a l t h o u g h I h a r b o r a fond hope to s o m e t i m e h a v e t i m e to do t he r e a d i n g I w o u l d l ike to d o . R F D b u s i n e s s k e e p s m e c o n s t a n t l y o c c u p i e d , and j u s t k e e p i n g t he s t o v e g o i n g a n d d e a l i n g wi t h t he w a t e r l i n e ( w h i c h o f t e n f r e e z e s ) l e a v e s l i t t l e t i m e f o r p l a y . Of c o u r s e , t h e r e is m o r e t i m e in w i n t e r t h a n in s u m m e r f o r a p e r s o n a l l i f e .

ki nds o f n e w u n d e r s t a n d i n g s f or m e . I wa s quite n a tu r a ll y d r a w n i n t o t he New A. e t h i n k i n g b e i n g a n A q u a r i a n . Inc F a i r y - P a g a n e l e m e n t wa s so m e th i n g that I only le a r n e d a b o u t t h r o u g h t he G a t h e r i n g s a n d K F D a s s o c i a t i o n s ( a l t h o u g h I s u p p o s e t h e r e is s o m e of t h i s in t h e ARE F i n d h o r n m a t e r i a l s ) . My p e r s o n a l d e v e l o p m e n t wi t h C h r i s t i a n t h i n k i n g h a s m o v e d m o r e a n d m o r e f r o m the a u t h o r i t y o f t h e h i e r a c h y to t he s i m p l e t e a c h i n g s of J e s u s . M>/ d e v e l o p m e n t wi t h F a i r y P a g a n i s m h a s b e e n r a t h e r p a r a l l e l . I r e s i s t t he a u t h o r i t y of a n y t r a d i t i o n a l p a t h (as h a v i n g b a s i c a l l y a n y t h i n g m o r e to o f f e r t h a n a n e l e m e n t of h i s t o r i c a l v a l u e f o r c u r r e n t a p p l i c a t i o n ) a n d c h o o s e to b a s e m y p e r s o n a l i n t e r p r e t a t i o n o f w h a t t h i s is o n t h e o l d m e a n ing o f P a g a n i s m . F o r m e , t h i s m e a n s ' c o u n t r y o r e a r t h c e n t e r e d ( n a t u r e ) s p i r i t u a l i t y . I p e r s o n a l l y s e e no c o n f l i c t wi t h w h a t J e s u s t a u g h t a n d wn a t I p e r c e i v e a s P a g a n i s m . In f a c t , I f i n d J e s u s t o be q u i t e a p a g a n : he w a s b a s i c a l l y a r u r a l m a n g o i n g a r o u n d in a c o v e n (13) of o t h e r m e n ( e n j o y i n g a s p e c i a l r e l a t i o n s h i p wi t h t he y o u n g e s t ) a n d w a s a l w a y s c l o s e t o n a t u r e . He s t r o n g l y r e s i s t e d t h e h i e r a r c hy of h i s t i m e (but n o t t he t e m p l e s e r v i c e s a l t o g e t h e r ; he m i ;. p o r t e d t h a t ) . I b e l i e v e t h a t e a c h of u s h a s h i s o r h e r o v d i r e c t l i n e w i t h t h e C r e a t i v e F o r c e s a n d n e e d o n l y to n u r t u r e t h i s c o m m u n i c a t i o n u t i l i z i n g w h a t e v e r m e t h o d s to a t t a i n t h a t . If t h a t i n v o l v e s t he t r a d i t i o n a l C h u r c h , f i n e . If it i n v o l v e s g e t t i n g in t o u c h w i t h t he O l d R e l i g i o n a n d the G o d d e s s w o r s h i p , f i n e . I v i e w a l l of t he a v e n u e s a s t o o l s f o r a p e r s o n a l g o a l o f a t t u n e m e n t . I a l s o f e e l t h a t we a r e m o v i n g i nt o a t i m e w h e n t h e r e m a y be e l e m e n t s of one o r s e v e r a l d i f f e r e n t t r a d i t i o n s w h i c h m a y be h e l p f u l to s o m e of u s f r o m t i m e to t i m e .

HOW C C U L D C T H E R S IN T H E R F D N E T W O R K M A K E YCU R J O B W I T H R F D AND YCU R L I F E A T RW M O R E PLEASANT? T h i s is r a t h e r d i f f i c u l t t o a n s w e r since- t h e r e a r e a n u m h e r o f w a y s f o l k s c a n h e l p , hut s o muc h d e p e n d s o n the i n d i v i d u a l ' s i n t e r e s t a n d a b i l i t i e s . T h e R F D n e t w o r k is f a i r l y w e l l o r g a n i z e d , but it c a n lx- i m p r o v e d by h a v i n g the- f o l k s who a r e d o i n g what t h e y h a v e v o l u n t e e r e d to do be a s r e s p o n s i b l e f o r t he a r e a of i n t e r e s t a s p o s s i b l e . T h e r e arc- s o m e 15 d i f f e r e n t e d i t o r s and m o s t a r e ve ry g o o d a b o u t t a k i n g c a r e o f t h e i r d e p a r t m e n t s . I do h a v e t o p r o p u p s o m e f r o m time- to t i m e whic h is f i n e , but if 1 have, t o s j i e n d a g r e a t d e a l of e n e r g y k e e p i n g 15 f ol ks r e s p o n s i b l e , it m i g h t lx- e a s i e r to j ust do it m y s e l f . But , 1 w o u l d n ' t w a n t t h a t f o r s e v e r a l r e a s o n s . W n a t wo u l d h e l p m e h e r e at RW is t o h a v e some- o n e o r o t h e r s h e r e b e i n g a s s e l f - s u f f i c i e n t i s p o s s i b l e c o o p e r a t i n g wi t h the g e n e r a l d i r e c t i o n of t h e p l a c e . If t h e r e we re a c o u p l e of o t h e r g u y s l iv i n g h e r e , we c o u l d c o o p e r a t e o n a g a r d e n and c e r t a i n o t h e r p r o j e c t s . 1 he d i l e m m a i s t h a t t h e r e is v e r y l i t t l e i n c o m e p r o d u c i n g a c t i v i t i e s h e r e (as y e t ) . S o m e c a n Ixj d e v e l o p e d , but it wi l l t a k e s o m e c a p i t a l an d e n e r g y to a c c o m p l i s h t h a t . 1 c a n not p r o v i d e the i n c o m e for o t h e r s u n f o r t u n a t e l y ; 1 wish 1 could. DC YOU S E E K O T H E R MC N TO L I VE A N D / O R W O R K AT RW ? W H A T Q U A L 1 F 1 C A T I C N S / Q U A L I T I E S / T A L E N T S W O U L D YOU M O S T L I K E TO A T T R A C T T H E R E ? Y e s , 1 d o s e e k o t h e r s to l ive a n d w o r k h e r e . As I m e n t i o n e d in t he a b o v e q u e s t i o n , o n e p r e t t y n u n h h a s to lx; s e l f - s u f f i c i e n t - at l e a s t a t f i r s t . A f t e r a l l . 1 d i d p u t in m y life s a v i n g s a n d (now) fi ve y e a r s o f e f f o r t to g e t to t h e p l a c e w h e r e 1 e k e o u t a m o d e s t l iv i n g h e r e . Ma n y m a y t h i n k it h a r s h t h a t t h e y wi l l h a v e to p r o v i d e f o r t h e m s e l v e s a n d nol h a v e t he c o l l e c t i v e o r c o m m u n i t y p r o v i d e f o r t h e m . T h a t m i g h t h a p p e n s o m e d a y wh e n the c o m m u n i t y is s t r o n g e n o u g h to a f f o r d t h a t ; it j u s t i s n t t h e c a s e a t t he m o m e n t . I d o n ' t b e l i e v e o n e r e a l l y h a s to h a v e a g r e a t d e a l o f r u r a l e x p e r i e n c e to g e t by, b ut o b v i o u s l y , t he m o r e o n e h a s the b e t t e r s u i t e d he wi l l be to d e a l wi t h t he n e e d s a n d r e a l i t i e s o f t h i s ki nd of l if e. I w o u l d v a l u e s e l f - r e l i a n c e a n d a w i l l i n g n e s s to l e a r n h i g h e s t . I ' m c e r t a i n l y oyxjn t o s u g g e s t i o n s .

W H E R E DI D YOU GROW U P / C O M E F R O M f I e n t e r e d t h i s p a r t i c u l a r e a r t h l y s o j o r n in G r e e n s b o r o , NC in 1936. A f t e r a b r i e f (4 y e a r s ) m o v e to C o n n , w h e r e m y f a t h e r d i e d , m y m o t h e r a n d I r e t u r n e d to G r e e n s b o r o w h e r e I f i n i s h e d Hi g h S c h o o l . YOU H A V E N ' T A L W A Y S B E E N M O T H E R - R F D ; W H A T WAS B E F O R E R W ?

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W h e n I w a s l i v i n g in S a n F r a n c i s c o , I m a i n l y w o r k e d in r e c o r d s h o p s . M u s i c is o n e o f m y m a i n l o v e s , s o w o r k i ng in a r e c o r d s t o r e a c c o m o d a t e d t h a t g r e a t l y . I a l s o had s e v e r a l o t h e r i n t e r e s t s d e v e l o p e d w h i l e l iv i n g t h e r e s u c h a s s a i l i n g , w h i t e w a t e r r a f t i n g , bac k p a c k i n g , g a y g r o u p t r a v e l , b r i d g e , h e a l t h f o o d s , g a r d e n i n g , a n d somea c t i v i s m a s w e l l a s t he r e l i g i o u s e p i s o d e .

I d o l ove m u s i c . 1 p l a y e d ' c e l l o in Hi g h S c h o o l a n d C o l l e g e But , I m o r e o r l e s s a b a n d o n e d it w h e n I m o v e d to Sa n F r a n c i s c o in 1964. I h a v e a l w a y s l o v e d t h e p i a n o a n d c o n t i n u e to d a b b l e w i t h t h a t - m o s t l y a s a ki n d of pe r s o n a l t h e r a p y . I h a v e r e c e n t l y h a d a ' c e l l o c o m e i nto m y life a g a i n , s o I h a v e b e e n p l a y i n g it a b i t . In fac t , I h a v e j o i n e d a l o c a l c h a m b e r m u s i c s o c i e t y w h e r e we e a c h p l ay s o m e t h i n g f r o m t i m e to t i m e f o r e a c h o t h e r . It is m a i n l y a m u t u a l s u p p o r t g r o u p a n d i t ' s f un.

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D E S C R I B E T H E S I T U A T I O N A T RW F O R T H O S E W HO A R E U N F A M I L I A R . DO YOU W E L C O M E V I S I T O R S ? ! s e e R u n n i n g W a t e r a s a ki n d of R e t r e a t C e n t e r f o r G a t h e r i n g s , w o r k s h o p s a n d v i s i t o r s . It is a l s o m y h o m e a n d t he h o m e of R F D . T h e l an d is o w n e d by a c o r p o r a t i o n ( S t e p p i n g S t o n e ) w h i c h is o w n e d by s o m e 35 g a y m e n . It wi l l p r o b a b l y m ov e t o w a r d s a n o n - p r o f i t land t r u s t some day. We c a n s t i l l u s e c a p i t a l i z a t i o n a s we w a n t to b u i l d s o m e n e ed e d s t r u c t u r e s and e v e n t u a l l y a c q u i r e m o r e land a r o u n d t h e p r e s e n t 15 a c r e s . ( S h a r e s a r e $100 e a c h ) . Of c o u r s e , v i s i t o r s a r e w e l c o m e . I do c a u t i o n f o l k s t h a t o u r f a c i l i t i e s a r e l i m i t e d a n d p r i m i t i v e , but p e r h a p s t h a t is p a r t o f the c h a r m . T h e m a i n t h i n g t h a t i s o f f e r e d h e r e (I t r u s t ) i s the c o n v i v i a l i t y a n d f r a t e r n i t y a s w e l l a s the n a t u r a l a m b i e n c e .

In c l o s i n g 1 m i g h t a d d to t h e a b o v e q u e s t i o n s t h a t I h a v e f ou n d m y e x p e r i e n c e s w i t h R F D a n d R u n n i n g W a t e r to be 4 d e l i g h t f u l a n d a g r o w i n g t i m e . Of c o u r s e , t h e r e h a v e b e e n h a r d t i m e s , l o n e l i n e s s , a n d f r u s t r a t i o n , b u t I wo u l d m o s t l i k e l y e x p e r i e n c e m a n y of t h o s e t h i n g s a n y w h e r e no m a t t e r what I wa s doing. The r e w a r d s h e r e have been t e r r i f i c o n the o t h e r h a nd . I h a ve m e t s o m e of the m o s t a m a z i n g and w on de rf ul people and f eel I have g a r n e r e d a h o s t o f f r i e n d s and b r o t h e r s . I h a v e l e a r n e d t h a t I c a n do m a n y t h i n g s I h a d no i d e a I c o u l d do w i t h o u t a g r e a t d e a l o f p r i o r e x p e r i e n c e a n d t r a i n i n g ( l i ke p r o d u c i n g a m a g a z i n e ) , a l t h o u g h o f t e n a t t he e x p e n s e o f a f e w f a i l u r e s o r m i s t a k e s . I f e e l m u c h m o r e c o n f i d e n t in wh o I a m a n d a m b e c o m i n g , and s i n c e I a m q ui te a v e r a g e in m y a b i l i t i e s an d t a l e n t s I f e e l c e r t a i n t h a t o t h e r s c a n do t h e s a m e a n d m o r e if g i v e n t he o p p o r t u n i t y I h a v e e n j o y e d . I f e e l t h a t I e n j o y a v e r y r i c h l if e - r i c h in l o v e , a p p r e c i a t i o n , f r i e n d s , i n t e r e s t s a n d a c t i v i t i e s . I l i ve in a b e a u t i f u l p l a c e , b r e a t h e c l e a n a i r , d r i n k p u r e w a t e r , e a t h e a l t h y f oo d, like m y n e i g h b o r s , e n j o y t he c o m p a n y of v i s i t o r s a n d f r i e n d s , m a k e m o s t of my own e n t e r t a i n m e n t , have plen ty of t e n s io n to m a k e life i n t e r e s t i n g , c a n r e l a x w h e n I w a n t to, and ha ve p l e n t y o f h o p e ( and p l a n s ) f o r t he f u t u r e . In s h o r t , I a m q u i t e f o r t u n a t e a n d b l e s s e d . 1 w o u l d e n c o u r a g e o t h e r s to be gin a s s e r t i n g and r e a l i z i n g t h e i r own d r e a m s and a m bitions .

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p ris o n s s t ill e x is t. is a h a r d w a y to g o .

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I ' ve b e e n a t S h o r t M o u n t a i n f o r t e n y e a r s . It r e a l l y b e g a n a s a b a c k - t o - t h e - l a n d h i p p i e g r o u p in N o r t h C a r o l i n a , n o t g a y a n d l e s b i a n f o c u s e d but m o r e of a s t a n d a r d e a r l y 7 0 ' s g r o u p . T h a t f ell a p a r t b e c a u s e of l a c k of c l a r i t y , f o c u s , and i n a b i l i t y o f m e n a n d w i m r n i n to c o m municate. E v e n t u a l l y a l l l e f t t he l and o n S h o r t M o u n t a i n but. mi . T h r o u g h R F D a n d t he R u n n i n g W a t e r g a t h e r i n g in 1978, I f ou n d o t h e r m e n i n t e r e s t e d in a c o m m u n i t y . T h e i d e a o f S a n c t u a r y c a m e up in 1980 w h e n we b e g a n w r i t i n g o u r b y - l a w s . We a r e i n c o r p o r a t e d in a n o t - f o r - p r o f i t c o r p o r a t i o n . C u r u l t i m a t e p u r p o s e is t he c a r i n g f o r the l an d a n d i t s r e s o u r c e s a n d t he e c o s y s t e m . T h a t i s b e s t a c c o m p l i s h e d by a g a y s a n c t u a r y , 1 b e l i e v e , a n d by p r o v i d i n g s e n s i t i v e p e o p l e wh o c a r e f o r t he l and a n d p r o v i d i n g s p a c e f o r p e o p l e . . . a s y m b i o s i s b e t w e e n the s e n s i t i v e p e o p l e a n d t he l a n d we i n t e r a c t wi t h .

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W h a t do y o u f e e l a b o u t t he t u r n o v e r of p e o p l e a t S h o r t M o u n t a i n ? Is it. p o s i t i v e , o r d o e s it m a k e fo r an u n st a b le c o m m u n i t y ? MILO:

I t ' s l i k e t he o c e a n . . . u p p e r l e v e l s t h e r e i s a l ot o f m o v e m e n t , in t he l o w e r l e v e l s , t he d e p t h s , i t is m o r e s t a b l e . I s e e the f l o w o f p e o p l e t h r o u g h S h o r t M o u n t a i n a s a p o s i t i v e e b b a n d f l o w t h a t is d e s i r a b l e . A c e r t a i n a m o u n t o f t u r n o v e r is d e s i r a b l e to a v o i d s t a g n a t i o n . . . t oo m u c h a n d y o u l o o s e c e n t e r a n d f o c u s . JIM:

l a m a m e mix- r of the C o o r d i n a t i n g C o u n c i l and S h o r t M o u n t a i n is a s p o n s o r i n g o r g a n i z a t i o n of NA B W e ' v e u s e d o u r S h o r t M ou n t a i n n e t w o r k to he lp f o r m C u m b e r l a n d G r e e n , a Mi d d l e a n d S o u t h C e n t r a l T e n n e s s e e bi o r e g i o n a l o r g a n i z a t i o n .

You s e e m to be a s t r o n g s t a b i l i z i n g f o r c e in S h o r t M o u n t a i n , is t h a t n o t s o ?

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I ' ve b e e n p u r s u i n g B ;o - r e g i o n a l i s m f o r m a n y y e a r s . 1 f i r s t c a l l e d it ' re i n h a b i t a t i o n ' - find y o u r p l a c e in the p l a n e t and di g in, to t r e a t e t he f u t u r e f o r y o u r s e l f t h at y o u w a n t , y o u h a v e to be f a m i l i a r wi t h a n a r e a c r s p o t ; h o w t h e e l e m e n t s i n t e r a c t . T h a t p r o v i d e s a s e n s e of s p i r i t u a l r e n e w a l a n d s t a b i l i t y a s a n a l t e r n a t i v e to the r o o t l e s s n e s s o f c i t y - t o - c i t y m o v i n g w h e r e y o u l ive in a m a n u f a c t u r e d c u l t u r e , n o t k n o wi n g w h e r e y o u r w a t e r c o m e s f r o m o r w h a t ' s in t he food y o u e a t . W h a t we a r e w o r k i n g t o w a r d is r e g i o n a l d i v e r s i t y . S u r v i v a l i s t g r o u p s s e e m to be r e a d y f o r a d i s a s t e r , and m a k e p l a n s to s u r v i v e . My a t t i t u d e is I l ive a s if t he d i s a s t e r h a d a l r e a d y h a p p e n e d . S t a r t l i v i n g a s y o u wa n t to l ive n o w , a n d s u s t a i n it i nt o t he f u t u r e . A l s o 1 t h i n k t he s u r v i v a t i s t s a r e g e n e r a l l y i n d i v i d u a l i s t , m i l i t a r i s t i c r e a c t i o n a r y m e n with p o s t - n u c l e a r c a v e - m a n attitu des a b o u t s o c i e t y wi t h l i t t l e c o n c e r n f o r t r i b a l e t h i c s , v a l u e s r e l a t e d to s h a r i n g and c o m m u n i t y . C u r e m p h a s i s is a c a r i n g and s h a r i n g m o d e r a t h e r t h a n a d e f e n s i v e / a g g r e s sive mode. JIM:

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s u p p o r t e r s o n the Ne w Ri g h t a r e the a n t i - g a y f a c t i o n , , he d o e s n o t w i s h to a l i e n a t e t h e m . Ye t R e a g a n a l s o not s u p p o r t t h e i r a n t i - g a y F a m i l y P r o t e c t i o n Act, it q u i e t l y a n d d e s e r v e d l y d i e d in C o n g r e s s .

T h e r e a r e o p e nl y gay R e p u b l i c a n s who a r e now a t t e m p t i ng to m a k e a b a s i c c h a n g e i n t h e i r p a r t y ' s p h i l o s o p h y , a n d t h e y w i l l be a v i s i b l e c o n t i n g e n t a t t h e i r n a t i o n a l c o n v e n t i o n in D a l l a s .

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P e r h a p s m a n y o f us a l r e a d y k n o w w h i c h p a r t y wi l l s u p p o r t a y r i g h t s : t he D e m o c r a t s . But t h e r e is a n o t h e r p a r t y t h a t is e v e n m o r e s u p p o r t i v e : t he L i b e r t a r i a n s , bu t t h e y h a v e l ittle c h a n c e of i n fl u e n c i n g A m e r i c a n b e h a v i o r to any significant d e g ree . The D e m o c r a t s h a v e r e c e n t l y m a d e h i s t o r y by n o m i n a t i n g G e r a l d i n e F e r r a r o , t h e f i r s t w o m a n to r u n f o r V i c e P r e sident. She h a s a s t r o n g l i b e r a l r e c o r d in c o n g r e s s , ant is p e r c e i v e d by t he N a t i o n a l Ga y T a s k F o r c e to be e d u c a bl e o n g a y r i g h t s i s s u e s .

P e r h a p s w h a t we m u s t w o r r y m o s t a b o u t i n t h i s e l e c t i o n y e a r i s t h e n u c l e a r t h r e a t . T h e R e a g a n a d m i n i s t r a t i o n is p e r c e i v e d a s b u l l i s h o n n u c l e a r a r m s a n d c o m m i t t e d to bi g d e f e n s e s p e n d i n g , t h u s i n c r e a s i n g o u r c h a n c e s f o r a w a r w h i c h c oul d wi pe a l l life off the p l a n e t . T h e D e m o c r a t s s u p p o r t t he N u c l e a r F r e e z e R e s o l u t i o n w h i c h m a y l e a d to a n e w u n d e r s t a n d i n g of o u r h u m a n p l i g h t and the s a l v a t i o n o f m a n k i n d . E v e n if t he D e m o c r a t s w i n t h i s y e a r , t h e r e w i l l s t i l 1 be a b i g f i g h t to m a k e t h e f r e e z e a reality. T h e L i b e r t a r i a n p o s i t i o n o n g a y r i g h t s is t h e m o s t p o s i t i v e o f a l l . L i b e r t a r i a n p h i l o s o p h y a c c e p t s no p u b l i c and g o v e rn m e n ta l d i s c r im in a tio n a g ain st anyone for any r e a s o n . T h e i r b a s i c p o s i t i o n is t h a t h u m a n s a r e f r e e i n d i v i d u a l s , h a v i n g n a t u r a l r i g h t s bo d o a s t h e y w i s h . An individual m a y d i s c r i m i n a t e a s h e / s h e p l e a s e s ; what you do is y o u r o w n b u s i n e s s . It i s o n l y w h e n a n i n d i v i d u a l o r g r o u p o v e r s t e p s t he b o u n d s o f a n o t h e r i n d i v i d u a l t h a t r i g h t s a r e v i o l a t e d . C o e r c i o n , w h e t h e r by p h y s i c a l f or ce o r m o r e subtle t h r e a t s is w r o n g and c r i m i n a l .

The t r a d i t i o n a l l i b e r a l e l e m e n t in the D e m o c r a t i c p a r t y i s s t r o n g , a l t h o u g h e v e n t h e y a r e s t r e s s i n g f a m i l y v a l u e s in t h i s e l e c t i o n . Ye t t h e i r p l a t f o r m s u p p o r t s w o m e n ' s r i g h t s , p r o - c h o i c e on a b o r ti o n , and b a s i c r i g h ts fo r all r e g a r d l e s s of religion, r a c e , g e n d e r and a f fe c ti o n a l p r e fe r e n e e . t n t h e o t h e r h a n d , h o w w e l l do we k n o w M o n d a l e ? He h a s p u b l i c l y s u p p o r t e d the H o u s e G a y R i g h t s Bi ll , bu t he is a l s o a n o l d p o l i t i c o who o w e s m a n y p o l i t i c a l f a v o r s to s u p p o r t e r s who m a y o p p o s e g a y r i g h t s . T o o , he b e a r s t he s t i g m a o f t he C a r t e r a d m i n i s t r a t i o n , a n d w a s t h e n a l a c k l u s t e r Vice P r e s i d e n t .

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He d e t a i l s t he I r o q u o i a n r m of g o v e r n m e n t - d e m o c r a t i c s e l f - r u l e , w h e r e i n all p e o p le , including w o m e n , w e r e e q u a l . T h e y h a d no s t a t e , p o l i c e o r p r i s o n s , a n d y e t it w o r k e d . Si x i n d i a n n a t i o n s w e r e u n i f i e d a n d g o v e r n e d by a t r a d i t i o n k n o w n a s t he G r e a t L a w o f P e a c e . T h i s i n d i a n f e d e r a t i o n h a d b e e n in e x i s t e n c e s i n c e a t l e a s t 1490.

o f c o u r t s a n d l a w e n f o r c e m e n t d i r e c t i ng s e t t l e m e at of g r i e v a n c e s , a n d t o d e f e n d t he n a t i o n f r o m o u t s i d e a t t a c k , onl y. T h u s l i b e r t a r i a n s s u p p o r t on l y a v e r y l i m i t e d f o r m of g o v e r n m e n t w h i c h m a y n o t i n t e r f e r e in t h e c i v i l - s o c i a l o r e c o n o m i c l i v e s o f i t s c i t i z e n s , n o r in t he a f f a i r s of other governments. L i b e r t a r i a n s o p p o s e t a x a t i o n and m i l i t a r y c o n s c r i p t i o n because these actions a re involuntary and th ere b y , c o e r c e d . It i s s l a v e r y , p u r e a n d s i m p l e . H u m a n a c t i o n is p e r c e i v e d to be v o l u n t a r y a s a h i g h e r g o o d . T h e u s e of f o r c e is e v i l .

J o h a n s e n ' s t h e s i s is t h a t t h e i d e a s f o r n a t u r a l r i g h t s a n d a d e m o c r a t i c , l i m i t e d g o v e r n m e n t a p p e a r i n g in t h e E u r o pean e n l i g h t e n m e n t had b e e n e x p o r t e d f r o m A m e r i c a o n l y to c o m e b a c k wi t h E u r o p e a n s e t t l e r s . A p p a r e n t l y , the i n f l u e n c e of a n c i e n t G r e c i a n d e m o c r a c y w a s n o t a s s t r o n g a f a c t o r in t he f o u n d i n g o f t h e U . S . a s we h a v e b e e n l ed t o b e l i e v e .

This p o s i t i o n is not so f a r r e m o v e d f o r that of J e f f e r s o n , F r a n k l i n an d the I r o q u o i a n I n d i a n s ' p h i l o s o p h i e s wh i ch first shaped o u r nation.

D u r i n g c o lo n i a l d a y s t h e r e w a s m u c h c o m m e r c e and d i a l o g u e wi t h t h e i n d i a n s . T h e y w e r e g l o r i f i e d by t he co lo n ists as anc ient R o m an s for t h e i r ability of o r a t o r y . C a n a s s a t e g o , t h e I r o q u o i a n c h i e f , m a n y t i m e s u r g e d t he c o l o n i s t s to f o r m a u n i o n b a s e d o n t h e i r f o r m o f g o v e r n m e n t . M a n y l e a d i n g c o l o n i s t s w e r e i n f l u e n c e d by a n d championed these ideas, m o st notably Benjamin F ra n k lin and T h o m a s J e f f e r s o n .

E v en c o n s t it u t io n a l ly , gays and o t h e r m i n o r i t i e s have f u l l r i g h t s n o w . O n l y p r e j u d i c e h a s a l l o w e d l a w s to be e n a c t e d w h i c h v i o l a t e o u r r i g h t s . So o n o n e h a n d , l i b e r t a r i a n s c an no t s u p p o r t s p e c i a l l y l e g i s l a t e d civil r i g h ts laws t ha t f a v o r one m i n o r i t y o r m a j o r i t y o v e r a n o t h e r and p l a c e t h a t p o w e r in g o v e r n m e n t h a n d s . G o v e r n m e n t i s a l w a y s p e r c e i v e d to be a p o t e n t i a l o p p r e s s o r . Nor can l i b e r t a r i a n s c o n d o n e g o v e r n m e n t i n t e r f e r e n c e in t he m a r k e t p l a c e , which is a n o t h e r s u p p r e s s i o n of individual l i b e r t y . Bo t h c i v i l a n d e c o n o m i c f r e e d o m s a r e r e q u i r e d f o r f r e e d o m . We h a v e n e i t h e r in A m e r i c a . So, l i b e r t a r i a n s c a n be s e e n a s b e i n g e c o n o m i c a l l y c o n s e r v a t i v e and c i v i l l y l i b e r a l . It is s i m p l y t he b e s t o f c l a s s i c a l c o n s e r v a t i s m and l i b e r a l i s m , and u n i q u e l y A m e r i c a n .

P a r t o f t h e b e a u t i f u l G r e a t L a w is q u o t e d in t h e Ixiok. If y o u w a n t t h e e n t i r e d o c u m e n t , it h a s b e e n p r i n t e d in A k w e s a s n e N o t e s , a j o u r n a l p u b l i s h e d by t h e Mo ' u t wk N a t i o n in Ne w Y o r k . J o h a n s e n o n l y b r i e f l y d e t a i l s the s u b s e q u e n t h i s t o r y o f o u r q u a r r e l s a n d g e n o c i d e of t he i n d i a n s , but t h a t is we l l documented e ls e w h e re . - Stuart Norman

I m p o r t a n t a n t i - g a y c a n d i d a t e s to d e f e a t t h i s y e a r a r e North C a r o li n a 's a rc h - c o n s e r v a t iv e Senator, J e s s e H e l m s (R), d a r l i n g o f t h e Ne w R i g h t , a n d h i s a l l y , C a l i f o r n i a S t a t e S e n a t o r , K. L . R i c h a r d s o n (R) who i s r a b i d l y a n t i - g a y in h i s c a m p a i g n . H e l m s m a y l o s e to NC G o v e r n o r J i m Hu n t (D) who is c o n s e r v a t i v e a n d n o t a gay rights s u p p o rte r. Bu t , he is m u c h p r e f e r a b l e to H e l m s . T h e i r S e n a t e r a c e is r u n n i n g h e a t e d l y c l o s e . H e l m s c a m p a i g n f o r c e s h a v e t r i e d t o s m e a r Hu n t by using a n t i - g a y i s s u e s , but r e c e n tl y t h e i r t a c t i c s have backfired. R i c h a r d s o n m a y be d e f e a t e d by a c o n s e r v a t i v e D e m o c r a t , D i a n a M o n a g h a n , e s p e c i a l l y s i n c e r e a p p o r t i o n m e n t in hi s d i s t r i c t h a s c u t s o m e o f h i s s u p p o r t e r s o u t f r o m unde r h i m .

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O t h e r good n e w s t h i s y e a r is t h a t t he r e c e n t U . S . C o n f e r e n c e of M a y o r s h a s u n a n i m o u s l y e n d o r s e d gay r i g h t s . Si n c e t h e y r e p r e s e n t c i t i e s , it a p p e a r s t h a t l o c a l a n d g r a s s r o o t s o r g a n i z i n g i s t he wa y to b u i l d s u p p o r t f o r o u r r i g h t s . It s t r i k e s a p o s i t i v e n o t e f o r o u r m o v e m e n t . J u s t hope the m a j o r p o l i t i c i a n s g e t the m e s s a g e .

27 N. M a i n St. , M e e t i n g H o u s e G r e e n , I p s w i c h , MA 01938 $ ’0 . 9 5 T h e i n f l u e n c e o f t he I r o q u o i a n I n d i an p h i l o s o p h y o f s e l f g o v e r n m e n t o n t he c r e a t i o n o f t he U n i t e d S t a t e s g o v e r n m e n t h a s b e e n m e n t i o n e d b y m a n y h i s t o r i a n s , b u t n ot until t h i s s h o r t , i m m i n e n t l y r e a d a b l e h i s t o r y h a s a n yone r e s e a rc ^ e re d t^ese a sse rtio n s. Johansen has come t h r o u g h w i t h a f i ne w o r k o f r e v i s i o n i s t h i s t o r y .

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B a r r y : "I a g r e e w i t h y o u , M a r c . Bu t t h i s is a n e m e r g e n c y . P e o p l e a r e d y i n g in L e b a n o n a n d E l S a l v a d o r . P e o p l e a r e d yi ng o f h u n g e r in A m e r i c a . P e o p l e a r e d y i n g of AI DS b e c a u s e t h e r e ' s n o t e n o u g h f u n d i n g . If t he D e m o c r a t s c a n s t o p j u s t a l it tle b i t o f the s l a u g h t e r , d o n ' t we o w e it to t h e v i c t i m s to g e t r i d o f R e a g a n a s e x p e d i e n t l y a s we c a n ? " M a r c : " U n t i l we g e t r i d o f t he R e p u b l i c a n s a n d t he D e m o c r a t s , w e ' l l a l w a y s be f i g h t i n g in i m p e r i a l i s t w a r s . U n d e r c a p i t a l i s m , p e o p l e w i l l a l w a y s d i e of h u n g e r if i t ' s in t he b e s t i n t e r e s t o f t h e r u l i n g c l a s s . O n l y b y b u i l d i n g a w o r k e r ' s p a r t y a n d w o r k i n g t o w a r d s o c i a l i s m c a n we solve t h es e p r o b l e m s . " M a r c h a d s o m e g o o d p o i n t s . S o m e t i m e s t he D e m o c r a t s do s e e m i d e n t i c a l to t h e R e p u b l i c a n s : in 1984 t h e y a b a n d o n e d t h e i r c o m m i t m e n t to d e f e n s e c u t s a n d n a t i o n a l health c a r e .

by Barry Yeoman T h i s p a s t s u m m e r , m y j o b a s a r e p o r t e r b r o u g h t m e to t wo c a r e f u l l y o r c h e s t r a t e d e p i s o d e s o f m a s s h y s t e r i a : t h e D e m o c r a t i c N a t i o n a l C o n v e n t i o n in S a n F r a n c i s c o a nd t h e R e p u b l i c a n N a t i o n a l C o n v e n t i o n in D a l l a s .

But it w a s n o t u n t i l I w e n t to D a l l a s - - t o t h e c h i l l i n g Republican National Convention - - that I r e a liz e d there s t i l l a r e d i f f e r e n c e s b e t w e e n t he t wo p a r t i e s .

As I s t o o d a m o n g t h e t h r o n g s o f p e o p l e , a p e r s i s t e n t q u e s t i o n s w i r l e d in m y h e a d , p l a g u i n g m e c o n s t a n t l y : is t h e r e a p l a c e f o r m e - - o r f o r m y b r o t h e r s and s i s t e r s - * in t he A m e r i c a n e l e c t o r a l s y s t e m ?

R e p u b li c a n s st ill o p e n ly th r iv e on s e x i s t and a n t i - g a y h u m o r . W h en C r i n H a t c h , the S e a n t o r f r o m U t a h , a d d r e s s e d t h e L o u i s i a n a d e l e g a t i o n , lie o p e n e d h i s s p e e c h wi t h a n a n t i - g a y j o k e : w i t h t he D e m o c r a t s p a n d e r i n g to g a y r i g h t s g r o u p s , he s a i d , o n e d a y f e d e r a l j o b a p p l i c a t i o n s w i l l l i s t a c h o i c e of f o u r s e x e s : m a l e , f e m a l e , n o n e o f t h e a b o v e , a n d a l l of t he a b o v e . The delegation r o a r e d with l a u g h t e r a t H a t c h ' s ' j o k e '.

I t h i n k t h i s i s a b o t h e r s o m e q u e s t i o n to a l l v i s i o n a r y p e o p l e . O n o n e h a n d , we k n o w t h a t no r e a l c h a n g e - - n o r a d i c a l s o c i a l o v e r h a u l - - w i l l c o m e f r o m t he c u r r e n t s y s t e m of g o v e r n m e n t . O u r a r s e n a l s w i l l c o n t i n u e t o b u l g e , a n d t he m o n e y f o r t he a r m s r a c e wi l l c o m e f r o m t he d i n n e r p o t s o f t he p o o r .

L a t e r , wh e n a r e c e n t l y - c o n v e r t e d R e p u b l i c a n t old a b o u t hi s d i s c o m f o r t in S a n F r a n c i s c o , s o m e o n e f r o m the d e l e g a t i o n s h o u t e d , " T e l l t h e m y o u l i k e t he p a r t y w h e r e g i r l s k i s s boys. " M ore l a u g h te r.

R a c i s m , s e x i s m , c l a s s i s m a n d h o m o p h o b i a wi l l c o n t i n u e to f e s t e r , a n d e v e n t h e o p p r e s s e d w i l l l e a r n to o p p r e s s othe r s .

M o r e f r i g h t e n i n g w e r e the h o r d e s of y o u n g R e p u b l i c a n m e n a n d w o m e n , s o m e a s y o u n g a s 16, d r e s s e d i n s t i f f wh i t e s h i r t s a n d l i n e d up w i t h b a t o n s in p a r a - m i l i t a r y f o r m a t i o n . T h e s e w e r e t he n e w R e a g a n y o u t h , a n d m o r e t h a n o n c e d i d I h e a r o n e o f t h e m go i nt o a f r e n z y o v e r Ronald R eag an o r J e r r y F alw ell. E ach tim e I w itn esse d a f r e n z y , a s h u t t e r p a s s e d through m y body. A g e n e r a t i o n is c o m i n g u p t h a t is so r a d i c a l l y c o n s e r v a t i v e , I thought, that M c C a r th y i s m and t h e o c r a c y m a y again s u r f a c e in A m e r i c a . S o m e t h i n g h a s g o n e v e r y w r o n g .

O n t he o t h e r v a n d , we l o o k a t t h e R e a g a n a d m i n i s t r a t i o n a n d we r e a l i z e t h a t a n y t h i n g s h o r t o f a f a s c i s t t a k e o v e r w o u l d be b e t t e r . O u r l o v e d o n e s wh o a r e h a n d i c a p p e d o r e l d e r l y o r ill h a v e s u f f e r e d f r o m m a s s i v e c u t s in S o c i a l S e c u r i t y a n d o t h e r p r o g r a m s ; t he p o o r c a n b a r e l y f e e d t h e i r c h i l d r e n b e c a u s e a i d to f a m i l i e s h a s b e e n s l a s h e d ; a n d w o m e n h a v e b e e n t o l d n o t to e x p e c t e q u a l p a y f o r c o m p a rab le work. We k n o w u n d e r a s e c o n d R e a g a n a d m i n i s t r a t i o n t h a t w o m e n wi ll l o s e t h e i r r e p r o d u c t i v e f r e e d o m and t h a t g a y s w i l l l o s e m a n y of t h e g a i n s t h e y h a v e m a d e s i n c e S t o n e wall.

T h e r e , in D a l l a s , I b e g a n to u n d e r s t a n d t he i m p o r t a n c e of g e t t i n g the R e p u b l i c a n s o u t of o f f i c e . Y e s , e l e c t o r a l p o l it i c s is o nl y a B a n d - A i d , but s o m e t i m e s one n e e d s a B a n d - A i d to s t o p t h e b l e e d i n g .

So w h a t do we d o ? Do we w o r k f o r t h e f a l s e i l l u s i o n o f c h a n g e by s u p p o r t i n g t h e D e m o c r a t s , o r do we s t i c k to o u r p r i n c i p l e s a t t he r i s k of d e s t r o y i n g t h e m o d e s t p r o g r e s s we've m ad e ?

U l t i m a t e l y , we n e e d t o c h a n n e l o u r e n e r g i e s i n t wo d i r e c t i o n s . We m u s t w o r k t o w a r d s r a d i c a l l o n g - t e r m c h a n g e , so t h a t s o m e d a y we c a n a c h i e v e o u r g o a l s o f p e a c e , e q u a l i t y , a n d t r a n s f o r m a t i o n of t he h u m a n s p i r i t But we m u s t a l s o w o r k t o w a r d s u r g e n t , but l e s s r a d i c a l s h o r t - t e r m ch ange t o s t o p t h o s e who w o u l d be h a p p y to o p p r e s s u s a n d c r u s h o u r sp irit as a people.

T h e i s s u e w a s m a d e r e a l to m e in S a n F r a n c i s c o . By d a y , I w a s c o v e r i n g the c o n v e n t i o n , a n a l y z i n g p o l i t i c a l s t r a t e g y a n d i m m e r s i n g m y s e l f in t h e m a c h i n a t i o n s of t he D e m o c r a t i c P a r t y . By n i g h t , I w a s l i v i n g wi t h m y f r i e n d M a r c , a d e d i c a t e d g a y r e v o l u t i o n a r y who h e l p e d me confront my contradictio n s. One long n i g h t , we s a t i n C a f f e S a n M a r c o of f C a s t r o St . , d i s c u s s i n g t he n e e d f o r r a d i c a l c h a n g e . C u r d i s c u s s i o n , w h i c h t o o k p l a c e o v e r t wo h o u r s , w e n t s o m e t h i n g l i ke this:

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•Since J a n u a r y , we h a v e b e e n in t h e p r o c e s s o f t r a n s l a t i n g o u r d r e a m s a n d v i s i o n s o f f a i r y s p a c e i nt o p r a c t i c a l p l a n s . We h a v e d e c i d e d to f o c u s o u r o u t r e a c h p r i m a r i l y o n t he W e s t C o a s t a n d p a r t i c u l a r l y C a l i f o r n i a , w h i c h is o u r f i r s t c h o i c e f o r a s i t e . I d e a l l y , we w o u l d l i k e the l an d t r u s t to be w i t h i n e a s y a c c e s s o f f a i r i e s who l i ve in u r b a n a r e a s s o t h a t it wi l l be u s e d a n d v i s i t e d o f t e n . I a r t of o u r w o r k so f a r h a s b e e n to g a t h e r f e e d b a c k f r o m f a i r i e s o n t h e i r i d e a s f o r ' f a i r y s p a c e ' . We h a v e s e n t o u t a ' f e e d b a c k ' q u e s t i o n n a i r e , u s i n g t he m a i l i n g l i s t f r o m the N a p a G a t h e r i n g a n d w e ' v e b e e n h o l d i n g o p e n m e e t i n g s . We c o n t i n u e t o i n v i t e f a i r i e s to w r i t e , c a l l o r a t t e n d a m e e t i n g to l e t u s k n o w i d e a s a n d t h o u g h t s . We a r e r e s e a r c h i n g t he p o s s i b i l i t y o f a p p l y i n g f o r t a x e x em p t status as a " n o n -c h u rch " religious o rganization. T h e l an d t r u s t f u n c t i o n s l i k e a " s p i r i t u a l r e t r e a t c e n t e r " . T h e s p a c e w o u l d be r e g u l a r l y a v a i l a b l e f o r v a r i o u s g a t h e r ings, e v e n t s and r e t r e a t s . L a t e r , p e r m a n e n t s t r u c t u r e s c o u l d be a d d e d a n d a g r o u p o f p e o p l e l i v i n g c o l l e c t i v e l y o n t he l an d c o u l d o r g a n i z e y e a r - r o u n d a c t i v i t i e s . We f e e l t h i s m a y be a n a p p r o p r i a t e a p p r o a c h b e c a u s e we w a n t t he l and to b e , f i r s t a n d f o r e m o s t , a r e s o u r c e f o r t he g a y m e n ' s c o m m u n i t y in g e n e r a l a n d n o t j u s t a c o l l e c t i v e l iv i n g e x p e r i m e n t . We a r e l o o k i n g f o r 4 0 p l u s a c r e s ( m o r e if we c a n a f f o r d it) o f u n d e v e l o p e d l a n d o f f e r i n g p r i v a c y , g o o d s o i l and w a t e r . Enough funds have been p led ge d to p ro v i d e a d o w n p a y m e n t s h o u l d we fi nd g o o d l a n d . O u r p l a n s f o r f i n a n c i n g t h i s p u r c h a s e a r e l a r g e l y b a s e d o n the e x p e r i e n c e w e ' v e ha d in o r g a n i z i n g g a t h e r i n g s . M o s t l a r g e g a t h e r i n g s m a n a g e to g e n e r a t e s e v e r a l t h o u s a n d d o l l a r s o n t h e b a s i s o f v o l u n t a r y f e e s . If e v e r y f a i r y o n t he W e s t C o a s t wo u l d c o n s i d e r d o n a t i n g a n a m o u n t e q u i v a l e n t to w h a t t h e y p a i d t h e l a s t t i m e t h e y a t t e n d e d a g a t h e r i n g , we b e l i e v e we could r a i s e a si gni fic an t s u m t o w a r d s a d o w n p a y m en t . O n a n o n g o i n g b a s i s , we w i l l r e l y o n m o n t h l y p l e d g e s a n d i n c o m e f r o m v o l u n t a r y f e e s f o r e v e n t s h e l d o n the site. F a i r i e s in O r e g o n r e c e n t l y s e n t us a $300 d o n a t i o n - - a s u r p l u s o f f u n d s f r o m a g a t h e r i n g t h e y h e l d in F e b r u a r y , S o m e of us h a v e a l r e a d y s t a r t e d m a k i n g r e g u l a r m o n t h l y c o n t r i b u t i o n s t o t h i s f u n d . We h a v e o b t a i n e d f i s c a l s p o n s o r s h i p f r o m t he C a p p St. F o u n d a t i o n h e r e in S a n F r a n c i s c o , a n d i n d i v i d u a l s w i s h i n g to m a k e a t a x - d e d u c t a b l e c o n t r i b u t i o n to t h e l and t r u s t c a n do so t h r o u g h C a p p St . If y o u a r e i n t e r e s t e d in m a k i n g a c o n t r i b u t i o n , y o u c a n d e s i g n a t e y o u r d o n a t i o n f o r l and p u r c h a s e o n l y o r f o r t he g e n e r a l f und f o r o p e r a t i n g e x p e n s e s ( i . e . o u r m a i l i n g s , p o s t a g e n e e d s , e t c . ) . D o n a t i o n s a r e p a y a b l e bo " G a y V i s ion C i r c l e , Inc. ". O u r B o a r d o f D i r e c t o r s n ow i n c l u d e s e i g h t p e o p l e : Ca s B B r a y t o n , Wi l l R o s c o e , L i n M a z l o , B r a d l e y R o s e , H a r r y Hay, David T h o m a s , Mica K in d m an , and John B u r n s i d e . Wh i l e the B o a r d o f D i r e c t o r s h a s . u l t i m a t e l e g a l a n d f i n a n c i a l r e s p o n s i b i l i t y , o n a n o n g o i n g b a s i s we w o r k t o g e t h e r c o ll e c t iv e l y and e qu a l l y , m a k i n g d e c i s i o n s th ro ug h consensus, Si n c e e a r l y J a n u a r y , a g r o u p of Ba y A r e a f a i r i e s h a s be e n m e e t i n g r e g u l a r l y t o o r g a n i z e a n d d e v e l o p a f a i r y s a n c t u a r y b a s e d o n t he W e s t C o a s t .

W h e n wi l l we h a v e l a n d ? It m a y t a k e a y e a r o r m o r e , but it c o u l d h a p p e n a n y t i m e . V i s i t s h a v e a l r e a d y b e e n m a d e to t he C a p a y V a l l e y a r e a , N e v a d a C i t y , M o n t e r e y a n d S a n B e n i t o c o u n t i e s , a n d o t h e r l an d s e a r c h t r i p s a r e b e i n g p l a n n e d . We n e e d l e a d s o n g o o d l an d a v a i l a b l e in C a l i f o r n i a o r m a y b e C r e g o n . W e ' r e o p e n to m i r a c l e s and divine i n te r v e n t i o n as well as p r a c t i c a l ad vic e and s m a l l b l e s s i n g s . We w a n t to h e a r f r o m y o u - - w h a t is y o u r d r e a m f o r f a i r y s p a c e ? W r i t e to t h e F a i r y L a n d T r u s t , P O Box 11655, San F r a n c i s c o , C A 94101.

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ANARCOMA by N a z a r i o C a t a l a n C o m m u n i c a t i o n s , NY , 1983 $9. 95 ( c l o t h ) 65 pp . I t ' s o n l y b e e n a f e w y e a r s s i n c e t he d e a t h o f S p a n i s h d i c t a t o r , F r a n c o , a n d t he b e g i n n i n g o f d e m o c r a c y i n t h a t c o u n t r y . T h e S p a n i s h h a ve m a d e up f o r l o s t t i m e and a p p e a r to be e x p e r i e n c i n g a c u l t u r a l r e n a i s s a n c e . T h e y have a v e r y act iv e and o p e n gay m o v e m e n t with v a r i e d lifestyles.

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A n a r c o m a r e f l e c t s t h i s o p e n n e s s . It i s a h a r d b a c k , s l i c k - p a g e , p o rn o c o m i c - b o o k of a styl e t ha t d e f ie s d e s c r i p t i o n , o u t d o i n g t he F u r r y F r e a k B r o t h e r s o r V a u g h n B o d e . It i s a n i r r e v e r e n t , e x a s p e r a t i n g , g r o s s , funny, v i c i o u s l y s a t i r i c a l s t o r y ab out a gay m a l e t r a n s v e s t i t e ( wi t h s i l i c o n e b r e a s t s ) d e t e c t i v e , a n d h i s e x p e r i e n c e s in the s e a m y , s e e d y , c r i m e - r i d d e n u n d e r g r o u n d o f the S p a n i s h g a y c o m m u n i t y . P o p u l a t e d w i t h h u s t l e r s , ju nkie s and a c a s t of o t h e r s t r a n g e c h a r a c t e r s this book outdoes all co m ic -b o o k villians combined.

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I he G r e a t S e c r e t is t he m y s t e r y o f c o n s c i o u s n e s s i t s e l f , w h i c h i s God. M y t h is t h e o n l y w a y o f g a i n i n g i n s i g h t and u n d e r s t a n d i n g , and c o m m u n i c a ti n g this f u n d a m e n ta l s e c r e t . Bu t in o u r v e r y r a t i o n a l i s t i c a n d l i t e r a l a g e we t e n d to r e j e c t t h e v a l i d i t y o f m y t h . J o h n s o n a r g u e s t h a t o u r c u l t u r e c o n f u s e s f a c t a n d t r u t h ; t h e y a r e n o t t he s a m e . M y t h is n o t f a c t u a l , b u t i t is t r u e . R a t i o n a l a n a l y s i s d e s t r o y s m y t h an d l e a v e s us wi t h the e m p t y n e s s , a l i e n a tion and s e n s e of a n o m ie th at c h a r a c t e r i z e s o u r age. Thus h a s J o h n s o n su b t i tl e s his w o r k , "A S e a r c h for S p i- itu a ' M e a n i n g in t he F a c e o f E m p t y n e s s . " Hi s a n a l y s i s o f r e l i g i o n in t he m o d e r n w o r l d p u t s into p e r s p e c t i v e the c u l t u r a l m a l a i s e o f m e a n i n g l e s s n e s s f r o m w h i c h we s u f f e r . R e l i g i o n i s , to m a n y , o n l y a f o r m of e m p ty ritual that s e r v e s a purely cu ltu ral function, s o m e t i m e s c o m f o r t i n g , bu t u l t i m a t e l y n o t s u p p o r t i n g o f s p i r i t u a l g r o w t h . R a r e l y do we r e c o g n i z e t h e s p i r i t . And t he s c i e n t i f i c a n d t e c h n o l o g i c a l b i a s w h i c h r u l e s o u r c u l t u r a l v i s i o n h a s no p l a c e f o r s p i r i t o r m y t h .

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D; i a r r e a d e r , A f t e r a t on y e a r r e l a t i o n s h i p t h a t e nd ed four y e a r s ago, I 'm still t r y i n g to put m y life b a c k t o g e t h e r . It's be en tough, but I can tell I ' m gaining gro un d. T h e t i m e h a s a r r i v e d w h e n 1 wa n t to m e l d m y life i nto t h a t o f a n o t h e r . L He c a n be s u c h a l o n e l y j o u r n e y w h e n t h e r e is no o n e e l s e to s h a r e it wi t h . T h e p r o b l e m is t h a t 1 m e e t m e n h e r e in t he c i t y , bu t m y v a l u e s y s t e m is n ot t he s a m e a s t h e i r s . T h e y c a n n o t c o n c e i v e o f a l i f e s t y l e b a s e d in t he c o u n t r y s i d e n e a r n a t u r e and the good earth . They cannot imagine walks in t he w o o d s , g a t h e r i n g w i l d f o o d s , t en d in g an h e r b and v e g e t a b l e g a r d e n , k e e p i n g a f e w g o a t s , s p a s h i n g in a cold m o u n ta i n s t r e a m o r lis ten in g t o g o o d m u s i c a r o u n d a w a r m ctove on a cold w i n t e r ' s night. T h e s e k i n d s o f t h o u g h t s a r e not o n l y a l i e n but in s o m e c a s e s , r e p u g n a n t t o t h e m . M o n e y , life in t he f a s t l ane a n d o c c a s i o n a l l y h i g h s from s o m e d r u g s e e m to be t h e t h i n g s t h e y s e e k . T h e y fl it f r o m o n e l o v e r to the n e x t l i ke b u t t e r f l i e s o n f l o w e r s , I a m i n t e r e s t e d in c o r r e s p o n d i n g w i t h m e n by t a p e o r l e t t e r who e i t h e r a l r e a d y l ive in t h e c o u n t r y s i d e o r w o u l d c o n s i d e r r e l o c a t i n g t h e r e if things worked out betw ee n us. t w o u l d p r e f e r s e t t l i n g in t he C / . ar k M o u n t a i n r a n g e of N o r t h w e s t e r n Arkansas o r Southwestern Missouri, but w o u l d c o n s i d e r o t h e r s t a t e s . My n a m e i s Bob a n d I a m 37. I ' m 5*11", 165, b r o w n h a i r a n d e y e s . I'm cle an , h e al ty , and a t t r a c t i v e . My i n t e r e s t s i n c l u d e r e a d i n g , f o r a g ing f o r wi l d f o o d s , p h o t o g r a p h y , A m e r i c a n , E n g li s h and Sc ot tis h c o u n t r y d a n c i n g , p l a y i n g t he r e c o r d e r and pe nn y w h i s t l e and l i s t e n i n g to m u s i c f r o m m e d i e v a l to m o d e r n , i n c l u d i n g s o m e e a r l y j a z z , f ol k a n d o p e r a . 1 h a v e i n t e n t i o n s of t e a c h i n g m y s e l f the d u l c i m e r and c o u n t r y field l e . If I s o u n d s o m e t h i n g l ike y o u r t y p e of m a n , I' d love to h e a r f r o m you. P e r h a p s we c a n d e v e l o p a w a r m f r i e n d s h i p o v e r the m i l e s and m a y b e some visits. Bob C u r r y 1501 W. 2 6 t h P i n e Bl uf f , AR

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L i v i n g in N e w O r l e a n s , L o u i s i a n a , I d on't know of any o t h e r R F D r e a d e r s in t h i s a r e a . I w o u l d be i n t e r e s t e d in h e a r i n g f r o m y o u a s a p e n - p a l , p o s s i b l e v i s i t o r to m y c i t y , a n d t h o s e of y o u who l ive n e a r b y o r l o c a l l y , so we c o u l d m e e t . I wi l l be h a p p y t o e x c h a n g e p h o t o s w i t h you. If i n t e r e s t e d in a r r a n g i n g a g a t h e r i n g in L o u i s i a n a o r M i s s i s s i p p i / F l o r i d a Gu l f C o a s t , p l e a s e l et m e k n o w h o w I c a n h e l p .

A neat, clean, o rg a n iz ed , r e s p o n s i bl e c o m p a n i o n wi t h a h u m a n i s t a p p r o a c h to s c h o l a r l y , a r t i s t i c , m u s i c al , o r l i t e r a r y p u r s u i t s and keen s e n s i b i l i t i e s wo ul d be i d e a l . I ’m w o r k i n g to m a k e m y s e l f a s e l f supporting jew eller; I'm also a pub lished c l a s s i c a l s c h o l a r , b ookbi nd er, a nd g o o d v e g e t a r i a n c o o k . I l ike A m e r i c a n A r t s a n d C r a f t s and g o l d e n o a k f u r n i t u r e ; o l d p r i n t s a nd p h o t o s ; BOOKS; p o e t r y ( S a p p h D> Catullus, H o race, Whitman, H .D .) ; C L A S S I C A L m u s i c ( V i v a l d i to O r f f ) ; running; g a r d e n i n g ; hiking; c a m p i n g , a nd r o c k c o l l e c t i n g ; a n d t o u c h i n g , c u dd li ng and k i s s i n g .

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M a il ,11 c o r r e s p o n d e n c e ( a d v e r t i s i n g , s u b a c r i p t i o n s bu sin e :»». m i s s i o n s , f e a t u r e r e l a t e d m a t e r i a l , o r l e t t e r s ) to: R F D , R t . 1 Box U / t , B a k e r s v i l l e , NC. C o n t r i b u t o r s c a n be r e a c h e d t h r u t h i s a d d r e s s a s w e l l . We w e l c o m e a d v e r t i s i n g - e s p e c i a l l y f r o m gay o w n e d and o r i e n t e d g r o u p s and b u s i n e s s e s . P l e a s e w r i t e f o r o u r Ad R a te C a r d . S a m p l e c o p i e s ( c u r r e n t i s s u e w h e r e a v a i l a b l e ) a r e $1. SO (post _k i s s u e s a r e $ 2 . 5 0 e a c h u n l e s s th e y a r e o v e r 12 m o n t h s o l d . A n y th in g o ie r t h a n 12 m o n t h s is $1. 00 e a c h . P o s t a g e is $1 f o r e a c h five i s s u e s o r p o r t i o n t h e r e o f . We a r e o u t o f # ' s 1, 2 , 4 . 6, & 32. R F D i t s e l f is not c o p y r i g h t e d . H o w e v e r , e a c h a c c r e d i t e d c o n t r i b u t i o n p u b l i s h e d (photo, d r a w i n g , o r w r i t t e n m a t e r i a l ) r e m a i n s the p r o \x r t y > c o n t r i b u t o r s , and no th in g o f t h e i r s m a y be r e u s e d in w h o le o r p a r t w it out t h e i r p e r m i s s i o n . C o n t r i b u t o r s c a n be r e a r >e< t r oug ' ' . V ted m a t e r i a l m a y be r e p u b l i s h e d f r e e l y . M e n t io n of s o u r c e w oule b« a p p r e c i ated.

DUIE DATIE

The due d a t e s f o r s u b m i s s i o n s to r e c e i v e full c o n s i d e r a t i o n a n ; ; W inter 1985 I s s u e #41 F e a t u r e : (open) f ° k' ' p 85 Spring 1985 I s s u e #42 F e a tu r e : A g e .n g /H e a lin g F e b . . 985 Sum m er 1085 I s s u e #43 l ' 1989

FEATURE MAILING

F o r i n f o r m a t i o n on f u t u r e t h e m e s and f e a t u r e s s e e the i n s i d e f r o n t c o v e r . I s s u e s a r e m a i l e d a r o u n d the S o l s t i c e s and E q u i n o x e s . and s e c o n d c l a s s m a i l c a n take up to t h r e e o r f o u r w e e k s f o r d e l i v e r y . If you d o n t r e c e - v i: y o n r i s s u e w i t h in a m o n th of the p u b l i s h i n g d a t e s , p l e a s e c h e c k with u s . 1 he n u m b e r of y o u r l a s t i s s u e is o n y o u r m a i l i n g l a b e l . If you m o v e p l e a s e c us know a s s e c o n d c l a s s m a i l i n g s a r e no t f o r w a r d e d by the 1 O, t h e y d e s t r o y t h e m , and it c o s t s a b o u t $3 to m a i l o u t a n o t h e r c o p y .

NAMES

We p u b l i s h the n a m e s of a ll c o n t r i b u t o r s , but o t h e r t h a n f o r the c o n t a c t l e t t e r s , we g e n e r a l l y do not in c l u d e the a d d r e s s e s . All c o n t r i b u t o r s c a n be r e a c h e d by w r i t i n g R F D . We w i l l not give o u t the n a m e s o f s u b s c r i b e r s , but we will f o r w a r d m a i l to t h e m t h r o u g h t h i s a d d r e s s .

SUIJMISSIONS

P l e a s e s h a r e y o u r k n o w le d g e a nd v i s i o n s t h r o u g h R F D . This is a r e a d e r w r i t t e n j o u r n a l , so it is YC. UR f o r u m . It h e l p s if you c a n ty p e (double s p a c e ) y o u r w r i t t e n m a t e r i a l , but p l e a s e do s e n d in y o u r g e m s e v e n if you d o n t ty p e . R F D p r e f e r s to w ie ld the e d i t o r ' s p e n c i l l i g h t l y , so p l e a s e s e n d in y o u r s u b m i s s i o n a s you w ould h a v e it a p p e a r . We g e n e r a l l y do c o r r e c t s p e l l i n g s and m i n o r p u n c t u a t i o n s , so p l e a s e i n d i c a t e a n y i n t e n t i o n a l v a r i a t i o n s f r o m st a n i a r e d E n g lish .

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P l o t o s : B a c k and w i i t e p h o t o s r e p r o d u c e b e t t e r t h a n c o l o r . If p o s s i b l e , s e n d us an e x p e n d a b l e p r i n t . If you w i s h to s e n d us a t r e a s u r e d p into of w h ic h you ha v e o n ly on e c o p y , p l e a s e i n d i c a t e t h i s so we c a n ta k e c a r e of it. No n e g a t i v e s , a s we h a v e no u s e f o r t h e m . D r a w i n g s : A g a in , b l a c k and w h i t e r e p r o d u c e s b e t t e r t h a n c o l o r P e n c il d r a w i n g s sh o u ld be a s d a r k and hig h c o n t r a s t e d a s p o s s i b l e . Y e llow #2 p e n c i l w a s h e s o u t e a s i l y , b l u e s do not p r i n t a t a l l . _ O c c a s i o n a l l y p a r t o f a d r a w i n g o r p h o t o , o r a c o ll a g e of v a r i o u s a r t i s t w ill w o r* w e l l w ith a n a r t i c l e . If you w i s h y o u r a r t w o r k to be p r i n t e d in i ts e n t i r e t y , o r if t h e r e a r e any o t h e r c o n s i d e r a t i o n s you w i s h us to r e s p e c t , p l e a s e i n d i c a t e .

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We t r y to r e p o r t a s s o o n a s p o s s i b l e o n s e l e c t i o n s , bu t we s o m e t i m e s hold m a t e r i a l f o r a n o t h e r i s s u e , and it m a y be sofne t i m e b e f o r e t i e t m a l d e c i s i o n is m a d e . P l e a s e b e a r w t i ' u s . A s e l f a d d r e s s e d s t a m p e d e n v e l o p e w ill i n s u r e the r e t u r n of y o u r o r i g i n a l s . M u l t ip l e s u b m i s s i o n s a r e f i n e , and you m a y w i s h to s e t a n e x p i r a t i o n d a t e on s o m e m a t e r i a l . R F D w i l l s e n d c o n t r i b u t o r s two c o p i e s of t ie i s s u e in w ^ ic p e a r s as paym ent.

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